#follow for more fucking 12-page essays

[wannab-urs]

Build Me Up, Buttercup | Professor!Joel Miller x Student!Reader

Summary: Reader confronts Dr. Miller about her grade in his class.

Warnings: Not much yet. Reader is of legal age, no less than 22 but not specified, she's about to graduate college. She’s an English major. This is grumpy x grumpy. Lots of snark, eyerolling, etc. Not-Quite-Enemies to Lovers. And no she doesn’t blow him to get a better grade! (I would, but reader is classy). 

Word Count: 1.1k

Why Do You Build Me Up

(Buttercup)

Dr. Miller’s Foundations of Architecture class was supposed to be a fun elective for you. You could learn a little more about architecture, something that has always been a mild interest for you. You like pretty buildings and you think it’s a cool subject. It’s your last semester of college and you deserve to take something fun to fill in that last elective requirement. 

You certainly were not supposed to fail the fucking class.

“He’s so rude, Cooper,”  you tell your friend. Coop looks up at you over their laptop, red curls springing in every direction and glasses sitting on the tip of their nose. They’re feigning interest while they hammer away at some graphic design assignment.

“One time he made a guy who said he liked 432 Park Ave leave the class. Like just kicked him out for the rest of the day! I mean that building is awful, but still!” Coop heaves a sigh and shuts their laptop. 

“Is this that hot professor you told me about or is it the one who always wears really weird outfits?” 

“No! The weird outfits guy is my Chaucer professor,” you choose to ignore the first half of that question. “I have words for him too, actually. He keeps-”

“Focus! Why are you failing Arc?” 

“His essays are insane! Like, this is not English class, my guy, why are you grading me so hard? I’m literally an English major! You’d think my writing would be more than acceptable for a freshman level class.” 

He had given you a D on your paper about gothic architecture. You’d chosen to write about the Santa Maria del Fiore in Italy and he took off THREE letter grades because they finished the construction in the neo-gothic style… which you had made a whole section of your paper about. It’s perfectly valid. It’s not like he really gave you much to go on. 

“Did you follow the prompt? Sometimes your brain takes you places the question didn’t exactly call for…” they give you a knowing look. 

“This isn’t a fanfic writing challenge, Coop, I can follow a damn prompt. He doesn’t give us anything to go on at all for these essays! Or for anything else, really.” 

He is the least verbose professor you have ever had. It’s honestly kind of refreshing for a man to not love the sound of his own voice, but you’re also paying him to teach you something. 

“The essay prompt was literally ‘Gothic Architecture’ and the guidelines were ‘12 pages, double spaced, due March 19th.’" You drop your voice into its lowest register, mimicking Dr. Miller's deep baritone. "And that’s what I wrote!” Someone shushes you from behind a bookshelf. You’re getting a little over excited, borderline yelling in the library about this infuriating man.

“Have you tried going to his office hours?” God why are they always so reasonable?

“Have you tried going to his office hours… No. I have not. He’s rude, remember?” 

“Just try it! What’s the worst that could happen?” 

“He could drop my paper down to an F.”

“And you could report him for unfair grading practices. Go. Shoo,” Coop starts pushing your books toward your bag. 

“Fiiiiiine,” you relent.

Twenty minutes later you find yourself standing in the doorway of his office. Dr. Miller is sitting behind a large wooden desk. It’s very neat, the only things on it a computer, a picture frame turned away from you, and a stack of books. Dr. Miller has one of the books open and is writing something in a notebook, brow furrowed and tongue poking out between his lips. 

“Dr. Miller?” you ask hesitantly. 

He doesn’t look up from his work, just lifts a hand vaguely in your direction for a second and keeps writing. You roll your eyes and look around the office. There are bookshelves lining the walls with architecture textbooks in neat rows. A few covers of Architectural Digest are framed on the wall. Is he in those?

Your eyes land back on him. He’s wearing a dark grey Fleetwood Mac shirt that looks old as hell. The collar is stretched, revealing a bit of his chest. Your eyes trace a line up the column of this throat… He has a nice neck. 

You had called him your hot professor at the beginning of the semester, regardless of how you felt about him now. There’s just something about that fluffy bed head he always has, like he couldn’t be bothered to run a comb through it. And the scruffy beard laced with grey he doesn’t seem keen on trimming. And the way his mustache frames his pouty lips. And his prominent nose that looks straight out of a painting. And okay that’s enough. 

“Dr. Miller, I need to talk to you.” 

“M’busy,” he mumbles out, still not looking up from the textbook. 

“Okay, well it’s your office hours, so technically you have to talk to me.” 

“Technically, little miss, I don’t have to do anything.”

“Excuse me? Let’s not speak to grown women like they’re children, sir.” Is he fucking for real right now?

He closes his notebook and looks at you for the first time since you walked in. Probably the first time all semester. He kind of pauses when he sees you, hopefully realizing he isn’t talking to a freshman. It wouldn’t make the little nickname okay, but it would make more sense at least. 

He looks you up and down and his jaw ticks, “Sit.” His eyes flick to the chair in front of his desk. You drop your bag on the floor and slide into the seat. “So. What can I help you with?”

You take a deep breath. “You gave me a D on my last paper.” 

He just stares at you. 

“And considering our prompt was all of 8 words, I think- I know I met the requirements and that I did a good job. It was thoroughly researched, structured well, copy and content edited, and turned in 2 days before deadline. I would like an explanation-” 

“Enough,” he cuts you off. “I don’t have to justify my gradin’ decisions to you.” 

You let out a frustrated puff of air. This man drives you insane. “Dr. Miller, I’m a senior. I took this class to fulfill an elective requirement and because I like architecture. I would like to understand what is so egregious about my writing that you would have me fail a class in my last semester of college.” 

He considers you for a moment, meeting your eyes. He lowers his brow, screws up his mouth from side to side, like he’s thinking hard about something. “I’ll reread it.” 

Not I’ll reconsider your grade, but at least it’s something. “Thank you.” You grab your bag, moving to leave, and he stops you. 

“Wait!” You pause, arching an eyebrow. “What was your name again?” He doesn’t even have the decency to look embarrassed. 

“Seriously? I’ve been in your class since January. Figure it out.” 

You storm out, slamming the door behind you.  

A/N: This will be my first series! I'm really excited to try some actual characterization and plot, which I've never really played around with before. Constructive criticism in my DMs is always appreciated <3

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[romanarose]

Life update if anyone cares.

I only post this bc i was posting my depressing shit for months and a lot of people were reaching out in concern <3

cw sever depression, self harm, suicide, csa, SA, all the bad. but also lots of good <3

TLDR: Despite a god-awful semester, i got all a's and b's

Everyone thats been following me the last few months has seem my personal posts about how fucking awful things have been for me.

I've dealt with fact I can no longer deny that what happened to me was CSA, despite being on a milder side of things. That sparked an absolutely spiral. I didnt sleep for months which made things worse. School, I got an F on a midterm and i NEVER get F's on writing assignments.

Work had its complications and i quit and then rescinded that quit two days later. I was so constantly depressed in my dorm my roommate literally told me i needed to go to the basketball game with them bc i was sitting in a depression hovel none stop. I only went to services twice this whole time, one shabbat and once for Rosh Hoshannah.

I burned the ever living fuck out of my fingers, yall remember that one? lol.

In novemeber i had relapsed so severely on self harm i thought i had accidentally killed myself. I should've called 911. I thought I was bleeding out and/or going into shock. I then worked myself up more by going down pages of the internet about medical shook and people dying from it. that did not help my heart rate. I couldn't stand, I couldnt see straight for a while.

I could not afford an ambulance or a hospital stay as i am uninsured and only ork 25 hours a week. not a lot of money.

All this happened and I didn't miss work. This is not a brag, this is me not being able to makegood choices for myself.

Finally, thanksgiving break hit. Thank fucking god. I WANTED to use those 4 days of absolutely nothing to get to my TWO BIG RESEARCH PAPERS I HADNT STRTED YET but alas, I was SICK. I was so sick, in fact, and so hoped up on cough medicine for 3 days i was incomprehensible.

I was so physically ill, i couldnt even think about how mentally ill i was. I slept and slept and slept. And by the time sunday hit, I felt so recharged.

My failed midterm was so bad and so not me my professsor reached out to me. Im close with him (in a v appropriate way lol, hes a bruce springsteen fan too) and i felt comfortable telling him essentially that for a few months there things were severe, and I really should've gone in for a 72 hour hold multiple times and i was not safe. through a few lines of resources, I ended up back in therapy bc my school added a new therapist that is a woman (i stopped going last year bc i didnt like seeing a man)

I like my new therapist.

Anway, in about 2 weeks I wrote 2 12 page research papers, 2 book report papers, 1 science paper did 2 presentations, took 2 finals, wrote 2 more finals with essay questions, and at the end of it all, not only did I not fail any classes...

I GOT ALL A'S AND B'S! Which means my gpa is still high enough to renew my scholarship for my last year

I am so fucking proud of myself for accomplishing all this despite suffering so fucking badly. I havnt felt pain like that in years, just agony.

I had a down turn again over christmas bc my siblings were literally ass, upto and including making fun of me for not ating (i am multiple accounts of sexual trauma from several people, so im scared of dating), making fun of my eating, and my sister slapping me and my older brother hitting me. Was a bad time. But for right now, im in the place im staying for break (all january) im back at my old day care and they love me, and olive garden at this store has been going great

Im hoping next semester to be better, im hopful at least

Anyway, thank you so much to everyone who has supported my writing has supported me through these times. It makes me happy that i came her to share my silly little moon knight x reader series, not really intending on writing a whole lot, but next thing i know, i have friends and a lil community. so thank you <3

[commanderquinn]

meta: sam coe - post-campaign analysis

allllrighty i am officially post-campaign so time for first thoughts. since im still collecting my feelings/opinions on the main quest i dont want to go super into that. i wanna wait and consolidate into a deep dive on that one. BUT i am a fic writer with a fixation on socioeconomics, intergenerational trauma, and more specifically the phenomenon of atheists clinging to their religious parents morals because they haven't taken the time to evaluate their biases and the reasons they still hold them

translation: the silver spoon space cowboy is an interesting concept. poory executed in the case of starfield, sadly, but great framework for fandom to chop the head off of and bring to their own individual comfort interpretations.

this meta will include spoilers for the following:

-sam's questline and the npcs involved

-his romance

-cora, the safety storyline around her, and how she's the best part of the space game

-why bethesda was fucking stupid to turn the cowboys into cops when they have the perfect opportunity for not that. i went in hoping for retired/reformed army rangers fed up with war looking to defend their home from fascism given the "han solo simulator" marketing, but all i got was this lousy ass rendition of the texas rangers, which i for SURE did not want

-i WONT be going into detail about the main plot for this post, just fyi. i wanna save that, and sam's relation to it, for its own essay. id still recommend not reading meta's until you finish the game tho

-i miss obsidian's writing. this game made me want to play outer worlds for the 100th time. that will probably come up a lot

this is probably gonna sound more than a bit scattered and off the fucking plot for the first section, but bare with me, im making a point eventually i promise. gotta make sure we're all on the same page first.

now that ive done a majority of his content, it's clear what the intent was for sam and i applaud it. i like it when good hearts in bad systems spot the fundamental flaws and decide to abandon it entirely, or work to change it. i hate perfect characters. i hate characters that have no growth to find. sam is a great character for showing the awesome power of a perspective change. but damn. what a waste when you're talking about a format where a writer is constricted to:

-an exact conversation trigger (bethesda games have always relied on interrupt & player approach, and i didnt notice any variation on game engine front but i wont know until they release the ck so)

-word limit on all responses (yes, you can make long dialogues in engine. but those words still have to be f u n d e d from a dev standpoint. words are not free in video games. capitalism sucks for art.)

-multiple conversation branches that ALL have to circle back to the original topic (they have to follow a set pattern of establishing a subject, then the players possible responses to that subject, the npcs responses to those responses, AND provide a seamless, one dialogue tie-in path to the next branch. it sounds super easy until you're the shmuck writing it, and then it doesnt feel so easy anymore)

-get approximately two personal quests with, what was it, 12 motion scripted scenes? (im watching other peoples pts now so ill try to remember to count, but it was. hmm. lack luster imo. im not saying quantity is vital. im a bioware fanatic, i know the power of quality when its actually delivered. i didnt have any moment like that for sams quests and it was kind of crushing. ill get into it.)

-appeal to a wide enough audience to obtain profit by holding back eXtReMe ViEwS (id like to point out that there is, at this exact moment in time, an active pr campaign (and a few scattered gaming content creators) surrounding starfield talking about how pronouns are politics and should be left out of gaming. over a setting flag in a save file. you literally dont even have to press a button about it. like, you pick your characters body. masc bodys are auto assigned m pronouns. fem bodies are auto assigned f pronouns. you literally dont even have to SEE the button, and it never gets brought up. the only purpose it serves is so the game knows what voice lines to fire. that. is. it.)

im not going to humor the "thats dumb, bethesda makes political games" contribution to the argument.

i get straight people think they're being super helpful and witty on that one, but i think the world would collectively benefit from allies taking just a few extra seconds before standing on that soapbox to maybe consider that calling existence "politics" might be, gee idk, insulting. maybe more than a lil dehumanizing. maybe super easily solved by just NOT giving into their parents obsession with playing devils advocate. i think if maybe allies could shut the fuck up for a minute or two at a time and go look for voices of authority within the communities they're defending instead of trying to talk over them, that'd probably work out better. might help cut out the completely useless middle man their parents taught them to be when they drilled home "you have to respect everyone's opinion"

no the fuck you do not, actually. i, as someone on this earth attempting to be a compassionate person, owe people a chance at understanding. i do not, under any circumstance, owe someone any kind of respect WHATSOEVER if they cannot respect me as a human being. full stop. i dont owe it to them, i dont owe it to their religion, i dont owe it to the government they try to establish. i do not owe respect to people attempting to oppress me. i never have and i never will.

but remember. there is context to be found in the passing of time. yes, you need to tell grandma to stop being racist. no, you do not need to banish grandma to the nursing home if there's still a chance that she's willing to sit and listen. a chance that she'll empathize with social perspectives that the racist society she was raised in never allowed her to have. breathe and give grandma the chance. then send her to the home if she's still racist.

(yes that was an analogy for how i imagine a perspective conversation with jacob would go. i do not have high hopes of that man finding self awareness given. well. who he is as a person.)

now. if you've played through sam's content, you already know why im bringing all of that up, but lets put together a list of all the things that Make Sam Coe Who He Is before we wrap it all up in a pretty bow that hopefully reads a lot less scattered than this "yo society got some trauma actually" lead up ive dumped on you

quick interrupt just for me: i love that im back on tumblr where i dont really have to give all that much of a fuck about making sense. any audience i could find here is equally unhinged so mostly i just have to format it in a way that makes your brain not hurt. sorry if you dont have adhd <3

1: lets talk about cora's hair.

im going to make the race observation because its bothering me from a dev standpoint AND the gamer crowd is already starting to make cuck memes which sucks to see.

i get that this doesnt matter in a colonialism scifi future where a service like enhance exists and we're talking about two rangers that apparently went under cover regularly, but it matters in the context of how sam was handled in a 2020 era commercial, creative environment. im just going to MENTION that cora coe's biological mother (that jab was me not liking her as a person, not me giving a shit that she's white) is paler than pale, and sam does NOT look like some of his earlier promo images. bethesda as a company also has a very long history of making characters arguably tan to avoid this shit.

9/16 edit: was asked for source, heres the exact image im referencing, which is still his set image on the starfield wiki to date:

(im going to preemptively warn any white artists building the urge to argue over this: you DO NOT want to die on a hill about lighting for this one, fucking trust me. thats not what this conversation is, and if you dont understand that as a White Artist, you need to sit this one out until you understand the full weight of the conversation and the profound effect of media treating skin color like a rare diversity accessory. bethesda has a very very long history of this. their last major story title, fallout 4, (76 was a money grab made in the other studio and i barely want to call it a game) had a whopping total of two black characters in its main cast, and both of them acted in subservient roles so please. please please please just. stop trying to defend bethesda on this one. its dehumanizing, cowardly, and malicious in this day and age. i promise im not trying to bite anyones head off here, im just Old And Tired when it comes to suburbanites in fandom.)

i think having solomon be canonically black would have been a really important aspect. i think it would have given the opportunity to show white people why its fucked up that they get SO EXCITED to save war mementos (or in the case of starfield a nasa memento) and will go on and on about how vital it is to save that piece of history, but when you bring up memorializing the importance of race as it pertains to human history and cultural history/pride, they suddenly start getting Very Uncomfortable and throw out phrases like "what does it matter we're all human" while standing next to the gun their grandfather smuggled home from the war

there is no brightness slider on pc and i havent gone reshade tweaking so everything is still washed out on my end (dont worry, as an rtx user, imma be makin a rant post on that) b u t. cora coe has a pale as fuck mother and a vaguely tan father with blue eyes and straight hair, meanwhile my precious angel has a darker complexion and curls that look like they're closing in on the 3c range so like. im getting vibes that sammy boy mighta been whitewashed during game dev, and thats about as far into THAT topic as im gonna bother to venture for this post.

2: his dad

were we supposed to have more daddy issues content??? istg it feels like there was the initial map talk and then nothing. im not saying that i cant pull blood from a stone and give you an entire essay on that glimpse of family trauma just from a few lines of dialogue, but still. feels like thats maybe something that should have gotten more detail.

"no forgiveness between me and my old man. it's uh... coe tradition."

oh boy. oh boy oh boy oh boy. what a line to start his personal quest

before we go ANY FURTHER im gonna drop a reference to one of my favorite aaron sorkin scenes of all time. its from the movie he did about the chicago seven, and i think it fits VERY well when having a conversation about how sam is shaped by his father

unfortunately the exact scene i want to show isnt clipped anywhere easy i could find, so here's an article that talks about that scene specifically if you want more context but dont want to watch the whole movie. what we're really focused on is this:

which is a scene where a fictional account of bobby seale, the leader of the black panther party at the time of the chicago 7 trial, said that above quote to a fictional account of tom hayden while they were having a conversation about how the stakes of this trial are life and death for him as a black man, but little more than a family dispute and a dark spot on their records for the (all white) chicago 7.

its a GREAT continuation of sorkin’s fascination around father son conflicts (he covered it a time or two during his writing days as west wings original creator, which is a great political show id strongly rec) and it really really works when used in comparison to those rebellion days sam had that he still flagellates over

sam was a privileged kid without a foundation of emotional support or a safe environment to vent to. he didnt have the words needed to communicate what he was feeling and thinking and experiencing. he didnt have the means to express himself in a way that wasn't immediately criticized by the people in his life. it doesnt take a degree in psych to figure out that sam first ran for the stars to run from his father. and it sounds like that was tradition

from the MOMENT YOU MEET HIM, jacob is full stop "my way or the highway" until you hit him with the good ol bethesda persuasion and his disposition pulls a 180 to hand you the next plot device

sam: "you know why im here."

jacob: "oh? and what's that? you come to your senses? realize where you ought to be for once?"

w o w

i wonder why sam never felt safe in his own home. i wonder why he doesnt feel safe leaving cora there. i wonder why that miserable fucking attitude and guilt has sam convinced that jacob will be the worst possible thing for his curious daughter's self esteem.

yes, grandparents sip a different kind of koolaid when it comes to their grandkids. no, that is not enough to protect that child from that much intergenerational trauma. sam's made a bad choice keeping cora in space, but he's made an EXCELLENT choice keeping her away from jacob.

forget "showing respect" to his son's choices, jacob won't give them the time of day. he brushes off constellation and wont go meet them for himself, he insists that cora being "in her family home" is the only priority (isnt THAT telling) and, as if that wasnt enough to prove he's incapable of empathy, the fact that he outright, direct fucking quote during that first scene with him, says to sam's face

"the only mistake im seeing here is you"

fuck anyone who walked away from that scene of a parent saying that to their own kid and had the response of "i dont understand why sam wont let jacob take care of cora." fuck you, genuinely from the bottom of my heart, if that was your reaction.

i looked for opportunities to get sam to talk about what the rest of those "30 plus years of experience with the man" really looked like after that. the fact that it was used as a plot device without any (from what I COULD FIND in my first pt, if i find any ill edit this) kind of dialogue discussion about that trauma around his father's behavior/mentality and the terrible influence it had is such a waste. chances are!!!!!! id fucking agree with him!!!!!!!!!! SO TELL THEM TO ME BETHESDA!!!!!! give me the chance to storm back into that house with the full story and let that geriatric fuck know why he will not be allowed back into my daughters life (yeah we're gonna be calling cora our daughter on this one bc, again, she's the best thing in the game) until he can learn to be a safe emotional environment for her

and THEN, at the end of the romance, the wrinkly mf drops a "hey can you go over sam's head and make the parenting decisions now" 20 minutes before your vows get exchanged in his living room (WE'RE GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT MESS OF A WEDDING LMAO ITS A LOT but im probably gonna save it for another sam post where i talk more in depth about why packing a complicated romance in that tightly just Dont Work). like wow. wowowowwow. if that doesnt perfectly sum up how he views the dusty's (shhh i really hope that name catches on pls i keep seeing ppl use captain instead its heartbreaking) role in the family now, and confirm how he's always viewed his own son, idk what does

3: lillian "i can abandon my kid and demand she be taken care of in the same breath" hart

i was originally going to go into hella detail on his relationship with his ex but honestly i think im just gonna leave a few paragraphs and not touch on her again bc its bad for my blood pressure.

okay, here's the deal. im biased in the sense that i had a mother with attachment issues and lets just say that his ex is worth about as much to me as a pile of dogshit. it'd be one thing if she had that moment of "oh. sam and cora bond really well and i dont fit" and decided to look at that and evaluate if she wanted to continue trying to be a parent.

but she didnt have a moment of reflection. she didnt talk to a therapist. she didnt have a discussion with sam. she went back to work and decided "oh well, my kid doesnt like me" and then left her daughter with an open wound and no shot at closure. which is just. wow. that's active abandonment. she WALKED OUT of cora's life because she couldn't stomach the idea that she didnt immediately win over her daughter without any effort to connect to her.

then she has the nerve to yell at sam for not doing the best for cora. like bitch, you cant even consistently answer the phone??? what are you on??? she's REPEATEDLY broken cora's heart with false promises, and clearly made no effort to truly atone for that given just HOW angry sam is ALL the times he brings it up.

and she does it all for what????? a beat cop reputation and some shiny medals????? like shut the fuck up with that righteous indignation piglet, you're killing smugglers under someone's made up authority to protect COMMERSE, not creating galactic peace. the idea that THAT SHIT is worth more to her than her own daughter having a mother who's around for all her life milestones is inFURIATING and id fucking deck her if i could.

the fact that there's zero chance to call her out other than one single "thats a pretty awful thing to say" option is a real cop out from bethesda. they realized they put a woman in a position where she could be really, truly yelled at for something like child care, and chickened out on following through with it so they wouldnt take any heat.

thats gross and should piss you the fuck off, by the way. that sure the fuck isnt what equality looks like by any measure. you don't empower women by acting like they're infallible creatures you cant call out for being flawed. and you sure as shit dont empower the next generation of women by forgiving their abusers.

4: cora's safety

which brings us to the big sticky: sam is a disaster and i DONT think that keeping cora on a combat-active spaceship is right. i think she'd be much better off living in constellation hq (aside from the main plot obvsly) with a constant open comm to her dad and the ability to bring her to outposts and secured sights.

the problem with the biomother's abandonment isnt the distance. its the lack of attempt to connect. its the lack of forming a bond. its the fact that she had zero desire to understand her child once she figured out her child didnt "love her the most" when thats literally not a thing. the problem was never the physical space, and it wouldnt have to be in sam's case, either.

he's a dad that's there for cora day in and day out, he just never got the chance to grow out of the panic stage of a parent worried the first fever is going to kill the baby. he didn't have his dad because he had to get out to protect himself, he doesnt have a mom because of how long she's been dead, and lillian checked the fuck out at an early stage apparently. so sam was left to be the nervous wreck trying to keep history from repeating itself. the man's flying blind in the face of all the combined generational trauma of himself, his father, and his ex, all while trying not to fuck up shaping a human life.

you're damn fucking right he keeps cora glued to his side, i legitimately do not think his own ptsd would allow him to do otherwise without someone like the dusty to come and and go "hey dude, maybe its time we read some emotional intelligence and trauma books so we can start getting cora into a stable environment for literally the first time in her life? also im going to teach her gun safety for my own sanity because you keep letting her walk all over you and its scaring the fuck out of me thinking my daughter is going to try to raid a pirate ship at 15 because no one taught you proper boundaries."

5: his morals

its been 30+ years and his father wont let go of arguing and micromanaging long enough to try to understand his son. lillian is a workaholic who believes her only inherit value is what she can provide to an organization that views living, breathing human beings as occasionally expendable while screaming about its pursuit of freedom and equality.

sam coe is a man who got told what he was supposed to be his entire life, tripped into drugs and crime in an angry, sheltered act of rebellion, and walked away from it all with a very skewed, very flawed interpretation of morality as a result.

lillian and his father are the clear moral compasses in his life. like yeah, sure, he'll talk about how cora is his driving force until he's blue in the face. and he's not lying!!! he's not even technically wrong. she is his active motivation day in and day out. but she is not his Morality. she hasn't developed enough as a person to be able to be that kind of beacon. she's a kid rushing herself through childhood because she thinks that will make her better and no one in her life recognizes it enough to stop it. she shouldnt have to be the moral guide for someone who's supposed to be guiding her

sam cant let go of the ranger envy. he couldnt stomach being around it, but he cant look at that discomfort long enough to identify why. he can walk into a bank and plain as day go "ah, don't you hate the smell of capitalism," but he can't bring himself to blink the stars out of his eyes long enough to ask why the rangers are so willing to put smugglers to death without trial. sam has enough awareness to identify the system is flawed, but he doesnt have the guts to really stare that down

he'll make cracks about walter having too much money and influence, but he wont actually mention how he and his wife are the root cause of an extraordinary amount of pain and suffering and perfectly avoidable manslaughter as a result of their business. i get that constellation runs as a dont as dont tell organization, but if sam's going to give me shit about nabbing a paper weight from a guy's desk, i think we should talk about how he doesnt display anger for walter's business practices.

sam coe, at his heart, is a dreamer who doesn't want to look too close at things. he was taught that some things just Are, and looking for too many answers will find you trouble. he's got the spirit of an explorer dampened by a lifetime spent under cops.

you can hear it in his voice whenever he talks about how proud he is of cora for being a goddamn prodigy. you can hear the wonder and the excitement there. you can hear the curious kid in him that probably got pushed out of the way while he was trying to shape himself into a Proper Coe

i think sam coe is a dreamer who was forcibly taught to fear learning as a child, and thats the real tragedy of him.

so let's start to tie our bow here.

sam is a man who, in a way that only a privillaged kid can, stumbled into neon's life of drugs and smuggling and self harm through destructive behavior with both eyes firmly shut.

he didn't fall into drugs after a lifetime of being submersed in the culture of it. he didnt take them because he grew up surrounded by people that just knew that's all life was ever going to hold. he didnt get into smuggling because he was starving. he didnt take on his first "criminal act" because there was a life and death battle going on somewhere in his life.

this man was drowning in guilt and shame centered around not "being a proper coe" by the time he was free of his father's control, by all accounts. you can hear how much self hatred he has over the memory of that time in his life. look, im not going to say that age and recovery doesnt come with regret, but he talks about it like degeneracy and something to be guilted about rather than just... living life. like so what you did some drugs?? so what you did a capitalism no no?????

corporations arent people. you shouldnt steal from them because itll put YOU at risk, but under no circumstance should anyone hold onto any guilt for stealing from them. money is fake and capitalism murders people every hour of the day. fuck the system, its fucking rigged, look out for you and yours while capitalism is stealing your natural resources and making private homesteading prosecutable (translation: in our actual, real life here, the government can throw you in jail for building a house without a permit. go look up at the sky and think about the moral journey humanity had to take to get us to that point, and then come talk to me about how i shouldnt encourage people to steal from corporations)

anyways back to the video game, as far as the "what if he was unknowingly smuggling something like organs or weapons" argument, there's no desire for me to defend it, tbh. i dont view crime as a personality brand the way cops do. someone being convicted of a crime doesnt make me see them as lesser, it makes me see them as a person who did a bad thing. i do bad shit all the time. we all do. we're human. sometimes there's an excuse for the behavior, and sometimes there isnt. that's not the end of the world. you own up to your actions, you apologize, and you put in the effort to make amends that fit the situation. end of story. the obvious exception to that being when someone you have victimized tells you to fuck off because they dont want your further involvement.

yes. yes there are people in the world that are genuine monsters that spend their time and energy looking for ways to do the cruelest shit imaginable to their fellow human beings. but those are fucking outliers, so no, im not going to let a conversation about morality be derailed by a fraction of a percent of the population

but people (like the rangers) who aren't ready to look at the whole picture of context, who would rather hyper focus on the unbending rule of the land, don't see that. they see a "type" of person once a crime has been committed rather than "a person who found themselves in this scenario"

sam was raised by cops. he fundamentally does not understand how biased his own view is. he'll sometimes make a vague mention of crime being a necessity, but you can hear how many strings are attached there just from the way he talks about it. he truly views crime as a black and white subject with exceptionally few slivers of grey to be found. you can hear the "law and order is what separates us from the rest of the animal kingdom" in his voice whenever he talks about how the rangers are "good people" he just "didnt fit anymore" and it's heartbreaking

he'd be so much better off if he would take a moment to reevaluate his priorities and look a lot closer at that guilt he carries and why he carries it. i think it would even help him better connect with cora in the long run. it would for sure give him a better handle on why letting his daughter take on college courses this early in her life isnt something to brag about. its a bad sign that she's pushing herself to Be Something in the exact same way he used to. he just doesn't recognize it because her way is "healthy" by society's fucked up view of child prodigies

tl;dr

i don't need to fix sam coe. he's stubborn, traumatized, and sheltered, not broken.

give that man good enough head and i'm absolutely sure he could be talked into reading some -clutches pearls- marxist literature

[deathrattleofablasphemousorator]

INTRO POST —

Toki! Welcome to my trans and evil maze.

You can call me Dei [jan Teje in toki pona]

It/they pronouns, please alternate. Don’t use gendered terms on me [dude, bro, girl, etc. even if your intent is to use them in a gender neutral way.] I’m transneutral but don’t really use that as a label, queer as a gender but not necessarily genderqueer, and a polyamorous aromantic allosexual. Oh also I'm objectum. And weird about it on main. My bad. My pronouns page is here.

I’m the co-host of a system, this is my personal blog. You might recognize our main blog over at @dropitdoeeyes (that’s also what i’ll be following from.) I’m the symptom holder for a lot of shit I may or may not get into

Send me asks! I love talking to people. I’ll probably draw you a little something too, as a treat

I don’t have a DNI since I find them really useless, I’ll block you if you’re a troll, if you reblog untagged unreality, or if you reblog shit like "ooh reblog this or you're a horrible evil person" . Terfs explode.

Queer discourse is a complete and total mind killer, if you bring queer discourse on my blog I’m blocking you. Get a hobby & talk to queer people in real life. Stop trying to be palatable.

Some interests of mine —

Linguistics are my current special interest, and I’m learning toki pona [I don’t know it very well and can barely hold a conversation, but it’s been going smoothly!]

Also really into math, theatre tech, video essays on obscure topics, and TTRPGS [It’s been way too long since I’ve been a gm and I need to fix that.] Some viddy games I’m really into are Hades, Disco Elysium, Hollow Knight, Portal, and Subnautica. Big fan of weird gross horror games too [e.g. How Fish is Made] please do let me know if you have any recommendations. I'm terribly hyperfixated on Ultrakill at the moment.

I’m kind of a furry? I’m not active in the community and I don’t really consider myself one even though I am by definition. I enjoy anthro animals very much and may post some of my art if I’m in the mood.

I listen to a lot of music, but if you were to ask I’d say I mostly listen to goth, deathrock, glitchy music, breakcore, and folk. Big fan of Christ vs. Warhol, Femtanyl, Rosegarden Funeral Party, The Reverent Marigold, Nox Novacula, Vision Video, Tears for the Dying, Patricia Taxxon, Machine Girl, Heaven Pierce Her, Death Grips, and Black Dresses.

Tag guide —

[Under the cut since this is getting long]

Most recent edit : 7/12/24

#dei dreams — text posts by yours truly

#dei rambles — long or otherwise rambly posts that don’t mean much of anything

#dei doodles — art by yours truly! probably won’t post much of it but it’s worth having

#dei jams — music ramblings

#reblog — posts not by yours truly. will not tag this one reliably my condolences

#undescribed — posts containing images/videos without a description

#video games — posts about video games, either me rambling about my own playthroughs or reblogging something else related

#language — linguistics posts

#queerness — posts about queerness

#people — people being human

#angels — angels

#tech — pretty computers :3

#beastiary — creatures of all sorts

#stunning art — art by others!

#objectum — me talking about fucking computers. sorry.

I’ll be adding more tags as I go along, but for now, this is about it. I probably won’t reliably tag many triggers, I’ll try my best, but do be wary about that. Flashing lights and eyestrain will always be tagged

[powerpolyculeshowdown]

scc fans: being cool having fun being dedicated sending fanart

yhk fans: tired dumpster rats writing ten page essays on yhk and how it works and WORDS

anyways more propaganda:

REASONS WHY YOU SHOULD VOTE FOR YHK (AND NOT BETRAY ME LIKE MY FRIEND (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE /lh)):

1. Reader/Protagonist/Writer dynamic, you literally cannot get more cosmic than that. they could not exist without each other. they need each other.

2. the dedication, devotion, gratitude, affection and love they show to each other. the acts of love they express. the fact that each and every action we keep talking about is CANON.

3. the many different flavours of their dynamics and how natural it is. they are cringefail losers, they look at each other and decide that they are forever stuck together. they are all so annoyed with each other, they all cannot leave each other. HSY IS THE BREADWINNER !!! YJH IS THE HOUSEHOLD HUSBAND !!!! KDJ IS JUST THERE AND THE OTHER TWO ARE JUST REALLY FUCKING HAPPY HES THERE !!!! THEY WOULD PROBABLY LET KDJ DO WHATEVER AS LONG AS HE WAS THERE AND NOT OFF DOING SOME BS SELF SACRIFICIAL PLAN !!!

4. the fact each of them have been so intrinsically affected by each other. none of them would have survived without the other two. all of them have been changed by each other.

5. they WANT each other. if one of them went off without any notice by god the other two will do everything they can to make sure that idiot comes home. it’s esp prevalent with the other two abt kdj. they WANT kdj. they want him safe and happy and WITH THEM. they see kdj trying to hide his flaws and trauma and they go “no. we’ve already seen all of it. we want everything. we want every part of you here and happy.”

6. the amount of trust they have with each other. the trust you would need to let someone go, to trust that they’ll come back and come back with the other idiot. the trust you’d have to have to be able to leave everything to the other, to trust that they are doing everything they can on their end. the trust they have that the others can handle themselves. how can you trust someone so much like this? how can you trust that they will follow through? how can you trust so much that you will wait however long it takes? how can someone even take that?

7. they are precious to each other. yjh needs the other two alive because they defy his expectations in ways he never realized could happen. hsy holds every memory she has of yjh and esp kdj close to her heart. kdj sincerely wishes for the happiness of yjh and hsy, he cares more abt their happiness than his own. (what he doesn’t realize is that their happy end involves his happiness too.) they mean so much to each other

8. they chose each other over the world. over themselves. they would hand over anything and everything to each other if needed.

9. “I realized something just then. I managed to get this far because these two lived on their own terms - respected my decisions in their own ways.

I began thinking; with these two around, maybe not all hope was lost, after all.”

10. they are capable of hitting each other on the head when they are reaching concerning levels of stupid. hsy literally crashes a yjh vs kdj fight just to make sure they wouldn’t actually kill each other. kdj breaks yjh out of his uncaring attitude. yjh and hsy would probably beat up kdj every time he went “hey i’m back” if they weren’t also mildly emotionally every time it’s happened.

11. what if my love language was sacrifice

12. kdj’s inner dialogue repeatedly describing yjh and hsy as attractive?? (some of his inner dialogue is peak pining like bro what are you doing 🤨???)

13. wasn’t there an arc where kdj intended to give hsy a love letter for a scenerio but yjh went “this is so bad” and also didn’t they in the same arc have this short scene where they talk abt novels and hsy wanting to write a novel later and discussing genres and then kdj FOR SOME REASON brings up romance?? and then they try to change the subject to jhw and lhs, like. y’all aren’t slick.

14. the book is literally about love and stories and loving stories and human connections and relationships and how stories facilitate connections. like. knowing that and knowing who yjh, hsy and kdj are. they are literally the pillars of the novel. they are so incredibly important to the story not only as individuals but also as a trio.

vote yhk i beg -Toon

im so sorry ur friend betrayed u 😔 all is fair in love war....

[lenasai]

okay now i have time so. i warned you in the hlockey server, i was gonna have an essay ready for you

AND BOY DO I HAVE ONE

okay first of all: this wiki page. have fun :)

i'll put the essay below a readmore so i don't annoy my followers

okay picture this: you're me, garages fan, just getting into actually watching blaseball. it's season 14, and we've been given the option to built an ominous looking stadium renovation that totally isn't plot related at all - not to mention it activates in feedback and reverb weather, and the garages have a really iffy relationship with feedback thanks to jaylen hotdogfingers and her constant team hopping, and also avila guzman to a lesser extent.

we build the renovation anyway, and....what's that? we got a free little guy added to our team! neat! so did 12 other teams!

yeah, so right before the season 14 latesiesta, the coin (the expansion era's Big Bad) tried to kill the guy holding the microphone (and potentially the other 13 copies of said guy with the microphone, depending on your interpretation of when that happened) by drowning them in immateria. this causes them to let go of the mic and kicks off the events of the season 14 latesiesta onward

anyway, we find out one game later that the funny plot modifier all 13 of them have lets them copy modifiers from random teammates in reverb weather and from random opponents in feedback weather. pretty funny, right?

so we spend a few in-game days getting attached to our free little guys, and everything's great.

fast forward to season 14, day 77. mills and mechs playing in feedback. things are going pretty normal, when--HOLY SHIT THE MILLS' AND MECHS' LITTLE GUYS FUCKING EXPLODED

the mechs' little guy? gone. didn't even get the chance to play a single game. they were scheduled for the day after. they were removed from the roster completely.

the mills' little guy? well. the sim did an oopsie and while he did get removed from the roster immediately after Fucking Exploding, he still had to pitch the rest of the game as a ghost on the mound.

yeah, turns out there's a little catch to that funny plot modifier: if two players with the funny plot modifier play each other in feedback weather and one tries to target the other, they just annihilate each other and both of them disappear. not fun when you just got attached to your team's little guy!

right, so i figured from one of your reblogs that you are at least somewhat familiar with the second wyatt masoning, so i will keep the summary to a tl;dr: we got thirteen little guys. eleven of them exploded

okay now let me tell you about the two that DIDN'T explode

the two little guys who managed to make it all the way to the end of the season without exploding were a pitcher for the la unlimited tacos and a batter for the seattle garages (yay, our little guy didn't explode!) we named them ivy and max respectively.

unfortunately, there was always the possibility that they were going to explode at some point in the future, so this is when i started checking the weather in advance

i mean it did help that they were in completely different leagues, but there were some pretty close calls.

...and yet. And Yet.

somehow they managed to never run into each other in feedback, despite how long they ultimately played in the league. they got really close when ivy got traded to the steaks, putting both of them in the same division, but not a single one of the nine games the garages and steaks played that season were feedback

instead, they took that funny plot modifier/instant explosion button and did the funniest shit imaginable with it (because it was also Super Busted and definitely not meant to be in play for more than a season at most)

max copied the elsewhere modifier off multiple players, effectively teleporting xemself out of the game entirely

both of them got themselves stuck in giant peanuts

upon escaping the giant peanut, which left them with a superallergy, ivy exploited the sim and tricked it into dropping their superallergy entirely

when asked to push the plot button, ivy said "okay" and pushed a different plot button entirely by copying the hard boiled modifier off one of the detectives, allowing them to take part in the detective plot

this is all to say they did everything except what the devs expected them to do

anyway fast forward to late season 24. a handful of teams have gone rogue and now have the ability to incinerate the coin, who's standing in front of the sun(sun) supernova like the asshole she is.

on season 24, day 82, the rogue teams, including the garages and steaks, unleashed an all-out attack that incinerated the coin and ended her for good.

and that's how max and ivy got revenge on the god who tried to kill them all those years ago.

i've got a couple of bonus headcanons if you're still reading:

-so elsewhere got lored as being a waffle house (the "wlaffle house" because it's blaseball) in the middle of the woods. players who get swept here often end up on the shores and might need help finding their way to the wlaffle house. since max didn't get swept the first couple of times and was therefore immune from scattering, xe conducted search and rescue missions during xer time elsewhere. xe actually did gain the seeker modifier for a brief time one season and kicked ass at it, so i think that compliments my headcanon quite nicely

-ivy spent the post-expansion era siesta studying the microphone, since their team ended season 24 in the vault and they had access to a huge library. they needed to figure out what happened to their missing siblings and whether there was any way to get them back. they doubled down on their efforts once short circuits started and the microphone (now held by parker macmillan iiiii but also acting on its own) started broadcasting other dimensions. ivy did not take the news that teams were choosing a player to sacrifice to the microphone at the end of the broadcast very well. i was....going to do something with this if we ever found out any more about the microphone. tgb did do something with it by swapping nan and sixpack dogwalker (who were at some point receivers) with nathaniel wilds and dimi wobbler (short circuits players who got exploded), so like. they know there is a way out of getting exploded. but then blaseball ended, so. it is what it is i guess. maybe i'll write a satisfying ending to that arc, but tl;dr ivy does some mic research and eventually figures it out with a little help from their friends

okay my brain is soup so i think that's all. have a cookie if you read all that 🍪

IN SUMMARY: i am insane about them. thank you for coming to my tled talk

I’ve only been told about one blorbo so far (they were from space) and I love them, y’all got any more people for me to rotate like a rotisserie chicken in my head

[basket-of-radiants]

OMG!! I DON'T HATE MOASH EITHER!!!! Like I saw Elhokar dying from a mile away and I wasn't that invested in him. Also, Szeth is annoying? Why do people like Szeth (who literally killed SO MANY PEOPLE! And the rock didn't compel him? It was a normal rock?) and hate Moash?

Oooooookay. There’s. A lot to unpack here. I know you were trying to be relatable, but I reeeeeally disagree with a lot of this. (Let’s see how comprehensible I can be this late at night.)

Like first off and most importantly, how dare you call Szeth annoying, he’s my favorite character. He is a massive murderous disaster with the most edgy and Extra™ POV narration I have ever seen and I love him. (You must be new here; this is basically a Szeth fan blog.)

As for Elhokar, I wouldn’t at all say I wasn’t invested-I quite liked him in Oathbringer and I certainly was not happy that he died. I found his arc to be quite compelling, and even though he was late to the game, I appreciate that he was doing his best to assume responsibility in whatever ways he could. Like I dunno, he admitted his mistakes and worked to improve. Maybe it was too little and too late, I don’t think there’s an objective answer to that kind of thing. I do tend to hold characters who are members of the aristocracy to a higher standard than other characters, and I wouldn’t necessarily say he was a good king yet, but he was certainly trying, and that I would have liked to see. (I wasn’t quite as interested in him becoming a radiant, but that plotline didn’t happen anyway in the end so w/e.) I’m not going to be talking about him much, but please know you don’t need to defend him as a person to me, I already appreciate him.

However I don’t see the need to pick Moash or Elhokar over one another. I can understand why if you liked a character then you would hate whoever killed them, but I’m not really like that. Actually I’m glad you brought up Szeth because he’s a great example of that. I have been in love with him since chapter one. In Words of Radiance he tried-and very nearly succeeded-to murder Dalinar, Adolin, and Kaladin. Of course I hoped he wouldn’t succeed. Of course I wanted them to survive. But even if he had killed one-or hell all-of them, I genuinely believe I would still like him as a character. Part of that is Szeth’s circumstances-I know that he never (welllllll) actually had ill will towards these people and I know he’s already going to suffer for any actions he takes. He knew what the right thing was, and he would have done the wrong thing, knowing it was the wrong thing to do. That’s honestly a lot of what attracts me to his character, he has this web of contradictions that he both hates and depends on and it can be fascinating to watch. I both want him to accept responsibility for his actions and find it hard to blame him for them. Moash on the other hand is in a totally different situation, but I feel like I can apply similar principles to him. If I can still appreciate Szeth’s character in spite of all he’s done, then I feel I can do the same for Moash. I happen to not think Moash’s actions were as objectively bad as a lot of people did, but I’ll get to that later.

One thing I do agree with you on is that Szeth is a worse person than Moash. No seriously, if you want to tell me that Moash is bad because of his actions in Oathbringer, you’ll have to convince me that his actions are so bad that they’re worse than all the killing and destabilizing of entire nations that Szeth has done. Again, I don’t entirely blame Szeth, but it is his fault. And if we’re going by actions alone, then he’s done a hell of a lot worse than quite a lot of characters. That’s fine though, because I don’t judge characters by their actions alone. There’s a reason these are told as nuanced stories with the points of view and feelings of different characters taken into account and not as history textbooks just stating the events that happened.

(Hopefully this all ties together. It’s after 2 am and I have no idea where I’m going with this. Be prepared for tangents.)

So! Let’s talk about Moash.

I’m sure I’m not fully representing all the richness of the anti-Moash arguments here because it seems people have spent a lot of time finding reasons to hate him. I’d guess there are a few main reasons? From what I can tell, they are (in no particular order) betraying Kaladin/Bridge Four, Killing Elhokar, Killing Jez, and the whole denying personal responsibility thing. There’s a also just a lot of general hate and calling him an asshole (which I really don’t get? I don’t think he’s ever just been needlessly cruel or anything, I mean he hates lighteyes but that’s about it) but that’s kind of hard to argue about so whatever. Anyway if those are absolute sticking points for you, and you cannot possibly like a character who did those things, then I guess that’s fine, you do you. I’m mostly just going to set out my interpretation of the character and talk a little bit about my beliefs. It’s not really a defense per se, but it’s how I understand him.

I want to talk about the Alethi. Moash’s character is clearly focused heavily on themes of revenge. We’re already not off to a great start here because I personally do not believe in revenge. I do believe in justice, and I think that for Moash the two are one and the same. I also think that for literally the entirety of Alethi culture the ideas of justice and revenge are one and the same. See, that’s something I am willing to blame on circumstance. It’s not just the Alethi, all across Roshar violent crimes (which I would consider the deaths of Moash’s grandparents to be) can be punished by execution, and while, again, I disagree, it’s indisputably the cultural norm. (The act of forgiveness that characters like Kaladin were showing is a radical thing.) In terms of Moash’s vengeance, I find it really hard to condemn that when he’s trying to kill just one guy, if we’re not also going to massively get on Dalinar’s case and Elhokar’s case and fucking everyone else’s case for waging a six year genocide war on the Parshendi for the sake of revenge. Violence is an Alethi cultural value-it has repulsed me since day one but it’s very much undenyable.

That’s just something to mull on, it’s honestly not even one of the more major factors in terms of how I view Moash. His revenge aspect in Oathbringer was less interesting to me than other aspects of him, but as that is a part of his character, I wanted to first set aside why I can…well, set it aside.

In Words of Radiance, Kaladin very much sympathized with Moash. Not only that, he legitimately felt Moash was in the right for a considerable amount of time. The turning point for Kaladin was coming to the realization that Elhokar was an important person to Dalinar, which is all well and good, but it doesn’t actually address these underlying contradictions. I actually found that very frustrating at the time when I read it, so I might not be the most objective judge when it comes to Moash’s betrayal. I do know that before Elhokar’s assassination attempt, Moash had not gone forward with anything until Kaladin was on board. And he didn’t know that Kaladin was “off board” until he was already in the middle of the act. Kaladin, to his credit, did offer him an out, but for someone like Moash who had been working tirelessly in anticipation of this moment…I can understand why he wasn’t that receptive then and there. Moash certainly threw the first punch, but he also felt betrayed in that moment. In Oathbringer, at the core of his anger, there was the thought “Kaladin was protecting a murderer” which was how the whole scene had seemed framed to him. Perspective is crucial for understanding Moash. I guess think if Kaladin’s best friend, after learning the truth about Amaram and all he’d done and acknowledging that it was horrible, had at the last moment put their life on the line to protect him. In the end, Moash still felt terrible about having hurt Kaladin and Kaladin had felt terrible about letting Moash get to that point. Both of them regretted everything having to do with the assassination attempt when they went their separate ways.

I don’t know if it seems like I’m taking Moash’s side here, because I’m honestly not trying to do that, I honestly don’t view it as “sides” I view it as two different characters deserving of understanding.

But again! I actually tend not to think about Elhokar’s death in terms of revenge as much as one might expect!

Next I would like to talk about the circumstances under which Elhokar was killed. Because…it was a battle, you know? People on both sides were killing people on both sides. Moash killed Elhokar, but someone else could have been the hand to hold the spear just as easily. I don’t think there was coincidence, I do think that Moash was intentionally seeking to kill Elhokar once he realized he was there. But here’s my super controversial take? In that kind of situation, revenge or not, I don’t even think he was wrong to do so. Moash’s goal was to help and serve the soldiers on his (the singers’) side. If Elhokar had lived, they would have had a shardbearer and another radiant to have to deal with. Lots of named characters in that scene (god that scene was so sad to read) killed lots of named characters on both sides. If Elhokar’s side had gained the upper hand, Khen and Moash probably would have died. In a situation like that, I’m not really sure I can be mad at him for doing a tactically correct move like that, even if his intentions were more personal.

That’s actually…kind of a big distinction between how I view Moash and how a lot of people do. I know there were a lot of people who were holding out for a potential redemption until Moash killed Jez, but I didn’t…exactly…see it as a thing that needed redeeming. I didn’t want Elhokar to die, of course I didn’t, but Moash was a soldier in combat, who just so happened to be faced off against someone he saw (and not necessarily incorrectly at that) as representative of all the discrimination and suffering he’d endured. What do you expect him to do?

Yes, it sucks that he killed Elhokar while he was in the middle of changing, but you can’t honestly expect Moash to know about that.

I mentioned Jez, so let’s start on him next. I will admit, when I was reading Oathbringer, the point at which Moash killed Jez was a very “what the fuck” moment for me. But…honestly the more I think back on it and try to understand him, the more it seems that that was the obvious course of action for him. After all, at that point in the story, I already knew and had accepted that he had defected to the singers’ side. (God his defection is another really fascinating thing actually! And it’s honestly such a huge part in why I care about him even now. I would love to talk a bit about Moash’s relationships with the singers vs the humans in more detail at some point, but this post is probably already way too long. Someone remind me later, I promise the post will be shorter than this one.) He was also literally a slave, but not just that, he was a slave who genuinely wanted the side he was working for to succeed. And also a soldier who had killed before. Honestly, if the fused had asked him to kill someone for them, it would surprise me more if he didn’t do it for them.

I think after he killed Elhokar, Moash was at his lowest point. He was already depressed and really fucked up, but the idealized idea of vengeance deep inside him still had somehow kept him going. Then when he finally got what he had been dreaming of he didn’t feel happy or satisfied or any of that. Not only that, but in having completed his goal he no longer felt he had any purpose. So why not do whatever the fused ask of him? He has no ambition of his own, but he truly believes that once they’re in power, they’ll make a better, fairer society for people in the future. Honestly the more I think about it, the fact that Jez was a herald is all the more reason for Moash to agree to kill him. It provided a very real tactical advantage in a war. I’m not going to touch on whether this act was right or not, but I know that I personally can understand why Moash felt that helping the side of the singers was the right thing to do. And I guess if I can accept that then everything else follows.

As for the personal responsibility thing, I…don’t judge him very much for that. He was a slave, he was dysfunctional and depressed, and his mind kept returning to how he had hurt Kaladin which I’m pretty sure also sort of makes him hate himself. If he needed coping mechanisms to stay alive in that situation, then I’m willing to accept that. Even if he hadn’t had that mindset, he would still be a slave in the exact same situation. And…honestly he’s really not the first character to be in heavy denial over personal responsibility and past actions. I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you about the other examples.

When I was reading Oathbringer my sister and I talked a lot about this worldview, “Alethi society is bad so anything I did when I was a part of it can be written away, because being in that bad society is really what’s to blame.” I will admit I was sort of doing that earlier in this very post, although my intention was more to highlight hypocrisy than anything else. Moash’s denial of personal responsibility probably would have rubbed me the wrong way a lot more if he…didn’t actually take responsibility…all over the place… He stood up for Sah, Khen, etc. when they were being hurt and took it upon himself personally to risk his life to go talk to management and angrily give them constructive criticism on how to make their society fair. He definitely blames his past on the society he lived in, but in the present he was adamant that that had been bad and so the next thing has to be better. Flawed as it may have been, I think it was his way of putting his past behind him and accepting his new life.

Again, not saying that this mentality is good or even justifiable, that’s up to you. I feel that it’s at the very least compelling.

…WHICH! To tie it all together, here’s why I like Moash. In Oathbringer he is a mess of a person, but I still find a lot of nuance and this broken sort of humanity in his actions. I can tell that he still cares about right and wrong, he just feels it’s impossible to find justice in the preexisting human society. (I wanna talk more about his opinions on the singers later.) He definitely did bad things, but he’s not so far gone that I don’t think he’s worth understanding. I don’t necessarily like characters just because they’re good or nice people, they can even be irredeemable people, and maybe Moash is just that. I don’t know. I understand why people would feel that way about him, I really do. But I still find his story compelling, I’m still interested to see what he does next, and against all reason, I’m still hoping he somehow makes it out okay somehow.

It’s like after 3:30, jesus, I need to sleep. Um. Reeeeal quick end notes. This post was mostly me rambling about the bad shit he did in Oathbringer, but I think he did good stuff too! He is a morally grey character and I would go into that more if I weren’t so tired. Uh. I’m sorry for writing so much, I know this probably isn’t what you expect from this kind of blog. If you actually read all this then 1) wow and 2) lmk how comprehensible it was. Also if there’s anything I’m wrong about lmk I do not mind criticism.

Yeah. G’night.

[msookyspooky]

PART TWO LETS GO !!! Okay these are in the list (technically) So I know what you did last summer was pretty cliche and too famous in pop culture so I already knew some of the deaths ;-; BUT I didn’t find the cast as annoying as I expected to (except for barry, he sucked even before the murder stress) enjoyed it but wouldn’t rewatch a lot or watch the sequel immediately after it, i also suuuper curious you know

NOW omfg Nightmare on Elm Street HOLY FUCK what a franchise, the ending of the first one was so like unexpected and vague i HAD to watch the sequels immediately (rip to the ppl who had to wait like a whole year to know what happened, sucks to suck)

Jokes on me Freddy’s revenge had nOTHING TO DO WITH THE MAIN PLOT (and i had to go to bed by the time it was over) but it was still really good tho !! Like the idea of F possessing someone irl ???? Brilliant !! THE ALIEN/BIRTH/EXPLOSION THING ???? WHAT ?! I also liked it carried on the universe’s story without explaining the ending of the first one (idk if it was on purpose or they didn’t know what to do with Nancy yet so they stalled but i liked it !!)

And then it was three, holy fucking shit holy fuck Dream Warriors the one of the best movies I’ve ever seen in my life (a proper rival to Scream ngl) AAAAHHH I could write a 12 page essay about this movie, the cAST ???? Angels! The dream powers ??? AMAZING! The dude psychiatrist actually listening and trusting Nancy instead of acting like shes crazy ??? PERFECTION !!!! also the fucking dream warriors song holy fuck what a banger, I’ve been listening to it non stop

ALSO (major spoilers ig sorry sksksks) WTF THEY CANT JUST KILL OFF THE FINAL GIRL ???? THATS SO RUDE WHAT THE HECK ?!?!?! I really liked her ;-; she was a really good final girl, like smart and resilient and a fucking Survivor you know (feeling absolutely gutted)

OMG YOU WATCHED THEM!!!!!

It's been a hot minute but I remember the SHOCK of 3. Why do yall think Stu and Billy and Randy keep mentioning in a trilogy anything goes and YN could be a Nancy? (Lowkey wish I would have left it ambiguous that I was writing for 4 and 5 to up the anti here) Like how many franchises kill the final girl and keep going???? In a good way bc yeah I was super upset Nancy died but also it made it more interesting bc if SHE can die; anyone can. (And I think Wes intended 3 to be the last so damn what a power move on his part) Can you imagine if Sidney died in Scream 3??? I feel like I'd never watch it again but also if it was done very well and the new final girl was good (Or we follow Gale trying to figure out who killed Sidney like they never caught Roman OR how Jill was supposed to kill Sid and be the new final girl until someone found out her dirty secret) I would still watch it and be on edge bc the only thing I feel 5 REALLY had going for it was killing off a main character that hasn't happened since Scream 2 and we were livid and shocked and enthralled...But we still couldn't stop watching! Bc who else?!?!

I'm so glad you liked the series I may not write for it but it is a great slasher series

[dramarising-replacement]

Lets Fix FR

Since its up to FR staff to take care of our personal health and personal individual needs and no one has the common sense to just play something else and its "abelist" to even suggest something reasonable like "hey maybe you should take a break for right now dont push yourself if its hurting you"

and we're all forced to play this game, 

Lets come up with the best suggestion of all time to make this website as "safe" as possible for everyone.

First lets just get rid of the forums. we cant have anyone being triggered by the idea of socializing on forums, and triggered into suffering feelings of social anxiety. Especially "suggestions" because suggestions means theres ideas and ideas and especially change are dangerous and bad even when it's not. those players their 10k+ posts (each) of tl;dr "No support because 30 paragraph essay" can finally be free from their personal suggestion-forum-reg hell. #freethem We also should just get rid of anything that requires clicking entirely and we should get rid of coli, so people with hand injuries dont strain themselves, because they will just keep going like the energizer bunny and their hands will fall off instead of taking a break and doing some stretches or letting their injuries rest. THEY ARE BEING FORCED TO KEEP GRINDING AND NOTHING IS LETTING THEM STOP EXCEPT FOR THE DAILY RESET. ITS PHYSICALLY DAMAGING PEOPLE.

We should just have one single page where everything is located the entire website will just load on that one page.

Since not everyone can have a good connection or device all pages are now deleted except for the dragon page.

Since theres no coli there is no need for levels and everyone can achieve equality.

Everyone is only allowed one (1) dragon from now on too because numbers above 12 is triggering for anyone who is bad at math. Lets also get rid of all genes especially clown because it might trigger someone fear of clowns because of the word clown and they will end up triggering them into imagining a clown in their mind, and it will trigger them into having a panic attack and that means the clOWN gene is physically affecting people with a fear of clowns!

Lets also delete and get rid of all colors starting with "Obsidian" because its too dark and some people who are scared of the dark might be triggered and get nauseated by the bottomless depth of of darkness. We also should get rid of white because it will hurt peoples eyes and trigger people into having headache and not everyone knows how to turn down the brightness on their screens.

we should also get rid of all other colors so people cant be triggered into any kind of emotional change, positive or negative, we dont want anyone triggered into having emotional disturbances anymore AT ALL. by bright joyful colors. Some people get anxiety by certain colors and people with depression have a hard time finding joy in things and its unfair to them if everyone else enjoys colors and they can't. Also there are colorblind people and they cant even SEE the spectrum of color correctly? Um so why should we even have colors in the first place. Think of the colorblind people who are left out. its super unfair to colorblind people that color exists.

Colors just in general should not exist at all. Any mention of color from now on is abelist because colorblind people dont know what they look like and we dont want to trigger them or be abelist by having any kind of colors.

the only color allowed is "Dust" but lets change its name because the name dust might trigger your irl allergies to d*st so we'll just call it "9D9D9F" to avoid any real life physical risk to players who have d*st allergies.

Next thing on the list? Lets get rid of all breeds. The only breed we will keep is coatl offspring, because they are small and babies are harmless and you cant breed them because they are offspring,

Since there is no more breeding we can finally do away with the pesky gendering mars and venus devil symbols triggering everyones dysphoria because they struggle to separate their physical selves from their hundreds of individual cartoon dragons that are property of a company that makes it possible for them to "own" the dragon on their account that they are allowed to have only because they agreed to follow a code of conduct and TOS.  and there is nothing wrong or damaging with thinking: all dragons = actually me 

Also the dragon cant have eyes. Eyes on FR are very controversial, and triggers people into feeling grossed out so they cant have any eyes at all. Having eyes is also abelist because there is blind people and they cant use their eyes. So if you mention eyes you will be permanently banned for enforcing ableism.

We should make sure to get rid of dom because Earth is too powerful and war is bad, so we wont need anymore festival holidays because everyone is now in one flight to be equal called "Equality Friend Flight"

Also all treasure and gems because it will trigger people into thinking of bad things like being poor. you wont be needing it for anything anyways as there will no longer be a feeding requirement or apparel, because all dragons are offspring, and theres poor starving people irl, and we cant have anyone triggered into remembering when they were too poor to eat and any mention of feeding a dragon is abelist because not everyone can afford food irl and a lot of different disabilities makes it hard to eat anything at all. So dont talk about food abelist scum.

In Fact FR wont need any features at all because a dragon being friends or companion with a familiar is the same exact thing as human exploitation and slavery and it is evil. Flight rising familiars in your hoard/paired with a dragon? Human trafficking/genocide? Same exact thing. There is absolutely nothing wrong with comparing cartoon dragon companions to those real world atrocities. So lets remove all familiars and delete them.

We should also rename the website to something less triggering for people who are scared of heights because "rising" and "flight is a triggering name and suggests height and people have a phobia of flying as well and we cant risk triggering their phobia and having them negatively affected physically irl. lets just call it "Round" Because round things are considered non-threatening.

You can have triple Basic triple d*st 9d9d9f colored eyeless Coatl offspring dragons in the Equality Friend flight on the website "Round" your activity included is logging in and logging off.

Actually maybe we should just delete the whole fucking thing Even though it would destroy several peoples lives and stop them from having a job, because there are people with disorders who fixate and cannot stop themselves from going on the website no matter how much it sorrows them or pains them to keep on going.  so fR just being there? enabling disorders therefore harmful.  Now no one will be emotionally damaged or physically harmed anymore by the dangerous devil website Flight Rising. It has finally been stopped.

[mindofharry]

finelineslutt’s FIC REC!

here are some of my favourite blurbs, fics, series and imagines ! i’ve read all of these about 17 times, all the writers are SO talented. please check these out ! ✨✨✨

all credit goes to these amazing writers! thank you for writing a piece so magical and beautiful! - evie :)

the one where harry’s a step-dad. @oh-styles

this is one of my favourite dad series! the blurbs are actually the cutest thing ever 🥺🥺 a must read if you love dad!harry <3

trust means more. @autumn-sunflowers

this is kind of angst ?? but super funny too.... which is refreshing!! also their whole masterlist is ~ chef kiss ~ !!!

stage 12. @ilovegolden

the concept of this fic is SO COOL. could imagine harry being a voice couch ?? PLS 🥺🥺🥺 anways, the fic is so well written and i love it so much <3

shy. @harry-writings

ok, i love a good dad! harry fic !!! and this was just so beyond cute ✨✨ and also please check out their whole masterlist..... the way the write is just UGH! 💖💗💖💓💗💕💘💞💓💞

mother’s day. @svnflowervol666

ok their dad fics actually make my day. as i said before i love a good dad fic and they always brings them justice, and this one inpaticular is just so SOFT 🥺🥺

@talesofstyles - just their whole masterlist. i just keep going back to their imagines!!! please check them out <3

go home. @harrieatthemet

can i just say.... this must be my favourite angst piece ?? and just all of their angst writings are AMAZING!!!! the way they write is magical. period.

@harryxmac - the most amazing writer <3 i think they were one of the first writers i came across, and they did not disappoint! possibly one of the nicest people too 🥺

hazy. @oh-honey-styles

this small series is so cute and very, very hot!!!!! their writing is just SO good. i can never get enough.

@hestylesno - their whole masterlist is just SO GOOD ?? like how can someone write that well ?? TEACH ME 🥺🥺🥺 they have so many imagines, and i have read them all about 7 times !!! check them out <3

can you do that again?. @colaharry

UM HELLO?? this imagine is SO SEXY AND ALL OF THAT GOOD STUFF PLS :(( all of their “smut” is absolutely amazing!!!

@moonchildstyles - ok i don’t even know how to explain how much i love their imagines ?? their writings are SO good. and i’ve read them all, and the series, so many times - pls check out their masterlist! <3

wish upon a star. @mysweetestcreature

ok, i usually don’t like step!brother fics, but this writer completely changed my mind. i read this fic about 10 times a day ?? and their hogwarts fic too 🥺🥺🥺 they’re so beyond talented and the fics are just !! CHEFS KISS :D

@jawllines - ok! ok! i love everything in their masterlist. ITS ALL SO GOOD 💔💔 theres angst, fluff and everything in between!! and WeReWOLVES I LOVE IT ALL ✨✨✨

angst masterlist. @pendantstyles

i love of their work, but their angst JUST HITS ME!!! check out their whole (three) other masterlists because they write so well!!! and angst is definitely their specialty 🥺🥺🥺🥺

a series of parental events. @waitingfortwilight y’all know i LOVE dad harry, and this just has everything! teenage kids and harry 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 I LOVE IT!! all their work is beyond amazing !! <3

@meet-me-in-the-kitchen - ok this page was like the second or third page i followed on here!! and they like inspired me to write my own 🥺🥺🥺 their work is JUST SO GOOD. and the range of the masterlist too!! you can find EVERYTHING 💘💞💖💗💘💞💓💘💖💓

sweet creature. @theasstour

this series is so SOFT and realistic!! and the sequel too 🥺🥺🥺 the writing is just UGH SO WELL WRITTEN!! and i think i’ve read read it about 5 times ?? check out their other series too!! ✨✨✨✨

@harryforvogue - this writer has SO MUCH RAnGE it’s unbelievable!!! they have written so many good fics and are just one of my favourite writers in here <3 pls go check out their masterlist!! there is plenty to read 🥺🥺

another world. @sunflowerstache

ok. i could write a whole fucking essay on this fic. this concept is SO GOOD. and the writer has written it so well, that sometimes i forget tiny wasn’t actually in the band lol ?? i come back to this fic so much. you NEED to check it out, and then read their blurbs etc about it ! <3

you can’t have both of us. @kind-heart

this one tugs at my heart strings </3 and the fact that it has two more parts makes me so happy!!! the writing is amazing and you can really feel the pain and grief coming from the character! one of my all time favs ! 🥰

rosewater. @stylesmuse

some really well written smut and fluff! i read this all the time when i just want a calm, funny read. it’s so soft and i can actually imagine harry being like this! and also, their other pieces are AMAZING! so check them out too ! ✨

@floral-suits - their DRABBLES/ CONCEPTS **** PLS READ THEM. i’m obsessed with their writing!! their smut is just AMAZING!! pls check them out ! 🥺🥺🥺 the drabbles are just so good and some are short but still so well written ?? How EXPLAIN 😭😭

my girl blurbs. @heyyyharry

** pls read the my girl series before reading the blurbs** ok!!! the series - amazing. the masterlist - amazing. other series - amazing. blurbs - amazing. period <3

* i will definitely be adding more this list, and of course i probably missed some out </3 anyways, reblog this if you’d like! and i hope you enjoy some of my favs ! 🥰🥰

- evie !

[thegrapeandthefig]

Hey, can you go over more about why hellenicgods sucks? I mean I know they’re already racist by saying that pagan is the same as the n word. Like what the fuck. Talk about racist trash lol

Buckle up. 

To make sure no one accuses me making shit up, I will be screenshoting the stuff from the website’s FAQ and commenting it. No I won’t be going through all of it, because there’s a lot that is really just his opinion that he’s trying to pass as fact.

1.

Why only mention the Orphic theogony? The Orphic theogony is in fact, not the *mainstream* one and was NOT the mainstream one in Athens. It would have been more honest and accurate to say there are *many* theogonies and at least include Hesiod’s. 

2

I know you saw it but maybe others haven’t. This is alarming AF. I shouldn’t need to explain why. 

3

The funny thing about this point is that there is another page somewhere in the website that tries to go around this -because obviously he’s stuck with the historical existence of oracles. So he lists them, Delphi, Dodona etc... and somehow manages to come to this conclusion: 

And the reason he comes to this conclusion is by tactfully ignoring all kind of historical and archeaological evidence and focusing on the stories in myth. He uses the Yes but No fallacy where he starts by acknowledging historical evidence but then uses myth to strike them out of the discussion. The wording in this conclusion should also make you react: he is being purposefully alarmist and fearmongering. He also subtly protects himself from all criticism by saying things like “the author of this little essay” and later “In the tradition this author follows”. He’s making it sound like this only is about him, all while subtly implying “you’re wrong, I’m right. Fear for yourself”. 

4 Orphism

It’s not “some scholars”. It’s actually 40 years of peer-reviewed scholarship. NO ONE EVER SAID THAT.  The thing is that, he actively chooses to ignore scholarship and chooses instead to interpret himself the (incomplete) material he has. Which leads us to this: 

To recap: he chooses to ignore the scholarship that regularly brings new elements to the surface by deciding that the gods dictate what we have access to. This is the dumbest take I’ve ever read. If scholars before us had had that logic, no advancement in research would have been made. I’ve written a small post trying to clear some shit up about Orphism because it’s the topic every single wannabe cult leader is trying to use and I’m fucking tired. 

5 Bonus

The fucking 12 days of Dionysus are not historical, like he claims. I’ve debunked that shit last year. 

So yeah, come to your own conclusions but there’s SO MUCH on this website that makes me want to go feral that this post is barely scratching the surface. 

[mickstart]

what do you think are some iconic/memorable schumi moments? i just got into f1 and would like to know more about him bc somehow i can’t really find anything like that about him.... just stats which are incredibly impressive but i can’t find anything about how he behaved or just anything about his personality..... thanks <3

:) Hi anon, thank you for unleashing the beast.

Ok I love you for asking me this thank you SO MUCH. Welcome to the circus I’m glad you’re here! Also yeah, Schumi is often talked about in terms of statistics and not as a human, Which is a shame bc like! Schumi is fascinating and the dynamics on the grid in late 90s F1 is so much fun! Also, this is mainly going to be late 90s -> early 2010s stuff bc I was born in 98 so uhhh I didn’t properly witness ANY 90s stuff and had to learn about it.

OK so I got super carried away but I’ve divided this into 3 sections: Drives/races that I think showcase some of his talents, human moments we need to talk about more, and Chaotic Little Bitch moments. The key thing to remember w/ Schumi is that he personally tends to be nice but as soon as you put him in a competition, Bastard Mode activates like a cat’s pupils going wide.

I am so sorry for the following short essay. Also some crashes are briefly mentioned but only ones with absolutely no injuries and there’s no details.

Chaotic Little Bitch Moments

Schumi debuted as a SUBSTITUTE driver for Jordan when one of their drivers was in police custody (yes. really.) The highest a Jordan had qualified all year was 10th and in his DEBUT at SPA, one of the toughest tracks, in the middle of the season, Schumi qualified that Jordan 7th! THEN his clutch failed before the first lap was even complete, but Benetton and Jordan WENT TO COURT to fight each other to sign him for their team before the next race in Monza. He couldn’t debut normally he HAD to cause a scene and set the tone.

The Red Strings of Fate: He qualified 7th, his iconic 7 starred helmet, his first victory next year was ALSO at Spa - his first complete race would be at Monza, Ferrari Holy Ground, and he finished 5th which 👀 1) he was immediately racing with The Greats. 2) Mr 5 Championships With Ferrari.

Winning a race by taking a stop and go penalty on the last lap, crossing the finish line in the pits, and making such a complicated argument about said penalty that in a hearing that was SUPPOSED to be Mclaren protesting the race result the stewards scrapped the entire penalty and the 3 who awarded it handed in their licenses??? Iconic.

Austria 2002 where Rubens was ordered to give the win to Michael. And then Michael fucking made him stand on the top step on the podium like “oh no no no RUBENS deserves this” and made a big SHOW out of it and its like “Michael stop you’re not making it heartwarming you’re making it WORSE Michael STOP” The Tension of germany 2010 podium VS the theatricality of THIS podium.

Team orders were banned because of this which also makes this indirectly responsible for Fernando Is Faster Than You having to be a coded message. You can’t escape him,

Blocking Alonso in Monaco qualifying and then, years later in 2010, overtaking Alonso technically illegally at Monaco (the race was ending under safety car, but the safety car doesn’t lead them over the line it pits and they’d crossed the safety car line and the regulations were NOT specific about the rules) and getting a 20 second penalty bc Damon Hill was a steward. Haunting FERNANDO specifically at Monaco like the ghost of christmas past? Getting a harsh penalty because ANOTHER driver he’d fucked over was a steward? Forcing the FIA to rewrite the rulebook to account for his nonsense when he was in his FOURTIES? I don’t know another chaos king.

Winning the 1995 championship by crashing into Damon Hill, getting AWAY with it for some reason, and then trying to do the same thing in 1997 to Villeneuve, failing to do so and simply rebounding off of him harmlessly, almost COMICALLY, and beaching his own car in a gravel trap at which point the FIA said “I have had ENOUGH of you Wacky Races Man!” and disqualified him from the entire championship

Forcing Mika off the track so bad at Spa 2000 that Mika realized the only way he was gonna be able to get past him was to re-invent the overtake and go for it whilst they were passing a backmarker. (The overtake itself is at 2:05 in the video but the build up to it is Important bc the key part it’s not just badass, it only happened bc Mika knew who he was dealing with.)

Spa 1998 was a Ridiculously Chaotic race it truly was the Mugello 2020 of its year, and after a crash at the start that took out almost the entire grid Schumi accidentally collided with Coulthard later in the race. (The teams used to have a spare car at every race then, so the race was able to continue after a restart.) This wasn’t a racing thing, Coulthard was getting lapped. So something in Schumi SNAPS, and he storms down the pitlane and tries to fight Coulthard while the mclaren and ferrari mechanics both hold him back and finally drag him away. He projected into the future, saw Coulthard was gonna talk non-stop shit about Seb, and acted accordingly.

Monaco 2012 Pole don’t talk to me about this I still can’t believe the audacity of this man to get the only pole of his comeback, at MONACO, at the ONE RACE where he had a 5 place grid penalty to take!!

In general, I know Cheating Bad but. I HAVE to admire the brainpower it must take to have the rulebook so memorized that whilst driving an F1 car Schumi could spot a loophole the size of the eye of a needle and then dance through it, forcing the FIA to add ANOTHER page to the rule book specially for him bc nobody else even REALISED that loophole existed.

Human Moments

A quick rant about Mika and Schumi’s entire friendship. After Spa 2000 Mika goes up to Michael, says something like “Don’t ever do that again” then they’re friends again. They had this mutual understanding that Racing was not Reality. This goes all the way back to their F3 days they were rivals AND friends for their entire career. They truly were the Sewis of the era if Sebastian was like 50% more evil. Their entire dynamic is “You’re the only motherfucker in this pit lane who can handle me”. Schumi would do some bullshit and every other driver would throw up their hands in frustration and Mika would just go “Okay” and drive better to put him in his place bc he was the only one who could keep up, and Schumi very visibly LOVED that he’s grinning after Mika owns his entire ass with that overtake at Spa. They were unstoppable force meets immovable object and I’m so sad their rivalry isn’t more talked about bc the way Mika is the only driver who can get him to behave like a normal human being is SO entertaining.

This is a sad one so I won’t link it but he started crying in the 2000 Monza press-conference with his brother and Mika when he equaled one of Senna’s records. The press kept trying to ask questions about it and Mika just has this death grip on his shoulder and tries to get them to stop or let them take a break and it’s so sad but also important to know about.

Once said he didn’t want Mick to race in F1 bc the pressure of his name would put Mick under so much stress and he wanted his son to be happy. (He fully supported Mick in his endeavors! But only after making absolutely sure it was what Mick wanted, and making sure he knew he could just race for fun if he wanted and it didn’t have to be F1)

This whole interview just after Mick was born with the Schumacher family. Special shout out to Gina on his head the entire video and also Corinna talking to the press while Michael is captivated by Mick. Me too Michael.

Once allegedly pleaded to take a stray kitten home from the track?

I reblogged this yesterday but. Sticking like glue to Sebastian at an F1 test and immediately being like “This is my new son he’s gonna go far”. There’s a lot of pictures out there also of Michael being a guest at the karting races Seb went to as a kid and baby Seb visibly losing his fucking mind at being given a trophy by his idol. Every day of my life I think about him trying to ruffle Seb’s hair through his helmet at Brazil 2012

WInning the championship in 2000. Him thanking the entire team individually and pausing mid-celebration to kiss his wife Corinna so tenderly it’s in the F1 opening. Also, the way it literally cuts from the rest of McLaren looking like they’re attending a funeral to Mika grinning at him and hugging him fucking SENDSSSSS me.

Schumi was a little shit in all the 2010-12 press conferences like, lowering Lewis’ chair, playing with a microphone wire, but ESPECIALLY corrupting baby Seb and getting him to mess with Nico Rosberg.

He’s just GOOFY! Like I refuse to let him be remembered as a terrifying force of nature he was so goofy kind of similarly to Seb. PLEASE watch this incredibly awkward interview he did with Coulthard on a golf buggy where they both had to pretend they hadn’t thought about murdering each other at least once. I think Sky F1 should force Brocedes to do this when covid’s over. “Do you mind if I drive?” “Yes.”

EDIT: I CANNOT BELIEVE I forgot the 1999 Canada press conference where Eddie Irvine and Mika Hakkinen get into a water fight and Schumi immediately grabs a towel and hides behind it and is like “I had NOTHING to do with it” 🥺 adorable, actually

A lot of people at Ferrari, including Rob Smedley (who was on the other side of the garage with Felipe Massa so not in his inner circle) have said that a lot of the success of the team came from Schumi’s LEADERSHIP more than anything, that he’d make the team get together to bond all the time. When Schumi moved to Ferrari in 1996 they were NOT dominant. He did the same thing Lewis did - went to a team that everybody said would be a huge mistake and helped build them up behind the scenes.

THIS bit of the Canada 2011 Rewind where his engineer gives him the strategy and he’s like “... OkaAaAaAay?” and then when it turns out to be the wrong strategy he cheerfully tells them it’s too late. Little shit.

Speaking of Mercedes I also wanna say that like. They were a MESS in 2012 and his car DNF’d because of a failing on their part MULTIPLE times. (In Canada qualifying his DRS was stuck open and they couldn’t close it.) He did not say a single bad word about them EVER even though the press used this to attack him non-stop as washed-up and bad without Ferrari to cheat for him. At Ferrari he was the exact same with the team, any bastard antics Schumi had for his rivals did not extend to the engineers and crew.

OK this one is soured bc Top Gear is trash BUT if you were like, a kid in England who followed motorsports? Schumi’s fake reveal as The Stig on Top Gear was like the coolest, sickest thing,

Please view this image of Schumi and Mika when they were young and stupid

Iconic Races

ok so I have limited myself to a few races that show off some of his key strengths!

Hungary 1998 / France 2004 - STRATEGY/SPEED - Schumi switched to a 3 stop strategy in 98 and a FOUR STOP strategy in 04 and won both races. In order for the strategy call to work he’d have to basically make every single lap a qualifying style ‘flying lap’ and you best fucking believe he DID THAT. God I fucking miss when Ferrari was the king of strategy.

Argentina 1998 -  has it all. Talent, battling Mika, pit lane mind games with mclaren, and bullying coulthard xxx

Spain 1996 / a majority of the wet races - RAIN - One of Schumi’s nicknames was Rain Master bc he was so fucking good in the wet. If it started raining and you were a Schumi stan you were cackling evilly before the red lights even went out. I single out 1996 bc it was his first win for Ferrari and it was unexpected but in most wet races, even Canada 2011 post comeback, you can see Schumi thriving.

Malaysia 1999 - Schumi missed pretty much the entire second half of the season with a broken leg, came back for the last 2 races with everybody murmuring about whether he would struggle, and immediately put the Ferrari on pole. Also worth noting is that he was the number 2 driver for these 2 races bc his teammate Irvine was fighting Mika for the championship and he went along with that without complaint, allowing Ferrari to win the constructor’s championship if not the driver’s.

Monza 2002, 03, 04, or 06 just because it has the energy of the tifosi kneeling at the feet of an idol to their red god.

Brazil 2006 - Fuck All Y’all - Schumi’s last race for Ferrari. He got a puncture and ended up almost lapped, and then drove his way back from that to 4th bc he couldn’t go out without reminding us he’s a bad bitch.

Monza 2012 - Defending - Don’t tell F1 Twitter that there’s actual footage of Lewis and Michael having a genuine lengthy battle on track but DO watch Michael defending like a motherfucker and Lewis breathing down his neck for half the race we need to talk about this more.

Valencia 2012 - This isn’t necessarily anything special but I cried in my living room over the only podium of his comeback so it goes on here. It doesn’t have the same impact if you haven’t been watching him struggle with the car for years, DNF-ing from car failure most of 2012, and having BBC F1 telling you he’s washed up every single weekend, but you can just enjoy one of the best drives of FERNANDO’S entire career as he DRAGS that Ferrari by its hair to a home grand prix win and then watch the crowds embrace him like jesus and also Schumi being happy on the podium. Also, the very start of this clip from the press conference: him forgetting what language he’s supposed to be speaking 

Basically, Schumi was a hyper-competitive ambitious bitch who turned into a goofball as soon as he switched the engine off. This is by NO MEANS everything if I was making an exhaustive best races guide I’d do more research and another post but I hope this is what you were looking for?? THANK YOU SO MUCH for letting me go MAXIMUM SPECIAL INTEREST and I apologize.

[fallingfor-fics]

Teachers Pet-chapter 13: the test

All chapters

chapter 12

I was just leaving the Great Hall and was walking to DADA with Harry and Ron, discussing what we were thinking we would do in class today, since neither of us wanted to attend. We walked into the classroom and I noticed Lockhart wasn't there yet, thank Merlin, maybe he would be absent today. We sat down and got our supplies out patiently waiting. I heard Ron whispering to Harry and nudging his arm.

 Lockhart entered and gave a brief overview of what we would be doing in class today. I heard more whispers from the pair and turned to look at them, "What are you two whispering about?" I said in a hushed tone. "Nothing" they both said and I just rolled my eyes. I then felt a tap on my shoulder and turned to see Harry smiling at me. "Um Y/n I wanted to ask you something." he said clearly scared and looking back at Ron. "Well what is it?" I said wishing he would just ask already. "Potter! L/n! Shhh Im speaking!" Lockhart interrupted. He continued blabbing about the lesson and I turned back to Harry. "What was it?" I whispered. "Oh, um well I was wondering If you wanted to go to the Yule Ball with me?" he spat out quietly. I was taken aback clearly, shocked since I had no Idea Harry liked me. I felt kinda bad because I didn't feel the same and I didnt want to hurt his feelings. He could tell it was taking me a minute to think it over. Harry was just so sweet, too sweet, I didn't really like cheesy sweet boys, they are a little soft for my personality, which is why it was gonna be so hard to say no. "Look Harry, you're one of the nicest guys I have had in my life, but I just dont think its a good idea, im sorry, I'm positive you can find someone better to take, like Ginny maybe?" I said with a compassionate smile.

   I could see his face soften and he frowned a bit, "Oh that's alright I totally understand, I just figured y'know neither of us had dates yet, but no worries." he said as he turned and focused back on Lockhart. I felt so guilty for doing that, he was such a good friend, but I just couldn't see us having a good time at the ball. I did the same and focused on Lockhart and we spent the rest of class in silence.

   Once class ended I muttered small goodbyes to Harry and Ron and quickly sped out of the room not wanting to deal with the aftermath of that whole situation. "Hey Y/n" Draco said walking up to me like he did everyday, "Hey Draco, ready for the potions test?" I said as we walked to the dungeons. "Mm yeah I guess I mean I've been ready haha." he said with a cocky smile. I rolled my eyes, "How was DADA? Hope you didn't hex Lockhart again." He said laughing. "It was fine, and fuck off," I said playfully pushing him"Something strange did happen though," I said looking down at my books, "Harry asked me to the Yule Ball.." I said looking at him. "What?! Potter? What a joke!" he said scoffing "I hope you didn't say yes!" he added. "No I didn't, he's too sweet and I just don't feel that way about him, but I feel really bad about it. He looked upset." I said looking back down. "Oh I'm sure he'll be just fine, plus you need a man to take you to the ball, certainly not Potter." he snarled, I elbowed him and gave him a look, "Hey be nice! He's still one of my friends you know." "Yeah yeah." he said mockingly,  as we entered the potions classroom and took our seats in the front. Snape wasnt here yet so we all waited patiently. I got my supplies out and opened my book looking over the material one last time. The door flew open and Snape came walking in, his robes billowing behind him like usual. I felt a small smile creep to my face at the act, he always looked so stunning when he did that, so...powerful. I realized what I was doing and quickly looked back at my book and dropped the smile.

   "Ok class, put your textbooks away and clear off your tables, I will now be handing out your tests, you'll have all of class to complete them, no more and no less. You will get your grades back tomorrow, come drop them on my desk when you are finished and return to your seat quietly." He spewed, the same speech he gave before every test, he began walking around the class handing out the tests and came to my table last, he handed one to Draco and then to me, I looked up at him as he handed it over and smiled saying thank you, he just nodded and looked to have given and very small smirk, as if to say "Good luck" I took a deep breath and began on the test. It was 100 questions which was no surprise since we have a 2 hour class period for potions. 40 minutes had gone by and I was on question 36, which wasn't very good, as Draco was on 49. I needed to pick up the pace if I wanted to finish in time. An hour and a half had now passed and several kids had already finished, I was feeling pretty good so far and was on question 70 something, feeling like I was losing my mind at all the words on the page. Before I knew it Draco was getting up and turning his in. I was almost done, only 5 questions left and 15 minutes left. When I finished there were only three kids still working on theirs, I looked up at Snape who was going over essays and he looked up at me. We made eye contact and I quickly looked back at my test, checking over all my answers. I let out a breath and cracked my knuckles as I stood and slowly walked up to Snape, "All done" I said nervously handing it to him, he looked up and took it from me, and his fingertips brushed mine very softly and quickly as he took it from me, and as soon as he did, out of fear and embarrassment, I snatched my hand away and smiled awkwardly, walking back to my table and putting my head down. I dozed off for the last 10 minutes of class, awakening to Draco shoving me telling me it was time to leave, I sat up and saw most of the class had left.

   I grabbed my stuff and we went for the door, "Actually, Ms. L/n may I speak to you." I froze scared it was about the hand thing, or maybe the Dumbledore thing this morning. I shooed off Draco saying I'd catch up and walked over to stand next to Snape's desk. He stood up and I followed him with my eyes, keeping eye contact to get any sense of what this was about. "I went ahead and decided to grade your test as soon as you turned it in." He said in his usual tone, not giving me any clue as to what I got. Making the suspense and tension build more. "Oh gosh. It's bad isn't it? I failed, didn't i? Oh merlin Professor im so sor-" I began to ramble when he didn't speak but he cut me off, "Y/n calm down." He said and I could feel a slight blush at the use of my first name. He handed me my test and I kept my eyes on his not looking down at it yet. "Wooo ok I can do this" I said giggling a bit, I looked down and my eyes went wide. Written in red ink and circled at the top was a 92. A fucking. 92. I looked back up at him and my jaw dropped. "OH MY GOSH I DID IT!" I practically screamed, jumping up and hugging the paper. "I can't believe I passed and with a 92 this is the happiest moment of my life!" I said smiling up at him.

In fit of adrenaline and serotonin overdose I threw my arms around him and hugged him. He went stiff and I realized what I was doing and quickly threw myself off. "Oh my I'm so sorry Sir, that was so inappropriate, I was just so happy" I said blushing hard and feeling a very strong nervous tingle, which it was I decided to call them, and looked up at him. "It's quite alright Y/n, I'm very proud of you, you worked hard and it paid off, good job." He said with a very small, but visible smile. I smiled big back at him and gestured to him, "I got you to smile too! This is amazing!" I said giggling. "Alright alright enjoy it while it lasted because that's the first and last time you'll see it." he said back in his normal tone and sat back down in his chair. We went silent for a moment as I just stared at my test. "I'm gonna frame this" I joked to which he just looked up at me and smirked a bit. "I cant thank you enough Professor, If you hadn't helped me and stayed up all night tutoring me, I would have been seeing another 50" I said with a calmer and genuine tone. "Of course, Ms-...Y/n, Im proud." he said and I put my head down to hide the blush, I felt rush to my cheeks at the sound of him saying my name, this was getting out of hand. "Ok well, I will see you in tutoring tomorrow. Goodbye Severus." I said with a sarcastic grin and walking out of the class before he could scold me for the use of his first name.

   I walked out of the school to the yard and sat in front of the tree that overlooked the lake. I closed my eyes and took in the fresh air listening to the quiet sound of the lake's water. I looked down at my test paper and smiled, he told me good job and I felt so proud to have pleased him, thinking of the potions professor and how he was such a different man to me now than he was when we first met, he was still his normal self 90% of the time, but he would let the kindness shine through every now and again when I would talk with him. I can't believe I hugged him, I thought. He felt warm for such a cold man, and he smelt nice, like parchment and firewhiskey. That smell would forever be burned in my head. And he smiled and it lit up my dark world for that fraction of a second. Looking in his dark eyes as he was truly proud of me, made my heart beat faster, he was so...beautiful to me, despite what others thought of him, he was an amazing man. I felt the nervous tingle again, only this one lingered on. I leaned my head back on the tree and felt a single tear slid down my face. I let out a breath and opened my eyes wiping it away quickly, and grew scared for a moment. I wasn't sure if it was a tear of joy, or a tear or worry, for I had just begun to realize, the nervous tingle I felt around him was butterflies, the ones Hermione had told me about, and the feelings I had, were for my Potions Professor.

[seokiie]

𝚁𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚌𝚒𝚕𝚎 (𝙼)

+ 𝘚𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘺: 𝘏𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘰𝘬 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳.

+ 𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵: 1.6𝘬

+ 𝘗𝘢𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨: 𝘏𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘰𝘬/𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

+ 𝘞𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴: 𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱, 𝘶𝘯𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘹, 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘵 𝘢𝘵 𝘧𝘭𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘺 𝘴𝘮𝘶𝘵, 𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨

"Jagiyaa.."

"Hoseok, what is your issue?" Hoseok had you in a firm back hug, pulling your back flush against his chest. You were starting to get annoyed.

"My issue? You usually welcome me home when I get back from the studio but you were hiding off in our room today. What's wrong?" He whines in your ear and you groan.

"You just-" You cut yourself off knowing you sound a little more hostile than you should. "It's just that you come home so late nowadays. And- and I know its comeback season but... I don't see you anymore." It feels dumb complaining about these things because you know Hoseok really can't control it.

The room falls silent and Hoseok loosens his arms around you. You turn around and sit on your shared bed waiting for his response.

"I didn't know you felt that way." Hoseok crosses his arms, face contorted in thought. "Now that I look back, I do get home later than a usual husband should... Will you forgive me if I come home sooner?" He raises his eyebrows, waiting for your approval.

One of the things you love most about Hoseok is that he's such an easy person to negotiate with, but even now you didn't expect him to comply so easily. Your shock must show on your face because suddenly he's laughing and stepping forward.

"Jagi, I hate when you're mad at me... It makes me sad." Your eyes follow Hoseok's as he crawls on top of you, gently pushing you back from your sitting position till your back hits the bed.

"Well, I don't want you to be sad..." You watch something darker cloud Hoseok's eyes as you let one of your hands wrap themselves in the hair at his nape.

"You know what would make me so happy right now?" As soon as those words leave Hoseok's mouth and a little smirk forms on his face, you're leaning up and pressing your lips to his.

You know you shouldn't give into Hoseoks sneaky tactics to win you over, but you haven't touched him or felt his body against yours in so long. Honestly, you deserve this.

Quickly, you're reminded of how soft Hoseok's lips are and you can feel the way he smirks when you let out a quiet moan.

"Oh, I really have missed you." He pulls back and carefully rubs a thumb over your cheek, a mix of love and lust in his eyes. Despite being with him for all these years, the gesture still manages to get you all flustered.

"I've just been working on this choreography... and I forgot how good you taste." Hoseok's lips are on yours again before you can say anything, one of his hands moving down to the hem of your shirt.

"Ah, wait- wait."  When Hoseok feels your hand wrap around his wrist, his motion stops almost immediately. He gives you a confused look.

"We don't- you don't have to... I can keep my shirt on.." Way to sound natural, y/n. Hoseok knew you were still a bit insecure about your body, and he always wondered why. In your opinion, you were too skinny, your boobs were too small, and you didn't have the curves your friends had. Sometimes, you really wondered why Hoseok would want to be with you instead of someone with a way hotter body.

In Hoseok's opinion, your body was perfect, designed especially for him. He loved the feeling of pulling you close to him and wrapping his arms around your small frame. Don't get him started on your chest. He could write a 12-page essay on how much he loved your chest. One page would be dedicated to how sensitive they were and how much he loved having his mouth on them.

"Y/n-ahh, you know how much I love your boobs. Please don't hide from me..." Hoseok's eyes soften and your grip on his wrist softens too.

At that, Hoseok makes quick work of your shirt and tosses it across the room. You keen as his hands wander up the expanse of your body before stopping at your chest. Part of you finds it hot the way his big hands completely cover your chest and Hoseok knows this.

"Your... your pants." He was so focused on you that he forgot about himself. Fortunately, when he looks down, you're already unzipping his uncomfortable skinny jeans and shimmying them down his thighs. Your mouth practically waters at the sight of his thickening hardness in his boxers.

"Aishh, it feels like you only want me for my dick, hm?" Hoseok watches as your eyes are trained on his clothed length. When he twitches, you can't help letting out a moan.

"Hobi..." Hoseok didn't mind the use of his nickname. Matter of fact, he'd love it in any other scenario. But right now, you underneath him thirsting, practically begging with your eyes for his cock. That nickname just seemed far too innocent for what was about to happen.

Hoseok presses his lips to yours, cutting off whatever you were gonna say and flipping you over so he was now the one on the bottom.

"You want to do it like this?" Your words come out as more of a breathy gasp because suddenly, this new position had your core pressing directly into Hoseok's throbbing length.

"Mmh, fuck yes. Just like this." Hoseok shuts his eyes tightly, his nails almost digging into your waist as he struggled not to grind against your heat.

You raise yourself a bit to slowly slide his boxers down. You can feel the way you gush at the sight of his cock springing free, dripping with precum as if excited to see you.

Hoseok knew how much you loved this position, how much you loved riding him. Knowing he hasn't been the ideal husband lately, he really wants to give you everything he can.

"God, I've missed you." Hoseok watches, eyes dark and heavy as you slide your panties to the side (too lazy and hurried to take them off) and situate yourself above his cock.

"I've missed you t- mmh..." You cut yourself off with a moan as you slowly lower yourself onto his length. The feeling of him stretching you open and his cock throbbing inside you is what you can only describe as euphoric.

Hoseok loves it. He loves the way your body trembles with pleasure as you take more and more of his cock till you're fully seated on him. He loves the way your hips twitch as you try to get used to the stretch. Most importantly he loves you.

"You're- you're so tight. I'm- have you touched yourself these past few weeks?" Hoseok combs a hand through his damp hair and you really can't help admiring how good he looks with his forehead exposed, face almost completely fucked out.

"Only to the thought of you." You start to pick up your pace, slowly raising and lowering yourself into him. Your hands, looking for anything to hold onto, knead at his toned stomach.

"You think of me?" Ok, yeah. That was an obvious question and Hoseok would've definitely mentally facepalmed himself if he wasn't... in the middle of something. Who else would you even think of?

"Only you. I only think of you, Hobi." Hoseok will definitely need to talk to you about your use of his nickname in the bedroom because it was doing a lot of things to him.

As your pace starts to get faster and needier, Hoseok notices how tired you're getting, your moans turning into breathless gasps. His hands grip your waist, supporting your weight. He starts to thrust into you as he brings your hips down and it has him going even deeper than before.

"Feels also amazing. You're so beautiful, jagi." Hoseok lets his head fall back onto the pillow before bringing his hand to the nape of your neck and pulling you in for a short-winded kiss. Well, it's less of a kiss and more of the two of you moaning into each other's mouth.

Hoseok knows by the way your hips stutter and how your walls tighten around him that you're close. It's almost surprising because you don't usually come that quickly.

"Ah, I love it. I love you, Hoseok-" Your moans of his name are like music to his ears and he finds himself on the edge of his own peak.

"Fuck, I love you, too." Hoseok fucks you through your orgasm, your lips staying on his until you pull away to breathe. Even then, he admires the pretty face you make as you come down from your high.

"Ah, gonna come... I'm gonna-" Hoseok thrusts inside you a few more times before he's finishing, pumping every drop of himself inside you with lazy strokes.

Even though he's starting to go limp, he stays inside you. Eyes glazed over in bliss meet yours and a goofy smile spreads across your face. One of Hoseok's favorite things is seeing you happy; nothing makes his heart ache more than coming home to you frowning.

When you climb off of Hoseok (aka your personal seat), you consider heading straight to the bathroom and cleaning up so there's no sticky mess in the morning. Instead, you find yourself curling into your husband's body.

"You're not mad anymore?" Hoseok laughs and lets a comforting hand draw slow circles into your back. You simply laugh in response.

"Don't push it, Seokie." It doesn't take long for you to drift off into slumber and Hoseok follows suit. It's nice having you back.

(Even if he never lost you)

*unedited*

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[© seokiie]

[I do not allow any translating, editing, reposting, or use of any my work!!]

[harryfeatgaga]

I’ll describe the hug to you. Not in a braggy way just so my fellow horny bitches can live vicariously through me. So it took me 3 minutes to work up the nerve to say something. My mind was racing. Time was literally of the essence. It was nice tho cus it was early so there weren’t many ppl so if I did happen to completely fucking embarrass myself, not many people would witness 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 SO i had just walked in, im standing in line behind him waiting to order and he finishes ordering, pays and goes to wait for his food and i order, pay and go wait for my food. We’re both standing there and I think to myself “it’s now or fuckin never Windsor” (that’s my name lol yes I talk to myself) AND SO I just lose control of my body and I laugh and I’m like “I’m so sorry if this is annoying, I’m a huge fan. My brother loves you” and he smiled and was so nice!!!!!! He was like “never annoying thank you so much” he reached out to shake my hand and we shook hands (I could write a 12 page essay on the firmness of his handshake alone but anyways...) and I think he could tell I was nervous so he reached in for a hug. A LITERAL WARM EMBRACE LIKE FUCK OH MY GOD HIS BODY?????? It’s even better in person. We always say harry seems like he’s a warm person and I can confirm that CHRIS EVANS is warm as well. My arms barely fit around his upper body. Bro he’s so buff not scary ugly buff but just fit??? He’s just fuckin perfect. So that was like a 5 second hug and all of a sudden I feel better, I feel more comfortable and I’m like “do you care if we take a pic” and he WAS SO CHILL he was like “let’s do it” so im holding out stupid ass arm and she’s too short, she’s disappointing me. I’m having trouble getting both of us in the frame and THATS WHEN he laughed against my ear like I felt his breath against my ear and he was like “here I’ll do it” and so I got the pic and he’s like “do I look good” and laughs some more “just kidding” 😭😭😭😭😭 then seriously asked “is it good tho??” And I’m like of course thank you so much and that’s literally when they sent both of our orders down and he’s like “perfect timing” and started walking out and he turned the way I was supposed to go but I didn’t want him to think I was following him and he turned around and yelled “nice meeting you!!! hopefully see you around!!!” and yes I did walk 7 blocks in the opposite direction. Just me n my salad on top of the world. I called off work and went home and took the best nap of my life cus I swear I had a panic attack or maybe it was just adrenaline. But yeah Chris is the best

OH MY FUCKIJNG GOD HBTUIJFHGYVU I LOVE THIS SO MUCH IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUEHBFGUIJFHB THIS IS AMAZING ALSO ‘ so im holding out stupid ass arm and she’s too short, she’s disappointing me. ‘ TOOK ME THE FUC KOUTTTTGJHFUIDJFCJNHEJFNJ

[letamreviews]

A Response - Cuties (2020): Missing the Point

Text Aloud (3:18) version removed (for licensing reasons). Audio version to be done (eventually).

This here’s a refined version of a short write up I originally made in response to a movie peep’s review for Cuties, in which she explained how much she was against the ”voyeuristic camera.“

(page break included just before Minor Spoilers)

And~ here we go. The close-up shots are to bring us back to the reality of the situation. To make it clear that these 11 year-olds are imitating the adults they see in media and, in doing so, knowingly sexualizing themselves (but without full understanding). To avert the camera for us would be to maintain a lie of the matter. That things aren't that bad. That "yeah, they're dancing provocatively, but it's nothing to be too worried about." Four moments make clear the seriousness of what's going on clear, 1) the age lie, 2) the begging, 3) the dancer proof, 4) the nodding head. Hell, anybody who wants the film removed or restricted from adult viewing is essentially demanding that others stop providing the option of seeing the world. Kinda like telling news channels not to show footage of atrocities.

Since I never got around to writing a full essay elaborating on my standpoint, see the following videos.

female perspectives

I watched Cuties and it was Disturbing - caffinejedi

The Cuties conversation is infuriating. - For Harriet

'Cuties' was CHAOTIC...and Complex. - Tee Noir

male perspectives

WE WATCHED CUTIES & ITS COMPLICATED - Aba & Preach

If you want to PROTECT KIDS, shows like Dance Moms need to go. - Aba & Preach

to actually see kids of various ages dancing to today's music like it's completely normal

Ciara - Level Up - Choreography by @thebrooklynjai​

Ciara - Level Up (official music video) - Ciara

As far as examples of the worst things they did in the film goes,... I don't really want to search for any. Fortunately, Aba & Preach bring up a few in their first video and show some in the second. Here’s one of them.

Next Generation Dancers - Sierra Neudeck - TJ & the Lil Mama's - Sierra Neudeck

tl;dr: The close-up shots are a dark mirror into which society must either gaze or voluntarily avert itself from.

06/12/22 Edit: For reasons involving flags, I’ve personally cancelled Aba & Preach. The links will remain because I don’t feel like digging up other male perspectives. 🤷🏿‍♂️ 08/13/23 Edit: Tee Noir‘s video has been added to the “female perspectives” list.

Clarification:

While the N-word is typically used in Aba & Preach’s videos, I don’t take kindly to the term. What I’m getting at is do not test my patience with it. No, I don’t owe you an explanation. Do some research instead.

Addition: (Minor Spoilers)

I just realized/remembered something while going through my screenshots. The baking soda scene was representative of their age and parenting. Notice the method Angelica used to help Amy’s wound heal faster. Not the product. How she went about it.

Instead of water, she used spit.

Instead of licking her finger, she spat/drooled on it from above the open bag of baking soda.

Instead of doing it neatly, she leaves a mess on her forehead.

It’s debatable how much of this is reflective of their age vs parents’ lack of taking the time to teach them things, but ‘eh. Truth be told, though, the fact that she knows a trick like that makes me wonder about her home environment, especially considering her conflicts with her older brother.

Real quick, tho. There’s also the noticeable neglect of her younger siblings the more she gets into the popular / cool / internet famous lifestyle. Could write an essay on that shit alone, but fuck it I’m done.