#firsttranspresident

[healthgnome]

FAK; Important Gaslighting / Manipulation

Ok so. Upon request to find something in my camera roll I found the set of videos I took when I was being gaslit by Tobias/Isaiah. Idk if they’ve all been posted before but this will be a specific post for just these.

I haven’t watched them in.. months. Because I really haven’t wanted to, that’s why they aren’t on my phone. But, I did today, and felt genuinely sick to my stomach. I have a hard time taking in negative information about those I associate myself with, even in past, because of inner moral turmoil, largely. But I cannot ignore the blatant manipulation and ignorance of how awful the situation was handled.

Please keep in mind that while I may seem composed in my repetition of how I don’t believe in what Tobias/Isaiah is saying, it is breaking me and hurting me because I can’t know that for sure, it’s why I recorded the videos and sent them to a group chat.

Anyway, here are said videos. [Under the keep reading line, so as to make the post less large.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dwJS2LJYvKM&feature=youtu.be

In this one, and I’m still not sure of the truth, I heard my name by said, very quietly, and Tobias/Isaiah said he was trying to sleep. (On my bed, with me there.) But his mouth was just the slightest bit agape and it sounded like my name came from his mouth. This is denied vehemently. Again, still no idea if I really did hallucinate or not.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpKI5iOZvnk&feature=youtu.be

More of the same. There's also laughing at the situation. (I’m not.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ri-1kAuITuc&feature=youtu.be

Now I’ve been told I don’t exist, I’m in a mental hospital and made Tobias/Isaiah and his story up in order to cope. Being told nothing is real, my phone isn’t real, it’s all my subconscious. (My phone is a very important thing to tether me to reality. It connects me.) Saying he died, being strange.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E6I9sswRhKg&feature=youtu.be

Keeps up that this isn’t real. Saying he told me “stories” (his traumas) that were all bs bc obviously none of it would happen if it were real. Saying his parents killed him, trying to logic that it wouldn’t make sense for him to live through abuse and then be raped twice. Keeps up that I’m in a mental hospital.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7i3bPWAjK0&feature=youtu.be

Telling me he cannot be hurt because he isn’t real. Keep trying to logic that it’s not real. Insulting himself to logic that this isn't real. Driving me out of my mind.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hORxAO6HQU&feature=youtu.be

Referring to himself in the third person; “Is he trying to make you have delusions?” Continuing the same story, trying to be creepy, laughing loudly at himself. Telling me that I’m not real. Trying to tell me I’m trying to cope. In the end he says “Ok yeah you’re real if you wanna believe that.” Then laughs but the video cuts off again.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BQtvXXQJ1RA&feature=youtu.be

This video is very quiet, almost as if in a tone of guilt but is still smiling. Stares at me for a period of time smiling, then says, “I’m real.” Laughs, “I wanna kill myself that’s all.” Apologizes, asks if I want to beat him up, tells me to do it, and says he did this because “Allan did it to me so I wanted to do it to somebody else.” He keeps talking about how he wants to die, kill himself, how he wants me to beat him to death. Laughs more, then brings up the name thing again.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rhms_lQ3TQ&feature=youtu.be

Tobias/Isaiah tries to get me to trust him, tries to touch me at the beginning. Claims he’s my best friend. (I’m not adding that out of meanness it just feels like it’s all part of the manipulation and potential guilt-tripping.) Laughs, says he’s going to act normal again and then negates it completely with voice changing and other things. Continues to insult himself, begs for my trust, and keeps trying to claim he's my best friend. He hits himself to claim he’s real, then does so again for the fun of it. In the end he is playing with a bracelet he found in his basement, slowly smiling, denying my mockery of his gaslighting and laughs again as if this isn’t serious.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3sf9eNsMak&feature=youtu.be

In this last video Tobias claims to have just woken up. More laughing throughout the video. Asks me not to kill myself and saying he cares about me, in his quiet voice. He comes forth about being awake, but continues denying the name thing, and using different weird voices. He says he knows I’m mad bc I have “psycho tits” (psychosis). He claims how worried he is about me bc I hallucinated, keeps telling me I have psychosis. Tobias/Isaiah expresses how people with psychosis often hear voices and whispers, he says that “now you’re trying to pin that on me.” Accusatorily, as if I were doing something bad by not believing I hallucinated. He mentions a girl who was at the hospital who heard voices and began to believe she could read people’s thoughts. I explain that I don't believe I can, I was told maybe I could because through the friendship Tobias/Isaiah claimed that I’m magic, and in this instance used that to say that maybe I could read thoughts. I took it as that, upset about it all, and he agreed and told me he believes it.

Sorry I got more detailed per video it.. happens with me.

Anyway Tobias/Isaiah is not someone to be trusted, is a manipulator and a gaslighter, and laughs about it throughout a now blaringly obviously bs apology.

Thank you for taking the time to read/watch these videos. Please spread them, this isn’t a safe person, especially not with the information out, and how many vulnerable people who follow him and look up to him.

[ifwomencounted]

Are you kidding me that you're against prostitution? Yeah, no one should be forced or coerced into sex work. That's not the fault of prostitutes who actually wanna do sex work.

i mean like i don’t think ur understanding why i’m against sex work (NOT SEX WORKERS DO NOT CONFUSE THAT) as a whole. i answered a similar message like two weeks ago go read that.

but i’m not against sex workers. i’m against the system that commodifies sex. i’m against a system where 90% of women want out but have no other options. i’m aginast a system that gives women the illusion of choice when the two choices are sex work and homelessness/starvation/etc.

at no point did anybody talk about the women who just LOOOVE sex work. no we’re talking about the MAJORITY of women who are forced into it, either by the need for money in a capitalist society or by trafficking. this has always been a conversation about women who are suffering under prostitution. why do the small minority who choose to cam or whatever get a louder voice than the ones who are being beaten or killed by their pimps? do you actually listen to actual sex workers or just the ones on tumblr who are so disillusioned by choice feminism and feminism that caters to men?

[thehighpriestofreverseracism]

So waddup Black tumblr, I’m constantly trying to find new music and I figured what better way to find new music and interact with tumblr peeps than coming up with a challenge.

#10tunes challenge:

Put your music (spotify, amazon music, apple music whatever) on shuffle


Screenshot the first 10 tracks (you can’t skip any tracks! Even the wack stuff has to get screenshotted if it comes on lol!!)


Post the screenshot and then tag 10 mates/bloggers (+the person who tagged you), so that those 10 can do the same

TAG THE POST #10tunes

(sidenote: don’t feel pressured in to doing this...if you don’t want to join in it’s cool too haha)

tagging these bosses: @itsmadeinchynna @adahjones @fivefeethigh @ibiprofen @cunfusion @aristotleatnight @firsttranspresident @bellajewels @miss2pcandabiscuit @darmoksokath

[healthgnome]

I don’t want to saturate my blog entirely with this utter bullshit but remember how @for-abused-kids @firstnonbinarypresident literally said, himself, that he’s a compulsive liar? Yeah just thought that was vital lol.

Beyond that his mental state? Or his state of reality? Yeah not great either.

Maybe I just want too much to see the positive in people, it feels like he really wants to do this for the sake of good, but is too stuck up his own, compulsively lying, genuinely delusional ass to see any sense of intelligence or higher moralism in not going through with this fricken ICE raid nonsense.

Please,,, for the love of everything right in the world,,, don’t let anyone follow in his heavy, bloodied, footseps. For your own sakes, and for the sake of the many in these military camps. Only harm will be done. There’s so many flaws in every step of the way, regardless of how much he may be keeping hidden on discord, or whatever platforms he’s using.

Thank you to @thevvytchbytch for this screenshot-documentation of Tobias/Isaiah’s own, declared unreliability.

(Also, yes, he has harmed people. Whether that’s on purpose or a horribly unstable reality. He’s untrustworthy.)

***please check my reblog of this post

[healthgnome]

FAK is a Liar

Was going to make a post about this with all the screenshots BUT I was looking through my texts and came across this.

Now, I found out that he was in a discord server in which he doxxed someone, and spread super crappy and blatant lies about us, amongst manipulating and whatnot.

Here’s what he said:

Yellow is STOLEN FROM ME. I said that I didn’t like doing this bc it sets off my paranoia, morally it can hurt me, and that I need help to control myself bc when everyone gets a thousand things it feels like I Need to as well.

Red is a blatant lie; he got us caught that day bc of something mindnumbingly stupid, didn’t get in trouble and put everything back, of course. We didn’t make him steal money. If he chose to he did, I took picket change.

Blue is for a reason; he’d be blamed BECAUSE IT WAS HIS FAULT

Green is not how that happened; he wanted us to steal, and Allan kinda got he roped into it a couple times. Allan wanted him to steal alcohol, and moreso than Tobias would have wanted to.

I clearly wasn’t super into it- not really, I don’t want to “collect” from Macy’s.

[healthgnome]

guys PLEASE this account that For Abused Kids is talking about has no power legally, as proof, or as any way to “keep people safe”, and.,,.. WAS NOT HACKED

[healthgnome]

Not trying to post about this more than this tonight but I realized a really good word for FAK is sinister. He’s just. Sinister.

[healthgnome]

The Endocrine Argument Happened

I’m gonna make a couple posts about the videos but the first one that caught me were the fricken endocrines.

On all of these posts contain captions in relation to that dumb fuck of an argument. And the date is highlighted.

Tobias/Isaiah is. A horrendous but consistent liar.

My IG is crossed out but if you actually want it DM me lol. I don’t trust that people won’t use it against me rn lol

[healthgnome]

just btw he changed his tumblr url

Yemb thank I went on a whole reblog spree with it lol

Unless you were saying this is a joke bc of said spree than sorry for filthing up your dash

ANYWAY FAK/For-Abused-Kids/Tobias/Isaiah IS NOW @traumaticbackstory

[healthgnome]

Why is fak acting so incredibly immature and childish in those videos? How old was he even?

That’s a good question. He was often like that ngl. Like. He’s a really weird person to be around IRL. Sometimes it was definitely because of.. something.. other times he’s just. Like that.

At the time of the videos FAK was 17, they happened late, late 2017/early 2018. He’s turning 19 in September I think?

[healthgnome]

Wasn’t going to post this but Isaiah’s trying to go back to posting as if none of anything has happened and he’s done too much for him to not acknowledge half of it properly.

ANYWAY he’s a hyprocrite.

“Don’t talk over abused kids” like? How he constantly talks over POC; esp black people, esp black women? Really tried to find a way this was either mis-typed or meant to say something else and I actually really cannot.

The context of the post is about how CPS is bad, how to go about potentially reporting your parents if it’s a must, and how everyone mad at him is obviously nurtured and no one knows shit about abuse.

[healthgnome]

I mean not only are these two completely separate matters but this was a pretty understandable question met with intensely harsh response from an obvious supporter. Since they.. donated to the raid.

Which was. For every reason a bad idea anyway.

[healthgnome]

seeing the numerous amount of videos you had to make to keep yourself stable that includes tobias' ghostly white face hovering above you makes me so angry that he was able to say all those horrible things to you. no one delights that much in someone's suffering if theyre not a controlling, abusive person >:0 i hope all of his followers that are defending him realize that if hes advocating so much for abused kids he wouldnt pull that kinda shit on someone whose in such a susceptible state

Yeah I have a tendency to record things Just In Case, but at that time it was very much to keep myself grounded, or make sure things were real, I sent a lot of videos to a group chat of all of us for like.. outside help.

Some of it I recorded for funsies and it still.. showcases a lot of crap I didn’t realize was so bad at the time.

I spent a lot of time with Tobias so a lot are about him bc.. being around him IRL is seriously such a trip. It’s. So bizarre and he’d often trigger my psychosis whether or not on purpose. But at the time I just thought “hey you can relate to me on this” but idk now.

You’re so right he really is really controlling and no one of good mind would want to do such awful things. I really hope all his young followers stay the fuck away,,

[healthgnome]

This is just me being finicky mostly but there was a threshold between when weed would like. Just calm me down a bit and when I’d start basically tripping on acid.

If I exceeded that threshold (and I was in a nonventilated room (big oops))- I had started to trip off my shit and it was one of the worst experiences of my life without exaggeration. I don’t want to go into detail rn but physically and mentally I was soo soo out of it and got literally sick. Which,, I felt a lot better after tbh

More important

I’m not even sure I was high when Tobias/Isaiah was gaslighting me. I’m pretty sure that was 100% sober which. Frankly I’d say makes it worse bc he would have had complete and utter control over himself.

[coca-coola]

S T O R Y T I M E

So I’ve been talking myself out of doing this for literal months BUT since my friends and I are being “called out” by this ass, I’m forced to. 

So my friends and I had a friend, and he was always VERY toxic and it just got worse and worse until we were forced to just cut contact. He used my friend for a place to stay after he ran away from his ((fully stocked and wealthy)) household, and ate all their food, made a mess, never showered, convinced them to steal for him, and lied every day about trauma that we could prove didn’t happen and suicide attempts that we were there to witness didn’t happen.

He basically forced me to let him use my bike and pulled a fit when I said he couldn’t use my brand new one, and then took my older one, and ignored me when I told him how to set up the lock. When he came back, my bike was completely broken (gear shifts were nowhere to be found, so it was unrideable), and my expensive bike lock was gone. He SWORE he gave it to me, and when I demanded money to replace it, he told me it wasn’t his problem. We found the bike lock in his stuff a month later. 

He told us to steal for him at his house, because he fed us lies about how his parents stole money and things for him, and then went back and told his parents we went to his house and stole shit when he told us not to. 

He got a shit ton of money each week from his mom when he was leeching off of my friend, and used it all for fast food for himself, all while he was eating them out of house and home and not replacing anything.

He left the house one night, and came back hours later (with not a hair out of place, no bruises or scratches or dirt or anything) and fed us a story about how he just tried to kill himself by jumping off a tower nearby.

He lies about everything, things that don’t even matter. He likes to talk about how he stole $8k worth of diamonds when he was around 15 (although he’s also said 8 too) from a place in the mall (nowhere in our mall has a store that sells unattached diamonds) and how he hid it in his attic and then his mom stole it. this kid can’t steal from Walmart without getting caught but expects us to believe him.

He also loves to tell people about how he had a HOME MRI MACHINE (he’s not rich, just wealthy) and he took pictures of his brain while masturbating to prove he was *actually male* and told us he saw all the “boy hormones” get released in his brain.

He’s also told me personally how he listens to peoples trauma/survivor stories and claims them as his own because he did it to me. 

He also dated a lesbian, which isn’t bad until you hear him brag about how he TOLD HER HE WAS A GIRL/LESBIAN JUST SO HE COULD SLEEP WITH HER. She still doesn’t know he was an OUT-TRANSGUY and on T. 

He runs two Tumblrs, one is supposed to be some support blog @forabusedkids and one is his primary @firsttranspresident . On his support blog, he’s so far claimed to: have Stockholm Syndrome (he’s NEVER been kidnapped), have been financially abused (he means his parents didn’t give him money he demanded and didn’t earn himself), have been medically abused (whatever that means???), and have been a victim of “””child labor””” because he worked on a farm one summer. OH and he claims that he’s “half asian” and he knows this because he saw a picture of his dads gf ((((with no face pic, didn’t look Asian at ALL)))), now all he does is make up stories about how he ‘’’wasn’t allowed to tan by his mother’’’ and how he gets called the N word on the street, and says a shit ton of racist shit about asian people (primarily chinese people), like how they have “kinky, thick hair” (since when??), and has called himself a “Chinese manufactured Tee”.  This boy is WHITE, light blue eyes, and light blonde hair (THIN BLONDE HAIR, I’ve styled and dyed his hair, its the most caucasian it can get, he doesn’t wash it at so to make it look thicker). He has a white savior complex that he decided wasn’t enough so now he’s making up shit. 

He also accused us, his EX-friends who gave him food and a place to stay at NO COST and only received threats from his family in return, of financially abusing him. US, abusing HIM. He’s put us through hell and back and we’re tired of being blamed for the opposite. 

He’s also about to turn 18 and likes to hang out with only 12-14 year olds, and is severely toxic to them, telling them about his (made up) fucked up trauma and putting awful ideas in their heads.

tl;dr Stay away from him. Unfollow his blogs, and don’t give him the time of day. He manipulates, he twists and makes up stories, and he treats his friends and family like shit. 

tl;dr Stay away from him. Unfollow his blogs, and don’t give him the time of day. He manipulates, he twists and makes up stories, and he treats his friends and family like shit. 

[coca-coola]

If @usedandchildabused wasn’t such a liar and a coward, he’d message me instead of putting all our business online for attention

But he is just that; a liar and a coward. That’s why he can’t answer my asks, refute my points correctly, or say anything that’s actually correct.

So just so you guys know, he’s a liar and he’s using his followers for attention.

But whatevs, I really couldn’t care less what he and his asskissers think of me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but if he doesn’t stop saying my name, we’re gonna have a real problem, because I don’t hide behind a screen like him, I live in the real world.