#first tumblr fic let’s gooo

[xxthought-thiefxx]

Corrupted! AU - A New Friend

1 ➟ 2 (coming soon)

Notes: okay I kinda posted this before but the format kept glitching so here we go again new post entirely (formatting on tumblr is hell I’ve learned).

In the spirit of writing more post— (during?) ao3 crisis, have an AU I came up with a while ago. Think Dvalin’s corruption but make it everyone and Celestia is the source (or to those who know what this means: Underfell vibes but genshin). Lumine is the traveler but she’s not named in this part. Also the spacing is weird in the beginning cause tumblr will. fuckimg. delete/duplicate the first paragraph if it isn’t idfk why so whatever, fingers crossed it doesn’t change more stuff after posting this.

w. 702

CW: a lil’ bit of unreality ig?

Summary: Separated from her twin and weaker than ever before, the traveler awakes to a world she knows nothing about. Luckily, a new friend arrives just in time to give her a hand!

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There was almost no difference before the traveler woke and after. The sky was just as black as the back of her eyelids had been; the air just as quiet as her own unconsciousness. It was only as she shifted that she realised she was laying down, atop hot sand and jagged shells. Carefully, the traveler pushed herself up, finally noting the ocean before her, lit up only by the moon’s sickly rays. Waves gently lapped at the shore in front of her, but they made no noise.

“Hi there!”

The squeaky voice thundered through the dead silence. On instinct, the traveler reached for a sword that was no longer there and rolled to her feet—

—only to immediately stumble. She was weakened. Now that she was paying attention, she realised she was operating at but a fraction of her usual power.

What the hell did that god do?

She blinked, focusing on the fact she was no longer alone. Before her was a type of being she had never seen before. It could’ve almost passed for a person, maybe a child, but it seemed too... inhuman.

Had she been anyone else, the traveler would’ve thought it cute. But with the worlds she had seen, the experience she had gained, she knew better. The creature’s innocent grin had teeth too sharp. Its bright-eyed stare was unfathomably deep. A quick blink confirmed that her Sight still remained, an ability she frequently discarded in favour of her more impressive powers. Ironically, or perhaps fittingly, it seemed to be one of the only few she could access.

The Sight acted different in each world she encountered; for every new world she was forced to learn the new meaning assigned to each colour (another reason for its underuse— her brother was the patient one, not her). But in all the places she had been; with all the things she had seen, the traveler had never come across one colour.

Black. Not a dark grey, or an inky blue, but the most infinite of blacks she had ever witnessed. Tendrils of darkness wrapped around the flying creature, slithering over its face and spilling from its mouth, viscous as strings seemed to float through the air towards her—

She blinked again. Gone. The flying creature hovered before her. The traveler assumed she hadn’t been staring for long, and she had certainly forced her face into cooperation lest she give away her horror, but she also couldn’t know if the creature would behave appropriately if she had lost too much time.

Either way, still grinning, it swayed closer to her face.

“Paimon’s name is Paimon!” it chirped. She didn’t dare use her Sight again, not wanting to know how much of that void was making contact with her. “Who are you?”

She hesitated. She wasn’t a fool; some names had power, and some beings had power over names— there were too many reasons to withhold that information.

“I’m…” she paused, carefully choosing her next words, “I’m a traveler—”

“You’re new to Teyvat?” The creature rocketed backwards, barely letting her finish. Its expression of shock was comical and scandalised and... everything but surprised.

She considered how it had only spoke once she was visibly awake; how it had not been in her line of sight beforehand, when surely to be approached that quickly it must have been already moving over to her prone form; how the creature had never mentioned her unconsciousness despite the beach’s flatness allowing one to see all the way to the other end. She considered the convenient timing of this creature once she had awoken, confused and lost and presumably, however incorrect the presumption was, scared.

“Oh! Oh! Paimon has an idea— Paimon could be your guide!” It twirled around for added effect, splaying its palms and shaking them.

The traveler couldn’t trust this creature. She could see its frightening aura, sense its attempts of deception and was unnerved by its false innocence.

But... the traveler was also in completely unknown territory. She was virtually powerless, uncertain of what to do next and— without her brother —alone.

The traveler had never been alone.

In the end, that was all it took for her to say yes.

[hayleythesugarbowl]

Hey! Since you do Smosh headcannons and Athony is now finally back, would you do Anthony dating headcannons? There is so little content on him at the moment and I would love to see more!

anthony padilla x reader headcanons

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ masterlist • smosh masterlist • anthony fic ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

a/n: alright since im basically a smosh blog at this point anthony headcanons let’s gooo!! thank you so much for the request, lovely, i hope you enjoy these headcanons and i hope i could fill the void here on tumblr for my man anthony <3🩰💋

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dating anthony would include…

ok when you first started working at smosh 

and he first found himself attracted to you

he straight up asked you out right away

“look I hope me saying this isn’t out of place because we work together, but I think you’re wonderful and I’d like to go out for coffee sometime”

and y’all have been dating ever since 

he gives the best advice fr

whenever you’re upset and don’t know what to do he’s great at talking you through your problems 

he definitely went with you to get your first tattoo

and he didn’t even flinch when you squeezed his hand so hard he thought you might break something 

you guys have so many deep conversations in the middle of the night 

he is such a good listener 

always has a hand on your back 

or an arm around your shoulder 

and he smells so good all the time

like cologne but it’s not too much ya know?

whenever anything amazing happens in your life he’s so excited and the most supportive person ever 

you wear his jacket 24/7

forehead kisses 

and his hands omg—

we stan a man that wears rings 

and he loves it when you play with them 

you trace his tattoos with your fingers

and he messes with your hair 

you and ian become besties obviously 

like he just loves seeing anthony so happy and it’s all because of you

and he knows everything about you because anthony talks about you all the time 

he loves spoiling you 

“anthony, you didn’t have to do this”

“yes i did, gorgeous, i’d do anything for you”

calls you ‘my love’ and ‘beautiful’

he loves your eyes so much 

you’re his lockscreen

and it’s definitely the most random picture of you that you told him to delete

but he thinks it’s the most adorable picture ever taken

you two just care for each other so much and are so happy together <3

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ˋ°•*⁀➷ hope this is what you wanted!! let me know if you want any other smosh content <3🍓💌

[stocious]

🖤weekly tag wednesday🖤

hey hey hey, ya bitch is back from vacation, lets gooo. thank you for tagging me @jrooc, @creepkinginc, @energievie @doshiart! @thepupperino and @roryonic🖤

how did you get into the fandom? 

i finished the show and needed *more*. and where do the fandoms hang out? the tumblrmachine.

how long have you been here?

two years? nosho?

what’s the first fandom channel you found? (Youtube, Reddit, Tumblr, Insta, Twitter, FB, other?)

probably the kids here. or tiktok.

what’s your favourite now? 

the tumblrmachine.

which mutual have you known the longest in the fandom?

@creepkinginc and @ian-galagher i think.

which tumblerino’s did you have your first fandom crush(es) on and wanted to get to know?

i was creeping so badly over @jomilky and @sluttymickey and @heymacy and @metalheadmickey and now i'm being so brave and tagging yall (hi!)

first Gallavich fan fic you read (or that blew you away that you remember)

the rebuilding series was my first venture into multi chapters and i am on my knees til this day.

first fan art that blew your mind? 

everything by @steorie 🖤

fanfic trope that you were sure wasn’t for you but now you low key (or high key) love?

a/b/o. i didn't understand it at first, but now? i'm down so bad for it. otherwise i haven't ever been that picky honestly.

what surprised you most about this fandom?

the amount of support! everyone gets supported no matter what they do for the fandom and it's a beautiful thing to see. the internet can be a messy fucking place sometimes.

moment in the show (or YT vids if you’re one of those) that you fell in hyperfixation with Gallavich?

idk, i got to s4 and it just struck me out of the blue. i was here for everyone up until that point but then they boys took over.

Ian or Mickey?

mikhailo a. milkovich 🖤

which Gallagher or Milkovich are you? 

i'm not very much like anyone on the show i think? but maybe sandy. 👀

i'm eepy so not tagging anyone but if you're reading this i think you, yes you, should do it. okbye!

[aidaronan]

✨Fic Writing Review 2023✨

Tagged by the incomparable @greatunironic and my beloved @wynnyfryd.

Words and Fics

58, 889 words published on ao3

Plus at least 14,975 or so words of unpublished things that are started and incomplete.

At least 30 new ideas and/or WIPs.

8 published fics on ao3 + some new additions to the drabble/ficlet collection + many tumblr fics/microfics

One completed collab with @sparkle-fiend and one collab (two really) with @sparklyslug in the works

Two monsterfucker fics influenced by the Steddie FanExpo NoLa crew and getting crossfaded as fuck in the French Quarter after meeting Guiseppe Quintilliano.

Top 3 by kudos

Cassiopeia, Orion, Bootes (aka he was a gator boi) Like I Always Do (post-starcourt hurt comfort) Nothing Hurts (Like Your Mouth) (oops! all monsters. vamp eddie and were steve banging in a mausoleum)

Fandom Events in 2023

Lex's Spicy Six Spring Fanworks Challenge

Multiple @steddiemicrofic challenges: read here.

Upcoming Projects

Two Stranger Things Reverse Big Bang fics. Hilariously, neither of them are Steddie as the main pairing, but I think at least one is likely to hit novella length. I can't say a lot due to secrecy, but I feel safe saying one is a gen fic and one is f/f.

One tiny baker!steve/rockstar!eddie collab with @sparklyslug, hopefully out this holiday season.

One bigger collab with @sparklyslug in the spring if we keep our enthusiasm together long enough.

Will keep trying to plug away at the witches fic. I have, admittedly, lost some enthusiasm for them but I do know where the story is going. If you love this one, please be loud at me but in a non-demanding way lmao. I need you.

Two Fandom Trumps Hate fills of at least 10k for @withacapitalp and my dearest, Andi.

Eddie Bio project.

???Who Knows??? But there will probably be monstercock involved.

Some personal chat, rules, and tags under the cut.

Doing some oversharing because I'm starting to think it's vital that we all are honest about our struggles so we don't feel alone and so we know we're not failures. We're just people.

It's been a low production year for me. It's been a difficult year in general, but sometimes change is hard even when it's change you need.

Over half my year was eaten up with job hunting, moving, and trying to adjust while feeling the depressive effects of not having a local friend/support network yet or enough money for whatever the fuck the economy is, esp in this area relative to my salary. A good deal of my body of works for 2023 were written pre-move. Hell, a good deal of them were written in the first quarter. (Which, btw, shout out to anyone else who often feels a bittersweet sort of regret at not being productive in the current internet environment where you feel like you're old news if you can't keep up an unsustainable output. I love you, same, it's prob not true anyway, and here are 200 forehead kisses. <33) All of that said, I'm feeling much better lately. I've been reading again. Writing again. Feeling like I'm living again. I'm looking forward to another arbitrary border of time and on filling that border with joy, especially queer joy and weird joy and the intersection of both of those. As they say: let's fucking gooo.

I still love it here. I know steddie won't be forever for me, just like other ships before them weren't forever for me. But I'm having fun and have been really enjoying some of the connections made in this little sandbox.

On that note:

Rules: Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some quantitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please do eat glass, I’ve heard it’s good for your gums. Tagging, even though I know some people have already been tagged: @sparklyslug, @wormdebut, @banannabethchase, @just-my-latest-hyperfixation @messessentialist @rainbow-nerdss @plutosrose @thefreakandthehair and anyone else. @ everyone who keeps this fandom rippin' and roarin', kissing you, kissing you, kissing you

[randomruff]

A Cage of Silence

It was insufferable.

Weight heavier than what he ever felt before kept him in place, kept him from moving even an inch. The feel of rock and chains placed around him squeezed his breath away and the horrible taste of melted copper and iron pelits given to him by the ever annoying and irritatingly smug mountain spirits burned him from the inside. -something that those sick bastard enjoyed far too much-

And Silence. The suffocating silence!

It was almost too much. Too much to handle, like it was trying to put another cage on him. To steal whatever freedom he had left. To put unwanted, illogical, and untrue thoughts into his head! They feel so cruelly true.

It made Wukong realize how much the waterfalls back home gave him a sense of calm. How the chatter and chips of his beloved people gave him a sense of courage. How the smell of fruits and flowers gave him a clear mind. How it all gave him a sense of security, a impenetrable wall that no one could get to.

A wall of an Illusion that kept him from realizing just how much of a monster he was becoming.

A low growl escaped him, scaring any lingering spirits away. He hated it, the silence more than anything. More than the one who put him here in the first the place. It was insufferable, suffocating and- and- and...

It was so utterly lonely....

Why? Why did he feel so lonely? It didn't make sense... Why was he in here the first place?! Why was he the only one trapped here?! The others were just as guilty as he was!... So why?!

He knew

WHY WAS HE THE ONLY ONE PUNISHED?!

He knew exactly why

IT'S UNFAIR

He knew how too

IT'S CRUEL

It's karma

IT'S- IT- IT WAS-

Selfish

It was greed...

Greed and pride that got him in this mess... His ego far to big for his own good... A insatiable hunger- fear... to live. To be stronger... Stronger... For what?! What was he doing this for?!

"You were doing this for yourself!"

Silence... Nothing but the eternal cage of silence.

"Bud- no... I-" Something wet trailed down his cheek, before dropping to the ground. The rocky walls and heavy chains seemed to blur, it almost seemed like they gathering closer to him. To smother him with their cold, unbearably cold and heavy arms.

"Mihou was right..." A sharp pain clenched his heart, it squeezed and squeezed and squeezed, it was painful, lonely and it felt like it was caging his poor little stone heart until-

"I really was doing it for myself...."

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FIRST FIC INTO THE FANDOM!!! LET'S GOOO!!!! also my first time on Tumblr. Or rather my first post, so if anything feels/looks weird just know it's probably because of my inexperience using this app (should also be noted i'm using mobile). Feedback is greatly appreciated and insanely helpful, so don't be afraid to speak your mind!

[wonderbutch]

Hi ! I read your post about the mischaracterization of batfam members, could you expand more ? And how do you choose which characterization is "the right" ? I feel like comics are so old that first characterizations are too simple or over used.

But maybe, it is just not on board with dc merchandising plan...

Thanks you !

I WOULD LOVE TO EXPAND MORE but please keep in mind i havent read batfam comics in a HOT MINUTE but lets gooo.

for starters, the way i personally choose which characterisation to follow is the one that is most consistent within comics, which can be tricky, ill be the first to admit. but if your character basis is off of a headcanon you saw on tumblr/a thing you saw in one comic, you are bound to be just. holding onto nonsense.

now lets talk about how characters are talked about, characterised, and seen within fandom.

lets use dick grayson, aka nightwing, as an example. in the current comics, and in fandom, he is often depicted as the ray of hope and sunshine always happy in a gritty dark world. while this may be true to an extent to his character now, it certainly wasn’t the case when he was first becoming nightwing, and as robin. so many times i see batfamily fics set during the time where jason has just become robin that depict dick as the happy go lucky guy that loves everyone and is a ray of hope and love all the time. in reality (ha!) he was angry, he had just been fired as robin was constantly fighting with bruce, coming to terms with his emotions and feelings about being a vigilante, and dealing with interpersonal relationships. he was by no means acting all happy and sunshine. he loved jason, yes, but he certainly wasn’t hanging around wayne manor idly cracking jokes with bruce. however, as he grew into the nightwing title, he became more mature and less broody, but was still definitely a bit angsty and angry. definitely not the way hes often portrayed by fandom.

moving on, lets talk about jason. this is where comic characterisation really fucks up today. everyone, including fans and writers alike, love to present the idea that jason todd was “the angry robin”. from his first appearances, we KNOW this isnt true. he was full of love for life and adventure and enjoyed school a great amount. he grew up on the streets and had somewhat of a temper, yes, but this was usually to do with people who did great harm to others (for example, the ring at the beginning of death in the family) not because he was actually full of rage always. he was traumatised, yes. but full of hate and rage? definitely not. 80s comics are in that sweet spot where dialogue and storylines are darker and more serious, so its safe to count on jasons robin run as a pretty good place to reference jasons character as robin.

now, with tim drake, he is often depicted by fans as a coffee addicted technology genius mad scientist type character. i have so many problems with this for so many reasons. firstly, shut up about the coffee for the love of rao it has no basis in canon at all. secondly, although tim is talented and intelligent, a concerning amount of fans (and writers/comics, im looking at you, detective comics 2016) looove to say and depict tim as being “the smartest batfamily member”. this is just. so false that it’d almost be funny if it wasnt rooted in sexism (and perhaps ableism). that title will ALWAYS belong to barbara gordon. id love to go into detail about why people treat barbara gordon as second rate to tim but i think thats gonna be for another post. also, tim is literally a high school dropout!! as for the mad scientist thing, PLEASE read any other comic than red robin for your basis of tim drake characterisation. that depiction of tim is because of a very dark time in his life, he most definitely is not like that all the time 24/7.

cassandra cain’s fanon characterisation is probably one of the things about fandom that pisses me off the most. in fics, shes portrayed as this mute girl that loves batman and all his methods completely and has never disagreed with him ever. truthfully, as shown in her batgirl run during the 2000s (read it its so so good) cassandra cain is an 18 year old who has limited speech due to being raised without any spoken language whatsoever. instead, she was raised as a living weapon designed to kill whoever david cain asks. shortly after she kills her first person she is horrified, fleeing to the streets and eventually coming across barbara gordon who decides to take her in and give her the batgirl mantle. she then encounters a psychic who is able to give cassandra the ability to understand and speak english. her speech is short, often shown as short direct sentences sometimes with ellipses when she cannot think of and/or verbalise a certain word. however, she loves to talk and express herself and read books, even if it is difficult for her. for these reasons, i would consider her to be semi verbal and neurodivergent. as for being portrayed as The Biggest Batman Supporter Ever, in her comic run she is often seen directly disobeying batman, and has said point blank that she isn’t loyal to him, but to the batman mantle and symbol itself, taking the no killing rule extremely seriously. although she is one of the characters to obey the no killing rule the most and in its entirety, she most certainly isn’t bruce wayne’s/batman’s biggest supporter nor does she agree with everything he does or even his methods. that title would probably go to damian wayne, believe it or not (again, for another post) but, for these reasons i also consider cassandra cain to be the best choice for who gets to inherent the batman mantle.

this post is getting way too long but uhh those are my thoughts and feelings on certain batfamily characters and how they are mischaracterised by fandom and sometimes comics! i hope u found this informative lol.

[beomiracles]

i saw the post u reblogged soooo

ive first been seeing your fics through the txt fanfics hashtags,,i think i read almost everything before pretty princess

and honestly i didnt know the fics that stood out to me in terms of plot, were all written by the same author HAHA

i dont tend to interact w creators esp on tumblr (i was a ghost casual browser) but pretty princess was so good i had to get on my knees and thank you

a while later i checked your masterlist and realised all the fics ive been liking were from you HAHAH and thats when i became a fan

and you continued to serve unique plots like criminal conscience and HOLY SHIT EVEN AOUAD i love you and admire you sm

thank you for sharing your love for writing and txt on tumblr and i hope your passion burns for a long long time <3

sooo here u gooo heres my story of how i suddenly ended up invading your inbox frequently hehe

i hope you have a great day !!

-amanda

ohmygod i love you 🥹 LIKE SERIOUSLY AH OMG !! i’m so grateful to have readers like you, u make my days fr 😭😭

im glad pretty princess made u start interacting w me hihi 😋😋 u’re like one of my favorite notifications 🥹

i only ever started writing because i had so many ideas itching at my brain to be let out, i never expected to receive this amount of love back gahh omg 💕💕

I LOVE U AMANDA :3

[ghostboyjules]

I posted 14,507 times in 2022

That's 4,532 more posts than 2021!

90 posts created (1%)

14,417 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@feraligatr

@lemememeringue

@cry-4-judas

@wantnothing

@hxh

I tagged 4,619 of my posts in 2022

#the sandman - 519 posts

#hxh - 305 posts

#dream of the endless - 234 posts

#dreamling - 215 posts

#my beloved mutuals ✨ - 144 posts

#hob gadling - 115 posts

#prev - 81 posts

#jjk - 80 posts

#killua - 53 posts

#gon - 48 posts

Longest Tag: 113 characters

#😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

tagged by the ever iconic @hxh, thank you bestie :3c

rules: tag people you would like to know/catch up with

Last song 🎵 : Nothing Else Matters (Metallica Cover) by Phoebe Bridgers (I, of course, love the original as well but this is just gorgeous)

Last movie 🎬 : Everything Everywhere All at Once (if you have mother issues™, do not watch this until you are mentally and emotionally prepared. I'm fucked up. and will be so until the foreseeable future.) [thanks @wantnothing and @halflove 🙄]

Last book 📖 : hmmm.. I'm of the opinion that manga definitely counts, so like. technically Vol 14 of jjk, if we're talking physical. or like, the neat lil booklet that comes with my tarot deck 😅

okiieee I'm gonna tag @wantnothing and @halflove, if they wanna do it. since they have helped emotionally damage me 💀

I'll also tag @watermelon-mafia, @caprisun-overlord, @rabooots, @croakings, @queen-alluka, and @queen-eevee (woah that's two royalty in my mutual circle, love to see it ajfjsjfn)

y'all have a good day, and ily 💙😘

9 notes - Posted August 10, 2022

#4

hi yes hello it's me again. so I'm working on my dream of the endless™~ playlist.. and I was looking through this BROODS album that I liked a lot and... just. just look at this.

uugghh Dream just being so overwhelmed after everything and going to Hob.. and Hob's just. Over the moon that Dream feels safe enough with him for comfort.. the bridge is especially destroying me cause like - of course Dream would beat himself up abt needing comfort in the first place and he can't stop thinking abt all that needs to be done and- AAHHH Hob just gently pulling him out of all that, if just for a moment...

I love fics with this premise and now I have a SONG to go with them???? I'm in shambles.

here's the song btw :

BROODS - Bedroom Door

10 notes - Posted November 10, 2022

#3

hey um. i am genuinely so unwell about this song & dreamling

See the full post

11 notes - Posted October 26, 2022

#2

beloved @hxh tagged me in this and I am not gonna lie this was kinda hard. mostly just because I'm v indecisive 🤦‍♂️ also this will absolutely say something abt me as a person, feel free to roast me abt it ajdjajfnf

10 characters, 10 fandoms, 10 tags

1. Megumi Fushiguro (jjk)

2. Cloud Strife (ffvii)

3. Kurapika (hxh)

4. Dream of the Endless (sandman)

5. Kaeya Alberich (genshin)

6. Ling Yao (fmab)

7. Thanatos (hades sg)

8. Shinobu Kocho (kny)

9. Allen Walker (dgm)

10. Mae Borowski (nitw)

okay okay stopping here before I change anything else 💀 I don't think I'm gonna tag a full 10 ppl, but we'll see sjdjfj

okay let's gooo @watermelon-mafia @croakings @caprisun-overlord @lemememeringue @eel-divinity @queen-alluka @queen-eevee @rabooots

almost but not quite 10, good enough for me 💀 ily my beloveds, hope everyone is having a pleasant time (if not I'm wrapping you in a blanket and giving you cookies okay gn)

14 notes - Posted October 13, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

It appears the last two (2)….times I’ve tried creating this post, tumblr thought I was too wordy, so I’m going to attempt to get in and get out before it eats itself again

this playlist (a Dream of the Endless™ character examination via my silly brain and sad ass music) took me entirely too long and I'm going to throw my laptop out of the window if I have to look at it any longer so pls pls take it and I hope that if you listen or even read the lyrics that you find something new, or hear something you like.

This absolutely would not have ever seen the light of tunglr.hell if not for the beautiful souls of the Sandman fandom, and a few of my new friends and mutuals. So special internet cookies and hugs to these inspirational, encouraging, and beyond talented individuals; @wordsinhaled , @weirdfishy , @wizardofgoodfortune , and @xx-vergil-xx - i love y'all dearly and I hope this is even HALF of what you would have expected, or a quarter of the amazing content y'all have bestowed upon my lil eyeballs. Now Onward! to words that personally injure me!

Florence + The Machine -Too Much Is Never Enough

And the crown, it weighs heavy

'Til it's banging on my eyelids

Retreating in covers and closing the curtains

One thing's for certain, oh

A year like this passes so strangely

Somewhere between sorrow and bliss

~I first encountered this song in it's source material FFXV, and there it destroyed me. Now, wearing my dumb lil blorbo glasses yet again, it is back with vengeance..goth royalty sad wet cat flavored (gross), vengeance. "too much is never enough" .... oh sweeties...

Oh, who decides from where up high?

I couldn't say "I need more time"

Oh, grant that I can stay the night

Or one more day inside this life

VIRA - God Complex

God, I could try

To be the one

To be the one

I'll tear down the sky

What do you want?

I'll do it all for life

My love, my alibi

Tonight, tonight

I'll try to do it for you

~pretty sure this is the angriest sounding song on this thing? but it is fitting.. and desperate.. and wanting and... painful. when she grits out 'try' and 'sky' the way she does.. god the emotion. this just brought to mind Dream and falling for someone hard enough to the point of destructive devotion...

I'm gonna be where you are

Doesn't matter how far

Because we are meant to be

I'm gonna be what you need

Darling, please worship me

Unless you prefer to plead

AJJ - Body Terror Song

~ I love seeing people explore the idea of Dream just...not vibing with being fully corporeal. At least not in the way he is while in the Waking.. what a mood, and especially after the fishbowl...whew.

It will betray you

Be used against you

Then it will fail on you, my dear

But before that, you'll be a doormat

For every vicious narcissist in the world

Oh, how they'll screw you all up and over

Then feed you silence for dessert

Philip Wesley - Lamentations of the Heart

[Instrumental~]

~I wanted to include a few instrumental tracks in here and this one felt apt because I used to fall asleep to this album all the time. Like it was one of the only ones I could fall asleep to with any certainty. The feeling and title for this one tho struck me with Dream specifically so I went with it. The rest of the album is so nice though, highly rec.

Iris Lune - Paper Mache

~ this song!! it sounds so so ethereal and her voice is GORGEOUS but the lyrics!! have mercy the lyrics! big ole owwie! "save me from myself" , "make me believe that I can change, make me believe that I'm not strange" hhhh (also if y'all couldn't tell, this will be dreamling flavored, I think I'll tag them too jic but. yes...)

Save me from myself

I've been in the dark too long

Paper mache love

Make me believe that I can change

Make me believe that I'm not strange

At all

Penny and Sparrow - A Kind of Hunger

tremble, recognize the distance

Go try and murder every preference

I’ll keep hangin' ‘round for reference

come care about me

come care about me

~this is... such a heavy song. hadn't heard it before starting this playlist but found it and immediately had to add it.. just. come care about me. changing, watching you with wonder. Dying is just a kind of hunger. that line specifically. -lays on the floor for 3hrs-

changing, watching you with wonder

you’re less and getting even younger

dying is just a kind of hunger

come care about Me

come care about Me

Carly Rae Jepsen - Gimme Love

~originally was gonna be a joke song to lighten the mood but haha! nope! I mean it is lighthearted but it still absolutely, in my mind, fits Morpheus. beautiful babygirl of the endless...smooch

Gimmie love (Oh)

It's the way we are together (Oh)

Wanna feel like this forever, forever (Oh)

It's the way we are together

And I never thought I'd ever say forever

Jon Bellion - Stupid Deep (Acoustic)

~this song fucks me up! 😀 for real though, I highly suggest watching the acoustic performance of this that he has on youtube cause the vibe is so.. intimate and dreamy and gorgeous.. and the lyrics.. jon bellion, sir.. smh.. the ending..

What if who I hoped to be was always me?

And the love I fought to feel was always free?

What if all the things I've done

Were just attempts at earning love? Yeah

'Cause the hole inside my heart is stupid deep, oh, stupid deep

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[amyisherenowitsokay]

so tumblr wouldn't let me ask w/o an account so here i am-

so. hi. listen. i need to know. because i read re:mhny and a BEAUTIFUL Chekhov's gun stared me in the face just waiting to be fired??i think??- please tell me the control brains will have a role in re:mhny 3/4??? bc you're the only person i'd trust to do the concept justice and i understand if it's too late in your planning to play with but like, idk pls take my poor ideas perhaps you could be inspired-

wouldn't the control brains imply that irkens are a slave race? imagine Gaz having the AUDACITY of saying this to the Tallest, or Dib of all people not only learns of those specific dark facts (brains as overseers, irkens are grown not bred, pak holds so much more than gear, their minds, memories, abilities etc), comes to the realization, and it rips a chunk out of his view on irkens? or he looks at Zim with pity? in horror?

or something more interesting. The Control Brains use Zim's PAK against him. Zim doesn't realize, because he isn't the ''system administrator''. Maybe he's controlled, or thoughts/memories edited? Dib notices the subtle quirks, the loss in personality, Gaz notices the unnervingly nonsapient differences? Until Zim removes it for maintenance. Imagine the slowly dawning visceral terror as it hits him that he's much more aware, awake, alert without it drugging him? but- disconnection pens the 10 minute death warrant. I doubt he could constantly dis/reconnect, either.

oh yeah, first idea that hit me and i had to tell you- The Control Brains calculated the danger of Zim coming anywhere near the position of the Tallest. It's an objective fact such an outcome must be prevented. (if the irken race is slavery sanitized, perfection via calculating precision-free will is an illusion-, then leaders are knowingly produced. How else would the status quo be kept?) The Tallest know this. Zim knows this. Thus, not only the Tallest, but the Control Brains, must be removed. How, if murdering Zim where he stands is the automatic consequence for the thought? Easy, til the end. Deactivate the kill-switch. Pull the literal plug. Ten minutes to win.

Alternatively, with less 'me-editing-while-i-type-these-ideas-out-to-sound-coherent/add-more/sales-pitching-you':

Gaz stands where Zim once stood, staring at the irregularly sized and scattered crimson lenses of the Control Brains. There's a clarity that she's lost track of the remaining minutes.

Oho! Oho ho! Delighted! So delighted at fan theories ohoho!

I'm still MAD hungover from a lovely thanksgiving but I've long since honed the ability to type and not look at a screen so here we gooo.

SPOILERS/TEASERS UNDER THE CUT

First off, just to get it out of the way, I don't have any intention of trying to make a 4th Re:MHNY addition, mostly because of how my initial attempt at the 4th addition was so heavily entrenched in peer pressure and other ick. I won't go into it, but essentially, the series is going to stay a trilogy. We stan a trilogy.

The Control Brains are not going to rear their lil bulbous heads anytime soon, but I can confirm they're going to be in Re:MHNY3, as are the Tallest. I am most excited to redo the relationship between the Tallest and Zim.

The Irken Armada in fics as a whole is usually treated as a stepping stool for Zim to be King of the Hill, or for his Hero's Journey Redemption Arc. Which, don't get me wrong, some of my favorite fics have Zim end as a Tallest or Zim end as hero of Earth, but I personally HC something else that's going to be gently established as the story continues. I am still warring with the final cleanup, but I DO know some of it.

For your initial question, yes, absolutely. I think it might be canon (?) that the Irkens are a slave race, but don't quote me on that, brain is dehydrated and crispy. Regardless, for me, yes, I do think of the Irkens as enslaved, but heavily propagandized not to notice. According to them, they're not slaves, they're soldiers, when in fact they're both.

Gaz's 'audacity' in particular is a theme I'm looking forward to writing, and have actively already brainstormed. I do intend for Gaz to end up meeting the Tallest again, but unlike the original MHNY, you'll note that the Tallest are far less favorable to Zim at the end of the first story. They don't look at him with awe and admiration as they did in the original. They don't even know he has a mate, and that information is deliberately kept from them. They treat him with disdain, and Gaz notices and loathes it. They're not besties, they're dictators speaking to a subordinate they'd prefer was dead, and since he's been disillusioned, Zim knows that. The really fun thing about Re:MHNY is Zim doesn't have to imagine what Gaz does when face-to-face with someone with as much Absolute Authority(tm) as a Tallest. He's already seen it. Have a blurb from Re: 3!

It's not a question of "can you imagine how they'd react?" because Zim already knows. He's counting on it and accounting for it. And that's going to be the fun part!

Now onto Dib! I can't say too much without actually spoiling Re:2 actually, but I can say that Dib IS going to find out more about Irken culture than Zim ever wanted to him to know. He brought up multiple time to Gaz in Re:MHNY how much he really doesn't want Dib to understand or know Irken business the way she does. The curtain being pulled back for Gaz doesn't mean the offer extends to her sibling, but Dib's never been one to know when to keep himself out of other people's business. How he does so is where I'll let the mystery sit.

Regarding Zim being beaten up by a CB, or in some way ctrl + alt + deleted, I borrow a lot of my lore from unpublished episodes too, including The Trial. It's therefore my HC that the Control Brains themselves can't touch Zim, and have in fact been infected to view him favorably. I'll go more into what happened in Re:3, and what attempts were made to fix any errors Zim caused, but the events of that unpublished episode are important enough to keep in mind when I get around to writing it. At this point though, the Armada has become afraid to try to destroy Zim without the CB's on their side. It's best for everyone if Zim is dead, but they'll settle for keeping him as far away from Irk and their leaders as possible, and keep humoring him to make sure he doesn't want to leave, which is where the end of MHNY: Re lands.

Brain is now slushie but I hope that tickles your fancy. Tysm for making a whole account just to share your enthusiasm about the direction of Re's future installments with me. I love and cherish every single one of my ao3/ff comments, but tumblr let's me go on monologues like this/gives me a place to upload teasers/art whenever I want to satisfy my readers during fic update gaps. Your username made me laugh audibly, but before you delete your account, I'd recommend perusing through my blog here if you're looking for more teasers.

[mimifreed]

Marauders Fics

Hey so I've realized that in my ineptitude of using tumblr, I haven't linked any of my wolfstar or marauders fics. So, I'm changing that.

Here we gooo

Can't Spell Stud Without U

Wolfstar rated T: Humor

1193 words

Sirius finds a muggle book of bad pick-up lines and makes it Remus' problem.

A Stake Through the Heart

Wolfstar rated T: Humor

2000 words

The Lupins have been protecting their village from Vampires as long as Remus could remember—and tonight the horror ends.

That is, until he meets the Vampire King.

When the Stars Fall

Wolfstar rated M: Angst

1477 words

Remus returns to the flat he shared with Sirius after the events of Halloween 1981.

Comfort Zone

Wolfstar rated E: Humor/Horror (i tried, okay?) PWP

7002 words

Remus was just trying to get out of his beloved comfort zone to help spark the creative flow. He got a bit more than he asked for.

Heed the tags on this one, friends.

Cool Names and Eggy Bread

Wolfstar rated E: Humor/Domestic PWP

5818 words

They've been together for years and have always been adventurous, so Sirius wants to try something new. The only problem is Remus has way too much fun poking holes in every story Sirius comes up with.

And here's some miscellaneous Marauders stuff:

Number 7, Church Street

Gen fic, Sirius. rated M: Angst

2535 words

Sirius tries to remember where James, Lily, and Harry live every day. And, every day, his memory is blank. Until it isn't.

A Fudging Disaster

Gen fic, Sirius & Remus. rated T: Humor

3346 words

Sirius and Remus help Fred and George perfect a new sweet for their skiving snack box by taking a trip down memory lane.

Don't Make It a Big Deal

Jily. rated T Humor/First Kiss

5954 words

Lily invites James over to work on some pre-term Head Boy and Head Girl scheduling. Bicycle riding and feelings ensue.

It Slipped!

Jily: rated G: Humor/Fluff

James lets something slip and Lily cannot stop laughing.

I Made You a Sandwich

Gen fic, James & Sirius: Bromance Fluff

words: 1053

Sirius isn't himself and James doesn't know what to do with that.

So, he makes him a sandwich.

Shaky Hands

Wolfbucks. Rated E: Light Angst PWP

words 3209

Years ago, in the room of hidden things, Remus and James had their own secrets. But after the war, Remus makes good on whispered promises made to friends.

[angloie]

Routine | a percabeth one-shot

Annabeth isn't someone to be out of line or out of order. She keeps a daily routine that she sticks by, and she wouldn’t have it any other way. So when she catches a pretty boy staring at her on the subway one day, she definitely doesn't remember that on her schedule.

It all started on a cold winter morning. 

The New York crowds were bustling lively through the platform, the screeching of subway cars only adding to that. Annabeth's daily commute to school wasn't always the best one, but she didn't mind. In the mornings it was busy (as always. This was New York, what can you expect?) but today seemed just the tiniest bit calmer. It gave Annabeth a sense of tranquility; if you considered hundreds of people talking at the same time 'Tranquil'. And the rats. She hated them- but not as much as spiders.

With Rosy cheeks stained with winter coldness and a bit of snow tracking onto her boots, she entered the subway car she took nearly every day. Annabeth sat down in her usual spot as well- the sixth seat to the left. 

She waves to the nice elderly woman, who smiles brightly at her and waves back. Every morning seemed considerably bleak. Well, that was because winter break was coming soon and that meant tests, exams, and more homework than ever. She might've been a top student, but she definitely hates school. How ironic. 

But maybe that'll change?

Annabeth pulls out a book. One about architecture of course, and she can't seem to remember the title of it. But what she can do is remember everything the book lists. 

Lost deep in her thoughts (and a good book, too;) she doesn't notice the boy entering the subway car or him taking a spot three seats away from her. Not does she notice him staring curiously at her.

It's only when she can practically feel his eyes drilling holes into her head does she finally look up. 

Her grey eyes meet sea green ones. The boy, who's kinda cute actually, looks away hastily and instead goes to look out the moving scenery outside. 

Annabeth narrows her eyes. Was he staring... At her? Oh, who cares. She probably has something on her face. 

But instead of simply letting it go, she takes a quick scan of him. Just out of curiosity, that was all. But you know what they say, Curiosity killed the cat. What you don't always hear though is that satisfaction brought it back. And Annabeth needed that satisfaction. Jet black hair, a iny blush on his face and a talk build. Annabeth notes that he has a skateboard in hand. And mystery dude kinda looks her age. Interesting.

Then the guy keeps on taking glances at her. Three times, Annabeth counts mentally. Okay, does this guy plan on murdering her or something? Is that why he keeps on staring at her? As much as she hates to admit it, it feels weird being looked at like that.

It's not creepy. No, anything but that. It's just uncomftorable. You know, a cute boy your age looks at her you interest. Who wouldn't feel a little nervous?

'Gods, this guy doesn't have a fucking clue does he?’

Maybe this guy has I'll intentions. That's always a possibility. Or maybe he’s a creepy guy in general? Annabeth shuddered at the thought. Okay, she was just overreacting just a tad bit. 

The intercom starts up, announcing the arrival of a station. And with that, the guy is gone. And with him leaves Annabeth's worrysome thoughts.

She lays awake in bed that night. What for, exactly? She's letting anxiety take over once again. Will he end up on BuzzFeed unsolved murders if this keeps up? Oh, please no. The most likely case scenario is that he just is looking at something behind her. That's all there is to it.

Or so she thought.

He's back at it again the next day, making Annabeth stress out even more. Once he enters, Annabeth notices that he doesn't have his skateboard with him this time. He ruffles his hair, getting some snow off it. His hair looks soft. And fluffy, too. They're both in the same spots of course. This time she doesn't bother being nervous once she looks up in defiance. She wants to say something. Maybe a nice 'Hello,’ would suffice. But instead, a stupid smile stretches itself across her face. 

'And.. Shit.’ 

She raises a hand and waves politely, the small smile still on her soft features. Her body just moves on its own. Despite the maday alert going on in her brain. Much to her surprise, they boy doesn't look away. And he returns the wave, a smirk on his face. 

When he finally leaves, Annabeth is left with her heart thumping a little too fast for her liking. But that's not the last time she See's him. When she's at school, for example. Annabeth sees people talking about him. In fact, apparently this guy is on a international and national level of swimming. His face, in all his glory, is plastered onto t.v screens and magzines.

'I guess he's famous or something. Huh..’ 

And this guy's name is Percy Jackson. Great! She knows his name, but he doesn't know hers. That's kinda stalker-like, if you asked her. Fucking hell. But it's out of her hands now. He'll probably be not there tomorrow.

“Hey, what book is that?” Someone asks her on the subway the next day. Annabeth looks up in utter shock. It was. It was him-

The Percy guy..?

“I-its-” She stuttered ungracefully, tripping on her own words. Get a grip! “Its my math textbook.” Annabeth flips the thin pages, examining it suddenly.

“Ugh. I hate that book.” He grimaces. Annabeth looks at him, sitting directly in front of her. His long legs take up more space in the aisle than hers. She gulps.

“Tell me about it,” Annabeth scoffs. Again, she might be smart, but she fucking hates school. So damn much.

“You’re Percy Jackson, right?” Annabeth questions suddenly.

Percy’s eyes brighten a bit and his lips turn upward in a grin. “The one and only. How'd you know?”

“Iv’e seen you around. Well, not around around, but you get what I mean.”

He laughs. It's a melodic laugh, Annabeth thinks. “And you?”

“Annabeth. Annabeth Chase.” 

For the limited time they talk with each other, it seems like the tension looses up ever so slightly. Turns out, Percy only takes the subway because walking to school in the winter is too troublesome. Annabeth smirks at that, relating with him. But she takes the subway mostly because it's nice to get a chance to sleep on the way to school. The people there aren't too bad themselves- except for the occasional drunk and old creep. On those days Annabeth takes a different car to avoid them.

“So I have a match on Saturday.” He says randomly in the middle of converstation. 

“Oh, that's cool. I hope you do well.” She replies, humming contently.

Just what is he getting to?

“I’m sure I will, but.” He looks over at Annabeth nervously. Why is he nervous? “Wanna watch me? I sure could use some support.”

“I- uh..." She pauses. "What?"

"Im asking if you wanna come to one of my matches. So, are you up for the offer?"

"Of course!" She replies. Way too fast.

“Hey. Can you give me your phone?” Percy asks. Annabeth nearly chokes. 

“For what?”

“My number.”

Annabeth pulls up her white scarf to hide the blush that is creeping onto her face. Her heart does a double flip about twelve times. She hands him her phone, and he types something in. When he gives it back, there's his number with a contact name. Which is basically HOTTIE #1 with fire emojis and smirking faces. 

“Seriously?” Annabeth jokes, laughing at the name. Percy simply shrugs.

And then Percy hands her his own, which Annabeth types eagerly her own number. She puts in the simple contact name of Annabeth. That's it, no emojis. Not a single one.

The intercom Annabeth is starting to hate now starts back up, announcing Percy's arrival. Annabeth frowns, but she knows they'll see each other again.

“Well then. I'll see you Saturday.” Percy gets up, shouldering his bag.

“Yeah. See you.” Annabeth sighs contently. She feels a little empty when he’s gone. And she realizes that he misses him. Oh Gods, what had Percy done to her. Little did she know, Percy was having the same dillema once he left. 

That wasn't part of her schedule- sure- but she could make a few arrangements, couldn't she?

there it is! my very first one-shot/fic (?) on tumblr. I'm still getting the hang of all this tho. and oh my Gods this was certainly more shorter than I wanted it to be. damn.

If your reading this, then congrats! You have successfully read all of his hot garbage. (Or at least im assuming you read this.)

[palant1r]

I love hearing your opinion on every Ace Attorney character so hear take a trash man and a queen; Kristoph and Franziska Von Karma

OK OK OK OK I FINISHED AA4 LETS GOOO

tumblr ate my franziska thoughts and i dont wanna type them again but. i honestly didnt have much to say about her whereas i have SO MUCH to say about kristoph

(this got so long omg heres a readmore)

favorite thing about them: oh god i could go on about this guy for ages. he somehow became one of my favorite characters when i wasnt looking. i love how fuckin cryptic he is. one of my favorite things about the characters in ace attorney is that they really make you work to figure them out, kristoph most of all. i love how his calm, put-together exterior hides his Murderyness but also somehow completely jives with his motives for said murders. it really makes it feel like his actions are consistent with his character. like he's not revealed to be a completely different person than you thought he was, it was simply revealed exactly how deep his flaws run. AND the fact that so many of his flaws are the things he shares with klavier!!! their need for control, their constant projection of facades, their paranoia, their use of charisma and pleasantness to keep other peoples' guards down. the only difference is that klavier chooses to move forward, to embrace change.

least favorite thing about them: that he is apparently not in aa5 and aa6 at all. give me my skrunkly >:(

favorite line: GOD THIS ISN'T A CANON QUOTE BUT ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS THE FUCKIN. OBJECTION.LOL OF THE WERERALPH POST WHERE KRISTOPH ASKS IF ANYONE HAS THE FULL WEREWOLF IMAGE. also i cant remember the precise line but during the MASON investigation he says something about what it means to live a full life while in jail....i liked that. something about how it says so much about his character that he doesn't see his story as over even once he's been imprisoned for life.

brOTP: kristoph and apollo! in canon, i think their relationship never ventured beyond the strictly professional. but, as is evident from my stupid fake dating au and chess fic, i like to think about them developing a genuine friendship beyond that. i love the tension and complexity of, despite everything, kristoph being some kind of positive influence in apollo's life.

OTP: KRISNIX BAYBEEEEEEEEE this ship is SO GOOD. first of all it is absolutely canon it absolutely canon and i wont hear a word otherwise. the fucked up complexities of what their relationship would have looked like is so good to think about. especially because i think phoenix truly didn't know that kristoph couldn't be trusted until Zak's death, and kristoph genuinely had feelings for phoenix. also the memes are hilarious. krisnix memes are the funniest fucking jokes in the entire ace attorney fandom, except perhaps langworth memes. i do in fact have a playlist for this ship: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/27Y2uwmp1jlAZILLUsh32X?si=c109dc0ce1454461

also uh. otp part 2: for some reason i've been on a krispollo kick. just rotating it in my mind like it's in a microwave. something about it. compels me. i like to fuck up apollo justice's life in various interesting ways so perhaps this isn't so surprising. i have been rotating an au in my mind where kristoph falls harder than apollo does, i think that's an interesting dynamic. i love the idea of kristoph having a bleeding heart that he hides so well no one ever sees it

nOTP: kristoph/dahlia ig, it's the only kristoph ship i see besides krisnix and krispollo, which i support, and portstoph, which involves a character im not familiar with and also which im pretty sure is entirely a joke. while kristoph and dahlia are very similar on the surface, they are very different and i just feel like they wouldn't get along. they would try to kill each other and not in a way i find interesting or sexy

random headcanon: kristoph doesn't get the death penalty, with a combination of a plea deal, his charisma, and edgeworth's reforms. do i only headcanon this because i like the idea of kristoph being kept around in Bottom Storage? perhaps. also i think, though he doesn't admit it, he likes when his brother visits and wants to keep being a part of his life

WAIT I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THIS ONE: kristoph raised klavier since he was 19 and klavier was 9, after both their parents died in a horrific accident. the brothers were both present. kristoph saw the whole thing. klavier did not. his brother covered his eyes with the same hand that bears the skull-shaped scar

unpopular opinion: kristoph is not like the other ace attorney villains, where when they drop the facade we learn that everything else positive in their life was a lie too. kristoph is not a monster. the way he acts is no more disconnected from the way he genuinely is than klavier. his actions do not result from being a "sociopath" or a "narcissist," and its ableist to say they do. kristoph genuinely has the capacity to care about people, only limited by the same flaws that caused him to kill people. he really did want apollo to learn from him and succeed. he genuinely cares about his brother and thinks he loves him, but his paranoid nature and sense of superiority lead him to look down on his brother in a way that sometimes borders on manipulation and abuse. he loved phoenix, dismissing what he did to him as justified. when he is revealed to be a murderer, the people who love him cannot just discard all the positive memories as part of the facade.

song i associate with them: Farewell Wanderlust by The Amazing Devil. it Hits.

Goodbye to all my darkness, there's nothing here but light/ Adieu to all the faceless things that sleep with me at night/ This here is not make-up, it's a porcelain tomb /And this here is not singing, I'm just screaming in tune because /Farewell wanderlust, you've been ever so kind /You brought me through this darkness, but you left me here behind /And so long to the person you begged me to be /He's down, he's dead /Now take a good long look at what you've done to me

.....dare i say it? krispollo vibes

favorite picture of them: i know this is an Apollo Image but look at kristoph in the back j chilling. jacket off. waistcoat only. looking a bit.....sexy and ho—[vivian shoots me with a sniper rifle and i die]

[mountain-dew-tickledpink]

I’m gonna cry Abyss you can’t just expose me like this /j

First fic: 2017 and I’m not even kidding it was Bendy and Boris The Quest For the Ink Machine before the creator got outed as bad, but since that’s an AU I guess my first “real fandom” I wrote for was cuphead or invader zim.

First character I wrote for: first character(s) I wrote for was I guess cuphead and mugman? BABTQFTIM!Boris if you wanna get super technically

Main character(s) currently writing for: I write. SO MUCH STUFF with Christine she’s so silly, I’ve also been writing Chloe stuff.

Fandom(s) currently writing for: Be More Chill is obvious, but I have been trying to think of stuff to write for with We Know the Devil. Also my OCs but idk if that counts and I only talk about them with one person ever (Richey if ur seeing this hiiiii)

Platonic pairings: most of them ngl

Romantic: A lot of BMC toxic yuri, again trying to think of Jupiter/Neptune/Venus stuff to write and also my OCs but again probably doesn’t count

Top 3 ao3 tags: idk have to check

Where I post fics: ao3, very occasionally tumblr but mostly ao3

Snippet of what I’m working on: WKTD self insert lets gooo (also have a BMC one but not posting that one yet)

“The cabin, in spite of the humid summer night, gets cold. So cold we can see our breath in little clouds. Then the shaking comes. Cracks form in the ground, and we can feel ourselves getting tossed around.

The devil is lonely. We kicked the devil out and it misses us. It keeps begging to be let back, for us to let it in.

And Pluto did.”

Tags — @phaethonshine @fromrussiawithlove-maddie @this-mess-of-a-man

❦ ➷ get to know your fellow fanfic writers better ༊ ✧.*

I had fun doing this! ♡

when did you post your first ever fanfic?

January 2017, I think. wow, it’s been 6 years! (no, I’m not giving you my Wattpad username)

first character you wrote for:

Joker. it was during my Wattpad era. I have zero regret, but I’m not giving the link lol

main character(s) you’re currently writing for:

Daniel Harrow & Henry Creel (as in separate fics that aren’t crossover, but wouldn’t it be nice if I wrote a crossover with these two…)

character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan on writing about soon:

Henry Morgan (from Forever tv) !! also, I’d love to write more about Captain Jack Sparrow

fandom(s) you’re currently writing for:

Harrow & Stranger Things

platonic pairing(s) you currently write for:

Daniel Harrow & Simon Van Reyk (Harrow), Henry Creel & Eleven (Stranger Things)

romantic pairing(s) you currently write for:

I know it’s been more than a year since my last update so I can’t say currently, but Loki/Mobius. other than that the more recent one is Will Byers/Mike Wheeler but even then, it’s still rare. so I guess I focus more on writing platonic relationships lately (honestly it just depends on the characters whom my hyperfixation is on and whether their relationship with the other characters is romantic or platonic.)

your top 3 tags on AO3 (if you post your works on AO3):

whump, hurt/comfort & angst

your current platform where you post your works:

tap HERE for my AO3

snippet of the wip you’re currently working on:

should be posted hopefully within the next few days!

But Harrow forced a smile as he greeted Simon with a hug. And when he hugged Simon, his smile became real. And for a moment Harrow could forget the guilt and the shame he carried with him. For a moment, he could really breathe, knowing that Simon was safe. In his arms.

* aka a fix-it fic where Simon lives.

🏷️ no pressure tags at random: @foodiewithdahoodie @queereldritch @bebataylor84 @ohfallingdisco @eddiemunsons-missingnipple @sillylittlerock @jcbbby @maladaptive-jcb @highwarlockofphilly @can-of-pringles @mirilyawrites @chaos-monkeyy @harringroveera @medium-rare-bimbo @deliaqbower @ripcreel @rins-love-wins @okilokiwithpurpose @lokisgoodgirl @loki-is-my-kink-awakening @daddiesdrarryy @loki-hargreeves @zodiyack @cha-melodius @insert-witty-user-name-here @dewdropreader @blackbirdofasgard @mimisempai @underwhelmingalchemist @excusemefangirlhere @abitofboth @worstloki @littlekinng @andiwriteordie @cluelessbees @suzieburself @waroftheposes @drop-of-infinity @bookinit02 @bizarrelittlemew @ghostalservice @pilkingtonian @thefatedthoughtofyou @brbsoulnomming @spooky-brakers @cosmicanamnesis @cranberrymoons @onirislanding @thefreakandthehair @thisapplepielife — if I didn’t tag you and you’d like to join, please do! everybody is welcome

[sleepyjuniper]

QUESTIONS FOR FIC WRITERS LET'S GOOO-

3, 9, 28, 31!

Answering the first three, cause I just answered 31 in the last ask.

3. What are some tropes or details that you think are very characteristic of your fics?

For this one, could you guys actually tell me what you think is unique to my writing? Because in my mind, I see my writing as different because I never properly learned how to do it. It would be really nice to actually hear some positivity about my writing style, to kind of drown out the doubts. Cause if I had to credit my own writing, I'd say that I try very hard to make my writing easy to visualize and to make sure it's not confusing, when my writing could occasionally benefit from me not doing that so neurotically. A little obscurity is fine, I think, it just doesn't come naturally to me. People do say that they like the descriptiveness of my fics though, so maybe it's a good thing. But as I said before, what do you all think? What makes my writing recognizable? What makes it *me*?

9. How do you find new fic to read?

Many ways. Sometimes I see a bunch of people talking and obsessing over it and decide to check it out, and sometimes I run across a blog on Tumblr that advertises their own fic and it peaks my interest. Occasionally I'll search by tag on ao3 when I'm looking for certain characters or tags.

28. Does anyone read your fics before you post them? If so, who?

Yes! My friend @thewordofm has been my beta reader/co-conspirator since I started work on chapter 7. Chapter 7 and 8 likely wouldn't have been the same without her encouragement; she is a very valuable asset to me in ensuring that what I'm writing is good, and that my doubts are just my brain lying to me. Wherever I'm stuck on a particular segment, I'll kind of rant to M, and we can usually reach a breakthrough once we start brainstorming. She's great!!

Ask me a question about the writing process!

[cgogs]

I’ve been meaning to leave a nice message in your ask box for a week or two now, ever since I found your writing, but I never have the words to express just how much I absolutely adore your writing. I’m literally just. staring blankly ahead trying my best to make my brain articulate words but goddamn do your fics leave me completely speechless.

I found Oxeye Daisy while searching the c!dnf tag on tumblr in a desperate attempt to feed my brain. I’m a multishipper at heart but sometimes DNF rents out any and all available space in my mind and refuses to leave. Then I saw it, your post. Announcing that the first chapter was up. I followed you, we’re mutuals even, how had I missed it?

I open it. Its only chapter has more than 10k words. It’s c!dnf. I can’t believe it, I hit the jackpot. The first scene has me instantly hooked and I don’t stop reading until I finish the entire thing. I could See the first scene so clearly. it’s so clear that it’s blurry, because I even imagined the rain. Dream and George’s dynamic is a breath of fresh air, it’s exactly what I want to read. It’s messy, it’s complicated, even unhealthy sometimes. They can’t communicate for shit yet they both try, and don’t try, because they love each other.

They make me lose my mind. Like vibrate out of my skin while reading lose my mind. Like the first thing I did after finishing the chapter was run to @dreamslesbian's DMs and scream continuously for an hour lose my mind. And God don’t even get me started on that scene in the mineshaft. Plus the flashback? Them kissing for air? THEM KISSING FOR AIR. OH MY FUCKING GOD I CLAWED AT MY ENCLOSURE, I TELL YOU. The codependency got me so good.

AND THAT’S JUST THE FIRST CHAPTER. YESTERDAY I WOKE UP TO THE UPDATE RIGHT. The first thing I did in the entire day was read it. Like, immediately. I INHALED IT. I LOVED IT OKAY, IT’S EQUALLY AS GOOD AS THE FIRST ONE, IT’S JUST A WONDERFUL CONTINUATION, IT FITS SO WELL. Every time they talk I just @#%&/!=)$?@ GOD. I love how you write them. LIKE GEORGE????? INCREDIBLE SHOW-STOPPING AMAZING WONDERFUL. He’s soooooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love him. Him wanting Dream to want him, to need him. The entire part where he stops talking out of spite? LOVE IT. When they talk about it afterwards? Dream’s response to everything. ALSO THE FACT THAT DREAM IS ERRATIC IN HIS RESPONSES SOMETIMES??? Like the morning after him and George talk, when George takes the arrow out of his shoulder, how he’s acting completely different, closed off, with the mask on??? MY GOD. LIKE YEEESSS IT’S THAT SWEET SWEET TRAUMA LET’S GOOO. AND THE FACT THAT THEY ARE BOTH TOUCH-STARVED AS HELL BUT THINGS ARE HARD AND DIFFICULT AND UEUEUEUE

I feel like they managed to communicate a lot more in the second chapter, even if it was still a mess, and I’m honestly scared for the next chapter but in a super excited ‘i hope they suffer emotionally, i hope they cry, I hope I cry, I hope we all cry’ type of way.

OH AND THE FACT THAT DREAM STILL WANTS TO GO ALONG WITH THE PLAN AFTER EVERYTHING? I N C R E D I B L E.

Also I’m not even half finished like I uhhh haven’t even started talking about for queen and country like uh.

I AMM CRYING FFOR REAL THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MMY LIFR this is making my week my month my year like.

I put so much effort into oxeye daisy like blood sweat tears fingernails , i am so fucking glad to have made content people were hungry for like THE PEOPLE NEEDED THIS FIC... THE C!DNFERS.....

I'm going to reread this message one million times. I wish I could frame it. I'm showing all my friends. And my cat.

[sometimesiwrite]

HEHEHEHEHEHEH FOR THE WRITING ASKS: 1 & 24 pls thank

Hmmmm let's see...

Do I find writing cathartic or stressful?

A bit of both, I think, but always in a positive way. Lately I've been pushing myself to write outside my comfort zone and challenge my imagination which always feels a bit like going up to the first drop of a roller coaster "Whoooooa here we gooo 😬". If anything it makes the writing process slower for me and it means I'm exploring less "popular" content and pairings. Which in turn means less interaction. So sometimes it feels like I put in a lot of work that not many people end up seeing, and that can be hard because interaction is part of the reward for hard work on places like Tumblr and Ao3. Praise cuts through the self-criticism (I'm also very particular, I will work and work until I'm satisfied with the framing of each sentence), and it feels good, of course. Thankfully I have supportive friends who spoil me with new ideas, feedback, gentle nudges, and fic recs. I love writing.

Which piece do I wish people would ask me more about?

Hmmm that's tough. I love talking about my writing--that sounds a bit up myself I guess--but to me, discourse is part of the feedback of the creative process, like a workshop for new performance, or a group crit for an art piece. Talking is how I connect with people. I think I wish people asked me more about my OC series. It's been stalled for a bit and I think part of the reason is that I don't feel that many regular readers are curious about it. There's a lot in there about platonic intimacy, building partner-trust, and emotional labour. I feel like it's actually quite poignant, and I feel like getting questions about it might help me to see where my thoughts and others' experiences are or aren't lining up. Sometimes the artist wants readers to come away with something, and right now I'm not sure whether or not that's happening. It doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things but. I dunno. It would be fun to know!