#first gf in 36 years and he is acting like this

[dramashii]

Seo Ji Hwan in love.

MY SWEET MOBSTER (2024) | Ep 10

[yeongwonie]

STUPID CUPID! — park sunghoon

SYNOPSIS. alone on valentine's day, you decide to sign up for the student council's fundraiser: a matchmaking survey, hoping to at least get a few laughs out of the whole ordeal. little do you know, park sunghoon (your archenemy since junior high) has the same idea. but it's fine! your student body president, kim sunoo, would never tamper with the matching system, right?

PAIRING. park sunghoon x f!reader

TAGS. enemies to lovers, matchmaking

WARNINGS. cursing, i'm not funny, slow burn, minimal d!ck jokes (+ more specific warnings will be added to each chapter!)

FT. enhypen, txt's soobin and hueningkai, itzy's ryujin and chaeryeong

STATUS. completed! (02/20-06/04)

NOTE. first smau hehe i'm excited!! timestamps and dates are accurate to the story but u don't have to pay attention to them! send an ask to be tagged :)

PLAYLIST.

00 — prologue (0.4k)

profiles pt. 1 | profiles pt. 2

01 — we need money

02 — you're what?

03 — hey soulmate

04 — just got whiplash

05 — (no one believes u!!!!)

06 — "future gf"

07 — sunghoon sympathizer

08 — like a pokemon

09 — happy anniversary (+ 1.5k)

10 — nervous aura

11 — at the end of my rope

12 — On my way! (+ 0.8k)

13 — he almost felt bad!

14 — sunoo senses

15 — hypothetically

16 — jake's detective era

17 — top secret confidential

18 — freaking tf out

19 — deep breaths, jungwon

20 — the anti-sunghoon militia

21 — making promises

22 — all (wo)men do is lie

23 — google, why can't i sleep?

24 — a weird coincidence (+ 0.9k)

25 — women's history year

26 — sunghoon redemption arc?

27 — i 85% forgive you

28 — dance battle!

29 — rehearsal (+ 1.4k)

30 — stage one: denial

31 — love is such a strong word

32 — this is all metaphorical

33 — like it was (+ 1.2k)

34 — seafood luvrs

35 — nobody nobody nobody

36 — unsolicited advice

37 — what you wanted (+ 1.9k)

38 — dark and mysterious

39 — mental fortitude

40 — hey sunghoon

41 — fluffy white dog contest

42 — the friend zone

43 — double meanings

44 — hey past self!

45 — act surprised

46 — i think you should yolo it

47 — platonic lunch date (+ 1.2k)

48 — one of the oomfs

49 — we don't work together (+ 0.8k)

50 — stupid cupid! (+ 1.1k)

[piduai]

on december 25th 1866 a family of average money and status enjoyers up in niigata welcome yet another little prince into the world. it could mean nothing (and there's also the fact that noda borrowed the name from a real person), but the name tokushirou has the kanji for "fourth" in it, which is usually reserved for the fourth son. it was common practice for nobles back then to have a bunch of children (real life hijikata had 9 siblings), so him having at least 3 older brothers and god knows how many sisters wouldn't be out of line.

little prince enjoyed a lavish life of wagashi and piano lessons where he learnt beethoven's sonata 23 and probably other foreign pieces, something reserved for the elite. his status perhaps let him dabble in foreign languages as well, giving him an education rich in cultural teachings, which will come in handy in his future job. not as lavish as it could have been, though - in 1868, when prince was tenderly aged just two, daddy tsurumi senior (if that's even his real name) has been severely cucked in an attempt to Keep Japan Great and as a result of not unstanning the shogunate in a timely manner has suffered losses. who knows what he did when the samurai class was abolished, maybe he went into trade <3 if he was as smart as his son, maybe even foreign trade. maybe even with russia. or at some point he just put on a flop act when the family ran out of funds.

regardless of daddy's finances, junior decided to keep the samurai spirit, his bushido somehow landing him in the army. it's unknown how long he lived in russia before meeting his wife, but he knew enough russian to score a hot slavic gf, so honestly, slay? in 1891, aged 25 and with a freaky blonde baby, he meets wilk, his spiritual half-slavic twin. unfortunate for the wife and the baby, for wilk was the last person that they met. sad!

now that tsurumi learnt the taste of human fingers, he decided to adopt his evilsona. either sucking on them fingies like a horse munching on carrots or pathetic human grief should be credited with him going from a cutesy, blob chubby cheeks look to a chad defined facial structure with chiseled cheekbones we don't know, but he complemented the facial reconstruction with lifeless eyes, sexy eyebags, and a pointy villain moustache and invested in hair gel to keep his outgrown locks slicked back. classy as hell. just two years later, aged 27, he's spotted being weird to children in a dojo in sweet home niigata. one of those children happened to be a young 12 years old usami, whose sheer amount of swagger tsurumi could only dream of, but who nevertheless felt himself swayed by thirst towards the recent widower. perhaps it was his kinda goth vibe? who knows. a year later usami (13) flips his lid and murders his bff, which tsurumi covers up and blames on a horse (kinda rude considering they're the same species), which ends up demoting him in the army. but it's okay because, thanks to usami, he learnt that he's sexy enough to manipulate other people's thirst for him in his own gain. very resourceful.

a year later, in 1894, he goes to his first war, where again he rediscovers psychology and comes to #conclusions. in 1895 he comes back to niigata, shares his thots on the human psyche with some random dude, and tells 14 years old usami that he's waiting for him in the army. this places usami as his first, most specialest candy boy.

in 1896, aged 30, he goes to meet his next toy on the death row. he tells him that he's been transferred to the 7th division in hokkaido, and that he'll be headed to russia as an intelligence officer, planning to take the dude along with him. he gets him off death row.

1897-1989 are a blind spot, we have no idea what he did in those years except that he returned to russia and at some point tried to #connect to that dude by hinting at his life story, except he was talking to someone way too dense to get his subtle hints. tragic, truly. before that at some point they went back too niigata, where tsurumi visited his mother's grave. there's no confirmation in the story, but we know that ogata might have also been accompanying him in russia; even if he wasn't, he did somehow meet ogata in this timeframe. maybe someday we'll find out how exactly.

in 1900, aged 34, he's back in japan, and down in kagoshima too, where he meets a 14 years old koito. most probably not incidental, safe to assume he went there with the exact goal of meeting this particular child. tsurumi is very hard-working.

in 1901, aged 35, he comes to tokyo accompanied by his 3 boy toys and threatens another girlboss with a gun in an attempt to keep yuusaku chaste. he meets kikuta, with whom he never really connected because he's into younger, more emotionally dependent and malleable people, but adds him to his collection nevertheless.

in 1902, tsurumi (36) goes to hakodate and orchestrates koito's (16) kidnapping, helped by ts*kishima, ogata and kikuta. usami didn't make the cut for some reason :( maybe he was left behind to guard tsurumi's copious stocks of hair gel at the military base.

judging by his ripped sleeves, he gets reunited with his spiritual twin mere days later. accompanied by usami and kikuta (it's what i call double shifting, or exploiting his employees. told yall he can't fucking stand kikuta), he is witness to the ainu massacre. very eventful week.

a year later koito pays him a visit in asahikawa and expresses his will to join his clique once he's done with school.

the russo-japanese war breaks out in 1904, where tsurumi gets hit by an arrow of fate in the face of a shrapnel while playing his mind games, and ends up losing a bit of his brain at the age of 38 (which only made him stronger and smarter #thegrindisreal). downside is that it ruined his brows and hairline.

in 1906 (age 40) he talks ogata into killing his dad (girlboss) because ogatapapa was his political enemy kind of, his facial hair was gross, and tsurumi's position in the 7th division needed to be strengthened. ogata obliges because they're besties.

the manga timeline starts a year later, in 1907, with tsurumi aged 41.

what comes next? who knows...

[hypmic-writings]

Buster Bros

Key: ♡ = headcanons; ✼ = scenarios; Bold = NSFW

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

♡ Buster Bros their s/o sleeps in their jacket~

♡ Buster Bros relationship headcanons~

♡ Buster Bros when there's a large spider in the house~

✼ Buster Bros you're Ichiro's gf and you act like the 'eldest yamada sister'~

♡ Buster Bros their s/o has been hiding their heterochromia~

✼ Cooking with the Buster Bros as Jiro's friend~

♡ Buster Bros when you're the Yamada sister and Jiro's twin~

♡ When you're an idol in a group~

♡ Buster Bros when you're their sibling and you're dating Nemu~

♡ Buster Bros jealousy headcanons~

♡ Buster Bros when you're their sister and you get brainwashed to join the Party of Words~

♡ Buster Bros general date headcanons~

♡ Buster Bros when you have a tickle fight~

♡ Buster Bros when you're their sister and you start dating someone~

♡ When you have a bad day and he cheers you up~

♡ When he's your live-in boyfriend~

♡ When he celebrates your birthday~

♡ When you're his chubby s/o~

♡ NSFW - When it's your irst time with Ichiro~

♡ NSFW - Ichiro headcanons~

♡ When Ichiro finds out you're pregnant~

♡ NSFW - When you're a bratty, bottom s/o~

✼ Ichiro - 6.“Oh my God! You’re in love with her!”~

♡ When you're in a triple relationship with Samatoki and Ichiro~

♡ Being in a triple relationship with Samatoki and Ichiro headcanons pt 2~

✼ Ichiro - 9. “I am not losing you again.”~

♡ When he accidentally runs into his childhood crush after many years~

♡ When he has a short s/o~

✼ Ichiro - 28. “You did this for me?”~

♡ When his s/o has night terrors~

♡ When their s/o is depressed and having a bad day~

✼ Comforting his s/o and reassuring them that he loves them~

✼ First date with Ichiro~

✼ Ichiro - 54. “God, you feel so good”(NSFW)

✼ Ichiro Soulmate AU

✼ Ichiro - 36. “Where are you right now?”

✼ Ichiro - 19. “It’s kind of like an adventure, right?”

✼ Ichiro - 8. “Let's go to the beach!”

♡ Kink headcanons~ (NSFW)

♡ When he comforts you after an anime character death~

♡ When you come out as nonbinary and want to use male pronouns~

✼ When you're a total bookworm~

✼ Dad!Ichiro being soft with your baby~

♡ When they find their best friend beaten up in an alleyway~

♡ When their s/o is smooth~

✼ Ichiro cosplaying with Mine (an OC)~

♡ When their girlfriend is shy but affectionate in private~

♡ Jealousy headcanons~

♡ When you throw candy at them for attention~

♡ TDD - when they take care of your tiny, hyperactive dog~

♡ When their s/o cries from happiness at compliments~

♡ When their s/o is being stalked~

♡ TDD - when they pick you up bridal style~

♡ When you play the pocky game with them~

✼ When you're stubborn but Ichiro takes care of you~

♡ When they help you through a migraine~

♡When he's your friend with benefits (NSFW)~

♡ TDD - what they smell like~

♡ When their s/o is from a warzone~

✼ Mine (an OC) staying over at Ichiro's house for the first time~

♡ (TDD era) Ichiro's 'firsts' with his s/o~

♡ Ichiro with a breeding kink (NSFW)~

♡ When they're yandere and you don't think you're good enough for them~

♡ Ichiro/Kuko polyamorous SFW/NSFW relationship headcanons when you're a workaholic~

♡ When you're a gamer~

♡ When you give them a lap dance (NSFW)~

♡ When you're a manga artist~

♡ When you're a member of the yakuza~

✼ When you're cooking together and you get a cut on your hand~

✼ When you blindfold him and use a feather~ (NSFW)

♡ TDD - when you're reunite together after a long time~

✼ When you and Ichiro are going out for dinner and Jiro and Saburo are looking after their baby~

♡ TDD - when you have a video game night together~

♡ How they confess to their crush~

♡ TDD -when you're a simp for 2D characters~

♡ When they comfort you after losing your siblings~

♡ TDD - when you're afraid of love because you've been hurt in the past~

♡ When they're fathers raising a little girl~

♡ When you're an artist struggling with insecurities and an inferiority complex~

♡ When he finds you reading fanfic headcanons about him~

♡ TDD - when you're dating them but you're their rival's sibling~

✼ When he has a nightmare and you comfort him~

♡ When your parents are evil but still good parents~

♡ When you're in a poly relationship with Ichiro and Ramuda~

♡ Public sex headcanons (NSFW)~

♡ TDD - when you have a crush on another Dirty Dawg member~

♡ When they walk in on you casually eating a whole lemon~

♡ When you're his s/o who loves cute, shojo anime~

♡ When they find out you have abusive parents~

✼ When you spoil him~

♡ When your clothes ride up while you sleep~

✼ Poly!Ichiro x reader x Samatoki when they're celebrating your birthday~

♡ When you're playing a song for them on the guitar, but keep making mistakes~

♡ When you do the Aknha dance to them (NSFW)~

♡ MCD - When you go to an amusement park for a date~

♡ When he's jealous that you're hanging out with Samatoki (NSFW)~

♡ TDD - when they work at a daycare~

♡ TDD - when they all switch bodies with each other~

♡ TDD - when they're cursed with the Fruit's Basket Zodiac curse~

✼ When you debate whether to get a dog or a cat~

♡ Jiro relationship headcanons~

♡ When Jiro has a tongue piercing~

✼ Jiro - 35. “Damn, I didn’t think it would hurt this much”

✼ Free Period - You find Jiro’s free-period hiding spot at school

♡ When you're his s/o and his roommate~

♡ When he finds out you're only dating him on a dare~

♡ When you style and play with his hair~

♡ When they take care of their sick s/o~

♡ When you're going through a depressive episode~

♡ When they're yandere and you don't think you're good enough for them~

♡ When you go from strangers to friends to lovers~

✼ When you read about a kabedon in your book and then try it on Jiro~

✼ When you surprise Jiro with lunch but you're a bad cook~

✼ When you and Jiro study together~

✼ When you vent to Jiro about the future~

♡ When you fail a test and he comforts you~

♡ How he celebrates your birthday~

♡ When you squish his cheeks between your hands before kissing him~

✼ When you're his short s/o~

♡ When you have a study date with him~

♡ Saburo meeting his s/o headcanons~

♡ When they have a cute, small s/o~

♡ Wedding day headcanons~

♡ When his s/o has an asthma attack~

✼ Saburo - 10. “My heart hurts whenever I look at you”

✼ Saburo - 22. “Are you implying I’m…attractive?”

♡ When his s/o has a thirst for knowledge~

♡ When he finds out you're only dating him on a dare~

♡ Saburo becoming friends with the quiet kid~

✼ When you help him write rap lyrics~

✼ When Ichiro and Jiro help Saburo on his first date with you~

♡ How they confess to their crush~

✼ When you're a weeb and drag him to your house to watch anime together~

♡ When you spend a lazy day with them~

♡ When you have a study date with him~

[boolproppin]

UGH, I want to ask all of them for Adam and Helmi (because they are my favorite) but I will behave and only ask... all the even numbers. akjsdaskdjas I'm sorry I just want to know all the things. ;-;

I will answer all of them for you my friend <3 

1. Who’s the one who’s reckless and always getting into trouble while the other gotta pull em out

They are both very level headed, however if one of them got themselves into trouble it would more likely be Adam who would follow his ideals and being a standup guy (unintentionally getting himself into a pickle). Helmi would need to talk some sense into him and help him see the grey area.

2. Who’s the one to send the other “I love my gf/bf” memes

This would so be Adam! He’s only recently learned about memes and gets a pretty good kick out of them. He would absolutely EMAIL them to Helms.

3. Who’s the one who listens to a music genre the other doesn’t like and how does the other react

Helmi listens to indie pop which Adam just can’t seem to get into. He usually has a confused look on his face and then “recommends” putting on some Fleetwood Mac. 

4. Which one spoils the other more and do they ever get competitive to show the other more love

Adam! They aren’t competitive though, they both have a very sweet way of spoiling each other in different ways. 

5. How many years did it take to get married or was it just not for them

This is still up in the air ;) 

6. What was their wedding like

IF they got married it would be low key, minimal, and a small group of friends at an outdoor celebration. Their first dance would be to I Only Have Eyes for You by The Flamingos

7. Is their friends/family supportive

Helmi’s family and friends are very supportive of her meeting and starting a relationship with Adam. As far as Adam’s family...ehhhh, but his bestie Rayland is all for him moving forward in his life and being with someone he adores.  

8. How does one comfort the other when the other is in distress/having a panic attack/crying

Adam to Helmi: blankets, tea, and cuddles Helmi to Adam: words of affirmation and hugs

9. Which one dissociates

Neither 

10. Which one stares at the other’s booty like “damn” and how does the other react when catching them

Adam fo’ sho. Helmi just shakes her head, “there’s nothing even there to stare at!” 

11. When they live together what kinda place do they live in? What does their home look like?

Small home with mid-century modern feel. 

12. What do their dates look like

Randomness! Adam and Helmi have so much to show each other with the age gap. A night out to the movies ends up being an adventure of watching buskers, stopping at random bazaars, checking out random shops. 

13. How does each act when getting drunk

Helmi- flirty and DTF  Adam- Sadsies, but easily coaxed into a better mood ;)

14. Which one rolls over in the morning to wake up the other one just to give kiss them

Adam for sure, he’s an old man so he gets up early.

15. Have they saved each other’s lives before

I think they both did in a sense, they aren’t just existing anymore. 

16. Does one have an interest the other think is weird but wants to listen to it regardless

Yes! Adam is insanely obsessed with Fleetwood Mac/Stevie Nicks (probably why he just thinks Helms is the most gorgeous thing he’s ever seen). Helmi just loves how he lights up and gets excited when talking about them/her. 

17. Which one uses cropped hentai as reaction images

NEITHER LMAO

18. Does one of them kinkshame the other

I think Helmi would vanilla shame Adam, “you know they’ve invented more positions since missionary?”

19. Is one of them self conscious about their body? If so how does the other comfort them

They are both pretty content, however I could see Adam getting self conscious if he met some of the models Helmi is around.

20. Say they were cuddling on the bed while listening to record player playing the background. Which song is playing?

My Girl by The Temptations

21. What is their song? Like the song that gives them overwhelming feelings?

Bring It On Home To Me by Sam Cooke

22. What song do they listen to while going on a joyride

Renee by SALES 

Adam likes the “hey you got it” part.

23. What kinda joyrides do they go on? Relaxing ones or wild ones?

Relaxing. Visit a small town or go to a beach nearby. Stop by some of the shops along the way.

24. Where would they vacation for a honeymoon

Brindleton Bay

25. Do people ever get annoyed of their pda

Not at all, they are the couple that holds each others hands or are close to each other, a peck on the cheek or lips. 

26. Would they live in the city or the country

Country but not too far from the city.

27. Which ones the red which ones the blue

Helmi is red, Adam blue

28. Are either of them mentally ill, if so how do they help one another cope

Adam has depression and Helmi has anxiety. They help each other by listening, going to counseling, and checking in with each other. 

29. Does one have a spot on them where they would melt when the other kisses them there

Helms melts when he kisses her hand. 

30. Do they dance together

Oh yes, many an impromptu dance sesh when the record player is on.

31. Do they sing together

Yes and they both are HORRENDOUS singers.

32. Which one is better at cooking than the other and makes most the dinners

Adam is a better cook so he would definitely make more of the dinners.

34. Are they a reckless couple or safe

Safe!

35. What be they kinks and do they try each other’s kinks

Adam would love to do the deed while Helmi wears his lettermans jacket. As for Helmi she loves the thrill of having sex in public.  As far as trying each others? We’ll have to see!

36. What would their valentines gifts be to each other

Adam would get the old school boxed valentines cards (the kind you took to elementary school) and would write something sweet along with a box of chocolates.  Helmi...probably in his letterman’s jacket waiting for him to come home. 

37. Do they get into fights often? If so what do they fight over and how do they make up?

Not often. They would most likely fight about Adam’s idealistic tendencies or insecurities. Making up would consist of apologies and cinnamon rolls.

38. Which ones top, bottom, verse

Het couple so verse?

39. What kinda sex they be having (gentle rough whatever)

Gentle but also a tiny bit rough at times.

40. Who would fight in honor for the other if someone would insult them

Both! No one messes with theirs! 

41. Which one has a favorite movie that they have the other watch with them again and again

Helmi does which is 50 First Dates

42. How would one react if the other was to die

Inconsolable. I don’t think either of them would ever move on.

43. Who dies first

Helmi

44. Do they want kids

Adam can’t have children and his only child Rhiannon was conceived with IVF, but that is no longer an option. Helmi is okay with not having children, she’s never considered having her own. 

45. How would they spend their last moments together

Dancing while the record player is on.

[sassyfrassboss]

SUBMISSION:

Speaking about the Oprah interview which was filmed in California, the source close the couple told the Times: ‘Having an institutional voice within the royal family wasn’t enough [for Meghan]. This interview will be the loudest way she’ll get her voice back.’

'When they first started dating Meghan felt she had lost her voice. She had had a platform as a moderately successful actress, and when she was told to stop using her social media and be careful what she said, I could tell that loss of voice and independence pained her.’

Wait a minute. She was ACTIVELY dropping hints about being JH’s gf on her IG back then, but social media is toxic and evil now (welp just like the BRF, according to her) and I think she has renewed some stuffs for The Tig. The countless pap walks and false drama about photographers breaking in to her house in Toronto. Who can forget the cringe Vanity Fair interview copying Diana’s header after she delivered JH? After joining the BRF she spoke about certain sensitive matters in public (e.g the abortion issue in Ireland) and sulked that she also has a voice during the first ever Fab Four (🤮) appearance where the tension was already so darn obvious. TQ told her that she can be a non working royal but this brat refused her offer and wants to start running apparently. But now it’s all The Palace’s fault?

_____________________

Funny how that works isn’t it?

She was WARNED repeatedly by many friends, which she admitted in her African doc, that being in a relationship with Harry was not going to be easy. She tries to blame it on the British press being harsh on her but that had nothing to do with this. 

Harry said in the engagement interview he warned her. 

Let’s look at is this way. 

A 36 year old woman, who had a C-List career in Hollywood, was a main character on a TV series that ran for years, was previously married, ran in the upper echelons of Toronto society, grew up in the Hollywood culture, and who claims to a strong feminist is crying about have to delete her social media accounts because they gave her a voice? 

This grown woman, not a YOUNG woman, but a GROWN woman, of her own mental capacities and by her own choice got into a relationship with a raking member of the BRF. 

She continued this relationship, knowing that if it went towards marriage she would have to give up certain aspects of her life. Harry told us he told her that and she agreed he did! 

So she was warned in ADVANCE. She was also given the choice, by THE QUEEN, to be a private citizen and continue her acting career and Harry would be a member of the BRF but no longer a working Royal. Meghan DECLINED this option. 

Again, Meghan CHOSE to marry Harry and to become a working royal. I don’t recall anyone walking behind her with a gun to her head. 

Life is about choices. You either make them and deal with the consequences. You do not however, blame YOUR CHOICES on others because YOU couldn’t hack the job you were given and were warned about multiple times from multiple different people. 

If 100 people tell me that if I put my hand over an open flame I am going to get burned and I ignore them anyways and do it...who is to blame? The flame? The match that lit the flame? The person who created the match? The 100 people who warned me? Or myself? 

[judewithcigarette]

ok get ready: 3, 8, 9, 15, 17, 19, 20, 32, 35, 36, 44, and 46!! you're welcome 😌

I am so EXCITEDDDD thank u legend 😌

3. who was the last person you held hands with?

      - I'm 95% sure it was actually you gabby, when you held my hand while we rode the Ferris wheel last year at the local fair cuz I was PETRIFIED jsldkfjlsdkfj

8. do you prefer sunrise or sunset?

      - okay so I prefer sunsets ESPECIALLY where we live, they really just hit different in our town.  but I WILL say that one of the clearest memories I have of childhood is when I woke up with my dad and my friend to see the sunrise on Catalina island when our school went there on a trip and it was so beautiful

9. what kind of weather represents who you are as a person?

      - this is such a good question and I have like, no clue 😅 I’ve been sitting and thinking about this for a little bit now, and I'm thinking I’m kinda like the sunny days that are also like 50ish degrees bc of the cold breeze? when you first walk outside you’re like holy FUCK but then you stay there for a moment and let the sun warm you up and then you’re like oh okay, it actually isn't that bad! I think that fits me :) another alternative would be the cool night breeze, I think that might fit me a little better

15. what does the perfect kiss feel like?

      - okay call me a sap for this one, but the soft kisses are the ones that feel most perfect to me. I've never kissed anyone I was truly in love romantically with but I HAVE kissed friends (plus my one ex) and the soft kisses where you’re both smiling a little and you’re moving with each other and you’re holding each other are the ones that make me melt... oof anyways time to watch pride and prejudice and yearn I guess 

17. who are you most inspired by?

      - I’m not sure there’s any one person I’m most inspired by, weirdly enough! I mean I could definitely say bts bc they inspire me, but in terms of actual people I think my loved ones inspire me just bc you see how they try to carve out their own pieces of happiness and it inspires me to do the same when I feel like I can't

19. what is your favorite plant?

      - EXCELLENT question I think cherry blossoms are definitely up there, and so are redwood trees.  lotuses and just like, flowers in general are very cash money I think.  ferns are cool too I like seeing them roll out

20. what is your favorite feeling?

      - the feeling when you’re just happy. or content might be a better word? peaceful? you know those moments in cheesy coming of age movies where the character sort of steps out of their body and looks around and is just like “yes this is good”? or when you’re just still, by yourself or with other people, and oh my fucking god this is gonna sound so cheesy but like, how they say someone’s soul is still and at peace and you just gotta smile? that feeling is my favorite

god why am I like this right now ANYWAYS!

32. where do you feel most at home?

      - hmmmm, location wise it would be in my bed or at a beach or my abuelos’ house or specifically in the muir woods jsldkfsldfj but in a broader sense there are just some people that are home y’know? no I will not name them specifically because I am already acting fucking sappy enough as it is but if you know me irl and you're asking yourself “does she mean me” yes I do ❤️

35. what is your favorite thing about yourself?

      - big titties and my potential to be a big titty goth gf

      - but seriously uhhh I think I’m resilient and I’m kinda smart and I can sweet talk by way into or out of any situation and I think that’s very cash money of me.  I am also a good listener and that might actually be my favorite

36. what is the nicest compliment you’ve received?

      - oh man I don't know honestly 🤔 when people say they can feel at home with me I get so happy like SO. HAPPY. and once someone told me that I held love in my eyes and that they could feel it when I looked at them and that one had me fucked up for AGES since I've also been told I have an intense gaze which like, I know isn’t inherently a bad thing but yeah 

44. what do you think about when you can’t fall asleep at night?

      - just the usual, creating entire plot lines where I’m the main character and I’m doing wild shit or simply just vibing with a wife cottage core style sldkfjsldfj

46. what is the nicest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

      - when my abuelo couldn’t be here for my birthday and he made a cake and sent a picture of it to me, and said something along the lines of “I can't give you much but I can give you my love and I hope that’s enough” and I sobbed for literal hours and I’m gonna have a breakdown just typing this I truly love that man so much 

[pastelbatfandoms]

Get to know My OC-Suzie Q

Get to know my character

Doing this for My OC Suzanna, of The Walking Dead. 

01. What does your character’s name mean? Did you pick it for the symbolism, or did you just like the way it sounded? I picked Suzanna (spelled with a z because I thought it looked cool) because I liked that Negan would call her Suzie Q. 

02. What is one of your character’s biggest insecurities? Are they able to hide it easily or can others easily exploit this weakness? Sex lbr,Sue isn’t above being seduced,or doing the seducing either. But only around Merle,Negan or The Governor,who can easily get her to do what they want and they know this. 

03. Something they like about themselves? Her Strength and resilience. 

04. What are their favorite traits about their lover? (one psychological and one physical)   I’ll start with her first boyfriend Merle Dixon,who she had been with since before the turn. 

Mentally: Would have to be Merle’s humor (crude or not),how he flirts (with her anyway),his cockiness,How protective he is and how unpredictable. 

Physically: I mean Merle may not be everyone’s cup of tea (or bottle of whisky) but with those baby blue eyes,that mischievous grin,those arms and that swagger,he sure is Sue’s. Oh did I forget to mention she has an older man kink? ;) 

Next would be Suzanna’s other lover,who she met in Woodbury,of course I mean Philip Blake aka The Governor.

 Mentally: Suzanna was attracted to his intelligence,his quiet confidence,leadership qualities and that mysterious aura he seemed to have around him. 

Physically: That smile,those eyes,his body isn’t half bad either,but it’s his charm and darkness that really attracts her. 

Now onto her current lover Negan,leader of The Saviors. How she met him is a tad more complicated...

Mentally: Suzie loves his confidence,humor,and leadership skills,as well as his growth as a person. To her Negan is almost like Merle and Philip rolled into one.

Physically: I mean Negan is hot,anyone can see that! Especially when he first showed up,those Daddy good looks coupled with that swagger and dangerous smirk. Yeah Suzie definitely fell for him,even when she tried not too.  

05. Are they sexually confident or more of the shy type? Definitely Confident. Though she didn’t have much experience until she met Merle.

06. Do they have any hobbies that their lover finds unusual, odd, or otherwise annoying? lol it’s the zombie apocalypse,what hobbies? Sue’s men are pretty open to whatever she likes,especially Negan since she met him after the turn where pretty much anything goes. 

07. Is there a catchphrase or sound that they tend to make a lot (likely without being aware of it)? No though she tends to steal some of Negan’s phrases like ‘Easy Peasy’ 

08. What is, perhaps, their biggest flaw? Are they aware of this or oblivious to it?  Um the fact that she has no self control lol maybe because of the fact that she grew up in a religious household. Her weakness for the bad boys,or worse. 

09. Do they have a favorite season? What about a favorite holiday? NOT Summer or Winter since they’ve almost died during both. Maybe Autumn or Spring. Holiday,what’s that? They don’t even know what YEAR it is now let alone day. 

10. Is your character more feminine or masculine? A mixture of both.

11. What is something that would make your character fly into a rage? Well her bloodlust kinda kicked in after being with Negan,besides that probably being pushed by one of Negan’s Wives and having her loyalty questioned. 

12. Is there some particular talent, skill, or attribute that they simply could not give up? Her Survival instincts & fighting skills,give those up and she might as well be Walker food.

13. What are your character’s sleeping habits? Heavy or light sleeper? Blanket stealer? One that always rolls onto the floor? Pushes their lover onto the floor? Sleep talker or walker? She’s a light sleeper anymore and has a hard time sleeping on her own. 

14. Do they live alone or with family? How do they feel about their family/roommates? Suzie was adopted by Hershal as a young Teen,after the zombie apocalypse happened she got separated from her family and traveled with The Dixon’s where they found a camp,she got separated after reuniting with her family,where she met Michonne,they traveled together until Woodbury where she found Merle again. After that whole thing with The Governor and Rick’s group,Sue went into hiding,until she found out she was pregnant and went to find Rick,Daryl and the rest. They traveled together and finally settled in Alexandria,until The Saviors came and after much bloodshed and fighting,Sue joined them,becoming Negan’s wife.

15. Is there a certain person in this world that they cannot stand? The very mention of this person’s name makes them tremble with anger or fear. Not really,though her and Philip did not end on good terms and she really cannot stand Simon. 

16. Is your character the athletic type or more of a couch potato? What are some sports/games that they like? lol Definitely more of The Athletic type now.  She was super girly when Merle first met her. 

17. Does your character have dreams of getting married and/or having children? Technically she is married to Negan and she has two children. 

18. What kind of home would they want to live in? Where would they place this abode? She really doesn’t care as long as her family is with her.

19. Would your character be the kind to get into fights? (physical or verbal) Would they be a good fighter or cave in rather easily? She tended to avoid them as a Teen,letting her BFF take the lead,but now yeah she can be pretty hot headed and the only time she caves in is when it’s one of her men. 

20. Does your character like animals? What are some of their favorite animals? Would they want pets? What about mythological creatures? Dogs all the way.

21. What is one of your character’s biggest fears? How would they react when dealing with this fear? Losing her children,like she lost her family and Merle.

22. What kind of tattoos, piercings, birthmarks, freckles, and other such unique physical features do they have? Other then her hair changing from Blonde to Brown constantly,no.

23. What is your character like when it comes to school? What subjects are they good/bad at? Do they get in trouble a lot or are well behaved? Sue didn’t really like school but her parents were strict so she had to maintain straight A’s.

24. In their own words, how would your character describe what their lover is like? Personality wise? Since she’s currently with Negan,I’ll just describe him. I’d say to the outside world he’s Smart,A leader,Dangerous,unpredictable,cocky and self assured. To Suzie (and later on when he loses everything) he still is all those things,especially when they first meet,but he’s more open with her,serious and has his morals,he won't hurt or kill children or those that he feels don’t deserve it and he doesn’t rape either,Negan also has deep rooted pain from losing his wife Lucille. 

25. Is there something traumatic from your character’s past that greatly affects them even to this day? I would say losing Merle,Her Father and a sister in Beth still effects her a bit, Also almost dying at the hands of her former lover (Who also killed her Father and Merle) 

26. What is their lover like sexually? How do they feel about their lover’s quirks, needs, etc? I made A-Z NSFW Headcanons for The Governor and Merle already,I might make one for Negan as well,but their are already really good ones of him out there! 

27. If your character was going to get arrested, what would be the most likely reason for it? Well there really isn’t any law anymore but before the turn it would probably be for doing something stupid with Merle like underage drinking.

28. If your character became a celebrity, what would they be famous for? lol idk maybe acting.

29. What is one of the most courageous things your character has ever done for a loved one? Almost sacrificed her life.

30. When it comes to the arts (music, film, theater, etc), what does your character like? Not much in the way of tv now,but before she liked watching Zombie and B Horror movies,also going out to parties,and listening to her sister Beth sing,watching Wrestling with Daryl and his GF,her BFF,Carol Lynn,dressing up to go out with Merle,she still likes Decorating,Negan’s pretty much let her decorate there room however she likes.

31. Would your character be the kind capable of killing? Would they enjoy killing or only use it when necessary or, perhaps, refuse to kill no matter what? Yes she has,mainly Zombies but she has killed people before out of necessity and protection. 

32. If your character’s lover offered to take them out on a dream date, what would they want to do?  As long as she’s with them she doesn’t really care. Her first date with Merle was at a restaurant/Bar,then they went dancing at a club and then back to his place...With The Governor it was sharing drinks out in the garden,though if he had a choice Philip would have taken her out to a nice restaurant. Suzie didn’t really have a conventional first date with Negan but they have their quiet nights alone,candle lit dinners,kinky sex ;) Negan also spoils her with presents every time they go out.

33. If your character wanted to be alone, where would they go? Her Room...lol seriously though,what alone time? Though sometimes her and the other wives hang out in Eugene’s room,playing video games and drinking if they need an escape.

34. Does your character have favorite foods? (breakfast, lunch, dinner, dessert, snacks, etc) Breakfast Foods mainly.

35. Is your character afraid of death? If they got to choose how to die, how would they want to go? Not much anymore,though she is afraid of leaving her kids behind.

36. Does your character have any medical conditions? Are they serious or minor? Do they affect their day to day life? No

37. What are some of your character’s pet peeves? What are some things that annoy them or disgust them? Being hit on,especially when she’s taken. Her men flirting with someone else.

38. What kind of weather does your character like? Cloudy skies, rainy days, sunshine, etc? As long as it’s not an extreme weather,she really doesn’t care.

39. When people look at your character, is there some assumption they might make about them just by appearance? Is that assumption correct? Well as Negan said when they first met “You are such a badass!” and he’s not wrong. Others may think she’s easily manipulated and maybe she is,at first.

40. Does your OC have any guilty pleasures they enjoy? Hobbies, past times, music, etc that they wouldn’t want known by others? Not really,she did try and hide her kinkier side with The Governor but Negan pretty much has done away with being ashamed of anything and told her they don’t need to hide that in The Sanctuary. 

41. Does your character’s family affect your character in any way? They used to.

42. Is there anything in your character’s past that they regret, haunts them, or they wish they could change? Sometimes she regrets meeting The Governor or siding with Negan over Alexandria but Suzie wouldn’t really change it.

43. Does your character have a switch that changes aspects of their personality whether they are around friends, family, etc. Is there someone who gets to see their true self? I think different people see different aspects of her personality and vice versa.

44. Is there a particular event that would emotionally devastate your character? Her Children or Negan dying.

45. Is your character the kind to hide their true emotions or do they wear their heart on their sleeve? A bit of both.

46. What is some random affectionate thing that your character always does to their lover? With Merle,Sue always sat on his lap if he was sitting on a chair or recliner. She does that with Negan too,with The Governor she always kissed his bad eye,if he was having a bad day,just to show him that she still loved him no matter what he looked like..

47. Is your character outgoing? Would they be the leader of the friend group, or the quiet one that gets dragged along? Sue used to be shyer but now she’s definitely more outgoing and a leader.

48. Is there anything in particular that would ignite your character’s jealousy? Or does your character not get envious? Again her men flirting with someone else,especially Merle. Negan favoriting another wife over her. 

49. What is something that your character has nightmares about? Are these frequent? Do they heavily affect your character’s mood? She used to have nightmares about finding Merle as a Zombie or of The Governor killing her but they have since dissipated. 

50. If your character confessed love to their crush, boyfriend, girlfriend, etc, what would they say? With Merle it was after their first time and Merle said it first,he was super nervous about it and Sue had to reassure him that she loved him too.

With Philip it was to reassure him that she wasn’t going anywhere,after he lost his eye and turned dark. 

With Negan it was during a particularly rare moment of confindment after he told her about Lucille,he didn’t say it back until a few months later when he was absolutely sure,and when he knew she wouldn’t leave him.

[sun-to-my-luna]

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September 15, 2017:

 the pursuit.

Part.1

Introduction:

(T.W.G Jr.)

Age: 36

Born: Los Angeles, CA.

(And yes, I know I just said 36 years old, because that’s how old he really is.)

We’re going to be talking about the infamous “leaked ID.”

Many  people were skeptical when the “I.D” was leaked in 2017, as they should be but in this case there are many reasons to believe the legitimacy of it. If you don’t already do.  Let me just say something that’s really important. It’s not uncommon for a celebrity to change their name & it’s not uncommon for a celebrity to lie about things including things about their everyday life. In fact here’s a list of celebrities that lied about themselves:  https://www.ranker.com/list/celebrities-who-lied-about-their-ages/donn-saylor.

If you were to ask Siri/Google how old T.D.S is right now they  will answer you,

Even websites will tell you that he is 33 years old.

But is he really? Because if that were the case that would make him the younger brother, and his younger brother would actually be older than him.  Which leads me into my next section.

 One has a suffix added onto the name  and one does not. Their names are completely identical, the date of birth are exactly the same. Both say they were born on April 13th, except the years were altered. Still don’t believe me when I say that they’re same  person? Here’s what an article said on the day that Dolly was publicly charged with cocaine and weed charges.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jYKBYqZtA4o

His lawyer even said his actual age himself.

He is the only (T. W. G, 36 ) apart from his father (60)  in the state of California, and if you add the suffix (jr.) in he doesn’t exist.

So, my question is why haven’t they fixed that yet?

PART 2.

I researched really hard to find information on him as an inmate, and as it turns out he was moved into a different correctional facility on the same lot.  Gabriel Griffin is 34 years old, and was convicted on two counts of attempted murder. Before that he was also charged in 2004 for openly  walking around with a weapon in public.  His name on the report that I used to find Dolly’s real name was spelt “Gabreal,” but it was definitely Dolly’s younger brother, since the court cases included in the report matched  the inmate named Gabriel Griffin.

Why am I mentioning this? Because the court in the video above makes it seem like he doesn’t have a criminal record when he does, and he called him “Mr. Griffin” not “Mr. Griffin Jr.”

Now that we established that “TWGJR” and “TWG” are the same person, let’s talk about something.

In the video someone says he was only stopped for having an expired license. Followed by his lawyer  making it seem like he’s this innocent person that made a small violation.

However,

In 2003 at the age of 21:

1. He exceeded  the speed limit which is 70 mph in California.

2. His license was suspended while he was driving faster than 70 mph.

3.  He willingly violated his written promise to his lawful continuance to appear in court or before a person authorized to receive a deposit of bail.

  Which means he;

A) didn’t appear in court again when he should have

B) he didn’t go to an authorized person to deposit his bail. Which was $15,000.

In the video they mention that  the incident in  2011 was his only misdemeanor   with a suspended license but that wasn’t the first time it happened.  If we include his other acts (beating up someone at a night club, getting arrested for drugs, obstruction of traffic, and allegedly  assaulting a fan) that he hasn’t been charged for he has quite the criminal ego if you ask me. 

  https://www.tmz.com/2017/09/25/ty-dolla-sign-yg-threatened-lawsuit-over-nightclub-beating/

https://www.tmz.com/2018/09/07/ty-dolla-sign-arrest-video-skrillex-weed-cocaine-bust/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZgwBod3Dsa4&list=UUK7IIV6Q2junGSdYK3BmZMg&index=1773

https://www.tmz.com/2015/01/30/ty-dolla-sign-yg-fight-assault-kicked-fan-head-club/

https://www.tmz.com/2014/11/13/ty-dolla-sign-marijuana-tour-bus-drug-bust-pot-hash/

There’s no wonder they chose Lauren to cover his ass.

(edit:)

There’s also a court case in Georgia that had a TWG involved in a gang related crime with drugs. The person that leaked  the ID subtly mentioned  Dolly being a part of a gang. Which might not be too far off  considering that like her brother, 👼🏆   in 2007  got a misdemeanor charge in Virginia for speeding and reckless driving above the speed limit (80mph). The states Georgia and Virginia are not that far apart, and being that TWG was charged with drugs in 2018. I’d say that whoever leaked the I.D wanted us to know something.

What do you think?                  

[thejapanesemapletree]

A l l O f T h e m. 31: Seiya/Shiryu 42: Ikki

Okay, wig

1: How long have you been in the fandom? Like uhhhh a month or two, from around the mid of November.

2: Favorite character? Aiolos because I adore He.

3: Favorite Bronze Saint? JABU. I love him because he is so fucking stupid. Himbo Rights.

4: Favorite Silver Saint? Marin!

5: Favorite Gold Saint? Aiolos! I also like Mu because he is a good dad.

6: OTP? (Me/Aiolos) Hyoga/Shun is the only one I have read fics for, so probably that lmao.

7: Other ships? I think Camus/Milo is funny because they seem like that couple that has constant explosive breakups and then get back together the next day.

8: Favorite Saga? (Sanctuary - Asgard - Poseidon- Hades) I luv the classic Twelve Temples Arc and meeting all the Gold Saints.

9: Favorite Female Saint? MARIN MY GIRL

10: Favorite God/Goddess? (Hades - Athena - Poseidon- Odin-ETC) I vibe with Apollo and the armor crop top he has going on.

11: Favorite Movie? If the Hades OVAs count... yes.

12: Headcanons you have? All the female saints are bisexual and you cannot change my mind.

13: How did you join the fandom? I was researching anime/cartoons that are popular in Latin America for a school project, and lo and behold... Saint Seiya.

14: When did you join the fandom? When I was doing the research in November or so.

15: Why did you join the fandom? I decided to watch a few episodes of the anime on Netflix to Get Woke about it in order to discuss it, and then I was sucked in never to return.

16: You have a crush on a character? Which one? HHHHHH I love Aiolos;;; 

17: Saddest character death? AIOLOS!!! He did not deserve his fate :(

18: Saddest backstory? If you don’t say Ikki here then you’re wrong.

19: Saddest/Most tragic Love Story? Miho and Seiya because Miho treated Seiya better than Saori usually does lmao. There are not a whole lot of canon love stories so IDK what else.

20: Opinion on Athena/Saori? I like how her coming into herself as a goddess also parallels her becoming a better and more caring person, especially towards the people risking her lives for her.

21: Manga or Anime? Anime. All-The-Bronze-Saints-Being-Related? I don’t know her.

22: Do you want to cosplay as anyone? I’m planning on making an armor Shun cosplay and a Kiki cosplay for a con in August uwu

23: Moment that made you cry? Not cry really, but Aiolos’ death and the kiddies finding his last writing in his temple were both OOF

24: Moment that made you laugh? When Misty ripped his clothes off for his vain, dramatic scene, and Seiya just rose out of the ocean and basically said, “You put your clothes back on and let’s finish this.”

25: Moment that made you Facepalm? ALL THAT REVERSE BLOODFLOW ACUPUNCTURE BULLSHIT. LEARN BASIC MEDICINE PLEASE. 

26: Favourite pair of brothers? Shun and Ikki!

27: Favourite pair of twins? Saga and Kanon are the only ones I really know lmao

28: Thoughts on the “Galactic Tournament”? YOU’RE MAKING 13 YEAR OLDS FIGHT TO DEATH ON TELEVISION EXCUSE ME??? MA’AM???

29: Least favorite character? Let Deathmask and Shura know,,, I just wanna talk.

30: If I could make two characters interact more, who would they be? I wish Poseidon and Hades had some interaction just so I can see Ancient God Brother shenanigans lmao 

31: Opinion on [ship name] [Seiya/Shiryu]? TBH when I first watched the series and Seiya and Shiryu were acting all goofy and nice with each other I was like damn... they should kiss. But then Shunrei appeared lmao

32: If you could kill a character, who would it be? I would kill Shura again just because I’m that spiteful. But also, Tatsumi should get a fucking prison sentence for how he treated the Bronze Saints as kids lmao

33: Saga or Kanon? Kanon

34: If you could bring a character back to life, who would it be? Me, leaning into the mic: Aiolos. (But also his bro, Aiolia)

35: Marin or Shaina? Why would you pit them against each other they’re GFs :(

36: Favorite character backstory? Hyoga’s backstory with his mom is so OOF, but also so good

37: Least favorite character backstory? RIP to Shion turning his back to Saga for one second and getting obliterated but I’m different (I also think the plot point of a character having TWO PERSONALITIES AND ONE IS EVIL UWU is so overrated smh)

38: Do you have any merch? I just ordered some pins >:)

39: Favorite chapter? Seeing the backstory with Aiolos training Aiolia... chefs kiss

40: Character you wish hadn’t died? Aiolos  Cassios did not deserve his his fate either :( And Esmerelda!!! Damn!

41: Character you would give more Screen Time? MY LASS, MIHO (And also Jabu)

42: Opinion on *insert name* [Ikki]? The Watchful Twunk over a pack of feral teen Twinks... he is a dearly needed part of the team

43: Favourite Teacher/Sensei? At the risk of saying Marin again, I also like Dohko because he LOVES HIS KIDS

44: Most wasted character? All the other Bronze Saints besides the main ones tbh

45: NOTP? If you ship Saori with people TWICE HER AGE, or people MYTHOLOGICALLY RELATED TO HER, you will die by my hand

46: Favorite AU? AU where Aiolos lives I think an AU where Aiolos actually becomes the Pope and raises Saori/Athena as his own bean would be cool

47: Favorite character from the Hades Saga? Pandora is Goth GF material

48: Most attractive character? Aiolos Shaka, despite being the world’s largest prick, is also very beautiful. Shaina is also an attractive young lady.

49: Favourite Song? PEGASUS FANTASY (the Latin American Spanish version is lit)

50: After Saga’s death… who would you nominate to be the New Pope? Mu, following in the footsteps of his master, is a Gold Saint with his shit together, as seen by his parenting of Kiki, and he therefore would make a good Pope.

[shipwreckedwithcaptainmarrow]

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

Guess I’m doing it too, just gonna answer it all. #gettoknowtheblogger! lol 

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Absolutely, the best I ever could have hoped for, my mom was my closest friend before she passed, and my dad is the best dad I could ever ask for.  02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? My girlfriend, Ava 03: Do you regret anything? Going halfway to mom and dad’s house, then realizing the hardware store was going to close soon, and doubling back for art supplies, only to have my mom pass away the next day. 2 years ago. I will never forgive myself.  04: Are you insecure? Who isn’t? 05: What is your relationship status? Good, as far as I know, she tried to break up with me once but I didn’t realize what was happening, and a year later we’re still a thing so, good. lol 06: How do you want to die? Peacefully in sleep? I mean, who wants to die other ways? 07: What did you last eat? BBQ chicken strips my gf made 08: Played any sports? I hear paintball is a sport. So, Paintball, like, 9 years ago, lol.  09: Do you bite your nails? Nope, never have.  10: When was your last physical fight? Never been in a physical fight. Very pirate-y, I know.  11: Do you like someone? My... girlfriend? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? Yes! Me and friend stayed awake 3.5 days straight just to see who’d crash first, lol.  13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? My ex-bestfriend 14: Do you miss someone? My mom, every single day. And a couple friends from back in MI 15: Have any pets? I have a little siamese cat named Niffler that I adore, he makes chortling sounds all the time! 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? Drunk! 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? Not there yet. lol 18: Are you scared of spiders? I’m not a fan of most insects, but my gf loves spiders, so, I’ve grown to tolerate them, lol. 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? I would, and not have gone to the fucking hardware store and went to go see my mom like I was going to.  20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? Last night, in bed. 21: What are your plans for this weekend? Fuck if I know, probably moving tons of shit from some stupid place to another. 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? No kids, I like animals tho and living my own life for me. Selfish,  I know. lol  23: Do you have piercings? How many? Both ears pierced, and lip piercing right where Andy Biersack has his. lol  24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? Umm.. Ancient greek, roman, viking, egyptian history and mythology, the golden age of piracy, medieval eras, etc. So I guess if you’re talking school, history? History and art? Probably art a tad more. 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? My friends from Michigan, my grandma up there, and of course, my mom.  26: What are you craving right now? I was craving more rum, but now kinda just craving my mom.  27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Nope, I’ve been dumped 8 times, but I’ve never broken it off with anyone. 28: Have you ever been cheated on? Yep! GF #3, strung me along and ended up getting with a navy guy. Then I became a pirate a few years later down the road. Unrelated.  29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Not that I know of, I’ve been turned into a fucking wreck because of Gfs tho lol 30: What’s irritating you right now? My ex-friend, and lack of time to do drag stuff. 31: Does somebody love you? My dad, family, gf, and I’m sure a few friends.

32: What is your favourite color? Red! 33: Do you have trust issues? Kinda, been cheated on before the one time, but I think that was a fluke. Other than that one time, actually I guess not. ...no. lol. 34: Who/what was your last dream about? My house was on fire, but I heroically saved the day and helped put it out, as well as the neighbor’s fire! 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? Tonight, at my dad’s house, after grabbing stuff from my mom’s room. Not sure of the gf saw, but, I walked past her.  36: Do you give out second chances too easily? Absolutely yes!  37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive, hands down. 38: Is this year the best year of your life? One month in, easily not.  39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 21 actually.  40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? I haven’t but I’ve told people it’s awesome then confessed to having never done it myself. So. No.  51: Favourite food? Chicken 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? I do not! Everything is meaningless!  53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Masturbated, lol.  54: Is cheating ever okay? Nope. 55: Are you mean? Nope, not in any way, I’m the most lenient nicest second-chance giving guy you’d ever meet who’d always give you the benefit of the doubt. lol 56: How many people have you fist fought? Zero, thought I’d like to fist fight my ex-friend right now. 57: Do you believe in true love? Nah, emotions are emotions. No such thing. 58: Favourite weather? 63 degrees, slight breeze. Can wear a tank top without being cold or having to put a jacket on, and overcast, so no direct sunlight.  59: Do you like the snow? The snow is who I am, but I live in South Carolina and have been denied my true climate for far too long. 60: Do you wanna get married? Indifferent, If we do we do,I personally don’t think you need to go through legal documentation and name changing to prove you love someone.  61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Depends.  62: What makes you happy? Pop-punk music, Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Pirates, Board Games, MTG, alcohol, friends that aren’t landlord assholes, my gf, my cat, porn, cross-dressing, etc. 63: Would you change your name? Not legally, but I like to use a different name while dressed as a Pirate and while cross-dressing.  64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? Nope, lol. 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Would have to shoot her down, unless my gf is the said best friend of the opposite sex, in which case no? I don’t know many females as close friends. 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? I don’t have any friends that are girls that I hang out with. I had one, but she moved to Seattle.  67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My gf, 10 mins ago. 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Is hating your landlord deep? If not, then Tyler. lol. 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for? Nah, errything’s meaningless. lol 

[cold-iron-burns]

We're living with my partner's family. He and his brothers all have (what is obv to me as an ex MH pro) heavy signs of emotional abuse. They are all back living with their parents (economy is a factor for sure, but their trauma reactions are a massive factor in this case) and one of them was never able to leave (imho there's a ton of completely untreated MI and unsupported autism here and it makes me feel devastated on their behalf that they were/are prevented from getting support; my partner only started getting support for his shit after like a year of letting him know that it's okay and he's not weak for asking for help--and he could reach that place only because he was away from his family for a while and during the initial couple years we were together).

Being in this house is keeping us off the street, but I'm no stranger to emotional abuse; I spent decades in therapy trying to fix my own family of origin abuse and medical neglect (and the two degrees I got trying to pass it forward).

I try to stay out of the way, invisible, which is basically how I spent my childhood (though I am not expected to be their maid, which is different and makes -relatively- pleasant in comparison). When I first moved in here almost a year ago I tried to engage, just to get shut down and shit on about how everything I did wasn't what the father or the other brothers wanted. Provide and prepare a meal? "I don't like this kind of tortilla." "This isn't the brand I eat" "Yes I like shrimp but I don't want to eat it every week!!" (specific foods are a common thing, which I'd be cool with if anyone owned their autism [I'm autistic too, not shitting on situation people here, just lamenting that the entire household is like this and just learned passive aggression as their main communication style and have no idea or don't care that it's kinda garbage to just complain but not, idk, offer any of that info ahead of time or have an actual conversation, even in text, to clarify anything? It's honestly just the delivery/passive aggressive shit that gets me, it's how my mom raised me and I spent fuckin' 20 years unlearning it] where was I? I cleaned wrong (and not bc cleaner choice, I hate strong chemicals), I cooked wrong, buying my partner's mom flowers emasculated his father, apparently wrong (no one has bothered to replace the now months-dead flowers, even though the ones I bought and prepped a few times made her actually fucking smile and talk). So I just fucking stopped trying. It's bad enough that even when they're not being shitty my brain likes to pop flashbacks of csa (mostly bc the father, I can handle the brothers in reasonable doses). Intellectually I'm fairly sure I'm safe, but the parts that remember that stuff can't rely on things like people/adult parts telling them they're safe.

My partner's mom is very sick (which honestly I relate to the above factors, imho she's just ready to check tf out after being a domestic slave; I want to be more supportive of her but honestly I kept getting attacked and I have to take care of me), so this year the men were scrambling to figure out food for Thanksgiving. My partner tried to initiate planning weeks ago, because he knows that they're terrible at this kind of thing. Didn't matter, they still waited until Tuesday the week of to call cracker barrel to cater; of course that didn't work bc that's not how any of this works.

Who planned, sourced, bought, prepared the food? Me and my partner, ofc. But one of them bought a ham and they all fought while prepping it, so I guess they're the saviors of Thanksgiving.

Had to get or make two versions of a bunch of things bc god fuckin forbid they have to eat the GF things that make me less sick. Other households adapt, but sugar and wheat are basically what they live on, so I'm just slowly putting together a mini kitchen in my and my partner's living space (there's no running water, so kudos to him for running 3 gallon containers most every day so I don't have to deal with the men).

Sweet potato, half marshmallow half the way I wanted it (because I'm fucking eating this food too?)

"Ugh, is that coconut? WhO eAtS cOcOnUt On SwEeT pOtaToEs?!?!" This man is like 70, y'all, and he acts like a mean lil brat and everyone just bows to him like he's their fuckin warlock patron.

Who eats coconut on sweet potatoes? The person who decided to buy the fucking sweet potatoes. I'm grateful to my partner for actually putting the topping onto them, because the ire was directed at him and not me. His response was a champion "Half is just marshmallow." Deadpan. Factual, obvious, fuckin statement.

When leaving other partners I realized I missed their family more than I did them (there was one in particular that made me overcome my hatred of holidays while we were together) but this relationship is completely different. Great partner, garbage family.

I wanted to just vent, but also to applaud myself for just not engaging with bullshit or trying to justify anything (in fear I tend to go into lengthy overjustification mode). I waited until everyone got a plate and left, went in the kitchen to get my plate, and fucking went back to the basement (that my partner and I are trying to shape into a workshop and is mostly boxes of shit they haven't looked at in 15 years with our shit on top of them but at least they don't come down here now). I watched youtube. Ate the food my partner and I made. Enjoyed my solitude. As I told my partner, solitude is safety. I didn't force myself to sit at a table with grown ass men who just bitch about everything to be berated about my decisions that had to be made last minute because of their inability to do anything domestic.

If I wanted to sit at a table and smile and nod while getting my head bitten off I'd have called up my family of origin.

Not ideal circumstances, but I took care of myself today. I don't even care if they think I'm a selfish bitch. I'm 36 and I'm finally starting to do things for myself that prevent suffering instead of just having to patch myself up post-abuse.

[hypmic-writings]

Masterlist~

Masterlist as of8/16/2020~

!Buster Bros!

When their s/o sleeps in their jacket~

Buster Bros relationship headcanons~

When there's a large spider in the house~

Scenario where you're Ichiro's gf and you act like the 'eldest yamada sister' to Jiro and Saburo~

When their s/o has been hiding their heterochromia~

Ichiro Yamada:

When you have a bad day and he cheers you up~

Ichiro live in boyfriend headcanons~

How he celebrates your birthday~

When you're his chubby s/o headcanons~

NSFW First time with Ichiro headcanons~

NSFW Ichiro headcanons~

Ichiro finds out you're pregnant~

NSFW Ichiro with a bratty, bottom s/o~

Ichiro - 6.“Oh my God! You’re in love with her!”~

Being in a triple relationship with Samatoki and Ichiro headcanons~

Ichiro - 9. “I am not losing you again.”~

Ichiro when he accidentally runs into his childhood crush after many years~

Ichiro with a short s/o~

Ichiro - 28. “You did this for me?”~

When his s/o has night terrors~

When their s/o is depressed and having a bad day~

Comforting his s/o and reassuring them that he loves them~

First date with Ichiro~

Ichiro - 54. “God, you feel so good”(NSFW)

Ichiro Soulmate AU

Ichiro - 36. “Where are you right now?”

Ichiro - 19. “It’s kind of like an adventure, right?”

Ichiro - 8. “Let's go to the beach!”

Jiro Yamada:

Jiro relationship headcanons~

When Jiro has a tongue piercing~

Jiro - 35. “Damn, I didn’t think it would hurt this much”

Saburo Yamada:

Saburo meeting his s/o headcanons~

When they have a cute, small s/o~

Wedding day headcanons~

When his s/o has an asthma attack~

Saburo - 10. “My heart hurts whenever I look at you”

Saburo - 22. “Are you implying I’m…attractive?”

+Mad Trigger Crew+

MTC NSFW headcanons~

MTC ideal type~

MTC in a zombie apocalypse~

MTC being protective~

MTC wedding day headcanons~

MTC and pregnancy announcements~

Poly!MTC - 42. “I don’t think we’re going to make it out this time”

Samatoki Aohitsugi:

Riou x Samatoki relationship headcanons~

Juto x Samatoki relationship headcanons~

Samatoki relationship headcanons~

How he celebrates your birthday~

Samatoki cuddling headcanons~

Samatoki running into his crush~

Samatoki NSFW headcanons~

Samatoki husband headcanons~

Samatoki - 38. “I just wanted an easy day with my boyfriend. What’s so wrong with that?”

Samatoki - 34. “The way you flirt is shameful.”

Samatoki - 50. “Don’t use me as an example. I wasn’t a good kid.”

Being in a triple relationship with Samatoki and Ichiro headcanons~

Samatoki when he accidentally runs into his childhood crush after many years~

Samatoki - 20. "I’m sorry if this upsets you, but I’m going to marry her/him.”

When his s/o has night terrors~

When they walk in on their s/o naked~

When you're Nemu's friend and you confess to him~

When their s/o is depressed and having a bad day~

Comforting his s/o and reassuring them that he loves them~

Samatoki showing his s/o off to MCD~

When his s/o plays video games for hours~

When his fem s/o is self-conscious of being 'masculine'~

Samatoki - 69. “Not now, there are people here!”(NSFW)

Samatokix male!reader - 62. “I am not a bottom!”(NSFW)

Samatoki - 59. “Purr for me, kitten”(NSFW)

Samatoki - 4. “How is your hair so soft?”

Samatoki - 54. “God, you feel so good”(NSFW)

Samatoki - 1. “You look stunning tonight”

Juto Iruma

Juto x Samatoki relationship headcanons~

Juto NSFW headcanons~

Juto with a small, timid s/o~

Juto - "48. “Is there a special reason, as to why you’re wearing my shirt?”

Juto husband headcanons~

Domestic Juto headcanons~

Juto taking his partner on vacations headcanons~

When he's your high school sweetheart~

Juto - 21. “Why would you think I wouldn’t want to help you”

Riou Busujima:

Riou x Samatoki relatinship headcanons~

NSFW Riou headcanons~

Riou - 48. “Is there a special reason, as to why you’re wearing my shirt?”

Fluffy Riou headcanons~

Riou - 9. “Can I lay next to you for a bit?”

**Fling Posse**

NSFW Fling Posse headcanons~

Fling Posse playing UNO~

Ramuda Amemura:

Ramuda relationship headcanons~

Ramuda x Jakurai TDD friendship headcanons~

Jealous Ramuda scenario~

Ramuda with a short s/o headcanons~

Ramuda x Gentaro headcanons~

Yandere!Ramuda scenario~

Ramuda finds out you're pregnant~

Ramuda dating a famous s/o~

When his s/o tries to make him blush~

Ramuda - 2. “Did you enjoy yourself last night?” and 7. “You make me feel like I’m not good enough.”

NSFW Ramuda headcanons~

Ramuda - 1. “I don’t want to have a baby.”~

Ramuda - 1. “I don’t want to have a baby.” PART 2~

Comforting his s/o and reassuring them that he loves them~

When they have a cute, small s/o~

Ramuda falling in love with a 'plain jane'~

Ramuda x Jakurai "Safe words are imporant,"(NSFW)

Ramuda - 56. “I love it when you put your hands there”

Gentaro Yumeno:

SFW/NSFW Gentaro headcanons~

Gentaro with s/o headcanons~

Ramuda x Gentaro headcanons~

How Gentaro teases Dice headcanons~

Gentaro x Dice headcanons~

Gentaro with an s/o who has trust issues headcanons~

Gentaro - 35. “I waited and waited, but you never came back.”

When they walk in on their s/o naked~

Gentaro with a shy s/o~

When their s/o is an idol~

When he's your high school sweetheart~

Gentaro x Dice (Hogwarts!AU) - 5. “I just want to live in this moment forever”

Gentaro - 72. “I can never get enough of your lips”(NSFW)

Gentaro - Soulmate AU

DicexGentaro - Royalty!AU - 1. “You look stunning tonight”

Gentaro - 71. “Your skin is so soft”(slightly NSFW)

Gentaro - 10. “My heart hurts whenever I look at you”

Dice Arisugawa:

Dice relationship headcanons~

Dice with a small s/o headcanons~

Dice with a pregnant s/o headcanons~

Gentaro x Dice headcanons~

Headcanons when his s/o has anxiety~

Angsty Dice gambling headcanons~

Dice - 35. “I waited and waited, but you never came back.” and 39. “Go then, leave! See if I care!”

DicexDoppo - 8. “For some reason I’m attracted to you.”

Gentaro x Dice (Hogwarts!AU) - 5. “I just want to live in this moment forever”

DicexGentaro - Royalty!AU - 1. “You look stunning tonight”

Dice - 70. “I’ve always wanted to try that this!” (NSFW)

~Matenrou~

Matenrou relationship headcanons~

NSFW Matenrou relationship headcanons~

Matenrou wedding headcanons~

Summer with Matenrou~

Jakurai Jinguji:

Ramuda x Jakurai TDD friendship headcanons~

Scenario when you nervously confess to Jakurai~

Jakurai cuddling headcanons~

Jakurai - 25. “I thought you were dead.”

How he takes care of you when you're sick~

Jakurai when he accidentally runs into his childhood crush after many years~

When his s/o tries to make him blush~

NSFW Jakurai as a caretaker~

Jakurai's s/o taking care of him when he's drunk~

When his s/o has a terminal disease~

Assassin!au when you are kidnapped~

When their s/o is depressed and having a bad day~

Jakurai with a small s/o~

Comforting his s/o and reassuring them that he loves them~

When Jakurai is busy and his s/o is lonely~

Jakurai falling for a blind singer~

Ramuda x Jakurai "Safe words are imporant,"(NSFW)

Jakurai - 38. “I hate myself”

Jakurai - 8. “Let’s go to the beach!”

Jakurai - Soulmate AU

Hifumi Izanami:

Hifumi's gf trying to help him with his gynophobia headcanons~

Headcanons when his s/o has anxiety~

Hifumi taking care of his sick s/o~

Posessive Hifumi headcanons~

Hifumi meeting a girl who is afraid of men~

p>Hifumi - 63. “Don’t tease me like that” - NSFW

HifumixDoppo - Hogwarts!AU - 25. “We should totally NOT do that!”

Hifumi - 5. “I just want to live in this moment forever”

Hifumi - 71. “Your skin is so soft”(NSFW)

Doppo Kannonzaka:

Doppo relationship headcanons~

Scenario when you're both depressed but you're strong for him ~

How he celebrates your birthday~

How he relieves stress headcanons~

NSFW Doppo headcanons when you're a sub~

Doppo - 1. “I don’t want to have a baby.”

Headcanons when his s/o has anxiety~

DicexDoppo - 8. “For some reason I’m attracted to you.”

When they walk in on their s/o naked~

Doppo having a crush on his cheerful neighbor~

When his fem s/o is self-conscious of being 'masculine'~

Doppo - 73. “How did they…how are they doing that?”(slight NSFW)

HifumixDoppo - Hogwarts!AU - 25. “We should totally NOT do that!”

Doppo - 75. “Let me help you relax”(NSFW)

Doppo in a secret relationship with his colleague(NSFW)

$Bad Ass Temple$

When their s/o sleeps in their jacket~~

Kuko Harai

When they have a cute, small s/o~

When his s/o plays video games for hours~

Jyushi Aimono

Jyushi with a strong s/o~

Jyushi x Amanda headcanons~

Jyushi - 62. “I am not a bottom!””(NSFW)

Hitoya Amaguni

Hitoya - 11. “I think I picked up your coffee by mistake.”~

Hitoya wanting to take his s/o for a motorcycle ride but they have anxiety~

•Dotsuitare Honpo•

Sasara Nurude:

How he takes care of you when you're sick~

Sasara - 23. “This is by far the stupidest plan you’ve ever had. Of course I’m in.”

Sasara - 18. “Wait a second, are you jealous?”

Sasara trying to make his crush laugh~

When their s/o is an idol~

Sasara falling for his rival~

When his fem s/o is self-conscious of being 'masculine'~

Sasara and his s/o having a relaxing night~

Sasara - 11. “I could never forget someone like you”

Rosho Tsutsujimori

Helping Rosho with his stage fright~

When he's your high school sweetheart~

Rei Amayado

None yet~

{Chuuoku}

Otome Tohoten

None yet~

Ichijiku Kadenokoji

When you confess to her~

Nemu Aohitsugi

Nemu - 8. “For some reason I’m attracted to you.”

^Other^

Which snacks the boys would like~

Misc:

- 500 Followers Celebration Prompts~

- NSFW Alphabet~

- Shipping Game~

- Three Sentence Fics~

[palnomolan1976-blog]

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[bts-reacts]

Info Game

Well it’s my turn here we go

Last

1. Drink - Arozina green tea with honey and ginseng this runs through my veins

2. Phone call - My boo 

3. Text message - Also my boo

4. Song you listened to - Well if you don’t count what I’m currently listening to, EOEO by UNIQ

5. Time you cried - This morning. I AM A VERY PASSIONATE SINGER AND I SAW A VIDEO WHERE THIS GIRL ON THE UNIT HIT A BEAUTIFUL, PERFECT HIGH NOTE. THEN THE GROUP DID AMAZING HARMONIES It was The Yellow group singing Jackpot. I got shook

Ever

6. Dated someone twice - when I was in 4th-8th grade and didn’t knw what dating was I went back and forth with the same guy every single damn year

7. Kissed someone and regretted it - Every boy I hooked up with during my senior year I was discovering myself through a hoe phase

8. Been cheated on - my ex cheated on me for 6 months of our 1 year relationship. Then called me a crazy bitch for calling him out on it and telling the girl he had another gf. I am still blocked on all of his social media

9. Lost someone special - I was raised by a single mother until I was about 7 years old. My step dad was the first man I had in my life to be considered a father, and in 2012 he passed away in a motorcycle accident. He got hit headon by a semi truck while he was planning a ride for our church

10. Been depressed - I am the shining definition of depression

11. Gotten drunk and threw up - I don’t touch alcohol because the yeast smell is disgusting

Fave colors:

12. Pastels

13. Not pink I have red hair so I grew up dressed in pink because “it made my hair look nice”

14. Honestly it depends on the day. Some days I have a favorite color, other days I have a different one.

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends - do my coworkers count? I mean I’m around them 40 hours a week. That’s more than my family

16. Fallen out of love - I’ve been with my bf for over a year so I’ve actually done the complete opposite

17. Laughed until you cried - Totes

18. Found out someone was talking about you - Honestly I don’t remember

19. Met someone who changed you - I had an old coworker who made me realize just how gross some guys can be. He got excited when my bf left for China and asked me everyday if he could be my “temporary bf”??????????????

20. Found out who your friends are - Well I’ve only ever had two true friends so I guess I found out who my friends are years ago

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - My grandma and my boo?

General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl - Honestly a lot of them knew me through school, but I didn’t actually know them personally. I’ve gone through and deleted people eveyr now and again because I don’t know them and I don’t want them clogging up my feed

23. Do you have any pets - I HAVE SO MANY. Three cats: two grumpy old men and one excited young kitty. AND 3 BEAUTIFUL PUPPIES WHO ALL THREE COME RUNNING WHEN YOU SHOUT FOR THE BABIES TO COME HERE

24. Do you want to change your name - I used to. No one spells it right, or says it right the first time. When the teacher would do roll call on the first day of school I would know they were talking about me when they paused and stared at the list. It’s spelled Shaina. I’ve had Shayna, Shania, Shanna, and one girl at a starbucks spelled it Shanea. I guess it just makes me unique so I’ll stick with it.

25. What did you do for your last birthday - My bf and I took a small vacation up to Chicago and visited museums, aquariums, AND ATE HOTDOGS AND DEEP DISH PIZZA

26. What time did you wake up today - 12:30ish

27. What were you doing @ midnight last night - playing Detroit because Connor is a gorgeous puppy who needs protection

28. What is something you can’t wait for - I can’t wait to move out of my mom’s house in a month or so

30. What are you listening to right now - Generally, I’m addicted to (G)IDLE’s new comback. Literally and currently, my spotify is playing Cypher Pt 4

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - Honestly I have a terrible memory so I don’t know

32. Something that gets on my nerves - Everything. But really, people who act like they’re better than you just beause they have more experience in something or have been somewhere for a long time. I have a coworker who thinks he’s right about everything because “He’s been working there a long time”

33. Most visited website - Gmail and CreditKarma. School just started so I’m obssesive over my email and I’ve always been obssesive over my credit score

34. Hair color - Dark red. Not most ginger’s red. As I’ve gotten older, it’s darkened towards a brownish red

35. Hair long or short - very long. It’s halfway down my back when I put it in a high ponytail and need at least 2 holders to keep it up in a bun

36. Do you have a crush on someone - nope

37. What do you like about yourself - I love my hair and my brain. My hair and eye color is a unique combination (brown eyes w/ red hair). I’ve always been extremely creative since I was little and that’s such a big part of who I am

38. Want any piercings - Ever since I was emo, I’ve wanted my lip pierced

39. Blood type - I have no clue

40. Nicknames - Depends on who you ask. My grandpa calls me little red, my friend calls me Shay, an old friend from high school caled me Shane Dog

41. Relationship status - Surprisingly taken

42. Zodiac - Pisces

43. Pronounce - She/her

44. Fave TV shows - Anything I watch is a fave tv show

45. Tattoos -None but I desperately want some

46. Right or left handed - Right. But when I was younger my cat bit my right hand so I couldn’t move it. So I can eat comfortably with any hand, but I only write with my right hand

47. Ever had surgery - Nope

48. piercings - The traditional one piercing in both ears

49. Sports - Dancing and I still love softball even though I stopped playing in th grade

50. Vacations - I high key want to visit Madrid and Mexico City. 

51. Trainers - ???

More general

52. Eating - Last thing I ate was the best ramen ever for dinner

53. Drinking - Lipton green tea I love green tea

54. I’m about to watch - Well I’m currently in the middle of Bromance and Strong Girl Bong Soon

55. Waiting - to go to bed

56. Want - to transfer to my dream college that on the other side of the country...

57. Get married - I feel too young to be married atm. Plus my bf and I have only been together for a year. But if I do my uncle can legally marry me so that’s sweet

58. Career - Currently working as a cook at Applebee’s. But my dream career is to be a business owner of my own bakery. or a singer, I want to sing so badly but that’s unrealistic :/

59. Hugs or kisses - Hugs all day

60. Lips or eyes - I am just mesmorized by single lid eyes idk why

61. Shorter or taller - a bit taller. like a few inches

62. Older or younger - Older

63. Nice stomach or stomach - I’ve had both and I didn’t love myself either way. I’m more worried about feeling comfortable in my body so I don’t care about which one I guess?

64. Hookup or relationship - relationship. Hookups will still text you every month asking if you’re single yet so you can hook up again. They’re too stressful tbh

65. Troublemaker or hesitant - Little of both

Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger - Unfortunately yes

67. Drank hard liquor - I’ve had sips of my mother’s wine that is it

68. Lost glasses - I’VE LOST LIKE 3 PAIRS OF GLASSES SOMEHOW???

69. Turned someone down - Yes

70. Sex on first date - Another unfornately yes

71. Broken someone’s heart - Not that I know of

72. Had your heart broken - The first boy I loved broke my heart when I was 15

73. Been arrested - I cry when I get pulled over for not wearing a steatbelt. I’ve never been arrested

74. Cried when someone died - my step dad dying came as a shock. I did the whole stare into space, sit down and continue staring, then sob. It was like a tv show

75. Fallen for a friend -  nah

Do you believe in

76. Yourself - Kinda

77. Miracles - Hell ye

78. Love at first sight - I used to, but then I learned that that is not love.

79. Santa Claus - I did until I was almost in high school

80. Kiss on first date - My first date iwht my bf, he hugged me goodbye and gave me a little kiss on the should r that was really cute. So if it’s those kinds of kisses yes

81. Angels - Totes

Other

82. Best friend’s name - Katlyn and Alex 

83. Eye color - Dark DARK brown

84. Fave movie - The Harry Potter series. ALl day every day

85. Favorite actor - I really like Benedict Cumberbatch for some reason?

Wow that took me forever. There’s more about me tho!!! I better go to bed because it’s almost 1 and I have a class tomorrow at 9 kill me

~Admin Red

[srlkiller]

today was a lot. i had a 1on1 therapy thing that was supposed to be like an INTRO TO UR RECOVERY WOO!!! LETS GET UR MENTAL HEALTH IN CONTROL!!! But instead it turned into me having 4 panic attacks constantly crying while venting to a social worker in a room w no air con for 2 hours about ‘how my month has been’ and ‘why i haven’t been attending any of my group therapy?’ well sue sweetie.. u asked me…n boy did i give u the answer ur career as a social worker has been WAITING 4!! then i got my 1st covid shot & briefly spoke to my doctor who was rude asf so i was like ok today fucked. Centrelink also called me and told me wrong info which fucked me over. then i see my dad calling and im like OFC HE IS!!massive fight as per n he hangs up but then continues via text bc hes petty asf.

BUT not as petty as my mom bc that is literally how the fight started. bc of her. like this bitch omg. she purposely runs off to my dad and tells him every little thing i do ‘wrong’ bc she knows his temper and how afraid i am of him due to past events so she uses him to basically do her dirty work for her n ‘scare me’. like that’s how manipulative and fucked up she is in the head. she made up a whole ass lie and told my dad that i said to my mom the only reason i was trying to stay in contact with my dad was so that i remain in his will as like the sole beneficiary or whatever….. how sick and twisted must you be to lie to someone directly in their face about something so serious INVOLVING UR OWN CHILD that you share with that person????? i would NEVER! say that about my dad. EVER. this happened months ago btw. as soon as i spoke about it w my dad and i was like “what.. dad i would never say that you know i don’t give a fuck about money like that i don’t care about your will why would i even be thinking about your will?” he was like wait actually that’s fucked up ur right. It was actually HER who made that comment. she got my dad to go and fix fencing at my nans house for free (using him) n my dad mentioned he had a girlfriend. my mum came home & SAID TO ME “u better hurry up and get in ur dads good books now that he has a gf.. before she gets a hold of his will and u end up w nothing” and i simply told her that my dad would never take me off his will regardless so why say that to me. once she got exposed she backtracked and was like “oh it was just a joke” & both my dad and I were both saying that even as a joke how is that funny? how does your mind even start to think in that way? how is this funny to you? then she flips it. her scripts are so repetitive now that ive caught on that i can actually predict what she’s gonna say before she opens her mouth. she manipulates u into thinking ur reality isn’t correct.. saying things like “ omg ur over reacting lol ur so dramatic no wonder no one takes u seriously in life, grow up, i have no idea what ur going on about, have u taken ur medication for the day, have u lost it, are u high on something?” like what in the fuck?

i never once mentioned anything about anyones will.. when i was younger i made the mistake obviously of telling her that my dad was leaving me his house. when my nans will was getting exposed she became overly obsessed w wills in general and changed hers. im guessing behind my back she has actually taken me off now but i don’t want her dirty ass money which is stolen from my accounts anyway. my nan left all her grandchildren a large sum of money that was supposed to be equally split among us, its now been over a year since my nan passed & i noticed a group text come up on my moms phone from her sisters talking about what they did for their children with that money. one of them paid off their entire hex debt so it must be a substantial amount. i have not seen a cent which means she has taken it for herself, put it in her name and placed it into a secret account without my knowledge. if it’s as much $ as i believe it is, this could seriously help me move out and better my situation which she constantly tells me she wants me to get the fuck out ect. yet you are holding the key to the door in ur hand? that’s twisted and very sick. they fought for a year over my nans money and all i asked for was an old XXXX gold stubby holder that was my grandads bc it was very sentimental to me. instead, they chose to have a garage sale and sold all of my nans things and sold that stubby holder to a random person for 20 cents………. i was in shock when i found out.. and they laughed and were like get over it omg it’s just a stubby holder you can just buy another one. these people are so fucked up but they all made me feel like i was losing my mind my whole life. money isn’t shit without sentiment. i could have given you 20 cents if you need that shit so bad. im only attached partially to these evil ass roaches by some genetics but to me none of them are my family. not once have i ever felt cared for, loved, accepted, safe or happy in their presence. i am only ever wanted when they can gain something from me. that is not family. my grandad was big on family n my nan and my grandad are the only two people i claim as family from my moms side. my nans two blind siblings who i admired & adored + a few of my grandads siblings were the only ones who actually showed interest in getting to know me & didn’t look down on me in any way. i was never considered ‘less than’ or not good enough yet i was the family disappointment to my mom and her sisters. but they have never seen her like i see her. the way she acts in front of family is not the person i know. she’s very good at acting. the way she pretends to be a ‘mother’ in front of her own family is actually scary. she’s like the ultimate con artist except she’s too fucking dumb to actually scam people and get rich off of her ability to manipulate whoever she wants. what a shame ur not intelligent.. that sure must suck huh. my nan gave me that maternal love i never had from my mother and my grandad was always that man who held us all together as a unit. when he got sick everything changed and started to go down hill. they had to give up their entire property, his big beautiful garden and vegetables he was really passionate about, the horses and land ect. my nan planted a rose bush and it grew big and blossomed big red roses and she said this is for you, my little rachel rose 🌹 🥺 she said she wanted to take the whole ass bush w her and replant it 😂 but my grandad was like we are not taking a fucking huge ass rose bush w thorns in the car w us Gloria.. i only remembered this today during that therapy session and i hyperventilated so bad n just started crying.. bc i couldn’t believe my brain had blocked that memory for so long just to recover it now that she’s no longer here to share it with.

i can feel the love my dad has for me even when he’s temperamental.. you can see it in his face and his eyes. when i look at my mom i try desperately to find some sort of just fucking anything and… i see nothing. i can tell that she doesn’t feel anything. but she does for other children. just not me. so i know she isn’t a heartless bitch and is capable of emotions of all sorts.. but anything to do with me it’s almost like im invisible or she cannot see fault in her self. she cannot in any way accept anything she has ever done, she has never said the words ‘I’m sorry’ for anything ever in life involving me, she has stood by (literally stood and watched) while her own sisters verbally abused me as a minor calling me out my name AND one even texted my best friend at the time who was about 14 saying that i was a bitch. meaning my mom gave my aunt my friends number to text that message.. my friends mom was livid about this bc what grown ass woman texts a random 14 year old girl paragraphs of shit like that swearing at them and saying that their friend is a rude ungrateful bitch. her mom reacted as a mother should. as i would love my mother to stick up for me just once in life.. u kno.. ever? i still remember my first SUI attempt at like 16 after being abused and this person told me they were leaving and coming back so i had about a 10 min window of time and i panicked as any 16 young girl home alone would.. i called my mom for help bc ur parents are supposed to protect you. her wording was “well what did u do to make him hit you?” “you know that you deserved that”. i was in disbelief that she would react like that.. she was talking so calmly while i was crying hysterically having a panic attack telling her this man was coming back in 10 mins asking her to please help me.. and all she could say was.. “you probably deserved it”. ive never been the same since then tbh. im not blessed enough to be a parent yet, i may never be.. but i know for a fucking FACT that i would NEVER say any of the shit that she says to me to ANY child let alone MY OWN?!?

you had me at 36 years old. you had time to think about this and evaluate whether you thought you would be able to care for a child and make a good parent. If you “didn’t want to deal with me” then you had other options.. you could have sent me to foster care, you could have adopted me out, you could aborted me, shidddd you could have mf swallowed me bitch let’s be real. no, you chose to have a child. there’s no 18 year contract.. she loves to play that card. “UR AN ADULT NOW”, what about me makes me an adult, my age makes me an adult to you? yet you’ve kept me so childlike, so codependent & haven’t taught me basic life skills despite me asking to learn. like im deadass watching YouTube videos to teach myself basic ass life skills… that is sad as fuck. when im 48… guess what??? i am still your child and unfortunately for me!! you are STILL my parent. there’s no changing that bc you made that choice. you can’t just b like yeah i change my mind nvm i want to return it…… like that is really her attitude. i was born with a lot of health issues that have escalated a lot and only continue to get worse with age both mental and physical. guess what tho… if ur child is born with defects u don’t get to just b like omg ew i don’t want it now this one’s too difficult. like trust me.. if i was one of those lil sperm rn i am not about to fertilise u for NOTHING if this is the consequence I’d rather jus keep on swimming lmao.