#fint is so cool

[cogs-incorporated]

oughhh crunchy brush

[gunsfire]

23.09.2023

ciao, popolo di di tumblr, volevo condividere con voi un pensiero che ultimamente mi balena per la testa e che vedo molti account pensarla in modo simile.

io ho iniziato ad avere account su tumblr per “gioco” e per fare la “figa” nel lontano 2012 quando avevo 13 anni, pensavo che avere un account qui e condividere frasi finte depresse mi rendesse “cool” e “in” per i tempi. ero alle medie e onestamente non so nemmeno cosa pensassi, ne cosa stavo passando perché ho cancellato quel periodo dalla mia testa per tanti motivi.

sta di fatto che sono su tumblr in un account o un altro da 11 anni, non ho mai pensato neanche lontanamente che un giorno sarei arrivata a fare questo discorso, ma mi tocca.

negli ultimi due anni (forse anche 3/4) questo sito, quello che il ritenevo un posto sicuro, quello che io usavo per esprimere me stessa e le mie emozioni, quello che usavo come diario per raccontare di come mi facevano sentire determinate esperienze vissute, o quello che usavo come pagina bianca di sfogo per tutti i brutti momenti che ho passato.

ecco, quel sito ormai non esiste più. ovvero, certo tumblr c’è ancora, ed io (come voi) siamo qui a scrivere, rebloggare e leggere come prima, ma il sito di per se è cambiato molto.

ora come ora quando entro mi ritrovo scene p0rno, oppure cose non richieste in quanto non sono nei miei interessi, scene di vi0lenza..insomma cose di questo tipo, che non dico che 10/11 anni fa non c’erano, anzi probabilmente già giravano sul sito ma non erano così evidenti, non erano così INVADENTI nella dashboard o negli account di tutti noi.

onestamente parlando, io ora ho 24 anni, forse sono un po’ grande per stare qui su tumblr ancora con la speranza e l’ingenuità di usare il sito solo come via di sfogo e di lettura di altre persone nella mia stessa situazione, però fatto sta che ho un’età che se mi voglio vedere dei video o film p0rno posso benissimo farlo altrove, senza problemi. non capisco perché debbano “sbatterlo” in faccia a tutti gli utenti di tumblr che cercano ancora una via di sfogo (come me) o che entrano per leggere e rebloggare.

a me, onestamente, dispiace molto per quello che è diventato. e mi dispiace che ora le persone che sono qui come sono qui io, per i motivi di anni fa, e per condividere ancora, magari, i nostri stati d’animo..si debbano trovare un sito completamente diverso.

capisco che la tecnologia cambia, si evolve e niente può rimanere uguale ma nonostante questo, mi dispiace.

mi auguro comunque che le persone che sono qui con il mio stesso scopo, o quelle che sono qui per condividere, leggere e rebloggare frasi, poesie, arte ecc.. non si abbattano (nemmeno io lo farò) e continueremo a usare tumblr per questo scopo.

[paint-n-thinner]

May I show you..✨✨THIS??🌌🌌

Smt for my au called "Project Skiá: Return of the Demons" ^You dont gotta anwser if u fint wanna^^

:0!!! He's so fluffy!! And the little glowy details on the tail are cool too!! 🌟

[rainbow-scarab]

Did you write a cool fucked up fic about PK making a mothwing cloak? Was that someone else??? It was great but can't fint it on AO3 anywhere, going Fucking insane looking for it in the Pale King tag

Yes! It was me.

I deleted it o-o;;;; But it's coming back soon!

What happened was uh. Just as I was almost almost finished with the fic, my brain turned to mush. Just. Sometimes mental health is like that. Can't think so well. But the expectation in my brain was "this is almost done and I'm about to post it." So even though I hadn't really done editing on the last bits I added, or reviewed it at all to make sure things were good and even, I guess the expectation was strong enough that in my dumb brain state I posted it.

Later I realized. And then took it down intending to put it back up soon.

But by the time I recovered brainpower, I was busy. Haven't really felt like I've had the free time to write (outside of time-sensitive things like the zine) until the past couple weeks. Decided to finish another fic that I just posted last night. But now that that's done. Hoping to fix up this pk horror fic and repost it within the next few days!

[littlequeenies]

Where can I find the interview Marsha Hunt talking about Pink Floyd in 1982 ?

Hi Anon!!

Thank you for your question, we found it here, on this instagram: https://www.instagram.com/weirdtvland/ but sadly it's been taken down, cause now we can't fint it, I guess it would be cool to ask the owner of the site for it...

I think this owner has a tumblr too called the same as the instagram account, so you can ask him/her directly :)

We hope this helps, and we are curious too to find the whole video!!

Thanks for asking!!

[tiofrean]

And as I've said, our (most of our fandom) reaction that you've seen is only a cumulation of the previous things and the poll kinda unearthed that. Because you're completely right, the poll was skewed at whatever it wanted to do. Give us criteria, we'll get better at picking. Still, the poll (as I've said) was not the main topic, nor the reason for the whole blowup.

You see, the problem with big fandoms, in my experience (HP, TWD, just to name two examples) don't calm down. Quoting Teal'c from Starate, "they do, in fact, calm up". By which I mean not even a bit.

Besides, I think a year is enough to calm down a bit about... 5h of material, I'd say (going with the maths). The problem here, that I see, and I can be completely wrong, was not that fans are rabid. We have some rabid fans here as well... actually I think most of us are pretty rabid, that's why we bite instead of being all chill and letting anyone trample all over our show for the greater good. We're bite-y, because people were biting us. I dug even deeper into the whole drama right under the poll. You know... our fans making jokes about how Fint would smash Stede into nothing... I get it, maybe out humor is not for everyone, fair enough, but what do people expect? We've actually been pretty chill, joking around (I've seen two threats there towards real people, not the characters, and they've been the usual vague "I'll come in and piss in your bed" type of thing that I've seen tons of on Tumblr, so really, I don't see a big deal. If it is for someone, I apologize), but then we get called out for being Mean TM, and OFMD fandom starts doubling down on weird comments. Cool, what do we do? Same shit everyone else would, we double down, too. It's what everyone would do. Or at least what you could expect from a community of passionate fans of a TV series about dismantling the British Empire, fighting for your rights when you've been wronged, etc, etc. It's the only natural for us (the show didn't make us like that, people flock to shows that they can identify with. We've been like that before; we love BS because we're like that). Honestly, what did anyone expect? A pirate show about a guy wronged by the system gets bashed by unicorns. Of course we took up our swords and went to battle. Same shit would happen if you put in, say, TWD.

But I digress. And I'm not saying all this to justify anything, again, I'm just observing a mechanism here. Because I still think the biggest fault in all this goes to the poll creator.

As for obscurity, we don't mind that our fandom is small! Actually, we mostly like a small, nice fandom to stew in. We won't ever be big. It's not about that. Sure, it gets quiet here sometimes (the last shitstorm notwithstanding ofc), but that's not the problem. The problem is, we treat our show very seriously, and - more importantly - the show treated us seriously. It did what research it could about the era. Is it perfect? No, god no. Could more have been done? Sure, always. But the way the era - a very problematic era - is treated is way better and more responsible than any other pirate show up to day, short of straight out documentaries. It is a very important value. It has many important political points, as well as ideological and how to handle that. If it hadn't been so filled with sex and gore, I would probably schedule a screening at school for kids to learn some useful shit about how world and history operates. And then your goofy show comes in and sure, people like goofy shows, good for them. Like I've said, I don't begrudge anyone liking lighthearted romcoms. I just hate it when other fandoms encroach on our turf and act just like OFMD fandom did. The moaning and whining on twitter a year ago was hilarious for about 5 minutes, then it just got annoying. And don't get me started about the "well where's Flint fucking then?", "where are your gays at???" or my favorite, and that's a literal quote from a tumblr post (I won't tag it but it's still accessible on tumblr, I checked recently - out of spite, I admit) "i think the reason ofmd hit me harder than black sails in terms of queer rep is that no one in black sails is punished for being queer". EXCUSE? ME? WHAT? You know what's worst? BS still gets tagged in those posts. This is just a search result for statistics for one way of writing the Izzy/Flint godforsaken pairing. But, and that's the real problem for me, OFMD fandom doesn't really know when to stop. I think all the rainbows and unicorns (I'm using this lightly, with a wink, not to get anyone mad) got a bit to their heads and skewed the actual image of the world. We don't want to see this, we don't want to be tagged in it, period. We tried to explain, over and over again, and at some point you just get angry. I think the 21st century view on queerness is somehow "you have to love it or you're a homophobe, no matter how bad it is". And, I also think, this is why BS fans didn't try to pussyfoot around, didn't beat around the bush with coming in and being rude and sometimes aggressive. We are not raised to accept everything at face value and we have a show that - for us - is the height of any possible TV series dream. And we will defend it, to the bitter end if that's what it takes. Because nobody can convince us to tolerate something for the greater good.

Would it be better to chill out, lay down our weapons and just accept that another fandom is slightly rabid right now but it will surely calm down in... 4 years (was it?)? Probably. Are we going to do it? No. We feel hurt and disrespected now, and we won't wait for the unspecified future to see if this social experiment works.

Accessibility - one could argue about the accessibility of Stargate SG1 as well (20 episodes per season, 10 seasons), and yet that doesn't seem to be a problem. The heaviness could be a bigger factor here, or maybe the political and historical intrigue. But then, look at it from the other side. You say it's a silly rom-com, and true enough, it is. Now imagine people being passionate about politics of the 18th century, about history and queer representation back then, seeing the show as the current pinnacle of TV abilities being told that... well, that something less complicated is better, something simpler is better. Something set in a problematic era, done completely without any regard for said era, without due realism or a mention of struggles, is better. You know how that sounds somewhere at the back of our brains? This silliness is better than thinking. I know it's not the truth, and I know it isn't supposed to come out like this. And for the record, I'm not calling anyone stupid (nor am I saying your show is stupid). But that is what the ultimate message is. Wouldn't you get a little mad that somebody is advocating - in your show's tag, nevertheless - for loving something less thought out and leave the extremely relatable serious and thought-out thing behind? You would be mad, too. I know you would. Because I'm sitting on the other side of this particular fence and I know I am. Again, no hard feelings, it's just what comes across, no matter the intentions.

And sure, it's probably a small part of your fandom doing that, but I don't see the rest being reasonable. Or vocally reasonable. Or advocating to leave us be. The shitshow that happened on twitter when OFMD came out was just that, a shitshow, and it wasn't pretty. And no, I haven't seen one person from OFMD advocating to stop the fighting. Actually, it usually goes like it did in the tags on that dumb, unfortunate poll - "I haven't watched BS but I bet Flint is stupid so I vote Stede". Well, dear tagging person, you aren't earning any positive points with that.

While on the topic of fans being assholes - I've had many disagreements within BS fandom, because no fandom is perfect. We fought about opinions, too, and that happens quite often, actually. But the quarrels are meaningful discussions. You know what happened when I posted my rant that, in essence, said why I love BS and just said what most of OFMD fandom says about their show - that is, it's a silly, historically inaccurate romcom? I got two anonymous DMs with one calling me immature for having a different opinion, the other (I suspect by the same author) dragging Johnny Depp into the discussion and being decidedly pro-Amber. My friend got a handful of messages calling her a cunt and telling her to go to hell, another of BS fans got death threats in their inbox. Is that... like... chill and cool behavior? Is that normal people? Because disagreements within our fandom usually end with a "agree to disagree and let's now focus on destroying the British Empire" and we're back to normal. With OFMD I see some straight abusive little shits who are too chicken to come into my inbox with their names displayed and spewing shit left and right.

And don't apologize for them. You're not the fandom. Actually you're the second person - since the show has come out - that I managed to talk to like with a normal, reasonable human being. You shouldn't be apologizing for them, they should be apologizing for themselves. But you, and other normal fans around you, should be aware that it's not the show we have the biggest problem with, but the OFMD fandom, and until the bad eggs in it get reasonable, I don't see us getting reasonable either. It is reactive in how ferocious it is now. Because it had been too long and we're too angry.

And don't watch it out of obligation, that's the worst thing you can do. Watch it when you feel like it, not because the tumblr drama told you to. I fucked up Pratchett for myself for long years because I went with someone's advice of "you actually completely and absolutely have to read it. It gets better after the first three parts, trust me." Don't do this to yourself. You want unicorns, keep to them. When you feel like gritty takedown of historical misconstrued notions, then come to BS :)

And the "cancel OFMD" comments are a ridiculous argument because a) they won't ever be picked out of all the detritus by any meaningful company making shows, and b) if it's how people feel... then it's how people feel. We don't live in a world that lacks representation, and trust me, I know what I'm saying. I live in Poland. I got called names and slurs for holding hands with my gf (I'm bi). I didn't get attacked physically, but it was close two times. Girls often don't get punched because they're girls and somehow considered less in every respect, so not worth the effort as well. Men in my country - fuck, in my own city - got beaten half to death for having pink hair. A teenager almost died because a group of grown-ass assholes kicked him around so hard. The church here, along with the government, is doing what they can to make any lgbtq person illegal. I know what being marginalized means. And even I wouldn't mind a bad show being cancelled, instead of being kept there just because it's "representation". And no, again, I'm not calling OFMD a bad show, because it's subjective and you have a right to like it. I'm saying it as a hypothesis, as in [insert any given bad queer show] here.

And again, enjoying it? Good. Liking weird pairings? Cool. Just... stop tagging our show in it when it's such a wrong take because we WILL react. We're protective of our poor, darling characters.

The phrase about something walking for something else to run is just that, a phrase. And it means what you described. I paraphrased it with the crawling for added drama. No dispute here. But then again, half of what people were saying (and I don't CARE if the fandom is bigger than the couple of loudmouths being rabid, you have to be aware they throw shade on the whole group, sadly, and you can't blame us for reacting to them and taking them as the sample) back when OFMD was airing for the first time, was like it was the next coming of Christ and the best thing since sliced bread, like it was so revolutionary to have QUEER CHARACTERS being QUEER (Star Trek DS9 was one of the first, I believe?) with POC having something to say and being represented! (Ugh... I won't even go down that lane, I don't think I would finish the list today). Like... yes, we're bitter about that part. Call it what it is - a fluffy queer show. But when you're calling it revolutionary because XYZ, people with other shows that did it before your will come for your ass, and you need to be aware of that.

Besides I had a good laugh when Taika and the crew published that video after the finale that said it was a queer show by queer people for queer people. Or something along these lines. And I'm there, a bi girl in a country that hates people like me, wanting to be represented... Where? And plz, let's not do the "season 2 is said to have lesbians!" You either have representation and you use it as an argument, or you don't. Until you don't, you can't use it, or people will call you out on it (and BS fandom did. And got brushed off with rude comments, and then went angry and oh how dare we... see what I mean?)

Don't apologize! I enjoy talking to people, as long as they're not hurling invectives my way (or Flint's way). It's been a pleasure to actually have a meaningful conversation. Feel free to ignore or respond at your leisure :)

Oh boy... OH BOY... I was reading through comments and tags under that Flint vs. Stede post (and before that in Silver vs. Oluwande post) and OH BOY RANT INCOMING

Feel free to ignore. No, I'm prickly about this.

I LOVE how people are like "Black Sails fans are so mean why are they like that T.T ?" in the tags and comments.

LET ME TELL YOU.

So we have this show that has been marginalized and has been pushed to the side for years. A show that has excellent plot, wonderful intrigue, magnificent representation and well-written, 3D characters that are complex and relatable. You get your edgy queer men (whether you want to characterize Flint as gay or bi, doesn't change the fact that he likes dick whichever way), you get your edgy queer girls (Anne), you get your flamboyant whatever-the-fuck-Jack-Rackham-is (<3), you get sweet gays (Thomas), you get confused bisexuals (Eleanor, Silver), you get straight sweets (Miranda) and straight angery dicks (Woodes Rogers), and competent, edgy straights (Vane). Oh! A competent, master-of-the-house lesbian? Check (Max). You even have asexuals, or that is what I shall forever classify Billy as. You have a f/f sex scene in the first damn episode, ffs. You get threesomes (sexual, romantic), you get couples, you even have Silver in a brothel orgy.

But sexual representation is not ALL! You get goofy pirates (Jack Rackham), you get serious pirates (Blackbeard), you get balls of rage (Flint), you get chill, laid-back sea dogs (Gates), you get competent little weasels (Silver), you get incompetent rats (Dufrense). You also have marvelous extras and side characters (Beauclerc the marksman, Captain Fruit-Fruit, Idelle... OHMYGOD IDELLE <3333).

There's the political plot that's historically accurate, the story's plot that's Flint's big gay rage, there's the sociological context of being painted as a monster, there's the gold hunt, there are ships correctly operated by crews of more than five fucking people, there are guns, blood and realistic injuries. You get quotations and allusions to Shakespeare, Cervantes, Julius Caesar, Marcus Fucking Aurelius, a metric ton of other classical writers. You get so many tropes done right it's astonishing and too effing long to list them all here.

On top of that, there is the picturesque landscape, absolutely gorgeous ships and very accurate portrayal of how life looked back then.

We had to defend that show when it first came out, the actors had to fucking fight homophobic assholes upon the airing of season two (IMAGINE THAT), people who loved it had a hard time going around, although admittedly it's a "fandom" hard time, not a "real life" hard time. We persisted, we persevered, and now we're here, clinging to what's left of our fandom, because we are admittedly all over the place and we don't have "troops" on any one social media, which makes our numbers small in comparison to other fandoms, and makes fandom interactions very limited.

Now imagine that there aired a show... a pirate show promising a lot. And then the show turned out to be an office-type comedy with no lesbian/bi women representation (I may be wrong, but I did watch it out of curiosity, didn't see any, just guys). A show that the whole plot of is just a rendition of the Beauty and the Beast for pirate times with so many historical inaccuracies (couching your crew like a bunch of office workers? Plz. The way they speak and the concepts they talk of that weren't there? It's like they were sitting around a fire, holding hands and singing kumbaya). And don't get me wrong, there's place for those shows as well, and maybe it works for you (and great for you too!).

We tried to ignore it, really we did. We basically gave it the eyebrow-raise-huff-ignore thing that you do on the internet when you want someone to enjoy their stuff and are not interested in it yourself.

But you know what happened? Suddenly there were people on twitter tagging everyone and their dog from Black Sails with renditions of Flint/Izzy (Izzy who comes across as an extreme asshole at best and a homophobic shit at worst and you can't fault people for reading it like this). Let that sink in - our fandom babe Flint, who had his whole life ruined due to homophobia and homophobic assholes is suddenly being shipped with a guy who suspiciously fits the description a bit too much for our tastes. Wouldn't you get angry? Of course you would, we're all very protective of our babes. We are, you are, everyone is. We asked you not to do this, and while I admit that hurling curses your way might not have been the most polite way of asking you to stop, the message was clear enough. What does OFMD fandom do? They all double down. Double fucking down on fanfiction and tagging everything in BS again, pairing Flint and Izzy together, writing things way out of the realm of any possibilities because most of the writers didn't watch BS (I did read their comments on that. They weren't even sorry). If you take such character and throw him into a work of art that can and will be seen as controversial, you should at least have the decency to do your homework on the original work he comes from. Otherwise, to our eyes, you're taking the most wronged man from our beloved show, wronged due to his sexuality, and throw him together with a literal asshole just to see them fuck because they would look pretty (and that's an actual comment from one of the artists, I shit you not). Wouldn't you feel a bit angry about that? I bet you would.

What's worse, people loving Black Sails and not liking OFMD usually point out how narrow the representation is, how improbable the show is and how they're not remotely invested in the plot. It's a cheesy show for your average Sunday afternoon, don't make it into something it's not. It's not a political statement any more than Guess The Tune is.

What's more, when I've seen attempts at people pointing out the obvious flaws in plot, in logic (how many people crew that ship exactly? How is he not dead after being stabbed clean through with a sword?), all we've gotten was "Oh it's not that type of show, OBVIOUSLY", "it's just a comedy, duh" and my personal favorite "you just DON'T UNDERSTAND IT BOOMER". (I'm a late Millennial, thx). Every attempt was chucked out the window. What got me most, tho, was the high praise of OFMD IS THE FIRST SHOW TO [insert whatever queer thing it did supposedly]. No, it's not. There was even a post on twitter that debunked all those claims one by one. I get it, you're happy that you got your gay pirates, good for you. But give credit where credit's due, otherwise you're gonna piss off a lot of people. People who watched our show struggle and crawl so that your show can run today and be fine and accepted widely.

And personally, I felt disappointed watching it because of the lack of representation. Disappointed that Ed turned out to be just as rainbowy as Stede. Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against rainbowy, ultra-sweet characters that are big softies. I love them. But not everyone in the lgbtq community is like that. Actually, it's the minority. There are your sweets, there are your glittery rainbows, but the majority is on the more... inconspicuous part of the scale. And there are edgy people (like myself) who don't like glitter, pink, feathers, fluff and a shitton of other things this show had in abundance. You know what made me wince while watching? When I realized that the only person who I could remotely like for the way they weren't so glittery-rainbowy-sweet was Izzy, and I hated him because he was an asshole. Even Jim got the fluffy af oranges arch. So not my (and others') cup of tea.

So yeah, our recent anger and rabidity is not based solely on one post about an insignificant poll (that you're winning only because our fandom is significantly smaller and most people are dispersed between different sites). It's all those things combined and it's the result of them.

And no, I'm not going to finish it with a "please forgive us if we seem a bit angery, we're coping". Flint wouldn't.

[jack-o-cel]

My Malenia experience:

[musical-lizard]

sometimes i just feel so f anal but theres nothing i can do abt it and frankly im losing my fuckinhg imnd

[mylifeitsnotmyidea-yet]

Geraskier Brave!AU plot

So, I've been with this on my mind for a while. Let's start.

Geralt and Jaskier part ways at the start of winter not in the best terms. Geralt knows that. And went Spring first comes he starts his journey to settle everything with Jaskier and maybe, just maybe, really talk to him about the problems they have and the feelings they mihht have.

But he cand fint a trace. Not a single song or smell, no one had seen Jaskier since the start of winter.

What he finds is a really good contract near Lettenhove, he would have coin and a good pretense to look for Jaskier.

The oldest daughter of the King would marry, but the Queen got trapped in a curse, and they couldn't stop the festivities and competitions, not because the king wasn't powerfull and careful enought to protect his queen.

Enters Geralt.

BUT HA! He wasn't expecting to find an end to his search so soon, even less with Jaskier presenting himself as the oldest of the Lettenhove, to join the games to win the Princess hand in mariage.

Oh shit.

So this could go a lot of ways, about the queens curse could be about the same as in the movie, but with the pincess being less willing to give up on her freedom in the name of family, Geralt would have a handfull of that, trying to discover the source of the curse and breaking it without harming anyone.

His mind full of Jaskier and questions. The bard didn't see him yet, what would be his reaction... would he give up?

Jaskier could have his reasons to be there, from family obligations to not being safe anymore, from being there just for the show and not actually trying to win.

Would the Witcher in an impulse try to imped Jaskier from winning by presenting himself? Would he invade Jaskiers chambers to try to talk to him? Would Jaskier join the contract?

It would be beautiful and really cool if they saw the blue destiny lights together...

So, if anyone find this quite a thing, I would be glad to talk and give it away because I would love to read this but I don't know how to write!

[marune2]

What if Nacht run away whit 16 and the sherry on point lost his memories chapter 1

Nacht haven’t fell Home anymore on this place to be honest the only reason this he is here is Morgan but he going to hurt him to be honest…….. he is better by whit yami they don’t need him anymore….. it’s the best he go’s away…….away from Morgan and yami……..so tuck his stuf and go

After 3 day’s

To be honest Nacht don’t know wo he is but it’s a big snowstorm storm wo he go’s araunt he wandered araunt in the shadow’s and found a big Skeleton ore so whit Horns ore so he can’t see it right as he go‘s in and com out of this hit sompfing his head and then go’s all black

As Asta wo is 5 jears old is go’s in the Mornig to the devil skeleton to play too his place sad this yuno is to scared too play whit him…..as Nacht see someone in the snow there

Asta:Hey!!!! Are you alright?

Nacht:

Asta go’s to the person four him it’s at the first look a big girl what laying there

Asta:i Need Need bring help!!!!“and Runs of

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Sister Lili: so he is alright Now his head got‘s pretty hit hart wo he cam from? His clothes are from a Adel ore so

Vater orfrai : I don’t know but he is a child wo need help but I Wunder what a child do in the Forest like this and it’s looks if I see his stuf he run away ore so

Sister Lili: True….I Hope he wake up so we can ask him

Asta com in the room whit yuno

Asta:how is he?!

Sister Lili:psss not to lout

Asta : sorry

Yuno:really wo you find people asta?

Nacht slowly open his eyes why hurt his head so mush and wo is talking and looks at a Nun?

Sister Lili :!!! Oh you awake“smile: it’s alright you are safe you are in a church I’m sister Lili and this is „Point at Vater ofrai : Vater ofrai“ point The to asta and yuno:and this are Asta and yuno and wo are you?

Nacht:……I’m I‘m a can’t remember quite I pfinking it whas Nacht ore so ?!!???“gets in panic there he can’t remember him self

Vater ofrai: It’s alright Nacht you don’t need to panic we can Help you you can stay here as long you need

Nacht:……..oh okay um

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Morgan’s prov

As Morgan com whit yami back whas all alright but then got‘s He the news this his Brother go’s missing one Weck

Not to tell this whas a of the wors moments he have he searching all up whit yami

After a Weck

Morgan cry: wo is He !? I swear if somebody kidnapped him he gona pay four it wo can he by!!!!“cry

Yami: at First chill Morgan Nacht going be alright panic don’t help us

Morgan: but wo can he be?! He is strong but he is a problem maker what he have do what if he pisst of the wrong people ore I have do it!?and ged hurt

Yami: True but we don’t know but if you have piss of the wrong people they wuld you know what they did just let’s looks after him barking don’t help us

Morgan:sorry Yami……..

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Nachts prov

After a moth

Nacht can’t remember after a moth wo he is and Nobody know wo he is so he life in a church whit children one’s is adnoing but he like asta a lot he don’t know why the other kids are alright too the only fing he finte put this he have shadow magic he help’s in the church out and play whit the kids

Asta: you magic is so cool I’m can’t wait to become my magic!!!

Nacht: sure asta just let my sleep

Asta : how can you sleep on the tree most of the day?!

Nacht wapping his shadow on asta to shut him up“ because you children keep kicking at my in you sleep

Asta:ffhdhh(sorry!!!)

Nacht realase asta :ach what ever let’s go home it’s eat time

Asta: ok!!!

[mental-health-advice]

Pt.1) Someone I know is studying npd, and I saw their research and I was quite confused bc I see myself in many things that are apparently npd traits, and engaging with the cluster b "community" online I relate a lot to both npd and antisocial pd. I am different than most only when it comes to npd tho, bc I hardly ever feel like I wanna be worshipped, bc I already know I am better than most so I fint it annoying, but I get a bit frustrataed when others don't seem to get how cool I am. #Li

Pt. 2) If I find people entartaining and they respect me I don't manipulate them, and whenever I manipulate someone it is for small things. I also don't manipulate the few people I care about, but they also fall into the "entertaining and respectful" category. Would it be possible for someone like this to have npd? Ofc I know you cannot give me a diagnosis, don't worry (I am 20 years old, by the way. and I've... honestly always been like this. It is my normal). #Li

Hey there Li,

As you are realising it is quite easy to see yourself as having a specific mental health illness (like in your case narcissistic personality disorder) and especially when you see yourself as having a lot of the same traits as NPD.

Like you mentioned, we are not professionals and so cannot diagnose you but I would strongly encourage you to seek professional help so that you are able to get a proper diagnosis. I know that you feel that you have always been this way and it’s just your ‘normal’ but getting an actual diagnosis will at the very least put your mind at ease whilst also allowing you to get treatment and help if this is something that you are wanting.

A good starting point for getting help and advice is by seeing your local doctor or GP and getting a referral to another specialist who will be able to properly assess you and diagnose you!

I know that you are not too bothered by how things are for you currently, but I just want you to know that things don’t have to be this way. I know that getting help can be scary at first but I promise that it does get easier in time, it’s just taking that first step that can be scary and hard!

In answer to your question in regards to if it’s possible for you to have NPD with your symptoms that you have, I am not entirely sure. Hence encouraging you to be assessed and properly diagnosed by a health professional!

I hope that this has helped, even if it was just a little bit and that if you are wanting to then you can get a diagnosis and go from there if you are wanting to seek help and treatment.

I’m thinking of you!

Take care,

Lauren

[you-didnt]

Shit my students say part 2

(this time: featuring shit I and other teachers say)

Me: *makes a squelching sound with a paint bottle* Urgh… what an unpleasant sound 5th grader: ASMR.

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5th grader: If I win the lottery I will stop coming to school. Teacher: Well without finishing school you won’t find work when you’re out of money 5th grader: I will because I’m going to Harvard Teacher: How are you gonna do that without having finished school? 5th grader: I will buy my way in with my lottery money.

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5th grader while watching over some 1st graders: (deep sigh) I feel like a mom.

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5th grader: My band-aid keeps falling off. I tried fixing it with tape but it didn’t work. Me: Try hot glue. 5th grader: …........... hot…. glue?

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5th grader: I’m writing a story in which Mr J is a janitor who actually lives at school. Me: Cool. Can I be a superhero who defeats him in an epic battle? 5th grader: *eyes lighting up* YES Me: that was a joke- 5th grader: Thanks for the idea!  (he actually wrote it. It was awesome)

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4th grader: *in a video about her Portfolio on Marco Polo* This is Marco Polo. Here I drew a picture of him. … That’s him.

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Teacher: So, what is an equation? 2+2= 4 is an equation for example 4th grader: minus 1 is 3 QUICK MATHS

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5th grader: (with a really sad voice) I want to be a meme…

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Teacher: Your hair is so beautiful today! Så fint hår! 5th grader: :OO Whore??? Teacher: NO!

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(the teacher translated the instructions into Danish for a Danish speaking girl and translated ‘chest’ instead of ‘treasure chest’) Mother: I don’t understand… why would she put the gold coins in her boobs?

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4th grader after I beat him at UNO: This is the reason why I don’t invite teachers to my birthday parties…

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5th grader: Is your name Judith or Judeath?

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Teacher: Can you take a worksheet please? 4th grader: Workshit?

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5th grader about the empty chair next to him: My invisible friend sits there. Me: What’s his name? 5th grader: Frank. But we call him Frankie.

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Me, putting a crown on a girl: Now you’re a princess. 4th grader: I would much rather be a duck than a princess to be honest.

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Me: I want to give the teacher a birthday present but I don’t know her, what do you think she would like? Headmaster: Well if all else fails you can give her a framed picture of me Me: Uh... Headmaster: Imagine how surprised the parents would be. “Hey Mrs H, is that a framed picture of Mr G in your classroom?”

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Teacher: We had a democratic vote on this and the outcome is fair. That’s also how people vote in elections. 5th grader: (really loud) Trump cheated!

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Me while helping a girl do a project on her home country: Are there any special festivals or celebrations you do? 3rd grader: Well the muslims celebrate Eid. Me: Cool! Can you write that down? Can you spell that? 3rd grader: e-a-t 

[bbdeathz]

Folge 65 und 66 mit Ilima und obwohl Ilima kein fave von mir ist, ist er super gut gezeigt wurden Besonders sehr sympathisch mit seiner Art, seinen S��tzen und ich fand immer seine Augen toll, weil da so ein gewisser Artstyle ist. Hat zb Pikarla später auch.

Beide Folgen waren toll. Ist schon interessant, dass er einen Zweiteiler bekommt. Beide Folgen hatte nette Events. in Folge 65 fand ich das mit dem vom Baum springen toll,w eil das so spaßige Sachen in der Staffel sind und war ganz unterhaltsam gemacht worden. Auch die SZenen mit Skull. Ilima hat am Anfang sogar den Veteranen von der Evoli Quest besiegt und das haben sie dann gut eingebaut und der Z Move ist einfach so cool mit dem OST und wie episch das gezeigt wird.  Auch sehr lustig mit Skull.

Bei Folge 66 war das ein mehr einheitliches Thema mit dem Ping Pong. Wieder ein Event was recht cool gezeigt wird, besonders beim Ende wo der OST mehr abging. orher noch unsere Gruppe am spielen was auch nett war und so. Lana vs Kaki ist imer mein Fave mit ihren Finten und wie ernst das da war, weils eben die beiden coolen der Gruppe sind :>

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Er wird auch mit fangirl und Poni Island OST angekündigt. Ist schon sympathisch wie er dargestellt wird und später hat er noch so dieses Musterschüler Image mit all seinen Legenden

Muss gestehen, dass ich das Image aus dem Spielen nicht so in Erinnerung habe. Dass er schon die Schule bestanden hat, ist aber doch noch im Kopf

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So kleine Dinge fürs spätere Ende. Gegen Ende kommt noch viel mehr, aber so wird da smit der Liga nochmal erwähnt

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Das Springen fand ich nice und so spaßig. Besodners Kaki als Masskito so als throwback wie die sich damals verstandne haben beim flexen :D

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Er hat schon so tolle und fabulöse Shots bekommen, muss man sagen. Sein generell Outfit ist zwar ein wenig lahm so auf Charakter Basis, aber er wurde dennoch gut gezeigt so

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ALLE Matches waren toll. ich fand aber Lillie vs Mamane auch gut, weil beide so nervös waren und das sah lsutig aus. Lillie gibt aber wieder ihr bestes, OBWOHL sie dann ihre Augen schließt

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DIE BEIDEN. Bestes Match einfach. Ich liebe die Finte und das Voice Acting hier und wie beide Seiten relativ gut waren und so

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Ich fand den Charakter of the day immer cool. So generell wie er gezeigt wurde und wie er sich dann änderte als Wieshu den Ball rettet. Fand ich scho eins chönes Ende für das Event und das Match an sich war auch gut

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[submlsslon]

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[evaksbinder]

this week’s recs are by guest @tristealven, who is reccing wlw fics in scandinavian languages! Today’s fic centers around Eva/Vilde. If you like it, please consider leaving it some love in the form of kudos/comments!

Jeg tør med deg – Ane_Rikke_Jegass (Norwegian, 2k words)

Påsken 2015. Vilde skal ligge over hos Eva.

Eller: en bitteliten historie om å tørre.

Notes and ramblings:

This fic is cute, cute, cute!  

It’s a kind of character study of Eva (and a little bit of Vilde too) from Eva’s pov

I was struck by how Eva thinks that she can just be herself with Vilde and believes that she couldn’t do that with Noora who is so cool and put together from Eva’s perspective. It feels very real and in character to me

Eva’s insecurities and anxieties are portrayed with such care and warmth and understanding that I kind of want to wrap myself in this fic and bask in all the love the writer very obviously feels for these characters

I love when the writers aren’t afraid to let things be a little awkward. I adored all the fumbling, all the tension of being with a girl for the first time and really wanting it but not really knowing how to go about it.  

There are metaphors! They’re a little silly! And I love them anyway!

Favorite lines:

"Eva tråkker litt med føttene. Går litt nærmere. Hvorfor er det så vanskelig å kysse Vilde i dag? De har drukket vin, de har holdt hverandre i hendene, det er jo så tydelig at de tenker på det samme. Hvorfor er det annerledes nå? Eller, Eva vet jo, håper i alle fall, at de skal noe mer også, at det er annerledes, men hvorfor er det annerledes allerede med kyssingen?

Hun legger den ene fingeren under stroppen på singleten hennes. Drar litt i den. Det kjennes ganske ufarlig. Hun kjenner Vilde svarer med å legge hendene inn på den varme ryggen hennes. Det er fint. De snakker om det samme.

Hun bøyer seg litt fram og puster mot munnen til Vilde. Hun gjør det akkurat så lenge at hun kjenner hun blir litt tørr, så hun slikker seg raskt på leppene. Hun skvetter når hun slikker borti Vilde også. Vilde smiler og slikker henne tilbake, uten at leppene deres møtes.”

[shapeshifting-arch-mage]

9/22/2018, Part 1

We don't need to take the boat this time! We're a witch! This time, we're flying in on a broom! Y'know, like I did the night before I got crushed to death by 2488? Yeah...We dismount and head to the resort grounds.

"so, wat u wanna do 2day, tem?"

"uuuuuh... cookys?"

"oh yea, cookies! but... were do we start?"

"uhhhh... i dunno..."

There doesn't seem to be anyone else here at the moment. Where would we even start our search for the mysterious cookie salespeople? Actually, speaking of buying and selling things, I just remembered something. And right on cue, Temmie does too. We go into the lobby.

We enter the lobby and assess our situation. Temmie has been missing Baku terribly. To the point where lately she's been writing "ばく" all over my walls in bright, neon colors. Since that is not a healthy way of dealing with this issue, I had suggested to her that we find some other DJs to come and help us throw our own rave party while we wait for Baku to return.

She was hesitant at first, because she didn't think other DJs would be as good as Baku, but I reminded her that since Baku's not here, we don't really have any other option than to settle for the second-best DJs. It's either them, or no DJs at all, so Temmie reluctantly agreed to help me find some other DJs to help us.

So we did! We found a pair of sisters who've been running a radio show ever since, according to them, the old DJ got fired for being too abrasive and rude to the callers. Although the sisters are radio DJs, they have been wanting to host a rave, and they would be happy to give it a shot for us! And we even found a few fellows who'd like to attend! Things are looking up for us, so far!

But perhaps, since we're here, we should buy some things to give out at the party, just in case our partygoers don't have anything to bring, themselves. ...Wasn't there a store here, before?

"were is store?"

We look around. There's the bar, there's the game room, there's the infirmary, where I've crashed for the night more times than I'd like to admit... There's the ballroom- oh, do calm down, Temmie, we're going to the store first, remember? Aaaaaand... no store. Huh... I wonder where the store went? Maybe we should look outside?

"but i wana go do hapy fun raevtiem in dancin' room..."

"ya, i kno, but we gotta buy stuffs so othr peeps can do happy fun ravetime wit' us, rite?"

"oh ya..."

We step out the door and back outside. The store isn't in there. Hmm, where should we look? We could probably get a better view from the beach.

"ooo! beach is gud 4 hapy fun rave-"

"yea, i kno, tem. lets go." We get down on all fours, stretch our legs up, and trot like a horse over to the beach.

We arrive at the beach, retract our front and back legs, and stand back up on our back legs. Huh... I wonder where everyone is? Well, more importantly, we need to find the store.

"is da store on da beach?"

"maybe? i dunno."

We'd better start looking. I don't want to dillydally. Let's see, over there is the... beach bar. I don't think that place sells what we're looking for.

"u sed u met Baku at a bar???"

"yea, i did. not dat one, tho. it was da one in th' resort bilding."

"oh ya?"

"yea, he was drinkin' from a lil', uh... it was a... uh..."

"a bottl?"

"no... it was to small to be a bottle..."

"wat was he drinkin?"

"he sed it was calld "aftershock". id nevr herd of it. i didnt kno dere was a drink called aftershock."

"shock?? does it make u do cool litening magicses like u do, hooman??"

"no, its just a drink."

"aww..."

I don't know exactly what the right word is for the container that Aftershock comes in, so I picture it in my mind so that Temmie can see.

She observes my memories intently...

"o ya, i remembr dat! u showd me wen yu first met him and dat lil short humin was throwin' stuff at him!"

"uh... ya..."

I don't think Coraline and Carrie are entirely human, but more importantly-

"hey hooman?"

"yea?"

"wen yu were lookin for a drink behind da countr..."

"yea? i was just lookin' for water or somethin'."

"ya, but... whyd yu have skelly arms???"

...Oh no.

OH NO.

I was hoping she would never, ever ask that... But I suppose with us sharing a body and having access to each other's memories, it was inevitable... 😔

Although my gloves were covering my hands and forearms, I suppose Temmie must have taken notice of my uncovered... uh... humerus...es. Humeri? I don't know what the plural for humerus is. And even without looking, Temmie could also-

"wate a minit!1!" Temmie cries as she continues to analyze the memory. "u were a skelly! u were a skelly like Baku!?!?! HUHHHHH??!??!"

I quickly clasp our paws over our mouth.

"Temmie, please don't yell!" I think, "I know you must be very confused, because-"

"i thot u wer a humans!1!" Temmie thinks back. "ur supposd 2 be a humanses!1! cuz u gota humin SOUL!1!! skellys dont gots hooman SOULS!!1!"

"Yes, I know... and you're right. They don't. But, as you know, I am a magic user myself, and I was able to use magic to transform into a skeleton monster. However-"

"Whhhhhh??" Temmie's voice is muffled as we yell into our paws.

"h-human... can turn into... monstr??"

"Well, I can. I don't know any other humans that can, but I can do it because I can use shapeshifting magic. The reason I turned into a skeleton monster was to better fit in with the other monsters of the underground, who used to come here and visit a lot."

"but u got a human SOUL??"

"Yes, the transformation only changed my body into that of a monster, not my soul."

"Whh... hwhwhwhwhwh..." Temmie mumbles into our paws. She cannot believe what she is hearing. Or, telepathically receiving, as it were.

And then, just when I thought this line of questioning would be over, she asks...

"does Baku no ur realy a hooman???"

"NO. No, he does NOT."

My reaction startles Temmie, causing us to recoil a bit.

"h-hoomin...?? u... u ok?? u mad at me?? i dont want u to be-"

"No, Temmie, I'm not angry with you. But there's something very, very important that I need to tell you right now."

"...ya?" Temmie clearly isn't convinced that I'm not upset with her.

"It is true that I first met Baku while I was transformed into a skeleton monster, but I have also met him in my normal, human body. He does not know that we are the same person, and I intend to keep it that way. It is absolutely paramount that I prevent him from finding out that the brunette, pigtail-haired human woman, and the skeleton monster wearing the bunny hood, are one and the same."

"...whys dat??"

"It's for my own safety, Temmie. I shudder to think how he would react if he found out that the skeleton monster he met at the bar, and the human who he's hugged, kissed, and fiddled around with the pigtails of, were the exact same individual. Dear lord... he would never let me hear the end of it if he found out..."

We lower our paws from our mouth and sit down. Temmie is seriously worrying about me right now.

"hooman...? do u... not like Baku...?" 😥

"its not that, Temmie. its that im just scared of what hed do if he found out..."

"why u scared of Baku?"

"well... im gonna tell yu somethin' scary he told me."

"w-wa??"

Even though no one else is on the beach at the moment, I decide this is probably something I shouldn't say out loud.

"One time, I asked Baku why he was even called Baku. And he told me..."

"Dreams are my playground, sweetheart. I do with them as I please."

Temmie tilts our head in confusion.

"wats dat mean?"

I move our head back up. "well, a bakus a thing that eats dreams. its got a trunk like an elephant-"

"wats an el-a-fint?"

"uh... its an... never mind. anyway, a bakus a dream eater. da Fresh para-"

😱 ...

😐 ...

"...da funky fresh DJ u no an' love is named after a dream eater."

"...wha??"

"yea, hes named aftr a dream eater. and he told me that dreams are..."

"...play ground?"

"yea..."

Temmie doesn't seem to be picking up where I'm going with this.