#fighting together (dylan&rush)

[igotanidea]

Different lives: dad!Jason Todd x wife!reader

Request: Family au, I believe that Jason Todd is a family man and he would totally have 2 older boys like 15-13 a five year old daughter who has him like wrapped around his finger and the wife and Jason get like a call from the school saying there was a fight and Jason is all like hey no no we don't do that but then asks who won

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It seemed like they were dancing at Dick and Babs’ wedding only five minutes ago.

Holding onto each other for dear life, like they knew that that person in their arms were the one. Like this little celebration, that was not really little, and not even theirs, made them think about future much more seriously.

And for the first time ever, Jason actually believed that maybe there was something more for him in this life. Something more than rejection, pain, fear and constant loneliness.

Of course, given the fact that he and Y/N had been together for a while, he knew that before. But at that moment, in the middle of the giant dancefloor, surrounded by other couples and guest and yet – having eyes only for her – he knew.

Two different things.

***

When he came back home from his work (he had regular work now! That scrawny kid and rebellious young adult turned into a responsible head of the family, though the moment of change somehow skipped them both) Y/N was on the phone with a concerned face expression.

“Yes. Yes, I understand. I’ll be there right away. Yes. Yes, absolutely.” She turned to Jay and send him a smile, tired if not exhausted, but a smile regardless.

He let her talk, instead focusing on his little princess daughter playing on the blanket next to her mother’s feet. That little being totally had him wrapped around her finger and all it took was a sight of her pretty eyes that looked so much like her mother’s and he was dropping everything and rushing to the girl’s side.

“What happened?” He asked taking Leah on his knees and settling on the couch next to Y/N, wrapping an arm around her shoulders trying to relieve the obvious tension. He had his girls therefore he had everything and there was not a single thing he wouldn’t do for them.

“It’s Liam and Dylan.” Y/N sighed pinching the bridge of her nose.

“Oh, right” Jason smirked at the thought of his two older sons. 15 and 13 now, looking and acting just like him at this age. Causing troubles wherever they showed, not taking anyone’s bullshit, but with a deeply hidden heart of gold. He was so proud of them, even if saying that out loud was a rare occurrence. “What did they do this time?” he chuckled, mischief dancing in his eyes.

“Jason!”

“What?”

“This is not funny!”

“Of course it is! They are boys, they are allowed to-“

“I’m warning you, do not finish this sentence!” she placed both hands on Leah’s ears “I don’t want my baby girl anywhere near trouble.”

“You know she’s got our blood in her veins, so that gives her a lot of genetic burden in the troublemaker area?”

“Jason!”

“What?” he shrugged casually “It’s true and you know it.”

“Mhm. Yeah, we’ll see how you act when he grew up on causing troubles with boys-“

“WHAT?!” Jason jumped off the couch, holding Leah’s little body close to his chest, his grip on a girl tightening significantly. “Over my dead body! That’s my little girl! No one is taking her away and-“

Y/N only laughed observing the jealous dad display and fairly enjoying the show of care. It was heartwarming, seeing Jason put so much care into someone. And him having it reciprocated as Leah nuzzled into his body with multiple happy chuckles playing with the fabric of his shirt, fisting and twisting it mercilessly.

“Daddy…” she chuckled enjoying his embrace. Even as a child she was always calmer when he was holding her.  

“Shhh, shh baby. Daddy’s gotta have a word with mummy.” He caressed Leah’s hair and kissed the top of her  head. “Stop laughing at me Y/N, this is serious shit! I need to start planning my predicaments for boys who might want to steal her heart and-“

“She’s five Jason!” Y/N laughed even more “I think you have a little bit of time.”

“This is serious!” he perked up.

“Of course. The same way it’s serious with Dylan and Liam.”

Jason grunted in annoyance seeing how she tricked him.

“Dammit Y/N…” he grinned immediately flinching inside at the thought Leah heard the cussing. “Sorry, pumpkin…” the little kiss planted on girl’s forehead did not stop her from repeating the word however.

“Dammit!” Leah cried out the word on the top of her lungs happily.

And that was how Jason knew he was up to a serious conversation with his wife.

***

An hour later, all the family was sitting in the car, Jason driving, Y/N shotgun and the kids on the backseat, with Leah in the middle being simultaneously entertained by both her older brothers. Under  any other circumstances Y/N would probably let her motherly instincts come to the fore, but this time was different.

“Liam, Dylan, stop using my soft spots and family love for your own purposes.” She warned “you may love your sister, but you’re still in trouble.”

“We didn’t do anything!”

“Liam Thomas Todd!” she almost turned around ‘you got into a fight at school.”

“But it was not our fault mom!” the other son, immediately came to his brother rescue, having his back, which – again – awakened her motherly pride. A feeling she was not going to subdue to. Those boys needed a little reaming out regardless of siblings’ solidarity.  “That guy just came at us and –“

“Dylan Roy Todd. Violence is not an answer and-” She said, with conviction at first but then stopping, having realized that those kids did in fact have Jason’s and hers blood and those words were a hypocrisy in purest form. Fuck. She hissed to herself, hesitating in the middle of the sentence. A mistake Jason was more than willing to jump at.

“A fight huh?” he smirked looking into the rearview mirror to sneak a glance at his sons. Liam with already bruising eye and Dylan with a swollen nose, clutching it tightly to prevent any blood stains on upholstery. “So, did you use those blows and punches I’ve been teaching you?”

“WHAT!?” Y/N turned from facing her sons to facing her husband so fast that something snapped loudly in her neck. “JASON PETER TODD!”

“Y/N, Y/M/N, Y/L/N” Jason grinned in response, not paying her that much attention too curious of his offsprings response “Who won?”

“You should have seen the other guy” his boys smirked in the same way he was, and his fatherly heart could not be bigger at that moment.

Even if he knew Y/N was already planning her revenge on them all.

[tvckerwash]

okay I watched restoration and I'll probably analyze it more in depth later when my brain has processed what I've watched but here are some of the thoughts I had while watching (I stopped live blogging part way through so some things may be out of order lols):

okay first thoughts: we’re at a convention, and dylan is some sort of director for some super unpopular thing. ngl that’s a pretty harsh downgrade from journalist/news correspondent. 

hi kai. she seemed to be more like her s15-s17 characterization than her bg/chorus cameo characterization for the 30 seconds she was present (which I remember really disliking)

wash is in the hospital as prisoner 619b…bros did the UNSC arrest him again?!?

“I’m not even sure I got his voice right this time.” okay so restoration IS another simulation

the director being a therapist when the counselor is right there lmao

bros no way they got elijah wood to voice sigma again??

is that the counselor I hear on the PA system??? that’s what the subtitles said anyway. but anyway BROS HE ACTUALLY FUCKING LIVED LETS GO (but why is his ass not in jail??????? there’s no way he managed to get a job, let alone one in a UNSC hospital, but if this IS a simulation which I think it is and epsilon himself admitted to making mistakes already then I’m okay with that development ig)

NO IS DOC A FIGMENT OF WASH’S IMAGINATION NOOOOOO MY MANS IS FINALLY LOSING IT FR

“Listen to me! You’ve gotta listen to me!”

479er??? I’ve always had the hc she was arrested w wash and the other pfl personnel at the end of s6

“Our mission men—and blue” caboose is trans confirmed

“Don’t feel bad afterwards. I forgive you. I know it’s not your fault, I’m sorry this is happening to you.” omg caboose not dunking on tucker is what he presumed to be his final moments.

SARGE GOING TO SAVE CABOOSE <3

oh okay I predicted months ago before the 2nd trailer came out that at least one of the bgc was going to die and I was right! I thought it was going to be caboose but rip sarge (and doc) 

I’m really disappointed that wash didn’t get to do more tbh. the meta was HIS enemy but he was regulated to comedic relief  :(

also wash jumping off a cliff to activate the recovery beacon is :/. bro was literally a recovery agent he should know how to activate it to summon lina like she’s a deployable unit in uhh. ways that were NOT that.

did not expect tex to come back but okay, also tex/lina fighting together feels like fanservice but mmmmmmmmmmnh. 

awww tex and church get to be together again, dying together as one like they did at the end of s6. TEX SOFTLY HOLDING CHURCH’S HAND YES!!! WE LOVE SOFT TENDER TEX IN THIS HOUSE!!!

damn the “wash and lina having their trauma and traits swapped for no reason” thing is. hmmm  don’t like that, have never liked that. I tried to see if I had any posts on my old blog about this topic bc I remember talking about it in the past and I sort of do? eh whatever tldr; lina is the one haunted by the past and wash is supposed to be the one giving the emotional speeches but hhhhhrng. will definitely be talking about that more later even though I thought the scene was super sweet (also ct!!!!!!! my girl!!!!)

I don’t like that they were all separated and that grif was going to leave, these mfs were forced together in a shitty box canyon at the start of the series and I feel like it would’ve been better if instead of being forced together they all chose to stay together but it is what it is.

“Bow chicka bye now.” bros it’s over…

okay ngl it was pretty rushed pacing wise and I’ve got so many bones to pick (mostly about wash bc ofc) but speaking as an ending to the series I think it works. it all started in a box canyon which was later revealed to be an elaborate training simulation, so it’s fitting that it it was revealed very early in the run time that it was all a simulation, and it all ended in the box canyon they started in. I thought the themes of feeling guilty and being able to forgive oneself were very interesting (might get into that more later as well…) so yeah. 

it’s flawed, but for such a long running series that had originally been intended to only be a few episodes, I think it ending with tucker telling us it’s over and to go home is honestly the best way they could’ve done it. all the other times the series had “ended” it was done in a way where it worked as a standalone end for the series, but it was always open-ended enough that a continuation could be made if they wanted to. 

there isn’t going to be a continuation this time, the story is over, but just because the story has ended doesn’t mean that we can’t make our own stories. red vs blue will live on so long as there are people who want it to, which feels pretty on the dime doesn’t it?

[hockeylovee12]

How Could You-Ethan Edwards

Summary: Y/N and Ethan have been dating for 7 months after getting into a bad fight Ethan goes out to a party to blow off some steam but things take a turn for the worse when he starts making conversation with another girl.

Warnings: Cussing, cheating, mentions of sex, underage drinking.

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Ethan Edwards sat on his bed with his head in his hands. Y/N, his girlfriend, stood beside him, her face contorted with anger and hurt. They had just had a huge fight, their voices echoing through the room. 

“Do you even fucking care? God you can be such an asshole!” Y/N screamed. 

“I care about you, You know that, don’t try to turn me into the bad guy! You started this shit at least own up to it!” Ethan yelled back. 

“Fuck you Ethan!” With those words, she stormed out of the room. Ethan felt the urge to punch something in frustration, so he punched his mattress instead.

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A few minutes later, he walked downstairs and found his roommates Dylan, Mackie, Luke and Mark sitting in the living room.

"Hey man, are you okay?" Dylan asked concernedly.

"It was just a stupid fight," Ethan replied dismissively. "I don't want to talk about it."

"You know what will make you feel better?" Mark chimed in. "A party! Next doors throwing!"

"Yeah man, come out with us," Luke added.

Ethan sighed but eventually relented; he needed a distraction from their fight.

He fixed his hair and added a spritz of cologne before they headed out the door to the party.

Hours passed by quickly as they danced and drank together. Eventually, Ethan found himself alone with a blonde girl leaning against the wall by the beer pong table.

"Hey there," she said flirtatiously as she glanced at him through thick eyelashes.

"Hi," Ethan replied shyly but masking his frustration with their fight.

Before he knew it, they were kissing and whispering to each other. His mind was blurred by the alcohol, but he didn't care. All he wanted was to forget everything that had just happened with Y/N.

Ethan stumbled out of the crowded house with the girl and the two made their way back to Ethan’s house. They had sex and fell asleep in his bed, with no thoughts of guilt or regret. 

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The next morning, Ethan woke up with a pounding headache and the girl beside him.

He looked around for his phone, and found it on the floor in the pocket of his jeans from the night before. He groaned as he reached for it.

A new message popped up, from Y/N. She wanted to talk and was on her way over.

Ethan looks over at the half naked girl beside him realizing his mistake.

Immediately Ethan puts his hand on the girl’s shoulder and tries to wake her up.

“Mhm good morning” She says with a smile and a sleepy voice. 

“You need to leave now” Ethan says with a sense of urgency and a little fear in his voice.

The girl is confused but starts to get up, looking around for the rest of her clothes.

After putting on most of her clothes, she begins walking towards the door, but before she can get there, the door swings open and Y/N walks in.

“Ethan?" she called out. But her voice trailed off once she saw the girl standing in front of her.

Her eyes widened as she took it all in - the girl's tousled hair, Ethan's nakedness under the covers...

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" Y/N screeched, turning on her heel and running out of the room.

Ethan scrambled out of bed, trying to pull on his pants quickly before chasing after her.

"Y/N, wait!" he called out. "Please let me explain!"  

Y/N paid no attention to him, as she rushed down the stairs and out the front door. Ethan followed after her.

 "Y/N, wait!" he called out to her.

She stopped in her tracks but didn't turn back to look at him.

“How could you?" she asked, her voice shaky with anger. "After everything we've been through, how could you do this to me?"

Ethan sighed heavily, a feeling of guilt weighing heavily on his chest. "I don't know," he said, hanging his head low.

Y/N turned back to face him, tears welling up in her eyes. "You cheated on me," she said bitterly. "I thought you loved me."

“I do love you," Ethan replied quickly. "I made a mistake, please forgive me.”

Y/N shook her head, and turned away from him. “It’s too fucking late” she snapped. 

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[yankstrash]

A Shocking Farewell ~ Mackie Samoskevich (Part 1)

Warnings: Crying

Character Names: Maddie (Dylan’s girlfriend), Kira (Mackie’s girlfriend)

The final buzzer sounded, officially ending UMich’s season. Their trip to the Frozen Four was over and their National Championship hopes were crushed yet again. 

The two girls turned to look at each other, weak smiles playing on their faces. “It was a good run.” Maddie, Dylan Duke’s girlfriend said.

Kira, Mackie’s girlfriend, returned the smile and nodded. “It really was.”

The girlfriends made their way down to the locker room to wait for the boys. Maddie and Kira looked over at Luke’s girlfriend who was being consoled by Ethan's girlfriend, as this was her boyfriend's last ever college game. In 2 short days he would be in New Jersey playing for the Devils, while she stayed here for 2 more years to finish school. 

“I know I’m sad, but I can’t even imagine how she’s feeling.” Kira said, nudging her head in the other girlfriend’s direction. 

Maddie frowned at her statement. “I know, they’ve been through it all together, and they’ve never been apart.” 

“I’m so glad my boyfriend’s staying. At least for now.” Kira said, and Maddie nodded in agreement.

Finally, the boys started piling out of the locker room. Kira spotted Mackie, and made her way over to him.

“Hi baby.” She said, wrapping her arms around his neck.

He mumbled a “Hi” back as he held his girlfriend tight. 

They embraced silently for a few moments as she let Mackie hold onto her tight for comfort. 

They pulled away and Kira saw her boyfriend's red, puffy eyes, indicating that he had been crying.

“Aw baby,” She said, reaching up to wipe away fallen tears. “It’s okay. You guys had a great year, you’ll get another chance next season.” 

At that comment, Mackie’s face fell even more, if that was possible. 

He said not a word as he pulled her back into his arms, holding on for dear life.

“I have to tell you something.” He mumbled into her shoulder.

Kira pulled away and raised her eyebrows in confusion. “What, baby?” 

Mackie took a deep, shaky breath, looking into her eyes.

“I got a call from Florida this morning. They want me to join the team.” He said.

Kira’s heart dropped the second that sentence left his mouth. 

“Like, now?” She asked.

Mackie nodded his head slowly.

“Are you going to?” She asked, barely able to get her words out without choking on them. 

Mackie said nothing as he nodded his head again.

Kira stared at her boyfriend blankly. She wasn’t sure what she was expecting him to say but it sure wasn’t this. Mackie had never mentioned leaving Michigan after this season, it was always in his plan to stay for at least a third year before going to the NHL. 

“My coach called me before morning warm ups and said they wanted me once our season was over. I didn’t have time to think about it, Ki. They needed an answer right then and there.” Mackie said.

Kira still just stared, unsure of what to say.

“Please, say something.” Mackie said, his girlfriend's silence scaring the crap out of him. 

Kira opened her mouth to speak, then closed it again. She felt tears welling in her eyes as she was finally able to find her words.

“I’m just confused, Mack. You’ve never once mentioned leaving Michigan after this season, you always said you were going to stay through at least your junior year. Why did they just now tell you this?” She asked.

Mackie shrugged and said, “I don’t know, baby. It was a shock to me too. I wasn’t expecting it.” 

“But you agreed to go even after you’ve always said you were going to stay?” Kira asked. 

Mackie shrugged again and shook his head. “This is my dream.” 

Kira’s heart broke at his response. She obviously knew this was his dream, but why rush it? Mackie was already drafted, he didn’t have to fight for a draft spot, he could finish out college or at least this next year without having to worry about any of that. So why rush it? 

While she also knew this was his dream, she couldn’t help but feel a bit betrayed. Like he was leaving her behind. He knew she couldn’t come with him, at least not yet. She had to finish school. They had talked about doing 1 year of long distance if Mackie decided to leave after next year, but 2 years? That was a huge difference, and something that they had never discussed. And for him to dump this on her 2 days before he would have to leave? 

Heartbreaking and cruel.

Kira knew that the day would come eventually for her and Mackie to say goodbye for a little bit, but she was not expecting it to be this soon. And without any warning at all. 

“Ki?” He asked, reaching out to grab her hand, but she pulled it back.

“So, you’re leaving? Like, in a few days?” She asked. 

Mackie pursed his lips as he looked at her, slowly nodding his head. 

Kira took a few steps back, as she felt tears slip out of her eyes.

“Baby-” He began to say, but was cut off by Kira putting her hand up.

“I need a minute.” 

And with that, his heartbroken girlfriend was running off, needing a quiet place to process everything he had just said. 

Maddie saw her close friend run off, and she looked at Mackie confused. 

“I’ll be back.” She said, unwrapping her arms from around Dylan and making her way over to his best friend. 

“Mack,” She said as she approached him. “What’s going on?” 

Mackie huffed as he closed his eyes and looked up at the ceiling, letting more tears fall. 

“I’m going to Florida.” He said, which caused Maddie’s eye to bug out of her head.

“What like now?” She asked, confusion evident in her voice.

“Yes. They called me this morning. I didn’t have time to think about it, so I said yes.” 

Maddie was confused at his response, as she also knew Mackie always said he was going to stay.

“Why didn’t you tell them you wanted to stay another year?” She asked.

Mackie shrugged. “I’m ready, Mads. I feel good about this, and I’m ready to go. Plus, I didn’t know how they’d feel about me if I turned down the offer.” 

“Uhh, if they’d change their mind about you for wanting to stay another year at the school you love with the team you love to develop more, then fuck them. Why didn’t you just tell them that?” Maddie asked, growing frustrated.

Kira and Maddie were best friends. After their boyfriends introduced them, they were inseparable. So Maddie was hurting for her best friend, and trying to get answers out of Mackie.

“I was on the spot, okay! I wasn’t expecting them to call me and I wasn’t expecting to be offered a spot so soon. But they did and I did so I accepted it! Why can’t you guys be happy for me? I'm going to live my dream.” Mackie exclaimed. 

“Because the timing and how you did it SUCKS! You didn’t even bother to call your girlfriend when you found out to tell her, then you just dump this on her after a long, tough game and expect her to be happy that her boyfriend is leaving her in 2 days for 2 years?!” Maddie said, raising her voice a bit. 

“I couldn’t call her! We had warm ups then the game! We aren’t allowed to be on our phones.” 

Maddie rolled her eyes at his response. “I’m sure if you asked someone they would’ve let you off the hook for 5 minutes to call her. It’s the absolute least you could’ve done, Mack.” 

Mackie shrugged and said, “Well I’m sorry I’m a terrible boyfriend and went about this completely wrong. Sorry for wanting to live out the dream I’ve had since I was a kid.” 

Maddie was about to speak again, when Mackie cut her off. “You know, I didn’t see you guys giving Luke a hard time at all when you found out he’d be leaving Luke’s/GF/N for two years.”

Maddie’s mouth fell open as she looked at Mackie like he was stupid.

“I know you did not just compare this to that. That is COMPLETELY different. Luke’s/GF/N has always had it in the back of her head that Luke could go at any moment, and she knew for sure he was going at the end of this season. She’s known 100% that he was leaving since August. That’s 8 months, you gave your girlfriend 2 days! I can’t even believe you just tried to compare the two.” Maddie said, raising her voice at Mackie once again.

Mackie just shrugged and said, “It’s my decision and I’ve made it.” 

Maddie nodded and pursed her lips. “Well then, I wish you the best of luck, Mackie. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m gonna go comfort my best friend whose heart you just broke.” 

And with that, Maddie stormed off before Mackie could get another word out.

Dylan came over to Mackie after his girlfriend had walked away. He placed a hand on his shoulder as Mackie turned to Dylan, guilt all over his face.

“Well, now your girlfriend AND my girlfriend hate me. What a way to go out.” Mackie said. 

“Kira doesn’t hate you Mack, she could never. Maddie doesn’t either, but you know how she and Ki are. They’re extremely close, of course she’s going to side with her. At least for right now.” Dylan reassured. 

Mackie shrugged, trying to believe his best friend to make himself feel better.

“I need to talk to Ki, tonight. I can’t leave my girl like this.” 

[ljf613]

Every Single Thing About You: The Starco Playlist

Under a cut because this is the longest ship playlist I've put together yet. (30+ songs!)

Oath - Cher Lloyd Wherever you go, just always remember That you got a home for now and forever And if you get low, just call me whenever This is my oath to you

Together - Animal Island My first day on Earth I fell into your eyes Look at how our galaxies collide

Some Things Don't Change - Dylan Emmet You're still just as fly As you were that night That we both got high on the bleachers And fell in love In over our heads as we looked at the stars Nothing can tear us apart Like nothing Nothing can tear us apart

Kid in Love - Shawn Mendes Maybe I’m just a kid in love Maybe I’m just a kid in love, oh baby If this is what it’s like falling in love Then I don’t ever wanna grow up

Shut Up and Dance - WALK THE MOON Oh, don't you dare look back Just keep your eyes on me I said, "You're holding back" She said, "Shut up and dance with me" This woman is my destiny

Perfect Two - Auburn Don't know if I could ever be Without you, 'cause boy, you complete me And in time, I know that we'll both see That we're all we need

Lucky - Jason Mraz Lucky I'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Lucky we're in love in every way Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed Lucky to be coming home someday

Blame It on the Rain - He Is We Tell me, does she look at you the way I do Try to understand the words you say And the way you move? Does she get the same big rush When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush? Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?

You Are in Love - Taylor Swift One night, he wakes Strange look on his face Pauses, then says, "You're my best friend" And you knew what it was, he is in love

Maps - Maroon 5 And you said you had my back So I wonder, where were you? When all the roads you took came back to me So I'm following the map that leads to you

Like This - Jake Scott No one ever got me high like this Set me on fire like this Running on a wire like this Losing my mind like this I don't know what it is But I could never call it quits I just wanna stay like this

Home - Jacob Lee With your head on my shoulders And that look in your eyes I knew you and I were the same There I danced with your aura As you led me inside Guiding me into somewhere safe I've found home

Staring at It - SafetySuit I don't know where you're at, but when you see an exit You'll be headed at it I won't go I'm staring at it I'm staring at the only love I know

Perfect Crime - Sean Ryan Fox You walked right in, into my life like a thief in the night, yeah When I looked, I got hooked in your eyes and I couldn't even fight it I thought I had a good thing 'til you came along You make my soul wanna sing a different song Yeah, I know you got a boyfriend and I got a girlfriend, but Wouldn't it be the perfect crime If I stole your heart, you stole mine?

Sad Song - We the Kings You're my favorite part of me With you standing next to me I've got nothing to fear

Back to You - Selena Gomez We never got it right Playing and replaying old conversations Overthinking every word and I hate it 'Cause it's not me And what's the point in hiding Everybody knows we got unfinished business And I'll regret it if I didn't say this isn't what it could be

Hoodie - Hey Violet I'm still rocking your hoodie And chewing on the strings It makes me think about you So I wear it when I sleep

Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself Talking to the moon Tryna get to you In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

i don't want to watch the world end with someone else - Clinton Kane And I don't really know, what tomorrow holds But I've, I've finally realized If this is our last goodbye until we're gone Who cares about the wrongs we've caused ourselves? 'Cause I don't want to watch the world end with someone else

May I - Trading Yesterday All that's made me is all worth trading Just to have one moment with you So I will let go of all that I know Knowing that you're here with me For your love is changing me

Never Be Alone - TheFatRat No matter what you do I'll still be there for you And when you call my name I won't be far away No matter where you go You'll never be alone

Glad You Came - The Wanted The sun goes down, the stars come out And all that counts is here and now My universe will never be the same I'm glad you came

At the Beginning - Donna Lewis I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you

Far Away - Nickelback This time, this place Misused, mistakes Too long, too late Who was I to make you wait? Just one chance, just one breath Just in case there's just one left

I Will Follow You Into the Dark - Death Cab For Cutie No blinding light Or tunnels, to gates of white Just our hands, clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark

Water Fountain - Alec Benjamin She couldn't be at home in the night time because It made her feel alone, but at that time she was too young I was too young I should've built a home with a fountain for us The moment that she told me that she was in love Too young, I was too young

Let Her Go - Passenger Well, you only need the light when it's burning low Only miss the sun when it starts to snow Only know you love her when you let her go

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough

Sunflower - Shannon Purser But I'm a sunflower, a little funny If I was a rose, maybe you'd want me

The Story of My Life - One Direction The story of my life, I take her home I drive all night to keep her warm And time is frozen

Not In That Way - Sam Smith I'd never ask you, 'cause deep down I'm certain I know what you'd say You'd say, "I'm sorry, believe me, I love you But not in that way"

Rather Be - Clean Bandit If you gave me a chance, I would take it It's a shot in the dark, but I'll make it Know with all of your heart, you can't shame me When I am with you, there's no place I'd rather be

Gift of a Friend - Demi Lovato The world comes to life And everything's alright From beginning to end When you have a friend By your side

I Like Me Better - Lauv I knew from the first time I'd stay for a long time 'Cause I like me better when I like me better when I'm with you

Friends Don't - Maddie & Tae They don't almost say "I love you" When they're downtown somewhere, just a little drunk They don't talk about the future, and put each other in it And get chills with every accidental touch

Evelyn - Bear's Den Evelyn, our relationship was strictly platonic If platonic means I was madly in love with you And a part of you was oblivious Another part of you knew and kind of liked it

Teenager in Love - Neon Trees He’s a teen, a teenager in love I’m a fool with a curse and a crush What a magic distraction What’s the point of romance?

Fear of Water - Noah Kahan Now I'm not afraid of the water I'll dive right in And I can be brave, so I'm gonna Give it a try 'Cause you'll be on the other side

[kerasines]

TSC - The Sterek Conspiracy

guys, i just watched the teen wolf movie, and i’m here to tell you: i’ve figured it out

this was NOT the real teen wolf movie.

it just doesn’t make sense. there are too many plot holes, the whole thing seems rushed and confusing, and there’s nothing in it that fans actually wanted. so why would they make this?

because the secret good real teen wolf movie is yet to be released.

everything was a deliberate misdirect. in a few weeks, they’ll surprise us with the REAL movie and pull off the greatest plot twist ever. dylan o’brien is gonna be in it, and sterek will become canon.

proof:

the whole “plot” is about the nogitsune, but without any of the characteristics that used to make him a great villain. it’s obviously just a nod to stiles.

it’s all about characters coming back... everyone is coming back to beacon hills, jackson from england, allison from the dead... you know who else is coming back? stiles!

we barely get to see the characters bonding even though everyone knows that’s the heart of teen wolf! am i to believe they’d make a movie about allison coming back and not even have her talk to lydia? come on, i’m not an idiot

everything is really really low quality, the writing, the acting, the editing, the special effects, the sound design, the fights.... almost as if it was put together with no effort or care BECAUSE IT’S NOT THE REAL END PRODUCT.

actors saying they didn’t have a script for this - because the script was for the real movie, duh!

there were THREE times where they made it seem like derek was about to die. if they wanted a real emotional scene at the end why would they add not one but SEVERAL fake outs? that would just be very bad writing so it HAD to be on purpose. it’s just another fake out!

derek’s son being a carbon copy of stiles? obsessed with his jeep? derek having complicated feelings about said jeep? no mention of a mother? the sheriff as his mentor? come on... there’s no way they’re actually doing something where the only logical conclusion is sterek mpreg. they’re obviously teasing us, and seeding the idea of stiles and derek’s connection to casual viewers. this cannot possibly be a real movie!

speaking of the jeep. it obviously represents stiles, so that speech at the end about the jeep never breaking down, always coming back? is about stiles, not derek

eli is literally an anagram of LIE. wake up, sheeple

(i can’t even joke about arden coming back she deserves so much better)

[liviavanrouge]

War

Ambert: *Flicks his tail all the fae jaguar species gathered together*

Livia: *Stands among the group, flicking her wings as Dylan came up beside her*

Felix: *Glares at the two, his ears pinned back*

Dylan: Look...

Ambert: *Looks up and snarls as the rest of the hybrid cat fae arrived*

Tooth: Ambert, you either move out of our way or we kill you and your army

Ambert: *Stares at them, then bares his teeth* NEVER!

Ambert: *Lifts his head, letting out a thundering roar*

Dylan: *Snarls and charges forward, Livia behind him as the fae jaguar hybrids rushed forward*

Dylan and Livia: *Leaps forward, running on their hands and feet, passing everyone else up and taking the lead*

Livia: *Yowls and launches herself forward, diving down into several Lion faes*

Dylan: *Leaps into the fray, swatting one off her as the armies collided*

~~~~

Silver: *Slides down and stops his eyes wide at the fight below*

Sebek: *Stops beside him startled* They're really fighting....

Silver: To protect the Valley of Thorns....

Sebek and Silver: ...they really want to come home.....

@anxious-twisted-vampire @yukii0nna @writing-heiress @marrondrawsalot @abyssthing198 @zexal-club

[yagodichjagodic]

If you’ve followed me for any period of time then you know I have a shop. I make horror, kpop, & film inspired art/jewelry/plant accessories. I'm also queer AF & it isn't something I hide. 2023 has been a super rough year for me (for a lot of reasons), but struggling with my sense of self & my art has been overwhelmingly prevalent.

I'm trying very hard to work on my mental health, & just myself overall, so I decided to try vending again. I thought the place I chose was a safe call. It was a local artist flea that I used to do monthly, but hadn't been to in a year & a half.

My anxiety had been getting worse & worse leading up to the event (which was yesterday), but I worked through it as best I could because I didn't want to bail & get black-listed as an unreliable vendor.

A few hours into the event an older guy (late 50's early 60's) came up & started to look at my work. The first thing he saw were two clay heart necklaces. They featured sculpted eyes painted with rainbows & he says, "I don't drink bud light anymore."

I didn't understand what he was saying at first, or why....but then I saw what he was looking at & put two & two together. In retrospect, I think he was even waiting for my reaction. I asked if it was because of Dylan Mulvaney....I was still honestly unsure what was going on in this conversation. I feel really stupid looking back on it.

From there he started off on a really insulting & cruel tirade about LGBTQIA+ individuals. I was still trying to be a professional, & counter what he was saying, but I forgot how people like that really are. At one point he started yelling that I was offended too easily & how woke he was because he had a gay daughter. I just remember feeling so fucking bad for her if that was true. Like this overwhelming sadness came over me.

At this point I was starting to cry. I was angry, frustrated, & incredibly sad...& when I get that way, I cry. I felt so fucking stupid. Still kind of do if I'm being honest. This was the moment when I told him he needed to leave my booth. I was still polite (which I wish I hadn't been), but other vendors & people shopping were paying attention & watching now.

He refused to leave & I just kept saying, 'Sir, you need to leave my booth." Then he started yelling & making personal insults about me. So I started shouting back to get out of my booth. Finally he walked away, but not before screaming at me not to follow him, as if that was the issue when he was the one who wouldn't leave!

It was then that I had the opportunity to really look around & see that the vendor across the aisle from me had stepped up & was making sure he left my booth, & his partner who had been elsewhere while this happened (only catching the tail end) rushed over to check on me. I appreciated that immensely, she talked me into staying the rest of the day & checked on me throughout

But the thing that isn't sitting well with me is that the organizers of the event (who were only two tents away from me) just watched all this happen & didn't do anything...they didn't even make him leave. They just let him continue on through the rest of the flea.

Eventually one of them came over & mentioned how he must have been looking for a fight. When he came in the entrance he said, "I hate Harrisburg, I don't know when I even came to this fucking thing." & then walked in...

This whole situation is really messing with me mentally. The things that he said to me, the fact that arguably the most 'inclusive' & 'progressive' art market in the area did nothing to protect me or even ask that guy to leave. It makes me feel really fucking worthless.

I've been struggling so hard with that these last few months, feeling like I, or my art, has any value. I'm also in the nightmare process of adjusting my meds, have been since February. I'm just trying so fucking hard to work on myself & make things better, but it feels like I get knocked down at every turn.

I just needed to share this some place. All of this. I can't say anything on IG because I'm not trying to cause any kind of issues or 'dox' anyone associated with the market I vended at. I just needed to put all of this out there...& tumblr feels safe to me.

I just feel so invisible & worthless anymore. My art feels pointless, I feel pointless. Like, why would anyone protect me or care about me?

I really don't know why I keep trying...but thank you for listening.

[angeloconnor]

Status: closed @justalelaurent​

Location: Winter Festival

The absence at her side is much harder to ignore than she’d imagined, a 5’ 4” void forming where her always seemingly hopping best friend should be. Her best friend who loves this sort of thing, who, without meaning to, taught Angel how to love it too. This is their thing together. They’ve been going to the Winter Festival together year after year since they were girls in comparison to the women they are now, but this year is different. Dylan and Angel haven’t spoken since Thanksgiving, their fight igniting a mutual radio silence that has spilled over into weeks. So this year, she’s alone, browsing through the different vendors who’ve set up shop in the festive wonderland. The intent isn’t to stay long at all. Even though she’s too stubborn to call and apologize, being here without Dyl kind of sucks. The very thing that makes it fun is gone, so there’s no point in lingering around.If anything, she’ll probably pick up some fudge or something for Finn and call it a day. Does he even like fudge, Angel thinks to herself as she leaves another table empty handed, shoving her hands into her pockets to keep her fingers warm.  Sighing, her eyes scan across the crowded market, moving from Ale amongst the other Bradford residents to another vendor’s –  Wait, Ale? Angel freezes, her focus rushing right back to him, her blood running cold.

It’s him. It’s not him. It can’t be, but it is. It absolutely is him. She knows him like the back of her hand, knows him like the words to her favorite song, like a memory she’ll never forget. No, she would never mistake anyone else for Alessio Laurent. It’s impossible to forget every detail of someone she once studied like the Bible. Angel had found salvation in him, drank in his testimony like communion, whispered her sins into his skin, and loved him with a devotion so blind it led her half a step up to death’s door. 

His face had been the last thing she’d remembered seeing that night as she laid on that bathroom floor dying in New Mexico a year and half ago, when two days later she woke up to her brother in her hospital room with the time in between blacked out from her memory entirely. That was also the last time she’d seen Ale, but now he’s here on this random day in December as if no time has passed at all, as if she could just walk up to him now and feel the familiar warmth of his touch instead of standing there alone while the sight of him breaks her heart all over again. A sense of panic and betrayal engulfs her like a flame, consuming everything in her that it touches.   

She’s dreaming. That’s it. It’s only one of those weird, fucked up, hyperrealistic dreams, but she needs to wake up, because this isn’t funny. It’s not funny. It’s not. It’s a dream. It’s a dream. It’s a dream. Ale can’t be back. He can’t be. He can’t. It wells up inside of her as she watches him underneath some spell she can’t seem to break out of, tears clouding her eyes as a bit of lightheadedness touches Angel, her ears starting to ring.

No. No, no, no, no, no.

[govandalsncaa]

#7 Vandals escape Eugene with 26-25 victory thanks to three missed PATs

Every week, the focus in college football is often on the opposing quarterbacks, or coaches, and with good reason. Those are the stars of our game, and the people that most often make headlines and magazine covers. The third phase of the game, special teams is so often ignored or pushed to the back burner, that you don't notice it, unless it is extremely good, or extremely bad. On Saturday, in Eugene, the Ducks faithful were treated to one of the most heartbreaking pieces of special teams play, that this columnist has ever seen.

Riding the emotion of a huge home crowd at Autzen Stadium, and making a bid to upset the #7 ranked Idaho Vandals, the Oregon Ducks 4-3 (2-2) were unable to convert a kicked PAT on three different occasions, falling to Idaho 26-25.

The scoring would not open until the 2nd Quarter when the Vandals, place kicker Carlton Richard was able to put through a 38 yard field goal to give Idaho the 3-0 lead. That lead would not last long, as back-to-back quick strike scores by the Oregon offense, put them up 12-3 with 2:09 left in the first half. On both Oregon touchdowns, the PAT was missed. On the final possession of the half, the Vandals turned to backup quarterback Akim Mills, who was able to convert on a 4th and Goal from the 6 yard line with just 4 seconds remaining in the half, to give the Vandals a 13-12 lead at halftime.

Idaho would also put the next score on the board, a long and bruising drive that was capped by a Doug Coman 7 yard touchdown run. That TD put Idaho up 19-12, and Coach Idaho Coach decided to try and go up by two scores, opting for a 2-point conversion and a potential 9 point lead. The conversion attempt was snuffed out by the Ducks defense, and the Idaho lead remained at just 7 points.

Another big rushing play by the Ducks on their next possession setup a tying touchdown run of 3 yards. The PAT on this attempt, was right down the middle, and with 3:03 left in the 3rd Quarter, the game was square at 19.

Idaho once again turned back to its starting QB, Dustin Coleman who led another bruising Vandals drive that ended with a Michael Garner 6 yard touchdown catch, giving the Vandals a 7 point lead headed to the 4th quarter.

After a stop on defense, Idaho was able to put together a sustained drive, that set them up with a potential 47 yard field goal with under 1 minute to go, that would have made their lead two scores, and essentially ended the game. But this time, it was Idaho's chance to fail in the kicking game, as Carlton Richard was short on his 47 yard try, giving the ball back to the Ducks, down just 7.

The Vandals opted to play prevent defense on Oregon's possession, as the Ducks were out of timeouts, and had turned to their backup QB, Justin Herbert do to an injury. Herbert, who struggled throwing the ball all-day miraculously founded an open receiver in the end zone on a 49 yard strike with just 12 seconds to play, to cut the Idaho lead to just 1 point at 26-25.

The Ducks faithful were begging Oregon to try for a 2-point conversion and the win, but after making his last attempt, and being at home, the Ducks turned once again to their kicker to tie the game and send it to overtime. He missed.

Idaho recovered the Oregon onside kick, took a knee and escaped Eugene with a 26-25 victory.

Coach Idaho Coach spoke with the media after the game.

"Well, honestly, I'm not sure we deserved to win that game. I feel awful for their kicker. I'd like to challenge the Idaho fans and alumni to donate to that young man's favorite charity, and show him that he is supported on and off the football field as a human being and as a football player.

As far as what we did today, it was largely a mess. Dylan Thigpen played a bruising, tough style that dragged us into the fight, and I liked what our offensive line was able to do as well.

The Quarterback position wasn't our best today, and we saw two different guys because of that. We'll see what that spot looks like moving forward.

On defense, we gave up and unacceptable amount of big plays, and missed a ton of tackles.

I'm glad we got the win, but I'm not happy. This felt like a loss. This isn't going to be a fun week of practice for our guys."

Redshirt Freshman and starting quarterback Dustin Coleman completed 14 of his 22 passes for 181 yards and 1 touchdown. Akim Mills in relief went 4 for 9 for 33 yards and 1 touchdown.

Dylan Thigpen carried 31 times for 124 yards, his longest carry of the day was 11 yards long.

Four different receivers for the Vandals had at least 42 yards receiving, with Garner and Luckett hauling in touchdown catches.

Despite having the advantage in first downs over Oregon, 21-8 the Ducks actually outgained the Vandals 388-338 in this game, thanks to an eye-popping 319 yards rushing for the Ducks. Many of those 319 yards rushing came on a handful of big chunk plays that left the Vandals defense scratching their heads.

Idaho was 7-16 on 3rd Down and 4-4 on 4th Down. The Ducks were 2-6 on 3rd down and 0-1 on 4th down.

It wasn't pretty, it was even a bit sad, but the Vandals escaped Eugene with a win.

Final Score:

Vandals: 26

Ducks: 25

[strangerquinns]

Can I request some smut with Dylan please where its been a while since him ans the reader have had sex and when they get to it, he cums too quickly and feels guilty that he didn't make her cum first and she's like "it doesn't matter, you still made me feel good and I still had a good time" or something like that?

Dylan O’Brien x female reader

warning: 18+, sexual situations, language

gif credit

You were always filled with pride for Dylan any time he got a new project. The only con of him growing within his career and getting more parts, was him leaving. When it was a month or two you were able to handle it. You missed him terribly but it passed quickly. But now it was becoming projects back to back, which turned the one to two months into more than five months.

But this time it was nearly seven months.

The closer the date got to him coming home the more restless and excited you became knowing that he was going to be home. During the last few months you weren't able to travel out and see him due to being busy with work. Facetiming together wasn't enough. You ached to see him and actually feel him.

You knew he was coming home late and fought with your tiredness to stay up and wait for him. But sadly you had slowly fallen asleep, woken hours later by a gentle hand on your shoulder. You woke with a soft gasp and turned towards the source, your eyes falling upon Dylan.

“Dylan!” You spoke before nearly launching yourself at him, wrapping your arms around his neck and holding him. Dylan laughed softly before holding you tightly to his chest. He missed holding you, feeling your body tight against his, being surrounded by your warmth and scent. “Oh my god, I’ve missed you so much,”

“I’ve missed you too, baby,” Dylan spoke with his face nuzzled into your neck, “God it feels so good to hold you.”

Dylan pulled back for a moment and grabbed each side of your face before bending down and kissing you. His lips pressed tightly to yours for a moment before the kiss became heated. You’d missed him too much for slow and gentle. It was like tasting his lips after months apart woke something within you. 

You pushed on his shoulder gently and straddling over his lap, his hands grabbing your waist tightly, as your tongue tasted across his lip before biting on it slightly. Dylan moaned against your lips before pulling back to look down towards you. The same heat and desire you were feeling was reflected back in his brown eyes. It made the pulse between your legs build before his lips were back on yours.

Dylan’s hands moved against your body for a moment before fisting your shirt, the two of you pulling apart as it was removed. Dylan looked down towards you with hooded eyes and slightly labored breaths as he saw that you weren’t wearing anything beneath it. A soft curse passed his swollen lips.

You laid there for a moment before reaching and working quickly to unbuckle his pants and pulling them down. The rest of your clothes were thrown to the floor before you moved to straddle over him again. Your hips moved against him feeling him harden against you as your lips met again in a heated kiss. 

Your hand reached down between the two of you and slowly stroked his cock, loving the small noises he made beneath you.

“B-Baby...oh, god...” Dylan whimpered beneath you, keeping his eyes on your as you pleased him. “I-I...I need...I need...”

“What?” You spoke with your lips hovering over his, both your breaths labored, “Tell me,”

“I need to fucking be inside of you,” He said in a rush with his voice straining at the end, his grip tight on the tops of your thighs.

Slowly you sank down around him, taking your time, and whimpering as he stretched you. The moment you sank down around him fully, you paused for a moment as you felt him. Dylan whimpered beneath you as he felt you pulse around him, and fighting the urge to fill you. Your hands splayed across his chest as you began to ride him. You started off slow at first, but it didn’t take long for you to move faster above him.

Dylan couldn’t take his eyes off you. 

He was lost in the sensation of watching you and feeling you wrapped around his cock. It was nearly too much.

It didn’t take long. It washed over him before he even realized what was happening.

He tried to stop it, even tried telling you. But all that came out of his mouth was moaning nonsense.

You felt him tense beneath you, your name passing his lips in a strangled moan, before collapsing on the bed beneath you.

“Dylan?” You spoke, your breath still labored.

“Oh my god,” He spoke, placing his hands over his face, embarrassment coming over him. “Oh my god.”

A soft smile came over your face as you tried to pry his hands from his face. “Baby, baby...”

After a while you were able to pull his hands from his face. You’d moved to lay beside him. Dylan looked over towards you as you laid there, your hand softly caressing his chest. There was nothing but love and understanding in your eyes. 

“I’m so fucking sorry,” He spoke, his lips turned down. 

Your brows pulled together in confusion, “For what?”

“I-I..." Dylan paused for a moment, before sighing. “You didn’t even get to finish. Our first night together in months and I fucking finish quickly like a damn teenager.”

“And I still had a good time,” You spoke quickly, “You still made me feel good.”

“You give me a minute, and we’re going again.” Dylan spoke, turning towards you more. 

“No complaints here,” You smirked down towards him.

Dylan reached up and cupped your cheek before bending down and kissing you. 

[nicohischierz]

our last summer: ethan edwards

warnings: death and cancer

tani speaks: so i’m not entirely sure as to how cancer works, i tried researching a few things and that’s what i used to make this as accurate as i could. 

every one of them had made the trip down to michigan. the whole team was there for one last summer together.

I can still recall

Our last summer

eddie and y/n met the summer before their freshman year at michigan. you were luke’s best friend and you were ecstatic to meet his new teammates. 

“hi i’m ethan,” eddie introduced himself holding his hand out for the girl to shake. “y/n” you copied him, shaking his hand. 

from that day forth, you and ethan spent a lot of time together. time that rivalled the amount you spent with luke. 

“i’m glad you’re going to michigan y/n, i don’t know what i’d do without you,” ethan whispered as the two of you laid against the grass.

I still see it all

Walks along the Seine

Laughing in the rain

you jumped onto ethan’s back as he came in from his morning run. the hughes lake house was filled with the boys doing various forms of exercise, you preferred to make breakfast instead.

“good morning eddy,” you greeted kissing your boyfriends lips. it has been a year since the two do you met and a year since the two of you started dating. 

although luke and the other freshman would complain about the constant pda. they couldn’t think of a better couple. 

ethan carried you on his back as he ran towards the pool jumping in with you fully clothed. dylan followed after with mackie and soon everyone else was in the pool having a chicken fight.

Our last summer

Memories that remain

a couple days into the summer you started feeling more lethargic quicker. the boys all thought you weren’t getting enough nutrients and kept a close eye on what you ate. 

but when you collapsed in ethan’s arms during your date, he became very worried. ethan rushed you to the hospital, his heart racing as the nurses took you away. they wouldn’t let him see you until ellen came in and demanded to know how you were. 

the nurse at the front desk gave the vague answer “they’re running some tests”. ellen sighed taking a seat in the waiting room with her youngest son, ethan started pacing around the floor. 

he kept mumbling to himself that you were okay, but the sight of you laying in the car seat lifeless haunted his mind. finally, when the nurse came out and called for your family. 

ellen went up to the nurse as she was told what was wrong with you. she nodded before turning back to the boys with tears in her eyes, ellen hugged luke before turning to ethan and hugging him as well. 

We made our way along the river

And we sat down in the grass by the Eiffel tower

after the boys found out you were diagnosed with cancer, they all wanted to spend as much time with you as possible. jack and quinn were back home and they were stuck by your side from the time they landed. 

it was a late night when you and ethan finally had time for just the two of you. you were wrapped in one of his hoodies and a blanket as you leaned against your boyfriend. ethan kissed your head as you fell asleep against him. 

the sound of the lake lulled him to sleep; that’s how ellen found the two of you the next morning. she snapped a quick picture before throwing another cover over the two of you. 

I was so happy we had met

you woke up with a smile on your face as you turned and saw ethan cuddle up beside you. luke opened the door and groaned at the sight of the two of you and walked back out. 

“get dressed you two, ethan has practice!” he yelled walking back down to the rest of the freshman. you and ethan giggled at luke. ethan pushed your hair back and kissed your forehead.

It was the age of no regret

“come on eddy, i think it looks cute,” you told your boyfriend showing him the new 73 on your inner forearm with his initials underneath. 

ethan kissed your tattoo’d arm before kissing your lips “i think you look hot with my number on you,” he whispered. 

Oh, yes

Those crazy years

That was the time of the flower-power

“luke hughes, there is no way i’m going to wear a flowery dress in the middle of winter!” you exclaimed throwing the dress at your best friend. ethan and mark laughed at the two of you. 

you had dragged them out shopping for something to wear during christmas. your chemo therapy had been going well and you were feeling much stronger, so the boys decided to treat you to whatever you wanted. 

“i think this top will look great with your white jeans,” eddy imputed pointing at a cropped red shirt top. you smiled over at your boyfriend and picked the shirt up “thanks eddy, i love it!” 

But underneath

It was a week since you had been out of bed. everything was so painful and you felt cold all the time. “come on baby, trusc made some soup for you and audrey brought those dumplings you like,” eddy told you. 

he brought in a tray of food and placed it in front of you. you smiled up at your boyfriend and patted the spot next to you “can we just stay in bed and cuddle?” you asked. ethan nodded and wrapped you up in  his arms. 

“i’ve got you,” he whispered in your ear. 

We had a fear of flying

Of growing old

A fear of slowly dying

you had completed your chemo treatment and were feeling better than ever. ellen had accompanied you to your doctors appointment as ethan and luke had practice. 

“well the good news is that your cancer is gone, now i’m not saying you are completely healed but this is good y/n,” the doctor explained to you and ellen. 

you and ellen both had smiles on your faces as you walked out the doctors office. the two of you even planned a dinner for everyone to tell them the good news. 

ethan lifted you up when he heard the news and the kiss the two of you shared was full of love and relief. “I love you so much,” the two of you whispered to each other. 

We took our chance

Like we were dancing our last dance

your good news didn’t last long. 

three months later you were admitted back into hospital, your doctor declaring that the cancer came back. but this time it was worse. 

“i don’t want to stay in the hospital. if i’m dying i want to be with the people i love the most,” you demanded tears streaming down your eyes. ethan begged you to stay in the hospital and continue with your treatment. 

“y/n, i can’t lose you.” he whispered as the two of you laid in the hughes backyard. you took in a shallow breathe and looked over at ethan and cupped his face.

“i love you so much eddy,” you whispered before leaning into him. 

ethan held you close as sobs racked his body. ellen heard ethans cries and ran outside, she too joined the boy as she saw her god-daughters lifeless body. 

jim called the ambulance as he consoled his wife and tried hard to keep himself together. you were the daughter he never had and now that you were gone, he knew nothing would be the same again. 

I can still recall

Our last summer

I still see it all

throughout the year, the boys all did things to commerarate you. 

for hockey fights cancer everyone wrote your name down in remembrance of you. on your birthday, they wore patches with your initials on their jerseys. 

and now they were back in michigan for the summer. the first summer without you. they had all planned little things that they could do that reminded them of you. 

the best surprise of it all was meeting jack’s daughter y/n, she was named after his little sister. the michigan boys told her stories of you, about how you were the bravest person they knew. 

ethan knew you were watching over him when he met jack’s daughter. the way she rubbed the tattoo he got for you made him certain that you never truly left any of them. 

“hey little one, you’re going to be just fine,” he whispered.

[yalemon]

I made this post back when S3 of Brassic aired but it feels even more relevant now so I thought I'd better post it before I forget about it again:

I know there are people who aren't into the Vinnie/Erin thing, and I totally get that, but as someone who doesn't usually like how romance is handled in the media, I see them as an exception.

Romantic relationships on TV tend to have at least one of these problems:

1. Bad pacing (making an initially interesting ship burn out quickly or drag out to the point people are tired of being baited)

2. The characters have a toxic dynamic.

3. The writers try to push together actors who don't have chemistry.

Now admittedly the jury's out on whether I'll feel this way by the end, but Vinnie and Erin have so far managed to avoid these issues, imo.

The way their relationship is developing feels organic. Early on you get the sense they both have a soft spot for each other, and as things get complicated with Dylan and Tyler, those feelings get deeper. It hadn't occurred to Vinnie that he'd have a chance with Erin, thinking she'd always be with Dylan, but when they break up he realizes he wants more than friendship with her.

On her end, she sees Vinnie step up to be there for Tyler, and it changes the way she perceives him. They're getting to know each other on another level, but aren't rushing into anything because they don't want to hurt Tyler, Dylan, or their own friendship. I like the restraint being shown here, yet at the same time the fact Joe has indicated he's into seeing their relationship progress means bonding moments do have significance and aren't just there to tease fans.

One of my favorite things about Vinnie/Erin is that they make a great team. They're like an oasis of calm surrounded by chaos -- I love how relaxed their scenes are. Unlike Dylan, Vinnie doesn't try to control her and is happy to have her involved in schemes. He doesn't do things because he feels he has to, he wants to. Unlike Jake, he doesn't pressure her to go out with him or attempt to change her. Unlike the both of them, he always knows how to genuinely make Erin feel better when she's stressed or upset. Erin keeps Vinnie focused, gives him reassurance, is a leader in her own right, and is great at problem-solving.

Another is that they see each other for who they really are. People tend to draw all sorts of conclusions about Vinnie and Erin based on how they look, their class status, etc. Vinnie is viewed as a pathetic, unintelligent criminal. Erin is constantly objectified and treated as a potential trophy wife, and she's highly underestimated. The two of them don't see any of that in each other though. Vinnie admires Erin, and while he does consider her beautiful, he loves her for the person she is - her strength, her empathy, her humor, etc. Erin likewise knows how smart and kind-hearted Vinnie is. She views him as the only man she can depend on, incredibly resourceful, a great friend, and a great dad.

I don't know if it was always intentional to go there with them, but I think it was the right choice to lean into the chemistry Joe and Michelle have. I've found that a lot of shows have an annoying habit of fighting against chemistry to shoehorn in whatever other relationship they had planned, and it never works.

[mythoughtsxxblog]

So I started watching One Tree Hill again back in June and I just finished. Now I feel empty inside.....

Those of you that have followed me for quite some time know I love my little TV show posts. Here are my overall thoughts about the show...

- Naley will always (and forever) have me in a chokehold. I blame them for the high expectations I have when it comes to relationships. In all seriousness, I've never seen a show write a couple in such a way where most of the fandom actually enjoys and ships them. Although they had their moments, they will always be my #1 comfort couple.

- I like to pretend season 2 doesn't exist. That was the dark era.

- What the actual fuck was Chad Michael Murray's hair in the last season 💀💀💀💀

- James Lafferty is an underrated king. Not only is his character the superior brother, but he as a person is superior in every way. He's also aging gracefully ☺

- Jake and Peyton should've been endgame and I'll always stand by that.

- Lucas Scott has some redeeming qualities, but he became more and more aggravating to me as the seasons went on.

- Chuck and Chase's friendship was something I didn't know I needed.

- Season 9 Chris Keller was a literal king.

- Even though Lucas was a little shit at times, I did love his friendship with Haley. I actually have a confession..... the first time I ever watched this show, I went into it blind. I had no clue who the characters were and who the iconic couples were. For the first few episodes of season 1 I shipped Lucas and Haley 🤢🤢🤢🤢 I honestly can't believe the thought of them as a couple was once appealing to me. But it was my first watch so I'm cutting myself some slack lmao

- Dan's death destroyed me and dare I say, it destroyed me more than Keith's.

- Mouth and Millie being endgame and having a baby on the way was a perfect way to send off the characters.

- Peyton losing Ellie fucked me up royally.

- Clay and Quinn were so pure. Robert Buckley and Shantel VanSanten had so much chemistry, did they date irl or....??? Cause fuck. They were hot.

- I wish we got more time to see Naley w/ Lydia. The baby actress that played her was so fucking cute.

- Haley's depression storyline after her mom died fucked me up. I honestly felt like it was rushed, but I understand why.

- Brooke Davis is a queen.

- Brucus > Leyton

- Season 9 was so fucking wild, but honestly I think it's one of the better seasons (at least better than 7 and 8)

- Naley and Brooke carried this show on their backs.

- Although I hated whenever Naley was fighting, I lowkey loved the Nanny Carrie plot. Only because of the drama lol

- I really wish we had gotten more of Peyton and Nathan's friendship.

- Quentin Fields deserved better!!!!

- Antwon Tanner is the funniest dude and I could tell Skills was ALL him.

- Seasons 5-6 Jamie Scott reminded me so much of Cole and Dylan Sprouse in Big Daddy lol

- Season 3 Naley >>>>>

- I shipped Brucus, but Brulian was actual perfection. I really grew to love Julian Baker.

- I honestly hated that the writers had Nathan retire from basketball and become an agent. It just didn't feel right. I understand why they did it (to show that Nathan's #1 passion and priority was his family), but idk it felt weird after seasons of his struggles trying to make it in the NBA.

- Seeing Skills and Bevin end up together made my heart happy

- Rain kisses >>>>>>>

This show is one of those shows I can watch over and over again and never get tired of it. It's rare to find shows like this nowadays. OTH will never get old.

Oh and also, fuck Mark Schwahn.

[five-rat-lore]

Ryan and Dylan fake relationship, as tropey as you can. 💙

Thank you for the prompt! I have the perfect way to twist this one 😌 also I’m sorry because this turned out way longer than I expected. But here it is! Dylan and Ryan pretending they’re dating 😉😏

Call Me Babe For The Weekend - 🎵🎶

“You ready?” Ryan asks. His voice is hushed and he can barely look at Dylan as he locks the car. The three weeks since he left past too quickly, and seeing Dylan again brings all that pain right back up to the surface.

“Yeah. Yeah I think I am.” Dylan says, fiddling with the straps of the gift bag. Ryan walks around the car to stand next to him and Dylan has to fight off the impulse to straighten his tie. Instead he just hands Ryan the bag and keeps his eyes on the hotel doors. “Should, um, we hold hands?” He suggests.

“Um, probably. Yes.” Ryan confirms, but he doesn’t make the move to reach for Dylan’s hand. His breath catches in his throat as Dylan’s fingers brush against his palm, and he takes a moment to pretend this is real, before he begins walking towards the hotel. “You sure you’re okay with this?”

Dylan sighs sadly and Ryan swears he hears him sniffle slightly. “You’re right. I don’t want to ruin Max and Laura’s day. We’ll just… pretend. I guess.” Ryan wants to reassure him, but he can’t find the words. Luckily Emma sees them first and downs her drink before crossing the hotel lobby to meet them in the doorway.

“You guys! You look so cute.” She coos, wrapping her arms around both of their necks and pulling them into a hug. “You’re just in time, they’re about to tell us the story of how they met. For the third time today.” She whispers the last part and gives them a wink, before turning on her heel and leading them out to the garden where Laura and Max are having their engagement party.

“There they are, it’s about time.” Kaitlyn yells, giving them a wide genuine smile and gesturing for them to sit by her. Dylan picks up the pace, rushing to Kaitlyn’s side, dropping Ryan’s hand. Ryan looks over the party, Laura sat on Max’s lap as they recount their love story to their friends and family, ending with how they got engaged. “That’ll be you two next.” Kaitlyn whispers to Dylan with a nudge, and Ryan can see Dylan shrink in on himself.

“I’m going to get a drink.” Ryan mutters to Dylan, passing him the gift bag back and heading back inside. He sips his beer and wonders how they’re going to keep this act up all evening.

-

The hours pass and Dylan fields questions about their relationship almost entirely without Ryan’s help. It’s mostly simple questions about how they’ve been, but as the evening’s winding down to an end, one of Max’s sisters hops down into the seat next to Ryan and joins the group.

“So how did you guys get together? Laura said you met at camp a year ago right?” She says as she sips her champagne.

“I take credit for this.” Emma laughs, “It was my truth or dare.” Dylan likes when Emma takes credit it like this in front of strangers. Better for them to believe it was a silly dare that sparked their relationship than trauma bonding over unspeakable horrors and emergency amputations. He lets himself laugh as she tells the story, briefly forgetting they got together any other way. Forgetting they ever broke up.

Ryan looks over at him and Dylan meets his eye, smile falling from his face. For a second the soft light of the candle on the table illuminates him just like how it did around the camp fire that night. Dylan’s eyes well up and he abruptly stands, almost knocking several drinks over. He wordlessly walks away, the rest of the group exchanging confused glances. Their eyes fall on Ryan and he realises he’s supposed to go after him.

“Dylan.” He says hesitantly, reaching for Dylan’s arm as the taller man crosses the dance floor quickly.

“I can’t. I can’t, it’s too hard.” Dylan holds back the sob, but his voice still trembles.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Ryan says, heart breaking all over again as he watches Dylan hold in tears. He lets his hand trail down Dylan’s arm, fingertips tracing over the scars that decorate the end of his residual limb. Dylan can see the pain on his face, and pulls him into a hug before Ryan can decide to walk away again.

They stay stood like that, swaying to the music for a minute. Ryan says a silent prayer that the song will last forever and they can stay in this moment, but the bridge comes too soon.

“I wish you’d get over yourself.” Dylan whispers, voice cracking. “I’m sorry, I know it’s… I know. But it’s true. I wish you’d fucking get over this guilt and let me love you.” Ryan holds onto Dylan tighter and buries his face in Dylan’s chest.

“I’m sorry.” Ryan says again, because it’s all he can say. He can’t make this pain go away with words, all he can do it fill the silence. “It’s not that easy.”

“Why not!” Dylan cries. A few people around them pause their dancing to turn and look at them, so Dylan grabs Ryan’s hand and pulls him to the door. He drags Ryan through the hotel hallways until they’re stood between their rooms. “Why not, Ryan?” He asks again. “I’ve forgiven you a thousand times. We’ve talked about this a. Thousand. Times. What do I say to make you stay?”

Dylan rubs his hand down his face and turns away but Ryan grabs his arm this time. “Ask me again.” He whispers.

“What?”

“Ask me to stay again. Please.” Ryan can barely breathe as he says the words.

“I won’t ask if the answer is no. Don’t- don’t come back if you’re going to walk away again.” Dylan says shakily. Ryan closes the distance between them and places both his hands on Dylan’s cheeks. He leans in and places a soft kiss on Dylan’s lips.

“Ask me to stay.” He murmurs into Dylan’s lips.

Dylan backs away and Ryan feels the sadness crushing in around him, regret seeping through his body like ice water in his veins. Then he hears the beep of Dylan’s hotel door unlocking as Dylan brushes his key card against the pad.

“Please stay.” Dylan pleads. Standing in the open doorway.

And Ryan does.

[mostly-ghostly-hotel]

[SPOILERS FOR THE QUARRY]

I’ve seen a lot of people upset that The Quarry’s ending was a little rushed and that none of the romantic character development panned out anywhere. Specifically that Ryan kind of rejects Dylan/Kaitlyn and that the Emma/Jacob plot is never resolved. And I have some thoughts.

1. Ryan is no less queer just because he chases after a woman. Is it WEIRD that Laura kind of flirts with Ryan and the game hints at this being the end game ship? Yes. It is. And it’s not good writing. But excluding that, Ryan going after a woman does not negate his previous feelings for Dylan. Or Kaitlyn. When it comes to AMAB people, so many people FROM THE LGBTQ+ want to automatically assign “gay” and leave no room for any other labels. Ryan can be interested in a woman and still be queer. He could be bisexual, pansexual, or anything else. It’s also not queer baiting. He doesn’t end up with anybody in the end, being single ≠ not gay. Stop that. (Before someone attacks me, I’m not saying “don’t ship Ryan/Dylan”. Read my actual post. I ship Ryan/Dylan).

2. The Jacob/Emma ordeal is bad writing. I’ll give you that. But it’s also realistic. Yes, we as the audience would have LOVED to see actual pay off in the end. Be it talking about their relationship or fighting or the revelation that Jacob sabotaged the car. That would’ve been great for US. But realistically, in this situation as a bunch of 18 year olds, that probably would never happen. They’re kids. They’re immature and young. And also their friends are being murdered. Jacob is separated from the group 99% of the time. He and Emma are both focused on surviving. Talking about feelings can wait.

3. Yeah I can’t defend the Abi/Nick thing. Is it realistic that Nick is never reunited with the group? Yes. Is it a shitty pay off and poor writing? Also yes. And unlike Jacob and Emma, it feels like the writers wanted you to get them together and then halfway through forgot about that whole subplot. Idk. I agree with the criticisms on this end.

4. It’s lowkey funny and kind of a power move that Supermassive Games set up these romance paths (Emma/Jacob, Abi/Nick, Dylan/Ryan/Kaitlyn) and then when the plot gets moving, separated them all. To the point that none of them see each other again after a specific point. Emma and Jacob never reunite, Abi and Nick never reunite. Dylan and Kaitlyn become a platonic power duo. And Ryan goes off on his own. Not only is that incredibly funny, but it’s also realistic. Romance isn’t the goal here. Surviving is. Is it poor writing? Depends, I’d argue yes and no. Does it leave the audience unsatisfied? Definitely. But I think we need to recognize why the writers intentionally split up almost every romantic pair (besides Laura and Max. But even that isn’t really a “good” ending).

It’s silly people are already arguing about this. (The irony is not lost that I say this and then make a whole post about it. I know, I’m part of the problem). Can’t we just enjoy the game?