#fidentity at uni

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[Image description: Twitter thread, question asked by Rami [te/ter] (@/tercera.technologist) reading:

What's it called when you're introverted but have taken on numerous leadership and outgoing roles your whole life?

Reply from Murderbot (@/soundslikerhetorical) reads:

Introvirtuous: I'm here to help. But I'd rather not be.

/end image description]

[f-identity]

Birdbrain: “how long are you gonna keep me in Gay Baby Jail for?”

Nad: “im trying to catch up on lost classes here, since I transferred from Advanced Finance to Business Leader”

Birdbrain: “okay, Dwight main, that does not answer my question”

Nad: “until tomorrow, maybe??? your energy has not been stable either”

Birdbrain: “hurry up, then. It smells like hair here”

[francolaratta]

Con questo bel discorso il cardinale Bergoglio convinse il Sacro Collegio. E venne eletto papa. "La Chiesa, quando è autoreferenziale, senza rendersene conto, crede di avere luce propria; smette di essere il 'mysterium lunae' e dà luogo a quel male così grave che è la mondanità spirituale (secondo De Lubac, il male peggiore in cui può incorrere la Chiesa): quel vivere per darsi gloria gli uni con gli altri. Semplificando, ci sono due immagini di Chiesa: la Chiesa evangelizzatrice che esce da se stessa; quella del 'Dei Verbum religiose audiens et fidenter proclamans' - La Chiesa che religiosamente ascolta e fedelmente proclama la Parola di Dio -, o la Chiesa mondana che vive in sé, da sé, per sé. Questo deve illuminare i possibili cambiamenti e riforme da realizzare per la salvezza delle anime".

Da Facebook

[f-identity]

“April 27th: Do you have trouble identifying physical feelings like hunger or being tired? Do you have trouble with identifying emotions?“

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Physical feelings - not much trouble for me. Although at times even when I know I needed to eat or shower or rest, my brain was like “go”, but personal mood (and maybe also anxiety) went “don’t want to”. So then that’s more toward autistic inertia or executive dysfunction.

Emotions, I did have more trouble identifying in my younger years. Because I easily cry as a response to stress, people around me were like “keep it to yourself where we can’t see you”. But I also cry when I’m too happy.

Difficulties identifying emotions were the reason I stuck myself into overly-cerebral “you’re like a robot” Shockwave logic mode. People not wanting to deal with my emotions forced me to compartmentalize those emotions, and try to logically narrate what my feelings might be at a certain time.

Nowadays, I allow myself to feel without constantly trying to logic everything out. Even when I’m not certain what I’m feeling. What I do know is that I seek happy-making stims, and most of the time, I know what stims can have those effects on me.

Birdbrain: “even I don’t know what Nad feels at a given moment. in general, anyway. but u kno what I feel? bored. So let’s get to work on that WIP, why don’t we”

[f-identity]

so I’ve been outside (goin to college) today and will be out tomorrow as well. It’s not so bad being able to focus on revision classes face-to-face instead of online

I keep my mask on and stay away from people as best I can. Damn kids still walk four-abreast in an indoor corridor or hallway

something odd happened after lunch though. I emerged from a Family Mart holding a cup of boba milk, and a stray cat MYAAAAUW’d at me

I told it I had to go back to class. But before I left, the cat rubbed against my leg

[f-identity]

“A candidate would need to earn that post by making a strong case against said eyes-and-ears.”

From an audit perspective, this situation makes Knockout the external auditor who is about to collude with Starscream (management who is doing an override).

Soundwave is the audit committee who monitors internal controls and is concerned about the state of... I guess Megatron is a shareholder and the Decepticons are the company.

Ask my classmates; I’m not the only person who got f’d up by Audit and Assurance.

[f-identity]

ok, ACCA exams Dec 2015 are over so it’s time to refill hte queue

[f-identity]

some personal updates

I have exams from 9th to 11th December

in the recent month, my internet has been swinging a lot between mediocre and downright shitty, and that didn’t leave a lot of room for browsing Tumblr, but today it’s a bit better

I’m here today to replenish my queue, which isn’t all that frequent anyway

so, um, enjoy

[f-identity]

Someone I know in college talked with me about ultradian rhythm, limited human attention span, and the need for breaks in between tasks. So eventually I went on Tumblr to see if it’s been talked about.

At first glance, when I saw these, I thought they were just spam, but now I wonder what the hell kind of Google Translate decisions went down that bent the words that way.

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*comes back browsing Tumblr after a week or so*

has this house been renovated agAIN?

[f-identity]

It really is a pleasant feeling to hear from someone that they believe in you or your abilities.

I haven’t been in the Taekwondo Club (or even practicing the art) long enough to be able to enter competitions, but yesterday a senior trained me to do a few moves beyond my Yellow Belt level anyway, and that felt rad. It meant a lot to me that he thinks I can catch up to the level of senior belts.

I am not a confident person and my lack thereof has been pointed out in many occasions. Well, it’s what I get for being raised in a culture that talks people down for not being humble about their achievements, at least in my generation. (I can say most of the nice peeps I currently meet in person are sort of next-gen.)

At present, I am nervous not only about the Progress Tests for my syllabus next week, but also the instructor saying that the next grading will take place probably next month, and boy I am far from ready.

As a note, sorry I haven’t been in touch >.< these are busy times and it worries me that most of my classmates don’t seem to be taking the current module seriously.

[f-identity]

I brought my flute with me to uni today for practice, and when I couldn’t find a spot that I feel right in, I passed by the ensemble room for kicks, and before I knew it, it’s becoming likely that I will join the ensemble.

Problem is, I can’t really read music notes. 99% of what I can do now is playing by ear, which to some is considered a good thing.

I feel like the word “feral” applies to me in the classical music-playing context.

[f-identity]

I’m done with the 3 papers and my first semester in this program. My results are... better than I would’ve expected a month ago.

I guess I can go on Tumblr for a bit - for the singular month of holiday that I’ll have from today anyway. But there’s really not much for me to do. idk.

crush update: I’m still a weak heterosexual sap who cannot maintain simple eye contact

[f-identity]

so, uh, an update before I go to bed.

Tired from taekwondo training which involved sparring tonight. And before that there was a final exam. I passed; everyone pretty much passed. I think I’m in the top 10, which is gr9 news.

I’m still invisible or camouflaged as far as my crush is concerned. And I hope to find a way to reduce the weight on my backpack because that’s the main reason I’m feeling tired tonight.

Also, on a body-positive note, I like my butt.

[f-identity]

I wasted a large part of this day having genuine concerns for the wellbeing of two of my classmates, neither of whom had the courtesy of responding to my messages.

If they’re gonna treat me like shit, they don’t deserve my attention.

Good thing there’s the peeps at Taekwondo Club that I can hang out with. They’re among the only close-proximity people that make me comfortable and welcome.

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Out of the 11 Management Accounting revision questions I did today, I got wrong on 5 and failed to answer 1.

I don’t have good feelings about this subject, and the revision has only been for one chapter.