#fian rants

[fiannalover]

"Straight people never got to be forbidden from marrying"

Bro. The racism. The segregation. The disability. The religious persecution. The class structure. The xenophobia. The

[emerxshiu]

Spoilers for The Midnight Soirée on ao3

link to the series: RosenRot Au (i hope the link works, i dunno how they work here on tumblr) by Analytical_Cochineal (ao3) here is their tumblr too

I finally decided to draw fanart for my favourite fanfic and kirby au (its actually my second attempt, fucked up the first one and left it unfinished) so here it is!

there isnt an official yin-yarn gijinka on the art references fic, and i was too lazy to create one for him so uh...yeah.

based on SaturdayLemon's comment on chapter 5.

i thought it'd be funny to have him in the shinji pose, it was a pain drawing this, i dunno what was more difficult, the chair or kirby himself in that pose

i kinda tried to like, merge my style a bit with the reference(? if thats understandable, dunno sorry im shit at explaining but i'll try my best, ok so, i wanted to keep the facial features, because my artstyle tends to be kinda simplified, especially in the face so it usually doesnt have much diversity in head form and stuff (im kinda trying to work on that), i think saying that i tried to adapt it to style would be more accurate? not sure, but if i try drawing this goober again i'll try ti adapt it better, because he kinda looks...off? to me

love'd bad end nights, i tend to ocasionally check ao3 to see if theres anything new in the tags i lurk on, gasped when i saw another entry on the RosenRot AU

the only way that i had to describe it after finishing chap.1 was

"its written by a human yet it is so beyond my human comprehension i literally didnt understand anything at all yet i understood everything at the same time and i love it" i dunno its weird to put what i felt into words. i think kirby has a terrible time is so accurate, so much so i'd say its an understatement and terrible doesnt make it justice to what the silly goes trough

originally this were gonna be two drawings, this the first, and another one of fluff dissapointed, but uh, i fucked up the second one and i couldnt salvage it. so he died i guess, i was thinking about end of chap3 and beggining of chap4, basically "were going to be wed my darling fian- what do you mean by what."

also my first attempt was chap5 fluff, but i fucked up and it was followed by one of the weirdest intereactions i've ever had (it was 2am and i hadent gotten a good sleep in some days and i was watching a video talking about those "kid channels" that are definitly not for kids and weird (censored ofc) stuff appeared and i literally said "do u see this shit fluff" y'know the spider-man meme? yeah that one, and there's more but im going off the rails)

dead attempt of the chair thing

i think imma cut it here, i have so much more to rant about (i rlly love this au) but i'll save it for another post of this

Jambuhbye :3 !

[daddykurz]

Kurzer rant owa oida, i hab grod mein 3. Job seit i maturiert hob und jeder - i sogs eich jeder - job hot mi bisher beschissn und/oder schlecht behondelt. I hob die Schnauze VOLL oida.

Gehts nur mir so oder is is orweitn nur mehr oasch? Schlecht bezahlt, chefs fian oasch...

[skygemspeaks]

G: I really don't like Fian, the more I read his parts the more meh I get about him. (Somtimes he talks about keeping Jarra under control and I just don't like that? idk exaclty why but it rubs me wrong). I also really wish we had more archeolgy trolling the millitary, just that is always the best. Raven and the laser cutter is a highlight moment for me. Archelogists are the best and I love them all so much. What if Jarra had dug Jaxon out on the fringe once?

God, that’s a mood. I tried so hard to like him. It took me reading the entire series three times before I could admit to myself that I just didn’t like him. And as soon as I was able to say that, I realized just how much I loved the Raven/Jarra ship.

There are a lot of things about the way he acts that piss me off, but I think the ones that annoy me the worst are:

When he finds out Jarra’s handicapped, the literal first words out of his mouth are “What will my family say when they find out I’m twoing with an ape?” and I find that really telling. Like, there are hundreds of Military that are about to die, Jarra literally just told him she’d had a mental breakdown because her parents had just died, and that’s what he’s worried about?

At the beginning of Earth Flight, the newzies break the news that Jarra’s going to join the Tell Clan, and Jarra mentions that Fian should tell his parents. And we find out that Fian’s been putting off telling his parents for weeks, as if he’s ashamed of the fact his girlfriend is Betan??? He’s really obvious all throughout Earth Star about how much he dislikes the fact that she’s Betan.

In Earth Flight, when Jarra shows up at Zulu base after nearly being killed by a maniac with planet first weapons, and she’s tired and her uniform is singed and she’s still starving because she hasn’t eaten in a day, and the first words out of Fian’s mouth are him berating her because “we’ve been worrying about you so much and you’ve been sightseeing?” and i’m like...bitch, can you not SEE the state she’s in???? maybe try asking her first what happened to make her late. she’s been looking forward to this presentation ceremony for weeks now, waiting for the moment she’d finally have a family. do you honestly think she’d voluntarily be late showing up to it????

Okay sorry, rant over. I just get really heated over this. But anyways yeah, the archeologists are amazing and I seriously love them. Any time Rono is there, you know things are gonna be entertaining lmao. I loved everyone’s conversations with each other during the Carrington Event in the first book. The jokes were hilarious, and it was interesting seeing Dig Site Command being so casual.

One of my favourite parts was when Dig Site Command asks if there are any other foundation courses stuck at the dig site aside from Achilles 1, and Rono calls in like “This is Cassandra 2″ and before he can even say anything Dig Site Command cuts him off like “You can’t fool me Rono, we know full well you aren’t a Foundation course.”

I love that all the archeologists are like a super tight-knit family! Off-world archeologists are, like, basically the only norms that are completely unfazed by the Handicapped and look at them as normal humans. I love how absolutely furious the Eden Dig Site teams were in Earth Star when that bigoted scientist insulted Jarra on live television. 

And as for Jarra digging out Jaxon on a dig site, I feel like it would be an interesting thought.

I know military training teams work on the fringe dig sites occasionally, but I feel like Jarra would have been too young to have been tag-leading for one of Jaxon’s teams since there’s such a big age difference between them, but I can see her maybe being there with her school history club and watching from the sidelines. They wouldn’t have seen each other’s faces because they’d both be in impact suits, and Jarra wouldn’t recognize Jaxon’s name because she doesn’t know she has a brother at that point. But just the thought of it happening is really compelling, the fact that they could have been so close, and still were unable to meet. 

Just imagine if Jaxon, after being dug out, is relatively uninjured and is looking around at the team that had saved him, and he sees a really tiny figure in an impact suit standing on the clearway, and he’s surprised. They can’t be more than 10 or 11. Then he looks down at the name that’s displayed on the front of the suit, and it says “Jarra” and he stops breathing. He knows that hospital Earth uses the same database as the Military does to name their wards, so logically it’s far more likely for this to be someone completely different, but this little Jarra is the same age as his baby sister, and it tears at the scab on his heart, because he’s had years now to regret his selfishness, and he wishes desperately that she really was his Jarra, so he could tell her just how loved she is, so he could tell her how many people miss her.

[brynwrites]

Ask Compilation.

Anon asked:

Is it you on your icon?

It’s actually Kleos, from The Warlord’s Contract! We do share the same hair style, freckles, and chronic anxiety. I still haven’t managed to take an author shot I like, so here’s a sketchy doll of me, except I have baby versions of Mako from LoK’s sharkfin-brows.

@arkhitekton-in-the-works asked:

How do you write blurbs? I just sort of struggle and die before resorting to one line blurbs.

I have a post about that! =)

Anon asked:

Where can I see your characters?

I have pages for each of my novels, with varying levels of character profiles on them. You can find them here:

The Warlord’s Contract

Pearl

We Are, We Are Monsters

(I have hundreds of other characters from years of role playing and stories I’ll never write or haven’t gotten to, but I try not to talk about them on my blogs.)

Anon said:

I’m binary and have a nonbinary character. Their relationship with their love interest is the best romance I have ever and will ever write. I’m happy about this.

That’s awesome! Thanks for sharing :)

Anon said:

Tbh I don't know what I want to ask. I don't know how to say it, I just feel like my plot's still everywhere and I know I can sit down and think about this logically but it's so frustrating that words aren't written as fast as we think them. I don't know where I'm going with this... I think this was a rant... Yes, probably. Ignore me ignore me, I'll be over it by tomorrow.

I feel you nonny. It’s tough, and maybe someday we’ll have better ways of transferring our thoughts onto paper and computer documents, but for now we just have to struggle along always feeling on step behind.

@my-words-are-light asked:

Would you happen to know any Indigenous Australian authors on tumblr/writeblrs?

Not that I’m aware of, though I don’t know the ethnicities of most of fam and friends here, so that doesn’t say much. I’m sure there are Indigenous Australian authors on tumblr though, and I would love to read some good Indigenous Australian representation!

@madseas asked:

Hi Bryn! Ive been struggling with naming characters. I want to find creative yet sensible character names for the kind of story i have going. My story follows twins named Fia and Fian, the former being a girl the latter being a boy. I know siblings in real life that have Saiya(the girl) and Saiyan(the boy) so i thought itd be cool to spin a story with names that can do that. Is it too confusing to do?

I don’t think it’s confusing at all! It makes sense because they’re twins, and the ‘n’ at the end of Fian sets it apart enough from Fia that I doubt anyone would have trouble remembering who is who. (I wouldn’t do that more than once in the same book though, unless you’re using it for an ironic or cultural purpose.)

Since my method of naming characters is to pull up a giant list and pick whatever my heart clings to, I will direct you to this lovely post by @a-sundeen for a further dive into naming practices!

Anon asked:

Hey i dont know if you can help me but, how can i introduce the reader to a fantasy world, that is exactly like ours but with magic playing an important role in it, without having a main character that does not know anything about it? (PS. i love your blog)

Have you taken a look at this post about conveying worldbuilding without exposition? I’d be more than happy to answer any further questions too :)

[beau-ootifulsoup]

So.. I’ve kinda eaten like a little twat all day!mixture of my pyramid is coming + just found out the government is now taking 30 fuxking percent of each pay and I’m stressed af and eating my feelings!!!! Which I shouldn’t do! I’m too poor for that shit! Like.. I literally don’t have enough money to pay for bills or exist! Pls send me all your monies!!!!! But.. I’m still within my caloric goals and have 300 something calories left to eat after the gym!! Also.. random.. I sent this to my fian-k with a whole rant about pooping. You’re welcome for this unnecessary explanation of a photo! #weightlossjourney #weightloss #lgbt #homo #stretchedphiltrum

[alwaysyourgirl]

Message to my sg fam - 06/09/18

Ayun, so feeling ko graduate na din tayo... I mean ako. Graduate na ako sa SG. I’ve been serving DLSL Student Government for 3 years; 1st year palang volunteer na ako. Nakita ko na agad yung kakayanan ko maging isang lider. Sa tulong nila Kuya Jacob, Kuya Renz, Ate Pnay, Ate Fian at iba pa. Naging quick thinker ako, kung ano pwede Plan B at Plan C dapat handa. Natuto akong mag trabaho sa LS CUP, sa mga takbuhan ng papel at kung ano pa. kaya ginawa kong inspirasyon ang SG para maging parte din ako neto. Ayaw kasi ng magulang ko kasi hirap na nga ako sa acads, dadagdagan ko pa workload ko. Pero nag sikap ako, ganun pala talaga kapag gusto mo eh. Kaya mong gawan ng paraan lahat. Dumating ang 2nd year naging Program Coordinator ako ng Psych. Iba pala talaga pag andun ka na. Planning, mga papers, mga activities na minsan hindi inaattendan ng madla o napipilitan pa. naranasan kong mag head sa mga major activities na talagang i-tetest ang kakayanan mo as a person and as a leader. Thankful for Kuya Lucky, Ate Freda and the rest of CEAS Council na talagang tumulong sakin at nag gabay sakin.

Akala ko enough na yung learnings na natutunan ko sa term namin nila kuya lucky...

Heto tayo, CEAS Council (2017-2018). Vice Governor for I.A pero parang mga apat o lima na papers palang nagagawa ko. Oo, madami akong lapses pero gusto ko lang malaman niyo na napakasaya ko kasi kayo yung huling nakasama ko sa SG. Napakasaya ko kasi napakaresponsable niyong lahat.

Mond, dati kasabay lang kita sa Brave pero eto ka!!!! Hahahaha Proud ako sayo. Maraming salamat sa lahat. Ikaw lagi ang kasagutan ko sa mga rants and problems sa office. Thank you for everything.

Ate Mikee, maraming maraming salamat sa lahat ate. Ikaw ang isa sa mga taong tumulong sakin kung sino ako ngayon at yung andyan palagi para sakin. Maraming salamat.

Ate Elaine, maraming salamat sa mga advices and guidance niyo po samin. Maraming maraming salamat sa lahat. Ikaw po ang nagpatatag ng loob ko sa mga bagay bagay lalo na sa acads!

Dale, tayo yung laging nadadale ni Sir Ato. Hahahaha gusto ko lang malaman mo na proud ako sayo. Kasi kinaya mo maging finance kahit alam ko ang hirap hirap!! Salamat!!

Kent, miss na kita. Ikaw yung laging kalokohan ko sa office. Kent, proud din ako sayo. Sa kung paano ka gumawa ng desisyon mo sa life at kung paano mo kami inalagaan lahat. Yooown! Hahaha

Anma, isa ka sa mga taong napakasipag at nakikita ko ang sarili ko sayo. Wag na wag kang mapapagod na mag lingkod at maging ikaw. Kung mapagod man, pwede magpahinga at bangon ulit. Andito lang ako para tulungan ka sa susunod na council. Volunteer ako ha! Proud of you!

Lester, isa ka din sa mga ka-joke time ko sa office at laging bumabati sakin. Hahaha maraming salamat sa lahat lahat! From Brave to officer, you make me proud!

Assi, magpa laman ka ng konti assi! Super payat mo na bebe. Hahaha proud din ako sayo bebe! Tanda ko pa non nagtatanong ka lang sakin kung ano ginagawa ng isang Prog Coor. At kinaya mo.

Ate Mela, ikaw din po ang isa sa mga taong nabati sakin palagi at nagbibigay ng hug. Nangangamusta atbp. Maraming maraming salamat po sa lahat!

Cj, proud ako sayo. Dati aaminin ko, ayaw ko talaga i-let go ang Prog coor kasi takot din ako sa mas mataas na posisyon. Pero binigyang kahulugan mo yung position na yan at hindi ako nag kamali. Sobrang tapang at sipag mo. Hindi ko akalain na sa Prog Coor magsisimula ang lahat. Thank you sa lahat!

Sorry talaga if dadaan lang ako later. Sa mga hindi pa po nakakaalam, nag apply po ako sa CSO at natanggap po ako. Maraming maraming salamat sa lahat mga bebe ko!!! I’m proud of you all! ❤️ picture tayo later okay? And I’m always here for you guys sa mga magtutuloy (at sa mga hindi) love you all! Cheers! We made it. You made it!

Ang cheesy pero hindi ko kaya sabihin lahat yan sa personal kasi shy type ako. Ayiiii

PP

BRAVE Volunteer

PROGRAM COORDINATOR (2016-2017)

VICE GOV FOR INTERNAL AFFAIRS (2017-2018)

Signing off.

[proudtobeawifihunter]

A DAY TO REMEMBER : Bersamalah Selalu #DAY2&3 (4/5)

Malam yang berkabut, gelak tawa dari kejauhan, dan bintang yang tersebar luas di langit malam itu. Menjadi suasana yang sangat sayang untuk dilewatkan. Peutri, gima, sukron memutuskan untuk tidur cepat karena sudah melakukan tugas mereka terlebih dulu, memasak sarapan untuk dibawa ketika pagi nanti. Aku,eza,galih,isnu,fian masih terbangun. Ranting dan kayu yang kami kumpulkan sebelum gelap tadi, kami gunakan untuk menghidupkan api unggun. Sebenarnya di beberapa tempat pendakian kita tidak boleh menyalakan api unggun menggunakan sampah tapi apa daya karena sulit api untuk menyala kami menggunakan cara itu.

Bercerita tentang hidup dan keinginan masa depan. kami bercerita banyak satu sama lain.Toleransi, menghargai, dan respect adalah hikmah yang aku dapatkan malam itu. Tentang keinginan kami untuk kembali mendaki bersama lagi semoga terwujud dikemudian hari. Galih, isnu, dan fian beranjak kembali ke tenda karena kedinginan dan api unggun yang mulai mengecil. Eza dan aku tetap duduk dekat api unggun. obrolan kami saat itu adalah rencana untuk ke rinjani tahun depan dengan syarat kami harus lulus. Tidak sempat terwujud, yah u know. aku tidak sempat menyelesaikan s1 tepat waktu. eza duluan. sad.

Sekitar jam 02.00 dini hari kami semua akhirnya tidur. Dan kembali terbangun jam 05.00 karena alarm yang menyala dimana-mana dan peutri yang membangunkan kami semua. Jujur sebenarnya aku tidak bisa tidur karena excited dengan pagi ini. Aku membantu peutri untuk memanaskan sarapan kami pagi. Sesaat semuanya terbangun, kami semua bergegas ke bukit yang berada di depan tempat kami mendirikan tenda. Angin kencang mengiringi pagi itu. 100% kalau tidak pakai baju berlapis pasti sudah kedinginan setengah mati. Golden sunrise yang kami tunggu muncul walaupun hanya beberapa saat karena langsung ditutupi awan. Tidak masalah karena moment sesungguhnya ketika kami bersama.

Menjelang pagi kami melakukan foto-foto untuk mengabadikan moment kebersamaan di gunung prau saat itu. Hingga siang tiba sekitar jam setengah sebelas kami berkumpul kembali ke tenda untuk makan yang sudah disiapkan peutri karena dia tidak ikut berfoto dan lebih memilih menyiapkan makan untuk kami ber tujuh. Siang saat itu, dingin dan masih tertutupi kabut. tapi kami bersyukur tidak hujan. Selesai makan kami bersiap kembali turun ke pos awal. membereskan tenda dan pulang ke rumah mbah. 

Hal yang sangat diinginkan waktu itu adalah masa-masa seperti ini janganlah cepat berlalu. Aku rindu ketinggian. Bersama kawan. dan bercerita tentang kehidupan. semoga lain waktu kita bisa bersama menjajalkan kaki di puncak-puncak lainnya.

[fiannalover]

Not everything is sexually charged. Who are you, Sigmund Freud?

[fiannalover]

I hesitate to criticize Sun and Moon because I sure don't have a moral high ground when it comes to Character Conversation Density and I haven't attempted that second/USUM play yet to really feel it yet, but everytime I see someone mention how much of a slog it is to get through in repeat playthroughs, I am forced to remember that time where you and Lillie hop off a boat and she's like "ok I'm going to the library byeeee" the cutscene ends and you take 3 steps before you run into Oak. And get another cutscene. Saying the exact. Same. Thing. Why weren't those one cutscene? What behind the scenes drama forbid Lillie from meeting Oak? Why did they put two scenes. One after another. Telling you. To go. To. The. Fucking. Library. Instead of making one singular scene. Why. Why. Why?

[fiannalover]

The thing about Athrun and Kira is. They are, as defined by the narrative, other characters, authorial intent, the fucking first ending song, everything, the most important person in each other's life and the one they're most willing to listen to and be understood by. This is a position in which they hold each other equal to their love interests and, in Kira's case, his biological sister. Even the gag comedy shorts bother to make clear Athrun is as important to Kira as Lacus.

You cannot ignore this.

You can, of course, read this in many ways, as a bisexual polycule (it's Really Easy to do so), repressed gay (but why do Lacus and Cagalli like that) and of course, Platonic. But this reading is not insignificant, in or out of universe. Amato/heteronormativity is Very Much a relevant Cosmic Era thing, with constant references to the PLANTs' declining birth rates and 1/4th of Athrun's Destiny Arc being about how he, as a man, has no support group while Cagalli is busy with Everything, and how people keep reading his actions of Caring For Other People as romantic advances. If you read them as friends, you are supporting platonic bonds being as strong as romantic ones, which last I checked remains a radical statement that we were all agreeing with.

SEED is about avoiding extremism, questioning your role in society and what you want to truly do. The entirety of SEED hinges on how much Athrun and Kira care for each other and that they want to be on the same side again. No matter which way you look at it, they say Something, and it is intentional. Recognize that and figure out what they say for you.

[fiannalover]

I must re-kill Sigmund Freud.

[fiannalover]

🔥❗️

Ok you know what. You know Boyfriends? The fucking Webtoon comic? If you don't I'm sorry but like it's a Webtoon about four dudes who get in a polyamorous relationship and have diabetical level fluff (and soft horny) with each other.

For undefined reasons this became a discourse hotbed and I dodged most of it while I read the thing years ago but like two weeks back I. Saw someone say. They wanted one of them to get on a car accident or something just so one of the dudes would be forced to communicate an emotion besides fluff to the other ones and I'm admittedly stuck on it. Like bro this is a webtoon about the fantasy of four dudes kissing each other in an eternally stable polyamorous relationship. At NO POINT the series tries to present itself as deeper than that. What are you TALKING ABOUT. You all just don't like the series' premise and you're treating it as shit because it is sticking to itself. Some people LIKE mindless fluff! It was good BECAUSE it was mindless fluff!

Anyway, had to get that out, thanks

[fiannalover]

Memes I made for violence

[fiannalover]

I hate becoming my worst nemesis (person who complains about FGO Manservice) but. I'm leaving on record that everytime I look at Summer Barth's skin I am making a displeased scrunch.

[fiannalover]

Mana Khemia works in a way that, the more you play, the more you realize Vayne and Roxis' interactions have the best writing in the game. Roxis' dislike of Vayne is treated as a problem situation, so both of them, like, develop from it, and their Character Episodes show the most characterization from both sides of the relationship. And then every single moment they have afterwards is some mirror image two halves bullshit. Vayne's alchemy works from intuition while Roxis' is rigorously studied. Vayne has a black cat, Roxis gets a light wolf. Roxis' medicine is better, but Vayne's is easier to take. Both of them have a Lot of life skills like cooking, sewing because both had to raise themselves. Etc etc. They have everything and they keep. Getting. More. It's insane. It's unreal.

So of course. When writing the final chapter in the game, the writers asked themselves. What is the worst possible thing. Someone could say to the heavily suicidal Vayne. Right. Now.

And then they made Roxis say it.

During their paired ending.