#ffs why was it such a STRUGGLE
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*crawling out of february covered in dirt and soaked in blood*
i finally finished my event fics <3
#JFC MAN.#don't. don't let me do 2 events at the same time ever again. what the hell man.#really shocked at how short my mixtape fic is actually considered how long the other versions of it were#BUT i think overall im really happy with how it turned out so like. length be damned i think its GOOD#and a finished 2k story is better than an unfinished 20k story so <3#ffs why was it such a STRUGGLE#there is... maybe something i could add to it...... but idk that i will#shh ac
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hey so do you guys remember how zuko was deemed worthy and blessed with the true nature of fire by the guardians of light themselves and became 100x the firebender he was after, with a newfound understanding and oneness with his element
kind of like how katara handled the moon and ocean spirit with her own hands and was blessed with unmatched waterbending power and oneness with her element and also spirit water but get this, also the healing ability to bring someone back from certain death
y'all remember that
#zutara#the parallels never end#i 100% hc that katara was blessed singularly by the spirits and that is why she went from struggling to THRIVING in her mastery#able to bloodbend on her first try ffs#katara and zuko have a degree if spirituality that a@ng ironically does not have. he is religious#but they are spiritual#and take bending seriously as a sacred gift not meant to be raken lightly#unlike someone
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people out there pretending the watcher dudes are struggling wittle poow artists having to live by capitalist rules :((((( to justify their dumb ass move... y'all are cute, i guess.
#watcher#ryan bergara#shane madej#naivete is cute#'youtube is shit!!!' yes it is#that's why they had a patreon#with 11k SUBS#that's why they had sponsorships#that's why they had merch#ALL OF IT WORKING HELLA FINE#they are NOT struggling ffs#they're literally like 'oh ANYBODY can afford 6 dollars per month hahahah' *laughs in bourgeoisie* like HUH????#then you have their ghost files tour that IS SOLD OUT almost everywhere#going in several countries#I MEAN????#y'all need to stop comparing them to the struggling artist who needs to put food on the table
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I should be sleeping but my OCs are running around in my brain at 3:00am like a cat performing zoomies.
#guys stop being entertaining I need to rest ffs#Why couldn’t these ideas sprout when the sun has already risen?!#goldencomet💫#writing woes#writerslife#writer struggles#writers on tumblr#writeblr#writeblr community#writing community#writers on ao3#ao3 community#writers
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i did it u_u
#actually rather pleased with my Bronze Age abstract#Advisor is going to demolish the Other one but that's okay because I at least did something so I got the practice and I can sleep now.#It's kind of funny I was writing the Bronze Age one and I can already feel the struggle of compressing a dissertation's worth#of information into 15 minutes. Like ffs I'm supposed to speedrun oil as an extraction reductant and also talk about Egypt's alum trade?#But this is My Fault. I have done this to myself.#Okay but I'm already bubbling with excitement to talk about Leather Tanning again. Nobody was here when I went on this massive#5 hour long rabbit hole of leather tanning research because... I think I was trying to find out if you could use mushroom collagen#to replicate leather? (The answer is yes.) But it took me down this road of Leather tanning because I was trying to understand the#ion exchange that makes it supple and TLDR there's this massive exploitative industry in the Middle East and Southeast Asia that uses#Cobalt salts because the Co 3+ sits really nicely in the collagen site and you can quickly dye and destroy most of the organics from the#animal itself; but because of that you've also destroyed the texture of the leather. I forget why Al 3+ isn't used. I think it's because it#weathers over time and the leather becomes stiff and hard again. Same with Fe3+. ANYWAY. Try and find thick leather when you#do buy leather because leather IS great and I will die(dye) on this hill. But it's the exploitative textile industry that causes problems.#Honestly I've forgotten 90% of the chemistry but it's so fucking cool and a really interesting peek into an organic affected by inorganics#rather than affecting an inorganic mineral with organics. UGH I love chemistry so much. It's so fucking cool.#ptxt#christ this might be my worst tag essay lol
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I hate when i’m interested in a character/fandom and I go on tumblr and they have 0 black reader fanfics.
gonna start writing them myself atp.
#tlou#tlou2#mcu#daredevil#frank castle#matt murdock#mcu loki#black reader#criminal minds#black writers#why is finding black reader ffs such a struggle#pluto 00 randoms!
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i feel that FF is too fucking anxious to even consider sex, with anyone. like... 'oh my god someone would have to see me NAKED for that? what if i make a weird noise or i finish too quickly and they make fun of me? what if i do it wrong and they hate me?!' haha i love this poor sweet fool so much. -@stabbyfoxandrew
FF isn't even going to KNOW he's DATING someone until like a year in and by then he's like "WHAT DO I DO???"
Depending on any awakening feelings the options are:
He's brave about it and says the truth: might result in either the world's most AWKWARD conversation, a slap to the face, and maybe a reputation as a Lady Killer that he is unaware of.
He's a coward about it and tries to keep going until Andrew pulls the full high school with Aaron model out of his back pocket and gets the other person to give up. Andrew thinks that person was just pushing their feelings onto FF (which they were because FF at no point was like: "yeah we're dating") and maybe saw one too many instances of that person trying to initiate something FF was not comfy with so he MAY have gone a little overboard
He actually has feelings for them and prepares to NEVER mention it EVER again but basically has a freak out because "FUCK WHAT'S OUR ANNIVERSARY?"
When / if sex comes up in his relationships I think his performance anxiety would absolutely play a part in it and he goes to the most pro-sex person he knows for advice.
It's just that....that person is Nicky Hemmick.
His plight will never end.
#Fluent Freshman AU#Maybe eventually he talks to Andrew about it or Andrew hears about his struggle from Nicky#And Andrew decides that his friend needs some real advice#About how sex can be the most meaningful thing in the entire world can be sacred and important and life affirming#Or it can just be sex#Sex only means what you want it to mean and if ANYONE tries to push you to feel a certain way about it#Then FF better just text Andrew his location#Why? No reason.#Ask
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So i was watching Castlevania today
And this line literally SCREAMED "i'm a Blight"
I hope it's not just me-
#castlevania#it's not a spoiler ig#i'll take this as inspiration for my fanfictions#which i was struggling to write today but still managed to reach my daily goals ffs#why is writing so hard#guys we chose the best hobby didn't we#owl house#ao3 writer#writing#writers on tumblr
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And once again I’ve ruined one of my only close relationships 👍🏻
#fml#actually mentally ill#mental#mentally drained#ruined my life#once again#why do i even try#bpd#well fuck#kmn pls#Kmn#abandonment issues#abandoned#friendship over#ffs#i’ll miss you#i’ll miss him#i’ll miss them#mentally fucked#struggling mentally#mentally ill#im not mentally stable
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also as well, after reading the last bit of my chapter 16 to my partner we both decided i should try and make the metaphor a bit less niche. but i don't want to use one that's so obvious that cass gets it right away, so to the drawing board ig
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stumbled upon a ship from a pretty old fandom and ive reached the point of looking into fanfiction.net because they dont have enough fanfics in ao3
#icl i already forgot how to navigate fanfiction.net but im desperate#im in desperate need for anything i can take i need to read more of them#but i admit im picky when it comes to fanfics which is a struggle#ffs why arent there more senru fanfics in the world#also most of the ones in ao3 are in japanese cries
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My mother watched a few episodes of a dating show about autistic people and decided that she is now qualified enough to tell me that I am, infact, NOT autistic because I am "not weird enough" and "too high functioning". Keep in mind this is like 30 minutes after I had an autistic breakdown due to her and my father not understanding ( or even trying to understand) what I'm trying to say to them ( for like the 5th time in the past few days) WHICH THEY PROBABLY DONT UNDERSTAND BECAUSE, WHO WOULD HAVE GUESSED?! MY BRAIN WORKS DIFFERENTLY FOR THEIRS
#i am so fucking frustrated with her#ffs#last week we got along pretty well but the past few days have been a STRUGGLE#like oh yeah this is why i find her insufferable#she really is doing the best job she can at reminding me#if she downplays my autism or tells me that im not autistic enough to be autistic one more time im going to start killing#rant post
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i'm slowly getting there with Qismat, which I'm thankful for since I usually ditch new male ocs (unless your name is Katsuro, Teodore, Seraphin, or Glyndwr).
He's a Dalmascan bunny with dual citizenship between Dalmasca and the Forest, so yeah he is a Wood Warder (Djt-Marouc) due to unique circumstances. He's got the Zero Drakengard eye thing going on because of the elementals lashing out at him since he wasn't born in the forest yet still jumps between it and wherever he lives because it sure isn't Rabanastre.
The outfit is still bugging me tho. It's something about the pants that I can't quite get. Unfortunately most mods are either too modern or inappropriate for the climate or just frankly racist. Loose and baggy are the obvious angle here, but I'm still trying to figure out how that's going to look.
Also gotta figure out how he interacts with everybody and honestly I'm kinda leaning towards him being in Bozja as well, even though he's just Some Guy - maybe Sharlayan? Idfk. All I know is I'm starting to get very attached to him
#original#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#ff#final fantasy#crystallinescreens ❅#Qismat#oc#Qismat Djt-Marouc#no genuinely i tend to ditch most of my male ocs#v'ahnie is on the chopping block. already got rid of both of my xaelic manra.#idk why i just struggle w them#katsuro is design no2 because no1 became one of my retainers#seraphin has been redesigned once too#teo's just been teo#and same with glyn#but im glad im finally getting a sense of where to take Qismat#honestly im probably struggling since so much of this story revolves around sapphic shit#especially with surkie as the lead so#yeah who knows maybe thats why#too fkn woman brained#or woman pilled#idk just#im hella fkn gay
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not to talk about f/emdom on main again but why is so much of it... like that
i want women topping men in like not a humiliation way
#like i dont want the gimmick to be wow a man bottoming to a woman what a loser#which is how a lot of it comes off#i just struggle to find the m/f dynamics i enjoy lmao so that is why i write it myself#maybe dom isnt the right word but like i have no other vocab for what im searching for#however!! i can find this in ff pairings which is nice!#tbd dkfldl
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I’m going to throw this work laptop out of the window one day.
#self#FFS ALL I DID WAS JOIN A TEAMS MEETING AND CONNECT YOU TO AN EXTERNAL MONITOR#WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU STRUGGLING WITH THAT
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If I absolutely have to feel like shit could it at least be cause I let it happen again instead of cause I feel like I didn't do good enough
#beatin myself over the head w/ a stick like YOU. DO. NOT. NEED. HIS. APPROVAL.#he's just tryin to dig in any insecurity he can get his goddamn hands on it doesn't mean shit#like yea i know i'm ~ outta practice ~ cause that literally just means i'm not performin at a professional fucking level#you couldn't tell the difference if you stopped tRYIN TO SHOVE THINGS DOWN MY FUCKING THROAT FFS#i shoulda just walked out but it. doesn't even register til much later cause of all the praise n cause i'm probably dissociating like hell#like. are you fucking negging me#yes. yes he is#or some other adjacent tactic that rly shouldn't work on me anymore but here we are#it'd be funny if it wasn't so damn pathetic#which is smth i say a lot lately#i have no idea if i should like......try to give myself some credit for the few boundaries i did manage to hold#cause i mean i did......refuse to sleep anywhere near him w/o surveillance#especially not in the damn car cause i could end up literally anywhere#my mistake was compromisin on the sex stuff cause when i say no it becomes a negotiation n i always end up agreeing to smth#which woulda been fine if he didn't then go on to be a dick about that something#n also if it wasn't pretty fucked up to take it as a negotiation startin point#if i say i don't wanna have sex you know damn well i mean the entire thing no matter how many loopholes your definition has#hard limits aren't the fucking startin point for a compromise they're the bottom line#but he knows all that. he's not stupid he just doesn't care.#meanwhile i'm a fucking idiot for lettin him get away w/ it#i was doin so well. i mean sure i was losin my fucking mind but i wasn't even struggling not to go to him#why can't he just fucking leave me alone if i'm not even a good fuck anymore#spdrvent
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