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daughter-of-lethe · 29 days ago
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Feyre Archeron would support all the human artists here.
She would hate AI generated media.
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mycadences · 9 months ago
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Edit: HOFAS spoilers ahead! Tread carefully!
Azriel has had two bonus chapters so far -- and what did they share in common?
HOFAS bonus chapter: "And with each mile onward, she could hear Azriel humming softly to himself. The rolling, wild melody of "Stone Mother" flowed off his lips, and she could have sworn even the shadows danced at the sound."
ACOSF bonus chapter: "Azriel entered the warmth of the stairwell, and as he descended, he could have sworn a faint, beautiful singing followed him. Could have sworn his shadows sang in answer."
Still don't see it? Then let me ask you:
Who is Gwyn?
"Across the hushed, cavernous space, it was easy to hear Gwyn’s soft singing as she flitted from table to table..."
"Gwyn turned from the desk where Nesta had found the priestess singing softly to herself..."
"Gwyn’s voice soared like a bird through the cavern as she started the third song with a solo..."
Yes, she is a priestess-Valkyrie who sings.
And now, who is Azriel?
"Do you sing?"
He blinked. It wasn't every day that people took him by surprise, but... "Why do you ask?"
"They call you shadowsinger. Is it because you sing?"
"I am a shadowsinger -- it's not a title that someone just made up."
She shrugged again, irreverently. Az narrowed his eyes, studying her. "Do you, though?" she pressed. "Sing?"
Azriel couldn't help his soft chuckle. "Yes."
He's a shadowsinger... who also sings (a bit of a "duh" moment but pardon me, it's meant to be dramatic lol).
With how intense the ship wars are, and based on SJM's interview lives, I'll say she has a strong inkling that readers would be analyzing HOFAS -- in particular the bonus chapter centering on Azriel -- for clues on the next ACOTAR couple
Notice that she chose, yes she CHOSE, to highlight Azriel singing when we all know how music is Gwyn/Gwynriel's thing.
Gwyn is literally associated with music/singing the way Nesta is with dancing, Feyre is with painting and Elain is with flowers.
And I don't see any flowers in this bonus chapter.
What I do see, however, is Azriel sharing the same hobby as Gwyn, something that was purposely emphasized in this scene, and with SJM having said that she looks at compatibility for her couples... Well, I'm feeling pretty hopeful. More than hopeful, actually.
(Also kindly remember that Gwyn is a Carynthian (one of the only two females in history), which makes her Azriel's equal.)
Another thing of interest is that both Az's bonus chapters referenced his mate, but that's a juicy tidbit for another day.
And that's what you missed on Glee! ;)
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acourtofquestions · 4 months ago
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High lord & lady of the Night Court
credits: jessdraw.s (dress inspired by teutamatoshi)
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starsreminisce · 1 year ago
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Can you imagine Feyre deciding to go through her backlog of things she wanted to paint since Nyx keeps her and Rhys up at night so they alternate sleep schedules, ensuring one person gets enough rest. So her spare time, she tries to remember all the things she wanted to paint, now that she is better skilled.
“Human fool,” he hissed. But his glamour had been ripped away. His auburn hair burned like hot metal, and his russet eye smoldered like a bottomless forge. That was what I would capture next. “I’m going to paint you,” I said, and giggled—actually giggled—as the words popped out. “Cauldron boil and fry me,” he muttered, and I laughed again.
"When was this?" Elain asked as she peered over her shoulder one evening, her eyes filled with curiosity as she examined the painting.
"Back when I was still human," Feyre explained, a nostalgic glint in her eyes. "Tamlin said he glamoured everyone in the Spring Court, but Lucien remained the same until one night when I was drunk on faerie wine and saw him without a glamour."
Elain's gaze remained fixed on the painting, her brow furrowing. "It doesn't look like him," she observed.
Feyre chuckled softly, the memory of that night coming back to her. "Maybe you should ask him about it next time," she suggested, a mischievous twinkle in her eye.
“He still dares to glamour in front on me?” Rhys seethed from behind them.
From the fury rippling from Cassian, the cold rage seeping from Azriel … I didn’t think so. Lucien, to his credit, didn’t back away a step. From Rhys, or me, or the Illyrians. The Clever Fox Stares Down Winged Death. The painting flashed into my mind.
"That's not Lucien," Elain stated with a furrowed brow. "Lucien would never pick a fight like that."
Feyre began to open her mouth to respond, but she was silenced by Rhys's amused chuckle. "He still does," he remarked with a knowing grin. "He's gotten bolder too."
Feyre leaned in, poking Rhys playfully. "You need to stop baiting him."
Rhys raised his hands in a placating gesture. "But it's so fun. Not fair you saw him without a glamour."
Elain continued staring at the painting, absorbing the revelations about Lucien's personality. From the way they were talking, it sounded like he did this quite frequently. She had never seen that side of him before and hadn't even considered it existed.
"When was this?" Elain inquired, her curiosity piqued.
Rhys and Feyre exchanged a meaningful glance before Feyre provided the answer. "The day Lucien and I returned from Spring Court."
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stargirlfeyre · 1 year ago
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I remember when I said it’s weird to only hold Feyre’s hobbies to “realistic standards” and someone’s response was “well she’s the main character so of course people are going to be more critical of her” which is strange because I thought Nesta was the main character of this entire series? Didn’t y’all say that?
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divinemare · 1 year ago
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so you mean to tell me that elain and nesta can be good at gardening and dancing but feyre can’t be good at painting…k…
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hunnyy-bunnyyy · 5 months ago
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The dissonance between era inspiration in ACoTaR is one of the more brushed over flaws in the book series. Looking at the Inner Circle's fashion alone, we jump between "literal scraps of fabric" (Under the Mountain, Court of Nightmares) to "orientalist painter's imaginings of the Ottoman Harem" (clothing described during Feyre's first few visits to the Night Court) to "modern 'corset' dress" (Feyre's Starfall dress, majority of Mor's clothing, most of the clothes drawn in fan art) to "modern -- almost sci-fi style -- skin-tight leather armor" to "sweater and leggings combo".
Then, between courts, we have Helion wearing Spirit Halloween's take on the ancient Grecian tunic; Feyre's Spring Court wedding dress looking like an 1830s fashion plate; and Dawn heavily implied to have traditional East Asain clothing (e.g. kimono, hanfu, hanbok).
On top of all of that, some of the Dawn Court's small cities ". . . specialized in tinkering and clockwork and clever things. . ." which -- combined with Lucien's metal eye and Nuan's mechanical hand -- implies a sort of post-industrial revolution time period. However, a decent chunk of the fandom says that ACoTaR is medieval; which, yeah, it's medieval themed in the first book -- sans the "dress" Rhysand forces Feyre to wear UTM.
The wild inconsistencies in ACoTaR's inspiration leads, not to a rich and diverse world, but a world that seems ramshackle and haphazard -- like it's creator simply threw together a board on Pinterest and called it a day. This is a major part of why the world building is so abysmal, it relies on convenience to the plot and whatever pleases the aesthetic whims of the author. Cultures deemed "pretty" or "badass" are thrown together, irregardless of how far apart they actually are. This is not only disrespectful to the narrative, but to the readers and the cultures used as inspiration.
All of this to say: Sarah J Maas is a bad author, not just because of the way she handles serious topics like power dynamics and abuse, but also because she cannot put together a world that is even the slightest bit cohesive.
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ladydeath-vanserra · 5 months ago
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tbh thinking about feyre being a painter and then Rhys using paint to defile her body UtM. Imagine the thing that brings you the most joy used to make you horrified and miserable only for SJM to completely ignore it and then use that same paint to have Rhys paint on feyre the first time they have sex and Feyre NOT have a weird relationship with her craft as a painter
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colorlesschristmastree · 5 months ago
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One of the things I really love about Feyre’s character is that we aren’t just told she’s multifaceted with different sides to her. We are continuously and actively being shown these things. We see her as a painter, a mother, in the court of nightmares flaunting her sexuality, a huntress, a warrior, a high lady, a painter.
I really appreciate how page time is dedicated to all the different forms Feyre takes along her journey. Just makes her seem a lot more real. It gets tiring simply being told a character has a lot of different sides to them and then either not being shown or having something be haphazardly thrown together in a little blurb on the page just to remind readers of the characters humanity.
I just think Feyre is the absolute best.
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highladyofterrasen7 · 8 months ago
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If feyre is a bad painter
Then aelin is a bad pianist
Bryce is a bad dancer
Why would sjm give something to a character that makes her so happy, just for her to be trash at it? Meanwhile no one is saying this about the other two
“Oh rowan cried at aelins piano playing”
Yes and cassian cried at the painting of him and rhys and azriel on ramiel
Fucking 👏 stop 👏
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nikethestatue · 14 days ago
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All Hallow's Eve
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An Elriel Halloween fanfic
Summary: Rhysand, the High Lord of Night Court enlists his sister-in-law Elain Archeron to plan a city-wide celebration of All Hallow's Eve. As she is still new to being Fae, Rhysand suggests a helper--Azriel, who would guide her through the process and show her the ropes.
Over the next few weeks, they plan the celebration together, they visit the Historian, and they end up together at Azriel's secret mansion, finally free to confront their feelings for each other.
TW: Explicit Sexual Content
Words: 13,229
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“I’m gonna show you where it’s dark, but have no fear.” 
Day One
“Elain,” Rhysand called out her name from his office. 
She paused, surprised, because he rarely included her in any discussions and she was called to his office…well, never.
She pushed the door and entered. The High Lord sat behind his large desk, the portrait of her sister behind him. Watching.
Elain had to admit it–Feyre’s turned out to be a gifted painter after all. What had started as a childish hobby and endless doodles, morphed into something introspective and emotional. What Feyre perhaps lacked in technique, she compensated with the sheer visceral impact of her paintings.
“Good morning,” Rhysand said and gestured for her to sit down. She took a place across from him and allowed herself to be enchanted by his lavender eyes, which brimmed with starlight–a sight she was still getting used to.
“How are you, Elain?” Rhysand asked, his voice smooth and vaguely concerned.
“I am well, Rhys. Thank you for asking,” Elain answered politely. 
Internally, she felt both trepidation, and excitement. Because she was never asked to come to Rhys’s office. She was relegated to the gardens, to the nursery, the kitchen. Never called into the inner sanctum. 
Yes, she was part of this Court, and whenever she was called upon to serve, she did it eagerly and without hesitation. But she was typically used as a pretty doll at parties and balls or meetings with emissaries. Not unlike what her mother used to do when Elain was young–a pretty doll to dress up and parade around, introducing her to the guests. Elain didn’t mind it: she was well-versed in the matters of hosting and entertainment, and even the uncouth and ill-mannered Fae straightened in her presence and didn’t insist on behaving like beasts. 
“How are you?” she asked in turn, her stomach tightening with anticipation.
What if today was the day? The day Rhysand, the High Lord of Night Court, would actually ask for her assistance in some task. Would use her powers and skills of observation for a specific purpose. Would she be finally used for something important and meaningful?
“Oh, I am well,” he leaned back in his chair. “The babe kept us up for a few hours, but then he fell asleep so I can't complain.”
Elain smiled politely and shifted in her seat, the impatient movement catching Rhys’s all-seeing glance.
He folded his elegant, aristocratic hands on his stomach and then asked,
“Do you know what All Hallow’s Eve is?”
Elain furrowed her brow, confused by the question.
“Pardon?”
“Have you heard of it?” Rhys repeated.
She shook her head. 
“No. What is it?”
“You didn’t celebrate your dead in the Human Lands?” he confirmed.
Elain bit her lip and shook her head again. No. The dead were burned in the river and then remembered by their families, until all generations died out, and with them, all the memories as well. The wealthy, they had different customs of course, as did those who lived on the Continent. Elain’s own grandparents and mother were buried properly, and had elaborate gravestones in the family cemetery. But the cemetery was gone along with Elain’s childhood estate and the only time the family members were remembered during the years of poverty was when the sisters lit a candle on the anniversary of their passing. 
Only Nesta refused to light for their grandmother. 
“No,” she answered curtly.
She didn’t want to remember. Any of it.
He nodded calmly, unperturbed as usual. 
“It is a night when we remember our dead,” he explained. “It is not a night of sorrow, but of celebration. We light bonfires, we leave sweets outside our doors, we exchange foods to please the ancestors, and we drink in their honour. What Calanmai is to Spring Court, All Hallow’s Eve is to Night Court.”
Elain thought about it and then asked cautiously, “and you and Feyre then…have to,” she swallowed audibly and felt her cheeks heat, “have to,”
He smiled mischievously, watching her discomfort.
“Have to what, Elain?” Rhysand prompted. 
She sighed. 
“You know exactly what I am referring to,” she told him, her tone dry. “Will you be fornicating in public then?” Like they do at Calanmai?”
She’d never seen it, but she heard stories about orgies out in the open and sexual acts performed by the High Lords. 
He chuckled and assured her, “don't worry, it won't be something we’ll subject anyone to.”
“Thank the gods,” she breathed with relief.
Rhysand’s eyes sparkled with mirth.
“Is it something you’d like to experience then?” he queried with amusement. “I could arrange a trip to Spring for you, come spring,”
“That won’t be necessary,” she stopped him quickly.
“Alright then.”
“So, what about this Eve?” she questioned, “do you wish me to bake something? Cook something?” her voice was small and quiet. She wished that he’d asked her for something meaningful.
Rhysand scrubbed his chin and then resumed his relaxed position.
“So, the custom is to host a gathering,” he said at last. “Obviously, due to various reasons we’ve been unable to have a proper celebration for half a century. This year though, I feel we are in a good position to resume the festivities properly.” 
She leaned forward in her chair and watched him intently, trying to understand what he wanted from her.
But she didn't need to wait long, because Rhysand announced,
“I’d like for you to take charge of the event.”
“Me?” she cried out, shocked.
“Yes, I think you’d be the perfect candidate. Just understand that this is not a small family celebration–this is a large gathering, on par with Starfall. Dignitaries will be coming. We are looking to return to normal, and this is one of the ways we’ll do that.
“I feel that you’d be excellent for this task,”
“Wait,” she interrupted him quickly, “but I don't know anything about what’s required! How am I expected to plan this…event, when I never saw it or know,”
“Oh don't worry,” he stopped her smoothly. “Of course I wouldn't expect you to do all of this on your own and by yourself. The twins will help, surely.”
“But,”
“And I feel that another person should be available as well,”
“Who?”
Elain shuddered internally, hoping that he wouldn't suggest Nesta. It’s not that she didn’t want to work with Nesta, but planning parties with Nesta…well, calling the experience a ‘nightmare’ would be kind. Nesta was opinionated, mean and impatient. Precisely the type of person one wouldn’t want to plan a large gathering with. 
“Azriel.”
Rhysand’s tone was even, and he sounded almost bored.
Elain’s eyes, though, popped open at the ridiculous suggestion.
Azriel?
Azriel who barely talked to her, who said that their almost-kiss was ‘a mistake’, who avoided her at best, and ignored her fairly regularly…THAT Azriel? Azriel who hardly struck her as a party maker either.
Gods, now she wished for Nesta!
She also wondered if Rhysand’s been hitting that fairy wine stash that he had in his possession, because she’s never heard anything more preposterous.
“Pardon?” she said for the second time in 15 minutes.
“Azriel,” Rhys repeated blandly. “It’s his turn,”
“Turn for what, exactly?”
“We used to take turns every year, organising the festivities. How do you think Azriel is so well-versed in the usage of proper cutlery, dancing, music and good etiquette? He isn’t a savage. Now, Cassian, on the other hand,”
Elain snorted a laugh.
“In any event,” Rhys shrugged. “You ought to consult with Azriel and make plans with him. That would take the pressure off of both of you…”
It would?
Elain couldn’t think of anything more pressing than working with Azriel. 
“Are you certain that there is no one else who could help me?” she implored.
“Unfortunately, not this year,” Rhys explained somberly. “Nesta doesn’t have experience, Mor is back in Vallahan, Amren…well, she is tougher than Azriel, though I might ask her,”
“No!” Elain exclaimed. “No. I…I will try it with him. “
“Good. I’d rather not ask Cassian, because then I’ll end up handling most of it. It’s settled then?”
She exhaled heavily.
No, it wasn’t ‘settled’, but what was she going to say?
“Yes, I will do it.”
“Thank you, Elain.” 
Rhys smiled at her, but he sounded genuine in his praise and gratitude.
“You should begin promptly,” he suggested. “There isn’t much time left, honestly. It sort of escaped my mind this year. Well with all the things that happened,” his voice trailed and Elain understood. After Feyre’s pregnancy and the horror of her birth, parties weren’t Rhysand’s priority.
She stood up and smoothed her skirt.
Rhys gave her a small nod of encouragement and before she left the office, said, 
“Azriel is here right now. In his rooms. You might as well start the discussions as soon as possible.”
Oh.
Elain didn’t know.
Both Cassian and Azriel had rooms in the River House, however, they were in a different wing and they could come and go as they pleased. 
Feyre had explained that the wards in the townhouse were very strong and admittance was stringent. Rhysand and Mor were the only two people who could come and go as they pleased, and the other three needed to be admitted. Well, with everyone now either coupled or living here, permissions were a little more lax, but the wards were even stronger than before. 
After leaving Rhys’s office, Elain stopped in the middle of the hallway, and contemplated her next move.
Would it be absolutely uncouth to go up to Azriel’s rooms and knock on his door? 
Should she send him an official invitation to join her? 
That seemed a bit over-the-top even for her. 
Perhaps ask Nuala or Cerridwen to explain the situation to him? 
Have Feyre summon him?
Request that Nesta invite her over, whilst Azriel was at the House of Wind and ‘accidentally’ bump into him?
Elain tugged on her braid aggressively, but then stomped her foot in frustration.
He was just a man. Nothing more.
A man who seemed to have been attracted to her once. Maybe not. Maybe she read the signs wrong. But regardless, he wasn’t better than her. Wasn’t intimidating in the least. She was a Cauldron Made Seer. He was a spy and a shadowsinger. She was pretty sure that she outranked him anyway.
Resolutely, she headed towards the other wing of the house, her hands balled at her sides and her fingernails digging into her palms. She reckoned that she resembled Nesta right now. It didn’t matter. She was going to do it.
When she came to Azriel’s door, she heard faint music coming from inside. 
He had obtained a Symphonia for himself, because Nesta refused to let him ‘borrow’ hers at some point, since he was taking it all the time and listening to it himself. What’s more, he also added melodies and dances that he liked to it, and deleted some of Nesta’s–or at least she couldn’t find them–so they argued and that prompted him to buy one for himself. 
Elain took a deep breath and knocked.
“Come in,” she heard his voice almost immediately, and then she opened the door.
Azriel had three rooms–his request–which consisted of an office, a bedroom, and a sitting room, and Elain’s never been here, though when the house was built, she suggested some of the colours and decorations for his rooms. She wasn’t even sure why she did that. Why it mattered to her. 
Stepping into his office, the first thing that happened was Elain was blinded. She gasped, surprised to be enveloped in complete darkness. 
“For the love of the Cauldron, get away from her!” she heard Azriel’s deep, gravelly voice somewhere in the darkness. 
Shadows…These were his shadows. The gathering of shadows, which were caressing her skin now:  they touched her hair, her neck, her cheeks, her hands. 
“I said back off,” she heard Azriel’s command, and at last, the wall of shadows thinned and they pulled back as if being sucked into a vortex. 
Elain squinted and heard Azriel say “forgive them. They got excited. They haven't seen you in a while.”
And whose fault is that? Elain wanted to ask, but she didn’t.
As they typically did around her, the shadows then disappeared completely, leaving her with Azriel.
“I thought they didn’t like me,” she said quietly.
With a sigh, he told her, “no, they like you. All of me likes you.” 
At that, Elain’s eyes finally found him and she stared.
He cleared his throat.
He sat behind a desk, instantly reminding her of Rhysand. Unlike most other times, Azriel was dressed casually, and Elain dug her feet into the soft rug, trying not to squeeze her thighs together. 
His tunic was simple, but clearly bespoke–everything that he wore was tailored specifically to him–of a deep cornflower blue, and unbuttoned on his chest. His bronze skin worked beautifully with the colour of his shirt and Elain couldn’t help but admire how good he looked. She also couldn’t help herself as she peeked at his sculpted chest and his thick, veiny forearms, which he folded on the desk in front of him.
His huge black wings loomed over him like two mountains, but they didn’t seem as rigid as they usually appeared. It was almost as if Azriel was…relaxed.
But it wasn’t his elegant tunic, or his golden skin, or his muscles, or his thick black hair that attracted Elain’s attention the most–though all of those things certainly kept her occupied–but it was a pair of spectacles that was perched on his nose that took her aback.
Spectacles existed in the Human Lands, though they were expensive and rare. Only the very wealthy could afford them, and that if they lived long enough to need them. Most people just got by the best they could.
Azriel wearing a pair of black-rimmed spectacles wasn’t what Elain expected to see this morning.
“I am old, you know,” he said suddenly.
“You aren’t though!” she argued immediately, even though she wasn’t sure what he was referring to.
“I am. In your years, I am probably 33 years old. Maybe 35.”
“It isn’t old!”
“You are not yet 25,” he reminded her. “You are so young!”
“Not yet?! Young?” Elain cried out. Was he insane? She was a spinster! Even when she got engaged to Graysen there were many who whispered that she was getting on in her years and that being almost 22 was almost too late to be getting married. 
He raised his brow at her, giving her one of those ‘Azriel looks’ which he tended to shoot on occasion at people around him. It was a look of incredulity and disdain. She wasn’t the receiving end of the look before, and now that she got the eyebrow lift, well…it was scary and lonely on the other side of that look.
“You wear spectacles,” she stated the obvious.
“It would seem that I do.”
“Why?”
“Because I read a lot and need to protect my vision,” he explained. “These help me–they are slightly magical.”
Slightly magical.
Only in Prythian could something like that be uttered and actually make sense. 
“Well, they look good on you,” she blurted out, and then mentally smacked herself for her big mouth. She shouldn't even be noticing how he looks!
Azriel smiled. 
And then, they just stared at each other. 
His office was very spacious and with south-facing windows. When the house was being designed and constructed, it was Rhysand who told the artisans and the architects that Azriel’s rooms ought to have as much sun exposure as possible. Elain recalled the moment, because she was there–Feyre and Rhys were there, Amren too, and no one questioned the request. 
“Not that I am not pleased to see you in my rooms,” Azirel said at last, leaning back in his chair and taking the same pose as his brother did earlier, by lacing his long, strong fingers on his flat stomach. Elain could see the smooth ridges of his abdominal muscles even from here. She shouldn’t have been looking. But he was borderline indecent, sitting like that, folding his hands on his stomach. Who did that? It should’ve been illegal!
“However,” he continued, observing her with a smirk, “I am curious about the reason for your visit? It’s most unusual, is it not?”
“It’s not like I want to be here!” she told him quickly.
He smiled and then removed his spectacles and placed them on the desk.
“And yet, here you are.”
“I am supposed to plan a party for All Hallow’s Eve and you are supposed to help me.”
Azriel looked both amused and a bit perplexed. 
“Why did you choose me, specifically?” he queried.
She huffed and shrugged, “I didn’t. I didn’t ask for you specifically.”
He didn’t say anything for a moment, only stared at her and then mouthed soundlessly And yet here you are. 
“It’s because Rhys told me!” she argued defensively.
“Told you what?”
“To ask you because it’s your turn to plan the party anyway,” she even rolled her eyes at him, which made him grin.
“I am supposed to plan a party?” he repeated.
She sighed with exasperation and exclaimed, “must I repeat everything? Are you not supposed to plan the celebration? Why are you acting like this is news to you?!”
“Sorry, sorry,” he said calmly, “it must have skipped my mind. It’s been a while since I’ve done it,”
“That’s what Rhys said as well,”
“I bet he did,” Azriel nodded. 
“He said that you are supposed to help me and teach me,” she clarified.
A faint smile bloomed on Azriel’s lips and he murmured, 
“I can certainly teach you a thing or two.”
Elain squinted at him, trying to determine the meaning behind his words, but opted not to comment. Instead, she asked, “well, will you?”
“What?”
“Help me?”
“I will,” he agreed at last. “Just need to refresh my memory.”
She nodded primly.
“When do you want to start?” she asked.
“How about tomorrow morning? I can finish up everything else and then throw myself head first into party planning,” he rubbed his hands together with fake excitement.
Elain threw him an unamused look, but nodded and said, “I shall see you tomorrow at 8 in the morning.”
“Oh, eight?” he repeated.
“Yes. Eight.”
Once Elain left his office with a swoosh of her green dress, Azriel tugged on the mind link that connected him to Rhys rather aggressively.
“Ow!” the High Lord complained.
Azriel seethed, “You are such an asshole. The biggest asshole I’ve ever met.”
Rhys laughed on the other side.
“Surely not the biggest?” he argued.
“The biggest.”
“I take severe umbrage to that because you know Jurian, Beron and you knew my father. I am an honourable High Lord, that’s all.”
“Yeah, you are,” Azriel’s voice trailed. “What the hel are you doing? What is this party nonsense?”
Rhys thought for a moment and then said lazily, “I feel like you are floundering. You need a change of scenery and pace. So this is an order.”
Day Two
She arrived exactly at eight in the morning.
Carrying binders. 
Large journals with blank pages, which, Azriel supposed, she planned on filling out with information.
Azriel was in the kitchen, talking to Nuala, a cup of milky coffee in one hand and a pistachio pastry shoved in his mouth, crumbs all over his front, when Elain strode decisively inside.
She was clutching all her binders and journals to her chest and Azriel noticed that they were also different colours.
“Morning!” Elain said cheerfully, and Nuala smiled, noting, “You’ve got some pep in your walk today!”
“It’s a big assignment!” Elain declared importantly.
“You know,” Azriel attempted to say something contrary but she shot him a look of such fierceness that he shut his mouth and continued chewing.
She slapped each binder on the counter, stating loudly:
Guests.
Food.
Decorations.
Venues.
Other things.
Azriel chortled and muttered other things under his breath.
“That’s why you are here, isn’t it?” she asked, “to tell me about things I don’t know.”
“Sure, I can tell you what to do,” he offered easily.
Nuala hid a smile.
Elain squeezed the bridge of her nose and moaned, “this is going to be difficult, isn’t it?”
“Not if you don’t make it so.”
Pursing her lips, Nuala stated, “he is very difficult to work with,” and with that, and before Azriel could argue, she disappeared through the wall. 
“How’s this fair?” he yelled after her.
Only a soft laugh came in response. 
“Alright, so,” Elain opened the first journal, “I was thinking…”
“You should get some breakfast,” he interrupted her.
“I don't want it, I am not hungry!” she protested, but Azriel poured her a cup of coffee and plucked a pastry from a stand and handed it to her.
“Eat,” he ordered in a tone that didn’t allow for arguments.
Elain pouted, but accepted both the coffee and the pastry, noticing that the coffee was exactly how she liked it and the pastry was made with apples and almonds–her favourite.
But that, she was sure, was just a coincidence. He wouldn’t have known how she liked her coffee.
“So, how many guests do you think we should invite?” Elain asked, as she sipped her coffee.
Azriel looked at her with amusement, until she glanced at him and then reached out and suddenly wiped some of the buttery crumbs from his chest, carefully picked at the ones that stuck to his black jacket.
He stood still and silent, while she cleaned him up, clearly unaware of what she was doing. Her brow was furrowed while she concentrated and smacked his chest up and down. He liked it. He tried to contain his smile, but it wasn’t easy. Outside of long-forgotten brushes of fingers, this is the most Elain’s ever touched him.
Abruptly, she realised what she was doing and pulled away.
“I think you missed a spot,” he pointed out innocently.
“Ugh, why didn’t you tell me to stop?!” she exclaimed, her cheeks pink and her tone flustered.
“Why? I was enjoying it,” he said simply.
She bristled and hissed, “you don’t even like me!”
His face lost its softness and the expression hardened.
“I never said that,” he snapped.
“Yes, you did,” she insisted.
“No. Don’t put words in my mouth.”
She waved her hand dismissively,
“I don’t want to talk about it. We need to plan the party and then part our ways.”
“Sounds good to me,” he agreed, his face unreadable.
She caressed the blank pages of her journal and asked,
“How many guests usually attend?”
At that Azriel shrugged irritably and said, “I don’t fucking know…”
Her eyes popped at his coarse language.
“Haven’t you done this before?” she insisted, looking annoyed. 
“Been a while. Anyway, don’t you think you are jumping ahead of yourself?”
“How’s that?”
“Shouldn’t you find out more about the holiday? Before you start inviting guests.”
He looked at her like a disappointed teacher and she breathed a small ‘oh’.
“Come on then, we have a trip to make,” he extended his hand to her.
She looked confused, but took his hand without argument. Unlike all the others, she always took his hand without argument.
She grabbed her pastry and hurried after him, forgetting her pristinely new journals behind.
“Where are we going?” she asked, running after him as he took massive strides with his long legs.
“Just follow me!”
“But where are you taking me?” she insisted.
He gave a derisive snort and threw, “to be ravished!”
She wasn't even bothered by the callous remark and said, “I thought we are a mistake and you weren't interested.”
“Guess things change,” he said nonchalantly.
“Well, they didn’t change for me!” she screeched.
“Don’t care.”
She tried to stop, but he pulled her behind him and she was forced to trot obediently so she wouldn’t fall.
They were outside on the lawn in no time and the next moment, Azriel was in front of her, looming over her, his expression stern and dark. He released her hand from his, only to move to her shoulders, squeezing them, but not tightly. He peered into her brown eyes and said,
“I don’t want you to bring that night up anymore.”
It wasn’t a request. It was an order.
She glared at him and reminded her firmly,
“It was a pivotal night in our…association. I cannot not bring it up. It…” she swallowed. “You hurt my feelings,”
“And I apologise for that. But if we are to work together on this celebration, we can’t dwell on the past. One day, I might explain myself further. Is that understood?”
“I am not one of your soldiers to bark at,” she glowered at him.
He smiled at her and then gently tucked a rogue curl behind her ear.
“No, you're not. You are my lovely girl.”
“I am not yours,” she breathed, blinking at him.
He sighed heavily and was forced to agree. “So it would seem.”
“I am nobody’s girl,” she concluded wistfully.
Azriel wasn’t sure what to make of her words. On one hand, he was pleased that she didn’t seem to be Lucien’s girl, and that she didn’t go further into her relationship with her mate than before. On the other hand, she didn’t consider herself being his girl either. And that didn’t please him at all, though he couldn't blame her.
“Where are we going?” she asked again.
“To see the Historian,” he said.
“Why can’t anyone in Prythian have a normal name? Like Sebastian? Or Pascal?” she moaned. “Or Roan? Why is it always the Death God. The Bone Carver. The shadowsinger. The Weaver. The King. The High Lord.”
“Well, out of all of those, shadowsinger sounds the most reasonable and attractive,” he reasoned. “Also, aren’t you the Seer? Aren’t you Made?”
She scoffed with disgust and asked instead, “how are we getting there?”
“Winnowing. As much as I’d like to spend days flying there with you in my arms, I don’t think that’s the wisest course of action.”
With that, he opened his arms and winked at her, “Come, step on in, Seer.”
Wrinkling her nose, she warned him, “you better stop calling me that!”
He chuckled, and then gave her an Illyrian salute. 
“Is it dangerous?” she asked cautiously, once he pulled her into his embrace and wrapped his arms around her.
“Isn’t everything around here?” he asked innocently. 
Azriel smelled good–his scent was sharp, with undertones of cedar, and something cool and clean, like water. His body was like a slab of granite–massive and firm and so clad in muscle there wasn’t one soft spot on him. 
Winnowing with him was different from winnowing with Rhys or with Feyre or Mor. His was a pure, but comforting darkness. As they tumbled through space and time, his arms tightened around her, keeping her securely anchored to him. All she could see was the faint gleam of his blue siphons.
They landed in a few minutes, on the outskirts of a massive forest. In the distance, Elain spotted a village of some sort, but closer to them stood a stone hut with a thatched roof. Azriel released her from his embrace, but immediately tucked her behind him, protecting her with his body.
Good thing he did, because just as they stepped towards a retaining wall that surrounded the hut, a rock was hurled in their direction. Then another. And another.
Elain crouched on the ground, protecting her head, while Azriel just about fell on top of her, covering her with his body.
“They are throwing rocks at us!” she screamed, stating the obvious.
His wing shot out and not a moment too soon, because a rock bounced off of it instead of hitting Elain in the head.
“No? You think?!” he grunted, and then a rock landed almost on his shoulder, but using some incredible move, he pressed on his siphons and suddenly, the rock bounced off an invisible shield. 
“By the Mother,” Elain whimpered, “why are they throwing rocks at us?”
“Probably don't know if we are friend or foe,” he proposed.
“That’s no way to greet strangers,” she fumed.
He laughed softly, his hand cradling her head to his shoulder. 
“It is for the Fae.”
Then, once a few more rocks bounced off the shield, Azriel bellowed,
“Old man, if you don’t stop tossing boulders at us, I will rip your arm off and will beat you to death with it.”
The barrage paused.
“Shadowsinger?”
“The very same!” Azriel confirmed.
“Well then why didn’t you say so?! Come in!” the tone was happy and welcoming.
Azriel finally straightened out and Elain squeaked, “is it safe?”
“I won’t let anything happen to you, flower. Come on,” he grabbed her hand and hauled her up.
“Flower?” she repeated, straightening her dress.
“My flower,” was all he said.
A male of an undetermined age greeted them. He was on the older side for a Fae, but as far as Elain knew, it could’ve been 5,000 years old. It was impossible to tell. 
They crossed the lawn in front of the house, Azriel holding her hand firmly and for once, she was glad that he was holding her.
“Azriel shadowsinger!” The man greeted them with a smile. “It’s been a while,”
“I’ve been busy,” Azriel said.
“I can see that. Brought a woman, finally!”
Elain blushed at the man’s words and Azriel cleared his throat.
“She isn’t my woman,” he corrected the man. “She is Elain, Cauldron Made Seer, and the High Lady’s sister.”
“Oh. Well, if you would’ve warned me you were coming, I would’ve made tea!”
He ushered them inside the house–it was neat, if small. Late autumn chill dissipated the moment they entered and were directed to sit down by the hearth. 
“What brings you here, shadowsinger?” the man asked, as he fussed around a simple wooden stand, preparing tea for them.
“Lady Elain would like to learn more about All Hallow’s Eve. Its history and customs. We are to host a party and she needs the background. And I…I just need your insight.”
“Ahhh, of course,” the man stated and then brought them two cups of tea. Elain accepted hers, and noticed that there was a slice of lemon in it–just like she liked it. When she took a sip, the tea was strong, sweet and tart. 
“This is excellent,” she complimented the man. Upon closer inspection, he had a forgettable face but luminous blue eyes. Strange and deep and penetrating. When he observed her for a moment, she had a sense that he was somehow looking inside her soul. She wasn’t sure why she needed it, but she reached out for Azriel’s hand and he threaded their fingers together without question. He didn't seem surprised that she needed a bit of his strength and solidity.
“So, Lady Elain, what would you like to know?” the man inquired, taking a seat across from them.
“Azriel said that you are a historian?” she asked.
“Indeed I am. I’ve been alive for a long time and I’ve seen much, but I’ve also forgotten just as much,” he smiled. “But I can offer what I know about Samhain.”
“Samhain?” she repeated, confused.
“The name of the festival is Sam-hain actually. It means summer’s end in the Old Language. The old Fae celebrated it at the end of autumn and the beginning of winter.
“We have a few festivals that all of Prythian celebrities: Solstice, with which you are familiar, I am sure,”
“I am,” she nodded and Azriel added,
“She gives the best gifts!”
It was a pointless comment as far as Elain was concerned but it made her feel nice nevertheless.
“Something of healing and protection, I reckon,” the Historian said.
“How do you know?” Elain exclaimed, feeling her heart beat faster at the man’s sudden words.
“Just an inkling,” he stated vaguely, and continued, “the other holiday is Calanmai, known as Fire Night in some Courts. Hallow’s Eve is the other. These are celebrated across all of Prythian, unlike, for example, Starfall, which is only observed at Night Court, where the stars are visible.”
“What does it celebrate?” Elain questioned.
“The dead,” the man said plainly. “The Fae of old believed that the spirits of the dead returned to their homes on Samhain, and that the souls of those who died during the year would travel to the afterlife.”
“Is it true?” Elain asked, a little scared.
“Perhaps,” the Historian shrugged indifferently. “But you’ve been inside the Cauldron. Inside the Void–surely you wouldn’t be frightened of a little ghost.”
Elain paled and Azriel shot the man a threatening glare.
“Enough,” he muttered.
The Historian’s blue eyes darted back and forth between the two of them, before landing on their linked hands. 
“We celebrate Samhain with bonfires, dancing, divination, and wearing costumes. The bonfires are lit to guide the souls to the afterlife and to frighten away evil spirits. The old Fae also wore costumes, often animal heads and skins, to avoid being recognised by the evil spirits. This continues to this day.”
Elain’s head swirled towards Azriel and she scoffed incredulously,
“You wear a costume?!”
He smiled.
“I do.”
“What kind of costume?!” she exclaimed.
The Historian also smiled. 
“Death,” Azriel said bluntly.
She popped her lips,
“Of course you do.”
“You asked,” he shrugged.
The other man somehow forgotten, she chewed on her lower lip, pondering out loud,
“What kind of costume should I wear?”
“Anything that you wear looks good,” Azriel assured her, his large hazel eyes skimming her from her face down to her waist.
She glanced shyly at him and murmured, “no, I don’t.”
“Oh, I assure you–you do. What do you want to be?”
“I don’t know,” she worried. “What’s a good costume?! Oh gods, I bet Nesta wouldn’t even want to wear one!” she gasped.
“We’ll convince her,” Azriel said confidently. In response, Elain gave him a look. 
The Historian watched them in silence, his eyes skipping from one to the other. Whatever he saw, he kept his opinion to himself. Instead, he told Elain,
“I would recommend dressing as something that would confuse the spirits. I sense that you had experienced a loss recently?”
“I…how, how would you know?” she gawked at him, squeezing Azriel’s fingers with hers.
“I have a gift. A gift of Sight,”
“Like me?” she gasped.
“No. Nothing as advanced or as intricate as your gift. I see…threads. How they bind people and things together. Because everything is connected. Every single decision that you make will guide your path. Look at your life right now–who would’ve thought that you’d be sitting here, in my home, holding the shadowsinger’s hand in yours?”
Elain looked down at Azriel’s thumb that was stroking the fleshy part of skin of her hand.
“Who did you lose?” the man continued. “Your sisters live…So I suspect a parent?”
“My father.”
“Ahhh, condolences then, Lady Elain. This will be your opportunity to offer him a safe passage to the Land of Milk and Honey.”
“What sorts of threads do you see?” Elain asked, ignoring the rest of what he said. “What kinds of connections?”
“All kinds. Every kind.”
“And what do you see between us?” she asked boldly. 
Azriel looked at her with surprise, but didn’t say anything. 
The Historian cocked his head to the side and then told them.
“You are mated.”
At that, Elain jolted, looking at him in bewilderment, only to hear him add, “To another.”
Her expression fell and she said dryly, “yes. I am aware.”
After a pause, they continued their talk, the man proving to be a wealth of information, especially when it came to food customs. 
-
Days Three and Four
Anemone.
The Historian told them that anemone, the flower of the dead, was the plant that was commonly used for decorations. Especially the red ones with black centres, and the white ones. It was especially important for those who had lost close family members recently. And who didn’t, after the war?
The problem was–where in the world would Elain find anemone this time of year? Or in Prythian?
It grew in the Human Lands, and Elain was familiar with it–a pretty field-like flower which needed a lot of sun and bloomed in the summer.
She contacted all the flower shops and green nurseries in Velaris, but none carried the mysterious flower.
Besides this flower dilemma, things were going well with the preparations.
She and Azriel spent a lot of time together, which was something she needed to get used to. But he was gentle and helpful, and she recalled the carefree times from before when they could just talk and stay together in a comfortable silence. It was similar to how they were together right now. 
There was something that Azriel was preoccupied with ever since they had returned from the Historian. Elain wasn’t exactly sure what it was, but she overheard the man say to Azriel just as they were leaving…well, she wasn’t sure what she’d heard. A couple of words. But ‘your right’ and ‘destiny’ were among them. Since then, Azriel seemed deep in thought whenever they had a moment to themselves. Elain didn’t pry though. His secrets were his own.
Meanwhile, together, they devised a guest list–Hgh Lords and Ladies, merchants, dignitaries, High Fae, Lesser Fae, Illyrians. It was a long list, but Elain wanted to be inclusive of everyone. When Azriel began protesting the inclusion of Illyrians, she told him that they had suffered the greatest losses in the war and therefore were definitely going to be part of the celebration. He pouted. Pouted. Told her that they wouldn’t attend anyway. She smiled and said ‘we’ll see’. 
-
“Marshmallow eggs,” Azriel announced, interrupting, as he entered the kitchen.
Elain, Cerridwen and Nuala turned at the sound of his voice.
“Excuse me?” Elain said, wondering what he was talking about. 
“Oh,” Cerridwen rolled her eyes, “here we go,”
“Yeah!” Azriel nodded aggressively. “Yes! I want marshmallow eggs!”
“We’ll get you marshmallow eggs,” Nuala promised kindly.
“That’s not all,” he insisted and then pointed to the journal in front of them, which was filled with rows of food ideas, some underlined, others scratched out. 
“This is what I want,” he handed them a list. He made a list.
The following was Azriel shadowsinger’s list of food requirements:
Apple cake with almonds
Pistachio and almond rolls
Bilberry tarts
Chocolate sponge with buttercream
Caramel carrot slices
Coffee sponge with walnut cream
Cheesecake with pears
Curd tarts
Lardy cakes
Jellies
Prune pastries with poppyseeds
Jam Rolls
Saffron bread
Topfen cake
Cake Florent
And no, Elain did not know what half of these were.
“Are there enough cakes and pastries?” she confirmed, glaring at him.
“Yes, but I forgot to add the marshmallow eggs,” he exclaimed, and then scribbled this addition on the page.
“Will your heart be able to handle it?” Elain pondered, unable to stop smiling. He was ridiculous.
“A better question is if Cassian would be able to handle it,” Cerridwen contradicted. 
“Oh, add honey cake with hazelnuts,” Azriel snapped his fingers, ignoring them and apparently running through all the possible sweets he could come up with in his head.
“Poor Cass,” Nuala shook her head, “the sheer amount of sweets will send him into convulsions!”
“Don’t care! He doesn’t have to eat any of them,” Azriel barked roughly.
Elain propped her cheek and asked, looking between the three of them, “what is this all about, exactly?”
“The shadowsinger likes his sweets,” Nuala said flatly.
“He is obsessed,” Cerridwen added.
“I am not obsessed!” Azriel argued.
“He is. He really is.”
“He will eat them all,” Nuala assured.
“He will,” Cerridwen echoed.
“He is obsessed with sweets. If you want him to bow to your will, just hand him a berry tart and he is all yours.”
Elain laughed at that.
“I’ll keep that in mind!” she promised.
Azriel threw her an unreadable look and said, “you wouldn't need to bribe me with anything.”
With that, he left the kitchen.
The twins exchanged smirks and glances and Elain warned them, “don’t start.”
“We didn’t say anything.”
-
Day Nine
Five days until the celebration and Elain Archeron was annoyed.
She was annoyed because Rhysand gave her so little time to complete all of this and come out on the other side with an incredible celebration. 
The twins were an amazing help, as usual, and she enlisted cooks and chefs from Velaris’s best restaurants and pastry shops, but it still didn’t seem like enough. Azriel’s enormous list of sweets kept growing, and Elain had to resort to hiding the final list because otherwise, if he had his way,  they’d end up with a hundred desserts.
Pumpkins were delivered from nearby farms and were placed strategically all around Velaris, and the entire city glowed with orange lights, which came courtesy of Rhysand’s magic. Beautiful embroidered Illyrian tablecloths and napkins were sent to the River House, and despite Azriel’s protestations, it seemed like numerous Illyrians would be attending the festivities. Cassian was pleased and astonished by this particular achievement–he couldn’t believe that Elain somehow convinced dozens of Illyrian commanders to come to Velaris for a …party. 
Azriel was in charge of negotiating with proprietors of various stalls and shops, and since he always came back with perfect results and signed agreements, Elain figured that the poor sellers at the Palace of Bone and Salt were so terrified of having to deal with him, they agreed to anything. Azriel was oblivious to his own menacing presence, and sweetly believed that he was just an excellent negotiator. Elain didn’t have the heart to dash his hopes. He was rather proud of himself and she preferred to keep it that way.
Despite some of the setbacks and miscommunications and the tight deadline, things were progressing nicely.
Except for the Cauldron blasted anemone!
It wasn’t available anywhere. 
Elain had asked Feyre to speak with the High Lords of other Courts–the warmer ones–and see if they were aware of the flower and whether it was blooming right now? Tarquin of Summer and Helion of Day said ‘no’, while it was pointless to ask Viviane of Winter. The one High Lord that might have actually had the flower at his Court was Tamlin of Spring, but alas, Elain wasn’t motivated enough to obtain the flowers if it meant forcing Feyre to communicate with him.
Therefore, anemone remained elusive.
Azriel was helpful and knowledgeable in some things, and for that Elain was grateful, for in other things, he was hopeless. The way he acted sometimes, she would’ve thought that he’s never done this before. Supposedly they all had planned this holiday celebration prior, and yet he seemed mystified by some of the questions that Elain asked him. Granted, he was a male. And Elain’s expectations were fairly low, and she repeatedly told herself to be grateful that she was doing this with him and not Cassian, for example. However, it still frustrated her when Azriel couldn’t answer simple questions. 
When he grew frustrated with something, or somebody annoyed him, he began calling her ‘beautiful’ or ‘flower’ as in ‘I really don’t remember, beautiful!’ or ‘Flower, why don’t you make a decision?’ And it’s not that Elain wanted to agitate him on purpose, but she liked it when he used the little pet names, and maybe, just maybe, she teased him unnecessarily at times, just to have him throw a ‘beautiful!’ at her. Beyond the little slips though, Azriel always kept an appropriate distance and didn’t permit himself any frivolities with her. Which, Elain supposed, was for the best anyway. Especially because her mate was coming for the celebration. 
Of course he was. 
It was late in the afternoon and Elain was going through her checklist to make sure that everything was in order. She hasn't been sleeping well in the past few days, overwhelmed by the sense of responsibility, but also, Azirel’s endless close proximity. It didn’t matter that he kept his distance–Elain didn't want him to keep his distance, but she also dreaded not being near him. Each hour was spent watching him, and Elain never got tired of it: the dark tattoos that peeked from his collar and his sleeves, how he crossed his arms on his chest and the biceps bulged obscenely against the material of his tunic, his long legs, always splayed just enough to cause Elain some uncomfortably pleasant thoughts. She loved watching him. Loved hearing his voice, its gravelly, deep timbre. When she didn’t allow herself to watch him before, she now ogled because it was acceptable. 
“I am not sure if I should tell you this.”
Azriel’s voice startled her and Elain jolted in her chair. She raised her eyes and saw him standing in the doorway.
He was looking down, fumbling with his sleeves, not meeting her eyes.
“Tell me what?” she asked softly. “Because whatever it is, you do want to tell me, otherwise you wouldn’t be standing here.”
He smiled.
“You got me there.”
“So what is it?” she twirled her pen in her fingers, watching him.
He thought for a few long moments and then said,
“I know where to find anemone.”
The pen slipped out of her fingers as she lurched upwards and cried out, “you do?!! Why didn’t you tell me?!!”
He rubbed his chin and then said,
“It’s complicated.”
“Oh…” she moaned. “Of course it is. Do I have to fight some monster in order to obtain it? If that’s the case, then count me out,”
He chuckled,
“Even if I am there to protect you?”
“Even then,” she concluded firmly. “So, where is it?”
“You won’t need to fight a monster,” he assured her at last. “Unless you think that I am one?”
Elain stared at him and then spoke, “no. You aren’t. Not to me…”
Azriel looked straight at her and asked, “Will you trust me?”
She stood up and nodded.
“I trust you. Nothing that you do or what you are frightens me.”
He glanced out the window. Thunderclouds were gathering over the mountains and the wind picked up, making the hanging lanterns swing violently outside the window.
“We’ll have to hurry. We’ll winnow part of the way, but then we’ll need to fly,” he told her, extending his hand towards her. Elain looked back at her opened journal, grabbed it just in case and then took his hand. 
“Where are we…” she began saying, but she didn’t get the chance to finish her thought as she and Azriel were sucked into the vortex of darkness and space. 
“Goooiiinnnng?” she breathed out once they landed on a grassy field. She stumbled and held her tightly around the waist, steadying her.
“Sorry,” she muttered.
“No need. Took me a while before I learned how to land properly.”
Elain looked around. There was nothing as far as the eye could see but rolling hills and oak trees, as well as grazing sheep.
Azriel opened his arms and said, “Jump on, beautiful.”
Elain tugged on her dress nervously and stepped closer to him. Flying in someone’s arms was always strange–whether it was Rhysand or Cassian. The feeling multiplied by a hundred when she was flying with Azriel. He always held her differently from the others–tightly and reverently. Like she meant something to him. Like she was precious and he cared about her and her comfort.
Gracefully, Elain stepped into the circle of his arms and he lifted her easily, his arms solid, secure bands under her knees and behind her back.
“Arms around my neck,” he instructed.
Rhys never asked for that. Neither did Cassian.
Elain squinted at him but did as he told her and looped her arms around his neck.
It always fascinated her how they lifted off–no running, no preamble of any kind–just straight up in the air. Cassian liked to do all kinds of stupid, reckless things, and Rhysand was more gentle and careful, but Azriel was…slow and gradual. And that was perfection. That’s exactly how Elain loved being lifted off the ground and then hang precariously in the air, hundreds of feet above the ground. Azriel’s massive wings flapped so hard and so powerfully, they caused a booming sound to reverberate in the cold air around them. And it was cold. She shivered and curled closer to his wide, warm chest.
“It’s not a long flight,” he calmed her. “I am sorry, we should’ve taken your jacket. Sometimes I forget that regular Fae get cold.”
“And you don’t?”
“No, I don’t. I got used to it.”
The way he said it…It wasn’t a good memory and Elain didn’t want to press him on it.
“I'm alright,” she lied.
He smiled and wrapped his arms tighter.
“So, where are we going?”
“Home.”
Day Ten
Home.
Azriel, the spymaster of Night Court and shadowsinger, brought Elain Archeron home.
They were flying over the soft sloping hills, which gradually gave way to rocky cliffs, until Elain spotted a glistening purple-blue lake. 
“It’s so beautiful,” she gasped under her breath.
It was indeed. Even in the gathering storm on the horizon, the lake churned and smashed against the rocks on the left, but was calm and pristine on the right. And then, she saw it. A small, but not too small island, which poked out of the water a few miles from the shore. It was rocky, but covered in green grass and thick tree canopies of various autumnal colours. In the middle of the island, similar to the House of Wind, stood a massive mansion, which seemed to float above the water and pop right out of the rocks. 
“Is this home?” Elain whispered, amazed and flabbergasted.
“It is,” Azriel nodded. 
And then she understood why they were flying. An invisible barrier–wards–brushed against them, but parted as Azriel approached. Their strength was such that even he had to power through the invisible wall of magic.
As if reading her mind, he explained, “I thought that the House of Wind had a good idea in terms of security–you cannot winnow inside. When I purchased this place, I felt that it would make good sense to do the same here.”
“That’s why we have to fly,” she stated. 
“Yes. We can winnow onto my lands,”
“All of that was yours?” she exclaimed in shock.
“Yeah. But the wards start at the shore, and then continue all the way to the island.”
As he began banking it was then that Elain saw it.
Anemone.
Fields of it.
Slopes covered in multi-coloured beds of flowers. 
“How is this possible?!” she cried out excitedly.
“I don’t know,” he admitted. “They’ve always been here. I never paid attention to them. I don’t even come here all that frequently, so I sort of forgot about them. Until the Historian mentioned them.”
“Don’t you think it’s very serendipitous?” she marvelled. 
“I suppose that these are the connections that he was speaking of,” he reminded her, as he landed smoothly on one of the balconies. 
“We must pick them at once!” Elain decided right then and there, and Azriel chuckled at her eagerness.
“Fine. I’ll get some baskets.”
-
The thunderstorm brought them back inside after about an hour and a half of picking flowers, placing them in different baskets, sorted by colour. Azriel found something out about Elain that he wasn’t aware of before–she could keep things alive. A wave of her hand and the cut flowers promised to be just as fresh as they were today by the time the holiday rolled on. Azriel wished to find out more about this ability of hers, but he didn’t think that it was appropriate to do today.
By the time they ran back into the house, they were dripping wet. Azriel probably could have thrown a shield over them, but frankly, it totally slipped his mind.
So now, Elain stood in front of him, shivering from the cold, her dress clinging to her curves, her long hair dripping on the parquet floor.
“Oh gods, I am such a mess!” she fussed, trying to stop the deluge of water that was leaking onto the floor.
“It’s not an issue, you know,” Azriel mumbled, threading his fingers through his wet hair. “I am sorry I forgot the shield,”
“It’s alright!” she interrupted him, her lips blue but her cheeks red. “Are we…we…returning soon?”
He considered, looking outside the window.
“It’s coming down rather hard and we’d have to fly. Not that I can’t fly in the rain, however, I’d rather not do that while carrying you,” he told her honestly. 
“Oh,” she wrung out her hair, “but then…what do we do?” she blinked at him, her blush growing redder.
“You need a hot bath,” he said firmly and then took her by the hand and pulled her after him.
Elain looked around–it was a place that she’d imagine Azriel living in. Stylish, seemingly out of a different era and another world, orderly, clean. Large pieces of furniture, smartly arranged in the rooms. Wide open spaces. Unfussy decor, but expensive taste.
They walked up a stone and wrought iron staircase and soon Azriel opened one of the doors, ushering Elain inside.
It was a bedroom.
She assumed his bedroom.
Her feet stopped moving and she froze at the entrance, murmuring, “I cannot…I can’t…”
“It’s this or nothing,” he said bluntly and pushed her inside, his warm, large hand on the small of her back.
“This is your bedroom!” she screeched, scrambling backwards.
“A keen observation indeed. You are staying here or we are flying back in the pouring freezing rain. These are your choices,” he warned dangerously. Then, to soften his approach, he pointed to the door and said, “the bathing room is over there.”
Elain pursed her lips, while feeling a warm glow slowly slither down her body, despite the wet chill that she was feeling. Azriel…Azriel was forbidden. A mistake. He told her that they were a mistake about 11 months ago. But in the past ten days, he certainly hasn’t been acting like he was regretting being next to her. In fact, he was downright amorous in some ways, even if he tried not to show it. All that aside, what was she even thinking? She needed to keep herself and all her carnal urges in check.
“Fine!” she hissed. “But I am counting on you to be honourable and,”
“Whatever you say,” he shrugged. “I am not here to ravish you.”
Nevertheless, he followed her into the bathing room. There was a massive tub, but also a shower–something that Bryce Quinlan told them about from her world. Nesta, of course, jumped at the opportunity to get one fitted at the House of Wind. It would appear that Azriel was also in favour.
“Don’t take too long,” he said, turning on the knob, “I am cold too.”
“So, are you going to just stand here, while I undress?” she queried. 
“Wouldn’t mind it,” he replied over the rush of the water from the showerhead. “If you need any help,”
“I shan’t require any!” she snapped at him primly and he laughed merrily. 
“If you say so. The drying cloths are all here,” he pointed to a cupboard. “I think you can figure out soaps and lotions yourself.”
“Thank you.”
The hot water was beginning to steam the room and she looked at him through the fog.
Stop. Thinking. About. It. 
“Last call for assistance?” he offered. 
“I am fine.”
“Your loss,” he shrugged and then left the room at last. 
Elain exhaled loudly. If it wasn't for the heat in the bathroom, she would’ve guessed that she was sweating. 
Quickly stripping off her sodden dress, she stepped under the water and moaned out loud. Her hand immediately flew to her mouth and she muted herself, hoping that he didn’t hear her. His laughter from the bedroom confirmed otherwise.
She lathered her body, then her hair, and stood under the blast of hot water for gods’ only knew how long. But it was glorious. And she didn’t want to leave. 
At last, she remembered that Azriel was also wet and cold and probably needed the shower as well.
She rinsed and stepped out, noticing that the floor was heated and pondered whether it would be something that Rhysand should add to the River House.
“You decent?” Azriel asked, and before she could answer, he pulled the door open, clearly unconcerned by whether she was actually decent or if she stood there butt naked. 
“There is no food,” he announced quickly, unbuttoning his shirt, pulling on strings in the back and releasing it from around his wings. Elain just stood there, wrapped in the drying cloth, barefoot, with her legs exposed, staring at him openmouthed. He was just….undressing. In front of her. 
The gall!
He didn’t seem to care, because he continued shucking off his clothes, going on to unlace his trousers, and added, “but there was hot chocolate and I made you a cup. It’s on the nightstand.”
“Are we spending the night?”
“We are,” he nodded. 
“Where am I sleeping?”
“Your choices are: my bed or my bed. Granted, it’s not many choices to actually choose from, but that’s what it is.”
This man was out of his mind, and Elain didn’t know what to say.
“Grab a tunic of mine or you may sleep naked,” he offered. “I am fine with either one, though I do have a preference.”
“I can only imagine…” her voice trailed.
She slipped out of the bathing room just before he dropped his trousers. 
In the bedroom, she finished drying her body and her hair, and then went to the chest of drawers and found a white tunic of his. She put it on over her naked body, only now recalling that all her clothes, including her undergarments, were in the bathing room. Well, nothing she could do about that now. She was tired. Despite being extremely wound up, she was tired. She cradled the cup with hot chocolate in her hands and took a sip. It tasted divine–sweet and rich and so very chocolatey.
She couldn't even wrap her mind around what she was doing when she pulled the covers and slipped into the bed. She didn’t know what side Azriel slept on, and she didn’t care. Surely he wouldn’t actually sleep with her in the same bed! That would be preposterous.
The sheets and the pillows smelled fresh, of Azriel’s cedar-like scent. She rolled onto her side, tucking her hands beneath her cheek and then glanced towards the bathing room. The door was ajar and her heart jumped in her chest, when she glanced at Azriel’s completely naked body. Brown and glistening and beautiful beyond belief. He was muscular, and his tattoos spilled down his back, his chest and there was a whole string of some kind of runes etched down his spine. At some point, he must have felt her eyes on him, because he smirked and glanced in the mirror, catching her staring. His wing flipped back and exposed him completely, soliciting a gasp from Elain’s lips. Because…there it was. 
Huge.
He was huge.
Her eyes bugged out of her head, as she observed him. 
Even flaccid, he was enormous. ‘Impossible to fit’ enormous.
Granted, Elain wouldn’t consider herself very knowledgeable in the art of the bedroom, and had only seen one other cock in her life–Graysen’s. But Graysen was a mortal man, tall and strong, but human. Azriel wasn’t human. That much was obvious. Even if she managed to forget a pair of great reptilian wings that sprung out of his back, his height, his size and his physique definitely didn’t make him human. And now, there was that. Also, utterly inhuman. Yes, she was Fae too, and very hard to break, but Azriel’s cock would certainly break her. 
He was better for fantasising, and not for reality.
A boom of thunder woke her up. She slept so deeply, she only vaguely heard the steady drumming of rain on the balcony and against the windows. Sleepily, she extended her hand out and for a moment expected to find a warm male body next to her, but the sheets were cold and she was alone in the bed. 
She didn’t know if she was disappointed or relieved. 
She also didn't know if he’d gone to bed at all, or if he slept somewhere else in the house. 
Opening her eyes, she saw that it was still dark outside, with only the palest glimmer of sunlight peeking above the horizon, beyond the lake and the mountains. It was windy and dark, the night skies slashed repeatedly by lightning strikes and claps of thunder. 
It was during one such flash of lightning that she saw a great winged figure standing outside on the terrace. He was wearing only his black undershorts and his wings were relaxed, the bottom tips touching the floor.
She wasn’t sure why, but Elain tossed the blanket aside and set her bare feet on the soft carpet. She tugged on the hem of the tunic and then padded softly to the balcony. Cold autumn air lashed at her the moment she stepped outside and she shivered, though it seemed that Azriel didn’t even notice the pelting rain that bounced off the railing and peppered him with freezing water. 
“You shouldn’t be here,” he suddenly snarled at her, without turning his head. “Go back inside.”
She stopped abruptly in her tracks, taken aback by his vicious tone.
“Did…did I do something?” she whispered.
“No. You didn’t,” he turned on his heels, so quick that she stumbled and almost fell back, but his massive arm caught her before she fell. 
His look was furious though, his brows bunched above his nose, his expression both angry and pained. He gripped her upper arm tightly, almost bruising her and then pulled her towards him. 
“A…z…” she breathed, shocked because in the next moment, he suddenly lifted her off the ground and pinned her to the wall of the building. Her legs naturally wrapped around his muscular thighs and he grabbed her hands, pinning them above her head, his face all but an inch away from hers. There was a moment of stillness, where there was just the cold rain and the lightning slashing the horizon, and their warm, panting breaths.
Elain’s mouth parted slightly, as she watched him and the indecision on his face. So she cocked her head to the side, exposing her throat for him, offering him everything he wanted from her. And she watched how his expression morphed into something sensual and decisive, as his lips found hers and he moaned softly into her mouth.
Everything, everything she wanted finally came down to this moment and it felt perfectly right. Even the brutality of the kiss didn’t take away from the tender longing that always lived between them. Azriel’s loneliness, his self doubt and self-hatred, Elain’s insecurities and her cursed bond–all were washed away by the fusion of their lips together.
This was Azriel. Her Azriel, whom she craved and yearned for since the night they saw each other back in the Human Lands. Kept apart by people, circumstances, obligations and expectations, right now, in this moment, maybe they could just come together and forget all about the things that separated them. 
He was hot and big and once he released her hands from his hold, she wrapped her arms around his neck, holding him to her, burying her fingers in his thick hair.
“I want to bite you,” he groaned against her neck.
“Bite me then,” she welcomed.
“There would be no going back, you know,” he warned. “Not if I bite you.”
He hefted her higher, her unbound breasts sliding up and down his bare chest, the thin material of her tunic the only barrier between them. He stepped even closer, pressing her hips and her bottom into the smooth stone of the house wall and Elain felt him…scorching and eager and ready for her. Azriel didn’t bite her yet, but instead, trailed soft, hot kisses down her neck, her shoulder and stopped at the swell of her breast, before pulling her nipple roughly inside his mouth and sucking aggressively, his teeth clamping on the little swollen bud.
She cried out, in both pain and incredible pleasure, while propping her feet against the stone railing and giving him more space to manoeuvre. She needed his mouth. His hands. His body. All of it. The thought of this monster of a man becoming hers was dizzying and it was making her feel drunk. Azriel’s massive shoulders moved and flexed beneath her hands, while he sucked on her other nipple and she managed to reach between their bodies and pulled down his underwear, freeing that beast of a cock at last. 
There was no going back now. Even if she knew that should she say ‘no’ he would stop, she didn’t think that she could do it. She didn’t want to stop. She let him pull back from her breasts and grip the tunic firmly, before ripping it off her and leaving her naked in front of him. Her long hair tumbled over her torso, and he brushed it back impatiently, his eyes glued to her form.
“Every day I dream of you,” he whispered heatedly, stepping forward so that he was positioned between her thighs, “I dream and I know that I cannot have you. And I want to tear apart the world and destroy the Cauldron for not giving you to me. Because you are mine. You know this. I know this. You’ve always been mine.”
He gripped the thick length of his cock in his hand and rubbed the sleek, heavy head of it between the lips of her pussy. She moaned, throwing her head back against the stone, shivering and shaking with need and anticipation.
“I am,” she managed to say. “I am yours. Always have been. You were chosen for me,”
“And yet,” he began to say, but she clamped her hand over his mouth. 
“Nothing really matters. Only you and me. Together.”
He looked down again, his shaft dark and sturdy between her pale thighs and against her bare mound. 
“Do you know how many times I’ve imagined possessing this sweet pussy of yours?” he marvelled, his voice hoarse. “Three years of celibacy…only because I knew that no other pussy would compare. No other pussy interested me.”
He fisted his cock harder and lined it along her wet, warm hole, which quivered at the feel of him. 
“Are you a virgin?” he asked, pausing. “I could never tell…”
She shook her head.
“I’ve done it. Once.”
A smile bloomed on his mouth. 
“Once?”
She nodded.
“I’ll try, but I can’t promise gentleness,” he said honestly.
She felt the head of his cock part her entrance, pushing in just a bit.
“I don’t need you to be gentle. I need you,” she said simply.
He still held himself in check, just the tip of him inside of her, the stretch already agonisingly pleasurable for her. She moved impatiently, trying to take in more of him, but he held back.
“Like I said before, beautiful,” he warned, “once you are mine, you are mine. Damn your mate, damn Rhysand, and damn everything else. Once I own you, I own you forever.”
“Then own me,” she growled. “Take me however you want. Use me. Fill me up with your seed. Control me. Bleed me with your cock. Give me everything.”
His hazel eyes turned dark and menacing.
“Own my pussy,” she offered. “Own my body. Leave your scent all over me, so that everyone knows who I belong to.”
Azriel chose not to argue at that moment, and instead, he pushed his massive, scorching shaft deep inside of her in one brutal, solid move. 
She cried out into the storm, enveloped in his darkness, in his love.
Just like she expected, he was fucking massive. It was like being split in half by an unyielding ram, and she shook on his cock, momentarily wishing that it would just end and he’d withdraw.
But no. With her breath ripped away by every tiny movement of his shaft, she secretly wanted more. She clenched pathetically around him, while he dipped his face to her neck and licked her skin. Her nails dug into his shoulders, and he pulled almost all the way out, before shoving back in and biting her neck at the same time.
The pain between her legs and in her neck made her feel faint, as he savagely tore through her pussy, marking her, moulding her, taking her for himself. 
“Auuu,” she moaned, scratching his back, while he sucked and bit her neck. It hurt so good, but it hurt nevertheless.
Instead of stopping or easing, he thrust even harder in her, deeper, opening her up completely.
“Take it,” came his order. “Take it all.”
“I am,” she breathed. “It hurts.”
“Good,” he said simply. “It should. An Illyrian warrior and a Fae is taking your soft, wet pussy for the first time. Of course it would hurt.”
She clung to him, getting pounded in with savage, deep thrusts, her pussy both needy, but on fire from how large he was. 
“Do you like it?” she whispered, kissing his lips. “Am I taking you well?”
He smiled and stroked her cheek. 
“My perfect girl,” his tongue brushed her lips. “With a perfect little hole for me to use. Do you like it, sweetheart?”
She nodded, moaning, “it’s so big.”
He smirked, “oh, I know, flower. Your pussy is full of the largest Illyrian cock and you are taking me so well.”
For some absurd reason, that made Elain proud. 
“I am going to turn us around, beautiful,” he told her, “so I can ride you harder.”
She barely even understood him, but allowed him to do what he wanted. 
He spun her around, and she propped her hands on the railing, her fists getting pelted with rain at once. His large, warm hands smoothed down her back and over her behind with appreciation, and he kicked her legs wider apart, before inserting himself back inside her battered hole.
“Oh gods,” was all she managed to groan, while his hand clamped on her shoulder and he held her steady, as he pounded into her.
Her breasts bounced hard from his rapid thrusting, and he looked at them, craning his neck, and smiling.
“How are you doing, beautiful?” he asked, wrapping his fist with her hair. 
“Like I am being railed by the biggest Illyrian cock,” she grunted and he laughed heartily. She couldn’t help herself and laughed as well.
“And?”
“I love taking your cock,” she vowed softly. “I love all of you on me. Please ride me,”
“Oh, I am, flower. You are getting ridden for the three years of me not riding you.”
He dipped his fingers inside her mouth and said, “suck”.
She did. She licked and sucked his scarred fingers, feeling wild and out of control.
“You should’ve taken me earlier,” she told him, once he pulled out from her mouth and she looked over her shoulder at him. 
He looked at her, barely able to tear his gaze away from his shaft pumping in and out of her pink hole, and nodded, “I should have. I should’ve claimed you for my own right after the war. But, there were complications.”
She sighed, and he slapped her ass cheek lightly.
“Now, to rectify this a bit, you will fuck yourself on my dick, like the good girl that you are, but you will also pull apart your ass cheeks for me,” he commanded. 
Elain bit her lower lip and then reached down wordlessly, while he held her shoulder, and did as she was told–even though he was crude and she was embarrassed, she grabbed her bottom and pulled her cheeks apart for him, exposing her little hole.
She watched for his reaction over her shoulder and his face split into a satisfied grin. 
“Perfect,” he approved. “From now on, whenever you are taking me from behind, you will keep yourself open and your little asshole on display.”
She didn’t respond, too overwhelmed by how deeply he was driving into her. What he did next took her breath away completely–he circled her asshole with his fingers and pushed two inside. 
“Ahhhhh,” she cried out, stilling.
It felt…insane.
With his mega dick inside of her, and now his fingers in her ass, she thought that she was going to faint. He stopped moving too and then said sternly, “I didn’t hear you say ‘yes, of course’.”
She nodded frantically. 
“Yes, I am sorry. Yes, of course I will.”
“Now, show me how much you like my dick in your pussy. Fuck yourself on it. I’ll finger your little hole while you do it. If I don’t like how you take me, I will stop.”
And Elain did what he told her. 
She wasn't sure why, but she wanted to submit to him. Her neck ached from the bites. She moved her hips on his cock, gliding over it. She wanted to please him. She wanted to serve him.
He was rough and demanding, objectionable in every way, but she couldn’t get enough of him. Of his body. His musk. His cock.
His gaze made her insides clench with desire for him. Everything about him was perfect–his stunning body, his dominance, his control. He knew what he wanted and he took it. 
Banding his arm around her stomach and waist, Azriel pulled her back, and then, with his dick and his fingers still inside of her, he plummeted heavily on the padded bench, taking her with him. 
“I want to watch you climax, sweetheart,” he whispered warmly in her ear, while he fucked up into her from the bottom. Her whole body was trembling and spasming with pleasure and each push of his cock brought her closer and closer to the pinnacle of pleasure. 
“I want to,” she breathed.
“I know,” he kissed the side of her neck, gently tweaking her nipple with his available hand. “Give it to me. Show me.”
Her fingers dug painfully into his knees, her breathing rugged and loud, as she squeezed him inside of her, milking him with her inner muscles.
Hot seed shot deep inside of her and she felt the moment that he released, as she cried out with desperation and shuddered violently atop of him. Unravelling a man like Azriel was something that made her strangely proud. It wasn’t something most women could claim, yet he was undone beneath her. 
“Beautiful,” he whispered into her cheek and then turned her face, so he could kiss her.
She was gasping for air as she kissed him messily, licking his tongue and his lips. He stroked her hair, smiling at her.
“Was that good?” he asked.
She nodded, “Indescribable.”
“Wonderful. But that was just round one. Now, I want round two…”
“Again?” she gasped.
“Did you think we were done?” he laughed.
“But…”
“You will turn around and sit on my face,”
“WHAT?” she exclaimed, eyes wide, her pulse beating wildly beneath her skin.
“You heard me.”
He carefully lifted her up off his still-hard dick and looked at her with male satisfaction.
He’d made her bleed. 
She wasn’t surprised exactly. He probably tore something inside of her. Graysen’s human member was no match for Azriel’s Illyrian cock. 
“Well, look at that! maybe I took your virginity after all,” he joked, and then leaned back on the bench.
Elain stood there, watching him in all his sprawling, relaxed glory.
He was indeed a beast, dressed in the skin of the most beautiful Fae imaginable. 
His skin glistened in the early morning light, the tattoos taking on a life of their own. He was firm, and solid all over, his body an unforgiving network of scars and muscles. His wings were spread out, a magnificent border around the two of them.
And he was hers.
Somehow, he was hers.
She lowered herself on his lap, straddling his thighs. He cupped her breasts in his hands and then leaned in to kiss her.
“You are dripping with my seed,” he noted, looking down.
She blinked and nodded. 
“I am.”
She was.
“Best sight I’ve ever seen.”
He bit her neck again, gentler this time. But then asked,
“I told you to sit on my face, not my lap.”
“Oh.”
“Don’t disobey me again, or I’ll punish this pretty pussy.”
She exhaled. There was nothing to say to his vulgar words. She was all in. With him. 
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All Hallow’s Eve
“Death? Really?” 
Rhysand’s sarcastic voice interrupted Azriel’s consumption of a walnut and cinnamon bun. The shadowsinger turned around and cocked a disbelieving brow at the High Lord. 
“You are dressed as a spy,” he scoffed. “Are you really the one to talk?”
“Maybe I always wanted to be like you. Lurking in the shadows. Ravishing maidens.”
“I don’t have to ravish them,” Azriel argued, his eyes never leaving the sight of Elain, who was dressed as the Death of Spring–her face carefully painted, her costume decorated with large flowers. She flitted about the enormous reception room, chatting with guests, smiling, drinking spooky cocktails. 
The mansion was decorated with pumpkins and bundles of anemone, candles suspended high up in the air, phantom wind blowing gently and ruffling everyone’s unique costumes. 
Nesta was dressed as a black swan and it suited her. Cassian came to the party dressed as a wizard, and now was dancing with Feyre, who was dressed as a…huntress. Not very original, in Azriel’s opinion, but he kept that to himself.
“The maidens come to me themselves,” Azriel pointed out.
“So it would seem,” Rhys sipped his liquor. “You know,”
“Really not interested in what you are about to say,” Azriel waved him off.
“Only that I can smell you on her…”
“Good. As you should.”
“Her mate is here.”
“He is too late.”
Azriel looked Rhys straight in the eye and asked,
“Care to explain this whole ‘we took turns preparing the Hallow’s Eve party’ bullshit that you concocted?”
The High Lord chuckled.
“Oh, you liked that?”
“I am not sure,” Azriel admitted truthfully.
If it weren’t for Rhysand’s involvement, Elain wouldn’t be walking right now with Azriel’s seed dripping down her thighs.
“No, she wouldn’t,” Rhys smirked.
“Fucking stop that!” Azirel snarled.
“You can thank me later, brother,” Rhys clapped him on the back. “She bought it. You understood the assignment. And now…” his voice trailed. “Now she is yours at last.”
She was.
“She is,” Azriel nodded his confirmation. 
My right.
My destiny.
My woman.
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goldrushzukka · 2 years ago
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ok so turns out it gets interesting like. immediately after the point I gave up on it last time. go figure
trying (again) to read acotar pls wish me luck
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slytherhys · 10 months ago
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SJM writes stories about women overcoming their fears and finding other female characters and building a better world - and yet, I see an alarming amount of people being misogynistic and sexist towards the very same characters they read about.
Claiming Feyre is a bad painter when there's literally no evidence for it, calling her boring for choosing motherhood, calling her weak for having a human heart (something she is PRAISED for by everyone else), trying to blame her for everything her abuser did; Discrediting Morrigan and claiming she lied, giving Eris the benefit of the doubt therefore making Mor into the bad guy; Claiming Elain is a wh*re, a b*tch because she has a mate she doesn't care about but for some reason she has to be faithful to him, she has to reject him, ACCEPT him when all we've seen is her discomfort around him. Claiming she isn't good enough for a man because, supposedly, she can't have his babies; calling her useless because she doesn't want to use violence; Unfortunately, there are many other examples I could name.
Please note that the male characters are NEVER the object of such criticism - in fact, people will doubt the women who told showed us men are abusers and do everything in their power to believe them instead, ignoring the very canon content the author wrote herself ("there's definitely more to it!"; "feyre is an unreliable narrator!"; "why should we believe mor?")
And now, with HOFAS nearly out, I keep seeing people wanting Bryce to hate Elain? To be a bitch to Mor and Feyre? Where in the books did you ever get the impression any of these female characters would hate each other?
I genuinely never expected to see so much misoginy when I first joined a book fandom where female characters are literally the focus of everything. What saddens me the most is how much these ideas seem to be growing instead of disappearing.
You all need to grow up.
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acourtofquestions · 6 months ago
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I love how the Maasverse has so many artists in it & interwoven into the story of it:
The way art saves Feyre’s soul, holds her heart, helps her work through the horrors of her world; the way color (or lack thereof) is so heavily shown through her point of view & the way she describes scenes.🎨🥹🥰💘
Celaena’s love of music & connection to it in memory👌🥹😭👏 (the scene where the great “Assassin of Adarlan” is moved to tears by song & the first to standing ovation at the orchestra/opera).
Nesta showing emotion & a thousand words she cannot say through dancing; for once being visibly free & happy (so very powerful it becomes a key plot point💃🏼🤩👯‍♀️).
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lilith-13x · 3 months ago
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the “jokes” about feyre being illiterate or a bad painter are so tiring genuinely. y’all just want some way to hate her and that’s all you’ve got.
one thing that wasn’t her fault, and she’s since fixed !! yall forget she’s an avid reader by the end of acomaf she just doesn’t really have the time to read because she’s BUSY.
and the second obviously isn’t true for many reasons but my big two are;
1) every time any member of the inner circle (or anyone else) sees her paint they’re awed!! she’s talented and they all love her art, and the people & children she teaches love her art.
2) nesta (throughout the first four books before nesta stans rip my head off) makes fun of her for literally any tiny thing. if she wasn’t good at painting nesta would’ve bullied her about it, and it’s one thing that nesta never insults her about so what does that tell us? feyre is talented.
i don’t know why so many people want to hate feyre, sorry she’s gentle and kind while also being powerful and strong.
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praetorqueenreyna · 4 months ago
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well i AM asking for the essay on modern ACOTAR fandom please🙏😩
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YOU ARE ALL ENABLERS!!! FINE I SHALL WRITE MY ESSAY!!!!! I'm putting it under a read more because I'm embarrassed of how long it is.
ACOTAR fandom is strange in a fascinating and NOT FUN way. Fandom has gotten SO restrictive recently, it's suffocating. And idk what it is about ACOTAR, but its fans are among the WORST. Whatever discourse you've seen in other fandoms, multiply it by 10 to get the experience of being in mainstream ACOTAR fandom. It is an unchallenged belief in this fandom that writing, drawing, or consuming any kind of content that isn't 100% healthy in the real world means that you - YOU!!!!! - are a danger to real life human beings. Criticizing a character's choices and the author's writing decisions is warped into you being an abuse apologist and also you probably yell at abuse victims in real life. A drawing of Tamlin and Elain sitting in a garden is now a disgusting acceptance of real life abusers and you're traumatizing every abuse survivor.
I can think of countless examples off the top of my head of real life human beings being harassed and bullied and called all kinds of nasty names for the fictional content they create about fictional characters. Like, I cannot stress enough the irony of these puritans spouting off in woke-enese about how "dangerous" certain fans are being incredibly verbally and emotionally abusive to people in this fandom. A fanartist on Instagram was painting portraits of each of the ACOTAR characters, and as a fun framing device, each painting was meant to be a painting that Feyre would make, and the captions talked about how the artist thought Feyre would paint this character. A charming and delightful series taking advantage of the fact that the main character is a painter, right? WRONG!!! This artist did a painting of Tamlin, and she was raked across the coals for DARING to even IMPLY that Feyre ever even THOUGHT about Tamlin or could even CONSIDER forgiving him enough to paint him. She was accused of "forcing an abuse survivor to think about her abuser." Like, do you see how absurd that is?? Feyre isn't real!! Nobody forced anybody to do anything! That's the kind of batshit insane nonsense we're dealing with.
Not to mention any depicition or joking about the series' villains is seen as you endorsing REAL LIFE VILLAINY!! me and my friends are constantly under fire for DARING to enjoy villainous characters or dark content. I feel like I shouldn't even have to say it, but the content that you create and consume doesn't say anything about you as a person. People who are very well adjusted, kind, and happy will engage with dark content for a variety of reasons. Some use it as a coping/healing mechanism, some just find dark content fascinating and worthy of exploration, and some people have dark fantasies. This fandom behaves as if the things you make and consume are examples of what you consider "healthy" and things that you want to do to real life people. It's INCONCEIVABLE to them that you could enjoy something in fiction and not endorse it in real life. INCONCEIVABLE!!
Aside from the irony of people claiming to battle against toxicity screaming violent insults at real life people over fictional characters, this is very very funny. Those of us that have been in the rarepair trenches in other fandoms can't help but laugh at these grown ass women losing their minds because somebody drew a blonde man. The culmination of this has been the runners of Elain Week refusing to even SEE characters they don't like. The visage of Tamlin will shatter their fragile minds and send them to their early graves. And this isn't even TOUCHING how their standard for which characters are Acceptable and which ones aren't is almost solely decided by what the author has explicitly stated and not based on any critical thinking or analysis.
The sheer and utter absurdity of this fandom in particular being SO hung up on canon should be studied. SJM is such a poor writer that she contradicts canon within the same book. I am firmly convinced that nobody actually reads her novels all the way through before they are published. This canon is bad. Which is why it's so baffling that this fandom in particular is so obsessed with canon and what the author has stated both within the books and in interviews. SJM says this character is bad, and so they are BAD!!! This character is good, and so they are GOOD. Oftentimes if you see people try to tear down Tamlin, they'll bring up SJM saying that he's abusive in interviews, talking about how she doesn't like him, and bringing up that she put a hotline for abuse survivors in the back of one of the books. SJM has said that he's an abuser, and so therefore he IS, and there is no further investigation.
Again, a kindergarden concept I didn't think I'd have to explain to a bunch of grown adults on the internet, but a creator's intention is not the end all be all of discussion. It's certainly a part of the analysis, but it is also up to the reader to determine if the author has convinced you of the story they're trying to tell. For example, the creator Joss Whedon clearly created Buffy the Vampire Slayer to be a feminist, empowering show for women. However, the viewer can watch the show and point out areas where he failed in this intention and allowed misogyny, racism, and homophobia to seep into his works. Imagine if every time you tried to criticize a "feminist" show made by a man, the fans screamed at you that the creator said it's feminist, and so therefore it is, and that's the end of that.
This is PARTICULARLY galling with SJM's villains. A lot of them are just...not written well, or convincingly, or realistically. BUT a lot of them are sexual predators, and so any discussion about them and their character is cut off at the source. SJM tells you that these people are BAD GUYS and you have to accept it, otherwise you're defending r*pists. It's especially hilarious because a lot of her "good" guys also commit many horrible acts. Part of the hilarity of the Elain Week nonsense is that the man that the creators ship Elain with, Azriel, is a PROFESSIONAL TORTURER. But SJM says he's good and sympathetic, so therefore, he is. And it's an entirely different essay to go into how SJM portrays her female villains, and I got Cancelled for it last time I tried so NO YOU CANT MAKE ME!!!
Lastly, I'll mention the bloated victim complex of people that like popular things. Again, not unique to ACOTAR fandom, but certainly very prevalent. The people who are in the majority NEED to feel like they're the underdog, fighting the good fight. Hence having the people who like one of the MAIN CHARACTERS and one of the Top 5 Most Popular Ships acting like they are Jesus on the cross for shipping Elain and Bland Dude #4. They work themselves into a paranoid frenzy, feeling attacked at every twist and turn. I would bet my LIFE that the people that run Elain Week have never even seen Beron/Elain content, let alone had it submitted to their event. But they got themselves all worked up about the Evil Tamlin Cabal RUINING THE EVENT that they made these rules that are simply ridiculous. And it backfired on them. Me and my friends have been accused of ruining other character weeks for making content for ships that WE like but the moderators don't. They'll see one single Rhysand/Tamlin drawing and act like you've fucking shot them. They genuinely feel like nobody likes Feyre or Rhysand, the most popular characters, and everyone supports Tamlin. It's insane and they need to get offline. I've seen people wearing Night Court merch in real life. Trust me, you won. You are not the victim.
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