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ex!jj maybank x ex!fem!reader | set in season 4 without the Blackbeard mystery! (non-canon) | inspiration
content warnings: mentions of/references to sex (m and f receiving; MDNI); drug use; unfaithful relationships
word count: 18k.
blurb: JJ comes back into your life - older, richer and different again from before. Can the past stay the past, and the two of you be friends, or is there too much history there to let it all lie?
Cinnamon Buns
âWhere would you like these?â Someone calls out to you. You turn and take in the tray of mouth-wateringly delicious looking cinnamon buns that a volunteer holds. Smiling, you point to a far table on the grassy field.Â
âAnywhere over there is good! Those look amazing, thank you so much!âÂ
You turn back to the task at hand: organising cans of tinned, chopped tomatoes. To your left is a stack of bags of rice and to your right, bags of pasta. Itâs quick work as you separate them by flavour: garlic and herb; chilli; regularâŚIn the background you overhear chatter of fellow volunteers. Where should I put this? Who had the plastic bags? This was your happy place.Â
âThe Stirring Spoonâ is what you had called it. It was your passion project born out of daydreams. A collaborative, community effort, providing food to anybody and everybody, free of charge. It wasnât a traditional food drive. Instead, it was like a potluck dinner that you hosted every Wednesday in the late afternoon, running into the evening. People brought whatever dish they had prepared, or any ingredients that they had going spare which you and a handful of other volunteers whipped up into mains and desserts. Tomato soup and lentil curry and meatball subs and rainbow brownies and chocolate chip cookies. Youâd even managed to rope a few local establishments into it. Any leftover bakes that they had when the workday was over, or things that were just a smidge out of date by a day or two, you took and offered out. Today? Cinnamon buns that were baked yesterday at a humble cafe in the town centre, just shy of Figure Eight. Food health and safety laws were strict but you could stretch them for The Stirring Spoon. After all, you werenât technically selling a product so no harm done. People were clued in about the supposed âriskâ.Â
You lift up a can of tomatoes and study the âbest byâ date on the metal lid. A month in the safe zone. Perfect. As your mind flicks through recipes of what you could cook up, a voice stood out amongst the chatter nearby. It was like a sirenâs call; distinct and damning. You could pick it out even when deaf.Â
âI gotta delivery here for yâall.â
âWhatâs in it?â
âFresh sorta stuff. âTatoes and that kinda thing.â
âOver there, Iâd say.â
As the footsteps approach you can feel your heartbeat quicken. It taps nervously in your ribcage like youâre sixteen all over again. Your focus remains on the task at hand until a slight shadow casts over you, and you know you canât stall any longer. Your hands freeze over a can of tomatoes. Looking up, standing in front of you, clear as daylight and bright as dawn, is JJ Maybank. Heâs dressed in his usual attire of a worn-down t-shirt and shorts; his fingers and wrists decorated with metal rings and beaded bracelets. If you squinted, itâd be like no time had passed at all. He doesnât look all that different from the last time you saw him and yet, heâs entirely changed. In his hands is a large cardboard crate of various fresh produce. You smile.Â
âJJ.â
It comes out in a breath as though youâre seeing something supernatural before you. In a way, you are. How long has it been now? Two years? Nearly three?
His own surprise mirrors yours on his face. But JJ was always better at hiding his emotions, once he had a chance to catch them. It was like a teasing glimpse before he closed the curtains. His recovery is quick as a smile starts to show, and he says your name like heâs practised it everyday.Â
âHey.â
âWhatâre you doing here?â you ask.
âBrought some deliveries,â JJ says, hitching the box. âKiara mentioned something âbout a community kitchen drive yâall do and we thought we could contribute and stuff.â
âWell, thatâs nice of yâall. Thank you,â you reply.Â
You shuffle some stuff out of the way on the pop-up table in front of you to make space for JJâs box. Itâs hard not to watch his arms as he lowers it down, the way the biceps flex and tense beneath the skin. Itâs hard not to think of other times his arms have looked that way, wrapped around your body, tugging you closer. You blink the memories away.Â
JJâs hands slot into his short pockets. He rocks on his feet. âLooks like itâs a pretty popular thing, huh?v This food drive, I mean.â
You glance around at the bustling volunteers. Smiling, you say, âYeah, I guess it caught on pretty quick. Could say the same about yâalls tackle-and-bait shop you got going. Itâs the talk of the town âround here.â
JJ grins with visible pride and it isnât until you see it that you realise how much you missed his smile. You wonder if heâs surveying your face and body the way you are his, as if looking for some inconsistency or change since the last time you saw him.Â
âYeah, itâs coming together pretty nice. Helps having a bunch of us working on it, though.â
âI bet,â you say. Youâd heard the chatter on the island about the Pogueâs latest venture. The sneers of the kooks and the curiosity of the locals. Their bets and wagers on whether the business would sink or float. Youâd wanted to wander down and check it out for yourself but you always chickened out. Truth was, youâd been avoiding JJ Maybank like the flu, and now here he was in front of you, putting all your quarantining to shame. Your eyes flit down at the crate and you gently rifle through the food for a distraction. Tomatoes and potatoes and bunches of fresh berries and fruit.Â
âI, uh, donât know if thereâs much in there that yâall need butââ
âNo, no, this is great,â you assure him, smiling. âItâs really generous of yâall. Every contribution is appreciated.â
âHappy to help. To be honest, itâs Kie and Sarah you should be thanking.â
âYeah, I didnât peg you as the gardening type,â you tease.Â
âWell, only for the stuff that matters,â JJ grins with a wink. You consciously try to fight away the warmth running to your cheeks. Damn it, you werenât sixteen anymore. âSo��how have you been, then? Since we lastâŚyâknowââ
âBaby!â
Itâs a reflex reaction to turn at the sound of Markâs call. He comes bounding over with a wide grin. His shirt sleeves are rolled up to the elbows and flour is dusted on his khakis. Itâs a reflex to close your eyes when he dips his head to plant a kiss to your lips, too. You rub them together after as you prepare yourself for what might be the most awkward interaction youâll ever go through.Â
âJJ,â you say, turning to the blonde haired boy. âThis is Mark. Mark, this is JJ. We used toâŚuhâŚWell, we used to hang out.â
âJJ - pleasure,â Mark says sincerely. He sticks out his hand and for a painful moment you genuinely worry that JJ might never take it. But he does, shaking it.Â
âLikewise,â he says.Â
You feel Markâs spare arm slide around your back, his palm placing itself respectfully on your side. That was Mark: respectful. Righteous but not in an arrogant way. He was kind and caring without judgement, like the sort of Christian boy your nana would want you to bring home. The sort of guy who would bring your mother flowers and play golf with your father on the weekends. The kind of face youâd see flash on the television during the six oâclock news as the reporter relays a daring and heroic tale of saving orphaned kittens from a burning tree.Â
âThis is the guy thatâs started the tackle-and-bait shop. Yâknow, the one with the surf store and stuff,â you say to Mark. Realisation dawns upon Mark and he wags his finger at JJ.Â
âWait, wait, JJ as in JJ Maybank? One of the gang who found El Dorado?âÂ
You roll your eyes at the pure awe in his voice. JJ chuckles somewhat nervously and nods as he says, âyeah, uh, that JJ, I guess.â
âHoly shit! Baby, why didnât you say!? Oh man, I read all about that. It sounded freaking incredible! I have so much to ask you, I mean-â
You place a hand to his chest and laugh, slightly embarrassed by his fangirling. âBaby, baby! Cool it a second, yeah?â
Laughing, you glance at JJ. And you catch it. That emotion he lets slip just before correcting himself. His eyes dart to yours in a second but they were looking elsewhere before. They were looking at your hand on Markâs stomach.Â
âNah man, itâs cool. You guys should stop by sometime and I can tell you all about it. The other Pogues too, yeah,â JJ cordially replies.Â
âOh sick, man. Thatâd be great,â Mark beams. You smile at JJ and nod.Â
âIâd love to see what you guys have done to the place,â you tell him. JJ smiles but it falters, like a flickering lightbulb thatâs fighting to stay on. An awkward quiet passes and you clear your throat and glance around at the voluntary effort. âWell, I should probably get back to work.â
âNo, yeah, course. I oughtâa get back to the shop,â JJ replies.Â
âThanks for the stuff though. We really appreciate it.â
âYou brought this?â Mark wonders, picking a strawberry out of the crate. He pops it in his mouth and hums happily. âDamn, those are some fresh strawberries.â
âYeah, man. All from our local garden we got going.â
âThis place sounds like the dream,â Mark tells you. You smile up at him. He takes the crate in his broad hands and lifts it easily into the air. Being sandwiched between two toned-up guys had you feeling as brittle as candyfloss. âIâll take this over to Nancy. Nice meeting you, JJ.â
âYeah, you too, man.â
You watch him wander off a moment before turning back to JJ. He offers you another smile. âIâll come check out the shop soon,â you promise.Â
JJ points at you, playfully warning, âyou better!â before walking away. You watch him with every step he takes and the moment heâs out of sight your head drops. You let out a breath that you didnât know youâd been holding. Your entire body feels as though itâs vibrating; your heart running laps in your ribcage. And the funniest part of all is the strange thought that races around your mind, heâs real. It had been so long since youâd seen JJ, let alone heard from him, that it felt like a daydream. The memories were so hazy now that theyâd been painted over in sepia and you wondered if youâd imagined the whole thing. But no, here he was, knowing you and recognising you, and talking to you. The two of you back in Kildare, seemingly for good.Â
âBaby! Can you give us a hand?â
The call drags you out of your thoughts. Your eyes fall onto your boyfriend. He stands a good head taller than most people. Heâs almost lanky in build but not ungainly; broad shouldered and slim nosed. His eyes are those of an otter: nearly black with how brown they are; beady and shining, even from over here. Thereâs a smattering of freckles over his cheeks which is adorably boyish in contrast to his stubble on the jawline. Heâs smiling at you in a way that all girls want to be smiled at. Unashamed in his admiration for you. It grounds you from the dizzying interaction with JJ and you walk over to him, ready to help out in any way you can.Â
The rest of The Stirring Spoon passes without a hitch or unexpected visitor from the past. Itâs as popular as always, with locals and tourists stopping by. The lentil and tomato soup that you whipped up disappears within the first half hour, alongside the nearly stale but still delicious cheese bread. Mark stands by your side the whole time, smiling as he serves. He whispers little jokes in your ear that have you giggling in the quiet periods of the food drive. Then came the evening rush, with people stopping by after work. The culmination of it all meant JJ was pushed out of your thoughts and back into the long-term store, where heâd been haunting before. That is, until youâre tidying up.Â
âThat JJ guy seemed nice,â Mark says from the table to your right. You look up from the plastic snack-bags youâre tidying away. âYou said you guys used to hang?â
âWhen we were sixteen,â you reply.Â
âHow come you stopped hanging out?â he wonders.Â
You look down at the bags and obsess over the colours of the labels as you debate how best to word your reply. What do you divulge to him? Thereâs an index of memories labelled JJ and you know not all need to see the light of day, let alone enter the mind of your boyfriend in scarring reenactments.Â
âWe just grew apart. He was going through some stuff, I think, and then he got really into that whole treasure hunting thing,â you tell him. It was true enough to not be a lie. Mark hums in thought.Â
âThatâs a shame.â
You quirk a brow, amused. âWhy? Cause I could have cashed in on the gold too?â
Mark shrugs and you laugh. âWhat!? Iâm just saying, some people are worth staying friends with!â
But that was the thing. You and JJ werenât just friends. Shaking your head, you close the cardboard box of repacked snack-bags and carry it over to the table where heâs working. You held him wrap individual muffins in napkins before placing them in a large tupperware box.Â
âHey, yâknow whatâd be nice?â Mark says.Â
âWhat?â
âIf we took them over some leftovers. I mean, we made most of this stuff with the ingredients they gave us anyway. And thereâs still some of those cinnamon buns going spare.â
You take pause and look up at him. Heâs obliviously working away, head tucked down to look at the muffins. Thereâs an easy smile thatâs permanently etched into his face, as if he came out the womb cheesing away. That wasnât why you fell for him though. No, it was his kindness. His offhand generosity that came so naturally to him it was almost offensive. Pressing up onto your toes, you cup his jaw and press a kiss to his cheek. He chuckles quietly.Â
âYouâre wonderful,â you hum happily. âI think thatâs a great idea.âÂ
âYou go wrap up some cinnamon buns then. Iâll pack up some of these muffins for them.â
You do as he asks and soon enough, thereâs a box of miscellaneous leftovers from your food drive. Mark drives. The sky is a delicate colour of amber and pink warning of soon nightfall. Colours like that always make you feel relaxed. It helps ease the nervousness of seeing JJ again. You werenât sure why it was making you so antsy. It wasnât as if you and JJ parted ways on bad terms. You suppose itâs just a bitter-sweet memory. All memories of JJ came with that sour coating now, like sherbet lemons on your tongue. You wonder if youâd feel the same way if Mark werenât around.Â
But he is, and youâre glad he is.Â
Looking over to him, you reach out your hand to capture his, resting on his thigh. He glances over at you and smiles. âYou okay?â
âYeah. Just happy, sâall.â
âThatâs good,â he says, looking back to the road. Like something from a music video, he raises your interlocked hands to his lips and presses a kiss to the back of your hand. âMeans Iâm doing something right, if youâre happy.â
Itâs impossible not to do a double-take as you pull up to what was formally the Maybank property. Itâs as if new life has been breathed into it. More than just a lick of paint, thereâs two brand new buildings alongside a pretty sturdy looking pier and dock. Thereâs a handmade charm to everything that makes it all the more enticing and impressive. Mark seems to think so too because he whistles as the two of you pull up the driveway. You look to your left and see the Twinkie. A relic from your past, of memories half-naked, rolling around the back with JJ, sharing a blunt in a post-orgasmic haze. Your thoughts shut off with the engine.Â
Mark takes the lead, his hand in yours, and carries the box of leftovers up to the house. You both wander up the porch and Mark knocks twice on the door. Your eyes look at everything, taking it in, admiring every detail, until someone opens the door. Itâs Kiara.Â
âHey. Can I help you?â she asks your monolith of a boyfriend. You poke your head from around his body.Â
âHey Kie.â
âOh my Gosh! Girl, where have you been?â Kie beams. The two of you embrace, laughing and smiling. âWait - did you get the stuff I sent JJ over with?â
âYeah, we did,â you say. âThank you so much.â
âWe actually brought this as a thanks,â Mark adds, offering out the tub. She eyes him almost with suspicion.Â
âSorry, I forgot to say - Kie, this is Mark. My boyfriend,â you explain. Kieâs eyebrows shoot up with that final word but she recovers quick.Â
âNice to meet you, Mark,â she says. She takes the box and glances through the plastic.Â
âJust some leftovers we thought you might like. Muffins and cinnamon buns and things like that.â
âThanks guys, you didnât have to. Weâre happy to contribute,â Kiara tells you. âIn fact, me and Sarah were talking about maybe making it a regular thing. Like every Wednesday we bring some stuff from the garden, or fish that weâve caught?â
âOh my God, yeah, thatâd be amazing,â you nod enthusiastically. âWe can definitely figure out a system.â
âPerfect. Iâll put these inside. You guys want a drink or anything? I can show you around,â Kiara offers, opening the door wider in invitation.Â
You glance over her shoulder into the room and then around the porch, behind you out to the water. Youâre not sure why you were expecting JJ to just appear out of thin air in front of you.Â
âJJâs out on the dock, if you want to catch up,â Kiara posits, as if hearing your thoughts. You look at her and hold her gaze, and - unable to read what her expression means - nod.Â
âI think Iâll go say hi. We didnât get a chance to properly catch up,â you reply. You glance up at Mark. âYou want to come with?â
âItâs alright. Iâll stay here and get the tour,â he tells you with a wink. You smile, press a kiss to his lips, and wander off with a wave to Kie, towards the dock.Â
Feet thudding on the slabs of wood, the structure creaks as you walk to the shop. An American flag waves in the breeze. You run a hand along the thick rope bannister and glance down into the growth of plants and water weeds underfoot. I canât believe they built all of this, you canât help but think as you walk up to the wooden-slatted tackle-and-bait shop. As you walk into the store under the wooden âWELCOMEâ sign, reggae music blesses your ears alongside the smell of incense. Itâs jam-packed with miscellaneous water accessories: fishing gear, surfing gear, refreshments, you name it. Thereâs nobody behind the counter. You glance around and squint, catching onto a spot red through the window. JJ lies outside atop of a vintage cooler, feet crossed one over the other, arms tucked under his head. You canât help but smile. Walking outside, you lean against the doorframe and fold your arms over your chest.Â
âWell, as far as customer service goes, this is pretty crappy.â
He snaps up to sit like he has the joints of a ken doll. You laugh as he blinks his eyes awake, laying them on you.Â
âOh shit,â he says, clearing his throat, running a hand through his hair. âWhenâd you get here?â
âA few minutes ago. You looked pretty comfy there,â you say, amused.Â
âYeah, yeah, itâs a good nap spot,â JJ chuckles nervously, glancing down at where he just lay his head. He straightens his t-shirt and then looks back at you. His brows furrow. âWait, whatâre you doing here?â
âCame by to see the new place,â you reply, gesturing around you. âYou offered.â
âDidnât think youâd be in such a hurry.â
âNo time like the present and all that.â
Youâre acutely aware of how youâre avoiding mentioning Mark and how heâs currently being led around JJâs former house and yard under Kieâs tow.Â
âThis is a pretty sick set-up,â you praise.Â
âYeah, itâs pretty good, huh?â JJ grins, getting to his feet. âHere, you want a beer? Weâre technically closed for business anyway.â
Laughing, you shrug. âSure. Why not.âÂ
Cracking open the cooler, he reaches in and retrieves two ice-cold cans. One is tossed to you and you catch it, and a feeling of deja vu rings through you. JJ, younger, just as handsome, throwing you a can of beer at a kegger. He leans against the cooler and you against a wooden pillar. Cracking cans and the fizz of beer, and you take a refreshing sip. A comfortable quiet comes and the two of you catch one anothers eyes. You smile.Â
âI donât think I said earlier, but itâs really nice to see you again,â you tell JJ.Â
He smiles, small and reserved. âThanks. Itâs nice seeing you too. Even if it is with Joe America over there.â
âJoe America?â you snort. âCome on, he isnât that bad.â
âNo, no, he seemsâŚuh, he seems nice.â
âHe is nice.â
âI believe it.â
âWellâŚgood.â
That marked the end of that conversation. You take a sip of your beer and sigh, looking out to the view of sunset over the marshland.Â
âI wish you couldâve seen it,â JJ suddenly says. You look over to him with a frown, confused. âEl Dorado, I mean. South America. It was beautiful. Like actually fucking stunning out there.â
âReally?â you say, smiling.Â
âHell yeah,â he grins. âLike there was colours out there that I didnât even think existed without, like, LSD, man.â
You laugh and he does too and youâre glad whatever awkwardness that just came passed quick like a seastorm.Â
âI still havenât gone farther than Charleston, so I guess Iâll have to live vicariously,â you lightheartedly remark.Â
âYeah, well, turns out thereâs a pretty big world out there,â JJ grins.Â
âGlad one of us got to see it,â you hum.Â
âNah, youâll see it too. All of it. Even Paris.â
The cityâs name hangs heavy in the air. It was more than just a throwaway comment. It was a secret message, as if JJ was speaking in code. I remember it. I didnât forget. You wash down the adrenaline with another sip of beer.Â
âBut no place like home, huh?â JJ says, clearing his throat.Â
âProbably helps now that John B ainât a fugitive anymore,â you muse. JJ laughs, nodding.Â
âYeah, yeah, no, for sure.â
âWell, Iâm glad you found your happiness, JJ,â you say, smiling at him. âIâm glad you found yourself out.â
âAinât we all?â
The two of you watch one another for a moment. His resting smile lingers on the edges of his thin lips. His round, soft cheeks that add to a boyishness about him that his jawline doesnât allow. You always liked JJâs hair though. A mop of blonde planted atop of his head with sun-bleached highlights and deep-sea lowlights. But heâs taking you in too. You canât take the weight of his stare after a while. Taking a deep breath, pushing away from the beam, you ditch your half-drunk beer atop of the cooler.Â
âWell, I better get going.â
âYou sure? I mean, we can hang out a bit longer, if you like?â
You smile politely and shake your head. âIâm not the one driving, soâŚâ
JJ looks over your shoulder and spots Mark. âAh. Didnât know Dollar Store Chris Evans was here, my bad.â
âJJ! Donât be mean!â
âI ainât being mean! If anything, thatâs a compliment,â JJ defends. You roll your eyes. âLook, Iâll see you around though. Itâd suck to go back to being strangers again when weâre both in the same place for a change.â
Despite the innocence of the offer, something in your gut tells you that you shouldnât agree. You should set a boundary there, draw a line, and leave it in the past. So, really, you have nobody to blame but yourself for saying âIâd like thatâ with a smile in farewell, before walking back across the dock to your boyfriend.Â
Salted Chips
JJ had always been in your life. However, in the past, he was more of a background character, like an NPC in a videogame that creators constantly add in like an Easter Egg. The kind of character youâre curious about, in terms of their past and their present, their wants and their fears, but the kind you never have the privy to get close to in that way. Heâd be at parties, at the surf break, at the shops or at school, but he wasnât in your life. Until he was.Â
Fate came in the form of a seating plan for history class.Â
You and JJ were classmates. Table buddies. At first, the conversation was nonexistent. Sometimes JJ wouldnât show up to class at all, either bunking off or playing truant in the bathrooms to light up a joint. But sometimes heâd come to class, usually escorted by Pope, and youâd share an uncomfortable silence as you worked through the hour. But then came an assignment that needed to be done out of class, and numbers were exchanged and words were shared outside of âwhat did he sayâ and âwhatâs the homeworkâ and âwhat answer did you get for five?â. At your prompting to start on the project, JJ offered up the Chateau to work at, John Bâs house that was a renovated fishing shack on the marsh.Â
To stimulate inspiration for the poster the two of you had to create - outlining the history of the American Civil War - JJ had offered up beers and a blunt, and you were glad to take him up on the offer. If youâre going to be doing schoolwork at the weekend, you might as well get something out of it other than mind numbing boredness. It seems you saying yes to JJâs âgiftsâ put you in his good books. Itâs as if you could see the moment his opinion of you changed. From there, it was as if the two of you had always known the other. Conversation came easy, banter even more so. Time spent together stretched outside of the classroom and instead into lunch breaks and evenings and weekends. Heâd seek you out at keggers and hang with you at the beach. Somewhere in the roots of you friendship grew an attraction from the fondness. You noticed it in his lingering glances, his drifting gaze from your eyes to your mouth to your body. Later, you heard it in his words, finding innuendos in smalltalk, catching compliments like falling stars. Eventually, both slightly intoxicated, it came to a head, about three months into this natural-forming friendship.Â
âYo!â
You turn around, beer in hand, startled by the interruption. Itâs JJ. Heâs wearing a cap, squishing down his beautiful locks of blonde; the muted green pairs well with his t-shirt. His combat boots sink into the ground, damp from the rainfall earlier in the day. Everything smells piney and fresh. You lift a finger to your lips to coax him to be quiet. His brows quirk up, a bemused smile gracing his gorgeous face. God really does have favourites, it seems.Â
âYou good?â
âSh! Youâll scare them,â you whisper. At his cocking head, confused, you fervently gesture for him to come over. He does. His presence by your side is almost overwhelming. The buzz from the liquor makes it difficult to keep your itching hands to yourself and your inhibitions at bay. âYou see them?â
âSee what?â
âThe birds.â
âWhat?â
âLook, here,â you mumble. You lean close to him so you can point clearly with your finger, just along his line of vision. A whiff of JJâs scent dusts your nose. Heâs warm like he creates heat. Through the canopy of leaves, you can make out a single branch of a tree. In the nook, against the trunk, is a nest, and inside is a bunch of baby birds, cawing out for their mother, hungry, blind. Youâd left them some salted chips on the floor, crumbled and scattered, in case the mother wanted to steal some to take up and gift. She probably wouldnât, but something about their cries made you feel the need to do something, and it wasnât as if you could offer up your beer.Â
âWoah.â
âYou see âem?â
âYeah,â JJ breathes. âThatâs sick, how did you see them?â
âI heard them first,â you tell him, keeping your voice low so as to not frighten them. âNeeded some air.â
âThe smoke from the campfire botherinâ you?â
âI swear to God, it targets me,â you sincerely reply, making JJ laugh. You finally retract your finger (still sticky from the Smores made earlier) and turn, looking up at him. He looks down at you. Some strands of hair stick out from under his cap, pressing against his forehead. His brows are almost permanently slanted, eyes bright in the dusk of the evening. His shark tooth necklace sits against his chest. JJâs lips quirk at your staring. âItâs not fair.â
âWhatâs not fair?â
âYouâre so pretty,â you say, shaking your head, smiling. The alcohol has given you too much confidence, it seems. Loose lips. His eyes widen in momentary surprise but he catches it, covers it well. Then, comes his mask of confidence. He gives you a cocky smile.Â
âYouâre not too bad yourself,â he suavely replies.Â
âNah, I mean it. Youâre really something, Maybank,â you smile, doubling-down. In for a penny and all that. Â
His smugness fades into something more real. He doesnât seem to know how to take compliments like that. Then, strangely, something like panic tugs his brows together. âIâm not very good at this sorta thing.â
Your frown of confusion seems to spur him on.Â
âBeing honest. Real. IâmâŚIâm pretty fucked up, yâknow?â
âThe best people are,â you murmur, meaning every word.Â
âNah, I mean it, though. Iâm notâŚI donât wanna hurt you.â JJ says it so quietly, so sincerely, that you get the sense that heâs never said it before. Maybe only thought it on dark nights, when youâre so alone with your thoughts itâs maddening. Smiling, shaking your head, you lift a hand to his cheek. Your heart hiccups at how he relaxes into your touch.Â
âI donât think you have to worry âbout that,â you whisper.Â
Youâre not sure who moves first, whether itâs him or you, but you end up a hair-width apart at the lips. His breath is hot as it fans onto your lips. Risk comes like a lightning rod and you take it, pushing onto your toes, connecting your lips with his. His hand finds yours and squeezes. That small gesture, as innocent as it is, tells you that youâre crossing this boundary together, from friends into something more.Â
Pistachio PastriesÂ
The smell of coffee rouses you from sleep. You hum sleepily into your pillow, nuzzling in the scent of your boyfriend: peppermint and sage. A heavy palm gently pets your hair.Â
âWake up, sleepy,â Mark murmurs.Â
You grumble in protest and he chuckles. The bed dips and the duvet lifts as he climbs back into the cocoon of warmth. Rolling over, you tuck yourself against him. He always slept in pyjamas. It was adorable. Nothing cheesy: just a simple shirt and flannel bottoms. His arm hooks around your waist and holds you against him. You swear to God, you could hide here forever. Mark was safety and security. Mark was the netting beneath a trapeze artist. Mark was the emergency brake in a racing car.Â
âWednesday again,â he says, stroking the skin of your back. âKiara messaged the Instagram page today. Said one of them will drop off an order around one-ish.â
âSweet.â
An alarm blares from Markâs phone and he cusses, breaking apart from you to retrieve it and turn it off. You take the opportunity to sit up and grab your coffee. The steam tickles your nose as you blow on it. Routine. Mornings spent in the mini home Mark had made in his parents backyard, in their old shed. He brought you coffee in the morning and you brought him tea before bed. Youâd be asleep by ten and awake by eight. Your shifts at the smoothie shop typically followed a Monday through Friday routine, with the exception of midweek, with Wednesdays reserved for The Stirring Spoon. Weekends passed in a blink. Then, you reset to continue with the same thing again.Â
But thatâs okay. Routine is okay. Itâs reliable. Monotonous in a way that assures certainty. Besides, you liked your job, and your coffee, and your Stirring Spoon. But maybe it might be nice to stray from it all, just for a change.Â
You carefully place your coffee back on the side table and look over to Mark. Heâs scrolling on his phone, lips set in a line, brows tugged together in vague concentration. A thrill runs through your body at the thought, as you press several kisses to the skin of his neck. You feel him breath beneath you. Then a kiss comes to your forehead, quick like a grandparent to their least favourite grandchild.Â
âBaby,â you hum, lifting a hand to rub your finger along his jawline.Â
âMhm?â
âDo you have any, likeâŚthings you wanna try.â
He takes a moment to think, looking up from his phone. A smile comes to his face and he looks down at you, and your body burns with anticipation. âSurfing. Was never that good at it but Iâd like to try it again, yâknow?â
It fizzles away like water atop of a dying flame. âOh. Yeah, no, yeahâŚthatâsâŚyou should do that.â
He frowns. âYou okay?â
âWell, I just meant moreâŚin the bedroom. Like anything, I donât knowâŚâ Your face burns like youâre a nun stumbling across a Playboy magazine. âKinky?â
âKinky?â
âNot like oh my God, kinky. JustâŚI donât knowâŚâ
He quirks a brow, smiling at you in a teasing sort of way. âYou got some kink youâre not telling me about?â
âMaybe,â you tell him, hoping it comes out seductive.Â
âI donât know,â Mark sighs, resting his head back against the wall. You watch his Adamâs apple bob as he swallows and you lick over your lips. He grins, like something dawned upon him, and he dips his head suddenly to press his lips to yours. âWanna know what Iâve always wanted to try?â
âMhm,â you say, lifting your hands to cup his face and keep him near. Yes, your body practically cries. Tell me, tell me, tell me.Â
âWell,â he stalls, kissing you again. You chase his lips, shortening in breath. âIâve always wantedââ another kiss â-to try-â another kiss â-doing it in the shower.â
Itâs hard not to deflate completely with disappointment.Â
Wow, yeah Mark. Kinky.Â
But when you open your eyes, you come face to face with a nervous, sweet, caring Mark. A Mark who always makes sure you feel good and safe. A Mark who would never walk past an elderly man struggling to cross the road. A Mark who would donate a twenty dollar bill he found on the roadside. And you can see it in his eyes, this burning passion, this shock at his own words, because for him, that was like confessing to watching gangbang porn in a Church. So, you plaster on a smile, feigning excitement. âNo, yeah. Thatâd be fun. We should totally do that.â
âYeah?â
âYeah,â you grin, kissing him again. He sighs, pushing back against you. Your body sparks up again. The feel of his hands on your sides is like static energy. âWe should try it now.â
âNow?â
âMhm,â you nod eagerly, kissing at his lips desperately. âGood way to start the morning, huh?â
âMaybe,â he says. He pulls away slightly, guilty as he adds, âbut itâs been a while since I cleaned the bathroom. And I promised my mom Iâd help her out today, and I gotta be good to go in like ten minutes soâŚâ
âOh.â
He kisses you fleetingly on the lips and then tosses the bedsheets off his lap. You watch him get up. âBut maybe soon? Like Friday?â
Routine with scheduled sex.Â
âOkay,â you say through a false smile. You sink against your pillow and watch him put on his slippers. The moment his back turns, you drop the expression. Youâre so disappointed there doesnât feel much point in trying to get off by yourself now, either. You donât seem to fix your frown quick enough before he turns back around.Â
âOh, hey, baby, I didnât mean to upset you,â Mark frowns. He lowers down so his eyes are level with yours. You pout like a child as you look at him. He pushes some hair off your face. âI swear, if I werenât about to go help my mom, Iâd be all over you right now.â
âMhm.â Maybe you are being a bit selfish. Heâs helping his mother for Godâs sake! Smiling, properly this time, you jokingly warn, âIâm gonna hold you to that, Mark.â
âYou better,â he winks. He kisses you before leaving the room, into the bathroom. Sighing, you roll on your back and blink up at the ceiling. You practise your mantra - Mark is good. Mark is good for me. Mark is good. Mark is good for me - and you get up to start your day.Â
The Stirring Spoon is a good distraction from your whining libido. Itâs hard to think about fucking when youâre comparing shapes of pasta. And yet, you still find a way. Because as you stack packets of spaghetti, you try and recall the last time you and Mark had really good sex. Not sex where itâs soft and nice and satisfying. Sex when you feel like you might cry or scream, just to cope with the pleasure pulsing through your body. Sex when youâre actually scared that you might have a heart attack from how fast your heartâs beating. Was it ever like that with Mark? Was it ever like that with anybody else?
Yes.Â
âHey.â
The very boy who just popped into your mind like a vision stands before you, crate in hand, smile on face, as if you manifested him.Â
âJJ.â
âYou good? You were looking at that spag pretty hard,â he asks, amused.Â
âNo, yeah, Iâm good,â you say. You drop the pasta like itâs incriminating to what you were thinking about. Donât tell JJ about the hot sex I was thinking about with him, pasta, please. âWhatâre you doing here?â
âDelivery from Kildare County Kitchen,â he says, dropping the crate down onto an empty spot on the table. âSome of Cleoâs less deadly version of her gumbo; a few sandwiches that Sarah whipped up; and some fish me and John B caught the other day.â
âDamn, thatâs quite the haul,â you say, glancing into the crate and surveying its contents. âThanks, JayJ.â
As you retrieve the items and lay them out carefully and neatly on the table, JJ shoves his hands in his short pockets and looks around the yard. âSo. Loverboy here?â
âHeâs busy today, helping his mom.â
âAh. You short of a helping hand today, then?â
âWhy? You want to help?â you say, half-joking. But JJ shrugs.Â
âIâm not doing much. Why not?â
âDonât the others need you back at the shop?â
âThereâs five of them, I think theyâll manage,â JJ replies sardonically. He claps and rubs his hands together. âWhere do I start?â
âUmâŚâ You stand upright and scan the area, checking what looks the most chaotic. As if on cue, the local bakery van pulls up. âOh, sweet. Delivery. You can help me unload and log inventory.â
âYes, maâam.â
The two of you walk over to the van, side by side, hands kept politely to yourselves. Small talk sits on your tongue but doesnât make it into the world.Â
âMorning Mr Parker,â you call.Â
âMorning, darlinâ,â he croons in his southern accent. âYou too, Maybank.â
âGood to see you, sir,â JJ nods.Â
âWhat you got for me today?âÂ
âSome good stuff, Iâm not going to lie to yâall,â he grins over his shoulder before opening the doors to the back of the van. Mr Parker pulls out a tray of sealed baked goods. JJ steps in and takes it, and as he holds it you crack open the lid to peer in.Â
âPastries?â
âPistachio pastries,â Mr Parker says proudly. His takes off his cap and brushes a hand through his short grey hair. âMy wife got a bit carried away. People in this town donât have that fancy of taste buds.â
âMaybe not on the Cut,â JJ mumbles, making you smile.Â
âWell, be that as it may, glad I can contribute something to your little venture,â Mr Parker tells you. He squeezes your shoulder sweetly. âYâall doing a good thing, with this here Stirring Spoon.â
âThank you,â you say, overwhelmed by the simple praise. âWell, we appreciate any contribution, especially pistachio flavoured ones.â
With that, the three of you get to work carrying the four trays of baked goods to a spare table. Bidding Mr Parker farewell, you and JJ take pause against the table.Â
âI think Iâve earnt a break.â
âYouâve been here less than an hour.â
âTime flies by when youâre having fun, and all that,â he says passingly as he cracks open one of the bakery tubs. He grabs one of the pastries and tosses it into his mouth. His eyes widen as he chews. âHoly shit. These are so good.â
âJJ, youâre not supposed to eat theââ
â--try one.â A pastry is shoved into your mouth. You glare at him but bite, and holy shit this is really good. It must read on your face cause JJ grins. âYeah, right? So good.â
âOh my God,â you mumble. The two of you smile at one another like youâre stealing cookies from a jar.Â
âYou remember that time we got high and raided Popeâs dadâs fridge?â
You laugh and nearly choke on the flaky pastry. âOh my God, I totally forgot about that.â
âYou were like a fucking racoon,â JJ sniggers.Â
âYou were the one that got me high in the first place.â
âI didnât fucking drug you! You wanted to try it!â
âYeah, I did,â you grumble, unwilling to accept responsibility for completely draining the Heyward fridge.Â
âYouâre cute when youâre high.â
You glance up at him. His smile is coy, like he knows he shouldnât have said that. Because he shouldnât. Rolling your eyes, you play it off as best you can. âCute whilst Iâm stuffing my face with questionable cheese?â
âYeah,â he chuckles, shrugging. âYouâre cute all the time though, so guess itâs not very hard for you to be even cuter high.â
âJJ, stop it.â Your tone is gentle but firm. âI have a boyfriend.â
âOh, Iâm aware,â JJ says. âCaptain Vanilla.â
You hate how he isnât completely wrong. âThatâs not his name.â
âItâs just too easy,â he shrugs, playful as always. âThe guy is a walking textbooked âgood guyâ.â
âWhatâs so wrong with that?â you mumble, picking out another pastry and studying the way itâs rolled.Â
âNothing, I guess. Just find it funny.â
âFunny how?â
âThat youâd go from me to him.â
You glance up from the pastry to meet his gaze. âWe never officially dated, JJ.â
âSame difference,â he shrugs. âBut hey - you know you. You know what you want.â
âExactlyâŚâÂ
You do know you, donât you? It sounds like such a crazy thing to question. But the older you get, the more you think you donât know a thing about yourself. Whatâs your favourite colour? Whatâs your favourite animal? What do you want out of your future? What do you want out of a relationship? Journeying back to the morning, your mind replays the scenes like a horror movie. The worries of when the last time you felt passion in the bedroom feeds into worries of when the last time was that you felt passion, period. Oh no: it feels like an existential crisis might be coming on, about thirty years too early.
âHey.â You snap out of your spiral. JJ forces a smile. âJust wanna know that youâre still living, not just secure. Yâknow. As a friend.âÂ
Funnily enough, that does little to cheer you up.Â
Croissants
JJâs skin is warm against your cheek. Your face rests on his bicep, using it as a makeshift pillow, as you lay skin-to-skin, body-to-body. One of your legs is hooked over his, and his palm rubs large, mindless patterns against the sweat-sticky skin. The room is bathed in moonlight, the curtains drawn closed, and you can hear the sounds of the marsh from outside the Maybank residency. You wonder if JJ might have fallen asleep. His chest is rising and falling rhythmically and you canât see his face from here, to tell if his eyes are open or shut. But then he sighs and you smile against his arm.Â
âTell me about your family,â you request in the quiet of the room.Â
âWhat about them?â
âAnything, really. Like about your mom and dad; if you have any siblings,â you murmur.Â
âNot much to tell,â JJ replies in a hum.Â
âStill. Tell me anyway.â
âTell me about yours,â JJ deflects. You crack a smile.Â
âAlright,â you relent. âI live with my mom and my dad. Sheâs a waitress and heâs a mechanic.â
âYou got any brothers or sisters?â he asks, his thumb massaging your upper leg.Â
âI did,â you say, your voice turning softer. âAn older sister.â
âWhat happened?â
Your lips press together. An image flashes into your mind like a jumpscare, of a coffin dressed in white daisies and lilies. Swallowing thickly, you close your eyes and will the memory away. Itâs then that you decide to confide in JJ.Â
âDo you know who Andy Warhol is?â
âI recognise the name,â he replies after a moment, not questioning why the sudden change in topic.Â
âHe was an artist. Painted a lot of pop-arty things.â
âIs that the freakshow who painted those boring-ass soup cans?â JJ wonders. You laugh quietly.Â
âI wouldnât describe him like that but yeah, thatâs the guy.â
âWhat about him?â JJ asks.Â
âHe was in love with this man, way back when. He kept a diary and this man he was in love with died, and Andy was heartbroken. But he ainât like to say that somebody had died. Instead, he used to write that âthey went awayâ, like on a trip or somethinâ,â you tell him. Your voice trails off towards the end, fearing JJ might laugh at you as you go on to say, âI donât know. I think Iâd like to say that about my sister.â
JJ shifts underneath you until the two of you are lying side by side, now able to see one anotherâs faces through the muggy darkness of the room. His eyes glow in the non-existent light, shining and present, gazing into yours.Â
âWhereâd she go, then? On this trip of hers,â he coaxes. Your lips part in surprise, and for some reason, you want to cry for his small act of kindness. Then, you smile, small and sombre.Â
âTo Paris, in France,â you whisper.Â
âShe go to the Eiffel Tower?â
âEvery day. She eats dinner there at night and watches it twinkle. For breakfast, she buys a croissant and sits by the Seine,â you murmur. Tears wet your eyes as you picture your lost sister, venturing the streets with the wind in her hair, kissing her plump cheeks. Your voice is thick when you continue, âitâs her dream to see all the stuff in the Louvre. She goes every week and keeps a note of where sheâs been and where she wants to go.â
âLike the Catacombs?â
You laugh and sniffle. âNah. Theyâre too creepy for her.â
âDamn straight,â JJ mumbles. âThey scare the crap outta me.â
As a tear lets slip, trickling down your cheek, JJ reaches out his thumb and wipes it away. His hand lingers on your face and you feel yourself lean into his hold. Itâs like heâs holding you up. Heâs holding you together. You open your eyes into his. Thereâs a smile on his face, different to the others. More reserved, less obvious, so different to the JJ youâd known and heard of before. Youâre terrified of losing it entirely or saying something especially stupid, and so instead you mouth two words: âthank youâ.Â
When he kisses you, itâs different too. Thereâs something about it, like a taste that wasnât there before, and it lingers in your mind and mouth. It only grows as JJ deepens the kiss. Your hand traces his jawline and your fingers loop through the locks of his hair, and you tug him closer with a breath. The dance of your lips and tongues and teeth is growing more and more familiar by the day and it terrifies you how easy it has been to become accustomed to it. How easy it has been to become accustomed to JJ. Hands on your hips, JJ lifts you atop of him with a grunt, him rolling onto his back. You shrug the comforter off your back and straddle him. Your hands cradle his face, palms cupping his cheeks. You kiss him like heâs the antidote to all your ailments. Your mouth chases him in the teasing of his lips, breaking apart just to reel you back in. JJâs teeth nip at your lower lip and pull, just so, just enough to have you whining and sighing like some lovesick fool. Maybe you are.Â
âJJ,â you mewl, rocking back against him. He groans as you begin to torture his jawline and neck. Groans louder when you suckle on the tender skin by his ear, painting hickeys like a beautiful landscape. His fingers dig into the flesh of your hips deep enough to leave delicious bruises. You feel him growing hard beneath you as you grind against him like some animal in heat.Â
âFuck, youâre soâŚFuckâŚâÂ
Your lips continue their descent down his body. Kisses are peppered along his windpipe, bridging over his Adamâs apple, and you can feel every breath, every stutter, every sigh. Down his chest, bare and broad, and down his stomach. His hands are now free from your hips and instead they tether into your hair, combing through the strands. You look up at him from between his legs - heâs made space for you - and can make out his lazy smile through your hooded gaze. JJâs looking down at you too. His eyes glow.Â
You ghost a kiss over his boxers and he inhales a long, deep breath, his head tilting back into the pillows, eyes undoubtedly slipping shut. Lips upturning with a smile, your fingers tuck into the band of his boxers, and you pull them down his legs tantalisingly slow. Somewhere in the shadows of the room you hear him mumbling, âplease.â Taking him in hand, revelling in his short gasp, you guide him to your mouth. The smell, the feel - it all consumes you as you go down on him. The brush of bristly hair scratching against your nose, flooding your senses. JJâs hand comes to the back of your head quick, as if guiding your pleasure, wordless praising your ways. Until itâs not wordless.Â
âFuck, thatâs itâŚTaking me so fucking good, huh? Look so pretty like thisâŚâ
You hum around his length and he stammers out a moan. Your eyes flick up to take in the sight of his exposed neck, head thrown back, mouth hanging open as he lets noises slip through, shameless and sinful. And you love it, the way you can bring him to the brink, the way you can manipulate his satisfaction like moulding something out of clay. A finger here, a stroke there. The tip hits the back of your throat uncomfortably. You pull away with a damning pop and a trail of saliva connects the two of you. Resting your head against the apex of his thigh, you jack him off with your hand, almost mesmerised by the way he pulses in your hold. Maybe itâs the sounds he makes. JJ Maybank walks like heâs a God; itâs a power trip to have him weak at your hold.Â
âPlease, please, fuckâŚJusâwant your mouth, baby, please,â he begs through gritted teeth. His hand gently yet firmly pushes at your head, trying to guide you back to him, and you feel a giggle bubble up through your throat. It feels unnatural, this version of you. Sexy, seductive, sly.Â
âYou want my mouth?â you tease, pressing a kiss to his throbbing dick.Â
âFuck - yes, yes, please,â he groans. You glance up at him and meet JJâs gaze. His hair, damp with sweat, hangs over his forehead, dangling over his eyes. A sadistic smile is on your face as you pull away, easing your hand off him too. His brows furrow. Itâs like something snaps inside of him - some restraint he was holding breaking like the overstretching of elastic. His hands are on your in a second, gripping and grabbing at your body like you weigh no less than feathers, and you gasp as he tosses you onto your back. Heâs on top of you, ravishing your throat and collarbone so mercilessly, youâre gaping at the ceiling, eyes wide.Â
âThink thatâs funny, huh? Wanna see how much you like it?â
You stammer something out; you donât even know yourself if itâs a yes or no. All you know is you want him - you need him - on you, in you. Anything. JJ doesnât make you wait. His hands pull your panties away swiftly. A finger slips all too easily through your slit and you gasp, eyes rolling shut. His laugh is deep, crooning, cruel in your ear.Â
âSo fucking wet for me, hm? Such a fucking slut. Wanna see how it feels?â
âP-please.â
The stretch of your walls isnât unpleasant as he eases a finger in. You let out a wanton moan. It pumps leisurely inside, the foreign metal of his ring overwhelming, and the brush of the tip of his thumb against your clit has you panting from the pleasure.Â
âYeah, you like that, huh?â
âFuckâŚâ
âYeah,â he chuckles. Then the torture begins, of the instant movement of his finger, in and out, in and out, before easing away so suddenly itâs like he was never there. After that, the faintest of pressure on the exposed skin at his mercy. His damp finger trailing the inside of your thigh. He repeats this cycle until youâre almost in tears. Your hands clutch the bedsheets in fists, feet writhing uselessly at the head of the bed, kicking at the flimsy pillows. You know heâs gloating from the power he holds. Something tells you he doesnât get this much control in most aspects of his life. Something tells you he gets off this just as much as you. âYou wanna come? Do you?â
âFuck! Please, please, JJ, please. Iâll do anything, please, please,â you blubber. You donât care how embarrassing it sounds; how much it pleases him. All you care about is feeling that hot, blinding, pulsing pleasure consuming your every nerve, every bone, every fibre of your being. His breath is hot against your collarbone. JJ kisses the lobe of your ear in such a tender way you wouldnât be able to fathom the magic he works with his hands below the belt. And as you finally break, tumbling over the edge, letting out a fucked-out sob when you do, you can make out JJâs low voice, his Southern accent thick like molasses.Â
âThatâs it, baby. Make a mess on my fingers.â
SmoresÂ
Despite telling Mark where youâre going, it still feels like sneaking around behind his back as you walk up to the Pogueâs house. But this isnât anything nefarious. This is just you breaking routine. This is you catching up with old friends, current friends, and having fun. Sharing some drinks, smoking a joint or two, sitting around a campfire. Good, old fashioned fun just like when you were sixteen.Â
Yep. Thatâs all.Â
âHey yo! There she is!â JJ hollers the moment you come into view.Â
âHey!â you smile, waving. In your other hand is a bag filled with a six pack of beer, a packet of graham crackers, some chocolate and a bag of marshmallows. You ditch it by the cooler to hug everyone hello. JJâs last. His arms wrap around you like tree vines, secure and strong, and itâs familiar in a way that has you lingering. Mark. You break apart and take a seat on the opposite side of the campfire to him.Â
âWhatâs in the bag, mystery girl?â the girl you now know as Cleo asks.Â
âSome refreshments,â you say, lifting up the six pack. That earns a few whoops and hollers of approval from the already tipsy group. âAnd some snacks.â
âSmores?â Sarah gasps. She takes the bag of marshmallows from you.Â
âJust like old times,â you say. Your eyes catch JJâs. Heâs watching you.Â
âLetâs light these bad boys up,â John B announces. The gang is vocal in their approval. Sticks and twigs are gathered for skewers. Marshmallows dangle over the open flames that lick into the dusky air. A marshmallow shoves at yours and you glower at JJ.Â
âLeave my marshmallow alone.â
âHey, this is America. I got rights, yâknow?â
âSays who?â
âThe constitution,â he retorts, grinning. You roll your eyes, trying and failing to bite back your smile.Â
âYâall better stop it,â Cleo says in her thick Jamaican accent. âI ainât wanting any marshmallows going to waste.â
âYou heard her,â you playfully quip at the blonde haired boy. He rolls his eyes at you. Heâs smiling. The amber of the fire paints his face like an oil artwork. What must it be like to grow up that beautiful?Â
No, no, stop it. Stop it! God, what is wrong with you? This is just because you and Mark have been a bit distant lately. Yes, thatâs all. Youâre getting stuck on nostalgia. Itâs a mindâs trick. It didnât work before with JJ so whoâs to say it will again. The two of you are friends - heâs been a good friend - and you donât need to go muddying the waters. You punish yourself by staring into the flames and trying to make images of Markâs face in the fire.Â
The night spurs on with drinks that wash down the sickly sweet snacks. You listen to the tales of El Dorado and laugh at the reminiscences of youthful madness when you were all in high school. It isnât until youâre back in the bubble of the Pogues that you realise how much you missed it. Itâs like rediscovering your favourite movie from childhood. It brings a certain comfort that few things can match. They ask about The Stirring Spoon and you recount the tale of how you came about with the idea, of how you got it off the ground. Nobody asks about Mark and youâre ashamed that you donât feel the urge to bring him up, either.Â
You go for another swig of your beer to find it empty. The cooler by John B is empty too, upon investigating. You drop the lid.Â
âYou guys got any more beers?â
âProbably some down at the fish and tackle shop,â Kiara tells you.Â
âThanks,â you say, starting towards the dock. The further you walk, the more the vivacious chatter turns into a humming like the crying cicadas and croaking frogs and cooing owls. The water laps at the wooden pillars and you smile, letting your eyes slip shut for a moment as you walk. Nature is so wonderfully peaceful. The cooler is full of bait and chum, but thereâs a small section for the beers. You retrieve one and drop the lid to find JJ standing in your peripheral.Â
âHoly shit!â
âSorry!â
âWhat the fuck, man?â you laugh.Â
âJust wanted a refill too,â he says, shooting you a squiffy smile. His hair is dishevelled. He seems to wear caps less now, you note. Youâre happy about that. In your tipsy state you can admit your attraction with less shame. You chalk it up to appreciating beauty the way one can appreciate a perfect sunset or timeless painting. To stop your staring, you open the cooler and hand him a can. âThanks.â
âHey, cheers,â you say, holding your drink out. He clinks his against yours. âTo old friends.â
The two of you take a drink. Neither of you go to move back to the other Pogues (who are seemingly in some weird charades battle that is far from quiet). JJ gestures over your shoulder. âYou seen the boat yet?â
âThe H.M.S?âÂ
âNah, the new one,â JJ answers.Â
When he walks past you, you catch a whiff of his smell and it reminds you of home. You turn and follow him. He steps up onto the large boat. Itâs painted bright green and in yellow paint, the name reads The Snapper. JJ offers you a hand and you take it, letting him help you up onto the boat. You feel your phone vibrate in the pocket of your shorts but youâre in no mood to check it.Â
âPretty sweet, huh?â
âSo sweet,â you agree, looking around. JJ wanders over to the main console and flicks on an overhead light. He glows beneath it. When he takes a seat on the bench, you do the same, sitting opposite. Sighing, you lean your head back against the brutal plastic. âThis is the life.â
âYeah? You miss the marsh?â
âI miss it all,â you quietly confess.Â
You can hear the rustle of clothes and the flick-flick of a lighter. The smell of cannabis drifts into the air. âHere.â
Opening your eyes, you lift your head to find a joint extended out to you. Smiling, you take it with thanks and have a hit, then a second, then a third. You havenât smoked in what feels like forever. Mark doesnât like the smell; says it makes him feel sick. You wonder why you stopped indulging in something you enjoyed just because of that, even on your own time.Â
âThanks,â you say, passing the joint back. You ditch your beer can to the side. One poison at a time would be best in these sticky situations, you reckon.Â
âWhatâd you mean, âyou miss it allâ?â
âI donât know,â you sigh. You gaze off into the distance; itâs hard to make out much definition in the dark, save for some lights of houses in the far distances and the silhouette of plants and trees. âI feel like my life is soâŚâsameâ now.â
âSame is good.â
âSometimes,â you say. âBut I keep thinking about what you said to me, the other day. About being secure but still living. What ifâŚWhat if Iâm not living?â
âWellââ
â--I mean, look at you guys! You went to El Dorado! You found El Dorado, and the Royal Merchant, and the Royal Merchantâs treasure, and the Cross of Santo Domingo. What did I find? A mouldy tomato in a box of potatoes.â
JJ cracks up and you roll your eyes. âItâs not funny,â you mutter, smiling nonetheless. You take the joint back and have another drag. Relief fills your system. The muscles in your face loosen along with your mouth. âItâs pathetic. Iâm nearly twenty-one and Iâve been as far as Charleston and have about a handful of exciting memories to my name.â
âWoah, come on now,â JJ chuckles, taking the blunt back. âDonât you think youâre being a bit hard on yourself? You heard what Mr Parker said: that Stirring Spoon thing is awesome, and that was all you. Youâre feeding the community, bringing people together. Thatâs way cooler than some shiny fucking stones.â
âMeh,â you shrug. âGuess Iâm just jealous of you.â
âHa! Yeah, donât be,â JJ sarcastically berates. A shadow comes to his face. Foot in the mouth syndrome curses you.
âShit. Sorry, I didnât mean it like that.â
âYouâre good. I sometimes forget how bad it was too, with how things are now,â JJ admits. He smiles at you and takes another hit. âBut I guess I didnât fully let you in then, huh?â
âYou think?â you jest. He laughs, thankfully, and you inhale the sweet scent of the herb. âGuess I just get stuck on the good memories from before. Like all the days skipping school to surf. And how the summers felt like they could go on forever. Or that time we broke into City Hall, or pranked Topperâs house.â
âDamn, I guess we did get up to a lot of shit, huh?â
âDamn straight,â you grin. Following the dance, you take the joint back.Â
âWell, I can think of some other memories, too,â JJ says. His grin is telling, tongue poking through his teeth. You bite back your smile.Â
âDonât,â you warn.Â
âWhat?â he chuckles.Â
âDonât! Thatâs dangerous territory,â you tell him. You point your joint at him. âThatâs no manâs land.â
âOh man!â JJ groans, tossing his head back. âWhyâd you have to call it that!? You know thatâs like calling a moth to a fire or whatever!â
âWhat?â you giggle, eyeing him.Â
âTelling a guy not to do something is the exact thing to do to get a guy to want to do something,â JJ argues nonsensically. You laugh, shaking your head at him. He holds your gaze and you feel your smile settle into your skin like footprints into damp sand. âThey were pretty good memories, huh?â
âYeah,â you quietly say. âThey were pretty good.â
âRemember that time we did it on the beach.â
âStop it,â you say, but thereâs little conviction in your words. You canât take his eyes anymore, the blue dragging you under like currents in a riptide. You look down at the joint and fixate on the way the embers burn at the paper.Â
âOr that timeââ
âJJ, I mean it,â you say, your tone losing its humour now. You shoot him a look that you hope will put a pin in it. âWe should talk about something else.â
âAlright, alright,â JJ surrenders, holding his hands up and all. He relaxes back against the plastic seat of the boat and you do the same. Your legs outstretch so you can rest your feet on the spot beside him. The two of you catch each otherâs gaze and look away, chuckling bashfully like preteens. You take another hit of the joint and watch the smoke fizzle away into the night. âHowâd you meet Mark, then?â
You glance at JJ. âA few months back. Heâd just moved to Kildare and came by to The Stirring Spoon to help out, and we sort of hit it off.â
âHe seems like a nice guy.â
âHe is,â you smile. But it fades. The weed tickles at your emotions, pulling the wires as if to wreak havoc. JJ seems to take advantage.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothing,â you lie. You take another hit and shake your head, plastering on a smile. âItâs nothing.â
Sighing, JJ folds his arms comfortably over his chest. âYâknow, just cause I know what you look like naked donât mean we canât be friends now.â
Barking out a laugh, you shake your head. âThere was definitely a better way you could have put that.â
âProbably,â he shrugs, grinning, âbut itâs true, ainât it? We can be friends.â
âOf course we can. We are,â you emphasise.Â
âSoâŚThat means that if you wanna vent about Mr Loverboy to me, you can,â JJ offers.Â
Laughing, you rock your head back and gaze up at the sky. The stars are out. They shimmer white and crystal in the abyss of the night. âThatâd be too weird, I think, but Iâll keep it in mind, thanks.â
âI just got one question. Just one.â
âGo on,â you reluctantly reply.Â
âDoes he say âthank youâ after the two of you fuck?â
You burst into fits of laughter. Itâs so sudden that it has you doubling over. Tears slip from your eyes and you wipe them away, looking at a grinning JJ. God, you missed him and his twisted sense of humour.Â
âHe just looks like the kinda guy who would!â
âOh my God, no!â you laugh, shaking your head. Catching your breath, you manage out, âno, he doesnât say âthank youâ.â
âIs he the sub then? Cause there is no way that guy is laying his hands on you without written permission.â
âJJ stop! Iâm gonna pee myself!â you cackle, kicking your feet. JJ starts laughing too. You open your eyes and make out his face in the lowlight of the pierâs lamp. Wheezing, you catch your breath and calm yourself. âThis is exactly what I was talking about.â
âI can give the guy pointers if he needs them,â JJ jokes. Your eyes nearly fall out of their sockets just at the idea though and you point at him in another warning.Â
âDonât you dare!â you say, trying not to crack up again. ââSides, he doesnât need pointers.â
âEverybody needs pointers,â JJ says with a roll of his eyes. âJohn B gave me one of the best pointers.â
âI find that impossible to believe,â you snort.Â
âHe did! It was a tip for kissing. Works like a fucking charm too, Iâm telling ya.â
âMhm, Iâll bet,â you sarcastically return. You glance at the joint to check if it needs tapping off, take another drag, and then look up to find JJ watching you. He hasnât changed enough for you to forget what that expression means.Â
âYou want me to show you?â
âShow me? How?â you say with furrowed brows. Something in the air shifts with your question. An unspoken thing, an unseeable thing, but something nonetheless. A nervous tickle comes to your throat.Â
JJ doesnât reply but he slowly leans over the seat towards you. Your breath catches in your lungs the moment he enters your bubble, breaking some unspoken barrier, and your smile fades away like day into night. You feel as though youâre stuck in place, plastered to the seat, and youâre ashamed to admit that you donât hate that you are. Youâre ashamed that youâre not pushing him away, telling him to buzz off, laughing at his idiocy. Youâre ashamed that youâre curious as to what heâs going to do next.Â
JJâs close enough now that you can smell him. His cologne mixed with something sweet but tangy, like seasalt and citrus. Something masculine underneath, that has a primal instinct inside of you wanting to claw its way out. Your fingers grip the edge of the seat instead. Your eyes stare into his. You study the laps of green and grey in the sea of blue, mesmerised in the way the night sky reflects in the iris. His gaze darts down to your lips and you have no idea how this happened and how you got here, and everything is blurry but so, so clear from the cannabis as he leans forward, and you canât move but you should move and you want to move but you donât, you never want to move again, as his lips brush against yours just so, just enough for you to know that they have, that he has, that heâs real, but that he hasnât, and that you can take it all back, and that it doesnât count and it shouldnât and you shouldnât butâ
Your hand clutches his jaw and you pull him in. His lips crash against yours in a breath. You kiss him like you wonât ever kiss him again. He sighs against you in the hurried mesh of mouths, groaning as your tongue brushes against his, tasting him for the first time in years. Itâs like finding a childhood toy and it smells like nostalgia. Itâs like eating a baked good and it tastes like a specific holiday. Itâs like smoking your first joint and it feels like floating.Â
Until youâre not.Â
Your body falls back down to earth with a thud. You shove JJ away as if heâs flammable and youâre the deadly spark. Your mouth hangs open in shock, your eyes filling with horror, and the worst feeling youâve maybe ever felt overcomes you so suddenly, you worry you might be sick.Â
Guilt.Â
âOh my God,â you whisper. You lift a hand to your lips and your fingers brush against the damp of his spit that lingers, and it confirms that it was all real. âOh my God.â
JJâs lips move to try and formulate words but nothing happens. He looks just as stunned as you do. His eyes are wide, lips swollen, cheeks pink. Those three words bang about your brain as you take in the sight of him. Itâs not at all unfamiliar.Â
Hot ash from your joint drops onto your thigh and you cuss, brushing it off. You toss the joint into the sea behind you as if itâs the culprit, the plotter, behind all of this. Then youâre on your feet and rambling out excuses.Â
âIâm so sorry. I donât know why I did that. I think it was - it was definitely the weed. I really should go, itâs so late. Iâm so sorry. Oh my God, I have no idea-â
Itâs as youâre about to step off the boat and onto the wooden pier that JJâs hand locks around your wrist. It freezes you in place once more and you want to climb out of your body and scream at yourself. Instead, you look down at him.Â
âYou can stay, yâknow,â JJ whispers. Thereâs a pleading in his eyes, a tenderness that you havenât known before in him, and you finally know how Eve must have felt with that damn serpent in Eden. Temptation at its finest, dressed up in blonde, unruly hair and dreamy eyes and sculpted muscles and a graphic tee.Â
Mark.Â
You shake your head and snatch your hand free. âThis was a mistake. I shouldnât have come here.â
And no matter how vehemently you tell yourself that you mean it as you hurry away from the pier and from the house, you know you donât.Â
Cheap White WineÂ
The tart tanginess of the wine is sharp on your tongue as you take another swig. Itâs late, or perhaps early, and the Chateau is illuminated by amber and orange from lamps. Itâs raining outside as hurricane season rattles on, but you and the Pogues could care less. When you have wine, you really have everything you need.Â
âCome on, come on!â Kiara laughs, egging on you to loop your arm in hers. The two of you line dance together to an old noughties CD in the player. You swing one another around in a tipsy haze to the upbeat tempo. Pope and John B heckle and holler from the pull-out sofa, toasting their beer cans up in approval. Youâre happy here, like this, in your bubble. As the song comes to a close on a major chord, you and Kiara giggle and take joking bows to your audience. You frown when you look around the room, not finding JJ anywhere.Â
âHeâs on the porch,â Pope says, seemingly catching on.Â
âThanks,â you smile, a little embarrassed that youâre that easy to read. Taking the wine, you venture out the door, closing it behind you as another song starts up. Kieâs cheer and begging for John B to dance is muted through the shutters and windows.Â
JJ sits on the sofa, a joint lit up, legs outstretched on the coffee table. He glances up at the sound of someone coming out and smiles at the sight of you.Â
âHey. Can I join?â you wonder.Â
âCourse,â he hums, shuffling a cushion in invitation beside him. You sit and lean against him, hitching your feet up onto the table beside his. He knocks one of his shoes against yours teasingly and you smile. Through the netting of the porch, you can make out the lashing of rain in the yard. Itâs pitter-pattering is soothing like a nursery rhyme. You sigh and let your eyes slip shut. âHaving fun?â
âAlways,â you mumble, making him laugh. âYou got any dreams?â
âLike sexy ones?â
âNo,â you giggle, elbowing him, making him let out a few laughs too. âLike actual dreams. Ambitions. A wish.â
JJ takes a pause for thought. You have a swig of your wine as you wait, revelling in the sound of his heartbeat through his shirt, steady and constant. âI donât know. Maybe.â
Your heart sinks with disappointment. This wasnât the first time this has happened. It felt as though every time JJ came close to pulling back the curtain and letting you see a glimpse, he caught eye of something that scared him and he slipped it shut again. He told you what he wanted to tell you and kept the rest close to heart. You werenât going to pry his cards from his body to see them, but it would be nice if he showed you them once in a while. It felt like the more time you spent with him, the less you knew. You could guess things from small clues as if playing a boardgame. He hardly went home, never mentioned his mother, and his father came into conversation with a shadow. He spoke lowly of himself, presumed the worst before others could, and it saddened you how clearly he believed everything he said. JJ couldnât see himself the way you did.Â
âI do,â you whisper, hoping it might entice him to share.Â
âOh yeah? Whatâs your dream?â
âI want to start a kitchen.â
âHuh?â
âLike a community kitchen thing. Not a bakery or a restaurant, just a place for all kinds of food, for all kinds of people, yâknow? A good thing, like that. My sister used to help out at a soup kitchen andâŚI donât know. I always liked that.â
JJ squeezes your thigh in acknowledgment. âSounds fuckinâ amazing.â
âThanks.â
In the Chateau, John B and Kiara laugh and Pope speaks loudly over them, something teasing, and you smile. The smell of weed fills the air before you and blends in with the notes of your wine and the telling scent of JJ. You wonder if the smell of you affects him in the same way; if the flavours of your perfume haunt him when he canât sleep the way his cologne does for you. Suddenly, somewhere in the serenity of the moment comes a calamitous realisation, like a rumble thunder breaking the rain.Â
You were falling in love with JJ Maybank.Â
Biscuits Â
Food poisoning. Thatâs what youâd told Mark. The heavy sickness that had sat in the bottom of your stomach like a boulder since last night lingered still. You hoped it was a hangover, but that passed with an advil. You knew what this was.Â
You only escaped the guilt in your sleep. The moment you returned home, you climbed under the sheets of your bed like a child hiding from the bogeyman. Sleep was the only reprieve, though it didnât come easy, and the second you came to in the morning, the first thought in your head was the look on JJâs face just before his lips touched yours.Â
Fuck.Â
Your phone pings with another message that is no doubt from Mark and you canât bring yourself to look at it. It doesnât help that thereâs a framed picture of the two of you staring at you from the bedside. It was his gift to you for your one month anniversary, because of course Mark cares about one month anniversaries. You hadnât gotten him anything; you had to make up some lie that it was late in the mail, and then run to the shops that night. Just further proof that you donât deserve him.Â
Hello, hell? Iâd like to reserve my spot in advance. Queen sized bed please, for me and my whorish ways. Much love.Â
When the phone begins to ring you groan aloud and send it straight to voicemail. You bury your head beneath the pillow and close your eyes, but the memories haunt you like flashbacks. JJâs eyes. JJâs lips. The way he tasted, the way he bit your lower lip just so, in that way that only he knows, in the way that he always knew drives you crazyâ
âStop it!â
Hello, hell? Quick update: I think I might be going insane, too. Just thought I should preface you.Â
Somewhere in your self-loathing, you manage to drift off into another restless sleep. Itâs broken by a tapping on your door. Groaning, you force yourself out of the safety of your bed and wander to your door, expecting to find your mom. Instead, your head tips back to see the face of your boyfriend.Â
âHey,â he says. His voice is thick with concern, brows knitted with worry. âHow you feeling?â
âLike shit.â Thankfully, you didnât have to lie with that one. âWhatâre you doing here?â
âI needed to check on you,â he replies. He steps into your room and you make space, sitting on your bed. He closes the door behind him. âI tried calling but you didnât answer.â
âYeah, sorry, uhâŚI was just feeling really frail, yâknow?â
âOh, baby,â Mark sighs. He sits beside you on the bed and places his large palm on your forehead. His brown curly hair sits in perfect ringlets atop of his head. One dangles over his forehead, out of formation, and it reminds you of JJ. Just how you went from me to him, JJ had said. Were they that different, after all? âYou got a temperature?â
âI donât think so,â you say. You gently push his hand off your face. âI think I just need to sleep.â
âWell, Iâm here to take care of you.â
âReally?â You hope the dread in your voice isnât obvious.Â
âCourse. Youâd do the same for me,â he smiles. He lifts a bag you didnât even notice he was carrying and shows you each item. âMamaâs homemade biscuits. Sheâs real worried about you, yâknow?â
âIâm fine,â you insist, âjust a bit sick. I think the worst of it has passed.â
âThatâs good, then. Iâll make you a hot drink, yeah? We can watch a movie or something. You get cosy,â Mark tells you. You nod and try your best to smile. Mark leans forward and presses a fleeting kiss on your lips, and the sickness comes back tenfold. You want to cry the second heâs out of your room.Â
Mark is good. Mark is good for you. But what if youâre not good for Mark?Â
Chocolate Chip Cookies
âI donât understand.â
You sigh, rubbing tiredly at your forehead. Bile lingers in the back of your throat but you swallow it down, alongside the feeling of self-reproach. This was it: the conversation youâd been dreading. The conversation that needed to happen. Youâd rehearsed your words in the mirror like practising lines for a play. Journals and diaries filled with debate, as to whether you stay or bolt. But now was as good a time as any, and you knew in your mind what the right thing to do was. You canât risk getting in the car accident if you step out of the vehicle.Â
âDid I do something?â JJ then asks, his voice weak, naked. You meet his gaze and shake your head firmly.Â
âNo,â you breathe, âno, you ainât do nothing, JJ.â
âThen I donât get it,â he repeats, stronger this time. Frustrated. You knew none of this would be easy.Â
âLook,â you cut yourself off with a sigh. You shuffle your crossed legs, sitting on JJâs bed in the Chateau in a way that you never have before, as if youâve never stepped foot inside his life. âMy parents are heading to Charleston for a couple months anyway, to stay with my grandmother and help look after her, andâŚwell, maybe itâs for the better, that we have this distance sooner rather than later.â
âDistance?â
âYouâve been removed, JJ,â you mumble, hoping not to sound accusatory. âAnd thatâs okay, I know youâre busy. I mean, you told me from the start that you donât do the whole relationship-thing. But I donât think I can stay, not right now.â
âOkay, is this some kinda joke?â JJ snaps. He gets to his feet and paces a few steps in the small throughway of his bedroom. Taking off his hat, JJ rakes his fingers through his hair. He looks at you, eyes fiery, expression hard as if to shield from the hurt that you donât mean to cause. âWhat the fuck are you even talking about? I thought we were fine.â
âWe are fine,â you insist. Sighing, you try and find the best way to explain yourself without giving it all away. âLook, I ainât meaning that youâre a bad guy or that youâre damaged or anything like that. I donât think that, not at all. ButâŚHow can I explain this?â
JJ takes a moment or two to calm himself as you hang your head and clench your eyes, searching for the perfect turn of phrase to make your thought process make sense. You find it. Lift your head, soften your gaze at the hurt on his face, and try your best to smile through the sorrow. This wasnât easy for you either.Â
âYou know when you see a tornado?â
He stares at you for a short while before nodding, urging you to continue.Â
âThings that likeâŚTheyâre always so pretty for afar. So mesmerising, how nature can create something like that. Stunning, really. Epic. But then, you get too close, and you get sucked in. And itâs just chaos and thereâs no way out of it without being broken.â
JJ nods again, pursing his lips.Â
âI think thatâs what might happen here,â you whisper. âIf I stick around.â
âI donât get it. Youâre saying Iâm gonna break you?â
âNo, Iâm sayingâŚIâm saying youâre not in a spot right now to give me what I need. That ainât your fault, JJ, but I canât let myself stay knowing that Iâm gonna have my heartbroken. I wish I could - I wish I could just wing-it like that - but I canât.â
Thereâs a pregnant pause that JJ drags out, staring at you as if trying to see into your head, searching for some lie. Sighing, he must come up empty, as he takes the spot beside you on the bed again. You test the waters, leaning against his chest, feeling the warmth radiate through his t-shirt. One of his hands lifts and strokes your hair, smoothing it down.Â
âI really do care âbout you, yâknow? Like, that ainât fake,â JJ admits in a hushed tone.Â
âI know, JJ,â you reply, just as soundless. âI just think you gotta figure yourself out before you canâŚâ
â...love you?â JJ hesitantly whispers, after you lose nerve. Your eyes squeeze shut.Â
âMhm.â
âYou canât love me âtil then, either?â
Laughing sadly, you shake your head against him. He really couldnât tell how much youâd fallen for him already, could he? âI donât think you gotta worry âbout that ever, JJ.â
A soft kiss is planted on your forehead. âSoâŚJust gotta do some soul searchinâ, huh?â
âSomethinâ like that,â you hum. âBut hey, I tell you what.â
You break apart from the comfort of his hold, tilting your head so you can look up, into his eyes. The pain in JJâs gaze tears you like wrapping paper, and itâs worse to know itâs your fault, but you know that itâs the only way to save you both from further pain. It isnât the right time, and thatâs a shame, and it isnât fair, since youâve memorised the outline of him and drawn him into all your plans and daydreams. But you can hear it when you talk and feel it when you sleep together, this detachment, this removal of himself, that canât come until heâs healed in a way that heâs far away from now. Thereâs something pulling him away from you, an adventure of sorts, and you donât want to keep him from it. You want JJ to love you but you want him to choose you, too. And until then, you donât have it in yourself to sit around on the sidelines, waiting for your heart to be broken. Itâs like sitting a toddler in front of a plate of chocolate chip cookies but demanding them not to touch; the temptation might just kill you.Â
âWhat?â JJ gently prompts, bringing you back from your thoughts.Â
Your smile is sick with inner lamentation. âIf you do figure yourself out, after some soul searchinâ and all that, then chances are Iâll still be here. So, I guess, if you ever feel like fallinâ then lemme know. You can catch me on the way down.â
JJâs smile is beautiful, even when his eyes are wet with unshed tears. You lean up and press a fleeting kiss to his lips, but you donât let yourself linger. If you do, youâre afraid youâll never leave. You murmur some sort of goodbye, making an excuse that you should get going, and JJ doesnât argue. He watches you as you stand, waves farewell with two-fingers as you leave, and you walk home with your heart halfway broken but more whole than it mightâve been if you stayed and tried to make this impossible thing work. JJ wasnât ready to fall in love, not yet, but you already had.Â
Ham and Cheese Sandwiches Â
âAre you sure youâre feeling okay?â
âYeah, I promise,â you reply to Mark, smiling reassuringly. You wonder if it looks like a grimace. It feels like one. Even touching him makes you want to cry, as you brush your hand atop of his on the table. Your feigned food poisoning was two days ago now but Mark was still worried for your health, likely because you were still acting so withdrawn and drained. Itâs hard to sleep when youâre consumed by guilt and confusion. âWhy donât you see if Nancy needs a hand in the kitchen, yeah? I can work on the inventory out here.â
âYou sure? I donât mind helping.â
âIâm sure,â you nod. âI can come get you if I need anything.â
âYou better,â he grins. He dips his head and kisses you and it takes everything inside of you not to pull away like a flinch. Itâs not him. Itâs you. You feel like youâre poison. Like JJâs kiss has infected you and you canât get Mark sick too. His brown curls bounce as he walks back to the building. You busy your mind with counting tins of soup. The Stirring Spoon had never had so many posters, so many new recipes, with how much youâd been trying to keep yourself busy. You picked up extra shifts at the Smoothie Shop to avoid Mark during the daytime, and you submerged yourself in your voluntary-planning work and âearly nightsâ to avoid him during the night. It wasnât fair to him but you didn't know what else to do.Â
Well, thatâs a lie. You know exactly what you should do, but denial is so much easier.Â
Ducking down, you grab another box of leftover soup from a local supermarket. Theyâd recently changed providers and all the old stuff had to go. You were thinking of making toasted sandwiches with soup. Grunting, you lift the box onto the table. The sun beats down on you as if the universe is punishing you. Good, itâs the least I deserve.Â
You can spot him anywhere, even blind. Heâs in the far corner carrying a smaller box than usual, compared to his crate. A sudden wave of panic comes over you and you speed walk over to him. He frowns as you approach.Â
âYou good? Hey!âÂ
You grab his arm and drag him out of sight from the field, behind an overgrown bush. âW hat are you doing here?â you hiss.Â
âBringing sandwiches?â he replies, as if it should be obvious. âAre you okay?â
âJJ, you canât be here,â you snap. âMark is literally in the other building!â
âSo?âÂ
âSo? Do youâŚDo you not remember what happened the other night?â you ask, calming down slightly.Â
JJ sighs and puts the box down on the floor. Shoving his hands in his pockets, he shrugs. âLook, clearly you spun out. I ainât gonna mention it if you donât want me to.â
âWaitâŚReally?â
âJesus Christ, I ainât a homewrecker,â JJ chuckles, trying to lighten the mood. You want to crack a smile but you think your face might be permanently stitched in perpetual concern forever. His laughter dies. âListen, I think you got some stuff to figure out, aâright?â
âExcuse me?â
âDonât get offended! Iâm jusâ sayingâŚâ JJ cuts himself of with a sigh and brushes a hand through his hair. He pinches the bridge of his nose. You missed all his little ticks and quirks. âLook, donât kill me for sayinâ this, Iâm just tryinâ to be honest. I donât think Markâs the right guy for you.â
âI-â
âIâm sorry, aâright? I donât think you want to admit it either butâŚI think you gotta be honest. You donât love him, okay? And thatâs aâright, Iâm not saying heâs a bad guy. I just think you need to make a choice.â
âWhat does that mean? A choice?â you quietly ask, terrified for his answer.Â
His smile is sad as JJ shrugs. âI was an idiot to lose you once, I ainât gonna lose you again - not if I can help it. If Markâs who you want - if Mark makes you feel like youâre living - then Iâll never bring it up again. Hell, Iâll stay away from you forever, if you want. Least, Iâll try to. I donât know if I can be held accountable for when Iâm drunk but- look, now Iâm getting side tracked. The point is:â, JJ speaks with his hands, âif Mark isnât the one for youâŚIâm here to catch you, yâknow?â
You blink at JJ and blink away the tears. Youâre not sure if you can form words right now, not even sure what words they would be, so you try your best to nod. JJ tries another smile.Â
âThereâs some sandwiches from Kie and Sarah for today. I hope it all goes okay. JustâŚlemme know. Or donât, yâknow? Either way,â he trails off with a shrug. You feel cemented into the dirt as JJ backs away. Then heâs gone. Your eyes slip shut. Some weird hybrid of JJ and Markâs faces fill your thoughts.Â
âIf you ever feel like fallinâ then let me know. You can catch me on the way down.âÂ
âIâm here to catch you.âÂ
You need to figure this out and fast. It wasnât fair to anybody, not even yourself. Dragging things out doesnât make it any easier, it only delays the inevitable, like tediously inching a bandaid off the skin. Sometimes you just have to rip. You just have to prepare for the aftermath.
How ironic, how when you were sixteen it was you waiting for JJ to figure himself out, and now itâs your turn. Itâs a shame you were never all that much of a fan of irony.Â
Cinnamon BunsÂ
Baking is therapeutic. The precision of weighing out the ingredients; the cathartic relief from beating together butter and sugar until fluffy like clouds; the tapping and cracking of eggs; the rhythmic folding of flour; the soon-to-arrive reward for your labour. You like baking when life gets stressful. Few things are so systematic, so simple, so quick to resolve, as baking. Life is more complicated than that.Â
Mark and JJ. Two sides of different coins. Neither good, nor bad. Human, just like you.Â
As you prepare the batter for cinnamon buns, you try to make sense of everything. Figure yourself out, as JJ had put it.Â
Mark was designed to be easy to fall in love with. It was as if the universe had a recipe for him, everything the girls crave, the people fawn over in romance novels, the parents pray for in their childâs partner. Responsible; caring; thoughtful; kind; secure; safe. Mark was good. There was no other way to put it. Hell, you met him at a voluntary community kitchen. He gave you stability like a white picket fence. Perfect and practised, like heâd been waiting for that his whole life. But you found yourself restless in the fairytale. Found yourself itching for change, for chaos, for clutter. He was sentimental in a way you werenât. That wasnât to say you were heartless - the two of you just loved differently.Â
JJ Maybank? He wasnât designed for it in the same way, but it was impossible to not fall in love with him. You knew it from the moment your paths crossed, back when you were sixteen and the two of you tumbled through two months together. Thatâs why you left in the first place. To save yourself from the inevitable heartbreak that it would bring, because sixteen-year-old JJ was in no place to commit to anybody. You assumed that with time your feelings would fade away and when you met Mark, you believed they had. You liked Mark - that wasnât false - and you had feelings for Mark. But the love you had for JJ didnât vanish. Like energy, it could only be transferred. It went into the back of your mind as if in hibernation but the moment JJ waltzed back into your world, it was awake. It was impossible to ignore.Â
Mark was the netting beneath a trapeze artist, but JJ was the acrobat. Mark was the emergency brake in a racing car, but JJ was the driver. But JJ was safety too. He made you feel safe, but he also made you feel alive.Â
And you wanted to feel alive.Â
Mark was routine. He was predictable. You could see the next five, ten, twenty years of your life laid out nice and neat with Mark. But did you want that? Did you want to give up the adventure? The chaos? The things you missed so desperately.Â
As you drizzle the topping on top of the cinnamon buns, you summarise your scrambled thoughts into one neat realisation: you wouldnât have kissed JJ if you truly wanted Mark.Â
Your heart feels like itâs in your throat as you walk to Markâs house. The buns sit neat in the tupperware and youâre careful not to shake them. His door looks like a tombstone as you knock on it. Thereâs a noise from inside and the door opens. Mark smiles down at you. Heâs dressed in a baby-blue waffle sweater and itâs so undeniably, so wonderfully him.Â
âHey!â he grins.Â
âCan I come in?â you ask. It sounds ridiculous asking that when you used to sleep in this house almost daily.Â
âCourse,â Mark replies. He opens the door further and you slip inside. It shuts behind you. You place the tupperware on the countertop, taking too much time in letting go. âYou alright?â
âMhm. I justâŚI think we should talk about some stuff,â you say, feeling your voice losing power.Â
âAlright. Come, sit,â he urges. You do as he asks and take the spot on the bed beside him, leaving a gap. âWhatâs up?â
You fumble your fingers together and stare intensely at your hands, racking your mind for the words, for where to start. Youâd practised this so many times in the mirror. Childish.Â
âI did something and I need to tell you, because youâve always been so good to me, and so honest with me, and it isnât fair to hoodwink you.â
âOkay,â Mark faintly replies.Â
You take a steady breath in. Mark is good. He deserves the truth. âI went to see JJ last week, and one thing led to another, and we kissed.â
For a moment, thereâs nothing. Just the sounds of the air conditioning unit humming as white noise. Then,Â
âOh.â
You clench your eyes shut before looking up at him. Heâs detached in his expression. Your eyes fill with tears. âIâm so sorry, Mark,â you whisper, scared your voice will break if you talk any louder. He meets your gaze. âYou donât deserve that. You donât deserve to be treated that way. Youâre such a good, genuine person. I justâŚI donât know why, but I justâŚI canât love you.â
Mark swallows thickly. The tears are warm and sticky on your cheeks. Itâs so selfish to cry when youâre the one who threw the punches. You hang your head with shame and watch the teardrops land on your restless hands.
âI swear I didnât plan it. I didnât even know I still had feelings for JJ untilâŚWell, until then.â
âI did.â
Your head snaps up. Heâs staring at you, but he doesnât look angry. No. Thereâs a shadow of a smile on his lips. A sad smile, no doubt, but a smile nonetheless.Â
âYou did?â
âThe minute you saw him, that Wednesday at the start of the month. I saw it on your face, clear as day. You never used to look at me like that.â
âMarkââ
â--Thatâs okay,â he nods. Heâs crying too, now, and youâre not sure what to think, what to do. But Mark does. Of course, he does. His hands reach out to hold yours, warm in his clutch, and you blubber like a petulant child. âYouâre not a bad person, Y/N. I could tell something was bothering you this past week.â
âI just didnât know how to tell you, and I didnât even know what it meant. But I have to be honest for the both of us, and I donâtâŚI donât think Iâm the girl youâre looking for, Mark,â you say through your tears.Â
Mark smiles solemnly and nods once. The squeeze of your hands tells you everything. I know. I agree. Itâs okay.Â
âDo you hate me?â you ask in a moment of pure patheticness. Mark laughs and shakes his head.Â
âYouâre too pretty to hate.â
âUgh! You canât say things like that!â you whine, throwing your head back. He laughs again, soggy with his sorrow, and he shrugs.Â
âJust got to keep my good-guy rep up.â
Laughing, you shake your head at him and smile. The two of you share a breath and he nods. A conclusion. His smile dwindles.Â
âIâm gonna need time, thoughâŚBefore we can be friends, maybe. Just toâŚYou knowâŚâ
âOf course,â you whisper. âI understand. Whatever you want, whatever you need. Itâs all on your terms, I promise.â
Mark nods. Thanks you. It is so fucking bizarre to have the man you cheated on thank you but here we are. Life is full of strangeness.Â
âCan I give you a hug?â you wonder. Chuckling, he nods, and you waste no time in throwing your arms around his shoulders. Mark holds you in the embrace and the two of you savour the feeling of one another for one last time. Against his shoulder, you murmur, âIâm going to miss you, Mark.â
âIâm going to miss you too,â he tells you into your collarbone. âJJâs a lucky guy. But make sure to tell him I know where he lives if he hurts you.â
You tearfully giggle against him. âIâll pass on the message.â
Bacon Sandwiches
Itâs warm today; bright and brilliant. The critters are happy, chirping in the trees, croaking in the overgrowth by the water of the marsh that lines the Pogueâs house. Your footsteps feel heavy as you walk up the driveway, anticipating weighing you down. You lift a hand to shield your eyes from the sunlight and make out JJ. Heâs at the entrance to the shop, stood a few rungs up a free-standing ladder. Heâs trying to staple something to the walls - a banner of some kind - and you make your way over.Â
âNeed a hand?â
He jumps and you cringe. Oops. JJ looks down at you and his lips quirk at the corners. The muscle tee he wears is grey and hangs loose on his well-kept frame. Heâs armed with a staple gun. âYo. Whatâre you doing here?â
âWant a hand?â you repeat, nodding up at the banner, not quite ready to confess. JJ shrugs and nods.Â
âSure. Thanks.âÂ
You glance around and find something that looks sturdy enough to stand on. Dragging it over, you boost yourself up and hold out your hand to take the other side of the banner. Holding it up against the wall, JJ leans forward and steadies himself with an elbow on the wooden panelling.Â
âWeâre selling bacon sandwiches on weekends now, so thought we oughta advertise it, yâknow? So, anyway, whatâre youââ a grunt and a click of the staple gun, â-doing here?â
You step down from your boost and JJ takes your place. You donât speak, stalling time, as JJ secures the banner. Sighing, taking it in, nodding with contentment, JJ jumps down and ditches the gun. The he stands with his hands on his hips and looks at you, shrugging again.Â
âI, uhâŚI needed to talk you,â you say, clearing your throat.Â
âAâright. What about?â
âJust likeâŚâ You rock your head back, take a breath, and steel yourself. Somewhere in that split second, you find a new mantra. JJ is good. JJ is good for me. Iâm good for JJ. Weâre good for each other. Smiling, you look at him again. âDid you mean it?â
âMean what?â he mumbles.Â
Thereâs a playfulness, a teasing, as you shrug. âThat youâll catch me.â
You can see the words as they process through his head. See the moment he tracks the meaning, parses it altogether. A smile, beautiful and brimming, greets you, and then JJ crosses the gap between you in two large strides. He wraps his arms around you and lifts you up in an embrace. He swings you around for good measure and you laugh, looping your arms around his shoulders, holding him close, smiling against him. This is good.Â
âYou mean it?â
âI mean it,â you whisper in reply. He carefully reunites you with the ground. You smile up at JJ, gazing into his blue eyes, bathing in their depths. Your hand strokes along his jaw, slides down his front until it rests just above his heart. âIt was always you, JJ.â
âYou thinkâŚYou think you can love me now?â he nervously asks.Â
You shake your head with a silent laugh. It feels like breathing, like youâre finally free, as you admit, âIâve always loved you.â
It comes and goes like a comet; the flash of shock in his eyes; the glow of his smile; the burning passion of his lips on yours. And as you kiss JJ, without guilt, without fear, you finally feel at home. When you break apart, short of air, JJ rests his forehead against yours. His thumb smooths along the soft line of your jaw and you smile. He takes a small breathe, shaky, unsure, but JJ's words are sure like bedrock.
"I love you too."
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hiii can I be 𦢠anon!
I was thinking maybe reader sexing prof heeseung
swan is saved for you! enjoy this drabble xxx
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âArenât your students coming soon?â
âI hope so.â Heeseung smiles down at you wickedly but it doesnât stop you from looking up at him from where you sit on his desk in the empty classroom. Itâs a free period for him and heâs called you in under the guise of revising a paper, but you know better than to believe that. You smack his chest at his innuendo.
Everybody knows who Heeseung is: a great professor who is as passionate about teaching as he is when it comes to literature. He started as a TA at this university before obtaining his PhD in literary studies and passes on his love for knowledge to his students.
You sit in the third row just shy from the center in your pretty dresses that are modest enough to wear to class but stylish too. Unlike the rest of your classmates, you arenât afraid to answer Heeseungâs questions and raise your hand to give you input either. He likes that about you and itâs what made you his favorite student.
Heeseung loves ambition in people because he sees it in himself. He loves it when his students have that drive to them and loves reading papers and grading test scores from his brightest pupils. It makes him so proud.
You fit in his life somehow in ways he hadnât imagined. You, with your supple skin and bright mind enticed Heeseung the first time you took advantage of his office hours. Youâd been the first student to visit him and talk about the course material, and it didnât help that you were wearing a short skirt on a hot day with your thighs sticking to the leather seat below you. He went home that night and touched himself to the thought of gripping your thighs as he fucked you in his office.
The first time the two of you were alone at a late hour on campus was by accident. You couldnât make it to his office hours and asked to schedule for a time after classes were over and spent an hour discussing the lesson plan and your favorite authors. The second time was by accident too, as he had run into you at the library during the evening and offered to walk you to your car since it was so late at night.
The third time was by accident as well, except neither of you cared that clothes werenât involved. Now, he conceals kisses with you in between your classes and his, and keeps his doors locked when you come in to have lunch with him.
âI have thirty minutes before my next class starts and you, baby, have an hour before your exam. Shouldnât you be studying?â
âStayed up all night just so I could do this with you now,â you say, pulling Heeseung closer to you by pushing your legs around him. He holds your waist and you position your crotch right against his. Heâs hard already. âBesides, I perform better after I cum.â
âMm, is that right?â
âYes, professor. Havenât you ever wondered why I test well with your cum sitting inside of me?â
âSo dirty for me.â Heeseung dips down to press his lips right on top of yours like heâs been dying for a taste all morning. âMakes me wanna fuck you real hard.â
âYou have thirty minutes.â
Your sultry voice lures him right in. He doesnât have enough time for foreplay and fears that someone might need him before heâs set to begin teaching so he pulls his cock out of his pants before shoving them down until they reach his ankles. You did him a favor by wearing a dress today and when he pushes a hand underneath to push your panties to the side, he groans when he realizes you arenât wearing any.
Heeseung pushes the tip inside of your wet hole and looks you in the eye. âYouâre trouble.â
âYou like that though, donât you?â
âYeah,â he says, pushing himself further inside of you until youâre arching your chest into him, âI really do. My naughty girl.â
His hips thrust in and out of you at a nice pace. You feel him within your walls and push yourself off of the table with the palm of your hands to angle yourself towards him better with his wet dick sloshing around you. It seeps down onto his balls and Heeseung puts his own hands on the desk beside you in order to kiss you.
âDid you complete your online assignment?â
âReally, Hee? Youâre asking me that now?â
Heeseung smirks and pushes himself in and out of you faster until youâre yelping against his lips. âYeah, I am. Donât want my best student to fall behind just because sheâs drunk over some cock. Did you finish it, Y/N?â
âY-Yes!â
âDo you think you did a good job?â
âI did!â you whine against him as Heeseung kisses your neck. âI double checked my references!â
âPerfect student with a perfect pussy.â He pulls back far enough to see his cock disappearing inside of you. âWooooow. Would you look at that?â
âWish you would come fuck me in my dorm,â you whine. âI hate fucking in your office.â
âYou like my bed though, donât you? My bed is much bigger than the pathetic twin the university gives you.â
âYeah, but think about it. Itâs really hot when you know we shouldnât be fucking there.â
He shakes his head and kisses your lips to silence you. âCanât risk getting seen by other students, baby. Fucking in my office is risky enough.â
âThen you should make me cum so we donât get caught.â
Heeseung heeds your warning and uses the strength in his legs to push you onto the desk until your legs are in the air. His hands come to your calves to keep your legs apart just how he likes you to be, watching your silk-like pussy folds envelope him like youâre a siren waiting to ruin him.
You come when he comes. That feeling of sudden warmth in your hole makes you go insane every time he does it. Heeseung pulls out enough to watch as the rest of his cum drips onto your folds until heâs soft enough to clean the two of you up. He wipes you down with a spare tissue before he leans down to lick one strip up your pussy and kissing your clit before closing your legs for you.
âSame time tomorrow?â You bat your eyelashes at him and he laughs.
âI have a faculty meeting, unfortunatelyâŚWhy donât you spend the weekend with me?â
âOh? And do what professor?â
âI think you know what.â
He wills himself not to get hard again.
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Hii this is a bit of a strange ask
Could you make a small Drabble of any Hayden character that you think suits it best, but of that one Wolf on Wall Street scene ânothing but short short skirts around the houseâ the reader does it for about a week and whatever character you choose goes crazy? :>
Author's note: dear beautiful nonnie, this isn't a strange ask, it was perfect. Although i couldn't decide to chose one particular character, so I most of them :33
DAVID RICE
STEPHEN GLASS
David would be obsessed from the start, instantly giving in with zero resistance. It starts with him just catching glimpses as you walk around the house, his head tilting with every inch you reveal. But by the end of the week, heâs teleporting to meet you in every room you enter, each jump closer than the last. âYou know,â his gaze dipping down to trace your curves, âthis week has been torture.â He doesnât even try to hide how much he wants you now, a mischievous smirk tugging at his lips. With one swift motion, he pins you against the wall, his hands exploring every curve. "Think you can just wander around like that and not expect me to... get ideas?" His fingers slip beneath the fabric, his voice a delicious murmur. "Iâve got a few places in mind I could take you right now.."
Stephenâs flustered from the start. You notice his stammer whenever you walk by him, his eyes flicking up and down as he tries to act casual, but itâs hopeless. By the third day, he can barely keep it together, sneaking glances over the top of his glasses, his fingers nervously tapping on his notebook. âYou, um,â he clears his throat, shifting in his seat, âyou know, youâve been, uh⌠reallyâŚdistracting.â He stammers, cheeks flushed, his voice dropping. Finally, he gets bold, stepping closer, his fingers grazing your thigh. âThis little skirt? Itâs not helping me work, you know.â You catch the look in his eyes as his hand starts to travel up, and suddenly, shy Stephen isnât so shy anymore.
AJ
AJ is smooth and knows exactly what heâs doing, but youâll feel him unravel when you start wearing those short skirts. Heâll try to play it cool, but the moment you cross his line of sight, his jaw clenching, his nostrils fluttering, and he just canât keep his hands to himself. âYou donât even know what youâre doing to me, do you?â His voice would be teasing, but his hands would be rough when they grab your plush thighs. Youâd give him a little teasing wiggle, just enough for him to feel your body press against his, and the shift of your hips would make him groan low in his throat. âGet up here, now.â Heâd lift you up onto his lap, and youâd feel him hard against you instantly. Fingers digging into the flesh of your hips âDon't care about anythin' right now but this damned skirt of yours..who even bought you this, sweetheart?" he rubbed his clothed length against your thin panties "cause it definitely wasn't me, would rail you in it way earlier"
ANAKIN SKYWALKER (AOTC)
AOTC Ani is a mess, completely nervous and flushed at how much heâs enjoying thisâhe canât hide it. When you walk into the room, itâs all he can do not to lose it. Heâs quiet at first, trying to keep his composure, but your short skirt keeps pulling his focusâespecially when you casually bend over, giving him a perfect view of your legs, and a little peek up the hem. You can see him shift, his breath hitching as he fights the flush creeping up his neck. âW-Why are you doing this to me?â His hands shake slightly when he finally touches you, his grip on your hips trembling as he holds you to him. Heâs hesitant at first, unsure if heâs allowed to touch you this way, unsure if its even properly to do so, unsure to trust himself to do it. Yet, when you sit down in his lap, thatâs it. He canât hold back anymore. âYouâ you look so...â He stumbles over his words, a little embarrassed, but the heat in his gaze tells you everything. âYou know how hard it is to focus when you're wearing that? Almost made me choke by Master Obi-Wan..â
Anakin Skywalker (ROTS)
VADER
By the time youâre in the ROTS era, Aniâs no longer hesitantâheâs consumed by this dark, obsessive hunger. You in that short skirt? He's about to lose it. As soon as you straddle him, his gaze locks onto your backside, his eyes tracing the curve of your body as you lower yourself onto him. His hands immediately find your waist, squeezing hard as he guides you down. âLook at that ass,â he growls âYouâre gonna sit on me and wear that skirt, and tease me like this?â His hands will travel down your back. His lips are bruising, demanding, pulling you closer as his hands tug you down, hard, against him. âMove for me, baby. I want to see that ass bounce on my thick cockâ
Vader is possessive, controlling, but so gentle in a way that drives you insane. In the privacy of his chambers, after a week of separation, he doesnât even wait for you to speak before heâs on you. His voice is commanding, low, but filled with that unwavering affection. "You���ve tested me all week... and now you're here, wearing this." His hands find your waist, dragging you toward him as he presses his lips against your throat. His grip would be firm, unyielding, but his touch is incredibly softâcaressing your skin as if youâre something fragile, something precious. Youâd feel his mechanical hand slowly explore your body, just shy of dominance, as if worshipping you. âYou look like youâve been made for me,â heâd whisper into your ear, lips brushing your skin. His gaze would be ravenous, following your every movement as if he canât get enough of you. "Yet you do something like that.." And when you lay beneath him, heâd take his time (to tease you), slowly pulling the fabric of your skirt up just to see you, to feel every inch of your skin. His hands are everywhere - groping, squeezing, rubbing the flesh of your skin
SAM MONROE
Sam is a bit rougher than the others, especially with the everything he's went through. Heâs used to being guarded, but you in that skirtâit's breaking him. After days of watching you in that outfit, teasing him, heâs about to explode. âYou think Iâm gonna let you walk around the house like that without doing something about it?â His voice is low, rough, almost dangerous as he slams the door shut behind him. His hands are immediately on youâgripping your hips, slamming you against the nearest wall as he kisses you roughly, taking control. âYouâre gonna be sorry you wore that skirt,â
JAMES KELLY
James is such a soft dom. The minute you slip into that skirt, heâs hypnotized. He wonât push you too fast, but you can tell heâs fighting the urge to devour you. His hands are light at first, as he lets you control the pace. Heâd pull you close, and the soft, gentle way heâd hold you would make your heart race. "You have no idea what you this skirt does to me, do you?" Heâd murmur, lips brushing over your neck as his hands slowly explore your body. Heâs patient, deliberate, yet so desperate to break you. "Got all night to show you how much I appreciate the view"
LEO
Leoâs flirtatious, cocky, and so confident, but when you wear that skirt, you bring out the feral side of him. Heâll tease at first, pulling you close, hands on your waist as he whispers in your ear. âYou wear that skirt to get my attention?â His voice is teasing, but the way he grips your hips shows his true intent. As you sit on his lap, heâs practically grinding into you, unable to hide how much heâs enjoying it. His lips are on yours, desperate and urgent, his hands moving underneath your skirt, claiming you in every way possible, not letting you take off the skirt just yet.
CLAYTON BERESFORD
Clayton is a quiet stormâcalm on the surface but with a dark, possessive hunger just below. When you wear that short skirt, heâs trying to keep his cool, but his focus is slipping. His gaze sharpens as he watches you move, and itâs clear heâs imagining everything he wants to do to you. âYou think you can tease me like this and expect me not to do something about it?â His voice is low, controlled, but it holds a sharp edge. His hands reach for your waist, pulling you closer, his breath quickening as he feels you against him. You can feel his pulse thrum under his skin, the tension building. âIâve been patient,â he murmurs, lips brushing your ear, âbut youâre making it very hard to stay in control.â He slowly lifts your skirt, his fingers trailing up your thighs, dangerously close to the heat between your legs. He leans in, his lips barely touching yours. âIâm going to make sure you never wear this again without me getting a taste.â His hands would grip your hips, and heâd pull you closer, urging you to feel him, to let him take what heâs been craving.
LORENZO
KURT
Lorenzo is a bit of a playboy, cocky and charming, but when you wear that skirt, he canât help but want you in a way heâs not used to. At first, heâs all teasing smirks, playfully checking you out as you walk by, and heâd be very vocal about it. âDamn, that skirt is dangerous, baby.â His gaze is fiery, but his hands would be slow, deliberate, and possessive as they explore your body. âIs this how you get a manâs attention?â Heâd tug you toward him, lips trailing down your neck, his hands massaging your back before they slip lower. Heâd bring you close enough that you can feel the hardness of him pressing against you. "Iâve been dying to take you, but if you keep wearing things like this, Iâll lose all control." Youâd feel the way he grinds against you, his body on fire as he pulls you deeper into him.
Kurt is brooding, intense, and feels the weight of the world on his shouldersâbut you? You make him forget everything, especially when you wear that skirt. Heâs been trying to keep his distance, trying to keep things slow, but he canât. Not with you looking like that. When you slip into the room, that skirt barely hanging on, he snaps. âYou think this is funny?â he growls, eyes drinking every inch of your exposed skin. His hands move without hesitation, gripping your hips and yanking you against him. His lips crash onto yoursâbruising, desperateâas if he's been starved for you. His fingers move up your skirt, rough and unrelenting, slipping under the fabric as he pulls you closer. "I tried to wait... but damn it, youâre making this impossible," he mutters between kisses. His lips trail down your neck, teeth grazing your skin as he explores your body with intent. Heâs not gentleâheâs a man at the edge of his control. âYou want this, donât you? Want me to take you right here, right now baby?â His voice is deep, rasping âcause this is what you wanted, right? For me to lose control?â
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introducing...morose!reader and pinning!matt
divider by: @bernardsbendystraws
In which morose!reader and pining!matt are best friends. Inseparable. They're there for each other..whether it's morning coffee, running an errand, or a night on the couch. There's connection, safety, and desire..they can feel it; they can tase it...
morose: sullen and ill-tempered.
â.Ëmorose!reader can come off as a little bitter, a little detached to strangers who arenât in her inner circle. She finds small talk hard, and she simply does not have the energy to make new friends.Â
â.Ëmorose!reader will disappear for days at a time. She is usually hidden in her room, racking up screen time on her phone or attempting to read the book she restarted four times. Her room is her safe space, filled with trinkets, clothes, and vinyls.Â
â.Ëmorose!reader took "My Year of Rest and Relaxation" too literally.
â.Ëmorose!reader can watch movies for hours a day and constantly log them into letterboxd. She also loves the movie theater and often calls it her church. She allows herself to break down in the worn-down theater chair as her feet stick to the flooring covered in diet soda.
â.Ëmorose!reader is always saying she could do more, be more. She canât feel fulfillment in any career path, any passion projectâŚanything. She will come off confident and unnerving, but as soon as that bedroom door closes, she stares at herself in the mirror until she is unrecognizable.Â
â.Ëmorose!reader is constantly changing her appearance. Cutting her hair, bleaching her eyebrows, small tattoos, and piercings. She is always trying to find herself, and understand why she is the way she is.Â
â.Ëmorose!reader who knows Matt would be good for her but she just...
pining: suffering with or expressing longing or yearning for someone or something.
â.Ëpining!matt, who is captivated by morose. He had been in love with her since the first time he saw her at that weird basement party, where they both decided to leave together and go to McDonaldâs because the vibes were just off. Heâs at her beck and call and is willing to do whatever to make her happy and satisfy her.Â
â.Ëpining!matt is soft and loving. He may come off as a little standoffish, but that is only because he is shy.Â
â.Ëpining!matt, who keeps his journal in his back pocket. He holds a list of all of morose's favorite things. What to order her at restaurants, how she likes her coffee, things that make her happy, and things that make her angry or upset.Â
â.Ëpining!matt is always lost in thought. He is having conversations in his head and lingering on other people's words. He keeps quiet most of the time, absorbing information and taking things in.Â
â.Ëpining!matt hates all of that ânew ageâ shit but owns every Apple product. He refuses to use Apple CarPlay in his car and will only listen to CDs. He hates the internet and tries to keep off social media as much as possible. If he posts anything on social media, it's either morose or his album reviews that get five likes.Â
â.Ëpining!matt who prays one day morose will break, finally let him in completely and let him show her what it feels like to finally let go.
[A/N: this is my first AU! I have been absolutely taken by other writer's AU's and I love how free and creative you can be. I'd love to write for this AU if it is received well!! Please feel free to send in asks about morose!reader and pining!matt]
#đliyah#matt sturniolo#sturniolo#sturniolo triplets#matt sturniolo x reader#matt sturniolo x you#liyah's morose and pining AU#sturniolo triplets au#matt sturniolo au#alternate universe
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Hihi! I see you have blue lock in your fandoms you write for, do you have any ness headcannons? thank you <3
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Alexis ness x g/n reader
Genre ; sfw , fluff
Author note ; hii , thatâs my first request for blue lock so i would like to thank you for that ! English is not my first language so im sorry if there are mistakes, my request are open !!
⨠Thoughtful Supporter
Ness is the ultimate doting partner, almost to a fault. He's incredibly attentive, always noticing the little things that make you happy, like your favorite snacks or how you prefer your tea. He's fiercely loyal and seeks validation in the relationship, similar to how he idolizes Kaiser on the field. He wants to feel like he's your number one supporter.
One evening, you casually mention craving something sweet while you're both texting. You don't think much of it and move on with your night. The next day, there's a knock at your door, and when you open it, Ness stands there with a box of pastries from your favorite bakery. "You mentioned these yesterday," he says with a shy smile, his cheeks slightly flushed. "I couldn't let you go another day without them." You're touched by his thoughtfulness, and as you both sit down to enjoy the treats, you realize how much he pays attention to even your smallest remarks.
⨠Your Biggest Cheerleader
He's deeply invested in your personal goals and will do everything he can to support you, much like how he supports Kaiser on the field. He'll be your biggest cheerleader, no matter what. In return, he appreciates when you show interest in his soccer career, even if it's just attending his games or asking about his training.
You're working late on a project, and Ness texts you: Don't forget to take a break, okay? You're doing amazing. A few minutes later, he shows up with a coffee in hand, ready to cheer you on.
After one of his big games, you greet him with a proud smile. "You were incredible out there," you say. His eyes light up, and he pulls you into a tight hug. "Hearing that from you makes it even better," he murmurs.
⨠The Peace Maker
Ness hates conflict and will do his best to avoid arguments. If a disagreement arises, he'll try to resolve it calmly, often prioritizing your feelings over his own. He's quick to apologize, even if he's not in the wrong, but he appreciates it when you acknowledge his feelings too.
A minor disagreement arises when your schedules don't align, and you end up snapping at Ness out of frustration. He takes a deep breath, choosing not to escalate the situation. "I'm sorry if I upset you," he says calmly, his eyes soft with concern. "I just want us to work through this together." His willingness to approach the issue with understanding rather than anger helps you cool down, and together, you find a solution. By the end of the conversation, the tension has melted away, replaced by mutual understanding and affection.
⨠Romantic Gestures
He's a romantic at heart. Expect surprise dates, handwritten letters, and spontaneous compliments. Ness loves making you feel cherished. His favorite thing is to cook for you, insisting that he knows all your favorite dishes. Even if it doesn't turn out perfect, he'll put his heart into every meal.
One weekend, you find a small envelope on your pillow. Inside is a handwritten note from Ness, detailing how much he appreciates you. "I just wanted to remind you how amazing you are," it reads. "Thank you for being in my life."
Ness surprises you by setting up a cozy picnic at the park, complete with a blanket, snacks, and your favorite playlist. "I thought we could use some fresh air and time together," he says, beaming.
⨠Jealousy and Insecurity
Ness is prone to jealousy but tries to hide it. If he sees you getting close to someone else, he'll quietly fume but won't confront you directly. Instead, he'll subtly seek more of your attention to reassure himself. In moments of insecurity, he'll need you to affirm that you love him for who he is and not just for how much he supports you.
After one of Ness's matches, you find yourself talking with one of his teammates, complimenting his skills. From a distance, Ness watches, his smile faltering slightly as he sees how much you're enjoying the conversation. Later, when it's just the two of you, he hesitates before asking, "You seemed really close with him... Do you think they're funnier than me?" His voice is soft, almost uncertain. You immediately cup his face, looking into his eyes. "Ness, you're the one I love. No one else comes close," you assure him, planting a gentle kiss on his lips. His expression softens, and he pulls you into a tight hug, his insecurities melting away in your embrace.
⨠The playful Competitor
He's surprisingly competitive when playing games with you, especially if it's something like board games or trivia. He loves teasing you when he wins but takes it gracefully if you beat him.
During a trivia night, Ness surprises you with how competitive he can get. "No way you knew that answer!" you laugh after he correctly names a random historical fact. He smirks and says, "What can I say? I'm full of surprises." When you finally beat him in the final round, he dramatically clutches his chest. "You've defeated me, but I'm proud of you," he says, making you both burst out laughing.
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Lorenzo Berkshire X Fem!Reader ???
Could you do a oneshot of the reader and Enzo being close friends? Basically they both secretly harbor feelings, but they donât know how to tell each other. Reader starts to have spicy dreams about Enzo and get shy and flustered to be around him so she avoids him. Her bestie is Pansy. Basically, Pansy asks why reader has been so weird. Maybe a smutty ending between Enzo and Reader?
If Only | L.B
Pairing: Lorenzo Berkshire x Fem Slytherin Reader
WC: 5.9k+
Warnings/Notes: mild language, p in v, smut, fluff, angstâŚ
Summary: Suddenly, youâre developing feelings for your best friend and youâre unsure what to doâŚ
Authors Note: I suck at writing smut lmao I tried my best for the request and hope whoever requested this is happy! Iâm soooooo sorry it took me so long to get to the request. While reading the request, it kind of sounded like something I read, but not completely you know, but it sounded familiar, so after going through my reading archivesâI found the fic that it reminded me of. If you havenât read it already, itâs called âAgora Hillsâ by @theostrophywife , so please go check out her piece! And her other work! Itâs amazing! She is a super, super, super talented author!đ¤
If someone were to ask you who your best friend was, you'd answer right away and tell them, "Lorenzo Berkshire."
There was no need for anyone to ask the question of course as it was pretty obvious. You two were always together. In fact, you guys were seen so often together that some began to question if you two were just friends. You were quick to deny the speculations and to shut any rumors down, but it didn't always help.
It didn't help that your own friend group also questioned your guys' relationship. You'd remind them it's "platonic" and it's just a "friendship" and not a "relationship". You begun to think that they enjoyed how flustered it made both you and Enzo.
Of course they choose to tease their two most empathetic, shy, and naive friends.
Out of your friend group, it was you who was the most empathetic. Sometimes your friends wondered how you got sorted into Slytherin. You were shy and always were timidly in the background. You weren't super confident in yourself mentally or physically. You were naive to the crudeness and cruelty ongoing around you. You were definitely the innocent one, a trait that your friends admired about you even though they sometimes secretly think your Hufflepuff or something.
You loved to tie a ribbon bow in your hair if that said anything. You use to do a pink ribbon, but everyone teased you for it, so you switched to an emerald green ribbon.
However, it was your friends who scared everyone away who teased you about your love for your bows. They loved your innocence, your naivety, your shyness, and your cuteness. You were like a female version of Enzo in their eyes, but a lot less exposed to the world compared to him. He hung out with the boys a lot because of Quidditch, so it was obvious he had not the most innocent mind.
Enzo and you have known each other since before Hogwarts. After all, your mothers were childhood best friends themselves and this wished the same for their future children. Your mothers were amazed when they ended up pregnant a few months apart. Enzo was older than you by four months, but you both were attached by the hip the moment you both met.
Your mothers believe the two of you are destined or something like that. They said they saw it the day they put their two babies in a room together. They claimed the sun brightened and that childish giggles were all they could hear as the two of your begun to play. Enzo and you always roll your eyes and smile, believing the two women were over exaggerating the day you two were introduced.
"Pans...could we talk about something?" You murmur.
The boys were practicing for their next Quidditch game on Friday against Ravenclaw. It was just Pansy, Astoria and you in the Common Room, but Astoria had fallen asleep while studying. Pansy was reading through her essay and you were trying to read your latest romance novel, but you couldn't quite focus.
"Yeah, of course! What's up?" She asks, looking up at you with a soft smile.
Her black hair was in its normal perfect bob, her green eyes sparkling in the soft glow from the fireplace. She was pale and had sharp features, light freckles dusting across her nose and cheeks. You were always envious of how perfect she looked.
You glanced around the Common Room, realizing it was just you three in the room which was rather strange, but you were thankful in the moment.
"I...I like someone, but I don't think I can like him." You admit softly, so softly she would have had missed it if she weren't accustomed to your soft tone.
"And why is that, honey?" She asks softly, sitting up as she angled herself more towards you.
"He's my friend. I doubt he likes me that way. Even if he did like me that way...I don't know if I could be with him. I'd be worried about losing him if things went array." You admit quietly, anxiously fidgeting with your hands.
"Hun, is this about Enz?" She asks softly, placing a hand over your fidgeting ones.
You look up from your hands, your cheeks flushing red as you meet her soft eyes and her soft smile. You nod slowly, your hair falling in your face, and you suddenly were thankful for the shield to protect you.
"What would you like to do? Would you like to find out where he stands?" She asks.
"I dunno...maybe...maybe I should wait. Maybe it'll go away." You mumble embarrassed.
"Okay, hun...why don't you talk to me after you wait and you're one hundred percent certain how you feel and I'll help you figure it out? How's that sound? It'll give you time to think about it and maybe I can sniff out some information for our next conversation." She says.
"Okay...thanks, Pans. You're the best." You murmur, hugging her.
She smiles, hugging you back as she waits until you pull away. You had always wondered about why she waited to pull away from a hug. You learned that she wanted to wait until the other person was ready to let go because maybe they really needed a hug. You loved that about Pansy and it made her hugs all the more special.Â
You both abruptly pull apart when the guys walk in as they talk and yell obnoxiously loud. Astoria had jumped and fallen off the armchair she was curled up on. You and Pansy softly giggle before helping her up and sort her notes back out.
"Our girls! How are you three?" Theodore asks, the group of tall men surrounding you girls.
"I'm tired." Astoria grumbles, curling back up in the armchair, looping an arm around your waist.
You smile softly as her, continuing to play with her hair as she snuggled closer to you.
"We are alright. You boys should go get showered before dinner." Pansy says, a smile on her lips.
"Don't you want a hug, baby?" Blaise pouts.
"Not with how sweaty you are. I'm sure your Quidditch husband would love a hug right now though." She says, rolling her eyes playfully.
You giggle, shaking your head. Blaise and Pansy were such an adorable couple who bantered playfully.
"Girl, you can't pull that on me when you got your school wife." Blaise snorts.
"True. I did get pretty lucky with this fine piece of woman." Pansy says, winking at you as she kisses your cheek.
You flush red at her words, looking down at your lap as you smile shyly. Your hair served as a barrier against the boys' eyes who of course were teasing you about your reaction to Pansy.
You glance up at Enzo to see him staring at your knees with furrowed brows. Your cheeks flush red as you had fallen up the stairs earlier today and had nearly dragged Pansy down. You had some nasty bruises on your knees now.
"Stori, we should go get ready for dinner." You murmur.
"Noooooo." She grumbles, holding you tighter.
"Yesssss, I'm hungry and I'm teetering towards being hangry." You whine.
"And a hangry her is never good." Pansy snorts.
"Hey!" You exclaim with a pout.
"She isn't wrong, love. You are a tad bit scary when you're hangry." Lorenzo says, offering you one of his famous crooked smile.
"Meanie, your suppose to stand up for me." You grumble, crossing your arms over your chest as your pout.
Pansy snorts, rolling her eyes as she watches Enzo's cheeks flush red and he diverts his eyes to the carpet. Theodore clears his throat, catching Pansy's attention and he polity motions to your chest. Pansy snorts, loving how Theodore was always such a gentleman and it explained Enzo's reaction.
"Hun, you've got a few buttons undone and you're pushing your boobs up. I can see your bra too." Pansy whispers.
You flush red and immediately button up the buttons that came undone, struggling as the blouse was a tad bit tight, but you managed.
"Alright! We'll shower and head to dinner. Wait for us?" Theodore asks.
"Yep. Oh! I remembered what I was gonna ask this morning! I need one of your guys' extra jerseys for Friday. I may of forgotten your guys' custom made one for me at my house over break." You admit shyly.
"You can have mine, love." Enzo says softly and you smile thankfully.
"You're the best, Enz! I'd give you a hug, but you are a little sweaty." You say softly.
"She means a lot sweaty, but she's just being nice." Pansy says, her nose crinkling as she looks at the sweaty boys.
The boys all look at each other before grinning and tackling you girls into a hug as you girls squeal and beg for it to stop. You were being held against Enzo's sweaty chest and you look up with a pout as your nose crinkles slightly.
"That's not really nice, now we are all gonna have to shower." You grumble, your hands resting on his chest.
"Oh? What was that? You want more hugs?" He asks, the three of you girls getting passed between the guys once more before you ended up in his arms again.
"Uhhhh, you guys are such jerks." Astoria grumbles sleepily from her boyfriend's hold.
"She isn't wrong." Pansy huffs, shoving Theodore and Blaise away.
"Come on Y/n/n, let's go shower real quick." Astoria mumbles sleepily, holding a hand out to you.
You take her hand, looking at Pansy who takes your other outstretched hand.
"Together?" Theodore asks, his cheeks flushed red as the guys gape at you three.
"Oh yeah, we are gonna just lather each other up with soap and wash each other hairs." Pansy says sarcastically, winking at them as she smirks.
"We technically have showered all at once on a few occasions. I mean we are best friends and we've seen it all before." Astoria says with a shrug.
"And if we are going to get to dinner on time, I guess we'll have no choice." Pansy says, sighing with fake disappointment.
"Uh, can I watch?" Theodore asks before getting smacked by the other guys.
"Uh, girlfriend?" Blaise says in a duh tone.
"We are husbands, we can share a wife." He says.
"My girlfriend." Draco says in a duh tone.
"And no one can see Y/n/n." Mattheo says, his eyes flickering to Enzo.
You start to lead the girls out of the Common Room, heading towards your guys' shared dormâeven though it was just you a majority of the time in here.
"Alright, we have to study hard tonight guys. You boys have a Quidditch game tomorrow and if you don't pass your tests tomorrow, you'll be benched." Pansy says, walking in front of the boys who sat in a line.
You couldn't help, but giggle as Pansy was practically a General of sorts for these boys. She looks at you sharply and raises one of her perfectly sculpted eyebrows.
"You got something to say over there, pipsqueak? I believe if you fail the tests you get a week of detention." She says and you groan, sinking down into a seat next to Blaise.
"Ha!" Astoria says, pointing at you.
"If you fail, you'll be in detention for two weeks and excluded from any extra curricular as well." Pansy scolds.
Astoria sighs and sits down, the group zoning out as Pansy rants before leading them to the library where they take up four tables, the four most needed subjects to be studied for. You were sat next to Enzo who was entirely focused on his studies.
You studied for an hour and still have an hour and a half before dinner which was when this study session was going to be ended. You decide to rest your eyes for a moment, completely unaware of what could have gone wrong.
"Enzo? What are you doing in here?" You ask softly.
His hair was tousled, almost as if he had run his hand through it. His eyes weren't their normal soft and welcoming brown. There was a darkness to them, an edge to them you haven't seen in those eyes before.
"I can't stand it when you're so kind to those fools, love. Can't you see that they just want your attention because they think you're pretty? They don't actually need your help." He says.
His voice sounded an octave deeper as he takes slow deliberate steps towards you. Your eyebrows furrow in confusion.
"They just needed help, Enz. Why is it bothering you?" You ask softly, putting a hand on his arm.
"Because I see the way they look at you. They look at you the way I look at you. They want you, love. They want you like I want you." He murmurs, his eyes slowly looking over your face.
Your lips part in surprise as he wraps an arm around you, pulling you in. He leans down, kissing you hard. You kiss back softly, surprised by how soft his lips were despite the bruising force. His hands find your hips, slowly trailing down to the backs of your thighs. With a barely audible whisper of the word "jump", you do as your told, wrapping your legs around his waist.
His lips were on yours once more, climbing on the bed, slowly crawling up it before lying you down in the middle. He kisses down your jawline, unbuttoning your blouse with skilled fingers. He lifts you slightly, letting you shrug off the blouse as he reaches a hand behind you and undoes the clasp of your bra with two fingers.
"Enz." You whisper softly as he kisses down your neck.
Your fingers begin to undo the buttons to his button up, the two of you slowly working out of clothes. His pillow soft lips find yours once more and you tangle your fingers in his brown locks, holding him closer.
His lets a hand travel down between you both, groaning as he gathers your wetness on his fingers. You whimper, letting him toy with yours folds before pushing yourself in his hand as he pushes a finger inside of you.
"Enzo." You whimper, arching up to be closer to him.
"You're so pretty, baby." He murmurs, leaving marks behind on your neck.
You mind felt foggy, feeling as if you were in a state of shock because this was finally happening. This means he wants you too, right? He's had feelings all along?
"You gonna take my cock like a good girl, baby?" He murmurs, his lips brushing against yours as you looked up at him with your innocent eyes.
"Mhm, I will Enz." You whimper, squirming beneath him.
"You're my good girl, baby. My good and pretty girl." He murmurs as he slowly pushes his cock into you.
You whimper, your nails digging into his skin as you felt yourself stretch to accommodate him. His swollen lips find yours, swallowing your whimpers and soft moans.
He groans, his eyes fluttering closed as he rests his forehead against yours, letting you adjust.
"Oh Enz, you feel so good." You whimper, squirming once more.
He moves, leaving soft kisses on your neck as he starts to move his hips at a slow pace before he slowly picks up the pace. You moans grow louder and closer together as a coil of heat winds in your stomach.
"Such a pretty girl. Taking my cock so good. Mmm, you're such a good girl, baby. You're my good girl." He whispers.
"Your good girl, Enz, only yours." You whimpers
"That's right baby, only mine." He murmurs.
"I'm close, Enz." You whimper, your nails leaving behind bloody crescents in his arms.
"Cum for me, baby. Cum for me like the good girl you are." He murmurs.
"Enzo!" You cry out, coming around him.
He whimpers softly, feeling you squeeze around him. You whimper, feeling his warm seed coat your walls.
"Such a good girl, baby." He whispers into your hair.
"Need you, Enz." You whimper, your lips brushing against his cheek.
You jump awake, looking around slowly as your face flushed red. You realized everyone was still studying and you clench your thighs, feeling your soaked panties. You couldn't believe you just had a dream about your best friendâ-right next to him.
"How was your nap, love? I promise I won't tell Pans. You needed it." He says, smiling softly at you.
"Uh, good. I...I'm going to go ahead and go a little early." You mumble.
"Oh? You okay? I can go with you." He says.
"No, that's okay. I-I just need some fresh air." You say.
"Oh...okay, see you later then?" He asks, smiling at you.
"Yeah, later." You whisper, grabbing your stuff and quickly leaving as you ignore Pansy's calls back.
"Here's Enzo's jersey. He said he tried to wait up for you, but you were taking too long." Pansy says, tossing it to you.
You chew at your lip nervously before you throw on the jersey. It was one from last year.
"I-uh-I dunno if I'm going to the game." You murmur.
"What!? This is the big game. At least one of the two. It's against Gryffindor!" She snaps.
"Easy." Astoria scolds.
"Yeah, you're right. I'm sorry." You mumble, scurrying away as she sighs and calls for you.
You hole yourself up in the bathroom until it's literally minutes until you had to leave. You slide the jersey back on, putting your hair in a ponytail with a green and silver ribbon. You slide your skirt on, tugging at it before rolling your eyes.
It was Astoriaâs turn to do laundry this week which probably meant she forgot and did some spell which shrunk your guys' clothesâagain. You slide your shoes on before you make your way to the field alone. You couldn't quite get to the girls because the stands were so packed, so you stood a few rows up. You huff as you feel someone keep tugging on your ponytail.
You ignore it and focus on the game that began. They were currently matching up and you saw Enzo looking at the stands. You smile awkwardly when he spots you and he waves so you do the same before you see his frown as he focuses on the person behind you who was still tugging on your ponytail. You huff and pull it away again, turning around to glare at them.
"Please stop it. I'm sure you wouldn't like it if I was pulling on your hair." You scold softly.
"Awww, she can't even stand her own ground. So soft spoken and she says please. God, you are a disgrace to the Slytherin house." He cackles.
He was a year above you and you frown at him, your eyes watering and you turn around, looking down as you cross your arms over your chest.
You ignore the tugging on your ponytail and try to focus on the game, Gryffindor was winning because Enzo kept missing hits as he was watching the stands. Your ribbon is pulled free and your hair was whipping everywhere because the wind. You turn around and try to snatch your ribbon back, but he holds it above your head.
"Give it back you jerk!" You exclaim, trying to grab it.
"God, you are pathetic. Who wears ribbons in their hair? You act like a child all the time and hide around those jerks who think they run the Slytherin house." He laughs.
He elbows you when you managed to get a hold on it. This was your favorite ribbon. It was from Enzo a few years back. You stumble and fall down. One of the first year girls help you up, offering you a sad smile.
"And Berkshire is heading for the stands along with the Riddle twins. It seems that...Anderson is picking on Y/l/n." Neville announces.
"Give it back to her, Anderson." Enzo says.
"And leave her alone or we'll punch your face in." Mattheo warns.
"Pathetic." Anderson hisses at you, giving you the ribbon.
"What did he say, love?" Enzo asks.
You shake your head, looking away.
"Arms up." Mattheo says.
Your eyebrows furrow, but you do as he says. Both he and Tom grab a hand and lift you slightly where you feet were a few inches off the ground, to the front row with Pansy and Astoria to ensure Anderson won't bother you again. Pansy takes your ribbon and gently gathers your hair into a ponytail before tying it. Enzo was a lot more focused on the second half of the game and somehow Slytherin managed to win.
You knew there was an elaborate party planned. You were feeling a bit insecure about you place with your friends after Anderson, so you branched off from the girls who were waiting for their boyfriends. You reach your dorm, curling into a ball on your bed and falling asleep.
You were sitting in the Common Room with the girls again. It was a little over a week since the big win against Gryffindor. The boys were practicing for their next match even though it was Saturday.
You had managed to avoid Enzo since the game against Gryffindor and somehow managed the same at yesterday's game. You managed to find an excuse as to why you couldn't do movie night last week. You tried to find a way to distance yourselves from the girls, the thing Anderson said really bothered you, but Pansy wasn't having it.
"What's going on with you? You've been acting strange." She notes, closing her book.
Astoria looks up from her notes and focuses on the conversation. You frown, playing with the hem of your skirt and sigh.
"Am I...childish?" You ask.
"What? No! Why would you think that?" She asks.
"Anderson said something about me being childish and that I hide around your guys." You mumble.
"Anderson is an asshole. You aren't childish. We love you the way you are and you don't hide around us. You are equally as apart of our group. No one hides." She says, smiling at you.
"Okay." You murmur, smiling slightly.
"Now, what's going on with you and Enz? You've been avoiding him." She says.
"Nothings going on. I haven't been avoiding him." You say quickly.
"You have. He's been real upset about it. He thinks he did something wrong. You canceled on movie night with him last week and you owled him to tell him you didn't think you'd be able to do it tonight. You've got nothing to do and we know that, so what's up?" Astoria asks.
"I...I realized that after these past few weeks that those feelings I've grown to develop for Enz haven't gone anyway. They are getting stronger. I...have you guys ever had a dream about one of the guys?" You ask.
"No, I can't say I have." Astoria says.
"I have. I used to have dreams about Blaise and I before we got together." Pansy says with a grin.
"I've had a dream about all three of you." Mattheo says.
"Same." Theodore says, the pair walking in together
"Where's the others?" Astoria asks.
"Showering. Don't worry." Theodore says.
"Wait...you had a dream about Enz, didn't you?" Astoria asks in shock as she looks back at you.
You nod, your cheeks flushing red as you use your hair as a shield to hide from the four sets of shocked eyes.
"Enz has been torn up this past week. He thinks you hate him or something." Mattheo says.
"Turns out you fancy him! Wait until he hears this." Theodore laughs.
"Tone it done, boys. No one is saying anything. This is her business. Honey, I think it's time you talk with Enz. You're hurting not only him, but yourself by keeping this distance between you guys. It's obvious your feelings for him are growing. It's time you talk about it. Maybe he feels the same." Pansy says softly.
"No. It's fine. Maybe if I ignore it long enough it'll go away. I don't wanna lose him because he doesn't feel the same, Pans. I can't tell him." You say, shaking your head as you pull your knees to your chest.
"Honey, you need to say something." She says softly.
"No. It's fine. It'll be fine. I've been avoiding him, yes, but I'll put an end to that today. I...I should go get snacks for the movie night. Maybe make two pallets...no, he'll still think he's done something wrong if we aren't cuddling like normal." You mumble, thinking more to yourself than talking to your friends who felt bad for you.
"Practice was great!" Enzo exclaims, walking in with his hair dripping wet.
You were completely oblivious as you mumbled to yourself about different snacks and film titles, but then since you have to go out and get the snacks, you started to make a list in your head of some other things you needed.
"Is she okay?" Enzo asks quietly as he looks over you.
"I believe she's just making a list of items she's gonna grab when she heads into town real quick. See, snacks, clothes because Astoria shrunk ours againâwait! Astoria! You shrunk our clothes again!" Pansy exclaims.
"I didn't mean to!" She exclaims.
You get up, heading to your dorm, unaware that Enzo was following you. You sit at your desk and start to make a list.
"Love, can we talk?" He asks.
"Argh!" You exclaim, you hand knocking the ink pot over.
You mumble curses as you hurry to clean it up before turning to Enzo with a sheepish smile. He smiles slightly.
"O-Of course, sorry. I've been kinda in my head all day today." You admit shyly.
"Is something bothering you?" He asks.
"No, no, of course not. What do you wanna talk about?" You ask.
"Why have you been avoiding me?" He asks.
"I haven't been avoiding you, Enz. I've just been a tad bit busy is all." You say, smiling softly at him.
"So you have time for our movie night tonight?" He asks.
"Mhm. I just have to grab snacks. Anything you want?" You say.
"Just you, love." He says cheekily, winking at you.
"I-oh-well I'm getting snacks anyway. I have to get me some new clothes again anyway." You say shyly.
"You could just wear my shirts...or nothing, but whatever suits your boat, love." He says, smiling as he leaves.
Pansy walks in with raised brows and she gives you a grin when she sees your dropped jaw.
"I believe Enz just suggested he rather see me in his clothes or naked." You mumble.
"Okay...Enz is here, check...snacks is a check, as are the drinks...extra blankets is a check...I feel like I'm forgetting something. Am I forgetting something?" You ask as you look back at your list.
Enzo was lying on your bed, his arms behind his head as he watched you pace with your clipboard and quill.
"You right next to me." He says and your cheeks flush red.
"Enz, I'm being serious. Something is missing. Or am I going bonkers?" You ask.
"In my eyes you've always been a bit bonkers, but in the cutest most adorable way you can be bonkers. Nothing is missing though. I think you're overthinking per usual." He says.
"Jerk." You grumble.
You take your sweater off, leaving you in a white tank top and your skirt. You carefully climb onto the bed, careful not to flash him as Astoria unfortunately shrunk your guys' underwear as well and Enzo talked you out of clothes shopping today as he wanted to watch two films.
You start the movie, bringing the blankets up more as you were cold.
"Why are you so far away? Get over here, love." He says.
You scooch over slowly until he rolls his eyes and wraps his arm around you, pulling you closer to him. You sigh softly, resting your head on his shoulder and resting a hand above his heart. He rubs circles on your exposed side, slowly going higher. It wasn't strange for him to do this. Enzo was a very touchy person when it came to showing his affection.
"What was your dream about?" He asks.
"What?" You mumble confused.
"Your dream about me. You were talking about it earlier today. What was it that I was doing to you?" He asks.
"Oh...you heard about that...which means you heard everything after that too." You whisper as your nerves begin to start.
You go to get up, but he rolls over so that you're beneath him. You look up at him with wide eyes.
"You aren't going anywhere, pretty girl. We are going to talk about this." He says seriously.
"I-uh-oh." You splutter, your cheeks flushed red as your heart races.
"Is it hard to believe I like you too, love? I thought I had been making it pretty obvious." He mumbles, his eyes flickering over your face.
"You like me?" You squeak.
"Mhm, quite a bit. I never thought you'd like me, but then I overheard the conversation earlier and it was like a new hope for me." He admits.
"Enz...I never would've thought you would like me. I just thought you saw me as your best friend." You admit shyly.
"You'll always be my best friend, love. But, now we can be more too." He admits.
Your eyes flicker to his lips, wondering if they are as soft as they were in your dream. His eyes darken, catching where your eyes were focused. He leans down, kissing your lips softly. You hum softly as you kiss back, tangling your fingers in his hair.Â
He trails a hand between you both, ghosting over your stomach before trailing down your thigh. You whimper as he moves his hand back up your thigh, moving it beneath your skirt. You try to squeeze your legs close, but he was in between your legs.
His fingers brush against your wet folds as he pulls away with a grunt. His eyes find yours and you flush red under his intense gaze.
"No panties?" He asks.
"N-No, Stori shrunk our clothes again." You whisper.
"Such a dirty girl, aren't you?" He murmurs, leaning down and kissing the column of your neck.
You let a shaky breath out as your eyes fluttered closed. You push yourself down closer to his hand that was between your legs. You whine softly as he rubs the sensitive bundle of nerves.
"Enzo, please." You plead, squirming beneath him.
"So impatient, baby." He murmurs, nipping at your neck and eliciting a gasp from you.
Before you could scold him to hurry up, he was working his pants off. Your fingers went to his loosely buttoned dress shirt where you begin to unbutton it. He shrugs it off after kicking his boxers and pants off.
He starts to pull your skirt down as you stare at his hard cock that was thick and long, a vein bulging out the side of it, the head an angry red and oozing precum.
You sit up and take off your tank top, before lying back down. He hovers above you, kissing your lips so softly as he praises you and calls you beautiful as he sinks into you. You arch up into him, your nails dragging down his back as your walls stretch to accommodate him.
"Enzo!" You moan, his lips swallowing the sweet sound.
"Your alright baby, you're doing so good. Taking my cock like the little cock slut you are, aren't you?" He murmurs into your ear.
You clench around him, the dirty name making something twist inside of you as you let a breathy moan out. You never expected Enzo to say such dirty things.
"Enz!" You cry, arching your back off the bed as his thrusts speed up.
You squirm, feeling the overwhelming pressure building. He holds your hips, his teeth leaving marks all over your skin, leaving his claim. He wanted everyone to know that you were his. Now that he had you, there was no letting go.
"That's it baby, keep taking my cock like a good girl. You feel so good around my cock, so fucking tight." He says, his voice deeperâhuskier.
You wished he'd keep quiet just for the fact that hearing him like thatâwas because of you and that made a whole new feeling wash over you.
His lips slant over yours, the two of your lips moving in sync. You follow his lead, sinking back further into the bed and he follows, deepening the kiss. Your hands get lost in his hair as he bites your bottom lip, swallowing your whimper as he deepens the kiss once more.
His tongue glides across your bottom lip, before teeth were clashing as the kiss got too intense. You both pull away, chests heaving as you both tried to catch your breath.
"Thank you, Pansy. I really appreciate it." You say, smiling softly as she helped cover all the hickeys.
"I get it. Eventually, he'll get a little control over himself. The boys, especially our boys, are all about staking their claim. I don't get it entirely either, but if it helps them sleep at night, so be it." She says, laughing softly and you join her.
You both walk to breakfast, getting lost in your guys' normal conversation. You were unaware of Enzo's eyes on you as you walked in.
His lips part, seeing you wearing an olive green sundress that ended a little above mid thigh. Your hair was down and the smile on your face lit up the whole room.
"You're staring." Theodore chuckles.
"Fuck, she's so hot...wait a damn minute. One, she covered her hickeys and two, there's over a seventy five percent chance that if she moves the wrong way in that dress she will flash someone." Enzo says, sitting up straighter.
"Look...I learned the hard way, but you've just got to trust her. Don't make the mistakes I did and make the foundation rocky in the beginning." Blaise says.
He sighs, looking at his plate as you and Pansy take a seat. He looks up and has to take a deep breath. He hated how much cleavage was on show, because he knew people would see you like this.
You looked beautiful.
But, he hated the idea of other men seeing you this way. He remembered his plan and reached beneath the table for the bouquet of flowers. Your lips part as he hands you the assortment of flowers.
"Will you be my girlfriend, Y/n/n?" He asks, his cheeks turning a light shade of pink as the boys whoop and tease him.
You smile and look at him like he was the only man in the worldâa look that made him melt.
"I'd love to, Enz." You say softly.
The whole table whoops louder before being quieted by Professor Snape. You smile at Enzo, feeling really good about this.
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lucky bastard
john marston x fem!reader
⧠tags : afab + fem!reader, gendered language, established relationship, outdoor sex, lots of dirty talk, john being an idiot, mentions of sex work, all of this is very consensual reader is just shy. 18+
⧠wc : 1k
⧠a/n : this guy makes me insane against my will. everyday of my life.
⧠synopsis : john is full of bad ideas.
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"John Marston," Your voice is stern, harsh as you whisper. Both hands on his shoulders pushing yourself from the grasp he keeps you in so tightly. "Get the hellâ"
"Don't be that way angel." His words are sweet but his voice is filled to the brim with snark. Edge to edge. "What? You too good for fuckin' in the woods now? Too much of a lady?"
You smack his shoulder. His response is to keep you exactly where you are - which is in his lap on an open trail, later at night. No blankets, bottoms discarded in a heap besides you since John insisted on getting you skin to skin.
You're not fucking in the woods, you're fucking just outside of them - a place to camp near the trees in the Grizzlies East - near Moonstone Pond.
You're right besides the trail, right where any down and out bastard could trot their horse through and get a clear shot of what's going on. There's better places to do this. Deeper in the trees where there's no chance of of somebody finding you both, for one.
But John seems excited at the idea of getting caught. And when John gets in one these moods, there's no reasoning with him. He gets caught up in his wants as always, foolhardy and crass. Though you mind it less than you're honest about.
His hands find your hips, blunt nails grasping at you for life as he moves you. Doesn't move himself, but rather - moves you, slides you up and down on the hard length of his cock with a smile just short of smug and just past mesmerized.
In the dead of night, it's easy to hear how he makes you feel. What he does to you. The wet lazy sound of thrusts of his dick in you drown all noise of the lonesome evening. You wrap yourself around him in a fit of desperation, hitting your fists weakly on his back. He laughs in the way he always does, presses a kiss to the parts of you he can reach while you throw a fit.
"You're such a rotten, no good, irritating bastard, Marston."
"And you just can't stay away from me, can you sweetheart?" He holds you in place while you bottom out and you can feel him swell when you say it. You almost want to sneer. "It ain't like you to play coy."
"I'm not playing anything. Someone's gonna come out here and see andâ"
"And what? Some poor bastards gonna ride through here and see you split open on me and wish he was me? You feel sorry for him? I sure don't."
Your voice catches at the sudden change. The change in pace, the change in tone, the change in demeanor. His hands grip you tighter and he flips you until you're laying in the grass on your back. His dick kisses your cervix at the new angle, legs wrapped around his waist and blinking in surprise from where he looks down on you. More scar than man, all sharp lines and dark hair barely failing away from his face.
He leans down that time. You think to kiss you but instead he hikes you up until your spine arches so slightly and he thrusts that way. Fucks his cock so deep into you, it feels like all the airs been punched out of your lungs. It's more invasive than it's been all night, bigger and thicker - makes it feel like your cunt is being pulled open. The tip dragging on your insides, sticky and sensitive on each motion.
You gasp his name out, hands find his hair - tugging just to have something to hold. "John,"
"In fact, if anything - we're doing 'em a favor. Only time they see a woman at all is when they're paying for her. They could only be so lucky seeing a woman as beautiful as you feeling so good for me for free."
You make a whimpering noise and swallow it down. John laughs, scruff against your shoulder. His teeth tug at your ear lobe as he positions you - hand sliding between your bodies as his thumb finds your clit.
"I'd put a bullet clean between their eyes before they touch you, you know that? But I'm a decent man so," He laughs breathless. "A look is all they're gonna get. Charity, ain't it? In a way.''
You make a face at him, disarmed - weak, purely and plainly in a way that makes his laugh go from smug to charmed, affectionate. He kisses you on the lips that time. Corner of your mouth, your chin and cheek and shoulder. His arm cradling you easy in his grasp as you keep your legs up for him to fuck you.
Fire runs through your nerves as all the sensations settle in at once. The pleasure of having your clit rubbed even clumsily is enough to make you whine out in pleasure, especially in pace with being fucked so hard again and again. Something turns in your belly, honeyed - hot, like pouring sugar over a flame. You feel the warm iron of your own want be shaped by John with every consequential knock and thrust.
You breathe out as his attitude slows to merciful. He gets like this when you get close - gets all softhearted and gentle even as he's fucking you senseless.
You sniffle. "You're such a bastard, Marston."
"Don't I know it," He hums, easy and keeps going. "Getting close for me, angel? Gonna make me a nice little mess to clean up?"
"Shut up,"
He chuckles. "C'mon. You gonna let go for me?"
You swear. "Y-yeah."
"Good girl," He praises. You can't even pretend not to keen when he says it. "Go on then. Show me. Let me see,"
With another unceremonious thrust, you unravel in John's arms like the threaded frayed ends of a piece of twine. Pulled apart, you cum on his cock hard - a tingling sensation spreading through your whole body as your back curls up. Your legs force John to stay bottomed out as you shudder. The overwhelming pleasure doesn't seem to end.
You only breathe after a few minutes. John coaxes some comfort from you with a kiss to your collarbone.
"Still mad at me?"
You roll your eyes and smack his head lightly. "Shut up, Marston."
"Shut up ain't much of an answer." He says, pretending to sigh. "Guess I'll have to make you go one more to earn that forgiveness huh?"
Your lips quirk. Idiot. "Guess we'll just have to see."
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matt sturniolo x influencer! reader
reader is grunge! a singer! and on social media (this is very niche i apologize) i will be building this AU more so stay tuned!
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hey so iâve hyper fixated onto an CIS. STRAIGHT. WHITE. BOY. someone put me down i cannot do this anymore please this is a cry for help needs to euthanize me-
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to start, you have been close friends with jake for a long time, and thru him you met tara and johnny before meeting the triplets
jake pretty much always has you in his videos, so much so whenever you aren't in a video the fans have started to request for your presence on videos that don't have you in them
you're not all that active on social media, only posting random covers of your favorite songs on your youtube channel and random tiktoks
in jake's videos you are always making him laugh, and out of the two you're more calm with a dry sense of humor
'...do you like it?"
"yeah because me immediately spitting it out and chugging my drink after eating it obviously shows how much i love this fucking candy"
OR
"hey jake did you want to get dinner tonight-"
"..."
"why the fuck is johnny in a baby costume."
in tara's videos you and her literally talk for HOURS and the way tara could make four separate videos from one recorded hang out is ridiculous
with Carrington the two of you easily match each other's energy, always giggling in the back of videos
you've also done singing collabs with jake and johnny! there are a couple of songs that just have your background vocals and then others with actual verses
you haven't released any songs though due to stress and anxiety, feeling too pressured to write the
"perfect" song so you settle with being a feature
besides that you really just mind your business with college, your job, and hanging out with friends
tara was actually the one who introduced you to nick
and through nickâŚ.you met matt
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matt who was excited to meet nickâs new friend who he was talking abt nonstop
âhey guys! yn is here!â
nick swings the door wide open, smiling widely as he stomps in the house. you follow in quickly, nervous to meet nickâs brothers. your friendship with nick came naturally, having many things to connect with. that being said, you werenât sure if you could create a relationship with his brothers as easily as you did with him.
fiddling with your clothes you wave politely at the boys, surprised to see both of them walk up to you and hug you. granted it was swift hugs, but it immediately created a softer environment, causing you to relax immensely.
matt who immediately noticed how you looked uncomfortable and took the first step to hug you
âi like your outfit,â matt said after chris broke away from you. he gave you a small smile, making you smile in return. before you could respond however, chris started talking to the group.
nick had already decided on having dinner at home, so you settled in leaning on the kitchen island watching nick and chris argue over what to make for dinner. matt walks over to you, putting his hands in his pockets.
âdonât worry i could never replace you guys,â you tease, when you see him across from you. he giggles in reaponse, his eyes never leaving your face.
âcool tattoos,â he points out which surprised you. looking down at your arm, you smiled admiring the work youâve gotten done over the years.
âthank you! you also have some gnarly tats.â
matt smiled at you, flexing his arm a little bit to show off his whole sleeve.
âis that the only place you have tattoos?â you question, suddenly curious about his body art. matt nodded, then looked at you with a small smile.
âdoes that mean you have more?â the question made you laugh because he seemed almost shy asking you, so when you nodded enthusiastically and started to give him a quick tour all over your body. lifting your shirt up was funny for you, because you could tell matt wanted to be thoughtful and not look but when you reassured him he hesitated at first but eventually awed at them. his reactions were so lively, making you appreciate how focused and compassionate. he praised you for your own ideas and for the tattoos that meant something, and still thought your random and silly tattoos were interesting.
after you finished showing him you were practically gleaming, it had been a while since you had been able to speak so much of the tattoos that littered your body. every single one of them had meant so much to you and being able to share that with someone; especially someone as excited and appreciative as you are.
âyouâre really cool, i can see why nick enjoys hanging out with you so much.â
you and matt were sitting down in the living room now, leaving chris and nick to prepare dinner for the evening. talking came easily after the tour of your tattoos, matt showing you his and the conversation flowed better than you dreamed it to be.
you chuckled at mattâs comment, finding his eye contact was making you squirmish in your seat.
ânick is so much cooler than me, but i donât mind i really enjoy being friends with him. plus now i have two new friends so thatâs a bonus.â
matt laughed at your response, running a hand through his hair now avoiding eye contact with you.
âyeah, iâm grateful nick brought you around.â
matt who couldnât take his eyes off of you for the rest of the evening, which did not go unnoticed by his brothers
âdonât steal my new best friend from me matt!â nick yelled out dramatically after yn left, making matt shake his head.
âyou should let matt have their number,â chris mumbled, still focused on the game he was playing. nick gasped dramatically before agreeing, making the boys laugh with how quickly he switched up his emotions.
âjust donât steal them!â nick threatened, but matt was already too excited to text you to listen.
matt who got your number and could not stop texting you, and he especially couldnât stop smiling every time you texted him back
âmatt i need backup,â chris said frantically, his eyes glued to the computer and fingers moving at the speed of light on the controllers. when matt doesnât respond, chris huffs and repeats himself.
âmatt seriously dude where the fuck are you?!â
matt finishes up typing and looks up, oblivious to the game that they were losing.
âoh shit,â he mumbled, putting his phone down and picking his controller back up.
âyou werenât even playing?â chris yelled out, frustrated with their status. nick pipes up from the bed, suddenly curious. he peaks his head over and sees mattâs phone light up, watching matt immediately lose his focus to look at his phone. matt straightens up, wanting to reach for his phone before chris cursed loudly, drawing his attention away from the text. nick squints, thankful that he was wearing his glasses and sees the name on his phone to his disbelief. yn sent a text, then another one, and then another one. his jaw dropped, and his gasp was so loud it startled his brothers.
ânick! oh my god,â chris started to laugh when his fear settled down. nick still had his mouth wide open, only causing chris to laugh harder.
âyouâre gonna catch flies kid,â matt snickered. nick slowly turned his head to matt, mouth still open, in a very dramatic motion.
âyn? you stole my best friend?â
matt froze, a slow blush creeping up from his neck to his cheeks. chris eyed his brothers from his peripheral vision, jaw also dropping.
âthatâs why youâve been so preoccupied? damn my boy has a crush,â chris started to chuckle, causing nick to scream and matt to drop his controller covering his face in embarrassment.
matt who gets jealous whenever you and nick go out like he wants to hang out with u too :(
matt who finally gets the nerve to ask you to hang out with him, after nick decides heâs had enough of matt complaining about how âyou never invite me-or chris!â (he has to add the chris part to not sound too obvious)
matt stood nervously at the door, fiddling with his keys in his hands. he finally knocked, immediately hearing rummaging around behind the door. matt couldnât help but smile, wondering what you were doing right now. were you just as nervous to hang out with him one on one?
suddenly, the door swings wide open, and youâre in the doorway smilingly widely.
âhey! come in!â
matt who had so much fun hanging out with you.
the two of you went to antiques and thrift stores, grabbed some dinner and went back to your place to spend the rest of the evening together. the two of you got along so well he ended up staying until 12AM because you wanted to finish watching the show you started, not that matt was complaining. he was tempted to ask to stay over (and you were tempted to ask him to stay over) but he didnât want things to be awkward. so he left late into the night, after you gave him a tackling hug, asking to hang out again soon
matt who started to call you every night, and although you two texted all day you never ran out of things to talk about.
matt who is really starting to fall for you
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TRANSFEM VIRGIN JACKIE TAYLOR X READER PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
Transfem virgin Jackie Taylor blurbs
Contains: transfem Jackie, smut, 1700 k words blurb.
A/N: I'm so sorry to have delayed this for so long anonđĽ. I promise that next time I'll do it quicker and also more explicitđââď¸ It's not as explicit as my other recent Lucy nsfw blurb, but I hope you guys will enjoy it still! P.s i know that's Rhiannon in the photo, just pretend it's Jackie alright?
Jackie who survived the wilderness, who has come out of it scarred and traumatized. She has seen death and famine, and her personality and mental health become severely affected. She is introverted, shy and her outgoing personality has been frozen under pain and nightmares.
But she pulls through, and manages to go to college like she had wanted. She thinks that she can make a new life for herself, but as it turns out, college life isn't what she is supposed to be: making friends is hard, exams are tough and her professors are just shitty people. After all she has been through, she doesn't think that she'll be able to have any friendship ever again, not like the one she had with Shauna, anyway.
She doesn't have any roommates until you show up. One day you just barge in her room, suitcase in hand and say "I'm your new roommate!". Truth to be told, as much as she wishes for a friend, Jackie would rather have some peace and quiet. That's what she says to herself anyway, until your company starts to grow on her. She didn't really understand how lonely she was. You guys start to spend your nights together, playing card games, chit chatting, watching movies on Netflix and so on. But slowly, something happens to Jackie's heart. Nothing major, of course, but she feels...weird. Why does her heart throb when she sees you? And what about the butterflies in her stomach? Why is she jealous when other guys and girls flirt with you? And why is she so damned angry at you for not realizing their intentions?
Maybe she is just envious or jealous, but the thought of other people trying to get in your pants makes her angry. For a while, she thinks she's being unreasonable: you are her first friend after the incident; of course she'd want to gatekeep your relationship. And after all, she seems only to attract people who will hurt her and who she will hurt. She distances herself from you, thinking that maybe "I'll be a bad influence, I should just leave them alone". But then one day, she makes a connection.
You have been gone to class for half of the day, leaving her alone inside your dorm room. She needs a little bit of space, and she has been stressed for a while.
She watches as two women grind against each other's bodies on her phone, their skin sweaty and their kisses passionate. One of them pulls out a strap and ties it to her hips, sinking it inside the other's. Jackie sits underneath her covers, stroking herself, curling her fingertips downward at the base, when a thought flashes inside her mind. "Wish we could do that..." and her brain immediatley swaps the bottom's face with yours, interchanging you between the dominating and the dominated. Her heart races, thoughts of you two on her bed, together, grinding against each other... and then kissing tenderly after all is done, giggling and falling asleep together. The feeling inside Jackie's heart is warm, so good that it makes her ache. And as she comes down from her high, she puts two and two together: she has already felt this way once, long ago in the cold of the wilderness, and recalls the pain of how she felt when she had-. Jackie stops and understands, an almost guttural "Fuck!" comes out of her throat.
And as if the situation is not bad enough, you come in a few minutes after her little panic attack. She's still naked underneath the covers, goosebumps travel along her skin when she sees you coming in. She makes an effort in justifying why she was naked underneath, "I just sleep this way when I'm hot, you know?" you make no remark on how it's november and her covers aren't warm enough to sleep under unless she wears something, but oh well.
Jackie who feels embarrassed to masturbate from then on. No matter how hard she tries, you're inside her mind, constantly. She tries to muffle her moans on her covers, stroking up and down her length with you sleeping soundly on your bed. You'd be horrified, she thinks, at the images she has of you in her mind: above her bouncing and with your hands at her throat, beneath her on all fours, cuddled in her arms while she moves from behind...
Jackie who has a hard time going to her lessons because no matter what she does, you just seem to not get out of her head. She needs you to have her in your arms, kissing her. Who has to go out of class early to take care of her little problem.
Jackie, who feels bad about masturbating with you in her mind, who feels dirty and unlovable as she does so, but she can't help it, her body can't help it. And all the while, a little voice tells her that "You're not good enough" and "They won't love you, How could they love you of all people? She didn't love you, he didn't love you; why should they? ".
Jackie who steals glances of you, imagining your hands on her chest, your lips on hers. Who yearns to kiss you so bad it hurts. Who has to go to the bathroom at least once per night whenever you two are spending time together. You don't know what she is doing, but shrug off your concerns.
Jackie who finally gets caught by you. You stand outside the doom room, listening to the sounds coming from the other side. Moans, groans, wet movements and little slips of your name here and there make it obvious to you what Jackie is doing. You slip inside the room, as slowly and quietly as possible, watching how Jackie is bucking up in her hand, hips chasing upwards the feeling. You smile, deciding to approach her with a simple "Hey" but your voice gives Jackie a small heart attack and she shouts, covering her body as best as she can, leaving her chest out in the open and her legs uncovered.
"How...how long have you been there?" she asks, blood freezing with shame and mind racing, trying to understand if you've heard her say your name. "Long enough to understand what's going on" you sit on the bed, too close for her liking, giving her a knowing smirk that she already knows the meaning of. "You were thinking about me, weren't you?" her body stops, missing heartbeats and air. She can feel tears prickling at her skin, but you quickly say to her "I-No Jackie, I liked it". From then on, you tell her how you wished to do the first step, but how you were always so scared that she might've not liked you, how you yearned for her lips on yours. The moment you two are done talking about your feelings, you all but leap into each other's arms.
Jackie who can't help but get hard almost instantly. She can feel blood traveling through her veins, pooling at her crotch, warming her skin and flesh. Who will have to clench her hand around her cock to ground herself, to avoid cumming just from kissing you. She will feel so good from just kissing you that a drop of cum falls from her slit, signaling just how full she is, ready to let all of her pleasure out.
Jackie who feels so incredibly good when you ignore her cock and press two fingers beneath her balls, mimicking fingering her. She's already so hard as it is, and your actions only serve to egg her on more.
Jackie whose hands are shaky as she undresses you, full of eagerness and craving every part of you. Who, as soon as your chest is naked, will plant wet open mouth kisses on any inch of your skin, feeling your muscles harden against her ministrations.
Jackie who will climb on you, cock pressed between your and her stomachs, grinding back and forth. Who will get off like that, grinding on your stomach. Who will spend her time under your crotch, head pressed in between your hips and the mattress. Who will feel euphoric and decide to not touch herself in any way.
Jackie who's cock throbs in need, tip and balls red as she desperately tries to hold it in, wanting only your hands on her.
Jackie who confesses, as you are about to push her length in, that she is a virgin. She sweats and apologizes, already ready for you to leave her hanging, but then lets out a loud gasp when she's finally stilled inside of you.
Jackie who trembles as you ride her into oblivion, hands shaky gripping with force at your sides, short of breath and eyes rolling backwards. She has never felt this way with anyone else, not Jeff nor Shauna, just with you. It's euphoric, it's amazing, and she doesn't wish you to stop anytime soon.
Jackie who has very low stamina but a super high libido. She'll release the precum already five minutes after you start to bounce on her, staining white the condom she wore, panting like she just crossed the line in a marathon run. You haven't even cummed yet, and as you're about to hop off of her, she grabs your hips again and mumbles incoherently, grinding you back against her as she starts to harden again.
Jackie who at one point, decides to move you and fuck you from above, fingers gripping the sheet near your head. She moves erratically, gasping and panting and moaning, her hips pushing into you at a speed you didn't even know she was capable of. Her cheeks are as red as a tomato, lips coming to settle on yours as she moves back and forth, back and forth.
Jackie who, when she cums, sees stars behind her eyelids and feels like she's about to faint.
Jackie who falls asleep almost immediatley between your arms, snoozing off with the knowledge that she has finally found someone to rely on.
#yellowjackets x reader#yellowjackets x you#jackie taylor x you#jackie taylor x reader#smut blurb#đżanon maybe?
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How did Eri!Reader and the Strawhats(and any other pirate crew) celebrate Halloween?
-The Straw Hats went to an island for Halloween, one that was known for its amazing Halloween party, full of tasty food, treats, and fun for all ages!
-Usopp was the one who taught you about Halloween, as he walked around with you and Ace during daylight hours while the party was being set up, telling you how you got to dress up and go and get candy and treats from others!
-Your elation and excitement quickly had the rest of your family excited as well, as they wanted to see your happy face, but your only dilemma was- what were you going to be?
-The costume shop was almost overwhelming, seeing all the different costumes and your family, who all met up with you, were at the shop as well, looking for their own costumes but they kept coming to you, showing you costumes they had found for you- overwhelming you with choices.
-The shopkeeper could see this, seeing you were actually getting upset as you were having issues choosing, and she was nice, coming over and kneeling down next to you, talking to you about what treats you were excited to try, getting your mind off picking a costume, helping you calm down and only then did your family realize what had be happening.
-You liked this nice lady, she helped you feel better, and she felt safe, like she was someone you could trust, âWhat are you going to be?â she was surprised by your question, beaming brightly, âIâm going to be a witch!â
-You looked a little shy, not wanting to upset your family who had been helping you, âCan I⌠can I be a witch too?â the shopkeeper was flattered by your choice, making her smile as your family was quick to agree, loving the idea of you being a witch.
-A few hours later you were ready to go out in your adorable witch costume, after Robin and Nami took a bunch of pictures, unable to handle your cuteness before you headed out with your family.
-Robin was a vampire, Zoro was a zombie, Luffy was a ghost with a pumpkin on his head, Ace was a devil, Usopp was a mad scientist while Franky was something called Frankensteinâs Monster, Nami was a maid, Sanji dressed up like a werewolf, Chopper was a lion, Brook dressed up in a fancy suit, as this was his perfect holiday, and Jinbei dressed up like a marine.
-You cheered for Brook who entered and won the costume contest, as many loved his realistic skeleton costume, until he turned slowly on them, making himself look scary, âThis isnât a costume!â which made many run screaming while others laughed, having fun.
-Your family did their best to keep you in the kid friendly area, as there were scarier parts of the island, meant for adults who could handle being scared, as they didnât want you to get too scared.
-You loved getting all the treats, it was easier getting them at the party as your family would give them to you, while trick or treating was a bit more difficult for you to understand, you would go to peopleâs houses, say trick or treat and they would give you candy- you were too adorable for your own good but many thought you were endearing since this was your first time going out for Halloween.
-By the time you were back on the ship, you were knocked out from a sugar rush, something Robin and Sanji thought was cute because itâs not everyday they will let you eat as many sweets as you wanted.
-You couldnât wait to come back for next Halloween!
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Note: The reasons may vary, but I personally think none of these men care about their spouse's body type or beauty standards in general. So I wrote about body parts instead, hope that's alright with you. đ
gn! Reader I not all of those are sexual
Featuring: Alucard, Anderson, The Captain, Walter, Maxwell, the Valentine Brothers, The Captain
Alucard
Neck obviously, since it's something so symbolic about you willingly exposing this vital spot to a monster like him. Loves digging his teeth into the tender flesh, mesmerized as he watches the liquid cascade from your collarbone down to your breasts/chest (his second favourite part).
If he feels like it he'll play with your blood as well, painting it across your skin and then licking it off, eager to not waste any drop.
Anderson
Too shy to focus on inheritly sexual bodyparts, would always gaze away (even though he's craving to look, it just goes against his teachings). Since he's used to be surrounded by fully covered women, he gets excited by the smallest amount of exposed skin. Indulges in the soft feeling of it against his rough hands.
Also, the size difference (idc how tall you are, it will be there) wakes his protective instinct. Cradles you in his arms as often as possible, putting his head on top of yours.
The Captain
Thighs and ass definetly. Will act chivalrous and open doors for you or let you go up the stairs first just to see it wiggle. It's driving him crazy. Digs his fingers into them at every opportunity, leaving marks with his bruising grip.
Also anything that's sensitive to his touch, not only during intimacy. Believe me he'll find out your weak spots. Man has a map of your body drawn in his mind.
Walter C Dornez
Hips, as well as good hip dips and belly. He's most likely responsible for them growing on you, since he likes you well fed. Loves kneading them or seeing his wires lace into the cushion of your plush.
Got stretch marks? Even better! Absentmindedly traces them with his fingers or rubs oil onto them...for skincare purpose and not his own satisfaction, of course.
Enrico Maxwell
Your hands in general, will always want to hold hands or feel them somewhere else on his body. At the beginning it shot pleasant tingles through his nerves, unused to closeness. But later on it becomes a soothing and reassuring sensation to always feel he's not alone anymore.
Will demand lots of massages or for you to run your fingers across his scalp while his head is in your lap, his favourite spot.
Luke Valentine
Anything about your hair, from color to it's texture and smell. Enjoys twirling it around his finger, playing with it, combing and styling it, or tugging on it during the act.
Prefers you (at least partially) dressed rather than naked, especially if he gets to choose outfits for you to wear. He's a man that likes to let his imagination run wild.
Jan Valentine
Literally anything, this guy's a freak. Doesn't matter at all, you could wear a fucking potato sack and he'd get aroused. If you ask him he'd just say anything works as a hole if you try hard enough. Sorry, he's not that romantic.
If you catch him at a good moment he'll babble something about how you're just so gorgeous that he simply can't decide on a single feature of yours.
The Major
Eyes are the windows of our soul, or so he says. Gets captivated by yours each time, his intense stare searching them whenever you're in the same room.
Usually at some point his gaze always wanders down to your lips, relishing the way they move as you speak and running his thumb across it before relishing in the taste of you.
#hellsing#hellsing ultimate#reader insert#headcanons#alucard#alexander anderson#enrico maxwell#the captain#walter c dornez#luke valentine#jan valentine#the major
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would rafe ever let reader wear his rings? idk thatâs just so hot and i feel like rafe would be the type đ
godd pussy started doing jumping jacks!! your brain>>
curled up next to rafe, still sweaty and sticky all over but not even close to tired, you trace patterns on his skin with your fingers. it's quiet in tannyhill except for the two of you breathing.
you thought rafe must be deep in thought the way he's gone so quiet, but when you look up from your position to see what he's doing or if, unsurprisingly, he's fallen asleep, you catch him staring right at you.
flustered, face warm, you press back against his chest, blinking fast. your fingers continue their path, now on his forearm, drawing little hearts and hoping he doesn't realize. you go further, all the way to his hand, and though you've been in this position a million times, do this or something similar almost every night, it feels different for some reason.
you run your fingers down the back of his land, looping around his fingers. they catch around his rings, and you move your own hand away when rafe stops you, grabbing your hand and keeping it in place.
"sorry," you let out quietly, wondering if he decided he didn't like the feeling. though you're still held in place against his body, you don't need to see him in order to know he's staring down at you, the way he always does, with the look that makes your heart thud so fast you can hear it in your ears.
"stop apologizin'," he murmurs, pressing a warm kiss to your forehead. he keeps your hand next to his, and you can't help yourself, pressing your palm flat against his.
"your hands are big," you comment, liking the way the two of you are touching everywhere right nowâlegs entangled and palms together. he doesn't say anything, doesn't have to. rafe moves your hand, holding it next to his, using his other to slip his rings off.
without any words at all, he slips one of them, his golden signet, onto your ring finger. helplessly big, it falls down to the knuckle. if you move an inch, it would fall off. the other ring falls onto your index finger. you extend your hand, admiring how they look on you.
"too big, rafe," you say it with a laugh, not able to hold it back any longer.
"shit. lemme see." rafe takes your hand, holding it a little out and then closer. "jus' a little bit. looks good on you though."
"all your stuff looks good on me," you breathe out, suddenly feeling like there's no air left in your lungs. rafe just slipped his own ring onto your ring finger, your left ring finger. words and thoughts leave you, focused on nothing but rafe.
"that's right. don't worry, kid, i'll get you one that fits soon enough."
your heart beats even faster, realizing what he means. you smile up at him.
"i don't want a new one. i just want yours."
the next morning, there's a pretty chain and his golden ring waiting for you on the nightstand. both of you know that once you put it on, it's never coming off.
#eee i need him so bad#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x reader#feels like shy reader but could be any of them
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The Family Matter?!
Synopsis. BabyfevĂŠr - itâs never felt so good.
Pairings. [SEPARATE] Gojo x Reader, Sukuna x Reader, Choso x Reader, Geto x Reader, Nanami x Reader, Toji x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, breĂŠding, mentions of kids/ marriage, a LOT of creampĂes, Gojoâs powers, cĂşmplay (like a lot), spĂtting, overstĂm, exhĂbitionism (Getoâs), chokĂng Nanami, pĂşssy-slappĂng, proposals, rĂşts (Choso), bĂting, true form! Sukuna, overspill, dp, bondagĂŠ, mentions of dĂ ddy kĂnk, pet names, swearing.
Word count. 5.9k
A/N. To the one anon that wanted this - how did you read my mind?? Hope yâall have a lovely week <3
⥠TOJI FUSHIGURO - Santa, babyâŚ
âB-but- Christmas isnât for another few months, Tojiââ
Now, Toji has to admit - that broken, honeyed-out little drag of his name is enough to crack even that tough demeanor of his - just a bit. And itâs all he can do to calm down the raging twitch of his buried cock, driving it deeper and deeper against your mushy g-spot to shut up those dangerous moans of yours.Â
âB-b-but-â Youâre flinching when his deep, baritone voice pitches dramatically high to mock your own, a large palm coming down to give your poor clit a branding smack! â-but, you think thatâs gonna stop me, ma?â
Stupidly, youâre whirling your dazed eyes over your shoulder to catch his, only for the calloused pads of his fingers to swiftly force your face back down.Â
âNot me, you donât get to hah- look at me just yet, doll.â Toji grits out from behind you, feverish puffs of breath sending goosebumps down your spine. Down to where your puffy cunt was just bulging with all long, solid inches of his swollen, overworked cock. Sloppy. Overspilling. âNot until youâre giving me another brat by Christmas.âÂ
A sob wrenches out of you when Toji jostles his sharp hips against yours. Harder, until you could feel every minute smack of his still-full, sensitive balls, every slosh of his syrupy sticky cum coating your walls from earlier.Â
âLook.âÂ
Youâre shaking your head in almost-bratty protest, the fat of your ass still pushing and pulling against his rugged thrusts. You feel like you could go insane if you saw any more. Thighs twitching to a shy close, âNgh- canât sâtoo- too much.â
This only pulls out a displeased growl from your pussydrunk boyfriend, rasping out a warning. âNo fuck-Â donât you fucking dare-â Big, beefy hands wrench your legs even farther apart to admire the mess heâs made, bruising where he holds them unable to escape. âDonât you even think of it, woman.â
Itâs accompanied by another harsh slap! on your puffed-up clit, this time harder than the last. Shocking you to your heated core until youâre seeing stars behind your eyes, already-ruined cunt just clenching in painful pleasure.Â
He laughs - laughs, âInstead of squeezinâ the fucking soul outta me, look here at how youâre wastinâ my cum. How can I make you a momma in time like this, huh?âÂ
Youâre blinking away those big, fat globs of tears to finally spy back down again at your drooling cunt. Swollen folds spread shamefully, gaping. Every slam of his hips makes you gush down his achy shaft with a gloss of your sweet sweet juice and his own cum. It splays in a creamy little puddle at your silken sheets, clinging to your bodies like a second, sloppy skin. âY-youâre so filthy, Toji.â
But Toji couldnât bring himself to be disgusted - not one bit. In fact, he could feel the tip of his angry head growing even fatter, expanding to meld its way deep into your elastic walls.
âFilthy, huh?â he chuckles so darkly. âGot such a mouth on ya, can already tell youâre gonna be a ah- strict momma.â His fingers are prying your jaw to sag open, whispering so slow and syrupy along your open mouth, âWell, let me tell you a little secret, ma. Doesnât matter what you call me now, because in about nine months youâll be calling me something else.â
âAnd what would- mmpf!â Oh, for how much he loved your sharp mouth, he sure was well and fully intent on shutting you up. Tojiâs hitting his cock at the back of your pussy, just mashing deep into your g-spot in sinful sync. Over and over. â-and what would that be?â
Another finalizing smack to your pulsing clit, so smug and messy. He tilts his head to that growing pool below you, splurging farther and farther with each decisive, feral ram. âYour baby daddy, thatâs what.âÂ
As if on cue, youâre cumming - you canât even remember which saccharine sweet high of the night, but all you know is Tojiâs gifting your gummy cunt with a few bullying kisses on your ravaged g-spot. Rough, lingering clashes of his weepy tip on your ravaged g-spot, sending your toes curling, white-hot shocks of pleasure. Again and again and again-
âFuck- fuuuck yeah take it.â heâs grunting out hoarsely, hips stuttering and so so feral. Barely having the sanity to pull out in his jagged half-thrusts, splitting you apart on all his weighty length to cum inside you - deep.
Painting each and every inch of your heavenly cunt that could be reached with coat after coat of velvety white - all the way from where he was gliding his fat tip across your cervix, down, down, down to your sensitive spots, your sopping wide opening. âWant- need it so bad. Need ya to make me a daddy again. So fuckinâ bad you have no idea- youâd be fuckinâ scared.â
Those mean fingers smushing your cheeks into an embarrassing pout dance down to gather the dredges of his own cum, oozing out of the corners of your slit in a milky white sheen. Still rutting into you, he suckles on them languidly like his favorite candy, âMmpf- as sweet as ever, doll.â
âY-youâre so fuckinâ mean, Toji-â your jaw slacks open at his lewd actions. âOur kid better not get such an- hah- an awful personality.â
That makes him pause - it makes him pull away his digits, glistening and connected with stringy ropes of the mess heâs made. Grinning for just a split-second before shoving the entire length of his fingers into your plush mouth.Â
Toji huffs cockily, the rounded tips of his fingers swirl around and around your lolling tongue, addicting you onto the slighty-salted taste. âOur daughter will be lucky to hngh- get my personality nâ your pretty looks.â And youâre barely even lucid when heâs whispering into your sweat-sheened forehead, âSo you better give me good news for Christmas this year, ma.â
⥠NANAMI KENTO - âTake it, like a good lilâ wife.â
Your mouth is sagging open at Nanamiâs uncharacteristically gritted words. So hoarse, pained - like they were dragged out of his raggedly heaving chest with each bullying ram of his hips.Â
It was barely midway into the evening, and you had no clue how you ended up like this. How those fleeting little titters during your romantic at-home dinner date about kids wound up with Nanami splayed on his broad back on the soft silken sheets. Sculpted abs curving into your back when he nuzzles your neck, plowing his furiously hard cock in his favorite mean full nelson.
âHa- youâre being so-â youâre gasping out in a wet stutter, ass grinding back onto those neat lanes of blond at his thick base. Heâs spearheading you so- â-so mean, Ken.â
âAm, I?â heâs purring, a low rumbling growl from the bottom of his chest. âWell, I might be the stricter parent, thatâs right.â
Rolled-up sleeves graze against your heated skin, and you could feel every ridge of the veins along his forearms when he spreads your dangling legs even wider. Jutting his hips so deeply upwards to bow your body to the throbbing curve of his dick. âBut, I apologize, darling.â Neat rows of his pearly white teeth sink down on your earlobe, âFeel free to do something- anything about it. Because mâafraid I wonât be able to stop any time soon.â
It was a promise - just the clingy feeling of your walls molding and wetting according to his very shape has him losing his mind. His sanity.
Choking back a long, drawn-out groan when two thick fingers slide down to roll over your puffy clit, âFuuuck, my love, youâre so- hngh perfect like this.â The bed creaks in protest when his powerful thighs arch even higher upwards, all those hours at the gym paying off when every frenzied mash into the bulging treasure of your g-spot makes your mouth water. He breathes into the intimate crook of your neck, âThough, I bet youâd look even prettier as a momma, right?â
Somehow, that makes your face burn more than being split apart on his relentless cock has.Â
âOh- shit.â you whine, fucking your hips back in a sloppy little staccato. Reaching your trembly arm around his strong neck, your fingers find his favorite speckled yellow tie. Yanking until Nanamiâs stern lips in a syrupy sweet kiss. âReally wanâ you to hah- breed me, Ken.â
âFuck- Oh yeah?â he gasps. And if you didnât know any better then youâd have said that that came out as a fucking whine. The ever-stoic Nanami Kento crumbling bit by bit with each rummaging thrust to shape your gummy walls. âThen whyâd it fuck- take so long. Fuck, Iâve been dreaming of this since the ah- day I met you, my girl.â
Sharp hips dig into the plush of your ass with each pivot, itâs bouncing you back and forth along his slobbering cock. So rough. So tall and angry, youâre hit with a steaming hot gush of milky precum every time Nanamiâs sliding out of you up to his thick, girthy tip.Â
âBeen thinking about you and I- and a little one. A few, actually. One blonde with your eyes, the other two with mine and your gorgeous smile.â That sweet little admission has your twitchy fingers subconsciously dragging at the heavy fabric of his tie. Tight around Nanamiâs straining neck, making his head light and cock twitch wildly to draw little patterns on your cervix. âFuck! Fuck no- keep pullinâ like that, darling.âÂ
You could feel his raw length rub against sensitive sports you never even knew felt good, in sync with that wandering free-hand of his. Now dancing upwards to glide his touchy thumb over your bouncing tits. âK-Ken, mâso close.â
âHow pretty these would look all full of milk, darling.â he muses, sounding more like heâs speaking to himself than anything. Your knees are buckling now, cunt eagerly taking in every powerfully pressurized thrust of his. But Nanami hasnât had enough of his fill, feeling a burning trail down your arching body. Down the valley of your breasts, your stomach, âAnd here- where mâgonna fuck-â Heâs cutting himself up as his hips slam up into you like with a mind of their own, â-fill you up, make you a momma. Oh, youâd be the best momma. The best.â
Heâs fucking you so rough now - so jagged that youâre white-knuckling his tie, reeling him in so close. âAnd youâd- fuck mâgonna-â youâre sobbing now, over those drawled-out squelches from your velvety cunt. âYouâd be the best da-â
You canât finish your sentence - you couldnât, because with a few more practiced strokes, youâre cumming all over Nanamiâs massive cock. Feeling your elastic walls try to suck him up so hard you wondered whether it didnât hurt.Â
But it didnât - it felt so sinfully good, in fact, that it was only a matter of a few blissful seconds before youâre being filled up with thick globs of his seed. Drooling out of you with each creamy rut into you, your gaping entrance only takes more. Still pounding into you, bottoming out - yet still pushing to give you everything he had to give.
âSh-shit.â Nanami marvels at the silky ribbons of cum being stuffed inside, the way it slews up with your honeyed slick to form a glistening gloss down both your fronts. âWait- oh, wait.â Nanamiâs trembling cock spurs out a few more overflowing shots of seed at the very thought of what he was about to do. Still stuffed in, heâs reaching over to rustle through the pockets of his dress pants scattered mere inches away from the two of your slick, convulsing bodies on the bed.
Youâre jolting when you feel something cold and metallic slide around your left ring finger, âDidnât think Iâd let you be the mother of my kids without a ring, did you, my wife?â
⥠GETO SUGURU - Escape?
âGorgeousâŚâ Getoâs sultry, slow whisper sends goosebumps running down every inch of your skin. And itâs so soothing - so gentle, and yet- â-doesnât matter how much you tug, these things wonât let you escape, mâkay?â
A wrenching sob rips from your hoarse throat, and all you can manage to do is tug on those tight, hot-pink handcuffs around your wrists. Pulling to prop your fucked-out body against the very top of his luxurious futon, âS-Sugu, youâre so mean.â Your wide eyes scan the pristine tatami room at his shrine, âAnyone could walk in-â
âAnd yet youâre still being such a slut, my girl.â He flashes you a rosy red grin, so blindingly pretty that it makes your cunt throb. âStill waiting fâme to breed your pretty pussy. Which would it be? The fifth now?â
Geto doesnât even have to finish the sentence before youâre abruptly sitting upright, bottom lip wobbling with need. Your swollen pussy is just weeping beads of his cum at this point, sobbing down where he was still buried so eagerly inside your gummy walls. Your thighs shaky in- fear? Anticipation? The need for more?Â
âAh ah-â you feel two soft little smacks to the side of your cheek. âDonât zone out on me just yet, gorgeous. Sâthis hah- boring for you?â And despite all the pleading shakes of your head, he only plows on, âAww, what a shame. Guess I just hafta spice things up-â
Itâs all the warning youâre getting - barely even - before your poor, weepy cunt is back to being just split apart on his fat head. Not even being eased into it, no care or concern for those overstimulated spasms when he stuffs you full.Â
âF-fuck-â your eyes are shooting open - when did they even close? - at the sound of nearby footsteps in the hallway behind those sliding doors. Very nearby. âI swear someoneâs gonna catch us, Sugu-â
The only sound that rings throughout his humid, heady room is your wet gag - muffled around the pale, slender fingers of his being shoved between your kiss-bitten lips. All you can register are the soft pads of his digits pressing down on the back of your taste buds and the unforgiving little pulses of his prominent veins dragging against your gummy walls.Â
Leaning down - until heâs so dangerously close, until you could count every long, dark lash on his eyelids, every flex of his muscles - slosh of his syrupy sweet inside you - as he sets a languid, lazy pace. âIf someone catches us then I will hngh- jusâ keep going, do not test me, pretty girl.â
The other of his splayed out fingers are drawing methodical, dizzying circles on the very tip of your sensitive clit. Matching his teasing place, every grazing nudge of his leaky tip coating your bruising g-spot.Â
âHavenât I already told ya not to start things you c-canât finish?â Getoâs husky voice is talking you through every clingy thrust. Falling from his pretty lips with each deep snap, fucking you into the drenched futon leisurely like some cocksleeve. âNâ what did you do, hm?â
You couldnât answer if you wanted to - because Getoâs fingers were still firmly swiping around your tongue. Murmuring, âExactly that. Just had to make that fuckinâ hah- stupid little joke about me not being able to handle another daughter, huh?â
âMmpf- hngh Sugur-â you try to moan out at a low thump! outside, but heâs shushing you pliantly quiet with a ragged pump into your womb. Making you gush velvety ribbons of his previous cum.
âHeh, think this cunt actually wants to get out of this without being bred?â It was true, your painted-white walls were just clinging elastically to Getoâs shaft every time he drove into you, sucking up every bit of him like youâre trying to milk out something delicious. Again.Â
âAnd guess what?â heâs so crazed now, eyes glowing with a dark delight. Hips pistoning into yours with fearsome accuracy to smash over and over into the bullseye of your sensitive spot. Sloppier. The shuffling outside getting louder. So unfairly good that youâre barely registering his next words, âMâjusâ gonna breed this slutty pussy until you give me another. Until everyone knows youâre my slut.â
It only takes one, two, three more drilling clashes with your g-spot for you to fall apart once more.Â
Your own orgasm bursts out of you. Squirting in glistening dredges again and again until itâs just a few fatiguing shocks of pleasure that have you heaving for air, whining Getoâs name like a mantra. The overstimulation too much, his twitching cock too big - over and over-
âF-fuuuuck- squirting all over, yâmade such a mess.â Getoâs moan is so pornographic when that angry divot at his flushed head explodes with spurts of thick hot cum. So addictively sweltering against your plush walls, it floods into your womb, down your thighs - to your lungs it almost feels like. âGonna give me another daughter? Yeah?â He breathes, head thrown back while he stuffs you too-full, until he could see the seeping white on your creamy cunt in his glassy peripheral vision. And he still isnât done cumming - thinning out to mere sticky wisps. âGonna make you so full- so swollen. Until everyone looks at you and knows what I did- how I defiled you. Theyâll look at you and see me. Me, me, me, me-â
Thereâs such an animalistic cadence in the way heâs rutting into you, pushing you further and further up those drenched sheets. Just dragging your body forwards with one strong arm around your handcuffs when his sheer volume gets too much that youâre trying to pathetically escape.Â
Thump!
In a split-second, Getoâs grabbing at a hidden dagger from underneath his robes. Throwing - dead straight through the paper doors - only for a loud thud! to echo from outside. âBet the scum outside donât even need to hear the pregnancy announcement, huh?â
⥠CHOSO KAMO - My strange addiction
Oh, thereâs nothing you loved more than Choso losing control - around the time of year when the weather grows a little warmer, when your sweet boyfriend becomes a little more restless. Those dark, dewy eyes of his turning black with something primal, desperate.Â
Ingrained in his blood to breed you. To do nothing but breed you.Â
Like right now.Â
âOh?â youâre purring with a coy bat of your lashes, looking over your shoulder to where he was looming. Flushed, gulping, absolutely drunken off your heady scent. âOn your rut again, Cho?â
And that makes his entire body jolt, as if zapped by a sudden wave of electricity. Large, trembly hands fist your thin shirt to pin you down like some ragdoll onto the cool kitchen counter. Breath hitching, such a pained grunt leaves him at the sound of his name leaving those pretty lips of yours.Â
Almost guiltily, heâs baring a wet gasp, âY-yes. Saw you makinâ ah- makinâ us dinner in the kitchen and-â Itâs like he hasnât even realized what he was doing, slapping his raw cock against your drooling slit with each word. Smack! Smack! Smack! â-and- I just thought about how- just needed toâŚâ
But alas, Choso doesnât get to finish a single thought - because youâre stepping up onto your tip-toes - ever-so-slightly. Feeding your needy cunt with just the round girth of his very tip.
âJust needed to what, Cho?â you hum, quirking a devilish brow his way, holding back a keen at the sheer stretch of him around your sopping entrance. âOr do you wanna stop?â
Fuck, Choso swears he could feel his overworked balls squeeze so painfully at the very thought. âNo-â heâs hissing, glassy gaze widening almost comically. âNo no no no no- please no. please, please this is all I want.âÂ
With a sultry giggle, you reach behind to pull him roughly by his soft strands. Chosoâs grunting out hoarsely, letting himself be dragged to clash his lips against your bruised ones in such a sloppy kiss. All tongue and teeth, he drinks you in like a man depraved. âAll you ever want is to just hah- fuck me in this kitchen, Cho?â
Itâs so cute the way heâs sputtering dazedly into your sagging mouth, such a sweet whiny cry of, âYes but no- fuck, I jusâ wannaââ The slow drag of his heavy tongue coats the crook of your neck in his saliva, hammering his swollen cock upwards until he was practically lifting you off the ground with sheer inhuman force. âJusâ wanna breed you full, baby. Breed this pretty pussy like mâmeant to.â
Itâs with an almost-animalistic type of worship that Chosoâs just ramming the rest of his thick cock into you until heâs spearheading straight into your spongy g-spot, weighty balls - painful, and ready for breeding - smacking against your ass. Addicted.Â
âO-oh, fuckââ you canât stop your honeyed gasps. âYouâre s-so big- so hard even after just this morning? What a naughty boy.âÂ
Just slamming you down onto the cool marble,âFuck- fuck fuck yâknow what I imagined when I hah- saw you in the kitchen?â Such throaty groans drag along with each and every plunge into your slobbering pussy, Choso was always so talkative when he was like this. Slurring out a mile a minute, âSaw my pretty wife, the pretty mother of my kids.â
And you knew what he was going to say, but that doesnât stop you from milking him so tight, velvety walls contracting in a way that almost made it difficult to maintain his sloppy staccato. Back arching into such a slutty bow to drag even needier down his drilling length
But your beloved boyfriend still wasnât done, kissing away hotly at the corner of your mouth. âNâ sânot jusâ the hngh- rut talking either. Fuuuuck-â All six feet of his muscled body pins you to the counter, and distinctly, you could feel him scramble desperately to buck up a knee to angle his hips even deeper. âSaw you makinâ breakfast before school, and Iâm- hngh- and Iâm getting the kids ready - a boy and a girl, both as gorgeous as you.â
âY-yeah?â Is all you can breathe out, âWhat- hngh- what else?â
You didnât expect his humorless chuckle - broken, and a few pitches higher than normal. âWhat else?â His eyes are absolutely crazed now, and heâs biting down on your pouty lower lip. âOh what didnât I see?âÂ
Bowing till you could feel every ripple of his abs against your back. Every slow tremor of his glossy head nudging past your defenses, hitting deep at the bottom of your g-spot. It takes a few more sloppy pumps for you to realize that Chosoâs still speaking.Â
âSaw the wedding- saw the first birth, the way I cried-â The way he was crying now, ragged, overstimulated tears dripping down his pretty cheeks. Panting out wetly, â-what a great momma you are, the best. The way I help you hngh- milk these p-pretty tits when itâs too much. But my most favorite of all-â
You donât hear the rest - and he doesnât tell you, because heâs too busy cumming. Cumming and cumming so much that Choso thinks he canât stop, swollen base rummaging deep inside to plug up those thick ropes of hot seed inside. It was impossible that he hadnât achieved his dream with this.Â
Itâs bloating you up, too much. Spilling out of those little gaps at the dips and ridges of his twitchy cock that your inner thighs cover in a clingy white sheen.Â
Drawn on instinct, you can only scream when Chosoâs sharp canines bite down on the sensitive spot at your neck. Hard enough to draw blood - and, if you two were in any better state of mind, youâd have noticed that he did draw blood.Â
A thin saturation of heady red coating his devilish grin, delicate strings of spit still connect to the mating mark. â-my favorite was when we made another.â
⥠RYOMEN SUKUNA - DOUBLE STUFFED!
âOne more.â
âKuna-â
âOne more.â
When all youâre getting is that leeringly dangerous grin - the very same one he gifts any weak curses just about to be killed at his feet - you know thereâs no way youâre getting out of this. Either you take it - or he makes you.Â
Gliding your palms across Sukunaâs bulging pecs, your trembly legs twitch atop his muscled thighs. Gingerly jutting along where your poor cunt was being split apart on his twin bulgingly hard cocks. Up and down up and down up and-
âSâtoo much-â youâre whining, feeling the gush of his sticky cum coat down your thighs. Oozing out of your bloated cunt with every syrupy sweet bounce of his ravaging cocks. âI- not enough space-â
Any you were about to stupidly babble out is cut off when Sukuna wraps five thick digits around your exposed neck, intentionally dipping his sharp nails to leave branding little divots right about your racing pulse. A warning. A punishment. âDid I tell ya to keep runninâ that hah- mouth, brat?â he spits, waiting for you to shake your head deliriously ânoâ before grinning. âThen why am I hearing so much t-talking nâ not enough of this slutty lilâ cunt of yours taking one more? You hear that?âÂ
All that was ringing in your ears was the honeyed echoes of squelches from below, smacking and slapping in sync with your pathetic movement.Â
âExactly.â Sukunaâs snapping you out of your thoughts, one hand resting at the glistening plush of your hips, the other spreading your puffy pussy lips to let you just slobber down his angry, red shafts. Glossing over him all the way from those fat tips to the creamy ring around his base. âWastinâ too much of my hngh- cum with yer talkinâ, brat. How are ya gonna have time to carry my seed?â
And heâs so large - so strong. Not even breaking a sweat when heâs getting up from his decadent throne with you boneless in his arms, still stuffing your cunt full with all greedy inches of both cocks.Â
âO-oh, fuck, Kuna!â youâre squealing when gravity pulls you down until you could feel the scratch of his pink happy trail against the sensitively grazed areas of your skin. The dizzying push of two matchingly massive girths stretching your gummy walls to its limits. Your nails draw jagged red line down his tan skin, trying to keep just an ounce of your sanity together, âFuck youâre in so hngh- deep.â
âEasy on the back there.â Sukunaâs rolling his eyes, but he canât deny the way his heart clenches at the way youâre so fucked-out and easily sliding down his cock like some pretty sex toy. Whimpering about some baby names.
Not like it mattered, anyway. Heâd name the little devilspawn whatever you wanted - after fighting about it for the fun of it. Heh, he always has been soft on you, huh?
All it takes is one hand holding you up, another to toy with the sensitive nub of your clit. Rolling and teasing you even deeper into his arms while another still rests firmly around your throat.Â
The remaining hand? At Sukunaâs favorite place cupping your teary cheek, gliding away those big fat tears with the cure of his soft thumb, âShh shhh, you can take it. Youâre my pretty lilâ queen, right?â
Even his mind a hot melted mess on your dripping cunt. Just fucking into you ruthlessly, up, up, up till he was bulging at the very back of your cunt. One fat tip firmly kissing your g-spot, the other gliding in a silky smooth cadence against your poor cervix.
Matching veins rubbing matching sensitive spots, rendering you so awfully dumb on his cocks. Mixing with the hypnotic splattering of his seed against the velvet of your walls, itâs impossible to not feel like youâre about to fucking burst.Â
Intertwining your fingers with his much longer ones on your face, youâre dragging them to rest at that palpable little nudge along the middle of your stomach. Pressing down to make him feel where he was buried deep, hiccuping lewdly, âYouâre right here, Kuna. Sâgonna be- hngh! impossible to not give you an heir.â
An heir.Â
And fuck he couldnât take it anymore - if anything even fucking heard about this, theyâd faint.Â
Because with a shuddering gasp, the king of curses was just dragging your weight down his cocks - over and over - to gloss your insides with each new coat of the thick, syrupy cum weeping out of his angry heads. So overfilled, but still greedily swallowing everything Sukuna gives.Â
âFuck-.â With an angrily strained growl, Sukuna only speeds up his motions on your clit. Methodical. Urgent, even. Still fucking him seed deeper to smash his quivering tips at your g-spot. Both - two divots pressurizing you at the same time. âHow dare you make me cum first, woman. Think youâre soo fucking funny, huh? Better give me hundreds of lilâ hellspawn to make up for it.â
âN-noo-â you croon, but that limp little curl of your lips at the abundance of seed seeping out of you gives you away. It was so unlike him - so startling to spy the blushing rouge at his ears, the way his fat balls smack and only squeeze harder when you milk every drop. So hot, and splattering right down both of your legs, forming a creamy puddle at his floor. âI didnât-â
You donât finish your sentence, you canât. Because with all of his brute strength, Sukuna is just wrenching that orgasm from your grasp - fucking you over and over through your high.Â
The puddle only grows wider. And thereâs no warning before he spits, once. Twice. Right onto the middle of the overwhelmed taste-buds on your tongue, gently shutting your mouth with one hand. The other spreading your puffy pussy lips to let you drool a glossy coat of cum down his front. Making a mess.
âSâinauspicious, yâknow. Having the momma cum first-â Heâs gruffing, sure you were still crashing into wave after wave of pleasure to even hear his whines. â-so why donât you give me one more?â
⥠GOJO SATORU - Meet the Gojos
âToru- weâll get caught.â
âShut up- fuck- shut up.â Gojoâs face was ashen, grinning so dangerously at the sight of you completely and utterly bound into that obscene mating press he loved so much. Your pretty pussy at the perfect angle for him to hammer his achy cock so thoroughly into you. âSânot what this cute cunt is sayinâ though, sweetheart.â
Fuck, if you were in any better state of mind, youâd have smacked him maybe. But you knew right by the glowingly amused tinty in his blue eyes that he was waiting for that to happen - goading even.Â
Youâre whining hotly, fingernails digging sharply into the winding wooden desk rested cool beneath your skin. âThe- the elders are about to have a- hngh! meeting in here soon and-â
Gojoâs lips curl when your breath hitches, feeding you each and every one of his merciless inches over and over- âWell then itâs damn good that theyâve been bugging me for an heir, dontcha think~?âÂ
Youâre letting your drooling maw fall slack in disbelief - only to create the perfect opening for your boyfriend to catch you into a sloppy, open-mouthed kiss. Spitting out little profanities with each harsh push of his fat gliding tip across the slippery slopes of your walls. âHeh, always so fuuuck- cute when youâre fucked dumb on my cock.â heâs chuckling, mouth looser than usual with the way the tight channel of your cunt is sucking out every one of his honest thoughts - his soul. âBut ya needa get more firm, Iâm gonna be the fun parent.â
It takes another harsh snap! of those toned hips bruising against your ass for you to jump back into your heady reality.Â
âT-ToruâŚâ youâre murmuring, but it comes out so much more breathless than you wanted. Catching on to that syrupy, fucked-out tone of yours, Gojo takes the opportunity to ram his swollen length even meaner into your slobbering cunt. Wringing out your narrow hole to mold around the exact shape of his massive dick. âWe- ngh! Weâve got to set an example.â
You feel the fat girth of his shaft grow two sizes even bigger at your scolding. Bulging those two prominent veins down the middle to imprint onto your gummy walls. The roaming point of his glossed-over head pressing straight onto your g-spot, making you writhe underneath him. Bucking up for more more more-
A pale, splayed-out palm slams! down onto the creaky mahogany right beside your head, and when youâre batting your dazed gaze up you see-
Oh.Â
Oh fuck - forget setting an example, you were about to be made one.Â
Because Gojoâs blue irises were sparking with tiny rods of lightning, teeth bared in such an amusedly feral grin that it made your cunt ache.Â
âFuck-â even his voice sounded deeper - raspier, cracking ever-so-slightly with need near the end. âFuck, you canât talk shit to me about âsetting examplesâ when you get so fuckinâ wet just because I play a little rough.â
Playing a little rough was an understatement - and both of you knew it. Because if Gojo was simply toying with your sanity before, then he was well and fully intent on breaking it right now. Right along with your poor pussy with those bludgeoning, harsh thrusts you were being gifted with.
The expansion of his weighty cock has you squealing with each powerful slam, âFuck- fuck you little-â
âHunk? Absolute catch?â he grins, voice dropping to a low husky drawl. A slick little trail of drool dips down the corner of his mouth already with every cracking beg and plea, followed by a series of lingering grinds - not even thrusts, just slow, shallow swerves to feel you tighten wetly around his hot shaft. The lights flicker above, âFather of your kids?âÂ
That makes you wrack in a sinful shudder, words tumbling out before your syrupy sweet brain could compute them, âYouâd make a- a good daddy, Toru.â
Crack!Â
Itâs happening in a split-second - a stuttering gasp catches in Gojoâs throat, those baby blue eyes going wide. Glowing. In the distance, your popping ears catch the sharp shattering of that prized vase in the corner of the room.Â
But right now it felt like you were the one about to break - because ribbons and ribbons of Gojoâs hot, potent seed were knocking on the door to your womb. Splurging in thick dredges to stuff you full from the inside out.Â
âFuck- fuck, you evil evil woman.â Gojo breathes out, the only thing he could seem to do at this very moment. When the tethering clenches of his balls have tapered out, heâs pulling out to smack! the length of his throbbing, red shaft on your clit. Mouth hanging open at the way just buckets of his own cum gush out of your tight hole. âShit- mâgonna breed this cute cunt. Gonna fill her up until youâre so round and swollen.â heâs babbling, gliding pale fingers across the sloshing cum now seeping onto the desk to shove it back inside.Â
âFuuuck- mâgonna breed her till she hah- doesnât know what itâs like to not be stuffed full. Until youâre giving me a cute lilâ blue-eyed baby.â Crackling with jujutsu energy, heâs smack down on your puffy cunt - hard! âUntil mânot the strongest. Not even second- or third or fourth or fifth-â kissing your pouty lips in addicted little pecks. â-no. Sâgonna be my- our kids. All ours.â
âNgh! Toruââ youâre whining, only taking another few messy swivels on your cunt before you cum. And you swear, the lights go out at this very moment - the only thing you can see being Gojoâs flickers of purple jujutsu and his gleamingly white grin.
He smacks another hand down on that wooden meeting desk - the now broken desk, standing wearily on only three legs - and the puddle of cum seeping below you. âThink weâll be excused from the meeting? Because mânot done with you just yet, ma.â
A/N. Yuh I had two Kendrick references I apologize (I donât).
Plagiarism not authorized.
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â CAN'T WE BE SEVENTEEN? ; shoto todoroki ; çŚĺ
summary: he's loved you since he was seventeen. pairing: f!reader x pro hero!shoto ; reader was a 1-A student tags: mutual pining, heavy make-out, thinly veiled sugar daddy shoto, reader does not go pro, touya might be a dick but he's a hero now, shoto is bad at feelings wordcount: 5.6k a/n: i do not fucking know what came over me, enjoy your food my little todorokinas. yes the title is what you think it is. no i will not elaborate.
You never did go pro.
Truthfully, you thought there would be more pushback when, in your senior year, you announced your plan to pursue a degree in early childhood education with a focus on non-conforming quirk development.Â
The War changed a lot. It changed you, your classmates, and the world. But, through it all one thing stuck with you:
What if someone helped Tenko Shimura?
How different would his life have been? How different would history have spun?Â
You graduated at the top of your class and joined the faculty at Chiba Prefectural Preparatory School for Quirk Specialties two years ago.Â
Chiba Prep was opened eight years ago in response to a societal cry for more infrastructure around what was dubbed "non-conforming quirks": a nice way to say quirks that can injure, maim, or kill. Maybe even all three on a bad day. Some parents still see their child being labeled as a non-conforming quirk user in the national database as akin to social suicide.Â
You see it differently.
Your quirk allows you to manipulate emotions â anger, sadness, betrayal, love, hatred. If you can feel it, you can sink it into another's psyche deep enough to drive them to act. You can even imbue things with feelings. For example, a cup of warm milk can transform into more than just a simple comfort, now it can hold the feeling of home and safety, or even exhaustion strong enough to put even the biggest foe to rest.Â
You could easily use your quirk with nefarious intent.Â
You could steep hatred in someone's bone so deep it drives them to harm themselves. You could sew fury so solid into someone's mind it drives them to violence.Â
Just a touch and you can control others with something so intrinsically personal it only exists within themselves: their feelings.
What makes you any different from little Asuke, a shy little girl with a quirk that allows her to see people's greatest fears, and then manifest and control them? You're convinced she can use this for good, if only with practice. In your mind, her future is bright and glimmering. Perhaps she will become a therapist, focusing on exposure therapy? Or, maybe the most prolific horror novelist in their time?Â
Or, bright and sunny Tao â a transplant whose parents sought out Chiba Prep's specialized education â whose heteromorphic quirk makes his bodily fluids, namely saliva, eat through nearly anything but his own biologics. A sneeze is quickly the most dangerous thing in the world for the cheery, lizard-bodied class clown.Â
He's just a boy given a quirk that needs more care.Â
He isn't a villain-in-training.Â
None of them are.
It's important to teach them that young â and as their teacher for Year 3 of their elementary schooling, you aim to hammer that in as much as possible. They deserve to feel normal. To feel loved and supported. They aren't scary, they're children.Â
So, you take it upon yourself to insist on pushing for privileges like field trips. There aren't many public spaces that welcome the classes of Chiba Prep with open arms. Over the years, there have been plenty of incidents. But, a day trip into the city to visit Tokyo's Hall of Heroes is green-lit with bubbling excitement from both faculty, the children, and their parents.Â
You usually keep your history as a graduated member of Class 1-A quiet.Â
After all, you never did go pro.
And even still, Shoto Todoroki never stopped thinking about you.
He remembers that weekend everyone moved back in for their last year before graduation. He remembers you smiling at him, and helping him drag up a duffel of luggage from the common room to his dorm. You made a joke about how you're sure he got taller over the summer, and how his hair is longer now. You said you liked it.Â
It was the beginning of the end, then.
His crush was a silent, smothering thing. It made it hard to think. Shoto had enough on his plate thanks to Touya's acceptance into the Villain Rehabilitation Program and his father's insistence on staving off retirement. Not to mention his parent's divorce â no matter how amicable, it was still a separation. Add on training, tests, studying, finals, and j-term classes... And a desperate, writhing, burning crush on the nicest girl in class?Â
Touya's elbow digs into Shoto's side.
It drags him back to reality â to the stifled quiet of the historical Hall of Heroes.Â
Suddenly, the doors to the wing squeak open, and a tour guide ushers in the elementary school class. The buzzing excitement and wonder are visible on each of their faces as the attendant â one of the HoH's lead tour guides â excitedly explains the newest, in-progress addition to the Hall:
Endeavor's wing.Â
There's a whisper of awe that ripples through the children as their teacher and co-teacher follow, and as the class moves through the large, open space. They're staring up eagerly at the gilded statue in the center of the room. It's larger than life and intimidating. Years ago, Shoto might have had to fight the odd tremble in his knees at the reminder it brings: to be small in his father's shadow again. But, things are different now.Â
Very different.
Touya scoffs. "I thought this wing wasn't open to the public yet."
"They're just children," Shoto hums, turning his back on the gaggle across the way to inspect the large mural winding along the back end of the installation, "I'm sure it'sâ"
"Oh, ho, no way!"
Shoto quirks his brow at his brother's outburst. His elbow digs into Shoto's ribs again.Â
"Ain't that the pretty girl you never got the balls to ask out your senior year?" comes the rasped drawl of his older brother's voice. Touya is clearly amused, his white hair hanging in his eyes as he leans forward to squint, "She is cute, Sho'â"
"Shut up," Shoto grits, turning his head over his shoulder; he tries to bite back the flurry of nerves that ignite in his gut, "Stop talking."
It is you.
You look... good.Â
Happy.Â
You're crouched by a small, timid girl in the back of the crowd. Your hand is in hers, and you're pointing upwards at the large paneled screens replaying Endeavor's most historic fights. You're explaining something to her, your knees bent as you squat. You look... the same. As if in the six years since they graduated, you sat still in time.Â
For a second, it's like he's seventeen again.
It's his senior year, and he's stuck at the corner of the gym's edge with a half-empty glass of punch in his hand. The lights are low, and there's slow music playing. His tie feels too tight. Bakugo keeps telling him to 'ask her to dance already', and Kirishima is considering bashing his head through the wall. Even Midorya is trying to persuade Shoto.Â
"It's prom, man! C'mon, this could be your last chanceâ"
Touya is about to be a real pain in the ass â his favorite pastime â and make some comment about your ass, but when he turns to lob the one-liner at his baby brother, Shoto's gone.
Shoto is on the move.
The crescendo of gasps draws your attention first.
Then, the cry of "WOAH, IT'S SHOTO!" leaves you dumbfounded. The rippling murmur of excitement bleeds into the children as their eyes â and the eyes of the tour guide â widen at the sight of the approaching Pro Hero.Â
Shoto Todoroki.
He looks... good.Â
Really good.
He's a bit older, and a bit more filled out than when you were both teenagers. You can see the strength in his arms and shoulders â it's a distant echo of his father's physique, though Shoto is so much more elegant and much... prettier. He's always been.
For a second, you're seventeen again.
It's your senior year, and you're sprawled across Momo Yaoyorozu's bed.
They had finally wrangled out of you who your crush was: something they hadn't been able to do in all their years as classmates.
There's a sticky, Miss Midnight-themed face mask clinging to your expression as you try to flip through the large magazine in your hands as nonchalantly as possible. Mina's voice, as she paints Ochaco's nails a bright pink on the floor, is sweet and saccharine as she looks up at you.
"I think you and Shoto would be, like, the cutest couple ever."Â
You're still crouched when the tour guide nervously â like she was caught doing something naughty â introduces The Pro Hero Shoto to the already-aware crowd of elementary school students and their teachers. It's like igniting a match; the uproar of excitement leaves you laughing as three of your boys push forward to bombard him with questions about his quirk.Â
Asuke is smiling shyly, now. That's a small win. She's intrigued by the appearance of a real hero, not the "scary statues" â and her big, fat tears stopped rolling the moment you laid a gentle hand on her to quell her anxiety over the new environment with a push of comfort through your quirk. She unhooks her pinkie finger from yours as you guide her towards your co-teacher.Â
"Boys," you call with a crisp air of authority as you stand and lead Asuke toward the bulk of the field trip group, "What have we learned about personal space?"
"It's fine, really, Insight," comes Shoto's voice; as warm and placid as you remember.Â
"Insight?" mutters your co-teacher at the presumed hero-name; a look of confusion plasters itself on her face, and her big, feline ears perk up. She leans in to whisper in a way that borders on conspiratory, "Do you two know one another?"
"Old classmates," you confirm, not daring to get into the finer details.
Shoto's attention is entirely rooted in the way you manage the kids. There's something beautiful about the ease with which you handle the bouquet of students; you quell the excitement into a manageable decibel like it's as easy as breathing.Â
"Shoto," you start as you gesture to him, "Has a very special quirk â Toyamai, he has ice like you. And, fire like Tojiro. He can regulate his temperature. Can anyone tell me what that means?"
There's a wave of hands shooting up, a few me, me, me's rise from the gaggle.Â
You're using him as a teaching moment.
Shoto's smile is soft.
You nod at Ogomi, excitedly nodding as the reserved child speaks up. Normally, he hates public speaking. But, recently, he's started working with the speech pathologist during lunch. The boy bounces a little as he answers. "He doesn't g-get too hot, or too c-cold."
"Exactly! Isn't that cool?" you grin at the lazy attempt at a pun, "This is why it's important to learn about our quirks as much as we can!"
Touya thinks this whole thing is just too cute.Â
You're different than he remembers â but, granted, things were sorta different last time he saw you. He was a little too busy tryna kill his old man and lil' Shoto. He's different now, too. A changed man! A real licensed hero. Support items and all.Â
He hangs back.Â
He... I mean, he is a jack-ass but he isn't gonna ruin this for Shoto.Â
...It's kinda cute.
Just about as cute as Fuyumi said it was.Â
Apparently, Shoto had opened up to her and Natsuo about his feelings after graduation â about how he regretted not doing anything about it. Fuyumi then told their mum, who then off-handedly mentioned it to Touya... and well Touya dug in because, duh, he is a whore for good gossip. He might be the family's black sheep, but Shoto is the glue that binds.Â
And he deserves to be happy.
Your co-teacher is ushering the kids to the next installation â a viewing of All Might's Legacy, a new documentary following the retired pro's teaching career. It will be a good wind down for them, in comfy seats and the dark. It's hardly the sort of content an elementary school student would find riveting, but it is All Might. And they love him.
You hang back.Â
Shoto's heart is hammering in his chest.
"Hey."
"Hi," you greet back, closing the door to the theater and stepping forward as you weave your arms around you, "Long time no see."
"Yea," Shoto breathes, his hands in his pockets as he meets you halfway across the museum's marble floors, "I... I see you're teaching."
His eyes are as pretty as they were back then. Slate grey and piercing turquoise. "I'm in my second year," you confirm softly, fiddling with the material of your sweater, "Congrats to your old man."
You gesture up at the statue, then wave around to the rest of the installation.
Shoto inhales, then nods; he's staring at your face, blissfully realizing you're just the way you were all those years ago. Kind. "I'll pass it along."
"How's he handling it?" you ask, your eyes raking across his expression and trying not to stick to the sharp slope of his jaw, or the bob of his Adam's apple, "Retirement, I mean."
"He's happy, I think. Touya and I are working together and... things are...  good."
Last month, Endeavor finally retired. He cited his age, and his dedication to passing his legacy to his two sons: Shoto and Touya. Shoto has planted himself firmly within the Top Ten in the last year or so, and shockingly, Touya isn't far behind. People love an underdog's redemption story, you suppose.Â
And the underdog in question can read a room.Â
This is getting a little too sexually tense for even him.
"Heeeeey, girl," he rasps out, staggering backward with a thumb over his shoulder, "Nice t' see ya. I'll let you two catch up, yea? I'm gonna go pop my head into the theater, see how the kids are handling the snooze fest on screenâ"
You jump.
How long has he even been there?
"Hi, Dâ Touya," you strain, wincing a little; the rehab'd villain doesn't seem to mind.
"Hi, teach'. That cool with you?" he asks, wobbling his thumb and quirking a pierced eyebrow; it's comical, like he's trying to disarm you with humor, "Don't want you thinkin' I'm corrupting your youthsâ"
"It's fine," you breathe, ignoring the sting of age-old mistrust. You know better. Shoto wouldn't be here, with him, if Touya Todoroki hadn't changed. Endeavor wouldn't be entrusting his legacy to the ex-League of Villain member if he didn't believe in his capacity for good, "Just don't be disruptive."
Casting judgment on someone whose life was nearly destroyed by his own non-conforming quirk would go against everything you taught the kids anyway.
"Touya's whole thing is being disruptive," Shoto grits as his oldest brother slips silently through the doors, "I apologize for himâ"
"No," you wave him off, laughing a little, "Don't. It's... nice to see you two together."
Shoto's expression is soft as he wanders a little closer. "It took time â and a lot of therapy â but we've all managed to come out the other side."
"That's great to hear, Shoto," you breathe, your eyes flitting across his face, "I'm really happy for you."
There's a long silence, then â and you can't help but ignore the roil of butterflies in your stomach. The eye contact is heavy with some unspoken thing, and both of your tongues are weighted by secrets-never-turned-confessions.Â
It's like finally this dance you've been doing around one another for years breaks â and the two of you throw caution to the wind at the exact same moment.Â
"Would you like toâ"
"Are you freeâ"
Hesitant, slow grins bloom on both your faces.
"Dinner?" is all he manages after a sweet moment of soaking up your soft smile, "If you're available...?"
You make yourself available.
Yaoyorozu almost dies when you call her that night â winded from tearing through your entire wardrobe. You explained you had nothing to wear a-and you needed something nice, and you only have an hour to get ready, because Todoroki â yes, stop screaming, Todoroki â is picking you up at 8pm.
Little bro is nervous. Touya can tell.Â
From his spot on the sofa, the white-haired ex-degenerate scoffs. Natsuo is digging around for some cufflinks in Shoto's dresser.
"Seriously, Sho'? AÂ suit?"Â
"It's a nice restaurant," his brother says tightly, adjusting the collar of the black button-down, "I booked the upstairs dining room for privacy."Â
"Who the hell told you t' do that?" Touya quirks a skeptical brow.
"Father was the one who suggested it."
"...That old dog."Â
Natsuo rolls his eyes at the exchange before throwing his hands as he emerges from the closet. "Do you have any links that aren't emblazoned with U.A. High School's crest?"
The ones in Natsuo's hands have his graduation year on them.
Shoto winces.
"Want me to ask dear ol' dog of a dad?" Touya snarks from the corner, his posture becoming less and less upright as he scrolls on his phone.
"Already did," comes the soft voice of Fuyumi; she's smiling, padding into Shoto's room with a velvet box, "He offered up his nicest pair. He also says not to screw it up with Insight. He likes her."
Of course, he likes her. You worked under Endeavor for a brief work-study period during your third year. Shoto remembers hearing grumbled praise over dinner one night about your talent for de-escalation.
"You told him who I was seeing?" Shoto asks incredulously, taking the box and working the cufflinks on. He's starting to feel exasperated.
Fuyumi nods, popping down beside Touya.Â
"He asked. I'm not gonna lie to him."
"Did y' tell ma?" Touya rasps, peeking up over his phone to inspect Shoto's outfit. Not half bad, honestly. He looks good in all black. A man after his own heart, "M'sure she's gonna be real excitedâ"
"Yes," Shoto grumbles, "I called her earlierâ"
"Chiba Prep is a really good school, y'know," Natsuo buts in as he tries to find a tie that matches Shoto's outfit. Ultimately, though, the middle brother decides against it and tosses the options over his shoulder, "They're, like, on the leading edge for quirk therapies."
"Hey, nerd? Quiet down. The big kids are gossiping," Touya shirks, turning back to Shoto, "What did mum say?"Â
"She wants me to call her afterâ"
"One, you're gonna call mum the morning after," Touya raises a finger, "Because if you don't get laid, I'll be so fuckin' disapâ"
Fuyumi slaps Touya's chest. He lets out a pained yelp at the solid smack.
"Uh, ow," he rubs his sternum. "An' two, take a deep breath. You look like you're gonna shit yourself. Those are my pants and they're expensive."
Shoto lets out a long breath.Â
Fuyumi's smile is sweet like honey. "Aw, Sho'! It's gonna go great. You two have known each other for such a long time, and catching up is going to be amazing. Just be yourself! Confident and kindâ"
"âHold the door open for her, and pull her chair out," Natsuo adds as he adjusts Shoto's collar for him, "Car door, tooâ"
It's Touya's turn. He's dead serious. "âAnd do not chicken out on kissing her at the end of the night. I swear to god."
Easier said than done.
You never did go pro.
Those years of hardened battle instincts have lost their edge. You try to remind yourself this is just Shoto, not The Shoto â but you're a little lost in the whole celebrity of it all when he picks you up in a very nice, sporty little car with ENDVRplates.Â
You answer the door and he forgets how to breathe.
He has flowers for you. They're blue and blooming and beautiful.Â
Fuyumi's contribution.Â
You settled then you were going to kiss him at the end of the night.
The restaurant is... nice. Really nice. The sort of nice you could never aspire to experience on your teacher's salary. Even the valet is a concept that has your head spinning. But, Shoto handles it all with cool ease. The entire time, his hand is settled on your lower back.Â
It feels like you've been lit on fire.
You're glad Momo was able to create a dress fitting for the occasion. It's sleek and black. Comfortable, too. Not much can be said for your heels on that front, but it's fine.Â
Somehow, Shoto managed to book the entire upper floor of this place in all its glimmering glory â it's just the two of you alone in a sea of tables.Â
The waiter is pouring you a glass of the chef's suggested pairing of sake.
You thank him, smile, and take a sip as Shoto unbuttons his suit jacket and watches you.Â
For a second, you're seventeen again.
Sero and Kirishima were always in cahoots when it came to parties back then â somehow, between the two of them, they always managed to smuggle enough booze onto campus to obliterate any semblance of promised sobriety from even the most stoic members of 1-A.Â
You remember one night, after a lot of hounding, you finally gave in and joined a few of your classmates on the back lawn for a few drinks.Â
A few beers turned into a cup or two of wine, and then another big gulp of whatever deranged jungle juice concoction Kaminiari managed to cook up. It tasted terrible, but you were too drunk to really care. Shoto was no better. He was nursing his fourth drink of the night â a rarity he was even drinking at all â and seemed completely fine with the way your arms brushed as the two of you sat close in the grass.Â
He was always so nervous around you. Now, he just seemed... happy.Â
"I can't believe there is only one week left until graduation."
Graduation day was the last time you saw him.Â
Until this morning, that is.Â
You smile into your drink.Â
"What?" you ask when his eyes never leave your face.
His fingers twitch towards his own glass. Shoto blinks, then rolls his jaw. He was caught staring. He clears his throat, looking a bit shy. "Nothing."
"Nothing?" you press playfully, cocking your head to the side.
"You..." he starts, then bawks. You're stunning, and it's making it hard to even think straight. He thought these feelings might have mellowed out over the years but seeing you again has just reignited everything. He feels like a hormonal teenager again, "You look beautiful."
Your expression falters into something lovesick. You chew your lip. "You're not so bad yourself, Todoroki."
He manages a half-smile. "Touya had me worried the suit was a bit much."
The idea of Touya offering him advice on his outfit strikes a chord in your heart. It makes you smile even bigger than before. "Well, you can tell Touya that I like it. A lot."
You rake your eyes up and down him. On purpose.
He notices.
Shoto's face feels hot.Â
He tries to shake the bone-deep want that has swept his entire body up in its grip, but it's difficult when every single word out of your mouth reminds him just how in love he was with you back in school. You explain, excitedly, why you chose to teach at Chiba Prefectural Prep and catch him up on where you've been living since graduating. He's pleased to learn you're still in the area, living in the city, and decidedly in love with the commute to the school.Â
Shoto's always been a good listener â but you can see how much he's changed when he begins to speak about his career. He seems so much more sure of himself than he was all those years ago. It wasn't that he was... unsure... but, no. He was shy. Quiet.
Now, less so.Â
It's adorable.Â
Dinner comes and goes with conversation over sushi that is far too good for you to even process. It's easy talking to him. It was easy talking to Shoto back, then, too but... Things are different. You're both different. Not in a bad way, but in a way that feels like coming home.Â
While you both wait outside for the valet, Shoto shrugs his jacket off and puts it over your shoulders without a single word. Suddenly, you're cradled in a warmth that's very Shoto â his cologne clings to the collar and you bury yourself a little deeper into it.Â
Shyly, you step closer and steal his hand. It's calloused and warm. He laced his fingers with yours as if practiced. You bite back a grin. You give his hand a little squeeze when you spot the car coming around the corner.
His silence is calming â and he squeezes your hand back. When you look up at him, you realize he's already looking at you.Â
His face is close. It's so... intimate. Very. Nearly better than a kiss.Â
But, you've wanted to kiss Shoto Todoroki since you were seventeen.Â
The valet driver interrupts the moment with a respectful call of Shoto's name and offers the keys with a shake of the hand. With a little bit of hesitancy, Shoto remembers the thing Natsuo said â the car door, too â and moves around the passenger side to open the door for you.Â
It's sweet.
Really sweet.Â
The car ride back to your apartment is punctuated with easy conversation â you ask him about Bakugo and Midorya, and you're pleased to hear they're both doing well. He asks about Momo, and if you still keep in touch with Mina and Ochaco. He smiles to himself when you admit you did call Momo for help with an outfit.Â
"She did a beautiful job," Shoto breathes, a palm moving from the gear shift to brush over the dress' fabric on your thigh.
His hand settles there.Â
Your stomach does a flip.Â
You chew your lip, swallow down a sudden burst of nerves, and let your hand rest over his. You squeeze it. Shoto tries to focus on the road. His gaze drifts for a moment at a red light, his heterochromatic eyes dancing across your figure.Â
Keep it together.Â
He isn't seventeen.
He's twenty-five. He's a Professional Hero. One of the Top Ten in all of Japan. He's more than capable of keeping it together in the face of physical touch from the woman he's dreamed about for years.Â
...Right?
Green light.
His hand is still on your thigh when he pulls up to your apartment.Â
The touch is relinquished in favor of putting the sports car in park.Â
It makes your chest ache.
Shoto swallows thickly.
Do not chicken out on kissing her at the end of the night.
He'll never forgive himself. But, admittedly, he's bad at this. He's not good at reading body language, or even knowing himself enough to realize he looks mildly terrified as you blink up at him in the passenger's seat. His heart is hammering a mile a minute.
What if you don't want to kiss him?
When would he even kiss you? Now? Or at the door?
Why does he feel like he's going to die?
"This was really... Shoto, are you okay?" you ask as you unbuckle your seatbelt; you pause, your brows knitting tightly.Â
"What?" he asks, blinking back to the present moment. The look of fear disappears, "Sorry. Yes. I'm fine."
You're working his jacket off your shoulders, gently leaning to fold it neatly in your lap. Your voice dips low, into something playful. "You didn't look fine..."
"Iâ" Shoto clamps his mouth shut as he leans an elbow on the center console, "Sorry. I suppose I'm just nervous."
"Nervous?" you grin, a little giggle punctuating your words as you wriggle in the red, leather seat, "Why?"
Your expression makes his expression crack. He ducks his head as he huffs out a laugh. You continue to egg him on via expression alone. "I... Stop it."
"Stop what?" you push some more, your back pressed to the door as you face him in the car, "You're the one being weirdâ"
"I'm not being weirdâ"
"Then what's wrong, Shoto?" you tease in a sing-song voice.
"I'm nervous because I want to kiss you."
His words are punctuated by a slow look that takes in every inch of your face. Butterfly wings kiss your stomach walls. And your knees. You feel a little tremble in your chest.Â
It feels like someone has sucker punched you square in the sternum. Shoto's no better. He isn't entirely sure what the expression on your face means. Is that... good? Are you happy?
Your voice is a little quieter now. You duck your head and fiddle with his suit jacket as you lean back against the seat, a little closer now.Â
"You don't need to be."
Shoto's breath catches at that.
So, he makes his move.
His hand comes first â his calloused palm settles nicely against your face, his thumb brushing your cheekbone as his pointer finger brushes the underside of your jaw. Shoto is slow. Methodical. It's like he's trying to ground himself in the moment.Â
Truth be told, he thinks he might be blacking out.
Your eyes flit up his wrist â a dark leather band around his wrist with an expensive watch face, a dark dress shirt with glimmering cufflinks, strong arms and a broad chest, and you can see the dip of his collarbone where the top two buttons of his shirt remain undone.Â
He looks so damn handsome with his sharp jaw, pretty eyes, and his trademark white and crimson hair. Even his scar is beautiful.Â
The touch pulls you in like he's got his own personal orbit. Â
Your elbows are braced along the center console, your eyes flicking across his face as his fingers continue to brush along the soft expanse of your cheek. You wring your fingers together.Â
Then, his eyes stick to your lips.
"Can I kiss you?" he whispers, his breath fanning across your face.Â
You never did go pro.
But, Shoto did.Â
It shows.Â
Because, at this moment, all you can do is nod feebly before you're swept into the sort of kiss people go to war for. It's the sort of kiss that sticks to your ribs, that feels like warm, fresh food. It's the sort of kiss that would drive you to the brink, that would make you nod and agree sure, let's get married and have three kids, let's name one after your father, and paint the house blue like your mother's favorite flowerâ
His mouth is eager, but not in an overbearing way. It's gentle. Slow. As if he needs to remind himself this is real and not some midnight fiction that leaves him aching and alone. Shoto reminds himself to be tepid, pliable, and easy, which is easier said than done when somewhere deep inside of him there's a seventeen-year-old screaming in victory.Â
It's better than anything he could have ever imagined.Â
And then you whimper.Â
It's a sound tied between bliss and relief and it's muttered against his mouth as you lean in and let your fingers brush the fabric of his dress shirt. The tips of your fingers brush his abdomen and he flexes, the feeling foreign and warm. It warrants his other hand to drift to your face and you break for a breath; he doesn't care that there's lipstick smeared across his mouth. He's kissing you again â this time a little bit more feverish, a little bit more aching.Â
You melt against him, this time your hands trembling to grip his wrists.
He needs to slow down.
He is not having sex with you in his father's car.
That's shameless.
He needs to slow down.
He has to, or he'll lose himself in this and he refuses to fuck this up.Â
Shoto's breath is ragged when he finally peels himself away, his lip parted and eyes half-lidded. His grip on your face is still so soft, so gentle. It's very him.Â
You're glad you didn't do this when you were seventeen.
It would have permanently altered your brain chemistry, you're sure of it. How could you ever kiss someone else again after that?Â
He's rubbing your cheek with his thumb. You swallow, and try to level out your breathing. It's hard when he's still so close, when he's so... perfect.Â
"I've wanted to do that," he murmurs against your cheek, "Since our last year at Yuei."
A well-kissed smile breaks across your face. You reel back, your nose wrinkling as you shake your head in disbelief. Shoto is smiling. A real smile. The sort that's so rare you can count on one hand the amount of times you've ever seen it in person.Â
"Are you serious?"
"Very," he says, chastely pressing another to your other cheek as he leans back.
"Me too," you admit shyly, "Can we... do it again sometime?"
Shoto's eyes widen incrementally. Then, his smile eases back onto his face.Â
"Are you free this weekend?"
"I can be," you reply easily with a honeyed look, "And I will be. For you."
"I get off patrol on Saturday around seven," he explains before asking timidly, "We could... do dinner again?"
"Works for me," you breathe as you move for the handle of the car door, "After all, I never went Pro. Weekends are free."
Shoto scoffs.Â
Then, as you open the door and swing a leg out:
"Oh, and tell Touya I thought the suit sexy."
Shoto's laugh is dry. You leave his jacket on the seat and scurry into your apartment with a lovesick wave. He swears he sees the silhouette of a familiar ponytail greet you at the door, but he doesn't dwell on it. He waits until you're inside and the lights to the front door are shut off.
Then it hits him. He has another date with you this weekend.Â
Not so seventeen anymore, Shoto Todoroki.Â
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Go Slow
Pairing: Logan Howlett x Reader
Warnings: SMUT! p in v, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it), riding, (brief) dry humping
Summary: it's your first time and Logan tries to go slow, he really does, but some things just can't be helped
Word count: 1.6k
A/N: i'm not too practiced in smut so sorry if it's shit đ
Logan knew you were on the shy side of things. During the start of your relationship heâd had to coax words from you, feelings and opinions you held until you felt comfortable enough to share them without being asked. Youâd be nervous and fidgety when asking to see him, acting like he was an attractive stranger when he was your boyfriend.Â
In all honesty though Logan didnât mind. He enjoyed your shy, almost naive personality, and was more than happy to wait for you to be comfortable with him before suggesting going any further.Â
Sure, it was difficult for him to wait, but not impossible. If his pants tightened slightly when you walked in the room with ridiculously short shorts and practically sat in his lap with them, you didnât notice. When you were sleeping in bed together and would unconsciously rub yourself against him, causing him to have to leave the bed for a bit lest he did something he'd regret, you remained blissfully unaware. And if he was putting away your laundry and came across a pair of lacy black panties with bows adorning it, you wouldnât even notice they went missing.
Logan was more than okay to wait.
You, on the other hand, were not.
It started with small changes in you and your actions, though Logan couldnât quite place his finger on what it was. You were more flustered around him than usual, jumpier and shier than youâd been before. You were quieter too, staring at him with more intensity than before, as if trying to read his mind. Yet it wasnât as if you were pulling away from him, because you were much more touchy and clingy than usual, always needing to hold him and often being the initiator of any make out session you two might have- which is as far as youâd gone.
It was during one of these sessions, having started when you both grew bored of the movie playing on the screen, that you started straddling Logan, kissing him with more fevor than you usually did. Surprised, though certainly not disappointed, Logan kissed you back, hands resting on your thighs and occasionally running up and down them when his control slipped.
When he felt you rock against him slightly he knew something was up. You were never this forward with him, and was always the one to stop Logan when he got a bit carried away. Yet there you were, gently rocking against him while you kissed, moving against his jeans almost desperately, rubbing against him until there was a rock hard bulge for you to move against and Logan had to gently push you off him.
Immediately you started apologising, looking at your hands nervously fidgeting with your t-shirt, refusing to so much as glance at Logan.
âHey, hey, youâre alright Bub,â Logan said gently. âI just donât want to do anything before talking about it first.â
You risked a glance at him, trying to find any lie in his face. âYouâre not angry at me?â
Logan would have laughed if he wasnât worried about upsetting you further. ââCourse not. I fucking loved that, actually, but we canât do it, or anything like that, without talking about it first. I gotta make sure youâre okay with it.â
You nodded your head with such eagerness Loganâs cock twitched in his pants. âIâm okay with it.â
He smiled at your needy demeanour and had to hold himself back from gladly going along with it. âWhat exactly do you want, Sweetheart? I gotta know that.â
You bit your lips shyly, glancing up at him from your lashes in such a way Logan was tempted to be fucked with all of this and just take you. Heâd been waiting for months, however, so he could certainly wait a few more minutes, and restrained himself as such.
âI want to feel good,â you mumbled quietly. âWant you to make me feel good.â
Oh fuck.
Logan wasnât sure he could handle this. Desire was coursing through his veins, his cock was throbbing almost painfully against his pants as he watched you, shy and naive but so wanting for him.
âAlright Bub, we can do that,â he eventually said, because fuck he wanted to make you feel good too. He wanted you moaning and whimpering his name, whining and panting underneath him because of him.
Yet as soon as he had you undressed and under him he could tell it wasnât what you wanted. You looked petrified, eyes squeezed shut as you waited for Logan to enter you, and that just wouldnât do.
âIâm not doing this Sweetheart,â he said, moving away.
You opened your eyes, seeming both relieved and disappointed at the same time. âWhat? Why?â
Logan sighed, wrapping you up in his arms and kissing your neck. Even with both of you naked it was surprisingly not desire filled and simply comforting. âBecause you obviously donât want it.â
You shook your head and turned around to face him, straddling him in a similar position as before. âI do want it. Just⌠it felt a bit scary like that.â
Logan thought about her words for a moment before inspiration struck him. âDo you want to ride me instead?â
You actually gasped, your eyes widening at the suggestion, yet he could also see the desire radiating off of you- he could smell it too- and feel the slick coming from your cunt at the thought. He smirked, taking that as a yes.
âIâm going to lift you up and slowly place you down on me. You can stop me at any moment, okay?â he asked you, wanting to make sure you were comfortable with this.
You nodded your head, looking apprehensive but also excited, as you glanced down at his hard on, licking your lips slightly. âI donât know if it will fit.â
Logan nearly groaned then and there. âIt will.â
Hesitant but sure, you let Loganâs hands wrap around your waist and lift you up, positioning his cock at your entrance. He gave you a few seconds to back out, and when you didnât, staring at him confidently, Logan sunk you down on his cock.
Fuck even just his tip inside you felt like heaven, your cunt squeezing against him. You let out a gasp and he hesitated, waiting, and you slowly nodded your head, giving him the go ahead to continue. He did so gently, making you take him inch by inch, stopping every so often for you to get used to the feeling of him until youâd finally taken all of him inside you.
The feeling of your walls squeezing his cock was heavenly. He could barely think, and all he wanted to do was fuck you hard and fast, chase the release he so desperately wanted. Yet he waited for it to feel comfortable for you, waiting for the pain to ease before he did anything.
âOkay⌠what now?â you asked in a timid voice.
Logan had to muffle the sound threatening to escape him at the sight of you blinking bashfully at him while he was inside you. It was too good to be true.
âNow you move,â Logan said roughly, because he didnât trust himself to move and not fuck you viciously like he wanted to.
You thought for a moment before giving an experimental rock, gasping at the pleasure accompanying the action. You repeated the rock again, then again, creating a slow but sure movement that was slowly killing Logan.
Every sway of your hips, the way you rode his cock eagerly if not skillfully, was pushing him closer and closer to the edge.
âThatâs it baby,â he rasped. âJust like that, youâre doing so good for me baby.â
You rolled your hips, whining at the praise and closing your eyes but only increasing your motions, one hand moving up to cup your breast. You grounded onto him, gasping when he hit that perfect spot, whispering Loganâs name like a prayer
He swore at the sight, and couldnât help the jerk his hips made, a small gasp escaping you. It felt so good, the spike of pleasure overwhelming and your readily response too much, and he did it again.
You moaned this time, a dirty, high pitched sound that was ringing in Loganâs ears, urging him on as he took your hips in his hand and lifted you up, only to slam you down on his cock again. Your moan was delicious, and you placed both your hands on his chest, moving forward to make him go deeper.
Logan did groan this time, and used your hips to continue moving you on his dick, his large hands squeezing the soft flesh of your hips. You were a whining mess, eyes glazed and body limp above him.
âFeel so good,â Logan grunted, thrusting into you. âSo fucking good for me.â
You whimpered, gasping as your eyes fluttered closed again. Logan grinned.
âYou like that baby? You like me telling you what a good girl youâre being, riding my cock so prettily.â
Your moans came more frequent, panting every second, and Logan could tell you were close. He increased his pace, wanting to see you fall apart in front of him, and wasnât disappointed by the result.
âCome on baby, cum for me.â
With a cry you threw your head back, ecstasy painting your face as you came, your walls tightening. The feeling of them squeezing Loganâs dick, your cunt milking it for all its worth was too much and he felt himself fall after you, his load of cum shooting into your already stuffed hole.
âFuck baby,â he cursed, helping you ride out both your highs, moving your hips over him.
You were still panting as you slowly came down from your high, boneless as you laid against Loganâs chest.
âYou did so good for me darling,â he murmured, kissing the top of your head.
You let out a sound, nuzzling his neck, and he happily held you against him, pressing kisses to your face and neck till you were ready to move.
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¡.â đđđđđđđđ. thinking about true form!sukuna having a huge size kink (+ corruption kink).
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note. super self-indulgent. cant rlly blame me for creating this. also do you see those big ass hands in the header i used? yeah.. says enough (this sucks ass)
tags. dom heian era!sukuna x concubine!female reader. smut. porn with plot. size kink / size difference (reader gets referred to as âshortâ & âsmallâ). p in v -> unprotected. degradation. corruption kink (reader gets referred to as ânaiveâ, 'shy' & innocentâ-looking). tummy bulging. loss of virginity mention. hymen breaking mention. cervix fucking, ouch. lots of teasing. tiny bit of choking. tiny mention of blood tasting ? idk. hint at anal / double penetration. dirty talk. sukuna has two of everything btw mehehe. reader get called âwoman, brat, slut, little'.
sukuna is intrigued by you. heâs always been, since the moment heâs laid his eyes upon you. your loyalty and devotion to him are two aspects that the king of curses likes most about you. .
. . after your innocence.
it nearly irked him. every time he saw you hanging around the estate without a single care in the world. sukuna would attempt to intimidate you with serious threats. heâd loom over your short stature and look down at you with a malicious glint in his eyes. though, none of it seemed to work.
you'd only bow your head at him and apologise if youâve caused him any possible inconveniences. it annoyed the sorcerer. you werenât trembling in fear like all the others would â it was like there was nothing going on in that head of yours. especially when you smile at him. which no one actually dares to do.
sukuna could crush you. with no effort. one big hand would be enough to pick your entire body up, lift you in the air and throw you around like a ragdoll. you donât seem to fear the possibility of that happening, even when being faced with a pissed off sukuna.
itâs truly intriguing and amusing. thatâs why sukuna kept you around every day â as a form of entertainment, he called it. one thing led to the other and you eventually ended up as one of his concubines. the king of curses himself decided to grant you that promotion.
why? because not only does your fragile body, reserved and polite personality and innocence secretly fascinate him â it also makes him crave you. crave to shatter that naivety of yours. to take that small body of yours and make it feel what it means to be overpowered by a man twice your size.
sukuna does not regret his decision to make you his concubine. the first night you spent together was one of the best nights he had ever had. in all his many years of living. not a single woman had ever succeeded in blowing his mind when it came to sex.
it was usually boring and repetitive for the sorcerer. he felt nothing for those women heâs had in bed before â it was solely for the fact of satisfying himself. though, that changed on the day you had given him your virginity.
he remembers every detail; from your little noises of both pain and pleasure, your tight and untouched pussy that bled faintly when the fat tip of his lower cock pushed through, your nails that dug into his arms and back, your thighs that he held to your chest, his large hands that could easily wrap around the fat of them, your aching cunt that was left spasming around air as it tried to keep his sticky cum stored in place.
sukuna didnât think your tears would affect him as much. when he took your virginity and you whimpered in pain â he did feel a twinge of guilt. it was strange; he hadnât felt that emotion before. he had stopped and wiped your tears away. roughly whispered some words of encouragement too.
he had never done so before. never. he had never told anyone how âgoodâ they were for him. how heâd be âcarefulâ to not make it hurt any more. the king of curses recalls vividly how slow he started with you. slow sex. instead of rough like heâs used to.
sukuna wasnât chasing after his own pleasure in that moment like heâd usually have. his main priority was to make sure the girl below him was comfortable enough to continue. youâre strange. the things you make him do, say and feel are strange. and yet. . .
it was an amazing night. the best. however sukuna was left behind with an insatiable hunger for you. more, more, more. he canât grasp it yet; why he longs for you. for those feelings heâs suddenly capable of experiencing during intimate moments.
itâs why he calls for you every night. no other concubine was needed after you were made one. the king of curses couldnât care less about those other women. they are boring to him.
unlike you. the one heâs sure that he wonât ever get bored of.
âyou can take me so well now,â sukuna breathes out. one of his cocks was inches deep inside you, bulbous tip painfully hitting your cervix. over the past few weeks, your body had learnt to adjust to him, your pussy molded to fit the shape of his dick.
sukuna looks down at you and his cocks twitch with the urge to release already. his heavy balls clenching. your fucked out state is adorable. you seemed so.. vulnerable underneath the big man, âwhat a fragile little thing.â
it almost sounded condescending. degrading. especially with sukunaâs lips being curled up into a mean grin, his sharp canines showing. there was a puddle of your cum forming underneath your hips â staining the sheets that the poor servants have to clean by tomorrow morning.
âp-please, fngh, âs too big,â you sputter out. no matter how many times you took sukuna in, your smaller body couldnât quite fully accommodate to the girth of him. every time he hits your deepest parts, you let out a painful whimper.
sukuna kisses his teeth, though slows his thrusts a bit. the wet sounds of his cum and yours getting pushed in and out of your cunt with each move was too addicting. what sukuna loves most is the view of the skin of your lower abdomen swelling and stretching each time he pushes forward.
âi thought you said youâd take both of my cocks today, yet it seems like you canât even handle one,â the king of curses sighs whilst belittling you. one set of hands is holding you down by your hips, the other set is fondling your stiff nipples and circling your sensitive clit, âwhat a pity. a real pity.â
you almost choke on your spit as all your sensitive spots were being fondled. sukunaâs thick fingers leave no place untouched as he increases the tempo againâhis cock plunging in and out of your stretched hole. the upper one was twitching, rubbing against your clit and lower abdomen.
sukuna harshly grabs your jaw and makes you look up at him after he hears you apologise for making empty promises. he seems satisfied with you staying so polite. even when heâs practically rearranging your guts. the way you talk through your soft sobs and cries is endearing. makes him grin wickedly.
âi donât want to break my favourite little concubine yet, you see,â sukuna continues. he lets out a grunt of pleasure when your pussy clenches around his thick cock. no matter how many times he fucks you dumb, you still remain as tight as the first time.
he takes in a deep breath. heâs trying his best not to pound you into the mattress. heâd fold you in half and probably break you like the fragile thing you are. he could snap you like a twig if he wasnât careful, â. . .but youâre making it very difficult for me.â
you respond by apologising again. oh, how cute it was to see you babble and make up excuses. sukuna grits his teeth, jaw clenching as he resists the urge to go harder on you. youâre already squirming and moaning loudly just because heâs fucking you hard and deepâbruising your cervix and forcing your walls to open up to him.
ââm sorry, wanna take both.â you hiccup and sniffle. tears ran down your cheeks from overstimulation. it felt so good yet so painful to be taken by the person you admire most. you didnât want to displease him, so you uttered those hopeless yet needy sentences again.
sukuna stops his movements when you weakly ask him to use both of his cocks on you. he scoffs, not knowing where you gained the confidence from. he pulls out of your dripping cunt, leaving a trail of cum connecting both your genitalia.
ââwanna take both,â she says,â sukuna mocks you under his breath. itâs getting worse; heâs nearing the point of no return. especially with your desperate whines that were like music to his ears, âyouâll break, woman.â
two of his hands move to stroke along his lengths, smearing the mixture of body fluids all over them. his eyes glare down at your small formâalready fucked out, yet aching to continue. needing the full experience for once.
you always turn from a shy girl to a complete slut whenever he has you in bed. sukuna loves it.
âi want to try at the very least,â you mutter. itâs true that youâre exhausted. youâre catching your breath now that you got the chance, tired eyes glancing up at sukunaâs enormous stature between your legs, his defined muscles and the tattoos on them glistening under the faint light of the oil lamp.
it got your pussy throbbing and clamping down around air. you felt a bit light headed and your head lolls back against the pillow, eyes glazed over as you try to seem determined. but your body was tired.
âyeah? how. . . cute,â sukuna grins. he knows you canât. not today at least. he doesnât mind if you arenât capable of taking him fully since youâve already pleased him well enough for now. though, he still canât help but tease youâmake it seem like heâs going to give you what you want, âall right. donât say i didnât warn you.â
your eyes widen and your fingers curl around the silky bedsheets beneath you in anticipation. your heart is pounding in your chest as you watch sukuna pump his two cocks a bit faster, squeezing the base a bit, leaking some pre.
itâs all just for show.
âiâm not stopping. even if you scream.â the king of curses warns you with a dangerous glint in his eyes. you gulp at the terrifying aura sukuna was emitting. one of his tips teases your entrance whilst the other probes and circles around your anus.
he threatens you again, testing if youâll back down, âlast chance. iâm not pulling out once iâm in, do yâhear me?â
you keep being stubborn until the very last second. sukunaâs deep voice that shook you to your core was not enough to make you change your mind. you were so desperate to fulfill his every need and make sure that he was satisfied. it made you the perfect woman in his eyes.
the king of curses is completely amused. he decides to take it up a notch. he pushes his lower cock against the tight ring of muscles, pressing and nearly allowing the tip to move in. the sudden increase in pressure is torturous. you surely wouldnât be able to withstand the entire thing.
âw-wait!â you squeal in surprise and pain. the sting you felt made you snap back into reality. itâs when you realised that maybe you needed more time and experience to take both of sukunaâs dicks. you squirm your hips away, âcanât. i canât.. hurts too much.â
sukuna nearly rolls his eyes once you finally give in. he shakes his head with a sigh, feigning disapproval and annoyance. he pulls his entire body away from yoursâa ominous shadow casted over his eyes. it makes you think that heâs pissed off at you; for being unable to please him.
you panic a little. even if you are sure sukuna wouldnât ever hurt you. you know he favours you over the other concubines. you donât want to lose that position.
âiâm sorry.â you apologise before the sorcerer could say anything. he lets out a sharp breath, rough hands back on your body, kneading your flesh gently yet firmly. his eyes take in the view of you trembling.
itâs unreal. you are half his sizeâcompletely vulnerable underneath him. heâd normally call people like you weak and useless. wouldnât feel a thing for them. but your naked body below his is a sight he wishes to see every night.
it turns sukuna on so much. the fact that you are helpless and donât complain when youâre struggling to take one of his cocks gets him going each time.
âtsk. whatâd i tell you?â sukuna grumbles. he slaps his lower cock firmly against your clit. your body responds by closing your thighs together, though the king of curses pries them apart again, âstop overestimating yourself, brat.â
he isnât actually mad. it was expectedâof course you couldnât take both at once. he didnât even prep your other hole enough. plus you are clearly still exhausted from the previous rounds. sukuna just likes to. . . test and take advantage of your devotion to him. your obedience and desires to please him.
itâs fascinating to see you squirm and apologise in that whiny voice of yours. it makes him grin from ear to ear. and it keeps things fun.
before you could mutter excuses again, sukuna stops you by leaning in. just when you thought youâd finally get to kiss him, he goes to bite down on your bottom lip. a moan slips out of your mouth which only spurs him on to bite down harder.
you could feel the devilish smirk on sukuna against your lip. his wet tongue cleans up the tiny drop of blood that escaped the wound. he lets out a low hum in approval at the taste. delicious as always.
ânow, how should i punish my little concubine for being unable to keep her word?â sukuna whispers in a serious tone. it sends shivers down your spine, his hot breath traveling from your jaw to your right ear. he slowly licks your earlobe, âwhat do you say? any ideas?â
the tension in the room was palpable. your heart was stammering in your throat from the proximity between the two of you. you gather the courage to answer as sukunaâs fingers curl around your neck, squeezing your throat as if forcing the answer out of you.
âi-iâll do anything, sir.â you reply through a shaky breath. the king of curses pulls back after heâs got a response from you. your eyes meet his and thatâs when you know that youâve either greatly pleased him or have given him the chance to go all out on you.
itâs probably both.
âanything, you say?â sukuna repeats slowly. without a warning, he effortlessly flips you over on your stomach, a set of hands pulling your ass up by your hips whilst the other set holds your upper body down on the mattress.
a harsh grip on the back of your head results into you whimpering. your face was mushed into a pillow, almost leaving no place to breathe. your back is placed in the perfect arch with your plump ass facing up. itâs one of sukunaâs favourite positions to do with you â especially because it makes you seem smaller than you already are.
âheh. iâll make you regret saying that.â sukuna chuckles. a low, evil and wicked chuckle. thatâs enough to make you realise that he was not going easy on you. your submission had greatly impressed the king of curses and he's taking advantage of it. again.
what would come next could be a reward for that said submission. heâs going to fuck your brains out and make you forget about everything else except for his dick. a night you wonât ever forget as long as you liveâthatâs a possibility.
or perhaps youâre going to be crying and begging him to go easy on you. a punishment for not being able to keep your promise. that could also happen.
anyway, youâre about to find out which one it is.
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