#feels like my life is paused

[4arconinoma]

things stabilizing a bit now. i'm finally somewhere with power internet and water for the forseeable future but my house is completely ruined. we lost most things and will have to completely clean and refurnish it 90% of our furniture and belongings are ruined. im honestly heartbroken and not taking it well. im going to stay IA for a bit longer just for my own sake and to sort things out but i'll slowly try to ease back into normalcy again at some point. im just exhausted now. not to mention that it might flood again due to heavy rain so im just in survival mode at the moment sorry dont know what else to do for now

[hajihiko]

Another silly

[crybaby-bkg]

have u ever considered gojo trying to tease you about how into it you get whenever you suck him off, but how flustered he gets when you admit yeah, I like it more than I thought i would, mainly because it’s you, because you’re so pretty to look up at, you always treats me so well when I’m on my knees for you. now you’ve killed him, especially with the way you’ve been touching yourself all the while running your tongue up at that one vein on his shaft. dead. gone and buried.

[g1ngerbeer]

what kind of sauce are they putting in the link click audio drama. HELLO? THE LITERAL LAST SCENE OF THE LAST EPISODE?

程小时: 说起来，我们第一次见面，也是在篮球场吧。 ��光: 是啊。 程小时: 你我本无缘，全靠一颗球。 陆光: 我就不该答应你比那场。

cheng xiaoshi: speaking of which, the first time we met was also on a basketball court, wasn't it? lu guang: it was. cheng xiaoshi: (half-jokingly) you and i weren't meant to be [lit. "originally have no fate"?]. this is all because of one basketball. lu guang: i really shouldn't have agreed to play that match.

(the important bits are from google translate because i am bad at mandarin. also i did transcribe this off just the audio + i don't have access to captions or know where to find official transcripts. so i hope i got this right 🙏)

[drenched-in-sunlight]

youve probably gotten this question a dozen times but im just nosy, have you ever read grrm's other work a song of ice and fire? (NOT the tv show) if not, the way you post about messmer & marika's relationship makes me feel like youd love everything going on in those books haha

i do get a lot of comments telling me my OCs looks like characters from that (?) (and to this day i still do not look up any of those characters to see how they look like aksjfjkdfjkd), so a lot of ppl just assume i've read those books but i have never read any of it. yeah 🥲🥲

but some of my mutuals do blog about the show and the books a lot, and ngl after the DLC, im kinda curious ? so maybe i'll check it out in the future... idk yet.

last time i checked out a Western fantasy series........... it was crazy. (the fit i was having after i read through all Witcher books because of the TV show...... idk if anyone even remember that phase of this blog, but the reason i started playing videogame in the first place is because of Witcher)

up until this point i only look at Elden Ring in comparison to other Fromsoft games (and Sinosphere culture influence in the theme and design), but lately i do feel like i should check out GRRM work as well, but i also feel like it'd literally make my brainrot even worse so................ decision, decision.

[sillystar7]

i wanna be loved gently and loudly is that too much to ask 😭😭

[stuckinapril]

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[crimeronan]

probably i SHOULDN'T migrate elsewhere if tumblr goes belly-up. i just scrolled thru my dash for 20 minutes and in that short span i could feel myself transform from a mildly tired 27-year-old butch into an active serial killer.

[andvys]

what does one do with their life when they feel lost

[ekuboo]

Needle felting my boy……

Process breakdown (disambiguation) in tags :)

[creativebrainrot]

Had realizations recently. i got misgendered once recently and it bothered me, but i realized it mostly bothered me because I kept replaying it, obsessively thinking about it. i made myself stop when i realized that i was thinking about ONE moment of that entire day way too much, it wasnt even intentionally derogatory, just a stranger's assumption. And when i was younger i straight up didnt care, mostly because i hadnt RealizedTM yet, so i kinda lost that "idgaf" attitude towards strangers ideas of me and "passing." and like. yeah, i care. but i shouldnt let it get to me as much- which is something i am lucky to be able to do. im glad that i can find a happiness for myself without any healthcare. because ive had this "who gives a shit about a strangers assumption everyone is always making four billion assumptions about eachother- even I do that, so why focus on ONE assumption about me out of the pile." and it gave me back that "I am me. I have my gender, i am nonbinary, and only close relationships get the details <3" attitude back which is GREAT im SO HAPPY right now like i even see "A Man" when i look in the mirror today.

i like pink i like glitter i like "feminine" elegance, extravagance, i like glamour makeup i like "goth fem-dom" for its aesthetic traits it gives me gender euphoria. i like my chest i like pushup bras i like being treated "nicely" i like being "admired" i like all of that. and im still a man, im still me.

so happy to be returning to my roots, who give a fuck what strangers assume about me, strangers assume shit about each other all the fucking time, thousands of times a day. why should i care about one single assumption out of the pile? i shouldn't! i only care about my own life experience, the intimate relationships i keep, and my reflection.

i want to feel good.

im gonna make this last for myself, finally. There's no one in my life to force me backwards, I'm 23 now, I'm finally free of abuse and an awful situation. I am finally living! so no more holding back "for" strangers and no more being held back by the concepts of passing or misgendering for me.

[gregoftom]

i’m speechless

[pollen]

i just need the job that i was laid off from and everything would be fine. a simple give me my job back would fix me

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

hmmm should i go through all of the dramas and musicals and other dn medias to compare light's wardrobes there as well as from the anime and manga or is that too much work

[iguessitsjustme]

This just in: I am NOT okay.

[inkykeiji]

sobbing sobbing sobbing i am sobbing so fucking loud oh my god i love him so much he is so beautiful i am going to kiss him all over his neck and jaw and chin and cheeks and nose and eyes and forehead and hair and lips and everywhere

his wrist his palm his nails his knuckles his fingers each and every fingertip i am going to trace lines of his palm with my tongue i am going to cover him in ME until he knows how much he is loved—until he knows how much i love him—and then i am going to do it some more