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KISSES WITH HIM
Giving, Receiving, Misc (General-Beginning-Comfortable)
Sports Characters x S/O!GN Reader
(Hyoma Chigiri, Kenma Kozume)
A/N: Random late night burst of productivity going crazy rn my heart is so full š„¹ love my long haired sports beloveds theyāre both serving that black cat gf vibe but in different waysĀ
Also the misc is basically bout accessories n stuff; stuff that may or may not apply to you hc as well as yn wiseĀ
Also messy bcos I havenāt slept um. Anyway, im sorry its so biased the thoughts were just flowing into my head my bad ill do better
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Hyoma Chigiri:
{ GIVING
I swear this dude makes flustering you his personal goal and he definitely likes to kiss you when you least expect it for his own amusement as he likes the surprised face you makeĀ
Life hack to get more kisses is stroke his ego because he will give in 100% of the time even if he knows you have an ulterior motive; his heart just feels so full when you praise him because he knows you mean it AND heās confident in himself, so he knows it's true tooĀ
Basically an angel during the beginning of your relationship like heās still him of course but he doesnāt tease you as much and heās gentler since he doesnāt know you intimately yetā quick soft kisses and a ghost of a touch
I donāt think thereād be a time where heās really uncomfortable per se in your relationship as heās already quite bold and I am subscribed to the Hyoma best friends to lovers agenda but I do think heād be more playful/confident as time goes on and would start messing with you more intimately like nipping your lip a bit when kissing and teasing you more often (he thinks it's funny)
HUGE TEASE but also just a bit clingy in general. Like I said, he likes to fluster you for his own entertainment, so he definitely does fakeout kisses but sometimes he just wants to be close to you. For example, getting impossibly close to you and giving you a smirk vs resting his forehead on yours, letting his eyelids flutter shut are very different moods for him but tend to have the same effect on you
{ RECEIVINGĀ
Will refuse kisses on his face during and shortly after skincare time but youāre allowed to kiss him all you want right before then and once the products have set into your skin (you def do your skincare together); Once heās had enough gently presses his thumb to your lips and teases you, noting that you seem to be in a lovey dovey mood
Definitely easy to fluster in the beginning of your relationship since he isnāt used to your relationship being intimate and probably gets needy fast if the kiss grows passionate
I just know no matter what he was doing, this dude was always ready and waiting for a kiss; this especially applies if heās getting ready to leave for a prolonged amount of time like for practice or whatever he may have to do and he keeps looking over checking where you are to see if he will get the kiss he so desires
Once he gets more comfortable, heād love it if you were cheesier tbh. I think he would find cheesy romantic gestures silly and endearing as he enjoys the simple things. He just likes to know that you love him and that you mean it; ESPECIALLY likes when you put your own personal spin on a classic cheesy gesture like giving him a bouquet of handwritten love notes or books heād like (Booket booket for my sweetiey š„¹)
Not a big fan of being peppered in kisses especially if youāre wearing lipgloss/stick/balm (sticky and messy) but he really enjoys seeing the way you smile at himā the way any tension in your face absolutely melts after you do itĀ
{ BONUS/MISC
A HUUUGEEE sucker for you running your hands through his hair as you kiss, it drives him up the wall; contrary to popular belief I really donāt think he would like you pulling on it. Bye. Heād make a faceĀ
Iām not sure how actually committed I am to this HC bc I do in fact have vampire fever rn but just thought of him with slightly prominent canines (little fangies) I think it would be cute; heād def kiss your cheek then nip it a bit for funĀ
His skin is SOOOOOO soft, the most squishable face in the world and that extends to his lips. Feigns irritation when you squish his cheeks and kiss him, but he thinks it's silly; rolls his eyesĀ
If you have piercings, he would NOT stop kissing them; loves the cold of the metal against his lips, especially if itās a lip piercing
If you have curly/wavy/coily hair heād twist your hair around his finger when flirting with you before or after kissing you
If you are muscular or have some chub heād love to feel you up while you kiss; when it comes to muscle of course heād love to run his hands over your muscles (namely your chest and back) and when it comes to chub, heād be a fan of smoothing his thumbs over your love handles (area right before where your thighs startā pelvis bone area)
Kenma Kozume:
{ GIVING
Heās kinda in his own head so honestly, he probably wouldnāt be the initiator often even if youāve been together for a while like he straight up forgets he can do that sometimes
DEFINITELY likes when you ask him to kiss you because it makes him feel needed; heās always the one being needy for you, so he loves when you return the same energy for him because it reminds him that despite everything you do love him
You have to direct him a little bit in the beginning of your relationship bc heāll just peck you and go back to what he was doing or linger hoping youāll ask for more at most if you ask him for a kiss šĀ
Canāt stop smiling into the damn kiss once he gets comfortable in your relationship because heās just so happy to be with you like going about his day is neutral but getting a kiss from you is something special for himĀ
When he does kiss you, he usually takes it very slow with chaste pecks on your cheeks and around your mouth until finally planting a gentle yet long lasting kiss directly on your lips
{ RECEIVINGĀ
Is like a cat that gets a little overwhelmed at too much attention; scrunches his face if you kiss all over his face for too long, heās not mad about it but he feels like his head will explode, evident by the wrinkle of his nose and by how tightly knitted his brows appear
Definitely a little insecure about his lips being chapped in the beginning of your relationship and lathers his mouth in chapstick before kissing you if he can help it
He even gets a bit nervous if you kiss him before he can get to it especially since your lips feel so nice to him while his areā¦meh
When he gets more comfortable in your relationship, heād love it if you pulled on his clothes while kissing him like for example pulling him towards you by his collar or simply holding onto his clothes while kissingĀ
Huge fan of you kissing him while youāre both shirtless but it embarasses him so bad he would have a heart attack and a half, so he instead enjoys biting your shoulder from behind while youāre shirtlessĀ Ā
{ BONUS/MISC
I recently started hcing Kenma with like seasonal freckles at least so I think heād be a big fan of you kissing them as he used to get made fun of for having them and often hid them if he could
Lwk likes it when you sneak up on him while heās wearing his headphones and give him a kiss itās like a treat especially if you do it when heās about to get heated at a game heās playing
This isnāt really a hc as he does have eyebags canonically butttt I think he would LOVE when you kiss his eyebags it never fails to make him smile and he doesnāt really know why, doesnāt really get why you do it in the first place either, but he enjoys it
If you have long nails, heād be such a fan of you digging them into him a bit while you kiss (not too hard just enough to feel it)
If you wear sweetly scented smell goods (especially if it resembles the scent of freshly baked apple pie!!) it serves as a reminder that he should kiss you; pulls him out of his head for a bitĀ
If you wear jewelry, heād subconsciously fiddle with some of your jewelry while you kiss, like holding your hands and twisting your rings a bit while you kiss or grazing over your earrings with his thumb
#hyoma chigiri x reader#hyoma chigiri#chigiri hyoma x reader#blue lock chigiri#chigiri hyoma#kenma x reader#kenma kozume x reader#hq kenma#hq#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu!!#haikyuu#blue lock x reader#bllk x reader#kenma x you#bllk x you#hq x reader#hq x you#blue lock x you#blue lock stink aura#haikyuu x you#hq headcanons#blue lock headcanons#I LOVE MY WIFE !!!!!#feeling: deranged šµāš«šµāš«#i found hyoma saying his leg is his partner in that panel so funny#like thats not what he meant but in this context its a bit#my hungry ass could not be in haikyuu#kozume kenma
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Historical Portraits of Children // The Truth is a Cave ā The Oh Hellos
Four Children Making Music ā attributed to the master of the Countess of Warwick, 1565 // Three Children with a Dog or Two Sisters and a Brother of the Artist āĀ Sofonisba Anguissola, 1570-1590 // The Children of Philip III of Spain (Ferdinand, Alfonso, and Margarita) ā BartolomĆ© GonzĆ”lez y Serrano, 1612 // Three Children with a Goat-Cart ā Frans Hals, 1620 // TheĀ BalbiĀ Children ā Anthony van Dyck, 1625-1627 // The Three Eldest Children of Charles I ā Anthony van Dyck, 1635-1636 // Five Eldest Children of Charles I ā Anthony van Dyck, 1637 // Portrait of the Children ofĀ HabertĀ deĀ MontmorĀ ā Philippe deĀ Champaigne, 1649 // Group Portrait of Charlotte EleonoraĀ zuĀ Dohna, Amalia LouisaĀ zuĀ Dohna, and Friedrich ChristophĀ zuĀ Dohna-CarwindenĀ ā PieterĀ Nason, 1667 // The Graham Children ā William Hogarth, 1742 // Portrait of Sir Edward Walpoleās Children ā Stephen Slaughter, 1747 // The Bateson Children ā Strickland Lowry, 1762 // The Gower Family: The Five Youngest Children of the 2ndĀ Earl Gower ā George Romney, 1776-1777 // Marie-Antoinette de Lorraine-Habsbourg, Queen of France, and Her Children āĀ ĆlisabethĀ LouiseĀ VigĆ©eĀ Le Brun, 1787 // TheĀ MarshamĀ Children ā Thomas Gainsborough, 1787 // TheĀ OddieĀ Children ā WilliamĀ Beechey, 1789 // Three Siblings ā JohannĀ NepomukĀ Mayer, 1846 // Happy Children ā Paul Barthel, 1898 // My Children ā JoaquĆnĀ Sorolla, 1904 // The Truth is a Cave ā The Oh Hellos
#this line makes me feel Very Normal and not at all Deranged š„“šµāš«#portraiture#family portrait#portrait#portrait painting#sofonisba anguissola#frans hals#anthony van dyck#philippe de champaigne#william hogarth#george romney#elisabeth vigee le brun#elisabeth louise vigee le brun#thomas gainsborough#joaquin sorolla#the truth is a cave#the truth is a cave song#the truth is a cave the oh hellos#through the deep dark valley#through the deep dark valley album#through the deep dark valley the oh hellos#the oh hellos#art history#art#lyrics#lyric art#long post
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Renault Nando collages I made the other month š
#i wanna make more eventually but like...#you eventually reach this point where you have downloaded so many pics its literally impossible to choose#but yeah would like to make more of nando and seb its just rly hard to choose#like you gotta just stick to a theme ig like w these i fixated on beanie nando and those boat pics#man...i still feel deranged over those boat pictures šµāš«#theyre just so peak yknow like the vibe is off the charts#(but yeah again w the collages i rly would like to make more seb content but i have 1.5k+ pics of him pls understand my pain)#fernando alonso#fa14#renault#f1#formula 1#we do a little bit of f1#(also also do note that these are google photo presets)#(it feels quite low effort but i rly think these are very cute so i might as well post them)#(i said when i posted a seb collage a bit ago that these felt like discovering a hack and i stick w that bcs damn their templates are peak)
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i think no one should ever be subjected to the ordeal of finding a tiktok from their ex on their for you page
#what a way of saying fuck you alice šµāš« genuinely whoās that person#i feel like i have disassociated for most of our relationship which was like a two years thing lol#also she did nothing wrong iām the deranged asshole in this story Still iām on tiktok to look at lesbians i donāt know#txt.alice
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#just had the thought of āhey letās make steve harrington have an even more traumatic childhood and superimpose buck & the daniel storyline#god can u tell that i have two interests at a time#but like. can u IMAGINE.#steve who already feels lonely and u loved and if u take THAT PLOT from 911#šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«#i love being completely deranged
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I'm completely normal and can be trusted with pictures of cute girls armpit hair actually :^)
#i feel fucking deranged but also š„“ omfg#femme girls with armpit hair is soooooo hot my pussy is going crazy#she sent a video of her showing off her actual hair in a tanktop and i could see it and it made me a little šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«#3-13-2023
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ąØć»āļ¹ā¦ļ¹ Kinktober Day 24ļ¹ā¦ļ¹ā滹§
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Geto Suguru x F!Reader -> Size Kink
Summary: After returning from your trip, you found out your boyfriend is not okay. Maybe a vacation (To Venice) ;) would help. (Mentions of Deppressed!Suguru, angst, breakdowns, toothrotting fluff and comfort, Satoru being a wonderful best friend, Suguru healing) ā¤ļøāš©¹ Basically hurt-comfort with size!kink š
Warnings: Angst, breakdowns, Suguruās deranged and suc!dal and has murderUrges, Reader (us) comfort him and pull him out from it. Mentions of readerās breakdowns, cus I meanā š¤·š»āāļø Look at him!!?? Nipple-play, breeding, softsex, sensual, FLUFFY AND NICE AND SUGURUās so Spoiling towards us itās just š
A/N: Guys I had sm fun š„¹šµāš«š©µ writing this I swear!! Hurt-comfort is like my favorite thing in the whole wide world <33 I love to characterize Suguru & to play around with his character. *Screeches and screams* šØš¦ I made him yummy thank me later xx Also can we look at the images of him above š„µ size kink BRRRR
"If you really think, you can do everything, take everything in, save people, and somehow save yourself along with the deceitful thinking that you will protect me. Then you're wrong!" Tears welled up in your eyes, the pain clearly imminent in Suguru's eyes. He looked dead inside, and no mourning was soothing your ache for your older Suguru. You just, missed him beyond beliefsā¦ even when he was right beside you. You hoped he would response to your cry of pain, your bleeding words, but he didn't have it in him anymore. Suguru had almost, given up on himself.
Your hands found themselves clasping onto his collar, pulling him closer to you. "Suguru, look at me, I am telling you something. Can't you fucking see how much it hurts!" You screamed, losing your calm, your temper. It felt ironical to complain to him about how much it's hurting you. You can see he's got it worse; the nights full of terrors and the days full of decaying cursed spirits. You were an empath for your lover, and it was clear staying near him was subjecting you to everything he felt. He doesn't want to see you this way, desperate and hurtingā¦
"I'm sorry, Angel." Suguru sighed, wrecked with the way you burst into tears and hugged him. Voice choking onto sobs as you earnestly tried clutching onto him for dear life. "Sugu, come back to me please come backā¦" You cried, wailed and eventually dropped onto your knees. The incomprehensible feeling, the heaviness of the things Suguru was going through was making you breathless.
Suguru's heart was only breaking further apart, watching you slowly scrape away in front of him. "I want to kill myself." He finally spoke up, "No, truth is, I want to kill everyone."
This was the first time Suguru was opening up, and no matter how brutal it sounded, his eyes were still kind. Maybe because it was you, in front of him. "You are a sorcerer, too, I shouldn't say this to you, but I hate those monkeys." He radiates pessimism and negativity through him. Yet, you smile a little.
"Come with me, go away with me." You held his hands, squeezing them tightly as if you were grateful they're not cold. You truly were. They were warm, they were still your Suguru's hands.
"Please, Suguru, let's go away for some time." You urged, and he knelt with you, hugging you tightly, not caring about the whimper that escapes you because of his firm grip.
"Running away, won't solve anything." He echoed, and you felt your stomach sink. Soft sniffles echoing in the room as you shook your head like a tantrum-y child.Ā "No, we will solve everything. You and I, we can solve everything. No matter what it is." You cupped his face, becoming stronger for him. "It's okay to feel like this Suguru, it's okay. I'm here." You nudge, watching his eyes showing signs of at least, some life in them. "Can you, not give up?" You meant on himself, you meant on everything.
To make sure, he understandsā¦ you hummed again, "makes me feel like, I'm being abandoned."
Suguru blinked at that, letting your words settle deep within. "Makes me feel like, I'm not even worth fighting for." You looked down, not having the guts to say this to him while making eye-contact. "Please, let's elope somewhere Sugu." You crooned, babying him almost. "I will follow you to the ends of the earth anyway, even if your path is changed." You hum, and with the way your pupils fixated on your hands intertwined, Suguru knows you mean it.
"Okay, maybeā¦ I do need a little get away." Suguru smiled tenderly, partial charm returning to his eyes.
Oh it felt like rain in famine, "Good, thank you, I love you."
"I love you too, my Angel."
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The next thing was you booking tickets to go to Europe. You urged Satoru and Yaga to not assign any more missions for Suguru. It was hard, you and Suguru were both powerful special grade sorcerers; but hey- you both had Satoru to rely on. "I told you the moment he lost weight, he wasn't doing okay." Satoru scoffed, rolling his eyes, tapping at his feet impatiently in the cafĆ© you decided to meet him in. "What the fuck is up with being the one to hide things?" Satoru was pissed, why would his best friend not communicate? "Makes him feel less of a man?" You chuckle at that, you knew Satoru loved him almost as much as you did. "I've persuaded him to go on a trip with me." "You did?" Satoru wasā¦ amazed. These days, Suguru wasn't even joining in for any normal outings. Wasn't going out of his house for weeks, wasn't even meeting you. Things worsened when you left to Korea for a mission longer than 3 weeks. You had to stay there for some Jujutsu School Collaboration initiative. That's when Suguru was off his leash, truly at his worst. Taking missions more than he should, succumbing to the darkness of his mind and the curses.
"Just, want you to handle things while we're gone." You sipped onto the iced frappe you've ordered. Meanwhile Satoru ate a mochi, seemingly absent-minded and bored. "You don't have to worry about that, you know I'd do that in a heartbeat for him." He bratted, raising a brow at you. "And youā¦"
You smiled at that, nodding gently. It felt good to have the 'Strongest' so whipped for your boyfriend, and platonically you, as well.
The higher-ups posed a threat, as always. 'Why is Suguru Geto not on missions?' ; 'Did he get off the job of a Sorcerer?' especially the cunt-faced Principal of Kyoto. You and Satoru personally paid him a disrespectful visit at his school. Nothing he can complain against, wouldn't sit well to anger two special grades, will it? Despite showing that the Sorcerer world is only filled with people who are willing to take on the role- example: Nanami switching from corporate jobs to a sorcerer jobā¦ it was still, at the end, a disgusting, foul powerplay hidden beneath shackles of rules. If you are a special grade sorcerer, they'd do anything to hold on to you. Even blackmails are not far off the list. Emotionally drainingā¦
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"I have booked us a flight to Venice, baby." You sat cross legged on the swing chair Suguru's house has, fondling with your iPad and searching for hotel venues. "Venice huh." Suguru was still numbed, but at least, not he couldn't avoid you because practically you lived with him now. "Yeah, we can go to Switzerland, and also wherever you want. I hear Germany this time of the year is beautiful." You croaked excitedly, swaying your legs as he walked towards you, sitting on the chair in front of you. "Satoru told me you and I are on a vacation for months." He came directly on the point. "The trip isn't that long, is it?" He manspreaded, raising a brow.
You gulped, smiling softly, the last thing you need is him feeling 'weak'. You had to approach this carefully. "Suguru, I think you and I have done enough missions for a while. I want us to spend some time together, to ourselves." You added some degree of truth, "Also, I don't want you to keep eating curses and letting them eat you from the inside and I don't want to lose the person I love the most in my fucking life." With the way you affirmatively snapped, there was no way, Suguru would battle against it. A soft nod was all you got as a response.
"Alright, I will handle the packing. Don't want you screeching like a wild animal when you discover you forgot your charger." He leaned in, giving you a chaste peck & you giggled. "Of course."
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The packing, the preparations, the dressing up and going to the Airport, the flight where you slept leaned against his shoulder. All went by in a tender haze of beautiful memories. Inflicted and infected by his sadness, still. Though you wouldn't mind. You're ready to accept him rotten if needed.
When you two reached Venice, the Victorian style hotel with the boats and the beautiful lakes was in fact, refreshing for him; and you. You knew it because Suguru had stopped going to your shared balcony of the house, now here he was, standing there, observing the people. The couples giggling and kissing each other, the boat rowers singing in their native Italian language, the streets with so much hustle and bustleā¦ yet calming. You hugged him from behind, breathing in his scent. "Like it?" "Love it, my beautiful baby." He crooned back, turning towards you and pulling you closer to him by your hips. "I love you." He chanted, almost in a way that he used to when he first asked you out. These past few months were hard and rough, but if you were able to have him back, even infinitely slowlyā¦ you'd dedicate it to eradicating all his sadness.
"If you want, I can dress very Lana Del Rey today and we could make steamy love." You giggled, leaning in and kissing him softly. Suguru and youā¦ yeah, haven't made love in a while. You'd never push him when he isn't feeling it, and naturally, someone who's suffering so much would have it at the last thing on his mind.
"You're right, how disappointing of meā¦ I don't remember the last time I treated you, I worshipped you." He thought out loud, and you pouted. "It's okay Suguru, don't think about it like that. Think about how you're gonna make it up to me." You stuck your tongue out, giggling.
It's the way he looks at you, like he's starving and you're delectable. It's the way his eyes are loud enough with their projection of love that it quiets the world down for you. It's the way Suguru Geto breathes, that makes you love him so much you'd break.
Right now, he's doing the same thingā¦ being himself. Hands wandering to your sides and helping you wrap your legs around his waist as he walked towards the shared bedroom of the hotel. Leaning in and kissing you passionately, shoving his tongue just to show how much he's been deeply yearning. Admiration coated in every action. "So lucked out that I have you." He smiled to himself, kissing your forehead deeply once you were nestled into the succumbing softness of the mattress.
"Same," you grin back, watching him undress you with his eyes first, and then his hands followed. You mimicked the same movements.
"I can't handle the fucking hotness!" You whined, once he was left in his pants, upper body naked for you to devour. Suguru chuckled, heat rushing through his cheeks and core as he cupped your face, kissing you once again.
The thing about you and him is, Suguru is big. He's built like a bulky man. Stretched to 6'3'', broad shoulders that'd hold two of you, hands big enough you miss almost an inch if you were to compare his with yours. Yeah, Suguru was big and you were tiny. Something that only aided to you being subbier and smaller to him. Letting him manhandle and take all the control that he wants to.
"Who do you belong to, darling?" He cooed, watching you instantly answer. "You, forever and always."
It warms his heart when he hears that, spreading your damp pussy lips with his fingers and thrusting a finger into you. It's beenā¦ long. He knows it with the way you're clamping for dear life, just on his digit. "Sh-i-t," You croak out, while Suguru hushed you with a soft kiss, slowly moving his finger in and out of your pussy. Once he felt you had accepted his finger's girth, he inserted another one. "AH god-" You whined, mewling at the delicious stretch of his thick and long fingers being coated with your essence. "You want to make sweet love and you're so worked up with the fingers alone." He chuckled to himself, stretching you out so good, curling them against the familiar sensitive spot.
Your back arched, the way your pussy clamped as if she was a slave to his hands and cock.
"Oh she's close." He cooed, "Go on, cum for me then I can ruin you with me." He kissed your pelvis, holding it down as your orgasm raked through you, approaching fiercely and shuddering your body against him as waves of pleasure took over you. "Good girl. Good little girl." Suguru praised, riding it out for you. Once the orgasm's high settled, Suguru took out his fingers and suckled onto them, eyes never leaving yours.
"Want you, so bad!" You gasped out, pulling him closer to you by wrapping your legs around him, feeling the imprint of his cock into you. "Alright alright, impatient little girl." He smirks, pushing the tip of his pre-leaking cock into you in one swift stroke. Mean, Suguru Geto is mean sometimesā¦ especially when he wants you to be scream at the stretch only he can give you. No one else, he wants your pussy to know only how he feels. Damn he's big, and when he pushes himself balls deep, your pussy is strained beyond its limit. "Shit- s- so big Sugu." You whimper out, tearing up at the ache.
"Ssh, it's okay darling. I'm still. Adjust to me, go on." Suguru patiently waits, kissing your face all over, leaning in and kissing your breasts, suckling onto your nipples while you clamped and waited for the pain to settle in.
"Move, pleaseā¦" You glance at him now, doe-eyed and insatiable.
"Of course, took you some time to adjust to me huh? Tiny little baby." He smiles, thrusting into you without relent. Your womb stops him from going in any further, your insides torn apart deliciously at the feeling of being ploughed by him. "Oh- G- oh God," words fail you, the air choked out of your lungs with how good it hurts, with how pleasureful it feels.
Suguru's hand laced around your pelvis, pressing on it gently. "Got you," He smirks cockily, holding your hand and keeping it on your pelvis, enveloped by his own as he pressed.
A shrill scream filled the room, "Oh you can sense it, can't you sweetheart? Sense how deep I reach?" You moan at the pressure, pushing you closer and closer to the edge as you hopelessly nodded. Gasping and choking on air. "God yes, Sugu- AH please- oh my- g'nna," You whimpered, while Suguru was at a rhythmic pace now. Sometimes pulling all the way out and pushing back all the way in. He loved seeing you walk the rope between pleasure and pain.
"Good girl, with the way you're holding onto me, I can sense you're close." Suguru hummed, grounding you with his kisses, his spoiled little praises.
"Go on, show me how much you missed me."
"Just like (thrust) I (thrust) missed (thrust) this (thrust) pussy-" Suguru toppled off the edge right with you, painting your insides white with his warmth. "Oh god- fuck-"
You shudder, spasming around his cock and milking him further.
"That's it, I got you. I got you." Suguru reminded, leaning in and kissing you softly, tenderly, as if you'd break if he were to touch you wrong.
"I missed you, I missed this." He mused to himself, blushing a little at the sight of you fucked out and half-lidded. You nodded, still taking ragged breaths. "I love you"
"I love you too, Angel."
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hi omfg i LOVE your work so much???????????? i wanna request a dommingi (mingi acts nice in front of everyone ykwim but is a complete devil with the reader) where heās at an award show and he brings the reader along, but reader is laughing a little too hard with his friends, mingi shows her who she belongs to. throw in a little pocket knife action too (not so little action pls make sure he seems crazy like he threatens to kill her if she tries to fuck with his friends again)
can u tell i have issues
thx again :p
First of all lemme go cry in the corner before I greet youšš¤, hello, hey, hiiiiiš¤š¤! Iām so happy you love my work ahhhhš!!! Thank you for reading and enjoying it! Listenā¦if you got issues that means I got stemming trauma bc the way I was absolutely in LOVEEEEE with this request, I made Mingi more deranged/yandere then I probably should have but I canāt help itšµāš«I got so carried awayš« none I love more when writers write the members almost psychotic /deranged, almost like true villains ā¦I hope you enjoy this one babesš¤!
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I Own You
Word Count: 2.1k
Warnings: Dom!Mingi, Yandere!Mingi, Sub!Reader, Name Calling, Degrading, Knife Play, Slight Skin Cutting (Nicking The Skin, Slight Paper Cut Type Cut, No Blood), Begging, Slight Primal Play, Rough Sex, Unprotected Sex, Cream Pie, Chokingā¦If I Missed Anythingšš..Lemme Know!
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Swirling his drink around the ice clinked against the cool glass. His eyes never leave your laughing figure. Clutching your chest, eyes crinkling with each hardy laugh that leaves your mouth. He's known all the members for a couple years, never have they been this funny. This was the con to being an idol, you guys decided to not go public for the safety of yourself. Mingi could care less about his role as being an idol, yet you insisted on not going public nor wanting to shake the public eye, and possibly ruin the group. Yet the way you were laughing with the boys it couldnāt help but make his heart clench, were they the reason why you didnāt want to go public? Yes the boys knew you were an item, but to the public you looked like really good friendsā¦well at least you did. Mingi looked like a love sick maniac.
His eyes cut sharper at you and the seven boys, shooting his drink down, the brown liquor giving him courage. Peeling himself off the bar counter top he makes his way towards you and the members. His long stride, the way his shoes click against the floor, he was on a mission. Your eyes flutter from laughing, you can make out almost every sound thatās happening in the room. Yet there is one sound in particular that catches your ears. The high pitch clicks of Mingis shoes. He makes his way towards the members and you, only to shoot you that fake smile he does, the cool air from him passing by breezes by you and the members. It feels like the world stills anytime he passes by, the draft leaves the lingering smell of his cologne. Your body riddles with goosebumps. You watch as his broad back makes it farther and farther away.
Stretching your neck to see where heās going, the boys seem to be background noise at this rate. Almost like static, Mingi had you hooked on him like a drug. You were like a moth to the flame, the persona he puts on even for the members has everyone fooled. It even fooled you, which is how you fell into his trap. They say the devil was once the most beautifulest angel, and Mingis beauty did nothing but blind you.
Your body moves on auto pilot, not even bothering to tell the boys that you were going to go find Mingi. Your body just sways to where you can smell the faint scent of him. Bringing you into a dark hall, the air is so still it almost feels unreal. Your body litters with nerves, rubbing your upper arm, you whisper out Mingis name, sounding like a true stray sheep, calling for its shepherd. He can see you from a dimly lit hallway, you look lost, you look astray. You look tempting, yet while his cock hardens with want, his blood pressure rises because you were also the same person laughing way too hard at his members.
āYou lost?ā His raspy voice speaks up, echoing down the long and poorly light hallway. Your body does such a noticeable jump, he canāt help but smile, while his cock twitches slightly at the sight. Your head turns from side to side trying to figure out where his voice came from. You can hear the vibrations of his deep tone still ringing in your ears. Letting out a small whimper you call out for Mingi once more.
He starts laughing slowly, the sound just bouncing around the walls of the bare space. You look straight ahead, catching a glimpse of his teeth, his smile so big and teeth so bright, with the way the lights are dim he looks like a threat, almost like this isnāt the Mingi you know.
āCome over here.ā
Thoughtlessly following his command, your legs move on autopilot. Your brain already feels like mush, his voice bouncing around in your ears, mixing with the scent of him. Heās addicting. He's propped up against a wall, looking down at you, while your eyes stare up at him like heās got every answer in the world for you. His cool hand comes to brush your cheek bone, coming down to brush against your bottom lip, pulling it down with his thumb before his hand travels down to your throat, yanking your body closer to his, heās got you almost completely off of the floor, your noses are brushing. You let out a small squeak at the sudden intrusion. His large hand is crushing your windpipe, even though you can barely make out his features you know there is a fire brewing behind his eyes.
āThey mustāve been real fucking comedians to make you laugh as much as you did tonight.ā He grits out, while he wasnāt physically spitting on you, it felt like he was spitting heat onto your skin. Letting out a choked out noise, he feels his cock twitch, trying his best not to let his eyes roll back with pleasure at the way your poor helpless face contorts in front of him. Your hand comes up to try and pry him off, yet he squeezes tighter. Tears streaming down your face, your nails dig into him.
Letting you go, your body slumps to the floor, your knees hitting the ground first, your hands grip the material of his pants. Your hand lightly brushes over his hard on. You are in a kneeling position, tears stream down your face. You plead with Mingi through choked sobs..
āMin-Mingi it wasnāt like th-that I sw-swear.ā Throat raw with emotion and lack of oxygen from him choking you. There you went, his little helpless sheep. Letting out a tsk, Mingi, brushes his thumb across the top of your forehead.
āI treat you well donāt I? And this is how you treat meā¦ā
The disappointment in his voice wraps around your heart and tugs on the strings of it. Your face deepening in a frown, the tears that were wetting his pants were no longer from the pain of him choking you, it was from the pain you caused him, the disappointment that you shed upon him. Your hands grip his pants in desperation. When you feel something cool brush against the temple of your head, your eyes slowly trailing up his chest. The cool steel is settled right against your temple, not daring to make a move. His mouth widens into that horrific smile. The smile that captures people, that smile that lures people in.
āDo I have to drill into your skull who you belong to? Who owns you?ā He says, voice sweet as sugar. Your eyes widen even further, your cunt slickens, you're so far gone on this man you canāt help but contort yourself into what he wants. Your eyes shine, mouth opening and closing no sound coming out but a helpless whimper. The sound of that is enough to make his head roll back, palming your head with his other hand, shoving your face against his twitching cock, the small wet stain of pre cum mixing with your tears brushes against your face.
You nuzzle your face against him, making his cock twitch even harder at the new feeling. His mouth drops open, a quiet groan leaving him. The blade of the knife falters slightly, bringing him back to reality, gripping you by your elbow he snatches you up to your feet.
Turning you around quickly he shoves you chest first against the wall, bunching your dress up against your hips, undoing his belt, he shimmies his pants down on his thigh, thick cock springing free, just oozing with pre cum. The cool air on his cock makes him shiver. You let out a soft moan at him manhandling you, your mind clouded with love, while Mingis mind is clouded with lust.
The blade is on the front of your throat, while his other is on your shoulder, thumb brushing against your pulse, he can feel the quick pulsation pump through his thumb. He sticks his cock between your thighs, brushing against your clothed cunt.
āIām going to use you how I see fit, do you understand me?ā He whispers in your ears, his warm breath tickling your ear, the pulsation from his cock on your count has you whimpering, nodding your head you let out a deep breath trying to gather yourself.
The blade bites into your skin, making your body tense up. You choke out a small yes to him, which immediately follows him thrust his hips slowly, cock slickening from how wet you are getting with each second, one particular thrust makes you whimper loudly.
āWho was the funniest between them?ā
Biting your lip, trying your best to keep quiet, your mind canāt even fully comprehend what heās saying. Stopping his sudden thrusts he pulls back slightly, causing you out a small cry when you feel the cool air hit your sticky cunt, strings of arousal cling to the fabric as he hikes it down to your knees, sticking his cock back in between your thighs he gathers as much slick as he can before he starts to thrust between the lips of your cunt, before slamming his cock into your pussy.
āDonāt make me ask again.ā He grits out, moving the blade, the cool steel sitting alongside the vein that runs in the side of your neck.
āNone of them were as funny as you Min-Oh my god!ā You yell out, hands trying to find the closest thing to grip, his hand grips the blade tighter, making it bite your skin, right on the verge of slicing it.
The sudden slamming of his hips, hike you up and down the wall, cries leave your throat, as the biting of the blade continues to rub against your skin, your cunt gets wetter and wetter by the second. The empty hallway fills with your moans, and the sound of wet skin on wet skin.
āNext time if you even think of cracking a smile at them, Iāll kill you.ā He grits, toes clenching in his shoes, youāve never been this wet before, itās soaking his pants. Maybe you were just as deranged as he was.
āOr maybe Iāll kill them.ā He whispers into your ear, his harsh thrusts making your brain mush, you can feel him brush over your cervix, the squelching noise from your cunt overrides every sound in the hallway, even your pathetic moans. His other hand comes down to your hip. Bringing you down on his cock when he thrusts back, aiding in the powerful strokes heās delivering to you.
Moving the knife from your vein he holds it to the front of your throat, right above where an adam's apple would lie. The sharp end of the blade pokes your chin, making you moan loudly, with each powerful stroke he gives you, your chin brushes down lightly against the tip of the blade, scratching your skin. With one false move it could easily impale you.
āYou hear your pussy talking to me?ā He says through clenched teeth, the way your cunt is soaking him, so sloppily heās so close to the edge.
āSheās telling me sheās sorry, sheās sucking me back in, itās almost like she knows the boys canāt fuck you like I can, they canāt pleasure you like I do. They could never do half the shit I do.ā
His words are like velvet in your ears, the degrading, dirty words flutter in your head like tiny butterflies. Loud whimpers are falling out of your mouth, you attempt to bring your hand up to your mouth trying your best to quiet down when Mingi digs the blade into your neck even harder, you are sure the blade has nicked your skin slightly. Causing you to let out a loud cry, your head knocks against the wall in front of you, crying out Mingis name like itās a mantra while your orgasm crashes over you.
āYeaaa, yeaaa thatās it momma, cum on my cock.ā He gasps out, tossing his head back, hips speeding up, the tip of his cock crushing against your cervix, walls squeezing him tightly. Milking him for every last drop of cum. His hips jerk slightly trying to help you ride out your own orgasm, as heās trying to ride out his own.
His body falls forward slightly crushing you against the wall, cock still buried deep into your cunt, knife still present against your throat. The tip of the cool blade is digging fully into your chin. His hot breath pants against your ear, you can feel his heart thump hard against your back. He nudges the blade against your chin, making it dig into your skin further, your head tilts up slightly, eyes looking to the side, catching his wicked smile.
āRemember who you belong to, because next time I wonāt remind you. Iāll just show you.ā
DO NOT REPOST.
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ACKKKK HIII ITS THE ACHERON ANON AGAIN šš
i just finished reading your acheron headcanons AND IM LITERALLY LOSING MY MIND IM SO GLAD SOMEONE ELSE IS INSANE ABOUT HER LIKE MEā¦ AND THAT YOU THINK SHES A SWITCH? iām so normal about this!1!1!1! anyway- while reading your hcs i had an absolutely deranged, down bad horny thought:
having her sprawled out under you, fucking her with your fingers and whispering in her ear, and calling her mei.
saying her name like a prayer while she digs her nails into you and cries and whimpersā¦ telling her how much you love her, letting her fall apart in your hands and piece her back together šµāš«
anyways i will be back with more (very sane hebryegge) acheron thoughts ! for simplicityās sake, could i be ur šŗ anon? (i wish the flower was red like acherons but WHATEVER MAN.)
thank youuuu !
say it again.
Pairings: acheron x fem!reader
CW: nsfw, female reader, afab reader, dom reader, sub acheron, fingering, sesbian lex yeahhhhh, whatās the thing where you scratch someoneās back cause thatās in there too, tit sucking, use of acheronās real name, I think I ate my fucking pillow writing this, I love acheron, I managed to write this decently without tea, not proofread.
A/N: YAYAYA ITS YOU AGAIN IM SO GLAD YOU CAME BACK FOR MORE ACHERON STUFFS honestly youāre so real for those freaky ass thoughts and also ofc you can be šŗ anon <3 šÆļø
Shallow strings of gasps echoed off the walls, casting a gentle sigh out of your throat as you felt a set of nails rake down your back. Your fingers plunged deeper as the ridges massaged Acheronās walls, practically having a death grip on your fingers from how the hot velvety texture clenched around your digits.
You could tell. Each time youād push and curl them up against that spongy spot within her, a mix between a whimper and a groan wrenched out of her throat. Warmth flooded your senses each time you saw her gorgeous form sprawled out below you, head tilted to the side and eyes squeezed shut in ecstasy as she rolled her hips up to match the pace of your fingers.
Acheron could certainly kill you if she wanted. She could turn you into a memory within mere moments. But she didnāt. She trusted you enough to do this to her. Acheron allowed you to see her in such a vulnerable state, leaving you to do whatever you pleased to her.
However, each drag of your fingers massaging her cunt wasnāt predatory nor rough. Rather, it was sweetāaffectionate. You wanted her to feel a high which allowed her to bask in comfort within your grasp. You wanted to hear her cries of need and pleasure every time your fingers buried inside her cunt, while you whispered soothing praises into her reddish ears.
You giggled to yourself upon seeing how she was yearning for your touch, eager for you to fuck her into the mattress as she grasped you tightly against her. A shiver pulsed down your spine when you saw how adorably captivating Acheronās reactions were. Still trying to maintain a composed front, yet crying out below you as a never ending stream of quiet groans and sobs were ripped out of her throat.
Your free hand circled below her breast, hot gasps brushing against the tip of your flushed nose as your teeth tugged on her bud lightly.
āYouāre so gorgeous, Mei.ā
Your remark made Acheronās gaze flicker down to you, breathing growing quicker and shallow as she brought a hand to the back of your head to dig her fingers into your hair, pushing you deeper into her chest to encourage your sensual movements.
āSay it again. Please.ā Acheron whispered, somehow being able to maintain her usual low voice through her irregular breathing and choked back whimpers. You only dragged your tongue along her breast in response, squeezing the soft flesh between your fingers as your other hand thrusted up into her continuously.
āMei.ā You muttered, face now raising level with her cheek as your warm breath caressed her cheek.
āMei. Mei. Mei.ā
Her name repeated past your lips like a mantra over and over, as Acheron only arched her back in response to your fingersā fervent thrusts. As if she couldnāt be any more pleasantly ruined by you, your velvety tone of voice simply pushed her over the edge, finding a sense of solace and warmth enveloping her body at the sweet nothings seamlessly dripping from your lips.
āI love you so much, Mei. I donāt know what Iād do without you.ā
Acheron had never seen words as anything important. Theyād just been means of communication. A quick frequency vibrating and cutting through the air, much like her own sword. However these words uttered by you and only you seeped into her heart in a way she couldnāt understand. She didnāt understand any of this. Yet, it was welcome. Perhaps she would let you into your heart, because she loved you oh so dearly.
A guttural moan was ripped out of Acheronās throat as she felt the tip of your fingers press against her sweet spot, her head tilting back into the cloud like pillows, and your lips ghosting her cheek. Her panting filled the room as her climax snapped inside her, the intense high gradually subsiding as you slowly withdrew your fingers, now painted with her fluids. You leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to her stomach as she let out a low hum in response, thighs clenching slightly upon feeling the dampened sheets below her.
āI wonāt ever let you go, Mei.ā
āThat makes two of us, (Name).ā
A/N: dude I am so happy with how this turned out even though I wrote this first thing in the morning also guys I swear Iām normal about acheron pls trust (no Iām not sub acheron is making me lose my shit Iām this close to climbing on the ceiling)
#hsr#honkai star rail#honkai star rail x reader#honkai starrail#hsr x reader#hsr smut#honkai acheron#acheron honkai star rail#hsr acheron x reader#acheron my beloved#acheron smut#acheron#acheron x reader#honkai star rail smut#honkai star rail acheron#acheron x reader smut#raiden bosenmori mei
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therapist!reader x obsessive patient!kƶnig? omgā¦ but reader low-key feeds into his obsessions cause she likes the attention? I need this so bad pls pls pls make it as dark as possible I love your work, have an awesome day!! <3
brutality - patient-kƶnig & therapist-reader.
anon, anon... you're absolutely killing me with this concept! šµāš«
tw/cw: non-con/dub-con, RAPE, obsessive and manipulative behaviour, guilt tripping, talk of mental health struggles, stalking, perv!kƶnig, stalker!kƶnig, yandere!kƶnig.
DEAD DOVE: DO NOT EAT
patient-kƶnig tried not to become obsessive with you, as he could feel himself struggling, the irresistible desire burning inside of him. i mean, you're his therapist for christ's sake! but, you being his therapist makes it even worse, since you know all about his sick and twisted desires. he rants to you, frustrated and nearly screaming at you as if you caused all his pain and ache, talking about all the sick things he desired about.
one thing kƶnig left out was who he wanted his victim to be. he talked about rape, taking advantage and corrupting someone. he even promised to never act on his deranged and depraved desires, to conceal them and continue with therapy to help kƶnig with his cruel, brutal fantasies. something about you listening to him so intently drove him insane. you were the only one who cared ā who bothered to listen!
of course, it's your job ā but kƶnig took this as a hint that you wanted him, you wanted him to act on his gross, perverse ideas. and so he did. he stalked you; perved and jerked off to the sight of you asleep, he even cuddled you; breathed hot air down your neck while you shuddered in your sleep. and soon enough, kƶnig was utterly and completely obsessed with you, desperate for your love and care.
why are you surprised? that you're tied to a metal table with rope, duct tape covering your screams as he rapes you brutally and disgustingly. his thrusts are so incredibly painful and brutal. to make it even worse, he records it for other rapists to watch, to get their release through your pain.
you scream and sob and shake while you bleed, crimson rolling down your thighs and covering his lengthy cock and balls in crimson. you recognise him, behind the mask, his body fit the size of your patient all too well... and all you could do was fight uselessly as he continued for hours on end, making sure you knew how obsessed he was.
#orla speaks#kƶnig fanfiction#kƶnig call of duty#kƶnig#kƶnig cod#kƶnig x reader#kƶnig mw2#konig x reader#konig x you#cod konig#konig cod#konig mw2#konig call of duty#konig#konig smut#cod#tw: non con#tw noncon#tw: noncon#non con#tw dubcon#tw dubious consent#tw: dubcon#dub con#tw: dark content#dark cod#dark content#dead dove do not eat#dead dove fic#yandere x reader
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Fellas. As a woman, is it gay to love your wife?
Bt omg i was on the grind so hard my drawing tablet pen litrally gave out before I could finish his name hes so mip y its so over i gotta jump
#chigiri hyoma#bllk chigiri#hyoma chigiri#bllk fanart#blue lock#bllk#bllk art#digital art#blue lock chigiri#fanart#my art <3#art#feeling: deranged šµāš«šµāš«#mywife is soft nd ilikeher#my wiwwwfie wife is visiting her mom and i miss her#MY EWFIE IS HOME MY WIFE8
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Please send help, looking thru my tiktok edit folders and mourning my prev fandoms, I need f1 to return before I go insane
The length of the f1 break is getting to me, I've started looking back on old ships, and I feel like a feral dog about them again
#FUCKKKKKK THERES SO MUCH I WANT TO REWATCH NOE#i really need to rewatch the batman#<- truly a life changing film for me šµāš«ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½āš«šµāš«šµāš«#ive liked having a hobby for an extended dedicated period of time#but god my fandoms and ships in 2022 were literally so fucking amazing in hindsight#i barely go back and re-experience prev ships bcs they dont have the same magic yknow?#but i feel so deprived of my current brainrot that im going back anf feeling severe levels of derangement#i feel so insane rn šš like squealing growling noises over prev interests. save me please#but ah man theres some films i really need to rewatch i think#but ahhhhhhh i really have that like peak obsessive behavior rn#you know like when you feel just so full ??? like itll explode out of your chest????#nostalgia moment š„¹#catie.rambling.txt
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Fucking Jisung with one of those big bad dragon dildos?? šļøšļø making him feel all the ridges on the dildo, stretching his little hole out, and making sure he sees the big belly bulge, and pressing down on it so he really feels it all inside of him šš
the belly bulge in his cute tummy šµāš« maybe itās my firm belief that hannie would be into hentai but why did i instantly think of a tentacle monsterā¦like indulging one of his weird unattainable deranged lil fantasies that he shyly confesses to you one day and using a bad dragon dildo that looks like a tentacle hehe maybe even putting another in his mouth and having him suck it as best as he can for the full experience <3 pressing down on the spot where his stomach swells might just make him cum on the spot
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Having thoughts about damien holding a vibrator to you until youre so overstimulated that you can hardly talk. And he's guiding you through it the whole time...šµāš«šµāš«
sorry this is so deranged I'll stop
This blog is for the deranged and the deranged only!!
"What's wrong?" Damien removed the vibrator momentarily, and you tried to cross your legs. He grabbed your knee in his other hand, thwarting your attempt, and keeping your legs open. "Too much?"
He was teasing you; he knew you wanted more, knew that your cries of "too much" were just for the sake of showing him that you could handle even the most intense of situations. Nevertheless, his question was also steeped in mild sincerity, double checking subtly to make sure you were still ok with his actions.
"So--" you struggled to find words, brain fogged from the overwhelming pleasure. "S-so good," you managed, "please."
"Please what?" He wanted to hear you say it, maybe sadistically, so that he could repeat your pleas back at you in jest when you again started to cry out that you couldn't take it.
"More," you breathed, "wanna give you another."
He lowered the vibrator to you once more, and on a low setting let it sit against your clit. He watched the way your face contorted in awkward pleasure, clearly unsure about whether the feeling was satisfying or overpowering in your state of sensitivity.
"That would be five," he watched, entranced, at the way your legs trembled, hands clawing at the mattress and occasionally attempting to grab his wrist or his shoulder or whatever part of him was closest to you. "You think you can do that?"
"Yes!" You had your head thrown back, only semi-coherent when you opened your mouth. "Want--it's, god!" You looked up at him with hooded eyes, "Make me cum again."
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babe, first of all, I hope you doing well š„° and second, but not least important, i'll do love if write some toxic fluffy whith jack, where, after a argument, she hurts or puts herself in dangerous just to get revenge, but nothing really serius happens to her, they reconizing they're not in a helth reletionship, but they gonna try to be better for eachother, you also can add some smut if you like, but this is not part of the request. hope you liked the idea, but if you don't, let me know
xoxo
My dearest anon...this is a lot of things but not exactly fluffy and I'm sorry if I went too hard on it but toxic Jack Thurlow had me short circuiting šµāš«šµāš«
The Pain Remains
Summary: This time you really lost the plot for good and now all you can do is to clean up your act.
Pairing: Jack Thurlow x fem!Reader
Word Count: ~1.6k
Content Warnings: DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT! 18+!, Grim Dark Smut, Active Self Harm, Jealousy, Borderline Very Toxic Relationship, Two Idiots In Love Trying To Do Better, It's Very Mentally Ill In Here, Mutual Substance Abuse, Very Shitty Coping Mechanisms, Strong Hints Towards Sex Addiction, Mentions Of Public Sex, Angsty As Fuck, Positive Ending, Tho šš»āāļø!
A/N: I know, this is a rather heavy one and if anyone of you feels the need to talk to someone: My DMs are always open. Don't hesitate to reach out!š¤
Tagging The Squad:
@crypticsewerslut @quicksilversg1rl @cc-luvr @icarus-star @milaeth @roryculkinsgf @roryculkinsbf @spookyorchid @arch1viste @whoareyoi @angelsanarchy @b4sementgrl @blueberrypancakesworld
If the past is just dust
Then the future could be our dream
If all we have is now, this eternity
Ignite my satisfaction, engulf me
- The Pain Remains I By Lorna Shore
Before you even really woke up, you were forced to acknowledge the raging hangover headache in your head. With eyes closed shut, you turned to the side, your hand haphazardly roaming over the silhouette of Jack's body, looking for a glimpse of comforting body heat or just anything to get your racing mind to shut up for a second.
How did you get into bed? At what time did you fall onto the mattress next to him?
You had no clue about any of that as you pressed your body against his back, the pungent aftertaste of cheap rum still lingering heavily on your tongue.
"Fucking hellā¦" You groaned into the nape of his neck, your nose buried deep in his curly, brown hair and yet you could still smell the remnants of last night's pot extravaganza all throughout the bedroom.
What in the everloving fuck had the two of you been up to last night? With relentlessly firing synapses and painfully overdriven neurons you searched your mind for answers, a flicker of a memory, at this point anything, really.
You couldn't help yourself but to let your face contort into various tortured grimaces as the rest of your body slowly came to. Your stomach felt horribly fucked and in dire need for something solid, although the mere thought of food alone had you nearly gagging. No, you needed something else to take the edge off before you even so much as got out of bed.
Whilst inhaling deep, unsteady breaths, you soaked in the calming smell of Jack's body; a mixture of pheromone-loaded sweat, musky deodorant and soft hints of vanilla coke.
Vanilla coke spiked with cheap rum. Your stomach dropped and turned in every possible direction at the reminder. Nearly every weekend played out in the same shit show again and again: Booze to kill the anxiety, weed to elevate your spirit and nearly deranged amounts of sex to eradicate and simply drown out every last painful sentiment that could possibly be felt.
On that notion your lips curled up into a crooked smile whilst your reader fingertips grazed down your boyfriends gently rising and falling again chest, gingerly drawing a circle or two around his navel before eventually tapping down to the waistband of his black and gray checkered shorts, a throbbing case of morning wood straining against the fabric already. Sucking your bottom lip between your teeth in a low gasp, you simply indulged yourself and allowed your hand to slip right past the waistband, fingers wrapping themselves around Jack's girth tenderly.
"Goddamn minx!" Jack hissed into the darkened bedroom and involuntarily jutted his hips against your hand.
"Want me to stop?" You whispered into the soft skin of his shoulder before biting down on it teasingly.
"No, please.", His voice was raspy enough to give you a broad idea about how much the two of you must've smoked last night, "I'm equal parts hungover and horny as fuck."
"Yeah, I thought so." You snickered while you started fisting his cock, generously smearing the pre-cum all over the sensitive tip to not stroke him sore with a dry palm.
"You're a fucking menace, you know that?" Jack stuttered, choking back a breathy moan while rocking is lap in quick rolls, practically fucking himself into your grip.
"Says the lunatic who'll take every and any given chance to fumble me in public? Finger fucking me in the cinema, really?" With a mischievous grin spreading all across your face, you fondly remembered that happening a few days ago.
"C'mon, you enjoyed that, cumming all over the seat like you did." Jack shot right back at you.
"Fair enough." You agreed, tightening the grip around his hard on slightly to drag a shaky sigh from his lips.
"Fuck, you know I can't last long that early into the day." Jack practically whined out, his hips thrusting harshly against your hand while you jerked him off.
"Oh, poor, little Jack." Your playfully mocking voice got lost in the glossy curls of his hair as you felt his entire body turning stiff against your torso.
"Say that againā¦ please!" Jack was clearly about to come undone, needing that little push of humiliation to push past the threshold.
"Oh, you sick fuck.", You sneered into his ear, the tip of your nose hardly touching its shell, "Poor, little Jack Thurlow creaming his boxers just after a few minutes already, huh?"
"Good god, fuck, you're so mean!" It cascaded out of his mouth in a guttural moan as he rutted against your hand in a few last, shaky thrusts before white-hot ropes of cum ruined his boxers and your hand alike.
The milky fluid spouted all over your fingers and eventually down your wrist, causing a very sudden, sharp pinch of simmering pain.
"What the hell?!" You hissed and withdrew your hands from Jack's crotch, raising it up for the both of you to stare right at the scene of the crime.
"Whatā¦" Jack mumbled under his breath, his eyes going wide in shock.
Thin yet vigorous cuts thrown all over your wrist, bright red with inflammation and laced with a milky layer of Jack's cum, laughing right in your face about the current state of your mental health.
"Whatā¦noā¦NO!" Your voice flailed and trembled as you stared at your wrist with thrashing disbelief.
"I was clean for a year! Thisā¦this isn't happening, no!" A dull pang of pain shot right through your dehydrated head as you basically jumped off the mattress and stumbled towards the bathroom, nearly tripping over scattered clothing and a glass bong.
Unbridled waves of shame and disgusting rippled through your system as a supernova of blacked-out memories decided to implode inside your head. You'd been pissed last night, even furious with Jack about somethingā¦yeah..fuck..a call. Was it call? Yeah, of course, a call from is ex-fiancĆ© Cleo, that fucking cunt. Dumped him because she couldn't handle Jack the way you could and now trying to patch things up again. Stupid twat.
"Hey, wait!" You heard Jack calling out to you from behind, coming right after you.
Your out of control body fell against the door frame of the bathroom as you hurried towards the sink, yanking at the faucet for icy cold water to cascade over your violated wrist. It stung and you winced at the sharp pain.
"Are you okay? What the hell happened!?" Jack huffed, only stopping in steps as he was right behind you, making his presence known by cupping your jittery frame with his body, his chin resting on your shoulder as his slender hands wrapped themselves around yours under the running faucet.
His thumb ghosted over the cuts, gently washing himself off of your sore skin.
"Obviously not, asshole!" It shot right out of you and you regretted it immediately.
"Hey, watch that mouth! Right now is not the time for that." He mumbled into the crook of your neck.
"Fuck, sorryā¦ I really lost the plot this time, huh?" Your voice was but a meak whimper.
"Maybe, but I got you. This is a temporary setback, yes, but not the end of the world, you hear me?" His tone rendered soft as he tried to calm you down.
"The cuts are shallow and if we take good care of them they'll heal without leaving a single scar. It'll be okay, yeah?" By now the water numbed your wrist out to the point that you didn't feel his thumb wiping you clean anymore.
"Uh-huhā¦I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry for being such a fucking psycho, Jack." The shame and self-loathing doubled down on you, dragging you into an inevitable breakdown.
"Stop that right there! You're not a psycho and I don't love you any less, you understand?", He pressed himself to you as impossibly close as he could, "A little slip up like that won't scare me. I'll go through that hell right here with you, I promise. I'll never go anywhere and just leave you like that."
Everything inside of you came falling down, every painful emotion amped up by the raging hangover that ruled over your shaking muscles and you just let yourself fall against Jack in eventual defeat.
"I got you and we'll handle that together!"
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