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am I ever going to be able to let go of things, even my subconscious is fighting against me like why tf did I have a dream where I saw a friend I haven't spoken to in over 2 years???

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I hate having an incredibly good wet and supple pussy bc what do you mean you already came it was like five strokes 😭 babe

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I had a dream last night that I was walking down the stairs holding up a woman's hand like I was her knight leading her down somewhere and I kept complimenting her and saying how radiant she looked and it kept escalating until I was kissing her hand and up her arm and then we were making out and she was really into it as well and she had thick dark hair and was shorter than me and we basically had to stop kissing bc it was getting so intense and we we're in public in front of a bunch of people but UGH I just want that so bad rn I want to compliment a woman and for her to be sooo into it

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Art by Rebeca Fleur, Spanish

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All I can think about is how she didn't want me. I tried so hard and she still doesn't want me and it's ruining my life. All I can do is cry and seethe and think about it and no matter how much I feel like I hate her for doing this to me I still want to see her it's so pathetic

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Just thinking about how over the course of my one year relationship I gained like ten pounds and then in the past five months after she broke up with me I've lost like 20 pounds. Nothing that was hers is left of my body. Her mark from me is being erased and it feels sad but I am trying to let go so maybe it's good

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It's so pathetic that it's been like five months and I still can't go barely a few days without crying my fucking eyes out about getting broken up with and I can't be alone for like 5 minutes with just my thoughts without a dark cloud coming over me I hate feeling like this I hate that she broke up with me and I'm the one who's lonely and I can't even tell anyone about it because I feel so stupid and pathetic and I would hate to be that person who just talks about how sad they are all the time but I can already feel how bad it's affecting me and how I bring the mood down in every situation I'm in I can't fucking stand that I can't just move on fuck I hate it and i hate that I feel like I just want her to know what she did to me i want her to feel bad for making me feel like this I hate that i think that, not that I would even let myself reach out to her bc i would feel even more pathetic and I'm pretty sure she wouldn't respond anyway. I'm just missing out on so much right now bc I can't move on and I can't even try to move on bc I still live with my mom and I'm in the closet so I just can't bring myself to be in that position again to be sneaking around basically but I just want to love someone and to hold someone and to talk to someone and be close to someone again I fucking hate it here

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26th birthday and I'm drunk on my friends couch crying my fucking eyes out bc of how much of a freak nobody loser I feel like. No gf no future plans can't even date bc I still live with my mom fuck my life

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After a day of horrible emotional turmoil and strife yesterday, I just woke up from a dream of me kissing the neck of a beautiful woman who I don't know 🙏

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um I basically got catfished wtf

chat can I bag a 6ft tall chubby red headed man after not talking to him for 2 days after matching?

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he replied we're so back (maybe)

chat can I bag a 6ft tall chubby red headed man after not talking to him for 2 days after matching?

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chat can I bag a 6ft tall chubby red headed man after not talking to him for 2 days after matching?

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I'm so fucking pissed rn SHE broke up with me and told me she wanted to be friends still and then she stopped talking to me and fucking blocked me on Tumblr like????? It's so stupid and pathetic but I genuinely feel so betrayed and angry but I don't want to talk to anyone about it bc I don't want to be *that* person who always talks about their ex UGH

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honestly the next situation I get in with someone I really hope they have a very specific and structured fetish that I can fill a role in bc idk I really haven't been feeling anything in particular lately but I need a little something something to get me going a lot of the times so like 🤞

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It's annoying how non-suicidal I am bc when literally everything in my life is going wrong I'm like damn I want to do something really drastic and violent but I have to live after so like... What now lol