#feelin indigo

[babz30]

[awkuni]

༻⋆ 。𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂’𝓼 𝔀𝓪𝓽𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮 ? ! ♱

⤷ “ he couldn’t hold back any longer. there was a carnal desire deep within his roots which screamed in the foreground of his mind, begging him to utterly devour you whole. ”

part of k.tober ノstalker!kabukimono x fem!readerノnsfw — mdni. elements of stalking. partial somnophilia. grinding. unprotected sex. whiny + possessive kabuki <3. creampie. clit play. wc .. 3642.

recently, you moved into a new house. it was a lovely neighbourhood, however you were not quite accustomed to the new environment yet. it was your style, the scenery akin to the serendipitous relief of the autumn breeze, however it was a big change from your last home. once you had finally settled down, you were warmly welcomed by your next-door neighbour, kabukimono. it made you feel less out of place in this unfamiliar area.

everything was smooth sailing, and you had gotten pretty close with him. you would say hi to him every time you got the chance to, and you would occasionally see him when you were out and about in the city.

kabukimono was a sweet man—innocent and untainted by the ugly gruesomeness of this world. the warmth of the atmosphere he omits was comforting, so naturally you told him all your problems.

“i don’t know what to do,” are the words which you broke the silence with. kabukimono softly sets the teacup down on the saucer with a clink, perking up to hear what you have to say.

you sat across from him, still mindlessly stirring your tea and watching the ripples and turbulence of the translucent liquid in the ceramic cup. “i feel like i’m constantly being… watched. even out on the streets when i’m shopping, i can’t shake the feeling that i’m being followed.”

the male across from you bites the inside of his cheek, gnawing at the flesh to try and form a response, form advice to help you in this current turmoil you were experiencing. he couldn’t say anything, so he continued to listen until given the cue to talk.

you finally stop stirring, setting the spoon down on the table before taking a nervous gulp, the beverage refreshing your senses and heating your core, bringing a sense of serene relaxation over your paranoia.

“i swear my door was locked before i went to bed, then it was unlocked the next morning. i’ve been shrugging it off but… it’s been happening more frequently as of late.”

kabukimono begins to get clammy, a cold sweat shuddering down his spine. he felt uneasy, as if you were nearing closer to something—something you weren’t meant to find out. his mind is a whirlpool of worry, and by the look on your face it seemed you had noticed. you were observant, too observant.

“hey, what’s wrong? is the tea not to your liking?”

indigo eyes lock onto you in a flurry, eyes darting between you and the tea he was drinking. he shakes his head, clearing the lump in his throat before reluctantly speaking up.

“n-no. it’s not that… i-it’s just… scary. it’s a scary situation, knowing that someone like that is roaming the neighbourhood…” he spoke in a meek tone, almost shying away from you, shrinking into the chair which upheld his figure.

you nod in agreement, shaky hands coming to set down the cup. you click your tongue, a million thoughts running cross country around the pathways of your nervous system. a fleeting sigh rummages its way from out the pit of your lungs, clawing the passage of your throat and whistling out between the grooves of your tongue.

“it’s fine,” you insist, staring into the seemingly bottomless beverage you had before you. the urge to just swallow it up to savour the numbing burn in your throat was becoming more prominent, but your attention was drawn back to the conversation at hand. “honestly, i’m sure it’ll pass over soon enough.”

“but what if it doesn’t? what would you—”

he realised that he was rambling, and quickly closed his mouth just as swiftly as he had opened it. silence befalls over the serenity of the atmosphere, the uncomfortable feeling of awkwardness creeping up in the back of both of your minds. the two of you share a knowing glance and kabukimono clears his throat before standing up.

“sorry, sorry. i better go, right? i mean… it’s getting late and i have to do… things.” he explains, being eerily vague with his excuse. nevertheless, you wouldn’t hold him captive here any longer if he had duties to attend to.

“yeah, you’re right. i need to wash up and everything… thanks for stopping by though!”

you happily escort him to the door, not finding it that much of a hassle. as soon as you see him walking down the pavement, you close the door, grabbing the keys and turning them in the door until it locks. you locked the door, even trying to open it just for safe measures. you were concrete sure it was locked, like it had been every night.

nothing was out of the ordinary. you did your normal nightly routine before getting comfortable in bed. the warmth of your sheets provided a blanket of coverage from whatever evil you may encounter tonight. you sink into the plush mattress, rubbing your eyes exasperatedly. you were so tired, yet you didn’t want to sleep—you wanted to catch whoever was tormenting you for almost three months.

… that’s what you swore to yourself before you fell asleep, that is.

you were out, cold, comfortably and peacefully resting intertwined into the quilt of your bed. meanwhile downstairs, there was a skilfully crafted lockpick, contorting within the lock of your door until your stalker heard the fated click of the lock finally giving way.

he slowly and intricately opens the door, stepping inside the already familiar floorplan of your home. he knew which floorboards creaked, what doors would squeak and how to navigate himself in the darkness—turning the lights on may rouse you, and that wouldn’t be good.

as usual, he creeps up the stairs, zealous with the task of finding you and finally ravishing you for his own.

he gnaws on his lip as he comes close to your room, sweet desperation dripping from the tips of his fingers. his hand comes into contact with the cold material of your doorknob, slowly turning it before pushing into the room, being hit with the strong scent of you.

it sent him in a daze, wholly surrounded by your essence as soon as he steps through the door frame. he shuts the door behind him as quietly as possible, as to not disturb your slumber.

upon the picturesque sight of you, his breath was swept away and pulled out of his lungs in the form of a sharp gasp. he felt as if his whole world had stilled by just looking at you. you were so captivating in his eyes, one single glance at you and the universe crumbled before his eyes. in his mind, there was nothing here except you and him, and nothing was able to stop him as his steps brought him to the edge of your bed.

the duvet had been kicked off of your upper half in your sleep, your body curled into a fetal position in order to unconsciously conserve all the heat that you could. he rests on the edge of your bed, running a hand down your spine, drinking in the way that you shuddered and stirred slightly.

with a hand on your cheek, he turns your face for him to see, admiring your expression with something that can be only described as a burning desire. he wanted you so badly, and you were right where he wanted you.

he swallows down the choked up feeling in his throat, trying to ignore the anxiety and paranoia pooling in his gut. the back of his hand trailing down the side of your figure, admiring all of your curves and all of the little things about your body. his eyes were practically hearts just from touching you, heart rate speeding up significantly, so much so that he could feel it pounding in the back of his skull.

he felt as if he was descending into his own paracosm, his body moving on its own, completely disassociated with any rational thinking. he presses a soft kiss to your neck, carefully descending down to your shoulder. his hands rest themselves on your thighs, mindfully positioning them to wrap around his waist as he hovers over you.

with trembling arms and an airy head, he leans in to press kisses against your jaw, allowing himself to lose his present consciousness in order to gain the courage to actually take you. the hairs on the back of his neck stand up on end, the fact that you could wake up at any point during this was like a carrot dangling over his head, taunting him.

he couldn’t help himself—the blood that was previously tainting his cheeks and streaking them a deep scarlet was now rushing south, spurring on his already accumulating arousal.

oh, fuck, he couldn’t hold back any longer. there was a carnal desire deep within his roots which screamed in the foreground of his mind, begging him to utterly devour you whole. his hips carefully press flush against your pelvis, eliciting a short whine from under his breath.

he’s now blushing profusely, one fist bunching up into your sheets while the other plants itself on the side of your face, thumb brushing against the plump of your cheek.

he starts off with gentle, languid grinds, which then descends into uncoordinated, lecherous jerks. he shouldn’t be doing this, he shouldn’t be doing this—it’s too risky, but he wanted it so badly, it almost hurt to resist his impulses.

with his head hanging in the crook of your neck, his warm breath fanning against the sensitive flesh, he whimpers, the sound going straight into your ear.

he could feel himself trembling all the way through to his core, anticipating what your reaction would be if you were to wake up in this exact moment—would you be disgusted? push him away? or would you look up at him with the same air of lust he mutually held for you?

as if he was reading a crystal ball, you immediately start to stir after a particularly harsh grind of his hips. his breath hitches, eyes going wide as he shoots up from your neck, eyes darting around your expression anxiously. a shudder wracks through every edge of his body as he sees your vibrant eyes start to flutter open.

with a soft groan, you rub your eyes, noticing an odd weight atop you. once you fully come to your senses, you notice the hazy indigo irises staring down at you, wide-eyed and filled to the brim with worry.

“kabukimono…?”

there was a pregnant pause, akin to your earlier conversation with him about the stalker situation… the stalker situation.

he was your stalker.

his whole body shudders upon hearing you say his name in that sleepy tone, and it oddly turned him on more than he thought it would.

“you’ve been the one stalking me?”

he gulps. however, hearing the tone of your voice made him confused. you didn’t seem all that upset about this outcome—i mean, it wasn’t exactly what you were expecting—yet you showed an off-putting indifference to this.

the position you were in was undeniably lewd, and there was no doubt that you definitely felt his grinds. he swallows diffidently, his eyes trailing down before he moves away from you, making a move to stand up until you tightly gripped his wrist.

“yes. yes, i have been,” he splutters out in an timid way, almost ashamed of his actions. your hand on his wrist sent him into a spiral and his mouth started moving at a quicker pace than his brain. “i just— i want you. i want you so badly, yet i couldn’t find any means to interact with you in such a way. i would be too embarrassing and awkward a-and it would probably make you turn your back to me. you wouldn’t want to speak with me ever aga—”

your soft hold grasps at his cheek, your thumb stroking the bright red which came forth. a light-hearted chuckle escapes your captivating lips, and it doesn’t help his already lovesick mental state.

“it’s fine, kabukimono.” your eyes trail down his body, locking onto the prominent tent in his shorts. “do you want me?” you mumble, referring to his aching erection.

he’s silent for a couple beats, biting down on his tongue to prevent himself from making a rash decision—but how could he possibly resist this opportunity? you were offering yourself up to him, and he couldn’t find any means to decline you. he ends up nodding, cautiously making his way back in between your legs, however your legs willingly wrap around his waist this time.

his face is close to yours, nervous breaths fanning against your lips. you were so tempting… and you looked even more gorgeous splayed out underneath him, all for him to have. he just hovered above you for a few beats, admiring your features in great detail, before finally—finally pressing his quivering lips against yours.

the feeling of relief was not far off of serendipitous, as if you both instantly clicked in the brief moment your lips merely brushed together. you let out a soft moan against him as your lips interlocked in a sweet waltz of longing, his months of pent up frustration and manic lust. the kiss was delicate and it seemed as if he was treating you as a fragile porcelain doll, brushing the dust off your cheek, scared to mar the pristine skin as if you were a precious antique that needed to be preserved.

yet his mind completely flees from the topic as soon as he feels your hand slide down the front of his abdomen. all inhibitions were lost in translation as he lets out a muffled whimper against the plush of your lips, pulling away from the lip-lock in order to observe your dexterous movements.

with eyes hazy and clouded over with a lustrous passion, you look up at him with feigned innocence, but for some reason he couldn’t find it in his senses to look at you, because he knew that he would immediately crack under the pressure. the immense incineration of arousal boiling in his gut was becoming too blazing to ignore, and you couldn’t just stand aside and watch him struggle any longer.

carefully and gently, you press the heat of your palm flush against the straining bulge in his pants, earning a gasp in response. a conniving smirk crawls its way up your face, holding a thick, teasing air of tension between the two of you. his eyes precariously flit up to yours and he can almost taste the mirth in your lustful gaze.

“want you… t-to touch me. ‘ve been waiting for so long…” he breathily complains, urging you to be compliant with his demands—simply from the whiny tone in his voice. the blood rushing throughout his body sends a surplus of endorphins to each corner of his being, spurring on the very core of his arousal and producing an involuntary buck of his hips straight into your hand.

the soft chuckle which resonates from your spit-glossed lips almost sends him into a frenzy, his glossy eyes blurring up from the combined feeling of raw desideratum and rapture. he swears that from the sheer ardour of your touch that it’ll soon be imprinted on his milky flesh. he grinds his teeth together in hopes to compose what was left of his dignity as you pulled his reddened cock out, tip flushed and leaking with pre just from your tantilising ministrations.

he presses his forehead against your cheek, letting out irresolute sounds of what seemed like begging next to the shell of your ear. he presses featherlight, open-mouthed kisses down your jaw as you languorously stroke his length, and he can’t deny that it feels just like he fantasized it to be—possibly even better than he thought it would be.

he grinds his pelvis into your hand, relishing in the brief bouts of euphoria which came. it rushed over him in waves, shallow yet not managing to actually crest. that’s when he concludes that it wasn’t enough, he needed more of you, all of you, if possible.

he hesitantly grips onto the flimsy waistband of your bottoms, looking at you for confirmation. once you lifted your hips up to signal to him that you were enabling his proposal, he immediately drags your pants and underwear down in one singular tug.

he downright drools upon seeing your sopping cunt, fingers immediately magnetising to your clit to give it a couple short rubs. the sharp inhale you take as you kiss your teeth sends shivers up his spine, his unwavering focus completely directed at pleasing you to the best of his abilities. the way your voice keened into a higher pitch every time he pressed down harder tells him everything he needed to know.

“kabuki—” you cut yourself off with a short stagger of your breath, rolling your hips up into his nimble fingers. they worked with such precision, massaging at just the right pace to make you dripping with your own slick. “please…”

the way your voice quivered and the way each breath of yours sounded like a struggle, he didn’t think that he’d be able to control his urges anymore. the salacious nerves to just be inside you at this moment was splitting him in two, but evidently he submits to his desires.

he presses the tip of his cock into your folds, testing the waters before slowly inching into you. he was gentle with it, constantly pausing and giving you time to adjust to the foreign girth. the flutter of your velvety walls sucking him in was so easily captivating, pulling him in like he was tied around some imaginary fishing line connecting him to you. the way you attempted to muffle your own melodic moans was like a crime to him—he wanted to hear his precious songbird sing out for him, and it filled him with a sense of pride knowing that it was him doing this to you. you were letting him do this to you.

he felt himself crumbling atop you, his once stable facade soon ripping at the seams to show the desperate stature underneath. his eyes roll back into his skull, finally bottoming out within you. it was like he was having an epiphany—why hadn’t he done this earlier?

once you arch your back and mumble out a soft-spoken ‘move’, he complies, slowly rocking his hips as a way to indirectly taunt you. he finds himself short of breath just by looking at his cock disappear within you, a sticky white halo of mixed fluids forming on the base of his length which simply sent him into a frenzy.

“s-shit…” he groans, nuzzling his nose into your neck and inhaling your scent. it was like an aphrodisiac, coaxing him to push himself further and further into you. he sucks up a small mark in the crook of your neck, a symbol which screamed his underlying possessiveness over your body. you were his now, and there was no going back in his views.

“feels s’good, kabuki… g-god,”

the shakiness in your voice as it was wracked with pleasure sent him into a spiral. warmth flooded every ounce of his being as his hips continued their rhythmic pace, catering to both of your needs flawlessly. he trails a hand down to your sensitive bud, swiftly tracing steady circles with a simple flourish of his hand.

it caused a chain reaction, your head getting thrown back as your thighs trembled around his waist, pussy clenching down on him which only enunciated the lewd squelching sounds coming from the erotic mixture of your combined fluids. heavy pants escaped your parched mouth until kabukimono’s lips came and swooped down to take yours into his, the short kiss becoming more of an exchange of saliva than anything.

it was like sweet saccharine as he indulged himself without reservation, gasping and whining into your mouth like it was the last moment he would have with working lungs. he felt his brain go fuzzy, completely and wholly full with the unfettered elation of being inside of you—he could drop dead right here and he’d die a happy man.

he felt his pace falter for a moment as your gummy walls flutter around him, the pleasurable blanket of your orgasm smothering your abdomen, hardly giving you time to breathe as you came with a harsh cry. the feeling of your fluids gushing around him was all he really needed to spill himself inside of you.

he fully bottoms out inside of you, biting down on your neck to stifle the outright pathetic sob he lets out as his hips come to a halt, pressing his cock up against your most vulnerable spot inside, causing an involuntary jolt from your body.

you were practically milking him dry as he reached his high, cumming inside of you without a second of hesitation. the warmth which blossomed forth from the action caused your guts to stir and head to spin, your mind becoming hazy and all your thoughts were focused around him and how he wanted you just as badly as you wanted him.

he collapses atop your body, indigo eyes foggy with the afterglow of his orgasm. his hand comes up to rest against the side of your neck as he started to sprinkle candy-sweet kisses down the flushed flesh, occasionally nipping at the skin just to pull a startled giggle from your overworked lungs.

you soon started to drift off underneath him, unconsciously leaning your cheek into his hand as the fatigue of being awakened in the middle of the night took a toll on you. a heavy weighted blanket of serenity washes over him, and in that moment he found comfort in the fact that he was yours, and more importantly, you were his.

[yuyinesque]

𝓘CHOR'S 𝓩EALOTS! — welcome! as insinuated in the title, these are my loyal people, but in simpler terms, ichor’s original characters! these characters are ichor–originated and ichor-cultivated, therefore, unless you follow ourolite, you will not see any characters like such. anyone who possesses the notes of these individuals are performing an act of plagiarism; do me a favor and let me know if such occurs. aside from that, however, enjoy them! they’re quite the esoteric bunch. you’re welcomed to ask questions about them and they will happily answer. you mag also request reader x oc prompts despite some of the listed ships being canon! the requests are open. i must warn you, disturbing topics such as homophobia, transphobia, yandere themes, murder, swearing, drugs, disorders, paraphilias, and so on will be mentioned in a casual manner. if this list concerns you, let alone the list located in my byf, you’re free to leave! if you’re into that kinda stuff, ya freak, then sit back and peruse; you've caught their attention, after all.

✗. INDIGO ! ~(=^‥^) 〰 “And here I believed that my breed was known for their stamina. Am I not immune to the woes of the world? No, no one is. Therefore, I’ll continue stretching my sugar intake until I reach the whole world. Will I die during my journey? Ideally, yes, I will. There’s no more to it.” maneki-neko teaser. indigo’s relationship hc’s. character ai.

✗. ILLŪNIS ! (¬_¬") 〰 “It would be impossible to find a body in the desert. If it were up to me, I would sever your body into little pieces and hide them in dunes. Heh, they will never stop locating your body.” rusalka teaser. illūnis’s relationship hc’s. character ai.

✗. EUN BYEOL ! (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) 〰 “At times, memories are as intricately ethereal as your palms, but as tormentingly jaded as the skin embued on the back. Tell me, has there been a memory that describes your whole hand? Would you relay it some time to me?” neptunian teaser. byeol’s relationship hc’s. character ai.

✗. ZOLENE IRENE ! (✷∇✷) 〰 “How to spell—Huh? Constellate? Yeah yeah I know wh—it’s uhhh… Con. Stell. S-T-E-L-L—Gotta feelin’ that there’s two L’s, heh, might take one of them after this—Okay, and ATE. Like hungry ate not numba eight. Got it?” demi-god teaser. zolene’s relationship hc’s. character ai.

✗. SENCHA VILLOSA ! ꒰ᐢ⸝⸝⸝⸝ᐢ꒱ ♡ 〰 "Spring is arrived... The sun is very happy itself..." xipe’va teaser. sencha’s relationship hc’s. character ai.

yuyinesque | translate with permission & peruse without theft.

[a-tale-of-legends]

Popping That Bubble

Summary: If Ramona is good at anything, it's being blunt as hell. If she sees someone who might need a rude awakening, she'll gladly put her words to hopefully good use.

Aka: Ramona needs royal compensation for all the bullshit she's willingly putting herself into. 

Notes: This was something i was making for a short while! Some spoilers for Indigo Disk below! And also just wanna say I really like Carmine's character, but she does need a talking too, hence Ramona. I think that's everything, so I hope you enjoy!

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Ramona severely underestimated how bad the situation was. Kieran's sudden- well. Maybe not sudden, they hadn't seen him since Kitakami - change was….unsettling, to say the least. But not something completely unexpected, if she was being honest. That doesn't mean she wished it didn't happen, especially when both his and Luca's already awkward situation is made more awkward….

And now, Drayton ( that fucking bitch ass motherfucker-) has pretty much forced Luca to take on their elite four to dethrone Kieran which- it just gives her such a headache thinking of how all of that could go south. But, and she hates agreeing with Drayton here, dethroning Kieran is probably the best way to pop that bubble he’s holding himself in. Drayton is still a fucking bitch though. 

Which leads them both to here. Luca just finished battling Crispin - a close battle if has ever seen one - and the two decided to take a small break with a picnic…..the sandwich making made her hungry.

Luca has been….quiet. Unnaturally so. Even before, with his anxiety of seeing Kieran again, he was always the more talkative of the two. But now he just sits in silence, watching their Pokemon play. 

Hm. 

“ So.” Ramona starts, “ How ya feelin'?” She watches Luca jump slightly, looking at her with wide eyes. 

“ Huh? What?” Luca says, causing Ramona to roll her eyes a bit. 

“ How are you feeling, Luca. About everything…. about Kieran,”

“ …..Oh,” Luca looks down, “ I….I don't know” He sighs, breaking a piece of his sandwich, and eats it. 

“ He’s changed so much. Like- you saw how he treated that league club member! And he just….there's just no light in his eyes. I want to talk to him, but I don't think I can…”

Ramona hums, taking in Luca’s worries. 

“ Hm…so. Let's say you're able to teach him to the top and talk things out. And let's say he still doesn't listen and continues to act like he is now. What would you do?”

Luca blinks again, taken aback by the question. His crown deepens, pondering on his answer. 

“ I….I want to still try. To reach out to him. He- he shouldn't be alone, you know? And maybe then I'll be able to just…reach him again” 

Ramona sighs. She doesn't like playing the bad guy. But it's a role she's way too good at. 

“ Luca,” she starts, her voice stern, “ You're not going to like what I'm about to say, but know I'm saying this for your own well-being, okay?”

Luca straightens up, “ Okay…”. Ramona takes a breath. 

“ If the hypothetically that I just described comes true, you aren't going to keep trying to reach Kieran. You’re going to leave him to handle his emotions on his own.” 

Luca's eyes widen, and a scowl appears on his face, his anger in his eyes. 

“ What?! How can you even say that-”

“ Luca,” Ramona starts again, her voice even, “ I know that sounds bad. I know the last thing you want to do is to leave Kieran hanging. But I need you to know that you aren't responsible for him. If Kieran isn't willing to change, then you’ll just let him and move on. Let him figure it out for himself,” 

Luca shakes his head defiantly, “ B-but- Kitakami-”

“ That's a conversation you both need to have, yes. But that can only happen if you both are willing to listen,” she looks Luca dead in the eye, “ Do you think he’s willing to listen, Luca?”

Luca matches her stare, and the two stare at each other for a bit….before Luca deflates, casting his eyes down 

“....No…” he sniffs, “ ….I don't want that to happen…”

“ I know. Let's hope that it doesn't. But in the case that it does….” 

“ Yeah,” Luca sighs, wiping his eyes, “ Yeah, okay…..I'll still try, though. I have to,” 

Ramona chuckles. 

“ I wouldn't expect anything less, Luca,”

~~~~

Carmine is a bitch. Ramona has said this to her face multiple times now, which often results in the two arguing their heads off. So how and why did she end up being the girl's study partner, Ramona has no clue. 

Ramona finds herself asking that same question as she watches Carmine pace back and forth in the empty classroom. They were supposed to be working on a paper together, but Carmine decided to use Ramona as her vent buddy. Unwillingly, Ramona must stress 

“ I just don't know what to do!” Carmine says for the 5th time, “ He’s just so….. different! I can’t even speak to him anymore! And now he’s causing problems for the BB league and the entire school and -” 

“ Carmine, you have been telling me the exact same thing for the past 5 minutes, are you going to help me with this research paper or not?” 

Carmine glares down at Ramona, crossing her arms. 

“ Hey! I've already done most of the work before you even came here! And can't you see I'm having a moment here?! Show some sympathy!!”

Ramona can feel herself popping a vein already. 

“ Maybe, I would have some sympathy if you just apologized to your brother and stopped being a bitch all the time!”

Carmine's face turned red, her hands shaking with anger.

“Excuse me?! Why you-”

“ Actually you know what? I’m not finished, so shut up,” Ramona huffs, crossing her arms, “You out here worrying about your little brother, hating how he’s acting, and yet you won't even acknowledge the reason why!”

“ Of course, I know why!” Carmine says, rolling her eyes, “ Luca-”

“ Wrong!” Ramona cuts her off, sitting herself up to match Carmine’s gaze, “ Carmine, he's like this because of you, ” 

“ Wha- me?! What did I do?!” 

“ You continuously bullied him. You never allowed him to do things on his own. You-” she aggressively points at Carmine, “ Was the one that even suggested Luca lie to him! There’s plenty of ways to prevent Kieran from chasing after Ogerpon, and you chose the one that’ll hurt the most.” She sighs, moving her hand to rub her temples. 

“ Hell, he’s even starting to act like you! And you don't think this is your fault?!” 

Carmine glares at Ramona, in which she glares back with equal bitterness. It only takes a minute for Carmine's glare to waver. 

“....I just…I just wanted to protect him,”

Ramona raises a brow.

“That's not an excuse, but go on.”

Carmine nervously grips the ends of her hair, looking off the side, worry in her eyes, “ W-when we were young, it was always up to me to look after Kiki and me,” 

Suddenly the animosity that Ramona has for Carmine lessens. That….that sounds too familiar. 

“ ….Okay…” Ramona says slowly, opting for Carmine to continue. 

“ And I took that role seriously! Though…” she looks down, “ I don't think I was good at it. Or qualified too…”

‘ Yeah no kidding,’ Ramona snips in her mind, but she doesn't say it out loud. Carmine is being vulnerable here. Why with her, she has no clue, but she isn't going to disrespect it. 

“ But Kiki- Kieran. He was…” Carmine takes a deep breath, “ He was always so weak-willed. So easy to boss around. I thought that would make things easier for us, you know? If he just listens to what I say, the risk of him getting himself hurt lessens 100%,”

Ramona can’t help but frown, her eyes furrowing slightly. 

“ Carmine-”

“ I know-”

“ You have to let him live, Carmine,”

“ I know! I know I…I didn't know what else to do. And I thought it was fine until…” she sighs, dropping her hands to her sides, “ ….I’m an awful sister, huh?” 

“ Kinda yeah” 

Carmine sputters, looking at Ramona with wide eyes, “ You just- why are you so blunt?!”

“ You said it. I’m simply agreeing,” Ramona shrugs and Carmine groans. 

“ You’re unbelievable,” she ‘tchs’, crossing her arms and looking off to the side, “....You know I never admitted that out loud before. Heck, I don't think I ever admitted that to myself. I….I think I get it now.” She turns back to Ramona, her eyes determined. 

“ I have to apologize to Kieran. And just talk to him about…. everything. It's something long overdue, yeah?”

“Heh,” Ramona smirks, “ Look at you. I didn't even have to say it,” 

Carmine rolls her eyes, as she finally walks towards Ramona to sit down next to her. 

“ Ugh, yeah, because if you said it, it would have been annoying!” she huffs as she takes her seat, though her expression is much softer, “ ….thanks. For uh. Listening. And not taking any bullshit,”

“ Someone has to,” Ramona snorts, feeling herself smile a little, “ Gotta keep that ego in check, right?” 

Carmine merely tchs, and Ramona giggles. 

“ ….If you don't follow through on your word to talk to Kieran, and apologize to him, I will kick your ass,”

“ Wh- kick my ass?! What makes you think you can do that?!”

Ramona’s grin widens, cracking her knuckles. 

“ Wanna find out-”

“ Aaaaaaaaaw,” Drayton’s voice breaks between the banter. The two look to the side to see Drayton leaning on the door frame, smirking lazily at the two. 

“ Never in my life would I have thought to see you two get along! It's a beautiful sight, I tell ya!” 

Ramona looks at Carmine. Carmine looks at Ramona. They both glared daggers at Drayton. 

“ SHUT UP YOU TOOTHPASTE BOZO!”

“ GET THE FUCK OUT!”

~~~

Watching from the sidelines as Kieran be an ass is tough. Being in the same room with other people as Kieran is an ass is tough. But by far the hardest thing is being in the same elevator with Kieran. Alone. No one to share the awkwardness, no one for her to give emotional support to, nothing. Just her and Kieran. Alone. In an elevator.

…. Can't this thing go any faster???

She wonders if she should talk to him. She glances at him quickly, then back to the closed elevator door. 

….fuck it. 

“ Look,” she starts, not going to bother with any sweet talk, “ I won't sugarcoat it. You're being an asshole. Both to others and yourself. I get that you want to be strong, but you’re not only pushing others away but also pushing yourself to an unhealthy degree,”

She pauses, looking at Kieran to see any sort of reaction. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. He doesn't even look at her, simply staring at the elevator door. It's…. honestly scary. How blank his expression is. Ramona feels herself frown more. 

“ Whatever narrative that you think is being placed, it doesn't have to be that way. We’re all worried for you. You can talk to us. Luca-”

“ I don't need to hear unwanted advice from someone weak,”

Ramona's eyes widen just as the elevator door rings, opening to the terrarium. Kieran walks out, not even giving Ramona another glance, and she just glares into his back. 

This. Fucking. Kid. 

“ Luca will beat you,” she says without thinking, voice dripped with venom. That causes Kieran to stop. Flinch even. Good. 

“ He’ll beat you to the ground,” she grits out. Kieran turns around as the elevator door closes. The last thing Ramona sees is Kieran's yellow eye glaring back at her. 

The elevator closes, and she's by her lonesome. The anger is gone as quickly as it rises, and Ramona couldn't help but grimace at the interaction she just had. 

“ Shit…. shouldn't have said that,” she sighs, rubbing her temples, “ I probably made the situation worse now….fuck. Luca doesn't need that,”. 

She presses a button to go back up to the top floor. She was supposed to meet Luca at the terrarium, but she's not gonna risk running into Kieran again. Not after that. 

… She also might need some time to calm down a bit more. That too. 

She sends Luca a quick text, saying she'll be late. Yet another sign escaped her lips. Why is school so dramatic? Jeez. 

~~~

Watching Luca and Kieran hug after yet another shit show in Area Zero was nice. Very nice, actually, Ramona is glad that their weird drama is over now. She smiles as they run up to her and Carmine, the two smiling widely. Kieran catches her eye, and he bashfully smiles at her. Ramona smirks. They can talk later. But first-

“ Alright, let's hurry up and get inside. I need a fucking nap,” 

“ Ugh, tell me about it,” Carmine groans in agreement. 

“ I dunno, I feel kinda energized now…” Luca mumbles and Ramona stares into his soul. 

“ Luca.”

Luca raises his arms up, snickering. 

“ Kidding! I’m kidding,” he quickly rebuttals, and Kieran giggles a bit at their antics. 

“ Hmph,” she huffs, rolling her eyes. But a small smile reaches her face. 

Things worked out for the better. It was long and convoluted, but whatever. That's just life for ya. It's just a matter of popping that bubble. 

[aftaylorglow]

stay where you are

i feel like i'm pretty late to the closer hype, but here i am anyway.

when indigo came out and everyone was talking about how much they loved closer, i was just "eh." i thought it was a good song, but it wasn't my favorite from the get go. i love the sound of mono so naturally, i gravitated toward the slower songs on indigo.

but as i was listening to one of my playlists earlier tonight, closer came up on shuffle so i paused and just took it all in.

my god, what a song.

i'm sorry for being late namjoon! but this is truly an excellent song.

I get a feelin’ sometimes That I can’t get close enough to you I feel it most in the nighttime Even though that’s when I’m closest to you If I could be under your skin Closer than we’ve ever been We’d be closer than we’ve ever been

i think the universal interpretation for this song is that of intense yearning. how else would you describe wanting to be so close to another person you want to be under their skin.

but i think it's especially intense and heartbreaking because the lyrics point to the kind of yearning that's not reciprocated.

first, let's take the phrase "under your skin." [getting] under someone's skin is a popular idiom that means deliberately upsetting someone. this doesn't seem to be what namjoon intended for the song, especially since he's talking about being under someone's skin, not getting there.

still, it's interesting to think about the idiom because the subject of the song seems like someone who's drifting away.

I feel it most in the nighttime Me never on your timeline See you always in the limelight Keep me rollin’ in the deep Not a tease, no joke, I do mean it Don’t cease, baby don’t, why you floatin’? Wanna lock you up in my sight But you run away like fish, yeah

he is never on the subject's timeline. the subject is floating away—from him. so what does he do to get the person to look at him again? he ignites something in them. and sometimes, when people are desperate to be seen, they don't care what feelings they spark in another person. so if you think of namjoon saying he wants to get under the subject's skin, he's deliberately angering them so at least their attention turns back on him.

again, i don't think this is what he's saying in the song (it's pretty clear he meant so close he's inside someone), but i wanted to explore this tangent!

I keep you right next to me Only just in my dream I see you in red, blue, green Don’t wake me up from sleep I think I’m losin’ my grip Everything off the beam Why you showed up in my life Like this so sudden, oh god no

"i keep you right next to me, only just in my dream" evokes an especially acute kind of ache. in dreams, anything can happen—if he's not with this person anymore in real life, he could still be with them in dreams.

dreaming is doubly enticing to him because he sees the person in "red, blue, green." RGB is the color model primarily used to display pictures on screen. his dreams are vivid, realistic.

but the thing about dreams is that they're just that: dreams. they are fleeting, they are going to end. when you wake up from them, your reality doesn't change.

for dreams to be his last resort to keep this person beside him...my heart clenches painfully thinking about it.

Promised myself never again But you got me doing the same thing all over again

i love paul blanco's verse because it's a perfect complement to joon's verses and mahalia's chorus.

the singer wants to stop hurting. he's starting to learn his lesson. but one word from the subject and he comes running back. his pride is shot because he's at their beck and call. even after he's told himself never to put himself through the cycle of being used again, he's weak against them.

If love ain’t for us 이걸로 만족할게 (I will be satisfied with this) I don’t need your touch 너의 사랑이면 돼 (As long as it’s your love)

Trans cr; Annie @ bts-trans

like, just look at him. he's pathetic. he's satisfied with not getting the kind of love he craves, only the pitiful, bare bones resemblance of love that the subject deigns to give him.

(added commentary after rewatching the indigo live: joon literally said this song is pathetic, as in it's about a love/person you can't catch no matter what. which aligns with my interpretation so im pleased)

If this is all we can do Yeah just lookin’ at you There’s gon’ be no take two Stay where you are

let me just talk about how much i love the transition between paul's and joon's line. the gradual increase in the music's volume and joon coming in with "if this is all we can do" is so pleasing to my ears. a+ production from honne.

and i think it's how the music in this part sounds that makes the lyrics feel a hundred percent more impactful. it sounds as desperate as namjoon is, pleading for this person to stay where they are.

it's interesting to see this part as him begging in his dreams. in his earlier verse, he wants to keep the subject next to him through his vivid dreams. and in the outro, he keeps repeating "stay where you are" like he knows the person can't. because he's gonna wake up eventually and he will have to face the reality that this person has drifted away.

[theimpossiblescheme]

soldiers, poets, and queens - playlists for ulysses, rosaline, prufrock, and caprizant for @bombawife‘s OC week (album art by @thedragonchilde)

ulysses: 01. setting up the courtroom - joby talbot | 02. bone + tissue - gallant | 03. still - colton ryan and molly gordon | 04. god bless the child - billie holiday | 05. how i am - jason howland | 06. thunder in a blue sky - namo feat. aedan peterson | 07. the nutcracker, op. 71, act I, scene 1: no. 4, arrival of drosselmeyer - pyotr ilyich tchaikovsky | 08. paper forest (birds) - emmy the great | 09. birdhouse in your soul - they might be giants | 10. hello my old heart - the oh hellos | 11. howl - black rebel motorcycle club | 12. when your feet don’t touch the ground - ellie goulding | 13. fragile - poets of the fall | 14. reflets dans l'eau - claude debussy | 15. relay - fiona apple | 16. god only knows - clay hine, drew mcmillan, tim brooks, and tim reynolds | 17. a long way past the past - fleet foxes | 18. lean - oh land feat. vitamin string quartet | 19. any other world - mika [listen]

rosaline: 01. mother and child reunion - paul simon | 02. garden song - phoebe bridgers | 03. la niaise - leila huissoud | 04. all of the women - allison russell | 05. just my imagination - the cranberries | 06. more than close - oneke | 07. what it is - amber mark | 08. i lost something in the hills - sibylle baier | 09. joy - nataly dawn | 10. glowing - the oh hellos | 11. the healing process - koh lantana | 12. night still comes - neko case | 13. blue skies - kathryn calder | 14. flower garden - joe hisaishi | 15. back in my body - maggie rogers | 16. olalla - blanco white | 17. te regalo - carla morrison | 18. it ends with us - steve mokwebe | 19. je suis pret - brooke fraser [listen]

prufrock: 01. the croquet match - joby talbot | 02. learning to fly - the weepies | 03. in my city - ellie goulding | 04. grace kelly - mika | 05. good old-fashioned lover boy - queen | 06. the 59th street bridge song (feelin' groovy) - simon and garfunkel | 07. song of the baron - yuji nomi | 08. on the street where you live - bill shirley | 09. romeo - donna summer | 10. everybody talks - postmodern jukebox | 11. king of the world - young rising sons | 12. shining star - earth, wind, and fire | 13. un sospiro - franz liszt | 14. into a fantasy - alexander rybak | 15. heavy balloon - fiona apple | 16. ain't no mountain high enough - diana ross | 17. feel it still - portugal. the man | 18. rounds - the oh hellos | 19. if the world turned upside down - goo goo dolls [listen]

caprizant: 01. six weeks - of monsters and men | 02. patience worth - faith and the muse | 03. hurricane - ms mr | 04. ivory tower - nova twins | 05. flowers - in love with a ghost feat. nori | 06. i know the end - phoebe bridgers | 07. so afraid - janelle monáe | 08. where did i leave that fire - neko case | 09. the girl i mean to be - daisy eagan | 10. supergirl - krystal harris | 11. cuando seas grande - miguel mateos | 12. hey you - pink floyd | 13. mood indigo - duke ellington | 14. pepper'n'sand - ingrid and the ministers | 15. s.p.c.l.g. (society for the prevention of cruelty to little girls) - the society girls | 16. bad trash - switchblade symphony | 17. four pink walls - alessia cara | 18. my friends - oh wonder | 19. ready now - dodie [listen]

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[liveorganism]

for the pride music recs, can i get one of each?

sure!!!

red:

orange:

two cause im feelin silly <3

yellow:

TO SILENCE THE LET DOWN TO SILENCE THE LET DOWN-

green:

idk since you already know boygenius and i spent too much time looking for recent songs lmao. for funsies here's the oldest:

blue:

the line "always alright" seems fine then you look at the title. feels like disassociation and good for crying at 3am

indigo:

more a bit unsettling than terrifying but it works. quite the album closer at least

violet:

was just randomly shuffling through spotify and this came on and yeah twas pretty good! (also for a second i though i tricked myself into thinking this was a queer song when it wasnt then i remembered that yeah she is queer

[mymagicisland]

Closer (with Paul Blanco, Mahalia) | RM

Spotify | Lyric Video

Album: Indigo (2022)

Lyrics:

[Chorus: Mahalia]

I get a feelin' sometimes

That I can't get close enough to you

I feel it most in the nighttime

Even though that's when I'm closest to you

If I could be under your skin,

Closer than we've ever been

We'd be closer than we've ever been, oh

[Verse 1: RM]

Mm, I feel it most in the nighttime, yeah

Me never on your timeline, yeah

See you always in the limelight

Keep me rollin' in the deep, yeah

Not a tease, no joke, I do mean it

Don't cease, baby don't, why you floatin'?

Wanna lock you up in my sight

But you run away like fish, yeah

[Pre-Chorus: RM]

I keep you right next to me (To me)

Only just in my dream (My dream)

I see you in red, blue, green

Don't wake me up from sleep

I think I'm losin' my grip (My grip)

Everything off the beam

Why you showed up in my life

Like this so sudden, oh god no

[Chorus: Mahalia, Paul Blanco]

I get a feelin' sometimes

That I can't get close enough to you

I feel it most in the nighttime

Even though that's when I'm closest to you

If I could be under your skin

Closer than we've ever been (Uh-huh)

We'd be closer than we've ever been (Uh-huh, oh, ooh-ooh)

[Verse 2: Paul Blanco]

Come holla at a Yungin from the block baby, uh

Say the time don't wait for nobody

Oh, I bet you thought, baby (Oh, I bet you thought baby, oh)

But the time gon' stop

When you and I make our lips lock baby (Oh-oh-oh, trust me)

And once again, you made me

Misplace my pride, baby (Oh-oh-oh, so trust me, oh-oh)

Promised myself never again

But you got me doing, oh-oh-oh

The same thing all over again, oh-oh-oh

And I make her body

Di-di-diddy-diddy-bop

Di-di-diddy-diddy-bop (Di-di-diddy-diddy, di-di-diddy-diddy)

I wanna show you how I gets down

Baby, girl, come on (Come on and oh-oh-oh-oh)

[Interlude]

Please leave your message after the beep

[Bridge: Paul Blanco]

If love ain't for us (If love ain't for us)

이걸로 만족할게 (이걸로 만족할게) I’ll be satisfied with this (I’ll be satisfied with this)

I don't need your touch (I don't need your touch)

너의 사랑이면 돼 (너의 사랑이면 돼) It’s alright as long as it’s your love (As long as it’s your love)

Come closer, come closer, yeah-yeah, yeah)

[Refrain: RM]

Yeah

If this is all we can do (Can do)

Yeah, just lookin' at you (At you)

There's gon' be no take two

Stay where you are

If this is all we can do (Can do)

Yeah, just lookin' at you (At you)

There's gon' be no take two

Stay where you are

[Outro: RM]

Stay where you are

Just stay where you are

Stay where you are (Stay where you are)

Stay where you are

Stay where you are

Just stay where you are, oh

This is usually where I'd remind you to please refrain from using my translations without credit, but you can use this ONE line translation all you want lmao <3

[memedelia]

Why my lashes always wonky 🤷🏻‍♀️

[splashofbi]

rose petals: what is your favourite thing to do with your partner?

Idk I haven’t had that many partners, but I think the best is when you can just lay together and talk about nothing and everything. Physical and emotional intimacy yo

[livin-out-loud]

Standing here in the eye of the storm

Staring at this wide open door

Knowing that I can just step through

Because there’s nothing else I can do

Resisting the change will cause me pain

And I do not want to stay the same

I take one step and then another

I’m learning to love myself this summer

[overangeled]

"Ooo.. feelin' dark n' myste'ious huh? Pff.. well okay then th' Dark Indigo it is then." He said popping the color's cap and reaching out with one hand while another started to paint her nails, smiling.

"I'd go wit' th' Maroon since it goes wit' yer palette but... eh."

*Angel and Mayleene has their sleepovers from time to time as something to need or to just catch up. And this is exactly what they are doing since Mayleene is in Angel's room. She watched him shake up the bottles and she shrugged with a smile holding her hand out* "I'm much more of a risk taker like the Dark Indigo." *And that was what color she wanted.*

[meistoshia]

[trainer-blue]

icb i love indigo w my whole heart,,

[mymagicisland]

All Day (with Tablo) | RM

Spotify | Lyric Videos

Album: Indigo (2022)

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]

Okay

요즘 광고는 똑같애

These days, commercials are all the same

일단은 즐겨라 내 맘대로 For now, enjoy as much as I want

멋진 옷을 입은 멋진 춤 추는 이들 Cool dancers in cool clothes

밖은 몸치가 더 많네 (But) there are a lot more bad dancers outside

그저 습관이 된 I don't care It’s just become a habit, that ‘I don’t care’

알지 그런 놈들이 더 do care I know those guys more (than others) do care

사실 몸은 아무것도 아냐 마음이 더 문제 Honestly, the body is nothing much. The mind is more of a problem

어 그래 내가 날 모르니, huh Oh, really? I don’t know myself, huh

꺼져 인공지능 fuck the algorithm Get lost AI, fuck the algorithm

사색이 필요해 fuck all the rhythm I need to contemplate, fuck all the rhythm

사유할 틈을 안 주는 내 바이오리듬 Gives me no time to think, my biorhythm

언제쯤 써보게 될까 나만의 시는 About what time will I come to write my own poem

살아남느라 잊혀진 dreamin' In order to survive, the forgotten dreamin'

너도 하나쯤 별이 돼버린 묻혀진 뭔가를 찾고 있다면 If you, too, are looking for something buried that’s become a star,

Honey, you taste it like me

[Chorus]

Okay, okay

I'm diggin' all-day

Okay, okay

I'm findin' real me

Okay, okay

I'm singin' all-day

Okay, okay (let's go)

All day

All day

All day

All day

[Verse 2]

이게 무슨 분위기야 What kinda atmosphere is this

What we doin' here?

전부 제자리일 수밖에 Everything can’t help but be in its place

죄다 중립 기어 All in neutral gears

They want you in fear

어디서 감히 생각을 말해? How dare you say what you think?

어서 접어, origami Quickly fold it, Origami

They got you by your balls & your socioeconomics

That's big facts

특색을 밟아버린 think tanks Stepping on individuality, those think tanks

식어 식어버린 개인의 임팩트 Gone fully cold is the individual’s impact

더 큰불을 지펴, 네 인생은 빅매치 Light a bigger fire, your life is a big match

Burn it up 뭘 겁이 나 Burn it up, what are you afraid of?

Get yo ass off the bench, start warmin' up

We gotta fight when they say, “Behave!”

We got Dynamite in our DNA

Imma be okay, Imma be that way

눈 부릅뜨고 알아서 잘 지낼게 With my eyes wide open, I'll take care of myself

Haters 어서 눈 감아 Haters quickly close your eyes,

내 인생 꼴 보기 싫으면 If you don't want to see my life that bad

원래 꿈 같은 일은 눈뜨고 보기 힘들어 By nature, it’s hard to see a dream with your eyes open

Ya feel me?

[Chorus]

Okay, okay

I'm fightin' all-day

Okay, okay

Get outta my way

Okay, okay

I'm living my way

Okay, okay (let's go)

All day

All day

All day

All day

Live your life

[Outro]

잔인한 세상이 오 너를 비웃는 것 같을 때 When the cruel world seems to be laughing at you,

세상이 뭐라고 말해도 우린 날아오르네 No matter what the world says, we fly

You gotta believe it

You gotta be livin'

You gotta believe it

You gotta be dreamin'

You gotta believe it

You gotta be feelin'

We know we fly all day

This is a reminder to please refrain from using my translations without credit & to keep in mind that i sometimes edit them so it's better to refer to my blog posts anyways <3