#feel like I'm yelling into the void with this one

[sachart]

Prisoner number 97P904, Ryan O'Reily

[dustykneed]

Hello! Random whipper snipper! Share a WIP of your work!

ooh, with pleasure. six the musical araleyn fanart? in the year 2k24? more likely than you think xDD

i realize this looks finished, but technically i'm still deciding whether to add a background or not lol. still, for the sake of sharing a proper WIP, here's a line or two from an araleyn brainworm WIP that i started reworking yesterday (mild tw for religious guilt and period-typical internalized homophobia from aragon's pov):

She remembers sharing her bed with Anne at Henry's behest, remembers the nights of tossing and turning and trying not to think about Anne asleep next to her-- remembers waking up to dark hair spilling across her pillow and the press of blood-warm bosoms against her own, softer than sin, as hot as the Devil, remembers lying still as death, mouthing prayers into the heat of Anne's neck like an act of penance.

[kindlythevoid]

Help Wanted:

Lost a fic!! It was a Supernatural crossover (I can't remember with what, just that it was one fandom and not multiple), minimalist, under 10.000 words (most likely less than 5.000). Name was a Lord Huron quote, I did comment on the fic but I cannot find it. Probably Gen or T, maybe Not Rated.

Plot: (SPOILERS) Dean and 1?? (other fandom character) are fishing peacefully (I think, at least they're by a river) waiting for Sam and 2?? (other fandom character's respective sibling equivalent) to show up. The two bond. Story pans out and Sam and 2?? are on the other side of the river. Dean and 1?? are dead, and Sam and 2?? talk about how they'll get along. (Something to that effect.)

Was sad. Was good. I cannot find it. It has been stuck in my head for the last few hours, even though I haven't read it in months. If you find any fic with SPN and one other fandom where I am FULL CAPS SCREAMING LORD HURON LYRICS than that is probably the fic. I have been searching for at least an hour. I don't know if it was taken off the site (Ao3). (I would be sad if this were the case, but I would appreciate at least knowing)

[anachronistic-falsehood]

snow storming outside im in my parents house im sitting in my mom's rokcing chair on my laptop suddenly it's march 2022 again and i'm home from college because i got in a car accident and my crippling anxiety worsened and i felt like throwing up if i was two hours away in my college dorm and had no one to rely on and was convinced i would die if i wasn't being supervised at all times of the day. so how are you guys doing

[musical-chick-13]

It's also just so incredibly frustrating because people will take any example of a (usually male) character being horrible as some sort of "proof" that they're mentally ill (which, hmm, interesting that your automatic explanation for "why do they choose to treat other people horribly" is "they have a mental illness that just Makes Them Act Like That"), but there is no kind of nuanced or critical discussion of media that ACTUALLY (for ill or for good) tries to depict mental illness, and you try to recommend media that handles it well (that might even be good for other, completely unrelated reasons!!) and people just ignore you.

[ridiculously-over-obsessed]

You know this time next year, when I haven't spoken to mum in months and I'm not coming home for xmas, I hope she thinks back on days like today and is like "yeah that's probably the reason he went no contact"

[eyrieofsynapses]

*pulls pillow off my head* ok done screaming. so how about that Zeb cameo in The Mandalorian today, folks? anyone else hold their breath for a second thinking "no, it's just a Lasat, there's no way--" before hearing Steve Blum's voice and going "OH SHIT OH SHIT IT'S HIM" and stopping the episode for a solid minute or two to deal with the overwhelming excitement and message their friend in all caps? or is that just me?

[quierd-kitten]

Sometimes I love being arospec and sometimes it's so irritating. Do I have a crush on this person or is it another intense squish???? I wanted to draw 20 pictures of how she looked painting her lips, but would I want to actually kiss her??? I liked sitting close to him because he makes me feel really safe, but so do my other friends but not as intensely??? They said they loved a goofy photo of me and now I'm smiley but also kind of nauseous.

[heartxdecay]

WHY do bad things always have to happen to me so close together like I did not NEED the combo of an acquaintance I was attempting to befriend blowing up at me and threatening to kill themselves over them deciding I said something I didn't (fuck being autistic why does everyone assume I'm inferring things when I'm actually NOT) and then my stalker who I haven't seen in about a year suddenly decides to show up at my place of work and ask MY BOYFRIEND if I was there (he lied and said I wasn't but I still caught a glimpse of him so he might have seen me) which lead to me finding out he never actually moved like he said he was going to which means realistically he could go right back to stalking and harassing me any time he wants. In the span of like 3 days. And of course right now we're like 3 weeks away from the big traumaversary time from when I left the cult + this is the midst of when I was reporting aforementioned stalker last year so I'm already constantly on high alert anyway. So now I'm constantly struggling just to stay awake let alone work and I already had to drop out of school and lie to my parents about it because the condition of me living here is remaining in school which means since I'm not they're going to kick me out if they know. So I can't NOT go to school AND not work especially because I'm trying to save as much money as possible in order to move out of this stupid hellhole of a "family" home where I'm constantly used as a third parent for my younger siblings. But I'm so tired all the time from stress keeping me awake at all hours and being completely unable to leave fight or flight mode when awake that I can barely find the energy to move, and my work is extremely tiring. I work retail as a supervisor and I have to deal with my coworkers not doing as much of the workload despite all being full time while I'm part time, none of the people I'm in charge of taking me seriously because I'm either younger than them or the same age as them, regular stress that comes with working retail and dealing with customers, and a management change that is leading to us getting a notoriously rude + perfectionist manager who I have personally seen throw an actual tantrum over having to do his JOB. Which means I can't afford to be tired and grumpy because I have to remain professional and productive. But every time something slightly off happens I want to burst into tears. Nobody there respects me and it's hard enough to handle when I'm NOT dealing with all of this. And of course because God hates me all of this happened when I decided to try to cut back on constantly vaping so after incident #2 I immediately gave up on that and I honestly think I've been going through cartridges FASTER. It's genuinely such a struggle every day to not relapse on self harm or turn to alcoholism and I'm not sure how much longer I can last. Especially because my literal only IRL support system is my boyfriend, because my parents are worth jack shit, my siblings are children, and my only "friend" in person is an objectively terrible human that I only still have around because they were my FP for a really long time and I have a hard time letting go of that relationship (every time I try I end up running back) and I just KNOW that if I even TRY to breach any of this with them they're either going to hit me with an "oof/yikes" and nothing else or spread my PERSONAL shit to everyone they know INCLUDING my extremely abusive ex that they refuse to totally cut contact with because it's "mean". which means I actually have nobody to turn to except the internet friends in my phone who for one aren't online all the time and have lives but two since they're my ONLY SUPPORT SYSTEM I cannot keep dumping everything on them constantly or I'll overwhelm them. Not to mention they have also had to deal with the acquaintance I mentioned at the start because they're actually THEIR friend, not mine, so if anything it's an even bigger deal to them. This leaves me with only my boyfriend who I already feel shitty enough about given the raging BPD.

[aflockofravens]

Hi yes please interact with me if you want to. Send an ask, send a DM, comment on my posts, flail in the tags with me, feel free to interact with me in anyway you want to, I would love to be friends.

[floweryfandomnerd]

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[kindlythevoid]

Y'all help I'm trying to find this tumblr post about lady jessica's characterization and her relationship with paul. It was in paragraph format and the first sentence is the typical tumblr picture-being-in-x's-shoes while the rest of it is in the second person. It talks about how/why she pushed paul into the prophecy (something about it ending up with him killing a ton of ppl while she did it so that he would stay alive but it really messed him up, etc., etc.) and idk if it's book accurate (haven't read them yet, on the tbr) but it popped up on my Pinterest feed a few days back and I didn't save it but I just rewatched the first dune to prep for watching the second later this week and the post popped into my head (I really liked the wording) and I went to show it to someone (it was supporting a thematic point I wanted to make I think I can't know for sure) and I've been looking for like an hour now pls help.

[anachronistic-falsehood]

i hope that when they design tristamp midvalley they go all out with him. there are two different versions of potential tristamp midvalley in my head and idk which i would want more. option 1: make him the sleaziest looking motherfucker on no man's land. give him a pink suit. black shirt unbuttoned halfway down his chest. gold chains and big rings. 98's slicked back hair. gold tooth too. fuck it!!!! make him look like someone who would flirt with you at a bar by saying you have a fat ass and then offer to buy you a drink!!! option number 2 is give him his white suit from trimax with the pink shirt from 98 and make him look like the fanciest bitch ever. like someone who would complain if he got the tiniest water stain on his shirt. he and elendira could bond over fashion. he looks perfect no matter what. he gets a manicure like every two weeks. i want him to have the same personality either way like i'm talking purely about the LOOKS here people THE CHARACTER DESIGN. OKAY. he can be equally as cringefail no matter what he looks like i just want him to look COOL

[syrinq]

if the ''magical cure-all'' for mental health shit like therapy and anti-kys meds and sniffing flowers and whatever else could 1) be more available to the public besides shittily-run healthcare or bullshit expensive private fees & 2) work wonders for me like it does for 99% of people. then that would be fucking awesome

[ratspider]

loooove that the moment i try to reconnect with a friend i thought i'd lost i discover i really *had* lost them and in fact they hate me now because of something i didn't even fucking do

[rawesomesauce]

that's clickbait, that's engagement bait, that's an ad, that's a blatant lie, that's not at all what they meant, that's an opinion (and a really fucked up one)

I'm tired of interacting with social media, nothing is organic, nothing is true, and i'm tired of my participation being a commodity