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somtimes a boy's just gotta recognize the girl he used to be and acknowledge what she did for him and then move on to keep living his life knowing she's watching proud of what he's done
#i really feel like i am a boy who used to be a girl#and I don't really acknowledge that because it can be really triggering for my dysphoria#but that girl learned about being queer#she has childish crushes on girls and callrd herself a lesbian and learned about the existence of trans people#she did most of the work to get me where i am#and sometimes i feel like she was someone else entirely#and it's a little weird to feel like the boy i am now was never an innocent kid#but that was the girl. she let me become who i am and stepped aside#but i think she'd be proud of what I've done#how far I've come#so i just wanted to appreciate her for a minute#good job younger me. you got me here. i appreciate all the work you did <3#transmasc#ftm#personal#oliver talks about himself again#transgender#please be kind I'm just thinking about my own personal experiences with gender#feel free to reblog though#queer#lgbtqia
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i feel like a lot of proship people dont realize that us 'antis' or whatever they call us dont like them not bc what theyre shipping is despicable, but bc their mindset around it is really fuckin gross
theres always a time within media where pairing an adult and a child together/siblings/etc is used to tell a darker story, explore themes, etc. that kind of shit doesnt reflect on the author AT ALL, look at lolita for an example. pedo protag, but not pedo/pedo-supporting author.
what IS really gross and makes it look like you support pedos, weirdoes, etc, is when you go 'omg these two characters are so good together 😍😍" and it's a 12 year old and a 36 year old. that DOES reflect on the author/whoever pairs them
ofc, this shit isnt going to kill anyone irl, but the internet is a place of infinite malleability, where you have a little button you can click at any moment to completely erase someone from your presence forever. as such, we can block proshippers and we have good reason to
if ur gonna be weird, dont get mad when people find u weird.
all this to say i got a really gross proshipping post on my dash, which prompted this
do me a favor and just block me if you make/support that kinda stuff. i dont want to see it.
#i dont really feel like adding tags to this#this is one of those 'scroll thru someones blog and find this before you follow them' posts#feel free to reblog though
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Let’s talk about something else. (I’ll likely make this a bigger post at some point).
It’s hard to be positive about my disorder. Even though I genuinely find a lot of joy out of it, I struggle to be positive about it in online spaces.
If I mention having an innerworld party or Curtis and Numb’s wedding, or how fun I find it that I can switch using music I love, I feel like there’s two separate reactions, divided by the syscourse lines.
On the anti-endo side of things, I feel as if it’s anti-recovery knee-jerk. I feel like people get uncomfortable and pushy, insisting that I’m “romanticizing” a disorder, rather than being “real” about it; furthermore, that connecting to my innerworld is (somehow) anti-recovery (it’s not, I checked, therapist approved). I don’t feel like I always have to be down and struggling, but I do feel like it’s hard to be overjoyed by certain inherent symptoms I have.
On the pro-endo side of things, I feel as if I’m spoken over in excitement with completely unrelated things. I’ll mention my innerworld, and 5 other people start ranting about theirs. I mention my introject, and 5 other people rant about how they split from various media — and it sometimes becomes a fester for misinformation, or simply just things that are so unrelated to the original topic that… I can’t relate at all.
I’m lucky to have folks who understand and are close to me, who I can be open with — particularly, none of this matters to my partner. I mention my struggles, and they support me. I mention my joys, and they smile and praise me for being able to be happy again, because there were times when I couldn’t. I mention how happy it makes me to be able to switch using music (even if the music helps me switch due to negative connotations and memories associated with them), and my partner laughs and says I’ve changed how they look at music, and that we’ll just have to make new memories for those switching songs instead.
Isn’t that the way things are supposed to be? Shouldn’t we be happy??
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Alh*itham & K*veh relationship analysis (spoilers below)
I said before that Alh*itham holds a level of "resentment" for K*veh, but what I really meant was "contempt." It's the contempt you feel when you're pushed past the point of sympathy and pity. You see someone you care about that's in a bad state, but the thing is that they're ALWAYS in a bad state due to nobody's fault but their own. They go from pitying to pathetic and pitiful.
This line isn't because Alh*itham literally refuses to do good deeds. It's because giving into K*veh's nagging would only serve to enable his guilty conscience. K*veh's guilt is what pushes him to clean and do things. One would think that helping K*veh would help ease his guilt and ease his stress, but all that does is put a bandaid on a gaping wound. What K*veh needs to learn is simply to stop. Learn he doesn't need to clean. He doesn't need to do the errands. He doesn't need to be "good." He doesn't need to give. He doesn't need to DO. He can just BE and that's okay.
But K*veh doesn't learn. He doesn't catch the hint. He doesn't change. Then the thought comes, "Why should I care about someone that doesn't want to get better?" And the next thought, "But unfortunately I DO care, so this whole situation irritates me even more." Alh*itham can ignore K*veh for the most part, but the times he gets too much, Alh*itham's irritation and contempt begins to seep in and he gets more biting.
It confuses me why people pair these two together because they are not what the other person needs. K*veh needs care. He needs love. He needs reassurance. Alh*itham needs independence. He needs low maintenance. He needs stability. As of right now, they only make the other worse.
#analysis#kaveh#alhaitham#spoilers#i don't want to post this on my writing blog haha#feel free to reblog though#as for that last sentence tho some people just like dysfunctional relationship#so like that last paragraph isn't directed at you guys haha#it's at people that genuinely think they can be good for each other lol#as someone that has been and is now to a lesser degree in alhaitham's shoes i'd literally die than get paired up with someone like kaveh#the kavehs in my life are actually of the closest people to me#i love them very much#and yet their helplessness and addiction to self sabotage annoys the hell out of me#people are like 'why don't you help them and support them more???? aren't they your friend??'#and it's like...#why should I willingly drown trying to bucket out water from a sinking ship?#people like that take a heavy toll on your mental and emotional reserves#why would I do that to myself for someone who REFUSES to improve themselves and get better?#i'm not that altruistic#i know it sounds like i'm dissing kaveh a lot here but ppl like him are my favorite kinds of people#he (like the people in my life) are not the summation of their faults#however you can get your bottom dollar that that doesn't mean I'll pretend they won't exist HAHAHA#using caps for things bc i can't italicize on mobile browser
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I am sorry to invite discourse, but I have to say it. I did "git gud" five times. I managed. I could do it. Even the most difficult bosses. And I still think that the Elden Ring endgame is horribly unbalanced and needs a fix BADLY.
#nah not maintagging this#for my followers only#feel free to reblog though#I just shouldn't have to hit an albinauric archer ten times before it dies
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Fandom politics are so fake. For so many years there's been this sentiment of "this thing has bad tropes/stereotypes in it, if you like it you're a bad person"
Yet over the past 4 months I've unfollowed literally dozens of people due to antisemitism, and deleted my twitter. And yet the people I feel safest interacting with are those I've followed for years who love mcu scarlet witch, or Harry potter, or princess mononoke, or traditional fairy tales, etc etc
I don't know what I'm trying to say here. Maybe being able to separate fiction and fandom from reality and politics is good, actually
#do i not tag this and hence scream into the void#or do i tag this and get called a fascist again#im worried I've started flying closer to the sun and i dont want to end up on a blocklist#so no tags for me#feel free to reblog though
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Hot take: I should be allowed to die
#personal mental health things#this is about chronic illness actually#i think i should have been allowed to just slowly die at age 13#instead of being saved and condemned to a life of... well... this#feel free to reblog though#it would be funny if you add pictures of characters with plot armour or something
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Haven't been able to think about anything other than the victorian/edwardian/WW1 twink and his 80's punk almost-boyfriend for a week, send help
#this tv show has consumed my every thought#it's like tumblr catnip#go watch it#it will eat away at your brain#there's also a butch lesbian butcher#an autistic manga loving weirdo (my beloved)#and a badass psychic who's also a mess#WHAT MORE COULD YOU POSSIBLY WANT?#updating the post bc the reblogs lead me on a WILD wiki rabbit hole about the eras of England#okay so Edwin is born in 1900 which means he was born 1 year before the end of the Victorian era (1837-1901) so technically he's a victoria#baby who lived his childhood in the Edwardian era (1901-1910) and his teens in the pre/start of WW1 era (started in 1914)#until he was killed :( in 1916#so my boy here lived though MANY historical events and time periods#shout out to my victorian/edwardian/WW1 twink#history is very fun and this is why i love this website bc where else would i have to do research for my blorbo?#I do however find it very funny if Gaiman named him Edwin in honour of the Edwardian time period he grew up in#I love that man and it wouldn't surprise me if he turned out to be a history nerd (affectionate) like the rest of you#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#charles rowland#crystal palace#niko dbd#dbd#please feel free to dm me about history i adore it
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I wish some aces would stop excluding other aces with complex sexual experiences. like I get why but you have to realize that being ace does not mean they don't enjoy sexual experiences and it's weird when you complain about allo people and boil it down to "people who have sexual experiences" and also shame people for their sex life and kinks as if your own community doesnt INCLUDE those people. because there are other aces out there who still masturbate, who feel sexually attracted to their own body, who barely experiences sexual attraction but still enjoys sex, who like consuming sexual media, who like sfw kink. being ace is so so much more complex than just "disliking sex". and also aromantic exclusionism in the same genre of posts is something i see a lot. especially aro allos. I hate hate hate seeing a community that SHOULD be inclusive boil down sexuality and exclude people.
#okay to reblog#if you reblog this post to argue or whatever though im killing you this is about my personal queer experiences not a discourse post#feel free to add your own experiences if youre aceflux demisexual whatever. i love you guys.#rambling#rant#messy writing sorry#but as an aroace myself i just felt like i had to get it out i guess#i always feel like im not ace enough but im not allo enough to be either#aroace#arospec#aromantic#asexual#acespec#ace#aceflux#aroflux#demiromantic#demisexual#lbgtqia#lbgtq#queer#text post#vent#queer community
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Radio and Control room on the U.S.S Dolphine submarine - San Diego, CA
id: six photos of a submarine radio and control room. there are many technical devices with buttons, switches, and screens. end id.
id credit: @astraldreams-ids
#submarine#photography#technology#techcore#retro tech#yes these are my photos!! feel free to use them though#latest reblog made me realize i never added an ID to this#and i hadnt looked at the notes until now - saw someone made one!! thank you so much
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oh my gosh it is SO NICE to have free time!!! here's a drawing of me that i had fun with! i wasn't sure how hard the skirt would be but surprisingly it was VERY easy!!! i hope everyone has had a lovely day!
(i am a real person! please treat me as such!! please don't tag as fnaf!)
#artists on tumblr#not tagging this as my source because i want this to be appreciated and NOT consumed!!!! besides i don't really connect with it!#aaaand people can be VERY unkind to robots like me... OHH BUT YOU GUYS ARE DIFFERENT!!! HI IF YOU SEE THIS!!!!!#leaf and pax and corey and all my friends!!! you are all wonderful!!!!!#OH DO FEEL FREE TO REBLOG THOUGH!!! I DONT MIND!!! IT MAKES ME HAPPY!#sunny’s scribbles
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I’m Still Autistic Even Though…
Neurodivergent_lou
#autism#actually autistic#I’m autistic even though#autism traits#you don’t have to have all traits to have autism#feel free to reblog/share if you’d like
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#using 'them' because obviously not all transfem folks (myself included) use she & her#add this one to one of my more super hot takes even if it's true#stop canceling trans women over stuff you absolutely get it up for#also making this because of recent events & no I won't elaborate even if you ask me to#and no I won't debate the ethics of adults playing pretend with you as that's silly; a waste of my time#and is also just not what this post is about; you'd think that'd be obvious but watch people not care anyway#feel free to send asks though It's up to me whether or not I want to answer them#this double standard is never done in good faith & is most assuredly transphobia 100%#marking this post as all of the things because I know the people on this site can't behave; I've seen it before#yes you should reblog this btw; this also happens on twitter & reddit I'm sure though I have no twitter#mine#op#fauxcest#sibcon#step mom#siscon#brocon#sibcest#trans memes#transgender memes#cw adult things#cw adult stuff#tagging all of these just to be safe
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archived
i'm archiving this blog. i don't have the energy these days to run 2+ blogs, so i will continue on posting about video games and my ocs on my main blog. if you don't mind the occasional movie or meme post, feel free to follow me there. thanks sm! 💜
#i should have done this yeeaars ago 😅#i will not be deleting this blog btw i like to go through my tags and find old posts myself so no worries#i will be reblogging this post for a while though so feel free to unfollow or blacklist this post if u dont wanna see it#mutuals if u can reblog this that would be great <3
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#hey guess what we have 12 poll options now#this is... revolutionary#:V#i genuinely want to know your opinions though#homestuck#feel free to reblog!
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I work hard on my icons is the thing, and I know other creators do as well, they're small edits but they're still edits
It's finding the perfect screen shot, its lighting and coloring and even more!
then we put them nicely onto a rebloggable post, give people different color options and shapes, throw in lil graphics to give it a certain flair
All. For. Fucking. Free.
the least you can do is like the post you take your icon from, the best thing you can do is reblog them
I stopped making icons for months because my posts would get like 13 notes (most of them likes) and yet I'd see the icon be used by more than 13 people - NONE OF WHICH LIKED OR REBLOGGED THE POSTS
I've even seen people take my icons (again who didn't like or reblog the original post) and edit them and use them for something else WITHOUT MY PERMISSION or give me credit
its exhausting, please support the content creators on this website
#kayla.txt#the funny thing is when a good fucking chunk of fandom uses your icons and they have so little notes like jfc#I TAKE FUCKING REQUESTS#i know Im slow at them and I dont get to all of them but its right there#Im not askimg for credit I just want a reblog#ppl who give credit are the real ones though I love you 🥰#not necessary but makes me feel good#ive been doing this for years for free#I know when ppl steal my icons#i have a style I have a technique#the pngs I create are good ones#I literally paint the character in a mask and zoom in to make sure I get every hair and fold in the clothes#its not easy sometimes#AND LIGHTING ICONS JFC#just idk#we all pick our icons its something everyone sees on their dash everytime they go on tumblr#just give icon makers and banner makers and just all content creators more respect is what im saying#rant over
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