#feel free to message me sometime

[cancersurvivinggingerjew]

Hi! You seem really cool

Hi! Thank you! I think you're pretty cool too!

[apollorobin]

happy thanktival!! :D 💙🧡 didn't expect to get this done in time but i miraculously did somehow

[poetrysmackdown]

some informal thoughts

hello! hope the holiday season has been kind to all of you. and i hope all my jewish followers had a lovely hanukkah! anyways, since i said a few months ago that i’d pick poetry smackdown back up sometime around this time of year, i thought i should make a post. the gist of it is that i’m still quite busy, i have a break that’s about three weeks shorter than I was planning on, and i don’t currently have the mental bandwidth required to read, contemplate, and sort through poem submissions in a way that does justice to them, even if i were to recruit some friends to help out. since running a tournament format requires at least five weeks of continued engagement once it’s underway, and since i’m not at capacity to offer that right now due to the change in my schedule, i’m gonna have to bow out for now. sad bc i was looking forward to it!

my hope is that i’ll have some more time over the summer to hunker down with it, in which case you’ll be hearing from me. it’ll frankly depend on the kind of job i land in for the summer, but i find that my unemployed spirit can typically keep me doing stupid shit regardless of workload...to a point. i don’t want to make any promises because i don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up just to let them down again LOL. i do admit the amount of exposure the first tournament got has made me feel like more of a perfectionist this time around, doubly because i don’t feel that i’m very suited to being a public online presence (even a relatively quite small one)—i’m bad enough at responding to emails for my own real life responsibilities, let alone tumblr asks for the silly responsibilities i invent for myself lol. that’s not to say i no longer want to do it, or i don’t enjoy it, or even that i don’t feel capable of making a really interesting bracket—just that if i am working to put something new together, and if people are taking the time to submit poems they care about, then i don’t want to half-ass it.

my second admission is something like this. I made the original bracket as a celebration of poetry and our relationships to it. yes it was silly and competitive, and the poems were very tumblr, but still, celebration was the intention—I wanted to have conversations about poetry. I stand by the bracket format as a fun and valuable way to foster conversations about poetry, but truthfully, the poems i’m wanting to have conversations about right now—the poems that we should be talking about right now—are ones that i'm not comfortable putting in a bracket. I reblogged The Baffler’s Poems from Palestine collection on here earlier, and Najwan Darwish’s “Who Remembers The Armenians?”, which I still often find repeating through my head when I'm traveling from one place to another, walking home or riding the bus. I came across this beautiful thread recently where people have been translating Dr. Refaat Alareer’s “If I Must Die” into their own languages (this just makes my translator's heart sing!!!!!!). @havingapoemwithyou has been posting some great poems from and for Palestine as well—check out their tag here.

There's always more to add, and I'll be posting more on here as I come across it, but that's what I feel anyone should be focusing on right now when it comes to poetry. i think poetry can be an escape but it should never be a distraction. does that make sense? i wouldn't be against doing a one-off poll here or there, but it feels weird to be making a tournament for poetry right now, or anytime soon. i feel like what free time i have right now is still best utilized helping my friends with organizing in the real world. and god, a bit off-topic but while I'm talking, fuck poetry foundation—I have so much respect for all the poets keeping up the boycott, because while i think it's a simple decision, it's not always an easy one (Aurielle Lucier discussed that here).

anyways, if you read all of this, thank you for your time!! I could go on and on, but really this was just meant to be a message telling y'all that there won't be another tournament for a while lol. even so i'll be trying to use this small silly platform as best i can until palestine is free because that's the absolute least i can do.

[stupidfatslut420]

Can I send unsolicited pictures on twitter ? 😳

i don't check twitter that often so keep that in mind + yes always and forever none of you ever have to ask my permission, just send it, please just send me your dick or pussy or whatever just send it

[la-galaxie-langblr]

job rant incoming

[secretlocket]

ok im SORRY im just now getting into the whole sunshine reader thing but can you tell me more about her? im sorry im new to all of this 🫣

no need to be sorry ! if you’re looking for a more aesthetically pleasing introduction to her character, check this out here.

basically sunshine!reader is you, so whenever i refer to her, just know i’m talking about you in an alternative universe/reality !! mentioned in the moodboard linked above, she lives in beverly hills, and she works as a waitress at beach bar/grill restaurant. she also babysits part time !! she’s been living in california for about three years, she started saving up during her junior year in high school because she wanted a change of scenery after she graduated — that’s always been the plan actually.

as far as her and chris, they��ve been dating for a good three months. they met at disneyland, she took the three girls she babysits there as a surprise end of the summer trip. she also has a pet puppy named pretzel that likes to terrorize him but secretly adores him a lot.

[starfilledsky2810]

damn I yap a lot

tldr; im alive, sadly im still on hiatus, other stuff is fine now I just have new [physical] problems, you'll know when I'm fully back (give it another couple months) and comfortable, I'm in a [technically well-over] 3-month long ongoing depressive episode [not tryna do trauma olympics or make anyone feel bad btw it's all chill]

so sorry if I've left you hanging [with art or smth], I'll get to it in time, I promise [I may have unwillingly forgotten, likely not but there's a chance]

Hey, I'm alive, I have been for the.. almost 6 months I've been gone. Holy shit, I didn't even realise that it's been that long. I figured I should at least say something in case anyone is worried or wondering even though everything isn't solved yet, so, here. [under the read more so it's not flooding or anything]

Also, I figure I should apologise for venting on main and just leaving it up - this is all going to stay up because I need to keep it somewhere to aid with my memory issues - but, still, must've been a little weird

Absolutely not a good time to say all this [for me bc I haven't thought this message through] but I'm kinda half-back, just on hiatus from socials due to declining physical health. Really badly declining, I need help honestly

Originally, as you know, I was gone because I had a really bad fall out with my mother, but things pertaining to that have been solved now [except me not feeling 100% safe and trusting to my mother, that will never change. She's tried hard, I just wish I could find her reliable emotionally as well]. It's just that, since then, basically, all these physical problems that I don't understand have been royally fucking me up and messing with my mental too. It's messed with everything I love. I don't know what to do anymore.

Oh wait, where I was actually going with this, so

OK nvm I forgot but you'll see me around bc I've been talking to certain people trying to pretend like nothing's happened and I've made the kinda-silly decision to not fully come off hiatus or talk to other certain people before I'm okay again.

[harmonytheme]

First off I apologize for the reblog spam. Finally had some time to clear some of my drafts.

Second, I want to thank you for taking the time to make Hayray gifs. I only started watching Hollyoaks live in May after someone (apologies, I don't know whose gif this is) posted this gif

and it showed up on my Twitter timeline. I had to know who they were, then binge watched all their scenes on Youtube. I was hooked. I try not to get deep into fandoms anymore to protect my mental health so I lurk mostly, but I will reblog and share everyone's creations as much as I can. Who knows I might open up Photoshop again and make some fanart again. Hayray has been my go-to soap opera ship since all my US soaps are boring me currently. Watched their couples era live over the summer. Now I'm strapped in to watch their second round of angst. Thank you again.

Heather

Wow, this was such a wonderful message, thank you so much.

Please don’t apologise for reblog spam :’) you made my day, honestly. I just went through and read all of your tags and it’s the best thing in the world to feel like you’ve inspired some kind of feeling with a gif or a piece of art. Thank YOU so much for sharing my gifs.

Hayray are something special. I’m the same as you. I have tried to stay out of fandom for quite a while for the same reasons as you but something about them just managed to totally enthrall me this year. It’s been really nice to dust off photoshop and google docs and make things again after taking such a big break from fandom. I’ve met some truly lovely people too and it’s been the best thing ever to be able to share my love for them (and my stress over them!!) with others.

Thanks so much again for being so lovely. I really look forward to seeing your art if you ever decide you want to create some for them. ♥️

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

was watching my mum responding to text after text getting frustrated because she wanted to make lunch but people wouldn't stop texting her

and i was like just. ignore them? just ignore the texts? i will ignore texts for hours until i feel like responding sometimes it's fine?

anyway my dad called me shallow for that one lmaoooo

[lilowoof]

ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

[billowingangel]

Welcome to my Account!

Call me Angel (ˊᵕˋ*)з or anything, I don't care what you call me. I go by she/her pronouns and I'm 20 years old

Fandoms: Harry Potter and Hetalia

I'm slowly trying to integrate into the Harry Potter fandom! I'm currently obsessing over everything Hermione Granger. I've been into hetalia since 2016 and I don't think I'll ever leave.

I'd prefer people to be 18+ when interacting since I occasionally post nsft/nsfw other than that feel free to interact, message me, tag me, interact in any and everyway possible! I'm currently spending most of my time reading fanfiction but I plan on writing more soon and being more active here.

My Other Accounts: Discord is billowingangel, AO3, FF, Side Blog

Hetalian and Bored? Click here! Canada in the gangsta au? Click here! Fake Hetalia Wiki? Click here! My Old Pinned

My Tags-

#;𖥔 me core ꒱ ꒱* ➳♡ - posts that I find extremely relatable

#ᯓ✧ Yapping Hours! 💬ˎˊ˗ - posts where I ramble a lot (usually in tags)

#positivity˚₊‧⁺˖; - positive posts

#canon tbh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ - headcanons that I believe strongly

#₊ ° ⊹ graphic design...is my passion!˖°.✧* - edits, blinkies, stuff I make digitally. If i reblog a digital edit/resource I change the my to you

#(>’o’)> ♡ y...y...yuri! ♥ - yuri teehee

#⊹˙* games!˙*✧ - ask games most usually

#˚₊·͟͟͟͟͟͟͞͞͞͞͞͞➳❥ ꒰ ✎ fanfic in progress | ⌨︎︎ - when I talk about a fanfiction I am writing

#fanfic imagine.•˖💭 - imagining a fanfiction but not writing it

#✐ fanfic recs 〰︎ - fanfiction reccomendations

#『 ➤; hetalia headcanons↶••』 - usually headcanons I like

#‧₊˚ Hetalia Reblog♡🌎 ༘⋆.˚ ⋆ - anything related to hetalia

#hetalia fanart ✨- I also include the artist's username in the tags

#art reblog ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) - reblogging art makes me ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

Will (try to) Tag - ships and content warnings (nsft, incest, blood, murder, stalking, yandere). If you have something you want me to tag please let me know! I'll do my best to!

[shippingmyworld]

Hi there! I am usually hella shy on the interwebs, but I just wanted to let you know how much I love your tigerghost fics and how they've been a great source of joy for me recently. I've re-read all 3 roughly 6 times over (it will be more) and I'm very much looking forward to your future works!

hold up, need to cry in a corner really quick cus i'm emotional and don't know how to respond to positive validation from strangers

HI THERE AND THANKS. You don't know how much it means to me whenever I hear someone say they've reread one of my fics because they LIKE them, so to hear you've reread all 3 of them 6 whole times leaves me flabbergasted. Especially since I wrote them all as a form of self-indulgence in the first place and never expected other people to actually enjoy them like I do.

I haven't had a whole lot of time to actually sit down and write anything beyond basic outlines lately, but I do have lots of other tigerghost shenanigans planned. I hope that I can post more stuff soon, because it's honestly become a comfort ship for me and I want to write more about them plus i get physically sick when i don't think about them at least once a day lol.

[bougainvilea]

GUYS i baked all afternoon!! i went to my sisters house at 5pm and got home around 11. i made a lemon slice + a choc cake. the lemon slice is for the school bake sale and the chocolate cake was for staff morning tea :) i feel so enriched i did something for my brain something for my body AND something for my hands today!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!

[u3pxx]

hey!! your art is amazing!!! i participated in your bad omens doodle exchange a few months ago, and was wondering if youd ever get back to that as i never heard back from you about the exchange! no pressure at all if things changed but i was just wondering if you were planning on going through with it?

oh of course, still on the to-do list, anon!

i was planning to post them in bulk (with all of them done) and managed to get started on a few of them but then i kind of hit an art rut two months ago and now it's finals week orz i am planning to finish them after i get all my school stuff done so never fear, very much still on that! :0]

[visceravalentines]

this is a post scribbled angrily in glitter pen in my diary pls ignore <3

[cosmic-ships]

Just vent about your problems like everyone else here.

Sorry I don't like letting everyone know my personal issues? Frankly it's nobodies business.

I mainly make those types of posts to let my friends know, while yes I'm struggling I'm not up for communicating. It would be too strenuous to let ever friend individually know privately and quite frankly I'd feel as if I was invading them with randomly just saying this shit? Hence the post. I'm not into randomly dming my negativity in someone's dms unprompted and without permission? that's not very mindful as Idk what anyone else might be going through?

I don't treat my blogs as a personal diaries for all my mental health shit. Last time I did that I had people use it against me so why would I be a dumbass and air out all my problems? I deal with my own shit, I'm not looking to be "saved" nor am I looking for attention or have people be concerned about me.

idk. Not saying that's why everyone vents, for some this is the perfect way for them to get out their thoughts and feeling that's okay but for me personally it's incredibly uncomfortable for me to do, also, really what is it going to do for me?

I do vent but I do it personally in a wordpad or doc or whatever and then delete it. It allows me to let out my frustrations and concerning behaviors without having the entire fucking internet know my issues and most importantly not have people misconceptualize what I'm saying and thinking I AM my mental illness and it's thoughts when it couldn't be farther than the truth. My illnesses are already highly stigmatized--

Sorry I sound like a royal asshole here but how I choose to do stuff is my business no one else.