#feed me more MGA

[trynadollsiesplay]

Not Rainbow high slowly working us into transitioning to their new thing with their product lines all along.

Test Subject A | Rainbow high colour and create. Wet markers, washing, things with more clean up.

Test Subject B | Pinkly's pet. Introducing pets into the average play line dolls.

Test Subject C | The Latest Rainbow High Music Video. Introduces characters to a sort of slime like magic that has possibly been hinted to the whole time. Since when students preform their focus' well, they "find their rainbow" and start to glow.

This could also connect to Violet's task to find the school crest meaning, origins, and badges. A magical hunt. It doesn't seem magical at first. But an escape room, or a quest, leading to a secret otherworldly magic, would not be surprising at this point.

[jopetkasi]

I woke up tired and decided that I will not attend the wedding of A. I mean, I am not that essential naman that people would ask for me. Besides, I already shared my part: there was the barong and paid half for the church flowers. kung hindi ba naman sya masiyahan dyan, eh ewan nalang. 

not that i am being maarte but it was gloomy that weekend and all I wanted was to sleep. but just the same, you make time for people that you love. A is family to me. his happiness is also my happiness. 

days before, viber convos centered on what to wear? the dress code was barong tagalog...the thing here is, i don’t have one. 

“Let’s not barong na, para we dont outsage the groom” said John. 

I agreed. I wore a coat, decent slacks and settled for DocMartens boots, congrats, Jopet. Titong tito kana. 

The consensus was no barong na. Until I reached the church and saw them sporting barongs. mga traidor. lol 

so I sat through the marriage rites and prayed for the couple, who showed fortitude despite the odds. this ceremony also caps more than ten years of courtship. it was a feat to be celebrated. 

After the wedding there was a kiosk outside the church serving squid balls, kikiam and quail eggs. the couple had this bright idea of pre-feeding their guests before we head off to the reception. I had two servings and wanting to go thirds, but Marlon who I carpooled with was raring to go. 

You know what’s good about intimate weddings? the crowd is small hence the vibe is more relaxed. i have been to large weddings before and I tell you, the larger the crowd the more chaotic it can be. but last night was devoid of anything annoying. matter of fact, I had a good time and saw my other siblings (John P, John E, Marlon and Ronald) and by good fortune I was introduced to this guy who not only attended my university but we had the same course and he’s cute and interesting. of course, i restrained myself from flirting and instead glanced at him from time to time. 

then came the dancing. and i was surprised to see someone. basta. long story. 

the food was great. thankfully it was a plated dinner meaning no mad dash to queue for food.  it was an eight course. i was equally busog. 

nearing 9pm i was worried since it was raining so hard. grab drivers were aloof. angkas was my last resort. good thing, Ron offered to bring me home but the guy I met had other plans...

so i assume you are single i mean the rest of your siblings are married, right?

oo single ako (kunwari hindi ako interested) 

wanna go out for drinks?

i don’t pick up guys on a wedding reception.

lol. ang funny mo. drinks lang and we will take it from there...

drinks lang ha....

[kainbubog]

DepEd Teacher I Hiring Sucks!!!

I’ve been a licensed teacher since 2019 and started my career in a private school. I have been teaching for 4 years and I admit that I envy my friends and my former co-teachers who are now working in the public schools. They earn more than I and they enjoy a lot of benefits.

Happy ako para sa success ng iba pero you call it success ba if hindi lumaban ng patas? Transparent ba na nauuna ang mga may backer na nahahire kaysa sa mga taong walang kilala sa Division Office or sa mga Principal? And it took me a long time to process these unnecessary shits. Collected documents, certificates, government IDs, instructional materials for demo, fare and those money we spent yearly just to complete the requirements. It cost me a lot. It cost us a lot. We are just poor. We need to work in a public school not because for our passion and professional growth but we want a regular job, we want security, we want a decent salary and also for the hungry mouths we have to feed.

The Department of Education neglects us. We suffer from a very flawed hiring process. Ang lungkot lungkot. Ang sakit sakit. I’m crying rn with a heavy heart while typing this shit. I spent my 4 years on this field to get experiences and be prepared if magpublic school ako but look what these greedy people do dinadaan sa pandaraya. THIS SYSTEM IS ROTTEN! I know, it’s a tough competition pero sana inaalam ang mga nangyayari sa ibaba because these powerful and privileged people are using their power and abusing their position.

Just my two cents.

Pero sorry, eto lang kasi talaga ako.

[benefits1986]

wickened

Rewiring is not easy especially when your system is defunct.

Since dad was outta Manila for quite some time, we had to catch up and of course, it's a Netflix with not so much chill because there are some shows I don't want to watch with him, but, taralets because why not para maiba naman, right?

Started it strong with Nobody Want This because it's the time of the month and it keeps popping on my feed. Verdict: Mas nag-enjoy tatay kong pakitong-kitong. LELS. Sobrang benta sa kanya 'yung LACKS HUSBAND ENERGY storyline. As in with matching malutong na mura pa. According to my dad, finally he has found a character that suits his vibe. JUSKO. I'm not sure if he's proud about this bit without the yaman ng walang kemerut as a Jew syempre. Dad has soooo many comments as we watched the series. Ang pinaka shemayyyy niyang comment: Anak, maganda rin talaga ang apo na babae. Masarap bihisan. Me: Tacca, dad. Manood ka na lang saka 2 out of 2 na lalaking apo mo sa 100% chances of ensuring your bloodline survives.

And so, Nobody Wants This. It's giving a Venn diagram of Charlotte and Carrie in the age of aging millennials. LELS. My ick is seeing how it attempts to be have Korean vibes na pakilig pero sige, okay, try n'yo rin. In fairness naman, 'di super pakak nung XY pero nailed down n'ya 'yung traditional but provocative. 'Di siya super igop. 'Di rin siya matangkad masyado. 'Di rin siya super A-game, pero sabi nga rin ng tatay ko, 'yung XX lead ay 'di rin naman kagandahan. Saks lang kaya bagay sila. Plus points sa flat chest gaming din. LELS.

I didn't expect my dad to be too involved with this series kasi nga naman parang out of character sa kanya talaga, kaya naman, 'yung ick ko e mas mataas at mas wagas. LOLLLLLOLLL. May paganap pa tatay ko na: Anak, may divorce na ngayon kaya naman, kaya mo na 'yan talaga. Me: LUL. Hahahahahahahahaha.

Kidding aside, it's not easy to rewire the brain. It's not easy to look beyond being the battleship. 'Pag sanay ka talaga at oks talaga sa'yo na on your own ka kasi kaya mo at kinaya mo, iba e. Alam mo 'yun? 'Yung okay ka, hindi ka perfect. Marami kang kabobohan pero lagi mong tanong sa sarili mo: Is it really fucking worth the risk when you're in a generally good place naman after all? For people who are not afraid to be alone until their dying day, dhzai, etong tanong na 'to e talaga namang nagbabaga.

Selflessness? Sacrifice? Service? Pota. LELS. Jusko. Muntik ko na 'yang kinamatay several times. But, this time around, eto na naman ang algo. Grief is love in another paradigm. OPA-Q kang malala. Ang hassle talaga pero sige, bigyan natin 'yan ng chance para maiba naman. JUSKO. I'm not super sure how pero andito na rin naman tayo sa punto na sige itaas natin ang social experiments coz why not? Siguro, dulot nga 'to nung B event. Siguro dulot 'to ng attempt natin na CTRL + ALT + DEL ang pagiging avoidant even when sobrang lala ko pa rin talaga in all levels.

Ang hassle din kapag may impit from intervention na 'di mo masalag-salag. HAAHAHAHHA. LAGOOATTT na talaga me neto. JUSKO. Andito ako sa point na may pag-revisit na ako ng mga nakaraan forda lessons na huy, girl, 'wag mo namang sayangin mga kabobohan mo noon kasi ang tanga mo lang talaga 10000000. Hahahahahaha. Sabay, peace be with you na lang sa lahat ng mga kabobohang natatawa na lang talaga ako ngayon. Iba rin 'pag may lived realities ka na puwede mong paghugutan noh? Iba rin 'pag mas open ka sa mga bagong perspectives 'di dahil forced, but, it seems like things are getting more interesting. SHEMAYYY. Bakit ba kasi parang petri dish ang tingin natin sa mundo? Bakit parang nasa chem lab gaming era tayo pero etong chem lab na 'to potaccaaaa levels na?

Eto 'yung abangan levels 100000000000000.

PS 1: Gusto ko lang lagay as a note dito na super duper thankful talaga akong nasa era na kami na ganito ng tatay kong pakitong-kitong. Sinabi ko sa kanya na oks lang naman 'yung LACKS HUSBAND ENERGY vibe niya kasi tinodo ng nanay kong dragon hanggang todas levels na siya. And what matters most is through it all, mahal ko na nga tatay ko. It's no longer a transactional thing. OPAQ-U ka na namang avoidant ka, girl. Tuloy mo lang 'yan. LELS.

PS 2: Mejj bothered ako na mas mabilis na ako sa tatay ko sa folding bike. HMMMMM. Is he officially aging? Shemay. 'Di ako sanay na naiiwan ko siya pero kasi I'm exhausting my limited time and effort sa kinda training for the unli-ahon na paparating. Mas love na ng tatay ko si MatchaME kesa sa big bikes niya saka oks naman look niya while riding the foldies. LELS. Though gusto raw niya pagaanin 'yung Trek niya. Sabi ko: Magkano kaya niya lapag per kilo? LELS.

[mylifedevos]

Grace. Grace. Grace

2 Corinthians 12:7-10

7 So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud. 

8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away.

9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

dito sa mga naunang verses sa chap 12 talks about the visions and revelations na na experience ni Apostle Paul or na acquire galing sa Panginoon. (Verse 3) 

Kasi during that time He was defending yung authority  a ibinigay ng Lord sakanya against this false apostles na nag emerge sa church ng corinth. They were trying to question yung work, yung motives ni Paul for the church and during that time He was defending himself from their attacks, telling the christians in Corinth about not being deceived by these false apostles and exposing them by comparing yung work na ginagawa nila Apostle Paul and the other Apostles from the bible which is evident nmn po na they were sold out for Jesus, and they dedicated they live for spreading the Gospel of Jesus. Whereas yung false apostles/teachers, yes they are full of wisdom and charismatic, but the difference is human wisdom lng ang meron sila, with no guidance from the Holy Spirit. They were all about boasting what they know. They will feed you the words that you wanted to hear. They were pleasing themselves but never exalting Lord Jesus.

He could have boast yung revelations palang ng Panginoon kay Apostle Paul. It could be something na pede nya gamitin to prove himself, or to refute ung sinasabi nila e but he chose not to do it. Because he knows hindi yun will ng Lord e. And he will only do it for himself  and not for the Lord. 

And sabi nga nya ‘ I will only boast about my weaknesses’. Para ang maitaas, ang Panginoon Jesus  and yung work ng Panginoon sa buhay nya and sa ministry.

Verse 7 So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud. 

Actually on this verse, I was taken aback, why would God allowed the devil to harass/torment apostle Paul and why would the Lord allow him to experience this. And dito natin makikita na wala talagang exempted.

And while I kept on reading and reading this verse, I learned na God allow this, is to protect his heart…from being conceited/proud/exalting himself.

Somehow we can relate e, it may not be the same scenario na kagaya kay Apostle Paul but I believe we also experience yung thorns sa buhay natin in many forms e. 

It maybe an illness/problems/pain/economic struggles/difficulties sa work/family, maybe are being complacent, still living in sin, being disciplined.. 

although God allows all of these and we may not understand fully what’s happening behind the scenes but we know that we can trust God. He  is our Sovereign God. Alam nya yung una at huli, and if He allowed something, hindi yun para pahirapan lang tayo, He’s doing it for own for our own benefit.

Examples:Life of Job, Life of Joseph, Lord Jesus

iba iba yung situation natin and how God deal with us. And we are in the process of transformation. And God is preparing us for eternity. 

Sabi nga sa John 15, He will prune the branches that bears fruit so that they will produce more. 

We are being mold

So that we will bring honor and glory sa Panginoon.

8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. 

actually dito na rebuke ni Lord. 

Kasi tayo pag ganito na nakaka experience tayo ng discomfort, ang gusto natin alisin na agad. We are trying to dictate and insists yung gusto natin e. And kapag NO ang sagot, Tampo agad, galit agad. Meron ng doubts sa love ni Lord sa atin.

Example: Israelites in the desert going to canaan. 

I learned na we need to change our response sa situation.  

Kasi now that we know there is a reason  why nararanasan natin yung thorns sa buhay natin, this should be an opportunity to get closer sa Panginoon. 

Lord what’s the purpose? Lord, anu pong dapat kong gawin/or itama/alisin? I need your wisdom, help me to overcome this. 

and while we are going through difficulties in life, hindi man tayo agad alisin ng Lord dun sa proseso nung pinagdadaanan natin, but never tayong pababayaan ng Panginoon. 

9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

it will be the grace of God that will help us endure yung mga trials na pinagdadaanan natin , by the Grace of God will be strengthened, it is God’s grace that will help us overcome yung mga thorns natin sa buhay.

And when we learned to give the control sa Panginoon and trust the process that is how we allow God to really work through our lives. Lord take over. Kayo yung maupo sa driver’s seat ng buhay ko.

10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

and now we understand na kahit mahina tayo on our own, we have Abba Father, and with God we are stronger. And He equipped us and enables us to stand firm for Christ.

Kaya after the battle we can testify na it is only by the Grace of God na victorious tayo. Na na-endure natin yung battles natin kasi kasama natin yung Panginoon from start to finish.

ALL GLORY TO GOD!

[mellancholic-thoughts]

EXCESS BAGGAGE (November 24, 2023, 10:32am)

nagkita kami ulit. 

no, scratch that. nakita ko siya ulit.

out of nowhere and after so long, dumaan ulit yung pangalan niya sa news feed ko sa facebook. may nag-ad na page na naka-like na pala siya.

bilang marites na laging curious sa kanya, i clicked on his name like i always do kapag nasasaktuhan ko. 

sobrang rare lang ang mga posts niya (o baka naka-hide lang sa akin?) kaya di ako masyadong umaasa na may makikita ako, but this time it was different.

tumambad sa akin ang dalawang recent photo album posts ng kamag-anak niya na naka-tag siya. this time he really was in the pictures. yes, marami. 

after more than four years, i finally had a good look at him.

he still looked almost the same as he did back then. heck, he was wearing the same black turtleneck top he bought with me sa uniqlo (that piece witnessed a lot during the course of our short-lived relationship–instant favorite niya eh).

his shoulders were just a bit broader, his arms protruded muscles that weren’t there before, or at least not that prominent, and he has abs now. or at least yun yung naging illusion sa damit niya.

in short, he looked mature. i guess that’s what four years does to you.

it was then when i noticed a significant detail in the photos. she was there.

sa totoo lang, hindi ko rin alam kung bakit nagtaka pa ako na nandun siya. it’s been more than four years since naman.

more than four years since she walked in and swept him off his feet, leaving me broken, confused, and insecure.

she didn’t do or know anything, alam ko naman yun, so she shouldn’t be blamed for anything. 

he felt suffocated in our relationship and wanted to leave so badly, and then he met her.

and the rest was history. 

back to today.

if there was something foreign i saw in that photo aside from the relatives that i never even had the chance to meet, it was his eyes.

it showed genuine happiness and contentment.

something i never really saw before.

sure, he smiled when we were together. but rarely did it ever reach his eyes. minsan wala pa ngang ngipin yung ngiti niya.

i already concluded that he never did love me that much after pondering on our relationship shortly after the break up, but seeing this actually sealed the deal for me.

thank God that i got this sign years after when i’m 100% sure that i’m already over him, kasi kung mga 2 years ago ko ito nakita baka nag-back to zero ako nun sa pagmo-move on. 

plus meron na rin naman akong napapangiti na abot-mata, at napakilala na rin niya ako sa halos kalahati ng angkan niya. 

it’s strange how little things like these can tell how much you mean to someone and how your relationship will go. 

ngayon, masasabi kong masaya ako. masaya ako para sa kanya, pero mas masaya ako dahil nahanap ko rin yung para sa akin.

natagalan man at kinakailangang dumaan sa kaunting hirap at sakit once in a while, masasabi kong nasa tamang daan ako.

kasama ang tamang tao.

[jamesepp]

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1. Lechon Roll

2. Shabu-Shabu

3. Roasted Beef

4. Mixed Veggies

5. Orange Rice

6. Battered Shrimp

7. Crispy Fried Tempura

8. Longanisa with Suka

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10. Sushi

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[but-youtolerateit]

Thank God I saw this post shared by my friend, JL. He told me that this is their club that was previously lead by his mom 🥺 and this year, is the first time they're doing this without her.

I love how it also covers discussion about hygiene and health not just mainly a distribution of school supplies. Also wow, reading action program? Wow!

Okay so I just wanna put my thoughts about this in here.

✅ feeding program — mababawasan kahit papaano 'yung iniisip nila kung paano sila kakain at kung meron ba silang kakain sa araw na yon or sa mga susunod pa

✅ school supplies — magiging komportable ang pag-aaral ng mga kabataan, mas magiging interesado at mas matututo sila 💛

✅ health & hygiene discussion — makakatulong para maiwasan magkasakit at ang pagkalat ng mga sakit

✅ reading action program — sobrang tumatak sakin yung nabasa kong book ni Neil Gaiman about WHY our future depends on libraries, reading and daydreaming;

"libraries are about freedom. Freedom to read, freedom of ideas, freedom of communication. They are about education (which is not a process that finishes the day we leave school or university), about entertainment, about making safe spaces, and about access to information."

Neil Gaiman also said that reading fiction builds empathy and that

"Empathy is a tool for building people into groups, for allowing us to function as more than self-obsessed individuals."

"You’re also finding out something as you read vitally important for making your way in the world. And it’s this:

The world doesn’t have to be like this. Things can be different."

He also gave advice on how to raise children:

"The simplest way to make sure that we raise literate children is to teach them to read, and to show them that reading is a pleasurable activity. And that means, at its simplest, finding books that they enjoy, giving them access to those books, and letting them read them."

[richaritz]

FEBRUARY 8, 2023

It's currently 2:31PM at ngayon pa talaga ako nag-decide na mag-empty. I am not okay. Alam kong hindi okay dahil nagbabasa muli ako ng old conversations pero right now, hindi yung alam kong painful balikan, but I opt to go for messages nung nag-decide ako na umalis ng Novaliches IC. Hahaha. Don’t get me wrong, hindi ako aalis ng SBH ha. Siguro kung anuman tong nararamdaman ko ngayon ay naghahanap ako ng wisdom kung saan gusto ko manatili sa pagiging masipag, maging matatag at kung ano man ito ay mabigyan ako ng renewed strength and purpose upang magpatuloy sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko sa kasalukuyan. Dalawang tao yung nilapitan ko nung March 30, 2018 at ayun yung pinili kong balikan.

“Sa ngayon, we don’t need to go away… Inopen ng Lord sayo kasi ikaw ang magisisimula nun. What you need to do is to find people with the same passion na meron ka. Magpakatatag pa. With the body of Christ, learn to speak your passion at wag magsawa” -Ate CC “Mahirap at discouraging pero sa mga ganong times tayo matututo diba?” “Well at least good na kahit ganyan kahirap convinced ka na hindi mo kailangan umalis. Good. Mahirap lang ngayon kasi siguro wala ka makasama sa struggles mo.” “So until then carry on. Ipagpray mo na dalhin ka ni Lord sa lugar na makakapag-minister ka kasi ganon lang din naman yun, kung hindi ka maging useful sa lugar na kinalalagyan mo.” “Kahit andiyan ka o wala, matutuloy and church. Wag kang ano. Dating burden ko din yan pero narealize ko ang feeler ko pala, feeling ace ako ganon. Pero hindi, matutuloy ang church kahit wala ka kaya ayusin mo muna ang sarili mo. Hindi totoo na mas spiritual ang halos araw-araw sa simbahan. Nasa puso yan, Kahit sa trabaho mo makakapag minister ka, KAHIT saan.” “Mas mararamdaman mo pinapalakas at mas mate-test ang character mo kapag in real life, yung christian character mo, magmamanifest. Comfort zone ang church, Rits.” "yung relationships mo outside the pwede ka mag-minister, ang ministry ay hindi nakakulong sa activity ng church. Tandaan mo yan." -Ate FD Right now, nafi-feed naman ako nung mga kailangan kong i-remind sa sarili ko at sa buhay mananampalataya. Ang overthinker ko pa rin at mapagsarili ngayong 2023 but it was nice to know na may someone to lean ako nung mga panahon na 'to.

Humantong man ako sa desisyon na umalis noon at masasabi kong isa ito sa most heartbreaking and pinaka-mahirap na pag-alis sa buhay ko. I know 2018 Richa cannot imagine kung ano ang kahihinatnan nito pero hey, worry no more. We made it. Kinaya sa tulong ng Panginoon. Nagpahinga ka for a while sa paglilingkod pagkalipat mo hanggang mid-2019, nag-establish ka ng small group kasama ang kapwa considered as bago sa church na sina Lien at Eula. Di man gaano nagtagal & covid happened pero nagkakamustahan naman paminsan-minsan. Nakapag-establish ng relationships sa mga Kabataan at ngayon sa YA. Tumutulong pa rin tayo sa local youth gawains sa abot ng makakaya. Ika-4th year mo na rin sa PKKI ngayon. Predikador ka this year at pangalawang taon na sa pagiging president ng YA. Handle mo din sila Phebe, Daphne at Ghellian sa Small group (SAVE scholars sila), hindi tayo ganon ka-consistent pero we're trying. Pami-paminsang nag-llead ng biglaang PnP pag may Congregational activity at part ng SBH choir, soprano ka na, kasi ang lakas ng alto haha. Alam mo, kapit ka lang. Napapagod ka man ngayon and nafifeel mo na nagbibigay ka ng bagahe sa mga pamamaraan mo, na ang bigat mo kasama at ang unfair mo sa ilang mga bagay at parang nalulunod ka sa thoughts that you're failing & you're not needed after this. Itigil mo yan. Hahahaha. Mag-focus tayo sa mga bagay na kontrolado natin at gustong ipagawa ng Lord sa atin sa bawat facets ng buhay natin. Tulungan nawa tayo ng Diyos. Sabay ngayong 3:50PM ay nagbasa ako ng devotional for today sa ODB at ito ang sabi: We can’t control how people will respond to us when we try to work out relational problems. As long as we own up to our part, humbly ask for forgiveness, and make any changes needed, we can let God handle the healing. Even if we have to endure the pain of unresolved “people problems,” peace with Him is always possible. God’s arms are open, and He is waiting to show us the grace and mercy we need. “If we confess our sin, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9). HAHAHA Lord. Salamat po sa pangungusap sa akin. Hindi ko man nasambit sa entry na ito ang isa sa malaking trigger kung bakit ako nags-struggle ngayon. Tapusin ko na muna dito at salamat sa outlet Tumblr. 2010 pa pala tayo nandito. Congrats!

[benefits1986]

yassesss

When the yes comes after a legit "akala mo" no, that's magic.

Have not been shitting out here lately because I'm still trying to contain one of the best YES I got this year. Chenen! Answered prayer #1, DONE. Opaqqqqq ol ye f8ful vibes because that means, 'yung simbang gabi, puwedeng ibang wish 'pag na-complete 'yung 9 mornings with feelings.

The YES came nonchalantly last weekend over my simple pa-HBD sa kapatid ko na ka-bday ang asawa niya. LELS. While I wanna reveal this bit, I'll put it off kasi it's not my story to tell since nga 'di naman 'to prayer for me. HIHIHI. Siguro, badly put, this is a birthday pa-surprise ng kaitaasan sa kapatid ko saka sa asawa niya.

Why do I share this? Proof of concept that totoo pa rin talaga ang isa sa mga faves kong pa-passage: Walk by faith, not by sight. And patunay din 'to na even when mother dragon, the OG taga-pray ng matitendeng intentions for a crazy fam ay expired na, kaya na namin. I joked dad nga na ang galing niya mag-pray. HAHAHAHAHA.

Gah. As a mainipin and madali ma-bore na sentient being, sobrang pakak neto. Kasi timebound din 'tong thingggyyy na 'to, kaya naman, prayer #2, ano na? CHZ. Hahahahaha.

Baka YES na rin sagot para maiba naman? HUY. NKKLK. It's actually a crazy intention kasi naman mhiemaaahhh, kadire. 'Yung parang 'di lang come from behind. Parang out of this galaxy na talaga siya. Lampas milky way, ganern. But, wait! There's more. Mag-add ka pa ng plus points kasi naman mhieeemahhh, JIC matupad 'to, choogadoog na talaga me because... abangan.

2024 has been a crazy good year because andaming naganap at hindi naganap. Totoo rin talaga na when the universe hits you really hard with a legit NO, that means some things are not meant for you. Even when you feel like, eto na 'yun... NO e. Periodddtzzz. And looking back, since September is halfway through na, I must say that this year is pivotal from the kaibuturan.

I remember having a "gratitude" list ages ago when I was in a super dark, delulu walang solulu era. So, let's try to unearth this. What am I grateful for apart from the solid YES na YES?

Dad and I healing galing emyyyy together, thanks to biking, kanin with ulam, doggos, him driving me around, atbp

Seeing my brother shape up even when it's not his cup of tea at all

My "isang pindot ka lang" washing machine

Witnessing how my mid babe, Vidi, fighting his advanced stage skin cancer

Feeding Vidi human food na gusto niya after 12 years of restricting him (LOLLOLL)

Accepting the fact that Vidi's days are bonus days, but trying my best to be with him in "YOLO" way

Hirit na baka kaya niya pa ng 5 years pero joke lang 'yun, but, malay mo naman, 'di ba? LELS. LUL.

Pagkarga with feelings ng mga Gen Alpha like E and McQueen. JUSQ. And pagpapatunay na kaya kong kumarga ng bata na kinakakagulat ng madlang people kasi nga, totoo pa rin naman na I fucking hate kids, however...

Vidcall every other week with my soul sis even when super introverts kami since 17 y/o na 'di talaga kami mushy at clingy sa isa't isa. In fact, this year lang namin 'yan ginawa as diesel girlies

Rediscovering food na 'di na siya lasang papel. HUY. Hahahahahahaha.

Back to red hair na akala ko naman jump from mom's legit kakulay hair color since June; but no, sabi ko deep red, then poof, my current color is exactly mom's shade of red hair when she was in her prime. Ending: Ayoko masyado na naman tignan sarili ko sa mirror, pero 'di naman na dahil spiral. More of takot me kasi kamukha ko na naman siya lalo. LAGOTTT. Mag-bait na raw ako. EMMMYYYY.

Found matcha peeps na legit na gusto ng nanapak na matcha. Apaka babaw neto pero basta happy ako diyan kasi usually talaga, coffee peeps ang earthlings. May comparison pa anong level ng matcha ang pinaka vibe, so pushhhh.

Pag-kalma kahit syempre, overthinking is lifer. Though, masasabi ko, may legit progress na ako dito.

Pagpili na iwas-iwas avoidant era kahit syempre, CTRL + ALT + DEL feelings = pak pero ayun nga, because of a reconnection with this ka-thing noon friend, eto na tayo

Biking. Biking. Biking. With a wonky B kahit paminsan lang talaga

Accepting this aging-defy-gravity-mo-mukha-mo body bit by bit; again, not insecure. Since pa-40 na tayo, nag-iba talaga siya and may bago na akong mission na sana ma-accomplish natin in the name of, slay-vage road to 4.0 kahit munti. Nothing fancy. Lahat natural at walang halong kemikal. KIMMMYYY.

So, what?

Let this be a tiny yet important note that being grateful beats the shit stick's hardest hits. I used to hang onto to this list, but I stopped kasi parang wala namang epekto noon. HAHAHAHAHA. Parang baliw lang ako na choosing to see the light even when my era is dark ages levels with bubonic plague na walang cure. That silent pandemic called "not dealing with grief"... you, bitch. Pero, as I choose to come in peace after 12 years, eto na tayo. Grief is a gift after the curse. And that gift is meant to be shared with people. The worst part of grief is not the permanent and unforgettable loss. The most fucked up part is the shame that I associated with it because all I saw was the irrevocable adios to my mother dragon, my deepest connection, to date. What's even worse than this is that I shut down people, places, and paganaps where I should have allowed grief to transform itself to stories that are super worthwhile. Why? Walang forever, so why bother?

What I'm slowly learning mala-biking with training wheels these days is that... shemay. Kaya ko ba ilapag here? Wait lang. Wait.

Even when forever is but a myth, the deontic truth remains: Time is but a construct, but stories, ought to live on, along with the lessons that make new stories more alive in full color. And that pain is part of a life well-lived by those who fought and those who choose to love. LUH. LUL. Kbye.

PS: Alsoooo, orchestrating 2 events in 2025. Both na personal projects 'to since super duper close ko mga 'to. One of them is in my legit na legit dream destination sa Pinas sa szn na pakak doon kaya naman, good luck and don't fuck it up. Sobrang taas na lalo ng costings ngayon tapos andaming EMYYYY NKKLK fine prints sa contracts. LOL.

[cgtrrs]

I can never imagine my life this year if God was not in the story.

This is my testimony went....

"Few months ago, pinag pepray ko yung moment na to na sana makapagsalita na ako sa harap at tumayo sa pulpit na to. Weakness ko ang humarap sa madaming tao pero in God's Grace andito ako sa harap ninyo para itestify ang kabutihan ng Lord sa buhay ko.

Kulang po ang tatlong minuto para sabihin lahat ng kabutihan niya sakin.

May mga oras na nalulungkot ako. Minsan gusto ko na din sumuko, ang bigat sa feeling, overthink ng malala, anxiety, pag kahomesick ko. Yung pagod na hindi nadadala sa pahinga. Yung okay naman how your day went pero pag ako na lang magisa bigla na lang ako mag bebreakdown.

But God is Faithful. Alam nyo po everytime na ganito yung nararamdam ko, palagi po sya nagawa ng way para iparamdam sa akin na hindi ako nag iisa. Pinaparamdam nya sakin na nasa tabi ko lang sya.

One time po, umiiyak po ako nun, to distract myself from crying. Nag browse po ako sa fb nun tapos ganitong mga post po yung sunod sunod na nasa feed ko.

"If you haven’t been honest with God in a while, start there. His presence is the safest place to pour our hearts out."

"You may be suffering in silence but God isn't silent in your suffering."

"God, I may not be able to figure out how you’ll do it, but knowing that everything is possible in you is more than enough security for me. Let Your will be done in me."

Ito po yung nakita kong mga prayer post while I'm browsing and that's the reason why God makes me amazed again. Pinakita at pinatunayan nya na He is very faithful to us. Alam mo yun, wala naman po sya sa tabi ko but He always do something na makakapagpagaan ng kalooban ko kahit papaano.

Parang He reminds me na "Anak, huwag ka ng malungkot. Andito lang ako. Ako ang bahala sayo." ❤️

Yung tipong mag isa mong nilalabanan yung bigat ng nararamdamam mo but He always make you feel na di ka nag iisa.

Kaya everytime po na nakakaramdam po ako ng lungkot at bigat. Sinusurrender ko na lang po lahat sa kanya. I pray. And after nun, magaan na lahat. 🥺

Sobra sobra po ang pasasalamat ko sa Lord. Hindi ko po alam kung paano susuklian ang kabutihan nya sakin.

Gusto ko din po magpasalamat sa mga taong ginawa nyang instrumento para mas mapalapit sa kanya at mas makilala ko pa si Lord. Im super blessed that Im surrounded by good and great people. Parang wala na po akong mahihiling pa!

Bago po matapos yung taon na to, I just want to thank God again for making me more stronger this year. Thank you Lord for being the best diary and friend I could have asked for when I had no one else to turn to.

Claiming that this coming 2023 will be full of blessings, new opportunities, success and good health for all us!"

December 30, 2022 (Friday)

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ❤️❤️❤️

[queerlymarky]

Wow. Read again this reblogged blog (lol) after 10 years, and I got curious kung kumusta na iyong writer nito, then I stumbled through his (or their in singular) ig account, and they (sing.) got to a better place! Director na siya sa PUP. I guess, well deserved given din sa bigat ng disposition niya 10 years before. Nakakatuwa rin talagang balikan ang mga pinagbabasa at pinagshe-share ko dito sa OG tumblr account ko.

Ang dami ko rin talagang pino-problema way back. Marami ring nagbago, pero parang pareho lang din in the sense na may pino-problema ka, and may anxiety din sa future mo. Ang tumama talaga (unfortunately) ay ang limited career opportunities mo sa BroadComm (media industry-wise) at kanina lang ay nagfi-fill up ka ng form sa bagong work sa call center (lol).

Ang hindi ko lang din pa grasp sa buhay 10 years ago ay when reality strikes (and slaps you so fucking hard). Consequential din talaga ang mga choices that we make, and beforehand, may nilo-look forward ka na in the future if you choose option A over option B (tulad ng pagpili ng undergrad course). We just have to make a choice for us to know what comes next, whether be it a hit or a miss.

Just before checking this blog and writing this, I felt shitty again about myself and my life choices, but going back here, it made me realize such things na nabanggit ko earlier. Ito ang buhay. Ito ang realidad. Failures are inevitable, and hindi mo rin maiiwasan na mag-negative self-talk ka at sabihing failure ka. That's very nature. Pero despite of, we still persevere. We move forward. Hindi man iyon ang gusto nating mangyari, kung sinabotahe man tayo at pinagkaitan ng pagkakataon at oportunidad as compare to others, kahit anong uri ng paggalaw ay pag-unlad na rin. It's really part of the painstaking process of learning more about ourselves and how the world works.

At the end of the day, it's not just us and our choices per se, but it's really a bigger system that tries to hinder us from living a life of peace and comfort. Iyong gusto sana nating mas mag-pursue ng creative endeavours but we have to do shitty jobs to feed mouths. Hindi naman natin talaga kasalanan na we submit on those, but we continue to struggle in pursuing the things that feeds our soul. The real deals.

Hay, quarter-life crisis, the bitch that you really are. And we continue holding onto our hopes that better days will come, because that's what we deserve. 16-year-old self, ok lang iyan. Mukhang makakabawi pa naman tayo sa mga bad decisions natin (haha) pero kebs you are a product of your own time. (lol) (ano pa bang sasabihin ko at inaantok na ko haha) Well, don't be too hard on yourself, di iyan ang hard na gusto natin! (hahahaha)

Labyu, self. Laban pa rin! Palag-palag lang! Mwa!

[jamesepp]

Hello mga ka Foodie G!

Last time I visited the Food Club Manila, your lifestyle buffet was located at Ayala Malls Pasay City.

Syempre dahil nakita ko nga ito sa social media feeds ko na ang daming kumain dito, so hindi naman tayo magpapahuli. Kaya iyon foodie go ako sa Food Club Manila to experience ang pinipilahan and always fully book na buffet restaurant nila and also to celebrate my pre-birthday celebration ko.

For me, the experience is super enjoy ako, dahil hindi ko alam talaga if ano ang uunahin ko. litong lito ako that time at kung pwede lang hatiin katawan ko why not diba hehehe. Lalo na mabilis maubos ang ibang food po na naka serve nila so need to wait pa ulit.

The location and theme ay fantastic, with a roomy, sophisticated design, a helpful, attentive staff, and a calm ambience.

There were lots of food stations to pick from, and the cuisine was excellent. Example na nga dim sum and noodle station, the pizza and pasta station, the carving station, and the dessert station were all great. I also liked the sushi and sashimi station and more more more.

To be honest, I couldn't get enough of the food because it was so tasty, fresh, and served hot always..

In this day, I am incredibly appreciative sa companionship of kuys Dune I'm grateful kasi masarap talaga kumain sa Food Club Manila lalo na pag madami kayong kakain or with your special someone...

For more info and posting about my experience, stay tuned guys for my top food choice sa Food Club Manila.

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[thera-daydreams]

INDAY

± A Trese Fic ±

[Crispin/Basilio/Maliksi/Dominic x Skymaiden!Reader]

01: Noon at Ngayon (✓)

02: Ang Kambal na Anak ni Datu Talagbusao, Diyos ng Digmaan (Link)

03: Ang Prinsipe ng Mga Tikbalang (Link)

04: Ang Pinuno ng Mga Aswang (Link)

05: (Link) 06: (Link) 07: (Link)

01: Noon at Ngayon

Back then, long before you were born, your mother used to work as a katulong of the Trese Family and was very close to its matriarch, Miranda Trese. Coming from the province, she was no stranger to superstitions—even more so after knowing the work of Miranda's husband Anton Trese, who was actually the Babaylan-Mandirigma of Manila.

Years later, after giving birth to you around the same time Miranda gave birth to her twins (one a stillborn, unfortunately), it was you and Alexandra who became best buddies instead, as different your personalities were. You two had practically grown up together and you yourself heard countless stories of the supernatural from your Tito Anton. It wasn't that hard to believe when he and his sigbin companions would sometimes come home tracking blood prints on the floors (which you'd helped your mother clean up). Heck, you'd even met Señor Armanaz, the Great Stallion himself and the ruling tikbalang of the Armanaz herd. That pretty, white-haired diwata seemed extremely fond of you, too, which was evident when you'd sneak in with Alexandra to Tito Anton's meetings and she would smile (even wave) at you happily.

You had absolutely no idea why the fae-like lady was so nice to you, but you weren't complaining at all!

However, in spite of your experiences with the supernatural, you and your mother always believed that you were normal humans. In actuality, that was who you were for the majority of your childhood. It was only until Miranda herself saw a vision of you—a much older you—fighting the monsters of the Underworld alongside her own daughter. During dinnertime, Miranda told your mother that she saw you blessed by the heavens with powers that would aid in the battle against evil.

It sounded absolutely ridiculous, right? Yeah, your mom thought so, too.

Your mother only laughed it off as she placed a steaming bowl of tinola in front of Alexandra's brothers, who instantly dug in like they haven't been fed in years.

"Boys! Dahan-dahan lang," Anton reprimanded his sons. "Or else you'll choke and the soup will come out of your noses!"

"Okay, Papa."

"Grabe ka naman, Miranda. I doubt that anything like that's going to happen to my daughter," your mom chuckled, watching your little hands try to feed Alexandra with a piece of chicken. "Unlike you guys, our lineage isn't anything special. Ordinaryo lang ang lahi namin."

Miranda sighed, looking at you and her only living daughter enjoying your time being kids, "I guess you're right. Baka panaginip lang talaga 'yun."

Anton glanced at her knowingly. Although he was aware that you and your mom didn't dabble in magic or anything like they did, he knew that whenever Miranda—one of the Seven Seers—had such vivid dreams, it was something of great importance. But he decided to say nothing, understanding how much your mother wanted to let you live as normal of a life possible in this household.

That was when you were seven years old. One year later, Miranda died fighting against a group of aswang who decided to betray Anton. Said man found the eight-year-old Alexandra hiding in a corner behind the waterfalls, scared and holding Sinag close to her heaving chest as she tried to hold her tearful sobs in.

Of course, a few days later, you and your mother attended the funeral with the mourning Trese family. All the brothers had done their best to stay strong, especially for their little sister who didn't fully understand yet what just happened. Little you ran towards Alexandra, holding her hand tightly as her mother's casket was lowered. Around you were various comrades, both human and non-human, paying their respects to their bereaved allies.

That day, as you turned your back to return to your mother's arms, you knew you would never forget the feeling of numerous unearthly eyes following your every movement.

Even they could sense that there was something about you, a so-called regular human child. You smelled human and had the aura of one, but there was something they couldn't place. It was like a tiny rock getting into your shoe, not coming out at all.

Much changed after that, but you and Alexandra remained close together. To your dismay, just after you graduated elementary, you and your mother had to move back to the province to stay with your sick grandparents. The last thing you could remember was kneeling in the back of the car, looking sadly through the rear windscreen as Alexandra and her brothers waved goodbye to you.

More than a decade had passed since then. You used to write letters to Alexandra, but after Hank told you she had to undergo the trials of the Puno ng Balete, you haven't heard from her (although Hank did disclose that she'd managed to come home safely, which was a great relief to you). You didn't blame her; you knew Tito Anton had passed away in the five years she was gone and that she had to take over the title of Lakan, as well as the Babaylan-Mandirigma of Manila. It was a demanding job! You remembered Tito Anton sometimes staying up all night—breakfast would be served and he would still be in his study, going over paperwork. On other days, he would be gone for consecutive nights handling cases all around Manila. You could only pray Alexandra was fine.

Your life had continued on, as well—you took care of your ill grandparents until they died, helped your mother in the province, went to a good highschool, then earned your degree in another prominent city that wasn't Manila.

Your mom actually recommended that you go to school somewhere else, given the constantly rising number of attacks in the capital of the country. And so you did. Life was hard, but normal until then.

The funny thing was that, when you reached the age of twenty-one, you finally understood why those supernatural creatures kept looking at you weirdly as a kid (and why Lady Diwata liked you so much).

What was even funnier was that the dramatic revelation came to you when you weren't in the Philippines. It was after you freshly graduated college, when you were traveling all over Asia to volunteer in charity projects. It was always your dream to one day expand your horizons not only beyond your province, but the Philippines itself, while also doing good in the world.

And here you were, walking that path you dreamt of.

The organization you luckily managed to become a member of provided everything you needed, and every few months, you would move from country to country. Because of that, you'd already been able to travel to so many places. First it was Thailand, then Indonesia, China, South Korea, India, Japan, Sri Lanka, Singapore, Malaysia, and currently, you were in Vietnam. Visiting those places was fun and gave you a whole new perspective of the world you lived in; it was a... learning experience, too.

Still, that incident happened when you were in Thailand, when you were the last one in the rented apartment balcony taping up the boxes for the donation drive tomorrow. Yawning, you cut more duct tape and stuck them to the open boxes tightly.

"Inday," someone said from behind you. You didn't bother turning around, thinking it was one of your fellow volunteers looking for you this late at night. Probably your roommate. She was the only one who usually called you by your nickname instead of your real name.

"Hmm?" you hummed, taping up more boxes. "Papasok na ako sa kwarto, Lyn. I just have a few more boxes to close. Alam mong mapapagalitan ako kung may hindi madidistribute bukas."

"Hindi ako si Lyn."

You paused, then slowly turned around, flinching at the sudden bright light that shone right against your eyes. For a moment, akala mo namatay ka na at hinaharap mo si San Pedro.

It was a glowing figure in white whose face you couldn't clearly see, which frightened you even more.

"Ay, mama!" you exclaimed, shielding your eyes and falling to your knees. Then, you gasped loudly, patting your body and panicking with closed lids. "Oh my God, am I dead? Nasa heaven na po ba ako?" Your lips wobbled. "Ngayon pa nga lang ako nakaalis ng Pilipinas... I haven't even done all the things I've wanted to do! Hindi pa ako nakapagpaalam sa nanay ko—aray!"

You'd felt something hit the back of your head. Hard. It was the glowing figure in white, but now you could see their unimpressed face scowling at you.

"Kalma lang, Inday. Hindi ka pa patay, pero makinig ka nang mabuti," they shushed you urgently (you weren't sure if they were male or female). "Do not be afraid. I am a messenger from the heavens, and I bear great news!"

"Great news...?" you trailed off, then your eyes widened excitedly. "Like, nanalo ba ako ng lotto? Isang milyon? Bilyon? Hala! Wait, is this a Mama Mary moment? I'm not ready to be the next immaculate conception!"

They glared at you, making you shut up instantly. "Sorry, I'll shut up now," you apologized with a mumble. This person (thing?) was kind of... strict. Whatever did you do wrong? You were just sleep-deprived and running on energy drinks (as well as kape).

"I have come to tell you that you are the vessel of the last skymaiden," they revealed, arms wide open. The light around them seemed to grow even brighter, making you squint. You felt like you were about the go blind! "Ikaw ang huling biraddali, Y/N L/N."

At ayun, zero brain cells remaining. Tunay na nagloading screen ang brain mo. Nag-error at nagcrash pa nga siguro, eh.

"... Ha? Ano?"

You blinked, completely speechless—as seen by how wide your jaw had dropped open. It wasn't that you were unfamiliar with the biraddali, it was just that you'd only heard of them once when you were just a young child. Your Tita Miranda had mentioned they were long gone from the world of the supernatural.

"Oh no, me? A biraddali? You're joking," you stuttered out, pointing at yourself. "Aren't they extinct or something? And, uh... not human?"

They nodded, "Yes. It is correct that everyone in the mystical world thought that the biraddali were long gone, even before the colonizers came to conquer the native lands. However, before the skymaidens all disappeared, the youngest and most powerful one among the seven sisters sealed her soul away to the rivers of time until the strength of a heavenly being was needed to help purify the evils of the world." The figure floated closer to you. "That last biraddali's soul, along with its corresponding power, traits, and knowledge, had chosen to reside deep within you the moment you were conceived."

Honestly, how were you even supposed to react? Your life was nowhere near ready for something like this. Was this a prank by your friends? Your colleagues? The light around this person seemed too authentic to be fake, though.

You stayed in shock for an entire minute, silent. The being in front of you only waited for a response.

"Ano 'to, Sailor Moon? Winx Club?" you whispered to yourself, before slapping your own cheek and scolding yourself. A stinging red mark was left on your face. "Inday, kakamanhwa mo 'yan! Nasosobraan ka na ata, matulog ka na!"

Sighing heavily, you rubbed your face tiredly, still in disbelief that you—according to this stranger—were apparently some old soul from a species of ethereal beings that were long gone. It sounded like something out of those reincarnation webnovels you got addicted to. What now, you were the MC? Wattpad ka, girl?

"Look, this is a mistake. I still have to wake up early tomorrow to give out the donations," you spoke to the glowing being (or whatever it was), laughing nervously. "I'm sorry, but I think you have the wrong person. Either that or I must be hallucinating from sleep deprivation, because I'm definitely not a divine creature. You're probably just a product of my imagination. Sorry, I'm going to bed."

Bang!

At that moment, the power in the building went out. The only thing you could see was the thing who assumed you were a biraddali (they were so bright they were like a flashlight in the dark for you).

"Brownout?" you blinked. It felt wrong, though. It was eerily silent. "Did a fuse blow up?"

"Nagsimula na ang iyong unang pagsubok, Y/N," they announced seriously. "Creatures of the dark have already begun to take over this building. You may not have noticed, but all throughout your life, you have always been helping and giving. It is your nature as a being descended from the heavens themselves, and now, it is time for you to accept your destiny."

"Hoy, sandali lang! Sandali, sandali!" You were absolutely wide awake now as you heard the sounds of strange whispers around you. It was terrifyingly creepy, much creepier than whatever you'd seen back in the Trese Residence (and you'd seen a lot in that house). You did not want to be a part of a horror movie-like lifestyle. "Don't I have a choice in this?! I—I don't have any training or fighting skills! Hindi ako Alexandra Trese o Babaylan-Mandirigma! I'm not ready for this, holy sh—"

The candescent creature raised a brow at you, "Inday, I just told you that you have the power of a lost mystical being. And tell me, if you had the power to save your companions in this building from the forces of evil, would you save them?"

You were silent, knowing the answer.

"Well?" they prodded.

You bit your lip, "Oo naman. I'm not heartless!" But you were a little impulsive. And apparently, insane.

"That's what I thought. I just need you to believe in yourself," the being encouraged, gentler this time. It transformed into something smaller and rounder—like a ball of light. "Ikaw ang huling biraddali, Y/N, at marami kang kapangyarihan. Isa dito ay ang pagtulong sa mga nangangailangan, lalo na laban sa masasamang nilalang."

Bestie, what had you just gotten into?

You swallowed apprehensively, then nodded in determination, "Sige. So, how do I save the people in the building? Biraddali were said to be able to shapeshift, right? If I remember the tale correctly. Oh my God, I can't believe this is happening to me right now."

"That's just one of your abilities, but I'll teach you. I'm actually your guide," they replied confidently. "With me, you'll be able to master your powers and exceed your capabilities in no time!"

"Wait! Anong pangalan mo?" you asked breathlessly, following them as they speedily flew out of the room. "Grabe, slow down! I'm not athletic! I haven't even exercised this week, goodness."

"... Gabay. Ako si Gabay."

Despite the adrenaline and fear running in your veins, you still grinned up at the ball of light, "Okay. Nice to meet you, Gabay."

This was just the beginning of your supernatural combat training abroad. When you returned to the Philippines three years later, you were stronger, faster, and more powerful than you'd ever felt before. It was crazy.

Oh, that guy who tried to rob you when you came back to Manila was crazy, too. The two identical-looking men in dark suits and white ties—you wondered how they were surviving the heat in that attire—could only watch in awe as you chased down that man who stole your bag while doing acrobatics and parkour.

"Uy, Kuya Crispin, sino kaya 'yun?"

"Ewan ko, Basilio."

"... She's kind of pretty. Type ko. Type mo rin ata."

"The more important question is, paano niya na nahuli ang magnanakaw?"

"Oo nga, no? One in a million chance 'yan dito sa Maynila, haha! Ang astig ni ate!"

(Next Chapter.)

± Author's Notes ±

Ayieee, type daw tayo ng kambal! 😌

How the hell did I write this entirely random thing in one day? 2k+ words? Ano daw? 😃⁉️

You know, this was supposed to just be a Trese one-shot or a bunch of drabbles for the characters I'm currently simping for... but it turned into a full-blown, shameless self-insert slash crackfic. Kakacellphone ko 'yan. 🤦‍♀️

Nagresearch pa ako ng articles about Filipino skymaidens because I wanted something similiar to the Japanese celestial maidens (tennyo). Very random idea but why not? Gusto ko ng badass Y/N na hindi takot lumaban sa mga mumu! 👻

Also, pagbigyan niyo nalang ang matandang 'to kasi ilang taon na akong hindi nagpopost ng mga writings ko. May track record pa naman ako bilang author na hindi nagtatapos ng mga fanfic, hehe. I also haven't read the comics so please forgive me for any inaccuracies and of course, misspellings/errors. Gusto ko lang matapos 'to para makakabalik na ako sa Jujutsu Kaisen. 🥲😗

Anyways, comments and constructive criticism are welcome! Hit those heart, reblog, and follow buttons for updates! Just comment if you want to be tagged in the next chapters. ❤

[hashirun]

Hi kaye. Miss your posts. Lately di ko nakikita sa feed. Now lang ulet. Hope you are doing fine. Hope we can meet in some ways or maybe in another life hahah. I dunno what i am saying hahah

Hello! Di ko alam, feeling ko lost ako. I keep hitting roadblock after roadblock and I don't know where to go, how to keep moving forward. May sense pa ba tong mga ginagawa ko? Most of the time I am gripped with fear and uncertainty and insecurity. I'm trying to get into a more positive headspace but I'm struggling. I know this too shall pass. I know I'll be back to my old self. I just don't know when, but rest assured I'm working on the how.

Thank you, this made me feel better. Someone looking for me. Hoping I'm doing fine.

Ampangit ko ka-bonding ngayon anon. Sorry 🥲

Sana okay ka din lagi and meeting in the future sounds nice ✨✨✨

[bbarican]

life updates: last month of 2021

whats up tumblr? i am back and its been awhile since i posted a life updates master list so i figured why not post one tonight, heck i have so much i wanna get out of my chest and mind, might as well do it now while im resting so without further ado, here's whats been going on lately:

work:

emailed my boss already asking if may company policy ba when it comes to filing for leave in terms of reviewing for the boards and im not surprised na she hasnt replied yet even though its been a weel; shes a super busy i get it, so my senior just advised me to file for leave either way especially since im already decided on taking the board exam regardless

work is okay, mean, its the only thing im busy with right now so there are days where its super hectic but there are days as well where its just really slow so its kind of a nice balance from time to time

freenlance work is going well too! just waiting for my tita's approval for the documents i recently submitted before i can start on the next phase which is the ceiling plan and the elevation (which is yung pinaka madugong part in my opinion when working on the keyplans)

im really happy too that our resort is doing really well kasi kahit papano nakakabawi na kami after the whole the 2 or 3 times na nag ecq yung metro manila and batangas

family:

really really excited for this month kasi ang daming ganap! my dad's birthday is this weekend and my cousins are coming over; sa susunod na weekend, pupunta kami ng bestfriends ko sa resort namin for a much needed mini reunion/getaway; and come christmas day, dito din magcecelebrate mga pinsan ko and my titos and titas so im just really excited

it hasnt been all rainbows and butterflies; there was one day where nagkasagutan kami ng mom ko and it just really made me feel like i still dont belong at all in this family and that our relationship (me and my parents' relationship) changed drastically ever since my brother left for the states

but we're okay now! a part of me is still like on a tightrope, just trying not to fuck anything up especially cause its the holidays, but at the same time another part of me is just trying my best to make everything work out and try my best to be there for my family and make them happy

my mom and her taste in food and the fact that sometimes she doesnt hold back? chef's kiss, muy bien, i love when she's in the mood to cook or buy food cause its always more than enough for the whole family

friends:

not much to say because im lucky enough to be surrounded by people who i dont have to talk to everyday and yet still hold the same energy between us and i really appreciate that with my friends cause they know im 1. super busy and 2. super lazy and the fact that they dont really mind really warms my heart or if they do mind, they tell me up front

personal life:

im currently having another really bad allergy attack and i hate it, my t-zone feels numb, im constantly going dizzy, and buti nalang medyo nawala na yung pagkakati ng lalamunan ko cause coughing just makes my brain throb

i hate it when my room is a mess, i feel like im less productive when there's clutter around me so i have to clean my room asap tomorrow morning or else im just gonna feel really lazy

i really cant wait to save more money; not because i wanna buy more things, its just that im already 23, thats still young for some people, but i really do want to become totally financially independent really soon

another thing i want to work on asap is learning how to drive kasi 1. my parents are never gonna allow me to go anywhere freely with our driver being with me all the time whenever i go out and 2. our family driver wants to retire already so 3. since grab is really fucking expensive and scary during a pandemic, i might as well start learning how to drive

my ig feed is full of stick and poke style tattoos in these really cute and very me type of design and i just know its a sign from the gods telling me to save that money and get a tattoo as soon as i can (and as soon as my parents wont mind anymore)

im craving for sushi and korean food; might consider buying some sa sweldo!

speaking of, i need to buy gifts too this coming sweldo! i just hope everything arrives on time since magbabalot pa ko and everything

tapos i plan on baking pa for a bunch of people so i need to buy ingredients and bake and buy ribbons para cute yung packagaing AAAAAAH my virgo brain is on overdrive and part of me loves it and another part of me hates it 100%

love:

SURPRISE wala pa din

but if theres anyone out there who would want to be my little christmas plot twist, please step on up, that mistletoe is gonna go to waste if we dont end up making out underneath it

so yeah thats basically my life these past few weeks; again if youve made it till the end of this post, thank you for actually taking your time to read what i have to say

i hope everyone is doing okay and i hope the holiday cheer is slowly but surely getting to each and every one of you!