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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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You’re placed in a room with an animal. The door is closed and you cannot leave. The animal is completely calm and has no intent of harming you. You are in no danger unless you provoke the animal in some way.
#having a conversation about pathological fears of animal#if you put me in a room with the worlds chillest nicest chimpanzee I would be in hysteric#it’s been that way ever since age 12#that scene in nope was the most validated I’ve ever felt in my life#lea off topic tag#I just want to gauge if people have specific phobias of certain animals
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misc NU doodles part tres
last comic is based off off my nasb 2 clip
#nicktoons unite#danny phantom#jimmy neutron#the fairly oddparents#spongebob squarepants#el tigre#my life as a teenage robot#manny rivera#jenny wakeman#also HELLO HI ive been getting a surge of messages lately and i havent gotten to replying bc ive been a bit busy#and i also wanna say i love reading all the tags on my latest posts youre all so funny#thank you for enjoying my art theres more where that came from#im still i nthe middle of watching el tigre and i ended up getting hyperfixated i fear#mlaatr will be next hold ur horses jenny enjoyers#dewdles#comic
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finally finished This Wip from Ever ago and so now i ask you ever look into another dudes eyes and suddenly want to do whatever he wants
#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#professor x#magneto#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#the kids are here too but i aint taggin them vaeLKEVJKLJ#snap sketches#posting this now and not obsessing over the details i need to SLEEP#please click/tap and zoom to read anything im sorry theres so much dialogue#i thought i was gonna finish this sooner but i went grocery shopping with my bro today and that took longer than expected !!!!#ALSO CHAT. if youre up to date on My Lore via my tags ... my prof's lettin me submit my assignment ... life's so good...#speaking of life being good i was giggling like stupid while drawing this . i named it 'this is stupid' and i stand by that#this is so unserious im gonna make myself throw up ITS SO CORNY i make myself sick with what i draw <- will continue to do this#only god knows if this is even how that power of his works i just saw an opportunity and ran with it#the trick here is he doesnt even have to use any 'power' he can just do that to charles by default#however im making them be obnoxious about it. i am making them obnoxious over dramatic grandpas because i can#my only crime is loving the utter cheese and corniness of the 60s comics like God. anyways bye !!!!!!!#maybe one day ill finish that other comic i sketched for this weekend but i fear i wont have time to so next weekend me thinks ....#for now i hope you all enjoy this. goofy as hell nonsense jLAKJVEKLVJ
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*appears with a note saying "odypen art pls?"*
mwah!
*skidaddles*
russet potato & banana peel <3
#i fear i cooked with this one#what waiting for the ithaca saga does to a mf#lol#im very proud of this#never would have guessed it would turn out this good#forgive me for the lack of facial features my braincells can only go so far. also turns out i cant draw noses to save my life#yay me#epic the musical#epic the ithaca saga#ithaca saga#would you fall in love with me again#my art#grey hairs whoop whoop!!#the scarsssss#sorry this took forever to answer lol#hope u liek <3#inbox shenanigans#do i do requests now?#whos to say#odypen#odysseus#penelope#so many tags lol
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girl who has suffered more than alll-mer
(ID in alt text)
#fear and hunger#fear and hunger termina#fear and hunger 2#samarie fear and hunger#fear and hunger samarie#samarie#doodles#mine#so hard to tag for a mononymic character. girl get a last name. domek is right there#these are the three samarie emotions: yearning radiating and Abject Misery#she also gets an emotional support mini-rina. it's what she would have wanted#took a 5-hour crash course in funger bc i saw marina's moonscorched. ended up feeling so strongly for samarie i had to exorcise it thru art#you can't put a pathetic sopping wet shaking unhinged little creature in front of me and expect me not to itch to treat her kindly for the#first time ever in her life#poor little unloved lamb let me keep you and coddle you and cover you in blood. let me give you one good day like a mouse soon to be fed to#a pet snake. let me feed you to the snake regardless.#anyway. the psychic attacks i've been fielding bc of samarina have been relentless. can unwell teen girls stop reflecting my life circa#junior high school. thanks
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Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between
#to be or not to be. that is the question#ty adam for being my model for dramatic vampire moment#musings on the thinkings about:#when to live you are required to hurt others. you must repeatedly ask yourself what the value of your life is#To sleep... perchance to dream...#ah. THERES THE RUB.#ok I actually couldnt come up with too many thoughts. I had a lot more while I was drawing this but I guess I put them in the painting LOL#reading that soliloquy and being like damn this is just like vampires#the reality of course is that the soliloquy is a debate over suicide and ultimately making the choice to live#even if just out of fear of the unknown#and vampires are about dying and then in undeath choosing to continue to live#despite the fear of eternity and loneliness and hurting others#theyre not the same. but like let me thiiink come onnnn I'm allowed to thiiink and have incomplete thoughts#I would have to write like a proper essay about this to organize my thoughts. this is the tags on a tumblr post.#anyways finished episode 79#working on patreon stickers for this month (and next month soon)#and working on book 4. taking a pause from episodes cause I've got 3 weeks of buffer now... UGH#I'm so mad that they changed it. it would have been 5 weeks before but it's fine it's whatever#anyways yeah taking a break from episodes to make my book now!#its good stuff.#and this painting is good stuff#banger after banger from me tbh#this was a little relaxing giving myself a couple hours to muse#it's necessary for my health and I always forget that til I do a painting...#I loved doing the little landscape in the background too I should do that more! I love how plants are just like whatever shape you want#like you can make up any plant you want and not only does that plant PROBABLY exist somewhere#a weirder plant exists somewhere too. so. literally whatever you want#ok bye again for a few days while I get back to work
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My jewish community, friends, rabbi, and educators: We are very invested in helping you be jewish. Do you want to help read the haftarah? Here's a chanukiah! You can have it!! Borrow these books! Here's some books! You need more books... Come to pesach! Come to the chanukah party! When are your classes done? We need a minyan for once!
Me and my 50000 IQ: What if I am Secretly Appropriating judaism? What if I am doing a Cultural Appropriation........
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#there comes a point where your concerns about if you are an Appropriative Cultural Appropriator hinders your jewish journey#i think a comforting thing is knowing that my incessant fear about this is confirmation that i love judaism#i love it with my heart and soul and (i feel) i'd be a less realized person without it#and i think people who genuinely engage in cultural appropriation just Do Not Care about the cultures they appropriate from#they don't love the culture enough to respect it and that is a big reason that it even IS appropriation#especially when jewish people are INVITING you to do things... it's not appropriation#i dunno last night i was feeling very anxious about lighting the chanukiah candles because i'm alone#but i've also lit shabbos candles. and it's just like... why would i choose not to engage in this when one day i will have to?#this time next year i will have to light candles. as a jew. and if i have no clue how to do it myself then i'll just avoid it#plus... i love my chanukiah and i want to use it. it is currently decorating my room because i love it#i hope they'll let me take pictures of all the chanukiah that'll be at the party#i'm sure they will because they're very open and they are very accommodating. in fact i'm bringing my clarinet too#i haven't touched that thing in well over four years 😭#but jewish music without a clarinet is like a body with no soul. it's impossible. it is not what g-d wants i think.#i just hope my ability to play by ear hasn't been affected by my lack of playing. i don't have perfect pitch tbc#but i fully believe you can know your instrument so well that you develop an ear for perfect pitch#in fact... i refused to memorize my marching band music because i DID develop that 'perfect pitch' ear. that's my dirty secret#i didn't practice in part because i can't have a space where noone could hear me practice and it's embarrassing and private to me#literally EVERY jew in my life has been almost TOO ecstatic about my jewish journey. i'm very thankful for it#i guess i just didn't think i deserved to have people as happy about me being in judaism as i am#so to be clear this is my brain being rude and dumb. this anxiety has NEVER been reinforced by anyone but myself#so i take full responsibility for it. but i think that anxiety is something many/most converts/jews-in-progress feel
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deserved. he's been through a lot
#my art#tickling#ocs#the sight#i wanted to draw this several days ago (day of blackout and That Other Event) but i kept drawing other stuff.#the b team#(i should tag my dirk/rose as the b team since that's still what they are... together......)#dirk was reading no fear shakespeare at the time.#twelfth night maybe.#rose was playing... drawn to life
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today martyn said that (in his canon) the watchers have been purposefully trying to keep grian from being boogey and he also said that grian, as a watcher, also feeds on the fear of the players. therefore it can be concluded that by depriving grian of the boogey curse the watchers are trying to starve him and keep down his power levels in this essay i will,
#grian#limited life#watching waiting#the watchers#i’m just trying to tag this so people can filter it lol#watcher grian#seriously though thank god for martyn his lore interpretations? AWESOME#i’ve loved the concept of watchers and by extension grian feeding on fear since it was first brought up#it’s gonna be rotating in my brain forever now
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yaoi more toxic than the chernobyl elephant's foot
#art tag#funger#fear & hunger#fear & hunger termina#daan von dutch#pavel yudin#levi f&h#the first one is older than the other 3 so its kind of ugly. sorryy#anyways these 3 idiots have completely consumed my life for the past couple days. keeping me sane honwstly#forgot to tag the little freak#pocketcat#idk what the ship names are. daavel???
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love poem (typical)
#my writing#my stuff#words#poetry#poems#i doubt that these tags will go anywhere so mainly for archiving purposes#guys (slamming head into table affectionately¥) i fear your favorite mr worldwide manwhore is once again In Love#i have this disease where everywhere i go i fall in love with people and then i write about them#what can i help it though she’s devastatingly lovely#i texted my friend three weeks ago and i was like#i am suffering from an excess of kind beautiful and extremely hot women in my life and she was like#this is a good problem to have. i mean it is also kind of giving’will hsge to do crazy troubleshooting later’#but for now i’m love love and i get to write poems about a beautiful girl so#wahoo! and yipee! and the like#hope love is with all of u too. in every shape. love of friends and lovers and family and all the other things and people
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Important tip for trans men/transmascs/whoever needs the reminder: Even if you pass as a man to cis people, you still need to have either some form of self-protection on you (e.g., mace, knives (if you can use them effectively), ect.) or know some form of self-defense. Please take it from me, you don't know what will happen out there at any given time.
You might assume that if you pass as a cis man to cis people, you will be safe from any harm. While I wish that were true, it simply isn't the world most of us live in. Please do whatever you can to protect yourself out there.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#nonbinary#ask to tag (genuine)#there's this idea that once you start passing as a man as a trans guy* that all your worries about attacks... disappear...#...but i'm going to be real my fears of being followed/sexually harassed/heckled/ect have increased by double...#...and i never felt the need to have self-protection before (which was kind of foolish even if i felt certain i was physically safe)...#...but honestly i think i really ought to start investing in this shit the more i pass#anyway please learn from my mistakes ♡#i talk about this a lot but it is a life-or-death level of importance to me#yes this goes for all trans people...#...i just call out other trans guys specifically because so many of us assume or are told we're immune to this type of violence
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This election isn't looking great now.
BUT.
There is one thing you must ALWAYS. ALWAYS REMEMBER.
Your two greatest, most powerful weapons against evil, against bigotry and fascism, against hate, against even hate that comes from inside the self...
are Hope, and Spite.
If nothing else can fuel you, let these. Embrace these. Let these consume you, let them become all that you are.
Let Hope help you find light in the little details, silver linings to cling onto with bleeding hands and pockets of joy to admire in every day. Let it inject you with good faith, motivation to spread kindness where it is needed most, and deepening trust that this won't last forever.
Let Spite charge you with fury that carries you to make moves and take actions. Let it lead you to little victories right in the face of evil. Let it fuel you to do the strongest, most meaningful thing you can possibly do in this potential age: Thrive.
With enough reframing of perspectives and looking in the right places, even the most oppressed can find little ways to thrive in their personal communities, to find joy in every day. To forget how bad things are for even a second. To believe and see proof that they can change it all. To cling onto their Hope and Spite.
And THAT is the most powerful message you can send to those who wish to eradicate you.
We are the cockroaches who survive the radiation. We are the banged-up sewer rats who get in countless scuffles and still come crawling out of the tunnels covered in wounds to see the sunrise. For it rises every day no matter what may be brewing underneath its shine.
And we will watch every sunrise together. We will hold hands and sing in our defiance. We will always remain connected through our shared suffering and yet especially our shared Strength.
And with our weapons kept at our sides, we will all make it.
#us elections#us election 2024#kamala harris#hopecore#mental health#hey if you read these tags please drink water and check if you have to pee right now#for the record. I am a queer AFAB who is likely mentally disabled in some capacity (AuDHD?)#And my actual Real Life with jobs and money management is about to come for me#So yes. I'm scared. Terrified. We all are#But the funny thing about fear is that it can only be as strong as you allow it to be#I'm um. Out of inspirational energy I was just doomscrolling for the past 3 hours so idk how to finish that#Just Cling Onto Your Weapons. We will all get through this and I love you.
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#voidmarkd; an indie, selective and fandomless portrayal of Atlas Fitzgerald, featuring themes as life in a coven, rebirth through death, marked by the void, necromancy, betrayal and abandonment, the blood and the burden, keeper of forgotten graves, [ . . . ] mutuals only. 21+. low activity. eng/ger. ♱ carrd ♱ memes ♱ open starters
#━ ✟ tag dump :#━ ✟ promo : ❝ atlas fitzgerald ; voidmarkd ❞#━ ✟ quotes : ❝ the dead speak louder in the quiet of the night. ❞#━ ✟ aesthetic : ❝ life ends but power endures in the shadows. ❞#━ ✟ visuals : ❝ i am the whisper in the dark ; the hand that stirs the ashes. ❞#━ ✟ starters & memes : ❝ shadow do not fear the light; they hunger for it. ❞#━ ✟ answered : ❝ life is debt paid in breaths. ❞#━ ✟ threads : ❝ words that stir deep emotions. ❞#━ ✟ open starters : ❝ shadows are my allies ; death my craft. ❞#━ ✟ games : ❝ no more mind games. ❞#━ ✟ out of character : ❝ i walk between the veil of life and death. ❞#userfakevz#supernatural rp#singlemuse rp#horror rp#oc rp#witch rp
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so i started playing persona 4
where are the QoL features
#persona#art tag#ACK I FORGOR TO COLOUR THE BITS BEHIND HAIR nvm#i have no idea how to tag this!!#i fear what original p3 might have been like#i feel like a fake gamer man#like how did you guys do that#i feel like i would have given up if it was the first one i played#i am too stupid!!#im glad i have played through 5 and 3re#i am somewhat used to the flow of the game and the ability names#otherwise i would be STRUGGLING for my LIFE i tell you#like to be fair i dont think it's a huge world#BUT LIKE PLEASE IM LOST IN MY OWN HOUSE#also these protags are basically my OCs at this point#i borrow their canon personalities#and reshape them into something i like more hehehehe#edit: im crying im getting lowkey flamed on tweeter dot com#i just meant it as in joker spent a lot of time in tokyo!! one year changes a man!!#I KNOW inaba is small!! but QoL additions are always good!!#i get the appeal!! that you use your brain!!#you spend enough time to know the place!! but it's called QoL features not NECESSARY features!!#im cryin the boys ate just bantering#you can even read it as yu being like LOL you're a city boy now huh?? hahaha#now i really am fighting for my life and mental
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