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I can't be the only one with intense mind-numbing fear of being perceived as lying or being disingenuous despite truthfulness being one of my dearest values. When you get accused of dishonesty often enough as a child & teen you grow up to think no one believes you. When really all along you were showing signs of anxiety that happen to look like guilt too - shifty eyes, fidgeting, stuttering. The more you realize you look guilty, the guiltier you unintentionally act as you try to convince others you're being honest. It's not just me right?? Right?
#fear of not being believed#its hitting me so hard these days#especially with being so sick so often lately and my job being so patient w me#social anxiety disorder#anxiety disorder#chronic anxiety#actually avpd#actually avoidant#avoidant personality disorder#personal
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Self-doubt.
#vent#vent art#emotional neglect#self doubt#father why have you forsaken me#tw emotional abuse#idk if an edited text convo with myself counts as art but whatever#he liked to use âI donât think I knowâ to make me doubt myself#at least thatâs how I perceived it as a child#regardless of his true intentions that shit fucked with my head and still does#fear of not being believed
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I've seen a lot of different takes on Fear Toxin/other fear causing stuff (Yellow Lanterns Ring or something)(later just called Fear Toxin cause I'm lazy) but here is another one.
Danny seems like he isn't affected by Fear Toxin because his biggest fear is that his accident changed him so much he is no longer human, he can no longer truly experience human things.
So when he gets lungful of fear Toxin, he feels normal. He was antsy before, because c'mon, it's a rogue attack but it's not worse. Or so he thought. Because the anxiety lingers. Not enough to register as abnormal just this slight hypervigilance that makes you see things about yourself and your surroundings that you'd never realize otherwise. He'd realize he doesn't blink as often. He'd realize that if he doesn't consciously focus, he sometimes seems to not touch the ground. Forgets to breathe. He can't feel his own pulse at time. He'd realize people will miss him when he's walking down the street as if he was invisible (people just don't care about everyone they pass by). When he'd look straight into his reflection, he'd look slightly to the left. Not enough to actually name anything that was wrong but just stretched enough to fall on the wrong side of the uncanny valley. If he just caught his reflection in the peripheral vision, it'd be vaguely shadowy creature with glowing green eyes and white smoke instead of hair. Overall he'd be just wrong enough to be distinctly not human.
For everyone else, he'd be just a dude. Literally couldn't find more normal dude than this dude. Will pass as absolutely normal human unless someone is specifically looking for ecto-ghost stuff. Even most magic users wouldn't clock him at the glance
Tldr: Fear Toxin makes Danny perceive himself as some sort of eldritch horror but not enough to make him believe he'd actually be affected, while from outside perspective he's Just A Dudeâ˘
#dpxdc#dc x dp#dp x dc#dcxdp#fear toxin#please no Ghost King#nothing against this au but i don't think it'll mesh well woth this idea#probably works best with danny soon after accident#maybe still believing all of his parents anti-ghost propaganda#that'd add to angst for sure#idk why he is somewhere where he could be affected#idk who would realize something is wrong#up to whoever wants to do expand on this prompt#he'd cry when someone tells him he's been in fact affected by fear causing thing#because this means he *is* human and while he was fundamentally changed by his death#it didn't fully get rid of his humanity#but he won't tell that too busy being relieved so whoever delivered the news would be in for the ride#actually it'd be cool if it was someone who has superpowers but they showed up later in their life#parallels y'know#... i may still not be normal about âi wonder what could lie beyond infinityâ by Numinous_Scribe on ao3...#top notch fic go read it great Clark characterization#anyway because plot kinda escaped me#hope this idea scratches someone's creative braincell or something#im curious what y'all will make out of it#yellow lantern#have a nice day dear stranger who got to this part
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#enki ankarian#fear and hunger#cahara of the south#dâarce cataliss#ragnvaldr#funger#I feel like Iâm spamming the Enki tag on tumblr and I feel bad LOL#sorrryyyyyyy am just autistic abt my wife#Iâm not an artist by any means and I barely write anything worth sharing (but you best believe I write!!)#so instead I just silly mode this mf until I am blocked by 90% of tumblr for being too annoying#OHHH YEAH thatâs what it is Iâm scared that people will go thru the Enki tag to see something cool bc he is a rly neat guy#and instead they come across 70+ posts from tumblr user fearfulandhungry about Enki ripping my arms off and giggling#le sigh le sigh Le sigh
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something about how Lorraine Baines McFly raised her son to be someone that her younger self would have felt safe around. Especially since she was mistreated and harassed near-constantly by Biff. She raised her son to be kind and emotional and unafraid to stand up against bullies. No wonder she fell for him in the past.
#âEww she fell in love with her sonâ#No she fell for someone who literally is the antithesis of any other guy she knows#And thatâs by design#Also#its not like she knew#lorraine baines#marty mcfly#back to the future#bttf#ALSO#think about it#marty tried so hard his whole life up til the movie trying to be the opposite of his dad#Outspoken attentive confident#But heâs so much like George regardless#Their fear of rejection#âWhat if they think Iâm no goodâ#Their being afraid to pursue their passions/being shut down#Lorraine was always going to fall for george#She fell in love with the George she saw in marty#But Marty caught her eye because of his confidence#Lorraine lived a miserable life with George originally#But when he started believing in himself and became the more confident version of himself#Lorraine fell for him harder and they lived a great life together#Jesus thatâs a lot of tags#P-14f
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daniel molloy, my new bestie
#Interview with the Vampire#IWTV spoilers#loustat#so much making me insane here#I figured armand had to be more than a spectator but I didn't expect him to be the director. his panic upon realizing what daniel is holdin#'YOU HAVE NO IDEA OF CLAUDIA'S STRENGTH' I WON'T SURVIVE CLAUDIA FROM LESTAT'S PERSPECTIVE I FEAR#last week I literally paused the ep when the audience said banishment to OUT LOUD ask 'was that lestat or armand?'#and bc armand claimed he did it and that's what the show told us I believed it. THE SCREAM I MADE AT THE REVEAL IT WAS LESTAT#(and jacob saying in the insider that lestat would have saved claudia if he had the strength. IM SICK)#'you were supposed to die with claudia! [armand] didn't save you. lestat did!' DANIEL'S BECOME A LESTAT STAN#armand's nervous laugh at all this being exposed lol#(also apologies for the mssg notification in the middle of the scene LOLLLLLLLLLLL. forgot to mute tumblr while I was screenrecording)
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saw a tweet about mer!ghost being rescued from roba by price and placed in his rehab facility that soap lives in after a boat propeller injured his tail and now iâm obsessed with the idea that ghost thinks he's traded one hell for another and when he sees the beached shark mer with a human device strapped to his tail, it's all but confirmed for him
the pens theyâre in are poorly designed; theyâre huge, deep with glass walls but completely open to each other and it takes nothing to pull himself over the edge into the the other mer's cage. he swims over to the platform heâs trapped on and hushes what he thinks is panicked warnings and fearful pleading. he covers his mouth and begs him to stay quiet; ghost is bigger and as an injured mer, he has every right to fear he'd take his territory if not eat him outright but he canât escape and leave this mer behind to endure his fate
he promises he won't hurt him, promises he'll find a way to free them both from this human prison
the mer quiets, eyes narrowing in such human confusion that it makes him ache; this mer has been here too long, to have adopted their mannerisms and abandoned any hope of freedom
ghost quickly checks their surroundings, ensuring none of their jailers heard the mer's noises. no one disturbs them and he pulls the mer off the platform into the water, diving under his tail to get a better look at the trap. the mer tries to pull away, tries to get him to stop; it must hurt something awful if even freedom isn't enough of a temptation to try removing it
ghost winds his own tail around him, immobilising the mer and uses his teeth to tear through the trap and his heart breaks to see how his poor tail has been mangled; more than half of it gone, deep scarring left in its wake
he releases the mer and jets back to the surface; heâs wasted too much time, they need to hurry before the humans return. but when he looks to coax the mer through an escape, he sees him sinking to the floor like a stone, writhing and moving his arms in an attempt to swim but nothing stops his fall
ghost ducks back down and takes the mer in his arms-
only to rear back when he claws him away, baring his fangs in a threat display even as he sinks back to the floor, unmoving
ghost circles him, confused why he won't let him help when he sees him start to suffocate. he's a shark mer; if he doesn't swim, he can't breathe
and with only half a tail, he can't swim at all
ghost tries again but the mer wonât let him close so he waits for his eyes to begin to flutter and charges in, grabbing the mer out of reach of his claws and fangs and drags him through the water; forcing precious oxygen into his gills
he swims in circles until the mer comes to, sluggishly clawing at his arms but he refuses to let go. he won't leave this mer behind, even if he has to carry him through the ocean for the rest of their lives
but they took too long
a human enters and sees ghost holding the injured mer and hits something that makes the walls screech, red flashing from the ceiling, and even more human come charging in. ghost clutches the injured mer to his chest and hisses, saliva flying from his bared fangs
he won't let them hurt him any more
he spins, trying to keep them all in his sight- when the shark mer's fin slaps him in the face. his arms slacken around him and he throws himself at one of the walls of the cage, gripping it to hold himself up
ghost stares at him, betrayed and enraged; they've broken this poor mer until he doesn't even know who his true allies are anymore
his tail thumps against the wall, instinctively trying to swim and support his weight and one of the humans drops to one knee. he throws an arm out, barking something and another human takes off running
he turns back to the injured mer, grabbing hold of his arm and ghost hisses again, rushing them both when the mer snarls at him to stop and he freezes. he watches the mer hold his arms up and the human clasps his forearms and stands, walking him along the border of his cage back to the platform he'd been beached on
but he chirps as the human tugs him up on it, curling up with the end of his tail just barely dipping in the water
like he's happy
the wailing and flashing lights abruptly stop and ghost fights the urge to shake the echoing ring from his ears. the other human returns and he doesn't fight the hiss when he sees another trap in his arms; the same one the mer had around his tail
ghost's hiss cuts off when he gets a face full of water and he splutters, looking back incredulously at the shark mer who'd just splashed him
he laughs at whatever look is on his face and rolls his eyes in another painfully human gesture. he reaches for the trap, fingers flexing like he's trying to pull it right out of the air and the human shakes his head as he hands it over
the mer lifts his tail onto the platform and ghost can't believe his eyes when he fits the trap onto himself; tightening every strap until the muscles of his tail bulge under the pressure. the mer slumps like he's relieved and shoots him a look; daring and almost playful and winks as he throws himself into the water
ghost lunges for him, waiting for him to sink again-
but he's not sinking
he's swimming
he twirls and spins around him like an overgrown dolphin, flaunting his strength and agility and the humans around them laugh and shake their heads at the display like theyâre used to it and ghost realises it isn't a trap on his tail
it is his tail
the humans gave him a new tail
the mer flicks to a stop in front of him, now easily supporting his weight and gives him a full-fanged grin
"you're a little tangled up inside, huh, big boy?"
#ghost being certain all humans are the same bc hes never been shown otherwise and soap whos only alive bc price took him in when he was hurt#soap trying so hard to convince him that heâs safe but words are nothing in the face of his memories and hes getting desperate#so the next time price comes to feed them soap bites him#itâs the first time heâs bitten him since his amputation so heâs beyond confused#and ghost is terrified#he thinks thisll be it. thisll be the moment that the facade shatters#he has to watch the one person he has left; the one person he cares about; be tortured and killed#he curls up with soap waiting for them to take him away and determined to force them to take him in his plac#but soap is so calm he has no fear at all and that scares him even more; that soapâs just accepted his fate#price comes back and ghostâs ready to fight to bite and claw- but price just tips their regular bucket of fish into their pen#his armâs wrapped in thick bandages and still all he does is nod at them and leave again#âsee? no matter what we do weâll always be safe hereâ soap promises and what can ghost do but believe him?#when soap risked everything for him what else can he do but fall in love?#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#weâre a team. ghost team#ghoap#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#soap cod#john soap mactavish#mer au#cod mw2#cod modern warfare#save post
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but my heart is like a claw machine
#undescribed#bonk.png#great god grove#ggg#great god grove spoilers#ggg spoilers#isttvg spoilers#she/her for hector on this post please n thank you#i had a bunch of tags attempting to explain this whole thing n post game transfem hector hc but the og post didnt show up in the tags#n its like 5:30 something n i was already having trouble explaining it bc ive had like four hours of sleep so i sadly cant talk about gender#stuff like i wanted to in full detail so something something sanding self down to be nonthreatening n palatable#something something the way players (myself included) falsely believed king was a man despite many of us being trans or otherwise queer#n pre endgame king only being referred to with they/them something something men as the default as problem solvers as leaders the heroes of#the story something something hector's envy of the way king is loved n admired n able to be heard as herself#hector's fear of death n irrelevance driving her to do the shit she did n the main theme of isttvg (aside from transgenderism) being fear of#death n how denying yourself will cause you to become irrelevant in ur own life disconnected from everything as the years fly by#theres still time.#enjoy the bullet points its almost six am im gonna pass out#wiat also fixation on youth in both how we view n associate feminity n what is normally explored n portrayed with transgendering
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DINNER IS (finally) SERVED
3000ish words later and part 8 is here! hope you guys enjoy!
(p.s my headcanons explainations are in the tags if you're curious)
(p.p.s credit also goes to @rin-solo for the first headcanon )
the post/thread that started this whole au
dinner scene: part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7
there's a masterlist now!
*odysseus is making his way to the dining hall, while athena and poseidon are following behind*
poseidon: *looking around at the decorations/tapestry dotted around*
poseidon: *seeâs a tapestry of what looks to be a very much younger odysseus in full king & armour attire*
poseidon: *stops walking, and turns to look at the actual odysseus in front of him, then back at the tapestry*
poseidon: *to odysseus with a sardonic tone* do your weavers like making you look like a boy, or was that a decision you made to make yourself look younger?
odysseus: *pauses his walking to see what poseidon is talking about*
athena: *also pauses and turns to poseidon*
odysseus: *sees the tapestry in question*
odysseus: *sighs* of course you point that one outÂ
athena: *who knew odysseus before he was king*
athena: *glaring at poseidon* uncle, you shouldnât make assumptions, especially when you donât know the facts
odysseus: *pats athena on the shoulder as he passes her*
odysseus: itâs fine athena
odysseus: *next to poseidon and looking up at the tapestry* if you must know, that is actually the age i was.Â
poseidon: *not believing him* yeah right, you couldnât be older than fifteen in this
odysseus: *turns to him with a sharp look* youâre correct, i was fifteen
poseidon: *slightly wary of odysseusâ mood* so⌠you became king at fifteen? isnât that a little bit young for a mortal to rule a kingdom?
odysseus: *turns back to the tapestry* i was already the king, i was actually crowned when i was thirteen
poseidon: *shocked and confused* why would a child be given a kingdom to run?
odysseus: *looks down with a sad smile, at the memory of his father telling him about him losing his mind, and how sorry he was to place such a huge responsibility on his young sonâs shoulders*
odysseus: well, i had no choice, but i would do it again if i had toâŚÂ
odysseus: *turns to athena* besides, i had athena to help guide me
athena: *smiles with a nod at odysseus*
odysseus: *starts walking in the direction of the dining hall again* anywayâŚenough of that, can we please just make our way to the dining hall now
*they all continue making their way down the hall*
poseidon: *notices a stain on the floor tiles not far in front of them*
poseidon: *points* i think your servants missed a spot
athena & odysseus: *both look to where heâs pointing*
athena: *chuckles to herself in knowing*
odysseus: *smirks*Â
poseidon: *sees both their expressions, and is confused*Â
odysseus: oh that..oh donât worry itâs clean
odysseus: *shrugs* itâs just so hard to get bloodstains out of white titles
poseidon: *wide eyed* blood?
odysseus: yeah.. not long after i finished with you, i arrived back on my island to find my palace overrun with 108âŚmutts⌠all vying for my wifeâs hand.Â
odysseus: *waving his hand like it was a simple issue* so i made sure to deal with them all myself⌠unfortunately one of them left a stain.
odysseus: -oh look weâve made it
odysseus: hope we havenât kept them too long
poseidon: *shocked at all the new odysseus lore heâs unlocked*
athena: *laughing at poseidonâs expression*
odysseus: *opening the door* come on letâs head in
poseidon: *shakes away the shock*
odysseus: *to poseidon* i guess itâs time to introduce you to my wife
*they all walk through the doorway into the dining hall*
*there penelope and telemachus both stand not too far from the dining table; which has quite the feast laid out, and from the steam coming off of it, it had not long be put there*
odysseus: *heads over to his son & wife*
odysseus: *looks at poseidon* poseidon, youâve met my son telemachus before.
telemachus: *can barely keep in his excitement*Â
telemachus: hi- i mean good evening lord poseidon, iâm so happ- grateful you accepted my father's invitation for dinner.Â
telemachus: *puts his arm on his chest, and leans forward in a bow of respect* i hope you enjoy the evening.
odysseus: *narrows his eyes at poseidon, silently threatening him to not be rude to his son*
telemachus: *looks back up at poseidon, smile on his face*
poseidon: *quickly nods his head in greeting to telemachus* good evening prince, your father tells me that this was all your ideaÂ
telemachus: *raises a hand to nervously scratch under his chin* um⌠yes i guess it was
poseidon: well then, thank you for the idea to invite me.
telemachus: *hand leaves his chin and a big smile breaks out* well of course! you are my fatherâs friend after all!
poseidon: *eye twitches before he quickly composes himself*Â
poseidon: yes⌠friend.
odysseus: *coughs* yes and now that youâve both reacquainted yourselves again⌠telemachus why donât you go speak with athena for a moment
telemachus: sure!
*telemachus makes his way to athena, and they start talking amongst themselves*
odysseus: *puts his arm around penelopeâs waist* now, please let me introduce you to my wife; the queen of ithaca, penelope.Â
penelope: *doesnât bow like telemachus, but nods in greeting* welcome to our palace lord poseidon
poseidon: *nods back* thank you for having me queen penelope
penelope: *smiles but her eyes have a certain glint to them*Â
penelope: my husband has told me all about your part in his journey home to us
poseidon: *totally not panicking a little* uh-
penelope: *glint leaves her eyes, but her smile remains*
penelope: -and also how you have helped out on his and my sonâs fishing trips lately.
penelope: of course, i would also like thank you for taking the time to attend tonight
poseidon: sure⌠no problem?
odysseus: great, everyone has met everyone!Â
odysseus: *to everyone* now, shall we sit down and eat the lovely feast the cooks have made us, before it gets cold?
odysseus: *moves to pull out one of the chairs at the head of the table for penelope as he normally does, when he notices that, there is only one chair instead of two*
odysseus: *looks up at the table and sees a piece of parchment with âmotherâ written on it*Â
odysseus: huh?
telemachus: *makes his way over to his father* oh! thereâs a different than usual seating plan for tonight! iâve put everyone's names where they should sit.
odysseus: *smiles at telemachus* oh ok, sure!
odysseus: well, i guess i should look for mine then, hey?
telemachus: yes, and please everyone else too!
*everyone makes their way to the table to see where theyâre sitting (even though three of them already know)*
odysseus: *sees the parchment with âfatherâ on it*Â
odysseus: *expecting to have either athena or telemachus next to him*
odysseus: *watches as athena stands in front of the seat opposite him*
odysseus: *thinks itâs weird to put athena & poseidon together, but thinks telemachus has done is as they are uncle & niece*
odysseus: *then sees telemachus stood in front of the seat next to athena*
odysseus: wait-
poseidon: *sees his name and heads towards it, only to look up and see odysseus standing in front of the seat next to him*
poseidon: wait-
poseidon & odysseus: *both look at each other in horror that they're stuck next to each other all evening*
telemachus: *not noticing the looks of doom on their faces* isnât this great? itâs a family dinner, so what better than friends sitting together?Â
telemachus: *turning to penelope* sorry youâre by yourself at the head of the table though mother
penelope: *smiles and waves her hand* i donât mind
penelope: anyway, let's sit and eat!
*everyone but odysseus and poseidon sit down. both who have a death grip on the back of their seats*
penelope: *clears her throat* odysseus, lord poseidon⌠would you both please sit down.
odysseus: *snaps out of his staring at poseidon*Â
odysseus: uh sureâŚ
odysseus: *sits down and look back to poseidon, nodding his head at poseidonâs seat in the motion for him to also sit down*
poseidon: *still doesnât sit*
odysseus: *a millisecond of a flash of red eyes*Â
poseidon: *sits*
odysseus: *internally to himself* oh this is gonna be a long evening
odysseus: *to everyone* ok, everyone dig in!
odysseus: *to poseidon* can you get what you want for yourself, mighty sea god? or do you need a mortalâs help?
poseidon: *grabbing a lamb chop off a platter and tearing into it savagely in defiance*
odysseus: *rolls his eyes at poseidon, but goes to place a filet of fish on his plate*
*everyone has been eating and talking*
poseidon: *looks at penelope (who is talking to telemachus & athena) and then looks at odysseus*
poseidon: *thinking and then looks back to penelope*
odysseus: *to poseidon* is there a reason you keep looking at my wife?
poseidon: *jumps at little at being caught looking*Â
poseidon: *turns to odysseus* oh do not worry yourself, i have no interest in your wife
odysseus: *unimpressed* why do you keep looking at her then?
poseidon: im..curiousÂ
odysseus: *narrowing his eyes* about?
poseidon: normally you mortal men choose women younger than them for their wives⌠yet clearly your wife is; from my estimates⌠about a decade older than you
poseidon: *now with his hand under his chin, leaning on the table*Â
poseidon: do you perhapsâŚprefer older women odysseus?
odysseus: *hands tighten in grip around his cutlery*
poseidon: *notices odysseus hasnât responded yet*
poseidon: iâm right arenât -
odysseus: no.
odysseus: *his eyes may not be red, but are clearly full of anger*
poseidon: *eyes widen in worry* whoa whoa! no need to get angry, itâs just a simple observationâŚ. anyone if they pay attention can see the age difference
poseidon: *moves his hand to flick his hair back over his shoulder* itâs not a bad thing
odysseus: *takes a breath in to calm down and then slowly releases it*
odysseus: we are- were the same age⌠physically at least
poseidon: *confused* i donât follow
odysseus: *looks at poseidon* during the 10 years it took for me to get home⌠i found myself stuck on a goddessâ island for 7 of themâŚ
poseidon: okâŚ
odysseus: *closes his eyes* caly- the goddess had full control over everything on the island⌠her magic influenced everything⌠including a mortal's ability to age.
poseidon: so you didnât-
odysseus: -age? yeah
odysseus: *sighs and opens his eyes* when i realised i wasnât⌠i- i-Â
odysseus: lets just say i didnât handle it well
poseidon: *blinks at this new information* oh
odysseus: yep âohâ indeedâŚÂ
odysseus: *looks back at poseidon*
odysseus: didnât you think it was odd that i looked exactly the same when we met again, almost 10 years after our first meeting?
poseidon: in my defence⌠i was angry and trying to kill you, i wasnât really paying attention to how you looked
odysseus: *rolls his eyes* i guess that's true
telemachus: uh lord poseidon? may i ask you a question?
poseidon: *happy to not continue his conversation with odysseus*
poseidon: *to telemachus* ask away prince of ithaca
telemachus: is it true that you gave achilles his horses balius & xanthus?
poseidon: *amazed at telemachusâ knowledge*Â
poseidon: not directly⌠but yes i am the reason he came to acquire them. you see i gave them to his father peleus, as a wedding gift for his wife thetisâŚ
*poseidon continues to tell the tale, and odysseus speaks with athena and penelope while more time passes*
*the meal is continuing smoothly as can be*
poseidon: *notices that odysseus has only been eating the fish. not touching a single bit of pork, beef or lamb that's also on the table*Â
poseidon: *who has continuously eaten all meats available*
poseidon: *to odysseus* is there something i should know about the meat?
odysseus: huh?
poseidon: *points at the selection of meat in question* what's wrong with the meat? youâve only touched the fish.
poseidon: if i hadnât seen the others eat it, iâd worry youâd asked your cooks to poison it or something.Â
odysseus: *raised eyebrow* poison wonât hurt you though?Â
odysseus: *pointing a fork at him* also, why do you care about my eating habits?
poseidon: *frowning at the fork* i donât, iâm just-
odysseus: curious? poseidon, i thought you were the god of the sea, not curiosityâŚ
poseidon: *huffs* forget it-
odysseus: i canât
poseidon: *now his eyebrow is raised* youâŚcanât?
odysseus: *now using the fork to push the food on his plate around* i canât stomach eating lamb, pork or beef anymore
poseidon: *forever confused by odysseus* uh why?
odysseus: *gives poseidon a âdo i really have to explain everything?â look*
poseidon: *just stares*
odysseus: *once again sighing because of poseidon* well i thought youâd understand lamb⌠after the whole sheep incident with⌠your son.
odysseus: then after i escaped you with the wind bag-
poseidon: *rolls his eyes at the memory*
odysseus: we wound up on the sorceress circeâs island⌠where she turned my men to pigs.Â
odysseus: i managed to convince her to turn them back, but it now feels weird to eat pork
odysseus: as for beef, short story is my men ignored my warnings and killed the sacred cattle of the sun god⌠so yeah beef is a no go for me also.Â
poseidon: *wondering how one mortal managed to interact with so many gods on a journey to get home*
poseidon: *laughs at odysseus* and youâre letting that affect your eating habits? i expected you to be stronger than that odysseus
odysseus: *narrows his eyes at poseidon* oh just like how you let my handling of your trident, affect you into doing as i say?
poseidon: *now glaring back*Â
poseidon: *turns away from odysseus* whatever, more meat for me
*dinner continues, with telemachus asking poseidon more questions. poseidon loving the interest in him and telelmachusâ knowledge, answers the all the questions with surprising enthusiasm*
*eventually what was once a giant feast of food has nearly been cleared from the table, thanks to having two gods eating most of it*
telemachus: have you enjoyed yourself so far lord poseidon?Â
telemachus: *smiling* itâs been really fascinating and fun to learn so much more about you
poseidon: *almost letting a small smile appear on his face in return*
poseidon: *instead just nods* yes, it certainly has been an interesting & knowledgeable evening
telemachus: what about the seating, was it a good idea to put you with my father?
poseidon: *wants to answer no, but feels a kick from under the table. clearly from odysseus*
poseidon: yes, you came up with an ok-
odysseus: *gives another kick*Â
poseidon: -great idea
telemachus: *laughs in happiness*Â
telemachus: oh but i canât take all the credit
odysseus: *raises an eyebrow in curiosity*Â
athena: *who is sipping wine next to him*
athena: *slightly chokes* wai-
odysseus: *suspicious* son, you must make sure to tell us who else to thank for this
telemachus: *not understanding the bombshell heâs about to drop* oh athena actually came up with the idea!
athena: *suddenly nervous with the two very intense stares directed at her*
athena: w-well it was just a suggestion reallyâŚ
telemachus: no âthena! remember you said as itâs a family dinner, friends should sit with friends!
odysseus: *to athena with the fakest smile* oh athena, how considerate!
penelope: *who has been quiet this whole exchange*
telemachus: *as if he hasnât already unknowingly thrown one person to the wolves* but i of course had to run it by mother first, as she was helping me with all the planning!
penelope: *eyes have totally not widened*
telemachus: she said it was a great idea!
odysseus: *now to penelope* oh my dear wife, a great idea eh?
poseidon: *just chugs back his cup of wine at the revelations*
*after a awkward moment (at least for 4 of them) they continue on finishing the meal*
*eventually the food is finished and the dinner has come to an end, everyone has moved away from the dinner table and are now sitting on cushion chairs or standing around them talking amongst themselves*
poseidon: *looking out the window seeing just how dark the night sky now is*Â
poseidon: well this has been a lovely evening, but it is getting late and i have been away from the sea for as long as i can.
poseidon: *turning to penelope and nodding his head in actual respect* queen penelope, thank you for your hosting
poseidon: *without nodding at them* athena, odysseus⌠good night.
*before poseidon can turn to bid telemachus good night, the prince runs out the room*
telemachus: *yelling before he leaves the room* please lord poseidon, wait a moment! i forgot something!
poseidon: *turns to look at odysseus in confusion*Â
odysseus: *just shrugs also confused*Â
poseidon: *turns back to the door, telemachus long gone* uh sure.
*not long later telemachus runs back into the room dishevelled but holding something in his hand*
telemachus: *walks up to poseidon*Â
telemachus: *bows and holds out something covered in a silk cloth to him*
poseidon: uh-
telemachus: itâs a gift! iâm not expecting anything in return, and iâm sure you have better things⌠but i saw it and thought youâd like it
poseidon: *blinks, but takes the gift from telemachusâ hands*
poseidon: *carefully unties the silk cloth*
poseidon: *breathes in sharply*
telemachus: *not sure if that's a good or bad reaction* uh if you donât like it that's fin-
poseidon: *holds his hand to stop telemachus*Â
poseidon: prince of ithac-
telemachus: telemachus- sorry for interrupting. please my lord, call me telemachus
poseidon: âŚtelemachus. thank you, this is a very thoughtful gift.Â
poseidon: i will cherish it.
penelope & odysseus: *curious over what's got the god of the seas âcherishingâ something*
athena: *small smile as she knows*
*penelope & odysseus move closer to poseidon who is still staring down at his gift. once close enough they can see in his hand is a a handcrafted glass/crystal hippocampus*
*poseidon ended up wrapping it back in the silk cloth, and placing it in his chiton. He then thanked telemachus again and bid him good night & farewell. odysseus offered to walk back to the cove with him, but poseidon waved him off and told him to stay with his family*
#poseidon: *returned home back to his palace*#poseidon: *once again looking at the gift this time with a small smile on his face*#amphitrite: *looking at poseidon* whatcha got there?#poseidon: *stuffs telemachusâ gift into his chiton* uh⌠uhâŚMOLY?!#amphitrite: *raised eyebrow* the king of ithaca⌠odysseus gave youâŚmoly?#poseidon: this isn't from odysse- *cough* i mean; no⌠he didn't#poseidon: it's from his son.#amphitrite: *now both eyebrows raised in disbelief* the prince gave you moly?#poseidon: *panicking as he's the god of the seas not of lies*#poseidon: well they're descended from hermes⌠he practically hands out this stuff as you knowâŚ#amphitrite: uh huh... what ever you say husband#okay headcanon 1 - calypso said 'under my spell we're stuck in paradise' & to me this made me think well if she controls everything#then surely a goddess' magic can have other consequences like stopping a mortal aging. or extremely slowly aging.#once poor odysseus realises he wasn't getting older but his son and wife would be...he broke fearing he'd outlive them#calypso obvs doesn't also want the love of her life getting old/dying on her too#also credit to @rin-solo for this head canon too!#headcanon 2 - it actually happened while i was eating a burger. i thought man i'd struggle to eat any meat after all what ody went through#and so thats how that came to be! i believe he will eat goat/rabbit/chicken etc. but fish is easier with y'know ithaca being a island#so telemachus' gift has been revealed! i thought a hippocampus would be better that just a sea creature or horse. why not both?#also there will be a part 9...ody's revenge/punishment for athena and penelope's seating plan#but i need a small break after this monstrosity#odysseus epic#poseidon epic#telemachus epic#penelope epic the musical#epic the musical#epic: the musical#friends in higher places au?#nonsense thoughts
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was talking to my brother the other day after i rewatched dark phoenix and he was like 'why is everyone so mean to charles in this movie?? were they always this mean to him ?? is it cause he's bald now- he lost his pretty privilege??' and i fear i havent recovered
#xmen#xmen movies#dark phoenix#charles xavier#professor x#snap chats#LIKE HE'S RIGHT 1000% I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO SAY IT VLERKVJAKLJ#ANOTHER banger of a quote from my brother chat i screamed when he said that#adopting that into my belief system i fear#like really thinking on it they really did only start being especially rude after apocalypse im crying#dont quote me on that i have to rewatch apocalypse but as far as im aware. yeah đđ#and its SUCH a travesty cause i love how mcavoy looked in DP SO much he looks so good bald#like please if we were going to wrap up this era of xmen films why did we have to rerun DP#can we try again. please. i need him bald one more time in a movie i dont have to argue with myself i like#see DP wasnt the worst thing ever. probably. like scott got to do things again ..... and kurt .......#and the paris proposal. never forget that.#ALSO THE FUCKIN. 'no one cares charles' BIT ???? 97 ref'd that directly i know they did and i cheered#listen if they can ref the 'black leather suits' from the xmen movies i can believe they called back to that too <- delusional#anyway when james said thats the meanest thing erik could say/do to charles .... he was cooking ....#'thats the type of thing your wife/husband says' he was so right .... we know james never misses with the cherik takes tho#ok bye i have obligations that i need to complete so i can draw my favorite cue ball
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I've said it before, I'll say it again, obsessed with the concept of Snart not introducing Barry (as Barry) to Mick bc he's worried that Mick won't like Barry and will do something drastic, or vice versa
And then Mick and Barry meet without Snart being around and become best friends
#coldflash#i think that mick âi don't do gushy emotionsâ rory#and barry âavatar of gushy emotionsâ allen#SHOULD be best friends and team up for chaos#barry: there's this evil guy with a lot of power and no one believes me when i say he's evil! what do i do?!#mick: i set fire to his house#barry: ....go on#snart: [full of fear] do NOT#also consider#barry being the only person that can convince mick to start incorporating vegetables into his diet#and eating better. because he had a health scare and barry worried his way into getting mick to eat something green#which not even snart would have accomplished#i think it would be good actually
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My jewish community, friends, rabbi, and educators: We are very invested in helping you be jewish. Do you want to help read the haftarah? Here's a chanukiah! You can have it!! Borrow these books! Here's some books! You need more books... Come to pesach! Come to the chanukah party! When are your classes done? We need a minyan for once!
Me and my 50000 IQ: What if I am Secretly Appropriating judaism? What if I am doing a Cultural Appropriation........
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#there comes a point where your concerns about if you are an Appropriative Cultural Appropriator hinders your jewish journey#i think a comforting thing is knowing that my incessant fear about this is confirmation that i love judaism#i love it with my heart and soul and (i feel) i'd be a less realized person without it#and i think people who genuinely engage in cultural appropriation just Do Not Care about the cultures they appropriate from#they don't love the culture enough to respect it and that is a big reason that it even IS appropriation#especially when jewish people are INVITING you to do things... it's not appropriation#i dunno last night i was feeling very anxious about lighting the chanukiah candles because i'm alone#but i've also lit shabbos candles. and it's just like... why would i choose not to engage in this when one day i will have to?#this time next year i will have to light candles. as a jew. and if i have no clue how to do it myself then i'll just avoid it#plus... i love my chanukiah and i want to use it. it is currently decorating my room because i love it#i hope they'll let me take pictures of all the chanukiah that'll be at the party#i'm sure they will because they're very open and they are very accommodating. in fact i'm bringing my clarinet too#i haven't touched that thing in well over four years đ#but jewish music without a clarinet is like a body with no soul. it's impossible. it is not what g-d wants i think.#i just hope my ability to play by ear hasn't been affected by my lack of playing. i don't have perfect pitch tbc#but i fully believe you can know your instrument so well that you develop an ear for perfect pitch#in fact... i refused to memorize my marching band music because i DID develop that 'perfect pitch' ear. that's my dirty secret#i didn't practice in part because i can't have a space where noone could hear me practice and it's embarrassing and private to me#literally EVERY jew in my life has been almost TOO ecstatic about my jewish journey. i'm very thankful for it#i guess i just didn't think i deserved to have people as happy about me being in judaism as i am#so to be clear this is my brain being rude and dumb. this anxiety has NEVER been reinforced by anyone but myself#so i take full responsibility for it. but i think that anxiety is something many/most converts/jews-in-progress feel
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im a sozoposter now. lamb loves sozo :)
#cult of the lamb#tw drugs#cotl sozo#cotl lamb#cult of the lamb is so stylized so translating the character designs to my style is a lot of fun#i may have made sozo too pretty i fear#i hc sozo is pretty touchy when hes high. usually affectionate but here he's kinda just holding onto them to stay oriented#the lamb is pretty used to it and doesnt mind i think it gets pretty lonely being the lamb#they're friends :)#the lamb is an enabler but believes in harm reduction lol#this is still a kirby blog im just having a cotl moment#bc im not making another blog lol
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hello there, angel
[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. Vash is sitting facing the viewer and holds a rose between his clasped together hands, but heâs looking to the left, upwards, at Wolfwood, with an awed expression. Wolfwood hovers over him with wings sprouting from his back. He has a cigarette lit between his lips, his arms and legs are crossed, and he looks back at Vash with a neutral expression. The both of them are covered in a blue shadow, casted by Wolfwood and his hovering form, while warm light hits the back of his wings and over Vashâs legs. Small feathers sits next to Vash. End ID]
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#this is not meant to mean anything btw i just wanted to draw wolfwood as an angle#i love angel and follower depiction but i also think wolfwood is just the most angelic human being ever#he was sent to guide him... he protects him... he Saved him#i mean they both just think of each other as the most good they've seen in the world in a really long time#and in turn makes themselves coil and feel a little more disgusted with themselves. but they're also so Good to each other that they can#start to believe that they can be that good too.#they love each other so much and theyve never loved anyone else like this before so i can just imagine the heights their love can reach#endless pouring of affection in a way they can only keep to their own chest in fear they'd never be able to let go otherwise#that is to say i just feel like they'd worship each other and it's probably excessive but i feel like they both really deserve it#i did not even mean to go on that tangent but back on topic -- i just love angel wolfwood depiction in a way that's Normal......#need more of vash saying cheesy shit like youre my light wolfwood!!!! and wolfwood beating the shit out of him like WHAT ARE YOU SAYING!!!#which is why i have a tablet in the first place. my mission in the world...#ruporas art
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what an incredibly normal and not at all autistic thing to say! (lying)
#truly this is SO funny#casually questioning his bestie's religious beliefs and then genuinely being like âwhat?? did i say something??â#and then he KEEPS GOING with that train of thought#not because hes an asshole. in his head he is genuinely just making conversation. theres just something so autistic about him#also complete tangent but is it just me or is that glass of water between hotch and jj massive. is it the communal water cup or something#why is it so big#full disclosure these images are slightly out of order. the last image here is before hotch and jj's reactions#but it was funnier to order them like this#reid: hmm morgan do you think the reason youve never feared satan is because youve never actually believed in god?#everyone: ...#reid: :)#spencer reid#autistic spencer reid#not fic#criminal minds#criminal minds rewatch#criminal minds s03e08#lucky#this is NOT a hate post by the way. pre-diagnosis i absolutely would have done this.#even now knowing people consider it offensive i could see myself saying something like this#shoutout to offputting autistic people!!#criminal minds 3x8
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i often think about his elementary school teacher being the first demon/person he recognized before his prom date and his friend + they had so many teachers so this one mustve had a big impact on him and also like. sickening to think about them already following around sam as a child to "keep him on the right path"
#sam winchester#5.22#spn 5x22#also yeah im interpreting it as csa#considering azazel csa metaphor and general sam themes. as well as multiple azazel-related demons being sexual/romantic with him:#his prom date â brady getting him together with jess and using that relationship â meg â ruby#and of course lucifer#so its not really far fetched me thinks#same thing with the clownsâ¤ď¸ childhood fear that sam refuses to tell dean the reason for#and sam saying âwhat else could they possibly do to me nowâ after clowns almost kill him in 7.14#and sam having spent time at those pennywhistle places unsupervised as a child#+ it was gamble era so...#and the other episode about sams fear of clowns being about a clown tricking children into letting them into their house at night#and the parents not believing when their kids told them about the clowns
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