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Idk if it's too early in the season to get hella angst heavy but... am i the only one interpreting the whole timer thing as in everyone is slowly dying? Like, they can feel it, their bodies shutting down. But killing someone - it's like the opposite of /givelife, it's TAKING life, it's invigorating, even if a good portion of the life you stole bleeds out with the other person. How terrifying. How fascinating.
#limited life smp#trafficblr#lmlsmp#lml#life series smp#life series#traffic series#i wasn't gonna post this cuz it kinda hits close to home for me but. idk putting this out there lol!#limited life spoilers#also re: the watchers apparently feeding on fear before death (if you're a lore person like me)#this is a genius move. like double life was genius because no matter what happens the fear before death will be doubled#fear for yourself and your partner#or ig technically quadrupled because your partner is also panicking#but like this? slowly dying? ANY fear counts as fear before death. because they are all dying. constantly. just slowly
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being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol âïž but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one
#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts#course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism#being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people đ#hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn#i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well.#obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it.#realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus#cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself#into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway.#so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation#but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct!#and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want...#best case scenario. is what i'm saying.#every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy#and it's so fucking satisfying. every day.#fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system#you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao#yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :)#aromantic#aromanticism#aro positivity#aroace#arospec#sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon#you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself.#FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better#life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not#i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao
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( tbh i might go through my drafts and clear out a few things here and there, my muse has been very not where it needs to be lately thanks to the holidays and i have quite a bit of stuff piling up that i'm getting worried about. i'm also gonna be starting another iop here soon that'll take me into the new school semester (rip) so starting like a week or so after the new year that's gonna take up a lot of my daytime anyway. )
#( tfw u gotta start doing stuff for yourself in your part of the rpc akjshfsdf )#( i neglect that for myself a lot out of fear of disappointing my writing partners )#( but i really have to start exercising it so i don't get burnt out )#.âïž* â ËËË out of character âŠ
âżá”á”Ê° Êłá”á”á”ËĄá”Ëą âŠ
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lil rant
the way people talk about avoidant attachment types seriously pisses me off. maybe the fact that you invalidate their conflicting needs and demonize them for "not communicating" when they require a feeling of security to communicate in the first place, which you obviously have not provided, is why they don't communicate. just a thought. poking and prodding at someone who's uncomfortable communicating does fuck all to make them comfortable. it actually just shows you only value your own feelings and aren't considering how that makes them feel and there is no way that is going to make them feel safe enough to open up.
seriously exhausting how people have bad experiences then project those onto everyone else. you hurt others when you don't heal yourself. if i see one more person act like the anxious attachment type is good and pure while avoidant is evil and selfish i am going to lose it. they're both selfish in their own ways!! jesus christ!!!
#( đ faun thinks )#rant#sorry for ranting im just so tired of seeing this bullshit#i'm fearful avoidant so i understand both sides#if you aren't willing to try and understand you partner's conflicting needs don't date. period. you are part of the problem.#if you cannot hold space for your partner when they're triggered because your triggers take priority#work on yourself. don't date. seriously.#dating is a partnership not a battleground but it's going to stay a battleground if you stay in that energy
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#itâs actually not hard at all to speak to your partner w love#and you should want to hear your partner out instead of interrupting bc you think what you have to say is more important#also itâs incredibly hurtful to throw your partners past trauma in their face and ultimately reveal the person you really are#there is so much power in being silent#there is so much power in biting your tongue to avoid hurting anyone#there is so much power in silently absorbing the hurtful words being said and accepting that you have to detach#there is so much love in consideration and if someone canât see that then it truly might not work#you show yourself that you love and trust yourself when you allow yourself to be vulnerable and speak your truth#how that is received tells you everything about what you need to do#trust that loving yourself more than the fear of loneliness will always always always lead you in the right direction#and find gratitude in being able to clearly see people for who they really are bc you can now do whatâs best for you#find gratitude in the love you once shared and only take that w you moving forward#bc I promise you will learn to never regret entering w love and leaving w love
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one thing I wrote on my diary once I think about a lot is "when my friends say they are lonely because their boyfriends are away, it's expected I comfort them. But no one ever checks in on my loneliness, even though they expect I feel that way. it seems as if my loneliness is not something to be sympathised with, but an expected and deserved punishment for my failing to have a significant other"
#its a little true i fear#and I say that as someone whose been on both sids of the fence#when u are single. people do not like to hear about how you are lonely#and they perceive your singleness as a slight or fault of ur own#which is why they suggest you ''work on yourself''#and the loneliness is the deserved outcome of not finding a partner#like. people will LITERALLY acknowledge it would be lonely not having a partner but then never ask if u are.#and if u ever wanna talk about it. they treat this loneliness like some grotesque thing#ok idk if this makes sense#sometimes when im snot running down my face crying and diary writing i come out w gms
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[Nov. 18, 11:35 AM update]
$25,955 / $50K GOAL
Only half of Doctor Moath's goal has been reached! While this has provided him and his mother to join his older brother in Egypt, he still has his 56 year old father and two younger brothers (23 and 16) that's in Gaza. His GFM has heartbreakingly been so slow in gaining donations but please, continue to share and if you're able to, donate to provide any help towards a man that's still helping others and caring for their loved ones despite the pain and worry he's constantly under for his own.
help a palestinian doctor evacuate his three family members in gaza
vetted by operation olive branch (line 85)
$25,830 raised of $50,000 as of november 5
since this fundraiser has started back in early 2024, we've only managed to help fund the escape of dr moath and his mother, basma. three family members remain in gaza including moath's father and his two younger brothers.
please help his family. this fundraiser has been stagnating badly and i'm incredibly worried for yusuf, ahmed, and their father. we need less than $5000 in order to evacuate one of them. if you have any money to spare please please please contribute to this campaign.
#imagine knowing you only have enough funds for one person to leave the targeted area of a genocide and siege where every minute could bring#sudden deathâespecially after escaping from it more than four times yourself#and having to talk with your family on who will be the one to leave. for your parents and siblings to tell you to leave first#then to be a mother and your babies and partner puts your life above their own#carrying the fear for your loved ones for so long while doing your jobâwhich is providing care for other people's loved ones.#i cant imagine the pain doctor moath and his family are under. even if the border is not open currently this can still be fragments of#confort in it helping their family have the necessary supplies while theyre still forced to endure this ongoing torture.#five dollars can be enough to help pay for a tent or for flour. i know its been said countless times but truly#no donation is too small. it all adds up and makes the biggest differences
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Tonight, the night before Election Day 2024 in the US, I am thinking about my stepkid.
I am thinking about the phone call they made to us earlier this year, the one where they told us they'd gone to the hospital thinking they had appendicitis and found out, instead, that a zygote - a tiny splodge of cells - had taken up residence not in their uterus but in a fallopian tube. The one where our kid said they were waiting for their partner to arrive, hoped that said partner would get there before the docs took our kid back to terminate that pregnancy, & assured us that they'd be okay.
After all, our kid lives in a state with choice measures embedded in state law. That pea-sized blot of tissue doesn't have more right to their health than they do. Nobody is standing between them and their doctors. They made a decision, and that was that.
In this tiny tragedy, the kind that plays out dozens of times a day at minimum across the country, we only had to worry about the small risk of surgery complications. We didn't have to worry about Ken Paxton threatening to charge their doctors with felonies. We didn't have to think, "What if the hospital's legal team doesn't think an ectopic pregnancy - which is never ever viable and must be terminated before it kills our kid - is really that big of a deal?" We didn't have to worry that they live in a state where ob-gyns are fleeing, leaving few experts behind, as has happened in Idaho.
We didn't have to watch our kid vomit up black blood before dying the day after their baby shower the way Neveah's mom did. We didn't have to pray in a waiting room (while doctors took our kid apart until their heart stopped because the doctors waited too long out of fear of anti-choice laws) until a doctor came to tell us we'd have to bury them the way that Amber's mom did. We aren't having to pick up our lives after fully treatable miscarriage-related sepsis took them from us the way that Josseli's husband and daughter must.
I could go on for far, far too long.
Listen. If you are a single-issue non-voter and have already decided that "both parties are the same" or whatever other thing you've told yourself so you can sleep at night, smug and secure, then I can't reach you and I can't help you. But if you genuinely think that your votes don't matter, if you're just suffering from a bout of overwhelm or apathy, if you're too young to remember the 2000 election and can't see that Dobbs is a direct result of that election and every one that's followed, please, I am fucking begging you.
I didn't really talk about this when it happened. I mentioned something briefly, maybe. The posts I've started writing about it are still in my drafts. It was too fresh, too frightening. It's not any less frightening now, honestly - because if this week doesn't end with President Kamala Harris, we're headed for a national abortion ban, at the minimum - but it's not about how fucking frightened I was or how sad and bewildered I was to realize that my kid was going through this crisis in a nation more hostile to them than when I needed a D&C for an abortion at 21, in 1998.
It's about stopping this chapter of this fucking bullshit and at least finding some new fucking bullshit.
Vote, dammit.
Do the other work on Wednesday. Tomorrow, the work is to vote.
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Just read your arranged marriage kidnapped by a most post and the humor in the servants always thinking reader is in peril. The same going for monster hubby (He just thinks they're submissive and breedable)
Like none of them realize they are a moster fucker cause they hide it so well. Like just imagining reader be like "oh be gentle with me I'm a dainty maiden" and then giving him the night of his life is hilarious. Or them having dinner and the servants feel bad for them cause monster hubby is eating human meat but their just thinking about other things he can use his tongue on.
Or maybe someone comes to rescue them from the terrible monster finally. But they don't wanna leave and instead fight the knight off. The knight thinks they've been brainwashed or something. Meanwhile the servants think the knight just wasn't good enough to rescue them.
Content: gender neutral reader, monster romance, NSFW! [Part 1] | [More Monsters]
The servants are not blind by any means: they can tell, quite plainly, that their monstrous Lord has a soft spot for you. Not only that, but the beast nearly worships you! They've come up with many theories, the latest one involving witchcraft. Surely you must have some sort of magical trickery under your sleeve in order to subdue their Master. There's no other way around it. All previous humans have been devoured, or have died in a pitiful attempt to escape, terrified to the bone upon gazing at his blasphemous Majesty.
You can't blame them. It's probably better for everyone involved if you omit the fact that your source of witchcraft lies in your...genitals. Well, not just that, of course. Your husband had started to lose hope. His appreciation of humans never came to fruition before your arrival. He was expecting you to cower in fear, not throw yourself at him.
He wondered if you wanted something from him in return, but no one could possibly pretend so flawlessly: the way you clung to him unprompted. The way you hungrily took him in, tears welling in your eyes, refusing to let go until you could feel his load avalanching down your throat. The way you'd trap his hips with your legs, despite being weak and feverish, asking that he doesn't stop yet. If that wasn't proof enough, your whines and moans were loud and clear. To think he could have his own little human, one who isn't repulsed by his monstrous form. He would've been content with mere tolerance, yet someone who begged to be fucked by him? He's been delirious ever since.
He loves everything about you, naturally, but he can't deny the shameless addiction he's now developed towards your body. He'd pound you anywhere and anytime if he could. If he needs to leave for official matters, know that the return will burn in the back of his mind.
"An important date, Sir?" one traveling servant will ask, glancing at all the scribbles in the calendar.
"Indeed", he answers solemnly. It's the times when he can finally fuck you dumb.
While the servants worry about their devilish Master being put under leash, for the other fellow humans the opposite seems to be true. You recall your last "rescuing" attempt distinctly. During one of your evening walks, burly, foreign arms swept you off in an instant. Before you knew it, you were holding onto the armored shoulders of an unknown man, as he made his way out of the traditional garden.
"I'll get you out of here", he promised between heaving breaths.
You stared in confusion. What was he saving you from? A good dicking? No matter how much you explained that you do actually like your newly appointed husband, the hero wouldn't budge.
You ended up just walking back home when the man fell asleep.
"That was quite the long walk", your monster partner remarked, polishing his weapons.
"Oh no, I was kidnapped", you state casually. "Got us some fruits on the way back."
Would it have been better to lie about it? On one hand, you do feel terrible for whoever attempted to retrieve you from the claws of the tyrant. Your husband is very possessive, and you know he'll scorch the Earth until that treacherous pest is gutted and fed to the pigs.
On the other hand...he becomes particularly savage after such incidents. You won't be able to sit properly for the next few weeks, but it's worth it.
Tough luck, you tell yourself, lounging in bed with a satisfied smirk and torn apart hole.
#monster imagine#monster x reader#monster x human#monster smut#monster fucker#terato#teratophillia#monster boyfriend
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Prostitution (18+)
Sevika x Fem!Reader
SYNOPSIS: Of all the girls in the brothel, and she picked you.
WARNINGS: Brothel work (prostitute!reader), dom!Sevika, sub!reader, hair pulling, leather lingerie, grinding, fingering, strap-on use (r!receiving), Daddy Sevika, biting (briefly)
WORD COUNT: 2.1K
A/N: In honor of Arcane Season 2 coming out today, thought I would bring back one of my best kinktober prompts with everybody's favorite muscle mommy. Briefly considered making a part 2 for this but lemme know what you guys think?
dividers made by @cafekitsune
Why did you think this was a good idea?
Well, truth be told, you didnât think this was a good idea⊠But it was the only idea you had left. Your family was dead, like everyone was in the Undercity. Your partner got herself killed from a shimmer overdose, and you were facing being homeless. Your entire world was turned upside down and it was all fucked to no end. But now you had to pick up the pieces.
You were hired at the brothel. What the actual fuck were you thinking? Well, you knew Babette, and she was willing to give you a chance. It was decent money, and you were given free food during every shift. How could you turn it down?
It was your first week and you have already been through hell. The women who came to the brothel tended to be high on shimmer and sloppy at best, but the men; they were aggressive, vicious, and you found yourself leaving with aches and pains every single night.
And yet, when you entered the room that you were assigned to today, you were surprised to say the least. The outfit on the bench was⊠strange. Normally, the clientele wanted something revealing, lace, and soft bright colors. No, you were given something black, made of leather, and matching black heels to complete the look.
âDonât question it,â You told yourself. âJust put it on.â
You slowly stripped off all your clothes and pulled on the leather bustier and black lace panties. Your fingers twitched slightly as you strapped the heels to your feet and ran your fingers through your hair⊠Your lipstick was a deep maroon color, and you had dark, dramatic eyeliner. Seems like you thought it all out already?
Who was your client today? Why were you so nervous? What if it was a man that was three times your size? What if it was more than one man? What if you got hurt today?
âDid you hear about who she picked today?â A shiver raced down your spine as you approached the curtains in front of your door, biting down on your painted lip. Who were they talking about?
âOh, I heard. Cute little new girl is about to get ruined today, huh?â You⊠they were talking about you! But who else? Who was she?
Youâll get your answer soon enough.
It felt like forever until you heard heavy footfalls in the hallways. Whispers carried in the corridors, along with the aggressive clicks of heels from your fellow âcoworkersâ running away from whoever was making their presence known inside of the building. Your fingers trembled as you dared a peek out from behind your curtain.
Not even a second later, the curtain was being pulled back and in walked your client⊠Tall, muscular, handsome, and absolutely terrifying.
The brothelâs most regular visitor. Silcoâs right hand⊠the person that everyone in the underground fears.
Sevika.
You nearly fell down the stairs, heels slipping on the concrete flooring as you tried to back away and give her the space she deserved. But it seemed she had other ideas.
Before your body could come in contact with the ground, the woman reached out and grabbed both of your hips with her hands. Her right hand was warm and calloused, a pulse beneath her flesh, but her left hand? Cold, sharp, and thrumming with the energy of her mechanical arm hidden beneath that cloak she always wears.
âEasy, doll,â Her voice is deep, husky almost as she steps forward and lowers you down to the stable surface behind you. Shivers raced down your back, and you couldnât stop yourself from trembling in her grasp. For a moment, neither of you said anything. But then her eyes raked all over your body and she breathed, hard. âDamn, look at you⊠Pretty little thing all dressed up just for me?â
Were you supposed to speak? You have heard so many stories about Sevika⊠how aggressive and cruel she is out there on the streets, and how she kills without mercy or a care in the world. You were scared of her, to say the least⊠And Sevika could see it in your eyes. She knew what her reputation was and was more than happy to push the agenda.
âScared of me?â
You inhaled sharply, your hands slowly sliding from your sides to hold onto her forearms. The whirring of the mechanics of her arm made your thighs tremble. âN-No, missâŠâ
âFunny,â Sevika reached down and gently ran her rough fingertips along the edge of your jaw before she slid her hand in your hair. âOnly dumb girls feel no fear⊠Now, you arenât dumb, are you sweet thing?â
 You breathed slowly for a second, fearing you said something wrong to her. She looked amused, but looks could be deceiving⊠The gap between her two front teeth was cute. You focused on the crease of her jawline, the scars on her face, and the way her brows were pulled down.
She was so fucking hot that you forgot why you were afraid⊠and then, she grabbed at your hair, making you yelp and submit. Your hands had slid far too high up, and she was punishing you⊠Fuck, she was punishing you! âBetter watch it. Iâm paying to touch you, not the other way around.â
âButââ You hiccupped, looking into her eyes for the briefest second. She waited for your words to continue. âS-sorryâŠâ
âOh, she has manners?â Sevika showed off the smile that made your stomach flutter for a brief moment and reached down with both hands, gripping your thighs and lifting you off the floor like you weighed almost nothing to her. Out of instinct, your hands reached up and grabbed onto her shoulders for stability. âWeâre going to have fun.â
Before you could utter another sound, you felt something press against you⊠something solid, and stiff. Something that felt like it was alive, right against the wet spot on your panties. A low moan left your throat, and you just immediately knew what it was.
âTake it off, doll,â Sevika breathed against your neck. âYou know you want to.â
Fingers trembled as you reached for the cloak on her shoulders and slowly pulled it over her head. The brown fabric dropped to the floor behind her, and you looked down, confirming your suspicion. Sevika was strapped under her pants⊠the bulge was now way more obvious without the cloak.
âFeel that?â Sevika pressed her flesh hand to your rear and stepped forward, spinning you around and sitting herself down on the couch behind you. The second you were in her lap, she was pushing you down onto her hips and grinding the bulge against your cunt like it was her damn birthright to do so.
Your pulse quickened with every passing second, and you dropped your face down against her chest, breathing in the scent of tobacco and her natural scent⊠Strong, earthy, like a roaring wood fire. You didnât know what came over you, but before you could scold yourself for knowing better, your tongue came in contact with her bear neck and your lips trailed all over her exposed skin.
Sevika tensed up and her fingers went from holding your hips to sliding under the fabric of your panties, grabbing at your flesh and making you instinctively bite down on her shoulder. Nowhere near enough to hurt, but enough for her to feel it. Sevika looked like she was about to start climbing the walls as she felt your hips roll forward on top of her.
With a simple flick of her metallic fingers, the underwear given to you was ripped off your body and you barely had time to recover before Sevika was lifting you off her lap and reaching to pull the zipper of her pants down. A sigh left your throat, and you could only push your face into her neck; Sevika didnât like that.
âNuh-uh,â She grabbed your chin with her flesh hand, pulling you back to look down into her eyes. Her grey irises were staring directly passed your fears and into your soul. It was like she was lighting you on fire from the inside out. âYou look at me. Prettiest fucking girl is going to look at me when I fuck her.â
Her words made you blush from the tips of your ears down to your neck and you almost forgot that this was your job⊠It was easy to think that Sevika had just picked you out of everyone in the underground to have a night with. Not⊠that she was paying for it.
âDonât worry,â Sevika smirked, that crease in her brow becoming more prominent as you felt her hand leave your face and slide down between your legs. When you felt her calloused fingers against your soft wet folds, you forgot how to breathe. âDaddyâs gonna take good care of you.â
The sound you made was beyond pornographic. Two of her fingers slipped inside of your wetness without any kind of resistance. Your entire body went rigid, and your eyes fluttered for a brief second before you forced yourself to look at her. Sevika smirked and basked in your expressions, slowly pushing you up and down on her digits.
What did you even say? What were you supposed to do? Sevika isnât like your other clients⊠Sheâs so intense, even when sheâs barely touching you. It feels like you are drowning, even if itâs just her presence surrounding you. Your inner walls squeeze at her fingers as she curls them at just the right angle. Sevika smirked.
âOh, you like that?â Sevika kept you steady on her lap with her metal hand while the other one worked in and out of your pussy. âSo wet for me, already? Barely touched you, doll.â
âFuuck...â You rolled your entire body forward, biting your lip and leaning down just enough to press soft kisses against her face. âP-Pleaseââ
âPlease, what?â Sevika said sternly. âUse your words, doll.â
âI⊠I n-need⊠ohfuck...â
âCome on,â She smirked, curling her fingers at just the right angle that you almost feel your legs give out. âJust say itââ
âFuck me,â You whine, finally giving in. âPlease, please, please⊠fuck me, daddy.â
There was a hunger in her eyes that wasnât there before. It was like a switch had flipped inside of her because in mere seconds, you went from sitting on her lap to her pushing you down into the floor that was littered with pillows, blankets, anything you could desire to make this as comfortable as possible.
Sevika all but ripped her pants to try and free what had been teasing you initially. You only had a few seconds to really look at the strap around her hips before she was lining the tip of the bright purple silicone against your core.
âPretty little thing,â Sevika growled, almost ferally as she slammed down overtop of you. Suddenly, the leather around your chest felt entirely too tight, like you couldnât breathe. You began frantically reaching for the ties to undo the restraint on your chest, and Sevika noticed because you gasped at her ripping the ropes off the bustier and pushing the fabric apart to really look at you.
âNow, because you were a good girlâŠâ Sevika gently prodded your opening, making you whimper and reach for her biceps. âYou get a warning before you get fucked.â
âDaddy, pleaseââ
That was her trigger. You could only grab at her muscles before she was plunging all of her strap inside of your cunt like it belonged to her. You tried to scream, but nothing came out other than a strangled squeak as your head went back on the pillows and tears filled your eyes.
You arenât a stranger to being stretched out like this. It wasnât like it was your first day at the brothel⊠but it was your first day with Sevika. She only gave you a few seconds to adjust to that cock before she was reaching down with her flesh fingers and gently rubbing at your clit.
Your soft squeaks faded into intense moans, much to the womanâs delight. She chuckled, watching you squirm and look at her like she was an alien of some sort.
âNot what you expected, doll?â Sevika teased, rolling her hips forward and making you moan like the whore you were. âDidnât think Iâd care about making you feel good?â
Very stupidly, you nodded.
âLet me fix that,â She leaned down, and you curled your fingers into the leather of her jacket before bracing yourself for the most intense workday of your entire fucking life.
âBe good for daddy and Iâll make you cum so hard that youâll beg me not to leave.â
And that is exactly what Sevika did.
#lgbt#lgbtq#arcane sevika#sevika#arcane#arcane league of legends#sevika x reader#dom!sevika#sub!reader#brothel#lesbian character#kinktober#kinktober 2023#sin archives#sevika smut#sevika x reader smut#arcane smut
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reblogged this once already, but it occurred to me to add: if everyone in your partner's life dislikes/hates/is constantly criticizing you and telling them to leave you, and you have found yourself being isolated from everyone in your life other than the partner and those people, that is also a huge red flag.
if the framing being beaten into your head is 'everyone but me hates you and thinks you're toxic and rancid, but i'll protect you because i'm the only person around who thinks you're not Awful. if it weren't for me sheltering, supporting, and advocating for you, everyone would and will turn on you in a heartbeat,' that is BAD NEWS and you need to get out of there.
If EVERYBODY in your life hates your significant other then they are the problem. If it is one or two people like a family member you have a turbulent relationship with and one friend whoâs always been kind of jealous, maybe they just hate your success. But most of the time that is not the case and the people who are closest to you and love you and have had your back for years probably know when your new relationship is toxic and/or doomed.
#abuse cw#traumatag#this is also one of the caveats i wish people would talk about more#when it comes to instances of 'i don't want you talking to other people about our relationship'#if your response to your partner bringing other people in on a disagreement is fear and betrayal because 'wait that's not fair'#'i've tried so so hard throughout our relationship to handle conflicts without telling anyone what was happening'#'because i didn't want to make you look bad; or hold the threat of making you look bad over your head to win an argument'#'and now *you're* bringing in other people to do exactly that; and you get a team of people to back you up when i've got no one but me'#that's a huge sign that something's wrong and it's not you#and a hundred times over if they do this when you call them on gaslighting and other abusive behavior; and expose holes in their story#and they go 'uhhhhh shit okay i'm going to pull away and take time out to consult my lawyers i mean friends'#and when they come back from this having had the opportunity to figure out how to spin it and waterproof the things you pointed out#*and* they come back Energized to keep treating you like shit; whereas by that point you're scared and drained and exhausted#and either ready to cave in just so it'll be over; or know you're in worse shape to advocate for yourself than before the timeout#Something's Wrong. It is Not You.
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winter weight (nanami ver)
Synopsis: nanami has gained some weight this winter, it seems you don't mind.
based on this fanfic I wrote for Toji which was based on this fanart! thank you @lil-sis for requesting more nanami :,)
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You had known Nanami Kento for years before you were romantically involved. He had never made an inappropriate comment, always treated you with the utmost respect, and was all-around, the truest form of a gentleman.
For a time, you locked away your feelings for the kind man, sure he could never see you in that way, but little did you know, the man in question hid from your gaze, not because he did not want to see you, but in fear that you would see him. See him for what he was: a man, obsessed.
You had been with Ken for nine months now and he was everything you could want and more. He was communicative, thoughtful, and romantic. He looked at you in a way nobody had before. Likewise, for you, those nine months passed with comfortable ease.
This was your first winter together, and with the changing of the seasons you learned day by day that the man you knew was your life partner. The both of you were homebodies in a sense, however, with the chilly air and light snowfall this week, you were even more keen on a night in together.
You raced around the house, lighting candles, simmering mulling spices on the stove, and laying out blankets for the two of you. The house felt even cozier knowing that Ken was coming to join you.
He had spent the afternoon with his parents and was coming over after having dinner, he told you to eat without him and you had just finished cleaning your plate when you received a text,
"I am on my way now, sweetheart, is there anything you would like from the store?"
Ken was like this, domestic in the way that made you want to bounce around the room. You thought for a moment before deciding you would probably need more eggs. Earlier this week the two of you had planned a movie night, the next morning you were both hoping to bake cookies together while playing board games or taking turns reading to one another.
You informed him of the need for eggs and he told you he would be just a few more minutes. During that time you scrolled through the choices of movies, picking a few for the two of you to choose from.
Despite being together longer than the gestational period for a baby human, you still received butterflies in your stomach at the thought of his arrival. Knowing he was nearly home, you bounded to the kitchen and faced the door, the room smelled delicious, the only thing missing was his presence, and perhaps another layer of clothing.
Even so, you could hear his footsteps approach and knew that the two of you would share a blanket and body heat in no time.
When the man finally opened the door he was smiling shyly, a red dusting across his face from the cold. He wore a long winter coat, and in his arms were a bouquet of flowers and a wrapped gift.
You rushed to greet him, taking the day bag from his arm,
"Oh! Ken, they're beautiful!" You stood on tiptoe as he bent his knee and you kissed his cold cheek. "Goodness, you're freezing! Come in please!"
"Hello, my love." He smiled more broadly now, wrapping his free arm around you, "This if from my parents, but they told me not to let you open it until the holidays."
A warmth ran through you, the Nanami's were all too kind. Kento set the flowers on the counter and stepped toward the coat rack by the door to retire his shoes and jacket.
In the motion it took for him to pull the sleeves off his broad shoulders, you took him in. Leaning on the kitchen counter you allowed yourself to stare at him. His dress shirt was tight on his arms, and his suit pants clung to his thighs. You took a step toward him again.
"I almost don't want you to change, you look so handsome in your work clothes."
"Well, I've certainly put on some weight. These pants hardly fit now." he looks increasingly uncomfortable, not to be in your presence but to show that he was dressed in such a tailored fashion.
"Ken, my dear, you look incredible." You contain the desire to squeeze his thigh by walking to the bedroom and bringing out a pair of sweats and a cotton shirt.
"Although you are a delight to see this way, I'll let you get comfortable." You smile and pinch his bicep.
"Thank you, dear, I don't believe I've ever been so heavy. It's all the good restaurants you introduce me to, perhaps I should get back into the gym." He had grabbed the soft clothes you picked for him and walked into the bedroom to change.
"You're the one bringing me to all those good restaurants so you can't just blame me." You smile from outside the door.
"I'm just grateful you're with me" He laughs, pulling the shirt over his head.
"Ugh!" You exclaim, "Of course, Ken, don't say something so ridiculous." He laughs but you are still caught on what he said earlier. "And don't start going to the gym, you look great, very chewable."
He pops out from behind the door and looks down at you, amused. "I'm not sure how to feel about that descriptor, but if you still like me with extra weight, then I suppose I can remain comfortable."
"Still like you?" You gasp offended, "Ken, I grow more attracted to you every day, I don't care how tight your clothes are, in fact, it's a good look."
He gives you a mischievous face, "Go sit on the couch, pick a movie, stop trying to seduce me."
You laugh, incredulous, "I'm not trying anything, I'm only speaking the truth." You shrug, bounding to the couch and crawling beneath the blanket. Ken brings two mugs of cider before joining you.
That night you lay on his chest, watching a cheesy romance, the both of you laughing at the silly main character. You tilt your head up, to watch his face, your eyes catching the beginning of a few grey hairs dispersed in his blonde hair. You gently run your hand through his undercut.
In that moment, in his arms, as comfortable as you've ever been, you are sure, he is the man you will grow old with.
#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader#kento nanami#jujutsu kaisen nanami#jjk nanami#jujutsu nanami#nanami kento#kento nanami x reader#kento fluff#nanami kento x reader#nanami x reader#nanami fluff#kento nanami fluff#jjk fluff#jujutsu kaisen fluff#nanami fanfic#kento nanami fanfiction#nanami x you#nanami x y/n#kento x reader#kento x y/n#kento x you#nanami kento fluff#nanamin#kento nanami x you#kento nanami x y/n#jjk comfort#jujutsu kaisen comfort
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Amity parkers are feral and insane
-Gothamites.
Somehow, someway, Casper high finds their selves in Gotham.
It could be a field trip or a ghost shoved them in a portal, doesn't matter, they're in Gotham.
As they arrive in Gotham, the Casper teachers decide to turn this into something educational and hire a tour guide from Gotham Academy (or was it Gotham university? I forgot) GA agrees and also Sends some of their students to partner up with the amity parkers as a sort "buddy" and to hopefully teacher em the ways of surviving in Gotham.
To the gothamites, the amity parkers look like children who have never been exposed to crime in their life, never been mugged, never been been kidnapped.
But the truth is, compared to the BS amity is used to, Gothams issues are like kindergarten.
First thing the tour guide hears when she greets Casper high Mr lancer telling them to, "Please don't walk into danger, please don't try and provoke the joker, I know he's a bitch but still. If you find yourself in a tricky situation, do not hesitate to punch yourself to freedom, but ABSOLUTELY NO CRITICAL HITs these are NORMAL people they're not like us or the ghosts, they will not survive. Please do not give phantom problems, He's already failing in class he doesn't need more problems"
Its important to keep in mind that:
amity parkers and ghosts are buddies now.
The Ambient ectoplasm gave them a form of super strength, also making it so that they are able to touch ghost.
They join the ghost brawls everyone in a while and has some wins.
Most, if not all are liminal in a way.
Everyone knows that Danny is phantom but have signed an NDA that says they aren't allowed to tell anyone who isn't a native amity parker who he is.
Things is, The gothamites don't know about this and take it as if Mr lancer and the students are underestimating Gotham. So as a from of pettiness, all the Gotham students decided to bring their amity partner to the most dangerous places they can think of.
Niky has lead sam into a park that poison ivy frequents. Of course, poison ivy is there but instead of running away in fear like niky expected, Sam runs up to ivy, complements her and joins the path of eco terrorism.
Tucker and his partner Vic finds himself in the middle of a riddler attack, locked in a room with no way out, a countdown timer with 20 secs remaining and a riddle in a computer.
Vic is panicking as he tries to figure it out, he looked to tucker for help. Tucker just shrugged and hacked the computer, not even bothering to solve the riddle. It worked and Vic is baffled and the riddler is frustrated.
Danny find himself in the hands of the joker, (his partner ran the moment joker was seen) hanging upside down on top of a large pool of acid, because, it's classic for joker. He is also being live streamed.
The teachers in GA are panicking, the bats are panicking.
Casper high teacher took one look at the stream and shrugged. "Eh, he'll be fine." They also called the number that joker has displayed on the screen, just to say, "Daniel Fenton, make sure your back before in GA 6 pm or else were leaving you to find the hotel on your own."
The time is 5:30 pm.
It takes 25 minutes to walk from Joker to GA.
Danny sighs, might as well start walking.
He uses intangibility to free himself and fall into the vat of acid.
The Gothamites are shocked and screaming, the bats are shocked. Amity parkes went "oh" and continued placing bets on how fast Danny will get back.
Danny then proceeds to swim out of the acid pool, punch the joker in the face, knocking him out in a single hit and then proceeds to casually squeeze out the acid from his Casper high "I am a proud amitian" shirt as if it's regular water.
All of this was done in 5 minutes.
All of this was caught on stream.
The Gothamites are passed out, the bats are questioning everything. Batman is searching up everything he can about acid side effects and about Danny but ends up with nothing.
The amity parkers just raised their bets even further.
Danny somehow makes it back 10 minutes late and Wes wins the bet.
#danny phantom#dc x dp#dpxdc#amity park#casper high#gotham#batman#amity parkers be like#humans are nothing compared to ghost#danny will be fine#hes phantom#batman is stressed#danny fenton
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you know the killer doesn't understand
in which spencer is so terrified he's going to hurt you after he gets out of prison that he can barely touch you. an argument ensues.
angst (+ comfort) warnings/tags: established relationship, fem!reader, mentions of violent intrusive thoughts (non-specific), arguing, yelling, use of the word rape, nightmares, happyish ending, mention of showering together, it's a bad time but it's also a good time for us woo i love angsty angst a/n: i miss posting for real so bad i dug up this draft which was mostly finished and polished it up. i think i really like this one and it was based on a request but i lost it:( i hope u guys enjoy this, pls lmk<3
Spencer is by no means happy with his sudden fear of touching youâit makes everything in his life significantly harder and less convenient and he hates that heâs constantly afraid heâs going to break you. He hates watching you hold back from attacking him with a hug when he enters a room like you used to, and he feels terrible every time you ball up on the opposite side of the couch as he reads, waiting for an invitation into his lap but too scared to ask for one (heâll always hold out his arm for you, thoughâheâs not cruel.)
Youâre adorable in the way you stand at the foot of the bed in your pajamas, arms behind your back like itâs not your bed too, but it makes him feel terrible. This isnât at all what he wanted for you, and in all honestly heâs thought about ending the relationship because he knows heâs being an absolutely awful partnerâbut he just canât bring himself to. Instead, he gestures for you to get into bed, and you curl up under the covers close to him but not against him, and heâll play with your hair and read for a while because he canât sleep very well. Eventually heâll assume the position of sleep, but some sick part of him doesnât know what to do with the sounds of the city and the fan instead of the sounds of a hundred men rolling and sniffing and shuffling around their echoey cells. He doesnât understand warmth anymore, or softness, or nice pajamas or fluffy pillows. Heâs starting to think he doesnât understand you. And thatâs the worst thought of all.Â
So he essentially dozes for the first week, on and off, always exhausted in the mornings but whatâs new. When he canât sleep, he turns his head to watch you breatheâsome beautiful, sweet creature dreaming in his bed, unwaveringly loyal to him even though he can hardly stand to touch you for fuckâs sake. Youâre beautiful, and it makes him feel better to watch you, even if he canât touch you. Not now that he knows what he is capable of doing to another person. What if he has some sort of PTSDâPTSS, thank you, Luke Alvezâinduced dream and does something terrible to you in his sleep? Itâs not like youâre tiny, but heâs stronger, he knows he is, and lately every time you get too close he remembers exactly what it feels like to exert the full force of that strength, and what it feels like when someone else unleashes their own onto him.Â
Theyâre just intrusive thoughts, and in them he doesnât hurt you intentionally, but he always feels a little bit sick now. He is so, so sick. A bull in a China shop. Spencer knows exactly how breakable humans areâitâs his job to know. If he left so much as one red mark on you by accident, heâs quite sure heâd drill down to a previously unknown rock bottom. And if he reaches that point, he doesnât know if heâd ever deserve to come back.Â
Every day it seems to become clearer that the only humane thing to do is break up with you. But for now heâll watch you sleepâthe delicate rising and falling of your chest, the way you curl in on yourself because you canât curl into him. In sleep you look so peaceful and content. You never look that way awake, anymore. Not when heâs around, which is pretty much always. At least he canât disappoint you while youâre asleep.Â
Or so heâd like to think.Â
Until one night, about a week and a half after he gets home; you whimper in your sleep. Itâs so quiet he couldâve missed it, but he doesnât, and then he watches your smooth brow furrow with worry and he knows youâre having a nightmare immediately.Â
Spencer panicsâbefore, he would have woken you up and held you and comforted you until you fell back asleep and it would have been so simple. Now heâs frozen, afraid to touch you but not sure if he can just lie there watching you so afraid and not do a thing about it.Â
In the end, you choose for himâand it only takes a few moments. Youâre close enough to him that itâs easy for you to close the few inches even in sleep, and maybe youâre slightly conscious but not enough to remember youâre not supposed to touch him.Â
He stops breathing as you fold yourself against him, muttering worried nonsenseâhe catches his name, onceânestling against his chest, one searching arm gently draping over his waist. Every muscle in his body is rigid, and his thoughtsâhis mind goes⊠completely fucking blank.Â
Suddenly, all heâs known, all heâs ever known, is the smell of your hair, the warmth of you seeping through layers of clothing, and the weight of your arm over him. Everything he ever was ceases to exist, and heâs just this, right now. The person youâd turned to unconsciously for comfort, so sure, so trusting that he would keep you safe. He can feel your breath for the first time in months. Slowly every tense muscle unspools. For the first time in a long time he doesnât feel dangerous. He doesnât feel like his entire body is spring loaded and ready to attack at the slightest provocation. Spencer allows himself to hold you, and part of it feels like betrayal because he knows how badly you need this from him while youâre awake but mostly he feels like he could cry. His thumb rubs circles into the middle of your back and your head tucks so perfectly under his chin while he studies the rumpled sheets where youâd been lying a moment ago. He almost feels like sticking his tongue out to gloat at your half of the mattressâhaha, look who gets to hold her nowâbut instead he sighs, shakily, and squeezes his eyes shut.Â
You donât make another sound for hours.Â
Heâs reluctant to let you go when you begin to stir around six AM, but forcibly holding onto you is so far from what he wants to do that he manages. You roll back over to your own side of the bed, and he continues admiring you from afar until he falls asleep. Itâs the best three hours of sleep heâs had in a very long time.Â
Of course, you donât remember it. When you wake up your sadness resumes, and so does the pretending like youâre not sad, but youâre a very good sportâand it helps that heâs feeling much better this morning than he has since he got back.Â
âGood morning,â you whisper faintly, still blinking as you watch him longingly from your spot.Â
Spencer pushes himself up onto an elbow, and you watch with big eyes as he leans over you, stroking your cheek with his free hand.Â
âGood morning. You sleep okay?â
Your brow flickers, and he realizes itâs not a question he asks every morning, and youâre probably distracted by this overt display of affection, but you answer it obediently anyway.Â
âI think so. I had weird dreams.â
He hums.Â
âAbout what?â
Itâs quiet for a moment as he takes in the exact spattering of microscopically fractured pigment over your irises. Your voice is small when you finally speak.Â
âDo I have to tell you?â
That hurts.Â
âNo. But it might help.â
Coming from him? Ironic doesnât even begin to cover it.Â
You acknowledge him with a small hum of your own, studying him with soft, mistrustful eyes.Â
He canât help it anymoreâSpencer leans down and gently kisses you, so tenderly, so chastely, it makes his own head spin. He hasnât kissed you like that since you picked him up from Milburn. Itâs long overdue.Â
Which is why heâs not expecting you to start crying. He pulls back immediately, not far, just enough to assess your expression.Â
âWhatâs this? Whatâs wrong, angel?â He frowns. Your lip quivers in a way that feels like a blow to the chest.Â
âThatâs not⊠youâreâŠâ
âWhat? What is it?â
A fat tear finally traces a path down your cheek and when you speak your voice breaks in the most fragile, devastating way.Â
âYouâre not being fair.â
He has no neat question to summarize all the bafflement your accusation inspires in his lately cloudy head, but the wildly confused look on his face must be prompt enough.
âIâm trying really hard to respect your space and boundaries and not upset you but my feelings are hurt, Spencer, I donât know how they couldnât be. I feel like you donât even like me anymore. Iâm embarrassed around you because I feel like I care about you so much more than you care about me. And then youâand then you wake up one morning and you think itâs okay to act like you love me again but I canâtâI cââ you stop, obviously frustratedânow crying in earnest and lacking the words. âYou canât be mean to me. I know youâve been through a lot and Iâm sorry but you canât treat me like that. Iâm a person, too.â
His chest aches and he swallows down barbed wire.
âIâm not acting like I love you. I do love you. More than Iâve ever loved anyone or anything in my life. Thatâs not an act.â
Itâs not an adequate response, but your words are still spinning in his head until he canât keep up with them. Heâs not used to this, anymore. The language you two had developed is so foreign now.Â
Maybe he just doesnât know how to talk to you.Â
Resignationâa too-calm recognition softens the stormy look that has brewed on your face. As soon as itâs gone, and youâre looking at him placidly, he realizes heâs afraid.Â
âWell, thatâs not enough,â you whisper.Â
Spencer feels like heâs been shot as you push the covers aside and slip out of bed. And he knows what that feels like.Â
âWhere are you going?â And then louder, when you donât hear him because youâve already left the room, âWhere are you going?â
He follows you through the apartment as you march purposefully for the door, slipping shoes on and grabbing your keys and coat.Â
You barely look over your shoulder as you leave, slamming the front door behind you. Things shake from the impact. A mini earthquake.Â
Spencer is too stunned to follow you.Â
Itâs not until a few minutes later when he goes to call you that he realizes your phone is still sitting on your bedside table. He stares at it, tasting metal, because he has absolutely no way to reach you or guarantee your safety. Thereâs no way for you to call him, or anyone, if you get in troubleâand he fears that youâll retaliate against him by doing something stupid and dangerous.Â
He only just manages to stop himself from calling the police and asking them to start looking for you. Only just recognizes it to be an overreaction.Â
Besides, heâs not feeling particularly fond of the criminal justice institution these days. If it came down to it, heâd trust himself and his team over the cops any day.
The team. Theyâre always a resource. If worst comes to worst, he thinks, robotically making coffee as he tries to talk himself down, and she doesnât come home before dark, Iâll call all of her closest friends. If she doesnât come home before the morningâthe thought makes him feel sickâIâll deploy every fucking resource at my disposal.Â
Maybe thatâs an overreaction, too, but he has to find a way to self-soothe somehow. Planning makes him feel better. Being prepared for the things you never see coming makes him feel better. Itâs impossible, of courseâbut the illusion of control is stubborn and so seductive.Â
Thankfully, it doesnât come to that.Â
At around 2 PM, he receives a couple of texts from Garcia that are a massive relief.Â
Penelope: Sheâs at my apartment
Penelope: BE NICER TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!
The series of emojis that follow (including an octopus?), he doesnât even try to decipher. He simply drops his phone and sighs deeply into his hands, releasing an extreme amount of paranoid tension that had been tying him into knots. Lately, heâs had this sense that everything is fleetingâthat the things he takes for granted are painfully, violently impermanent. It doesnât take anyone with a degree to figure out why heâs been feeling that way, but itâs so all-consuming heâs not sure how to cope with it. Just a few days ago, heâd been wondering how to break up with you. Now heâs asking himself how the fuck he thought heâd be able to do that when heâs barely functioning after a few hours without you.
Itâs a question he still hasnât answered by the time the front door opens at 10 PM. Itâs clear by the deer-in-headlights look on your face that you hadnât been expecting him like thisâleaning over the counter, half-empty mug by his hand, staring at nothing in particular and waiting for you to come home. Neither of you have changed clothing since this morningânot that you couldâbut you look apprehensive as you close it behind you, never facing away from him. The whole thing is like a teenager being caught sneaking back in by a weary parent.Â
For a moment the silent confrontation stretches into the horizon, a non-specific point as neither of you seem inclined to be the first to talk. You just watch him watching youâleaning against the door rigidly as if you canât get far enough away. But heâs too tired for this. Too worn out.Â
âHowâd you get home?â
You swallow.Â
âPenelope.â
Spencer nods slowly, rolling his bottom lip between teeth and finally looking away.Â
âYou really should have brought your phone.â
You scoff, peeling yourself from the door.Â
âOf course thatâs what youâre worried about.â
Itâs the same situation as this morning, but in reverseâhim following after you down the hall as you storm toward the bedroom.Â
âWhâshould I not have been? You scared meââ he says your name, barely catching the door before it can slam in his face. âI was worried about you.â
âWhy?â you face him, laughing bewilderedly as if the situation were at all funny. A kind of manic energy crackles from the surface of your skin and in your eyes that renders him unable to think of a reply. âBecause you thought I would get raped and murdered and then youâd be sad?â
âYes!â Spencer yells, eyes widening as he fails to contain his frustration any longer. âThat is fucking exactly why I was scared!â
You step forward, getting in his space. It jars him, momentarilyâhe wants to get away from you. Being angry and so close to you is terrifying. What if he lashes out? What if he hurts you? Heâs seen crimes of passion. His blood is freezing in his veins.Â
âOf course you didnât give one single fuck that I left you. You didnât think for one fucking second that I might be tired of this. That wasnât what you were scared of at all.â For every inch you near, he backs away. Another scorned, bitter laugh from you that feels like poison coursing through his entire circulatory system. You notice everything, eyeing him up and down as he cowers from you. âWhat is this, Spencer? If you hate being near me that much, just fucking break up with me.â
Youâre close enough that he can see the tears welling in your eyes, but heâd know they were there even if he couldnât observe them. He would hear it in your voice. He would feel it. But he canât do anything about it. Right now, heâs paralyzed.Â
âIf the only thing holding you back is wanting to spare my feelings, just fucking do it. This isnât better. I donât give a fuck if itâs hard for you. Itâs hard for me, too, but Iâm not just going to ignore it anymore.â
Thereâs no more room. The wall is at is back.Â
âHoney, please back up,â Spencer breathes. Last time his back was to a wall, heâd been gagged and beaten. Donât lash out. She never hurt you. It wasnât her.Â
âDonât tell me what to do!â you shout, as tears begin to spill over your cheeks. âEither break up with me or stop telling me to go away!â
At that moment, as you break down and your words become muddled with sobs, you raise your fist.Â
Spencer watches it approach his shoulder as if in slow-motion.Â
On instinct, he catches your wrist.
Thereâs a lull as he waits for something to explode, for something to go terribly, deeply wrongâ
But it doesnât.Â
He realizes his grip is gentle. He realizes youâd never actually hurt him like that. He realizes how little resistance heâd found when he stopped what was sure to be nothing more than a petulant, petty bump against his shoulderâa maneuver that wouldnât have hurt in the slightest. It was nothing more than a desolate, childlike display of feelings bigger than you know what to do with.Â
In the second that it takes him to realize all of this, to realize he is not endangering you in the slightest, nor you him, youâve begun to truly sob. Standing just inches from him, head angled down as he holds your wrist carefully, you are the picture of a girl who has been running on empty for a very long time and has nothing left to give. Spencer twines his arms around you, tucking your head under his chin and slowly rubbing your back like heâd never forgotten how to hold you. It stuns you, and the tears pause for just a secondâbefore youâre wrapping desperate, weakened arms around him and sobbing even harder, albeit silently, into his shirt.Â
âI donât want to break up,â he whispers, his own voice shaky with understated emotion. âIâm sorry. Please donât say that. I donât want that.â
âWhatâs wrong with you?â You cry, a desperate plead caught between sobs that wrack your body against his against the wall. And he knows itâs not an accusation. Itâs not an insult. Itâs a question borne of confusion and fear. Itâs what a child might ask a sick dog while tears stream down feverish cheeks. And itâs completely appropriate, considering he never tells you anything anymore and heâs only just realizing how scary that must be. Spencer is back from prison but you may as well still be living alone for all that you know about him. He tangles a hand in your hair and holds you against his chest, breathing you like nitrous oxide.Â
âI donât know,â he whispers. The room beyond blurs as he stares at nothing, focused only on the tingly euphoria of feeling you under his hands clashing with the ever-present and crushing shame that he couldn't do it sooner. âI donât know. Iâm sorry.â
âI donât want youâto be sorry.â Shuddering breaths and gasps still cleave your sentences in half, and Spencer listens so intently he thinks there might be harmonics hidden in the layers of your voice. He clings to every syllable like youâre wielding the word of god in a five-foot-something body. âI just miss you so mâmuch. I want you toâto love me.â
âI do,â he promises immediately, lips pressing to your ear. âI do love you. So much. So much.â
When you donât respond, heâs not exactly surprised. He almost asks what he can do, what you needâbut is quite sure thatâs not the right move. Instead he doesnât say a thing. Only holds you.
Later, youâll pull back and heâll swim in your teary gaze, and then kiss you. Heâll trace silent apologies into every inch of your skin under the torrent of the shower, and heâll do whatever it takes to make you understand. But for now, for the first time in months, youâre holding each other, and thatâs all either of you need. Â
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SNUGGLE BUG
Summary: The boys try to get out of bed, their partner has other plans.
Pairing(s): Dick Grayson, Jason Todd, Tim Drake, x reader
A/N: unedited
DICK GRAYSON
Dick's always been a physically affectionate person, far more so than the rest of his family. It's why he'd been so ecstatic when he'd found you, a partner that was just as, if not more affectionate than him.
On more than one occasion his siblings had been given front-row seats to the snuggle show when they broke into his apartment, served them right really.
What Dick hadn't accounted for, was just how difficult it was to peel himself from your arms in the morning. Torture would hurt less he's sure.
"Ten more minutes," you whined childishly, burrowing your face into Dick's bare shoulder, tightening your arms around his torso.
"We've already said that three times." Your partner laughed, wriggling out of your hold but with far less strength than you knew he was capable of.
Both of you were fully aware just how quickly he could extracate himself from your arms should the neccessity rise. Technically speaking he did have to go to work, but surely it couldn't hurt to be a little late?
Though a quick glance at the hello kitty alarm clock on the bedside table confirmed he was already late.
"Dickie, can't you just call in? I wanna cuddle."
Fuck. How could he say no to that?
It wasn't like he really needed the money anyway.
His boss's ire is worth it to feel the way you smile into the skin of his neck, your warm breaths and little laughs as you lay tangled together.
So worth it.
JASON TODD
"You planning on letting me go anytime soon?" Jason grunted, though you know him well enough to hear the smile he's attempting to hide.
"Never," you mumble into the skin between his broad shoulder blades, the mattress slouching beneath the combined weight of you and your boyfriend.
Jason, undeterred by your attempts to drag him down, stands with a grunt. A cracking noise you know to be his knees rings out, and though you feel a little bad, you're unwilling to back down in your quest to get him back into bed.
Unfortunately for you, your boyfriend is built like a brick shithouse and is just as stubborn as you. Slowly, he manouevers around your small apartment all the while you hang off his back like a drunken Koala.
"Babyyyy," you whine petulantly into his ear, arms tightening around his neck in an attempt to only slightly choke him into submission.
Sighing, Jason starts to wander back into the bedroom. Just when you think you've won, he spins around, falling backwards onto the mattress and crushing you beneath his bulk.
In the minutes you spend winded, recovering, from being squished like an ant, Jason makes his escape. When you finally manage to come back to yourself you notice something incredibly distressing.
"Clothes! Why are you wearing clothes!" you wailed, sliding off the mattress and onto the floor in a pathetic slump.
Despite himself, Jason smiles at the sight, bundling you up in his arms before hopping back into bed with you. "Ok, you big dramatic baby."
Hey may have sounded put out, but the both of you knew he wanted to cuddle just as much. Besides, nothing was as important to him as you.
TIM DRAKE
Heâd tried to be quiet. Truly, with years of training in the art of stealth Tim had intended to simply slip out of the bed and leave you to the sleep you needed.
Heâd almost made it, both feet on the floor and the mattress no longer bearing most of his weight when all of a sudden a hand darted out, grasping his wrist.
Tim froze, slowly turning to look down at you with wide, guilty eyes. You're glaring up at him, sleep-addled face far more adorable than threatening, not that he'd ever tell you that, for fear of getting his ass beat.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" your voice is hoarse and gravelly from sleep but the threat is evident.
Mouth suddenly dry, Tim awkwardly chuckles, "Oh, babe, you're awake."
"Thanks to you," you grumbled sleepily, guilt and fear in equal measurements settling heavily in his chest.
"M'sorry, tried not to wake you but I gotta get to work on this case."
"No." You grunted, wrapping your arms around Tim's waist with freakish speed, nuzzling your face into his side.
He can't help the way his heart skips several beats at your casual affection. Tim's always been starved for touch, for the soft loving touch that you've always provided as if its as natural as breathing.
He should be used to it but despite the years worth of love and affection you've poured into Tim in the time you've spent together he still hasn't acclimated.
Tim knows, that you know, just how weak to your touch he is. It still doesn't prevent his resolve from crumbling when you refuse to let him budge, tugging him back down into your warm embrace.
"Good boy," you murmur against the skin of his neck, wrapping around his back like an octopus and trapping him against the expanse of your chest.
His skin runs hot at your words, mind numb to anything that's not your touch as he's eventually lulled back to sleep to the soothing sounds of your breathing.
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jungkook fic recs! đ part 2
đ€ Champagne Confetti â j.jk - @busanboykoo (âyou won't regret me, champagne confettiâ or maybe just jungkook wants you to tell him what you want him to do to you.)
đ€ oh how you love longhair!jungkook . . . - @twilghtkoo
đ€ Your boyfriend looks a little too good in his police uniform. - @badbtssmut
đ€ e s p r e s s o - @joonberriess (boxer!jk)
đ€ trippin' over, gettin' lost on you | jjk (m) - @euphorajeon (a visit to the coffee shop you work at rewards jeongguk not only with a cup of coffee and a plate of brownie, but also with something else simmering deep in his veins. a challenge is issued, and all hell breaks loose.)
đ€ Donât Blame Me | sugar daddy!jungkook one-shot au - @ctrlsht (You can have everything you want and need as long as you have Jeon Jungkook by your side. You were enjoying everything that Jungkook gives you and as long as youâre with him. Youâre sure to yourself that you will never fail him but he was the one who failed you. Everything is fine until he gets too much.)
đ€ WELCOME TO THE HEARTBREAK SHOW ââ jungkook - @numinousher (youâre in love with your partner in class that everyone fears (and loves) due to his stoic facial expression and the way he rejects girls rather harshly. as you get to know him, will he be able to handle your heart that you so willingly gave him to care for or, will he break it due to his hatred for people who are in love with him?)
đ€ Itâs hard to stop but once it starts, it starts - @byuljoonie
đ€ concrete king. (m) jjk - @bratkook (when a cute boy in a tacky hawaiian shirt lands a trick in your honor theres no way you could ever say no to him)
đ€ baecation - @1kook (âLose the top, or lose the right to present yourself in any low back gown for the next three months.â He truly knew the way to your heart.)
đ€ test your morality (jungkook) - @trivia-yandere (jungkook's morality is tested when he's woken from his unconscious state to find you - his best friend - bound before him.)
đ€ Needy | jjk oneshot - @jkslipppiercing (your boyfriend often helps you set up for your weekly girls' night...what happens when he gets needy for you only 15 minutes before your girl friends arrive?)
đ€ ESCAPISM | JJK - @wnderkoo (àšà§Â lipstick smudged like modern art..)
đ€ VĂ©ritĂ©s CachĂ©es (JJK) - @bangtanficsforyou (You try to make an escape from a beast, that you happen to have encountered while on a vacation with your boyfriend.)
đ€ lonely hearts club (m) - @dovechim (jeon jeongguk has annoying little brother energyâą. you know this deep in your bones. wedding after wedding, you keep running into him at the goddamn singlesâ table, and he just wonât leave you alone. until you start to wonder... is he your ticket out of the lonely hearts club?)
đ€ By Its Cover (M) - @gimmesumsuga (The one where Jungkook makes a horrifically bad first impression.)
đ€ The Deepest Marks of Essence - @lleldey (When you found yourself circled by a tribe, you never thought it would lead you to tap into your deepest wants and desires. You are the oldest child, the example of how one should act at all costs, but if you ever manage to escape this maze and if your story ever becomes told, youâll never be looked at the same. But itâs hard to regret it when your nights are spent with gentle caresses and starry midnight skies. You got everything you secretly longed for, but at what cost?)
đ€ every hour, every minute. (m) - @aajjks (jungkook can be an animal when it comes to fucking you sensless.)
đ€ ONCE AGAIN, MILAN ! - (nsfw) - @frmisnow (what happens when you and jungkook find yourselves once again in milan, this time with no business attached â well a hol' lotta sex for sure!)
#jungkook#jungkook fanfiction#bts fanfiction#jungkook angst#bts angst#jungkook fic recs#bts fic recs#jungkook x reader#bts jungkook#jungkook series#jungkook fanfic#jeon jungkook x reader#jungkook smut#jungkook fic#jungkook recs#jeon jungkook#jeon jungguk#jungkook imagine#yandere jungkook#jungkook reader#jungkook x y/n#jungkook x yn
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