#fanfiction Immortalium act 4

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Christopher Tester (Heinrix VA) voice acting a part of my fanfiction Immortalium.

It is a scene that isn’t posted yet that follows the game event in act 4 where the Rogue Trader can disappear again on a companion quest (spoiler for the companion below and in the video).

While sadly not in the game, I think we can imagine the emotions Heinrix must be going through at this moment:

He is angry with himself, that he wasn't able to prevent this from happening, angry with whoever is responsible for the Rogue Trader to disappear

He is emotionally hurt and in great pain as he just lost the woman (again), that he fell in love with

The sheer helplessness that he can't do anything to help her come back

There are moments where he clinges on hope and where he tries to keep control over his emotions, to distance himself from the pain like he always does

He is remorseful over things he said and did that hurt her, and the missed opportunities to make it right (this is specific for my fanfic)

The voiced scene is Heinrix trying to write a letter to his beloved Rogue Trader, even if his words might never reach her. While writing, he voices his thoughts about the whole ordeal.

I hope you enjoy Christophers very emotional performance as much as I did:

The whole text (as I mentioned, this is while he is trying to write a letter):

“Dear… no.”

“Lord Captain...”

“I... I lost you.”

“And now we are dragged against our will along the unpredictable currents of the warp, unable to steer a path of our own, to break away into realspace once again, a plaything of volatile forces. But we shouldn't even be here, it wasn't planned and the usual protocols and rituals were not done. What were you and Lady Cassia doing in the sanctum? Why was no one else informed? What were you hiding? Would you have told me if things had been different between us?”

“No. No! Right on this ship, right under my nose ... what am I not seeing?”

“Gone. How many hours have I spent in front of this accursed painting, looking for a sign, a trace, wondering if something would drag me through it like it did with you? Granting me relief by uniting me with you or a slow death of agony in the horrors of the warp.”

“Nothing. Despite everything I tried, everything I did, all the investigations, interrogations...can you believe that I even asked Idira for help, to listen to the voices in the warp against my better knowledge and judgement, still leaving me with nothing that brings me closer to you, to help you return.”

“What good is the authority of my position, years of experience that refined my skills and abilities, all my collected knowledge, even my sorcery, if it can't help me protect or save the one who matters most to me?”

“Trap after trap after trap we went through - with open eyes. Even the one I knew was coming. Whatever happened now, took me by complete surprise. It shouldn't have.”

“I can't sleep and I am too tired to think clearly anymore. I am at a loss.”

“No. Focus, van Calox. I won't give up - there must be an explanation, a solution, a better way than just waiting for another miracle to happen. I have to do something, anything to bring you back. It can't end like this.”

“Every day can be the last … I learned this lesson far too well – why didn't I act like it? Letting valuable time run through my fingers as if we had eternity to spend. As if there was for sure a tomorrow to tell you what I need you to know, to make things right, to get another chance to hold you, to be with you.”

“I only ever wanted to protect you. I failed. Again. Trying to keep you safe but all I accomplished was to push you away and to hurt your feelings in the process. I was blinded by revenge against the Xenos, for all the pain and suffering they had inflicted upon us. By my concern and fear it could happen again. If I had done things differently maybe... but now it's too late.”

“Hope. How often is it used as a tool, perverted in a cruel attempt to increase the pain of suffering? I have seen it countless times. Did it myself. And yet, it is all I have left. I hope for your safe return. For another chance for both of us, one I would dare not waste again.”

“Commoragh. We returned, against all odds. Maybe we were just pawns in a game of gods. I like to believe the Emperor watched over us in this forsaken place. I hope he still watches over you and helps you return once more, wherever you are. Because I, apparently, can't.”

“Please come back to me.”

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Again, thank you so much @eluvisen for this beautiful picture of Venria!

This is how she looks later in the game (and her story in my fanfiction Immortalium), around middle of act 4.

The chain is a combination of two regicide pieces - the stylized head of a horse for the chevalier and a tower for the fortress. It was a gift from Heinrix.

She is now more self-confident than before and while she still does not like being the center of attention she does not feel like she has to hide all the time anymore.

As biomancer, she finally got rid of the one scar on her cheek - she doesn't need this reminder anymore. The memories, nightmares and her trauma won't vanish, but she has come to terms with her past and is ready to move on.

She still wears the ear-jewelry gift from Cassia (it just isn't visible here) and she has embraced the feather design as her personal symbol of freedom (= letting go of her past) which is reflected in the design of her coat (you only see the shoulder part of it).

Commission for @cawyden of Venria von Valencius!

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Masterlist

-> Star wars side blog Masterlist

Rogue Trader posts Overview

Analysis/guides: Toybox / Heinrix romance / general Rogue Trader stuff

Masterlist

Art: Heinrix / my OC Venria / Venria x Heinrix

Masterlist

Fanfiction

Fanfiction: Immortalium (Heinrix x Venria)

Files

Heinrix voiced lines for mobile phone etc.

Party Banter (focussed on Heinrix) and all endings

Christopher Tester (Heinrix VA) - reading

Heinrix poem

Heinrix trying to write a letter after RTs disapperance

Heinrix mobile phone lines (video for the single files above)

Other games

Baldurs Gate 3

Emperor romance scene short video 1

Emperor romance scene short video 2

Pathfinder Wrath of the Righteous Overview

Hand of the inheritor pictures

Hand of the inheritor - thoughts about act 4

Targona pictures

Party Banter

My OC - Eowyn

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Immortalium

My fanfiction on ao3 featuring Heinrix and my OC Venria von Valancius.

It is a sweet slow romance with some angst/hearbreak but also a lot of fluff.

Some chapters feature artwork at the end (is described in the summary at the start of the chapter in this case).

More Heinrix/Venria art can be found here.

All moodboards can be found here.

Playlist

Single posts with updates (I post/update my fanfiction with multiple chapters at once):

Act 1 post (with moodboard)

Act 2 post (with moodboard)

Act 3 post (with moodboard)

Currently in work: act 4