#expect more hgsn posts soon bc OUGH

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the fact that “hikaru” finds yoshiki to be his sole purpose for everything even though he doesn’t know why OUGHHHHHH makes me sick. he’s not the real hikaru but his memories and feelings were ingrained in his body that it’s transferred to the fake hikaru. but how much is hikaru and how much is it the monster’s real feelings at this point?

yoshiki is essentially enabling it by not being able to let go of hikaru. he knows. HE KNOWS it’s not hikaru. they’re too different yet still the same. he forgives “hikaru” when even he knows he’s messed up terribly despite still learning about the world and human morality. yoshiki knows it’s not hikaru but deep down wants to figure out the town’s dark history to know why this happened to hikaru and let him finally rest. However, in the process he’s grown so attached. he wanted “hikaru” to die in the beginning but panicked seeing him almost die in the latest chapter. he wouldn’t even be trying to figure out this mystery if “hikaru” didn’t want to. if he could, he would ignore everything to at least have this hikaru by his side for just a bit more longer.

Luckily, “hikaru” wants to figure out because SURPRISE SURPRISE he wants to change and learn for yoshiki. he wants to protect yoshiki but doesn’t know why, only knows that his soul is warm and wants to bask in it. he’s grown weak, he’s not masking himself well enough because he’s comfortable around yoshiki to let his guard down. before all this he would’ve killed anyone who even got a small suspicion about him not being normal but won’t because of yoshiki. it genuinely causes him distress if he makes yoshiki unhappy despite being A GOD. HE LITERALLY GAVE HIM HALF OF HIS SOUL SO YOSHIKI CAN EASILY KILL HIM WHENEVER ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? he wants to be equal with yoshiki and somewhat strong enough to protect him when needed to. doomed by fate troupes you make me crazy and i love you for it