#exhausted Castiel

[drulalovescas]

Castiel's perpetual mood since 1901

[nhyhu]

a kiss

[strawlessandbraless]

The way Dean can adapt to any situation but one where Cas isn’t there

[naturegirl555]

I genuinely cannot be normal about destiel. It’s so brain rotting and consuming.

[youchangedmedestiel]

Destiel AU idea (again)

Dean is searching for a flat because he recently divorced Lisa. He wants one that is big and comfortable enough to welcome his children, Ben and Emma. It's been months since he started searching for one. Fortunately, Lisa is understanding enough to let him stay in their old house until he finds something.

They actually aren't in a hard and conflicted relationship right now, their marriage stopped because there wasn't love between them anymore. They still care about each other.

Dean knew he wasn't in love with Lisa anymore and he suspected the same for Lisa, but he was fine with it. Lisa though thought otherwise. She asked for divorce because she said that they both deserved to find love and be loved.

So, Dean is doing his umpteenth visit for a flat that he spotted on Internet. This one seems really nice and clean, his children will be able to have their own rooms. And the kitchen looks awesome with enough place for him to cook.

The real estate agent who give him the tour of the flat isn't bad either. He has blue eyes, which looks surreal, long and dark eyelashes that match his hair and his growing beard. Dean listens to him attentively and can't help but look right into his eyes when he speaks. Dean wants to confide in him and he does that naturally actually.

He tells him that he is sick to search for a home for his family. It's been months, and he's exhausted to be disappointed each time he thinks he found something. But at the same time, he wants his children to feel good in that new home so he is demanding.

That real estate agent, Castiel, is compassionate and doesn't understand why Dean doesn't find one with his solid, complete application. Castiel tells Dean that maybe it's because others real estate agents are struggling right now. There's a lot of people searching for a new home at this time of the year, so a lot of work. Castiel admits that he, himself, is buried in work all day long.

He works 6 days a week constantly. Since Dean is really attentive to what the man in front of him says, he notices that Castiel doesn't seem to have someone in his life to get back to. So, he goes for it. He asks Castiel if he wants to go and get a drink with him once they have finished the tour.

Castiel seems surprised by the offer and looks away. He fumbles with his pen and papers and puts them on the kitchen counter. He takes a deep breath. So, Dean fears his answer.

"Are you asking me on a d-" Castiel starts asking hesitantly.

"Yes." Dean cuts him, because he somehow fears that word. It sounds too official and he's still living with his ex. Plus, it's been a while for him.

"O - okay. Yeah." Castiel agrees, and neither of them is able to look at the other.

[disinhume]

SAVE A HORSE, RIDE A COWBOY!!!!

[myimmanence]

I think I might start a collection of just unequivocally fatigued castiels

[unprofessionalprofessionalbinger]

7x2 "Hello, cruel world"

Okay, everything about the ending of season 6 and the start of season 7 is just wild.

THEY BETTER BRING OUR HUSBAND (mine and Dean's obv) BACK?! =(

But also Cas WHAT DID YOU DOOOOO UGHHHHH???

I get the intentions were good but how did that pure, awkward dude get so lost in power ahhhhhhhh

Yeak, ik that's what happens.

And ik Cas isn't a random, innocent dude.

BUT STILLLLLLL

ALSO WHERE THE FUCK IS BOBBY???????

WHO THE FUCK DECIDED EVERYTHING SHOULD BE A DUMPSTERFIRE AGAIN??? DEAN'S SUICIDAL???? SAM'S INSANE???? CAS DEAD???? BOBBY MIA OR DEAD?????

[ppersonalsspace]

Y'know maybe we would let this stupid fucking show go if the CW hadn't edited and censored the hell out of the 12 year long conclusion to the best love story ever told. Maybe I wouldn't be rewatching this show over and over and over. Maybe... MAYBE I wouldn't be 75 pages into my S16 fix it script. Maybe I could work on some of my original ideas... Maybe if my brain wasn't rotting away with what should have been. Maybe if we didn't get constant news about how things were originally written and shot and goddamnit.

[inalandofsadclowns]

Cas: Can I ask you something? Why does Eileen keep looking at your mouth when you talk?

Sam: That's because she's lip reading.

Cas: Which makes it...socially acceptable?

Sam: I mean, sure.

The next morning Cas storms into the bunker kitchen.

Cas: I have suffered a terrible accident with the hair dryer. I can't see now.

Dean: What? You can't see? Hair- what??

Cas: I can't, and I'm gonna have to lip read you until I get better.

Dean: ...

Cas: With my own lips.

[kyofsonder]

My Google Drive has been begging me to either pay for more space or clear out old files, and going through documents from 10+ years ago to archive them to my computer and clear them off my Drive itself is almost making me wish I could still connect to some of my abandoned stories and ideas.

I never followed through with most of them, but hindsight helps me see what I was trying to do in the moment and why it didn't work. If nothing else, I hope I've carried the things I wanted from those stories into the things I write now. I hope I learned some things from my past self, in that sense.

[shedontlovehuhself]

Man's is literally cleaning up another mess because the angel wasn't addressed again. When I tell you the spn fandom does not deserve him.

Edit: cause I have more to say.

Misha shouldn't have to explain anything. It's not his job to be the fandom scapegoat nor clean-up agent. If his schedule couldn't work, fine. Doesn't mean Castiel couldn't be mentioned. Cause they found a way to make it work for Sam. JP, nor Mark S couldn't make an appearance, Sam and Crowley got a mention. And before I get the "Dean needs to work thru his shit before he says Cas' name" bs excuses, Jack can't mention his dad? Bobby can't mention his friend? "I'm going to get the calvary", "When I rebuilt heaven" were two perfect opportunities to say Cas name.

[uh-ohspaghettio]

Man how does castiel do that just be that bitch all the time

[lavender-0-menace]

how i know dean loved cas: i have eyes. yes, jensen didn’t act outwardly emotional but like this is dean we’re talking about? the mommy issues daddy issues combo? with a side of savior complex and emotional dysregulation from ptsd? ofc he wasn’t sobbing, dean was trying to come up with a plan that didn’t end with them both dying. but even if cas had told him on a chill day where they were just at the bunker, completely physically safe, he would have had the same reaction. dean winchester doesn’t believe that he gets a happy ending, he would sooner have thought case’s vessel had been possessed by someone else or he was hallucinating than cas actually loving him back. he would need at least a week of constant “just checking, you’re actually cas?” “i think you’re lying, there’s no way cas loves me” “are you just saying that so i’ll fuck you?”

ofc course he doesn’t mention it after cas dies. he’s 99% sure he misunderstood or misheard or thought it was a trick by the empty. it would take the worlds biggest sledgehammer to get it through his thick skull that he is loved and deserves love, cas unfortunately didn’t have that

You know how I know Dean loved Cas back? They never brought up the love confession again!!!!! One of the main characters confesses his love for the other main character and gets killed for it and it's just never discussed???? In any shape or form????? WHO DOES THAT!!!!! Unless you are avoiding having any sort of discussion because there is no way this character could be anything other than reciprocating the love!!!!!!!!!

[drfrankensteinvsthequeerborgs]

in which Cas realizes he's the sidekick

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Oh god exhausted Dean in season 5 on Bobby's couch nodding off on Cas's shoulder after a night of insomnia spent talking. Bobby spying them as he quietly comes down for a beer (he's got plenty of shit going on in his head too). Castiel looking with such careful awe at Dean's sleeping face. Oh. So it's like that.

Castiel only flicks his eyes up to Bobby's when he lays a blanket over Dean, and he doesn't change position. Good.

"You taking care of my boy?" Bobby says, quiet as he can without it turning into a whisper (which would definitely wake Dean).

It takes a beat, Castiel's gaze tracking down to Dean, but he answers, "Yes." With appropriate decisiveness.

"He's put a lot of trust in you. We all have."

"Yes. I do not bear it lightly."

"Right answer.

"I feel sometimes...I fear our efforts will not be enough. I fear that certain people are becoming too precious for me to lose."

"Welcome to humanity, angel."

Cas shakes his head with a faint smile, suddenly looking more like a guy you might see at the gas station than a celestial being, but then he settles back into austere. "I am welcomed every time I complain. I wish there were less to complain about."

"You and every unlucky sucker on this craphole we call a planet. There's plenty good around too though."

A snuffle from Dean which turns into half a snore into Cas's shoulder get both of their attention, so Bobby only catches a flicker of Cas’s smile before he schools it neutral. The air's so sweet, Bobby's going to end up with toothache if he stays here too much longer.

"He'll thank you to wake him up before Sam gets down," Bobby tells him, and Cas’s nod is serious. Maybe he already knows. How often has this happened? What's that boy been telling him? For his own peace of mind, he adds: "Ain't nothing to be ashamed of, you hear that? Alls I'm saying is to be careful."

Castiel's head tips to the side just a little, and he gets that look Dean complains of all the time, like he's examining the contents of your soul through the eyes. Then he blinks, and they've reached an understanding. "Thank you."

Bobby waves it away, then slopes back towards bed with a final "'Night Cas. Give my regards to Seeping Beauty."

On his way up the stairs, he hears Castiel murmer, "Goodnight, Dean." and he huffs a tired laugh. Maybe they're not going to do too bad out of this Apocalypse after all.