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Leonid Pasternak  (Ukrainian, 1862–1945) - The Torments of Creative Work

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Thank you for your services, good daoist!

idk if you guys have heard, but words says if you make bad fanart of mu qing, he will visit you in your dreams and give you one of his sexy angry looks

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Pour one out for a real one.

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“I don’t want to be a burden” you’re more like a relief, a gift, a blessing actually

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I really do think the fandom underestimate Xie Lian's own values and kindness while kinda overestimating the kindness the guy who gave him the Bamboo hat in the scene in the rain.

Don't get me wrong, the Bamboo hat is important and the fact that someone went to help him is also important. But it's just the excuse. Xie Lian decided by himself to lie in the rain and gave humanity another chance first. He was trying to convince himself that he didn't believe in the kindness of people anymore while still giving them another chance. He was probably going to lie in the rain until someone, anyone gave him that kindness anyway.

The Bamboo hat is the excuse as to why Xie Lian didn't turn into Jun Wu, but the actual reason is that Xie Lian had the strength to stand in the rain and wait for someone to show him he was right. A thing Jun Wu never did.

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God the way these two act after Hua Cheng rescues Xie Lian from house arrest. I'm frothing at the mouth.

Xie Lian's first gut instinct being that Hu Cheng is there to rescue him, before the guilt about the Manor burning down sets in again. Xie Lian's so afraid that he's damaged his relationship with one of the most interesting and wonderful people he's ever met, that his bad luck and by extension, him, have ruined everything again. Hua Cheng must be upset with him, because no one's ever not been upset with him before about these things. He immediately goes into damage control mode trying to apologize profusely to Hua Cheng.

And Hua Cheng isn't having it! And at first both Xie Lian and the audience are a little scared that it is because he's upset with Xie Lian. But it's actually because Hua Cheng couldn't give a single flying fuck about paradise manor burning down. It's not his home, he made it for gege, he'll remake it easy.

He is, however, infinitely more concerned about the fact that he accidentally injured Xie Lian when he stepped in to absorb his and Lan Qianqiu's blows. How could he possibly be upset about the Manor? He's currently on the verge of tears because Xie Lian keeps trying to fucking apologize to him, all while Hua Cheng's been beating himself up for the last while because he physically injured Xie Lian!

And Xie Lian's like, oh! No need to apologize, I hardly even registered the injury. That was like, barely a 1 on my pain scale. And then Hua Cheng's upset for a whole new reason! And neither of them knows what to do, because the other won't verbally or physically punish them for this, so acts of service it is.

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A bond that is stronger than metal ~❤️

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You cannot convince me that this is not canon Xie Lian

Xie Lian: oh this water looks deadly, let me taste it to make sure.

Hua Cheng: NOOOOOOOOOOO SPIT IT OUT!!!!

Xie Lian: *smack smack* definitely some kind of nuclear waste. No wonder the people are sick!

Hua Cheng: *passes out*

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Gettin' Through the Holidays Mental Health Tricks

If y'all are anything like me, this time of year is triggering AF. Here are some small, very easy grounding exercises that I was taught by my therapist, basically in order of how much I like them for this rage-inducing season. You make like them in a different order, depending on your rage-to-despair ratio.

Push a wall: literally go up to a wall and try to push it over. Really try. I promise you won't push it over, but give it your best shot. Try to hold it as long as you can, and then take a breather and assess whether you need to repeat. Why it works: This is a quick, physical expulsion of the fight-or-flight feeling. It's a bit like punching a wall, but without the potential to hurt yourself/look scary/damage things. You can even do it in front of people and say you're stretching, they'll never know (unless the wall actually falls down, but this will not happen, I assure you).

Shake like a dog: Animals shake to release stress, and you are also an animal. Setting aside time to just shake it out, as vigorously as you can, arms and legs, face, stick your tongue out, pretend you're shaking like a wet dog. You can dance instead, if that feels better, and you can do this to music, but basically the more unhinged you can be, the better. If you are in a place you can scream, scream too! Why it works: like the above, this is a release of pent-up stress and anxiety. Especially if your rage-to-woe ratio is high, some kind of physical exertion is often the best way to burn through the cortisol and adrenaline you're building up.

Bilateral Tapping: Cross your arms over your chest so that your fingertips are at your shoulders, and slowly tap, one hand at a time, back and forth, for about a minute. Breathe slowly. Why it works: This is weird as hell, but because this engages both sides of your brain, it helps override the activity of the amygdala, which is the part of your brain that Makes The Fear. If you're being literally triggered in a situation, i.e. you're having a trauma response, or reliving some family trauma, this is a good one.

Box Breathing: From a comfortable position (can really be seated, laying down or standing), inhale slowly for a count of 4, hold for a count of 4, exhale for a count of 4, hold for a count of 4, then repeat. You can do it for shorter counts or longer counts, but if you vary the counts make sure the exhale is longer than the inhale. You can close your eyes or leave them open. Why it works: This exercise helps you move from a sympathetic (activated) nervous system response to a parasympathetic (balanced) response. I do this one every day, and it's a good gateway to meditation. Especially helpful in anxious or tense situations, but I find if I'm very triggered I need one of the other ones first, or it can make anxiety worse. Breathwork is amazing but not usually as a first exercise if you're very activated, or have been activated a long time.

Ice: Lots of ways to do this one – hands in cold water for 30 seconds, ice pack on the back of your neck, dip your entire face into a bowl of ice water (this one's the most effective). Why it works: I kinda think this is hilarious, but this activates your mammalian dive reflex. It immediately slows your heart-rate, so if you are feeling your blood pressure and heart rate rising, this one is very good. The only reason this one's at the bottom of my list is because I hate being cold.

I wish you all a very get-through-the-holidays-without-hurting-yourself. Take time alone if you need it.

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Arthur, or what little Merlin can still remember of him

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funniest scene in this show and its not even in the show

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i like just started s4 of supernatural two days ago. is the odd homosexual tension between dean and castiel a regular occurrence or…?

will come back to this in the future when i get further into the show.

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I can't imagine what Mu Qing's problem could have been here! Maybe that you've erected this art piece in a Xuan Zhen temple, when it was supposed to go in a shared Xuan Zhen-Dick Yang temple??!?😭

And,

The short answer is yes, he will. The long answer is he appears then breaks both of your arms.

idk if you guys have heard, but words says if you make bad fanart of mu qing, he will visit you in your dreams and give you one of his sexy angry looks

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idk if you guys have heard, but words says if you make bad fanart of mu qing, he will visit you in your dreams and give you one of his sexy angry looks