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insidekatmind · 28 days ago

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Return~ Raphinha

You spent your Saturday night in a club, surrounded by music, lights, and the laughter of your friends. One drink followed another, and before long, a warm buzz settled over you, making everything feel a little lighter, a little hazier.

At some point, you slipped away to the restroom. In front of the mirror, your reflection caught your attention—cheeks flushed, eyes shimmering under the dim neon lights. You couldn't resist capturing the moment with a quick picture.

You intended to share it with your friends, but fate had other plans. Your finger, perhaps guided by something deeper than a simple mistake, tapped a name you thought you had long buried in your past.

Moments later, your phone buzzed.

"Where the hell are you?"

The message came from a ghost you weren’t ready to confront.

Raphinha, your ex.

A sudden notification snapped you out of your thoughts. The bass from the club pulsed through the walls, but your focus shifted entirely to the glow of your phone screen.

"Where the hell are you?"

The message stared back at you, and time seemed to slow. Your heart pounded in your chest, each beat growing louder than the music outside. A chill ran down your spine, and cold sweat clung to your skin.

Your mind spiraled, overwhelmed by a whirlwind of emotions—confusion, fear, anger, longing. You thought you had buried those feelings, locked them away along with the memories of him.

But here you were again, standing at the crossroads of the past and the present.

And Raphinha was waiting for an answer.

"in the disco" you write

After a few seconds of silence, you received a reply:

"Which one? The one downtown."

The messages sent a shiver down your spine. You were starting to feel a bit dizzy due to the alcohol.

"Yes" you write back

"I'll be there in 10 minutes."

You felt like everything around you started spinning, and you leaned against the sink to support yourself.

"oh god what did I do" you laughs drunkenly

You were starting to feel sick from the alcohol, as you leaned over the sink and looked down. Your head felt like it was about to explode, and you were already questioning your decision to drink this much.

Suddenly, your phone lit up again:

"I'm here."

You quickly put your phone back in your pocket, and tried to fix your messy hair. The club was loud and the only thing that was louder was your fast heartbeat.

You left the bathroom and stepped out into the club again. The crowd of people became blurs, and you were barely able to see anything.

You pushed your way through the crowd, and stumbled out of the dance floor. Your vision was blurred and everything around you felt spinning. And then you saw him.

Raphinha, who was way more handsome than you remembered. He was sitting at the edge of the bar, wearing black pants and an unbuttoned red shirt. He seemed to sense your presence as he looked up and his gaze met yours. The air suddenly felt thick, and it was hard to catch your breath.

you approached him drunk. You stumbled over to him with an uneasy smile. Your head was spinning and you were having difficulty even standing up straight. Your ex looked at you, his eyes narrowing slightly.

"How much have you drank?" He asked, his voice holding a hint of irritation.

You stumbled over to him with an uneasy smile. Your head was spinning and you were having difficulty even standing up straight. Your ex looked at you, his eyes narrowing slightly.

"How much have you drank?" He asked, his voice holding a hint of irritation.

you laughed "I don't remember" you say drunk

Your ex sighed and shook his head. "You're a mess".

He stood up from the barstool and moved closer to you. He was so close now that you could feel his breath on your face.

"You can barley stand up straight" he muttered, his eyes searching your face.

you smile and hold on to him so you don't fall.

He looked surprised by your sudden gesture, but didn't push you away. He even wrapped an arm around your waist to support your weight.

"You really drank way too much" he said, his voice a bit softer now.

laugh and nod "maybe".

He looked at you for a moment longer, clearly amused by your drunken state.

"Come with me" he said, tightening his grip around your waist, as he began leading you towards the exit.

"where?" you say mischievously drunk .

Your ex glanced back at you, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.

"We'll see" he replied vaguely, guiding you towards the exit of the club.

As you stepped out into the cool night air, you shivered a little. The world was spinning and you stumbled a bit, leaning on him for support.

you started singing laughing. Raphinha chuckled at your drunken behavior. "You're in a great mood" he teased.

He continued to lead you to his car, his grip on your waist still firm. The streets were almost empty at this time of the night, and the only sound was your voice singing cheerfully.

Once you reached his car, he opened the passenger's side door for you.

"Get in" he said, gesturing for you to get inside the car.

you laugh and get in and fall into the car ass up and laugh. He chuckled as you stumbled into the car.

"Careful, you're really drunk" he muttered, trying to help you into the seat, but your awkward position made it difficult.

"God, you're going to be miserable in the morning" he said, shaking his head as he closed the car door and walked over to the driver's side.

Your ex glanced at you as he started the car and buckled up.

"You really think this is amusing?" he said, his tone slightly amused, but with a hint of annoyance.

you look at him amused "you've become even more handsome"

Raphinha looked at you for a moment, surprised by your comment. A slight blush crept up his cheeks.

"You're only saying that because you're drunk" he replied, but he couldn't help smiling faintly.

laugh drunk "you're hot anyway".He chuckled at your drunken honestly. "You really have no filter right now, do you?" he said, trying to keep a straight face.

He glanced at you again, his eyes looking you up and down. "You're not half bad yourself, even in this state" he teased back.

you laugh and look at him. Raphinha kept driving, occasionally glancing over at you as you continued to laugh.

"You're really enjoying yourself tonight, huh?" he said, a hint of a smile tugging at the corner of his lips.

you smile and touch his leg. He's smile widened as he felt your hand on his leg. He glanced at you, a tingly feeling running through his body.

"You're being awfully touchy right now" he teased, his voice a bit huskier than usual.

you laugh and go over to him while he's driving and kiss his neck.Raphinha was clearly caught off guard by your sudden move. He let out a small gasp as you leaned over and kissed his neck.

"Hey, I'm driving!" he said, but there was a hint of amusement in his voice.

you hum and continue to kiss his neck, nibbling it every now and then. He let out a low moan as you continued to kiss and nip at his neck. It was hard for him to concentrate on the road with you so close to him.

"You're going to get us into an accident" he said, although his words lacked any real authority.

"stop the car" you whisper and continue kissing his neck

Your ex exhaled sharply as you continued to kiss his neck. "You're really testing my patience here" he said, his voice a bit strained. He signaled and pulled over to the side of the road.

"Alright, we're stopped" he said, looking at you with smoldering eyes.

He unbuckled his seat belt and turned to face you. He looked at you with a mixture of annoyance and desire.

"You're really playing with fire here" he said, his voice low and raspy.

you smile and wanted to get closer but you had your seat belt on. Raphinha chuckled as he watched you struggle to get closer to him with your seat belt still on.

"You're a mess" he teased, his eyes roaming over your body. "Having some trouble there?"

"yes it's blocking me" you huff annoyed.

Your ex smirked at your frustrated expression. "Well, unbuckling your seat belt would solve that problem" he said, raising an eyebrow.

He leaned a bit closer to you, his eyes dark with desire.

"But then again, I wouldn't mind you being tied up a little bit..." he continued, his voice lowering to a sultry tone.

you move trying to go to him "untie it please". He chuckled as he watched you struggling to reach him. He reached over and unbuckled the seat belt, allowing you to move closer.

"There you go, much better" he said, as you moved closer to him.

You smile and straddle him.Raphinha groaned as you straddled him, his eyes darkening with desire. His hands instinctively moved to your hips, holding you in place.

"You're going to be the death of me, you know that?" he said, his voice hoarse with need.

"I missed being on top of you" you say touching his shoulders softly.

His breath hitched as you spoke, your words stirring up a mix of pleasure and torment within him. His grip on your hips tightened.

"I've missed it too" he admitted, his eyes roaming over your body.

You smile and kiss his neck.Your ex hummed in pleasure as you kissed his neck, his body responding to your touch. He ran a hand up your back, pulling you closer to him.

"God, you're driving me insane" he groaned, his fingers tracing patterns on your skin.

"Raphi" you mutter using the nickname you gave him when you were together.

Raphinha inhaled sharply as you spoke his nickname. A wave of nostalgic emotions washed over him, and he tightened his grip on you subconsciously.

"You know I can't resist you when you call me that" he said, his voice low and raw with yearning.

you smile and hug him "why did we break up?" you mutter sadly.

His expression sobered as you brought up the painful subject. He ran a hand through his hair, as if trying to gather his thoughts.

"It's complicated" he said, his voice quiet and low. He pulled back a bit so he could look at you properly. "There were a lot of things happening... we just weren't good for each other, you know?"

Your ex's expression sobered as you brought up the painful subject. He ran a hand through his hair, as if trying to gather his thoughts.

"It's complicated" he said, his voice quiet and low. He pulled back a bit so he could look at you properly. "There were a lot of things happening... we just weren't good for each other, you know?"

you look at him sadly and get off his lap and sit back down

His eyes followed you as you moved back to your seat, a mix of guilt and sadness in his expression. He knew this subject was painful for you both.

He let out a heavy sigh, raking a hand through his hair again. "I never wanted us to break up" he said, his voice quiet. "But sometimes things just don't work out, no matter how much you want them to."

"Do you want me to go on?" you whisper without looking at him

Raphinha's heart wrenched slightly as he heard the vulnerability in your voice. He knew this conversation was difficult for you, but he also knew that you needed this closure.

He reached out and took your hand gently, his thumb rubbing over your knuckles. "I want you to do whatever you need to" he said softly. "If you need to leave, then leave. But if you want to talk, then let's talk. I owe you that much."

"I don't want to leave I miss you Raphi. But if you don't want me I understand"

Your ex's heart ached as he heard your words. He squeezed your hand gently, his eyes locked on yours.

"I miss you too" he admitted, his voice rough with emotion. "I never stopped missing you."

He paused for a moment, his brow furrowing as if he was struggling to find the right words.

"It's not that I don't want you. It's just..." he took a deep breath, "it's complicated. I don't know if it would actually work between us again."

"Don't you want to try again?" you whisper sadly

His eyes softened as he looked at you, his heart in turmoil. He wanted to try again; he wanted to fix things between you both. But there was still that nagging doubt in his mind.

"Of course I want to try again" he said, his voice a low, tortured whisper. "But what if we just end up hurting each other again? I don't want to put either of us through that pain again."

you bite your lip to keep from crying and look out the window.Your ex noticed the way you looked away, trying to hide your emotions. He released your hand and reached up to gently turn your head back towards him.

"Look at me" he said, his voice firm but gentle. "Please, don't cry. I can't bear to see you like this."

"I want to go back to the disco with my friends" you whisper without looking at him.

His expression fell as you spoke, his heart clenching at the thought of you leaving. He gently took your chin, making you look at him.

"You really want to go back?" he asked, a hint of pleading in his voice.

you looked at him with tears in your eyes "what am I left to do". Your ex's heart shattered as he watched tears stream down your face. He cursed his own inability to give you what you both needed.

He gently brushed your tears away with his thumb and leaned closer to you. "You deserve so much better than this. Better than me" he said, his voice hoarse with emotion.

you bite your lip and look away.Raphinha's heart ached at your attempt to hold back tears. He hated seeing you like this, torn apart by the same painful emotions he was feeling.

He reached out, gently cupping your face and turning it back towards him. "Please, don’t cry" he whispered, his eyes searching yours.

"Please don't leave me again" you whisper sadly.

His heart dropped as he heard your whispered plea. Memories of the pain he had caused you flashed in his mind, making his heart ache with remorse.

He gently stroked your cheek with his thumb, his voice cracking as he spoke. "I don't want to leave you. I never wanted to leave you. But I don't know if I'm good for you..."

you sigh and look at him "just tell me if there is a possibility between us otherwise I'll move on" you whisper.

Your ex's heart squeezed painfully as he heard your ultimatum. He was torn between his desire to try again and his fear of causing you more hurt.

He looked down at his hands, fidgeting with them for a moment before looking back at you.

"There is a possibility" he said, his voice low and honest. "I can't deny that I still have feelings for you. But I can't promise that we won't hurt each other again. I don't know if I'm capable of giving you what you need."

"I'd rather try again a thousand times with you than move on" you whisper.

His heart clenched at your words, the sincerity in your voice piercing through his defenses.

He let out a deep sigh and ran a hand through his hair, his expression a mix of emotions.

"I wish I could promise that I'll never hurt you again" he said, his voice laced with a hint of desperation. "But I don't know if I can stop myself from messing things up. I don't want to see you broken again."

"Raphi stop pushing me away you hurt me even more like this" you whisper

Your ex's expression tightened as you spoke, the truth in your word cutting straight through his heart.

He took a few deep breaths, trying to control the maelstrom of emotions inside him. Then, he reached out and gently took your hand in his.

"I'm not trying to push you away" he said, his voice laced with a hint of desperation. "I'm just... I'm scared, okay? I'm scared of causing you pain again."

He continued looking at you, his eyes full of raw emotion.

"I want to give us another chance, I do" he said, his voice low and honest. "But the thought of hurting you again... it terrifies me."

"Then choose. Shall we try again or not?" you say looking at him

Raphinha's heart ached at your ultimatum. He wanted to try again, desperately. But the fear of causing you more pain was holding him back.

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair again, his expression showing his internal struggle.

"I... I want to try again" he said, his voice barely above a whisper. Fear and hope warring in his heart. "But I need you to understand that I can't promise it'll be easy."

You nod and hug him. Your ex's breath caught in his throat as you reached out and hugged him. He felt a mix of relief, gratitude, and love pour over him.

He wrapped his arms around you tightly, as if he never wanted to let you go.

"I missed this" he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. "I missed you."

"me too" you whisper, holding him tighter. His buried his face in your neck, relishing the feel of you in his arms. His breaths were ragged, a mix of emotion and relief.

"I've been such an idiot" he said, his voice muffled against your skin. "I should never have let you go."

"we're here now" you whisper and kiss him

Raohinha heart thundered in his chest as you kissed him. He pulled you closer, one hand coming up to cradle the back of your head.

He let out a low groan, his lips moving against yours hungrily. "I've missed you so much" he muttered between kisses.

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