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jaehyunnie77 · 3 years

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You're the One

Summary: When a mutual dislike for each other turns into something more, just how far can things get complicated?

Pairing: Jaehyun x fem!reader (feat. Lisa, 127 members, Ten, Kun, Sicheng, Jackson, Naeun, Rose)

Genre: the holy trinity (filthy filthy smut, angst, fluff) | slowburn, enemies to ewb (enemies with benefits) to fwb to lovers!au, soulmate!au, college!au

Warnings: alcohol, swearing, sexual tension (a lot), fingering, bathroom sex, protected sex, rough sex, degrading, choking, spanking, couch sex, dom jaehyun, hair pulling, squirting, oral (male recieving), semi public sex (bathroom stall), masturbation (male), bathroom quickie, unprotected sex (reader is on birth control), car sex, slight sexting (not really), mentions of car accident and death (minor backstory), mention of food consumption, mentions of surgery

Word Count: 23.9k

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please be advised, this fic is heavily on smut. if you are a minor: do not interact.

jaehyun's pov here

They say you're supposed to know who your soulmate is at least by the age of 21. They say you are to at least have a hint or know who they are. The stories you have heard of people finding their soulmate is truly comparable to a Disney movie of Prince Charming finding his Cinderella with a lost item, or a Nicholas Sparks movie/book, where the girl refuses to fall in love, but ends up doing so, just minus the sad scene. You have also heard stories about the invisible red string, hearing their voices, writings on their skin with a special pen, having constant dreams about them, premonitions, and same tattoo mark.

You have heard every single story regarding any of those, yet, you have never experience any of these "symptoms." You are 24 and get the same two questions from everyone; have you found your soulmate and when are you getting married. You are starting to believe he is either one, not born yet and cougar life chose you instead. Two, in a serious relationship, therefore, there isn't any real clues to zero in on. Three, a fictional character because why not. Four, probably got hit by a bus and the Universe is working hard to find their replacement. Lastly and probably the most realistic case scenario, you were destined to be alone and not have a soulmate.

You thought not having or meeting your better half would bother you, but truth is, it doesn't. It doesn't affect your daily life because it doesn't consume your mind 24/7 365 days on figuring out if every guy you pass is the one.

Relationships are messy. Plain and simple. All of your past relationships started off sweet then along the way it got messy to the point you don't even know what led up to the breakup. Though, out of all your ex's, there was only one who you thought was the one and who you call a close friend to this day.

Dong Sicheng. You met him when you were a sophomore in high school and had a few classes together. He was shy and sweet when you first started talking and along the way, you two were comfortable around each other without any more awkward silences. You dated for a year and a half and surprisingly, it was a mutual decision to be friends. You were thankful he was understanding and didn't throw a fit or a scene during your breakup.

It isn't that you didn't believe in love either because you really do, minus all your favorite couples from The Bachelor breaking up. It is just, you always had this logical thinking of 'if it happens, it happens' mentality, because realistically, nothing in life is always guaranteed. You wish you could wake up one morning and bam, your soulmate appears and live happily ever after, but sadly, that's not your case.

Once you figured out during your first year of college that finding your other half was slim, you went with the hookups and fuck buddies route. There were no commitments and no feelings involved. Just sex for a stress reliever.

On top of that, you don't think you would have time for a relationship anyway. Now that you were close to graduating, that is all you can think of - passing your classes, earning that degree, and having a stable life to support yourself.

Yeah, relationships are definitely not your top priority right now.

You just arrived in your apartment when your roommate Lisa jumps in front of you with a big smile and excited energy. She gives you an unexpected hug as you hug her back in confusion.

"Uhh, did I miss a celebration?"

She pulls away from you and her smile gets even wider, "Y/N, guess what?"

At that exact moment, your two other best friends, Mark and Jungwoo, pop out from the hallway and head towards the couch.

"Um you -"

"I found him! I finally found my soulmate! I was in the practice room going over my dance routine for the spring final and I heard his voice! I know, so cliché, but remember when I was telling I felt off and the universe was telling me something? Yeah! I think it for this exact moment. When I heard his voice, I freaked out and I thought I was just hearing things, but then I heard him again. Out of curiosity, I said something mentally and he freaked out too! And get this," she yanks your arm back and forth from all the excitement, "he goes to the same university. He's throwing a party tomorrow night and you have to go with me!" Lisa is radiating beyond excitement at this point. All you could do is look at her and feel that same happiness for her.

"I am so ecstatic for you Lis! You've literally have been manifesting for this moment for so long and now you get to meet him."

"So will you come to the party with me? Please." She gives you those puppy eyes with a tiny pout that she knows you can't resist.

Sighing you give in, "Yes, not only because you're dragging me, but I need to know if he's a good guy."

Lisa practically jumps up and down as she hurries off into her room on the other side of the wall squealing like a happy kid in a candy store. You laugh at her reaction and make your way to the boys who look annoyed. "What's the matter with you two?"

"She told this story four times already, while our Markie is going through it with his own dilemma." Jungwoo says patting Mark on the shoulders. Mark groans into the pillow in frustration as Jungwoo heavily sighs looking at you, "We saw Haru with another guy when we were waiting for Lisa. She looked ... happy."

Your jaw drops and your heart aches for the younger. "I am so sorry Markie. Have you two talked about what you will do if you want to be with other people?"

Mark shook his head, "No, I mean I thought we would be able to work it out or give it a chance at least. How can she do this to me?" Mark says the last part quietly. You give him a side hug just as Lisa walks back into the room and observes the sight in front of her.

"Okay, what happened?"

"Mark is going through it right now."

Lisa's eyes widen as she crosses the room to sit in front of the younger. "I'm so sorry I've been throwing around my happiness in your face. Markie, why didn't you say anything?"

"I didn't want to ruin your moment. You deserve it so much and I'll be okay. I promise." he smiles sadly.

"Do we have to kick her ass? Y/N and I will gladly do it too."

Mark chuckles lightly, but refuses any violence.

That is one reason why you aren't too phased about finding your soulmate, because what Mark is going through is one of the two downsides no one likes to talk about. People say if you and/or your soulmate decide not to be together, your connection will be broken.

In order for the connection to be removed, it requires surgery of a special kind. Once the procedure is over with, there is no going back to each other. You both would continue with your lives as if nothing happened and all the emotions would be permanently gone. However, if only one decides to remove the bond and the other refuses, the latter will live their life in agony and suffer from unrequited love.

The second deep dark secret no one wants to talk about is ... you won't get another soulmate.

The next night came quicker than you anticipated as you stand in front of your closet figuring out ways to sneak out and have an excuse. In all honesty, you rather stay home and binge watch Grey's Anatomy on Netflix rather than get dressed and go to a party. You haven't gone out in months, so as you transform from comfortable clothes to Cinderella, you are completely out of your comfort zone.

"Stop overthinking. It's going to be so much fun. You need it. Mark definitely needs it. Jungwoo needs it and I certainly need it." Lisa says as you head downstairs where an Uber awaits for you both.

"I haven't gone out in so long. I'm not used to dressing up anymore." you deadpan.

You get into the car and head towards the party as Lisa turns to you, "If you feel uncomfortable, we will go home straight away. Okay?"

You give her a small smile as you tell her okay.

No longer than ten minutes later, you arrive at the frat house. Before you could inspect which fraternity it was, Lisa grabs your wrist leading you into the house and straight to the kitchen. Mark and Jungwoo were already tipsy by the time you stand yourself next to them. The kitchen and majority of the house were pack with bodies that made it a little hard to breathe and hear.

Lisa begins to fill the shot glasses with Vodka to the brim and raise her glass, "Here's to new beginnings!" Everyone raises their own and take the shot. Vodka isn't your number choice of alcohol, but it'll get the job done to help you feel relax.

After downing a couple more shots, you made yourself a drink to feel more at ease and have a little bit of fun. Lisa was right. You needed a break. You look around the place and notice most of the university's population were present. You scan more around the house until your eyes land on a symbol on the other side of the kitchen. You know that symbol and certainly know some of the people in this fraternity.

You turn to Lisa and lean into her ear, "Is this the NCTz frat house?"

"Yeah. He's part of the fraternity. I'm trying to see if I can spot him." she says back.

In that instant, you see a bunch of tall handsome men walking into the kitchen and giving people around them high fives. This is definitely the NCTz fraternity boys. You had some classes with Taeyong, Johnny, Doyoung, and Taeil. Yuta, Kun, Haechan and Sicheng were the three you went to high school with. Most have girls around their arms or girls pining after them in hopes of being the lucky one to get laid tonight.

You start to breathe a little easier when you don't see one specific person. You smile and wave at Sicheng as he and the rest of the boys come over to your corner. You gave each boy a hug and when you take a sip of your drink, you almost choke.

Oh how you spoke to soon.

That specific person you were hoping you wouldn't see just walks in with a girl around his arm. Jeong Jaehyun. The person you hate the most and you wish every time you see him, he never attended the same university as you.

You two go back to third grade and no, you weren't best friends or friends to begin with. Instead, you two were enemies right out of the gates from the very first interaction.

There you were, little Y/N sitting in the sandbox making a sand castle and minding your own business. You were focused on putting the flag on top of the castle, you didn't notice someone was standing beside you until it was too late. Your castle had been squashed and all your hard work now gone. You looked up with tears in your eyes and see little Jaehyun smirking at you.

"That was an ugly castle!" he yells.

You wanted to cry, but held your ground. "Yeah, well you're mean!" Jaehyun belly laughs at you tilting his head back and face you once more, "You should do better!"

You were furious that you stood up in front of him and yelled back "Well you're an ugly person!"

He stopped laughing and pushed you making you stumble backwards. Your jaw dropped at the sudden action and charged at him pushing him as hard as you could. Jaehyun fell onto the sand as other kids began to swarm around you both and laughed at Jaehyun. He got up and charged at you, but this time you grabbed onto his arms and dragged him to the ground with you. You two rolled over on each other as sand went everywhere on your body. By the time the teachers arrived, they called your parents and separated you two.

Both parents made you two apologize to one another and for a split second you thought everything would blow over. You realize now you were such an optimistic child for thinking that.

Since that day forward, he found ways to annoy you and get under your skin. By the time high school came, you were his number one punching bag for his little pranks. Now that you're in college, you have tried your hardest to avoid him at all cost, and it almost worked for the past four years. Except, now here he is walking towards you and your group.

When his eyes wanders onto yours, he smiles smugly knowing you were watching him before he caught you. Your face scrunch in disgust when he looks you up and down with his tongue poking out. It takes everything in you to not roll your eyes or vomit the alcohol you just consumed by looking at him. You promised yourself earlier that you wouldn't let him get under your skin.

You were both adults now. Well, one of you were.

Lisa's loud gasp pulls you out of your staring contest with Jaehyun when you turn to her. Following her line of sight, you would gasp as loud as she would if your soulmate looked just like the one walking towards you both. He was shorter than Johnny, but taller than you and Lisa. The way he smiles, anyone could get blinded and faint on the spot. Literally. You can spot three piercings on each of his ear with black hair, amazing straight teeth, and beautiful skin. Damn, Lisa is one lucky girl.

"Hi. I'm hoping you're the girl I keep hearing in my head." He says looking at Lisa. She was too stunned to say anything, opting only to nod and blush. The action made the male smile brighter and bigger as he chuckles softly, "I'm Ten." he reach out his hand for her to shake, but she stood frozen in her spot.

"Hi Ten. I'm Y/N and this is my best friend Lisa, who I am one hundred thousand percent sure is the girl you've been hearing in your head." You hold back a laughter when Lisa turns to you signaling for you to shut up.

"Yo Ten!" Mark says standing next to you with Sicheng and Jungwoo. You nudge Lisa to get her out of her head when Mark notices the way Ten isn't paying attention to him and is only looking at Lisa. The younger connects the dots looking from person to the other and loudly gasps, "No! Don't tell me. You're her soulmate?!"

Ten chuckles as he blushes, "Afraid so. She is a cutie. Why haven't you introduced us sooner Mark? If we both have known you knew both of us, we would've been together by now." he says cheekily.

Seriously? He is so perfect for Lisa.

"I can't believe she's really here. I'm still in shock." Johnny says loudly enough for you to look at him. You know he's teasing you, because among your group of friends, you were the only one who decided to take a step back from partying and focus on your studies.

"I am beyond shock too!" Taeyong pitch in.

"Okay. I'm not that antisocial. I do go out every once in a while." you try to explain yourself.

"Go out where? The library and coffee shop?" Yuta pipes in making everyone laugh.

From Jaehyun's perspective, he can clearly see you standing between Johnny and Mark. A sudden wave of annoyance hits him as he sees you laughing at something Taeyong said.

Why did she have to come to this party?

"What is she doing here? I don't remember inviting her." he says loud and clear before downing his cup. He gives you a disgusted look once again when you squint your eyes at him.

"Come on Jay. Not tonight please. Let's just have fun." Taeil tells him.

"It isn't your party Jeong. It's the frat's party." You say before whispering, "Not everything is about you, you coincided asshole."

Johnny and Yuta couldn't help but snicker at your last comment making Jaehyun more annoyed.

"What was that?"

Everyone can feel the tension between you both and it wasn't a comfortable one either.

"Alright! I'm playing ping-pong! Let's go." Johnny grabs your wrist and walks you towards the ping-pong table. You grab your paddle, organize the cups, and wait for the alcohol to be poured, and the boys figuring out who is on their team. Johnny turns you to him giving you a smile, "Can you two please not get into it tonight? We all need a break from referring you both."

"He's the one who started it Johnny. I didn't even do anything except breathe and drink your liquor. Tell your boy to calm down instead." you huff in annoyance.

Johnny chuckles at your answer shaking his head as he looks back to your opponents. "I swear if I didn't know any better, I would think you both are each other's soulmates."

"Ew, please never say that ever again. I'm so glad we aren't."

"Alright! Round one is Johnny and Y/N versus Yuta and Jaehyun." Jungwoo announces.

"Oh for fucks sake. Really?" you say under your breath.

Everyone and anyone who knows you and Jaehyun's common dislike for each other, also know how competitive you two are. So, it's no surprise when the duo teams becomes a solo game in a matter of ten minutes.

You only had one more cup to score down, while Jaehyun had two. Nothing satisfies you more than the look of pure frustration on his face as he aims the ball into one of the cups. You did your best to distract him by waving your hands and talking shit, but that was wasted energy as the ball went into the cup.

He points at you from across the table with a smirk, "Drink up loser. I'm winning this one." You roll your eyes and drink the alcohol.

At this point, you just want the game to be over with because all the pre-gaming at the apartment, shots, and drinks are starting to get to you. After downing the drink, you take off your jacket and get into position. Someone wraps their arms around your waist from behind and gives you a kiss on the cheek before retrieving back to wherever they came from. You take a deep breath concentrating on the solo cup as Jaehyun smirks at you thinking he is going to win this round.

To your luck, you made the ball in without missing a beat. You yelp and jump in your spot when you see Jaehyun's stunned reaction slowly turning into stone cold. You point straight at him and shout over the celebration, "What were you saying? Who was going to win this game? That's right! Who is the loser now Jeong!" Jaehyun took his drink and walks away to probably sulk in the corner somewhere.

You just beat and defeated the ping-pong master at his own party. You won't forget this feeling or this night.

After your celebration, you make your way outside for fresh air and enjoy everything around you. You were finding everything and everyone funny. Yeah, you are super drunk. From your sitting position, you can see Ten and Lisa hitting it off with their bodies being close together. You think you should ask one of the boys if you could spend the night here, while Lisa and Ten goes back to your shared apartment. Mark was dancing with a girl, while Johnny and Taeyong are his wingman. Meanwhile, the rest of the boys were being referees during the body shot rounds. Everything in this moment made you grateful to go out tonight.

You go back into the crowded house and make your way to the second floor to find a bathroom. You take the first left and find yourself in someone's room. You look around to see everything neutral with gray undertones. This room must be either Taeil's, Taeyong's, or Doyoung's room because everything was organized and neatly kept. Whether or not you were supposed to be here didn't matter because you needed the bathroom urgently.

After relieving yourself, you open the door at the exact same moment Jaehyun was reaching for the doorknob You stare at each other and you try to move past him, except, his broad shoulders block your path.

"What are you doing in my room?" he says annoyed.

You scoff, "You wish this was your room." You once again try to move past him, but to no avail.

"Yes it is. How did you get in here?"

"The door was open."

"Bullshit."

You shrug your shoulders folding your arms over your chest, "Not my problem."

Jaehyun squints his eyes as he closes the door behind you locking it.

"What the fuck are you doing?"

Jaehyun doesn't say anything except leans back against the door, crossing his arms, and looking at you from head to toe. The look in his eyes are dark and filled with lust making your pussy -

Wait! No! I am not sleeping with him.

"What was that shit downstairs? Do you think you can just disrespect me like that at my own party?"

"Again, it's not your party dumbass"

"The fuck it is my party. I live here, so who invited you?"

"Believe it or not, I have friends who also lives here. Maybe you should go talk to them instead." You sneer. You were getting irritated the more he stood there.

"Are you going to move?"

"Nope."

"At least I don't cry in the corner after I lose a game to a girl." His jaw clenches tight. Bingo!

"You better watch that mouth of yours. You're a real pain in the ass you know that?"

"It's called sportsmanship Jaehyun. You should try it some time when you're not busy sulking and crying."

"Maybe you should learn how to shut up and let people win. God, why did you have to go to the same university as me!" he yells running a hand over his hand.

"Me following you? Oh now that is priceless. Do you want an award for being so dramatic or something? There are hundreds of colleges who would take an annoying jerk in. If I didn't know any better, I would say you're the one who's following me."

"Pft. Don't flatter yourself Y/N. If it were between you and the hottest girl on campus, I would never choose you because you're a bitch. No one would ever want to be with you." he spits out.

"The feeling is mutual. Now move."

He cockily smiles when he see the anger in your face. "I see I hit a nerve there didn't I? Does poor little Y/N not have a soulmate? Hmm? Maybe you should really learn how to be cooperative and a good girl and not talk back." He pushes himself off the door and walks towards you. With every step, you take a step back until your back hits the wall. Jaehyun places both arms beside your head caging you into his bubble.

"Don't be mad just because you haven't had a taste of this yet." He looks down at his obvious half hard cock and winks at you

"Ugh, you're so disgusting. Don't be delusional for thinking I would ever want you. I would never go near you. Who knows where that thing has been and I'm positive that every single guy I've fucked, fucks better than you." you spat.

"I'm warning you right now. Watch that mouth of yours."

You straighten up and stare right back at him smiling, "Fuck. You."

Everything happened so fast. One minute you're in his face and the next he clashes your mouths together into a sloppy kiss. You know you should fight him off for having the audacity putting his filthy lips onto yours, but you don't and put your hands around his neck. Jaehyun realizes you're not pushing him away leading him to push you harder against the wall. He parts your legs with his knee settling in front of your cloth core.

Damn Lisa for giving you this short dress.

You buck into his knee at the sudden action and grind yourself onto him. His hands roam all over your body as he unzips your dress leaving you in your panties. He breaks the kiss to get a look at your body and growls at the sight of you as you take off his shirt. He attaches your lips once more as you fumble with his zipper dragging down his jeans and boxers. He caresses your tits and kneads them for a minute before touching your cloth pussy. He moves your panties to the side and slides a finger between your folds.

"You're so fucking wet" Without warning, he inserts two fingers making you yelp in surprise. His pace is fast and ruthless as you try to keep silent. "Do you have anything else to say?" he says with hooded eyes.

"Good luck trying to fuck the attitude out of me."

Jaehyun hates you so much so he wants to prove a point and teach you a lesson of the respect he deserves. While you try to hold back a moan, his face fastens when he presses a thumb on your nub making you lose control. Everything was too much that your orgasm comes unexpectedly.

As you ride out your high through hooded eyes, you see Jaehyun smiling as if he just won the lottery. He removes his fingers as you stand there slump against the wall catching your breath. Suddenly, you hear a wrapper ripping and see him rolling the condom on his erected cock.

You've had your fair shares of dicks in your life, but Jaehyun was on a league of his own. You will never this out loud, but he was the perfect size and the most beautiful dick you've ever seen. His long and veiny dick made your mouth water and for a split second, you wonder if it would even fit.

You don't have time to recover before he's lifting your leg, sliding between your folds, and pushing into you. You don't hold back when a loud moan comes out of your throat. The stretch of his cock gives you pleasure in all the right places, but you will never tell him that. It takes you a few seconds to get used to his length when he pulls out to the tip, looking at you smugly, "Any last words?"

"Fuck you."

"Gladly." He rams the rest of his length in, not giving you a chance for a comeback. His hips are relentlessly hitting against yours and the tight grip he has on your leg is bringing you closer to your second orgasm.

"You can't say anything now can you slut? Your pussy is so fucking tight no wonder you always have a bitchy attitude. No one has ever fucked you."

When he hits your spot, you grab onto his shoulders for support.

"Look at you. You look so pathetic with my cock in your tight pussy. You talk a lot of shit, but can't back it up can you?"

You squeeze around him grinning the best you could making him hiss. "I fucking hate you." he says.

Jaehyun pulls out almost immediately turning you to bend over the sink and spreading your legs. He pounds into you with force as your head hits the mirror. You look at yourself in the mirror and see your fucked out face. You watch Jaehyun watching the way his cock disappears inside you and looking back at you, before grabbing your bouncing tits.

If he was being honest, you were the first and only girl who could handle his size and the way he's fucking you.

"Oh fuck!" you moan loudly.

"You have something to say slut? You like getting fucked in the bathroom like the slut you are?" You were thankful the music is loud and no one was coming into his room to hear the sinful sounds of your moans and skin slapping.

""Look at this tight pussy sucking my cock in." He grabs your shoulders fucking harder into you and making you rest your forehead against the mirror. His right hand snakes its way to your throat squeezing enough to make you lightheaded. You squeeze around him once more involuntary.

"You like that don't you? You like getting choked while getting your pussy ruined?"

"F-fuck." Your eyes roll back when the coil at the bottom of your stomach begins to tighten and release. The intensity of your orgasm has you convulsing from your high. Jaehyun's hips begin to falter signaling he was close and with two powerful thrusts, he releases inside the condom.

Jaehyun falls on top of you, his breathing next to your ear as you both ride out your highs. He pulls out, removes and ties the condom and throws it in the trash. You low-key already miss the feeling of his cock in you. You both redress without saying a word, but not missing the way Jaehyun smirks at you.

When you catch him looking at you, you squint your eyes at him, "You're still an asshole."

"Guess I didn't fuck you properly enough for you to know the definition of respect."

"This will never happen Jeong."

One strand of his hair fell out of its strong gel, making his hair look like a comma as he smiles and looks at you, "Same place next week?"

You scoff, "You and your dick wishes. Like I said, I've had better." Before he could retort, you unlock the door and walk out of room. You can feel it and Jaehyun can clearly see it, that you couldn't walk properly.

Jaehyun scoffs to himself as he looks around the bathroom and back at his reflection, "She's still a bitch. Mission one completed."

It's been a month since your one night stand with Jaehyun and since then he never fails to mention it to you whenever you're in the same room. If you were out with friends for lunch or dinner, he would sit next to you and hit your leg under the table to get a rise out of you. If you were at the library studying with Johnny or Mark, he would come by and put his arm around you to bring you into a suffocating headlock. If you were forced to accompany Lisa to visit Ten at the frat house, he would walk in the room without a shirt on purpose to see your reaction.

You've done everything humanly possible to avoid contact with him and being around in his presence. The thing is, you could never get away from him. Seriously. Whenever you do try, you would see him walking towards you with someone beside him. If you're walking down a different pathway or the back ways to get to class faster, there he is turning the corner and bumping into you. Never mind those, you would always hear his name either from students in class or the library, from his ex-flings or one night stands, your mutual friends, and even the teachers. If you're at the coffee shop, work, gym, or even the halls of your apartment building, you would always hear his name. Jaehyun this, Jaehyun that. It's exhausting and aggravating.

It's not because you were embarrassed about your hook up, hell, it was one of the best mind blowing sex you've ever had, but you will never admit that, and you certainly weren't going to say it aloud for the universe to hear. The thing is, this is Jeong Jaehyun who has had it out for you since day one. You know he's up to something because Jaehyun always has something up his sleeves when it comes to you and you're itching to know what it is.

You're setting up your laptop and writing down your to-do list, while waiting for the rest of your photography class and professor to settle in. Your mind wanders to what Jaehyun could possibly be up to when you hear a booming voice beside you.

"What are you doing in my seat?" You look up and see none other than the male you were thinking of seconds ago.

"What are you doing in my class?" you deadpan.

"How do you know I'm not in your class?" he fakes a gasp covering a hand over his mouth, "Do you keep tabs on me? Should I be worried for my safety?" When he figures you weren't going to move, he settles for the empty seat next to you.

"That seat is taken." You raise your voice slightly.

He looks left and right, "I don't see a name on the chair and apparently, we can steal other people's seats in this class."

You huff loudly clearly annoyed by him. You look around the room and see there are still plenty of empty desks available. "Can you sit somewhere else? I don't want my work to be infected by you."

He chuckles under his breath, "That's not what you said in my bathroom." You turn to him with wide eyes as more students start coming in.

"What the fuck? Don't say that out loud." you hiss.

He smiles widely when he sees the panic state you're in, clearly enjoying this game of his. "I won't say anything if you don't want me to, but it comes with a price."

You groan internally. Jeong Jaehyun always has a price.

"Fine, what is it?"

He gives you his stupid lopsided smile surprise you caved in as he thinks about the price. His grin becomes wider when he has it, "I sit here for the remainder of the semester, because," he leans in close to your ear and you can smell his cologne when he whispers, "you are sitting in my seat since the beginning of the semester." he pulls away as you scowl at him.

"Yeah, okay. That makes so much sense since I have been sitting here since day one and never once seen you in class until now. Yeah. That totally makes perfect sense Jeong."

"Fine. Have it your way princess. I'll just tell the next person that walks through the door how you begged me to fuck you." As if the universe heard him, a classmate walks in and Jaehyun immediately calls him over.

"Hey Jaehyun, what's up dude." Mike says.

"Alright. Hey do you want to know something about Y/N?" Jaehyun ignores the way you claw your nails deep into his skin. Mike looks at you and back to him in confirmation.

"She-"

"I wanted to know if you knew a place where I can take photos of landscapes. You know, for practice and such." You interject, kicking Jaehyun's leg and pulling excuses out of your ass.

If Mike was curious about the exchange, he didn't voice it. Instead, he happily told you about a place he usually goes to before your professor walks in cutting the conversation. You bid Mike goodbye and turn to Jaehyun who is silently laughing behind his hand.

"Was that really necessary?"

He shrugs calming down his laughter and focuses on the professor. You sigh and say the words you dread, "You can stay there for the remainder of the semester asshole."

Jaehyun leans closer once again, "I'm sorry, I didn't catch that. What did you say?"

You turn to him not realizing the lack of space between you both until then. If you had move a centimeter closer, your lips would be on his. "I said you can sit there you little shit." You turn away, but not before catching his eyes land onto your lips.

You have a hard time focusing on the lecture and playing around with the mock camera. Jaehyun's presence next to you was distracting when he keeps hitting your foot, annoyingly clearing his throat numerous of times, deep sighing, and feeling his heavy gaze on you. You want nothing more than to slap him for making you agree to the stupid deal. When his arm brushes against your arm, you had enough hissing him to stop.

A dimple pops out, "Shh. I'm trying to learn here."

Before you can say anything snarky, your professor gathers everyone's attention to the front before dismissing you. "As you all know, the end of the semester is in three months, which means finals are also three months away. I figure since you all will be stress out, I have a little surprise for you."

"No finals!" a classmate suggest. Everyone, including Professor Choi laughs.

"No, I wish. Instead of giving you instruction about your final next month, I will give it to you now. It is solely up to you if you want to start it now or procrastinate until the last minute. Remember, your final project for this class will be worth more than your written final for this class. With that said, I already paired you up with a partner."

You along with everybody else groans at the fact this is a partner project.

"You two will be working together to come up with a nice presentation of what photography means to you individually and together as a team. You both will decide when you want to start this project, but it will have to be finished on the due date. These partners are permanent so no switching." He grabs a white piece of paper as he reads and calls out people's names.

You pack quietly while listening carefully for your name.

"Jeong, you're with Y/LN." you and Jaehyun nod in agreement before realizing what Professor Choi just said. You heard a couple of girls in the back row murmuring how they wish they were his partner instead and you definitely don't miss the sounds of "oohs" and bets coming from the other side of the class.

When everyone is clearing out of the classroom, you run up to your professor with Jaehyun right behind you.

"Professor Choi, I can't be partners with him."

"I second that." Jaehyun says speaking over you.

"Ah ah ah. I said no switching. That is final. I'm sure whatever differences you two have will be put aside for this very important project. I put you two together because you're both my most hardworking students and have a real talent in photography. I can see how that may seem like a competition between you two, but think of the greater good."

"Wait. What? Since when has he been in our class?"

Mr. Choi gives you a pointed look, "Mr. Jeong has been taking this course online due to personal reasons. It's entirely up to him if he wishes to disclose that with you. As I have said, you two are my top best students. I believe you both can benefit from this. Bounce ideas off of each other." He looks at his watch, "If there are any more questions, please come by my office during hours. Have fun doing this project kiddos."

You look at his walking figure until he is out of your sight. You're completely stun at what just happen.

"Well won't you look at that ... partner." Jaehyun says in disgust.

You face him and glare at the boy, "You do your part and I will do mine. I rather have us do this separately and put everything together when we're done. We are not going anywhere together to take pictures, because if we do so help me I don't run you over."

"Is that supposed to be a threat? Do you even have a car?" he belly laughs making you exhale loudly in annoyance turning around to leave. Jaehyun watches your figure walk towards the exit and out the doors. "Mission two completed."

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"You're doing it wrong!" you exasperate. You're sitting in the living room at the frat house trying to come up with a vision board on how to present your photos for the project. Let's face it, you rather be anywhere but here in this house with Jaehyun.

"No I'm not! This is how it's supposed to look like." Jaehyun yells. He looks around before his eyes land on the piece of paper of requirements showing it to you. "See! This is what he wants verbatim."

You scan the paper quickly before pointing out the obvious, "Dumbass it says right here 'OR.' Nothing in here says it has to be exactly like this. We're doing it my way."

"Absolutely not! This is what he wrote on the paper and we are giving him exactly that."

"No we're not!" You quickly got up going over to the vision board to start rearranging to your liking. "This is all over the place. I am not failing this class over this stupid project just because of your tiny brain is stubborn!"

Jaehyun gets up and undoes everything you just put up. "No!"

You argue back and forth over which idea is better, neither one is listening to the other. You didn't realize when or how you got so close to one's face suddenly. You can feel his breath fanning over your face and if you dare to exhale, your chest would touch his.

He looks at you when he also comes to the same realization once you've stopped talking. He looks down at your plump lips and unconsciously wets his own. You watch everything unfold when he grabs your head to crash your mouths together.

You're taken by surprise and back your head away a little, but Jaehyun chases you and you give in. The kiss is rough and needy just like the first time, except alcohol is nowhere present this time. He lifts up your shirt as you do the same to his and he wastes no time unhooking your bra.

You both are in need of a release. You pull him closer to you continuing your steamy make out session, your arms around his neck as he places both hands on your ass, giving them a hard squeeze before giving them a slap. You yelp in his mouth at the sudden action and Jaehyun walks you back until your legs hit the arm of the couch.

You undo the zipper to your jeans with success just as he pulls down his sweatpants and boxers with ease. Before you could look his hard dick, he turns you around and bends you over the couch. He finishes pulling down your jeans and underwear for you and starts to rub circles on your bare ass before slapping it once more.

His index fingers finds your slit, teasing your pussy and getting harder by the second from how dripping wet you are for him. He inserts two fingers making you gasp and arching your back. He loves the way you sound and the sound your wet pussy makes.

Jaehyun can't wait anymore and takes out his fingers.

"Condom in my bag." you tell him. He finds the wrapper, tearing the package and rolling it on. He pumps himself a few times before positioning himself at your entrance and ramming into you at full force.

You find yourself sinking down into the couch from his thrust and you try to grab anything to keep you balance. Jaehyun wasn't having any mercy on you as he relentlessly pounds deeper into you.

"You're so fucking wet. I bet no one fucks you this good before." He slaps your left ass cheek before soothing it and slapping once more. "Why can't you just listen to me for once?" he slaps your right ass cheek making your pussy clench around his cock. You feel the tight knot at the bottom of your stomach becoming tighter with every thrust and slap.

"Never." You confess.

He makes an inhumane sound pulling your hair to arch your back. The new position has you seeing fireworks and making your head empty. "Oh my God. Fuck!" Everything Jaehyun is doing is turning you on so much more.

You chant fuck as your eyes roll back when your orgasm washes over you.

Jaehyun feels your tightening around him making him angry, "Fucking slut. Did I tell you that you could cum? You're leaving a mess in my living room floor." He nonetheless fucks you through your orgasm never once making the intention on slowing down.

He lets go of your hair and shoulders making you fall forward into the couch. Jaehyun pulls out shortly only to spread your legs further apart and ram into you again. "No wonder you always have a bitchy attitude. No one has been fucking you."

"F-fuck y-you."

Your loud moans and the way your hips move back to meet his thrusts were enough to make Jaehyun cum into the condom. Once he pulls out, you get up from your position and search for your clothes when he grabs your arm and pushes you against the nearest wall. "Where do you think you're going? Did I say I was done with you?" he smirks when you give him a confuse look.

He inserts two fingers into your already sensitive core making you shudder in his grasp. Your hands make their way to his shoulders holding onto him for dear life as he pumps into you.

"If I let you come, will you listen to me?"

"You w-wish." you keep your intense eyes on him, but the force of his fingers curling is making you see the stars.

"Then you won't get to come." He stills his fingers making you whine. Jaehyun takes a mental image of this moment to use for another time.

"Jaehyun what the fuck!"

"Tell me you'll listen to me and I'll let you come sweetheart."

He presses his thumb to your clit and your voice betrays you, "Fuck! Yes, yes, yes!"

He smiles satisfied, "Good girl." He kisses your cheek and resumes his inhumane pace curling his fingers once more and hitting your g-spot perfectly bringing you closer to your orgasm.

"Jaehyun!"

"Come for me slut. Let it all go."

Your nails scratch his back when you feel hot and tingly all over your body and your orgasm hits making you close your eyes. Your juices spill out of you and coats his entire hand. You slump your head against his chest to catch your breath from your mind-blowing orgasm.

"Holy shit." You open your eyes to see him giving you a look you have never seen before towards you. Jeong Jaehyun is actually smiling at you in awe.

"That's so fucking sexy."

You look down at his hand and find your juices on his hand and leaking down your leg onto the floor.

In all of your sexual experiences, no one has ever made you squirt other than your favorite dildo. You can't believe Jeong Jaehyun is the first person to make you squirt. Embarrassment and annoyance takes over when you straighten back up.

Jaehyun can see right through you, "Aw, is someone embarrassed? Was this supposed to be a secret?"

"No. Shut up." You walk over to your discarded clothes, ignoring the soreness between your legs. Once again, Jaehyun can see you struggling to walk. After you both redress, you try to focus on the project at hand, but you want nothing more than to sleep.

You were sober. He was sober. How? You're trying to analyze how you ended up having sex with Jaehyun again in this stupid house.

It's the stress and the pent up anger. Yes. That's what this is. This was just in the moment one deal type of sex. This doesn't mean anything. Okay, but I just fucked him again while sober. Okay, no this is strictly based on stress and that is final.

Unbeknownst to you, Jaehyun watches your reaction the entire time you're arguing with yourself. To say he is amuse by your deep thinking was far from it. He found it ... cute.

"I have an idea." Jaehyun's words makes you break out of your thoughts.

"No doubt a stupid one no less." you say under your breath, but he still heard you.

"Since we're going to be stuck together on this project and you hate me just as much as I hate you, why don't we just fuck out all of our frustrations on each other?"

You stare at him like a deer in headlights. He really lost his damn mind. You couldn't help but chuckle then laugh.

"I'm sorry, we what? Where did you get the idea that I would have sex with you again after that? That was it It's never going to happen again."

"You said that a month ago and look where you were ten minutes ago with me balls deep in you."

"You really lost your mind Jeong." You look back at the board to avoid his intense gaze on you.

"It seemed to me you enjoy the way I fuck you so I don't see why not. It's just hate sex basically. We both get off on it and you can't deny that."

You eye him suspiciously, "You can fuck anyone in the world, but not me. This is definitely the last time."

"Think about it, we might as well get something out of this that'll benefit both of us. If we're both frustrated we just use each other."

"There's a catch in there somewhere. I know there is." You squint your eyes at him.

"No catch. We just fuck. That's it."

You ponder over his offer. In all honesty, it makes sense just to use each other for sex and release all the pent up tension. You can show him who the real boss is, but on the other hand, this is Jaehyun who hates you since your first encounter. The Jaehyun who is a frat boy no less and every girl and guy on campus waiting to jump his bones in a heartbeat.

Not to mention, he has pulled pranks left and right throughout your entire life. You know he has something up his sleeves no matter what. So, you don't know what prompt you to say the next words.

"Just fucking and using each other when we're frustrated. Nothing else."

He gives you a lopsided smile that you want to slap off, "Two enemies with benefits. Nothing else."

Oh how you wish you could slap yourself for agreeing to this.

"Fuck Y/N." Jaehyun shuts his eyes for the millionth time as he grips and pulls on your hair harder. The sight of you on your knees in the school's bathroom stall looking up at him with those "innocent" eyes while your mouth is stuff with his hard cock drives him insane. The way you suck and lick his cock brings him closer to the edge.

Just minutes prior, you both had been arguing in the library over something he didn't agree with the photo ideas, and because you weren't listening to him, he had enough. He got up from the table grabbing your wrist to drag you away from your friends to the bathroom where you are now.

You drag your tongue to the side of dick down to his balls, sucking them as your hand strokes and squeezes tight around him. You release his balls with a pop making your way to the tip giving it a quick kiss before having him in your mouth again. You don't stop until he hits the back of your throat earning yourself a sexy groan from him.

You bob your head faster wanting him to come quicker than usual. He takes another quick glance at you through hooded eyes and holds back from his release challenging himself to hold on a bit. He grips your hair tighter when he begins to fuck into your mouth.

"Look at you. Who knew you love to give blowjobs in the school's bathrooms." He relentlessly thrusts harder into your mouth making you gag as tears begin to fall. "Fuck your mouth feels so fucking good. This is your punishment for listening to me."

You feel his cock twitch signaling he was close to his release. "Maybe this time you'll learn your lesson. F-fuck."

Saliva mix with his cum drips from the corners of your mouth when he stills and you swallow every drop of his cum. He softens and pulls out of your warm mouth and lets go of your hair. You wipe your mouth with the back of your hand before getting up and exiting the stall. You fix yourself in front of the mirror having a clear sight of Jaehyun still in the stall. Knowing him, he's ready to sleep.

It's been two weeks since you agreed to this insane arrangement and four times a week you two fuck like rabbits. Quite honestly, you're impress by his insanely high sex drive. You're even more surprise at yourself for keeping up with him. On some days, you both would have sex twice or three times a day depending on how frustrated and annoyed you were with each other.

"I'll leave first." you say after a last glance at your reflection.

"Why do you get to leave first?" Jaehyun says slumping back onto the wall.

"Um because I'm a girl and your pants are still down." you stated as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Jaehyun looks down and sure enough, he is still half naked. Before he could suggest another round, you were out the door.

"Bitch." he says to no one in particular. Jaehyun closes the stall door and stands there sighing to himself. He starts to imagine fucking you dumb in this small stall and having you scream his name for the entire school to hear.

How dare you speak to him like that when he told you repeatedly to not argue back. He's getting hard at the thought of manhandling you in this very public bathroom. He grabs his half hard dick, pumping himself into his hand, just thinking about your tight pussy.

He imagines holding you against the door so the hinges could creak and bang loud enough for the people outside to believe there were ghosts in the bathroom. He thinks about your legs wrapping around his waist and leaving new wounds of scratches on his bath. He thrusts his now hard angry cock into his hand at a faster pace.

He can't stop thinking about your moans or chants of his name that falls out of your mouth. Oh and that mouth. He can kiss them all day and night if he could. Jaehyun thinks about your soft plump lips kissing his neck and whispering dirty words in his ear is enough to send him to ecstasy as he comes undone. After his high, he cleans himself up and splashes water on his face before looking at his own reflection lost in thought.

"About time! We thought one murdered the other. We were about to call search and rescue for you both." Lisa exaggerates when you sit back down at the table with her, Mark, Johnny, Ten, and Jungwoo. Jaehyun was nowhere behind you.

"I was telling them the good news. Haru and I talked and we both decide to give this thing a shot. I mean there has to be a reason why fate put us together you know. Why not test the waters. Our date is this Friday night!" Mark says excitedly.

You turn in your seat and give him a big hug. "That is so amazing! I'm super happy for you Markie." You let go of him when Jaehyun finally joins the group. You can see his cheeks are still flushed with pink from his post orgasm.

"What are we celebrating?" he sits on your other side.

"Our boy Markie Mark here got himself a date Friday night with his one and only." Johnny coos. Jaehyun stretches out his arm across in front of you to fist bump Mark.

"Thanks dude."

"I have an idea. Why don't we make it a group effort and turn it into a group date?" Lisa says excitedly.

You and Jaehyun scoff at the idea, "That's a no. Let them get to know each other first." you reason.

"Yeah, let the two lovebirds see if there is a connection there." Jaehyun added taking everyone by surprise.

"Oh come on please? Johnny is bringing Joy, Ten and I, and -"

"Yeah that's called 'I finally found my soulmate and going on a group date.' In case you forgot, I'm not part of that club." you deadpan

"You and Jaehyun can go together." Jungwoo suggests.

The table is quiet for what feels like an eternity until Jaehyun speaks up, "No absolutely not. I refuse to be around her longer than I need to be. Trust me, you're better off without us there."

"How about you both find dates and we'll meet up?" Johnny suggests.

After arguing back and forth with your friends, surprisingly you and Jaehyun were on the same page for the first time after agreeing to find dates.

When everyone left the library, you yank Jaehyun back. "We're not really going through with this are we? We both can't stand each other." you whisper.

Jaehyun feels his lips curl but forces himself to keep a straight face, "What? Scared to fall in love with me Y/N?"

"Pft as if. I could never fall in love with a guy who is full of himself. You're not my type." you bite back.

"Then I guess we're going on this date with our dates. I don't have anything to hide."

You glare at the tall boy before making a deal, "Deal, but on one condition. You have to find someone you haven't had sex with." you smirk.

Jaehyun looks at you with equal intensity stare "Deal. It'll be easy for me to find a date. I can't say the same for you though."

Before you could rebuttal, he walks the opposite way.

Jeong Jaehyun is still and forever an asshole.

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"It'll be fun I promise and if you're having a horrible time, tell me and we'll go home." Lisa says as you both walk towards the restaurant to meet your other friends.

"What's his name again?" you ask trying to smooth out any wrinkles for the millionth time.

"Jackson. He's on the dance team and one of Ten's good friends. You'll like him. Just watch. Oh that must be them."

You look up and sure enough there is everyone waiting outside the restaurant. You see the familiar boy standing next to Johnny. When you close in, you see Naeun as Jaehyun's date and were chatting away. You knew Naeun from having a few shared classes and she's a sweet girl.

Lisa doesn't miss a beat of introducing you and Jackson. "Jackson, this is my friend I keep telling you about. Y/N, Jackson. Jackson, Y/N." He gives you a shy but secured smile and hug.

"It's finally nice to meet you. Lisa never shuts up about you." His voice is like honey and you can listen to him all day long if given the chance.

You begin to feel flustered at the comment adding, "I hope it's all good words coming out of her mouth." You can sense Jaehyun throwing daggers at you and when you turn your head towards him, you two lock eyes and there is a sudden switch in the air between you two. Whatever it is, quickly disappeared when Naeun said hi to you.

"Can we go in now? I'm starving." Johnny complains.

You all walk into the lovely restaurant and sit in the far right corner thankfully away from people. If you didn't know any better, you'd think fate or your friends were pulling a prank on you with the seating arrangements. Jackson sat next to you on your right, Lisa on your left, and Jaehyun sitting directly in front of you with Naeun by his side.

After ordering drinks and foods, you and Jackson completely hit it off. You enjoy his company and the more you talk, the more you found out the similar interests you share. Although you want to keep your attention only on him, you can feel Jaehyun's foot next to yours or his knee hitting yours. You'd kick him as hard as you can discreetly and an evil smirk would come across your face when you him yelp or slightly jump.

After eating half of your portion of your food, you excuse yourself to use the restroom. What you didn't know was Jaehyun soon following behind you and waiting for you outside the restrooms. The only thing on his mind is the way you look in that dress and the perfume you're wearing. Even though he had asked Naeun to accompany him for tonight, he didn't feel anything towards her.

When you open the door, you're surprise to see Jaehyun in front of you. The look on his face is easy to define with lust.

"Seems like you're finally having fun for once." He says walking and pushing you back into the single bathroom and locking the door. "It's such a nice sound when you're not in a bitchy mood."

"Wha-" your words are cut short when he crashes his lips on your yours, his hands finding your waist, and walking you back until you hit the sink.

He slightly pulls away, "Do you know this dress makes you look hot?" Jaehyun grinds against you to show you how hard he is when you feel his bulge through his jeans. "Is Jackson your soulmate after tonight? Will this be out last time having our fun?" He slips a hand under your dress and onto your cloth core, making you buck into him.

"Just hurry up."

You know it's stupid to have sex with Jaehyun while you're on a date, but there is something about Jaehyun that has a hold on you to let him get you riled up and have his way with you.

"Someone is needy tonight. I don't have a condom on me."

"I'm on the pill."

He wastes no time lifting your dress as you undo his belt and zipper, taking out his hard member and stroking it. He lifts your leg up with one hand as you guide his member to your entrance and push in.

You have to admit, the amount of times you two have fucked, you will never get use to the feeling of him stretching you out in all the right ways. Jaehyun and his stroke game were and are always on another level. He sets his thrusts at a rapid pace knowing you're on borrowed time. It takes everything in you to hold back your moans. He kisses you to swallow the escaped moans whenever he hits your g-spot. Jaehyun can feel you gripping him tightly signaling you were close to your release.

"I bet Jackson won't ever fuck you this good." He breathily says thrusting harder into you.

"Fuck right there. I'm going to come."

"Look at me." You lock eyes with him as he places his thumb on your nub making you shake convulsing and coming in seconds. One powerful thrust and Jaehyun empties his seed inside your walls. You feel his warm cum inside of you and something in you snaps at the feeling. He rests his forehead with sweat against yours as you both catch your breaths.

He finally pulls out and you feel both of your mix liquids running down your leg. Jaehyun looks at it in awe and bites his lips when he thinks you look sexy with his cum and your essence dripping down your legs. You clean up the mess and both redress yourself properly before stepping out.

Before you exit the hall, you see Jackson and Naeun talking as if they have a secret code. Within seconds, you can tell by the look on his face that he was much happier talking to her than he was with you. It didn't bother you because that's the same look the rest of your friends at the table have when they're with their soulmate.

Jackson and Naeun look up, see you and Jaehyun standing there, and break apart with a shy smile.

"This is awkward." Naeun quietly says.

Jackson is the first to break the tension asking you if he could talk to you in private. You nod and follow him passing your group of friends until you're outside the restaurant. He clears his throat and even though you just met today, you can tell he's nervous.

"Y/N, I had a really great time tonight and we get along super great. I wish I had met you sooner and I'm happy Lisa introduced us because you're way cooler in person than what she makes you out to be" You both laugh at how Lisa can over-exaggerate with details.

"I don't want to be rude, but when we were sitting there, I could feel this electric pull towards Naeun. I can't explain it. When you left to use the restroom, we started talking and instantly clicked. We both just discovered right now that we're soulmates. Please don't be mad or hate me." Jackson looks down to the ground.

You let the information sink in and smile at him. "Hey, look at me." Jackson looks at you with sympathetic eyes, "It's really not a big problem. I already knew the moment I saw you two talking just now. In honesty, I wasn't feeling anything romantic towards you either." you joke making him laugh. "We are good Jackson. I promise."

He gives you a big smile and hugs you. "Thanks for letting me down easily." he jokes. "Hey at least we became friends out of this, that is if we're friends?"

You slap his arm gently while giving him a serious look, "Of course we are! Who else am I going to talk about Squid Game with, but I'm taking you out next time so I can repay you back."

Just then, your friend group comes out and Lisa walks over to you with a concern look after seeing Jackson and Naeun talking together.

"Are you okay? Do I need to beat him up?" she asks.

"No we're good. He found his soulmate." You smile at the pair across from you. Lisa gives you a sympathetic look.

"We can go home if you want." she quietly says at the same time someone suggests taking a walk by the Han River.

"Yeah and after we can go to IKON frat party right after." Johnny says making half of the group disagree.

You low-key want to go back to the comfort of your apartment, change into comfortable clothes, and watch Disney movies. You figured this would be a great opportunity to take a couple of pictures for your project.

"No, I'm okay. Let's go."

Splitting into cars was interesting to say the least. Johnny and Joy were with Mark and Haru, while Ten and Lisa were with Jackson and Naeun. To everyone's surprise, you and Jaehyun would be in his car. Lisa tried to get you to ride with them, but you reassure her you would be fine going with Jaehyun and needed to talk about the project anyway.

On the drive there, it's quiet except for the soft R&B playing in the background. You look around the car and notice it's clean just like his room that one drunken night.

"So, this is how it feels to be dumped?" Jaehyun suddenly asks his eyes never leaving the road ahead of him.

You look over at him in shock, "What? You're telling me you've never been dumped before?"

He shakes his head at your accusation making your eyes widen, "Not even stood up once?"

"Never. It's always me doing that. Not going to lie, it's a pretty shitty feeling."

"Wow and I thought someone broke your heart and you became the person you are today."

He quirks an eyebrow up interested in what you thought about him, "And what kind of person am I today?"

You laugh lightly, "Well for starters, you're kind of a fuckboy since you've never been dumped before. You slack in class, yet somehow still ace the exams and quizzes, so that makes me wonder if you're screwing the TA to get a passing grade. Also, you walk around acting as if you're high and mighty among everyone."

Jaehyun laughs as you continuing pointing out his flaws. He thought he'd be annoyed with you talking so much, but found it interesting.

"I'm surprise you haven't hooked up with Naeun before."

"Are you keeping tabs on who I have and haven't had sex with? Is someone jealous?" he teases stealing a glance at you with one hand on the wheel.

"Don't flatter yourself Jaehyun."

His deep laughs makes you stare at his side profile a little too long, "If you say so."

Upon arrival, you slowly walk behind everyone to capture the true beauty of the night. Nights like tonight where the whether isn't too cold or too hot and the wind isn't blowing you over, are moments you feel a gratitude for everything. You snap a couple of photos thinking it would go nice for your project when two hands suddenly grab your waist and scare the shit out of you.

You jerk forward, hands clutching in a fist ready to throw a punch at the idiot who made you scream. When you turn around swinging a right hook, Jaehyun moves his face in time and holds your hand.

"Jaehyun!? Don't scare people like that you idiot!"

He throws his head back laughing hard and tapping his thigh. "You're so easy to scare Y/N."

"Jerk." You calm your beating heart and begin to walk towards your group of friends who were way ahead of you now. Jaehyun catches up and walks beside you quietly.

"You need to set up your camera at a better angle by the way." he says nonchalantly.

"And you need to get punch in the face. I thought you were up there with everybody?"

"I was, but I had to go back to the car to get something. Plus, all they talk about are more date nights, so why not hang out with my other single friend who sucks at taking photos."

You stop walking, "Since when were we friends?" you ask confusedly "and I do not suck at taking photos."

He turns around, hands in his front pockets, and bites his lower lip walking closer to you. You can feel his hot breath fanning your face and suddenly the rise in the whether went up. The cologne he's wearing fills your nostrils and somewhere in the back of your mind, you don't mind being covered smelling like him.

"Are we not friends? After everything we've been through?" he says next to your ear. His hand ghosts over your waist and it takes everything in you to not cave into his touch. To a stranger's eyes, they would assume you two were a young couple in love. Now, if your friends saw you, they would bombard you with questions left and right.

Just as you're about to give into him, you break away from each other when you hear Johnny's booming voice letting you two know to head to the party. Silently, you follow behind Jaehyun to his car. Your thoughts are all over the place only full of lust.

Every rational decisions and thoughts vanishes as soon as you sit in the passenger seat. Looking around the parking lot, it was mostly empty and the car is nearly invisible in the dark night. Jaehyun definitely knows how to rile you up and you feel yourself clenching at nothing.

Somehow spending all of these special quality time together, Jaehyun can sense exactly what you were thinking. He locks the doors and shifts in his seat too look at you waiting for your next move. You face him meeting his eyes and landing on his inviting plush lips. You both lean in at the same time crashing mouths and teeth together just wanting nothing more than to feel each other.

He practically pulls you over the center console to sit on his lap, feeling your weight on him. His hands roam over your body, while your hands find their way to his hair. In the midst of your intense make out, you both move to the backseat where you straddle him and grinding your cloth core on his jeans for friction.

You kiss his neck just below the jawline, secretly knowing it's one of his weakest point when he lets out a deep groan. His hand squeezes your hips tighter when he feels the sensation of your lips on his skin. Everything in his body is on fire just from your kiss. You push your dress up and panties to the side as Jaehyun unzips his jeans and sliding them down along with his boxers.

You salivate at his angry cock dripping with precum and hover over him.

"Fuck you're so wet babe."

"Only for you. Shit." The feeling of sinking down on him is everything you ever wanted: the stretch, the slight pain, the wetness, the feel of his every ridge, and the way he makes you feel so full. Jaehyun kisses your chest for distraction as you get use to him. You both let out a loud moan when you begin rocking into him and soon bouncing on him. His thrusts meeting yours halfway.

Jaehyun kneads and slaps your ass every time you come down on him. He frees your tits and plays with them as they bounce in his hands. Loud pants, moans, deep grunts, and the sound of skin slapping fills the entire car when you both reach your orgasm in no time.

You chant his name like a mantra hiding your face in the crook of his neck and he pulls you tighter against his chest. You both stay like that as the waves of your highs calm down.

Jaehyun gives you a kiss on your shoulder, neck, jaw, and lips. It's a strange feeling. Sure, you've kissed during sex, but right after you'd pretend nothing happened. His lips linger longer than needed to on yours when you kiss him back. Pulling away, you study his face and for once, you see a mischievous look in his eyes. You take in everything in sight and ask yourself if he's always been this handsome.

Wait, why am I thinking of him in that light? I hate him. Get your shit together Y/N.

"Car sex is officially off the bucket list." He says breaking your train of thought.

You roll your eyes and get off of him, not missing the way your fluids leak out of your hole. You both redress and head to the party. The car smells like sex and you wouldn't be able to look at it the same way again. Still, you couldn't shake off the feeling that this felt different than the rest of your hook ups with Jaehyun and that's what terrifies you the most.

Annoying Y/N: We're going on a trip tomorrow morning loser so be up before 5:30AM.

Jaehyun: and why would I want to wake up at the ass crack of dawn? 😴

Annoying Y/N: Because if we want to pass this class we need to start taking pictures dumbass 🙄

Jaehyun: yeah, that's a hard pass for me. go by yourself loser. i have shit to do 👋

Annoying Y/N: God you're so annoying!

Annoying Y/N: You know what

Annoying Y/N: I'll just do this entire project by myself with only my name on it 😤

Annoying Y/N: You can go fuck yourself

Jaehyun: I would, but I should be fucking you to put you in your place 😏

Annoying Y/N: Grow up Jeong!

Jaehyun: you're making something grow harder by the second 😏

Annoying Y/N: 🤮🤮

Jaehyun: is that you choking on my dick?

Annoying Y/N: Forget it!

Annoying Y/N: If you don't want to come I won't force you

Annoying Y/N: I'd rather not be stuck in the same car with you again

Jaehyun: aw, afraid you'll jump on my dick again

Jaehyun: i wouldn't mind honestly 😏

Jaehyun: what are you wearing right now?

Jaehyun: send nudes

Annoying Y/N: Anyways! 5:30 or not I'm leaving with or without you

Jaehyun: way to kill the mood bro 😒

Annoying Y/N: 😘😘

Jaehyun shuts off his phone and lay in bed with a smile on his face. He thinks back to how you were a couple of months ago from hating his guts to hanging out every day with him. Minus the sex, you're fun to be around, even when you don't say anything to him.

He's the type of person who hates the quiet when he's with someone because it gets awkward, but with you he doesn't mind it. There's something about you that doesn't make the silence so suffocating.

The next morning came and you wait by your phone wondering if Jaehyun is going to text you if he's coming. When the clock struck 5:35 AM, you figure he wasn't coming at all. You roll your eyes, grab a light jacket, your keys and wallet, and lock your apartment.

You head downstairs in the freezing cold and your breath hitches when you see Jaehyun leaning against your car. He's wearing a black jacket, white t-shirt, dark jeans, and a black hat.

"It's 5:37. You're late and it's freezing." he says annoyingly in his morning voice.

It takes you a second later to get out of your thoughts that he actually came. "Suck it up. Maybe next time you should text instead of popping up." You walk towards your car and press your car alarm before getting inside.

Neither one of you is a morning person. That's been establish as you two sit there listening to your own R&B playlist and yawning.

"I can't believe you're driving. You're a horrible driver." he grunts.

You come to a red light and unlock your doors, "You can get out if you want. No one is forcing you to stay." You give him a pointed look as he rolls his eyes.

"Just drive." he mumbles.

You decide to drive to a nearby coffee shop to get yourselves coffee and muffins to wake yourselves up.

"Where are we going by the way?" he asks when you start driving to your designation. He realizes he never asked you. Honestly, he didn't even plan on setting his alarm at 4:30 AM last night in order to meet you on time.

"A place." you vaguely say.

"Is this my last Americano I will have before you off me?"

"Eh, perhaps."

Jaehyun's eyes grew wide when your face doesn't change. You let him sweat it out for a couple of minutes while he apologizes for everything he's done and starts listing things he would do for you.

"Chill out. It won't be your last I promise. Maybe. You'll know when we get there." you laugh.

"You're a bitch sometimes."

"I know, but some of those thing you just mention sound very interesting. I need someone to do my laundry and cook for me though -"

"Absolutely not. That is never going to happen now that I know you won't end me."

"But how do you know? For all you know I could be lying." You go back and forth on the topic before moving onto songs and artists you like to listen to. Conversations soon die down when Jaehyun's eyes flutter shut.

You couldn't help but smile at the man before you. His long flowy and fluffy locks are longer when it's not styled back. His cute little pout he does when he's deep asleep is adorable. You'd never say this aloud to anyone, not even to yourself, but he looks so angelic when he sleeps. You come to a red light and quietly swipe your phone opening the camera app and taking a quick picture of him.

You don't know why you did it, but it felt just right.

Three hours later, you finally arrive at your destination. Jaehyun takes in his surrounds only to see tall trees, no cars in the parking lot, a hiking trail, and fields of tall grass. The sun is barely coming up and though it's known nothing scares Jeong Jaehyun, he had an eerie feeling about this place.

Yeah, I'm definitely not coming home tonight.

You turn off the engine and get out of the car with a huge smile on your face. You couldn't wait to get to your happy place in time. You don't pay attention to Jaehyun and the look of worrisome on his face as he watches your every move until you're looking back at him.

"Are you going to come or not?"

"You bring me here to a land of nothing? I'll just stay here and catch up on my sleep."

You shrug, "If you say so. Just know there are people who kidnaps people sleeping in their cars out here." You turn and start walking slowly.

"Bullshit!" Jaehyun yells back. When you don't answer and continue walking, he feels like he's being paranoid and ends up unbuckling quickly, getting out of the car, and taking long strides towards you.

You hear the crunch under his feet when you turn back to face him. If you could take a picture of this moment and the horror on his face, you'd use it for blackmail. You put your car alarm before continuing on.

"How far is this place?"

"Just another twenty or thirty minutes."

"This better be worth my sleep by the way. If not, you're buying me lunch for a whole ass month."

"Okay scary cat." you snicker.

"I am not! I just didn't want you to go alone. I don't want to have you on my conscious if something bad happens to you."

"Mhm. Whatever helps you sleep at night Jay." The nickname rolls off your tongue easily. It sounded nice when you said it and Jaehyun feels his ears turning red hot. You reach the start of a short hiking trail, but before you could start, Jaehyun pulls onto your wrist.

"Dude, you didn't say anything about hiking! What the hell!"

"You never asked for specifics." you state the obvious.

"Liar." Jaehyun squints his eyes at you, but follows your lead.

You both hike the trail with Jaehyun's constant complaints of messing up his shoes and not wanting to carry his jacket around. From time to time, he would look at your perfect ass.

You reach the top before he did and took in the sight in front of your while his voice falls onto deaf ears.

"This is so bullshit Y/N. If I had known hiking was involved, I wouldn't have come. If I wanted to do boot camp while hiking, I would've done so myself." He finally reach the top and looks at your side profile as he continues ranting. "You're buying me new shoes when we -"

You turn to him, covering your hand over his mouth as he muffles the last few words. With your other hand, you turn is head to the front of him. You feel his jaw slack when he sees what you saw with the rising run. Below is a small lake mead with beautiful flowers surrounding the waters.

"Wow." was all he could say.

You smile softly when you see the emotions change in his expression. You take a moment to appreciate nature, what it has to offer, and taking in the air and breeze caressing your skin. You hike the rest of the way down and when you finally hit land, Jaehyun begins snapping photos left and right.

He has never seen such a beautiful place in his entire life. Everything about this place is magical and he felt like a child in Disneyland.

You on the other hand watch Jaehyun smile from ear to ear and completely at ease. You didn't mean to stare at him, but you just couldn't help it. He really did look like a little kid in a candy store. To say you were feeling different emotions was an understatement. You only saw him in a different light because of this place. A place you love that held so many memories for you as a child mix with the good and the bad.

"This place is amazing Y/N. How did you find it?" he asks while taking a photo of a lotus flower in the lake.

"It's a secret." you wink at him when he looks back at you. Jaehyun swears his heart skipped a beat when he looked at you. You stand next to him taking in the lake in front of you. "When my parents were still alive, they would bring me here every spring break when the flowers bloom and in the summer to experience what summer is all about. Ever since they passed away in a car accident, I would come here to feel their presence. It's my secret getaway from the stress of school and life. Now that I think about it, I've never brought anyone here."

He heard what happened to your parents in high school and wanted to reach out, but every time he tried, you'd shut him down. Since then, he backed off on the teasing. Just a little bit.

Jaehyun can see the twinkle in your eye spark a little brighter as you recount your memories here. He can't take his eyes off of you and when you look at him, he gets lost in your eyes. He feels honored to be the first person you've taken here and there's something about you in this setting that makes him see you differently.

You weren't the girl he hated when he was eight or the girl he likes to get a rise out of or the girl he sleeps with. You were just you with all of your flaws on display.

Breaking the intense eye contact, you were the first to look away clearing your throat, "We should probably take some photos now."

"Yeah." he whispers when you start to walk away. He opens his camera app and snaps a photo of your figure surrounded by the beautiful flowers.

Your only intentions were to take photos of the scenery and call it a day, but after an hour, it turns into a photoshoot. Jaehyun would snap pictures of you posing with flowers in your hand, flower in your hair, and by the lake. You do the same for him snapping photos if him smelling the red tulips, taking a photo of a yellow tulip, crouching down in front of the lake with stones beside him, and a flower in his hair.

You even took selfies together on your phones with his arm around your shoulder bringing you closer to his side or his arms wrapping around your middle while he rests his chin on your shoulder. He would set his phone by a rock with the timer on so he could have the both of you taking funny poses together.

The word happy was something neither of you anticipated when it came to each other, but right here right now, you both are the most happiest either have been in a long time.

Since the trip to the lake, you and Jaehyun start spending more time together just hanging out. At first, your friends were confused at the sudden change, but once you both said you can tolerate each other, they were relieved they no longer needed to hear the never ending bickering.

At first, you thought the sex would be a daily thing since you've been hanging out so much, but in reality, it was becoming less frequent compared to jumping on each other every four hours. The sex even felt different, even though he was still a beast in the bedroom, living room, kitchen, elevator, stairs, or shower. He would perform aftercare for you by running you a bath and taking care good care of you. It was something he nor anyone has ever done for you. There would be nights he'd stay the night and leave his clothes in your closet.

The more you hang out, the more you realize you enjoy his company and the way he makes you laugh. He would come to your place and watch movies or Disney movies, make pizzas or dinner together, explore new places and enjoy the city night life together taking selfies. You would even go to the frat house to spend time with him and the boys.

If the boys were throwing a party or there was a party being thrown and neither wanted to party or drink, you'd make an excuse and cuddle on your couch. Everything feels domestic with him and whenever he's around, you feel safe.

Jaehyun wakes up one morning just before the morning sun creeps into your bedroom. He rubs his eyes and turns his body to face yours on your side. You were hugging your pillow with a cute pout. He thinks you look beautiful like this without makeup, face relaxed, and messy hair, but of course, he will never tell you. He takes a mental image of this moment and takes in your features, your figure, your favorite lotion scent, and he can't help but feel so damn lucky.

There was always something about you that makes him gravitates towards you and he knows he needs to figure it out, but he doesn't want to.

It dawns on him that he's gotten too comfortable around you. Jeong Jaehyun does not do relationships and he isn't the one to fall in love simply because he doesn't believe in it. His parents divorced when he was a kid and his mother left right after. Since then, he vowed to himself he will never have a close connection with someone to spare him the pain.

Yet, he found himself breaking his promise for you. He would find himself smiling when he reads back on your texts, the pictures you've taken together, and he couldn't stop thinking about how far you two have come. From destroying your sand ages ago to laying half-naked next to you.

Truth is, he is scared shitless about this new ordeal and doesn't know what to do. He thinks he has feelings for you, but he doesn't know what feelings are supposed to feel like. Is he even ready to settle down yet?

You wake up when you feel the bed on your left side raise and hear feet scrambling on the floor. Rubbing your eyes and sitting up with the blanket covering your body, you look over at Jaehyun as he puts on his jeans.

"You're leaving already?" you ask in your morning voice with a little pout.

"Yeah, I just remember I have to help Johnny with his car." He says not sparing you a look.

There's something off about his voice, but you blame it on being half awake.

"Okay. Are we going to the arcade later so I can beat your high score?"

He looks back at you and wishes he didn't because you look so happy in this moment. He sighs quietly, grabbing his shirt to put it on, and walking to your side of the bed. He moves a strand of hair behind your ear before caressing your cheek. You lean into his touch when he kisses your forehead. His lips linger for a moment before capturing your lips.

When he breaks the kiss, he whispers, "Yes." He looks at you one more time before walking out of your bedroom and out of your apartment.

Jaehyun knows what needs to happen and what he needs to do, so, he does what he always do best: hides away any real emotion, burying it deep within himself, and put on a facade for you and the world to see.

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You haven't seen Jaehyun since that Sunday morning and that was a week ago. You'd text him to see if he wanted to hang out, only to have an excuse thrown at your or short answer replies. You asked the boys if they knew what was up with him, only to be revealed that he hasn't been at the house much and they rarely see him.

You come to the conclusion that you're starting to sound like a concern girlfriend when he wasn't yours to claim in the first place. He could do whatever he wants, but why did that thought hurt you more than you expected?

It was Saturday when you find yourself at Lee's Bookstore. You and Jaehyun found it when you were exploring the area and wanted coffee, not expecting a coffee shop in the middle of the bookstore.

As you browse through endless rows of books, you see two elderly couple together. The man was gazing into the woman's eyes with nothing but love and as if, it were only the two of them. They were cute and it made you yearn for something like that one day.

You were so lost in your thoughts about your potential future, you didn't realize the woman was asking you a question.

"Honey, are you alright?" she asks again.

"Oh, hi. Yes I am. I' sorry. You two are such a beautiful couple. I hope one day I can be just like the two of you." you smile politely at them.

"It wasn't easy that's for sure." the older man says with a smile in return.

"Oh you hush. You always kept picking fights with me. I'm sure that was easy enough." she teases back. They continue their little banter for a few more seconds and they reminded you so much of you and Jaehyun. You wish he were here right now beside you.

"She's a firecracker." he winks at her.

You chuckle at their teasing, "Ah, well regardless of what is was, it seems to have worked out. If you don't mind me asking, how did you two meet?" If it were any other person, you'd feel awkward, but they made you comfortable enough to ask.

"Well we met when we were five and -"

"And he completely ruined my drawing."

"Ah I almost forgot about that sweetie. Indeed I did do that and -"

"And ever since that day, we had been at each other's throats. We would pull pranks on each other, call each other names, and nit pick everything the other person did. I guess it all changed when -"

"When I was the designated driver for our friends in college. We aren't big on drinks, but our friends, oof, they could drink for hours on end. You college kids know how to party." he says giving you a hi five and a grin.

"We figured since we had mutual friends, we would be civil for their sake. Well-"

"It's been a rollercoaster since. What started out as enemies ended in us being soulmates. We realized we had the same mark on our collarbone the more we hung out and we knew that we were destined for each other." They look at each other with so much love and passion.

"After a few months of dating, I realized I couldn't live without my other half and I asked her to marry me. Thankfully she said yes." you all laugh as you wipe a tear from your eye you didn't know you had.

"Have you always known she was the one or did it come as a shock?" you ask curiously.

"I think I've always known deep down, but we were always fighting that I never realized it until it was almost too late."

"They say these kinds of soulmate connections are the rarest to ever occur mostly because the people end up really despising each other to really look at the bigger picture." she says.

Your mind race all over the place. Their love story sounds almost like yours and Jaehyun's. You were starting to wonder if he was your soulmate.

"I am guessing you have a similar story?"

"Yes, you can say that. It's almost scarily very similar to yours. Now, it's just ... complicated." you admit.

"Oh sweetie. Don't let that little slip up mess with your mind. I've been there before and all you can do now is analyze and come to the same conclusion as us. Tell him how you feel and don't wait. I don't know what would've happened if we both waited or ignore our feelings." the older woman suggests.

"You two are really sweet. Thank you for your kind words and advice and sharing your story with me. I should let you go now. Thank you again." you bid them both farewell and turn on your feet to the opposite side. Before getting far, the woman asks for your name so she could tell her grandchildren and promises to make up the ending for you.

"It's Y/N."

You lay in bed that night contemplating your entire life. You couldn't stop thinking about the story of the couple from the bookstore. You couldn't fathom they sound exactly like you and Jaehyun straight down to the T. You were never one to believe in soulmates, let alone have the exact same story as another couple, yet you're starting to believe in it.

As much as you have tried to forget about him and tell yourself you hate him and it was only just sex, somewhere along the way, you have grown to appreciate him.

You love the way he makes you smile by him just smiling at you. You get butterflies whenever you catch him staring at you from across the room or next to you. You feel the electricity pull whenever your hands or any part of your skin touches. When your bodies are one, you can't help but feel safe and surrender under his touch. He makes you feel like the only girl in his world.

You've come to realize your entire childhood with the pettiness drama all led you to this moment of truth. You look down at your left hand and notice a clear line that wasn't there before on your fourth finger. You try to rub it off, but it wouldn't budge.

Then it hits you. The coincidence story, the sudden mark, the reason you can't get him out of your head.

"Holy shit." you whisper to yourself in disbelief. "Holy shit!" you repeat louder this time. "I'm in love with him. Jaehyun is my ... soulmate." You're suddenly filled with excitement that you can literally shout it out to the world that you love him. You're in love with Jeong Jaehyun. Your long time enemy turn fuck buddy turn to soulmate.

You send him a quick text asking him to meet you at the park that's halfway between both of you. He replies back with an 'okay.' Adrenaline runs through you as you quickly grab a pair of Jaehyun's sweats and shirt, grabbing your car keys, and driving to the park.

You needed to see him and you couldn't wait to tell him how you feel, because surely he had to feel the same connection too. There is no way he would just do mundane things with you every day and not feel anything for you.

You get to the park first and patiently wait for him. As you sit on the bench, you look at the jungle gym playground. Memories of your childhood together of playing tag, getting competitive with Jenga or any sport, and ending it with someone crying.

It's been ten minutes and Jaehyun was still a no show. You text and call him, but he never responded or answered. After an hour, you realize he wasn't coming. Anger fueled you as you get back into your car and drive to the frat house. How dare he ignore you for nearly two weeks, give you the cold shoulder, and standing you up. Who did he think he is?

Upon arrival at the house, you see a swarm of bodies in the front lawn and you forgotten the boys were throwing a house party.

Okay, maybe this is why he didn't show up.

Walking into the house looking like you just woke up, you do your best to avoid the stares and look for the man you need to see.

"Y/N! You're here! We miss seeing your beautiful face around here." Johnny drunkenly says giving you a side hug.

"Hey John. I miss you too. Hey, have you seen Jaehyun?"

Johnny gives you a questioningly look and looks down at your outfit, "You're not seeing him looking that that."

"Johnny please. It's important." you beg him.

"I lost him after we played ping pong. Try his room."

You thank him and head upstairs to Jaehyun's room. Thankfully, the hallways weren't crowded as you made your way to his room. Turning the unlocked doorknob, you close your eyes, taking a deep breath, walk into his room, and begin to speak.

"I know you've been ignoring me Jaehyun, but to stand me up for an hour is unacceptable. The least you can do is apologize and I need to tell you so-"

You stop midsentence when you finally open your eyes and take in the scene in front of you. You really wish you never came to this party at all. You wish you didn't just walk in on Jaehyun balls deep inside another girl. Your jaw drops and your heart shatters into a million tiny pieces.

Jaehyun looks at you wide eyes shock to see you standing there. You hold his gaze a second longer, before the girl beneath him grabs anything to cover herself. You regain your composure, standing a little straighter, scoffing while shaking your head, and walking out of his room.

He can see the hurt written all over your face and he swore he saw tears at the brim of your eyes. There was a feeling in his chest that he couldn't pinpoint. He wanted to run to you and say sorry, but he was still in shock.

You run down the stairs, tears falling down your face, while shoving past people to get to the front door. When the night air finally hits your lungs, you walk a little further before collapsing to your knees and crying to yourself. You feel a pair of arms wrapping around you tightly telling you it was going to be okay. You knew that voice, but it wasn't the voice you wanted to hear.

Covering your face, you lean your head towards Sicheng's chest while he holds you.

"Let's go to you place and talk okay?" he says rubbing circles on your back. All you could do is nod and keep your tears at bay, while he drives you home.

You sit on your couch while Sicheng makes you tea. Nothing in your mind made any sense. You were certain Jaehyun was your soulmate. It was far from a coincidence that you ran into the elderly couple along with you couldn't stop thinking about him. There's that saying that says 'nothing is ever a coincidence, so how is it, you're in your apartment with a broken heart and he's with someone else right now? It doesn't make sense.

Sicheng sets your tea down on the coffee table and studies you before asking the inevitable, "It's about Jaehyun isn't it?"

You nod too afraid your voice will give you away.

"Is he ... your soulmate?"

You take a deep breath and think over your next words, "I thought he was. Now I know he's not." As soon as the words left your mouth, your voice cracks and you begin to cry.

If there is anything Sicheng hates more than ever, it's seeing you hurt and crying. You're a caring person who always puts others before yourself and you have a big heart. Out of all the women he has dated, you were the only one he maintained to have a close friendship with.

He sits next to you wrapping his arms around you and bringing you close to him once again letting you cry harder. "I don't get it. I was so certain."

"Does he know?"

"I doubt it. I was going to tell him tonight. Earlier today, I met this cute couple and they reminded me so much of Jaehyun and I, and I said to myself, "I can see myself growing old with Jaehyun just like them." I tried to push it out of my mind but every time I close my eyes, all the memories coming flooding back. I texted him to meet me at the park and he never showed up, so that's when I went to the house and found him -" you stop because you were about to cry again.

"With someone else." he finishes for you. You wish you could take the image of his naked body on top of another girl out of your mind.

"Do you think you'll ever tell him?"

"I don't think so. I mean look at our history. It doesn't say anywhere in the timeline, "hey Jaehyun I've been in love with since the day we met and I'm sure you're my soulmate because of a story I heard, but let's see first."" you say sarcastically.

You take a deep breath to regain your composure, "You want to know what the sucker part is? For the past two days, I've been asking myself why did it have to be him? Why couldn't it be Minho, Nick, or you. Why did it have to him?"

He squeezes your arms to acknowledge your feelings, "Have you thought about what you're going to do with the connection?"

That thought never crossed your mind and you don't want to think about saying goodbye to Jaehyun for good. Life wouldn't be the same anymore.

You feel more tears prick your eyes and begin to fall, "This hurts so much Win."

"I know it does. It hurts because you care about him whether you tell everyone and yourself you hate him. Everyone in the room can see how much alike you two are and care about each other. And while we're on the topic of everyone, we all know there was something going on between you two." You pick your head off his shoulder with wide eyes and about to protest.

"Don't look so surprise," he chuckles. "both of you aren't that great at hiding your affection in public."

You groan loudly, "Don't lecture me now Sich." You lay your head back on his shoulder as he continues.

"As I was saying, sometimes in life, we can't always understand what our purpose is or why we're link to certain people. We can't always figure out why we keep thinking about them or keep going back to them when deep down we know it's unhealthy. However, I do know, every person that comes into our lives are there for a reason and a lesson. It's life. Life will throw challenges our way and it's up to us to decide what to do. You're a fighter Y/N and when you believe in something, you make sure it happens. You have the biggest heart I know and when you love, God, you love so hard. I know because I was able to experience that side of you. Right now, you're hurting because you're truly in love with him."

Sicheng always had a way with his words and right now they were hitting you deep. You squeeze his middle tighter, "What if he doesn't feel the same and it's all in my head? What if-"

"I'm going to stop you there. I know Jaehyun and I know you. You don't see it now, but you're both the same. You try to hide any sort of real emotion as soon as you feel it because you don't want to get hurt, so you deflect all the time. Have you ever wondered why you always joke when something said is true? He would have to be an idiot to not feel the same way, or if he does and doesn't act on it, then it's his lost."

"What should I do?" you whisper, scared to hear what he'll say.

"For tonight, sleep. Take the next couple of days for yourself and think what you want to do. If you want to remove the connection, I will support you. If you decide you need more time and see where it goes, I'll support you."

"Thank you."

"I'm always here for you Y/N. Now get some sleep."

That night you fell asleep with confusion, heartache, and a dash of hopefulness.

The following week, rumors had circulated around campus that heartthrob Jeong Jaehyun has finally met his soulmate. You heard the whispers of various stories of him sneaking out late at night to hang out with his girlfriend or they were ditching class together. Everyone speculated when they met when you overheard a group of girls say he hasn't been flirting with anyone for a month. Even your friends mentioned he was bailing out on their plans and parties.

You've tried to ignore the talks, but in the end, it only broke you heart more.

You were hanging out with Sicheng, Johnny, Mark and Haru at an ice cream parlor you used to go with Jaehyun after late night drives. As you sit in the round booth laughing at something Johnny said, you hear the bell ring. Your eyes wanders to the door to see a those deep dimples you've come to love. You look away just in time before he looks your way.

Jaehyun's legs carry him over to your table when his eyes light up from seeing you laugh. He hasn't seen you since that night you caught him in the middle of having sex with another girl. He knows he should talk to you, but he had been busy.

"Hey guys." Jaehyun says timidly interrupting the moment. His gaze never leaving your face.

Everyone around the table is shock to see him given that he's been MIA for weeks.

"Hey dude. It's good seeing you man." Mark says giving the older a fist bump.

Before Jaehyun could reply, a girl with pink hair comes up to him wrapping her arm around his. You recognize her as the school's cheerleading captain.

"There you are baby." Rose says cheekily.

Jaehyun gives her a small smile before turning to face your table. "I guess this is the perfect time to announce something important."

"What is it?" Johnny says looking between the two. Sicheng, who sat by your side, notice how tense your body become.

"You've probably heard about the rumors around school and I just want to say that it's true. Rose and I and dating and -"

"And we're soulmates!" she cuts him off smiling widely and tugging his arms tighter.

Your heart instantly drops to the pit of your stomach and you do everything to keep your tears at bay. Congratulations are said until Mark tells the couple to join you all. Johnny and Mark scoot over as the new happy couple take the invitation with Jaehyun sitting directly in front of you.

Soon everyone's orders come and you share yours with Sicheng. He whispers in your ear asking if you were okay and you gave him a small smile and a nod. Jaehyun sees the interaction and looks down to see you sharing your favorite banana split with him. That was your thing together and he couldn't help but feel jealous. He knows he shouldn't because he's with Rose. He realizes things are different now because he finally found his soulmate in Rose.

For the rest of the night, you put on a fake smile, laugh, and talk to Sicheng, trying not to interact with the new couple. The next day, they made it official in front of the entire school and you spend the rest of your day crying on your bed.

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It's been a month since Jaehyun and Rose have been together and every day was a nightmare for you. You did everything to avoid him by changing your routine to school and class. You were hardly at the frat house anymore and did your best to avoid all the place you've been to together. No matter what, you couldn't get away from his scent, the clothes that still sits in your closet untouched, or the memories you made in every inch of your apartment. Everywhere you look you're reminded of the happier moments with him.

You wish you could go back to hating him, but no matter how hard you try, the love you have for him outgrew the hatred that was once there.

A week after they went public, you made a consult appointment to the "soulmate" doctor to get more information on removing the connection. At the end of the consult, you're hit with the cold hard truth that once you get the connection removed, you'll no longer be attached to each other. It's like being wiped away from each other's lives. He'd be nonexistent in your world.

You went back and forth on your decision. If you break it, you'd be setting him free to be happy with Rose. There's also the other possibility that you'll never get another soulmate again. You wonder how you went through all of these years thinking you loved the idea of being alone forever just to feel miserable when you think life is granting you your wish.

Being with Jaehyun gave you a taste of what it feels like to be in love. To be loved and receive love back. You love the warm feeling of being wanted and cared for. Now, you just feel empty. Maybe it was for the best to let him go.

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In the last month Jaehyun and Rose were inseparable. He found himself ditching his friends to spend time with her at her house and cute dates. Being with Rose, he feels like he was on top of the world. He felt free and loves spoiling her because his heart truly belongs to her. If anyone asks him what his favorite part of the day is, he would say it's being with her in a heartbeat. She understood him and made him feel things he's never felt before.

He had a tiny crush on her during freshman orientation, but never approached her. Jeong Jaehyun shy of approaching his crush let alone a girl? Who would have known. When he saw her at the party a month ago, he finally had the courage to talk to her and brought her to his room, when you walked in on them. He knew he should have talked to you after sleeping with Rose and finding out they were soulmates, but he figured he didn't need to. You two weren't exclusive anyways.

One night he was lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. His mind wanders back to you like it does sometimes. He hasn't seen or talked to you in a while and when he tries to have a friendly conversation with you, he could feel the walls you've put up once again. Then you suddenly changed seats and he stopped coming to class.

He often wonders how you've been, if you've been taking mental breaks, if you've been eating and sleeping well. He wonders if you hate him again. He even notices the sudden shift in the atmosphere whenever he was around your group of mutual friends. No one would mention your name around him and if he asks, he found himself being disappointed you weren't coming. He know things are changing, but he didn't mind it one bit as long as Rose was by his side.

Jaehyun turns to night stand to turn off the light when he notice what appears to be a small clear line on his fourth finger.

He gasp in shock, "It can't be." He's heard about stories of finding your connection with your soulmate and now he is experiencing it. It just confirms that he and Rose are indeed soulmates. He fell asleep that night excited for what the future holds for the couple.

He and Rose were sitting on the couch watching a movie when he grabs her left hand and holds it. He examines her hand, specifically her fourth finger, only to find no clear line. He's confused, but thought nothing of it. He figures it would take time for the mark to show up, but a week later, it still wasn't there.

Jaehyun walks into the kitchen to grab something to drink when hee sees Mark, Jungwoo, Sicheng, Yuta, and Johnny sitting at the table. They all stop talking as soon as they see Jaehyun by the door. He doesn't like the feeling his friends have been giving him, then again, he did blow them off for the last month to be with Rose.

"Hey guys." he says shrugging off the look Sicheng is giving him.

"Look who's finally home. We haven't seen you in a minute." Yuta says sarcastically.

"Yeah, sorry about that. Rose is at practice, so I came home to take a quick nap." He takes a sip of water trying not to be awkward with his friends.

"Speaking of Rose, since you're in a relationship now, why don't we go on a group date like last time?" Johnny suggests trying to break the tension in the air.

"Oh dude yeah! That was so much fun!" Mark and Jaehyun agree with the plan.

The group date was the next night and it was déjà vu. They went to the same restaurant when Jaehyun and you were still single, follow by going to the Han River. Everything about tonight reminds him of you. The sex in the bathroom, the gazing stares, sex in the car, and everything that has happened since that night.

He misses you and everything about you.

"Alright class, I hope your final project is coming along great. I am expecting good results. You all had three months to do this and it's due next week. You may go now."

Shit. Jaehyun completely forgotten about the project you two were supposed to work on. He hasn't talked to you in nearly a month and has no idea if you were done with the photos. Jaehyun gets up from his chair when Professor Choi calls him over. Once the last few people empty the room, Professor Choi looks at him

"How are you doing Jaehyun?"

"Um, pretty good for the most part. Can't complain much sir." he gives him a cheesy smile.

"That's great to hear. Listen have you talked to Y/N?"

Y/N? Did something happen to you? No, our friends would have said something to me.

"Um, it's been a while. We've both been busy lately."

"I see. Okay, well I hate to be the one to tell you this, but I talked to her this morning and unfortunately you're both on your own for this project."

Wait what!?

Jaehyun clears his throat, "Did she say why?"

"She was pulled away for a family emergency, but she did say you both have enough photos to finish the project separately. I know it's sudden, but I have faith in you Jaehyun. Just thought I'd let you know in case you didn't. You may go now."

Jaehyun stood there like a brick wall letting his brain register the information and on autopilot, he bids his goodbyes and walks out the door.

Why didn't anyone told him about your situation? Better yet, why didn't you tell him about your situation instead of Professor Choi making him look like an idiot. You two were friends, or so he thought you were. Jaehyun's mind wanders to different scenarios, but disregard them when he finds himself standing in front of Lee's Bookstore.

He wanders inside and glazes over the books until he accidentally bumps into an older woman.

"Oh I'm so sorry ma'am." he bows in respect.

"Oh no worries dear. These books can be so mesmerizing." she gives him a soft smile.

Just before Jaehyun can say his apologies once more, an older man walks up to you both. "There you are sunshine. I've been looking for you. I should have known you'd be here instead of the cafe." He kisses the woman and gives her a look full of love. Jaehyun thought they were cute and blushes at the thought of him and Rose growing old like them one day.

"You two are very cute together. May I ask how long you two have been together?"

"Ah, well son, we've been together our entire lives -"

"We just didn't know it at the time." his wife interjects.

"Yes, let's just say we weren't nice to each other. We basically hated each other until one day, we just didn't." He smiles down at her and gives her a longing look.

"How did you know you were meant to be?" Jaehyun asks curiously.

"Well, when we got together, it wasn't by nature per say. We forced ourselves to be civil with one another for the sake of our friends. Then we started hanging out more and surely, we fell in love. I was in denial, so when I tried to move on with another person, I started to hear her thoughts." the older man laughs.

"At first, I thought I was going insane, but it was her voice and I could hear everything she was thinking of. I kept this secret at first and most of them time I was intrigued, but what made me realize I love her was what she thought about me. It was then that I found out that she loved me back. I promise myself that I would do everything in my power to get her back and I'm so glad I did." He hugs her as she wipes a tear away.

They sound exactly like -

"So you hated each other then loved each other?" Jaehyun accidentally says his thoughts aloud.

"Yes dear. He's my soulmate." She turns to look at Jaehyun and ask him, "How did you and your soulmate meet?"

He's taken aback by her sudden question and scratch the back of his neck, "We met during freshman orientation, but recently just found each other again." Jaehyun smiles when he remembers the night of the party.

"Oh young love. Please do tell us more if you don't mind sweetie."

Jaehyun chuckles, "Alright. Well we just reconnected at a house party and we clicked. We've only been dating for a month, but I have this mark show up just a week ago." He shows them the clear line on his finger.

"Ah oh my. What was her reaction when she also found her mark? I remember telling my husband I was weirded out by hearing his voice in my head."

Everyone laughs when Jaehyun speaks up, "She doesn't have it, but I mean maybe it just takes time to show up."

The couple share a knowing look and look at Jaehyun with sympathy who looks back at them confused, "What is it?"

"Son I don't mean to burst your bubble, but soulmate marks usually show up at the same time or when someone is willing to let their soulmate go." The husband says.

"But that doesn't mean she's not your soulmate either darling. Maybe hers is just taking a little more time. Sometimes when one person is really in love, their mark shows up quickly." she smiles at him.

"I hope you have your happy ending dear. Oh and speaking of happy endings, we told this young lady once, I think a month ago about our story. Oh what was her name honey?" She snaps her fingers as she tries to search her memory for the name. "Ah! Y/N. That was her name. It's such a beautiful name. Oh how my heart broke for her. She was ecstatic, but I could tell she was so confused about this boy she was seeing. I hope she had her happy ending."

Y/N? My Y/N?

"Do you remember what she looked like?"

She describes your features from your hair color, face structure, and even the clothes you were wearing that day. Jaehyun couldn't believe that she was describing you. Taken aback, Jaehyun quickly says his thank you's and bids them goodbye.

That night, he laid in bed thinking about you and the couple's story. Their story was exactly like his story with you. He always thought about you, but tonight was different. He remembers the nights you two shared the same bed. He remembers the pillow talks and little games you two used to play. He remembers you would dance and sing out of nowhere and he would join you.

He remembers your smile and laugh whenever he made a joke or simply looking at you. He remembers the long night talks on the phone or texting each other all day if you didn't see each other. He remembers every little thing about you.

Jaehyun tries to think of Rose and how he makes him feel, but after five minutes, he's come to the conclusion that what he feels for her, isn't the same way he felt when he was with you.

This is so stupid. Rose is my soulmate. Not Y/N.

Jaehyun swipes his phone open and opens the gallery app. He doesn't know why he's looking at photos taken from the lake you dragged him to. He comes across the photo he secretly took of you overlooking the lake with a smile on your face. The sun was just coming up and hitting your skin beautifully. He scrolls more and looks at the selfies you took together a bit longer. Then he sees it.

It's a photo of you holding out your left hand to make him stop taking photos of you. He zooms in focusing on your fourth finger and sees the clear line.

"It can't be." He zooms in closer making sure he isn't seeing things, but it was clearly there. He looks at other photos, focusing on your left hand and it's the same mark as his. Jaehyun remembers what the couple told him earlier.

“Son, I don’t mean to burst your bubble, but soulmate signs usually show up at the same time or when someone is willing to let their soulmate go.” “… not all stories have the same signs. Sometimes when one person is really in love, their marks shows up quickly.”

His mind flashes back to the day you met at seven years old and hated each other out of the gates. His mind plays everything like a montage of you both growing up, but one memory sticks out in his mind. He remembers always looking at you from afar. During lunch in high school, he had the perfect view of where you sat with your friends. His eyes would always skim over to where you were and as hard as he tried to stop looking at you, your smile was what always brought him back.

He never meant to sleep with you that night two months ago, it just happened. Both of you tried to stop, but couldn't. All of these memories of your time together comes rushing back in waves. Jaehyun was so overwhelm, he decides to go down for fresh air.

He sees Sicheng and Johnny sitting outside on the porch and accidentally overhears a little bit of their conversation.

"Did she say when her appointment is?" Johnny asks.

"In two days, but I think she's lying. For all I know, she could have done it today or tomorrow. I hate seeing her in so much pain Johnny. It's not fair to her." Sicheng sighs sadly.

Jaehyun doesn't need to ask who they're talking about because he already knew. He needed to get to the bottom of this now. He clears his throat and the two men look behind them to see Jaehyun standing there awkwardly. Johnny gets up, giving the younger a soft pat on the shoulder before sitting next to Sicheng.

It's quiet for a moment before Jaehyun speaks up first, "I'm sorry for being an ass for the last month. I'm more sorry for hurting Y/N."

"It's not me who you should be apologizing to Jaehyun."

"I know, but I know she talks to you and you two are close. I don't blame you if you also hate me too." he says sadly.

Sicheng sighs, "You know you're really dense sometimes, but I will tell you exactly what I told her. You both are the same even if you don't realize it. You really hurt her."

"How is she?"

"She's ... doing better for the most part."

"What happened to her family? Professor Choi said that she was pulled away for a family emergency."

When Sicheng doesn't say anything, he turns to look at his friend who looks like he's arguing with himself. "What is it?"

"She - There's." Sicheng sighs frustratingly. He really hates being the middleman. "She doesn't have a family emergency. She's getting the connection removed." he confess quietly.

Jaehyun's heart plummets to his stomach making it hard for him to breathe. So you did know about the connection, yet, you never told him. He never had the chance to decide because you've taken that opportunity away from him.

"That's what Johnny and I were talking about before you came. As your friend, I am telling you this, if you don't love her the same way she loves you, please let her go."

"But I do love her." Jaehyun whispers keeping his tear at bay and also coming to this realization. "I love her so much Sich and I was stupid to not see it soon enough. We both didn't believe in this soulmate shit to begin with, that it wasn't meant for us, but now? I can't stop thinking about her and it hurts that she ignores me even though I know I deserve it." Jaehyun feels a tear drop and silently cries.

Sicheng knows Jaehyun never shows any sort of emotions and keeps everything buried deep down, but as soon as he hears his friend sniffles, he knows Jaehyun really loves you. He pats Jaehyun's back and lets him cry it out.

"What should I do?" Jaehyun asks the obvious.

"I think you know what to do Jay. You've always known." Jaehyun nods and thank his friend for letting him talk and apologize.

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The next morning, Jaehyun asks Rose is he could come over and talk to her. In less than ten minutes, he was at her front door and broke the news to her. He expected her to cry and yell, instead, she was calm and understanding.

"It's okay Jay. If I'm being honest, I've had a hunch since our second week together. You were always semi distracted, but I was in denial at the time." Rose holds his hand giving it a squeeze.

"I'm sorry. You don't deserve this."

"Jay, listen to me. You're fine. My soulmate is out there somewhere waiting for me. Go find yours and from what it sounds like, you already know who it is."

Jaehyun gives her a soft smile in return and both part ways with a 'see you around.'

Since leaving Rose's play, he made it his mission to find you, except you were hard to find. He's been trying to reach you for majority of the morning, but you never answered any of his calls or texts. He stopped by your place to see if you were home, but as expected, no one answered the door.

He looks in the places you had dragged him to and still, you were nowhere to be found. He starts to panic when his friends said they don't know where you've been or gone to. Jaehyun wanders around campus hoping to see you.

He finally sees Lisa and Ten heading to their usual hang out spot. He runs up to the couple and tries to catch his breath, "Have you seen Y/N?"

Lisa gives him the same look she has given him for an entire month and snaps, "Why do you want to suddenly know where she is? It's not your place to ask."

"Babe -"

"No. He doesn't get to ask about her after the way he treated her and pushed her to the side. She's my best friend and you really hurt her Jaehyun."

"I know and I'm sorry. I need to tell her I'm sorry before it's too late."

"No -"

"Lisa please. I realize now how much of a jerk I've been and I regret it. I regret everything except for one thing. Please." He pleads with he as he shows her the mark on his fourth finger.

Lisa saw the same mark on yours after you had told her everything that happened between you and Jaehyun. Lisa knows you miss Jaehyun and she could see the panic in his eyes are the same ones you wore when you found out about him and Rose.

Taking a deep breath, she gives in. "She said something about going to clear her head. I don't know where that is though." Jaehyun's eyes spark in hope and excitement. He gives them a big hug. "Thank you."

He runs to his car and drives to the only place you go to clear your head. The lake. He hopes to the universe, he isn't too late.

Jaehyun arrives at the lake in less than two hours after speeding like a lightning bolt. He parks his car, not caring if he locked his doors or not and runs on the familiar path.

"Jesus, why did she have to choose a place with hiking trails." he huffs out making sure he doesn't lose his footing while also trying to rush to you.

Finally reaching the top, he takes a second to take in the beautiful view of the lake and the wind blowing over his face. He scans the ground and his eye catches a figure standing by the lake. Jaehyun's heart leaps and rushes down the trail to run towards the figure. He slows down once he realizes it's not you.

His heart sinks once again. He looks to his left, right, do a 360, and you were nowhere to be seen. Jaehyun lets out a choke and feel the tears begin to fall. He lets out all of his emotion as he concludes that he's lost you forever.

He takes one last look at the view before turning around. His breath hitches, his heart stops, his are wide when he sees you standing there in front of him. Your eyes big as his. He could tell you look nervous or was it surprise? He takes in your features and his heart begins to speed up. How could he have been so oblivious that it's always been you all this time.

"Y/N."

"What are you doing here?" You couldn't comprehend he was really here in your safe place.

Why is he here?

Just minutes before, Lisa called you mentioning something regarding Jaehyun. Before you could ask her to repeat it, the call dropped. You haven't seen him in a month and your heart beats faster than ever now that he's in front of you. The visible tears and pink nose tells you he had just been crying.

"I have something to tell you."

"Ja-"

"Please let me say what I need to say Y/N. If you don't like what you hear, then you can leave and I will leave you alone." You nod for him to continue intrigued by what he wanted to say.

He takes one cautious step forward and takes a deep breath, "You're annoying to the point I can't stand you."

Your jaw drops in complete blindside, "Excuse me? You-"

"You've always pertain yourself to be this perfect girl and for that you're annoying. I hate that I can't get your stupid smile out of my head after we fight. I hate that I hear your voice whenever you're not around to the point I think I need to be checked in. I hate the way you stand there looking at nothing and look beautiful without even trying. Even without makeup and your hair in a bun, you still look beautiful. I hate that you don't put up with my bullshit because you can see right through me. I hate when you laugh because fuck I swear I get butterflies in my stomach. I hate that you laugh at my lame jokes, when they're not that funny to begin with."

He takes another step closer as you stay frozen in your spot, "I hate that I think of you whenever I'm with Rose or with our friends. If I'm at a party, on a date, or group date, my mind always wanders back to you. I hate when I'm not around you I feel this sense that something is missing in my life. I hate when I'm alone in bed it's cold and quiet because you're not next to me. I hate that I find myself walking into stores we've been to together. I hate that I can't even listen to the songs or movies we used to watch because it doesn't feel right."

You both have tears in your eyes, but he pushes through. "I hate that I was the one who broke your heart when I ran away from you and my feelings. I'm so sorry I didn't see it sooner and I'm sorry I stood you up that night when you asked to meet at the park. I'm sorry for being a coward and not talking to you after I got with Rose. I shouldn't have done any of that, but I was scared. I thought I was doing the right thing. I was scared that it was just me feeling all of these emotions and you were in it for the fun, but now I see it. I see and understand what people say about their soulmate."

He doesn't know when he got close to you all of a sudden. He looks down at your hands and holds them. He can see the line on your fourth finger matching his. He looks at you and wipes away your tears. "I'm sorry it took me so long to say this and I hope you can forgive me. I'm in love with you. I love you. I have always loved you since the first time we met." He caresses your cheek as more tears begin to fall.

"I love everything about you, even the ones you don't like about yourself. I love you and I mean it. I can't see myself falling in love with any other that isn't you. I know I may be late, but I'm hoping this changes your mind. If you don't feel the same way or if you feel like we can't come back from this, I won't push it. I'll accept whatever truth and reality may come. But I just want you to know I love you so much Y/N."

When he doesn't say anything else, you find it hard to find your voice.

"Please say something."

You gulp the lump in your throat and look into his eyes, "I have an appointment today." Jaehyun's heart shatters and he feels his heart is about to explode. He feel his eyes begin to sting once again but prevents them from falling.

You want to yell at him and tell him to fuck off. You want to push him away, but you can't find it in you to do so.

"Please Y/N -"

"I hate that I can't stop thinking about you even when you're a jerk to me. I hate that I can't hate you because I'm in love with you too."

Jaehyun's heart slows down and beats faster at the same time. You smile up at him making him smile so wide, his whiskers shows. He leans down, cupping your face and putting a strand of hair behind your ear and kisses you passionately.

Everything in that moment slows down. Nothing else in the world matters, except for your rapid beating hearts beating as one.

No more confusions, no more games, no more running. You were both coming to terms that you're destined to be with each other.

"I'm sorry." he whispers against your lips.

"You should be asshole, but I'm sorry too."

"No more running." His forehead touches yours as you close your eyes and share the air between you.

"No more running. Jay?"

"Yes, my love."

"I don't want us to change how we were before. It's what made us, us." He opens his eyes, backing his head back and looks at you with a smile.

"Me neither." He wraps his strong arms around you and pulls you closer to him. "Big head."

You couldn't help but laugh at his remark, "Okay, bigger head."

"Thanks. I know it's massive." he smirks. You smack his chest lightly as you both laugh.

"Forget it. I'm not doing this with you."

His arms wrap tighter around you as you both face the setting sun and take in this moment. The moment where the love of your life confesses his love for you and the safety of being in his arms.

"I love you Jaehyun."

"I love you too Y/N."

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"Next we have Jaehyun and Y/N." You both make your way to the front of the class and while he is putting in the USB to bring up the PowerPoint, you begin presenting.

Jaehyun was in charge of rearranging the slides and photos, while you were in charge of what to say about each piece.

In the middle of your presentation, you look up at the projector and the photos on the screen take you by surprise. There were photos taken when you both were kids, starting from when you were born to you both sharing the same class, high school photos, photos you've taken at the start of this project, and ending with a photo of you both in bed smiling happily.

It was your love story and Jaehyun wasn't shy to express how much he loves you.

"In photos, time is forever frozen. The moment you hear the click and take the photo, you have memories of what you were feeling in that moment of time. You can't reproduce that moment as it becomes nothing but a memory and a photo for reference. We solely take photos to tell a story and keep those memories alive." Jaehyun looks at you with nothing but loving and adoring eyes as you stay there lost for words.

"And this is the story of how we fell in love."

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A/N: Phew! She's finally here! If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading! This is the most I've ever written. I think I'll go into hibernation until next year, just kidding. Also Sticker and Lemonade Jaehyun made me go the extra mile hehe. I've had this idea since early April and wasn't sure how to write it because there so much in the plot. I thought to myself, let's write a story with all my tropes - enemies to lovers, fwb to lovers, and soulmates au. To top it off, I also thought, instead of fwb lets make it enemies with benefits, and well we got this lol. The confession was inspired by one of my favorite movies '10 Things I Hate About You' and thought it'd be perfect for this fic. For those who have been waiting for this fic, thank you for waiting patiently. It's been a fun and wild ride and I loved writing this fic. I hope you enjoyed reading my work and please leave feedback. <3

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marigold

all’s well that ends well to end up with you :

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title: marigold

pairings: jeong jaehyun x oc , oc x oc (it’s barely there) | side members: jaehyun’s best friend!johnny suh ; barista!taeyong

summary: their relationship feels like an eternal battle. the more they try to push each other away, the more they are drawn back together. it’s like being on a carousel that never stops and keeps going up and down. they can’t make it stop. but the worst is that they don’t want to make it stop.

genre: college au, roomate au, enemies* to ewb to fwb to lovers au, getting together au, smut, fluff (if you squint), light angst

warnings: smut, protected and unprotected sex (she’s on the pill), hate sex, minor dom/sub dynamics, dom!jaehyun / sub!oc (but tbh there’s a lot of power-play so they keep switching but yeah, overall the dom is him), oral sex (f & m receiving), light chocking, shower sex, dirty talk, use of sir, light angst, bickering and fights, cheating (they have been cheated on, they don’t cheat on each other), emotionally repressed character(s)

word count: 17.640k

taglist: @nz06s @thelmathinks @leighsoo | if you want to be added comment under the masterpost of the series

a/n: here’s the first part of the poly series, i’m so excited for this. please, please, let me know what you think about it and maybe even how do you think the others will become part of this? any type of feedback is appreciated so don’t be shy, i promise i’m nice and don’t bite. english is not my first language so there might be some mistakes even if i proofread it.

* enemies is an exaggeration but i didn’t know how else to tag it

“Is he always like this?” Amita whispered, rolling her eyes while closing Jade’s bedroom door behind her.

Jade chuckled with a shrug before adjusting the pillows on the bed to make room for them to sit and come up with something for the lettering project they had to turn in before December. “I stopped trying to understand him, really,” she huffed, slumping on the mattress, and pulling out the laptop from the bedside table. “And I suspect he hates me at this point.”

Her friend raised a brow. “But did something happen between you two?”

“No, it’s one-sided hate. I tried to start a conversation with him so many times, you have no idea. It’s like talking to a wall.”

The brown-skinned girl furrowed, grabbing her PC too and opening InDesign. “He doesn’t seem like a dickhead, though. Maybe he’s just shy?”

Jade rolled her eyes. “He’s not shy, he’s just a pain in the ass. It’s like he’s waiting for me to make a wrong move. The other day I forgot the wet towel on the couch, and he knocked on my door without even greeting and saying, ‘I’d like to sit on a dry couch so if you could please put your things at their place we’d both enjoy our stay here’,” she mimicked him, mocking his fake polite tone.

Amita laughed loudly, throwing her head back and almost falling off the small bed. “Really? He said all of that?”

The brown-haired girl huffed loudly and nodded. “He didn’t even give me the time to respond that he disappeared in his room and left me standing there like an idiot with my towel in hand. Sometimes I wonder if he’s a vampire for how silent he is.”

“Well, he has the vampire’s teeth. Maybe you’re his next prey, and he doesn’t want to grow attached to you, so he won’t feel guilty when it’s time to kill you.”

“You’re always super helpful, Ami,” Jade joked, sitting better on the mattress. Her friend shrugged, innocently smiling at her. “Listen, I don’t want to talk about him, we have so much to do, I’d rather cry making a font and a logo than ruining my day with him.”

| ☙ |

“You should come to the party on Friday,” Amita proposed while grabbing all the things she left around the room and the living room, pushing everything in her tote bag messily.

“Yeah, so I can babysit you like the last time?” Jade joked, holding up her friend’s coat, waiting for her to finally be sure she had everything with her. It was now late in the afternoon, and it got even colder outside.

“No,” Amita retorted, glaring at her. Not that she was wrong, maybe she tended to loosen up a little bit too much, taking advantage of her parents not being there to scold her if they sensed she even pushed down her throat one single glass of alcohol. “There’s this girl from one of our classes and she keeps looking at you. The other day I talked to her, and she seemed more interested in you than me.”

Jade chuckled, “are you trying to hook me up?”

Her friend shrugged, grabbing the coat from her hand and wearing it. “I mean, she’s hot, and you wouldn’t have to run after her as you do with your room-hate.”

Jade glared at her, cursing her to don’t talk about him outside of her room. For what she knew, he could have super-hearing and a rumored —fake— crush on him wasn’t what she needed. “Tell me you didn’t say it.”

Amita shrugged, playing innocent. “It was a great pun, though. Admit it.”

“Why would you even bring him up?” Jade whispered, moving her hands frenetically.

“You might not like him, but you still hate the fact that he doesn’t pay you attention. Now, I don’t know if it’s your Pisces sun or what, but you crave his attention.”

Jade rolled her eyes, opening the door and pushing her friend out of the complex’s corridor not so gently. “I just wish I didn’t have to come home to Mr Dracula every day and have somebody to talk to.”

Amita laughed and then leaned in to kiss her cheek. “Whatever, you’re still coming to the frat party with me, and I’ll give you something to keep your mind occupied.”

“Uni’s already keeping my mind occupied,” Jade joked, waving goodbye to her friend who was strolling down the stairs happily, with no chance of taking the elevator since it was broken.

“Something good, love,” Amita said before turning around again and disappearing from her view.

Before Jade could say or do anything else, Jaehyun’s stern voice rang in her ears. “Close the door or all the cold will come in.”

She clenched her fists as hard as she could before taking a step back inside and closing the door behind her. She looked around, Jaehyun was already nowhere to be seen and she wondered when he came out of his room just to scold her and then disappear again.

“I hate you, Jaehyun. I really do.”

“Oh, you’re home,” Jaehyun’s voice filled the house as soon as he placed his gym bag next to the front door and hung his coat on the hanging on the wall. Jade hummed, trying to hide the surprise behind her voice. Did they put drugs in the air conditioner of the gym? Why was he starting a conversation with her?

“Yeah, why?” She asked, curious to know why he seemed so surprised.

The boy shrugged, walking into the ‘kitchen area’ — to notice, it didn’t exist, it was an imaginary space they delimited with the table — and sitting on a chair. “You’re always out, lately.”

Jade chuckled, “Oh, so you notice when I’m here or not.” She probably should’ve bitten that back, but couldn’t.

“You care if I pay attention to your presence?” He teased, pushing his chair back with his legs, so he could look at her better.

“I was just wondering, you know. You barely say good morning to me.”

A chuckle left his lips before he stood up and rested against the countertop, he grabbed a fork and stole a bite from the pan.

“Hey! That’s my dinner!” She scolded him, slamming his hand away, but that only made him laugh.

“I’ve already eaten, don’t worry. Won’t make you starve,” he reassured her, and then put the fork in the sink. “It’s good, by the way. Don’t burn it, the pans are ours, if you burn the pot, I won’t split the price.”

Jade was speechless and confused and frozen on her spot when he left the room without saying a word and locked himself in his bedroom. What even was that conversation? And why the hell did he always act like her mother?

She cursed under her breath, moving the pot away and transferring the food to her plate before sitting down at the table. It was fucking lonely, and somehow, she was even sadder because she hoped he would at least sit down to keep her company.

She couldn’t call Amita; she was at work, had a late shift at the clothes store and couldn’t talk to her. And she couldn’t even call her girlfriend, Violet, she had told her that she had to turn in an essay of 1000 words she still hadn’t started by midnight, so she wasn’t an option.

So, she simply ate in silence. Hearing the sound of music coming from Jaehyun’s room. A part of her wanted to hate him, and probably did hate him, but every time he started to play the piano — the keyboard he somehow made fit into that room — she couldn’t help but smile a little and enjoy the symphonies he played.

She still couldn’t get him, and probably never would’ve, but it didn’t matter. It was just three years, and who knew, maybe she would’ve found another place, maybe a small house with Violet. It was going to be just fine.

| ☙ |

Well, it wasn’t going to be fine at all.

If his silence pissed her off, him banging strangers all night, making them scream as if they were in a horror movie pissed her off even more.

Jade huffed loudly, trying to muffle another girl’s moans with her pillow on her head, but it didn’t do much. She was loud and annoying, and it was eight in the morning on Sunday. Jade just wanted to sleep some more on her only free day of the week.

“Oh, fuck, I’m close,” the girl moaned, voice high and irritating.

“Oh, thank God,” Jade answered, turning around to stare at the ceiling, praying it wasn’t going to take longer for the torture to be over. And probably God listened because after some other lewd sounds, the house was filled with silence again, and she could exhale a breath of relief.

After sending a morning text to her girlfriend, she got up and tried to fix herself, at least what she could since she couldn’t even go to the bathroom. She wasn’t in the mood to stumble upon his nth one-night stand. She pulled her hair in a quick ponytail and then went to the closet to grab the clothes for the day. Sleep was long gone anyway, at this point, she might’ve as well gotten a head start on studying.

After a few minutes, she heard the front door close and immediately barged out of her room, stopping Jaehyun in his tracks, he was already making his way to his room.

“Oh, good morning,” he greeted, smiling at her as if everything was normal, with a playful tone to mock her since she let him know she wanted to be greeted.

“Good morning?” She repeated, ignoring his tease. “You fucked all night and then thought that the morning round was a good idea, and the only thing you can say to me is good morning?”

Jaehyun laughed at her face, shaking his head. “So you agree, it’s annoying hearing people moan and whimper for hours?”

Jade furrowed and cocked her head to the side. “What are you implying?”

He turned around, walking toward the fridge. “You really want to play dumb?”

“Mh, no, if you don’t talk to me, I don’t know what you want,” she retorted, following him, anger still boiling in her veins.

“You and the blondie,” he replied, turning around, drinking directly from the bottle of milk, making her twist her face in disgust. “It’s finished, don’t worry,” he said, throwing the box in the bin and then saying. “You didn’t care about me Friday, or am I wrong?” He raised a brow, staring at her that was diverting her gaze.

“Number one, the blondie has a name,” she replied, finally getting that he was talking about her and Violet. “And second, it wasn’t at night, and we were quiet.”

He laughed again, staring at her in disbelief. “Number one, I don’t really care, she’s not my friend even if she spends more time here than her place. And second, you weren’t so quiet, sweetie.”

She clenched her fists at the pet name and then replied, “I didn’t know we said our house wasn’t open to friends? Your friend, what’s his name, Johnny? He’s not a problem, right?”

“Why are you heating up so much? I really don’t care if she stays here or not, but maybe let me know if you want to fuck like you’re in heat, so I won’t be home.”

Her mouth widened while he walked past her, leaving her behind again.

“Says the one that came like four times in the span of a night,” she remarked.

“Oh, so you counted them for me, how thoughtful,” he teased before closing his bedroom door on her face.

Jade cursed under her breath and stormed into the bathroom to wash up her face. She wanted to punch him so badly and watch his pretty face not being so pretty anymore.

And there was no way she was staying at home with him all day, just knowing that they were under the same roof made her blood boil. So, she quickly pulled out her phone from the pocket of her pants and sent Amita a message.

‘Study session at library in fifteen?’

‘You’re lucky I’m already awake and the girls are knocked up after a night out. See you there!’

| ☙ |

“I mean, man, I don’t even get why you care so much about her,” Johnny confessed while he was sitting with his legs open on their couch, controller in his hands while he tried to keep his focus on the game they were playing and his friend.

“I don’t care about her, but she just ruins my day sometimes,” Jaehyun replied, eyebrow knitted in a focused expression.

“Just because she’s hot?”

Jaehyun choked on his saliva and punched his friend who was laughing at him.

“Definitely.”

“Stop it!” The younger screamed, hitting him with his elbow this time. “She’s not hot.”

“Now that I think about it, I’ve never seen her,” Johnny said, resting the controller on his lap to remember what his friend’s roommate looked like.

“You did, she came to the frat parties twice, and you’re always with her friend, Amita.”

“Oh, Ami, yes,” Johnny exclaimed, remembering her, but of Jade nothing. “Why are you staring at me like that?”

“Ami? Really?”

Johnny shrugged, pushing in his mouth a mouthful of peanuts. “What? She’s nice, and she helped me with the logo of my website.”

“How is it possible that you talk with everybody here?”

“Actually, she came to me first. I don’t even remember why. Oh, yes, she liked my work, and we just started talking. And she’s really good at what she does, also you in the first year need a little help from us.”

Jaehyun rolled his eyes. “You’re literally in the second year, Johnny. Shut up.”

“Still more experienced than you,” he replied, opening the bottle of beer and drinking half of it. “Back to your little crush,” he said. “A photo of her?”

The younger slapped his arms harsher than before. “She’s not my crush, and no, why would I have a picture of her?”

“Then why are you so mad at her for existing and having a beautiful girlfriend?”

Jaehyun raised a brow, staring at him. “You know her girlfriend but not her?”

“Just because I met her during a fashion course, had to be a guide for a project.”

Jaehyun shrugged, Johnny was so much of a social butterfly it made him sick sometimes. “Anyway, I don’t care about her and her girlfriend.”

“Then explain what’s the problem?”

“It was fine at the start, I would simply ignore her, and somehow we lived, but then she’s either never at home or always here but with her. And she seemed too nice, since the start, you know those people that just want to be liked by everybody?”

Johnny was judging him, hard, not leaving space for interpretation with the look on his face. “Or maybe she’s just nice and polite, and you are terrified of falling for her because she’s exactly your type?”

Jaehyun gasped almost as if he was offended. “Where are you drawing these conclusions from?”

“Oh, come on, she’s objectively not doing anything wrong. And you admitted that you were avoiding her from the start, and we both know why.”

Now, if it wasn’t Johnny but anybody else, Jaehyun could’ve easily put up a lie and told him he was crazy. But he knew that with Johnny, it wasn’t possible. They had been friends since they could remember, and if there was somebody who knew him, that was Johnny.

“I don’t like her,” he said anyway. Because it was true, catching feelings for somebody was the last thing he wanted, especially now that she was dating — happily also. “And okay, maybe I’m projecting, but she still gives me strange vibes, okay?”

Johnny rolled his eyes. He wasn’t saying he had a crush, but he would’ve bet that she had a big potential to be his crush. Squinting his memory a little bit more, he tried to imagine her again. He couldn’t make her out clearly, he had only seen her at a party and not even greeted her, but she wasn’t ugly at all.

“Now you’re also sensitive,” Johnny joked, deciding to don’t pry any longer.

Jaehyun huffed and rolled his eyes. “Go back to play the game, or else Mark will kill us.”

| ☙ |

A moan slipped out of Jade’s lips when the heat of the house wrapped around her, finally the cold was out of the door, and she could enjoy a hot meal after a day of studying and — oh.

“Oh, Johnny,” she greeted, turning around and facing Jaehyun’s friend who was perched against the backrest curiously staring at the door.

“Hi,” he greeted with too much enthusiasm for her liking —and for Jaehyun’s too. What the hell did he have in mind? He truly scared him sometimes.

“Hi,” Jaehyun greeted quickly and coldly, pulling his friend back to his place and silently telling him not to do anything.

“Want to eat something with us?”

Damned, Johnny Suh. Jaehyun cursed in his mind, silently praying she was going to say no.

And Jade was really tempted to gently decline the offer and eat alone, maybe in her room, but she wasn’t so sure she wanted to be alone.

“Yeah, why not? Want me to cook something?”

Great, two great minds. Jaehyun thought, sinking further against the backrest of the couch.

“I knew I could trust you,” Johnny said, smiling at her. “We could order takeout.”

“Yeah, fine for me,” she replied, and then her gaze fell on Jaehyun who seemed to be spacing out. Oh, good, that was a terrible idea. “You know what, I’m not really hungry, and I’m tired. Maybe another time,” she excused herself and ran to her room before Johnny could say anything.

The oldest simply turned around, glaring at his friend who was looking at him with his hands raised in the air. “I didn’t say anything,” he defended.

“Sure, but body language is stronger than words, you know.”

“Oh, please, Socrates, shut up and order something. For her, too. I’m sure she didn’t eat out.”

A low chuckle rumbled in Johnny’s chest. “So you care a little for her?”

“It’s just human decency.”

“Or guilt, probably,” Johnny corrected before dialling the number to order.

The food was there in less than twenty minutes, and Johnny knocked on the bedroom door, waiting for her response.

When the door opened, she was there, curls still in a ponytail, no trace of make-up on her face, and her body was wrapped in a black sweater and gym pants. She was smiling at him, and he couldn’t help but smile back.

“It’s on us,” Johnny said out loud, handing her the bag with the food. He then leaned in and whispered, “on him, we know it’s his fault you changed your mind.”

A soft laugh rolled out of her lips. “Thank you,” she said loudly enough for Jaehyun to hear, and then did exactly what Johnny did. “I had no idea he had consciousness.”

Johnny laughed before she closed the door again, and he walked toward the couch.

“So? She took it?”

Johnny hummed and then stretched his arm on the headrest. “And I get why she makes you so mad.”

“I told you, she’s insufferable,” Jaehyun replied, hype in his voice thinking his best friend was going to agree with him.

“No, Jae. She’s hot and polite.”

Jade had stopped taking Violet over, at least to have sex, yet somehow Jaehyun never stopped taking strangers in and out of their place. At this point, he might’ve fucked the whole University.

But today she couldn’t care, not even if Jaehyun had spent the night fucking. Today was March 14th, her birthday, and nothing was going to ruin her day. She had lunch with Amita and some other friends in a pretty restaurant Amita booked for her, and then a romantic date with Violet. It was a surprise, and she couldn’t wait to find out what it was.

It had also been five months since they started dating, and she felt on cloud nine. Everything was going well with her, and she also got a promotion at work, getting more money, so maybe, just maybe, for the start of the next academic year they could think of getting a house together, and she could’ve said goodbye to Jaehyun forever.

“I won’t be home today,” she screamed from the living room, right before going out. They still didn’t talk much, and she knew he didn’t care about her at all, but at least he knew that the house was free, and if he wanted to invite someone over, they had the whole place for themselves. Without waiting for an answer, she walked out of the door with a bright smile on her face, already anticipating the best day of her life.

| ☙ |

When Jade came home, the house was silent, not a sound, not one light on, and Jaehyun’s car didn’t seem to be parked down the street.

She sniffled, thanking God for not having to deal with him, and closed the door behind her. With no care, she threw her shoes and coat to the side and walked to the fridge.

She didn’t want to be a stereotype, but she needed something to eat while crying her eyes out and listening to sad break-up songs. So, she grabbed the ice cream from the freezer and sat down on the couch, finally letting tears fall freely from her eyes.

She didn’t deserve it. She didn’t deserve her heart to be ripped out of her chest on her birthday. She didn’t deserve to feel so stupid for being played and not noticing anything.

She tried to take the spoon to her mouth, but her hands were shaking, and the anger was just too much. She messily closed the lid again and threw everything on the floor, letting her body fall against the couch. At this point, she was sobbing loudly, letting tears and make-up stain the fabric under her.

“Jade?” She jumped up, still visibly shaking, and tried to wipe away the salty drops that fogged her eyes to stare at the spot where the voice came from.

“I’m sorry, I thought I was alone,” she apologised, finally realizing it was Jaehyun, standing against the wall that divided the living room and the night space. She moved to grab the discarded ice cream that was also dripping on the floor, but Jaehyun was faster than her.

“What happened?” He asked, grabbing the box from her hands, and closing it. He was staring at her with a concerned expression, but she couldn’t see, too focused on facing the floor trying to suppress the sobs from coming out.

Jaehyun didn’t know what to do, he placed the box next to him and then said, “I can leave if you want –”

“No,” she exclaimed immediately, finally looking up at him. “Please, I know you hate me, but don’t leave me alone.”

He wanted to tell her that it wasn’t true he hated her, but kept silent and instead opened his arms, offering a warm embrace. And she didn’t hesitate a moment to fall into his arms, letting herself go, not caring about what he could’ve thought about her; their relationship couldn’t go worse than this, right? Also, she had already lost someone more important that day, any other type of pain wasn’t relevant.

They stayed like this for some minutes, but neither of them minded. Somehow it felt good, it felt nice. Even if they spent most of the time screaming and cursing at each other.

Then Jaehyun spoke up, breaking the silence. “Are you okay? No, shit, sorry, of course, you’re not okay,” he corrected as soon as he realized his gaffe. But Jade chuckled and shook her head, backing away from the hug to stare at him.

“It’s okay, don’t worry.”

He shyly smiled at her and wondered if he was in the position to ask her what happened and if she would’ve let him know or hated him even more. “Nobody hurt you, right?” He tried to ask, at least making sure nothing happened. He had no idea where she was supposed to go.

She raised her shoulders. “Not physically, if that’s what you’re asking,” she replied, pulling her knees close to her chest.

“Can I ask you what happened?”

She nodded. “Short version or long?”

“I don’t know. Which one will make you feel better?”

Jade shook her head, wetting her lips and then inhaled deeply. “Probably none of the two.”

“Then you don’t have to tell me, do you want me to call Amita for you? I can go to Johnny’s.”

She shook her head. “No, she was the only good thing about today. I don’t want her to be sad, too, after everything she has done for me. I’m fine.”

“You don’t seem fine.”

Jade raised her head again and locked their gazes. “She was cheating on me.”

Jaehyun furrowed for a second, not understanding who she was talking about, but then it clicked; Violet. “Oh,” was all he managed to say, and she simply shrugged.

“We were supposed to go out on a date. Today’s my birthday, and she told me she had a surprise planned for me. Before I had lunch with Amita and some other friends, but we ended a little bit earlier than expected, and I didn’t want to come home to you, so I directly drove to her place and, well, you can imagine the rest.”

“You could’ve come home, this is also your place, you know?”

“I know, but I didn’t want to, I also told you I was staying away all day.”

“I’m sorry, if you didn’t hate staying with me, probably you would’ve come home and –”

“And never find out she’s fucking another girl behind my back?” She asked, sniffling, and wiping the tears away. “She had the fucking courage to lie straight to my face while she was still in the afterglow. God, I hate her.”

“You caught her doing it?” He asked, suddenly realizing. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to say it like this, sorry.”

“It’s fine, and yes. I thought it was a joke for a moment. It was her best friend, too. I considered her my friend, and she was with my girlfriend while being nice to me and making me feel part of their thing.”

Jaehyun hummed and then gently rested a hand on her shoulder, caressing her slowly. He totally got her. “Have you eaten?” He asked out of the blue, making her frown, but then she denied with a movement of the head. “You said it’s your birthday, right? Then why don’t we fix this? Order whatever you want, I’ll pay for it.”

| ☙ |

“So, I have to be furious with somebody else to talk to you without wanting to wrap my hands around your neck?” Jade joked, after swallowing a bite of the junk food they ordered, probably even too much for two, but it didn’t matter, the microwave was a thing, and they were still lazy college students so at least they had something to eat for at least two other days.

“Well, maybe we can tell people of your life to get on your nerves without hurting you so bad,” he replied, smiling at her. She was still shaken up, but now tears dried to her cheeks, and no new ones fell from her eyes. And a small smile was painted on her face while she ate her food.

“You know,” he said, catching her attention again. “I was cheated on, too.”

She stared at him with eyes open in surprise.

“It was my teenage years’ relationship, it lasted five years,” he laughed bitterly. “Five years together, and then she decided that cheating on me with one of my best friends was a good thing. I never noticed anything. And I think that’s the worst, it makes you feel stupid once everything is over. Just to don’t make them the villains, you blame yourself while trying to find all the flaws in you that gave them a reason to be with somebody else while they were with you. And then one day, you simply realize that it wasn’t you, but them. It was their fault all along, and there was nothing you could’ve done to keep them with you.” He turned around with his body to face her. “I know it’s not going to be easy, I can’t lecture you, as a self-defence I keep pushing people away, too afraid to fall for them, but try to skip the first part of blaming yourself for something you didn’t do.”

“I was already feeling stupid for not seeing the signs,” she admitted before taking a sip from the cola in the cup.

Jaehyun smiled, his instinct wanted to push a strand of hair out of her face, but he stopped, he didn’t want to ruin this moment of truce between them. So, instead, he answered, “they don’t give you signs, they never do. But even if they did, it’s not your fault for being in love.”

Jade smiled. “I’ll try to keep that in mind. But I can’t really promise anything.”

“Still better than me,” he joked before biting his hamburger. “At least you’re trying.”

She laughed and then wiped the sauce that was on her lip from the bite she had taken before.

“Want to know another cool fact?” She nodded. “We were born exactly one month apart from each other. Well, now, February is the month that it is, but we share the same day.”

She chuckled. “Oh, so you’re a Valentine boy,” she cheered.

He nodded and then giggled, “never brought much luck in my love life, though.”

“I’m sure something great is waiting for you. You’ll get your perfect relationship one day.”

| ☙ |

“Oh my God, Jade, you go around pacing like a ghost, I can’t stand seeing you like this anymore,” Amita complained, dragging her friend to the college cafeteria.

The other girl simply rolled her eyes to the sky and let her body fall on the chair, throwing her bag on the free one next to her.

“You can’t go on like this.”

“I can, and I will. It’s not even been two weeks, let me mourn in peace while university fucks me over, thank you,” she mumbled, face covered with her hands while her friend judged her hard.

“I miss when your only problem was Jaehyun existing.”

“I miss it, too. At least it was fun, being a vampire never hurt anybody, cheating did.”

“I could argue with that, but yeah, anyway, are you done talking no sense? Can we order something?”

“I’ll take the usual,” she replied, pushing the menu away. Honestly, she just needed a coffee that pushed her to the next period and then go home and fall dead on the bed. Life was making her go crazy.

“Oh, hi, Taeyong!” Amita cheered, greeting the bartender that just arrived to serve the table.

Jade raised her head, waving at him, and then placed her head in her hands again.

Amita shrugged it off at his confused expression and then ordered, “the usual for her and I’ll take a chocolate muffin.”

“Perfect, I’ll be back soon,” he smiled before storming back into the kitchen.

“You need to move on, or at least distract yourself. I can’t see you like this,” she started once they were alone again.

“I know, we’re full of essays and projects, and I feel like exploding.”

“Sure, that’s the biggest problem,” Amita joked, glaring at her. “Why don’t you hit him up?”

“Him? Who are you talking about?”

She pointed at Taeyong who was coming back to their table, and Jade widened her mouth.

“And why?”

“He’s fucking handsome, and he has a crush on you.”

“How do you even know?”

“Talk to him,” she slurred, right before Taeyong could reach them.

“And here’s your coffee for you,” he smiled, placing the cup in front of Jade. “And the muffin for you. Is this all?”

Jade hated proving Amita a point, but she was curious, so… “Yes, we’re fine, thank you. Have a great day!” And she hated even more when she was right, because when Taeyong’s face heated up, and he could barely mumble a reply, she was speechless.

“How do you know?” Jade simply asked again, staring at Amita with wide eyes.

“Sixth sense, an acute sense of observation, innate talent, guess we’ll never know.”

Jade laughed and then took a sip of her coffee, finally. “It’s just that you never shut up, poor boy, you probably dragged it out of his mouth.”

“I would never,” she defended, biting down her muffin and moaning at the delicious taste, at least there was something good about that University. “I simply saw how his face saddened every time that you and redacted walked into the room.”

“You really called her redacted?”

“Wait, who? I don’t remember her. Mh, oh no, wait,” she pretended to be thinking. “Oh, no, no, I can’t really picture anybody’s face right now.”

Jade chuckled fondly at her friend’s play, it was nice to know that no matter how bad her life would’ve gotten, Amita was always going to be there. “I love you, you know that, right?”

“I know, that’s why you should listen to me and take your mind off of that unfaithful snake.”

“How many nicknames are you going to give her by the next lesson?”

“I can go on, sweetie. But I can’t promise the next few ones will be as nice as these.”

“No, I think it’s fine like this. Let’s push her out of my thoughts for a while.” A bright smile crept on Amita’s face. “But I’m not giving Taeyong a chance, I don’t want a relationship right now, and I’m not even sure he’s my type.”

It would’ve been much easier forgetting Violet if she didn’t see her everywhere on campus, didn’t share two classes together, and if she was good at flirting.

Amita tried her best. Somehow, she knew everybody in college and apparently, Jade had found that lots of people found her hot. The problem was that either they were terrible people, they weren’t her type, or when for a miracle they were decent and she liked them, she still couldn’t push herself to go all the way.

They were strangers, and she wasn’t a big fan of random hook-ups, especially with people she was probably going to meet in the corridors or the gardens. It would’ve been awkward, and she was already awkward with enough people.

It had been almost two months by now, but the pain didn’t seem to dim. And the finals approaching didn’t help her at all. She hoped that studying was going to help but well, it simply wasn’t working out. She was stressed, filled with projects, and her ex was everywhere, acting like she never happened, slamming on her face how easy she was to be replaced.

And can we leave Jaehyun out of this? Absolutely not, because her hopes of getting along with him crumbled apart quite swiftly. He had been nice to her just that night, and maybe like three days after, then everything went back like before.

And now she truly couldn’t get him, it seemed the nicer she acted toward him, the more he despised her.

And, cherry on top, he always found someone to take home and fuck loudly. Just like tonight. He came home with a boy at around eight and they never stopped ‘till now, ten pm.

Jade sighed, raising the volume of the music playing on her phone and tried to distract herself by scrolling on Instagram, but seeing everybody having a better life than her only annoyed her more.

So, she got up and walked to the kitchen to grab something to drink. Nothing came from his room anymore, thank God. Maybe they both collapsed on the bed, and she could finally stop being envious that everybody except her was getting some action.

“Bye,” Jaehyun greeted, walking the boy to the front door, not even acknowledging her presence.

When he turned around, closing the door behind, she joked, “feared you were going to make him stay the night.”

Jaehyun chuckled, walking to her and grabbing the glass she was holding to fill it with water again and drink it, she wanted to complain but simply rolled her eyes at him. “Are you mad you’re not the one I’m railing?”

She scoffed, staring at him up and down. “Pfft, you’re not even that good.”

He quirked a brow, resting the glass on the countertop. “Oh yeah? Do you want to test me?” He teased, moving even closer to her. The distance between them was almost nothing, and she felt her breath falter for a brief moment. As much as she couldn’t stand him, she couldn’t deny he was hot, and the fact he wasn’t wearing a shirt right now didn’t help her. But she shrugged her horny thoughts out of her mind and smirked.

“No, thanks. I don’t like being let down,” she taunted before slipping past him and making her way to her room, but the words that came next stopped her in her tracks.

“Like your vibrator that stopped working yesterday right when you were close to reaching your high?”

She turned around, surprise and irritation written all over her face, and that only grew more when she saw his sly smirk. “You heard it? You were at home?”

“The walls are fucking thin, babe,” he replied, taking a step closer.

“Oh, so you know I can hear everything that you do,” she retorted, pointing a finger.

He was once again close to her, their chest almost touching each other. “And I can also tell that you don’t mind it much, a better soundtrack than porn, right?”

“Fuck you, Jeong,” she spat, turning around, but his hand reached her wrist and pushed her to his chest.

“I’d rather fuck you,” he whispered against her ear, his hot breath fanning her skin, making goosebumps rise on her skin.

“I told you I don’t like being let down,” she replied, trying to fight the temptation of giving in. But then Jaehyun’s fingers brushed her neck, moving her hair behind, and when he whispered against her lips, “and I said, test me.” She couldn’t take it anymore.

Their lips met in a rough and messy kiss while their hands desperately wandered on each other’s bodies. Moans started to slip out of their mouths as they walked to his room without letting go of each other.

They were finally getting a taste of each other, it didn’t matter if it was to prove a point, they were finally giving in to a dark desire in the back of their brains that none of the two wanted to acknowledge.

All the gazes on their bodies when they would wear something more skin-tight that perfectly showed their curves. All the nights spent imagining being the ones the other was fucking. Wondering if it really was that good, if the rumours were true, if the hype was worth it.

And now, that they were naked in Jaehyun’s bed, all those questions were about to be answered.

“Fuck,” she moaned when Jaehyun’s fingers slipped past her walls, pumping in and out straight away, without giving her time to adjust.

“You’re dripping,” he teased, leaving small bites on the skin of her chest. “It really turns you on hearing me fuck other people.”

“Shut up before I change my mind and leave,” she warned, squeezing her eyes when he hit a precise spot inside of her that made her see stars.

Jaehyun chuckled and then lowered his body, head reaching her pussy. Without stopping his movement, his tongue started leaving slow and long licks on her before concentrating on her clit, teasing her with the tip of his tongue, and sucking.

Jade rolled her eyes and locked her fingers in his hair to push him even closer, unconsciously closing her thighs around his head.

Jaehyun snickered against her, the vibration making her whimper, and forced her legs open, making her whine. “A little bit greedy, aren’t you?”

She didn’t answer, even though a part of her wanted to slap him, and just informed him that she was close.

Another smirk curled his lips, she wasn’t even trying to prove him wrong, she was just giving up to the pleasure. Not that he minded, Jaehyun hated losing, so this was good, this was fucking good. So, he started moving faster, his fingers curling inside of her and his lips teasing her clit just right, that it didn’t take long for her to reach her climax.

Once she had ridden her orgasm, he pulled away, sucking his cum coated fingers while looking at her. She was already a mess, but he couldn’t wait to ruin her even more.

“You know you already lost, right?” He said, leaning down to come face to face with her, his hands resting at the sides of her face, while her chest was just now starting to stop moving up and down frenetically.

“It was nothing mind-blowing, babe. Just average sex,” she said, and Jaehyun’s jaw tightened.

“Really? Then why were you squirming and whimpering under me like that?”

She snickered, raising her shoulder. “Oh, I never told you I studied drama? I’m a really good actress.”

He scoffed, and then shook his head, tongue running over his lower lip. “Let’s see if even my dick will make you act.”

Without giving her time to reply, he kissed her harshly, while his hand reached for the pack of condoms that was already on the bed from before. And before she could even notice, he was inside of her.

She rolled her head back at the stretch, not remembering when was the last time she had a real dick inside of her, and probably never had one this thick —fuck.

“God,” she moaned, nails digging in the skin of his shoulders.

He smirked and started moving slowly. “What’s wrong? Too much for you?”

She clenched her jaw and huffed loudly, “you wish.”

“You always have to run your mouth even when I’m balls deep inside of you, God, I can’t stand you,” he complained, pushing her legs on his shoulders. “Let’s see If you’ll talk shit again.”

The new position knocked the air out of her lungs, and the only thing she could do was let her mouth hang open to let moans and whimpers come out of it. His thrusts hit her perfectly, and the orgasm of before —that in reality was pretty intense— didn’t help her at all.

“Fuck,” she moaned, arching her hips up to let him reach deeper.

“Pathetic,” he said, chuckling, before his hand slipped between their bodies and his fingers started rubbing against her clit. “You’re enjoying this much more than you’d like to, isn’t it right?” He teased, staring at her expression.

She wanted to retort, but there was nothing she could say in her defence because he was good, unfortunately for her pride.

“Good, fucking perfect, don’t say anything. I don’t need your words when your body’s saying everything I need to know, fuck.”

Jade closed her eyes again, feeling the familiar knot build in her stomach, and let her nails trail down his back, surely leaving marks that weren’t going to fade anytime soon.

“Shit,” she mumbled, “I’m close.”

“I’m sure you can hold it in a little bit more,” he replied, starting to move faster. She gasped both at his words and the fast speed, but tried anyway to hold it in.

“I hate you,” she said through gritted teeth.

“I just want to come with you,” he snickered, tightening the hold on her waist. “Want to feel your walls tighten when I reach my high, too.”

She pulled him down, hand reaching his nape to kiss him harshly. She was getting tired of hearing him talk, she just wanted to come. So, she started squeezing around him and when he groaned on her lips, she smirked.

“I always get what I want,” she taunted after breaking the kiss.

“Then come, you fucking tease.”

She smiled again and then let go, letting the pleasure hit her, and her pussy clenching around him so nicely was all it took him to come too, spurting his white cum into the condom and thrusting into her messily, riding their highs.

“Why are you smiling like that?” Jade asked while staring at Jaehyun who had a dumb smile on his face. They were laying side to side, trying to calm their breaths.

He shrugged, turning around to face her. “I love winning.”

She rolled her eyes and then sat up on the bed, moving her curls out of her face and pulling the sheets over her body to cover her exposed chest.

“Want me to cuddle you?” Jaehyun teased, wrapping his arms around her waist to pull her back against the mattress again.

She slapped his forearm, making him laugh, and then glared at him. “No, thanks, I’m going to sleep. In my bed,” she remarked, pushing him off and starting to search for her clothes.

“Want me to drive you home? It’s late, and the streets are dangerous.”

She exhaled deeply and suppressed a chuckle. “Is this how you scare them away once you’re done?”

“Nah, they usually leave without saying a word,” he replied, placing his arms behind his head, watching her every move.

“Damn, not even a thank you for the amazing performance you deliver every time?” She joked, and he threw her a pillow that she promptly avoided.

“At least I can take somebody home,” he teased.

She narrowed her brows. “Hey! I have a lot of admirers, but I just hate all of them. Also, can’t risk them not being grateful for having me in their bed.”

“Oh, so you’re insufferable with everybody, nice to know.”

She threw the pillow back at him after fixing her sweater and then opened the door. “Good night, I’ll try to be careful on my way home,” she joked.

Jaehyun snorted and then wished her goodnight before rolling around in the bed after she closed the door behind.

Jade stayed there for a while, back resting against the small wall that separated their rooms, and sighed.

Why everything had to be so complicated?

“God, I hate this house with all my heart,” Jaehyun exclaimed while struggling with the AC that had no intention of working.

May went by, so did the finals and the heart problems —more or less. But the house still was falling apart, and in summer, the apartment felt like an oven.

“Need help?” Jade asked, coming behind him with a glass of water in hand, and offering it to him.

Strangely, things between them started to go a little bit better. They never brought that night up again and mainly acted as if it never happened. But at least now they tolerated each other’s presence.

Jaehyun shook his head, grabbing the glass before mouthing ‘thank you’ and then gulped it in one go.

“Need to move from this place,” he replied, handing her the empty glass. “We can’t go on like this.”

“You know our jobs and the taxes don’t allow us to go to a better place,” she replied, resting against the wall to stare at him. Her mind was travelling to other places though, as much as she hated the high temperature that shitty place reached, she could also take a good look at his body any time she wanted. The only place that had more air was the living room, so they were basically always together (probably the reason why they had to start to get along) and his shirts were either always wet from sweat or not on his body at all, just like now.

“Are you with me?”

“Ugh,” she asked, shaking her head, cursing herself for zoning out so obviously. “Yeah, yeah.”

“So? Are you coming with me?”

She looked at him with a confused expression, and he rolled his eyes, walking down the stairs and putting the tools he used to try to fix the AC back at their place.

“Tomorrow, with Johnny and Amita at the lake?”

“Why are we going to the lake with them?”

Jaehyun shrugged. “They invited me, but I don’t want to go alone.”

She nodded, biting her lips, and then said, “and you’re asking me?”

“Just because I don’t want to drop people around town when we have to come back,” he replied, glaring at her. “Don’t think of anything strange.”

She snorted. “Oh, shut up, please. I just thought spending time with me at home already saturated your tolerance for me.”

“I think that too, but maybe you can surprise me for once and be sufferable.”

“Yet most of your friends left you all alone for the summer and I’m the only one to keep you company,” she replied, hitting him with her hip while walking past to place the glass in the sink.

He rolled his eyes, and then his eyes started wandering on her body. It was getting harder and harder to resist her. But he had to, he had already slipped once, and it couldn’t happen again.

But… well, it did happen again.

“I can’t believe you can actually talk to each other without jumping on each other’s throat,” Amita joked, raising a brow at the two that were laughing, sitting on the other side of the table. They were almost done eating dinner in this nice place Amita found near the lake, mostly because she was looking for a place where Johnny could take some pictures of her.

“See?” Jade hit him playfully. “I even found out he can be funny if he wants to.”

Jaehyun looked down at her and shook his head.

“And you? Found out something about her?” Johnny asked, teasing his friend.

Jaehyun put a hand under his chin, pretending to be thinking, and then answered, “mh, no. Boring, just like the first day.”

She slapped him playfully. “He’s an amazing liar also.”

“What about you two?” Jaehyun changed the subject, talking to their friends. “Since when you befriend freshmen?”

“You are a freshman, Jaehyun,” Johnny replied.

“I’ve been your best friend since we were kids, Suh.”

“Really?” Jade asked, moving her gaze between the two.

“Yep,” Johnny answered, nodding. “I deserve a prize for standing him for so long.”

“You’re making it sound as if I’m a terrible person,” Jaehyun pouted, crossing his arms on his chest.

“No, he’s nice. He’s just a dickhead with you,” Johnny said, looking at Jade, receiving a kick under the table from his friend, but he paid no mind.

Jade turned around and caught him turning a light shade of red, a smirk curled her lips while she looked at Amita who was looking at her with her usual face of ‘oh, it’s getting interesting,’ but didn’t say a thing.

“It’s okay,” she said instead, resting a hand on his shoulder. “As long as we don’t kill each other, it’s funny.”

| ☙ |

“So, you’re only a dickhead with me,” Jade hummed while they were walking up the stairs to reach the fifth floor and their apartment.

“You shouldn’t listen to everything he says,” Jaehyun replied, searching for the apartment keys between all the others in the set.

“Sure, and you were red as a tomato for no reason, right?” She teased, stepping in front of him on the last step that led to their floor.

“What are you doing?” He asked when she kept moving in front of him, not making him go past her.

“Are you hiding something, Jeong Jaehyun?” She asked, placing a finger on his chest.

He laughed, shaking his head, and then tickled her, taking advantage of her distraction to run to their door and open it.

“Hey, that’s not fair!” She half screamed, not wanting to get a complaint from the neighbours.

“Do you perhaps think I’m hot, Jay?”

“Jay? Really?” He asked, avoiding the question.

“You think I’m hot,” she replied instead with a proud smirk on her face while she jumped around the room after leaving the bag next to the door.

“I never said that,” he defended, staring at her in disbelief.

“Then you could’ve answered no.”

“No, I don’t think you’re hot,” he said, trying to make it up for before.

“Not even in this dress?” She cooed, doing a little pose before twirling around to show how well the black dress hugged her body.

“I don’t understand what you want,” he said, drifting the gaze before his body could betray him.

“Oh, come on, just admit you fell in my trap because I’m irresistible even if you tried so hard to push me away.”

Jaehyun sighed, rolling his head back and scratching the back of his neck. Was there a point in lying anyway? If he denied it, she was going to make his life hell. “Fine, but I simply think you have a nice body, that’s it. I still can’t stand you.”

She smiled before reaching him and wrapping her arms on his shoulders. “So, you can be honest if you want to.”

“Can you stop mocking me every time I open my mouth?”

“Only if you put that mouth to good use,” she smirked, letting one hand travel on his chest before hovering over his lap.

“You want me to give you another average orgasm?” He asked, tilting his head to the side before his hands cupped her ass, making her whimper.

“Mhh,” she hummed. “But I won’t leave without saying a word.” She winked and then kissed him.

“Maybe you should put that mouth to good use,” he whispered when they pulled away, eyes looking at her lips. They were so soft and plump and God, he never wanted to have another pair of lips wrapped around his cock more than those.

“I’m not sure you could take it,” she teased, pushing him against the couch and then working to unbuckle his belt and open his zip.

“Blow my mind, then.”

She smirked and then got on her knees, pulling his clothes to the ground with his help to push them to the side so they wouldn’t go in their way.

“Fuck,” she cursed when his hard dick hovered over her face.

“What? Forgot it was so big? Can’t take it anymore?”

She looked up at him and the sight was enough to make him lose his mind. “I never back up from something, remember that.”

“Then stop talking and suck my dick,” he said, wrapping his length with his hand and tapping it against her mouth.

Without breaking the eye contact, she parted her mouth and wrapped her lips around his tip sucking hard, making him moan and tighten the hold on her hair.

“Fuck, don’t you dare tease me,” he warned, looking down at her.

She pulled away with a loud pop and then batted her eyes. “Or?”

“Don’t do it.”

She giggled and then sucked his entire length in her mouth and started bobbing her head up and down, nails digging into the skin of his thighs and eyes looking up at him.

“Fuck—” he cursed, squeezing his hand around her hair. “You’re so fucking hot.”

She smirked in her mind and then started moving faster while one hand reached up and started playing with his balls, too.

“What are you — God,” he slurred as the mess of her spit and his precum started dripping down her chin and his balls. “You’re out of your mind, fuck.”

She pulled away, smirking at him, and her hand replaced her mouth for a moment. “And you haven’t seen a thing, yet.”

“Oh, really? You’re so full of — fuck,” he stopped when she twirled her tongue on his tip and then started sucking, concentrating just on the head. “Oh, shit,” he moaned, trying to force his eyes open to stare at her. He wasn’t even sure if her movement on his dick were hotter or if it was just herself and the way she was looking up at him. Usually, he was used to sloppy blowjobs, messy and fast, but this… fuck this was so good.

“You like it?” she asked, pulling away just for a second before she started sucking again and her hands pumped and twisted around the other length where she didn’t reach.

He didn’t answer, he simply moaned and cursed lowly as he felt the orgasm approach.

“You sound so good,” she praised, giving kitten licks on his tip, and looked at him. Face flushed and mouth open. He was so beautiful. “Keep singing for me, baby.”

“Don’t call me baby,” he warned through gritted teeth, trying to sound dominant, but his moans were so high and he was so close to breaking apart that she simply giggled and blew his mind even more.

He was putty in her hands. Completely gone and she loved it. “Come for me, baby, I know you’re close,” she teased before she started moving her mouth around him faster and taking him deeper.

He wanted to curse at her for calling him that again, but he could only focus on the pleasure, it felt so fucking good he almost didn’t want to let go. He didn’t want it to stop.

“Shit, shit, I’m gonna come, fuck —” he moaned in a high-pitched voice and then came in her mouth, one last look at her watery eyes looking up at him, the last thing he needed to let the orgasm hit him hard and burst hot cum down her throat.

She pumped him a few more times making him shiver until he pushed her up. “Stop it, stop.”

She chuckled. “What? Too much for you? Blew your mind and also your cock,” she winked before leaning in to kiss him.

“And also called me baby. Nobody calls me baby, not when we’re fucking at least,” he whispered before turning her around with a swift movement, making her lean against the couch where he was before.

“Oh, and how do you like to be called, baby?”

He tugged her hair, making her gasp before a smirk formed on her face, and he turned her face to his. “You’re such a brat, God.”

She chuckled and then pressed her ass against his dick that was getting hard again, and he slapped her ass cheek firmly, making her moan. “God, I knew you were into that,” he mocked, pulling her closer to his body.

“And, what about it, baby?”

“Call me that again and I’ll fuck you so much that you’ll forget your name,” he warned, pushing the dress up her ass, reviling her black lingerie. “Into classics?” he asked, brushing his free hand on the fabric.

“You can never go wrong with that, picked them up just thinking about you taking them off,” she teased, swinging her hips from side to side.

“What if I don’t take them off? What if I just slip this to the side and…”

“Fuck,” she gasped when his head passed her entrance, not expecting him to start fucking her like this.

“What princess? Too much for you? Wanted my fingers first?”

She shook her head and then bucked her hips back, trying to take more inside. She was so wet already and turned on that he slipped past her walls with ease.

“You’re so fucking wet you’re dripping. Ruined a perfect pair of panties just because sucking a dick gets you so worked up,” he mocked, starting to move inside of her at a moderate speed.

“Best blowjob of your life.”

“You’re a pretentious little thing, God,” he cursed, letting go of her hair to wrap his hands around her waist and pull her against him harder.

“Says the one the still believes he gave the oral of my life,” she retorted.

“God, will you shut your fucking mouth and just moan,” he said, pulling her up again, but this time his hand was wrapped around her neck without applying any pressure. “You sound so good when you moan and beg and whimper, don’t fucking talk.”

She smirked as she rolled her head back, resting it against his shoulder. “As you wish, baby.”

He scoffed and then squeezed the hand around her throat and started thrusting harder against her. “I warned you before, baby. Call me Sir, got it?”

She moaned, trying to nod, but the squeeze around her neck made her open her mouth and mumble a choked, “yes.”

“No, no, no princess. Yes, Sir. Say it, come on,” he ordered, loosening the hold on her neck to move his hand and cup her still-covered boob.

“Yes, Sir.”

“Fuck, sound so pretty when you do as I say.”

Jade simply cried out more moans and curses as he kept pushing inside of her, stretching her so good.

“Feels so good, babe, so fucking good,” he whispered against her ear, voice so deep that it made her moan louder. “Look at what you do to me,” he cursed under his breath, pushing her down against the couch to have a full view of her ass bouncing back against him.

“A —fuck— mess out of —ah— of you?” She breathed out between moans, trying to keep her balance by gripping the couch under her.

He snickered and then pulled her up by the hair, making her whimper louder. “You drive me crazy.”

“Good,” she moaned with a smirk on her face. “Exactly what I —shit— wanted.”

“You still think you’re in control? Let me change your mind real quick,” he said and then wrapped a hand around her neck and the other slipped down to reach for her clit. “Let’s see if you can listen well and come just when I tell you to.”

“What? No, fuck,” she cried, squeezing her eyes shut and pleading.

“No? What? Are you close? I thought you had this under control.”

She groaned and wanted to talk back, but the pleasure she felt stopped her from doing so.

“As I thought,” he mocked with a chuckle as he kept making her bounce back and forth on his dick and moved his fingers on her clit. “Taking me so well, can you take some more?”

She shook her head, feeling the orgasm approach and not being sure she could’ve held it longer. “Too bad you’ll have to, that’s what you get for being a brat.”

“I didn’t —”

“Shh, shut up, just moan and whimper for me, I’m not going to change my mind.”

She huffed and then let go. She couldn’t even complain because the pleasure made her feel light and dizzy.

“Good girl, that’s my good girl,” he praised, pulling her even closer and kissing her neck. She felt her heart falter at those words and her walls clenched around his throbbing cock while sweet sounds spilled from her lips.

“You like it, don’t you? You’re so close, I can feel you, baby.” She smiled thinking it was finally time to let go but he scoffed. “Hold on a little bit more, show me you can do it for me.”

She cried, arching her ass back to meet his thrusts, and he chuckled. “It’s okay, babe, it’s okay. You’re doing well.”

“Sir, please,” she pleaded, opening her eyes to look at him, a lonely tear slipping down her cheek.

“Don’t cry, love,” he whispered, kissing her cheek. “Let go, come for me.”

And she did, it didn’t take anything else to let go of the explosive orgasm that hit her and him soon after as her walls pulsed around him so tightly. He threw his head back, keeping on thrusting in her as he came inside of her.

“Fuck, tell me you’re on the pill at least,” he cursed when he realized that, so caught up in the moment, they didn’t use a condom.

She giggled, trying to calm her breathing. “I am,” she reassured him, bending on the couch, too tired to stand up. “Another round?” She winked at him, looking back at him from her shoulder.

They lost count of how many times they came that night, fucking on every surface they could find in that house. It was embarrassing even, feeling the need never cease ‘till they collapsed on her bed, with no strength to get up anymore.

But the problem was that it happened again and again.

And the scariest part was that hate was a feeling that started to slip out of their hearts more and more.

“Ugh, I hate working with people so much. I’m going to kill somebody one day,” Jade exclaimed, slamming the front door behind her.

“Oh, good evening to you too,” Jaehyun joked, greeting her from the couch where he was watching something on TV.

She slumped next to him, leaning over to rest her head on his shoulder, and he wrapped an arm around her, caressing her shoulder.

“What happened today?” It had become by now a tradition, every day she came home ranting about the terrible day she had at work and Jaehyun would cheer her up.

“Same old shit. The boss got mad at me because an order didn’t arrive when I emailed her the cancellation the other day, right when it arrived, but she didn’t see it. And then they put me on the front desk when it’s not even my job. I’m there to help them with the office things, orders and delivers, not selling shits to people that have nothing better to do than ask for impossible things.”

“And when you told her she made a mistake?”

“She accepted it, but I’m still so fucking close to slap her and quit all,” she complained, throwing her head back. “Anyway, how did your kid do on the entrance test?”

“Jisung? Well, he passed with full grades, but his mom still wants me to tutor him for the next year, which is great for me. I like him and we work well, but I still need to find some other kids to help, two are not enough. And I’m not even sure Grace will need me anymore.”

“I like her, she’s nice,” Jade said, remembering when the kid once came to their house because she needed help with math.

“Just because she said she likes your cupcakes,” he joked, smiling at her.

“Maybe. By the way, I could ask Amita if she knows some kids that need help, you’re good at teaching them.”

“I don’t know, I was thinking of asking to manage the front desk of the gym where I train.”

“No,” she pouted, “I like seeing you with kids.”

“Oh, please, they rarely come here anyway.”

“But you’re a completely different person when you’re with them. I like you better.”

Jaehyun scoffed, “I’m not that different.”

“I would disagree, but anyway, it’s better to deal with kids that need a little help with math or history or art than with grown-ups, trust me.”

“I’d listen to the advice of a wise woman then,” he joked, tickling her.

She then got up, stretching and yawning, “God, I need to take a shower.”

Jaehyun raised a brow. “Is this a proposal to follow you?”

She tilted her head, turning around to face him, and winked. “If you catch me.”

Jaehyun giggled and then ran after her, soon catching up with her and blocking her from closing the bathroom door.

“Tag, you’re it. And now?”

“Oh, no, now I guess you’ll have to help me,” she pouted, teasingly taking her clothes off. Jaehyun did the same and in a few minutes, they were under the shower jet, kissing each other passionately.

“I hate this shower so fucking much,” Jaehyun cursed when the showerhead fell, and water hit them right in the eyes.

Jade laughed and then said, “maybe that was a bad idea.”

“No, we’ll make it work. Wait, let me fix this. Here,” he said while he somehow managed to block the showerhead so that water hit them exactly how they wanted to.

“Oh my god, handy Manny, can I ask for an autograph?”

“If you don’t shut up right now,” he joked, lifting her up and pressing her body against the cold tiles of the wall.

“It’s cold,” she complained.

“I’ll warm you soon, don’t worry,” he reassured, starting to kiss her neck and then lower down to her tits, sucking her nipples slowly. “They’re so perfect, fuck, I could kiss them forever.”

She giggled and then rolled her head back, biting back the moans, trying to don’t be too loud.

“I want you,” he moaned, slipping a hand between them, and parting her lips, starting to brush his hard cock against her slits, making her whimper.

“Then take me.”

He pulled her up and then let her sink on his dick, supporting her body up against the wall.

“Wrap your arms around my shoulder, babe,” he said as he stilled inside of her to find the right position to support her up.

“Am I heavy?”

“What? No. Why do you think I spend so much time at the gym?” He asked and then leaned in. “So, I can fuck you in every possible position.”

She laughed lowly and then rolled her hips against him, smirking.

“Always needy, I see,” he teased, starting to move her up and down onto his cock, making her gasp at the sensation.

“It’s work fault, ah, yes,” she moaned, biting her lips and letting her head fall against the cold tiles of the shower.

“You’re so beautiful with water running on your body,” he praised, looking at the drops rolling down her body and wetting her skin.

She whimpered, feeling his hard cock slam up into her, every stroke hard and precise. “I should be used to —shit,” she cursed, finding it hard to breathe every time he stretched her more.

Jaehyun snickered and then moved his thumb on her waist to caress her. “I think you are; look at your pussy, ‘s taking me so well.”

She mumbled something incomprehensible and then pulled him close to her to kiss him. Jaehyun kissed her back and pressed her closer against the wall never slowing down the speed of his strokes in and out of her.

“Fuck, I’m close,” she whimpered, squeezing her eyes shut.

“Already?” He teased with a cocky smirk.

She hummed, not able to say anything else. It was all she dreamed about the whole day. The only solution to her anger, him. “Yes, been thinking ‘bout you,” she mumbled, walls pulsing around him, making him groan.

“Oh, yeah? Dreaming about my cock all day instead of focusing on your job?”

“Yes, yes —fuck.”

Jaehyun snickered and then grabbed her wrist, pushing them over her head, pinning her against the wall. “My cock fills your mind every day, how pathetic. Is that all you can think about, baby?”

She moaned lowly, “ye–yeah, ah, please, need you.”

“I’m right here, isn’t this enough? Want me to fuck you harder?”

“Yeah,” she begged with her broken voice, the pleasure was getting to her head.

“God, you’re so insatiable, so fucking hard to please,” he groaned, pushing harder and faster into her.

“I’m close,” she moaned, digging her nails into the palm of her hands.

“I know,” he replied, smirking. “Can fucking feel your pussy sucking me in, fuck, it’s almost impossible to move out of you.”

“Don’t — don’t do it. Come in me, please, fill me up,” she pleaded, opening her eyes to look at him just in time to see him lose his mind. And that was all he needed to let go and spill his cum into her, triggering her orgasm too.

“Fuck,” he cursed before kissing her roughly and gently letting go of her wrist and pulling out of her, making their cum drip down her thighs.

“Now I’m dirtier than before,” she huffed as he put her down and she tried to don’t fall on her wobbly legs, even if Jaehyun still held her tight in place with a hand wrapped around her waist.

“I can help you,” he proposed and when she glared at him, he added, “for real this time. Come on, let me do your hair.”

“No, my hair is the last thing you’ll do, thanks.”

“Oh, please, at least show me what you do to make it always so soft.”

“Water, baby, it’s water.”

“And what about the hundreds of products that fill up our cabinet?”

“Water and the hundreds of products that fill up our cabinet,” she joked, winking at him.

Eventually, she let him do that. It was nice having somebody massaging her scalp and then combing her hair gently. It was nice for once to don’t be the one to have arms that hurt. He gave up when it was time to follow the order of the different products to apply before styling and drying it, but he still helped diffusing it.

“Now I get why you’re booked for a whole day when it’s your wash day,” he joked, turning off the hairdryer and unplugging it from the socket.

“See, you can’t scream at me anymore for keeping the bathroom all to myself. By the way, you did a pretty good job,” she said, looking at herself in the mirror.

“Handsome, smart, engineer and now also hairdresser, I really am a star in this world.”

She rolled her eyes and then said, “you should feel special because I never let anyone close to my hair.”

“It’s the roommate privilege.”

She hummed. “Friend privilege. I think we can define ourselves that.”

| ☙ |

“Wait, you two fuck?” Amita screamed, almost throwing her fries on the floor.

“You didn’t get it?” Jade asked, tilting her head to look at her, furrowing in surprise.

“You never told me, I’m not your neighbour, so I can’t hear you have fun. Also, since when?”

“This summer?”

“Oh my God, I can’t believe you didn’t tell me,” she said, sitting better and asking her to explain more.

“There’s nothing to say, it just happened, and it’s the only time we truly get along. Even though I have to say we came a long way, I’d dare to say we’re friends, now.”

Amita was speechless. “But, how? Was it so good you lost your mind and fucked with the enemy?”

“It happened once, and then we acted like nothing ever happened. And then since that night out at the lake we kind of… never stopped. It’s just sex. We’re not dating anybody, and we have each other next door. No feelings, no strings, nothing.”

Amita raised a brow. “And you think that’s a good idea? Like, it could actually work?”

“It is working. We both don’t want to do relationships and just want to have fun. Why would this be wrong?”

“You know these relationships never work out.”

“Weren’t you the one that said I had to have fun?”

“I did, and I still think you do, but… with him.”

“He’s hot.”

“Yeah, but you live in the same house, and you need each other to split the bills, what if something happens? What if one of you two falls?”

Jade laughed loudly. “It won’t happen because none of us will fall.”

| ☙ |

“You love her?” Johnny exclaimed, staring at Jaehyun with wide eyes.

“I don’t know, love is such a big word, but I’m afraid I’m starting to like her more than I should.”

“I mean, kinda saw it coming, but I hoped your self-defence mechanisms were going to work.”

“It’s not my fault she’s amazing.”

“Amazing? What happened to her being an annoying deceitfully-nice bitch?”

“Well, she’s not. She’s… she’s exactly my type and she listens to me and she’s smart and the kids love her so they always bring her up and God, I don’t know what to do.”

“Break things off,” Johnny answered straight away.

“What?” Jaehyun stared at him with wide eyes.

“You know she doesn’t feel the same, and you have already been scarred once, Jae. Even if you act tough, you’re not at all, and it’s going to hurt.”

“But that would mean to not have her in any way,” Jaehyun sulked, lowering his head.

“When did you even realize that?”

“Yesterday we went to the party together, and Hyunjin was all over her and vice versa. And guess what? I wanted to go there and do something, break them apart, maybe even punch him, but I couldn’t. We never set any rules, so she’s free to do what she wants.”

“And then?”

“She went home with him and the first thing that crossed my mind was that I’m not enough to keep her with me.”

“Oh Lord, no, not Minju once again, please.”

“I know,” Jaehyun replied. “But what can I do?”

“Push her out of your mind, put an end to all of this. I don’t want to see you like one year ago, Jay.”

“But what if it’s nothing?”

“If you thought that it’s not nothing, get out of there before it’s too late.”

| ☙ |

“Why are you so lost?” Jade asked, making drawings on his chest. They had just finished having sex, but Jaehyun wasn’t talkative like usual.

“Nothing,” he shrugged. “Just thinking of a project I have to do for next week.”

“We just finished fucking and you’re thinking about college?” She chuckled, looking at him

“Sorry,” he apologized but was still looking in front of them, lost in his thoughts.

She furrowed and then asked with a concerned tone, “are you okay?”

“Yeah,” he lied. No, he wasn’t. He wasn’t fine at all because the more time passed, the more she filled every second of his day. He hoped that with the start of the second year of college mixed with work, he could keep himself busy and push her out of his mind, but it didn’t work out.

He tried to be harsh with her again, but he just couldn’t because his own heart broke every time she would run to him excited to tell him something and he would simply nod or hum in agreement. He wanted to see her smile, that kind of smile that made her eyes crinkle and her nose scrunch and a barely visible dimple popped out on her right cheek. He wanted to see her clap her hands with enthusiasm every time something excited her, and she would do her little jumps around. He wanted to hear her laugh loudly, especially when she would forget to cover her mouth with her hands — a habit that remained from when she had braces and was super insecure about her teeth.

“You don’t seem okay, though. Did I say something wrong?” She asked, sitting up to have a better view of him.

“No, it’s not your fault,” he replied, forcing a smile on his face. Even if it was her fault he felt like this.

“Can I ask you something?”

“Sure,” she nodded, sitting better, and resting her chin on the palm of her hand.

He opened his mouth to say what he wanted to ask but then shut it again. He knew she wasn’t dumb; he couldn’t risk asking to be exclusive now, it would’ve meant confessing to her how he felt, and he didn’t want to lose her.

“Can you come and help Johnny with some photos he has to take of me?”

Hesitation showed on her face as she furrowed. Why did he seem so hesitant about that question? The thought that wasn’t what he wanted to ask crossed her mind, but she shrugged it off.

“Yeah, why? Does he need help?”

Jaehyun shook his head. “I need a portfolio.”

Jade gasped. “Oh, so you’re finally putting your pretty face to good use?” She smiled, pushing him slightly. “Don’t forget me when you’ll become famous.”

He rolled his eyes before covering them with his arm. “I’m just trying to send them to some minor agency. Will put on some money and then maybe I can move out of here.”

“Oh,” Jade whispered before she could even realize. “You want to move out?” She knew they weren’t entitled to stay together; they simply rented the same place to split the bills, it wasn’t like they had to stick together, but the thought of him leaving put sadness in her heart, and she couldn’t even explain why.

“I’m trying to,” he replied, moving his arm away to look at her again. “Are you sad?” He asked, seeing her expression.

She shook her head. “No, why would I? I’m happy if you can get out of this hell,” she forced a chuckle to roll out of her lips. And Jaehyun didn’t want to be delusional, but maybe he could say that yes, she was sad about it.

“We can keep having sex if that’s what worrying you,” he joked.

“Oh, shut up,” she said, slapping him. And she had to gather all the strength in her not to cry. “Unfortunately, I got attached to you more than I am to your dick.”

He laughed and then moved his hand to reach for her. “It’s nice to hear it, we came a long way.”

She nodded, simply humming, afraid her voice would’ve betrayed her if she opened her mouth.

“Hey,” Jaehyun called her. “I’m not leaving tomorrow.”

“I know,” she said, somehow not showing the tightness in her throat. “I’ll just miss having your annoying ass around.”

“I’ll miss you, too,” he said. No sign of joke in his voice, not a tease, nothing. Just the truth. But it was for the better. Not having her around was the only thing that could help him get over her.

| ☙ |

“Why are you mad? You didn’t talk to me the whole night,” Jade asked, finally finding Jaehyun in a more tranquil spot in the frat house. The music was still loud, but in this corridor on the second floor, they could talk to each other without screaming to be heard.

Jaehyun snickered, “me?”

Jade looked at him, raising a brow. “Yeah, you were clinging to me and then all of a sudden you got mad.”

“I’m not mad, I’m just leaving you privacy, so you can fuck Hyunjin on the dance floor,” he bit back, his tone more bitter than he intended it to be.

Jade gasped and then laughed. “You can’t be fucking serious.”

“Oh, I am. You have no problems having his hands all over your body while you grind on each other like nobody else is in the room.”

“Are you jealous?” She asked, tilting her head.

Jaehyun gulped, staring at her. The look on her face hurt more than seeing her dancing with him. He was just crazy at her eyes.

“No, I don’t give a shit about you,” he replied, walking past her. Jade felt tears at the corner of her eyes but pushed them back and ran after him. He wasn’t going to get away with this scene without an explanation.

She grabbed his wrist and pulled him back again. “What the fuck is wrong with you?”

“No, what is wrong with you? Do you want to make Violet jealous? Is this why you put on a show every time that you know she’s here?”

“Leave her out of this,” Jade warned harshly.

“No, it’s true. You probably never moved on from her and still wish she will crawl back to you.”

Jade snorted. “You know what, I think that maybe the insecure one is you. What is that? Are you afraid I will leave you just like your ex did? Scared you’re not enough to keep me with you?”

Jaehyun knew that she was driven by anger and maybe even alcohol, but those words hurt like a knife being twisted in his chest. A little bit for the harshness of her voice, and a lot more because they were the truth. He was terrified of not being enough for her and losing her forever.

His eyes drifted to her, and his heart broke even more seeing all the hate that was behind her —usually caring— stare.

“I hate you,” he mumbled, before turning around and running away.

She wanted to follow him, run after him but didn’t. She knew she didn’t owe him anything, they weren’t exclusive. God, they weren’t even dating. Then why did it hurt so much?

“Jaehyun,” Jade screamed, slamming the front door of their house behind. He was there and he couldn’t ignore her forever. His shoes and coat were at the entrance, he couldn’t be anywhere else.

She stormed to his room and knocked on the door. But no answer came, and the door was locked.

She sighed, trying to hold back the tears that already fell copious on her face. “Can we talk?” She asked, voice trembling, resting her forehead on the wood.

Some seconds passed, and the door opened, startling her.

Jaehyun’s eyes were red, but his face was dry. “Talking about what?”

“You can’t make a scene out of jealousy and then blame me for it. You know damn well you’re afraid of losing another person.”

Jaehyun laughed. “God, that’s exactly why I couldn’t stand you. Who do you think you are? You really think you can hurt me like she did? I loved her, I gave her years of my life, you mean absolutely nothing to me. You’re just my roommate.”

Jade felt tears menacing to fall once again and she started shaking before a bitter laugh rolled out of her lips while she stared at the ground. “Great, got back to being your roommate. And here I thought we were friends.”

“And soon we’ll also stop being that.”

Her head snapped up, staring at him. “What?”

“I got the job and found a new house to stay.”

Jade felt the world crumble on her shoulders and her heart clench in her chest. “You don’t have to make things up just to hurt me more because you’re mad.”

“I’m not making it up. I was going to tell you on another occasion, but now that we’re here we might as well put an end to all of this once and for all.”

“Now you also want to end what we have?”

“It’s just sex anyway, and you have no problem finding it somewhere else.”

Jade gulped and then nodded, not able to keep eye contact with him.

“Fine,” was the only thing she was able to say before his door closed again. He had left her alone again, putting between them the same wall that separated them apart for months.

All her certainties fell when Jaehyun moved out of their place.

Jade didn’t know it was possible to miss so badly someone she hated up to four months before. And yet, she missed him like a heartbeat. It was strange not having him around. Going back from work and not having someone who listened to her rants about another terrible day. Staying up late to study and finish essays together while eating cans of ice cream and occasionally crying, about to give up everything. Jogging together on Sundays, because even if most of the time he used to drag her out of bed, she couldn’t help but miss rolling in bed, trying to cover her eyes from the light of the sun and complaining for just five minutes more.

Her new roommate was fine, I guess. She was nice, polite, kept the place clean and everything… but she wasn’t Jaehyun.

Worst of it all, was that they barely met around. It was like Jaehyun was avoiding her and that hurt the most. After the fight, they grew apart, but then they confronted each other, and before leaving he had promised they would’ve kept in touch, hanging out sometimes, coming over, and just the usual. Yet, he slipped like sand from her fingers.

And she feared he never stopped hating her. That all those months of growing closer to each other had been nothing but a mere illusion.

But worst, she feared she fell for him without noticing.

The realization hit her when Amita made her notice how terribly she was coping with all of this. If nothing tied them, there was no reason for her to walk around like a soul dragging its body and sulking every time.

And it hit more at night when his face popped up in her dreams. When before falling asleep her brain kept going back to him.

She saw him laughing at her terrible jokes. She saw him walking around the house repeating lectures for the upcoming exams. She saw him waiting for her to come home, laying on the couch. He was everywhere, impressed in the back of her brain so vividly she was terrified of how precisely she could still picture him.

If she closed her eyes, she could almost still smell his scent filling up her nostrils every time he held her close. Or when they danced around the living room. Or when he pressed her down on the mattress. Just like she could still hear his voice or his laugh.

She wanted to talk to him, not to see him, but to let him know what she felt. But how humiliating was that going to be?

He had been clear. He didn’t care about her. Not like she cared for him at least. And maybe there was some anger in his words, but it was true, she was nothing but a mere chapter of his life that he wasn’t going to read again.

So, the only thing she could do was try to move on from him. It couldn’t be harder than forgetting the girl who cheated on her, right? He had been just sex, it couldn’t hurt more than a relationship.

| ☙ |

Jaehyun was heartbroken. He wasn’t good at cutting people out of his life and moving on from them.

He was stuck. Carrying on focusing on his studies and job, trying to act like she never happened. He knew he had promised to still keep in touch, but he couldn’t put himself to do that.

Every time they crossed paths on the campus, he would immediately run away. And during the only period together he tried his best to ignore her, and luckily for him, except the first two times, she didn’t try to push it on.

He could see she was hurt by his behaviours, but he couldn’t do anything else when they weren’t supposed to be together.

But Johnny couldn’t stand him anymore. He knew it wasn’t his place, and that technically, he was the one that told him to cut things off, but he still kept in contact with Amita and knew that Jade wasn’t doing any better.

“I’m doing this to myself?”

“Yes,” Johnny replied straight away. “What’s stopping you from going to her place and telling her how you feel?”

“Why would I do that if she doesn’t love me? And after the way I treated her? She should just spit on my face.”

“Yeah, I agree. I probably would’ve punched you once or twice, too, but that’s in the past, and you both hurt each other. I just think that everybody around you has a clear picture except you two.”

“And what’s the clear picture?”

“That you both have feelings for each other, but were too busy pushing each other away. I don’t know her, but I know you. You are terrified of getting into something big again, Jaehyun. Terrified you’re going to get scarred again like the last time, but not every person that comes into your life enters it to hurt you or teach you a terrible lesson. Try and see what happens. Trust me for once. It can’t get worse than this.”

| ☙ |

Jaehyun couldn’t remember the last time he felt so anxious. He didn’t feel like this when he had to audition for the model agency. He didn’t feel like this when he had to break the news to his mom that all of her dreams about his perfect life with Minju had dissolved. God, he didn’t even feel like this when he had to give the reportage exam with the professor who hated him and made it very clear.

And yet, right now, here, in front of their old apartment door, he was shaking. He looked like a little kid staring at his closet door, trying to fight his fears of a monster that was in his head. And probably he wasn’t much different than that little kid, he was just grown up, with a load of stress from college and taxes, but the imaginary monsters screwing him and freezing him were the same.

But the monsters weren’t in the closet, they were in his head, and the worst one was on the other side of the door.

He kept rocking back and forth on his feet as he squeezed the bouquet of flowers in his hand. Blue cornflowers, her favourites. She had told him when it casually slipped a story about her family, he had no idea why she never brought up the topic or why she never went back to her parents, but one time she slipped. Cornflowers are rare to find, especially blue ones, so she used to draw them on little notes and then give them to her siblings. A new drawing every week, to tell them that you can always start over and have hope for the future. She never explained why she did that, and at the moment he didn’t even think of asking why she would do something like that. So, he really hoped they wouldn’t bring up bad memories. After all, they still were her favourite flowers, right?

But Jaehyun was a coward and was kind of trying to grasp onto anything that would give him an excuse to turn on his heels and leave.

It was two days after Christmas, he should’ve been at home, maybe at his parent’s house enjoying a nice family time together, and not being here. Ready to be humiliated by the person he loved but didn’t love him back.

But all his thoughts kept him there, grounded in front of the door, spaced out from the world, so much that it took him some time to realize the door opened and Jade was standing in front of him with a furrow on her face.

“Jaehyun?” She asked, almost incredulous, looking up and down at him.

“Oh, hi,” he greeted, hiding the flowers behind his back, and scratching his neck.

“Are you okay?”

“Yeah, um, can I come in? Is your roommate here?”

Jade shook her head and moved to the side to let him in, then closed the door again. “She went back home for the holidays.” She walked to the kitchen table to place the cup of chocolate she was holding and then signalled him to take a seat if he wanted to.

“Oh, and you?”

Jade chuckled. “Well, I’m here as you can see.”

“Oh, yeah, sure, I know but, why, why not?”

Jade shrugged and then sat next to him on the couch. “Why are you here?”

Jaehyun blinked and then shook his head, remembering that he was there for a specific reason. “I got this for you,” he said, handing her the bouquet.

For a moment all his fears disappeared when her eyes curled up and a warm light shined behind them as she grabbed the flowers and looked at them.

“You remembered,” she whispered, looking at him. “It was such a small detail in our conversation.”

“Well, I listened to you when you spoke, and I liked listening to you.”

She nodded. “So you don’t hate me that much at the end.”

Jaehyun gulped, it was now or never. “I never hated you, to be honest.”

“Mh, our first year together would say different, but yeah.”

“No.” He got up, standing in front of her. “Please, listen to me. I came here because I have a weight on my chest, and I can’t do this anymore.”

She looked up and met his serious eyes. “About me?”

He nodded. “I just want you to let me finish and then you can do whatever you want, even spit on my face and throw me out of the house.”

She wanted to say that that seemed a little bit too much, but simply nodded, reassuring him he could keep going.

“First of all, I’m a dickhead,” he started, and she had to suppress a chuckle and a nod of agreement. “And second, I’m sorry for all the hurt I gave you,” he sighed, starting to rock back and forth on his feet. “I forced myself to don’t like you because I was scared from the very first moment that this was going to happen. But no matter how much I tried to push you away… here we are. I know it’s not an excuse, but I’m terrified of relationships now. I don’t want to give my all to somebody and then see them with someone else because I’m not enough. I don’t want to feel used just like I did with her. But the thing is… the thing is that,” he stopped, looking at her with his head low. “I think I fell in love with you,” he whispered.

Jade gasped and immediately got up, facing him. “You did what?”

“Please, don’t make me say that again. I know my words were harsh, I know I treated you badly and there’s no excuse for it. I know I fucked us up and put you through a lot of pain. I know you don’t feel the same and I didn’t come here to be with you, I just needed you to know, so you could know why I’m avoiding you and why I left and why I was jealous of Hyunjin and why I never reply to your texts or calls and why I always decline when Amita –”

Jade kissed him, she threw her arms around his neck and pushed him down, bringing him closer.

Jaehyun was caught by surprise and hesitated to kiss her back for a moment, but then his hands reached her waist and pulled her against him.

They kissed for what felt like minutes, desperate to make up for the lost time that their pride made them lose. And when they pulled away, they stayed close.

“I was tempted to slap you some time ago, but not now, not anymore,” she joked, caressing his cheek.

“So, you’re not mad at me?”

“I mean, I am, a little bit, but I think we’ve both been stupid.”

“So, are we okay now? And like, do you like me back?”

“Of course, I do. I missed you like crazy, and you really hurt me every time you ignored me. So, please, let’s not do this anymore, I really can’t take another relationship like this, okay?”

Jaehyun furrowed. “Another? Like with Violet?”

Jade shook her head, she wasn’t talking about her, she was talking about somebody else, but this wasn’t the time to reveal her fears to him. “Let’s not talk about that. Just promise me we’ll start talking to each other and communicate what we’re feeling. No trying to read each other’s mind and get mad when the other can’t do it, no pushing away because of our past. Let’s grow together?” She had lived enough life with the silent treatment, gaslighting, slammed things to show anger, and petty acts, she didn’t need it anymore. She didn’t start living on her own straight after high school to just end up like that again.

Jade knew they didn’t start on the best track, but she was sure they could fix it and make it work. She believed in him. She believed in them.

“I promise. I won’t hurt you anymore.”

“I knew I should’ve said no when you asked me to help you move in,” Johnny complained while he carried inside the last box of furniture they needed to set up in the living room.

“Oh, as if you had anything better to do,” Jaehyun replied, placing the box down and wiping the sweat from his forehead with his arm.

Johnny glared at him and then sat down on the couch, but it was a terrible idea because the cellophane stuck to his already burning skin. “And also, in the middle of June, you two are insane.”

Jade walked into the room with two glasses of water and offered them to the boys. “Not our fault we’re still in college. We had exams, we couldn’t move out from there sooner.”

“Oh right, you’re still stressed Uni students, sometimes I forget.”

“And you are a stressed freelancer photographer desperately looking for a stable job,” Jaehyun joked.

“Now that was rude for no reason, take it back, Jeong,” Johnny warned, pointing a finger at his friend who simply laughed. “Also, you know damn well you’re going to end up like me in one year.”

“I think he’s going to become a successful model,” Jade said, sitting on a chair next to Johnny. “His handsome face is pretty wanted. He had to turn down many offers because he was busy with college.”

Johnny cheered, “why you never tell me any of this?”

Jaehyun rolled his eyes and then walked to the kitchen to grab a bottle; he was dying, and a glass of water just wasn’t enough to cool him. “They’re all minor projects, she’s just exaggerating because she supports me.”

Johnny shook his head and chuckled. “Man, if you told me two years ago that the two of you were going to date, I would’ve agreed, I knew that. I’m not going to lie, I knew from the start that was destiny.”

Jaehyun rolled his eyes again, slapping his arm while Jade laughed. “Leave him alone. He and Amita have been our number one supports.”

“He tortured me into giving in. That’s not support, that’s torture.”

“Not my fault she’s hot and I had to open your eyes.”

Jade felt her face heat up at the compliment while Jaehyun raised a brow. “Ugh, she’s hot?”

Johnny threw his hands up in the air and then got up, running to open the box where the shoe cabinet was in. “I’m not pulling a Minhyuck, I promise. But I have eyes, and I can say you pulled a ten.”

“Oh, you better not,” Jaehyun warned before leaning down and kissing her. “But if you have to do that, please don’t wait five years, maybe it’ll hurt less.”

Johnny winked at him. “I won’t do it, I promise.”

Jaehyun hummed, “and you?”

“I’ve been cheated on, too. I know how it feels, I would never do that to you.”

“Goddamn, why am I always late — shit,” Jaehyun cursed, running around the living room to gather the things he needed for the classes of the day.

Jade was waiting outside the door, huffing loudly while she twirled the keys in her hands and waited for him to come out. It was always like this. Every morning they would wake up together and she was always ready in time and somehow, he always, always, forgot something.

“You’re walking to the campus if you’re not out in twenty seconds, Jaehyun,” she screamed, pinching the bridge of her nose while she still heard him searching for only God knows what.

“I’m here,” he said, breath heavy and looking like a mess.

Jade glared at him, judging the state he was leaving the house; hair messy, backpack open, shoes not worn well, and jacket open.

“You’re embarrassing, you’re just lucky that I love you,” she said before walking down the stairs. In their new complex, the elevator worked, but they were on the third floor, so it was faster to go on the stairs.

“Hey, wait for me! I can’t run.”

“Not even my brother walked out of the house like this when I dropped him in middle school,” she joked, putting an emphasis on his age.

“It’s not my fault, I do the exact things you do and I’m always late somehow.”

“Wrong,” she said. “Do you have curly hair to refresh every morning? Nope. Do you have make-up to wear? Nope again. Do you eat breakfast? No, just an apple it’s not an excuse to be late. Do you sit on the couch staring blankly at the wall for a good five minutes before starting to get ready? Yes.”

Jaehyun puffed. “The only make-up you wear is eyeliner, you don’t even do a full base.”

“I would still be in time with a drag queen make-up,” she joked, drifting the gaze from the road to look at his pouty face. “Oh, come on, give me a smile. Aren’t you happy the torture is almost over?”

“College? What’s your definition of over? It’s just April and we still have to graduate,” he replied, rolling his eyes.

“But good thing we’re not late working on our thesis, so it’s good.”

“I guess,” he replied, shrugging. The last year passed faster than the others somehow, but the real world was scary and now it was so close. “And after this?”

“Now, that is something I don’t want to think about,” she answered, parking in a lot of the campus. She sighed and then turned around to look at him with a bright smile on her face. “But as long as I’m with you, it’s going to be fine.”

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