#everytime it said Raph I lost it.

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Neon Void chapter 22 spoilers.

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AaaaAAAAA Filled another page :D um as for the chapter here’s how I feel about it:

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Shakes you blows you up with my mind @sugarpasteltmnt

Also some doodles from before this mind boggling chapter came out

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Why I Love 2012 Raphael

A TMNT 2012 Character Appreciation/Character Analysis Post

If you know me or follow me here or on Instagram then you know that my favorite Ninja Turtle is Raphael. More specifically, Raphael from the TMNT 2012 series. Nowadays, this version of Raph gets a lot of unfair hate from fans (new and old), which I find to be ridiculous. So I decided to show this turtle in red some love and express my reasons as to why I love 2012 Raphael. 

To start, I wanna give some love and appreciation to Raphael’s voice actor, Sean Astin. His voice was perfect for the role. I feel so many other Raphael voices try too hard to make him sound manly and more of a giant muscular brute, often forgetting that he is just a teenage boy. Sean does a good job making Raph sound tough when needed, but still making him sound like he is a teenager. He does a great job balancing Raph’s rude attitude but also his gentle and sweet side as well. Also he nailed those girlish screams! XD I feel voice actors nowadays don’t get a lot of recognition, so I wanted to show my appreciation here.

The biggest thing I love about Raphael is his development in the show. I’d argue he had the most/best character development among the four Turtles. We all know how he is in the beginning of the series, being rude, hotheaded, constantly picking fights with Leo and other characters. The show makes it obvious that Raph in S1-2 is scared of his own emotions and feelings, the only time he truly opens up and expresses himself is when he talks to his pet turtle, Spike. The best way I can describe Raph’s character is that he is the “tough guy with a heart of gold” trope. I believe one of the show’s producers, Ciro Neili, even confirmed that was their intention when creating Raph’s character for the show. Raph is a brute, a hothead, but deep down he's a big softie. A lot of Raphael haters seem to forget or ignore that fact about his character. Yes, he is mostly known throughout the fandom to be the hothead, he is the muscle of the group, but he is also the protector. Raph knows that, so if he comes off as weak, then he loses that title. Deep down Raph, and the people around him, know that he is a big softy who loves and cares for others, but he keeps up this tough guy persona in order to protect and seem strong for the ones he loves most. 

As the series goes on Raph learns to open up to others, he grows to respect Leo as a leader and seems to control his temper way more by Season 5. On rewatch I notice in S4-5, Raph only ever gets mad for valid/understandable reasons, mainly when someone is hurting/threatening his loved ones. How did this happen? I believe Raph’s development started when he lost Spike in season 2.

Slash and Destroy is one of my favorite Raphael focused episodes and I will stand by and say that this episode was the beginning of Raph’s character development. In the episode, Raph’s pet Spike gets mutated and becomes Slash, targeting and attacking Raph’s brothers. As a reminder, up to this episode, the only person Raph could express his true feelings to was Spike. Everytime Raph ranted negatively about his brothers, Spike was there to hear it, causing him to have a negative view on Leo, Donnie and Mikey. Slash shows pure hatred for the brothers, especially Leo. After brutally attacking Leo, Slash smiles and says “Been looking forward to that for a long time.” The mutagen warped Slash’s brain, making him go crazy and viciously attack Raph’s brothers because like Raph said earlier in the episode, he doesn’t need them. Raph gets a visual representation of his words and negative thoughts towards his brothers in action through Slash. Slash’s purpose in this episode is to represent all of Raph’s anger and frustration he’s had for his brothers over the years based on what he told Spike. By the end of the episode, Splinter comforts Raph and suggests that he should “focus on the friends he has in the present''. For all of Raph’s life, he trusted and relied only on Spike, but Spike is now gone, so Splinter indirectly advises his son that it is time to trust and rely on others, to not bottle up his emotions, advice that Raph takes.

As the show goes on, Raph slowly progresses, opening up more to others, which will eventually lead to him having two great things in his life come season 4 (but we’ll talk about them later).

Casey was another part of Raph’s development that some fans don’t notice. Donnie makes a comment that Casey being around is like having two Raphaels. While Raph and Casey become best friends because of their similar personalities, Casey is also a reflection of Raph. When around Casey, Raph has to be the level headed one, the responsible one. He criticizes Casey for not being stealthy like a ninja in the S2 episode Newtralized and not planning ahead in the fight (remind you of anyone? *cough* Leo *cough*). When they first meet, Raph gives Casey the same exact advice his father gave him earlier in the episode that “anger is a dangerous alley”. Casey is a more reckless version of Raph, something Raph unknowingly sees and tries to help and protect, he has to be the mature one in their dynamic, opposite to when he’s teamed up with Leo and gets to be the rebel again. It’s like he’s getting a taste of his own medicine.

Not to mention, Raph met Casey after he lost Spike, having a new friend he can rely on. Later on in the episode Newtralized, after meeting Slash, Casey says, “Is that your old pet turtle? The one who got mutated?”. This little piece of dialogue is so important to Raph’s character but it sadly goes over a lot of people’s heads. It indirectly tells us that off screen, Raph has opened up to Casey and told him about a traumatic and hard time in his life. Progress that we will continue to see as the show goes on.

Season 3 Raph at the Farmhouse was the peak of his character development! Raphael took charge in that arc. He became the temporary leader of the group when Leo was out of commission due to his injury. After losing their father (reminder they thought Splinter was dead by this point), being chased out of their home and the city, and losing to one of their greatest enemies, Raph stepped up. He took care of everyone. He made sure that Donnie, Mikey and even April kept up with their ninja training, he was the one who is always prepared during an attack or new threat (ex: when he and the others were trapped in the geyser in the episode Eyes of The Chimera and he was the only one with a grappling hook to help them get out, criticizing his brothers for not being true ninjas and how they should be prepared for anything). April even states that for months, Raph stayed by Leo’s side when he was in his coma, refusing to eat or sleep, and when Leo did wake up, Raph was the first to help him get back on his feet, taking him out on walks to help get his strength back. 

Raph not only was there for Leo, but he was there for Donnie. After Donnie gets heartbroken when April rejects his music box gift in the episode A Foot Too Big, Mikey is sympathetic, but Raph hits Donnie with a much needed reality check. He tells him bluntly “It's never gonna happen, Donnie. We're mutants. She's a girl. You're a giant talking turtle. The sooner you get used to it, the better.” Even with that though, Raph acknowledges his brother’s broken heart and quickly tries to cheer Donnie up and get his mind off April with some training. Then later in the episode, when Donnie expresses how uncomfortable he is with Big Foot’s romantic gestures, Raph once again nails it perfectly by telling him, “Now you know how April feels.” Some may say what Raph said was mean and how he should’ve put him down more gently, but in truth this was something Donnie needed to hear and no one else was gonna do it any time soon! Someone had to open his eyes to the situation, and Raph was the perfect candidate. 

The final brother dynamic in the farmhouse arc with Mikey and Raph was little when it came to screen time, but Raph still shows how much he loves his little brother after Mikey gets captured by the Punk Frogs in the episode The Croaking. As soon as he sees Mikey, Raph drops everything mid fight to hug his brother, relieved for his safety, though the hug abruptly ends after Raph and Mikey find the situation to be “weird”, a very brotherly response if you ask me XD 

With this, we know full well how much Raph loves his brothers. Despite his “lone wolf” attitude in season 1, Raph makes it clear from the very beginning that he does care about his brothers more than anything else in the world. He's loyal, he stays by his brothers' side and has admitted countless times that he would rather die than see them get hurt. "I have no problem risking my own life, but risking my brothers?" (S1 ep14) and he states this again in the next season, “Sorry, Slash. My brothers come first, no matter what.” (S2 ep7). Raph makes it clear (to the audience) that his brothers and his family always come first (so I don’t know why fans keep saying he hates them).

Also, anyone that says that he abuses and is a bully to Mikey needs to go touch some grass because that is a big fat lie and you obviously didn't watch the show (or you're an only child). Brothers are going to fight and pick on each other. That is normal! As someone with an older brother (who is much like Raph btw), I can confirm that siblings to this and in the end we still love each other and have each other’s backs. Out of all the brothers Raph is the most protective of Mikey. The second he learns that Mikey is hurt or someone wants to harm him he is the first going in for the attack or the first one to take action to protect Mikey and bring him to safety.

I mentioned this earlier, but I love how Raph grows/learns to respect Leo as a leader, though he still questions his brother’s judgment from time to time. By season 5, in the episode The Forgotten Swordsman, Raph and Mikey are out on patrol and start talking about Leo. Mikey expresses concern for Leo to which Raph says “He just misses Master Splinter. Being sensei's hard on him. I just wish we knew-”. Raph gets cut off, so we never know what he was going to say, but I headcanon he was going to say “I just wish we knew how to help him.” Raph acknowledges Leo’s growing stress and pressure of being the new sensei after Splinter’s death and he wants to help out anyway he can, but he (and everyone else) just don’t know how. He looks up to and respects Leo and cares about him a lot more than fans and even he himself believe.

Though we see very little moments of them, my overall favorite brother dynamic is Raph with Donnie. I like how Raph is the only brother who is direct and tries to help Donnie move on from his crush on April because he worries and cares for Donnie and knows he’s sensitive when it comes to his feelings. Even when Raph shows disapproval of Donnie’s crush on April, Raph will still be a wingman for Donnie. In the episode Operation: Break Out, after rescuing April’s dad from the Kraang prison, Raph starts hyping Donnie up in front of April to make him look good. Also Donnie refers to him and Raph as “The New A Team” in the episode Arena of Carnage (Mikey does too at one point in another episode, but later he calls him and Raph “Team Awesome”). I just think Donnie and Raph are a fun team and a very underrated sibling duo of “brains and brawn” in the series. It deserves more love and attention from fans.

I’ve talked about how much Raph cares for and is loyal to his brothers, but he is the same towards his friends too. He's protective of April, being the one to go rescue her from the Kraang in the episode The Kraang Conspiracy. He’s even the one who’s words get to April when she was possessed by the alien Za-Naron in the episode The Power Inside Her, reminding April about how much she cares for Donnie which gives her the strength she needed to free herself from Za-Naron’s control. Raph shows he cares for Casey's safety when they do dangerous missions that are out of Casey’s element and was the one who made sure Casey was safe when he was cursed by Alopex’s blade in season 4, and despite their past, Raph is always worried and shows concern for Slash.

Raph shows throughout season 2 that he has faith in Slash to turn to the side of good (something Raph gets proven right about later on). Raph is even one of the first people to trust Slash when he returns with his new team The Mighty Mutanimals in season 3, despite Leo's harsh judgements and suspicion.

The strange thing is, it is usually the other way around, with Leo wanting to make allies and Raph being the distrusting one, a dynamic switch we will see again in season 4…

I can’t make a 2012 Raphael appreciation post/character analysis without talking about the queen herself, Mona Lisa! As mentioned previously, Raph is a softie, and one of the biggest examples of that is when it comes to his relationship with his love interest, later girlfriend, Y’gythgba aka Mona Lisa. When trying to survive on the ice planet, Raph is the only one to suggest that he and the others should team up with the Salamandrians to find the metal they need to fix their ships and get off the planet. Though Raph’s plan is highly motivated by his newfound feelings for Mona, he knows that it is the best option that can help save his family and friends, and despite Leo dismissing the idea, Raph sneaks off alone to convince the Salamandrians himself. 

Raph’s feelings for Mona Lisa have always interested me, specifically how he fell for her. Unlike his brothers with their love interests being the cliche “love at first sight”, Raph’s was “love at first fight”. We all know how Raph fell for Mona, they fought each other after a misunderstanding and after one good punch to the face Raph was smitten. He quickly began admiring her strength, acknowledging what a power punch she gave him, and amazed by her skills and spirit as a warrior. Raph admits right from the start that he loves Mona because she's “bigger, stronger and a better fighter than” him. He never once feels that his masculinity is being threatened when around her, and throughout their relationship never told her to not be herself. He loves that she's better than him as a warrior and can beat his shell! He shows excitement at the suggestion of him and her sparring together someday in the episode The War for Dimension X. He adores her, and never cares about others' judgment regarding his relationship with her. When Casey laughs at him after discovering his crush on her, instead of denying his feelings or getting angry at Casey and later the others for mocking him (something we would expect Raph to do), Raph instead continues expressing his romantic interest in her to everyone. He opened up about his feelings to others! If S1 Raph met and fell in love with Mona, I’m convinced he would’ve been a tsundere and just be in denial about it the entire time, not wanting to look soft because he has a crush. Raph met Mona at the perfect time in his life. He has emotionally mature. In truth, I think Mona made Raph a better man and was the key to help him continue his character growth throughout the rest of the series.

A good example of how much Raph has changed and matured is when Mona betrayed him in the episode The Evil of Dregg. Discovering that his first love, the one person he trusted “more than anyone in the galaxy” betrayed him, broke Raph’s heart and his fighting spirit. When Mona pleads for forgiveness, you can understand Raph’s anger and now he’s not quick to forgive her, but even when he’s mad at her he still loves her. Look at Raph right before Mona goes off into battle:

If he was truly mad at her, he wouldn’t be looking back, his back would be fully turned, refusing to have his eyes meet with her’s. He looks back at her but he’s not looking at her with anger or hatred, it’s sorrow. Raph still cares, he’s just hurt at the moment. Because of the betrayal, Raph believes that everything he and Mona have been through meant nothing to her, but then Mona assures him that his doubts are wrong when she tells him that she loves him for the first time, and that’s all Raph needed to hear to bring back his fighting spirit and run into battle to join her. Raph even snaps and tries to kill Lord Dregg after he harmed Mona and shows just how far he’ll go for her if someone ever tries to harm her (he does it again in S5 when Bishop insults Mona, he quickly jumps in to defend “his woman”). By the end of the episode, Raph and Mona reconcile. Him forgiving her shows how much Raph has grown as a character. S1 Raph would never have forgiven her, he would’ve held the grudge and not let go of it, but this Raph knows what Mona did was out of her control, she was blackmailed, so Raph did the mature thing, understood her situation, and forgave her. Him forgiving her shows how strong their love for each other is, and they keep on showing how much they love one another throughout the rest of the series. 

Some other little details about Raph’s character that I like is that he's an animal guy. With his first pet Spike and the rooftop pigeons, we see a side of him that everyone else rarely gets to see. This minor trait about his character speaks a thousand words. It shows that he is gentle and caring at heart despite his tough persona he gives out to everyone else. We see this not only with Spike in seasons 1-2, but also later in seasons 4-5 with his new pet, Chompy Picasso.

By the time Chompy enters Raph’s life, he has matured. The purpose for Spike was for Raph to have someone to talk to about his feelings and express himself without judgment. Spike was like a therapy dog. Chompy however is not that. Raph has learned to open up by this point in the story, so he doesn’t need Chompy to talk about his personal problems and frustration as much as he had with Spike. Yes, Chompy is there to listen to Raph but at this point in the story Raph is open and expressive and not afraid to show his feelings to others. Raph has probably mention things to Chompy he still wouldn’t say to others (like in The Tale of Tiger Claw, he talks about Mona Lisa to Chompy, seeming that this isn’t the first time he’s done this), but Chompy isn’t a pet for Raph to vent to, instead he was a way for Raph to learn a new responsibility. Chompy is just a baby who just needs someone to love him, to look after and care for him, and Raph is that someone. He took a big responsibility to take care of Chompy after it was believed that his mother, Tokka, was killed. Raph doesn’t need another therapy dog, no, Chompy needs a caregiver, and when Tokka returns to take back her baby, she sees how much Chompy loves Raph and decides that it is better for him to stay on Earth with Raph where she knows he will be safe. I will always stand by this: Raph needed Spike, Chompy needed Raph.

This is probably an unpopular opinion, but I think Raphael is more similar and a parallel to Splinter than Leonardo is. Leo may be Splinter’s “best pupil” and next in line to be sensei for the Hamato Clan, but Splinter and Raph have a lot more in common than the show’s canon or even the fandom acknowledge and it hurts to think of the wasted potential. Raph obviously inherited Splinter's temper. We see in flashbacks that when Splinter was a young man he had an uncontrollable temper that Shredder could easily manipulate, and we still sometimes see that temper blow up in the show when Splinter is upset and disciplining his sons. There’s more similarities though than just them both being hotheaded. They both have a love and appreciation for art. Splinter mentions in Lone Rat and Cubs that he always wanted to be an artist, and it’s well known he loves the renaissance artists. Raph being an artist is a cute and fun little detail about his character that I really like and you see many times in the show, but fans barely acknowledge. He’s the one who painted the Venus pin up girl on the Party Wagon, he gives his girlfriend the nickname “Mona Lisa” (which he indirectly tells her that every time he calls her Mona Lisa he is reminding her that she is a beautiful work of art), and names his pet "Chompy Picasso" after the artist Pablo Picasso. Not to mention that both men know the pain and fear of the woman you love dying in your arms. I love Raph’s relationship with Splinter in the show, and it’s honestly way more interesting than Leo and Splinter’s.

I love their little “Spike, chew on your leaf…” bit in season 1 and how they bond over the Japanese mantra to help Raph overcome his fear of insects in season 4 (btw Raph being scared of bugs was so fun, I like the trope of the big strong dude being scared of something so small and harmless). The episode ends on a fun note, Splinter tells Raph to not tell the others of the mantra cause he “might use that trick on them one day”, showing that Splinter has a devious fun side to him similar to Raph’s.

Is 2012 Raphael perfect? Not at all. No character is. He still has flaws, but I feel that’s what makes him such a fun character still. I feel he had the best and most character development in the series. I love his voice actor, I love his character development, I love his relationship with his brothers, friends and girlfriend, I love all the little character details about him from his love of animals to his passion in art. It’s just my personal opinion, but I think 2012 Raph is the best version of Raphael. He has faced injustice in this day and age with fans misrepresenting his character and hating him for the wrong reasons. You don’t have to like him, everyone has their own opinions on certain characters and I respect that, but there’s a time when not liking him goes too far with saying he’s a bully and abuses his family. The haters can go argue with a wall, 2012 Raphael is the best and I love him, and I hope this post made you appreciate him a little bit more too <3

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Same thing (I don't know if the last one said 'x reader' or '& reader', but the difference is platonic versus romantic, as an fyi)

Rottmnt & female!reader where Y/N has the sort of big-sis presence April has, but she basically adopts everyone she meets, and her thing is to give them nicknames that relate to something they do or reminds her of them (and she gets mad if anyone else uses them). Torts kinda short-circuit the first time she refers to them by the given nicknames, and she doesn't even realize (but when she does, she kinda blows it off)

~Can be Raph x reader also because he would absolutely melt at a s/o as protective over his brothers as he is~

This is definitely not because I often see Raph angst and think "Nooo bubby it's ok!"

Or Donnie is Tinker. Cuz he likes tinkering

Mickey is also bubby but also lil'Mike

Leo is Baby Blue

Don't bully me this is my head it controls me I don't control it

~🌺👸

This is INCREDIBLE Anon! Don't worry, I'm working on your other asks, but this one CALLED to me! (I did make it romantic with Raph, because he is my favorite boy 😌.)

RISE BOYS WITH A BIG-SIS READER.

Leo:

Leo adores you.

He loves spending time with you,

And it's kinda a competition between him and Donnie to see who can keep your attention.

Raph is winning by default though.

Leo loves that even though you're like a big sister,

You nowhere near as over bearing as Raph.

But he knows you still worry,

So he trys to tone it down a bit.

He gets so genuinly happy when you laugh at his jokes.

Like he will literally, hug you everytime you laugh.

Without fail it makes his day.

As for his nickname,

He's totally not a supporter.

At least that's what he tells everyone.

"Hey, Baby Blue, help me with these boxes, will ya?"

*Dramatic sigh*

Leo goes to you for advice on things he doesn't want the others to know.

Like if he's nervous about how they'll react to something,

He'll go to you.

Because you don't judge.

You just listen, and once he's done talking,

You'll tell him what you think, and how to go about the situation.

Leo loves you, and the second you stepped into their lives, he dubbed you, "Big Sis (Name)."

Donnie:

Donnie likes having you around.

At first he was kinda apprehensive,

But the minute you took on the role of older sister, his vision kinda changed.

He enjoys spending as much time with you as possible.

Mostly because of how good you are at listening.

Never, not once, have you ever interrupted his rambling, or explainations.

You just sit there, and wait untill he's done to ask questions.

And he loves that.

That's another reason why you're the first to see a newly finished project.

Because every single time, you wait for him to stop talking,

Then you tell him how cool it is, and how proud you are, and ask questions about it.

Ngl,

The first time this happened, he teared up.

But don't worry, they were happy tears.

As for his nickname,

He is not a fan,

He will scoff everytime.

"There you are Tinkerbell! I thought I lost ya."

"Scoff!"

You didn't think I meant an actual scoff did you?

Lol.

You have to try and keep Donnie from doing stupid stuff to test his inventions.

And if you aren't there to prevent the stupidity,

You're always there to bandage him up, and scold him.

But he doesn't mind, he knows it's just because you care.

Mikey:

Mikey absolutly loves you.

Whenever you come to visit,

He'll stop whatever he's doing to give you a hug.

Doesn't matter what it is he's doing,

You will get that hug.

His favorite thing is drawing you pictures.

You have so many, you can barely see your wallpaper anymore.

But who cares?

You probably have the best decorated room in all of New York thanks to those drawings.

Mikey LOVES his nickname.

It makes him feel special.

"Where's my Little Dumpling!"

"That's me! I'm her Little Dumpling!"

Mikey does his best to impress you,

He just wants to make you proud.

So he likes to show off when your around,

And it scares the crap out of you.

Just make sure you don't turn your back for to long,

Because he will accidentally hurt himself.

You have pretty much taken on the role of mother around Mikey.

Raph:

The second, Raph met you he was whipped.

Poor boy short circuted for like a full 5 minutes.

He loves how much you care for his brothers like their your own family.

He thinks it's amazing that someone else can love them like he does.

If they ever stress him out,

He'll talk to you about it because he knows you can relate.

The two of you are pretty much parents to three extremely chaotic children.

Raph loves that you give everyone nicknames,

He thinks it's cute.

He loves his nickname,

And he gives you one of your own.

"Big Red! come help me look for my backpack, I lost it!"

"Sure thing Cutie Pie!"

Raph invites you over as often as possible.

Movie nights,

Just some regular old quality time,

Anything he can do to have you over.

He just loves spending time with you.

You two are always trying keep the younger ones from accidentaly killing themselves.

And it is not an easy feat.

But hey,

You two are trying your best.

.........................................

There you go Anon! I hope I wrote this to your liking. It's kinda rushed, but I personally love it.

[amevello-blue]

Ohmy god fusions seeing older versions of themselves without leo ahagdhjdicheb. Like, can you imagibe the way it would just make their fears from almost losing leo stronger in the future?? Like everytime leo sacrifices himself they just feel their souls evaporate on the spot??

It had taken a few minutes of staring, but Raph had finally spotted what about the older Raphael had thrown him off at first glance. The older version of himself wore a familiar blue mask around his neck like a necklace. His blood ran cold at the sight of it, and he glowered. Anger boiled up in him like bile in his throat.

The urge to march over and demand how they'd lost him made him go rigid where he stood, fingers digging into his palms as his knuckles went white. He wanted to grab all three of the other versions of them and ask what happened, what led to this, where did he go, how did they bury him, how did they find out?

What was the last thing they said to him?

What had he done wrong to lead to Leo dying, and oldest brother's mask hanging like a memorial around his own neck?

A quick glance at Mikey and Donnie confirmed that they had noticed too. Mikey had shuffled closer to Leo, taking his hand in silence. Donnie looked troubled, studying their older selves as though he could extract answers just by staring.

Leo, to his credit, seemed unphased, even though he was squeezing Mikey's hand. He focused instead on the embarrassment of being caught signing and instead maneuvering a wave out of it in a moment of panic. He hadn't meant to catch their attention, not really. He was glad he had, though. He was happy his little brothers were all grown and had a little family they were taking care of, even if it meant he wasn't there.

He hoped his death had meant something, changed something. That was all he could think.

Maybe he had a limited amount of time with his own brothers. Mikey was going to make the most of it, by the way he tugged on his arm and their eyes met. Just as some of the kids with the older versions of themselves ran over to greet them, Mio formed in a flash.

Mio was a master at pushing down the dark thoughts of how much time Leo had left, of how he'd died and how he wanted to die. Mio wouldn't have any of it. Instead he focused on entertaining the kids while Donnie explained the fusion ability, surprised that this was what made them unique.

An accident.

Mio wondered if it would be enough to save Leo from the same fate as his other self.

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another snippet from the @tmntaucompetition shenanigans, continued from this post because I ended up thinking about it a lot but then panicked about responding to it on there and then I got this ask so I just wrote it here instead cause it's mostly just what's going through their heads and I'm emotional tonight don't mind me,

Anyway the "older versions" and the kids are @virgilisspidey 's :')

[ducknotinarow]

Continued from [here] | @starsandsavages

One would think growing up with three brothers would keep Raphael from feeling alone. But he did, he felt like know one understood him always felt like he was often in the wrong as well. That no matter what he did it was always going to be wrong. The way he went about things was wrong, the way he acted was wrong hoe he reacted was wrong. Raphael was just wrong. A list of insecurities that seemed like it went on forever. It was always why Spike was his comfort, his once pet that he could speak his mind to with out judgement on what he said. Because Spike didn't think those things about him. And Raphael guessed he still felt that way even with Spike as Slash now.

All he wanted was his Spike back, that ear that always listened to him because he didn't have that. He tried but even when speaking to his brothers? It didn't go well they just never understood where he was coming from when he spoke to them. Not Slash though no Slash always seemed to get it. But Slash also still insisted that Raphael would be better off with out his brothers. Raphael said it enough times right? but at the same time.

Raphael listened to Slash still uncertain of it all "Yeah sure they are grown but Slash, they are still, my family, if 'm not there? well what if somethin' happens to 'em?" he questions it. it was always a fear he held on to what if he can't do enough to protect them? He has lost, and nearly lost each of them too many times for the turtles liking. Luck on their side to bring them back sometimes Raphael being the one to do it. They needed him right?

The smaller turtle doesn't flinch of pull away when Slash brings him closer to their side, near about soaking in Slash's presence beside him right now. A faint smile tugs to the corner of him beak as he lets his eyes close a sucker for the slightest taste of the affection Slash was giving him right now. Old comfort with just something more, that gets his heart to suddenly beat. Offering a tilt of his head to better look at Slash right now. He felt so torn over it all. His brothers or Slash? He can't have both can he? Green eyes flicker away for a moment. "Slash course I like how that sounds you know I do,but my brothers" sounds like the run around is coming again. But then recalls what he admitted. How do you fight against your own loyalty? He sighs thinking of what Slash promised. Freedom. "I feel like 'm gonna go crazy! I feel like everytime I go back down there 'm just dying, ike everythin' bout me is dying all to just fit into some stupid image I gotta fit cause as 'm now? isn't right isn't enough...isn't good." He vents slightly letting his words hang in the air a moment. "But I don' feel that way wit' you Slash." he confesses wanting to see where that gets him.

"with you? I feel 'ike I don' have to be nothin' else and, that feels nice." He adds on a faint touch of heat to his face as he slightly chews on his bottom beak. "it's jus' hard feeling stuck between two sets of people I love and care for." the reason he couldn't give Slash the answer they wanted why he kept going back and forth when they talked about this. Just Raph looking for a push on either end to help make this choice final.

[itsyagurlchip]

𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑.Video Game Lover𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑.

ੈ✩‧₊˚Donnie x Reader 💜

ੈ✩‧₊˚cuss warning!

ੈ✩‧₊˚Donnie loves to talk about his inventions! Everyone knows that. So when he gets near the reader, why does he get so quiet? Anyone sniffing out some 2018 glmm? Many adventures indeed, some easy while others aren't.This is the prologue btw.

(chapter 1)

Something had been off about Donnie. You weren't sure why, but everytime you walked in the room his face would turn slightly red, and he would start mumbling in the middle of his science rants. If you had made a move to stand 6 feet from him, he would either find somewhere else to sit, or he would leave the room. The weird part was, you and Donnie were besties. He would let you into his lab, you ask him about his day, and sometimes he would even let you help on the small parts of inventions! 

Nowadays he avoids you, every time you walk in his lab he stays quiet the whole time. One day even went as far as ignoring you the whole time at the lair. When you asked about it, his face got red, he looked to the side, and walked away slowly. At first you thought nothing of it, maybe you got a bit close to Donnie and he needed space, but this has been going on for almost half a year. The only words you guys occasionally share are "Hey", "greetings", and "see you later". And don't get me started on texting.

"Is he angry at me? If so, he needs to let me know…what's going on Dee?" I asked as I was laying down on my bed, the room decorated with bits and pieces of sewer decor from the turtles. Mikey and Leo would show up and give me small rocks, chunks of cool shaped metals, and vintage or rare items that were once lost. To put it simply, my whole room looked like a garage for a mini hoarder. 

My phone fell on my face for the umpteenth time, I'm pretty sure it's supposed to be bruised by now.

As soon as I sat up, I got a text from the team's group chat. I think I'm their getaway, and sometimes last resort to things because I don't join missions often. Which is fine with me, I have school and exams for the end of the year.

_____________________________

Cool Reptilians+2 hoomans ig

he does look like  

an old peanut…

3:43 pm

navysimp  

@ifeedustraws-

@ifeedustraws!!

dude [name]

hey you gotta come over!

ITS DONNIE

ifeedustraws

alr

I honestly hope he's breathing

I can never tell what u guys do

I'll be there in abt 10

ieathestraws

hurry!!

Dee is not okay 😥

As Mikey was the last to respond, I closed my phone and grabbed my shoes and hurried behind my apartment. I lift the cover and look away, needing a few moments before the stench went back into my nose. I jumped into the sewers, already regretting it as gunk splashed onto my legs. I gag aggressively, this shit is chunky and slimy as fuck. No matter how many times I jump in, I will still never get used to it. I get out of the weird stuff, and run on the side, rushing to the lair.

I'm so glad I memorized the way from the house to the lair, or I would've been lost by now. I see fairy lights as I approach the turtle's home, no one seems to be in the main atrium. Infact, the whole place seems to be empty, except for Donnie's lab. I huff heavily and groan at the thought of having to climb after running.

I climb up to the second floor and walk towards the purple doors. Me not running, and not doing the pacer test has put a strain on me. I stood up straight and fixed my hair, along with my clothes, and took a deep breath before knocking.

"Hey guys? You in there, you said that something's wrong with Donnie?" I called out, a few beats of silence before the door suddenly opened. I was instantly dragged into the room of tech, purple and blue lights tinting everything inside. Turns out, it was Mikey who grabbed me. He looked panicked as we went towards Donnie's computer.

"Leo said something about you taking too long? And then Raph went after him, April is busy right now, and you know Dad…" Mikey explained as he shoved me to the screen. Looking closely, you could see a sprite of Donnie going in circles, like it was a loading screen.

"Donnie making a game of himself is normal, what's wrong?" I was starting to get impatient, if this was a prank I'm beating that turtle's ass.

"That's the problem! That IS Donnie!! We went to Mystic City, and Donnie bought this sketchy game called- i-don't know! it's these weird symbols!" He showed the case of the game, me only noticing now that his hands were shaking. '⚐☠☜ 💧☟⚐❄' was plastered along the screen.

"One shit?" I said aloud, the language confusing me. My hands were on my hips now, deadpanning at Mikey. Now this is just getting annoying.

"Huh? you can read it?"

"Of course, as a former Undertale fan, that font is called wingdings. That's not the point though, where is Donnie so I can shove this shi up-"

"B-but [name]! Donnie is in the game. I'm serious! He went in after he pressed start! Or enter? I DON'T KNOW!! I just want my brother back." He started crying, grabbing my legs and sobbing into my knees.

"hush sweet child, I'll get him out" I say, nearing my hand to the keyboard, struggling to stand because of Mikey's grip.

"[name]? what are you-waitwaitwait-Dont- NOO!" It was too late, as I had already tripped over, pressing the button. My body started to pixelate and slowly fade. Is this Jumanji? IM GONNA FUCKIN DIE-

"MIKEY GO TO YOUR BROTHERS, HURRY DUDE!!"As if the game had heard me, my body started fading faster, making me panic. Mikey went to go to the door, only to be blasted back by Raph and Leo.

"[NAME]? ARE YOU- oh shit"

"MIKEY WHY DIDN'T YOU WARN THEM?"

"I DI-"

As a last attempt for survival, yelled, "LEO LIKES DIii-" Cutting me off as my mouth was the last to fade away.

"Leo likes WHAT?" A gruff and deep voice said, before my environment changed a lot.

This was the last thing I heard, before I myself going in a vertical circle. Weirdly, it didn't make me dizzy, in fact it calmed me down. I then saw all white, before flashes of color spread all around me,

fjkl;tredhiajwbwuahjal-

GAME LOADING...

...

...

to be continued...

[qoeww]

WELL, I LIKE THE PROM IN THAT WAY

You need someone to take you to the prom and softshell turtle is here for help.

Character: Donatello

Writing type: Headcanon

Warnings: None just fluff <3

Author note: I'm sorry if I made grammatical mistakes, English isn't my first language ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ

Prom night was approaching. Everything was almost done. Except for one thing: Cavalier.

Two days left to the party and unfortunately, there is no one to take you to the prom. Why did everybody find their date at the beginning of the year? While thinking anxiously, you ripped off the skin near the nail with your teeth.

"Hey, what's that anxious aura?" Leo pressed the skateboard with his foot and caught it in the air.

"I'm just worried about prom."

Now you caught all turtle brothers attention. Perfect.

"Prom? Where you dance to music with your friends?"

You nodded. "Yep Mikey."

"Aaah, Doctor Feelings loves the prom so muuuuch!" Mikey crossed his hands on top of his chest.

"Oooh, and don't you choose queen and king end of the night?" (You could see reflection of he is imagining himself sitting at the throne in his eyes.)

"Prom..." You turned your head to the purple turtle when you heard his muttering. His eyes were shining and eyebrows had lifted.

When he felt your eyes on him, he cleaned his throat and looked another way. Classic Donnie, trying to act like irrelevant, bad boy behavior.

There was no one who didn't know that he loved school so much. He always finds reason to come to school.

Like one day you just texted him "I lost my cat eraser ;-;" After 2 seconds he was holding a new eraser (Purple. Purple eraser.) And stayed for the whole day.

"Hey D. Do you want to go to the prom with me?"

Well, for one minute absolute silence reigned in the lair.

"YOU ARE TAKING DONNIE?"

"I wanna come too." Mikey gripped your left leg and hugged.

"Well, (Y/N) I don't think this is your best idea because we don't look like hu-"

"AHA- YES, yes I'm coming. Which hour did you say?" Donnie proudly stood up and stepped in front of Raph.

You give every little detail about prom and leave the lair like how you did 1 proud and 3 disappointed turtle.

And yes, Donnie showed off how you choose him over them.

After Donnie gives himself a break to drink water, Mikey said "Wow, you are going on date with them."

He spat out all of the water in his mouth

Realization hits him now.

He. Is. Going. To. Prom. As. Your. Date.

OH SHOOT

Maybe it is a friendly proposal, maybe it is not. You two had not opened your feelings to each other and he was sure you have things for him but he didn't want to understand wrong and make himself look like stupid.

But no worries, his brothers are here for help!

2 days passed like hell, he tried to listen to all his brothers tactics. (Except Leo's cheesy lines because he believed if he says them to you, you would bust your ass out of party)

When the day come, he wore his suit and come to your door.

He pulled back his hand everytime he tried to knock the door and it took almost 5 minute.

You opened the door because of the noise, there is a Donnie fighting with Mind Raph.

He tried to smile at you but... It is kinda scary but you didn't tell him

He doesn't know what to do, don't blame him

"Ah D... You look so handsome." You tried to stop yourself from laugh

Ah, yes. The compliments he deserved and waited for long time

While walking to school he gave compliments to your look

Oh boy, if your clothes his color, it will boost his ego and will be more confident (You guys are matching and looking like a real couple)

After coming to the party, it didn't took so much time to Donnie understand this place isn't for him.

Yeah, he likes dancing, fun (and proving his dance moves are better than others) but he didn't like the idea of doing it in a cramped space where bodies collided.

But he is refusing to tell, he is sipping the drink you took for him and trying to talk like a "normal human teenager" (Splinter please tell this child teens don't act like at Rivalde)

"D, come with me. I have a thing you would love"

You hold his hand and dragged him to the schools corridors.

After arriving technology club's door, you took out the keys

Teenagers don't notice what was taken from them while dancing

"Since we are in the last days, dead electronics will be thrown away. Soooo I thought maybe you would like to take them"

Donnie instantly forgets all the stress and dives between the pieces inside the box.

"OH MY GOSH, I can use this for my Mixer-3007-A and these pieces will let me update Sheldon's..." He explains to you what the pieces will do or not, excitedly and shouting a little

His face is looking so cute: eyebrows are frowning and his cheeks are slightly red from excitement; he looks like a crazy but cute scientist.

After analyzing all the pieces, he turns to you to tell how he is happy

But you are not here

BROKEN HEART HURTS SO MUCH-

Where are you? Did you get bored and leave him? He starts to fell unconfident

Mind Raph yells at him to find you so he do

He opens the door rapidly and almost bump at you.

"Where are you going D-"

"I THOUGHT YOU LEFT ME"

*sigh* "I just told you I was gonna get some snacks"

Let give him a minute to have a little flashback and remembers it.

After remembering he quickly apologizes and helps you to carry snacks.

You both sit on the floor and grab Donnie's hand and pull it towards you.

"Donnie, you don't have to be so nervous, just be yourself. The time we spend is really fun, don't push yourself."

Donnie really doesn't get it, yes it's nice to spend time with him he admits but that's not even the point of the prom. You need to dance and hang out with your friends.

You just need to explain the thing important is not prom, him. You liked the prom in that way.

The night is progressing very sweetly, you two even dance to the music heard from all over the school thanks to the speakers. (Donnie even shows you his moves to justify his username. Just. Wow-)

[freestyle-crocodile-trashpile]

WOOOO ASKS R OPEN💪💪💪

would it be cool if I got a rise raph hcs with an absolute chaos magnet boyfriend, like the reader and leo are like 🤝 best buds when it comes to causing (accidentally or not) chaos, like he's always getting into trouble and giving Raph heart attack's everytime he sees his boyfriend running at him a full speed because he adopted a puppy that was had an owner he didn't know of who was a foot member or something 💀 just some hcs of what it'd be like

tysm

— uh I forgot my thing tbh 🌪️? maybe idk lmao, I was the one who said r.i.p to ur toast&stuff

[A/n:It was bagels. Thank you for requesting]

Summary: You Raphs boyfriend are a chaos magnet that's best buds with Leo

Type:Hcs:Raph X Male Reader

Version:Rise

Raphael

So, it was a ride for Raph

Like first he got a boyfriend, surpriseing but great

Than your chaotic? It was a wild ride

He loves how your great friends with Leo

But you running at him full speed, is terrifying

Like why are you running? Oh yeah, cause you stole a lost dog, that's normal

Oh, yeah that dog, belongs to a foot member....

Raph has decided throwing you in the trash like a broken cup, along with Leo

But he hasn't

He loves you, but if you can't calm down a little he's gonna throw you in the trash can and just walk away

Not break up with you, just literally throw you away

No hard feeling

But he's use to Leo being crazy and chaotic

He doesn't need another one

[A/n:I hope you enjoyed]

[memes-in-a-half-shell]

Mmm 32 148 and 152 for Raph??? Please?? And thank you ❤️❤️❤️❤️ have a great day 💕

32: You wanna have sex with me 148: Your lips make me wonder what you taste like 152: Don’t cover your face, I want to see you

That combination made me smile, not gonna lie 👀 I was listening to Gwen Stefani - Luxurious while writing this 👌 Features a F!Reader.

It’d be lying if you said you didn’t feel some sort of attraction towards Raphael. Sure, you both had been teasing one another from times to times - the sexual innuendos just getting bolder and bolder as the weeks and months went by. Ever since you met him, there was no denying that his whole self pretty much checked all the boxes of what you looked for in a man. Well ... in a mutant man, that is. 

Just imagining his arms around you. His toned muscles safeguarding your body. Everytime he smiled, you could only grin in return, slightly squeezing your thighs in delight. Damn, that man...

That night you knew he was swinging by to your apartment before going on patrol, and you were definitely on a mission. You were absolutely going to lay your cards on the table and tell him how you felt. It was stressful, in a sense, but at some point you knew you just couldn’t keep it for yourself.

You dressed up nice, your makeup on point. You wanted to charm him at first glance - knowing being bold with him was always a thrilling experience.  As you heard a knock at your living room’s window, your heartbeat suddenly fastened, feeling a stress induced lump in your throat. You still went to greet him, not missing how his gaze swallowed you up as soon as he got in.

“Shit, is there somethin’ special tonight?”

His voice sent a shiver down your spine, a good enough wake up call to get you back to your senses.

“Can’t I make myself look nice sometimes?” you replied, amused.

“If by ‘sometimes’ you mean everytime I come by, then I ain’t mad.”

Oh you guessed it, big boy. You couldn’t help your hands on him, mindlessly ‘adjusting’ the straps over his chest and his bandana’s tails.

“How much time do you have?”

“Depends,” answered Raph, cocking one brow. “Somethin’ on your mind?”

You simply dived in:

“Sex is what I have in mind.”

... Pause. You didn’t even dare look up to his eyes. The harm was done, now you could only expect the outcome of this blow... At first you heard a hushed chuckle coming out of him.

“Wait... you wanna have sex with me?”

You gulped, finally meeting his gaze. He wasn’t mad or afraid. In fact, he was showing that same smile that would always send butterflies to your stomach. You simply nodded, at a loss for words. That simple gesture of yours triggered a low churr from the turtle, your senses suddenly flaring up. You felt his hands on your back, one travelling to your hip, another inbetween your shoulder blades. He was studying your features, definitely trying to sense your intentions. He couldn’t help his tongue darting quickly out, somehow eager for what was to come next.

“I ain’t gonna lie, your lips do make me wonder what you taste like....”

“So do I...”

The relief you felt as soon as you both joined in a kiss, nothing in the world could ever compare to it. All the tension that had built up, all that desire, it all came crashing down like a wave over you. All that was happening; it was now or never. You couldn’t release him, standing at the tip of your toes, your body flushed against his plastron.

“Fuck, babe....”

His tone had been low, tainted with his growing desire.

“I wanna keep you against me all night long.”

“What about patrol?” you asked, in-between kisses at his jaw.

His hold on you slightly tightened, nuzzling you as he took in your scent.

“Fuck that. Fuck Leo. Fuck everything. ... Hell, the only fuck I’ll give is fucking you.”

You hummed in delight, your nails lovingly scraping the scales behind his neck, suddenly eager for more.

“Keep talking,” you said, lovesick. “I love your voice and the words coming out of your mouth.”

You felt his renewed smile on your skin, his arms soon lifting you against him. All movements felt like a blur as you kept kissing him again, only rendering at the last second the fact that he had now moved to your couch, laying you down on it. The pace fastened, thanks to all this bottled up thirst, both your bodies soon caught up in a dry clothed hump, hips circling against one another and craving the proximity. Oh shit he felt so big. A blush invaded your cheeks as a drunk smile showed on your lips.

“Oh Raph...,” you mewled.

“You still want this?”

“... More than ever.”

You couldn’t quite place your finger on it, but you knew this felt so different from anything you ever experienced. The sheer power emanating from him was somehow recomforting, especially now that he was behing so careful with you. You wanted to be at his mercy, give your whole self to him and you wanted to experience the entirety of him. He got your shirt out of the way, prompting you to remove your bra afterward, while simultaneously kissing him once more. You weren’t a stranger to the texture of his scales and his chest plates, but to feel them bare against your chest, it was sending a lightning bolt through your body.

“So perfect,” he murmured, taking a good look at your form.

As you sensed him move to kiss across your chest and down your stomach, you could only bring your arms across your face, suddenly feeling flustered. As he removed your bottom half, your core could only shiver in anticipation, his churr resonating through your entire being.

“Don’t cover your face, I want to see you. All of you...,” he said. You dared move your arms, revealing your hooded gaze, yearning for more. Your eyes scanned him, realizing he was still dressed.

“And I wanna see all of you too.”

“Doll, you only had to say so.”

Damn, your eyes could only feast on his form as you watched him strip. That confidence he was showing only made things easier, knowing you both wanted this right here and now. Your legs could only hook at his hips - as best as you could - once he was back to you. You first both joined in a kiss, chaste ones definitely out the window. It was deep and needy, your tongues brushing in sweet caresses, your hands cupping his cheeks only so he could stay close even more. There was no need for words anymore, the rhythm now at an hypnotic pace and leaving you both longing for what was to come next. God, you both had waited so long to be close like this... To feel him inside you next was a pleasant surprise, his hands lovingly squeezing your skin, his churr even louder in his throat.

“Holy shit...,” was the only thing to escape his lips.

You only moaned in answer, your arms hooked around his neck. His thickness rubbed you in all the right places, knowing you would probably never experience anything better than this... As you started to get lost in this, a sudden beeping noise rose in the air, both of you freezing, still locked, and looking towards Raph’s shorts left on the floor. You knew it was his t-phone, the mutant frowning.

“... Aren’t you going to answer it?” you asked.

He looked back to you: “And have Leo scream at me? Hell no.” He kissed the top of your head. “Let it ring, for all I care. Right now I’m doin’ something important with someone that matters...”

You couldn’t help that small giggle escaping you, a sigh of relief coming next as you felt that tantalizing dance of your hips taking pace once more. As the t-phone’s ringing died, it was soon replaced with your quickening breath, moans muffled against the terrapin’s scales.

“I never wanna stop,” sighed Raph, his arms hooked around your form and never wanting to let you go.

As you moved your head to expose your throat, Raph’s lips found solace on that part of you, suddenly bringing a myriad of fireworks behind your eyelids and to your brain.

“RaaaAaaAAHh-” you messily said his name, the rush of your orgasm debilitating your ability to speak.

You felt him shiver, knowing he was feeling that pleasure of yours around him. He grinned, lovingly nipping your skin:

“I ain’t done with ya... I said I wanted to keep you against me all night long, and I intend to keep up to my words. ... I have to make you pay for all that accumulated teasing.”

Good lord, you couldn’t imagine a better night than this one.

[kurlyfrasier]

Terrified: Part 4

Raph x Reader

Synopsis: Raph saves you from ruffians one night in an alley after watching out for you for weeks without you knowing. Which leads you to getting to know the guys and becoming part of the family. But Raph keeps a distance and you don’t understand why. 

Word Count: 1708

Warnings: None

I woke up later than intended- much later, as in waking in the afternoon later- red-eyed and weary from the tears shed the night before. I had decided, once I had calmed down enough to think beyond losing the boys- most especially Raph- that tonight would be my last movie night. At least, for a while. I also planned on telling them they need not walk me home after work. Granted, I had no idea how I planned on convincing them that they weren’t needed. 

Maybe I could tell them I’m moving? Getting a new job?

I sighed, looking into the mirror. If tonight was going to be my last night seeing Ra- them, then I would make the most of it. I decided I would look my best, without looking desperate...hopefully. Sadly, this meant I did not get to start my new book since l only had about an hour until Mikey would be here to pick me up. Yet another reason to stop burdening the boys. Regretting the fact that I wouldn’t get to wear pajamas like I usually do on movie nights, I trudged to my closet.

A little over an hour later Mikey found me in the middle of brushing just a tad bit of make-up on; to cover up my red-rimmed eyes. 

“Whoa angelcakes,” he drawled once I stepped out of the bathroom, eyeing my long, fitted sweater dress- because it gets cold in the lair- and warm leggings with comfortable Chuck Taylors. 

See? Not desperate. Comfy.

“Raph is gonna lov-” He stopped himself short when I gave him a quizzical look. “I mean, you look hot, dudette. Got any plans tonight?” he wiggled, what one would call, his eyebrows, erupting a giggle out of me. 

“Only to hang out with my besties, that’s all,” I shrugged, grabbing my phone, hoping he wouldn’t comment about my not-so-usual outfit once we got to the lair. I really did not want it made more obvious than it already is.

“Sounds like the best plan, but are you sure you don’t wanna bring pj’s for after?”

“I’m sure, Mikey,” I smiled reassuringly up at him as he plucked me up out of the window and onto the roof. “These are just as comfortable as pajamas, promise.”

“Okay then, let’s go,” he helped me onto his shell. “Can’t wait to beat you in a new racing game I got,” he hopped from roof to roof, holding me tight. I couldn’t help but compare his smaller, bulky size to Raph. I don’t think I would have been able to hold on to his shell quite as well.

“You’re on, man. But don’t come crying to me when you lose.”

He barked out a laugh and we stayed silent until we got to the man-hole cover.

“Hey, angelcakes,” Mikey started sheepishly when we got to the bottom of the ladder, scratching the back of his neck. “I wanted to ask…”

“Yeah?” I gave him an encouraging smile.

“Did somethin’ spook you last night?” He blurted out.

“No,” I furrowed my brows, confused about where this is coming from. Unless…

“Raph said you were running for your life after you got off the subway. I just wanted to make sure everything is okay.”

“Oh,” I tried thinking of an excuse, averting my gaze. “I just didn’t want to be a burden, is all.”

Not a complete lie.

“A burden?” He looked shocked as I turned toward their home and started walking that way, hoping to hide my despondency. “You’re not a burden, angelcakes! Besides, before that night in the alley, Raph was already-”

I stopped in my tracks as Mikey sauntered ahead.

“I mean, we like making sure you're okay. We don’t want a repeat of that night we first met,” he continued rambling, but I wasn’t listening. I wanted to know what he was gonna say about Raph. After a few steps he realized I wasn’t next to him anymore. “Come on, Y/n. Don’t want ya to get lost.”

I nodded, unwilling to ask my question as we continued our trek to the lair. I took a deep, calming breath to brace myself before entering the living room area where I knew Splinter, the wonderful father that he is, would be prepping for homemade pizza. Donnie had made an old brick oven not long ago and built it directly underneath a grate above that they only opened when baking pizza so the smoke would have an escape. I found it ingenious because now they could have pizza whenever they wanted. Which was always. A small smile formed at the thought.

Not five steps in and Raph blocked my path, arms crossed as he assessed me for injuries. I stared straight into his chest, unable to meet his all-seeing gaze. He would know something was wrong the moment we made eye contact, he always did.

“Bro, she’s fiiiine,” Mikey sang, lightly punching Raph’s shoulder as he walked by. “I would never let anything happen to her. She is my precious sister, after all.”

Raph ignored him, grunting in approval with a curt nod before walking away. Allowing me to breathe again, not realizing I had held my breath in the first place.

~~~~~~~~~~

Raph was anxious to see you. He had been attempting to work it off all day, to no avail. Everytime he closed his eyes he saw you, standing in front of him, looking small, keeping your thoughts to yourself. 

He growled in frustration, clenching his hands into fists. If only he knew what had you so utterly shattered last night.

He needed to see you.

He needed to know you were safe.

Raph breathed out a sigh of relief when he heard you and Mikey coming, but stopped short when he saw what you were wearing. Vaguely, he wondered where you had come from to be looking so good. That red sweater stuck to your form as if it was painted on. It may have covered almost every inch of skin from your thighs up, but it hardly left room for the imagination. Thos leggings did the same.

Where were your baggy pj’s?

Robotically, he blocked your path to determine if you had been hurt. Really though, it was all a ruse. He just wanted to have a good look at you. He crossed his arms over his chest to keep himself from holding you close. The fact that you wouldn’t meet his gaze had his blood running cold. You always at least gave him a tentative glance and a smile. Next to him, Mikey said something about you being his precious sister, but all he could think was that you were his precious everything. He didn’t even feel his brother’s light punch as he walked by.

He grunted as if saying “that’ll do” and walked away, wishing he knew what was wrong. Wishing he could make it all better.

“I’m gonna go help Donnie with something before we play, okay Mikey?” You spoke barely above a whisper before heading to Donnie’s lab. 

The moment you were out of sight he rounded on Mikey. “So wha’ didya find out?” he growled in in his face.

“Nothin’, bro!” Mikey held his hands up in surrender, backing away. “She said something like not wanting to be a burden. I don’t know. She was kinda quiet though. I barely got her to smile.”

“But nothin’ ‘bout wha’ scared her?” he asked low, peeking around to make sure you hadn’t decided to come back.

“Nadda. Just said she didn’t wanna be a burden. I told her she’s not. That we like takin’ her home, but,” he paused when he noticed Raph shaking, stiff as a board. “Uh-oh…”

Raph stomped away toward Donnie’s lab, barely able to comprehend what Mikey was telling him. 

You? A burden?

Never.

He planned on shaking you to your senses until he heard what you were saying to Donnie.

“...gonna take some self-defense classes so you guys don’t have to walk me home anymore. What do you think?”

Raph leaned against the wall, going to a whole new level of low with eavesdropping. He decided it was worth it if he could figure out what was wrong.

“We could teach you,” Donnie offered offhandedly. “Besides, we like taking you home. We can actually have a conversation as we protect you.”

“Nah, you guys are busy as it is,” you paused. “Plus, I don’t want to bother you guys even more.”

“What are you talking about, Y/n?” Something clattered, a sign that you have Donnie’s full attention. “You’re no bother. Did something happen?”

“No, nothing happened,” you sighed before continuing quietly. “I just- I might be getting another job-”

“You’re a terrible liar, you know that, right?” Donnie chuckled in an attempt to lighten the mood. “Is this about last night? I heard you were running from something.”

“Ugh! I wanted to get home faster! That’s all,” you fumed, stomping a foot, demanding why the boys kept asking you about last night.

“We’re worried, Y/n,” Donnie stated calmly. “You spend a lot of time with us. That could make you a target. Especially if anyone figures out how much you mean to Ra- uh… us.”

“Fine,” you seethed. “I’ll stop hanging out with you guys, then. That way nobody will have to worry about my safety.”

Donnie’s call for you fell on deaf ears as Raph snuck into the darkened room across from the lab, your steps echoed down the hall. He sunk low in the shadows and held his head close to his knees, eyes shut tight in a sad attempt to keep the tears from flowing freely. He couldn’t breathe. His heart felt as though it were being shattered into a million pieces.

You were leaving? The thought ricocheted through his brain.

What had happened to bring this about? Everything was fine until last night.

Maybe someone got to you already? The thought had his blood boiling. Allowed him to breathe. He had a purpose; to find out what happened in the ten minutes you were on the subway. He was determined to keep you close. Keep you safe. No matter the cost. Even if he had to lock you in his room.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Part 5

[kyandice]

I HATE SCHOOL

Im just prolly writing all my thoughts I’m having everyday.

Smol print: This is a post which i might edit everyday if i have the time, and its technically a very cheesy dairy.

(10/01/2017)

Maybe i just cant study at all. My PEM is now teaching me a module this semester and he’s asking me to pay more attention during classes. Thing is, i dont even talk in class. I’ve been trying so hard to concentrate in class but i just dont understand any fucking thing. Seems like i failed CEP and Mr Herman wants to meet me after PEM class.

Lol, and i wanted to skip PEM class so Bryan doesnt have to wait that long for me. And lmao idk where i placed my contact lens (it wasnt even in my bag). Without my contact lens im not gg to Tkd training. I hope my lenses are somewhere at home PLEASE. It would take me another 2 weeks for me to get my contacts after ordering it.

Okay whatever, back to me not being able to concentrate in class. So yeah, i just dont understand anything and i end up staring into blank space or maybe start daydreaming. I think i failed Inorganic Chem and Math too. Idk im just worried for myself and my GPA. ok no, im mot worried about myself. Im more worried about me failing 2 or more modules and my PEM has to meet my parents, it’s gna be a disaster. Im so gna be fucked up. I just have no motivation for everything else.

Its really hard juggling a relationship, studies and CCAs too. Okay, for my situation, it isn’t really that bad. But maybe after a long run, im really worried that it might turn out bad someday. Im like typing this as I’m nearly breaking down in lecture and im holding myself so hard back to stop tearing up. Maybe im just too fucking paranoid, i think too much i just overthink too much and i hate it, it screws me up. People ask me what i would actually do if he starts getting cold again. Maybe I’ll miss him too much and start getting detached from everything and stop having the motivation to study or do anything in particular altogether. But for now, he’s always waiting for me for like hours just to spend the time with me after classes and i feel really, really fucking bad.

Anyways, U talked to me about his break up that happened a few months ago with J. And apparently, he lost feelings. But he also mentioned that J was really insecure as well, he had alot exes and yeah J was just alittle paranoid and insecure that U might just be playing. (idk why im like writing this maybe i just had to divert my mind somewhere else so i wouldnt cry in lecture) but yeah, U assured J that he was genuine and sincere but J was really guarded and apparently U was starting to get tired of assuring her. So she got paranoid and yea. Then U told me not to get too clingy and obsessive as he might get annoyed by it someday. He might think that it’s cute and sweet now, but someday he might get annoyed and U said that i wouldnt want someone to call me disgustingly clingy and obsessive after breaking up.

So yayyyy, im like really really really really happy these few weeks. He has been really extremellllyyyy sweet to me, he’s treating me really well too. He has been starting to say that he loves me like really constantly and its just reaaaaly reaaaaly sweet. And we had deep talks yay. Ive always suspected that he might some family issues as he always tried to avoid questions about them. But i never wanted to ask him like, i mean, if he wanted and was ready to tell me, he would have. So yay he finally told me idk i just wna hug him forever he’s so precious and vulnerable actually.

(okay fuck there was a 10min break i ran from chemical life science block to training ground and he wasnt there😭😭😭😭😭 so i ran back to science block i was like 1min late but class havent started so thank god. His phone has no battery and he has nothing to do for 2h maybe more cuz i have to meet PEM fuck i feel so bad i want to cry right now. He doesnt have his phone charger so he has nothing to do for 2h and there isnt anyone on training ground so he’ll be alone :(( no i feel fucking bad i want to cry so badly right now, i should’ve asked him to just go home. Now idk where he is im worried that he’s gna be very bored waiting for me fuck)

Gosh i think he went home already. But like if he went home shouldnt his phone have battery. Where is heeee :(( im so worried right now. Where could he actually beeeee :(((( okay imma hunt for him in school. He isnt at south and north canteen. Okay maybe library. He’s not at the library either. Okay maybe he went home and slept but didnt charge his phoneeee :/ shouldnt have asked him to wait for me. Should have just asked him to go home.

So yayyyyy he didnt went home, and actually waited for me. Okay thank god he wasnt alone, he was with raph and a few othr tkd ppl. I was so gna be worried that he might be alone with his phone battery flat, doing nothing. But i guess he was alrighttt.

I want a lip product. Idk lip tint, lipstick, liquid lipstick. idk i just want one. Like i want one red not those bright red, but like orangey lighter kind of shade red.

Fuck, my stye isnt curing. There’s like 2 styes in my left eye.Its sucks, it looks really ugly and digusting. I really hope it gets cured soon.

Apparently, Mr Lee asked Vincent about my bad grades. Lee asked vin like if he knows why my grades are like so bad. And Vin was like, oh, maybe becuz of r/s. But actually it isnt, i have been having bad grades since last sem. Idk i just have no motivation to do anything, i dont understand lectures and tutorials. All i want to do is to breakdown and cry in school everyday.

Okay, so about my contact lenses, it isnt at home. I just couldnt find it. Ive went through all my bags in my room for at least the 5th time already and still i cant find my contact lens. Guess ive lost it. I could have like worn it for another 2 months, god damn it. Now i have to order a new one, and wait for around 2-3weeks for my lens to arrive. 

Y’all might actually ask why i feel insecure without my contact lens. Okay yay let’s start. I might have or might have not mentioned about the guys in my secondary school but yeahhhhh. They are a bunch of idiots which i would probably hold a grudge on them forever. Yes i hold on to grudges pretty long. Apparently the guys in my class hated me so they’ve always teased me and idk i just hated them so much. Okay I dont wanna say that im bullied, it just sounds so weird and idk, i dont people to think that im making a fuss by calling them bullies. But yeah they laugh whenever i answer a teacher’s question, teased me for being ugly, insulted me for alot of things, laughed at me for alot of things too. But ever since i switched to contacts, people started treating me better. Okay, its stupid to think that with contacts, people will treat me better. Maybe, coincidentally the guys in my class have matured when i switched to contacts. So, ever since, i had this thought drilled into my mind that contacts made me look better, and people treat better looking people much better. I mean at first, i thought i was just being silly. Then i started to try things out. I was out with some gatherings from the cosplay community and yeah, they were all strangers. When i’m with my glasses, no one came to talk to me and i wasnt treated as well as when i was wearing my contact lens. When i wore my contact lens, more people were interested to talk to me, i had more attention from people and yeah, i was just treated so much better than i was wearing my glasses. It wasnt the first time something like this happened. I’ve tried many times to different group of strangers and it always seems that wearing contact lenses made people treat me better. It’s kinda silly and childish for me to think like this but ever since ive gotten contacts, i had it drilled in my mind that that it’s how people work. People treat you better when you are better looking. I also felt less insecure and much more confident about myself everytime i wore my contacts. And idk i’ve been depending on contacts ever since to boost up my super low self-esteem.

So If i dont wear contacts in front of you, that would probably mean either. 1) Im very comfortable with you, i trust you alot and i see no problem wearing just glasses and looking unglam in front of you. Or 2) you mean nothing to me, i dont care about you. Examples for 1) would be Roy, Vin ,Zane, Aloy, Alfie, Daina, Alicia. I mean i really trust Roy and the rest alot, they’re really good friends and they have seen me with glasses outside training before. Examples of 2) would be my classmates or just random people in the lecture hall. But for B, im like really comfortable and i trust him alot, but i also wna look good in front of him so i try to have my contacts on everytime i meet him.

So like many people keep asking why i quitted cosplay so here are the reasons. But lmao nobody knows my tumblr, im writing everything here just to rant stuff, nobody would even read it anyways. Actually i quit cosplay for a few reasons. I hate it when people used to remind me that i cosplay. Well, sure, i might have kept some pictures left of some certain cosplays. But that is because the picture taken was really nice and i really wna safekeep it. One reason was money lol. I dont have money to actually buy all the costumes and props and those bullshits are fucking expensive, its just seriously a waste of my precious money. Another reason was, it wasnt really socially acceptable, people find me weird, a creep,idk. I used to be really proud and optimistic about cosplaying since it’s actually a very special hobby, but i guess some things are really hard if people always tease you about cosplaying as it is not very socially acceptable. And since cosplaying also require alot makeup, i can cut down cost on my make up, so yayy i still can save more money.

Today with Bryan was just amazing.Okay everyday with him is just fking amazing. Apparently there wasnt any movie to watch because i might go over my curfew but yayyy we actually just sat down at the swing and just talked. Sounds typical, but he loves me when i cant love myself. He’s the best thing that could ever happen to me and maybe waiting for him was actually all really worth it. I’m really an insecure person and he always has to assure me that im beautiful, gorgeous and adorable to him. He’s really the most sweetest and romantic things ever and it’s just really extremely cute. Even i get annoyed everytime i feel insecure about myself. I Love Him sooooo much i would never want to lose him. Omg this is getting fucking cheesy HAHA.

Let’s talk about money. I’m in debt. I owe so many people money i feel really bad. I dont really wish to have squabbles with friends over money, like seriously, it’s fucking stupid. I want to stop borrowing from people, i dont want to make this into a really bad habit. 

i wanna cry so bad :(

[freestyle-crocodile-trashpile]

what would it be like if raph donnie leo and mickey from tmnt 2012 dated an extremely elegant tall (like 6.1 tall) educated vampire boy who is great at flirting and also very romantic and who loves to give fancy gifts to his little turtle like flowers chocolates and other expensive gifts the reader may even have rented an extremely fancy and expensive restaurant just to have a one-on-one date with your little turtle (alias they are separate headcanons just to be more specific)

A/n: I was gonna have this do quicker but I ended up accidentally clicking a notification and lost all my progress. But thanks for requesting

Summary: the turtle boys with a vampire boyfriend who's tall and romantic

Version:2012

Donatello

He was shocked

Not only did you get him expensive things but also was very romantic and flirty

So let's make one thing clean

He's not prepared for all this attention

Everytime you get him something or take him on a date he's a flustered mess

He sometimes thinks that you can do better

But everytime you do something for him he can tell you love him dearly

He actually sometimes crys at night when he thinks about everything you do

And while he crys he eats the chocolate you got him

Or holds the flowers while crying

He just can't handle all this love you have to give him some time to adjust

But he loves you dearly just trying to process all the love and attention you give him

The first time he cried in front of you because of all the love was when you rented out a restaurant for you two

You panicked but when he explained he talked to him about slowing down a bit

But he said it was fine he just got to adjust

He trys to make things in return for you

But he feels like it isn't enough until he sees it

If it's something you wear he is so happy seeing you wear it

And if it's decoration and he sees it in your house not put away or hiden he almost crys

But hey when he adjusted to all of your attention he's finally ready to try and return it

It didn't work his flirting was horrible

Michelangelo

When he gets all the attention he loves it

Like he's so happy when you get him anything that he's almost shaking

He's love everything you do for him

Oh those flowers? There still alive in his room, those chocolates? He's sharing them with you

He doesn't cry but instead crushs you in a hug no matter how tall and big you are

Your gonna have to take a moment to catch your breath

He definitely asks you if you need to drunk blood

If you say yes he's offered for you to take his

Do you? Maybe

But all the dates he's loving and will try to help with flowers or something

But that's not easy when you love in the sewers

He always flirts back with you even when he's flustered

And when you make a romantic date he's probably being dramatic and fanning himself with his hand

Just to set the mood

He loves it when you laugh when he does that

Buy hey a turtle got to do what a turtle does

So he turns the flowers you give him into a flower crown for you just for fun

Or when you give him some flowers but the ones you gave him a couple of weeks ago are still alive

He will turn the very alive flowers into a crown so they last longer

He had cried before about something you did for him but hey it gets emotional sometimes

Raphael

He feels like a king

Everything you do for him makes him feel superior

Also he rubs it in to leo that his boyfriend is amazing and leo is lonely

Leo isn't pleased

But hey his brother is happy so Oh well

But when you take raph to a fancy restaurant that you rented out

He can't even form a sentence

He's just so flustered that he can't form a sentence

Just has a lovestruck look

And everything you give him he pit somewhere in his room thats easy to look at

So not tucked away

He isn't very fond of chocolate but loves it everytime you give it to him

He's just not gonna let you see when he gives it to one of his brothers sometimes he give it to splinter

But every flower he gets he puts it in a vase in his night stand

He feed spike a flower once

He can't keep the flowers alive very long like mikey but hey at least spike will eat them

Everytime he looks up at you he gets mad

Your just so tall

Why

He doesn't care but he thinks alot about how your a vampire

He even wonders if you'll drink his blood while he's asleep

He doesn't like that though so he likes looking at your fangs

But he can't not look when you eat meat

Its just so crazy how your teeth sink into it like it's a melted marshmallow

Just like Donnie he had to adjust and sometimes crys to himself

Then he reminds himself you do it all for him and he feels superior again

Like you'll hear him laugh as he thinks about that

Leonardo

Boy was flabbergasted

He didn't expect a vampire to fall inlove with him

He's a turtle and your like a king so he doesn't understand

But he's a gentleman to you

And when you return the favor he'll blush

But of course you can't see it

He love everything you give him

Especially flowers

He's a plant mom what can I say

He's room is covered in plants and he isn't ashamed of it

He'll tell you every plant you gave him when you see his room

And the chocolate Oh my he's obsessed

He's like that one guy from SpongeBob that just yelled chocolate over and over I can't remember if the guy like chocolate or not but oh well

He loves it

He'll hand feed you chocolate if you let him

Then hes surprised when you do it back.

But what got him was when you took him to a fancy restaurant

This boy was in shocked

Like thats the last place he would expect you to take him

And when you pull his chair out he's already about to cry

Like he's ready to live the rest of his life with you when you go above and Beyond for him

Like he's just setting their thinking about getting married well you talk

Then he thinks about how that's a bit far

But when you keep going with he gifts, flirty comments, Romantic dates, and even flowers

He's ready to get on one knee for you

He goes go splinter since he doesn't know how to react to you

And splinter just tells him to be himself and be ready for a good relationship

And he also said he didn't what grandkids yet

Leo's face would have been a tomato if he wasn't covered in scales

You can hear him whine dad from the kitchen

A/n: sorry if this took awhile I lost my progress and couldn't remember what I wrote before hand. But I hope you enjoyed