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goldensunset · 1 year ago

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peach the moment any offical art comes out we're all gonna flock to using that instead and it won't get any better

perfect. i can’t wait

#pweeease #i love this girl’s design but i think her render looks a little unpolished #everything still looks better than how it did back in april 2022 #backgrounds all look gorgeous. renders of human characters still need a bit of work imo #asks #ngc-5194 #kingdom hearts #khml

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unionizedwizard · 6 months ago

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don't. mind me 👍

i guess it's just. well. i feel a lot better these days, i only have to make sure to (ffxiv momence) look to the future and let go of the past, which is fun because i can literally not think about anything that happened between 1998 and, like, 2022 without Experiencing Extreme, Localized Endsinger-sponsored Despair and Pain. And also, technically 2018-2022 is not that bad of a period compared to the previous decades, but it's got its own specific flavor of Unsettling, because 1) I Forgor. like i literally forgot 90% of this time period. 2) every time i talk to my friends (who knew me back then) they mention something i said/did during these years and it feels. So wildly out of character. Like "he would not fucking say that" except that i apparently did, and i have no recollection of anything but i'll have to take their word for it, and it's. hm. terrifying! It's like my body was piloted by another consciousness for, like, 4 years straight, i forgot all the books i've read, all the new people i've met, most of the conversations i've had, pretty much all i remember (sort of) clearly is my cats, and even then the timeline is extremely blurry. I know it's a widespread and rather normal phenomenon to look back on your past self and feel like they're a stranger, lost to you now, but i cannot stress enough how literal this is for me. I really feel like i've been replaced by a doppelganger for four years. My blog (main) is, i think, more recent than that because i remember deactivating at some point so ive lost a lot of archives, but even then, when i scroll back several years, i mostly have no idea what 80% of my posts are about and have no memory of anything

But on the other hand, ive felt basically as if i was my 20yo self again since 2022. Extremely weird. I had this.... weird.... merging.... memory.... moment on august 1st 2022 and when i woke up i *was* the person who lay down To Die For Real in april 2018. it was. so confusing for so very long. i knew where i was because i was living in the same place and woke up in the same bed i'd been lying in back then, but everything else was ????. it even took time to adapt to my CATS, i only remembered catgar for a bit since he was there in 2018

and the weirdest thing was that suddenly, memories i couldnt access for four years (2018-2022), and specifically knowledge i couldnt recall during this time period... suddenly came back. clear as day. for four years i'd been trying to remember pretty much everything i'd read and learned in my philosophy classes in uni, and it didnt work, even trying to read the books themselves didnt work because everything felt blurry and nonsensical and illegible. this was one of the reasons i had to give up on my philosophy major when i went back to uni in september 2018. and then suddenly, after "i" (this self who had been to university as a philosophy major) woke up in august 2022, i could remember everything i'd studied from 2015-2018, with astonishing clarity. i didnt even need to make an effort, words and ideas came back to me spontaneously and everything made sense again! but on the other hand, pretty everything i had read and studied in uni (as a comparative literature major) from 2018-2022 was Lost. blurry and nonsensical and flat-out Forgotten to this day. and i still hold (some) memories from this time too, so it's really strange to try and make everything make sense. truly like two badly mixed set of memories/selves having to cohabit, on a daily basis

anyway that's not what i meant to say in the first place. but something that's becoming... more and more pressing, and real, these days (more of a long, months-long process) is that. well. i remember so much of my childhood and teen years, with such perfect clarity, and i've only told a tiny fraction of these memories to friends (and usually expunged from actual emotional weight. comedic deflection is my middle name). and i know i need to stop talking about these awful, terrible, sordid stories at all because it doesn't... do anything good. it hurts people who hear them, usually they can't stand it too (understandably so), and it is true that it makes me feel worse, but. and that's the problem. then why. what was it all for. will it all simply be ignored, denied, and then forgotten after i die with no one to remember about it? not only did i not get the most basic nurturing most people get (as infants!), which is actively ruining my life to this day, and which effects can only be somewhat lessened over time (if *i* put in the effort, which is. exhausting AND unfair to boot), not only did i lack these basic foundations... but i have to hollow myself out of whatever *is* there, too, for both my sake and others'? what then will remain of me? a ghost of a ghost, emptied out of all the filth and pain and poison at best, like i was simply born as a 25 years old? i never felt like an actual human person to begin with! the alienation is as old as i am!

I already forgot and was alienated from my 20 to 24 years old self, and i should also... simply ignore and repress and keep quiet everything else that i've experienced my whole life? This feels so unfair! My memories are the only thing testifying to this injustice, everyone else simply is rewriting the truth to make it convenient and comfortable (mother's side), or flatly ignoring everything out of a sense of unease (guilt?) (father's side). Should one simply erase this child from the world at all? From reality? From collective memory? It's not the child's fault their very presence brings suffering and discomfort to anyone who even glimpses them. And why should we keep ignoring them? And yet it *is* the best option. So really, what was it all for? There's no possible closure or understanding or justice or retribution or forgiveness or revenge, should i simply pretend none of this ever existed? There is no justice in this world, and i don't even know what form a possible justice could take in an ideal world, and i don't believe in heaven or anything like that, and i'm tired of looking to the future without having any kind of secure network and having to rely on myself only for everything and trust in my own resilience, but also this can never be remedied and i know it (don't "found family" me please) and it's just like.

how do you live with the knowledge that nobody ever came to your help, nobody rescued you or even tried to, you had to do it all yourself, and this can never be changed or helped, and if you look to the past it will only burden and destroy you further as well as harm the people who now care about you and are in your life, and you can't fix anything and the only way is forward, and erasing your entire childhood self, your memories (the good mixed with the bad) is the only way to keep on living? should i have to erase myself to have the faintest hope to live? i'm a hollowed-out mind in the best days, when this can be construed as lightness. is this fair? is this fair? is this fair?

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fruitgummies01 · 4 months ago

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Just a question out of curiosity.....That you said you became BTS's fan after jhope was already Enlisted which probably means after 18th April 2023 and initially you were kinda in tkkrs space as in u saw more of their content cause of algorithms or wtv So how did you become jikook's fan? What i mean is in 2023 there isn't much of jikook seen together like in all previous years, because previous yrs it's like jikook were attached at the hip compared to that they weren't really seen together much and i guess even after April 2023 there's Taekook appearances here and there too so without having much of jikook content at hand how did you thought that they were probably closer than others?

This is just a question out of curiosity cause honestly i thought that most of the people who would join around 2022-23 will always have this impression of jikook that they're just co-workers who work for the same band and nothing else lol. Not like antis don't try to spread that agenda everywhere since forever.

Hmmmm. I'm deciding whether to make this a long or short post haha, because I really have so much to say about this. When I first started getting into BTS there was just soooo much content, but one of the things that would constantly and consistently come up with be tkk content. And I don't even mean in the shipping sense (at least not at first). Large update accounts would post about them frequently, and almost all if not most posts would be about them under any content. It was like BTS as a group and then tkk, those were the two things that I was seeing on a regular basis. Being a new person to the fandom, you take what you see at face value, especially if so many big accounts seem to be cosigning what is being said (and again based on what you said, because there was a lack of any jikook content, a lot of people just weren't pushing back on a lot of things that were being pushed). . And because the algorithim is what it is, I started getting recommended tkk videos. And again because I didn't know any better, I would watch them and that again would shape my opinions of the other members without fully knowing it. I started to believe that tkk was the foundational friendship/rs/whatever you wanna call it ship within the group that everything pretty much revolved around if that makes.

Looking back on it, a lot of the videos that I would watch to get myself acquainted with the group painted Jimin as the one being all over Jungkook and not respecting his personal space and wanting attention, and they used (what I would find out later) to be manipulated videos or videos taken out of context. So I began to form these somewhat negative opinions of Jimin (which is ironic because he is now my bias).

But to answer your question, how did I become a fan of jikook, it sorta happened in stages. I already had in the back of my mind when I would watch compilation videos of BTS, that I really wasn't seeing any um, emotional chemistry between tkk (that's another story), but I over looked it because I just figured it was because I was new. I think I mentioned this before, but Tae being seen with Jennie in Paris was a HUGE eye opener. And honestly, I might still be wrapped up in that side of the fandom had that moment not happened. But I'm so thankful it did, because it allowed me to see with my own eyes, in real time just how they lied and gaslighted fans into believing that the whole thing never happened by making up these wild theories. That people just believed without any pushback, and how that information was just parroted back to other people in this sort of weird circle. My brain just isn't wired like that, so I stopped watching those compilation videos and edits because I realized none of those people were reliable (no offense), and went back to watch all official content (that actually painted a completely different picture).

Watching Jungkook's weverse lives played a big part in changing my opinion on Jikook and Jimin. That man would bring him up without fans having to say anything, and be happy to talk about him. And what's apparent about Jungkook in getting to know him, is he never fakes anything, so if he's talking about him, it means something to him. Both Jimin and Jungkook would also say things insinuating that they had watched the other's weverse lives, which I thought was interesting. That weverse live with JK in bed trying to entice Jimin to do a live was also another turning point. I still laugh thinking about JK saying he would take his stuff to wash up AT Jimin's house, when he could've just done so BEFORE leaving. JK was on a mission that morning haha.

I should say after all this lol, that I am still not 100% sold that they are in an actual romantic relationship. I see A LOT of signs that point in that direction, but with cultural differences anything could be possible. I do see a beautiful and deep bond, especially with these AYS episodes and them enlisting together right afterwards. Even though they were planning to spend every day together for 18 months, they still carved out time in their insanely busy schedules to spend even more time together filming AYS. Regardless of what their labels are, it's clear that they are both priorities in each others lives. I think they both need each other in real ways that are very different from the ways they need the other members. I wrote a lot so I'll stop here, but I could go on, but won't haha.

#ask #thank you for the question #sorry that i wrote a lot lmao #jimin and jungkook #opinion

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altarofpersephone · 6 days ago

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for riy and riy only.

i always loved writing messages for you spontaneously, i think it’s part of the entire charm of it. admittedly, it’s been a while since i last wrote something personal, and despite a certain gemini ex claiming my writing is shitty, i’m still going to go ahead and write you a (quite lengthy) message.

i can’t remember the exact details of when we met. and frankly, i’ve no inkling that we already knew each other prior to me dating rami and you dating hannah. at the time, around september 2021, the date that i estimated we met, i thought you looked so cool, with your theme and your username and your witty bio, blah blah, albeit a total asshole with how i was made to perceive you. we rarely interacted, with both of us being preoccupied with our designated lovers at the time. ivory (or hannah) was absolutely obsessed with you. i had no idea why, because the way she portrayed you to me was a little… off-kilter. along with this, you were friends with rami, which is a red flag all on its own!! lmao. i formed this opinion on you without truly knowing you, so i avoided you like the plague.

time skip to around march 2022, three months after a new year, and hannah tells me you two broke up. or, well, she ghosted you, and that she thought you deserved it. by that time, we were all off of instagram roleplay™️ and it was easier to maneuver life without the pressures of all the drama. despite that, i came back to instagram on a new account, and we ran into each other. then, you deleted, got a new account, deleted again, and hopped on a new account again. it was all arbitrary, i didn’t quite think you’d be such a permanent fixture in my life, i didn’t even consider the idea of you at all, since in hindsight i was “aware” of how badly you treated ivory.

i guess it all really started after my birthday, and you were (who’s surprised?) on a new account. you dmed me saying you were blu, the guy i had one sided beef with. obviously (and somewhat miraculously), i accepted friendship, because we both got ghosted by ivory, and you told me your side of the story. little by little, i slowly began to understand you, how your mind works, the little quirks that made you yourself (insufferably so). you were such a good friend to me, a great friend, an amazing platonic addition to my life, and i grew comfortable with you.

i didn’t know what pushed me to like you as something as more than platonic, what line we crossed and why we weren’t aware that we crossed it, but we talked so frequently, and we did everything together… it wasn’t that hard to fall for you, i found it so so easy to adore you, that it just clicked to me. so, inevitably, we got together. a full eleven months of perpetuated bliss, and a “breakup” that lasted a week. we continued dating for another eight months, broke up january 25th, then talk on and off between February and april, and ended it completely on april 30th.

i loved you strongly throughout the two years that we were together. i couldn’t imagine a better person to spend my two years with, with all the discord dates and the spotify jams and plato and imessage games; it was easy to say that our relationship was perfect, easy to get lost in all those moments and look away from the negativity. i love our transition from roleplay to something that’s much our real, and i love all the things that we experienced together.

our relationship can’t be described easily, and most of the people perceiving us are obviously looking from the outside in. i like to think, that between that blip of june and january before our breakup, i succumbed into the same thing that ivory fell into: thinking our relationship was perfect and unbreakable and that it had no flaws whatsoever. on the surface, maybe it was. i guess it’s just the fact that we were both too scared or stubborn to communicate the shortcomings that we had as a couple, or maybe that was just me, and we created an ugly gap between us, drifting farther and farther away the more we don’t say. it was scary how fast it went so badly, and i festered a bitter grudge on you, where i somewhat blew out of proportion what really happened between us.

i’m guilty for speaking badly of you to the last person i should’ve trusted, and i’m absolutely sorry for the image i painted of you that i built out of anger and betrayal.

what’s more betraying, however, was someone dating you, who i dated, too. it’s not the idea that hurt, but the fact that this happened right under my nose, and that i had no idea of it. my anger deepened, and so did my grudge.

i won’t dwell on this issue, for fear that it’ll harbor a new gap between us, and it’s truly the last thing i want. i bring feyd up too often, and i would rather not speak about him in this already-long ass message.

we stopped talking for seven? eight months, and you cross my mind every once in a while, which i push down quick, because i really wanted to hate you, and a part of me actually did hate you: for dating feyd, of all people; for having a better relationship with him than you did with me (or so i thought); and for breaking that little respect you had for me by dating feyd.

anyways, i still thought about you sometimes. begrudgingly so; i always told myself that i shouldn’t give you the time of day, that those stupid tiktoks talking about my ex is irrelevant that we’d never actually talk again, and that we’re over. permanently.

the world works in very funny ways.

according to google, the invisible string theory is the idea that people are connected by an invisible string that transcends time, space, and distance.

it’s hard to believe how many times we’ve found each other again and again throughout the years; how fate seems to pull you to me whenever i didn’t think it was likely. we’ve known each other for so long, seen the other’s ups and downs and lefts and rights. it’s hard to believe that we’re entering a new year together, talking again!

we never quite had a heart-to-heart or any serious talks in our relationship, even now, after feyd and our breakup and all that. i think we both prefer to just laugh it off and sweep it under the rug. i think it has something to do with our fear (or maybe we just find vulnerability cringe?) of being too vulnerable. but it’s been so long, and i think it’s about damn time. so i guess this is me laying my heart out to you, for the first time in a while.

this message is so fuckinf lengthy, and it’s hard to summarize how complicated our relationship is, how much i feel for you, so hard to describe how much we’ve been through, both individually and together, to be where we are right now.

let me just preface how i am just so, so glad that it’s you. despite everything, despite it all, that it’s still you.

our relationship is far from easy, but i’m so grateful that we’re navigating it together. hopefully even better than how we navigated it before, hopefully with less bad things to begrudge on, with even more love to feel.

i’m glad that you’re the one that i share everything with, glad that fate brought you back to me, glad that you’ve grown so much as a human being. redundant to my first anniversary message to you, i’m happy to be able to witness you grow even more, to see you be so happy about the things that you love; happy to be included and introduced to all the little things that make you uniquely you, happy to be able to be with you again.

you are truly such a special person to me, and i adore you with all of my heart. every little thing, every minuscule detail, every little traits we have that the other adapts, i adore it all. and i love you, so so much. irrevocably. it’s difficult to articulate how much i love you, how intensely i feel for you. and oh, god this sounds so fucking cheesy, and i’m tearing up a little (more like bawling lolll) while i write this, but i am eternally grateful for you, for all the years, for our friendship, for tolerating me even at my worst (and for giving up, albeit temporarily).

and i hope you know that i will always be here, always rooting for you, even if it’s from afar. though i really hope not lol. you have this way of making me feel understood, even when i’m at my most incomprehensible. it’s like you see through all the chaos and noise in my head and somehow manage to make me feel at ease. and i love youuuu, so so much.

i wish i could put into words how much you mean to me, but i don’t think there’s a language that can capture it properly. all i know is that you’ve carved a space in my heart. i love you endlessly, in ways that words will never do justice. and honestly, i’m okay with that, because some things are meant to be felt, not explained. ugh so corny. i love you, though.

i hope you know that i would choose you, and always you. as long as i am capable of choosing you.

#Spotify

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dballzposting · 2 months ago

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Dballzposting rant

In the DBS:SH movie they came out with the statement that Saiyan children will be little until one day they sprout up like weeds. This was the case for Goku. But this was not how Gohan was handled. But with Goten & Trunks they were like .... No yeah let's get back to that. Let's recontextualize Goku's past into Saiyan canon. Gohan was just a freak of nature and should not be taken as the standard

And for all I know this could have already been an implicit decision done when they made DBS, they just never outright said it but elected to show it.

Or maybe they just didn't want to change Goten & Trunks's designs or personalities too much (more than likely).

Personal story time. Some of you may be aware of my pipe dream of ask-tarble my silly rabbit ask-tarble. When I conceptualized ask-tarble it was April of 2022, and the DBS:SH movie didn't air until August of that same year.

I decided back then to have Goten & Trunks to be around 13 & 14 on ask-tarble (timeline reasons, and also I wanted to portray Trunks with braces for some reason. I did a lot of random things that summer for "some reason." I was kind of off my rocker.), and I also decided to - unlike on DBS - actually show Goten & Trunks maturing in a more human way. I felt at the time that this would be more relatable to an audience, would ameliorate the conceptual infuriation of how that wasnt the case on DBS, and -- ultimately, essentially, long story short -- I Thought That It Would Be the funniest possible thing to do.

Okkkkkkkkkkkk cool fine. But then the movie came out and I felt real fucking funny about my decision (that was already put into motion and that I felt couldn't be taken back). I knew that I COULD retcon the few posts I had going and honor the newfound canon, but, I didnt really want to. I decided to push forward with what I had.

But it still bugs me. And then they recently reinforced that little Saiyan fact AGAIN on Dragon Ball Daima, when Krillin tells Trunks that he doesn't look like he's aged a bit.

Which is fineeeeeeee. Except for the fact that I really don't like to be outright contrary to canon without a solid cause, and I've had hoards of doubts over the past few years about the chosen characterizations for Goten & Trunks on ask-tarble, even though it's all theoretical and in my head still, I just kind of hate what I've set up.

And ultimatelyyyy. This is the big one. I've changed a lot since summer of 2022. I've gotten stronger and better and faster and wiser .....

I thought then that teenage age groups are funny and thats not wrong. But whats also exceedingly funny, that I just couldnt understand back then, is Goten & Trunks as they are now.

Walk & talk with me. Goten is at his absolute funniest when he expresses a negative opinion. It's what makes him real & believable. Most of the time on screen he is happy go-lucky and naive, he is trusting, he is excitable, and this is great fun, but it means that when he DOES think that something is shit, it's so funny. Like when in DBS he thought that The Great Saiyaman was totally lameboat. And then he put on a pair of sunglasses about it.

He's at his funniest when he embodies the conviction of an old man sitting on his porch, as young children sometimes do, learning how to be human by mirroring the adults in their lives - but still putting their own spin on it.

I mean ... If you have an ask blog then you have total creative freedom of what you do. There could be so many funny moments. Extended Son Goten screentime.

It could be precisely like that Tails Gets Trolled bit when Shadow was talking about his gruesome and morbid experience in time jail or something and Sonic was just like "Ok well that's stupid."

That's Goten. He overlooks everything you just said becasue there were a few joints in your story that felt derivative or cheap and so he's just like "Ok well that's stupid."

That would be so funny. And real as well

I mean he could (and will) still be like that as a young teen but it's just funnier if he's a child. He contorts his brow like an old man and makes his evaluation your problem

#dballz posting

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renyen808 · 11 months ago

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Percy Jackson and the Olympians: The TV Show We (and Disney) Needed

Back when I was a child, I had a difficult time reading. In fact, I loathed it. I never understood why we had to read in the first place, it seemed extremely tedious to me. It had gotten so bad to the point where it became obvious that I just did not want to read. It wasn’t until my parents signed me up for this reading thing at my elementary school, where after hours, like dinner time, they would give us a book to read. I wasn’t a fan of this because why the hell would I want to be reading at 7 pm on a Wednesday night? Yes, you read that correctly, a Wednesday! The first session, they made us read a book from an author in Hawai’i. They wrote a children’s book and they made us read it, which I didn’t because it never interested me. So, the next Wednesday comes around and I just expect it to be the same. Just give me my copy of the book that I am never going to read again and I’ll call it a day. But that didn’t happen. For the first time, I actually found a book I was interested in: The Lightning Thief.

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Everything about Percy entrapped me in this mystical world of Greek Gods, monsters, and half-bloods. I was never like this before, reading page after page just to know what happens next. Along with that, since I started reading them when I was twelve, it was a great way to see myself in these different characters, feeling the triumph and betrayal throughout every twist and turn of their adventure.

I read all of Percy Jackson and the Olympians and The Heroes of Olympus throughout my time in school, and also watched the movies, but, while watching the movies, I was disappointed to find that it wasn’t like how I imagined it. They changed aspects of the story that didn’t need changing and in doing so, kinda destroyed the magic that made it so great. Grover was a kind hearted boy and while I like Brandon T. Jackson, I didn’t buy him as Grover. Sure he was a great friend to Percy, but he wasn’t Grover to me. Logan Lerman was the perfect Percy, just the wrong time for him. And do not get me started on Alexandra Daddario as Annabeth, she was the worst offender of the three in my opinion. Them changing every aspect of the story just made me super upset, and do not get me started on that second movie (Love you Blackjack). The point is, as a Percy Jackson fan, we needed better, we deserved it!

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During 2020, I finally got my wish when they announced that the show was greenlit. Everyone around the world rejoiced as we finally got our chance. Once that happened, everyone started to wonder about who would be casted as the titular character. Then, April 2022, Walker Scobell was announced. At this point, I haven’t watched the Adam Project or anything that he has done, but after watching it, I was stunned, I was like, ‘That’s Percy…’ Then, Leah Sava Jeffries and Aryan Simhadri were casted as Annabeth and Grover and the world lit on fire in the community.

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As a woman of color myself, not African American, but Asian, I was ecstatic to see Jeffries take on Annabeth. I’m the type of person that cares more about if they embody the soul of the character than the appearance. Daddario may have looked like Annabeth, but Jeffries IS Annabeth. There are still portions of the community that cannot wrap their head around that the beloved daughter of Athena is a different race, but I don’t care. It is especially prominent in this Facebook group (yes, I still use Facebook) I am a part of to share my love for Percy Jackson. I try to surround myself with like minded people, and sometimes, a few of the racist ones just come through.

As you can see, I loved the series. From the moment I heard Scobell’s voice, I knew the series was built with so much love. I always felt drawn to Percy, being from Hawai’i, the ocean is special to me. I always found his snark and humor relatable, since I am similar with my friends and family. I also was drawn to Annabeth with her no nonsense attitude, along with being a strong female character. Also, cannot forget Grover, the literal glue of the group. The quest would have gone completely wrong if not for him. Scobell, Jeffries, and Simhadri all played their roles to perfection. They are truly the Golden Trio come to life.

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I need to also call attention to all the different actors and actresses who played supporting roles throughout the series. Virginia Kull’s masterful performance as Sally, showing just how difficult it can be on the mortal parents of a demigod child. Glynn Turman as the perfect Chiron, showing a sense of care and concern as Percy’s mentor. Jason Mantzoukas’ performance as Mr. D is a standout, with him completely capturing what it means to be the punished director of Camp Half-Blood. Megan Mullally was an amazing Alecto, bringing a sense of fear immediately into Percy’s life. Timm Sharp played an amazing Gabe Ugliano, showcasing a different way that Gabe could be portrayed for an audience today. Adam Copeland, also known as Edge in the WWE, plays Ares, a terrifying force in the book that Copeland captures perfectly. Also want to shout out Nick Boraine, the voice of Kronos, who brings a sinister feel to the series, showing he is the big bad of this story.

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I wanted to make a separate paragraph for the last supporting character: Luke Castellan. Luke is played by Charlie Bushnell, who really sold me as a demigod feeling betrayed by the gods. Just from his acting in Episodes 2 and 8 solidified to me that this is how Luke is. Granted, the confrontation scene is not as sinister as it is in the book, I believe that the TV series did it better, where Annabeth is there in person to see the betrayal happen. I mean, that is literally her brother betraying her, I cannot imagine what she is going through. Bushnell really sold it as Luke honestly, showing he’s an upset demigod who believes the gods have turned their backs on them. He made use of his time on screen, and I cannot wait to see him in future installments as our big bad.

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Overall, this series is what we all deserved! I understand that people are upset that it was not completely faithful to the books, and that is a valid argument, but I will say this: if you want a faithful adaptation, read the books and recreate it in your head. Nothing will ever be a perfect copy of another, not with humans around. I think instead of nitpicking the differences and inconsistencies between the two, we should embrace the changes. Embrace the fact that this was even created in the first place and be grateful for it. Embrace the fact that we have a great TV show, but god forbid they forget about the scorpion that Luke poisons Percy with. The books, movies, the TV show, they’re all interpretations of the same idea, and we all have different thoughts about the idea, that at the end of the day, at least one person will be a hater. Anyway, with millions of views each episode, I’m sure season two is coming, and with that my boy Blackjack!

#screenandjoystick #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #percy jackson tv show #annabeth chase #grover underwood #walker scobell #leah sava jeffries #aryan simhadri

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solitarydoomsday · 7 months ago

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RAUUUGHHHH BLOCKSTUCK UPDATE FOR 6/12

RAUUUGHHGFHHH THIS HAS BEEN LIKE WAY TOO LONG IN THE MAKIGN BUT I FIGURED AN UPDATE WOULD BE FITTING FOR 6/12!!! its a super short update but i promise i won't leave you guys hanging for 2 years again lmfao. more coming soon!!! >:33

FIRST PAGE: https://mspfa.com/?s=43188&p=1

p.s. explanation for the excruciatingly long hiatus under the cut vv

i feel like i . owe you all an explaination with how long that really took to update. for fuck's sake it's been since april of 2022 since i updated it. i'm not gonna go into too much detail but pretty much Fucking Everything got away from me. that was the year my life kinda went to Shit towards the end and it sparked a really really fucking long depression that i just Couldnt Cope With so i just kind of. rotted. and so did most of my projects.

i'm on antidepressants now though, and i really wanna finish this story, even if it's gonna take me years just to finish one act. i put a *lot* of effort into this just for a simple self insert comic, and even though i don't entirely align with aselus' character anymore, i'm determined to finish what i've started. i still have a story to tell, i still have ideas and dreams for this comic, even if it wasn't initially what i wanted for it. even if it is just, at it's core, a cringy au where my self insert is friends with the main cast of characters. i still love this stupid thing, and i wanna finish it.

*however*,i'm not going to keep up with an "update schedule" anymore. i am, after all, just one guy working on this. it's not like hussie themself had an update schedule anyway. not to mention, i'm making all the music and panels and flashes all by myself, and i am learning how to use half of this shit from *scratch*. the update schedule just adds another layer of stress to the whole ordeal, and i'm not looking to add more stress to my plate with me trying to finish school and get into college early next year. i want this to be fun just as much for me as it is for anybody who decides to read blockstuck. i know that's extremely mushy for a comic like this, but i really do want this to be something i can fondly look back on as something i made that was actually pretty decent.

i already have a backlog of blockstuck panels ready to go, i'm working on one of the first flashes of the whole comic, but i'll start to slowly pump out the rest of what i've been working on when i can or . really even remember.

if you! read this novel of an explaination, thank you for listening to my creator woes, but i hope you can enjoy blockstuck as much as i have making it :) and this is !! hopefully going to be a better "start" than what i already started with.

thanks again to anybody whos stuck with the comic, and also sorry again to hussie for cussing them out when i first started this comic, lmfao. i still hate their guts but i love their work. Guh.

anyways. happy 6/12 everypony

#homestuck #blockstuck #aselus meleph #karkat vantas #mspfa #mspfanventures #mspfa update #6/12 #self insert #trollsona #homestuck oc #limeblood

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c-ronus · 8 months ago

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ok I've seen alot of people give kind of there story of how they got into fable so to the best of my memory here's mine:

Tw: mentions of death and cancer

So i found fable around 3 strikes that was my first lore stream that I remember and I found fable in general when I was about to go into my first year in secondary school and I was alone I had no friends from my primary school with me and I was scared that I'd be bad at making new friends. (spoiler I was and am) I was scrolling on tiktok and I kept getting this videos of an smp called fable smp and there was this one cosolayer that I recognised from their technoblade cosplay (I used to watch cosplay compilations on YouTube before tiktok) so I followed them and didn't think much of it.

A little while later I was on twitch waiting for an mcc to start and I saw someone streaming and I recognised not only the cosplay that they were in but also the user name: sherbertquake56 so I decided to check them out and they where bloody awesome.(I started following them on November 28th 2021)

Then 3 strikes happened and I was hooked I joined the discord and was just chilling watching sherbert perspective, but then I got busy with school and was struggling to keep up but I tried my best, it didn't help that I could never watch them live but that didn't stop me. But over the next few months I did kind of stop watching it was coming up to Christmas and I had alot of exams but then in April I'm not sure exactly what dragged me back but it was heyhay, who again I recognised from the cosplay compilations I used to watch spicificly the dream XD cosplay as that was the first cosplayer that I saw that looked like me, so on April 8th 2022 I was dragged back into fable then later in June 6th 2022 I found ghosty, and those where my people and I was happy, it was summer and it was great.

But then around half way through my second year at school my best and only friend left and I was alone, again but again I found so much comfort in watching fable on days when I truly thought I had no one and it was like that for a while. I finished out my second year and I want alone anymore, although physically I was still quite lonely I had friends, Fable brought me first Bean and from there it cascaded into so many people I now consider family (rora and wonder to name two) and I was ok with that I knew I wasn't alone and that I had people and is still have them so much so that in a few days (4 days from when I'm writing this) me and bean will have been together for a year and that's unreal to me.

Like everything tho it wasn't ment to last, that summer my family found out that my granny had cancer it hit everyone like a pile.of bricks, it seemed like she was doing well, we had her so much longer than we thought we would, but in December we lost her and fable was there again but so we're my friends.

I'm now almost finished my third year at school and in 2 weeks I have my first set of state exams and although there won't be any new fable stories to watch I know that the streams I've come to love and find comfort in will be there and so will my friends. I'm still not great at makeing or keeping friends but I think slowly I'll find all of my people and it will be good.

So thank you fable smp, to the cast I can't wait to see what comes next from you in your next story or adventure! and to the community, over all I was very quiet with my presence in this community like I am with all of them but in my little corner I was so bloody loud about it and I can't ask for a better community for that!

wewo this was fun :3 (ok I'm done being sappy about fable I promise)

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kzuyy · 11 days ago

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i was not going to talk abt this but its bringing my attention when a sweet girl posted on her story abt her ex nd i recognized her from somewhere looked deeper nd she wuz the girl tht my ex got with after me nd another girl my ex dated at a pyschward . on may of 2023 they got together . but before all of tht; when me and her dated back in oct of 2021 i rmbr we accidentally met at these special restroom the counselor gave us . we gave each other insta nd walked and talked . 2 weeks later she asked if i wanted to b her gf . i said yes becuz i felt under pressured nd didnt see her as more than a friend . we started dating nd everything i told her my träuma with s@ nd me not being a very sexual person . she knew abt nd always lied and manipulated she wuz "asexual" nd tht she wuz also forced into s3xual things by her ex . i didnt think much of it b4 . we dated we did everything but 2 weeks into the relationship she started getting extremly touchy nd i wld push her away nd told her im not comfortable . but every time she tried to put her hands i alwys kept pushing away telling her i dnt feel comfortable at all . we did kiss nd the next day i woke up with cold sores . nd her too . i didnt knw wut it wuz until i did research . she is a walking stds . months into the relationship she started doing things behind my back she wld kiss , hold hands , sext , do s3xual things with others , she wld cheat infront of me nd always hoped for a reaction out of me but i nvr reacted becuz things like this has happened to me when i wuz younger too . nd im very nice person i wldnt dare to hurt any1 . i wuz jst confused . i started spiraling becuz i wuz in sm confusion i started smoking weed becuz i had sm family , school nd her causing me to spiral . she knew abt it i told her but she still kept doing horrible things behind my back , i spiraled out of control i started abüsing more drũgs nd started going to show , parties , nd hanging out with ppl who were doing drügs . i ended up in a ward on march of 2022 becuz i 0d on xans . i came back to school nd everything changed but her . she kept treating me like sh!t she wld insult me , hurt me , put me down , get aggressive , wld constantly point out my insecurities or even things i nvr wuz insecure abt , she wld get extremly abüsive verbally , mentally nd emotionally , she wld constantly tell me she want3d to k1ll ppl nd how she has plans on how too . she always wuz horrible to other ppl she didnt like . she wld always tell me how her ex treated her i wuz always her #1 supporter . i wuz there always comforting , loving , caring , sweet . she wld do sm and ruined nd damaged me . on july of 2022 i ended up cũtting my arm rlly deep becuz b4 i did she told me smthing i want to erase from my mind frvr . i went to gym every wuz normal until the end of the class nd we had to change . i grabb3d my eyebrow razor nd i made a big cũt traumatizing a lot of girls . i went to the nurse they took me to the er nd straight to the pyshward . i did a lot of horrible things to myself at tht school tht they didnt want me back . we were still together but she abüsed smmm verbally and mentally even when i wuz in the pyschwards or 3ating d1sorder hospitals . but finally broke things off on oct 2022 . she still came back to me always wanting my advice or jst some1 to b there for her until she dated some1 on may 2023 nd she said very awful things called me "chubbs" when she clearly knew i wuz in the hospital for my 3ating d1sorder . she started getting rlly abüsive when she found some1 else to b with on tht month . i rmbr i blocked her bad nvr ever looked back . she ruined me i had to fix myself but wuz so depend on drügs to heal from all the träuma she made me endure for a year . i started abüsing drügs like crazyyyy ! for a longg time but decided to go sober on april of this year . i ended up relapsing again but jst becuz of this trǎuma again when smthing brought me back but rn im doing wayyy better !!

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annieintheaair · 9 months ago

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I think you're seeing someone else; I think you're seeing who I used to be.

I think the worst thing about moving forward sometimes is letting go of your expectations. All of the “it was supposed to be” and “I was looking forward to.” It’s hard sometimes to accept a new reality.

After a while, the loneliness goes away. You reconnect with friends, own all of your time, and realize the joy of being single again. Sure, your weekends look a little different, but you have so much more time back in your life. It’s almost like when you’re in a meeting that ends early— they tell you they’re “giving you time back”. At first, maybe you’re not sure what to do with that time, but then you realize it’s actually a gift.

I was given 88 flight hours for the month of May. Initially, I was mad. I did not want to go beyond my comfortable 65-75 hours. Then, yesterday morning, I sat down in front of my computer and decided to pick up more hours— up to 105. Will I be exhausted? Absolutely. But will I be making a lot more money? Yes!

So what does it mean to work 105 hours for the month? Well, I'm still off for Cinco de Mayo and Memorial Day weekend. I realized that working more hours doesn't have to suck-- when I fly with friends, it's actually not like going to work at all. I worked with my friend Kia the other night and we had such a great time catching up that we decided to pick up more trips to work together in May. Work isn't that bad when you're with friends.

Spending more time at work, especially since I fly at night, means no time for dating. I haven't really been interested in dating right now and I find swiping to be a complete waste of my time. Instead, I want to enjoy the things I want to do, spend time with friends, work, and focus on all of the bigger things I'm currently dealing with in my life. Finding a new relationship isn't even on my priority list right now.

The thing is, when a relationship ends, obviously, you feel sad, but over time, you find joy in being single again. Sometimes, it's just nice to have those few days off from work open without any plans. If I decide at the moment that I want to do something, then I'll do it, but I'm not letting anyone down by bailing on weekend plans or deciding I'd rather stay home and have a movie marathon.

I remember two years ago when I had the situationship with Joe. I think I knew it would never actually be something but I let it play out anyway. It was the end of April 2022 and I remember Dan telling me on the phone, many times, that I deserved better than Joe. I knew he was right but I was still sad when it ended. It wasn't even like Joe had taken up much of my time and back then I was still flying some multi-day trips for work.

One night, after Ras and Gabrielle left my house, I jumped in the shower and all of these feelings just hit me. Even though Joe and I had never really been anything, the rejection, even though it was my choice to end it, stung. I wondered if anyone would ever love me and I so badly wanted to know the truth about me and Dan. I sent him a long text asking and then he called me.

Dan and I talked on the phone for a long time that night. It was the closure that I so desperately needed after all of those years. It was almost 12 years after our final breakup but I needed to know why he cheated on me and why we could never work it out. It was that night when I realized that someone cheating on me or not loving me wasn't actually about me. Dan reminded me that he was stupid and made bad choices and that he regretted it every day. I was still someone worth loving and I deserved happiness, even though it never felt like it at the time.

In the beginning, Dan and I would walk to Waterplace Park at night and sit by the river and talk. Everything then was so easy and innocent. The start of college held so much promise for both of us. It made me wonder, many times, how we went from sitting by the river watching the fish to awful fights where we said so many things we never should have said and really didn't actually mean. There was so much hurt over the years-- Dan from making bad choices and usually me from saying horrible things when I was hurt and upset, as a result of his choices.

When Dan called me two years ago, I didn't know that day that in less than four months, he would be gone forever. No one knows the future and I definitely didn't know that day that he would die in a few months. After he passed away, once I cried all the tears I could possibly cry, I realized how grateful I was that I received that closure just a few months prior. I guess I needed to know that someone leaving was never a reflection of me but a choice they made, just like the choice we make in relationships where we choose to love the other person every day. Love is a choice, just like cheating is a choice.

Young college me was always devastated by the hurt that Dan put me through, over and over again. As we grew up and met and dated other people, he realized that he would never find another me. The other day, while working with my friend Kia, she reminded me of the same -- that Todd would never find another me. She said, "He's not going to find anyone better than you."

When I thought about what Kia said and the same sentiment that I've gotten from my other friends, I wondered if Todd ever really knew me at all. The person that my friends know and the person that Dan never stopped loving, is lovable and very deserving of love. She's a person with a good heart, who forgives, who works hard, and who never gives up on people, no matter how hard it is sometimes. It almost made me sad to think that Todd never got to know the real me, and learn to and choose to love me the way that other people in my life do. The person who is really missing out, as my friends and Dan would say, is Todd.

While I'm not out there dating right now and looking to meet someone new, I hope to someday meet someone organically, in the real world, outside of the apps. I can't say that I'll ever rejoin the apps but I also can't promise I won't rejoin someday. For now, as my therapist, Jose, said this morning, "You're practicing self-care, which is what you need the most right now."

xoxo

Annie

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6lost6but6trying · 9 months ago

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April 7 1:53am

Im here sitting in front of my tv after a gaming session with my best friend…

Wishing u were playing with us

I miss ur voice

I miss u giving us heads up and knowing where they are

I don’t know how you know but you do in detail which amazes me

If sitting here in front of my tv about to cry myself to sleep

Because I feel like I got nothing figured out

My relationship I have is feeling like it’s turning bad

But besides that I just feel useless

Like I’m not anywhere I wanna be yet

No goal

Nothing

Just here

Alive

When I don’t wanna be

I wanna cry myself to sleep

But I don’t wanna cry myself to sleep…

I don’t know

Im just really tired

Im overthinking so many stuff and as I hear my thought telling me I’m useless and i will never reach whatever goal I may have or a better future

I found myself just remembering the time I laid with u with my head on ur shoulder so close to your chest telling u that I’m nowhere financially stable and feel useless and I shut me up as u play with my hand that I had up and gently point to the middle of my palm tapping it gently telling me “ you will catch up to her financially, u will have money, you’re not useless, you’re somebody, you will make it, I believe in you”

Your words still run through my dull brain and it’s making me miss u more

I know if this ends,

You May or may not take me back in as a friend and I’ll respect either choice…

I just know I probably won’t be over you even tho I haven’t seen u in a while…

Haven’t heard that voice in a while…

I found myself the other day hearing ur voice saying “ look you little shit” and I smiled…

I was at work and he asked me why I was smiling and I just told him I remembered something funny that’s all

It’s not something funny

It’s something I like u calling me

I find it cute I don’t know why…

Im still so sorry all this happened this way

I just feel like I’m now being pushed against a corner of a wall and I want to be killed….

Don’t get mad at me

I thought about it again but then remembered that I promised you I wouldn’t do it…

I didn’t

But I did hurt my leg physically

It may be bruised in the morning, I have no idea but I got some sort of high which made me take deep breath and wanted to keep doing it til my thigh purple…

I stopped…

But please don’t get mad…

I turned to alcohol

I drank a little bottle I had then I created a ice tea drink and put the last bit of alcohol mix into my drink

I was feeling a buzz as I played my game

I told him I didn’t wanna video and just play

I didn’t want my best friend knowing I wasn’t ok

I did squats and spins in my room to feel a buzz and it somehow worked…

Im not ok.

Just glad there wasn’t anymore alcohol

All I want rn if to have things calm…

I just still catch myself missing you when I shouldn’t be

Im with her, I do love her but what does it say when I do love her and don’t wanna lose her but the more we fight the more im craving YOU …. You’re so close to me that I can walk to you…. C

I can drive 3 min just to see you…

With her it’s 10 mins by car…

That’s more than a 40 min walk….

I asked god so Many years ago when I came out to give me a gf so close to me….

He gave me you two…

At the same time…

I met you both in July 2022

Im so mad at god for doing this…

Im not even religious anymore but a part of me is still kinda religious….

I begged him for a person close to me and gave me you both…

Obviously you’ve always been the first choice….

I just choose her

And you already know why…

But then I question if I made the right choice or if I should’ve stayed friends with u and see where that could’ve gone before I did anything with her and kept her as a friend…

It’s all stupid and I wish I had a manual but that’s impossible….

When I find myself depressed I still think of me laying with u and I feel safe…

I know if I got to know u way more…

I could’ve loved you

Yes I was “ in love” but like as in “crushing hard on you” where my tummy gave me butterflies everything im around u….

I just wanna be in your arms again….

I even miss your natural scent I don’t know what it is but it’s YOU

You see right through me when I’m hugging you and I miss you not letting go til I do…

This sucks… I’m sorry

I hope I do see you again…. And everything isn’t so hectic …

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littlemissjrgd · 2 years ago

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03/02/2023: Marvelous March

I am slowly deteriorating, please send help!

It all started in January 2020, I started having headaches that are hard to bear and sometimes lasts for days. I initially thought it was my eye, so I had my eyes checked. I also thought that my prolong computer use was the issue but it’s weird because I’ve never experienced this much pain in the past and I have worked behind the computer since 2012.I felt scared because I thought I have a brain tumor, given my family history so I asked my primary care physician to order an MRI for me. I had an MRI, but she did not find anything, as it turns out I suffer from chronic migraines. I was given some pain pills and was sent out the door. It magically disappeared when I started working from home which was good.

Then, when I turned 30, I was diagnosed with having hormonal imbalance. I found out about it when I bleed for 3 months. Not sure, how long I’ve had it because if I didn’t bleed for 3 months I wouldn’t have gone to the doctor and have it checked. Looking back, I just realized that maybe all the painful zits and breakouts that I had since I got my period was related to this, maybe the dysmenorrhea as well.

In August 2021, I started going to therapy due to my generalized anxiety disorder diagnosis.

In November 2021, I found out that I was suffering from severe dry eyes after visiting an optometrist due to severe eye pain. That same optometrist decided to quit on me because he said that my case was too difficult for him to handle. But it was okay because he sent me a referral to go see an ophthalmologist for better assessment.

In April 2022, I found out that I have Plantar Calcaneal Spur (Heal Spur) and Plantar Fasciitis on both my feet. I found out about this after accompanying my aunt for one day and we spent the whole day walking around. Days and weeks have passed, and I was still having feet pain, so I went to the Dr. for a consultation, and I got an X-Ray, I was expecting the Dr. to say oh you just need to get some rest and maybe a foot massage, but boy I was wrong. I came out feeling so shaken because I was prescribed a pain pill that I haven’t heard of, I was told to wear shoes with arch support, and I was told that if I am ready, I can get a surgery.

In September 2022, I found out that I was pre-diabetic. It all started when I started seeing an unusual number of skin tags on my neck and when I went to the dermatologist I was told that it could be Acanthosis Nigricans(AN), it is a condition that is linked to diabetes and before she does anything, she wanted me to get a lab test to be sure and that is what I did. 24 hours later my primary physician contacted me and told me that I was pre-diabetic. Prior to the lab test, I had an episode at home where in I woke up feeling really woozy, I got up to pee, but I was too woozy so I fell, as it turns out my sugar went really low. Currently, I am not taking any medications to manage my diabetes, I was just trying to be mindful about what I eat, and I exercise. I don’t drink soda and eat chocolate as much as I did before my diagnosis.

Last month, February 2023 I experienced some gum soreness, initially I thought that it was just because of a Taco chip irritation as it turns out my 6-year molar (tooth #3) had to be extracted. It came as a shock because I have always practiced good oral hygiene and I visited the dentist regularly.

I am not really sure why I wrote an entry about all of my diagnosis in the last three years. I have no reason other than to keep track of it. I also just want to pour my heart out and let everything out of my chest because I am only in my early 30s, but I feel like I am slowly falling apart. I feel so young to have all these issues in my medical history. I haven’t even mentioned the chronic back pains. I wonder how many 30-year-olds are going through the same thing.

Anyhow, if you are going through the same things that I am, I wish you well and I want to let you know that you are not alone.

If you are reading this, I hope that you always choose to be kind, in a world where you can be anything I hope you always choose to be kind because you never know what people are going through. Some people may look okay and well on the outside but deep inside the pain that they are feeling is insurmountable.

I am not going to lie there are days where I do not feel 100%, there are days where I just try to get by, to survive because I have no other choice.

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jaimiewillgoplaces · 2 years ago

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Corona Del Mar, California