#everyone is just too busy with their own stuff (understandable) to really think abt this rn i think

[vigilskeep]

someday somebody in the team is going to actually make sol explain some of their motivations and reasonings and they are going to respond “you DID let an antivan crow be put in charge” and nobody’s going to have a real answer to that

[mrsnancywheeler]

ok so this is something i ALWAYS #think about whenever i listen to breakup songs, and esp after that blurb u wrote about billy blindsiding the reader with that scathing song.

but what do u think about the dynamic between billy and a shy!reader, or someone who hates being in the limelight. Like they met when the band was somewhat popular and the attention she got for being billy’s “girl” was tolerable.

they’re still in a situationship, and they still argue a lot, but I’m just thinking about the potential angst of billy writing the most insane breakup songs about her, and shes just crying bc all of their business is being aired out 😭 PLEASE i can imagine him being such an ass about it lowkey, he’d be like “what? i thought you wanted to be treated like your special. None of the other groupies have songs written abt them😁” SIR???

She understands that it’s the price you pay for being with an artist, but he can get so mean with it, esp if its a song like regret me. But 1. He’s billy dunne, so ofc she comes back. 2. Sometimes he tries to “make it up” by writing a (very vague) love song that may/may not win her back.

tbh I’m just projecting but this has been idea has been in my head for a while LMAO sorry if it’s weak/doesn’t make sense🫡

-🦅

no like pookie would just like to sit in the background, be backstage, avoid media as much as possible but then they're getting into a fight because billy's the worst and suddenly he's insisting one of the songs on the album is gonna be one where he explicitly talks about the negative side of your relationship and of you, again giving regret me core

"billy please don't put that on the album, that's private stuff, please" you're literally begging because you don't need people knowing all the toxicity that comes with being billy dunne's girl

"you're a groupie for the lead singer of a rock and roll band, don't act like don't want attention" he's just doing a line and is just annoyed

"I don't!" he's scoffing but you literally feel like you might cry, "please, billy, it's gotta stay behind closed doors. people can't know me like that"

"baby, it's good fucking song, you can't just ask me to scrap one of the best pieces I've ever written just because it hurts your feelings." and you realize he's dead serious and just start bawling, because now everyone's gonna know how tumultuous your relationship is. how unsteady you are.

because I'm always comparing them to fleetwood mac and the rumours album, this reminds me of how stevie nicks talks about go your own way and how it made her feel.

"most girls would be on their knees for me to write a song about them, and you want to be my girl but what? don't want the songs? then you're not gonna be my girl"

"fuck you, billy. fuck you!"

OKAY SORRY I'M LISTENING TO FLEETWOOD MAC AS I WRITE THIS AND GOLD DUST WOMAN CAME ON AND JUST- it's about a girl trying to get through a difficult relationship and doing a lot of drugs, I'll do a post because this is so something billy would write about his muse that's pretty scathing and personal

but like a song like that, that analyses you in and out, so infuriating

anyways yes, he does try to make it up by writing a song that's less scathing, it definitely still references how difficult the relationship is, but mentions the love there too. and she's really just going for it because she wants to be with him even though it's hurting her.

it makes sense pookie, thank you for your service 🫡💋

[eff-plays]

can we get more of your feelings about the durge/astarion stuff pretty please?? because i feel SO vindicated after reading your thoughts and am almost resentful of durge/astarion stuff having everyone so "they're made for each other!" and "they're canon!", it feels so invalidating towards tav/astarion. i really don't like durge either; i have one canon character when i play rpgs and dark urge does not fit them in the slightest 😓

if i wanted to put an understanding spin on it, i guess that's the trade off for having your own custom character with a back story you've created, and at least astarion is so incredibly loving towards tav and talks repeatedly about how incredible they are and how much he cares for them. but i do absolutely have SO many created scenarios in my head where my tav breaks down with their own traumas and ptsd, and astarion is there to comfort and help them through it, because god knows we don't get any of that in the actual game 😭 (i hope this made sense omg, i just love your opinions and want to hear them all)

Honestly I am not generally in the business of having too many opinions on things I haven't personally tried or experienced, so what you've seen so far of my opinions on Durge/Astarion is basically the extent of it, and my reasoning for deciding not to try it in the first place.

However, I can offer some further vindication in that I think saying "they're made for each other" or "they're canon" is such a dipshit and factually incorrect take that it's pretty much not worth getting upset over. People can say and think whatever they want, that doesn't always make it true, particularly not when it comes to RPGs that are meant to be played as you want them. People who say this are fundamentally misunderstanding the concept of an RPG, and they're probably stupid, and their opinions aren't worth considering or taking seriously. Or, they're just trying to upset you and they feel smug about their own choices, in which case you should still ignore them.

Like, I hate Ascended Astarion, but I'm not gonna say Spawn Astarion is canon. If I do say it, I will clarify that it's canon for me, because it is, but canon in general? It would be literally, factually untrue. So why would I say that unless I'm wilfully obnoxious and smug about my choices? Or just dumb? Which I am, but not like that.

Iirc Larian encouraged people to play custom origin for their first playthrough, and people did, and most people tried going for Astarion. That means that, statistically, a shitton of people have Tav/Astarion as their main pairing. Why would they encourage this if it's apparently not canon? Why shoot themselves in the foot by offering an apparently inferior experience first?

Also, just because one writer wrote stuff for one character because they had the time to do so, does not make it somehow the definitive answer. It was clearly not intended to be the only romance where Durge gets a specific variation, I doubt Larian would do that, so it's basically an accident, or at least unintentional.

That being said, even if it was intentional, who's to say it's a good thing? Harkening back to my Dragon Age days, I remember people saying that Andrastian human was clearly the intended experience, and the game struggled to accommodate any other race/class. Does that make it canon? Or just bad game design/writing?

Obviously not saying Larian did a bad job, clearly they did a good job if people are going to bat for it this obnoxiously, but the logic is equally flawed.

I do have issues with Durge in general as a concept (mostly cuz I just don't understand the logic behind including it aside from ... previous game fanservice?) but I haven't even graduated from gamer school yet so I won't get into that.

Also, one thing abt Tav I love that Durge misses out on is just the sheer ballsiness and comedy of rocking up to Bhaal's secret temple and killing all his guys and just not even being involved in any of that shit at all. Durge gets all that angst and drama, sure, and Orin is soo important apparently, but she died in two rounds for me. TWO. Imagine being just some fucking guy who fucks up your shit so bad that you have to restart everything. That amuses me to no end.

So ... there's that, lmao.

[eryanlainfa]

curious…..any future hcs for varian hugo and aiden (do they have a ship name? idk)……..i just love that wip of urs of their older designs i still think abt it a lot. they are so silly.

!!!! ;w; thank you 💕

(I refer to them as "New Home" in my notes but never really used it outside of me and one friend- if that's something.. I tried to mix their names once but nothing sounded right)

I have plenty of headcanons and snippets for them after Vat7K !!! I'll try to stay relevant to the time period you're reffering to but no promises. Random headcanons under the cut !

After the possession, Varian started to dissociate more often, he gets genuinely lost in his own head and once back to reality he sometimes forget if he was even thinking about anything at all. His body also gets cranky at times so he decides to exercise a bit more to compensate.

Aiden sometimes have small memory gaps. (because they got brainwashed at some point-) They were used to keeping notes of everything (they have multiple notebooks filled with everything they learnt already) but it's even more true now. They're afraid it'll force them to stop working as physician but so far no incident happened.

Hugo gained some weight (finally) he isn't fat at all but still get selfconcious about it. Aiden and Varian love to see him in better shape and make sure to remind him of that.

Aiden finally uses their wheelchair way more often because their journeys took a toll on their body, it results in their shoulders getting a bit broader since they use their upper body more.

Varian discovered his hair was more curly than he thought since Hugo forced him to actually take care of it. They love doing each other's hair and Varian was sad when Aiden got a haircut.

As royal physician Aiden has lots of obligations and is always busy. Every so often Hugo and Varian assist them however they can.

They built a pressure pipe system (Idk how to call those) connecting the engineers' lab to the physician office so they could communicate easily during work duty

They all three hate winter for various reasons. Every year through the season Aiden starts working even more (lucky for them they always have more work to do during winter anyway), Varian gets more careful about literally EVERYTHING it's almost obsessive, Hugo is actually the one grounding them back to reality because having them with him at home reassures him.

Every year Varian and Hugo help Quirin during harvesting season. They also make sure to visit Aiden's mother every so often.

When they've been too focused on work they plan random date nights. Said date night is actually them working but like... In the same room.

On a similar note they once invited Raps and Eugene for an activity. It was this big puzzle they wanted to do and it drove Eugene mad because NO ONE was talking, they were all hyperfocused on the puzzle.

Hugo sucks at cooking, his taste buds are dead, he just throws random shit and hopes for the best, he's forbidden from the kitchen.

Aiden makes the most horrendous tea because they focus on properties rather than taste. Varian and Hugo still drink it anyway.

There was a time they kinda lived in the lab, to everyone's horror.

Btw it took them some years to decide to actually live together. And some months more to decide to live in an actual house.

Aiden still has their room in the castle near the physician office. They use it when they're too tired to go back home. Whenever they actually plan to stay in advance, Hugo and Varian join them there.

I make Hugo lose his right hand after Vat7k (because why let them rest-) he has a few set of hands for his prosthesis but it's a hassle to change them since contrary to Aiden's leg he needs to connect some cables and stuffs.

Varian got interested in magic a lot (difficult to not be after all the magic he encountered).

There was a time Hugo and Aiden could both communicate in a Saporian dialect and Varian couldn't understand a thing, he did agree to not learn the language so they could have it for themselves but he heard them talk in it so much he simply started to understand words out of habit. He ends up learning the language properly and now the three uses it to mess with everyone else.

They genuinely LOVE listening to the others rambling for hours.

They've been driving each others (and everyone else) insane by casually mentioning getting married for YEARS before it actually happening.

Gender is dead to them- trust me

I think I could go into more details for all of those- I have too many random thoughts about them but since I STILL haven't finished to write their timeline I keep on changing some things and I'm indecisive a lot-

[insxghtt]

honestly, I think it would be fine for you to write for ewan mitchell. I mean, people have been writing about celebrities for years. whether they're really public or private, there's bound to be fanfiction of them. so again, I think it's fine for you to write for him, don't know why you have to be sent hate when we can all be civil and respectful about it + if enough people like the idea of you writing for him, then there you go!

someone came to me to explain in a more respectful way why some people are against writing for ewan. they said it was bc he is a rlly private person and some fans have been crossing a few lines and being invasive. so i kind of understood why they don't like the idea, bc they are afraid that it would encourage people to be even more invasive. it's understandable, i think it's even sweet that some fans think about this kind of stuff and see him as the actual human being that he is.

but it also makes me think that, yes, he deserves to be respected, but he is an actor and he is a public figure and he knows it. like, don't get me wrong, i KNOW how difficult it is to be a known artist because i have people close to me that are known artists and it sucks sometimes. because of that, i have my limits writing for RP. i would write headcanons and fluff only. i would not share any personal details abt him or people close to him. i would not write smut bc i think it would be too invasive since he is very private.

i have like two requests that are about how it would be like to work with him on the set of hotd or the last kingdom. i believe that fanfics are made to make people feel closer to a reality they would like to be part of. to me, it's more about the reader than about the artists themselves. sometimes we just wanna imagine ourselves as actresses or artists and there is nothing wrong about it.

some crazy people do some crazy stuff with celebrities but i don't think everyone on the fandom should be ashamed or guilty to imagine themselves close to a life they would like to have just because of those crazy people. we are not the ones being disrespectful towards him, we are just minding our own business on our tumblr accounts, you know?

idk if y'all understood but i hope it made sense. anyway, tell me what y'all think in the comments, i am opened to hear your opinions as long as it's not rude ✨✨✨✨

[azalea-bee]

tricky treat !!! tell me about your ocs gamer....

hiii okok i ended up using this as an excuse to summarize a lot of scattered thoughts i have about them (ty!!) so it got long, but i will give u a little intro to each and then some random stuff abt them all as a group <3

emrys (he/him) — tall shaggy-haired blond guy! he’s quiet most of the time, likes to knit and make his own clothes, and he’s a lion shifter which means he can turn into a lion sometimes. he can’t really control his shift and the age/appearance of his lion is directly tied to what emotions he’s feeling and how strong they are, so he doesn’t usually enjoy it very much! oh and he’s winnie’s caregiver :]

micah (they/them) — genderqueer, short curly dark hair and lots of small scars, likes eyeliner and dressing femme! they’re autistic and very blunt/sarcastic and come off as unfriendly at first but they’re mostly just anxious. they have cat-shifter genes but no ability to actually shift (or any physical traits) so they have a lot of weird cat behaviors that nobody really understands lol. shows affection through parallel play and bringing people random gifts. regresses sometimes but not very willingly!!

cassia (she/he) — nonbinary, wears round glasses, big white 4-B curly hair, likes reading and thrifting and DIY-ed grunge style clothes! she has ram’s horns from ram shifter genes but i haven’t decided yet if they’re always there or if he can control his shift! generally very confident and calm, funny but people don’t usually notice his humor right away lol. he’s also disabled and has chronic pain and uses various mobility aids sometimes. she has a little bit of innate magical ability too but no real desire to learn how to use it! sometimes is backup caregiver if emrys is busy or more than one person is regressed

dove (she/her) — long dark hair that she loves styling differently every day, always wearing a million accessories and rings and necklaces! she loves cooking and fashion and is a witch, has been training her magic since she was a toddler! she specializes in intention-spells on clothing or sentimental trinkets, and foresight/predictions using her favorite deck of cards (she sucks at elemental magic tho haha). comes across as intimidating but is actually extremely nice and friendly! she regresses sometimes but not often, really likes babysitting others though

winnie (she/they) — wavy auburn hair, short and fat, lots of freckles and moles and always very expressive with her face haha. they’re the only fully-human/nonmagic person in the group but still very much the glue that holds them all together. likes gardening and baking! she has a bit of a temper, generally very sweet and friendly though, good at making sure no one gets left out. emrys is their caregiver! they tend to take on a caretaker role for everyone else in their day-to-day lives while big, so when she regresses everyone loves to baby her a lot :]

now for the group as a whole— they are a polycule! they all have unique romantic/sexual/platonic relationships with each person of course but more or less are all dating. in the story plot they’re part of in my head, they live a pretty nomadic lifestyle and are always on the move, often in a bus/RV type of situation? and i actually have been thinking abt adding one more character to their group (as if i need more people to keep track of lmao) but we’ll see hehe

[kuomisecretdiary]

guys i hate everyone

let me tell u a story… last year or i think 2 years it ago around my birthday i really wanted to get korean corn dogs and asked my friends if they wanted to go and everyone was stating that they were busy but in reality they didn’t want to walk there but everything it’s there birthday I always make sure it’s does ik because for the most part it’s never really special for me. i think u can tell the type of friend i am. i think i show a lot of love to my friends well for the most apart i am human after all but anyways idk if people have read the most recent post but i talked abt this guy who was flirting with me often although he had a gf. ik it’s bad and i understand that but if ur friend was in this situation how would you react? in my case my friends were warning me which is valid but it was literally the last week of high school and i just wanted something to happen. coming for a school where poc is a minority we aren’t always chosen by our white male counterparts and in my case Im not skinny and I don’t really know if im pretty or not. So this seemed like a miracle almost like an opportunity. but the whole entire time my friends were constantly reminding me that i was the one in the wrong and i honestly just wanted support. now fast forward i ended things with him whatever it’s done he fuck a few girls and it honestly made me feel like I was just some random person some object that he just at threw away, but whatever right ig. so I never ended up getting the support I wanted from my friends. One of my “friends” in particular had found out that this guy the guy that has been flirting with me had liked her first and wanted to go out with her instead of me. I didn’t know about this and I was honestly hurt my friend is shorter than men prettier that man skinnier that me it just made me feel like some ugly fat girl who thought they had a chance with a boy. that’s how I felt if ima going to be honest and all this girl could say was how she was the victim and I should apologies to her and I will admit I told her some stuff that I did I fact apologies to her but it was revolved around the same thing the guys that I like always gravitating themselves to her. anyways she is currently now dealing with a hardship of her own as she has to break up with her bf and my friends are comforting her telling that they will be there to support her when she breaks things off with her bf and I can’t help but compare out situations and how differently my friends react. my heart was hurting too but no one seemed to care and I hate that. I think what I really want is validation from my friends to be honest I was really hurt by that whole situation but I guess it was all my gamut after all

ps: the story is long and there are pieces missing maybe im at fault and i need to open my eyes

[bellflower-goat]

Man I fucking hate te.rfs

And like, it's really frustrating how they put these weird rules as to what you can do, say, wear, identify as and feel based on geni.talia like why? It's genuinely so fucking dumb! And the people who have made me feel the worst about being a "wo.man" is bitches like them! Cause like, I almost fell down a nasty way with those ideas, and it was horrible really.it made me be ver damn rude to any guy near me, it just created that black-n-white sort of view and it wasn't good at all. Then I started realizing something was wrong when i started seeing features very common in gals around me as "indications of mal.eness" and that kinda made me realize how fucked up it was cause like. half the stuff they said was not fem.enine was shit me and the gir.ls around me had! And it was just sod amn disgusting. I started Tryna educate me n see stuff tru a different lens cause of that, and that's how I discovered another flavor o' que.erness I had that I didn't try to pay attention towards cause of said thinking. Doing that and also realizing that there really isn't one specific way to be a guy or a gal. Like at all! And I didn't learn it as much on the internet, it was more just. Seeing the world around me and the people in it and realizing that there's fe.minine women who have facial hair and big, unashamed bodies and that are completely cis and just. Even if they're not its just basic decency to realize that it's none of your fucking business! And that went the other way too! Just getting out of that internet spiral of thinking there's neat little boxes everyone must fit and just. Get out and put a bit more attention when I'm walking down the street, when I'm on the supermarket or la plaza, seeing the wide variety of people who are simply existing as they are, and minding their own damn business was so damn. It was a wakeup call really. That was a while ago, like 3 ish years ago I think? And I'll just think about it again, abt all the shit I had to unlearn and stuff and just. Seeing people still thinking the way I did that time ago is just. I won't try and tell em cause I value my sanity and wouldn't like to get death treats or something but just. I'd really hope they'll be able to understand what's wrong with thinking like that, seeing people as much less than they are, reducing them to shit that ain't your fucking business! I really hope they'll be able to understand, to learn and grow and heal, cause sometimes you fall into those nasty ways o' thinking cause of shit that happened to you, but still. Seeing in only black or white makes the people that hurt ya get away with it cause "it's only their nature" yknow?? Na d it frustrates me so much cause no it aint!! You're better than that and ya can be better, ya can learn to avoid being an asshole to ppl around ya and also it feels like a get away pass w being an absolute prick to others cause if they're men they deserve it cause "they're men n they have it good!!!" An thats just. It's rude and it's tiring and it disgusting and just. >:l

[tentglitch]

Ngl like the majority of the gaming community is so fucking rude

[whosjunglejim4322]

Warnings: SMUT, insecurities but mark just needs a lil reassurance abt how good he makes you feel, finger fucking/sucking, he cums in his pants, fluff bc yall r in love love <3

Mark knows he's being irrational about this whole ordeal. One conversation shouldn't be getting under his skin like it is, but this one thing seems to be knocking at the forefront of his brain, throwing him out of focus as of late.

So what, you masturbate. It's normal, he's not there all the time, of course you do. He does too, but he also becomes outrageously horny everytime he so much as thinks about your skin or the way you kiss him. And it's safe to say he thinks about you alot. Alot alot.

"It's different, though? I'm a guy, we jerk off an outrageous amount," he argues, furrowing his eyebrows as you stare up at his pacing form from the bed, grinning. He's cute when he's flustered.

"And girls just...aren't supposed to get horny without the help of a guy?" You inquire.

He stops pacing at this, slumping his shoulders. "that's not what I mean, I just-" he sighs, plopping himself next to you on the edge of the bed. He chews on the inside of his lip for a moment before shaking his head.

"Nevermind, I'm just tired." He runs his fingers through his disheveled hair, looking at you apologetically with his big doe eyes.

You're still amused, giggling as you reach over to cup his rosy hued cheeks, pulling him to your mouth for a kiss.

"A little toy could never replace you, my love."

You'd reassured him that night by wrapping your lips around his dick, and he was too lost in the belly aching anticipation and bliss of it all, to really pay attention to what it was you'd just said.

A little toy.

He hasn't stopped thinking about it. It's both slightly irritating, while also being the new source of his sexual frustration when he's supposed to be practicing. He thinks it may be more irritating than the ladder though, because as much as he hates to admit it, he is a jealous creature. 

It's silly, childish and he knows it. Maybe that's why he's so unsettled by this, because he knows that you love him. He knows you like his dick, from what you've expressed. But, maybe he's doing something wrong?

Maybe you just don't want to to wound his ego, and instead act like his dick is enough to satisfy you. Of course, he knows some sensations are better than others, but how often do you need to touch yourself? Does he not please you enough in the moments you two are together?

These questions still nag him when he walks into your apartment at around 7:35 pm, causing worry to crease between his brows.

You, of course, pick up on this when you round the corner from your bedroom to see him making his way towards you, lost in thought. Your arms snake around his middle and your lips place a kiss to his jaw. A smile tugs at the corner of his mouth.

"What's got you all mopey?" You ask, searching for any signs of pain or discomfort in his eyes, only to be stumped by his undreadable expression. Maybe he's just had a long day?

He hums, broken from his self depricating reverie, evidently not realizing he's wearing his emotions so blatantly.

"Nothin' just tired, wanted to come home." He buries his face in the crook of your shoulder once you've pulled him into your room, his breath warm against your neck.

You must've just taken a shower, skin the scent of his favorite soap that always has him sniffing you randomly throughout the day. He squeezes you tighter.

You kiss the side of his head, reluctantly pulling yourself away only to grab his hands and move to the bed, not believing that there's nothing more than just fatigue that's got his usual goofy smile hidden behind such a frustrated countenance.

You crawl onto his lap once his back is against the headboard, his hands slipping underneath your shirt to rub your back, a habit when he's nervous. He knows what's coming, already avoiding your eyes.

"Are you gonna tell me what's wrong, Mark Lee? No excuses, this time." You mean business, but your voice is still as soft and comforting as ever. He can't resist looking up at you once you stroke his cheek with your thumb, featherlight.

With a drawn out breath, he reluctantly responds, knowing it'll only eat at him further if he doesn't.

"It's just....I feel like maybe I don't do enough for you...sexually? Like, I know everyone masturbates and It's totally fine you use a toy and stuff, I just feel like...like maybe It's better than...than what I can do? I know I'm not the most experienced but-"

He's stuttering, ears tomato red at the tips and he's a bit perplexed to see such a jubilant smile spreading across your face as he rubs the back of his neck, embarassed beyond belief.

"Mark..." you cup his soft, blazing cheeks in your palms, forcing him to meet your gaze as squeamish as he's suddenly become. "you're that upset over something like this?"

You don't sound judgemental nor teasing, despite the way you're grinning. But still, he wants to hide his face, wants to bow his head in shame. Suddenly he feels very foolish.

Not being able to stand seeing him so crestfallen, you reassure him, trurthfully. Your heart aches.

"Hey hey, look at me bub," wide doe eyes stare back at you, as you move some of his hair out from in front of his forehead where the strands have fallen. "you are more than enough, so good that when you're away I cant stand it. I have to touch myself, and I'm not just saying that."

His expression has regained some confidence, though you're not done yet. You've got this determination swirling in the pit of your belly, thrumming through your veins. You want him to know how truly incredible he really is, how good he really makes you feel.

"I think about your hands, your mouth, your dick. And you know what? By the end of it I'm not even satisfied, because that little toy isn't you. Do you understand? Hmm? Or do I have to show you?"

Suddenly his heartbeat is loud in his ears, adams apple bobbing as he swallows. He's hardened underneath you and you known that you've got him.

"I-I understand, now. But you could still show me, you know. If you want." His voice is a little unsteady but the corners of his soft, pink mouth twitch at the corners with an echo of a smile.

It's too much, Mark Lee absolutely will be the death of you. And so you kiss him, in a way that has his toes curling and his arms wrapping around your middle like a boa, refusing to let go.

Your fingers are tiwsted in his hair as you suck on his plush bottom lip, a gasp leaving his throat when your teeth nibble the sensitive skin. He can feel your hardened nipples through your sweater, pressing against his chest.

Your knees have tightened around the small of his waist as well, crotch rubbing against the strained bulge in his basketball shorts. You whine into his mouth.

"Mm, you should feel how wet you make me," his hands venture lower at this, until his warm fingertips are pressing into the flesh of your thighs. "go ahead Markie, touch me."

He groans, not being able to hold it back from his chest at the sound of your voice and your generous offer. His fingers, delicate and eager rub your pussy through your lounge shorts, and his jaw slacks a bit at your lack of underwear.

Your tongue slips against his, mouths parted and greedy while he slips his hand into the warmth of your shorts - and practically whines.

He wasn't expecting the abundance of your essence, the utter and complete lack of friction as his digits glide effortlessly through your silken folds. He takes his ring finger and presses the pad of it against your entrance, circling and listening to the lewd, slick sounds.

"Oh fuck," he croons free hand on your lower back and urging you against his touch. "you're s-so wet already, how are you so wet?" He's mystified, and completely fucked.

"I told you." You kiss him again, swallowing his reply and grinding your pussy against his palm. Without warning, he slips a finger in, and then another, falling apart at the way your walls so eagerly welcome them. He trembles.

"Mm, Mark." You're reaching down, underneath his arm and gripping his length, hot in your hand underneath the slinky material of his shorts. He twitches.

Suddenly his fingers are curling inside of you, and he begins to languidly pump them in and out of your sopping heat, on fire from his toes to the top of his head. You have to grip onto his shoulders, momentarily forgetting your previous endeavor of palming his dick.

He doesn't mind, not when you're whining like this, fingers digging into his skin, your body rocking against his while your walls hug and squeeze around his digits.

"Does it feel good?" He asks genuinley, but already knows the answer, too high off of this moment to not want his ego stroked. Your eyebrows are furrowed, lips kiss bitten, skin hot to the touch. You can barely make out an answer, and he swears all the blood in his body rushes straight to his dick.

"S-so good Markie - harder, please." You bury your face in the crook of his shoulder as tour thighs tremble around his narrow hips, lips trembling against his throat. He obliges you happily, anything to have you wilting against him like this. To hear more of the sounds you're making, for him.

Anyone outside the door would know whats going on, with the squelching of your wetness and the vigor in which he's fucking you with his fingers, heel of his palm nudging your clit with each thrust. You already feel that pit of pressure inside your belly expanding, so close to the brink of exploding.

He's fairing the same, if he's honest. You're rubbing up against the painful, throbbing boner in his bottoms, hidden behind only a thin layer of clothing. Your juices have leaked, leaving your own shorts wet at the crotch and the sight is erotic in a way that makes him buck up against you.

His free hand cups your face when he adds a third finger, pulling you from his shoulder to look at your face.

He damn near blows his load right then and there.

You look like you're on the verge of tears, not able to hold yourself up straight. A blush burns his skin, when you lean into his touch, fingers grasping at the front of his white tee.

"M'gonna cum soon Markie."

His heart threatens to explode from his chest when you turn your head and suck his thumb into your warm mouth, closing your eyes and bliss while his fingers pump into you, buried to the third knuckle.

This causes him to thrust into you with a sudden jolt, and the way his fingertips rub against the sweet spot deep inside of you, has the build up of pleasure finally spilling over like a broken dam.

The fingers on either of his hands are soaked now, one with your saliva and the other with your cum. You're gripping onto his wrists, letting him massage the inside of your walls while they contract around him, eyes rolled to the back of your head.

The sight, the feeling, is too much. You're a mess, a beautiful, sopping wet mess and without warning it's like a freight train is hitting him at full force, cock twitching willdy as pure bliss seeps through his pores.

You're still shivering, humping his hand while spurts of cum fill the inside of his shorts, dripping down the crease of his thigh and even soaking through the material a bit. Your eyes are barely able to open, but you will them to when you hear the almost imperceptible groan that strains from his throat when your heartbeat finally stops drumming so loudly in your ears.

Your belly lurches, skin tingly to the touch as he slumps against the headboard, peering up at you with more adoration than you can handle.

"I-I came in my pants." He breathes out, panting heavily alongside you. The thrill that runs down your spine like a tremor at the realization that he's cum, untouched, because of you, is what allows you to have half the mind to pull his fingers from your aching heat - replacing the others in your mouth.

His head lolls to the side, honey eyes trained on you like it’s impossible to look away while you suck your juices from his digits, humming around them. It's like he's staring up at the sun, mesmerized.

And then you're kissing him, and he's sure he's gone to heaven. He tastes you on the tip of your own tongue, and you're so sweet, so tender when you grasp his cheeks.

"I came in my pants too, by the way. Technically." You smile, and he chuckles warmly, giddy. His arms encapsulate you and he nudges the tip of your nose with his own.

The toy can have its fun, he thinks to himself. Because really, truly, nothing - and no one, will ever be as lucky and as enamored as he is with you.

[f-ngrl]

LAYBACKNCHILL

Finallyyyyy my LBNC label info post. I’ve been hoping to find motivation for it for a long time and tonight is the night let’s go. It may be long and much blabla but idc, you can scroll past if you’re not interested :D

Rapper Chaboom founded the label Layback Records first, and then renamed it to LayBackNChill (LBNC) later. The motto is “to live a laid-back life by making laid-back music between people who have a good relationship”.

This year they are my favorite crew (next to my other favorite crews wysd and d.o.g) and here are some reasons why

see how I just called them a crew when they are actually a label? They are more like a crew. All of them seem close with each other and they all release (very fire) collab albums between 2 or more members regularly. It feels so natural in a time where most labels‘ actions and signings are (understandably) business decisions.

even before I knew their motto I would have described them like that. Most of the members are “old” but haven’t “made it” and while I think that must be a huge pressure, they seem just really chill about everything, the music doesn’t sound try-hard at all. It’s just consistently good music.

bc of most member’s ages I personally can identify well with them :P

the music is so good obviously. It’s a group where I regularly listen to music of almost every member. This is personal again but I just like trap I think, and most older rappers do boombap, and that’s just not as exciting for me. (or at least most of the recent stuff I’ve been listening to was trap. Haven’t had time to check all their old music it’s so much :D)

Chaboom did what few hiphop labels (and by that I mean labels that actually release mostly rap and hiphop and not all other kinds of mixed stuff) achieved and signed women, 2 of them. More abt them and the other members now.

and. sorry if this post is messy, their pics not ideal etc i’m too tired. and this is just for reference for later. ah here their LABEL IG page. Follow to not miss out on releases :P

차붐 (Chaboom) | 차종혁 (Cha JongHyuk) | 1985.4.5 | rapper

Founder and CEO

Used to have a boombap style

Participated in SMTM777

Is close with VMC and others

He gave kaogaii his stage name

He was originally a producer before he started rapping

Wybh’s “Equus (remix)” was originally Chaboom’s song feat. Paloalto, Swings, Deepflow (news to me 🙈)

마진초이(Marginchoi) | ??? | producer

Not much is known about him

He usually works with other LBNC artists the most

He was LBNC’s only producer until HD BL4CK joined

songrec? idk everyone he produced more than 50% of LBNC’s music I’m sure of that. They really mainly work only with each other. Pick a random LBNC song and it’s probably produced by him. I just tried it with 3 songs and it worked. Try Leebido - DDOOK DDOOK (Feat. Chaboom, ChaMane, Don Mills)

오아이 (O.I) | 최지윤 (Choi JiYoon) | 1998.8.22 | singer/rapper

(on the left in the photo)

She usually sings but also rapped on her collab album with Wonjjang

They’re so cool check out the album, here the song Stars with kitsyojii and Leebido

리비도 (Leebido) | 이병민 (Lee ByungMin) | 1992.6.21 | rapper

He debuted only in 2019 but has tons of nice Eps

Two EPs of his own and 2 with HD BL4CK, 1 with kitsyojii and kaogaii, and 2 with Chaboom nice work

Song rec: thisineverthat (with Chaboom) so underrated. Their concept seems to be brand names and products lol free ads for those I guess. But it goes hard just listen.

가오가이 (kaogaii) | 백한솔 (Back Han-sol) | 1991.2.18 | rapper

Part of crew Hofgang with kitsyojii. They’re besties since middle school. Their concept is being childish I love that.

Participated in SMTM a lot

Has also become a YouTuber

Changmo gave him libilly merch because they’re both from Namyangju, but they never met or talked (?)

Songrec: Purple Kimchi with Viann (producer) and kitsyojii from their recent collab album

키츠요지 (kitsyojii) | 조승환 (Jo SeungHwan) | 1990.5.25 | rapper

Hofgang with kaogaii

He likes to start diss battles, first I thought it’s silly but ig it’s just for fun and entertainment (still silly xD). First Jo Gwangil for being fast and then some high schooler (I forgot) for being not that good well lol.

Also participated in some SMTMs and even Superbee’s rap academy

His old rap name was Joystick because he wanted a rap name with “Jo” like his last name, but changed it when he joined LBNC

His rap is simple I think but I really like the style. He’s one of my fav and most listened rappers these days.

Song rec for a popular song: 일어나 Remix which got featured by Dingo

Now that I think abt it, kitsoyjii and kaogaii have gotten a lot of support from Dingo in the last months, the funny concept seems to be working. Maybe you’ll see them become more popular soon

원쨩 (Wonjjang) | ??? | rapper

If you read my posts you’ll know she’s one of my fav female rappers. She has an aggressive style and a deep voice so cool

Loves anime

Read my profile post abt her here

She hasn’t released any songs since that post :( anyway, songrec: tlqkf with HD BL4CK from their collab album

요보이 (YoBoy) | 강요셉 (Kang Joseph) | 2002.10.14 | rapper/singer

He is the youngest member

Was on hsr 4

He does a lot of singing, but it’s nice

Song example: Chillin Vibe (Feat. Chaboom, kitsyojii, Wonjjang, Leebido, O.I, kaogaii) (prod. marginchoi)

에���치디 블랙 (HD BL4CK) | 현동권 (Hyun Dongkwon) | producer

The bestttt he’s my fav producer rn

He also worked with Skinny Brown and is friends with Swervy & friends

Member of team yaya

Not much is known abt him but he debuted a long time ago and is pretty young I think -> signs for genius

Have 2 monster collab songs: Seoul Forest (Feat. Don Mills, KHAN, kaogaii, ChaMane, kitsyojii, Leebido, Basick) (a new one) and Lighter (Feat. Kash Bang, Leebido, Blase, Yami Tommy, ICE PUFF, Flavordash, Dayday) (a little older)

Generally if you look at his past featurings, it’s a rich list

Can’t wait for someone to make him a namu wiki page so I can find out 1 thing abt him :D I once found out his first name by reading all the comments on his ig and checking what his friends were calling him but I forgot :(

면도 (myunDo) | 임현도 (Lim HyunDo) | 1994.8.4 | rapper

He was on SMTM a few times and on Sign here

Apparently has/had 6 ferrets

He has his own label B.A.D (ballin’ all day)

I don’t really know his music yet (his signing was announced along with a long album, but it’s not out yet) but here’s a song that got stuck in my head: myunDo, 최서현 (Choi Seo Hyun) - HOUSE PARTY

이그니토 (Ignito) | 민재기 (Min JaeGi) | 1982.9.1 | rapper

He’s the newest and oldest member (ha ha) – newest to sign and oldest in age

He’s been in khh for a long time and was more active in the past

Idk his music well yet either

Latest song he did when his signing was announced: Shocking Asia (feat. Don Malik, EK, Keem Hyo-Eun, Chillin Homie, BLACK NINE, Maddoaeji)

As you can see I once again can’t keep up. Hopefully they don’t sign so many ppl in the future because they’re such a nice gang and if there are too many people, not all of them can collab all the time. Which I hope they can keep doing bc what they make is great. I got into them slowly and then noticed one by one that all members make really good music. At least as far as I’ve gotten now.

And notice how I gave you songs where they all feat with each other? Just doing that bc I hope someone will listen (all yt links btw). But their albums and solo songs are just as great (maybe even better sometimes bc more consistent), can be listened without skipping no problem. If you want more music recs for a member just ask :) I hope you will get to like them too bc everyone who’s not listening is missing outtt ok that was all thx :)

[arty-shadow-morningstar]

Treasure Hunter AU

I binged watch the Mummy trilogy while i had no wifi/internet for a while and I had an idea for a treasure hunter Mari with Daminette.

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Damian was bored.(age: 22-28 years old.)

At a gala party.

Meets Marinette who was equally bored.(abt the same age as D)

He finds out she was the finder of this famous artifact on display.

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Damian tugged at his collar, scanning the crowd. His father needed a plus one to show up with and everyone else were busy.

He grabbed a champagne flute and made his way to the edge of the room.

He found a woman in a black evening gown, looking as bored as he felt. short dark hair. Blue eyes.( I suck at describing people after the third time doing it. It feels overrated)

"Hello, stranger. You bored with mingling in with the assholes on their high horses?"

"Should I be offended?"

"We will see. Depends on you."

"How about you? A beautiful lady like you not kissing up their asses to climb the social ladder. That is strange."

She made a face. "Trust me. I don't want to be here but my friend wanted family time so I came in his place. What about you? Why are you here?"

"I am pretty sure my father wanted someone to get him out if the vultures came too close."

"Vultures, adept descriptions. I am glad no one realized who I am yet or i would be in their claws."

"Who are you representing, anyways?"

"Myself but Adrien or Kagami usually comes in my place but tonight, they have their son's play to go to."

"Adrien and Kagami. Aren't they the Agreste-Tsrungi?"

"Yep."

"You are the Marinette Dupain-Cheng. Globe trotting Treasure hunter and also world-class designer, MDC."

"Now you know. What's your name, handsome stranger?"

"You don't know?"

"Hey. Like you said globetrotting treasure hunter. I am not up-to-date on the news front. And when I am in Paris to do designer stuff, i am too busy to look at the news."

He gave her his hand, "Damian Wayne. Son of Bruce Wayne who is a billionaire and owns Wayne Enterprise."

She shook it.

"Pleased to meet you."

She stills design but like sent her designs to Adrien at least once every month, who had rebranded Gabriel to Miraculous Designs.

Some ppl thinks he did it to spite his father, who is in jail. Adrien and Mari has a partnership thing.

Mari also makes clothes but for a few months. And the rest of the time is spent travelling.

Exclusive designs from MDC are rare but the designs hand made by her are rarer so they are like a really big deal. They have the most amazing details. Really expensive and limited edition.

The rest of the time Mari spends finding Miraculouses (Miraculi ?) lost in the world so if she happens to find a few priceless artifacts that aren't the Miraculous. She donates it.

Alix helps and sometimes go find them with her.

She has Tikki and Plagg and maybe Wyazz all the time to look for curses and counter it.

She has also met John Constantine. They have an arrangement of sorts. A few magical artifacts that doesn't have to Miraculous business are given to him in exchange for any miraculous stuff he has or found.

Adrien funds her trips.

He is married to Kagami.

Kagami goes with Mari and Alix for a few months sometimes. Adrien likes being a stay at home dad.

Their kid is named Marin/Martin because it was Mari who got them together.

The few trips Mari dragged him on was enough to make him stay behind and run the business.

(Back to the story) Damian fangirled a little because Mari had been doing stuff like this since she was 18.

It was an amazing reputation she has.

She invites him to her next trip after questioning his skill sets.

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"Are you good with heights, dark scary places and adventuring into the unknown?"

"Yes"

"You any good with guns, swords, knives, booby traps and keeping calm under pressure?"

"Yes. I have many experiences with them."

"Can you keep a secret?"

"Yes. Why are you asking me this?"

"Wanna join me on my next trip to the jungle of China? There are myths about some hidden temple."

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Damian was a little conflicted.

He hadn't have the chance to explore the world much. He had been somewhere else for a mission (for the League of Shadows or JL business) but never for pleasure.

Being a vigilante by night and working at Wayne Enterprise by day gets a little boring after some years.

His brothers had a chance to travel the world on their own for a while. Sure, for reasons other than sight-seeing and looking for something to break out of the rut he was in. But still.

This was an exciting opportunity but a tad suspicious.

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"Why me?"

She looked surprised at that.

"Oh. Well, my friends enjoy coming with me on my adventures, treasure hunting and all that every now and then except Adrien but they have other things in their life to come with me all the time. I can mostly survive on my own most of the time but it gets lonely travelling on my own and it's nice if someone is there to watch my back. I understand if you don't want to come. It's just that I enjoy your company and you aren't like those assholes on their high horses. My gut feeling says I can trust you. You are not after the treasure or see it as one big game. You are looking for an escape. You would definitely catch me if I fall. As you know from my choice of friends, i have a bad habit of pulling rich kids from their stuffy lifestyle and take them on potentially life-threatening adventures." She joked. Then she lowered her voice, "Besides, it might be handy having a former assassin around."

She said in Arabic.

His hand went to his hidden knife and found it not there.

"Looking for this?" She said, holding it.

"How much do you know?" He hissed back in the same language.

"Relax," she gave back the knife, "my mother was one and I have accidentally came across a few in my adventures. I know one when i see one. I took a stab in the dark with your middle-eastern background. Speaking of, you know Talia Al Ghul by any chance."

He narrowed his eyes.

"She's my mother. Why?"

"You look like her. Met her a few times. Nice lady but scary. Mine's Sabine Cheng, goes by the Blue Reaper." She said it so casually like their parents weren't dangerous deadly assassins and had normal jobs.

"You aren't normal, are you?"

"What gave it away?"

"That you willingly gave away blackmail material to me."

"Normal people don't have assassins for mothers. And you and me aren't exactly meeting the minimum standards for normal. Besides, I just told you a family secret that you would have found out anyways with a through background search and a little digging. So far all I know about you is that your parents are Talia Al Ghul and Bruce Wayne-I wonder how an assassin got together with a billionaire-, you are a former League of Shadows assassin, you are great with weapons, keeping secrets and so far meeting the criteria for an adventure buddy. That's all I swear. And that you have some pets. A cat, maybe."

"How you know about my cat?!"

"Cat hair on your clothes." She was good. "If it will ease your mind about me, you can ask me 5 questions that I will truthfully answer. "

"So why are you doing this?"

"That's question 1. Well, I really want whatever this is between us to work. Partners, Friends, Companions, Comrades. Whatever you want to call it. Like I said, I get lonely sometimes and need some human interaction to at least keep myself sane. You looked like you want to be somewhere else and I thought this is perfect. I am not going to tell anyone about you or push you to join me. I swear on my mother's sword."

"Are we killing anybody?"

"Mostly I try to avoid that as much as possible. Sometimes I get into situations with no other alternative. " She looked away guiltily.

"Fair enough."

"Not judging me for that. That's a first for me."

"I am a former assassin and have killed before. I have no right to condemn you for your past."

"How much are you willing to tell me about this hidden temple?"

"That has to do with a secret. I would tell you more when there are less ears around. But this temple was said to hold a magic jewel that grants some powers and it is located really deep in the jungle. Getting there might take months."

"You forgot to mention that last one."

"Oh yeah. You think you can get away for some months. This kind of stuff usually takes a while. Like I said before, no pressure. Anyway, 2 questions left."

"What's my salary?"

"Aren't you a billionaire?"

"My father is. I have a trust fund and I get a salary for doing my job at the company. You are lucky that I just finished with most of my assigned projects so I might be able to come."

"I am so sorry about just assuming things about you. You can say no to the offer. The temple is said to hold some other treasures but I mainly want the jewel. We could auction off a few bits and pieces. I usually just donate them to museums and universities or sell them to those who really appreciate the history. I would also pay for the entire expenses for the trip."

"Can I think about this?"

"Sure. Here's my number. I leave on the 1st of next month. Gimme an answer a week before that so I can make the proper arrangements. It has been fun talking to you, Damian."

She walked away, going towards the buffet table.

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Back in the car on the way home to the manor.

Bruce asked, "Who were you talking to for that long?"

"Who?"

"The one that gave you her number."

"Oh. MDC. She invited me to join her in China next month to find some hidden temple."

"She did?"

"Yes. Not only that she found out about mother and know what I did before I came here. She doesn't know about Batman, Robin or Crow. And she said she wasn't going to blackmail me but just wanted a companion to go with her. Ideally, it would be best to silence her before she digs any further into me but I trust her. I sincerely believe that she meant it when she said that she's not going to tell on me. And I am really tempted to take up on it."

"What do you want to do?"

"On one hand, i would be gone for months so there won't be Crow in Gotham for a while and I have a few projects I need to finish up. On the other hand. Father, I have been a vigilante for over 10 years now and I haven't really done much out besides that, school and now work. I have appreciated all you have done for me over the years. But I want to go with her. Do something that is not connected to Batman or Wayne or Al Ghul. Just a little something different for myself."

"You can go if you want. I am not going to stop you. I will make arrangements so the projects would be done by someone else. The others can cover your patrols. You are still young so it is understandable to want some fun every now and then."

"Thank you, Father."

Bruce put his hand on his shoulder.

"I am proud of you as Crow and as Damian Wayne. But if you want to go find some hidden temple in China just for a break from this life, to be just Damian, go for it. There are worse things you could do. Just tell me if you are going to go on any future trips like that." (I don't know DC much, sorry if that is a little OOC but I like good dad! Bruce.)

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Damian dialed the number on the card.

"Hello"

"I accept your offer, miss MDC."

"Damian? Right, text me your email address. I will sent you things you would need to pack and flight details. And can you come by to the Gotham Rose Hotel tomorrow? I will give more details on the temple."

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Damian comes by the hotel.

Marinette tells him of the kwamis and miraculous and makes him swear to not tell anyone unless they already know.

The hidden temple actually might have a miraculous.

Damian gets a little interested in the akuma situation she mentioned.

Mari doesn't say anything about it much.

When he got back, he goes to the Bat-computer and did some digging.

Ladybug looks a little familiar. Pulls up younger picture of Mari and look at that, she used to be a superhero.

Wonder Woman was kept informed of things and made sure no one goes to Paris without her knowing.

Zatanna helped capture the villain Hawkmoth and end his 2 year reign.

Fast forward, they are in Beijing now, sleeping off jetlag.

The next morning, They get out of the city somehow to the city limits and somewhere remote.

Mari uses Kalki and transports them to the jungle.

They set up camp. Cue Campfire stories.

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"I thought getting here would take months."

"No actually, finding the temple would. According to my research and the map I copied through less than legal means, it is somewhere in this general area. There used to a city around here too and the king or emperor pissed off some powerful priest or wizard, take your pick. There was a curse. The city crumbled down and the temple is the only thing standing because the king went there and prayed to the gods for protection. The one who answered his prayers and protected the temple in doing so the king was pressed into service of the god. The king did everything the god said for a while but later, he started to hate it and began disobeying the orders. The god cursed him for his disobedience. The temple he was protected in became his tomb and he was tasked to protect the chest inside the temple for the rest of eternity. Anyone who opens the chest would gain the ultimate power to rule the earth. Thankfully, we are not after the chest. Some powerful crack-head with a misused miraculous tried to find it and open the chest for more power. But he never returned. My theory is that the miraculous is still in the temple. As long as we don't wake up the king or go for the chest, we would be okay."

"What are the guns for? And How did you get them past security?"

"In case of emergencies, an army of undead was mentioned and guns are surprisingly good repellent. Well, most of the time. It's useless if there is a no weapons can kill 'it' rule. Then, it's just a stress reliever. I kept them in a pocket dimension. Makes it easier to get around."

Damian vowed to never let Marinette meet Jason. Judging by the pile of guns and occasional knives and other weapons she took out of the brown satchel which apparently holds a pocket dimension, Jason would adopt her. He wondered if that was all that was inside in.

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They packed up and started searching the jungle for hidden temple.

It was a month and a half before they found it.

They bonded a lot during that time.

They had a moment after drinking a little alcohol which Mari has in the pocket dimension. Or Drank a lot of alcohol and had sex.

It was awkward and they both agree to not talk about it again.

Soon after, they found the temple. But it is still a little far away.

But the temple is not the only thing they found. They also found a campsite with many people milling around. Some of them carried guns.

Somewhat rich bastard who overheard their conversation at the gala. Heard treasure and found out where Mari's next expedition is.

Had the help of some scholar who wants to be famous for the greatest find since King Tut.

They found the temple even though they had no magical help, they left 2 weeks before Mari did, so yeah.

Rich Bastard's name is 'Philip Anderson'(This sounds familiar to me for some reason and I can't find out why.) and Scholar is 'Harry Scott'

They have armed bodyguards and some 'hired' help to get the treasure.

Anderson is still rich but his company had been getting losses the past 2 years and this is a quick, easy get rich scheme.

Mari and Damian: "Rich asshole on his high horse."

Anderson doesn't know about the chest but Mari and Damian thinks he does and it was what he was after.

They set up camp a little further ahead of Anderson's

Unfortunately, they were found by Harry. Somehow.

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I am going to continue this when I am more awake.

[saetoru]

hey tee, can i ask something? so ik how frustrating it can be when anons send hate, but what’s it like when other blogs do it?? how do you handle it?? & i dont mean when they’re like directly talking to you, but subtweeting in a way…am i explaining this well????? idk but something that i hate is when people will just ask & ask & ask you to write as if you’re a machine & not a human being.

there’s a particular account that never writes (which is completely fine), and they always ask everyone to be patient & etc. but they constantly talk abt how “no one writes like they used to” or just complain abt other people’s writing in general & it’s just so sad to see bc as a creator on this app, they should immediately understand tht people are not fucking machines & struggle with writer’s block & stuff like that. she just gives off big hypocritical vibes. idk if you’re mutuals w/ them or not (hopefully not).

her writing is fine, but as a person… idk. im not gonna say who it is, but they’re pretty known on tumblr. it really bugs me when she says stuff like that and then her followers just back her up like nothing’s wrong. generally speaking, i believe u can say whatever tf u want on your own blog, but some of the stuff she says just really upsets me, especially since im starting to write on tumblr. i have blocked her, but after seeing some the things she’s said, plus the amount of people that agree with her is making me real self conscious abt my work.

so yea, how do u feel when stuff like that happens to you?? im so sry for the long ask, but hopefully you can take the time to respond. it would mean a lot! ❤️

hi bestie !! i will answer under the cut:

i just block lmao. like deadass half of a lot writers on here ??? chances are i’ve blocked them and tbh that might sound bad but if i see a discourse or a “hot take” that i fully disagree with, or rubs me wrong, i block. and that’s bc i think all of us as writers, even if it’s the smallest part of our brains, compare ourselves to other writers. so i block writers that give me bad vibes bc i don’t wanna subconsciously start comparing myself to them in a manner that makes me question myself like you said. if a writer thinks majority of fanfic mostly sucks now, well i guess they’re not reading my sucky content bc they are b l o c k e d !!!

i actually have like two or three very strongly voiced ppl blocked that always say “fanfic isn’t what it used to be” or “all fanfic is the same now” and i think personally it’s a really entitled and annoying thing to say. if someone came into a writer’s inbox and said those exact things on anon, everyone would jump to attack that anon and say “it’s free content be grateful.” i don’t think someone being a writer gives them the right to dictate such strong opinions openly about other peoples fanfic writing styles/methods/choices. even if you provide content, you’re still consuming free content just as everyone else. it’s one thing to politely offer advice as one writer to another with good intentions, but that’s very clearly seen in your tone and how you word the message. if you think fanfic isnt what it used to be, then write what you want to see ??? it’s simple.

so yeah either way i would block that individual—maybe i already have them blocked too who knows LMAO i hope i do. but i wouldn’t let it get to you because tbh in my experience ppl who have the most to say about other writers have the emptiest masterlists 💀 the rest of us are too busy focusing on our writing to care about what other people are posting and whatnot. block them, block their friends that agree, block anyone else that agrees with them. LMAO i’m not saying this to act like “ur always right and everyone else is always wrong” but tbh if u just block all the ppl ur disagree with, then at one point ur dash will just be peaceful

take it from me !! the girlie that is blocked by like 75% of this app !! just remove people you don’t wanna see. filter their urls, unfollow ppl they heavily interact with, curate ur own experience without being a bitch. rant to ur friends, get it off ur chest privately but like don’t subpost them in a rly obvious manner and start more drama bc it’s just always gonna be a mess that way.

and tbh there’s a lot of things that ppl in a fandom community can and should come and discuss in a civil manner without peoples feelings getting hurt like meta and popularly flawed characterization patterns, but i think bitching about the “quality” of fanfic is a rly nasty thing to openly complain about bc it’s just unwarranted and discouraging. a lot of people are on here for fun, not to write new york times best selling novels, so just let them have their fun :/

[hyperfixationtimego]

For the talentswap au can you talk about Makoto?? I'm so curious about his clairvoyance! And Chihiro too 👀

OH OH ALSO TOKO/JILL PLEASE

Anyway you always have galaxy brain thoughts feel free to answer whichever ones you like! <3

YES YES YES ABSOLUTELY!!! I have so many thoughts about ALL OF THEM I would LOVE to talk about these mfs

ALSO THANK YOU THAT MEANS A LOT!!! I am so very honored and excited to have people that like my stuff?? eeueueuegege it makes me so happy!!!!!

Okay okay so first things first!!!

Makoto Naegi - the Ultimate Clairvoyant

- He’s always been a little different from others, able to sense just before things go wrong, or guess what someone’s thinking right before they say it. It’s a talent, for certain, but he doesn’t like to think of it that way. To him, it’s just something that makes him weird and different; something he tries to downplay whenever he can. Unfortunately for him but VERY fortunately for us, Hope’s Peak knows exactly how talented he is.

- his important person is still Komaru! They’ve got a typical sibling relationship, teasing and arguing with each other and whatnot, but Makoto wouldn’t trade her for the world. She’s one of the only people in Makoto’s life that he trusts when she tells him that his clairvoyance is what makes him special, not what makes him a freak! She admires him so very much that she’s even tried learning how to read minds on her own! (She always fails, of course, but it means so much to Makoto that Komaru would go to such great lengths to be like him!)

- his secret is still that he wet the bed until fifth grade because honestly it’s just so ridiculous and i couldn’t think of a good replacement. his initial reaction is still “who would ever kill someone over secrets like these?” But his clairvoyance makes him immediately understand that he is in a bit of a different boat than everyone else when it comes to their secrets

- some extra stuff is that he usually figures out who the culprit is either before or during the trial, but never says anything because he’s worried he’s misinterpreting/just flat out wrong

- chapter three is a bitch to me specifically because it involves him recognizing what Leon was trying to do and THEN recognizing that Leon is ACTING all mad and scared and stuff and isn’t really trying to get away with the crime at all. It breaks Makoto’s heart because what the fuck :)

- um um um Celeste usually comes up to him once a body has been discovered and she’s like “yo. who did it” and he just gives her these weird garbled nonsense words that even he doesn’t understand yet but that supposedly point to the killer

Chihiro Fujisaki - the Ultimate Affluent Progeny

- first of all she’s trans because I say so and she’s not ashamed or closeted or anything she’s literally just trans <3

- second of all she is simply a spoiled little rich girl!!! I LOVE HER CHARACTER SO MUCH IN THIS AU ACTUALLY BECAUSE. UNLIKE TOGAMI SHE’S NOT ACTIVELY TRYING TO ANTAGONIZE ANYONE. she is simply like “I don’t like this game :( we shouldn’t sentence anyone to death because that is like killing them ourselves :( we should all die together and stand up to monokuma :)” what’s actually happening is that she doesn’t quite understand what she’s saying!! It hasn’t quite registered yet that death is actually on the table for everyone, and that’s what makes her carefree attitude abt the voting so dangerous! Especially when she starts getting people on her side!

- her important person is her father!!! She’s Taichi’s special little princess, and he wants the world to know it!! He spoils her rotten and thinks she’s the sweetest thing in the whole world!!

- her secret is that her family business is completely amoral and utilizes slavery and unethical business practices in order to stay ahead of the competition. Because. You know. They’re capitalists.

- just to hammer it home how out of touch with reality she is, she proudly announces this “secret” to the rest of the cast as if it’s not big deal.

- I would like it on record that she is not bad, just very very sheltered. Her heart is good; she genuinely loves and cares about her “friends” and wants to see them succeed, she just doesn’t understand that not everyone thinks the same way she does.

- Togami LOVES HER /p

- like he is just “oh my god this adorable child is telling me to kill myself and everyone else for the sake of one person yes I approve wholeheartedly” WRITING PRODIGY TOGAMI IS A DIPSHIT I LOVE HIM

- he gets so offended whenever Celeste DARES to disagree with Chihiro like he straight up goes into one of those bullet time battle minigames at one point

- Celeste is three seconds away from punting Chihiro across the room at all times btw

- JILL SLAPS HER AT ONE POINT I THINK. I FORGET IF IT’S JILL OR TOKO BUT IT’S ONE OF THEM

Toko Fukawa (& Genocide Jill) - The Ultimate Swimming Pro

- there are other alters but Toko and Jill are the two that front the most. Toko is a host and Jill is a protector

- Toko is the one with the title of ultimate swimming pro, not Jill. Some of the other alters have created fake “ultimates” to call themselves, hence why Jill considers herself the “ultimate murderous fiend.”

- Jill has never murdered anyone, btw. I’ve seen this headcanon before, I’m not sure where, but she was formed when the system saw a news report about a killer named “genocide Jack” when it was very young. Jill went by Jack for a good long while, but she’s actually trans and considers Jack to be her deadname

- I KNOW WE’RE TALKIJG ABOUT THE TALENTSWAP AND NOT GENERAL HEADCSNONS BUT LIKE. I HAVE TO GET THESE OFF MY CHEST

- Jill is just an edgy protector who threatens people as a defense mechanism. She’s loud and brash because she knows it disconcerts people enough to bide time for the system to escape the situation if need be. While she may seem reckless, she actually chooses her words very carefully so as not to escalate a situation beyond what is reasonably within her control.

- OKAY BACK TO SWIMMER TOKO

- so basically. after sustaining the trauma of her childhood, and after the alters have formed (Toko Fukawa is the legal name of the system and also the name of the host) Toko found her passion and safety in swimming. She discovered that it relaxed her and even helped with keeping her grounded a lot of the time! It’s something she tries to do everyday; it’s a coping skill that means a lot to her!!

- toko’s important “person” is still Kameko! She just loves things that other people consider to be “ugly” 🥺 to her, Kameko is one of the prettiest things in the world!!

- the secret is that Toko once poisoned an opponent of hers with laxatives in order to win a swim meet 😶 she does not feel bad about it KSHSMSND

- TOKO AND HINA (ult martial artist) POG!!!! they are fwiends 🥰👉👈

- I REMEMBER NOW

- JILL SLAPS CHIHIRO BECAUSE IT’S A FIGHT OR FLIGHT THING. Chihiro is talking some mad shit and it triggers Jill into fronting. When Jill can’t handle the situation like she normally does, she feels cornered and ends up slapping Fujisaki in the face

[kidhawks]

WAHHGUHFH.. FANTASY HAWKS.. I LOVE UR DESIGN FOR HIM AGHH!! and do u have stuff to say abt him bcos i would LOVE to hear it

YAY i’m glad u like him :’) fantasy au time hehe 😈 it’s still a work in progress but yes.. a few thoughts. i’m just spitballing here so if anyone has ideas of their own i’d love to hear them <3

hawks “”works”” for the commission (aka is owned by them) who still get to be a shady organisation whose goal is to maintain peace and order across kingdoms, which r probably ruled by important characters like endeavor, all might, all for one etc. no one likes the commission because they’re always sticking their nose in other people’s business lmao. they’ve controlled things from the shadows for a loooong time, assassinating leaders who get too power hungry, quashing rebellions before they can begin etc. they want things to stay exactly as they are, always, and so far they’ve mostly succeeded

quirks still exist but mutant discrimination is more pronounced—they only recently got equal rights in all kingdoms. it’s what allowed hawks to be basically enslaved the way he is. now the freedom laws are passed he could technically leave the commission but for a multitude of Reasons he stays. eg, his priority is also maintaining peace not because he thinks society is perfect how it is—far from it—but because upset peace means civilian death. he wants to see change but if innocents die for it then it’s not worth it. his goals align with the commission’s enough that he’ll continue to help them. however, other people, especially other mutants, can’t understand why he’d stay and he’s viewed with a mixture of “dirty commission dog too loyal for his own good” and “poor thing was raised to love the hand that hit it and can’t fathom the idea of freedom, so sad”

similarly to canon, hawks was sold to the commission when he was young and trained into a spy/assassin hehe (what’s the point of an au if it isn’t self indulgent?). the tattoos are added to with achievements. the diamond on his chest was immediately inked on him when he arrived, while the lines are added for things like significant kills, successful missions. i’m toying with the idea of them being a way of controlling him, like they cause pain if he disobeys, but i’m also fond of them just being a symbolic representation of ownership... hmm. oh!! maybe they give him power while also hurting him if he disobeys? i’ll have to think more abt how that works lol, i want him to be able to disobey at times, but knowing hawks he’ll find ways to sneakily work around orders while still technically obeying

his job consists of flying around the kingdoms and knowing everything that’s going on at any given time. there isn’t a rumour he hasn’t heard, whether from frequenting underground fighting rings or influential nobles’ bedrooms if he has to. for discretion’s purpose the tattoos can be made invisible for periods of time but never truly removed—everyone knows him now anyway, the commission’s pet with the bright red wings, so the tattoos are rarely concealed anymore. everyone thinks they can avoid letting slip any information to him but jokes on them because his wings don’t miss a whisper and he’s a charmer to the point that you don’t know what you’ve said until he’s saying “thanks, that was really helpful! great chat! bye!”

he’s also basically a messenger pigeon between kingdoms since he can travel so quickly. the commission “kindly” offered his services but everyone knows it’s a method of planting him in every castle to hear them juicy deets, and you don’t refuse the commission because you want to keep your head, thanks. so hawks is familiar with each ruler and their castle staff for good measure, and probably a fair few commoners too... he was one of them once after all. he’s originally from endeavor’s kingdom but the guy doesn’t need to know that

all might thinks he’s a charming young man but hawks is weirdly creeped out by the constant smile and actually prefers the grump endeavor who shoos him like a pigeon. all for one is terrifying and hawks knows he’s after war but he can’t prove it. if it comes down to it he might have to resort to assassination, but if done wrong that could cause more problems than it solves (plus, killing, bleaugh). he hates afo’s castle and leaves as soon as he’s delivered a message, though he enjoys bothering afo’s heir shigaraki first (hawks was eighteen when he first spotted shigaraki, fifteen, sulking around the castle like he didn’t have a friend in the world. well, maybe hawks could change that and get some info while he was at it... unfortunately shigs is surprisingly tight lipped but he’s good for board games)

i’m thinking of making other top-ten heroes into rulers of their own kingdoms? queen miruko would be awesome, imagine!! the first animal mutant queen who’s loved for not being a passive leader but a fighter with a passionate love for her people. hawks doesn’t like how unpredictable she is, it makes his job harder, while she thinks he lets himself be walked all over and it pisses her off, but i think they could be great pals if they got to know each other. edgeshot the ninja king. jeanist is a peaceful, pragmatic leader who hawks actually gets along with. sorry, pb, i have no idea how to fit wash in. washing machines don’t exist in my self indulgent fantasy AU.

if i wrote this i’d probably have afo wage war after all and hawks kicking himself for not doing better in preventing it. shigaraki is at the head of the war, but after afo is killed/arrested like in canon, shigaraki labels it as more of a rebellion with his new generals by his side, one of whom is a powerful man called dabi who hawks has never heard of, and he’s meant to hear everything. it’s not a good time for hawks knowing he wasn’t enough to stop this. if he had tried harder to sway shigaraki away from afo’s ideals... it hurts seeing the lonely kid he once knew declare his desire for complete destruction. hawks doesn’t have “friends” but he cares for people—the commission didn’t take his heart, just chained it

anyway it’s basically canon but fantasy because fantasy is sexy and cool (it would deviate a lot from canon though i don’t want it to be a carbon copy lmao)

[liquidstar]

I love re:zero so please feel comfortable sharing your thoughts because even if no one else does I sure as hell will enjoy them

oh i genuinely love it too i think its fun (in terms of the story from an outside perspective, not what happens in it, subaru is very clearly not having a fun time) i like the characters and the themes a lot, my personal favorite is the whole theme of "perception of the self through the other" which is like so prevalent in it (but really laid on thick in arc 6 and gluttony:if). and im the type of person that LOVES series and characters i can analyze into bits, i honestly could write an entire novel on that shit. that and part of my enjoyment of it probably does come from a bias of having enjoyed it with my brother tho bc it was fun watching it w him

its a weird show to talk abt tho bc of the association it has with all those weird nerdboys who completely missed the fact that the series is a critique of them because they were too busy jerking off to rem :/ like omg i like the show a lot but i hope to god no one lumps me in with that bunch bc of it 😭 not that i dont think the series doesnt have its fair share of flaws in that regard either, i still am critical of it and all that. and i can totally understand why some people would not have the tolerance for certain stuff in it, both in terms of its issues and its more gruesome moments, so its not a series i recomend to everyone.

still i legitimately love all the characters in it a lot and i think theyre what i enjoy about it the most. the entire emilia camp (save for rosewal. he knows what he did.) just owns my heart honestly. like, i cant even tell you for certain which my favorite is because i love them all. even garfiel who i thought was annoying at first (but then we find out hes actually an 8th grader so everything about him makes sense in retrospect). or ram who i think is totally underrated compared to rem like they both rock equally. and emilia after her character development in arc 4 and frozen bonds, she didnt shine a lot in season 1 but season 2 literally gave her like 90 minutes straight of backstory and development and now i completely understand subaru's willingness to throw away his life for her, i would too.

even subaru whos meant to be unlikable at first totally won me over, because he legitimately grew as a person. and i think the fact that we got his backstory in arc 4 was the PERFECT timing for it, because if we got it at the beginning it would have either been seen as an excuse to justify his behavior (which thankfully the series paints as explicitly in the wrong) or wouldnt hit as hard because youre not meant to like him. but after seeing him cry with his mom and dad youre just like wow hes literally just a kid, like, hes only 17. the trial is absolutely what finally got me to be a subaru fan lol. even before that there were things i liked abt him tho like how he cared about the village kids and how he was able to see rem's individuality. he was never a bad person at heart he just had some of that good ol fashion toxic masculinity early on and im glad he got over it and learned to not see people (esp women) as characters... now if only the nerdboys watching would do that too.