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mekanikaltrifle · 1 year ago
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it's funny how once you've played enough of the non vampire WoD games, it becomes incredibly apparent that kindred are so self centred they think the whole tellurian revolves around them. Out here acting like their immortal petty fights and politics and street level depression is more important than... Idk.... The potential entire unraveling of the universe? The spiritual destruction of the umbral realms? Humanity slowly degrading into poorer and poorer health due to corruption? Oblivion growing day by day to eventually consume all?
Kindred are so dumb. Put down the politics for two damn minutes and help everyone maybe??
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mirage-babey · 6 years ago
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Apex Legends Highschool!AU
as inspired by my conversation with @bisexualmirage
Wraith:
idk what her name is man like i can barely pronounce ‘redacted’ how am i supposed to come up with a name
‘Wraith’ online
still getting over that emo phase she had at age 14
introvert that wants to be friends with people but struggles talking to people
friends consist exclusively of Mirage and Pathfinder but like,,, they’re really good friends so it’s good
has a TikTok account only to look at the memes Mirage makes but over her dead body will she let him find out
(does not go by ‘Wraith’ on tiktok)
has thrown hands defending her friends before and she’ll do it again
she has a rep to upkeep okay so nobody knows wtf she does most of the time but like on the downlow,,,, she’s a big ol’ English Literature nerd it’s her fave class
probably the author of My Immortal
Mirage:
Elliott Witt
goes by ‘Mirage’ online
seems like the kinda dude that’d totally be into drama but like he’s actually a huge physics nerd
the Overconfident Dumbass persona covers up the fact that he’s lowkey a genius
he’s gonna go on to do some wicked engineering later in life
met Pathfinder in the robotics club
he’s like,,, weirdly good at doing magic tricks
he’s friends with everyone but he’s closest with Wraith and Pathfinder and literally nobody but them understands how this works
an actual TikTok god - but only actually shows Path and Wraith his memes before they go viral tho he also knows that Wraith has a secret TikTok account to follow him but he finds it too endearing to mention
listens exclusively to 00s pop music
has probably woken up Wraith at some point by doing the whole playing music underneath her window thing
Pathfinder:
okay so on the wiki it says his real name is MRVN so im gonna call him Marvin dunno what his surname is tho lol
goes by ‘Pathfinder’ online
head of the robotics club
a really really nice person, if not a bit naive at times
excels at STEM subjects
spent a lot of his youth in the foster system, doesn’t know who is birth parents are but is trying really really hard to find them
Mirage and Wraith help where they can
works part time as a tutor because he’s smart and he also really really likes helping people
his main ambition in life is to receive recognition for his work in the form of like a nobel prize or something (he’s also totally gonna manage it)
also probably has a semi-popular youtube channel dedicated to amusing science experiments and stuff
does rock climbing when he gets the chance
Bangalore:
Anita Williams
‘Bangalore’ online, after a nickname given to her by her parents
does army cadets most days of the week (she comes from a military family)
the kind of person that’ll go into the military and after years of service she’ll settle down as a PE teacher
has beaten literally everyone at the school except Gibraltar at arm wrestling matches
on literally every school sports team
nobody can figure out how the hell she has time for all of this like how does she do cadets, play on every school team, and keep up good grades
the only issue is that in the process of trying to be the best at everything she tries to make her parents proud, she’s also become distant from her family. she wants to fix this but at the moment the only way she can think of to do this is to try and work even harder
Gibraltar:
Makoa Gibraltar
everyone just calls him Gibraltar tho
head of the school’s human rights group
he’s genuinely just a really nice guy, that’s why he’s so popular
has a motorcycle. somedays you might catch sight of him and his boyfriend taking it for a spin in the late evenings
sociology is his fave subject
has a part time job as a lifeguard
grown up seeing his parents work in search and rescue, and hopes to do the same
he’s the guy the school asks to show around guests and stuff because he’s just genuinely got a great personality? and he succeeds in his work? ideal student tbh
the school turns a blind eye to his kinda rebellious streak (they’d prefer he didn’t bring a motorbike to school but that’s not gonna stop him)
Lifeline:
Ajay Che
between the way she’s always saving everyone’s asses one way or another and the fact that she’s already gained recognition for her medical inventions despite her young age, she’s earned the nickname ‘Lifeline’
co-deputy head of the school’s human rights group
Her grades are real good, she’s aiming to do a degree in medicine before channeling that into humanitarian work
she’s also got a pretty decent following on soundcloud; the girl likes music and likes making it
family is filthy rich but she makes her own cash, doesn’t like being dependent on some family fortune. feels like inheriting it is kind of a slap in the face to people who work themselves practically to death to stay afloat in this world
volunteers with various charities outside of school
of course spends a lot of time doing STEM subjects at school but she also really enjoys sociology
Bloodhound:
yeah again i don’t have a name for them someone else can think of that
called ‘Bloodhound’ online
co-deputy head of the school’s human rights group
despite going to the same school they only actually met Gibraltar at a local pride festival. the two became fast friends though
for some reason???? crows absolutely love them???????? nobody knows why but these birds follow them around all the time at school
(it’s because they feed them)
History and English Literature are their strong suits. also does well in RE lessons
sits next to Wraith in Eng Lit, the pair have sort of bonded over the way they both keep to themselves
was totally into Rick Riordan books (and still is)
does archery in their free time, and is a p damn good shot
Caustic:
Alexander Nox
Goes by ‘Caustic’ on various forums (doesn’t have any other social media)
why is he in the chemistry lab all the time
way too interested in war history
very much a loner and it okay with that - people generally see him as kinda creepy
his hair is either slicked back with gel or grease nobody can tell and honestly nobody wants to know the real answer
in all fairness though he’s got a good few scholarships under his belt for when he leaves school
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sellinout · 6 years ago
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TRANSCRIPT for EPISODE 7
Courtesy of Steph DiBona!
[music]
DYLAN HANWRIGHT: It’s not comfortable, but there’s a little bit of hope on the horizon, of how can we keep ourselves afloat personally, while also having money for the van, the trailer, the gear. Just striking that balance is really, uh, is a tough thing.
MIKE MOSCHETTO: What’s the old saying? If it wasn’t for a mic check I wouldn’t have a check at all? I’m Mike Moschetto, and this is Sellin’ Out.
[music: “I’m a casino that pays nothing when you win / Please put your money in”]
MIKE: Hey! Thanks for listening to Sellin’ Out. Proud to be the #1 rated podcast named “Sellin’ Out” that I am personally aware of at the present time. If you’re listening for the first time, welcome, thank you. I’m mike Moschetto. But if you’ve been along for the ride up through this point, it’s probably become clear by now that I’ve been sitting on the oldest episodes of this show for over six months, in some cases closer to a year now. Just waffling about it like a coward. And so once I finally embraced my more narcissistic side and mustered up the courage to releases this stupid thing, I was fucking mortified to find that another show called Selling Out, that’s with a ‘g’, had released its first episode literally a week before I started the submission process for this one.
I think the only course of action when it comes to being beaten to the punch in something like that is that they may have had the name first, but I will utterly crush them in ratings and reviews and buzz. So if you enjoy what you hear, please consider going to Apple Podcasts or your favorite podcatchers and help me bury these guys deep down in the search results with a nice review. I don’t know, I’m sure they’re nice but what can I say, I’ve got the spirit of a warrior.
Anyway, my guests today are Dylan Hanwright and Malia Seavey, and where do I even begin? Uh, Dylan was one of the primary songwriters in I Kill Giants, who, I know, they just had a big weekend of reunion shows, and no I didn’t talk to them about it, and yes, this episode was taped months before it was even announced, so, I’m trying to get about that. But you’ll just have to appreciate this episode for what it is.
You may also know Dylan from his various other projects including Great Grandpa, Trashlord, Apples with Moya, Logfella, Slothfella, there’s probably even more that I don’t know about. And I was also joined by his partner Malia Seavey, who plays in Salt Lick, Dogbreth, and a number of other bands herself. And she’s also active in design work and screenprinting, which is such a huge economic engine within this kind of music I could do a whole episode just on that, and maybe I will.
Anyway, uh, Dylan and Malia and I talked about the role of college and its value to people pursuing creative fields, the lure of the new startup job, geographical isolation, and making do in a major American City and so much more. So, I’m pleased now to give you Dylan and Malia.
[music: “it’s just the kids these days they make me feel so old / I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin / I think the best is only over / the night is slowly closing in / and I’m staring at my thighs / you watch an episode and nothing more / I think I'd rather not be sober”]
MIKE: I met you, Dylan, through mutual friends, while they and you were at Berklee College of Music. What were you studying there and, uh, you know, this might be a stupid question for anybody who's in the know, but why Berklee?
DYLAN: Uh, originally I went in for um, the major music production engineering, which is basically recording, it’s engineering, producing, all that. That’s what my draw was, I couldn’t really find that anywhere else. Yeah, I just wanted that specific, I, you know, I didn’t just want to study music or music history or something, I wanted like a specific sort of education. So, that’s why Berklee, and I had pretty much had Berklee in my sights since I was like 15 or so.
MIKE: Right, ‘cause you’re like a player and a musician, and there’s something about that school that appeals, I mean it’s obviously the most prestigious in a certain sense, unless you’re trying to something like really classical.
DYLAN: Right, right. It’s, it’s like the more contemporary of the like, the, you know, bigger music schools, and um, and that’s definitely where I, like I didn’t do jazz band or anything in high school. I didn’t really, I was more of just like playing punk shows and stuff like that. So, so even Berklee was, it felt like a little bit of a stretch but, uh, yeah. And so when I got in I kind of had explored a little more and found a different major that seemed a little more interesting to me which was called Electronic Production and Design. And that was a little more focused on synthesis and creating sound, sound design, um a lot of like EDM folks went into that major. Um, so kind of the more like lonely end of production, just the like, you know, programming and sort of using the computer to, to get what you want done in music. And it took me, took me three semesters of applying to get into that major. So I was-
MIKE: Whoa.
DYLAN:  Yeah, I was pushing hard for it and finally got in.
MIKE: Wow. And uh, Malia, do you have a formal like college education, like a post-secondary, any kind of vocational music thing, or..?
MALIA SEAVEY: Not really, I went to school for like visual arts, mostly costuming and textiles.
MIKE: Oh, okay.
MALIA: I took like one music theory class, but I really, it didn’t click [laughs].
MIKE: That’s all fine too, and do you do anything in like costuming now? Visual, kind of..?
MALIA: Um, not really, I still sew, I make like um, accessories and like guitar straps and stuff like that, and fanny packs. But um, I don’t really costume anymore, yeah.
MIKE: Okay. And did you, you had like aspirations of that maybe, like for theater, or...?
MALIA: I did, yeah, for theater. Um, I did, I wanted to do movies and stuff to but it’s, you have to dedicate a lot of nights and weekends to that, and I like to play, and usually, you know, practicing ends up at those times, and shows and stuff end up during the weekends and stuff like that, so-
MIKE: So your like music habit kind of got in the, got the better of it?
MALIA: It did, yeah. Which is funny ‘cause it was definitely like more of a, just a fun side thing for a while, and then I took it more seriously, put the other stuff aside.
MIKE: I guess I’ll throw this to both of you, did, when you were going to school for something so, I mean I think a lot about hyper-specialization, so like, music production, electronic production, sound design. I went to college for audio post-production and sound design, which is so specific that it’s like everyone from my major went to LA to work in film and TV.
DYLAN: Sure.
MIKE: Except for me. Did you get any kind of push back before you went to college for something so specific that, you know, the chances of it being lucrative are so-so?
DYLAN: Um, I feel like I was incredibly lucky with my parents and like my support system, and even like friends and everyone I went to school was like yeah this is what Dylan wants to do, Dylan's the music guy, he’s gotta go do this. And my parents knew that's really you know, all I really wanted to do. My grandparents went with me to visit the school, and you know-
MIKE: That’s nice.
DYLAN: -that was a little like scary, I was like you know, what, what are they gonna think, and they came out thinking it was incredible, they loved it, they, they helped me fund my education, and uh, so yeah. I feel really lucky that I didn’t have that push back, ‘cause I feel like, you know, a lot of folks would and, I think that definitely helped me decide, like ok, I can do this. Like, people support that, and I don’t want to let them down, so.
MIKE: Of course, yeah.
MALIA: Mine wasn’t taken seriously, until I started to get work, I think?
MIKE: That’s, I mean, the best way to prove anyone wrong, definitely.
MALIA: Totally, yeah. And to be fair I did get like a art degree from a non-art school, so I think that maybe that had something to do with it, but um, yeah. Once I started making money off of it, then people were like, oh yeah cool!
MIKE: Yeah, there you go, yeah.
MALIA: It makes sense now!
MIKE: Yeah, yeah.
MALIA: ‘Cause, ‘cause people care about money apparently.
MIKE: There’s a lot to be said, I guess, especially in creative things, for the networking, uh, parts of it. Somethings I think, like I wish someone had said like, hey you don’t need to go to like a private college, like an extremely vocational school for this. Um, and I guess it depends on what you’re doing, right? Especially if it’s networking in the sense of like, the only way into an industry, definitely? But, you know, I also like met the woman I’m about to marry at that college so I can’t really complain that much, but I mean... is there anything that you can say about the value proposition of getting a degree, like an advanced degree in music, or art, or design, or whatever. Could you recommend it to anyone, or is it totally from situation to situation?
MALIA: I personally think that one of the major reasons to go to a school like that, is like how you said the connections that you’re gonna make with the people, so I think that if you can find those kind of connections elsewhere, and um like, intern and get like on-the-job experience, I think that that could be just as good and a lot cheaper.
MIKE: Absolutely.
MALIA: But I think that school offers a lot of opportunity to get jobs through professors or meet collaborators and stuff like that, that’s really what I took away from, from going to school.
MIKE: Oh, totally. For sure.
DYLAN: I think what helped me kind of break out of my shell was college, and, and like allowed me, like I, you know, I wouldn’t have met you had it not been for meeting all of my bandmates at college, and I wouldn’t have toured as heavily and like gotten that experience had I not gone to college. And like, the most I learned about myself musically um, was outside of the college playing in bands. So it was like, a lot of the experience I got outside of the schooling itself was the most valuable-
MIKE: Extracurricular.
DYLAN: Right, and...
MIKE: Right.
DYLAN: And I think I wouldn’t have done that, I wouldn’t have been so extracurricular had I just stayed, you know, tried, tried to like intern or tried to go to local venues and stuff and just gone that route.
MIKE: Yeah.
DYLAN: To, to like break into the music scene. But I think that it’s up to, it’s totally a personal thing. I think a lot of people totally have the ability to get that knowledge and expertise and experience just by getting their feet wet, getting in and doing it.
MIKE: Of course.
DYLAN: But I think college helped me kind of like have a community to like surround myself in, and get comfortable with, and, you know, we all, we all kind of held each other up, and helped each other out and, um, I think that’s something really valuable.
MIKE: And you still do, I’m sure, even, however many years later.
DYLAN: Yeah. Oh absolutely, yeah.
MIKE: And that’s actually, you’re kind of doing all my work for me here, and, uh...
DYLAN & MALIA: [laughs]
MIKE: So while you’re, while you’re at school, obviously you get involved with I Kill Giants, and I don’t think I really appreciated this until maybe after, but like that band got-
DYLAN: I don’t think anyone did.
MIKE: -got huge, it got huge! It got huge. And I, I don’t know if this is maybe what drove it home, but like the reunion set, the Broken World Fest thing?
DYLAN: Yeah.
MIKE: Was that a surprise to you? That, I mean obviously you put in the work for it, but, were you, was it kind of an unexpected response?
DYLAN: I think that I knew that it was gonna be a big show, I knew that it was, you know, that band was a big deal to a lot of people. You can’t really realize that until you’re, you know, on stage and experiencing and having a blast. But um, yeah it was a weird thing, ‘cause I know that when I left the band, I left Boston, it seemed like such an easier choice. It seemed like yeah, you know, we don’t, we don’t have that much going. Like, career is more important, but uh, you know, months later after I’d moved and kind of like saw the, the like legacy quote-on-quote? Um, that really like set in, and, it’s just like grass is always greener, you know it’s...
MIKE: Yeah, of course.
DYLAN: It, you don’t know what you got ‘til it’s gone, that sort of thing, so.
MIKE: ‘Cause you did a last EP and like a last tour, and then the reunion show and all that, do you think to tag something with that kind of finality has some effect on the response and…?
DYLAN: Oh absolutely, yeah. Yeah, um, giving people one last chance or whatever, I think, you know, it makes it a little more special, a little more memorable. It means we’re gonna try harder on our end, it’s not just another show, you know, I think, I think that, in any, in any capacity, any band doing that sort of thing is gonna see... it’s gonna feel a little more special for that reason.
MIKE: I mean Aviator never did like a last show, I think we kind of fizzled out with the understanding like, ah if you’re not riding with us now then like, we don’t wanna give anyone the pleasure, I guess, which is what-
DYLAN: [laughs]
MIKE: -what, maybe why we never really got there.
DYLAN: Sure.
MIKE: I do wanna, I wanna circle back to, uh, the reason that you left Boston, and I’ve always been curious about this. Tell me about the opportunity that brought you back to your home state of Washington.
DYLAN: It was kind of a classic start-up situation. Um...
MIKE: Okay.
DYLAN: Looking back, like, maybe a little naïve at the time, but, right as I was kind of finishing up school, someone who I had been in touch with for a long time, um, really talented game developer, programmer, who, we’d always talked about collaborating and stuff. We worked together on like, you know, a few small things throughout college. As I was finishing up, he hit me up and was like hey, I’m starting a startup, we’ve got investors, we are, you know, we’ve got this house in Redmond, WA that they’re paying rent for us, we’re just gonna turn it into a dev house. Um, you’re welcome to live there, set up a, you know, set up a studio, and basically make music for our, for, and they were working on this game, that looked amazing, felt amazing, it was a really, from my experience with it, it was a really great product that I really wanted to work on. Um, and so after, you know, a lot of like back and forth and a lot of figuring out what would be best, I decided I wanted to move back, join this startup, get into the creative world professionally. There’s that panic of being done with college and being like, oh God what do I do, I don’t wanna, don’t wanna go work at food service, you know, like... Like you’d kind of said before, going to college for something like that, you know, if you don’t have something like that afterwards, it’s like a failure.
MIKE: Oh yeah, I mean I delivered pizza, I was a mailman, I did all that stuff.
DYLAN: So, that’s kind of what made the decision for me, and uh, I told the guys I was gonna quit the band. They were all really cool with it, they were stoked for me. Um, we recorded our last EP, booked our last tour, did all the stuff, and then once we were done with that tour I pretty much got back to Boston and moved out. Moved right into the house in Redmond, and I think within like a month the startup tanked.
MIKE: Wow, I didn’t know it was that quick, I thought it was at least a...
DYLAN: It was pretty quick.
MIKE: So the project never was like, completed then?
DYLAN: Nope. No, it was uh, they had an issue with like, someone who originally was part of the team, and they decided they didn’t want to be, they didn’t want to have them as part of the team anymore, then this person threatened to sue, the investors got freaked out, were like nevermind, we’re out, and that was it. Pack up and get out of the house, and kind of moved back in with my parents, and just like started from ground zero, not, not two months after leaving Boston.
MIKE: I mean I don’t pay really, really close attention but it seems like there’s been kind of like, or maybe this was the start of an indie game development renaissance almost?
DYLAN: Yeah.
MIKE: Have you, is this something you’ve continued to try to pursue in the meantime?
DYLAN: I, it’s been, there’s been like an on and off, you know, I’ll get really inspired, I’ll get, you know, just get my shit together, and you know redo my website every you know several months, and decide now’s the time. I’m gonna write some game music. I’m gonna get some stuff out there. Let’s see what we can do. And then like, a few months later, decide it’s too hard, decide it’s just like so hard to break into, and be like, maybe another time, I’m just gonna focus on writing my own music right now. So I, I feel like I’ve gone back and forth between that for the past four years.
MIKE: Was it the major change at Berklee that kind of prompted you to get into composing for something so specific as video games? Because a lot of that has to be responsive, right, like it has to be, it’s like a totally different mindset of writing.
DYLAN: Right.
MIKE: I would think.
DYLAN: Yeah, it’s very different, and uh, I actually minored in video game scoring at Berklee, which was like, just the fact that they had a minor for that, I was like ok, this, this is doable, this is like what I want to do. Um, and I can be taught how to do it, so.
MIKE: Yeah, yeah.
DYLAN: Um, it is, and it’s, there’s, it’s a lot of tech-heavy sort of, um, knowledge that goes into it and understanding how to write for an interactive sort of experience. It’s different, but it’s something I always felt like I was good at, I’ve always loved video games, I’ve always listened to soundtracks obsessively, and...
MIKE: I mean it’s some of the most, kind of culturally memorable music for a whole, like a growing generation of people.
DYLAN: Sure, yeah absolutely.
[music: “What a gift to feel stroked off by a phrase / to be so simple and so happy and undoubting / I keep commission on the TV and I’m PKD / What a mercy we’re perpetually occluded / we crave the twangy void of the perfect diploid / I am irrational - an expert eraser”]
MIKE: Malia, are you from the Seattle area originally then, or..?
MALIA: I Grew up in Olympia, I’ve been in Seattle like eight or nine years.
MIKE: Tell me about your, your music, your bands.
MALIA: Um, I’m in a few projects. My main project that I write the most for is called Salt Lick, and it’s with a group of close friends that, a few of us have been making music together for, I don’t know, two or three years, although this project is pretty new.
MIKE: Same people, kind of reconfigured.
MALIA: Yeah.
MIKE: Okay.
MALIA: Yeah, totally. I sing in that band and like, write the words and stuff, and I joined Dogbreth last August, I think? So I drum in the band. We actually, I got home at 4:30 this morning [laughs] because we were recording for the last week or so, um, at the Unknown in Anacortes, so. Really excited about that.
MIKE: Wow.
MALIA: And, I’m in another project called Super Projection. So yeah, pretty busy, pretty busy with the tunes.
MIKE: And, do these all tour, I mean, it sounds like you were record, were you recording remotely, or somewhere nearby?
MALIA: Um, Anacortes is about an hour and a half away.
MIKE: Okay.
MALIA: It’s like this old church turned into a studio.
MIKE: Ooh.
MALIA: Um, it’s really great, loved it, I recorded there with Super Projection about a year ago as well.
MIKE: Oh cool, cool cool.
MALIA: We, we tour mildly, nothing like something people I know. [laughs] Like you know, a week or two here and there.
MIKE: Regionally, obviously.
MALIA: Totally, yeah, the coast kind of thing, maybe over to Montana, but nothing too big yet, hopefully someday, you know.
MIKE: Yeah, yeah of course. I mean you have to, especially in, in your part of the country it has to be so gradual that you get outside of your home base ‘cause everything is like, I don’t want to say we’re like lucky around here ‘cause it’s not always, results may vary, but you know, you can drive an hour and a half and you’re in like a different market.
MALIA: Yeah, I know, it’s crazy.
MIKE: I’m haunted by the three days I did in the northwest.
DYLAN: [laughs]
MALIA: Oh, long drives?
MIKE: Nobody, nobody told me that like you should really have a day in between Portland and San Francisco. So we did the whole thing-
MALIA: Oh yeah that’s a long one.
MIKE: We did an overnight drive, and we were just fucking zombies, and didn’t get to-
MALIA: Sleepy gig? [laughs]
MIKE: Oh, boy.
MALIA: Yep, been there.
MIKE: Just running off of fumes. Um, so take me through some of the, you know, you’re obviously playing in bands too, and trying to support recording and all of that, how are you making money? You said you got some work doing like costuming, and design and stitching, how else are you paying the bills?
MALIA: Um, so I worked at a sewing shop sewing and then eventually managing for like four years after school. And then eventually, about a year ago, I left to do some screenprinting, I started screenprinting on the side while I was working at that shop. So that’s mostly how I make money right now, is printing shirts for organizations and like bands and all sorts of different things. Shirts and um...
MIKE: You own all the, you own like the presses and all that stuff?
MALIA: No, no.
MIKE: NO? Oh, okay. Do you work out of a studio?
MALIA: Yeah, I work out of a couple studios, I work out of um, a place called Fogland for flatstock and then I um, I work out of the Vera Project for some t-shirts and other, other stuff like that. And then, I’m like a dogwalker, like I had a dog walk today. I do like random jobs like here and there like that, and I don’t know, we do some random like, pickup work and stuff like that.
MIKE: Sure, sure.
MALIA: Yeah, mostly that.
MIKE: Like gig economy stuff.
MALIA: Yeah, I guess so. And I, I do some sewing, freelance sewing for people. I also have a company where I sew like um, accessories and straps and stuff like that, and I sell them at like craft fairs and stuff like this, to friends. Fix people’s stuff.
MIKE: So, going from working for a company for several years, and uh, you know, at the time we’re recording this, it’s tax season, that surely won’t be true by the time this comes out but, have you, like what has been the difference between working for someone and working for yourself when it comes to that sort of adult responsibility shit?
MALIA: Totally. Well, it’s definitely hard at points, but then it’s, it’s really nice to have um, the freedom to decide what I want to do and when I want to do it.
MIKE: Yeah.
MALIA: Um, that can also be kind of scary though. It’s hard to stay motivated sometimes, but I feel like I, I do a really good job at keeping busy [laughs]. So, whether it’s something-
MIKE: That’s, I mean, you have to, yeah.
MALIA: Yeah, whether it’s something that’s making money or not. I do a lot of inexpensive things now, like um, creating art, and stuff like that, like, you know, playing music, but. I mean, traveling is expensive, but I, I feel more creative now that, you know, I’m not like drained all day at the sewing shop somewhere.
MIKE: yeah, I mean that’s, that’s worth everything if you can make your schedule work for you, then that’s, I mean, so, I was a, I was a, I mean I still kind of am, but I was only a recording engineer for, I don’t know, two years maybe? And I remember the first year that I filed taxes and I owed like $1000, and I was like AUGH!
MALIA: Oh yeah.
MIKE: And then I got a side job and that kind of all balanced out, and I was like ok, alright I can like surrender a little bit, and then you kind of just inch a little bit more toward giving more and more of your time.
MALIA: Mhmm.
MIKE: Um, is what you do kind of feast or famine? Are you like loaded with work at times and then there’s a dry spell for a while? Or is it fairly constant?
MALIA: It’s pretty even. It’s, yeah, I mean, there are definitely, it, I’m always working on a project but sometimes they do stack up. So. Sometimes it can be a little bit overwhelming in that sense, but um, I don’t know I think I strive off of being incredibly busy, so, it’s good for me [laughs].
MIKE: It’s good, I mean, there’s nothing worse than getting really busy and then having a drought and then having to kind of string yourself along financially through all of that. Um, I guess I should get back to, so take me through, you alluded to this Dylan, within two months of moving out, you’re kind of back to the drawing board. You’re freelance now, but how are you kind of stringing yourself along between then and now?
DYLAN: So, um, I moved back in with my parents, they live like an hour south of Seattle. And so, that was kind of when I was back there, it was kind of a scramble, I was, you know, broke, trying to figure out like well, do I move back to Boston? Like I spent so much money getting back here,. but maybe if I can get a job and raise some money, like I can get back to Boston, just kind of, just resume what I was doing. Um, and so I moved to Seattle ‘cause I got a job teaching children how to ride bikes.
MIKE: Whoa.
DYLAN: That was my first job in Seattle. Uh, did that for a summer, basically took that whole summer to just like catch up to my credit card and pay off debt. So at that point, I’m like, now I’m, you know now I’m maybe a little bit in the black, but still nowhere near able to move back to Boston. Even, nonetheless pay for a plane ticket. So, I was like well I guess I’m here in Seattle, I gotta get a new job. Um, you know, I worked at a hospital doing, like, sound and video for conferences, and then I worked for a game company for quite a while. And then during all this, just kind of let go of the idea of moving back to Boston. I started to like make friends, I Started to meet people, started a band. And just like in all of this, sort of working a day job, just kind of like doing music when I could. A year or two after, you know, I had to move back with my parents, it was like, I’m in Seattle now, this is where I'm at, this is what I'm gonna do. Because it’s a great city, and it/s, there’s still, it’s like you said, it’s kind of a, you know there’s a renaissance for indie gaming, and there’s always gonna, it’s always gonna be there so, you know, I might as well just grind and grind and see what this can do for me.
MIKE: Let’s, I guess let's talk about Great Grandpa, right? I mean that’s going pretty well, huh?
DYLAN: Yeah, uh, as well as anything has gone for me in a band.
MIKE: It seems like it anyway.
DYLAN: You know, we put out a record on a label, and we had a booking agent, and we were like cool, let's do this, let’s do this music thing full time. And that was in July of, uh, 2017.
MIKE: How has that been? How is that, how would you describe...?
DYLAN: It's a strange world because it’s just like, it’s not that you have a better job, it’s not like you have more of an income playing in a band. It’s that maybe down the road-
MIKE: Whaaat?
DYLAN: -you will, you really have no idea but the only way to find out is just to do it. And so, that’s kind of where we were at. We had finished recording this record, we spent a lot of time on it, we got a booking agent through it, Greg Horbal, who, you know, maybe that wouldn’t have happened had I not gone to school also. So it’s like all these things that just, all these experiences, all these people, all these connections just kind of like culminated in like, great! We got a booking agent, our booking agent helped us get on a label, the label is, you know, run by folks that I’ve known for a little while too. And it’s like, sort of a, all came together at once. And um, we’re like great, we’re ready to release this record, Greg got us on our first full US tour with the band Rozwell Kid, who are some of my favorite people that I’ve known for a little bit. And uh, so it all just, it worked out so perfectly, we all felt so like, you know lucky and blessed and just kind of went for it. So, ok, let’s quit our jobs, let’s tour, and during that tour we got our offer for the next tour, the Citizen tour. Um, and then during that tour, we got an offer for the Diet Cig tour, and just kinda like, you know, you just kinda keep going.
MIKE: It’s kinda rolling at this point.
DYLAN: Yeah, you just do it. Maybe it doesn’t really work out monetarily, you kind of flounder a little bit, but, you know, when we’re on tour, we get like daily per diems to eat basically, that’s just like what we’ve budgeted for ourselves based on how much we make per show. Um, everything else pretty much just goes back into the band fund, we don’t really see a lot of that, so, um, really I just kind of saved up enough at my old job as I was preparing to quit to really just help me get by those months when I was back home, or like you know, paying rent when I’m on the road. But really, it’s like we don’t see a whole lot from the band itself, it’s still just kind of an investment towards our own future. And recently we, like, we were like feeling you know pretty, like ok, we just kind of settled down, we’re you know, about to finish off this eight months of touring, what do we want to do as far as money? Like, we get our payouts every day, but you know...
MIKE: You still have like phone bills.
DYLAN: Right, exactly. Like, what, what should we do, and so we kinda looked at what we had and just like decided on a fair amount that everyone should get, just because we had just gone through all this, you know, stuff with the record, we got like a publishing deal, and, you know. And so they gave an advance that says like, as a a band you get paid when something gets placed and licensed and used, but when a publishing company, sorry and this was all new to me when this started happening. I learned pretty quickly.
MIKE: Right, this is all kind of stuff that I’ve heard peripherally about.
DYLAN: Right, right.
MIKE: It’s so alien to me that it’s never really made sense, but.
DYLAN: It’s bizarre. It’s just insane that someone would just give you money to, to have the rights to your record whether or not it’ll get placed, you know, they could potentially not make any money off of us, you know, and, but, they kind of put their faith in us and said here’s this advance. And, so anyway, without going into like, you know, too much further into like what we make as a band.
MIKE: Sure, sure.
DYLAN: It’s, it’s not comfortable, it’s still sort of like we’re grinding, but there’s a little bit of hope on the horizon of like, ok, this happened, you know, how can we keep making this happen. How can we keep making enough to like keep ourselves afloat personally, while also like having money for the band, you know, so many expenses. The van, the trailer, the-
MIKE: Oh my God.
DYLAN: -the gear, just, yeah it all adds up. So, it’s like striking that balance is really, is a tough thing, but.
MIKE: Is there anything that you, or your bandmates, either of your bandmates, uh, that you could do from the road and like kind of generate some income while you’re, while you’re out?
DYLAN: For most of us, it’s work, work, work while we’re home, have enough to like survive on the road and pay rent, but uh, Pat from my band, uh, he’s a 3-D environment artist. Um, he does, yeah he works on video games and like VR experiences.
MIKE: Wow.
DYLAN: And so, yeah he’s been able to do a ton of work from the road, um, you know he’s had like business calls in the van, and you know, [laughs] shit like that. So, uh, it’s possible, I think it, for me unluckily, it’s, I can’t really, I don’t have a, I don’t have like a laptop, I can’t really work on music on the road in that capacity. I really prefer to have like my whole setup. So yeah, it’s more of just kind of like marinating on ideas and stuff, if that counts, but other than that, no.
MIKE: Sure it does.
DYLAN: There’s not a whole lot of money to be made, you know, freelance-wise on the road. For me, personally, I don’t know.
MALIA: I do some like, poster design and stuff like that, and I can like prep artwork for screenprinting when I get back and stuff. Uh, that’s pretty much the extent of mine though.
MIKE: Yeah. Can you like-
MALIA: Do like some clerical stuff, Photoshop.
MIKE: Can you like book work while you’re out and take like deposits or whatever? That was like, that was my bread and butter for a while.
MALIA: Yeah, definitely. I don’t really take deposits on stuff, but um, just like, yeah having, having work ready when you get home is important, or when I, for me at least.
MIKE: Oh yeah, of course. If you can line it up in advance, then, it feels a little better to be like ok I got two more weeks, one more week.
MALIA: There’s money on the horizon! [laughs] Yeah.
MIKE: Before you start calling home for a handout or anything.
MALIA: Oh my God.
[music: “I never thought it’d be easy / I never wanted to see it / and I don’t want to need it / like I do anymore”]
MIKE: Dylan, you’ve spent time outside of Seattle, like I won’t pretend to know enough about the music scene here that I can make this comparison, but at least, talk me through maybe the differences between Seattle and Boston in terms of like, I don’t know, just the cost of living, the opportunities that you get.
DYLAN: You know, I think Boston’s definitely, it costs more, but I also have a, I like got lucky with my situation here, and you know, pay a lot less than average. So that’s, you know, just my experience. But uh, cost-wise, it’s definitely seems more expensive to live in Boston, however, the community, the music scene that I was involved with, and still like tangentially am, in Boston, feels a lot more supportive but at the same time kind of like tight-knit. And I feel like I, I luckily have that tight-knit community around me, and that was really, I was really fortunate for that, and I think that helped me sort of like, exist in the music scene and, and you know, um, succeed. Uh, whereas here, it’s there but it’s not as, it’s not as like close, it’s not as friendly, it’s like everyone in the scene are, they’re my acquaintances, and I have some very close friends in the scene, but it’s all kind of-
MIKE: IT’s almost counterintuitive to think that a bigger music scene that’s kind of centered on these institutions like Berklee for example would be more cooperative, ‘cause you’d think that kinda breeds competition in a way, and kind of like shitty attitudes. And I think there’s probably that, too, occasionally.
DYLAN: Right. Well and that’s the thing, I feel like, you know, I’m sure that in Seattle there are these tight-knit communities, you know, through the college, or you know, just, there’s so many different communities, and there are very close communities where people have positions where they can book at prevalent venues and like you know, help out, sort of the DIY scene and help kind of raise it up. I feel like Boston, I saw that a lot in Boston. I saw people got positions at these venues, people like moved up and used that to like try to help each other out, and I just saw people turn from DIY people to like music professionals, but they’re still grounded in DIY.
MIKE: The rising tide lifts all boats kind of deal.
DYLAN: Yeah, absolutely. And so like I said, I’m sure that exists here, I just, it’s, I’m part of the scene in a different way here, I’m just a different sort of...
MIKE: Tapped into a different vein of it.
DYLAN: Right, right.
MIKE: Malia, have you lived in this area you’re whole life?
MALIA: Um, I’ve lived in the Pacific Northwest for most of my life that I can remember [laughs]
MIKE: Sure, and is-
MALIA: But like I said, I moved here like eight years ago or so.
MIKE: Of the places you’ve traveled is there anywhere else you could kind of see yourself, like doing what you do in kind of, or is it really all about your social circles here?
MALIA: Um, I really appreciate the connections I have in Seattle, and I think that that makes it really difficult to imagine moving, but unfortunately, Seattle is getting um really expensive. So, I have lucked out in that I have a really affordable rent, but that is kind of, it’s not easy to find that, you have to kind of have an in to a house or something, or like, be willing to live with a bunch of people. So, eventually I’ll probably have to see myself in a different place. But I, I think my skills are transferable. I think I can do this kind of thing.
MIKE: Oh, no doubt.
MALIA: Live this lifestyle, you know, in a lot of different places so I’m not too worried about it.
MIKE: I mean anywhere there’s an artsy enough community to sustain it. But I guess in terms of the price of rent, like, that’s something that obviously Boston has down, um, well I should say up.
MALIA: Is it expensive there too?
MIKE: Oh my fucking God. It’s, it’s out of control, and it’s only, I feel like it’s only gotten worse since I initially lived here for college. Like you could find places for like $675 a month and now it’s [whistles] off the charts. Um, how close to the city are you?
MALIA: Dylan lives lieka  five-minute walk to a light rail that brings you right in. ANd I, I live, it’s called the U DIstrict, it’s like where the University of Washington is, and it’s like a five minute bus to downtown, but, other than that, my neighborhood has, you know, a lot of what I need anyways. It’s like got a lot of, I got a lot of friends living around me and lot s of little house venues here and there.
MIKE: And how is that connected to, where do you practice with your bands, where does your, how far of a commute is the different places that you do screenprinting or whatever else?
MALIA: Um, I practice in Ballard, which is, you know, like a five-minute drive, without traffic from my house, so it’s not that bad. Or you know like, 15-20 minute bike ride.
MIKE: In like a rehearsal room, or uh, somebody's house?
MALIA: Yeah, I have a practice space. And then I practice at, um, my bandmate’s house, for Dogbreth, which is literally two blocks from mine so it’s like incredibly convenient.
MIKE: Oh, awesome. So all your gear lives there, and all that too?
MALIA: Mmhmm. Yep.
MIKE: Cool.
DYLAN: Yeah, and for me, I’ve kind of built, [laughs] built everything I need into my house. Uh, I, like I live with a bunch of people but I’m fortunate enough that they’re willing to, you know, have, let bands have practice here, and have me record here and all that stuff, so, um. Yeah luckily everyone comes to me for practice, in all three of my projects, so that’s pretty cool.
MIKE: Yeah it’s nice isn’t it?
DYLAN: Yeah, yeah. But like Malia said, I’m pretty close to downtown if I need it, you know, I think we’ve both just kind of set up our lives that, the stuff we need, you know the stuff about a city that you need, so like, you know, just accessible public transportation, accessible groceries, and somewhat of like a social scene. I feel like we've kind of got all those bases covered, sort of where we live, we kind of live on opposite sides of downtown.
MALIA: Dylan even brings the gig to him.
DYLAN: That’s true, yeah.
MALIA: [laughs]
MIKE: That’s right, you do.
DYLAN: We have shows here, and uh, yeah so really I don’t have to leave the house, ever.
MIKE: I mean, I’ve talked to, I’ve talked to folks who do gigs at their house before, and that’s a whole, that’s a whole ball of wax that, I mean there’s so much personal liability that comes into it. Like, you obviously know I had a house set up a little like yours, I didn’t share it with people, but um, you know, I, the night that I had to move out, like, somebody had said like when you get out of here, you should do a show and just like tear the place up. And that’s the only, that’s like the only outcome i can imagine, just like so much destruction. How do you, like, how do you navigate that? Is everyone pretty respectful generally? Do you find yourself putting a lot of rent money into like-
DYLAN: No, you know I kind of started out the venue, you know started booking shows with this sort of understanding that it’s like not a party house. We do shows here, and that’s it. You know, and, I want people to have fun and I want people to have a good time, but there is like, I’ve just seen, yeah, I’ve seen you know, what you’re talking about. I've seen some pretty rough DIY spaces in both audience kind of like unruliness but also sort of like promoter just kind of like, yeah we could have a show! And then they’re not there for an hour. You know, after bands are supposed to show up and they’re just drunk, or like whatever it is, so I think like my goal for the venue is to kind of like make it a place where people felt safe, where bands felt like they were communicated with, and like you know are willing to play here. And yeah for the most part it’s like kind of part of this venue now is that it, it is a pretty mellow, mellow place to see a show. And, I tend to even avoid like, you know, like louder punk bands, which part of me feels bad about, because that, you know, I still like that music. But, it’s also like-
MIKE: That’s sellin' out, dude. [laughs]
DYLAN: Yeah.
MALIA: A lot of thought goes into, um, like the promotion of the shows too, that’s like specifically respect the space, and I don’t know people are reminded that throughout the night sometimes by the bands.
MIKE: Doesn’t it suck to have to remind people of that?
MALIA: It does, I get it though. I think that people that don’t organize shows, they don’t really think about that, you know. They just go to this show and they’re like it’s a party! But um, you know, when you’re like hey this is our fuckin’ house, like, can you please [laughs] respect it, and like-
MIKE: Yeah, I see like, like pillows on couches and-
MALIA: -clean up after yourself, and you know.
MIKE: Yeah, of course. I, uh, in the interest of like journalistic fairness I should probably interview some like ornery landlords or something.
MALIA: [laughs] yeah.
MIKE: Uh, what’s your ideal situation, either of you? Like in terms of like earning, and making a living, like how does that, how does what you’re doing now play into it, into like a larger goal?
MALIA: I mean hopefully in the future my ideal would be like making a little bit more money, but like as for what I’m doing, like, I don’t really see myself wanting to anything much differently. Which is like a nice place to be in in life, I don’t, I feel really content with the activities that I do on a day to day so to speak.
MIKE: That’s great, that’s always nice to end on a high note.
DYLAN: Yeah, and it, to go off of that, I’d be stoked to like be similarly like, in any realm of possibility making more money off of music to support myself and, and be able to fund my insatiable need for video games and uh, and music gear. That’s all I need.
MIKE: Oh man, that’s a money pit right there.
DYLAN: It is, it really is, I don’t think anyone can really afford it.
[music]
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I know I'm like a million years late to the party but I've been reading those number things and they're entertaining /as hell/. So I've got a few numbers for you (if you're still doing them of course): 23, 38, & 51? Also your lair spreadsheet is cool af I'm going to make one right now.
(aaah thank u ;w; 51 was already done, but i’ll do the other two!)
Under the cut for length!
(Send me a number, y’all!)
23 is Europa!
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1. What is their romantic history like?
Seeing as Europa spent much of their life in total isolation, dedicating themselves wholly and entirely to the moon, romance has never really been an option for them. They’ve had partners in the past, typically travelers who came upon them in their temple and sought solace in their arms, but never anyone they were romantically invested in.
2. What songs would you put on a playlist about this dragon/what songs would they put on a playlist of their own?
Voice of No Return - Keiichi Okabe (current theme)
You Are The Moon - The Hush Sound
Hikari - Aoi Teshima
A Dedication to…Everyone - Riei Sait��
The Dragon Boy / The Bottomless Pit - Joe Hisaishi
Magic - Mystery Skulls
3. What are their guilty pleasures?
None. No shame.
4. If they have a bipedal form, what does it look like? Do they have a faceclaim? What kinds of things would they wear?
Europa has a few “human” forms they can take on. All of them have white hair, of varying lengths, and either pale blue or amber eyes. They’re fair-skinned, and usually tall and lithe. Their favored form is the more androgynous of the lot. All of their forms are unsettlingly beautiful.
They prefer to wear silks and loose-fitting clothing, typically in white or blue, and almost always have either flowers or a wreath in their hair.
5. What is their most traumatic memory?
Their transformation from common dragon to lunar deity was a violent one. I wouldn’t say it traumatized them, but it’s as close as they have to a traumatic memory.
6. What kinds of dreams do they have?
Much like Dreamweaver, Europa does not appear to possess the ability to dream.
7. What foods do they like? Which do they dislike?
Europa isn’t picky, but they favor rice dishes.
8. What is their best physical feature?
Their hands or their lips; men have been lured in by these alone.
(It doesn’t hurt that they can use both to great effect, if you catch my meaning.)
9. How do they fight/what weapons do they wield?
Europa is a lover, not a fighter, but they can call upon the power of the moon to devastate their enemies. They can also influence the tides to a non-negligible degree, so if you’re fighting them anywhere near the sea, you may want to reconsider. They aren’t quite as merciful as they let on.
They carry a staff with them as well–mostly for amplifying their magic, but it can be used to administer swift justice if necessary.
10. What are their thoughts on the Beastclans? Do they like them? See them as allies? Nuisances?
They view Beastclans simply as beings they must coexist with. It is easier and more comfortable to live peacefully alongside them than it is to war with them. Europa has no particular attachment to them, but they have no real reason to be prejudiced either, and would much rather they all just get along.
11. What are they like in bed?
Versatile, casual, experienced. They give off the air of one who has spent many nights in the arms of strangers–and, indeed, they have. They do not hesitate. They know what they want, and they have the uncanny ability to know what you want just as well. They are extremely confident in bed. You won’t be able to throw them off easily.
The quickest way to fluster them is to flip the script on them. Take control away from them and assert yourself. They find it very attractive, and they won’t be expecting it, as they’re accustomed to doing most of the work themself.
They’re a tender lover. They enjoy holding and being held, and the quiet sweet nothings partners whisper to one another in the afterward.
12. What are their biggest turn-ons/turn-offs?
Turn-Ons: assertiveness, confidence; facial hair; emotional vulnerability and availability
Turn-Offs: the usual suspects (watersports, scat, etc.)
13. Do they have any kinks?
For the most part, they enjoy whatever their partners enjoy. They aren’t especially squeamish or picky, and, to them, sex is sex. If it feels good, they don’t mind if it’s a little unorthodox.
BUT they do enjoy bondage quite a lot. Giving or receiving, it doesn’t really matter, they’ll have fun either way.
38 is Satin!
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1. What is their romantic history like?
Satin has only ever been physically involved with other men. Although he’s a romantic at heart, commitment is somewhat daunting to him. He worries he may not be able to keep a long-term relationship afloat, for a variety of reasons.
There is one man who will claim he was romantically involved with Satin if ever asked, but Satin violently disagrees.
2. What songs would you put on a playlist about this dragon/what songs would they put on a playlist of their own?
Warriors - Imagine Dragons (current theme)
Fire, Fire - Flyleaf
Gasoline - Halsey
Hurricane - Fleurie
Elastic Heart - Sia
Earth - Sleeping At Last
3. What are their guilty pleasures?
Do kinks count? He struggles a bit with some of them in relation to his abuse, and a lot of people may look at his enjoyment of them as unacceptable.
(Mostly things like bondage, masochism, etc.)
4. If they have a bipedal form, what does it look like? Do they have a faceclaim? What kinds of things would they wear?
I haven’t 100% decided on a “human” form for Satin. I do know he’s somewhat androgynous, probably has golden hair, and has the pale eyes of an Ice dragon. He also dresses mostly in silks, because, well, they’re his trade. He can’t sell customers clothing he won’t wear himself.
Other than that, he likes anything gold and delicate.
5. What is their most traumatic memory?
The first instance of abuse he suffered at his former master’s hands. It was, arguably, the worst occasion out of the lot of them. Even now, so many eons later, he still has triggers relating to that specific instance.
6. What kinds of dreams do they have?
Putting it kindly, not very good ones. He’s made a great deal of progress in his recovery over the years, but spending more than half of your life as a slave to the wealthy elite leaves scars that cannot be fully undone.
Dreamweaver does what they can for him, but that is very little.
7. What foods do they like? Which do they dislike?
His favorite foods are sweet fruits, particularly cherries. You won’t often catch him without a jar of cherries within reaching distance. He likes most sweet things, but fruits in particular. The juicer, the better.
He doesn’t like mushy foods. The texture disagrees with him.
8. What is their best physical feature?
If you ask him, his smile. If you ask everyone else, his incredibly gorgeous legs.
(He doesn’t mind that people like his legs, though. On the contrary, he’s quite flattered, especially if it’s a handsome man saying so.)
9. How do they fight/what weapons do they wield?
Satin picked up a variety of skills during his time serving under his former master’s wife. Manipulation is one of them, and it is assuredly his greatest weapon, but the art of knives was another. His mistress thought that, seeing as he tagged along with her everywhere she went, he should be able to defend her from ruffians–and so she had him taught in defense and self-defense.
(A risky move, given how desperately he wanted to see her husband dead–but an opportunity never arose for him to stick a knife in the bastard.)
He keeps several knifes on him, usually smaller blades for easier concealment and maneuverability. They’re wicked sharp, and he cares for them like they’re his children.
10. What are their thoughts on the Beastclans? Do they like them? See them as allies? Nuisances?
He has more pressing matters to worry about than the ongoing conflict between dragonkind and Beastclans. If a beast is good to him, he’ll return the favor. Simple as.
11. What are they like in bed?
Experienced, playful, oftentimes a bit controlling. He will always ensure that his partners know who’s boss (i.e. him), usually by teasing them until they can’t do anything about it. He is V E R Y good at turning men to jelly, and he uses it to his advantage in the bedroom, to keep a tight leash on his partners. If he doesn’t know you well, you’ll be bending to his will and whims, not the other way ‘round.
If he does know you well, however, he’ll give up some of that control, little by little. His fear is that, by giving up control, he’ll be making himself vulnerable, and so he clings to it zealously when he feels he cannot trust a person. Once you’ve earned his trust, he’ll quite happily play whatever kind of submissive you wish of him, the full spectrum, from innocent to wanton slut.
His favorite thing to do in bed is kiss, so expect a fair few marks on your neck come morning.
12. What are their biggest turn-ons/turn-offs?
Turn-Ons: desperation; pampering; open-mindedness; equally experienced partners; noticeable size differences between himself and his partners; romantic settings
Turn-Offs: undesired or unexpected forcefulness; degradation/humiliation; disrespect for his boundaries; the usual suspects
13. Do they have any kinks?
Satin’s flexible, the sort who will try anything once and who, even if it isn’t his kink, may still gain enjoyment out of one of his partner’s fantasies. His own kinks are many and varied. He’s into bondage, both giving and receiving, and enjoys a bit of role-play now and then.
Probably his favorite kink is spanking. For obvious reasons, the stereotypical master/slave scenario you see involved in a lot of spanking scenes doesn’t set well with him, but he certainly doesn’t mind a lover telling him he’s naughty and proceeding to bop the sinfulness right out of him.
He’s been a bad boy. Time for this very handsome man of high morals and upstanding character to set him straight.
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custardtoast · 7 years ago
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hmm small (edit: really lengthy) rant about my life rn
I just had a week off school and it was a much needed break... I did volunteer for 3/5 of the days so it wasn’t a crazy break, since I still had quite a bit of stress about those 3 days
I am currently in that typical position of “I didn’t do anything productive pertaining to school work all week so now I feel guilty and I should stay up and get something done” but at the same time... I feel like I always beat myself up so much when I know that I was quite busy with other things, and school work isn’t always the only priority. Granted, I did watch a kdrama lol and didn’t sleep until 2-4 am on most days, while waking up close to noon.... but I feel like I needed that. I just hate how i can never fully relax but I also can’t bring myself to work... but that is the ultimate student dilemma. I wish I had better self-control and organizational skills to balance everything
On a related note, I’ve been thinking rly hard about what I want to do after I graduate from uni... I was thinking about applying to a summer internship for half of the summer, but I need a reference letter and the deadline is this week, so I feel like its sort of inappropriate to ask any of my profs at this point... I also was thinking about just bumming around for the entire summer and being productive in other areas of my life ... like I’ve been thinkin about starting a youtube channel (lol me and everyone else in this internet world) bc I’ve just been so inspired by all these amazing ppl who show their struggles to everyone and at the end of the day they’re all beautiful ppl... I really like the idea of sharing my life w all these internet friends bc frankly, I don’t really share my life with anyone irl (i know that sounds super sad but it’s true... i dont feel like im close w anyone anymore and once i graduate from uni i feel like i’m gonna be cut off from everyone I currently talk to and I feel like no one would rly make the effort to talk to me otherwise)
so idk i kinda wanted to start a vlog/lifestyle channel so I could just chat to the camera, since i rly do have a lot of thoughts i’d like to share, but i’m just too scared to share them with anyone i actually know irl. it feels easier to just talk it out to no one in particular like a diary, but then have ppl (hopefully) care about it. but at the same time there are TONS of lifestyle channels out there and i dont think i have a particular “tv personality”? 
also filming those kinda videos have nothing to do w my university degree and idk i feel like.... it’s important to be well-rounded but i don’t want my degree to be for nothing, so i also have to think about what i want to do as my future career. which is really tough because... i’m in the sciences, i currently do clinical research in a lab, and it’s okay... i love the learning aspect but i’m not a fan of the actual scientific research process. i can’t really explain why but you’re just... studying something so small for so so so long and it’s hard to feel like you’re making any progress. but i suppose the beauty of the field is if/when you actually make progress and a contribution. i’m also scared about the whole competition in the field and constantly keeping yourself afloat with grants, idk if i want to dedicate my life to that. and to be honest i dont think im smart enough or that much of a critical thinker to become a researcher and get a phd, although i would really love to be a university professor (too bad u have to have a phd loool)
some other options are going to med school, optometry school, becoming a dietician or a physician’s assistant... med school is the scary one bc i always think about.... why would i want to be a doctor over another medical professional? do i actually have the qualities to be a good doctor, or am i just doing it bc of the image or the pressure? do i actually enjoy working with patients?? ofc those questions apply to the other options as well but... im always doubting myself and i feel like that quality alone is not very ideal for being a doctor. i would feel more comfortable being an optometrist, dietician, or physician’s assistant bc it feels like... even if you mess up there are still other people to back you up, whereas with a doctor, you are the one running the game. which is super important and impressive, but i just don’t know if i could handle with the stress and if i have the capabilities to make unwavering decisions. just cuz i know im so indecisive.... man. i got rejected from med school which is why im rethinking all of this. i might go to grad school next year, either in nutrition or continuing in physiology. i really like topics in nutrition and a masters in nutrition is only a year long, but i would have to find a new supervisor and im not a super huge fan of research (like i’ve said before)... but it seems better than a 2 year masters in physiology. i could stick with my current physiology supervisor, but that also means im stuck studying the same thing as i am now for 2 years. and idk if i love it that much.... agh... i dont know......... i wish someone could tell me what’s the best path... but i know no one can... and i know that no one is gonna read this huuuuuge text.... im just rambling at this point bc i have no one i feel comfortable personally messaging all of this to
being indecisive.... leads me to my next point. which is strange, but i really want to get a tattoo after i graduate. ive been thinking about what to get, and ofc, due to my indecisive nature, i can never really decide, but i think... i kinda know what i want? i just need to think of a good placement for it bc i dont want it to be visible in my every day life, just due to the judgemental nature of the field that im in right now and possibly will be in the future (eg. if i work in the medical field, i will most definitely be judged if i have visible tattoos, maybe less by the younger demographic but by the older ones for sure, and that can affect the whole patient-doctor interaction, or even interaction with mentors?) so if u have any tattoos, i’d love to know what you have (if you’re comfortable w sharing) and why, so it helps me justify getting my own lol (even though that doesnt rly make sense.. i should just get it if i want it, but im still debating)
guhhhh my brain has run out of juice and i should go to bed, im really trying to not sleep at 2 am today. i wish i could fall asleep faster. im not gonna give myself heck for not getting anything done during reading week, or tonight, cuz i know i’ve been going through some rough mental patches, but i hope if i sleep earlier, wake up a bit earlier, take back more control of my life, i can be more productive and less stressed. pls wish me luck.
i rly want... to make meaningful connections and impacts in this world.
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