#everybody is trans bc i'm trans and i said so

[brightclaws5tudios]

5'4". The pain. The pain of being a short man. I shall never live again.

Me realizing all of my friends can reblog this and I can't: what the fuck am I a giant?

[punkitt-is-here]

As someone who is black, tall, a not the skinniest, and trans, I felt really detached when everybody started bridget posting bc like, for ME, being trans is not as easy as Saying It and then everyone believes me bc they already saw me as a twinkish little waif (waifish little twink?) it makes me feel a lot less Bad about it that theres other people who dont feel represented by that kind of thing.

One time I said “Not all trans women are skinny little anime catgirls” and people took it REALLY personally, so uhhh thanks for standing up for us

YEAH!!! my ass might be white as porcelain but i can relate a lot to what you're saying. i adore bridget, it's really special having a trans character in one of my favorite series ever, but as cute as she is she can't be the only type of trans character people look up to. I'm a trans woman and I think that I'm kind of masculine in my presentation. I'm hairy, got a deeper voice, and kept my birth name, so I don't really fit in the skinny little anime catgirl category either. and I don't really wanna! I love how I look and feel and present and I wanna see more characters that break the established mold on an already lacking area of representation. so it's no problem, always happy to stand up for folks :3

[thewisewill80sbyers]

tbh it’s funny how they say st will flop bc of noah when america voted for somebody who said he was to turn gaza into a parking lot. america literally voted for that or at least they don’t care at all what happens in the middle east. instead of doing actual meaning activism opposing politicians, their idea of activism is to bully a 20 year old gay jewish man like make it make sense

Absolutely ridiculous !! and they let it happen by not voting because they thought that harm reduction for their fellow citizens wasn't enough of an incentive to at least TRY to avoid the worst case scenario for oh, I don't know... All the trans people that are going to now be denied LIFE SAVING healthcare? And all the other things happening. What are we even talking about... And mind you I'm literally someone that wants to dismantle the whole system too, but you can't arrive at that for how the circumstances are now, you have to do the community building stuff before. they talked big game about how now that Trump is in office at least people "are aware of the politics and not just ignoring it" yeah, sure, but now they will focus on THEIR OWN LIVES before, because they have to save themselves before they can do anything for others. They will not have time to dismantle anything because they will not have the energy, things have only gotten worse for everybody and it will continue this way with less and less people even being able to donate money to help people out of their own house... It's simple logic, people are focusing less and less on this because they have to save themselves first now or they have way more things to juggle and that are stressing them out so they dissociate even more

And honestly until we educate people to who the real enemy is aka the super rich, we'll just keep fighting amongst us like idiots... even if I would agree to a revolution fought with violence the majority of the people don't have the target clear in their minds and it would not succeed for how things are now

And yeah, you're right, the only type of true backlash the season is gonna get will be about Byler being endgame because it's queer material in a big mainstream show

[menlove]

my bestie and I were talking about insane mclennon lore™ (as you do) and when we got to the whole "if I had been a girl..." bit we kinda got in a disagreement and now we need people to help us settle lol (feel free to ignore this btw im only asking cause I think you have super good takes)

basically she thinks that since homophobia (societal's and internalized) wouldn't have stopped them they wouldn't have had as many issues and probably would've been an actual couple (they would still have plenty of issues obviously, just not related to *that*. they would also be still be messy as fuck)

I think being a woman in an all male band and spending 12 years next to John (who has the single largest amount of dickriders on the planet) would trap paul in a misogynistic torture chamber for all of eternity lol think of how oldhead beatle fans talked about him post divorce to this day and make it 10 times worse. like people would discredit her constantly insisting she's only in the band because she's the cute one and slept with john or whatever -again, see how often john got asked about yesterday even though everybody knows its paul's song and make it 10 times worse (having said that, the mental image of pregnant!paul recording let it be/abbey road while john is pulling yoko related antics is unbelievably hilarious)

see this i could 100% going either way. i could see a universe where they got married young and then things were Still Awful

buuuut.... i'm also really intrigued by the idea of like. okay stay with me here i've thought about this extensively (mostly for an era accurate trans paul au, but it's still applicable). but like obviously john is trying to get in paul's pants from go, but paul is very firm on you're not fucking me lennon bc she doesn't want people to think she's just in this band bc she's fucking the leader. so off the bat john's starting w the assumption that paul Won't date him (although he is very annoying about this and endearing in a fucked up way). they do ofc start fucking at some point (maybe hamburg). and then it's just a full blown affair for Years and it's a fucking mess like eeeeveryone suspects but they insist they're just best friends and it's not like that. paul is engaged to some guy as a jane stand in (i always propose guy jane or just peter lmfao).

i also think linda is still a woman in this au and they still raise heather together..... they're lowkey like Out and this makes john crash the fuck out

[stanlunter]

Characters that I think are actually straight even tho a lot of people consider them as queer:

Bc I have the whole hour before Pride Month and I'm bored, lol

Rainer. Well, he didn't show to have feelings for any male characters (and no, I don't think he likes Bertholomulo, he litterally ships him with Annie), only to Historia, plus he just doesn't give me this vibes, so yeah

Bojack main five. All of them have shown interest only to the opposite gender, so there are no reasons for them to be anything rather than straight. The only exception can be Mr Peanutbutter with his interest in Bojack bc of which I don't mind people hc him as bi, but I think it was just a platonic admiration, nothing more. Also hc any of them as aro or ace (except Todd, obviously) doesn't make sense either, since we know damn well that all of them are very romantic and almost all of them are very sexual

Howleen. I can see her being bi, but I personally don't think she's actually interested in women. She was shown to have interest in men, but women? Just no. Twyls is her bestie, not a gf. I don't mind headcanons ofc, but I just don't see it

Denji. I mean, this guy is obsessed with women and never shown interest in men, he's straight as a line, sorry

Rika & Momoe. I really don't know where it even comes from, but a lot of people hc Rika as lesbian, while she's pretty much canon straight. She litterally says "I wish you was a boy" line and you still don't get it?

What about Momoe... This one confuses me even more. For some reason the whole fandom thinks Momoe is barely canon bi/trans, I have to fully desagree with this, cuz it basically goes against her whole arc

No, she wasn't in love with her friend that killed herself. That basically was the point that her friend killed herself bc Momoe didn't like her back (at least I read it this way). In fact, Momoe litterally was sad bc only women were attracted to her bc they thought she waa a boy. While she wanted a man to find her attracted. So it makes no sense for her to like girls.

Trans think is mb arguble, but I interpritate her story as an experience of being gender nonconforming: she doesn't look like a gender she is. I don't see any trans allegories here, especially considering the fact that we have a canon trans character there, Im pretty sure, if the creators wanted Momoe to be trans, they would say she is. Also the fact that she could get in this "magical world" , since only afab can go there (considering the fact that Kaoru, as a transman, got there)

Shinji & Kaoru. Yes, this one is super objectionable. Tbh, I can see him being bi, as everybody thinks he is. However, I do like another explanation of his character arc and his relationship with Kaoru, bc It's just much more interesting than him just being bisexual

Well, in the way I see it, Shinji is straight and basically can be only attracted to girls, however, Kaoru is the only person that showed "love" to Shinji and who "cared" about him. While everyone else were rejecting and just using him, Kaoru is the first person who said Shinji he loves him and the only one that basically didn't want anything from him. Who could give Shinji unconditional love he can't get from others. And I really do not think that Shinji loved him "back" in romantic way. Imo, he didn't love him at all, but since Kaoru was the only one who gave Shinji at least some love, Shinji had no other choice than take this love anyways. Just bc it was the only way for him to feel loved in general. And to me this idea reveales Shinji's character much better than just "he's bisexual, that's why he hang out with Kaoru" and "Kaoru exists only for lgbt rep" (also have to add that It's only about original anime, not rebuilds, bc I basically haven't watched it and mb It's different there)

What about Kaoru? Kaoru isn't a human to have feelings or love. In reality he doesn't care about Shinji, he just pretended to love him only to find out what love for humans is. So ofc I don't think he's straight either. He just doesn't have feelings bc he's not a human and not even a person. He's just an angel who pretended to be a boy to know humans better

Ramona (from the movie). I thought this one is basically canon, but for some reason some people still think she's bi. Yes, she had relationship with another girl, but she has litterally said that she was just "a little bi-curious" - which literally means that she's straight and just wanted to have this experience and that she's not wlw in any way, unlike Roxie. Imo, headcanoning movie Ramona is bi is kinda even biphobic, since it sounds exactly like this stereotype that bi girls only play with girls and always chose men anyways

Higuchi. This take isn't as strong, but I just personally don't see her as wlw. She's obsessed with Ryunosuke and has never shown any sign of being interested in Gin, so yeah, I think she's just straight and gives me these vibes tbh

Annie & Hitch. Again, both girls that have shown interest only to men. Annie loves Armin, and, even tho I don't like Aruani, It's litterally canon and even has some build up. And Hitch talks only about men as well. Also I really love her relationship with Marlo and their love was really so important. Yeah, both of them could be bisexual, but I just don't see this. The only hc Im really against is any of them being lesbian, bc it just doesn't make sense

Lute. I mean, she's litterally homophobic and It's basically canon. And she didn't show any signs of being closest gay/bi anyways and Imo she loves Adam. Idk why would she be anything besides homophobic straight. Like, I can see Adam being bi, but Lute? Nah

And yeah, if anyone thinks me seing some characters as straights makes me homophobic, I advise you to use your brain or smth. Anyways, that's just my vision which I'm not trying to impose on anyone, lol

[butterflygemini]

i feel like i just outed in a very weird and not intentionally malicious but particularly disheartening way today at my job and ive decided im sad about it

ive been operating under the thought that i've been stealthing it the entire 7ish months i've been at my job only to find out today i wasn't actually stealthing at all and everybody actually secretly figured it out very early on which is fine! but the way i found this out was like. just incredibly irritating

i was talking about my acne meds to my manager and he just outright asks me from ACROSS the room bc we're both at our desk if it (the acne) is from my transition and my other coworker clearly overhears this and i give him a look like what?? and i try to be discreet and be like "bruh no one else knows?" and he just keeps asking me if i'm serious over and over again and i'm finally like wait does everyone know? and they're all like yup pretty much but clearly no one had talked about it with each other

so like a small part of me is like okay cool so they weren't like openly discussing it with each other but also that means it clearly wasn't a decided upon theory by anyone NOR was it confirmed so my manager just pretty much outed me to everyone :/

and they all acted like i was so funny for thinking i had everyone "fooled" and im just like wow damn. half of me is just extremely embarrassed like wow how stupid could i have been to think i was passing this whole time when i guess i clearly don't and they've all just been letting me act like i was this whole time too while all knowing that i'm trans and the other half of me is just pissed that he just said it like that and then thought it was funny that i didn't think they could "figure it out"

so idk. i definitely have to leave this job asap not that anyone is going to be intentionally malicious like clearly if they've all known this whole time they've all been being super cool about it but i am just so like tired of this shit happening. i just wanted to go to work and exist and now i have to exist as a trans person ALSO like cool i get to talk about it openly now but i didn't really care about doing that in this environment bc ppl ALWAYS find a way to make it weird especially cis men

[newlyy]

Kinda conflicted about pronouns and wondered about your opinion on it bc I like your opinions. Basically I use sex based pronouns for everybody mainly because most trans people don't pass and that's the pronoun that comes naturally to mind (if I'm trying to be polite I will avoid pronouns entirely or occasionally use they, but it takes a lot of effort to slow your language down no matter what anyone claims! and I cannot call a nonpassing MTF she on principle.) in other words I make little to no conscious effort about pronouns, and take what my brain hands me based on their appearance.

But I notice that for (truly) passing trans people I would be fighting against this natural perception to sex them correctly, like N*kki Tutorials reads as a she for example so I just don't fight it and I call her "she" even though I technically know she's male and if anyone asked me her sex I would say male. To me she's a "male woman" even though that's paradoxical. 🤔 This level of passing is pretty rare though (like H*nter Scafer and whichever one was in Barbie don't even fit this criteria for me.) What do you do? Do you think it's important to make the effort to still use sex based pronouns for truly passing MTF to hold the line against the whole concept of changing sex?

Yeah, I understand the hesitation in calling men who convincingly pass as female “he.” It feels forced. That said, I still do it lmao. It’s like you said, it’s a principle thing. I don’t believe men who pass as women are women. I won’t call a man “she,” even if he’s lucky enough to have delicate features. Wrt nikkitutorials, I didn’t know he was trans until it was revealed (and I side eye anyone who was like “duh, look at him 🙄” he’s just tall) so it’s weird to call him he. But if I think like, “this person is male,” it’s easier. Male doesn’t mean masculine, it just means male. Nikkitutorials is male. Nikkitutorials is a he. Buck angel is a she. These are facts, not subjective interpretation.

[thegeminisage]

how about 3 for all 3 games?

HIII thank you so much sorry it took me so long to answer. easter craziness

ORIGINS 3. Who would your Rook's favorite character from Origins* be? Least favorite?

leaving out anders, because the question of anders is so complex it deserves its own essay...

what is so tragic for me is that i think her favorite would be wynne. i, personally, just think wynne is just okay, but if you picture a little 13yo rook (she was technically 7-8 during the fifth blight but don't worry about it), that was a vulnerable time in her life - she is trans, and while she was one of those people who Always Knew she was a girl, she had just hit puberty and was really starting to PHYSICALLY (and not just socially) transition to mitigate the dysphoria. not only that, she FOUND OUT she was a mage in the middle of a crowded market area, which means she had no time to cope with that reality before she was dragged away from her horrified parents and stuck in kirkwall's circle, arguably the worst circle in all of thedas. wynne is motherly, protective, likes taking care of people, likes dispensing advice...even an older rook would imprint on her like a baby duckling :/

that said, at whatever age, i also think rook would develop a soft spot for leliana (who would tell her the maker loves mages too and would also engage in Fun Girl Talk) and zevran (he'd make her laugh, and would definitely flirt with an adult rook which she would not be unhappy about; she likes being flirted with, most of the time). she'd also have a devastatingly horrible crush on morrigan.

least favorite is easy. oghren is everybody's least favorite. going for less low-hanging fruit, though...i think at first it's alistair because she has templar ptsd (though he'd also make her laugh and if he did it enough she'd learn to tolerate him), but later it's loghain and sten. loghain because of the slavery thing mainly but also because he got caught up in his own trauma and ambition over the greater good, and sten because he would be weird about her being a mage and weird about her gender. like, yeah, the qun has trans people and nobody cares if you're trans, but they also tie gender roles to what you Do, and if he said that "you can't actually be a woman because women aren't fighters so if you fight that must mean you're a man" shit to my rook she would get violent

DA2 3. Who would your Rook's favorite character from DA2 be? Least favorite?

i have to leave anders AND varric out of this question. anders for the reason above, and varric bc he obviously kind of becomes rook's favorite later when they meet for real - though they probably passed each other quite a few times in kirkwall and maybe waved or something, they never really stopped to talk or get to know each other, they were more or less strangers, the way varric would have been with any of anders' frequent patients.

rook would absolutely adore isabela. huge tits, super cool pirate, funny, takes no shit, kind when she can afford to be - that's definitely her crush. i think she'd like fenris a lot, too, but mostly because he reminds her of her parents, her mom in particular. the first time he said something mean about mages in front of her she'd be crushed. i'm not sure if i'd picture an adult veilguard-aged rook or a younger one in this scenario (she was 13-14 during her stay in kirkwall's circle) but that's true either way. 

unfortunately i do not think rook would get along with merrill because of the blood magic thing. EYE think merrill is completely valid, but rook Hates blood magic and you probably couldn't convince her that merrill is fine, actually, Just Look At Her She's So Friend Shaped. 

INQUISITION 3. Who would your Rook's favorite character from Inquisition be? Least favorite?

i'm leaving varric, harding, and solas out of this question for the same reasons as before - their relationships w/ her are better defined in veilguard.

i think rook would get on with sera the best, which is nuts because love and light sera is Not my favorite. they both care about the little people, and rook's not an elf or a religious figure, so sera could chill out around her. rook would also really like the iron bull, because he's so so chill and normal but he still has a healthy fear of demons and shit. and he'd flirt with her because she's a redhead which she would find validating and fun. would they fuck? rook usually sticks to other trans people, but she does eventually fall for lucanis (cis), so anything's possible. i mean, they do both like casual sex, and rook is an adult during the events of inquisition, though a young adult - she would be 18 when the game starts, 19 when the game ends, and 21 during trespasser. if i trust anyone not to be weird about an age gap for casual sex purposes it's ONLY the iron bull.

least favorite: this is so unfortunate because EYE am a vivienne simp but i think rook, who suffered terribly in kirkwall's circle, would see vivienne who was at a nice circle and who wants the circles restored, as a class traitor. she would be incredibly frustrated with a viewpoint she perceives as out of touch at best and selfish at worst. she doesn't know viv like we do, and unfortunately vivienne is unlikely to tell anyone about her trauma and the reasons she thinks that way, let alone someone who hates her. 

however, even more than that...rook wants cullen's head on a stick. i have this idea that one time, very early on during the year she was stuck in kirkwall's circle, rook got caught trying to escape, and because she was 13 and cullen was nearing the end of his rope, he just Silenced her and had her put in solitary for a relatively minor amount of time - 1-3 days, nothing like anders' six-month stint - and even though cullen thought he was letting her off SUPER easy, rook never forgave him and when the inquisitor comes to visit in veilguard and is like yeah i have to get back to my husband (jerks her thumb over her shoulder at cullen) rook almost tears his face off like a tiger. she doesn't give a SHIT about his redemption arc! it's on sight. when she gets back to the lighthouse she treats lucanis to the full unabridged speech about what a horrible person cullen is and at the end lucanis is like, you want me to do him on the house? killing templars is way easier than killing mages babe i could get him on the house. and rook grumbles and decides she likes/needs the inquisitor too much and gives lucanis a lil kissy and says no. but she's really pleased he offered.

honorable mention for dorian, who rook would either love or hate depending. she respects the nerve it takes to be gay in tevinter (she's gay AND trans in tevinter, she gets it) and him wanting to improve his homeland is an admirable sentiment she also believes in, but the first time she heard him say "but my dad is really nice to his slaves!" she would be ready to send him to meet the maker on the spot. BUT i think by the time veilguard rolls around and dorian has changed his views on slavery she has an grudging respect for him for like, getting there. and using his privilege for good. yk?

[WHAT WOULD ROOK DO ASK MEME]

[koa-z]

so like, it turns out that my HRT appointment was too good to be true

upon showing up on my only day off for the appointment that I scheduled, I was informed that they don't actually take new patients this quickly when they can't tell whether they're masculinizing or feminizing

now I'm a binary trans man and it's very clear in my documents that I'm only masculinizing, so in theory I could have very easily just said that. But I was so stunned I just kinda went along with it, because oh my god?

I'm a 24 year old man and these people are still playing god with my body. They still think that androgynous people are confused and a risk to themselves, that we don't know what we want for our own fucking bodies. This is absolutely fucking insane.

I picked up my life and moved the fuck away from where I used to be treated like I didn't know what my own god damned body needed. Everybody here assumes I'm cis, and therefore treats me like a human being instead of a child / medical freak. But as soon as I need to do doctor stuff, this shit happens.

I mean holy fucking cow, I'm gonna have to go off of T for a few months because this cis person has decided that I, a binary trans man who has had top surgery and has been on T for three years, who has a letter diagnosing me with dysphoria and has been approved by my insurance, who is legally registered as male in every aspect, am not trans enough for them to be sure that it's safe to just continue treating me where my last doctors left off. Bitch I'm gonna get my fucking period bc this secretary thought I was agender and it made them decide that I'm not sure about my own goddamned body and maybe all of my other actual doctors who are licensed professionals, maybe they were wrong. Holy fuck.

[nevertheblood]

i've been so awol that i didn't even realise i was tagged in a thing!! thank uuuu @ohhcinnybuns 💕💕

Fanfic Writer Interview

How many works do you have on AO3?

eleven 🥹 four ongoing, six complete, one sort of.... resting (I hesitate to say abandoned lol)

it's a small number but i never thought i'd get to this point so yay!!

Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes:

love in the vein (2,219 words) - M, skk, complete one-shot (albeit part of a larger ongoing universe), 18-year-old prince dazai and his fiancé (trans) chuuya make out in a garden and muse about love and trust 👀written for a valentine's day challenge!

so show me why you're strong (ignore everybody else) (15,490 words) - T, ambiguously platonic skk, ongoing. mafia executive chuuya meets suicidal cat hybrid dazai and tries to give him a better life (against dazai's wishes)

my candy boy, my baby (2,495 words) - T, sskk, completed one-shot. written for the same valentine's day challenge as love in the vein! atsushi and akutagawa go on a valentine's day date and try to manage sweet confessions amidst emotional awkwardness.

we burn our blue love for a while (8,668 words) - E, buraiha trio OT3, completed one-shot, VERY SPICY. ango has a really great recurring threesome going on and he thinks only about the inevitability of love and betrayal. pwp but angsty.

or so I’ve dreamed, since I met you (55,948 words) - M, skk, complete. artists AU set in 1910s paris - realist painter chuuya meets modern artist dazai, who has synaesthesia, and a sort of rivals to lovers story emerges. past buraiha trio ot3, some angst but with a happy ending.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes! very rarely in a timely manner but I do try to. I spend a lot of emotional energy in my fics and I like to have discussions about it when people make comments c:

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

probably we burn our blue love (mentioned above)... I think it's not necessarily angsty due to the events of the fic itself (which is mostly smut tbh) but due to what happens in canon later on and how it's alluded to at the end of the fic... bloohooohoooo i will never NOT be crying over the dark era!!!!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

apart from the aforementioned angst, all my fics have happy endings!! probably the cutest softest fluffiest is my candy boy, my baby (also mentioned above) just bc it's a valentine's day fic and it's so tooth-rottingly sweet uwu uwu

Do you write crossovers?

never properly written one but I do have a bsd x borderlands AU living in my head. I also have a bsd kpop AU waiting to be written, and that counts as a crossover bc i've written kpop fic before and also I said so

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

no, I keep to myself mostly... I'd like some of my works to get more love but I worry about reaching the wrong audience LOL it's a two edged sword fr

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes but it's gotta have angst and/or pining and/or fluff attached to it lmao i am EMOTIONAL ALL THE TIME at my core

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

no~ not that I am aware of

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

not technically but I've been back and forth with @nettlestingsoup and other irl friends on some delightful AU concepts before. should do that more often it's great for the brain

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

all-time gotta be royed. I am never leaving behind my funky little blorbos that got me PROPERLY into online shipping culture in the early 00s. they come back around every few years like a planet with a weird orbit and my singular remaining fma brain cell just buzzes like crazy and then goes dead again.

but rn I'm insane about skk since the last few years and I don't see that changing hehe

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

oh.... my kryptonite question.....

Kid Gloves is probably dead now. it's just been too many years since its inception and the things that made me want to write it in the first place. plus, I think my writing has improved a lot since then and I sort of cringe looking at it now lol

I have a fuckton of skz WIPs as well but I maintain that one day I *will* finish them ?? (denial) (delusional)

What are your writing strengths?

i like writing fun or snappy dialogue, i think it comes very easily to me (especially with the kind of semi-antagonistic ships that I really enjoy) and I like to show off with lots of in-depth extended metaphors too

What are your writing weaknesses?

movement.... action.... i'm really struggling to make my scenes not static BWUH

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

im literally a polyglot and i'm afraid of it for some reason. don't perceive me. what if I actually can't speak the languages that i speak and people on the internet find out??

What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

arcane........... stares with big eyes

also star trek voyager, i dabbled in pariskim during lockdown but i could really go for some j7 and i know @nettlestingsoup agrees with me

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

or so I’ve dreamed, since I met you feels like my magnum opus, my first finished longfic with so much healing for dazai too.... and I had SO much fun writing and completing it;;; i wish everyone saw it through my eyes bc it is my precious baby of a fic..... 🥹

i think most ppl i would tag to do this have already been tagged?? but uh @nettlestingsoup even tho i tagged u twice already.... hands gently the thing (with no pressure)

[dadsbongos]

you really are slow 💀 "as a queer person-" why are you acting like that doesn't make the fic just as harmful?? queer ppl can hurt the gay community. just bc ur apart of the demographic doesn't automatically mean ur just immune to hurting ppl?? for example there's been a surge of gay men hating on trans women, yes both in the community but STILL hurting it. how are you a whole ass legal adult but can't even grasp that simple simple idea..sad.

the fic is part of a kink, unrelated to anything about my real life. if you'll open your eyes i never said it wasn't harmful, i know it is. that's why i stated it was controversial, and that's why i had it in the warnings, and that's why i said to not read it if it isn't something you're into.

it's a fetish, that's it. like any other fetish it doesn't have a bearing on my normal life, this is literally tumblr dude none of it is fucking real. i'm not telling people to go assault queer women, i posted a gross fetish fic.

the queer community is so fucking large, and everybody is so different, i'm not acting as the big representation of allllll queers. i'm a freakoid on tumblr. i've posted gross smut, i'm not the CEO of wholesome posts. my fic is only hurting people that choose to interact with it after i explicitly state they shouldn't if it grosses them out.

how sad it is to dedicate part of your day to malding over digital text, written by a legal adult about legal adults engaging in controversial kink. you're not gonna sit here and call me slow when you're literally frying your own brain to come on MY blog to rant to me about MY post that i said don't read if you don't like it.

i'm not a fucking idiot, i know it's dubious that's why i have the warnings you cardboard crunching toddler. block me.

[lewis-winters]

tumblr nuked my answer to your ask @ronsparky ANYWAY--

9. worst part of canon

I've talked about this at length here, here, here, here, and here!

and I had another post about why I don't like the tonal shift between ep.9 and ep. 10 of bob but I can't find it so I'll get back to you on that!!

but yeah. I'm still salty about the Augusta Chiwy thing. like. it's like the BoB writers didn't even try 🙄🙄🙄 oops, maybe they didn't. I mean, they were already operating on the logic that if Stephen Ambrose didn't bother to exercise proper historical research, why should they? 🙄🙄🙄

10. worst part of fanon

because fanfiction is the medium in which I interact the most with fandom, the ills of it are the ones I encounter the most. some of ya'll don't know proper characterization if it bit you in the ass. it's like. did we even watch the same show? each one has 10 episodes each!! how could you POSSIBLY get any of this wrong????

sometimes, you read a fic, and already you can tell the author has an agenda just by how terribly wrong a fic is. they villainize random boys so much to make others look better. the amount of times I go "he would NOT say that!" is infinity.

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

ensemble fics with stupid grp of friends level shenanigans. exploration of platonic relationships fics (though there are a few of these already that I really like, I want more). queer platonic relationships. POC OCs; asexual, aromantic, lesbian, and trans OCs. there are a few already that I very much like, I know this. I have a trans OC myself. idc. I want more.

.......... honestly sometimes I get the feeling that some hbo war writers are afraid to make aroace OCs, trans OCs or POC OCs bc they themselves are cis, allosexual/alloromantic, or white and therefore they might get it wrong. to which I say banish the thought and EXPLORE, damnit.

also like. let's trans some genders. I've said this before. but I think. we should be allowed!! to trans some dead american soldier's genders. more transmasc paratroopers!! more transmasc marines!! c'mon now.

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

lewis nixon's alcoholism. my dude. apart from dick winters, EVERYBODY was an alcoholic, ok? harry welsh had to be dragged out of enemy fire bc he was passed out drunk in the middle of the road. they were ALL alcoholic. ALL of them.

I'm not saying stop exploring lewis nixon as an alcoholic, oh no. I love that shit. I'm saying start exploring EVERYONE ELSE as an alcoholic. could be fun!

[insecateur]

I am asking this because I am very worried about how things are torpedoing in my country, but how is france in regards to lgbt+ stuff?

idk if i'd say it's great but idk if i'd say it's bad either, it's not perfect but we've had marriage equality for ten years at this point and trans stuff is handled... adequately? i'm kind of a textbook trans case so my experience doesn't represent the wider system (acknowledgment that nonbinary people exist has been slow-going to say the least) but to give you an idea i have everything taken care of rn, i get my T injections and my appointments and it's covered by healthcare entirely, and afaik surgery is also completely covered (you do have to pay if you do it outside the system tho. and a lot of french people overall criticize that system bc it's still pretty old school re: what counts as trans altho i do think it's gotten better, as someone who read a lot of horror stories and was very worried when i went to my first appointment. but like i said i'm a very textbook case so that probably helped a lot.)

lesbians have only had access to help with procreation since 2020 it seems so that sucks. and for lgbt people who can't carry a child (so two gay men or one man and one trans woman or two trans women for example) and might want children with their own genes, having someone else be paid to carry your child for you is illegal here. it's illegal for everybody tho.

as far as public perception goes, i do think it's been getting worse unfortunately, looking it up the numbers of hate crimes and stuff of the sort seem to have gone up so that sucks. at my level i've yet to run into someone being weird at me bc i'm trans (however please be aware that i don't go out very often LOL but for example i've had blood drawn a while back and when the nurse who took care of me saw my legal name she was like "oh you're trans! i have a regular patient who's trans too :)" and it was a very wholesome moment) i've had friends go through that shit tho and it sucks :/ i feel like it's kind of like everywhere else in the world, it got a lot better for a while and now it's getting worse again. i want to be hopeful tho but yeah

basically if we're comparing it to the shitshow that's going on in the US rn for example i'd say we have it pretty good! but there are still a lot of lgbtphobes around unfortunately. i mean when marriage equality was voted there were SO MANY PEOPLE out in the streets against it lol it was a whole Thing.

[echosbento]

Ugh YEAH. It started in second grade, back then everybody had two teachers, one you go to before lunch and one after, my after lunch teacher was a pos. I fell asleep in class a lot back then, (who'd've thunk, one of the early warning signs of abuse I would later learn teachers were supposed to report. She did not.) And she would always wake me up by hitting me with a metal ruler, before yelling at me to pay attention. There was this big clear plastic bin, and every time you had something 'unapproved' the teacher would take it and put it in the bin. According to school regulations, they were not allowed to keep things after school if we asked for them back, were not allowed to keep things over the weekend period. They instead decided we would get them back at the end of the year, unless it was a phone which we'd get at the end of class. The other teacher was great about it, and in charge of the bin, so no one complained. Until she wound out unable to teach for the last few months of the year. Other teacher immediately decided we'd get things back at the end of the year, and would only give back phones if your parents complained to her face. I used my backpack as luggage if I had to travel, and once accidentally left my favorite stuffed animal in there after traveling for the weekend (little white beanie baby poodle with a red pink and white valentines heart collar) and this bitch saw it in my bag (I did not take it out! Which was the rule! Leave it in your bag and it's ok!) Pulled it out, and took it. I'm distraught because I'm an autistic seven year old, but I wait it out. Last week of school this bitch tells us all she's actually keeping EVERYTHING because we 'didn't learn our lesson'. If I ever see her again it's fucking on sight, I don't care she'd be like 80 now, I'm throwing hands.

Years pass, I do online classes from 5th grade till hs, suddenly it's 9th grade and I'm learning how public school works again. I had three bitch ass mother fuckers that year, engineering teacher who refused to use my actual name and pronouns, world history teacher that didn't know history, and the biology teacher from hell. I got lucky with the bio teacher, we had a TA who took over my class period specifically. First day of school she tells us if we don't have a pen/pencil, she has a needle and we have to pen things in our own blood (She meant it!) And if our utensil stops working, same thing. She would yell at basically anyone who so much as looked at her, at me specifically for having the Audacity to be dual enrolled and thus occasionally have to leave five whole minutes early to get on the bus to go to college (took college and hs classes at the same time) but I didn't get most of her crap bc we had that TA and half way through the year she got fired and he took over full time. Iirc she got fired for refusing to accept another trans students work with his real name on it?

Then senior year I had an English teacher who decided I needed punished personally bc I corrected her one (1) time on a factual inaccuracy. She claimed there was no difference between a tavern and an inn, and I responded "yes there is, a tavern is primarily an eatery while an inn is primarily a place of rest, while they often would have both services for the sake of income, it wasn't guaranteed and you weren't likely to get great service on the opposing front from respective locations." Because history nerd, and it was important to the thing we were reading in class that the protagonist went to a tavern rather than an inn. She yelled at me for talking back and said that bc she's older she would Always know better than me and treated me like an idiot the rest of the year.

And then we come to the worst two imo. Collage Pre-Algebra teacher, who just never fucking showed up to class, and would also never email us that he wasn't coming, to try and punish us dual enrollment kids for, having to come to class on time? And my college psych teacher. Who may have gotten by being just 'my bad psych prof' if it weren't for this one trick! In highschool my psych teacher was one of the coaches (softball iirc) but he decided when they put him on psych that he was going to make sure he knew as much as possible about the subject so that he could teach it well. So can you imagine my anger when my psych teacher in college tells me to my face, someone who was diagnosed with ADHD at five years old, that ADHD is a made up condition that lazy people use to get away with not doing stuff they're supposed to? Honest almost killed her with my bare hands day one. She had no experience in the field, believed most mental illnesses were made up, thought Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder were the same thing, thought Freud was right about everything. And once made us do a project where we were supposed to get a paper with a mental illness on it, act as though we had it, and everyone else was supposed to guess what it was. Imma be real, I took one look at the paper saying I should act out Narcolepsy and told her I refused to treat other people with the kind of indignity I knew she expected from us. She said I would fail then, I went to go get a sweet roll from the vending machine rather than watch a group of fucking college students with 0 information 'act' like people like me.

does everyone have a teacher that they still have beef with/ hold a grudge against today??

[chemicalarospec]

Very stressful Ordeal saying I use any pronouns in English class today -- I thought one girl was gonna say she/they but then she said she/her and everybody was so binary (which I still look, btw), every single person saying Mudane pronouns, and like I'm still not very confident in myself but any still feels most right -- which is weird bc I deffo said "any" out loud last year at least once, but I remember my trans dude friend was in that wellness class and we had another friend, queer but cis -- ms she/her is prolly the only other queer kid in the English class tbh. I respect the kids in this class more (guy whose not my crush but is but isn't is in this class, for one) so maybe that's another part. Anyways after I finished I looked around and no one was looking at me. So hopefully no one really cared.

[sunricgod]

vance : *beating someone up*

bruce & finney : *cheering for him*

robin : yes i support trans rights, but i also support trans wrongs. that motherfucker deserved it. <3