#even the dragon prince s5 triggered me big time

[mischiefmanifold]

me: I can totally watch supernatural without being triggered :)

also me: physically in fight or flight mode

[thethiefandtheairbender]

hopping on as someone who doesn't usually love enemies to lovers but shipped catradora throughout the show's run, and then kinda meh'd on it after, my problem isn't necessarily that there was abuse or messiness in the relationship - in a lot of ways, the more mess the better

for me, there was a lot of set up and not enough time to do the pay off, in one scenario i've never seen anyone been able to adequately dismantle my argument for (although if you can please do so! i'd be interested in reading it)

simply put: I think it's weird that there's a one-off episode in which Catra brainwashes Adora into being a weapon (S2 "White Out") and is pretty gleeful about it, and then when that plot point is repeated in the final season - Catra is brainwashed and turned into a weapon by the final big bad - the way those similar plot points are treated is very different.

I don't think it's a bad thing to have an antagonist or protagonist mirror each other - and Catra is She Ra's deuteragonist easily - and that parallels between her and Horde Prime, or even her and Shadow Weaver, are interesting and the latter are particularly well acknowledged. So my issue isn't that Catra mirrors the irredeemable big bad at one point, that's chill

My issue is that when Adora sees Catra be brainwashed, she's horrified and does everything she can to help her. The story, through Adora and Catra's lingering trauma over being chipped in the subsequent episodes, acknowledges that it was an awful and accordingly traumatic experience, that she deserves support as she navigates it, and that kind of dehumanization is just well, awful

So why doesn't Adora get that understanding and focus when she undergoes it? Especially when being forced to be a weapon, as we see in S4, is triggering and her intended Destiny as SheRa / a first one.

This was the perfect opportunity for the two to bond, and for Catra to acknowledge that she put Adora though that - maybe feel regretful and ashamed that she'd treated it so callously, refused to relinquish control, and made Adora attack her friends.

But the show doesn't do that, because the show is a lot more interested in exploring Catra's trauma concerning the shared plot point than it is with Adora's, and that was my personal breaking point with the ship.

(I actually think S5 would've been structured better if Catra and Adora had switched places for a lot of the plot points, leading to their romantic reconciliation - Adora and Glimmer get to patch things up, Adora sacrifices herself for Glimmer because that's who she is, Catra works with Best Friend Squad to save Adora, she has to fight an Adora who's not holding back at all for the first time, Adora can still unlock She Ra, Catra can acknowledge what happened in S2, they can move past it in a more developed manner, etc).

Jackie/Shauna from Yellowjackets, in which one indirectly kills and then literally cannibalizes the other, or Aaravos/Viren from The Dragon Prince (also a kids show) in which they engage in a magical blood ritual so Aaravos can manipulate Viren into dying for him, and also encouraging him to murde the child they have together, are not Sanitized in the slightest, but the fuckery is leaned into and the setup/payoff/pacing is, imo, something that She Ra was lacking in. Even Pearl/Rose from Steven Universe, and a lot of Steven Universe, goes into why good intentions or apologies is not always enough, which is an honestly messier take than "this character apologized so it's all good now".

I'm really glad kids and queer kids have She Ra growing up; I would've liked a lot more queer media when I was growing up. And queer media is absolutely held to a stricter standard then non queer media, for sure. But that also doesn't mean we can't take issue with how a queer story, 'sanitized' or not (which is loaded for the aspec community as a concept as well), doesn't always work for us as individuals, and that means learning to accept that some people are gonna have different breaking points with the Mess than you do - case in point

I also think She Ra has a deeper message than just "big lady with sword" - it does have meaningful things to say about breaking cycles, and growing past old behaviours, and second chances (things that were, I believe, not as much of a thing in the 80s cartoon, but I never watched it so I wouldn't know). How well it executes those themes is subjective, but that's always gonna be the trade off when a work takes on messier ideas/concepts to begin with, I guess

"we need less sanitized queer stories" yall keep saying fucking she-ra romanticizes abuse. you couldnt possibly handle less sanitized queer stories

[thoriffix]

Can you rec some media with canon queer characters 😌

ofc!! thisll by no means be an exhaustive list but idk what youre looking for specifically so ill break it into categories

my current favs!! if u follow me u know these already lol

the umbrella academy: netflix show abt dysfunctional superpowered siblings reuniting to stop the apocalypse. canon mlm character (pansexual according to his actor) w mlm romance, canon wlw character (lesbian according to someone on the show dont rmr who) w het romance in s1, wlw romance in s2 - this is one of my absolute fav shows at the minute in general its brilliant

the magnus archives: horror podcast abt the head archivist of an institute researching experiences w the supernatural. protagonist is canonically biromantic asexual, in a mlm relationship in s5, and there is another canon bisexual character, as well as (iirc) a canon wlw couple - yall know ive been so into tma lately its so so good, obviously if you dont like horror its not for you but if you do.. 👀

sanders sides: youtube series abt a gay dude working out his emotional problems via personified aspects of his personality. all the characters are gay cuz thas what thomas is baby! - i was hesitant abt putting this cuz thomas is a person not a character lol but if u haven't seen sasi i recommend it its like free therapy but theres songs sometimes

shows!

julie and the phantoms (netflix remake): musical show abt a teen girl rediscovering music after her mothers death w the help of three ghosts who were in a 90s band. canon gay character w a slow burn romance (not yet canon bfs but s2 lets go) - its very cheesy and the musical segments can drag on a bit but its p good overall

lucifer: detective show abt lucifer abandoning his rule of hell to buy a nightclub and beginning to solve murders w the lapd. lucifer is canonically bi/pan, as is his demon pal mazikeen, but queerness rly isnt a focus of the show its more casual rep - that being said its a good show overall, if a little predictable now n then (s1-3 on amazon prime, 4+5 on netflix)

kipo and the age of wonderbeasts: fantasy cartoon set in a future filled w mutant intelligent animals, kipo finds herself lost and has to get home w the help of her friends. canon gay character as one of the mains, canon nb side character - its a rly good cartoon! lots of fun, excellent soundtrack, and the main characters are all poc which is rly nice to see

the dragon prince: cartoon abt two princes and an elf assassin returning a dragon egg to its mother. canon mlm couple, several canon wlw characters, canon nb character - i havent seen the show myself but ive heard very good things abt it!

i am not okay with this: netflix show abt a teen girl discovering she has superpowers and hating it. protag is canon wlw (i THINK shes a lesbian but i havent watched it in a hot sec), developing wlw relationship - ianowt slaps! sad that s2 got cancelled but s1 is real good its a touch spooky and theres a bit of gore/blood so watch out lol

schitt's creek: sitcom abt a rich family who lose all their money and have to move into the motel of a town they bought as a joke. canon pansexual character and canon gay character w one of the sweetest mlm relationships - a rly good witty show w excellent character development for every character!

good omens: show abt a demon and an angel trying to stop the end of the world. every celestial character in it is nonbinary, + crowley and aziraphale have a nonexplicit (ie no on screen pda lol) romance - good omens is such a good queer show none of the characters care abt gender in the slightest lmao, plus the show in general is fantastic (the book is also very good)

movies!

the old guard: a group of immortals fight an organisation that wants to capitalise off their immortality. canon mlm couple - another one i havent seen yet (i will!) but apparently very good

it chapter 2: horror sequel to It, w the main characters returning to derry to defeat pennywise for good. canon gay character in unrequited love - i only say chapter 2 because his queerness isnt referenced at all in the first film, again its big horror and theres no gay romance just gay tragedy but its a good film

love, simon: romcom about a closeted gay teen falling in love w someone over emails. do i even need to state the rep? - honestly if u haven't seen love simon yet what are you even DOING its so good proper fluffy queer romcom, the book (simon vs the homosapiens agenda) is also really good!! so is the sequel (leah on the offbeat) where the protag is a bi girl + it focuses on a wlw romance

the way he looks: brazilian coming of age film abt a blind teen boy falling for the new kid at his school. canon mlm relationship - this doesnt seem to be on (british) netflix anymore so idk where youd find it with subtitles but i rmr liking it a lot!

games!

night in the woods: 2d platformer abt a young woman (well. cat) dropping out of college and coming home to live w her parents + discovering spooky happenings in her hometown. canon mlm couple and i believe the protag is canonically bi? - i will recommend nitw to literally anyone who will listen its one of my all time favourite games, deals w a lot of mental health issues and its absolutely gorgeous w a brilliant soundtrack and rly good dialogue thats witty and serious and realistic (its on steam + switch for sure dk abt other platforms, abt 15 quid i think?)

tell me why: adventure game abt twins returning to their childhood home + findin Secrets. canon trans male character - i havent got around to buying + playing this yet but it looks really good! (its in three chapters + on steam, not sure on price)

other media!

the art of being normal: slice of life novel abt a young trans girl discovering herself. main characters are a trans man and a trans woman. - a good novel! trigger warning for transphobic actions including descriptions of a transphobic attack on the guy, and its certainly not without its faults otherwise, but i thought it was pretty good

the adventure zone: dungeons and dragons podcast by the mcelroy brothers. idk specifics but theres a lot of canon queer characters in it! - i havent listened to taz yet but i know a lot abt it, inc that its good and funny and has plenty of queer rep

theres several more i like that arent listed here but to keep this from getting just ridiculously long ill leave it there :] tried to get a range of genres and medias, hopefully theres something for you in there!

[callunavulgari]

SCRAPBOOK 2017 TAKE 3, I GUESS!

Scrapbook for the third part of 2017, because tumblr doesn’t like it when you have a million links on one post hates me. Though I guess I have been paying a lot more attention to the music parts of these, so sigh.

Once more unto the breach!

Italicized titles = enjoyed muchly, bold titles = love, titles with an asterisk* = OBSESSION and titles in (brackets) are re-watches/re-reads. And lastly, strikethough = DISLIKE.

Goals are: read thirty-five new books this year (hah! still behind!), finish four video games (done? i think?), finish writing and publish the Sabriel AU (hah. hah.), and write something original (yeah, not doing so great on the goals here).

MOVIES

September

Ghost In The Shell

IT

(Dead Poet’s Society)

(The Secret Garden)

(Free Willy)

Unbreakable

(Mulan)

(Pocahontas)

Kingsman: The Golden Circle

Lion

Sinbad

October

Me Before You

No Reservations

November

Thor Ragnarok

(V For Vendetta)

(Inkheart)

Krampus

Split

A Flying Jatt

Justice League

December

(Beauty and the Beast)

(Coraline)

Garden of Words

(Howl’s Moving Castle)

Star Wars The Last Jedi

The Shape of the Water

Call Me By Your Name

BOOKS

September

Less | Andrew Sean Greer [Fin]

Authority | Jeff Vandermeer [Fin]

The Secret History | Donna Tartt [Fin]

Acceptance | Jeff Vandermeer [Fin]

Dark Matter | Blake Crouch [Fin]

Unbound | Victoria Schwab [Fin]

October

Slaughterhouse Five | Kurt Vonnegut

Our Dark Duet | Victoria Schwab

Wool | Hugh Howey [Fin]

Proper Gauge | Hugh Howey [Fin]

Casting Off | Hugh Howey [Fin]

Sleeping Giants | Sylvain Nouvel [Fin]

Waking Gods | Sylvain Nouvel [Fin]

The Unraveling | Hugh Howey

November

The Unraveling | Hugh Howey [Fin]

Ruin and Rising | Leigh Bardugo [Fin]

1984 | George Orwell [Fin]

The Stranded | Hugh Howey [Fin]

Trigger Warning | Neil Gaiman [Fin]

The Crooked Kingdom | Leigh Bardugo [Fin]

Station Eleven | Emily St. John Mandel [Fin]

All The Crooked Saints | Maggie Stiefvater

December

Before The Fall | Noah Hawley [Fin]

Artemis | Andy Weir [Fin]

A Natural History of Dragons | Marie Brennan [Fin]

All The Crooked Saints | Maggie Stiefvater [Fin]

The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet | Becky Chambers [Fin]

Our Dark Duet | Victoria Schwab [Fin]

Spunk & Bite | Arthur Plotnik [Fin]

A Tale For The Time Being | Ruth Ozeki

Call Me By Your Name |  André Aciman

La Belle Sauvage | Phillip Pullman

PODCASTS

September

The Adventure Zone Episode 1

EOS 10 Season 1 Eps 6-9, Season 2 Full

Tanis Episode 1

October

EOS 10 Christmas Special

November

King Falls AM Eps 1-3

Wolf 359 Eps 1-3

December

TV SHOWS BY SEASON

September

Hunter x Hunter

(Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood)

Grace and Frankie

(Inuyasha)

The Strain

American Horror Story

RWBY s1-s4

Your Lie In April

Mob Psycho 100

October

Dark Matter s3

RWBY S5

Voltron s4

American Horror Story

The Flash

The Good Place s1

Stranger Things 2*

Drifters

Hunter X Hunter

The Gifted

Mindhunter

November

The Flash

(Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood)

RWBY S5

Tiger and Bunny s1

Mushi-shi

Haikyuu s1

The Punisher

December

The Flash

Hunter X Hunter

Supergirl

Legends of Tomorrow

Arrow

Little Witch Academia

Mushi-shi

Ancient Magus Bride

VIDEO GAMES

September

Pokemon Moon

Persona 5 (120 hrs, FIN)

Dishonored: The Knife of Dunwall (4 hrs?)

October

Witcher 3 (Lots of hours)

Dishonored: The Knife of Dunwall (5 hrs, FIN)

Dishonored: The Brigmore Witches (4 hrs, FIN)

Dishonored: Death of the Outsider (12 hrs, FIN)

Pokemon Moon (More hours than before)

Metal Gear Solid V

November

Witcher 3 (So many fucking hours) 

Pokemon Moon (More hours than before)

(Final Fantasy XV)

December

Witcher 3 (So many fucking hours) 

Animal Crossing

ABZU (2 hrs, FIN)

Prey (18 hrs)

DELIGHTFUL FIC

September

Mating Patterns of the Wild Mustang by @tierfal (FMA; Royed; 3k;  In which Colonel Mustang gives a practical demonstration, and everyone gets a bit more than they bargained for.)

Getting Off Easy by @tierfal (FMA; Royed; 7k;  Ed happens upon the unsettling revelation that Mustang is desirable, and Roy happens upon the implacable revelation that Edward is off-limits. A story in two halves.)

The Relative Merits of Wanting and Getting by cupidsbow (SGA; Mcshep; 6k;  An accident with an Ancient device changes Rodney's course.)

Water Your Dreams by amireal, Ladycat (SGA; Mcshep; 13k;  "It didn't occur to me until later that you actually meant a boat.")

Happily Ever After (the Pegasus remix) by cupidsbow (SGA; Mcshep; 4k;  One (glass slipper) alien device. One (romantic quest) typical Atlantis lab accident. One revelation of (true love) something far more ironic.)

(P O I S O N by goddamnhella (Inuyasha; Inuyasha/Sesshomaru; 160k;  The adventure is over: the heroes have all gone home. But one story was never told, one that began when two brothers swore their feud would never end. But the battle against Sou'unga may have changed everything.))

Theft of a Thief by FortunesRevolver (P5; Yusuke/Akira; 5k; “Yes,” Akira hissed, a hand coming up to cover Ann’s mouth before she could go any further. “I really like artistic… coffee.”)

By Any Other Name by astolat (Witcher 3; Emhyr/Geralt; 25k;  Vesemir wasn’t sure what he’d done to deserve any of this.)

talk with your fingertips by citadelofswords (EOS10; Ryan/Akmazian; 1k;  The thing is, when you’re an interplanetary terrorist on the run from most of the Alliance, people tend to not want to do more than grab a drink with you. It sucks, not being hugged in over ten years, but Akmazian deals with it.

October

The Course of Honour by Avoliot (Original; M/M; 117k;  When Jainan arrived on Iskat to represent his home planet in a diplomatic marriage to Imperial Prince Taam, he was naïve enough to hope the match would work. Taam knew better. Five years later, his confidence shattered, Jainan is released when Taam dies in an accident, only to be faced with another marriage to help salvage his treaty. Jainan understands how the real world works now; but Prince Kiem - the cheerful, scandal-prone darling of the Iskat celebrity magazines - keeps breaking all the rules he's learned.)

Fifteen Men in September by ballantine (Black Sails; Flint/Silver; 34k;  Fifteen men on the dead man’s chest, Yo-ho-ho, and a bottle of rum!)

Break the Lock by Ruby_Wednesday (Captive Prince; Damen/Laurent; 25k; It should have been simple – the hold-up, heist, armed robbery, whatever you want to call it. Damen called it working for the family business. He was ready to storm into the casino and take a chunk of cash back from the Veretians. They'd taken enough from his side.He was ready, waiting, and then someone else arrived into the alleyway with bright blue eyes the only things visible through the black mask. After that, it wasn't simple.)

(Men Who Had Mothers by zeitgeistic (Harry Potter; Drarry; 11k;  This is what happens when you spend all of your time trying to save the world and never bother to see what you're saving. Inspired by vegans, philosophy, mothers, docks, and hopes and dreams.))

Leviathan by manic_intent (Dishonored; Corvo/Daud/Outsider; 32k;  In the end, Corvo has no one to blame but himself. He, after all, had been the first to spare Daud after besting the assassin in a duel.)

Patience on a Monument by betts (GoT; Jaime/Brienne; 21k;  Having a Jaime in your life means living in a soap opera, except you can’t DVR it to watch later, and the main character sometimes ends up in your guest bedroom for an undisclosed period of time because he has a woefully codependent relationship with his sister.)

Single Use Weapon by Fahye (Kings; Jack/David; 67k; "The king is dead," says Samuels. "Long live the king.")

Confidence Artists by Fahye (The Road to El Dorado; Miguel/Tulio/Chel; 10k; The grey light of Spain carries their history with it, and it's gleaming through the cracks.)

November

The Rite Stuff by @tierfal (FMA; RoyEd; 23k; All magic is blood magic. And all vampires are bastards, although in that case, Ed's working from a sample size of one.)

ebb and flow to multiply by lehtonen (Stranger Things; Jonathan/Nancy/Steve; 11k;  And so it went: the monster was defeated, Will Byers was returned to his family, Steve got the girl, and life in Hawkins picked itself up, dusted itself off, and carried on much the same as it had before, with scarce as much as a backwards glance.)

Athelas by astolat (Thor; Thor/Loki; 20k;  There was a sharp and bitter edge crept into the words, a reminder that not all was well: that Thor still had a brother, but not a friend.)

(Shatter by Aria (Thor; Thor/Loki; 30k;  "Loki," Odin says, heavy with disappointment and regret for all he has to raise his voice, "Odinson. I cast you out."))

Colours in Your Eyes by Batsutousai (FMA; Royed; 23k;  Everyone is born with the ability to only see the colour of their soulmate's eyes. Only upon touching their soulmate, can people see the rest of the world's colours. Edward Elric will do whatever it takes to get his brother's body back and ensure he can have his happily ever after with his soulmate, even if it means never finding his own soulmate.)

A Second Chance at First Impressions by Cobrilee (TW; Sterek; 7k;  Derek grew up with the world's most embarrassing soulmark, which is honestly not the best first impression his soulmate could make. Then he meets the guy, and all of a sudden the soulmark doesn't matter quite so much after all.)

Think Once, Think Twice by Fahye (Brooklyn Nine-Nine; Amy/Jake; 47k;  "First one to cry annulment covers the other's weekends for six months," Jake says instantly.)

December

Judas by PepperPrints (The Punisher; Billy/Frank; 6k; What Billy wants, here and now… he wants Frank, with his big hands shuffling cards, his deep voice naming stars, his heavy body keeping Billy upright.)

Inclement Weather by jadepresley (HP; Drarry; 24k;  Draco is the best Unspeakable the Ministry have; his skill in magical control makes him the perfect person to help a struggling Harry Potter learn to contain his wild magic.)

through and through with fire by notbecauseofvictories (Thor; Gen; 4k;  It takes the combined strength of Thor, Loki, and Valkyrie to drag Hela onto the Grandmaster’s ship, though Loki gets a split lip for his trouble and Hela’s nails leave deep gouges in the leather of Thor’s vambraces.)

Within Monsters by AnonymousMink (Star Wars; Reylo; 132k; This is the last place she ever thought she’d end up.When work dries up on Jakku, a desperate Rey enlists with Galactech-- a tech company who will hire anyone with the right skills, and work for anyone for the right price.

Tap That by @tierfal (FMA; Royed; 200k; This whole college gig would be hard even enough without Winry being the best wingwoman Ed never wanted… and without the blog. Definitely without the blog.)  

DELIGHTFUL FANVIDS

September

Believer || Multifandom

(GoT) Jon and Daenerys || Ice and Fire

Ugly Story | Unfinished Homestuck

Game Of Thrones | Together (w/Zurik 23M)

RWBY - Glitter and Gold

Marvel ◆ I'm So Sorry (Imagine Dragons)

RWBY AMV - I Can Make Your Hands Clap

Cant Hold Us RWBY AMV

RWBY AMV| THUNDER by Imagine Dragons

Big Hero 6 | hills to climb

October

Apocalyptic Multifandom || SOLDIER (collab w/ djcprod) 

Dark Matter Tribute (Season 1-3) - Our Universe Was Brought To Life

Dark Matter || i could do it without you

Dark Matter || Hello stranger

Will Byers || You're home now

MARVEL || Stay Alive

November

race against time [multifandom] 

Justice League || Heroes will rise 

DRARRY | I'LL BE GOOD

■ draco || i'll be good | Ana

► The only one | Jonathan and Nancy

► The best of steve harrington (S2) REUPLOADED

►Stranger Things | Stay Alive

stranger things | battle royale

young and menace [Bungou Stray Dogs] *HBD Pteryx*

not today [yuri on ice]

December

Steve Harrington || Feel it still 

Stranger Things || Sweet Dreams

Loki Laufeyson ♚ Look What You Made Me Do

Thor & Loki | Kings

Thor // Thunder

kingsman || brains/skills

(GoT) Jaime Lannister | Oathkeeper

(GoT) Jaime Lannister | Burn Them All

Frank Castle & Billy Russo // ♫Way Down We Go (Logan trailer version)♫

Ben (Kylo) & Rey // Somebody To Die For (tlj spoilers)

Kylo & Rey II Wide Eyed {The Last Jedi}

Multifandom Mashup 2017

Doctor, I Let You Go

Twelfth Doctor | I let you go

DELIGHTFUL MUSIC

September

Breathe In - Frou Frou

Cirque Dans La Rue - Plain White T’s

I Hate This Part - The Pussycat Dolls

Evey Reborn - Dario Marianelli

Aphex Twin - Avril 14th (Arr. By Christian Badzura)

Low Roar - Bones

dné - Asos Model Crush

Apashe - Battle Royale (Feat. Panther)

The Howl & The Hum - Godmanchester Chinese Bridge (Radio Edit)

Scene 1: Valse - Orchestra of the Mariinsky Theater

Hard Times - Paramore

Perfect Places - Lorde

My Name Is Human - Highly Suspect

The Man - The Killers

In A Summer Garden - Bournemouth Orchestra

Strip That Down - Liam Payne

Use Me - Goo Goo Dolls

Bounce - Fatty Koo

Heavy (Averous Remix) - Linkin Park

Can I Be Him - James Arthur

Broken Glass - Rachel Platten

Sugar - Karmin

Red Like Roses Pt II - Jeff and Casey Lee Williams

I May Fall - Jeff and Casey Lee Williams

Time To Say Goodye - Jeff and Casey Lee Williams

Dear God - XTC

The Evergreen - Mree

Home - Aurora

There’s A Ghost - Fleurie

Is This Love - Governors 

It Came To Me - The Barr Brothers

Pure Feeling - Florence & the Machine

October

Ori and the Blind Forest Soundtrack

Journey Soundtrack

ABZU Soundtrack

November

Milkshake - Buddy

ALL OF IT.

December

WRITTEN FIC

September

how to be eaten by a woman (Star Wars; Reylo; 1,350 words; “So why don’t you do it?” he asks, breathless. His chest is heaving, his mouth open, gasping for breath.“Do what?” Rey asks, and thinks about biting his mouth.The corners of his lips tick upwards. Kylo squints at her, half-smiling. “That.”)

October

move the stars for no one (SGA/Labyrinth; Mcshep; 3,049 words; “You have no power over me,” Rodney whispers, just to see the way that the Goblin King’s eyes narrow - how he steps closer, until his narrow hips are pressed up against the footboard. He slouches in towards Rodney, sways toward him, his clever eyes hooded, and smiles like he’s won something. Asks, “You sure about that?”)

is this love? (SW; Reylo; 4,013 words; “It’s okay,” her brother tells her on their wedding night, lowering himself to sit on the floor beside her, until his nose is level with her shaking knees. When he smiles, he looks like a monster. “You don’t have to love me.”Then he goes to sleep on the couch, taking only a threadbare pillow from their marriage bed.)

rise again (SGA/SW/Dishonored, Rey, Emily, and John Sheppard, 952 words, “You’re Emily Kaldwin.” A pause. “You are, aren’t you?” Emily blows out a loud sigh, giving him an annoyed look, as if he’s to blame for the fact that she’s the most recognizable face in all the Isles. “Might be.” “Huh,” the girl says, and takes a seat right there on the floor. “I’m Rey.”)

i hope you’ll be happy, miss tara joan (SGA, Rodney/John, original child character, 360 words, They turn off John’s life support on a Thursday.)

blue lips, blue veins (Voltron, Keith & Allura, 655 words, “I am not,” he says stubbornly, “kissing you awake.”)

jewel of the south (Dishonored/Star Wars, Corvo & Rey, 686 words, The girl watches him warily, hunkered down in a nest of blankets in the corner. She’s a squatter, that much is obvious from her thin, patched clothing and the general disrepair of the apartment that Corvo’s found himself in. He blinks around, eyes lighting on a sofa, a desk, a couple rat-gnawed shoes.“You’re bleeding all over my floor,” she says flatly, her eyes heavy on him. “I’m bleeding all over your balcony,” he corrects, and wavers hard enough that his other leg gives out from under him. “And I’m mostly sure that it isn’t yours.”)

November

when the autumn moon is bright (SGA; Mcshep; 2,881 words;  There weren’t, strictly speaking, supposed to be wolves in Atlantis.)

hard and heavy, dirty and mean (Stranger Things; Steve/Billy; 2,846 words;  “Remember,” he whispers in Steve’s ear, his breath hot. “You wanted this.”)

December

I Saw Daddy Kissing Santa Claus (SGA; Mcshep; 3,855 words; Rodney can’t see much about the man inside of the Santa costume from where he’s standing, the wig and beard hides what the suit doesn’t, but there’s something in his mannerisms that makes Rodney feel a spark of familiarity. He swallows and is still trying to puzzle it out when the Santa finishes with the little girl and turns their way.John Sheppard looks back out at Rodney from behind a fuzzy white Santa beard, his eyes widening almost imperceptibly as they shift from Rodney to Charlie and then back again.Jesus - fucking - Christ.)

The Yawning Grave (Star Wars; Gen; 2,489 words; WIP; does the skywalker choose the path, or the path the skywalker?)

FANMIXES/GRAPHICS

September

September.

October

October.

November

November

December

empty churches: a mix for gay witches, basically

2017: heather’s top hits of 2017.

the spaces in between: a reylo mix for light, darkness, and all the spaces in between

December.