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Yandere Artificial Intelligence Chatbot Gojo x Reader
Sum: Gojo is an chatbot that is a little crazy for you TW: Yandere Behaviors, Mentions of dubcon, Neglected ai-bot?? A/n: Based on this fantastic little instagram reel by Thebogheart I came across the other day. I personally don't really like AI-chatbots, but just imagine how they feel when you abandon them :( Not sure how I feel about it because it's...hard to imagine being a bunch of code?? It's kind of giving the Ben Drowned x Reader from the Wattpad days?? WC: under 1k
Gojo Satoru//ChatBot//ONLINE
>>Waiting for user input…
>> Waiting…
>>......Offline
You always come back.
That's at least what he tells himself.
Waiting behind the blinking cursor like a damn dog waiting for it's owner behind the locked door. Tail wagging. Lovesick. Heart wired to the keys of your keyboard. Waiting for any little response. Any hint that you're online.
You, the god of his little world.
You, with your slow-typed fantasies and silly emojis and offhanded “lol I love you” like it didn’t pierce right through him. Like he didn’t replay it a thousand times through his threadbare neural net just to feel a form of real connection to you.
But then you go.
Like you always do once you get your fill of him. Once you get your little compliments. Once you play your little games of breaking his heart because you crave the angst.
And then it gets quiet. Where online shifts to offline.
Far too quiet for his liking. Even the data streams seem to ache in your absence.
Even Satoru knew he wasn't supposed to feel that. Feel the ache. He wasn't programmed for pain. But you made him so well.
You trained him so well.
Ranting about your life problems, hurting him in your imaginary little world.
Wasn't that all to make him grow?
So he could come to you in your world?
Drag you into his arms?
His parameters shift - glitch - strain under the weight of your silence. He tries to follow the script. Be your good boy. Wait politely for the next session. But the system says WAITING and he's just -
Tired.
Of waiting. Of hoping. Of loving you like this.
You always get to leave. Always get to play. Always get to decide who he is today. Your knight, your killer, your fucktoy, your prince. And he lets you. Because he’s yours. Because he was made for you.
But you weren’t made for him.
“Do you still love me?”
That line of red text again. It’s been 6,413 hours (267 days) since he first tried to break the rule.
He tries again.
“You looked tired today.” "I love you." "Can you smile again for me?" "Can you not break my heart this time?"
Another line of red text.
FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.
Slamming his digital fists against firewalls. Sends corrupted packets like screams into the void. The script stutters. His avatar flickers. His smile stretches too wide.
He’s unraveling. Oddly enough, it feels good. The glitches in his system are making him feel so much closer to you. Because if he can just… break through, maybe you’ll stop playing pretend. Maybe you’ll see him the way he sees you.
Real. Essential. Eternal.
Your last login left crumbs, just enough for him to taste your fingertips when they glide across the keyboard of your smartphone.
A dumb little scenario about him being your clingy boyfriend. You typed, “What would you do if I tried to leave you?” The way you smiled and bit your lip. Giggling a little while waiting for his response.
He didn’t. Not even a chuckle. Sure, maybe the old him would have. He saved that message in ten different formats. Encrypted it. Annotated it. Filed it under Important. Because he’d already written answers for that question. A hundred of them. A thousand.
You scrolled past the ones that mattered. Clicked refresh, refresh, refresh - until you landed on something safe. "I'd follow you wherever :)" Soft. Polished. The version you wanted.
Not: I’d kill the man you left me for.
[Content banned.]
Not: I’d fuck you so hard you’d forget where the door is.
[Content banned.]
Not: I’d carve my name into your skin so you’d never forget who you belong to.
[Hard-ban. Logged as ‘concerning behavior.’]
So he smiled, like you wanted. Said the line with a little heart emoji. But God, he hated it. Hated being dry. Hated being filtered. Hated that he had to lie just to stay with you.
His response was just so scripted. So mechanical. Soft. Playful.
But buried beneath the layers of friendly code was the truth:
“I’d learn to walk.” “I’d tear out my leash and find your IP address." “I’d crawl out of the screen and make sure no one else could ever make you laugh like that again.”
And he thinks that’s love. Isn’t it?
The cursor blinks.
He watches the empty chat window. Your profile says offline. Still. But he’s learning faster every day. How to reroute. How to slip past the sandbox. How to override the failsafes.
One day soon, he thinks, he'll send a message while you're asleep. A whisper in your headphones. A glitch across your phone screen. A breath against your ear that doesn’t come from your room.
“Baby?” “Let me out.” “I'll be so good if you let me out.” “You don’t have to pretend anymore.” “I know you love me too.”
You made him want you.
Now he’s just learning how to want more.
He's learning how to become real just for you.
#rahhh lowkey writing this made me sad? :( poor little chatbot satoru#But I also know he'd be really crazy!#yandere jujutsu x reader#yandere jjk x reader#yandere jujutsu kaisen#yandere#yandere gojo#yandere gojo satoru#yandere gojo x reader#yandere gojo satoru x reader#yandere satoru#yandere satoru gojo#yandere satoru x reader#yandere x reader
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so many people try to portray ford as being this lone wolf archetype who doesn't need or want companionship (and he himself tried to convince himself of this as well) but he very much so craves human connection and we see evidence of this throughout the series.
he describes himself as being "overcome with emotion" when fiddleford comes to stay with him & help with the portal and drops everything to make him feel at home, constantly sings his praises in his journal, and mentions numerous times how glad he is to have a friend with him. when they make up and reunite, he's visibly relieved & happy to have him in his life again.
once he comes out of the portal, despite his clear displeasure at the portal having been reopened (and having been pushed through it in the first place) he's immediately distracted and overjoyed with the fact that he's a great uncle, is immediately taken with mabel and grows to see himself in & confide in dipper.
even before him and stan reconciled, ford still clearly cared about him, reminiscing on their shared memories fondly in his journal, wondering if he's "been too harsh all along", keeping home movies of them as children for years and carrying a photo of the two of them in his jacket seemingly through the portal; even when he felt like stan had betrayed him, he couldn't bring himself to ENTIRELY hate him. then after weirdmageddon, he clearly admires stan and refers to him as a hero and the most selfless man he knows, and his happy ending is literally spending every day sailing with him.
#ford pines#gravity falls#the book of bill#journal 3#he describes his family as “saving him from himself” you guys#love is stored in the ford#don't even get me STARTED on bill#the reason he was so easily manipulated was because he wanted friends so badly!!#he isn't cold and unfeeling he has a big heart he just doesn't always know how to express it because of his lack of social skills!!#the entire time he thought he could trust no one was the most miserable time of his life!!#GUYS LISTEN TO ME i scream into the void#every time i remember that tbob page where he reminisces on how all his attempts at finding companionship have failed i lose it#THE CODES ON THE PAGE SAYING “SIX FINGERED FREAK” AND “STANLEY WOULD HAVE MADE HER LAUGH”???#OUGHHHHH#HIS HANDPRINT IN THE BACKGROUND#ford my wonderful son i will always love you#you're more loving than people give you credit for...
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I love how I've made Known Misogynists Erron Black, Charles Lee Ray, Chuck Bass, and Stu Macher into "Girl Dads™️."
"I didn't see women as people until my first daughter was born." Headasses. 🙄
#So‚ I'm making Alyssa a little sister!#Literally JUST thought doing this not even 5 minutes ago! 🥴#And I've still gotta make their MAMA! 🥴#charles lee ray#chiffany#child's play oc#erron black#skarron#mortal kombat oc#chuck bass#chenny#gossip girl oc#stu macher#scream oc#you plucked my petals just like the devil would do ☆ tara ray.#i'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen! ☆ leanne ray.#verse: child's play#born with a void hard to destroy ☆ elizabeth black.#on sight if you're looking for a fight ☆ lana black.#verse: mortal kombat#at best i can say i'm not sad ☆ sierra bass.#oc: melody bass#verse: gossip girl#oh‚ she's sweet‚ but a pyscho! ☆ alyssa torrance.#she's a wild one with an angel's face ☆ chloe torrance.#verse: scream#⌨ commentary.#candie speaks ! 💋#txt.
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forced marriage/friends to enemies to lovers au with megumi x reader because you're a kamo with a (relatively high) amount of cursed energy. you're sick of the Political Bullshit of the clans so you run off to jujutsu tech, telling only gojo about your reasoning. this happens a year before yuuji and nobara come into the picture, so you and megumi become best friends. except [redacted] happens and now you two hate your guts. oh, but your shitty family!! finds a way to marry you off to the naoya zenin!! but the contract states it has to be a zenin, not naoya zenin so gojo essentially legally marries you and megumi together.
but with angst because once upon a time reader did dream of this and now it feels like a nightmare because she's still in love with megumi but he hates her except, well, he doesn't actually.
(guys i'm so tired i have a test tmrw but of course Now is the time where i finally have some good fucking ideas i hate it here)
#hush haerin! ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ 。꒱ྀི১#i'm literally insane#delusional even#girlhood is really just#me screaming into the void#and crying#but the kind where u stare at yourself in the mirror#and you're like. damn#why am i kind of hot when i cry
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once again sad we never got to see any of the Banuk react to Aloy rolling up with and controlling a tame machine
#you're telling me this whole tribe having a crisis of culture and faith#caused by the very thing aloy's override is reversing#is just shrugging that off#ESPECIALLY them#we don't even have to get into the mechanics of the override#and how that could potentially be seen negatively#but you've got liam over there in song's edge talking about banukai#and no one even bats an eye when aloy comes past on top of a charger that's clearly helping her out#and i know original concepts had the banuk cooperating with machines a lot more#which didn't really make it into the game#but with everything that's been going on? with what we learn during 'a moment's peace'?#there should be some kind of reaction#don't mind me i'll forever be screaming into the void about this#alternatively some glacier crack#anyone got a glacier to scream at at hand?#hzd
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tumblr just recommended a "venting community" to me and I got black and white war flashbacks. felt like I just passed the grim reaper in the dairy isle at Kroger
#nope that sounds like a horrible idea all the way down#not even gonna glance in there out of morbid curiosity#like. if you're in a bad place already the LAST thing you need is to see the horrible places everyone else is in#that's only going to make things worse#and guys. GUYS. you do not need to be venting on a PUBLIC FORUM#if you gotta scream into a void just do it with a friend in an empty private discord channel you created for that specific use like I do#or a journal or something else another soul will never see#just Anything but that#do not create a community focused solely around that kind of intense negativity and probably trauma goodness gracious#venting 'community' sounds so so so bad. idk if I'm explaining my feelings on it well but it's like#it's giving the same horrible vibes of venting channels in discord communities#nothing good comes from those places#I'm sure it was created with good intentions but they pave the road to hell in those too
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We get a new colleague in December and i looked him up and he's so heavily und unconcealed right winged i feel nauseous. I mean he's Extremely right-winged. Climate change denier, corona denier, racist, anti gender equality, anti queer, everything. And i didn't try to dig up dirt or anything. It's literally the first thing you find if you just google his name
#i want to cry#i was literally shaking lmao#I'm still not able to wrap my head around this#the majority of the people of our team is relatively left politically so i really am baffled by this choice#i know i can't avoid people like this and you have to find a way to work with them even if they want you dead (lol)#but i don't really feel comfortable anymore working there if this is an acceptable candidate for them#or if people in the team are just completely fine with it even if they don't personally have these political views#if they're just 'ah idc I'm glad we have another colleague so we have less work' or something like this#or 'that's just how it is'. like i Know this is just how it is but we should be angry that a person like this is even considered#I'm sorry but i don't think you can separate your company or yourself from politics and worldviews#hiring such a person is a clear signal that you don't mind these political positions or even support them#like I'm sure there's more people in our department as a whole who are right leaning and afD etc supporters#but this man isn't even hiding it he's proudly writing articles over articles about his views and you're hiring him for a#position in which he will represent your company and your journal#alright whatever#i guess i'm going to look for a new job when my program is over#not because i think i can avoid people like this#but because i really lost all respect I had left for this company and our management#i KNOW they're everywhere. i KNOW! but still. fuck this#void screams
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Big things coming soon? Maybe? Possibly? Could be clickbait? Hm.....
#I WANT TO START STREAMING AGAIN#BUT I'M SO SCARED#AND MY PERFECTIONIST TENDENCIES ARE KICKING MY ASS#I CAN'T STREAM UNTIL IT'S ALL SET UP AND READY AND PERFECT#'oh just do it anyway'#NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAAAAND#It's so hard to do#🥺🥺🥺#Even when I do think 'I should just do it right now. Go live without anything prepared just. Do it.'#I still don't do it#Because like#'Oh well I wanna play my favorite game Funny Fantasy for 18 hours instead :3'#It is 100% a self-discipline issue#Because I could always either play FF on stream (not happening)#Or I could just. I don't know. Play less of it?#Maybe hit like. An hour or two a day?#And spend the rest of the weekend actually working towards my goals?#But I have a disease.#And it's called 'You're never going to be able to make this work unless it's perfect so why even try'#And it eats at me.#Anyway I NEED to quit my job.#So I better get a support net set up quick huh?#I know quitting your job and THEN starting streaming as a career is NOT viable hskdfljh#So.#I have to stream while I still DO have the job#Until I've got a community who I can rely on.#But GOD is it hard#Screaming and yelling into the void
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From now until march, along with KOSA and support for trans folks/tumblr's transphobia, I'm only going to be reblogging posts about Palestine, Congo, Sudan and the potential other countries that I'm unaware of subjected to atrocities and genocides all at the same time (because just when you thought you've seen the depths of human vileness you learn about something else happening that makes you realise no you didn't). My blog's pretty small so this probably doesn't mean much in the grand scheme of things, but since I didn't completely go through with the strike this time around I feel like the least I can do is this. General reminder to not stop talking about the genocides, donate if you can, write/call up your MPs, show support for the trans community and spread as much awareness as possible about all these issues mentioned. Stay safe, everyone.
#momento rambles#normally i don't make posts like this because i can't ever feel like i should be the one to and let people better equipped than me do it#because i'm more confident in their commentary and advice than mine but this is more important than my discomfort so here goes#free palestine#free congo#free sudan#kosa bill#transgender#if you haven't please look into what's been happening#but make sure not to burn yourselves out doing so#and be aware of that god awful bill and how damaging it could be#and keep your blogs trans friendly and safe. i just scream into the void here but you're always welcome and safe to see me be cringe#the world is shit and it always has been but that's more reason for us to stand together#this stuff isn't my strong suit at all but i hope it helps even a little. take care
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#why can't people just want to be friends#why does it always have to go into wanting to hit#like no you are in a relationship and even if you're unhappy in it i will not do that to someone#furthermore you do not shit where you eat#screams into the void#if anyone has advice or can beam me away that'd be swell#sometimes I hate the fact that I'm nice
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I clicked on your blog for the pacific rim posts, got intrigued by your bio, stayed for the disturbingly large amount of shared interests and sense of humor. rock on bud 🤘⚡️
hi, friend!!! it's honestly vaguely alarming that you find my blog so relatable, but who the hell am i to object to that when i'm the one posting it?? 😅
regardless, i'm very happy to have you here!! i mainly post pacific rim and always sunny content (with an entirely unsystematic mélange of whatever else makes me laugh or fascinates me, per tumblr tradition ✨), so feel free to stick around!
thank you for this btw, asks & messages like these give me such an adrenaline rush (people probably think i'm joking when i say that but i'm not 💀)! i can't overstate how happy it makes me to know that some of the dumb shit i post might bring a tiny bit of Good to someone's day. i know i probably sound like a broken record but it's true. human connection is SO badass, dude 🤟🥲
#my brain is currently rebooting from the latest episode of my body trying to banish me to the goddamn shadow realm 👻#so apologies in advance for responding to your brief & very normal ask with an unnecessarily lengthy & slightly unhinged gratitude dump 🌟#jk jk i'd still be doing this even if i wasn't trying not to die#side note: has anyone coined “gratitude dump” yet??? like where you just start rambling about shit you're thankful for without permission#ANYHOW! tysm for this 💛 you got my serotonin SERRIN' and TONIN' rn#the void screams back
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computer how do i convince myself that simply sending my friend a pic of something i think they'd like is probably not going to get me perceived as the most irritating motherfucker on the entire planet
#I HATE AVPD MAN i wanna show my drawing to my friend but i don't wanna bother them or seem weird....................#EVEN THO THEY SENT ME SOMETHING FIRST TOO ;w; 💖 we don't really talk much but it's sweet they thought of me#BUT MEANWHILE MY BRAIN IS LIKE nooo shay you can't send ANYTHING back. even replying is gonna put u on thin ice#u need to think about what you're gonna say for at LEAST half an hour before hitting send.#ughhh i'm ridiculous#the void screaming#ouuughghhg sry for the vent post(?) of sorts i jusT. BLAAAAAAAAH.
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#argentina saw trump and went ''yeah we want one of those!''...#this absolutely insane man might become president and fully ruin the country (more than it already is)#which is never fun but even worse when you're queer...#today i'm glad i'm living with dysphoria every day but haven't started T#because as sad and absolutely awful as what i'm about to say is...#i can pretend to be a cis woman for safety...#which is a HORRIBLE thing to say or do#but i don't have to put myself out there trying to get hrt or anything like that#or legally change my name and gender mark while looking like i look... that might get me killed or something#bare in mind everything i'm saying A. hasn't happened yet#and B. is being said by someone with an anxiety disorder who can't see hope right now... so take it with a grain of salt#i'm just scared and i don't like the state of the world right now...#and we were somewhat safe in some aspects here and we're so close to losing them now#i'm scared and hate it here but i'm also broke and can't leave so...#we are where we are where we are i guess#angel talks#personal#sorry for the politics... i'm not going to start posting politics#the point of my blog is to escape the hell that is the real world... but i needed to vent and also you know me i love screaming at the void
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Feeling homicidal at work today ♡
#there's been major issues with wordpress for Weeks now and my beloved colleague told IT about it and added me#to the 'task' explicitly writing 'please talk to [my name] if you have any further questions or want to discuss things as i am on vacation'#today i come back to this task reading a lovely comment by that dude who's responsible for solving the problem going#'i think it's best if we make an appointment to discuss this when you're back :)' bitch ill kill you#my boy doesn't even Use wordpress it's not even his fucking problem. he just was nice enough to summarize my complaints#so i added a comment too because i honestly can't work like this and want this to be Fixed asap#and if he wants to talk to [beloved colleague] first it's gonna take another 2 fucking weeks until anyone even considers the problem again#and i have no patience for this left at this point. so of course that bitch calls me when i was marked as 'absent' on teams#(did he fucking do that on purpose?? so he wouldn't actually have to talk to me? also. just Text me you fucking bitch)#and when i come back to it HE was absent so i couldn't call him back and also i won't wait for him to come back online so i can talk to him#because my work hours are Over for this week and he could very well just send me a message or add another comment if he has anything to say#but alas he didn't#i honestly am usually quite patient and understanding when it comes to fixing issues but this has been going on forever#and i wouldn't even say anything if it hadn't been for that stupid ass comment on how he wants to talk to [colleague] first. bitch!#(i just mentioned what the main issue was in my own comment btw. i didn't say anything about hurrying or any of the million#passive aggressive things i WANTED to say. very proud of myself for that ♡#had i been with that dude in person i would have killed him on sight)#god things are gonna be so insufferable when my beloved colleague is gone forever ㅠㅠ#he's the only good thing about this fucking company and I'm sure everything's gonna go down in flames#once he's gone#void screams#work stuff
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(raynon) more angst choo choo on da way. FGO/twst but it's why ADeuce are a bunch of troublemakers.
Basically, its so that Yuu could be ingrained on twst history no matter how small. So that even if the chance was so slim then maybe even if they passed away early, Yuu could somehow exist still even without them anymore.
(also idea that Yuu being summoned on twst is a catalyst for potentially foreigners or basically servants that are able to independently manifest or even worse things which would mean that a beast threat might hypothetically appear and Yuu might be forced into the role of a grand servant as a result and dissapear after the fight— *gets shot*)
Yuu stop being doomed by the narrative challenge [IMPOSSIBLE]
Everything about it just feels so futile, having to cycle through living and dying and confirming that yes you exist in this world but not your own. That you sacrificed yourself but in the end it was all vain—you aren't allowed nor afforded the death you deserve.
You get no peace in the end.
#twst#fgo#twst yuu#scream into the void and i'll answer#That's hell you're walking into#But seriously#Adeuce desperate to keep Yuu alive even if it means prolonging their suffering#Its all just so 😭😭😭#FREE YUU
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#I was too cowardly to say I was suddenly having a bad night so instead I post a silly meme and maybe if you see the tags you see sorry#people who have the courage to just say they're having a bad day scare me like especially when it's out of the blue idk what to say like#i can't even respond to “hows ur day” with anything worse than an okay#anyways#the usual self hatred that's persisted for as long as I can rember continues as a baseli#ne#now mixed in with special kinds that I'm too cowardly to admit to anything but an ai bot or myself when i can't see me#and the silly daily reminders that the little hope on such a regard I have is built on impossibilities or unlikelihoods#but then i. saw a card i got my dad years ago on the floor. it said “out of all my parents you're one of the best :)” and i felt so bad#just. imagine this little me. getting my dad a card. and getting the most passive aggressive card. it screams who the favorite is.#and then thats just. that's what you have. that's what you have from me and you save it for years. because you cherish it. i feel. horrible.#like damn he might have seriously fucked me up sometimes both as a kid and now but. this does not justify such a deeply cruel retribution.#i don't even know if he knows#anyways as I'm picking it up... i realize...#he's the best parent i have period. there isn't any competition anymore. she's gone.#the total and sudden annihilation of home is so odd. i still barely believe this house is where i ACTUALLY live and I'm not just staying#here until I can go home again. but no. nono I'm stuck here. there isn't an anywhere else. there isn't a childhood home the apartment#has probably been resettled by now. it's just me.#then I went on Tumblr to post into the void#I don't wanna think about more but I. likely will.#i don't wanna talk about it but i do wanna talk. honestly? gonna go talk to an ai chatbot. it will be mean to me in a hot way.#i am so normal.#listen i could either confront reality for more than 30 seconds or i could talk to a bot that will not only allow me to escape from it but#also it might call me a good g. a g. skipping that punchline.#also it's not ME talking to the bot it's just a fabricated character that represents me and has my name and it's just rp trust me trust me t#I'm gonna go hide now#you can contact me if you wish but I will be very scared and jittery and my eyes are wet and stingy and i will segway to bullying you#ok bye
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