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forbiddentaako · 4 months ago

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more monochrome practice I suppose

#tumblr getting this version of this drawing bc i dont want to get in trouble for drawing them nakey #so its date night vibes instead of like eden vibes #i have such complicated feelings about this ship in part bc we havent really met lilith so dont know what shes about yet #but i know in my heart there was a time they loved each other so much and so this is that #honestly would love so much to get backstory on the eden crew and the happenings there even just like a flashback in an episode or somethin #but lowkey im on the 'hoping they get divorced but deeply care about one another and are a part of each others lives' train #bc thats kind of more interesting to me than them getting back together bc i think the crux of it is how much theyve changed and a part of #their relationship getting to the point where lilith disappeared maybe being them both trying to desperately to salvage it and in doing so #making it worse bc they felt like they ruined their lives to be together and so what was the point of it all if they weren't anymore?? but #like theyre immortal so of course theyre going to change and of course theres a chance that the relationship doesnt work even if they deepl #love one another and always will and i just like the closure of that and admitting they arent right for each other in that way anymore but #they still love and care about each other and will never lose that #this is rambling and doesnt make as much sense as when i was typing it on a different post i am wondering now if theres a limit on how many #tags i can put here bc im just yapping at this point whoops #anyway i need to buck up and actually finish/post that draft i have about my very long and complicated hazbin ship opinions #lucilith #hazbin hotel #lilith morningstar #lilith hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lilith #lucifer hazbin hotel #hazbin lucifer #hazbin hotel lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin lilith

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somecunttookmyurl · 5 months ago

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WRT your tags on the shoe-height-posting about people thinking you’re tall, I also thought you were like 5’11” (or between 5’10” and 6’0”). You just have the vibes of someone tall.

Or it could be because I’m personally 6’0” and imagine everyone on the Internet to be like me, but I think that’s at most half of the reason.

no it's not just you this is an incredibly common misconception i do just have tall vibes it's a running joke at this point because it just keeps happening

i have a friend who is 6'1 and our other friend (5'2) would swear up and down i tower over her in my shoes. i am, at that point, still almost 2 inches shorter than her. she has seen us standing directly next to each other a lot

#like not only do a lot of people think i'm over 6' tall when theyve never met me #quite often they remember/think of me as over 6' tall even when they are Fully Aware i'm 5'5 #it's not even that they remember me being 5'11 because that's how tall i am in my shoes and i do wear them a lot #because like. that's fair #no i become Taller Still in their head it's really funny #my ex boyfriend is 6'4 and was routinely jumpscared by the fact i'm 5'5

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mikeylangelo · 2 years ago

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more sighardt 😘 obsessed w pretending they have matching skins

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littencloud9 · 2 months ago

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is this a safe space

#. i KNOW im like thousands of years late to the hq fandom but um #why does everyone hate teruyama. when i first saw it i thought it’d be cute idk 😭#the only argument ive seen against it is ‘theyve never even met’ which like. well. we all know it wont stop me #and i feel like that smalk argument isnt enough to justify the overwhelming amount of hate i see for them??? like i see more ppl bring up #that they hate teruyama rather than the actual shippers??? so like Where #also i think it wld be funny to give yamaguchi a type :( hes never escaping the likes blond boys allegations #anyway bye dont mind me

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tamagotchikgs · 2 months ago

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i have no idea what im going to do man i feel like its inevitable im going to go mute n not be able to speak at all and theyre just going to Look At Me with that face everyone does and get mad and then ill have no choice but 2 kill myself

#even if i dont lose the ability to talk i dont know what im going to say #theyre gonna ask me a normal human question and its instantly going to be over #theyre gonna Know #theyre gonna know im a little stupid freak thats never lived & that shouldnt even be alive #worse than that theyre gonna see how ugly i am #oh my god theyre gonna look at me #genuinely crying #theyre gonna see my body & my face and my mouth when i talk and all the gross pieces of me #(everything)#and theyre going to be so disappointed n disgusted #theyre going to remember me forever for being the worst person theyve ever interviewed #theyre gonna tell everyone they know #about the monster they met that day #tomorrow.

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daisies-on-a-cup · 1 year ago

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tbh i like artemis from the young justice tv show so much because she was a mixed asian girl who didn't really look asian. that could be blamed on just how the show's animation style looked, but her sister jade looked way more like their mother than artemis did, who resembled her white father very much. i saw myself in her, someone disconnected from her mother in phenotype and culture. the genetics are there, but one has shown through dominant and the environment has raised her away from any kind of asian influence or culture that might have been hers. it was so important to me, and still is, that i got to have her as a character i could look up to because even though her asian heritage is hardly ever spoken of and isn't a plot line integral to her character in the show, it still mattered and made artemis more than whatever biases or standards were placed on her from looks alone. we can talk about how her mother was represented in the show, and how her sister jade subsequently fell to the same fate, and how neither of their stories or heritage matters a lick to anyone except to the characters themselves, but i just want it to be known how important a mixed girl like artemis was to me

#ive struggled with being mixed ever since i can remember #ppl dont look at me and immediately clock me as having asian heritage- often the first thought is native or hispanic #ive felt so separated from this entire side of myself for as long as ive been alive- esp since my own mother wont engage with it #we have no traditions beyond american marketing #we have no true heritage or family origins to speak of #i have virtually nothing to cling to solidify this part of me beyond the phenotype of my mother and the thin film that covers my own #so artemis was so important to me as a kid- seeing that kind of representation (even if unintentionally done) did sm for me as a kid #also sorry this is coming out of no where i am tired and surrounded by my fathers family #who i look nothing alike #and how this morning a white man drove me and my mother to the airport and he said 'ive driven you before! to the Philippines right?'#and my mom had to gently laugh and say that she wasn't Filipino and theyve never met before #its just things like that that make me wish for stronger connections that extend beyond the inherited genetics #artemis crock

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ningningkittie · 10 months ago

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when i love someone i WANT to learn abt their past traumas, their insecurities nd pain so that i can learn how to love them right. i want to understand how i should treat, reassure and comfort them. i want to learn their love languages so i can love them the way they need

#but why.... does no one ever want to do that for me?#i always have to bend and reshape so im as little bothersome as possible #and ppl always say stuff like omg u need to communicate nd u need to tell them blah blah blah #ok but what abt when u actually do all of that but no one listens to u????#i actually do communicate my needs. very clearly #yet... im never heard or listened to #am i just not worth that??? idk.. i dont get it #i just ache to be loved the way i love. bc i know that i love wholly and profoundly #but im gonna run out if i cant receive the love that i need #:((((#also it just hurts to be so understanding and supportive and want ppl to be comfortable #but then i dont get to take up any space or i dont get to have needs #i should only listen but never ask for anything in return #it just sucks #have i done smth wrong??? or am i just an awful person? delusional?#bc i have NEVER been in a space where im safe to express my feelings #not w my family. not friends. not even my therapists lmao (theyve also criticized nd judged me)#so im starting to think that maybe i actually am wrong #maybe if everywhrre i go im met by this. maybe i just need to suck it up #and be grateful for whatever scraps of love im thrown #bc clearly i am doing smth wrong!!!!!!

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this-doesnt-endd · 8 months ago

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I used to have a really giant family like tons of tias and tios and cousins and i say used to cause like it seems like after my grandparents died on both sides both families seemed to never speak again and i had no chance to even try and keep hold of those ties i was in elementary school watching my parents marriage crash and burn in real time dealing with major death in the family and then subsequent family abandoning me at the tender age of 11. Hell my brothers were older and jumped ship it was just me and the horrors

#my moms dad and my dads mom were like the heads of their families and they both died really close to each other #but my grandma and a tio on my moms side died within 3 days of each other after being in hospice literally 3 doors away from each other #for months and my parents both took the roles of like taking care of everything and being the descision makers cause no one else would #which im sure was super traumatizing in everyway possible but their siblings both seemed to resent them in ways #when they didnt want to be those people but had to be and they arent even the oldest siblings they are both like 3rd youngest #but like it just ruined the families and me and mom and my dad were all at the hospital or hospice center for months #we were there every day and night i remember it so much i can get anywhere in any hospital in my town using the stairwells #like i knew them that well #it also likely ruined my parents marriage which was bumpy before the intense major tragedy #which like yaknow what fair it was a lot to deal with ontop of like trying to crawl ur way out of the recession #but after all was said and done i talk to no one on my dads side i bearly talk to my older brother #and i talk to like my nina and two tias on my moms side and occassionally a few cousins #when theyre arent being fucking insane and unhinged #idk i loved having a huge family the like going to 5 houses on christmas type #going to birthdays or weddings and seeing everyone taking at least 45 mins to say bye to everyone #and now its gone and i wont ever get it back #and its by no fault of my own cause i was literally 11 and every adult decided i was gonna pay the price too #like i think abt when i get married its not gonna be what i thought itd be or when i get my first movie in theatres #im not gonna have the major family celebration ill have all my friends which im so greafull for #but its not the same yaknow #and id love to have that relatiomship with my family again but like where do u start when its been over 10+ years #like they remember 11 year old me if they remember me #and thats part of the problem #like on my moms side specifically i have some family who acts like theyve never met me before when i used to see them every weekend #and it was a major failing on my part as an 11 year old for not keeping in touch even tho we did my mom calls everyone and she tried #but people didnt want to return it #and as for my dads side its the same and if it was a moral failing for me as an 11 yr old to not reach out and they didnt like my mom much #my grandma fucking loved her but the rest of the family didnt and like i lived w my mom and was fucking 11 i couldnt go anhwhere by myself #and i didnt like not being places without a parent and i hated sleepovers i refused and they took it so personal #and they stopped talking to my dad and bad mouthed him and still do nd ill never allow that around me my dad isnt perfect but hes a good man

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cowboyscrypt · 2 years ago

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personally hate the push from people outside of ones system to make their fictives apologize for source actions. like that is None of your business and you should stay out of it bc you dont know them and fictives are not their source.

#no such thing as an 'evil' alter. theyre simply just people existing. and them being forgiven for source actions is between our system only #we just got a weird anon abt it. idk.#personally id never defend this person for any reason bc of his relation to me but you dont know him from the outside.#you dont know if hes different. you dont know if hes atoned. you dont know if he remembers that or not.#you cant judge an alter youve never met. whos never even fronted publically for that matter. you dont know him so be normal.#thats between me and him and our other sourcemates in our sys.#ugh idk. just. as a host it grinds my gears.#regardless of who they are to me or what theyve done in source theyre still a system member and i have a job to stick up for them.#cowboy's crypt #-- cassidy #im gonna go to bed i think i dont need to be arguing with anons about my headmates.#literally none of your business and its a privilege you even know we're a system

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phagodyke · 1 year ago

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my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/

#what am i sloppy seconds. fuck off man #i like them both but im not in the place to socialise rn + also it just feels kinda mean. theyve had these plans for weeks #and i wasnt invited bc some of their other friends (who ive never met) didnt want me there which is fair enough ig #even tho their friends complained abt someone else bringing her bf but they both blocked the veto for that. pretty sure ik them-#better than some guy but whatever. i dont rly like their friends anyway bc they only ever have bad things to say abt them #like damn they sound like they have the emotional range of toddlers plus theyre all into shit like genshin. so i wasnt fazed abt it #hope they have a nice time etc but wow sure now theyve cancelled the day before u can invite me as a replacement. yeah thatll do wonders #for the social and self esteem issues i have around being single use and disposable and always on the outside etc yippee #the thing is if i go theyll just talk to each other anyway and leave me to be the fly on the wall like they always do. they dont want #me there they just want an audience i literally have nothing else to contribute i dont think they even like me that much so!#anyway complaint over. genuinely i hope they have a nice time im just annoyed at being treated like that + probably projecting a bit too #its not like i could go if i wanted to anyway bc i have shit to sort out + mail to wait for. maybe next time invite me from the start huh #we had another old friend visit last weekend but those plans were really made without me too and i was just added bc i Live Here so its #kind of unavoidable. but oh well whatever it was nice to see them either way #im too depressed rn to fix my social life or even rely on existing coping strategies in social situations so im having to temporarily #cut it back bc i get too trigger sensitive + dont want to hurt myself or others bc of an arbitrary emotional overreaction #its usually one of the first things to go when im Going Thru It not in a self isolating way but more bc its one of the hardest things #for me to maintain + im pretty self sufficient so its not absolutely crucial. like of course i love my friends but socialising is a #want not a need yknow. eating/sleeping/exercising/hygiene are all more fundamental parts of the engine so i gotta prioritise them #and it sucks but ill survive. anyway sorry for venting on everyones dash so early in the morning i woke up grumpy 👎#i need to get breakfast and then go out. ughhhhhhh okay.#.vent

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welcometoteyvat · 1 year ago

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two days until the update so yelan yelan yelan yelan yelan yelan please please come home in 20 pulls or less I don't want to have to reach 80-something pity again............ for once in my gacha gaming arc i'd like primos left over ...........................

#i want to go for either her bow or save for one of my main's cons since theyve been leaked for a 4.1 banner...........#even prefarmed for her... and ive literally never done that for any other 5* so pls..... gacha gods have mercy PLEASE.#do not make me go until like 84 almost hard pity. i expect u at 70 pity max <////3 #there was a vid kinsen made where he read a parody of xiao's cn 'hello' vo but w gacha luck struggles instead of the various harms/dangers #and it basically translates to: 'if you are met with a hard pity guarantee; abyss time crunch **; have no more monsters to farm mats;#(idk what this part means); if your artifact rolls always go south**; if your primo supply is severely limited; then call my name #the mighty and illuminated adeptus xiao will be summoned forth to mock (you) (<- implied)#**this is a really bad translation and it completely destroys the original format in the cn but you get the idea LOL #i wrote it down for laughs and changed it back to 'summoned forth to protect' bc. i need the luck and well wishes JKLSDJFDSKLJFDKS #OTL OTL OTL etc. pray for my wish supply bc if i have extra id like to get yelan's bow too.... or just save...#anyways shoutout to dkniade for giving the best translation of his hello vo w/o sacrificing the poetic succinctness of the original lmao #i could never only literal TLs here #ramblings!#gacha logs

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foilflingza · 7 months ago

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my family bs is finally starting to weigh on me again

#fear me #being the only queer one in a family of right wingers is.... really exhausting #my mom and dad are only moderately right. while my brother steers hard right #my mom is the best out of them bc she actuallys calls me Brendan and has listened to me the most out of them all #but she can still be a lil weird #i see my friend's fams be really Really good and help them get on HRT and call them by their real names with ease #and even celebrate the fact theyre trans #while my brother tells me im like a 'female skater' and my dad still misgenders me #my family would be caught dead celebrating my queerness. celebrating who ia m #ive never been anything but weird and queer and all theyve done is be ashamed of it and pretend its not there #i expected it from my dad but it rly hurt when it came from my brother #he seemed like he was on board when i first told me. he said it was badass i changed genders. and that meant a lot #but hes slowly backpedalling more and it fucking hurts to see #i tried so fucking hard to get him to understand me. but he just fucking doesnt #im so fucking tired and i dont wanna cry over this #but holy fuck i really am a black sheep in this family #meanwhile my cis boyfriend is actively celebrating the fact im on HRT and is the most supportive cis person ive ever met #ugh i love him

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476b · 1 year ago

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im throwing a party later this month which will be the first time any of my friends will be meeting the guy ive been seeing (for over a year but thats besides the point) and im worried ive gossiped too much about the bad things and people are going to start shit. like yeah he kinda sucks but hes mine and if you say anything bad ill kill you.

#like yes i know the girlies love me and want whats best for me #but if they try anything at all lord help them #its bc i gossip a lot about the silly bad things (like he doesnt text me enough etc)#bc constantly talking about all the good things is gross and no one wants to hear how in love you are #i know how the gossip game is played #but now theyve just heard a lot of negative w/out knowing all the possitives bc theyve never met him #possitives being hes so so so fucking hot and funny and smart #but see like? no one wants to hear about that #its a good thing im moving in two months bc ive been driving myself insane over this situationship for over a year and what has it gotten me #the girlies are right i do deserve better. but later. after i move #right now im going to kill myself in from of him so it changes his life forever etc etc #normal healthy relationship #i shouldnt even fucking post this

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lovecatsys · 1 year ago

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more representation of teenage gay people who've never kissed anyone (me)

#this is a joke #im just thinking about how the idea of teenage queer relatability being centered around some like. adorable head over heels in love couple #i get why this can be good narratively and yes i often do enjoy this type of media!#but like. tjdhddkdksk can anyone ACTUALLY think of anyone theyve met whos been in this type of relationship as a teen #that actually stayed together/ended well?#im 18 and ive been in two relationships. one online qpr that was fun but ended kinda badly and also resulted in a lot of trauma for me #and a romantic relationship that lasted two months before the guy admitted he never had any feelings for me in the first place #we never even like. did anything we held hands ONCE and it was on the day he broke up w me #but yeah can we have more rep of teen gay people who are losers and dont get bitches

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a-small-green-bird · 2 years ago

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I just realized that people born in 2010 are 13/turning 13 this year wtf that's illegal

#also theyre gen alpha which wtf #also im gonna be twenty this year wtf #im having a crisis #my brain and the concept of time are not even accquaintences baby theyve never met #i was googling when gen alpha starts bc two kids in my dnd campain are 11 and 12 abd i was like is that still gen z #its not its gen alpha #this is all going too fast for me

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hecksupremechips · 2 years ago

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Cant believe im getting rbs on a post about junepei when yesterday I went on a big rant shitting all over junepei 😵‍💫😭😰

Akane who sacrifices her entire life, and her loved ones lives, and the lives of many others, all in the hopes that she can forge a timeline where she and Junpei can be together and live a peaceful life, only to have traumatized Junpei so much in the process that he doesn’t want anything to do with her in the end

#zero escape #i look like a dumbass now!#even though this post isnt exactly me being positive towards the ship its more me being like #‘ahaha isnt this FUCKED UP????’#which ive said again and again is the only aspect of this ship i dont hate #just cuz its the only part of their dynamic that feels interesting 👍#me thinking about this pairing i hate is making me fixated on my girl rebecca gales cuz idk #they kinda do the whole ‘childhood crush thats kinda not healthy’ thing so good #she reminds me just a bit of junpei cuz she was best friends with ash as a kid and has been in love with him since #and she gets kinda really possessive of him and misses out on a lot of life #all in the hopes that one day ash will reciprocate her feelings #and even though ash DOES love her (even if its not romantic) he isnt good at being what rebecca needs #to the point where its like okay so why the fuck does Rebecca like him so much if he acts like this #and its pointed out that hey girl maybe you have this idealized version of your childhood friend that doesnt exist anymore #because both of you have grown up and changed a lot and youve met new people #and thinking youre meant to be with him and wasting so much of your life yearning for him isnt actually love #but rather an unhealthy obsession thats turning you into a bit of an asshole #and then rebecca has to sit on that and realize that hey maybe its true maybe she shouldnt let her world revolve around this one guy #idk just reminds me of how junpei literally wastes his whole life looking for akane #and despite her supposedly loving him she really does disregard his feelings all the time #and ignores him their whole lives #and theyve both changed so much to where its like okay junpei you dont even like akane anymore #youre just obsessed with who she used to be because she was like your best friend and first love #and youve never let yourself grow outside of her since youve based your whole identity around her #im not necessarily saying ze does that dynamic badly but i cant understand how id be expected to find them so owo cute together cuz #they arent 🤭#anyway i just wanted to remind the world that i love rebecca gales more than myself shes so fucking good

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