#even if it’s from a goofy ass kpop group

[woundedheartwithin]

I didn’t expect the thing to help me out of my depressive episode to be BTS reels but here we fucking are

[nightswithkookmin]

Not being jealous or mean I'm truly an ot7 army. but i noticed theres a diff in how media treats each member individually. like the amount of media coverage both kmedia and international jimin got from dior and now tiffany&co from the announcement of his new ambassadorship alone is insane 😭 and mind you, theres wasnt that hype with hobi (LV) or yoongi (valentino).I got sad when some armys legit didn't know about yoongis deal.myself knew about taes new ambassadorship after two days when I logged on twitter and it's was until I checked ot7 accs.other platforms were silent about it.so I was asking do you think it's true what some people say about media favoring jimin more?..I'm not a hater but I want to understand how this things work.because some members who I would think would make the noise are not,! jimin is making so much noise and its kinda unfair for my ot7 heart,because this whole solo era just made me think if jimin decides to leave the group his popularity will skyrocket even more cause it's like he has hidden fans not only army fandom and im selfish.

Okay... let me break it down like this

The Hyung line in general don't have as much traction as the Maknae line in BTS. It's not shade that's just the way things work in kpop- save for a few instances.

With Jimin being part of the Maknae line you should understand he is not comparable to anyone in the hyung line. He naturally will garner more attention than anyone in the Hyung line. He is Maknae too.

When it comes to the Maknae line, Jungkook being the youngest gets a lot of traction for the sheer sake of it. He's the Golden Maknae. The youngest in any group tend to get this level of traction and attention naturally- again save for few instances.

Wait. Hold up. Unfair for Jimin to get this attention?

I'm gonna ignore that and carry on with the post 😒

The media does not favor JM more it's just Jimin treats the media with more grace than the others- Suga calls out the media, Tae claps back at them, Namjoon makes snarky remakes about the media to their face. Jungkook just wants punch them in the face.

The media is not their friend. Do you see the crap they report about BTS? Do you see the headlines? They are assholes. Especially kmedia with their creepy asses.

When you say they are favoring Jimin all I can think about is the hosanna before his crucifixion.

Okay the last part made me smile 😃

The part you said JM has hidden fans made me melt won't lie🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

Good good, let's continue this conversation cos I was about to pull your edges off thinking you was an anti in disguise 😆

As I was saying, the hyung line has less social traction compared to the maknae line for a number of reasons beyond their control.

We really shouldn't compare the Hyung line and the maknae line. We really shouldn't. Even before their solos they weren't treated equally by fans. It's why most times we had to work extra hard to push their content and support them because if we left things to chance they would have tanked hard. I call it affirmative action and that's where the strength of OTZ lies. We balance these things out.

And let's not blame Jimin for it. Because truth is had it been Jk or Tae they would have overshadowed the hyung line too. It's rock beats scissors, maknae beats hyung line.

Among the maknaes, I feel Jungkook would have been the most followed out of BTS but his personality tends to be a bit controversial with the tattoos and dating scandals and I don't give a fuck attitude which kinda suits his personna but rubs people off the wrong way. even that he's still the Golden Maknae. Can't take that away from him.

Tae has the oppressed under dog vibe going for him. From day one, he was hidden by the company, he was marginalized as the alien of the group, laughed at by friends, raised on a farm, and his grandma died. Then it turns out not only is he hot and talented, he's goofy, has a heart of gold and has that bit of fire in him you just don't want to mess with him he will cut you

Yet however they both are missing something that comes naturally for Jimin- mystery and obsession.

I don't know how Jimin is doing it but he is doing it.

He has a shit ton of sex appeal, has a voice so unique it piques your curiosity, looks like nothing you've ever seen, mad mad classy, mature, disciplined, accessible, consumable- he has that level of success that looks attainable if only you follow his blue print.

Having the success of the Golden Maknae is unattainable to most people. Not everyone has youth on their side, not everyone has a perfect pitch to stand out of the lot, not everyone has the natural talent Jungkook has which comes without him even trying.

It's the same with Tae. To get the success he has you would have to be him specifically.

With Jimin it's different. His success does not rest on his looks or voice alone. In fact, I'd argue his success doesn't come from any of that at all and I think it's intentional on his part. He doesn't rely on luck- that doesn't mean he doesn't have it, he do. He just don't make that his whole personality.

And that's what Tae was talking about in I-land. There are very tangible aspects to his success. It's what makes him the rookie Bible. He demystifies success and makes it replicable. It's easy to look at him and feel inspired and assured if you work just as hard as Jimin then you should get the same results- except you can't work just as hard cos what he does is humanly impossible💀

Jungkook named him Tripple A effort guy and he's right.

I feel this is why a company like hybe would love him. He doesn't let his looks do the talking for him. He doesn't rely on his looks or say I have a unique voice and that's it. He leaves nothing to chance.

He is very interesting. And that interest often leads people into obsessing over him. Once you Jim in you can't Jim out.

Tae's haters and detractors don't care enough about him to follow him around and keep tabs on him.

Jk's haters couldn't give a fuck about him too.

However Jimin's haters are so obsessed with him they turn around to be his fans which is crazy🤣🤣🤣

They look at him and just don't understand why he's successful the way he is and I feel that's how the obsession with him begins 😆

They want to know where he's at, who he's with, what he's doing. Yet dude is so mysterious they get nothing out of him which only intensify their obsession😩

They will listen to his music all the way through just so they can come on the internet and say it's shitty- 🤣

Jimin is admirable. Brands admire him, regular folks admire him. People want him to succeed for the same reasons they may want someone like TAE to succeed. They are both a rags to riches story. Except they both have fans who engage in very different fan behaviors.

Which is what it all comes down to. Jimin's fans behave differently from any members' fans. Perhaps people should pay attention to that before acting jealous of him.

It's just as how BTS fans behave and engage in very different fan behaviors to other idols' fans. And don't hurt your head, there a countless experts who have tried to research Army to understand what it is about BTS keeps us tethered to them but haven't a clue.

Also let's not confuse followers for fans. Just because one member has a lot of followers does not mean they have the most fans out of BTS💀

People can fake accounts and follow anyone but not everyone of those accounts may be a true fan.

Jimin knows how to work the public. He knows what we want. He can enchant us and play us like a violin if he so chooses. He's behind a lot of the successes of BTS especially with regards to their public image.

He's a master curator, he's the voice telling them don't get drunk and vlive, move this way on the stage, hold it a big longer, post this, don't post that, why? Because he knows how to work the public. I'd say Tae too to be honest.

I don't think JM has fully stepped into his power. You are right to say his fame will skyrocket if he breaks away. He has the skills and experience, knowledge, creativity and discipline to make him forever relevant.

If anyone is going to become a household name I trust it's jimin because he gets it. He gets that talent alone won't get you anywhere, looks alone won't suffice you gotta be the whole package and HE IS THE WHOLE PACKAGE.

JIMIN IS THE WHOLE PACKAGE

[itsseohannbin]

• Like A Volcano | Part Three | •

Han Jisung Mini Series

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Chapter Genre: Angst⚡️. Hurt

-Bestfriends to Lovers Trope-

Summary: being best friends with the kings of kpop always has its ups and downs, and when you're offered a spot on the next European-American book tour to promote the publishing of your new book, there's one kpop king in particular who just doesn't want you to go.

Pairing: Idol!Han Jisung x Female Reader x Bestfriend Skz

** Includes two of my own original female characters, both whom are romantically involved with two of the members. Chan x Jo / Minho x Ash **

Warnings: angst. hurt. swearing. mentions of alcohol. mentions/implications of domestic abuse. mentions/implications of cheating. mentions/implications of domestic manipulation. mentions of injuries sustained from domestic abuse (reader has a fractured wrist). reader has a panic attack. one instance of self-hatred. instances of self-doubt.

I think that's it. If I missed any, lmk!!

Word Count: 7k

**this chapter has been edited & heavily revised from the original**

Enjoy!

It’s been sixteen months since you left home.

Sixteen months since you left your world behind to embark on what was promised to be the adventure of a lifetime. An adventure filled with smiling faces, adoring fans, hot interviews, exclusive meetings and so, so much more.

It’s been sixty-nine weeks since you’ve had a proper night's sleep.

Sixty-two since you’ve last felt relaxed.

Fifty-six since you even felt a real smile on your face.

Four-hundred and eighty-five days since you said goodbye to your family, and four-hundred and eighty-four since you said goodbye to Jisung.

Sixteen months since you left and you’ve regretted every fucking second of it.

While you were gone, everyone kept in touch with you, just like they promised they would.

Felix and Hyunjin facetimed with you every couple of nights before bed just to tell you about their days and talk about how much they missed you. Changbin messaged you every couple of days to quiz you on your Korean and ask for girl advice as he did so. Seungmin, Jeongin, and you scheduled regular game nights where you’d all load up on snacks and play video games online together into the wee hours of the morning, despite the major time difference between Korea and America.

As Ash and Minho began wedding planning, they made sure to include you in every part of it as if you were right there beside them. They sought out your expertise on every detail and decision they made in terms of color schemes, decor, dress styles, tie options, and everything else that came along with getting married.

Jo and Chan texted you every single day, nearly every hour, updating you on life back at the family house. They informed you of every single joke Seungmin made over breakfast, every single idea the group had come up with for new tracks, every time Minho found a stray cat on the street and begged Chan to let him bring it home despite Changbin’s allergies as if he wasn’t a grown ass adult who could do whatever he pleased.

Even when their Maniac Tour began, they always found time for you. They sent you endless Tiktok’s and Reels of their performances, videos of the goofy shit they’d get up to while backstage, the links to new interviews and Skz-Talkers as soon as they were released. They even went as far as video chatting you mid-concert to help you feel included, passing the phone around to each member as they danced on stage and sang along with the rest of Stay. 

All but Jisung.

He was the only one you hadn’t heard from. He was the only one who wouldn’t take the phone during the concert video chat, the only one who didn’t send you funny animal videos on the regular, or send selfies asking for your opinion before posting them to social media. He was the only one who hadn’t updated you on his life since you left.

It was as if the two of you were complete strangers.

Everyone else called to check in and make sure you were having fun, and it was getting increasingly harder to pretend that you were.

When your and Jisung’s eyes met back at the airport through the line of people waiting to go through security, you froze. You hadn’t expected him to come, and upon seeing him standing there, looking less than stellar and frowning at you in distress, you had to force your feet to stay put.

It took every ounce of willpower you had not to run into his arms. You had to remind yourself of the things he had said to you the night before and how selfish he had been. You had to remind yourself of Seojun, the man who was waiting for your arrival at the Vancouver Airport, where he had flown a week earlier to prep the tour itinerary with his manager, Sookie.

Your and Jisung's eyes locked for no more than thirty seconds before you forced yourself to spin on your heel and walk away from the temptation he held. He didn’t call you or text you at all to even explain why he had suddenly shown up and what he wanted. He simply let you walk away from him again, and that was the last time you had any form of contact with him. 

As much as you wanted him to, you couldn’t even blame him for not trying one last time to stop you. You broke his heart and left him behind, two things you once promised you’d never do. He had every right to hate your guts, though there was no way he could hate you any more than you already hated yourself for it.

Still, you held out hope for a text, a call, a freakin’ email. Anything to let you know he still wanted you in his life, but you knew it would never come. Your friendship was over, and based on the way the rest of the members would tense up and go quiet whenever Jisung’s name unintentionally left your mouth, you knew he would never forgive you.

Not this time.

“Y/n? Are you even listening?”

You tore your gaze away from the photo on your phone that Felix had sent of him, Jeongin, and Jisung at their LA concert, and looked towards the voice that called your name. It took you a second to register who spoke.

“Hmmm?” you hummed in response, feeling dazed and confused and every bit tipsy that you should’ve been given the triple shot of vodka you had just downed a moment before. “Sorry, I didn’t catch that.”

Seojun, whose hand was possessively wrapped around your waist, dug his nails into the skin above the waistband of your jeans, glaring down at you as he undoubtedly left half-moon indents in his wake.

A warning.

He leaned in close to you with a tight-lipped smile, seeming as though he was going to kiss the side of your head affectionately. Instead, he spoke in a harsh tone that was quiet enough for your ears only.

“He’s never going to forgive you y/n, and at this rate, I won’t either if you don’t put your fucking phone down and socialize,” he growled. He dug his nails in once more for good measure and you bit back a wince of pain as the pads of his fingers grazed over the barely healed scars from days previous.

“Sorry Jun,” you muttered an apology, pocketing your phone before he could grab it from you. He gave you a satisfied smile before turning his attention back to the redhead who called on you.

“You’ll have to excuse my girlfriend Kymmy, she’s still recovering from this morning,” he chided with a wink, pulling you flush against his waist all the while flashing Kymmy a flirty smirk.

Prick.

Kymmy’s smile turned almost ravenous as his innuendo, her eyes darkening with intrigue as she reached across the table and rested her hand on his arm.

“Girlfriend, hey?” she looked away from Seojun long enough to give you a bored once over before her eyes met his again. “How much is she paying you?”

If it wasn’t for Seojun’s fingernails digging into your skin you would’ve reached across the table and strangled her. Seojun, however, just simply laughed at her comment.

“You’re a funny one, Kymmy. It’s no wonder Juho likes you so much.” he elbowed his friend’s ribcage in approval. Kymmy’s eyes flickered to Juho for a brief second and you saw the look of utter disdain on her lips that disappeared so quickly that you wouldn’t have believed it happened if you didn’t witness it yourself.

Kymmy had no interest in Juho, and everyone in here knew it except for the poor bastard himself. The only person she was interested in currently had his hand tightly gripping your hip.

And for all you cared, she could have him.

Hell, she’d probably get him anyway when you were fast asleep and he was looking for someone else to help with his never-ending sexual desire; a desire you never seemed to be able to fulfill.

You should’ve cared more for Kymmy’s obvious advances towards your boyfriend, and his towards her. You should’ve gotten jealous and gripped his arm in annoyance while bitching the redhead out like Seojun so desperately wanted you to, but you didn’t. 

You were used to this game by now, played it out more times than you cared to admit. Seojun’s favorite mind game was to make you jealous in every way he possibly could so you’d be forced to punish him later for it. He got off on the possessive behavior you’d express.

And it was fun at first. Experimental and exciting. It helped speed things along in your new and budding relationship, but when you discovered he was sneaking out after you’d fallen asleep to meet other women behind closed doors despite all the fun you two had, it was a game you were growing tired of, and quickly at that.

It took you three months into the tour to discover Seojun had been cheating on you. But by then, it was too late to back out, too late to make a scene and leave him. Leaving him would’ve caused too many problems, problems you couldn’t afford to let happen, not when your entire support system was halfway across the world from you.

When you confronted Seojun about the cheating late one night after he snuck back inside your shared hotel room, he immediately grew defensive. Shortly after that the abuse and manipulation started.

He continued sneaking around and meeting with women. Some were his own fans, others worked at the venues Sookie had booked for tour events, but a lot of them were just random women he’d meet in bars or on the street. The only difference now was that he didn’t bother hiding it.

He always came back to you, smelling of sweat and sex and varieties of expensive perfumes, and each time you told him you wanted to leave, wanted to break up and return home, and each time he threatened you into staying.

He’d threaten your career, your friendships, even your life. He’d grab you when you’d try to leave with your suitcase in hand, and he’d pull your arm so hard you were afraid it would pop out of its socket. He’d get in your face, yell at you, spit at you, backhand you for trying to leave him.

And then he’d cry.

He’d cry so hard he’d lose his breath and beg you to stay, to not leave him, telling you that you were the only good thing he had in his life. He’d tell you that maybe if you just paid a little more attention to him, he wouldn’t feel the need to seek validation from other women, wouldn’t feel the urge to hit you and hurt you the way he had. He’d beg you so hard and scare you into thinking he was going to hurt himself if you left, so you’d stay. You’d stay, and then he’d do it all over again.

It was a vicious cycle, one you were beginning to get worn out from by the second, but at the end of the day, you knew you couldn’t just leave. Seojun loved you, and this was what love was.

At least that’s what he had convinced you of at first. Now, you were just trying to get through the last few months of the tour so you could go home and be with your family and never have to see his face again.

When you finally came to terms with what you were experiencing, realizing that this wasn’t love, that this relationship was toxic and unhealthy, you had taken your problems and concerns to Sookie, the only female on tour whom you trusted.

Despite the abuse you had suffered, she urged you to stay, explaining how the number of fans that were to attend the coming events for you specifically had nearly tripled in size, and that leaving abruptly would do nothing but disappoint them. You may have trusted her, but that didn’t mean the two of you were friends. You knew she was more concerned about the money it would bring in than your overall physical, mental, and emotional health, but you didn’t have any energy left to call her out on it. She assured you she would take care of it and sent you on your way.

It was only two more months. You could surely survive two more months, right?

You jumped slightly when a shoe came into contact with your shin, hard and painful, pulling you from another whirlwind of dark thoughts. You glanced back up from where your eyes had been fixated on the napkin you were toying with and found Seojun glaring down at you again.

“Y/n, babe, Levi asked you a question. Can you show a little respect and answer him, please.” Seojun's smile was sweet, but you could see the annoyance and anger sparkling in his eyes.

You were going to pay for this later.

“I’m sorry, Levi,” you apologized as you leaned your elbows on the table and peeked around Seojun's large figure to look at him. “This tour is wearing me out minute by minute. What was your question?

The Dutch boy waved off your apology and flashed you a sincere smile.

“I was just curious as to what happened,” he answered, gesturing towards your arm. You glanced down at your wrist, inspecting the white plaster cast that wrapped around your fingers and thumb and stretched up towards your elbow.

You swallowed roughly and barely avoided Seojun’s hard glare as he waited for you to answer.

“Oh, uhm, I fractured it the other night after Seojun and I left the venue.” you lied smoothly. Levi’s eyebrows raised in surprise at your words.

“How the heck did you manage to do that?” he questioned. His English was choppy, but his accent was clean and smooth and filled with concern. You let out an awkward laugh and tried to come up with something, anything that wouldn’t throw suspicion onto the culprit behind your injury.

“Well, you know Amsterdam,” Seojun jumped in for you. He dared to send you a playful wink as he squeezed you closer to his body as if the incident that led to your hand in a cast was nothing more than a light-hearted accident.

Asshole.

“The walkways around the canal are extremely uneven and y/n here is extremely clumsy.” Seojun finished before he casually popped a fry into his mouth.

“He’s right,” Juho then added with a laugh, clapping Seojun on the back. “This is the same girl who managed to sprain her ankle so badly coming down the hotel stairs back in Texas that she had to wear a boot for three weeks while simultaneously nursing two broken fingers and a cracked rib back to health.”

Levi, Kymmy, Seojun, and the rest of the people occupying your table began to laugh at Juho’s story, and you had to force a smile on your face to keep yourself from suddenly crying. The story Seojun had fed Juho the first night he got physical sounded so unbelievable coming from Juho’s mouth that it nearly drove you mad.

Surely they didn’t buy it, right?

Surely, at least one of them would see through the irony and figure out what had actually happened. Nobody trips over nothing and falls down a flight of stairs all by herself, right?

Part of you hoped one of the people who sat around the bar table with you and Seojun would put the pieces together and call Seojun out, but another part of you hoped to God nobody would. You could not handle another confrontation right now, not without pissing off Seojun even more than you already had.

You let the conversation take a turn as everyone began discussing their childhood injuries and the embarrassing stories behind them.

It was supposed to be a celebratory night out for another successful event with just you, your boyfriend, and his best friend, but Juho was adamant about meeting with Kymmy, a girl he’d been talking to online for months now, and wherever Kymmy went, her brother Levi followed.

You were ecstatic to meet Kymmy and her brother at first and let them join in on the celebration, but once she started flirting with Seojun, and once Levi’s other friends conveniently showed up and invited themselves to sit down, you felt a ball of anxiety pool in the bottom of your stomach.

Nothing good ever came out of Seojun drinking alongside a pretty woman and a bunch of males. A fight was bound to break out between someone at some point, and you didn’t want to stick around any longer to find out who it would be between.

You were tired, your wrist hurt, and your social battery was running on empty.

You just wanted to go home.

Not back to the hotel room, but home home.

With a sigh you leaned back against the high bar chair you were sitting on and finished off the glass of tequila you were holding. Seojun turned his head to look at you briefly and you sent him a small, timid smile before turning your head downwards, and that’s when you saw it.

Underneath the table, out of sight from everyone else, Kymmy’s foot was running slowly and seductively up Seojun’s leg and into his crotch and then back down again, over and over while she let loose a high-pitched giggle at whatever it was Juho was saying. The giggle was as fake as Seojun’s love for you was, and you repressed the urge to roll your eyes.

Instead, you quickly averted your gaze, feeling embarrassed that you’d witnessed something so intimate, your brain not fully grasping the fact that this intimacy was shared between your boyfriend and another girl.

That’s when everything began to fall apart.

A second later, Seojun’s phone vibrated on the table between the two of you, bringing your attention to it involuntarily.

You didn’t mean to look. You didn’t mean to see whoever it was that had texted him. You just so happened to be glancing in the direction of where he’d end up holding his phone up, swiping his thumb across the screen to read the message that was sent to him.

You felt your stomach drop to when you read Sookie’s name at the top of the messaging app followed by a red heart and a pair of lips. When your eyes dropped down and found a picture of her naked chest staring back at you, staring back at Seojun, you thought you were going to throw up.

Seojun bit his lip and let out a breath, a small smile of appreciation forming on his lips as he openly stared at the picture. He didn’t even bother trying to hide it from you. Instead, he took his time typing back a long, detailed reply of what he was going to do to her later tonight before he locked his phone once more and set it back on the table, face down.

When he turned his head to glance back at you to see if you had been watching, you were quick to avert your eyes to one of the TVs that hung from the ceiling, watching the soccer game that was on. You bit your lip in an attempt to look focused on the game, but really you were just trying not to openly cry.

Here Seojun sat, one girl practically jerking him off with her foot, another openly sexting him and sending him nudes, all while his arm was secured tightly, possessively around his girlfriend's waist. Kymmy, you suspected, but you didn’t think Sookie would be indulging him too.

You trusted her. More than anybody else on this damn tour, and all this time, she was no better than Seojun.

A ball of emotions suddenly slammed into your chest so hard you physically winced.

Anger.

Disbelief.

Sadness.

Shock.

However, panic overpowered everything else.

In a moment, the air around you grew thick, heavy with unspoken tension as you became way too hyper-aware of everything around you. Each breath you took was like a battle against the invisible weight that was suddenly pressing down on your chest. Your heart felt as if it were frantically drumming through every vein, every nerve ending in your body.

The clinking of glasses repeatedly being set down onto wooden tabletops. The sound of silverware scraping against dated dishes. The whispers of conversations that filled the old tavern around you. The quiet voice of the on-screen announcer as the soccer game continued on in the background.

It was all too much.

The bell that hung by the entrance, chiming noisily each time a patron entered and left, ringing in your ears so loudly it felt like you had suddenly got tinnitus. The loud cheering that erupted as someone on-screen had scored a point. The fucking liquid being poured from old spouts and filling thick glasses at the bar across the room. You heard all of it all at once, and the feeling of anxiety clawed at your insides.

Your vision began to blur, the edges becoming hazy as if the world was slipping out of focus, out of your grasp. The dark, warm earthy tones of the old bar that had you feeling safe and secure a moment before now began to slip away, leaving everything in a monochrome haze. Time felt warped, seconds stretching into eternities while minutes turned to fleeting seconds.

The room spun, a dizzying whirlwind of sensations as nausea churned in the pit of your stomach, a sickening knot that tightened with each passing moment. A rush of heat then flooded your body, beads of sweat visibly breaking out across your skin like tiny droplets of panic. Every nerve felt electrified, tingling with the sense of absolute dread that surged through your body like wildfire. 

You didn’t even notice the change in your breathing until Seojun’s nails once again dug into your skin, this time drawing blood.

“Will you cut it out? You’re making a scene.” he snapped, not bothering to lower his voice anymore. You could barely hear him over the sound of your own heartbeat now filling your ears, silently screaming at you to LEAVE. 

You tried to take a deep, calming breath, tried to hold it in to stop the panic from seeping deeper into your bones, but it was no use. You only hiccuped as a single tear fell from your eye.

You suddenly felt everyone's gaze on you, and you bent your head down to wipe at another tear that had managed to escape to try and hide what you were feeling.

Then, a round of applause broke out across the bar as the TVs all showed replays of the game-winning goal that was scored, and that was your final breaking point.

Without so much of a word, you pulled Seojun’s dirty fingers off of you and slipped from the table. Juho was the only one to call after you as the room continued to grow fuzzy, your fingers beginning to tingle as your breathing started coming out in short gasps. The bartender gave you a concerned look and reached out to grab your arm, but you managed to slink away from her touch and pushed yourself outside into the cool evening air.

As soon as your feet took you past the fence that lined the property of the bar, you fell to your knees, your hands gripping the cobblestone so hard your wrist throbbed and your knuckles turned white. You could feel your heart threatening to explode from your chest as memories of your relationship with Seojun flew through your mind like a short film.

Every time he hit you.

Every time he yelled at you.

Every time he touched you.

Every time he scolded you for bothering him, the names he would call you over the smallest inconveniences, the way he’d manipulate you into staying with him even after all the shit he did.

It was too much.

You could barely get enough oxygen in your lungs to take a deep breath and your hands were losing feeling. You hardly heard the door behind you open and close over the sound of your cries that you didn’t realize were leaving your body, the cries that were loud enough to wake the whole neighborhood at this ungodly hour.

Blinded by the waves of tears that rocked you, your hands reached out to grasp for something, anything to help you steady yourself, ground yourself.

No.

Not something, but someone.

The sound of Jisung’s voice lulling your heart back to a normal pace when you’d seek his comfort after a nightmare. The way he would subtly pinch your elbow when the panic came in waves while you were out in public together. The way he would squeeze your hand and help bring you back down when you found yourself floating away, getting lost in your darkened thoughts. The feeling of Jisung's body enclosing around yours in a hug so soft and so safe you felt nothing more than at peace.

You needed that sense of security, now more than ever as you searched blindly for the anchor you’d grown so accustomed to but stupidly left behind.

You’ve never felt so completely and utterly alone.

So alone that you nearly fainted when warm, steady fingers landed tenderly across your back. Your body froze despite the panic that was still coursing through your veins.

There was absolutely no fucking way.

Your head snapped up and whipped around so fast you thought you’d break your neck. The shock you felt when you saw who had come to your rescue almost knocked the anxiety out of your system. 

“Juho?” you barely managed, “Wha-wha-what are you do-doing out here?” you hiccuped in surprise at Seojun’s best friend.

Juho just shushed you and pulled you into a tight hug that was gentle and soothing. His thumbs rubbed circles into your back as he rocked you back and forth slowly, not caring if anyone walked by and saw you two sitting on the ground like this. Feeling his heartbeat against your chest, and the smell of the cinnamon soap he bought not too long ago, your heart began to settle, slowly but surely.

A long moment had passed before Juho finally spoke.

“Are you okay, y/n?” he asked softly, not bothering to pull away from you.

You squeezed your eyes shut, causing tears to fall down your cheeks and onto the fabric of his shirt. Then, you clenched your jaw so hard you were surprised your teeth didn’t break.

“Why did you come after me, Juho?” you asked quietly. Your body wanted to pull away from him but your heart longed for the warmth, strength, and security you’d been deprived of for so long. He reminded you of Changbin in a way. Even though his muscles weren’t nearly as big or comforting as Binnies, you still felt safe in his embrace.

The thought made you tense up again.

You never felt safe with anyone who wasn’t your immediate friend group.

Now you were slightly on edge.

“You were having a panic attack,” Juho stated, clearly confused at your question. It wasn’t every day someone willingly helped you through one of your panic attacks. Someone who was best friends with the reason behind it, to begin with.

“And?” you prompted.

“And I don’t like seeing people suffer,” he shrugged. 

The both of you were quiet for a moment, seemingly both lost in your own thoughts before he spoke up again. His body tensed around you, as if he was preparing himself to get hit for whatever it was he was going to say next.

“You’ve been suffering for a while now, haven’t you?”

Your eyebrows raised at his question and finally pulled away from his warm body, staring at him in utter shock.

“I’m sorry?” you asked, unsure whether you heard him right. Juho sighed and lifted his hand to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear, but you flinched away from him quickly, causing his hand to fall back to his side. His eyes look strained and sad.

“I’m not an idiot y/n. I know what’s been happening.” You could tell he was trying to be reassuring and gentle with you, but he spoke to you as if you were nothing more than a small child who needed his help, and this caused you to become defensive out of habit.

“You don’t know anything, Juho.” you ground out between clenched teeth as you tried to pull out of his grasp completely and stand up. However, his hold was firm and you didn’t get very far.

“I know Seojun, and I know the type of guy he is. I know he plays women left and right and then tosses them aside like trash,” he explained.

An exasperated breath left your mouth, followed by a humorless chuckle.

“And you’re okay with that?” you question, your tone hard despite the tears that were still filling your eyes.

Juho shook his head and also let out a humorless laugh.

“I’m not. At all. But he’d been my best friend since we were seven years old. It’s hard to give up on that kind of friendship, you know?”

You scoffed at his words and pulled away from his embrace, thankful that he released now you without a fight,

“I don’t actually. None of my friends are abusive assholes like he is,” you spoke without thinking. You pulled yourself off of his lap and up onto your feet, dusting off your jeans in an attempt to straighten yourself out and look semi-presentable to anyone who would pass by. You didn’t want anyone to know you had just broken down the way you had, but the mascara tears staining your cheeks would say otherwise.

“So he has been abusing you,” Juho spoke quietly as he followed suit and stood up next to you. His hands came up to grasp your elbows, but you pulled away from him just as quickly.

“You didn’t think I actually fell down a flight of stairs, did you?” you snapped as you stepped away from him and grabbed your bag off the ground where it had fallen in your haste to get away from the bar.

“Well, I was hoping my suspicions were wrong,” Juho answered as he scratched the back of his neck and ran his hand through his blonde hair.

“Well, I’m sorry they weren’t.” you shot back in a clipped tone. You felt bad for taking your anger out on the innocent man before you, but now that the panic had disappeared, you didn’t know what to do with all the adrenaline you had left over.

“Why are you apologizing for him?” Juho then asked, his voice hard. You could feel the glare he was shooting into the side of your head, and that alone caused your already fragile state to break once more.

“I don’t know, Juho! Fuck! Maybe because he’s an asshole? Maybe because you’ve had to put up with him for nearly twenty years? Because he’s a piece of shit friend for going after the girl you like?” you offered.

Juho shook his head and put a hand up to stop you.

“You don’t have to apologize for that either, y/n. It’s not your fault. Kymmy has been nothing more than a test”

You raised an eyebrow at him as you wiped at the tears of makeup that were sticking to your face. “A test?” you asked in disbelief.

Juho shrugged again. “Yeah. A test. One to see if my best friend was a big enough piece of shit to openly go after the girl I like. And he is. Case closed.” He was trying to act nonchalant as if Kymmy was nothing more than just a girl, but you could see the sadness in his eyes. He really liked Kymmy, and she played him so well. 

The anger you felt began to slowly dissolve when you caught that look of regret in his eyes too. His tongue was prodding thoughtfully at his cheek, his eyes far away, as if he was recounting the past six months of flirting he and Kymmy had done through texts and phone calls. 

You couldn’t help but feel a little bit responsible for his heartbreak.

“You don’t have to be a hero, Juho.” your voice came out soft. “I know you liked her a lot.”

Juho waved off your words with another shrug of his shoulders before he stuffed his hands into the pockets of his jeans. 

“It is what it is,” he said as he kicked aimlessly at a loose stone in the ground. “I’m just glad I dodged a bullet with that one.”

Silence fell upon the two of you as you both then got lost in your thoughts once more. Juho looked as if he was debating whether he should go back inside and sit through the torture of seeing Kymmy and Seojun flirt openly with one another, or if he should just leave. Meanwhile, you got momentarily lost in the thought of what would’ve happened if you had just stayed with Jisung the night before you left.

Would you have gotten together? Or would you have talked more thoroughly about the pros and cons of it all and decided to stay friends? Would you have moved into the house, into his room, or would he have moved in with you? Would you have finally gone on tour with all of them, or would you be left behind once again with yourself and your thoughts? 

You liked to believe everything would’ve worked out. That you and Jisung would’ve gotten together and it would’ve been happily ever after for the two of you, but you couldn’t help but think that this entire tour had been a lesson. A mandatory one at that.

The distance had sucked, and the fight with Jisung was even worse, but spending all this time away and having no contact with him whatsoever only heightened your feelings for the man who had been your best friend for so many years. You thought leaving and getting away would help the both of you get over your infatuation with one another, but it only seemed to make the feelings stronger.

Maybe if you had just stayed home, broken up with Seojun, and stayed with the man you were meant to be with, Seojun wouldn’t have felt the need to go the lengths he had. Maybe he wouldn’t have had the urge to go after his best friend's girl in an attempt to make his own girlfriend jealous because he wouldn’t have a girlfriend to make jealous, to begin with.

You shook your head and tried to keep your irrational thoughts at bay.

A lesson learned was a lesson learned, but that didn’t mean you could start blaming yourself for everything that happened. You wouldn’t. It would only destroy you, and you knew that.

After a couple of long, silent moments of you and Juho just standing in the open, you looked at him, eyeing him softly.

“What are you going to do now?” you asked. The eyes that seemed so far away then zoned back into the present, and Juho blinked once before he gave you a knowing smile.

“What are you going to do now?” he shot back.

“Honestly, I just want to go home,” you told him with an exhausted breath. There was a bench a few feet away that you plopped yourself down onto, deciding that you’d rather wait outside until everyone was done with their drinks than go back inside the bar for the rest of the night out.

“Then go,” Juho replied as he bent to sit down next to you, seemingly making the same decision you did.

You let another huff of disbelief leave your mouth as you shook your head, looking out onto the Amsterdam canal in wonder. “I can’t.” 

Puffs of cloud seeped from Juho’s mouth as he exhaled into the cool evening air. He shook his head once and turned to give you a look of confusion.

“Why can’t you?”

You shrugged your shoulders and leaned back against the cool wood of the bench. “There’s no point. There's only two months left of this stupid tour, and Sookie advised me to stay. Apparently, the number of fans coming to the rest of the events for me specifically has nearly tripled in size.” you explained. 

Juho snorted despite the uneasiness that still sifted through the air around the two of you. “Sounds like she’s just after the money.”

It was your turn to snort before you spoke without thinking. “Yeah, that and Seojun’s dick.”

Juho winced at your poor attempt at a joke.

“I’m sorry y/n.”

You waved him off and mimicked his choice of words from earlier, a small smile on your face. “You have nothing to apologize for.” 

“And you have no obligation to stay.” Juho then gave you a pointed look, causing you to sigh.

“I can’t just leave Juho-.”

“Of course you can,” he interrupted with a serious look on his face.

You rolled your eyes at him. 

“And how would you like me to do that?”

A small grin crept onto his features.

“By packing your bags and getting on the next flight home.”

You shook your head again as a small laugh escaped your throat. Despite the physical similarities between Juho and Changbin, he was definitely giving off menacing vibes; he and Seungmin would have been great friends.

“No, I mean how am I supposed to leave? I can’t leave the tour when so many people are relying on me to be here.” You couldn’t quite understand why your brain wasn’t taking the easy way out and agreeing with Juho to just leave, but it was irritating the crap out of you the way your mind was still finding excuses to stay. “Think of the fans.”

Juho’s gaze on you turned hard and his lips thinned. He looked as if he was on the verge of lecturing you.

“Your health is more important than some stupid tour, y/n. Besides, once the boss finds out about Seojun and Sookie’s relationship, the entire tour will go down in flames.”

This caught your attention, your ears now perking up like you imagine a dog would as your eyes shot to Juho.

“Wait, Sookie isn’t the one in charge?” you asked.

Juho chuckled and shook his head.

“God, no. She doesn’t need that kind of power, are you kidding me? She works for the company that published Seojun and I. Once the boss finds out about their secret relationship, it’s over for the both of them.” he paused briefly when your eyebrows raised in shock at the news. “Yeah, it’s honestly probably best for you to leave sooner rather than later so you don’t get caught up in the crosshairs. The last thing you need on your hands is a scandal.”

You nodded in understanding before your mouth then stupidly opened itself and babbled again, not allowing your brain time to stop it.

“Shouldn’t I stay and attest to it if they need me to?”

You wanted to smack yourself for yet again trying to find a reason to stay but thankfully, Juho’s clenched jaw and scowl hit just the same.

“I will take of it. You go home,” he assured you.

You fell quiet for a moment as Juho’s words set in. All this time you were waiting, begging for someone to come along and find you, someone to see through the act Seojun had conjured up and help you escape him and his antics. You never in a million years thought his best friend would be the one to do it.

“Why are you helping me?” you asked suddenly, your voice small and unsure as you stared into Juho’s dark, kind eyes. A smile pulled at the side of his lips and he licked them once before he scratched the back of his neck and answered you.

“Because Felix would kick my ass if I didn’t,” he answered softly.

Your eyes grew wide again at the revelation.

“Wait, you-”

“Nine years of taekwondo together. I left after an injury landed me in the hospital, but he went on for another three. If he found out you were in this situation and I didn’t help to get you out, he’d probably kill me with a roundhouse kick to the skull.”

For the first time in what felt like months, a genuine laugh had bubbled from your throat before you could stop it. Juho joined in, the two of you laughing like everything in the world was okay and you weren’t on the verge of another panic attack at the thought of leaving and letting so many people down.

“I didn’t even know you two knew each other until Felix had texted when we arrived and told me to make sure Seojun takes you to the Royal Palace. I knew then that I needed to help you out of here, I just didn’t know how. Seojun never allowed me to talk to you one-on-one either. Probably afraid I’d snatch you up.” Juho then explained in a thoughtful breath. 

Another laugh left your mouth at the irony, and you couldn’t find it in yourself to stop. If you stopped laughing, you’d probably start crying again, and you didn’t know if you could survive another round of waterworks right now.

“Ironic, but true.” you mused. 

Juho wrapped his arm around your shoulder in a friendly gesture, and you relaxed with ease now that you knew Juho was one of the good ones. Felix wouldn’t have texted him if he wasn’t. You were just glad, thankful to finally have someone on your side.

“Stop worrying about what would make everyone else happy, y/n. At the end of the day, your happiness is what should matter most. And you won’t feel that happiness again until you get home. So go.” he urged on. “It’s time to go.”

You nodded your head slowly, almost habitually, as if leaving was now suddenly the easiest answer in the world. Because it was.

Juho was right.

It was time to go home.

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omg I'm so glad I finally got this stupid chapter written and posted. I absolutely HATED this chapter the first time I posted it back on my old blog, so I'm so happy I was able to go back again and change it for you all.. I am so much happier this time around with the outcome.

Thank you all for being ever so patient with me these last few weeks. I've fallen into a bit of a depressive pit with some personal shit going on, but I'm slowly on the mend. I want to get the rest of this mini-series done and posted so I can finally get back to working on The Blackened Heart,

Thank you again for reading and enjoying! Feedback is always apprciated!

I'll see you soon for Part Four! <3

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[joonberriess]

let me tell you.... yk what I can't stand? A fake ass army. So i used to be friends with this girl and we became friends due to BTS so we became really close. A few years later she called herself growing out of them which is fine but she still claimed she loved them. But she would turn around and talk so much shit about them to me who actually was and still is STANNING them like she legit became an anti (toxic asf). it didn't sit right with me so I would distance myself from her or talk about other things and not BTS. So she started stanning other groups on purpose or she would like force herself to like kpop like, girl if you don't like it don't listen to it tf now you pmo. so the other day her GOOFY ass sister had the audacity to post on her story one those instagram sticker things where you can add your story and she had added "whats your favorite bangtan song" when i tell i was so heated. Your sister literally showed her self last year when I posted BTS on my story and she watched it went to her story started sneak dissing about me and BTS and when i called her out she got mad and blocked me and now here you go posting BTS. Ex friend family didn't even like kpop so I'm like why are you her sister who didn't like kpop in general posting BTS (ngl her dad was lowkey xenophobic) and had the nerve to call them Bangtan Boys no to you it's BTS witcho fake self. and the song was Spring Day I was like hell no take my fave song off your story. that song means so much to me and we have fake armys who talk bad about BTS posting it. It's ok to be a casual fan but I just know the bs your sister (my ex friend) has said about them and the stuff ex friend family said so no you don't deserve being an army applications are CLOSED.

that’s weird… suspicious. 🤨 lmao nah but u need to get ur lick back on the other one causeeee my anger issues would never let her slide, shit her sis can catch it too lmaooo

[topconfessions]

I’m not even a bp fan but i’m on kpop twt and it just always bugs me seeing tweets/ppl in general painting this image that J is a social climber and being all misogynistic just bc she dates men that are literally on the same level as her. I completely agree with everything you just said except for the fact that GD was a win for her, yes maybe he introduced her to important figures fashion wise (chanel to be specific) but that was literally it. She was held back during their whole dating time frame, the only time she was publicly seen was with blackpink and even then, L was the one who was pushed the most. Bey started dating Jay Z when she was literally nothing so you cannot compare her situation to the bp girls, yes L doesnt have that big of an impact in fashion either but she still could pull another respective brand on her own without that man (that doesn’t mean shes not using him to get even higher lmao) the same way jisoo pulled cartier (bc of BP’s name). J was just as big & maybe even bigger than GD when they started dating and with his group image being ruined & him being 8 years older than her it affected her career negatively and there’s no way she needed him at that point, i truly believed she only dated him just to live the fantasy of dating your idol.

Bey was already from a popular girl group. She was not nothing. If this was Ashanti I'd agree with you as she was highly pushed by the labels to be aaliyahs replacement but held in there thanks to her own sound.

You must be new cause I've clearly handed bigbangs ass to them and if anything I am now a former fan of theirs and GD was never my bias or idol, in or out of the group. So unless you're speaking in a broad spectrum on the last sentence of "dating your idol" i.e upsetting fangitls everywhere, you're inaccurate and sorely mistaken if this affects me or I personally care about Jiyong like that. He's a fucking twig compared to me in real life, that's someone I could never date even if I was interested and had access to him cause we're so physically and emotionally different.

That is opinion based. You're allowed to feel that way and "truly believe" that but that's asinine and goofy, you know it is. You think this successful girl now woman only dated GD to upset a nation of kids and others for an ego boost? In the real world they vibes, had some things in common and grew close naturally like all couples do, Maybe attraction too. The only person in Korea we know of that literally fucked or dated someone to piss fans off living the "fantasy" is seo hee who messed with top, she said it out of her own mouth.

So we can say what we think but let's not put what we think as facts.

This isn't a comparison it's an analogy and reference point, I stand on what I said and I can compare the two if I want to. If anything bey needed Jay more than Jennie ever needed GD. Also speaking on Jennies "level" is literally subjective cause she scored and was always secured in ways her other female peers older and the same age as her wasn't in other agencies cause she was / under YG. I'd say HyunA in my opinion is objectively more on GDs "level" than Jennie could ever be. Having access and sharing the same space as well as work place as someone with means doesn't make that person on your level. Never forget that truly where truly created, Blackpink, to give why a pretty feminine easily marketable and more youthful girlgroup that he lacked the entire time that could go up against the likes other SM and others. He wanted something completely different from 2NE1 and so anyone in her position would been where she is now had she not made the cut for the line up.

Where would Beyonce ever be today if she didn't have Jay showing her the ropes and turning onto the game of the industry? There is a lot of dirt and stories the average doesn't know or concern themselves about bey and them.

Anyways, the point still remains. There is nothing wrong hypergamy, social climbing ir just dating men at the same ranks as you or in the same circles. That's life. It's to he expected but it's becoming highly apparent that any responses about this is primarily based on favoritism or being interested in Jennie as a fan and liking her. I need to hear this same sentiment you're responding with as if you don't know who Jennie is and only gave passively watched her career - I need something objective.

this is also why kpop is considered a shit hole these days outside of us, the fans who love it and understand it, cause you can't say anything objective or negative about groups like bts or BP without arguments or heavy debates. We had fun here talking about Jennies path in dating and now its turned into a "she's not a gold digger social climber" resistance. It makes me no difference how she lives because I am not Jennie and don't aspire to have a career in entertainment.

As for GD? he is a win just like Jennie was a win for him in many aspects. How you take that is on you. Also this is Tumblr. Kpop twitter is its own separate entity. We're here. Not there. I don't care about what's going on there unless legit dirt is leaked there. So let's not bring kpop twt into this to transfer it into this convo as if me or anyone else here frequents that shit hole in the first place.

At the end of the day it's not serious for any of us and if you're defending Jennie for how many perceive her, you need to take a hard look at why this is in the first place. 7 Years from now she won't matter as much and she's be looked at the way 2ne1 and hopefully wnwd is looked at currently.

Kpop is microwavable and I can name 15 groups that were IT back in the day nobody talks about or cares about anymore cause they aged out and their fans are old & mature now. You won't gain anything from this just like I won't.

[emeraldbabygirl]

Ok I have not seen any snow man content in a long time but THEY RELEASED THE UNIT MVS AND AHHHHHH I’M WATCHING THEM ALL AND SKSSKKSSJSN I’VE MISSED THEM SO MUCH THEY REALLY MY COMFORT GROUP I LOVE THEM AND AHHHH. Imagine being pretty and talented I’m so jealous of them all like ugh anyway color me live they so pretty and Abe-chan really looks like a mermaid with that blue hair omg snow man should def try a mermaid concept they would look so fine with hair of different lengths with pretty ribbons in their hair and wearing pearls and tingz, even if they didn’t cgi them mermaid tails or they used like mermaid costumes they would still look so so pretty omg I love that I need to find some inspiration pics. And for Hypnosis LET’S TALK ABOUT THAT GROWL FROM HIKARU UGH I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM THAT’S WHY HE’S MY MANNNNN HE’S SO FUCKING FINE AND OMGGG I LOVE HIM 🥺 AND KOJIIIII I LOVE KOJI HE’S JUST 😫 AND REN IS SO SO PRETTY HIS ALL BLACK FIT AND HIS BERET SLAYYYYYY AND HIKARU’S RAP AHHHHHH I GIGGLED OMG AND THEY REALLY HAD REN’S WHOLE MASTERPIECE LOOKIN ASS OUT IN THE FOREST??? I’M GIGGLINGGGGG I LOVE THEM ALL THEY SO HANDSOME AND COOL I’m so glad they released the unit mvs esp bass bon I’ve been wanting to see that ever since the lil clip came out and I was so disappointed it was only available on the dvd thing. SPEAKING OF WHICH, I’m stealing this from the internet, NOT EVEN A PREGNANT WOMAN COULD DELIVER THE WAY THEY DID. The mv is so stunning, I love them in the flowers and wrapped around the plants and I love the transition from black to pink gloves, Raul rocked that corset they just look so cool and the choreo looks so hard and they literally slayed. I’m so happy they released the mv. They work so well as a duo I would love to see more from them.

The mv with Fuka, Shota and Raul is so cute it reminds me of just right. I wish I had like 3 lil guys that act as my 3 brain cells hanging out lol kidding that would be fucking weird but the thought is kinda cute. Love the concept of breaking bad for vroom vroom vroom, just them dicking around in lab coats and colorful gloves it’s so funny to me Fuka always delivers like in every mv you just know that he’s gonna do something crazy and ace it while he does it and I love that about him. And finally Abe-chan and Koji’s mv, that’s prolly my fav as far as songs, I love the retro vibe it has and I think they work really well together. I would love to see Fuka and them in something they seem to be the goofy guys and I think they mix well together.

Lol not me reviewing everything. I hope the company or them get to do more duo and trio songs and maybe even solo projects I just wanna see more experiments from them more units and stuff I think they would do really cool stuff in small units and things and I know snow man is not a kpop group so it might be like a one time thing but I just love the way they work so well both together and broken up like what can they not do? They’re so talented, def my fav jpop group I’m so glad I found them

[miekasa]

list of phrases and things i would teach/show the aot characters in a modern au

eren

PERIOD

“so true bestie.”

“i was born so i ruined lunch. purposely. and i had fun doing it.”

“BEYONCÉ?? BEYONCÉ?? BEYONCÉ?? Beyoncé, sweetie, I am so sorry than an ugly ass bitch would even say something like that—are you out of your mind?? BEYONCÉ??”

every song on fever by megan thee stallion but most importantly running up freestyle and pimpin

mikasa

“what? like it’s hard?”

“my apologies.... miss girl”

every nicki minaj song in existence but she clears a floor when super bass comes on

armin

sea shanties

“maybe if you had a fucking business that you were passionate about, you would know what it takes to run a fucking business but you DON’T”

the goofy goober sequence at the end of the spongebob movie + the super weenie hut junior scene

the wizards of waverly place theme song. and that show in general

jean

“yes chef”

“does it look like i give a fuck?” “no, not one.” “how many fucks do i give?” “ZERO” “exactly, therefore your comment is: IRRELEVANT.”

the cupid shuffle (lowkey a little smooth with it and you catch him doing it while he’s cooking or something)

cody ko and noel’s that’s cringe: girl defined edition

sasha

“BE QUIET TIFFANY!! We were rooting for you—we were ALL rooting for you, HOW DARE YOU!! I have never before yelled at a girl like this!! When my mother yells at me like this, it’s because she loves me!! LEARN something from this!!”

“it’s britney, bitch.”

the lyrics to shutup and drive by rihanna despite her not having her license at all

several kpop girl group dances

connie

“that’s what she said and—i—what was that...? i—james—”

“mr stark, i don’t feel so good”

[freeze frame, record scratch] “i bet you’re probably wondering how i got here”

how to do the dougie and he’s lowkey really good at it and it’s his go to move

the whole “where is gamora... i’ll do you one better WHO is gamora... i’ll do YOU one better WHY is gamora” scene from infinity war

levi

“i’ve had a very long day. and i am very small. and i have no money. so you can imagine the kind of stress that i am under.”

also the entirety of john mulaney’s “there’s a horse loose in the hospital” bit

“that sounds like a whole lot of none of my business if you ask me”

erwin

the entirety of american boy by estelle and kanye west but he sings both parts in complete different pitches

“can i get an owa owa” and he starts saying to hange and levi, and hange always responds and levi looks at him like he’s lost his fucking marbles

that video of beyoncé telling that ex-destiny’s child member that it’s better for her to go home than to not have her luggage

hange

“okay! imma fight these gender norms!!.... DAMN these gender norms got HANDS”

the last 90 seconds of streets by doja cat but they start singing at the most random times of the day and there’s nothing anybody can do to stop them

the whip/nae nae and i would regret it immediately after

[omegawolverine]

gimmie those headcanons -Batz 🖤💜

hiiiii gamers <3 here's ur headcanons (sorry for lateness waaa):

-because of his dad working in fashion he's a wee bit too into fashion himself. he will dress lazy asf on the regular, but it still works, nothing ever clashes. on top of that, he will be the first to tell someone when something their wearing doesnt match, even tho he wont tell them to change bc, at the end of the day, if they wanna look a mess, that's their business. watches a lot of fashion shows, but nobody really knows why. he's gotten the whole bakusquad more or less invested in fashion tho, even if they dont actually understand shit about it.

-has more or less perfect skin thanks to his quirk, kaminari is perpetually mad about this

-kpop girl group stannie. is big on charts and streaming, will reply to text messages with nothing but a fancam if he's in a silly goofy mood

-sweets make him feel physically nauseous a lot of the time but he will never pass down a homemade oatmeal raisin cookie <3

-has trouble swallowing medication so he has to take his pillies with unsweetened (or watered down) apple juice

-demiromantic gay transman, uses he/him exclusively

-go autistic adhder go

-has a very specific routine he has to follow every day and he gets super pissed when the routine is interrupted. will refuse to hangout with people if they dont ask him at least a handful of hours ahead of time.

-has a lot of vocal stims, including (but not limited to): fuck, die, just straight up screaming, owa owa (kaminari's fault), boobas (mina's fault), humming songs, wawawa (can be just a few times or alotta times), shit and basically any colorful variation of a cuss

-more stims babeyyy: hitting things (himself, the floor, etc), shaking his head back and forth, shoulder shrugging, cracking knuckles, small kicks in the air, jumping up and down, chewing on basically anything, teeth clacking (?), clicking anything that's make a click sound, pacing, circling rooms (ig thats also pacing but also Not), etc

-likes cooking bc most people leave him alone and he get's to just relax while moving around, doing his own lil thing

-hoh because explosions, has hearing aids but he's 99% sure most people havent noticed

-professional procrastinator but he gets good grades and meets all his deadlines so nobody knows (plus he has a system to do things as soon as he gets them now which is way more effective)

-sucker for a good romance but wont admit it (all his friends know)

-also a sucker for a good drama, will get way too invested and sit in the common room shouting at pretty little liars on the regular

-likes collecting little things from days out, has little containers for stuff like rocks, things he buys on those days, etc. and a bulletin board over his desk for pictures (it used to be pretty empty, only a picture of the class and a few scenery pictures he took while hiking, but it started to fill up after kamino ward. lots of pictures of bakusquad, a few of him and ochako training, a couple pictures of his classmates napping in the common room and more pictures of kirishima than he'd like to admit)

-cries a lot, sometimes without noticing, a lot of the time when he's pissed off

-touch starved, but also has sensory issues related to touch and gets easily overwhelmed by it

-love language is being an asshole to his friend and then doing everything he can to help them. love language is cooking for the whole dorm and then complaining about it. love language is spending more time studying with his "so called squad" than actually getting his own work done (but dont worry, he has planned for this exact issue). love language is letting his friends come to him with their problems and listening even though it makes him feel super uncomfortable because he has no clue how to comfort someone. love language is giving mina hugs because her love language is touch and accepting kirishima's praises even though he doesn't know how to respond without being an ass and taking random gifts from sero even though he doesnt like people buying stuff for him and spending hours with kaminari on the weekends no matter how drained he gets from the social interaction. anyways. he loves his homies.

[artificialqueens]

Sober (Symnali) - Pazinae

Summary: College girl Symone and her house love throwing parties. Denali loves a fun time, and finds herself there every weekend. Just to get drunk and party of course. No other reason. (AKA pretty lesbians in denial)

AN: a drabble inspired by denali coming over to the house of avalon a while ago, getting v drunk and dancing w symone (the outfit symone wears in the fic is from that day www.instagram.com/p/CODlQtnp-KM/ denali is wearing the pink dress from one of her older posts). also the time they streamed and were just drunkenly complimenting each other is the absolute Cutest and symnali is underrated. i have a lot of ideas for this so if yall are interested ill write a whole thing of what happened that night <3. my first fic and concrit is very much welcome!! song is sober by lorde :>

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//Night, midnight, lose my mind

Night, midnight, lose my mind

Night, midnight, lose my mind

Night, midnight−//

They called themselves House Of Avalon. They had all pitched in to rent a house near campus over the summer, and a place leased for a year consisting of young 20 year olds can only go as well as you can imagine. Yet getting ready for their parties surrounded by constant noise and the dozens of paintings, framed photos, and tchotchkes lining the wall, was a comfortable kind of chaos. As chaotic as they may be, they undeniably threw the best parties. Not to mention their outfits never missed, especially not Symone.

The madness of creative, raging queers all shoehorned together to form the most disorderly harmony was a type of home Symone wanted to bask in forever, and, quite honestly, the driving reason to stay in the boring hell hole that is college. The obligation of finishing this shit for a flimsy paper and bragging rights was a little more grounded when it’s the only reason her friends are currently living with her. One day this will all be done, and they can find a job with their degrees. Finish college like everyone wants her too, make everyone proud that yes, she did it, and together the House Of Avalon can buy a huge house with 5 guest bedrooms so everyone and their mama can visit. Throw the biggest parties, a pool in their backyard with an outdoor kitchen, a huge patio out front by the house gates, and they could even install a stripper pole in the living room. Until then she’ll be up at 7:30am to ride the train for her morning class. 

The thought of the a certain dimpled blonde helped make the week bearable because at least on the weekends she can fly to somewhere else. With someone else. 

Symone, Gigi and Rosy hung around the sofa together, getting tipsy as they waited for more people to pour in. They chattered mindlessly, the comfort between the three was an indescribable kind, so effortless and familiar. But in between each pause in conversation, when the laughs and talk of annoying professors and ugly hair trends came to a brief end, Symone couldn’t help but scan the room. Peeking out the corner of her eye for a certain pair of hooded eyes hopefully lingering around. A girl with the most distinct, beautifully symmetric face that can charm a room, and a sugary voice so addictive to listen to even without a sweet tooth. She could listen to Denali talk and ramble as much as she wanted about anything in the world, and she’d eagerly nod along. Her hazy tone when she’s slurring and half awake, to the chirps and goofy grins at the height of the night. The adorable glint in her eyes of passion and excitement when she drunkenly goes off about some kpop group Symones never heard of before, but might just happen to start coming across more. Her dancing like a duck that makes Symone squeal, and cheer, and hide her face in her shoulder so no one can see the smile she’s unable to bite back. She dawdles around with her infectious giddiness and smile so comforting it eases the absurdity and rushing high Symone constantly lives with. And it helps that she’s built like some athlete godsend with the prettiest arms and perfect curves and the most stunning thighs and calves and soft warm blonde hair with icy blue tips to frame her angelic face. She’s been drinking and it’s definitely just the alcohol that makes her head waiver and ramble. 

Time rushes by wedged between her sisters, and soon Symone holds an empty cup for the second already. The house has certainly been getting fuller and fuller. Glancing around, she finds the only person she could (and frankly would) look at for all of eternity, staring at her. Denali’s hair is scooped into two high ponytails at either side, and her body’s fit into a little off the shoulder pink mini dress that hugged her body all too well. Symone wanted nothing more than to just hold her, dance the night away until the jumble of noises and bodies fade out. Seeing her just standing there, perfect and still, a toothy grin is plastered on Symone’s face without her consent. She barely even knows Denali but her sheer presence brightens the room, sends butterflies to flutter around like she’s having some cheesy school girl crush. She can’t tell you what Denali’s favorite TV show, movie or season is, or how she likes her coffee. But if the world were to close in on them right now, have the walls disintegrate, ceilings crumble and the heaps of flesh around them melt into the floorboards under them- they’d still be yelling out the wrong lyrics while they twirl against the counter tops. Rush outside and run in the pitch black where nothing exists but each other in their hands- and that’s good enough for her. 

Denali just likes Symone because she wants to have fun, and Symone’s good at that. It’s okay that she won’t ever like Symone when she’s sober; When she’s quiet, and wrapped in a blanket over her hoodie starring at the ceiling. When she’s fidgeting with her nails and playing with her the tips of her hair instead of talking. When she burns mac and cheese and decides to have a bag of ketchup chips for lunch. Whatever it is they have; it’s still good enough for her. 

Damn maybe Symone does think a little too much. She winks at the dumbstruck skater. The night’s just begun, and the only exit signs in the labyrinth in her sinkhole of a mind is alcohol and/or Denali. Symone wants the and version. 

//Oh, God, I’m clean out of air in my lungs

It’s all gone, played it so nonchalant//

When Denali came through the door she not-so-subtly headed straight to the living room. She had barely glanced in their direction- but she saw her. She was laughing, in her little squad of pretty girls. The clique of long legged doe-eyed queens stand in the center of the living room in their mini skirts and low waisted pants- lifelike statues seemingly taking up all the air in the crowded room. She can’t help it if she stares a bit! They have cute outfits and Denali just wants some inspiration. Everyone’s gawked at the trio anyways. She looks at Symone, because of the cute fuzzy blue bucket hat adorned on her head. No other reason.

 But it’s hard to look away when her face- her makeup is so stunning. With a shimmery pink cut crease, and glossy lips, and dabbles of pink brightening her cheeks. Lashes that make her eyes pop, and the highlight on her glistening skin matched with her flimsy silver spaghetti strap crop top that made her shine even more like a radiant disco ball. The backless top is tied together behind, with a thin string leaving the space between her neck to ass as exposed skin. How could a person be so perfect? And addicting to look at? Unzipped jeans hung at the curve of her hip to show her pink thong, which rose to hug her waist. Pink wedge heels lie under her painted toe nails, and fuck was she a living bratz doll. It wasn’t Denali’s fault that she was objectively so head to toe stunning. It wasn’t her fault that she bit the inside of her lip a litte. It wasn’t her fault that her heart skipped when she was bent over in laughter and cupping her manicured hands over her mouth. It wasn’t her fault that she forgot to look away. It wasn’t her fault that when Symone caught her gaze she stood there frozen  (if the options are fight, flight or freeze, which do you think the ice girl is gonna do?). It wasn’t her fault that she forgot how to breathe when the enchantress gave her a wink. She smiles and waves in return. Someone taps Symone’s shoulder for her attention, and she looks busy. 

Denali pushes away, swimming through the sea of humans swarming the halls until she can identify the way to the kitchen. She needs a drink. It’s early and she’s far too sober for this.

//It’s time we danced with the truth

Move along with the truth//

There’s no reason why she’d be into Denali. She could literally get anyone she wanted, with her gleaming smile and cute laugh, and the way she can make you smile and feel important and wanted. The way she stops sipping in her red solo cup to look at you, to nod at every word and stare like you’re beautiful and matter. The way it’s impossible for her to not be the prettiest in the room. Denali takes a shot, the burning taste a welcome pain at the back of her tongue.

Five months ago when Denali took a sharp breath outside the main door, she made Rose come with her because, fuck, she wasn’t going to a party by herself. Not back then, at least. When she was a flustered freshman in October who didn’t know how to have a good time. Back when she first met the party throwers, and a certain captivating spirit with braided honey gold hair in a skimpy black dress took shots with her. Complimented her wispy hair dyed blue at the ends. Told her she looked amazing in slurred giggles. Because she was tipsy. The truth is the only time this will mean anything is when the world starts spinning, the room gets hot, and their minds start to blur. 

//Ooh (Hey)

We’re sleepin’ through all the days

I’m actin’ like I don’t see

Every ribbon you used to tie yourself to me// 

“You good diva?“ 

"Nnnm, gimme uh ��nother few minutes"  Symone’s head is pounding, and the only thing on her mind is the dazy blanketing warmth of sleep. Her mind is a knotted, jumbled up mess and trying to think about anything other than passing out makes her head throb. Natural light from the outside pours through the windows, and through her squinted eyes, the wooden table across the room is glowing from the suns heat. A vague need to eat, drink water, and vomit creep up on her. She turns to lay on her side, wedges the blanket between her arms, pulls it higher up and tucks her hands under her head.

"You sure?”

“You still have your makeup you want to wash it off?”

“We can take it off”

“Girl its 2pm" 

"Let her sleep!" 

Half asleep, all the different voices mesh as one blob of noise. Indistinct chatter fades as Symone slowly luls back to sleep. Until-

"Where should I put the polaroids of Symone and Denali making out?” Peaceful slumber is very quickly forgotten when realization is drawn. 

“What the fuck happened last night?” Is the only thing Symone can muster out before throwing her head deeper into the pillow, all of a sudden quite awake. Focusing on the vague mist of memories from the night before, she replays it through her head starting from when she went up to Denali, taking shots in the kitchen.

[hanniiesuckle17]

i would like to bless your followers and dash, sooo can you give me a crash course in noir 😊😊

OMG YES OFCCCCCC💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

OKAY SO HERE IS THE DEAL

NOIR is a nine-member boy group under Luk Factory

(Not really pleased with how they are promoting my boys but imma get over it one day!)

Our fan name is Lumiere (or Lumi) and we don’t have any official colors or a lightstick yet.

Noir debuted on April 9th of 2018. With the mini-album Twenty’s Noir. Their title debut song was Gansta (SUCHA GOOD VIDEO) 

They also had a predebut song called As a Star and it makes me so soft.

Their next comeback is on the 27th (THIS MONDAY!!!!!!) The album is called Up the Sky and the title track is called Lucifer

IM SO FUCKING EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEA

MEMBERS 

Shin Seunghoon

Shin Seunghoon is our precious leader!!!! 

(He was what got me into Noir. I saw a video about the best leaders in kpop and I was like)

He is 27 years old. His birthday is May 30th, 1993 (He is a Gemini)

Boy is tallllllllllllllllllllll

like he’s 5′10.

but in pictures by himself he for real looks like he is 6′2

istg he is like 65% legs.

ALSO MAN AS A RIPPED CHEST SORRY BACK TO REGULARLY SCHEDULED NOIRING

He is the leader, main rapper, and also sometimes a vocalist (but the rappers in this group pretty much fo everything)

HE SPITS FIRE when he wants to. 

Really good at freestyling 

He makes mixtapes on youtube on Noir’s channel. (I think he has 5 out now)

He is a college-educated man!!!! (He went to Korean National Open University

He took taekwondo when he was younger

The man trained for 8 years

He and Hoyeon compose and format a lot of their songs with a team of producers from LUK

(I often think he and Chan from skz are really similar.)

Seunghoon is legit a father of 8 soft crackhead kids. istg he is so done with them most of the time

We call him our koala because he looks like one <3

Seunghoon is obsessed with accessories and wearing them to the point where stylists literally have to take them off of him. (I have never not seen picture of him not wearing jewelry. )

he is actually in the military right now and i miss him so fricking much TT

All in all hot boy on screen and soft dad in real life

Kim Yeonkuk

this boy I cant

Kim Yeonkuk. Damn.

he was on Produce 101 season 2

he was eliminated on ep.5 :(

He is the lead dancer and a vocalist

Yeonkuk is 25 years old. His birthday is February 8, 1995 (An Aquarius)

is totally the aegyo king but denies it

he seems cold at first but has a big ass bright personality its so freakin adorable

my personal favorite clip of him is and the boys dancing around on vlive to big bang and him saying fantastic baby (its sounds so cute when he says it)

He is also a 5′10 tall boy

he trained for 3 years

THIS BOY IS SO FREAKING SKINNY SOMEONE PLEASE EGIVE HIM A HAMBURGER OR SOMETHING TAKE HIM TO TACO BELL

not kidding

his waist is so fucking small its scary.

Yeonkuk=stringbean

literally a walking meme.

pause in any interview and he is pretty much gonna give you a memeable face

this boy is so loveable and goofy 

also if this boy doesn't post like 8 photos of him doing something on insta im convinced he thinks that it just didn’t happen

he never posts just one photo its always like 6-8

also I was highkey afraid he was gonna go bald last comeback when they legit turned his hair into smurfs pubes

Lee Junyong

Lee Junyong. When i say i love this man with my whole heart

also 25 years old

his birthday is March 1st 1995 (Pisces)

another 5′10 king

Main vocalist.

he is a former member of INX

his brother is Seungyong from N.CUS

he trained for 4 years

THIS MAN IS TOO ATTRACTIVE FOR THIS EARTH

vocals for days. VOCALS.FOR.DAYS.

Did a cover of BTS’s The Truth Untold with Siha and literally gives me chills.

He has little crooked front teeth so when he sings he has this tiny little breath in some of the words so his voice is even more distinct

BUT LIKE JUNYONG HAS THE CUTEST SMILE EVER (I love his teeth in that's a weird thing to say but i think they are so cute)

he is 1/2 of the Highnote Belting Club

talks. all. the. freaking. time.

he goes live alot

boy is obsessed with Yunsung someone save yunsung from him

total crackhead when not doing real interviews

never fails to make me smile

he is said to be the moodmaker of the group

APPARENTLY HE WAS IN ONE EPISODE OF MY FAVORITE DRAMA AND I HAD NO IDEA

he was in episode 6 of The Liar and His Lover

overall he is just so sweet and funny and its so easy to love him

Nam Yunsung

Yunsung is the Lead vocalist and Visual

24 years old His birthday is August 29, 1996

He is a virgooo

MAN IS 6FT EVEN

lead vocalist and LOOKS IT

he is the king of intense eye contact with the camera 

he looks like legit prince charming

2/2 of Highnote Belting Club

weird af

istg he is the biggest crackhead

very extra. (as you can see in gif)

he calls himself a vampire because of his super pale skin

he trained for 4 years

he raps part time

HE ACTUALLY ENJOYS EXCERCISE

he hides snack between his bed and the wall but apparently daewon and junyong steal them

I think he rooms with junyong? not sure

Someone save him from junyong. boy is going to be smothered to death

ngl their relationship is really cute

he was also in Produce 101 S2 but left bc of health issues.

cutest thing ever and then turns into a devil onstage

a literal puppy

he is big fan of ateez and he and another member actually went to the groups first concert in korea

he is just so precious and weird 

Kim Siheon

oml this smol bean

Kim Siheon god damn

He is 23 years old

Birthday is December 23, 1997 (Capricorn like meeeee)

also 5′10 babyy

Vocalist but also a rapper (he rapped suga’s part in their remix of BTS Fake Love)

LIKES TO BIAS WREKC FREAKING EVERYONE

Beware the Siheon

He has a hot older sister, Hanbit, from a group called Hot Place (Their debut song is called TMI and its pretty good.)

HOTNESS RUNS IN HIS FAMILY

he trained for 5 months

he really likes drawing and does caricatures of his members

he is the eyebrow king

idk his eyesbrows are just.... 

stylists do things to his eyebrows anf it just fucks everyone up

high key has the best fashion sense

others boys willshow up to vlive in like hoodies and he is wearing a freakin casual suit

BOY PLAYS TO WIN’

he is like a boss at every kind of game

claims himself to be sweet like “Heonie”

“Hi! I’m siheon! Heonie Heonie Siheonie!”

he is a litter quieter than the other guys 

BUT he is so funny 

he doesn't like spice on his food for some reason

yeah he's crazy

he trained for 5 years

he's just precious and hot and hot and really hot

Ryu Hoyeon

THIS MAN HAS GIVEN ME SO MANY PROBLEMS

Ryu Hoyeon.

So he is my bias wrecker. Boy climbed up my bias list so freaking fast

He is the main dancer, vocalist, and a rapper (he also composes and arranges with Seunghoon)

He is 22 years old

His birthday is February 6, 1998 (Aquarius)

anontherrrrr 5′10 babbyyyy

cheekkkkkbooonnneeeessss

SHARK BOYY

He says he looks like a shark and i agree

HE HAS A NICE FUCKING TORSO

There was a predebut photo of him half shirtless it was awesome

he was also on Produce 101 S2 

eliminated on ep.5 :(

he trained for 2 years

He, yeonkuk, and seunghoon were in the Japanese tour of the musical Altar Boyz with Teen top’s Niel,2PM’s Chansung, and many others

he has a semi viral video of him

when he was a trainee / on produce 101 he was dancing to nct127 cherry bomb and had an unfortunate but quite hilarious accident (just look it up its funny)

sucks ass at games. every game. ever.

he is a low-key crackhead. he is a calm crackhead lol

VERY ATTRACTIVE

he used to have a youtube channel

you can still see his insta (leaderyoo) its so freaking cute and has predebut stuff of all the boys

he made their entire remix of fake love

he choreographed their song Diamond and also their cover of Taki Taki (which was very hot)

becomes a beast when dancing

he has an original chore to WEight in Gold that is very.......(insert eyebrow wiggle here)

has that dorito torso

(tiny waist and broad shoulders)

also thighs god damn

He is also a HUGE Vixx fanboy

Alter ego is DJ Ironman

He is very close with Siha, Siheon, and Yeonkuk

they turned him into a traffic cone for the Doom Doom comeback

he speaks a little bit of English (just a little bit)

all in all I'm completely in love with this man

Yang Siha 

THIS MAN IS SO FINEEEEEEE (he's my bias btw I have never been so in love with a man other than jisung)

Yang Siha is just uugghghhh god damn

22 year old babyyyy

Birthday is March 9, 1998 (Pisces)

Lil baby is 5′7″ oml i love him

MAIN VOCALIST AND DESERVES IT

he likes watching youtube videos and anime

He trained for 1 year and 1/2

looks good in every freaking hair color

his voice does NOT MATHC HIS FACE 

but not like in a Felix level way

He says his most attractive features are his “feminine features” (he says his unpronounced Adams apple and his small noes and doe eyes

HE HAS SMOL EARSSSS and i lovethem

close with Hoyeon and Siheon

but like his voice though

its so freaking pretty

it gives me chills

everything about him is perfect

he has tiny lips lol

he can play guitar

legit i swear his entire closet is black he rarely wears color

legit EVERYONE LOVES HIM

if someone is hugging anyone in a vlive or something

its siha

its always siha

everyone cuddles siha

i wanna cuddle siha. fuck.

for some reason I've just noticed this

the boy likes to wear long sleeves idk why

he also always seems to wear this one necklace Idk why but its so pretty and i really love that he does idk

he says his favorite song by NOIR is Travel (its also my favorite. its on their debut album and omg his part <3)

he is just so pure oml everything he posts on insta just makes me so soft

he is just so freakin cute and makes me switch lanes so fast

Kim Minhyuk

ooooof this cutie

Kim Minhyuk is something else

i just don't know what he is lol

Lead rapper and lead dancer

22 years old

His birthday is March 18th, 1998 (Pisces)

5′11 boy yes sir

ALSO A COLLEGE EDUCATED MAN

He went to Seoul Arts College

he has an older brother

apparently he cooks in the dorms

he trained for 1 year

he likes to play basketball

he really loves taking photos on his camera

he HATES bugs. its kind of funny ngl

he also is deathly afraid of balloons (i will not apologize for laughing at this one)

He and yunsung loooove ateez. they went to their first concert.

HE SERVES LOOOOKKKSSS

I think he is the most versatile member (look wise) because sometimes its hard to recognize him with each comeback because they change his style

he has these really cute big circle glasses he wear and just uwu

he kinda looks like Simon or Theodore from Alvin in the chipmunks in the best way.

he has a thing about jumping

like whenever he gets excited or happy he just starts jumping

he smiles like sunshineeeeee

even though he is the second youngest a lot of the members say that they go to him for advice 

(probably cause he has permanent hold of one of the 3 braincells noir has)

he looooves girl group dances 

especially twice 

TIKTOK KING 

He owns Noir’s tiktok pretty much. also their insta

he's a precious chipmunk

Kim Daewon

Thhis baby oml

Kim Daewon is the cutest thing since that fluffy little dog whose name i cant remember

20 years old 

Birthday is April 18th, 2000 (Aries)

Lead Dancer, vocalist, maknae

PROTEC THIS BABY BOY

In pictures he looks tall af

actually...

5′7″ but looks like 5′4″

the cutest thing everrrrr

HIS CHEEEKS

the biggest fluffiest cutest cheeks

everything about him is smol except for them thighssss

trained for 1 year

he has one older sister

THE BOY NEEDS MORE LINESSSS LUK FACTORY GIVE HIM MORE LINESSSSSS

he goes off in the chorus of their b-side track “Between” though like fuuuuuuucccckkkk (lowkey one of my favorite songs by them)

literally one of the funniest people you will ever see

extra crackhead energy

makes all the boys laugh

he loves chicken and snacks (gotta keep those cheeks in top shape)

literally the softest boy

he's good at everything i swear

he likes to shimmy.

has a cute butt lol

he talks in tiny

literally the cutest maknae ever oml

I hope this helped guys!!!!! I really hope you can stan noir and support them in their comeback this Monday! I hope this helped @distrikt9 if you need videos or anything feel free to ask! I love sharing my boys. They really are so underrated. I did this so fast ngl. I've never typed so fast

[thenamesseven]

Plot: Jackson just came back from a world tour after almost nine months away, as soon as the two of you get in the car he gives you a ride...On his lap.

Warnings: Smut, smut, smut, car sex ahead!

Word count: 3.1k

Hope this was what you had in mind more or less anon! Enjoy this ^^

When the sliding doors opened and your eyes met Jackson’s almost instantly, you felt as if time had stopped for the two of you to just watch each other. His lips tilted up in slow motion in a big goofy smile that stretched his face and when he opened his arms for you to walk into them the fluttering feeling that invaded your chest was similar to falling in love with him all over again. The rest of GOT7 stood behind him, greeting some of their family members that came to welcome them or just signing some albums, shirts or even skin of the fans that somehow managed to know when and where they would land once their international tour was over.

It was the first time Jackson and you had spent so much time apart since the two of you started dating, it had been almost a whole year, around 9 months, the time Jackson had spent travelling around the world with his kpop group performing in all the big stages he had ever dreamed about. You watched all the youtube videos, all the television programs they participated in and even listened to the radio shows they decided to go to, it helped a little when you had to deal with Jackson’s absence at home but it also made it worse sometimes. You could hear his voice, you could see he was having fun and living one of his biggest dreams but you couldn’t touch him, you feel him besides you and you couldn’t tell him how much you love him whenever you wanted. You understood though, when Jackson asked you out around two years ago you knew the consequences dating an idol would have but your feelings for him were so strong that nothing or nobody had managed to break your relationship.

You saw Jackson’s fingers wiggling, motioning for you to come closer to him and that’s all your feet needed to start moving. At first, since you were in a public place with a bunch of people and paparazzis around, you started walking at a normal pace but it soon turned agonizing, you wanted to be in Jackson’s arms, you wanted to hear him, smell him and feel him in that exact moment so when your boyfriend left his luggage behind and started walking towards you, you knew he felt the same way as you did, that he needed the same thing you needed. It was your cue to start running.

You ran into his hard, broad chest so hard that if his strongs arms hadn’t pulled you in against him you would have probably fallen down onto the floor. You heard him chuckle, delighting your ears with such a wonderful sound, while his big hands rubbed your back, soothing you as he moved them up and down on your body. Jackson held you even more tightly when you rested your forehead on his chest, inhaling his scent mixed with his manly cologne as he rocked the both of you side to side.

“I know I told you to wait for me at home but damn, I became the happiest man alive as soon as I saw you sitting there waiting for me” He muttered making the both of you laugh, his cheek against the top of your head as his hand kept rubbing your back. You could hear people taking pictures of the both of you, some of them were fans, some paparazzis and the rest was people from the crew who simply found the two of you too cute to resist the temptation.

You, reluctantly, tilted your head up away from his chest to look into his eyes “You really thought I wouldn’t pick you up? I would never ever let you go back home alone after being away for so much time” You held him tighter, refusing to let him go.

“Fuck I missed you so much (Y/N)” He groaned tilting his head down to bury it against the crook of your neck, holding you even tighter against his body. Girls around you giggled and the guys simply chuckled, they weren’t used to seeing Jackson as needy as he was right now. “Have you ever been trending topic  in Twitter?” You frowned at his words, confused at the sudden change of subject

“No?” You asked hesitating, not knowing what was going through his mind “I mean, just when our relationship became public but that’s all” 

“Let’s make you a trend again” Before you could ask him what he was talking about, Jackson’s hands gripped the back part of your thighs and forced you to jump. Instinctively, you wrapped your legs around his waist and your arms around his neck, a faint blush appeared in your cheeks that made Jackson laugh “Now kiss me, we will make it to the front page in every newspaper and magazine” He said jokingly, making sure to keep his hands on places that wouldn’t be too scandalous considering the position you were in.

You couldn’t help but roll your eyes at his attitude, he loved the attention people gave the two of you, specially the cute and fangirling comments some of his fans left in the couple pictures the two of you sometimes posted. You on the other hand, weren’t a big fan of being put under the spotlight and that’s what made Jackson tease you this way. He loved seeing your cheeks get red every single time he did something too affectionate in public or the way you would always try to  discreetly push him away whenever he was too close for your liking. Going from a secret couple to a public one had been a complicated step for the both of you, some of his fans didn’t seem to accept he was taken and you were still trying to get used to being known all over the world thanks to your boyfriend but with his help and love, everything had been easier than it was supposed to be.

Looking down at him, you cupped both of his cheeks with your hands, seeing his smile turn even bigger when he realized you were going to do it “I hate you” With those words, you leaned down and finally closed the agonizing distance between your lips.

Your first kiss with Jackson had been perfect, unforgettable and you thought nothing in this world would be better than that moment but right there, as you kissed him after almost nine whole months without any physical contact, you thought nothing could be better than the satisfaction your body felt in that moment. It was romantic, it allowed you to focus on him, the people and background noise around the two of you vanishing for a few seconds. It honestly as as if Jackson and you were on some kind of parallel universe in which the only people that existed were you two. Once the kiss broke for a second so you could catch your breath, you could hear the click sound the cameras made everytime they took a picture increasing at a really fast pace, you knew this picture would be everywhere in two hours but you couldn’t care less at this point. Jackson was here and all you wanted to do was make up for the time the both of you lost.

Smiling against your lips, your boyfriend turned around to hide you from the cameras when he 

thought everybody had had enough time to captured the moment between him and you. He kept his lips away from yours, smirking teasingly as his eyes flickered around your face, he had missed you so much.

“Bet you a dinner at your favorite restaurant that our picture will be all over the internet in eight minutes” He said smirking, lips brushing against yours as his hands struggled to not move up to your ass

“Six minutes” You said accepting his challenge, holding onto him as if you were a castaway and he was the only thing keeping you alive

“We better check in later though, I’ve got better plans in mind” He muttered before he leaned forward to bite your lower lip again, slowly placing you back down onto the floor but still keeping you against his chest “After than romantic kiss we have...” Without finishing the sentence, Jackson bit his lower lip hard and groaned lowly so nobody could hear him. Jackson looked down at you noticing you weren’t exactly following what he wanted to explain so he leaned down and placed his lips against your ear. Thank God he used your hair to cover his lips because if somebody had managed to guess what he was about so said they would have all gone mad  “I need you right fucking now” His voice was needy, his hands holding you a little tighter 

“J-Jackson!” You stuttered, surprised by his bold action. The two of you were surrounded by people, he couldn’t be serious about it. “Are you crazy?” 

Jackson smirked, taking your hand and intertwining your fingers “Crazy for you babe, now come on, let’s go”

Jackson didn’t give you time to complain or to say something, he grabbed his luggage and pulled your hand as he walked away from everybody, he didn’t even give you time to greet the rest of the guys as you had wanted. “B-But” He shook his head, telling you there was no way he would change his mind about this.

The fact that he was so eager to get intimate with you, that he needed it so bad turned you on but it also worried you. What if somebody saw you? What if they took pictures or something? Wouldn’t that be too problematic for Jackson? Wouldn’t it be better to just wait to get home?

“Jackson I don’t think-” Before you could finish that sentence, your boyfriend pushed you back against your own car and smashed his lips against yours harshly. Pain was mixed with pleasure as soon as your tongues met, making the two of you groan. For a moment, with his hands dangerously resting on your hips, you forgot all your worries and felt the strong need Jackson seemed to be feeling. You wanted him, you wanted to touch him, to feel him inside of you. “Fuck…”

 Smirking against your lips, Jackson slid one of his hands underneath your shirt touching your bare belly, turning you into putty in his hands “That’s exactly what we’re about to do” He whispered against your lips, moaning huskily when he pushed his hips against yours “I need to be inside of you right now” When you moaned at his words, Jackson pushed himself even closer to you knowing he had already changed your mind about it “Get in your seat, let me put the luggage in” He pecked your cheek before looking into your eyes “I want you on my lap as soon as I get inside”

Your brain was turned off at this point unlike other parts of your body that were incredibly turned on. Jackson had managed to make your panties soaked without touching your most sensitive parts, all you needed was a few kisses, him whispering dirty things to you and the feeling of his body against yours. If he didn’t give you more, you would probably end up crying. 

Without wasting more time, you got inside the car, watching on the rearview mirror how your boyfriend placed the luggage inside before rushing to his side. A rush of anticipation and adrenaline filled you up as soon as the driver’s door opened and Jackson’s body finally landed on his seat. Before the two of you could waste any more time, you kind of stood up and straddled him on his seat, pressing down onto the honk with your butt.

“Shit! Push the seat b-back” You stuttered making Jackson laugh hard, he could feel how nervous you were about this whole situation and he couldn’t help but love it. You were absolutely knew to sex in public places and he was proud you were going to let him show you how good it felt to fuck with the risk of being seen lurking around.

“On it” He replied, moving it back enough for you to accidentally not touch anything else.

Before you could start complaining about something else, Jackson cupped the back of your head and pulled it down until his lips slammed down against yours. The two of you groaned but also sighed satisfied when your mouths started moving in sync, tongues coming out to meet the other and play a game of dominance that your boyfriend always ended up winning. You moaned when Jackson’s hands moved up underneath your shirt, his nails digging into your skin as he traced the curves on your body while he slowly pushed your hips to rock against his.

The erection trapped in his pants were obvious and as soon as your crotch felt it, you knew there was no way in this world you would stop what the two of you had started. “Fuck, take this off, take it off right now” With shaky hands he moved his hands away from your hips to unbutton your jeans. Willing to tease him, you lowered yourself harder against him, stealing a husky moan from Jackson’s lips that almost pushed you over your orgasm. You were about to combust he hadn’t even taken your pants off. “God damnit kitten, you should have wore a skirt” He muttered pushing the piece of clothing down, eyes rolling back in pleasure when the tip of his fingers brushed against your wet panties.

“Jackson I really need you” You muttered breathless, hands in his chest as you couldn’t stop grinding against his hot, hard body. You hadn’t realized how much you’ve missed this until now.

“I won’t last much if you keep moving like that” Jackson groaned, trying to undo the zipper of his jeans, voice shaking with need as his eyes were glued to cleavage “Can’t wait to get home to leave a bunch of hickeys on them” He muttered squeezing your tits, smirking when you tilted your head back in pleasure. Jackson finally managed to get his dick out of his pants without taking them off, grabbing the base of it, he bit his lip as he guided your hips closer to it right when you could feel the tip against your wet entrance, you saw your boyfriend smirk “You do all the work, I’m too tired right now” He muttered teasingly, tilting his seat back so he was laying back a little.

“You’re too tired huh?” You asked teasing him, biting your lower lip harder 

“Might just be saving energy for round two” Jackson chuckled, running his hands down your neck right before he pushed you down hard enough for you to sit down onto his cock.

The both of you moaned incredibly loud at the sensation. Jackson being squeezed by your tight inner walls that only seemed to pull him deeper and you at the sensation of his big member stretching you out. There was no time for foreplay or warming up, the both of you needed a release before getting home and before somebody else realized what was going on in your car.

The windows became fogged and the car probably started bouncing as you did the same thing on Jackson’s lap. You would usually enjoy riding him slowly, taking your time to feel his big erection hitting all the right places but the need in your body kept telling you to fuck his brains out and that’s exactly where you were trying to do. You gripped the seat behind him, using it to move harder and faster without your legs getting weak so fast, Jackson reached forward to turn on the radio in an attempt to cover the sound of his moans, his other hand lazily resting on your hip as he just laid there watching you, allowing you to use his body to your liking.

He has never been so turned on in his whole life.

“Fuck, just like that baby, don’t slow down” He muttered, head tilted back, his back arched against the seat and his eyes rolling back in pleasure.

You nodded quietly, groaning as you started moving even faster and harder if that was physically possible. You’ve never rode Jackson so intensely but the sound of his moans told you he was loving this as much as you and your pussy did.

“(Y/N)” Your name became a mantra that he kept repeating over and over, every time your tight pussy seemed to be pulling him deeper inside of you “Fuck kitten, I’m going to cum so hard” With his eyes closed, he reached down with one of his hands and started rubbing your swollen clit, making you almost scream out in pleasure. “That’s it, come on, I want to feel you clenching around my cock” He whispered rubbing it harder, pressing down onto it.

You couldn’t even hear what Jackson was telling you at this point, your attention was far away from his dirty talking and closer to the things his fingers were doing to your most sensitive spot. “Jackson” You moaned out his name, making him groan as you felt him twitching inside of you. “Fuck Jackson…” You mumbled breathless, eyes closed when you sensed your orgasm getting closer and closer “Yes, yes, yes, Jackson...Jackson...Fuck!” Your body shook in pleasure, your vision turned white as the orgasm washed away all your tension and drown you in pure bliss.

Jackson gripped the flesh of your waist tightly, groaning and whispering profanities since his orgasm had followed yours, filling you up so much that both of your sexual juices started dripping down your inner thighs staining his pants. 

Your body felt too weak at the moment so you simply leaned forward, pressing your body against his, burying your face into his neck as you tried to catch your breathing. Jackson’s hand started caressing your skin again, calming down his pounding heart as he left lovingly and sweet kisses on the top of your head.

“It’s a miracle nobody noticed” He muttered looking through the windows, smiling as he kissed your cheek “See? It was an awesome idea”

“It was...A horrible...Idea” You managed to say between breaths, making the both of you smile 

“Really? Then let’s head home and discuss some more ideas I have in mind” He growled playfully against your ear, nibbling your earlobe. You shivered against him, giggling as you leaned back to look into his eyes.

“How many?” You asked pecking his lips over and over again, not letting him speak.

“Enough to keep us awake all night long” 

[triptychexe]

TRIVIUM - PART 3 - DEBUT MINI ALBUM [2016]

TRIVIUM is the third and final unit to debut from Triptych’s first generation with their debut mini album PART 3. With a significantly more hip-hop and rap-focused sound in comparison to the two previous Triptych units, TRIVIUM brings a new layer of talent and meaning to the super group. Covering hard-to-swallow topics like gender roles and societal double standards, TRIVIUM hits hard and makes waves.

△ TRACK BY TRACK. 

1] BERLIN 

The decision to make BERLIN their debut song was a power move. Not only does the song have a very distinct and recognizable sound that drags listeners in, but it sets the vibe for TRIVIUM’s energy.

All three members had a hand in writing this song.

The line distribution can be found here

2] SAVAGES

In this hiphop-influenced track, TRIVIUM has a back and forth debate between rappers Van and Cal over if human nature is inherently good or evil, giving examples of highs and lows in society.

Doubled with a strong chorus, thought-provoking versus, and irony twisted into more than a half the lines, this song can be seen as an ironic commentary on what people see as ‘right’ and ‘wrong’.

Written by all three members.

3] WHO I AM

Trivium talks about their past and how it had shaped them into who they are today. This song is like the last goodbye to their old selves, ready to let go of the past and move on.

This track also acknowledges that admitting ignorance isn’t something that you should be ashamed of, as you can only change as long as you’re willing. 

Written by all three members

 4] BACK OFF

 Ura, the only woman in this subunit, took it upon herself to write a feminist anthem for their album. It’s basically a response to all the times Ura has had a man be patronizing towards her. Van and Cal act on the track as supporters, but the song is mostly Ura focused. 

The first song on the album where you actually hear Ura rap and get to see her lyricism play out. One of Ura’s lines mentioned snapping kneecaps. Everyone’s afraid of her now. 

Written by Ura

5] BITE

This song is all about wanting someone that’s not good for you, but you keep coming back. 

The non-gender specific pronouns in the song show that this song can be about any type of relationship, regardless of gender or if it is a romantic or platonic relationship. 

Written by Van and Cal

6] MEN/WOMEN

All about gender roles and how they’ve hurt them as they’ve grown up. Since they are the first co-ed unit from Triptych, they took it upon themselves to address double standards/gender roles.

This one caused a bit of a discussion, especially since it directly calls out the double standards in the kpop industry.

Written by all members. 

△ THIS ERA.

So... Trivium easily got the most attention out of Gen 1.

Mostly because they’re a co-ed duo that covers topics that aren’t discussed super openly.

But also because they’re really good rappers. Like, all of them. And their stage presence is really intense. 

Ura doesn’t rap as much as she would have liked to this era, as they needed her on vocals to break up the tracks a little since neither Van or Cal can sing very well.

Trivium were given the title ‘un-idols’ - which is both a term of endearment as well as a critique, depending on who uses it - because of their unwillingness to play up the role of a significant other at fan signs as well as their general aura.

Idols are supposed to be like... ‘perfect’ at all times, and Trivium just doesn’t do that? Like they wear the worst outfits to the airport, fansites have pictures of them waiting in line for street food (and then chowing down on said street food), and the way they talk to fans is so casual? 

This attitude turned off some fans, but it brought in a whole new wave of support, especially from international fans who felt like Trivium were relatable. 

The most popular member this comeback was easily Ura. Not only was she the only girl, so she visually stood out, but she was the one that often went viral for fan-zoning fans who asked her to be romantic with them.

She also received the most criticisms, but she really didn’t care. She wasn’t going to make herself uncomfortable for the sake of others. 

Cal got a good amount of attention too because of his accent and his looks. Cal has a very slight British accent when he says certain Korean words and people just... lost it over that.

Van kinda sunk to the background this era, but he doesn’t really mind. He just wanted the kids to have fun and have their time to shine. :) 

As far as numbers go, Trivium breaks records for Triptych by gaining 10 million music video views in the first 24 hours as well as having BERLIN chart on Melon upon release. 

△ ERA FASHION. 

I promise this is the last era that Triptych wears color-coded outfits. I promise. The company was trying to see how the color-coded concept would work and gen 1 was the guinea pigs. 

When Artychs saw how lacking Trivium’s debut outfits were.... they almost rioted at HBH. They already were accusing HBH of picking favorites and not giving Trivium equal treatment. 

But the truth is... Trivium picked their debut stage outfits. Yes, they’re bland, but Trivium wanted their debut to feel like friends were finally meeting up for the first time, hence the casual clothes.

The button up shirt fits tho.... that made a few bitches go feral. That was an exquisite serve. 

The award show fits were nice too! Ura stunned bitches pulling up with her short blazer dress and fishnets. Van had really cool dress pants with designs on them and Cal wore a color that wasn’t black! It was monumental!

As far as hair goes, Ura had short black hair with wispy bangs. 

Van had black hair and almost always wore a wide headband on his hairline.

Cal’s hair was usually just styled into tousled brown curls and called a day. 

△ FANDOM BEHAVIORS.

I’ve explained triptych stan culture before (basically the fandom is kinda divided? like some fans only support certain subunits, others support all of them, etc.) but I think Trivium was what really made that divide clear. 

Trivum just sounds different than S.O.T and Tromme, there was gonna be people who didn’t vibe with their style. But that’s kinda the point of Triptych, to like.. get different sounds involved in their discography.

And some gross fans didn’t like that Trivium made it clear that they don’t want to be sexualized by fans, so they just decided to ignore them and focus on S.O.T and Tromme, who hasn’t spoken out about being sexualized by strangers online. 

People also started calling Van a ‘smol bean uwu’ (hello 2016) and started like... infantalizing him?? even though he’s a grown ass man??? does he LOOK like dan OR phil to any of you???????? 

Fans also started calling Cal a fuckboy and played him up as this big meme just because he’s goofy. I will never forgive y’all for that.

Pick Mes hated Ura because if anyone’s ‘one of the boys’, it’s Ura and they were jealous. But she literally has to be one of the boys. It’s apart of her job. 

But the artychs that do stan Trivium are probably some of the chillest people ever. They are literally just vibing. Trivium stans are dubbed as the ‘stoners’ of the fandom as a joke.

And OT9 stans overpower solo stans by a LONG SHOT, so don’t worry! Trivium received more love than hate from artychs. There were just a few bad eggs that ruined shit. 

[littletonoemotion]

My Personal Opinions on Idols #1

My friend asked me what I genuinely thought of Felix, so I decided to turn it into a little series, if y’all are even interested in that. Send me a kpop star (or group, whatever floats your banana boat) and I’ll give my honest opinions. If you’re interested, that is. For all I know, nobody cares. XD

Also, warning! Rambling queen is present.This is why people say when I get started on something I’m passionate about, I don’t shut up...

Overall, I think Felix is probably the type of person to just get you, you know? 

I feel like he feels things very deeply and he’s very perceptive, but he doesn’t show it that often due to his bright personality and general goofiness. The reason I say this is because sometimes he says and notices things—just certain things—that are very philosophical, in a way.

I think he’s able to make quick (and creepily accurate) assumptions about a person upon first meetings, and perhaps even first glance. Impressive skill, right there.

I feel like that’s gotta be kinda painful for him, feeling things so completely like that. I’m a logical thinker vs. an emotional one, but I think Felix definitely fits into the “emotional thinker” category, acting more on feelings that logic. 

That’s just the vibe I get from him though, I could be totally wrong. Now, time for the rambling section. 

Obviously, as us Stays know, Felix is an affectionate dude, but because of his good perception, I think he knows when to back off. Like, when you just need space, yeah? I don’t think he’d be happy about leaving someone to their lonesome, especially when he thought they needed comfort, but I think he’d do it for their sake. 

I think Felix is brave enough to fight for what he believes in, but I do think that it probably hurts him a lot. Like, just as an example, if I were to imagine him in a relationship where his parents (or his significant other’s parents) didn’t approve, I think he’d try hard to be with his love and he’d definitely eventually come out on top with everything resolved, but I can also see him crying a lot because he doesn’t want to stress out his family. 

He probably needs comfort in “battles”, so to speak. Just be there for him like he is for you, is what I’m saying. 

I think he’s a content person who’s happy with what he has, but knows how to keep adventure alive and strive for more. Bit of his childlike side popping through, you know? 

I think this boy’s dependable and he’s got your back, 100%. You have a goal you’re reaching for? He’s right behind you, cheering you on with over-the-top dabbing and Fortnite dances. You have a test you wanna ace? He’s helping you study! (even if he’s terrible at it *cough, cough* Math, poor Felix ;_;) You have a job you wanna get? He’s probably waiting for you with congratulatory sandwiches, because he’s confident that there’s no way you wouldn’t get it. 

The only think that could possibly stop him is time constraints. 

I think he’d be the type to make you feel so loved, because he just cares. About everything! About what you like and don’t like, your hobbies, what your first pets’ name was, what your favorite ice cream flavor is, and even what you want your wedding to look like. 

Definitely the guy to remember things from years ago that even you forgot.

He could easily mean the whole thing platonically (which he honestly probably does, because that’s just the type of person he is), but I think it’d probably be very easy to fall for him for that very reason. Just because someone caring is the nicest, warmest, most incredible feeling on the earth. What a dangerous kid... Do you think it’s an Aussie thing?

I feel like, in general, he wouldn’t be shy to ask the hard, deep questions, but he’d also know when he was crossing a line and should just shut up. In those situations, he’d probably apologize immediately in order to avoid an argument. 

I don’t see him liking those at all; probably the type to feel really angry after, but the type of angry that makes you just cry and cry. I feel like he’d be the type to raise his voice without realizing it, and then he’d just groan, roll his eyes and get exasperated if he thought that something said was stupid, which would probably only egg the other person on more. 

In other words, I can see him being the type of person that unintentionally fuels the fire in fights, making them worse. But, in the end, I think he’s always the one to apologize first, too. He just doesn’t want to see the person again with a heavy heart. He wants to air to be clear so he’s able to hug them freely, smile with them genuinely, and give them all his attention without feeling burdened. 

So, those are my genuine opinions on Lee Felix. I think he’s a passionate, kind, and secretly brilliant sweetheart who deserves a lot of love and care, and my soul wants me to be friends with him, so yeah... Little lonely without the thought of him, so I‘m glad I can see him when I close my eyes. ^-^   

Also, my dumb ass just realized that I didn’t have my request box open. *face palm* It has been fixed—please forgive my stupidity. -_-

[jungxk]

slkgjfslkdfb i'm so excited that you're writing the next chapter! but also take care of yourself and take your time! i enjoy your presence on this hell site regardless if you're writing! also curious of what made jungkook your bias if you don't mind me asking?

😭😭why are you so sweet i love u!!💝💝💝💝💝ive written about half of it now so i’m hoping to get it up within the next few days so fingers crossed!!!

and ofc i don’t mind you asking bb i hope You don’t mind that i’m about to go on a jungkook rant😖so i got into bts in my first year of uni in 2016 just as bst came out. i still maintain that that was their best ever comeback. but anyway within the first few seconds jimin was the one that made me😦bc he just looks so! otherworldly handsome in that video they all do but jimin particularly! i think that’s why he’s so special to me out of the boys he’s always gonna be That guy for me uno. also we have the same birthday so can i say Soulmate!!!!!

but anyway my jimin bias lasted for exactly 0.2 seconds bc then jungkook moved to centre in the choreo and oh. my god. my body had a physical reaction fshsghs like chills and everything! his stage presence, visuals, voice, bst rlly brought out the best in him. there was also this particular frame i have screenshotted which is the EXACT moment i knew i wouldn’t be able to get over this guy for the rest of my life rip

like how beautiful is his makeup and styling and stage presence here it’s working perfectly together like a well oiled machine FUCK. this is what i mean about bst being the pinnacle of their career don’t @ me. but ANYWAY this was the move that made me go okay. dunno who this guy is but he owns my ass now so there’s that lol. to this day bst jungkook is still my ultimate weakness, i blush just thinking about him PLS !

but the way jungkook climbed to love of my life status wasn’t rlly from his looks, vocals etc tbh. i wasn’t new to kpop at this point and what rlly struck me about him was how goofy and Himself he was in every show, he’s a silly boy and he acts like one and doesn’t give a shit and i LOVE that, i’m enamoured by that vulnerability and sincerity. i mean if i was a celeb i don’t think i’d be able to show my real self on camera as much as he does tbh, but even if he is putting up a persona which is totally understandable, jungkook’s ability to come across as genuine and Real in a sea of male idols that are constantly trying to be “cool” and “manly” is unmatched imo. he never hesitates to look like an idiot in front of cameras just to make others laugh and i adore that. that boyish quality about him just so endearing, i think because he remains polite and humble throughout it which also another massive seller for me. it’s probably bc he’s the youngest to have been around cameras so he literally grew up in front of the camera if that makes sense? but yeah those things also enhance his already good looks for me so my heart still often flatlines when i see a particular low quality, no makeup, acne scarred, chubby and tanned pic of him😖that’s my favourite jungkook fyi! don’t get me wrong i love made up suited up stage jungkook - but no makeup jungkook? with a few pimples and 10kg heavier with a tummy and tanned ASIAN skin that isn’t made to look 5 shades too white? big nose big teeth eye crinkles smiling jungkook? he is My Love. nothing more i can say.

i think another big factor in him becoming my bias is that in a weird way, me and jungkook have a lot of similarities that i wouldn’t expect to share with a boy like him? we’re both perfectionists, both really introverted and enjoy time to ourselves, both love to sing, to draw, to create in general. we’re both pretty shy and we also have a habit of starting stuff and never finishing it bc we’re passionate about so many things at once. he’s also the baby of the group and i’m the baby of every group too lol. we’re also rlly laid back in some instances like maybe even Too laid back at times (ie spacing out a lot and Not Speaking) but then when it comes to something we care about we give it 110% until it kills us. i rlly empathise with that quality in him and i understand that constant need to better oneself even with a trophy sitting in my hand. don’t get me wrong we’re also polar opposites in other ways like i HATE sports and i’m not patient enough for photography, can’t dance for shit etc etc lol but i think our fundamental ethos lines up nicely. plus, he’s a 97 baby and i’m a 96 baby, and i always think “wow if we went to the same school we’d be in the same year!” bc my school was split up like that lol. he’d be one those boys that i’d probably bully from ages 12-15 but then he got hot in our final year and suddenly i avoid him like the plague☠️

so yeah i guess jungkook being my bias isn’t so much to do with his idol abilities but more who he is as a person. i empathise with him a lot and at the same time get a lot of comfort knowing that someone like him - who i share these traits with - succeeded. i enjoy seeing him do well but ngl i have a competitive streak so watch out babe!

HOWEVER i should mention that although jungkook will always be My Guy and #1 in my lovesick heart, i technically am triple biased for jungkook, yoongi and jimin. if those 3 ever had a kid it’d be me but i guess that will take another ask to explain! thank you for this question tho b it put me in a rlly good mood💖xoxo

[stan-and-the-newbie]

A kpop newbie’s reaction to BLACKPINK

Alexa: bold Alex: italic

today you are reacting to... BlackPink!

o damn, are you sure this band isn’t your favourite?

pFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT-  ok, good one, anyway this is them :3

((she tried sending me a picture but it didn’t work))

awh come oN

~ technical difficulties, please stand by ~

dfgfd shhhHhhHhH i know wot im doin smdh. this is alreaDY GOING BADLY

...should i just google them?

its okay, i got it. this is them

o damn. they're very pretty, but that was to be expected

yep.. so what concept do you think they have? lol as if it isnt obvious

idk man three of them are giving me death glares. uhh black? and pink?

tbh,,,,,they have the girl crush concept, like, theyre all badass and stuff

oh, well that’s..  interesting

i cant believe im letting you edit this post..  anyway, opinion on them? they dont look that similar, thank god

well the red-haired one i like the most so far since she doesn't look like she wants to choke me (and not in the kinky way)

fgjgfghj yes i see

the one wearing the 2b outfit is probably your goth waifu

omf

and the pink(TM) one looks like she's the sugar mommy of the group

m o o d

i'm guessing she's the leader? it could just be the thanos throne

they dont really have a leader..  this is also them

ah, lovely, a picture where they don't look like they want to murder me

yes, finally

a bunch of talented asian cuties, wot is new

to be honesT. i'll start with the first one from the second picture

alrighty

her stage name is rose

the first two from left to right are the prettiest imo

o rlly

i'm gonna get lynched alive for saying that, aren’t i

so, opinion?

she's uhhh 23? and a singer, and she's the goofy one

well youre right about her being a singer..  shes 21, and yes, she is pretty goofy. she is fluent in english because she is australian

n i c e

this is her kickin everyone's ass 

((Then she showed me this video))

i-

skinny legend

and they said infinity war was the most ambitious crossover... asian idols wearing brazilian carnival outfits as some dude sings that song from shrek 2? sign me tf up

LMAOO gee her voice still gives me chills rose step on me

alexa that's lewd, let us move on swiftly

sorry i just like her shes also a good dancer

i'm guessing she's gonna be my favourite

o

english speaking idols get bonus points, and she seems to excel at everything else, so...

yes, she is amazing. oh, she also cried over her fish's death

;-; oof

:( bless her anyway, you have any questions?

nop, she's gucci, let us proceed

right, the next one is jisoo

she's a qt ;; she looks like a dork i want to shake her hand and give her a hug

this is her smiling

i-

see thats the heart smile

is she the radiance? because my retinas are burned

SDFGFDSADFG MOOD

literally no one is gonna get that joke

wat if they do?

then they are people of culture

opinion?

uhh, she is the soft one, and.. she's short because why not, and she's 22 and she sings ;; 

o- i mean, she isnt really tall, but she isnt that short. yes, she is a singer, the oldest, 23 y/o and she is a goofball, a derp. very entertaining tbh

she looks adorable and has a cute name and is a goofy dork god bless

all of them are good at english but her. but she Tries- and is confused.  

o o f

tis a baby

she deserves all the hugs

she isnt the best dancer, but shes a Great singer, and very stable on stage

their hair alexa their hair is so fucking aesthetic

i KnoW

i am in pain, pack your dictionary we're moving to korea

fuck yeaH the next one is lisa

abs of JUSTICE

hot diggidy she's the sass queen, and she's uh..  23, and a rapper

oh, this is also her

she is also 21, and yes, a rapper!! a very swaggy one

jackpot

but shes a whole cutie, and the youngest

awh ;;

and she gets embarrassed easily

i see, so she's the tsundere of the group

she is from thailand, and i think shes fluent in four languages, including english

nice, man

she is also an Amazing dancer

n i c e ,  m a n

shes kinda my wife but theyre all my bias so i cannot decide it is Too Hard

i only have one bias  u-u

ofc u do

remember to only have one waifu alexa, too many waifu will ruin your laifu

a baby

they’re all cuties this is fucking illegal

it  i s do you have any question about baby lalisa over there :(

so far this is a very solid kpop band

o

lots of english speakers, cute dorks and pure babies everywhere

;-; yes

it has my seal of approval

n i c e the last member is jennie

o damn. jennie? j-just jennie?

just jennie. she doesn’t need anything else

is that an ACDC shirt

apparently

why do they all look so good and fashionable, and both glamorous and cute and pure at the same time, alexa the space-time continuum shouldn't allow this

pffft opinion?

hmm.. she's both a rapper and a singer, and uhh..  she's the second sassiest, but also a goof, and she's 23. I'LL STICK WITH MY 23 also damn nice thighs

she does have amazing thighs tbh.. WAIT HOW DO YOU KNOW SHES ALSO A RAPPER AND A SINGER

well usually in smaller kpop bands one of them does the support for both singing and rap..r-right?

,,,,,,,,,now that you say it

it finally happened folks, i taught alexa something about kpop

badass

THEY'RE ALL SO PURE, FUCC

THEY ARE, they have the badass girl crush concept, BUT THEYRE ALL FUCKIN CUTIES IRL also, take this

my poor heart

jennie is so smol ;; jennie is the smolest

i'm sorry, i was distracted by the thicc

mood tbh she is also fluent in english lmao

pack your shiT ALEXA WE'RE GOING TO KOREA

y ES theyre all really cute and entertaining, they dont go over the top, but theyre still pretty funny - as funny as a girl group can be anyway

pfft i find all of them entertaining tbh. show me some songs fam 

o, alrighty. this is a dance practice, it was the first thing that was released and everyone went nuts

((Then she showed me the dance practice video))

lisa is the one with shorts, jennie has the cap, rose is the one with braids and the last one is jenniejisoo

oof, a bit too edgy for my taste, sorry. but the routine is great!

well, they were kinda made to be badass

yeah, i figured

also, a little side note

o?

their company is one of the biggest companies out there, but theyre known for their shitty management, as in, they dont really give idols many comebacks or promotions, so they dont have many songs;; even tho they debuted two years ago

well, that kinda sucks

yep..

i imagine this business is pretty finicky behind the scenes. i guess it can’t be all sugar and glitter all the time

true..  anyway, this is is one of the two songs in their debut ep lol 

((Then she showed me “Whistle”))

also, may i add, their mvs are hella aesthetic

they seem to be..  not a fan of the super edgy american-ish songs though

yeh, their second ep was better. this is from the second ep

((Then she showed me “Playing With Fire”))

pyromaniac title, piano in the first second. this one's gon' be gud

yeah, this one was definitely better - well, not objectively, just imo 

yeah then theres this beautiful beautiful song 

((Then she showed me “Stay”))

that title gives me the hibby jibbies

y e p p

nvm i saw a mcdonalds in the background and now i'm chuckling

sdfdsdfg honestly the mv is So Pretty

ALEXA I DIDN'T SIGN UP FOR SAD TIMES

shhh its a nice lil song just dont read the lyrics lmao

...i'm reading the lyrics now I THOUGHT THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE A BADASS GROUP WHAT IS THIS

the chorus is so nice tho, with the claps

it is..  well, that was mildly depressing

at the end they hold hands and laugh and jump around in a circle in the mv and its just..  i rlly like the mv and the filter is very pretty

a e s t h e t i c

anyway, back to badass

((Then she showed me “Ddu-du Ddu-du”...?))

this is their most recent release, this time with a mini album

and i see thanos’s throne is back

y eS

these sets look expensive as fucc.. is that a fennec fox?

maybe..

and the evil parrot from rio? what is this, a crossover episode?

THE MOST AMBITIOUS CROSSOVER

first we had the shrek 2 song, now this they gon' hit me with dat turu turu du alexa halp meh  

i k r wat u gon do

is that.. a sparkly tank?

y ES jennie is an icon

i feel like i've ascended

tbh all these things were so unnecessary yet they did it anyway

well i certainly don’t regret it

that breakdown at the end is kinda cheap, but i think the diamond tank made up for it

definitely

sdfvbvGJHGthere are two mvs left

oh, just.. just two?

y es

i feel bad for them ;; did u say it's been two years

yeah..

this is so r00d

yes, always feel bad for yg artists

what’s yg?

its a company - their company

ah, i see

their shitty company

oof

here's their debut song (which i dont really like but Oh Well.)

((Then she showed me “Boombaya”..? who the hell comes up with these names?))

well, in all fairness if they're one of the biggest they probably have a lot of bands to manage

not really..  they had very successful bands though, so that kinda paved the way for the ones nowadays

ALEXA THESE FUCKING LYRICS ARE KILLING ME

ASDFGBFVDS MOOD CLICK CLACK BADDABING BADDABOOM QUEEN

"i'm so hot i need a fan i don't want a boy i need a man" BISH YOU'RE A 5 FOOT 20-SOMETHING ASIAN IDOL CHILL

hjkjhghj shhHHH

this is a whole drugtrip

it iS

are those..  black leather biker pants...  mixed with blue jeans? this is some next level shit alexa i can't handle this

y ES fashion icon

why do coke when you can watch this for free and legally?

ikr theres one last mv, and its better, trust me

..alright...

theyre cute in this one

((Then she showed me “As If It’s Your Last”))

jisoo is the one with the heart magnet and i love her

awh ;; man these titles are edgier than 13 year old me

oh come on, its a love song

that dancing, it's s-so lewd  <-<;;

it iS oh, i forgot lisa's rap is in english

n o i c e i didn't know jennie had her own ice cream business

girl is going places okay but 1:36

what about it?

th-the cotton candy part

pfff

sorry i remember the first time and saw it and was like fukc thas cute

well, it was. it was pure ;;

alright, final thoughts?

well, they're a bunch of cute and talented dorks, but that ain't nothing new. either way, 10/10 for the lewd dancing and the fact that they speak english. give dem more comebacks, fam

they have lewder choreos, but thats for another day. justice4blackpinkcomeback edition

yeS, let’s make a petition

Heya peeps, it’s a boii mod Alex here. This was the first time I put together a Reaction Wednesday post, so uh.. yeah...  I think it turned out pretty good! But seriously, a lot of work goes into these, even though it may not seem like it. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it! See you next week!

[kyunnwon]

The story of how I ult-bias a whole group of seven men.

(”keep reading” format because I describe why I bias all 7 in like 12 paragraphs and it’s long as fuck)

Before I truly got into Monsta X (music videos and “funny moments” videos were all I watched), I had chosen Jooheon as my bias. I thought he stood out the most to me. I loved his face, his dimples and chubby cheeks. I loved how energetic and bad-ass he was in music videos, I loved his intimidating stage presence that completely contrasts from his charming and adorable personality. I didn’t often pay as much attention to the other members than I did him. (There was even a point at which I was calling Kihyun and Minhyuk by each-other’s names)

Then fell deeper and started watching all of their dance practices, even all of their “focus cam” ones. By then I was able to learn all of their names and was fully stanning. I watched all of Right Now and X-Ray, watched live performances constantly. Listened to almost every song they’ve made, including covers. In the midst of all this, I began noticing just how incredible all of them were. 

(I watched No Mercy and DeokspatchX recently too. I knew it was out of order but I had been avoiding No Mercy like the plague because I didn’t want to see them treat eachother badly lol. But it was a good decision because it helped me understand how they got to where they are today.)

After finally realizing how amazing each of them were (mind you this was a good month ago), I dropped solo biasing Jooheon and began to love all of them equally. 

Jooheon still for those previously listed qualities, but now also because of his immense talent and emotion. How dedicated he is, how much he puts into dance and rap. He’s not a born dancer but he’s for sure what one would call a choreography king, where his movements aren’t that of a natural dancer but are of one who puts their all into what they’ve learned and turns it into art. Not to mention his singing, oh my god when he sings. He’s literally the whole package of talent from rap, to vocals, to dance, to lyrics (and visuals!!!!). He was always a prodigy and would still be widely known even if he wasn’t in Monsta X.  Also; how skittish he is, it’s so precious!

Kihyun, because I fell in love with his voice before I even knew who he was. I remember watching a clip in a kpop vines video of Kihyun singing during their first comeback VLive. It literally gave me goosebumps and I needed to hear more, you can’t believe how beside myself with joy I was when I found out who it was and the song he was singing. His strong voice that shakes me to my bones, during his first No Mercy performance, I was brought to tears and near sobbing because of how beautifully he sang. His confidence is incredible and how surprisingly sexy he can be despite his cute appearance. His sharp features and an infectious laugh that brings out his uniquely placed dimples on the apples of his cheeks. How he really is naggy and seems picky, it’s funny how everyone picks on him for it, he really is like a mom figure. How he’s basically the shortest but makes up for it in desirable presence.

Wonho, because of his amazing duality. How he appears as manly and ridiculously sexy but in reality, he’s a soft goofy boy that’s scared of more things than you’d expect. His dopey laugh+wide smile is my favorite, and his adorably large ears. His voice is nice too, it’s unique, sounds like he’s always singing in head-voice no matter the note he’s hitting. How well he dances with his large stature. How he bullies everyone and acts cute. How he’s just a buff baby boy that needs protection, love, and attention. How much he cares for his band mates and it shows when he talks about them, like when he accepted Kihyun into his and Minhyuk’s unit because the other 2 units (Jooheon/Shownu, Hyungwon/I.M) turned Kihyun down and he didn’t want to be alone. Wonho adjusted the performance to allow a 3rd. And a certain segment during No Mercy, where he talks about him and his mom living in such a small place, how it brought him to tears talking about how much he wants to support his family. Despite his tough look, he’s a sensitive angel.

I.M. because of his attitude. He’s cool, but he’s also silly and loud, I love how he just yells a lot. His wonderfully (and sinfully) deep voice when he speaks, how it turns an octave lower when he speaks in English. His cat-like eyes, acne scars, and sharp lips that make his face so easily distinguishable. I also love that he has a couple tattoos, like the cute tiny little “ : ( : “ on his hand. The way he raps too, much more tame than Jooheon’s, but that’s the good part. It’s always chill no matter how fast he raps or how hype the song he is. How he’s a talented dancer and puts so much effort into his movements, and although not seemingly a born-dancer, he’s definitely a choreography-king as well. Also how he’s almost always shoving food into one of his bandmates’ mouths.

Minhyuk, he is truly something else. His bubbly, sassy personality. How affectionate he is with everyone, how much he loves and his wonderful bright smile. His deep voice when he speaks with that hint of rasp in it, it’s so lovely. And when he sings, he sounds so amazingly sweet and soft. But also his overflowing amounts of feminine charm, how he just gives you the feeling that the word “sexy” was entirely created for him to own, how his existence just screams dominance and begs for everyone’s attention. 

Shownu, because cuddly bear <3 He’s just so lovely. How he seems aloof and emotionless but really is just a big ol’ goofball. How he really does give off dad vibes, how he seems like a manly guy, which he is, but he’s also truly sweet and cute. It’s also great when he bullies his members because it shows how he can be child-like too. And god, his honey-like voice when he sings, his first performance during No Mercy was incredible, it had me fully respecting him as a vocalist. How he’s so very clearly a born-dancer and can make any choreography his. Another one that screams sexy and tough but is really sensitive and adorable

Last but definitely nowhere near least, Hyungwon. I feel like I shouldn’t even start because I might not stop. Honestly if I could actually choose a bias in MX again it would 100% be Hyungwon. But we all know how that would go. He’s just so beautiful, like the epitome of pretty. His beautiful full lips, cute cheeks and puffy eyes. Just a whole cute face in general and it’s even better when he smiles, he’s got such a contagious smile my heart flutters. How he also in a way seems like a cat, how he’s kind of shameless but also not and just does what he wants. His tall, lanky build and how his visuals always give off this ethereal vibe, how he’s obviously another born-dancer, not as explicitly as Shownu, yet everything just seems to come natural to him like his build lets his moves come out more smoothly. His voice is beautiful too, so soft and pretty like him, and the way he sings is so nice to watch, during their live performance of Myself on their 2nd Comeback VLive I couldn’t keep my eyes off him any time he was visible. Everything about him screams sultry and dominance when he’s performing, a presence that makes you weak in the knees, but on the inside he’s just a sleepy kitten that memes way too much.

Basically, all of them with everything they do are constantly bias wrecking me even though I bias all of them. I couldn’t even describe everything I want to because it’s all just a jumble of adoration in my brain and I can barely understand any of it. It’s a never ending cycle and I’ll tell you it’s also exhausting constantly being attacked by their existences. All 7 of them and their music truly makes me happy, they’re a group with over-flowing talent, charm, and beauty. I’m glad I caught them on just their 3rd year of being a group because that means there will more-than-likely be many more albums and comebacks to witness as a Monbebe.