#even diluc's knight-hating ass likes him

[braclii]

im so so so upset that there arent more fics about rosaria and varka and razor and the fucked up little family they are. there arent enough fics about varka in general and yet he's such a pivotal character in everyone's lives. can we talk more about that old man please

[gold-rhine]

For the ask game :tell me why you love nuevi or kaeya! Feel free to talk A Lot I like your long posts

i also love reading my long posts, i wish i wrote them more asdfghjk its hard for me to just talk unspecifically about character without like pointed theme bc to me it feels like everything is obvious and everyone understands same things, why am i spelling it out.

anyway, KAEYA. my prettiest cursed princess. noble daughter of the fallen aristocratic family with generational curse coded. jon snow AND daenerys targaryen vibes at the same time. why noble daughter? bc instead of how heirs of nobles are kept close and taught to rule, his family treats him like pawn, like currency, his fate determined at his birth with no agency, sent away to another family he has to fit in. he's not a bastard, but he is half blood, and he cannot return. he's brother to diluc, but not equal, no matter how much they get along, like jon to robb stark. dawn winery is not his home, he's only welcomed conditionally, when diluc allows it. told to be "last hope", but what he's last hope of is a rotting cursed shambles of hubris. but even with how badly he was treated, he's still torn with loyalty to them, with duty, he still tried to ran away to khaenriah as a kid, just like dany wants to go to westeros. terrible prophecy hangs over him and he knows it. we don't even know if alberichs were really regents or if clothar is just delusional and sees himself forming abyss order as "regency"! he wants to walk off the stage, but he can't. and even if he could, he won't, not in the end, because against his will he still cares about people left on that stage who do not know what they are in

and he's coping with all of that by not letting people close even though he's lonely bc that curse and prophecies hang over him, bc he learnt from diluc he will not be accepted unconditionally no matter how loyal he is, no matter how good of a friend and brother he is, no matter how much punishments he takes for diluc and how he follows him like a shadow. he tried so hard to be a perfect child in dawn winery, polite and sweet and it didn't matter in the end. and now he's hating himself for secrecy and underhanded ways he was forced into as a child and deeming himself bad, finding ways to blame himself even for doing good deeds bc he's such a manipulator, treating relationships as transactions of favors to keep score, to keep in control.

mask worn for long, it grew into him and is impossible to take off now. "and they say my charm is fake" he IS naturally charming, he just had to learn to use it as a weapon. he IS sweet and interested in people, he just had to learn to get profit out of it. the worst thing he could be is himself. sad adult with a fake smile. and at the same time he's proud, he's talented, he's funny and sarcastic, he likes goofy jokes and slipping clever metaphors into silly stories, he likes writing books for people he cares about with advises on how to solve problems and deal with people, and also likes telling stories and can improvise a monologue on a stage. he should have been an actor and a writer, but duty to one father threw him into mond and duty to the other locked him into knights, so now he's just miserable, he's a hedonist, a cynic, he can't have real connections, so he will take pleasure and attention and use it for his greater means, he's coping with substance abuse, but he is so paranoid he will not be caught actually drunk bc that's weakness. he wants to belong so much, but think he's not allowed to. traveler finding him in the shadows after he tries to leave community event HE organized and dragging his reluctant ass by hand is THE theme for them tbh.

[followfire]

I’m rather disappointed that Genshin has a tendency to go for the friendship is magic trope where everyone gets on well and become friends after spending two minutes together… I want to see tensions subside between the different nations… I want to see people have conflicts and never manage to resolve them… And I don’t mean just relationships like Kaeya and Diluc who hate each other as much as they love each other for very plot relevant reasons, I mean also very petty reasons, people who dislike each other from afar just ‘cause.

I’m pretty sure Genshin will never take this direction because everyone is love and sunshine, but I headcanon that Jean and Alice don’t really get on well…

Jean would never admit it to anyone, not even herself because come on, Jean cannot dislike someone in Mondstadt, she wasn’t raised like that. But still. Alice is chaos and havoc and everything that Jean isn’t and is working her ass off to avoid. Alice is supposed to be this old and wise mage yet Jean had to punish her once for playing with a wind current she created with anemoblobs. Alice raised Klee to be as carefree as her and even encourages her to play with bombs, and then Alice disappears and leaves little chaotic Klee to the understaffed Knights. Jean has to be the one to step in and try to teach Klee to not be so destructive but she doesn’t have time for this. Also I don’t think Jean likes having to punish Klee, she’d rather see her enjoying herself but Klee’s enjoyment tends to go out of control because her mother never taught her to mind the consequences of her actions. It’s like those relationships between parents where you have one parent who is the fun one, who never scolds the children, is always playing with them, while the other always has to be the one stepping in to set limits and be the responsible one and the joy killer because the fun parent is actually irresponsible and cannot be trusted to act as a reliable coparent. Jean is the no fun parent because Alice never acts responsibly. Jean is presently doing more to take care of Klee than her own mother, meanwhile Klee adores her absent mom to bits but thinks Jean is scary. And I like to add the fact that Alice was the one who encouraged Diluc to travel after his father’s death while Jean wished he wouldn’t leave and even wanted to persuade him to stay. So… I don’t think Jean allows herself to dislike Alice, but she probably sees her and know it means trouble. She sees her and wonders “why do you always have to put a spoke in my wheel?”. Alice is not mean and Jean knows that but she’s like a headache: you have to work with it because it’s not going away.

And Alice doesn’t care enough to actually dislike Jean, but that’s exactly the problem! She’s not bothered enough to see Jean as an obstacle! Actually, she’s probably rather fond of Jean and doesn’t even realize the turmoil that she causes in her.

[aetheternity]

i like hearing you talk about things so here's this: which characters do you think are underappreciated/not respected enough by the fan base? (besides the ones that you've made very clear of)

I've said it before and I'll say it again Xiao. I feel like a lot of people see him as some sort of hot object to project themselves onto either that or some kind of ship bait. I wish more people saw him as the beautiful character he is and yeah that's probably rich coming from someone who mostly posts Xiao when it's in relation to Aether but I truly do love his character as its own thing. I love how gentle he truly is despite his rough exterior. I love how socially awkward he is. I love it when he starts in on his old friends because it's the love he has for them still inside him showing. I love how dedicated he is to protecting Liyue and never takes credit for it. I wish he was a little less hard on himself and allowed himself to feel outside of his normal limits but yeah his karmic debt is scary and dangerous and he's always a little worried which makes sense because he's so so sensitive and it's really adorable 🥺 I wish I used him more but I truly hate his burst. Like HATE. I hate how annoying it is to use omg. But yeah he's so mischarcterized as like this hard ass dom and I'm like be serious he would cry the first time you tell him you love him 😭😭 I know you said besides the usual anon but like not enough people talk about Xiao as he is and not what the fandom has made him.

Qiqi 😭😭

My sweet little girl! She doesn't deserve literally any of the shit the fandom gives her. She's just a two hundred something year old little girl who wants to remember and live and dream. She told Traveler she wants to live with them till death. She's a really good healer even at C0 and she begs not to be buried again when she dies. She's way too cute. I wanna give her the world.

I think I've said before that Diluc deserves better. He's always called emo and stuck up but I have a secret love for Diluc. He's so caring and capable he immediately sought to help Venti without even being asked to. He loves Mondstadt so much he became rip off batman to protect it from evil. He used to own a turtle. He loves grape juice and hates wine despite being the owner of a tavern. He's just made fun of so much but he's such a unique and interesting character. I love his dark dealings and how he takes on the Fatui all on his own without asking for help and even when he knows it will ultimately do a lot of good for the Knights of Favonious he still helps out anyway. I'll never understand why people hate him so much. Mostly because I've never seen a Diluc hater explain why they hate him. It's always just "I hate Diluc." I don't get it.

Jean as well. She's so cute she is the only anemo female that I use on a consistent basis despite hating the mechanics of her burst. I hate how people simplify her to just being a woman obsessed with her job. Putting her in the same group as Ganyu and Kokomi like bitch Jean loves reading romance novels and projects onto the characters because she wants romance too! She used to own a turtle too! I am seriously so so happy that someone wrote that in Jean and Diluc are turtle twins. I hate that everyone forgets it's so freaking cute 😭. Jean literally had to take on a job that requires her to: make orders for groups of individuals on a daily basis, protect Mondstadt at all times including during fucking festivals, watch over K*ee and take care of the tiniest most ridiculous problems Mondstadt has to offer. Cause if Jean had been there she would've had to help Venti get his strings back and listen to Kaeya's demands. I probably missed some stuff she does on a daily but like yeah I think you get my point. I one thousand percent believe if Traveler weren't there and Jean just up and fainted again the whole city would be up in smoke in less than three hours. I don't think Jean deserves to be considered as nothing more than a hard working woman. Plus unlike Albedo with that little brat K*ee I one hundred percent believe Jean would hang out with Barbara all day if she could.

[ransprang]

your fave horny admins are at it again

genshin boys - their kinks

diluc

One of his secret kinks is that he loves hate fucking you while wearing a knights of Favonius suit

He's more on the dom side and enjoys spanking your ass till it matches his hair color

Breeding kink. He loves filling you up with his hot white cum and watching you take it all in. Diluc keeps going till your thighs are painted with his cum

Perhaps he's into a bit of bondage as well

zhongli

Overall vanilla and the least kinkiest of the bunch

He'd be a dom daddy and make you sit on his lap while you suck on his fingers

Zhongli would make you strip and ride his thigh to make yourself cum before he touches you

He lets you cockwarm him while he's reading a book then he fucks you silly

kaeya

Absolute man whore degenerate. He'd be the most experimental and kinkiest of them all.

Has a HUGE corruption kink. He can't help himself if you look up at him with sweet innocent eyes while sucking his cock. He wants to see how much of a filthy slut he can turn you into

Kaeya would want to try group sex with any combination of genitals probably

He'd be into trying everything at least once like sounding (admin note: we recommend not looking up the kink)

tartaglia

He's a quite a kinky guy. He'd be into knife play

Tartaglia is into roleplay. He gets an instant boner when you come in wearing a tight maid dress and get down on your knees to take care of your master

Loves it when his cock causes you to have a belly bulge. Gets him even hornier. "Wow someone is taking my big cock really well huh"

Tartaglia is a into public sex for sure. Sometimes he's in a teasing mood and asks you to insert your vibrator inside yourself then takes out. While you talk to people or are just walking about he'll control the vibrator from his phone and play around with the speed

thoma

Depending on what you're like he'd be a sweet switch and would accommodate to what you prefer

As both a sub and a dom he'd have a praise kink and worship your body. "You're so beautiful and perfect. Fuck."

When you're jerking him off he likes it when you edge him, which makes him whine and moan to let him cum

Would be too shy to tell you that he wants to try out pegging

yours hornily,

admins sar & sav

[rhine-gold-archive]

But yeah, speaking of Diluc Not Being Great At Secret Identities, it really doesn’t take too much to figure out Diluc is a Darknight hero once you put two and two together 

Like there’s def a conspiracy group of Mond guys meeting up in a tavern and trying to figure out the identity of the Darknight hero and the facts they have are:

Batman is pyro (not only you CANNOT convince me Diluc’s giant flame bird could stay unnoticed, but even his new skin says his enemies remember flashes of red in their nightmares. Ppl know he’s pyro.)

To keep up this scale of operation for that long, Batman would need both military training AND consistent financial support and intelligence network

Their first suspect is Amber, bc she’s pyro, and she works for the Knights, a military organization, so she has both combat training and resources. There’s a lot of heated debates about whether she’s strong enough to pull it off, with one passionate Amber main insisting that she can solo whatever she wants, but then one time during one of the Batman Incidents she was in public on a date with Eula in Good Hunter, so they have to move on from her. And the next logical option is Diluc, a former Knight Captain, so he can fight, and a rich bitch, so he has resources. 

 So like one evening Kaeya rolls up to Diluc grinning like he won a lottery and goes hey guess what, these guys in the corner told me they think you’re a darknight hero and they asked me if it’s true.

“And what did you say?”

“Why, I said yes, of course, you can’t expect me to lie to the honorable citizens of Mondstadt.”

And ofc, Kaeya, being famously persuasive, could’ve talked them out of it, but he also has a terminal case of the shithead younger sibling energy, which even normally makes him mischievous bordering on insufferable, but in case of his older brother, he can only help in the most troll-ish way possible.

So instead he starts taking Klee on the walks in the evening. They go around the Knights headquarters, fight imaginary abyss mages and fatui, a couple of bushes are unfortunately set on fire, but Klee loves it. And, being an open and sociable child that she is, she starts telling people that Kaeya said she needs to do her duty in protecting the people of Mondstadt, which is why they go on night patrols and fight the bad guys. 

The Batman conspiracy guys get wind of that, then in the tavern they hear that one guy who is like this little girl in red is the strongest fighter in Mond, I’ve seen her level mountains. And it clicks. The most powerful pyro in town, and that shady Cavalry Captain, who is actually a Spymaster of the knights, spends a lot of time with her, desite not seeming like a child-loving type?? Obviously he’s Nick Fury-ing her into being a Batman and he agreed that Diluc is darknight hero to divert their attention.

Diluc’s ass is technically off the hook, but he hates every second of it

Jean receives anonymous letters and is like Kaeya, why do I have people demanding to stop you from using child soldiers

[abyssruler]

of weddings and betrothals

kaeya x gn!reader

the best way to casually drop a bomb on someone is to pretend you never did so. in which you ramble how much you hate diluc, kaeya tries to soothe your animosity while laughing at you in the process, and diluc unknowingly pushes two people closer by being a dumb kid.

child!reader and child!kaeya, just two kids talking shit about diluc except only one is doing the shit-talking while the other is laughing

“I hate when you do that.”

“You hate a lot of things. Everything, in fact.”

“That’s not true.” You pause, seemingly thinking over your answer before coming to a decision. “I don’t hate you.”

Kaeya snorts, pressing his palm to his cheek. “That’s not very reassuring, you know.”

“It should be,” you say with finality, pretending to busy yourself with the stack of papers in front of you — or as busy as an eleven year old can look.

“Okay, well, answer me this. Who do you like more, me or Diluc?” He leans in, an eager smile to his lips.

You scoff in derision. Kaeya feels his smile turn brittle. Ah, of course, you too would…

“Of course I like you better, dummy! Diluc’s so loud and annoying. He only ever cares about getting your dad’s attention.”

His smile falters for a moment, giving way to surprise before it blooms into a wide grin, the kind that stretches his lips from cheek to cheek and makes his eyes crinkle like his dad’s. People say he looks nothing like his dad, but you think Kaeya’s got his smile.

“That’s mean. Diluc’s not that bad,” he retorts, trying to defend his brother.

“Sure, whatever. Don’t come crying to me when he starts whining about joining the Knights again.”

Kaeya laughs, knowing that particular obsession of Diluc’s and how much it grates on you whenever he so much as mentions it. “Why do you hate the Knights of Favonius so much?”

“I don’t hate them—”

“You do.”

“—I just think they have bad taste. Grandmaster Varka should just retire, senile old man that he is.”

“Are you still hung up on them rejecting your application?” He asks with no small amount of amusement and, if he’s being honest, surprise. Who knew you had it in you to hold a grudge that long? “You were like, what? Eight, seven years old? Of course they’d reject you.”

“Six,” you correct, glaring at him for even daring to laugh at you. “And it’s entirely feasible for a six year old to join the Knights.”

“I know the word you’re looking for: child labor.”

“Shut up, Kaeya!” You throw the stack of papers you’d been holding to his face, huffing when he just leans away and lets the papers fly away.

He pretends to look hurt by your actions. “Is that any way to treat your future brother-in-law?”

You scrunch your face and fake a gag so violently it nearly becomes a real one. “Gross. Don’t remind me.“

He drapes his arm over your shoulder, ruining your neatly made hair with his free hand and backing away with a laugh when you swat at him in irritation.

“C’mon, Diluc isn’t so bad.”

You roll your eyes. “He always looks like he’s about to poop whenever I come near him. He’s a weirdo.”

“You just scare him a little, which is understandable since you’re, well, you.”

“I’d prefer if my future husband doesn’t constantly shake in his pants whenever I get within 5 meters of him.”

“Just be a little nicer.”

“I don’t want to be nice. He can either man up and talk to me without stuttering or I’ll shove my foot up his ass.”

Kaeya laughs, loud and bright, the kind where he’s leaning over his stomach and gasping for air, eyes closed and utterly open and bare for the world to see. You so rarely catch him off guard like this. It’s nice, you think, having him be so carefree the way kids your age should be. He’s always far too distant.

“Are you done?” You ask in an unimpressed tone after his laughter dies down.

He takes a moment to fix his hair and straighten the imaginary wrinkles on his shirt. It’s a habit he developed from hanging out too much with Diluc, so you frown in distaste over it.

“I can’t wait to grow up just so I can see how much you’ll terrorize him. Ah, what a sight that would be.” He stares into the wall, a smirk on his lips that you know all too well.

“Hah, as if I’ll go through with this stupid betrothal. I’d much sooner run away to Liyue than marry that dingus,” you declare without an ounce of hesitation.

Kaeya sighs. “Your father would hunt you down and drag you kicking and screaming to the altar.”

“He can try! I’ll show him just how weak an old geezer’s bones can get!” You smash your fist into your palm, a loud smack echoing in the room.

He watches you do so with a fond look. He opens his mouth to make a comment, probably about the questionable ethicalities of a child breaking their parent’s bones, but you speak before he can.

“Besides,” you add as you turn to him, utterly oblivious to the effect your next words will have on him for the following years to come, “I’d much rather marry you.”

His jaw drops.

You continue saying something that goes in one ear and out the other, completely oblivious to the turmoil a few measly words have awakened in him. His palms are oddly sweaty, and he can almost hear the way his heart hammers inside his chest, threatening to burst from within.

Kaeya feels the way his heart drops with utter clarity when you turn to him with a mischievous look, and he realizes that his thoughts don’t immediately turn to what that smirk might mean for his sanity, but instead he thinks how nice you look when the light from the sun in the open windows hit the side of your face just right.

Oh no.

There’s a knock in the room. The distinct voice of your family’s butler sounds through the mahogany doors.

“Alright, please wait for me!” You holler at the top of your lungs, and Kaeya would normally grimace, making a passing comment about how you sounded just like a harpy just then, but instead he stares and wonders what you would sound like if you sung to him the way he heard you once when you thought no one was listening.

Oh no.

You turn to him—and is that disappointment in your eyes? “I gotta go home now. Don’t bother telling Diluc that I’m about to leave. I don’t wanna see his ugly face today.”

“Yeah, okay…”

A grin brightens your features again. “I’ll see you next week! Don’t forget to show me that turtle you mentioned earlier! Bye!”

You clamber down the chair and scamper off to the door, waving one last goodbye to him before shutting the door behind you, leaving him alone with his thoughts.

“This can’t be real,” he says to himself. Anyone looking in would see the sheer disbelief that looks out of place in such a young face.

He can’t possibly like you, his brother’s future spouse, can he?

An image of your drooling face when you once fell asleep during your lessons pops into his mind, and instead of laughing like he would have done before, he finds himself thinking how cute you looked back then.

Oh no, indeed.

[neko-nemesis]

𝙅𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙮~

Diluc Ragnivindr x reader

❗WARNINGS ❗: MDI (MINORS DON'T INTERACT), 18+ sexual contents ahead, nsfw, semi-public (I think?), biting, choking, unprotected sex (don't do this shit irl, wrap it before you tap it), rough sex, slight degradation, use of the word "cunt", manhandling, idk what else, lmk if I missed anything.) Not proof-read, forgive my dumbass for typos and grammatical mistakes, I'm about to fall asleep standing up like a horse.

𝑷𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒄𝒆: 𝑹𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒚 𝑺𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒚 𝑮𝒐 𝒃𝒚 𝑻𝒔𝒖𝒌𝒂𝒌𝒐

𝚆𝚘𝚛𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚝: 1k

Note: sjsjdhdhsj MY FIRST FIC WOOHOO HI hello, how ya doin, I caved in you guys 🤚😩 the horniness has taken over me, too far gone to even heal by just touching grass. Anyway though can you tell I'm down bad for Diluc? 🗿 That sexy emotionally constipated mf can have me any day now. SHDHDjdjs I hope y'all enjoy this nonsense I wrote right fucking now at 3 in the fucking morning. Feels great writing here for the first time in Tumblr. (If you know me from Wattpad, no you don't.) Please lmk what y'all think 💬 reblogs and notes are highly appreciated <3 mkay bye 🤸���‍♀️ I'm outta here, I feel SO SHY tf?

This isn't what you were expecting, at all. Infact you definitely didn't see yourself spending the night with your boyfriend like this on a fine evening, your face pressed against the cool wooden wall inside a tight closet. Completely nude aside from thigh high stockings and shoes. It was unfair how you were butt ass naked, with your back arched meanwhile your boyfriend, Diluc was fully clothed aside from his pants hanging below his thigh, low enough to have his fat cock out and drilling inside you. Not one article of clothing of his on the creaky wooden floor haphazardly like yours but you sure weren't complaining. From how hard he was busy pounding into your poor little cunt, leaving you not a chance to even utter a word and complain since he also had one of his large hand on your throat, tightening his grip ever so slightly now and then.

Well, how did you get into this in the first place? Well...Kaeya happened. Having nothing better to do in the knights of Favonius, he made his pretty little way to Angel's share. Just knowing how much Diluc hated when he interacted with you only egged him more to walk up to you with a smirk on his face and chirp away. Little did both of you knew, Diluc really wasn't having any of this tonight. Already being in a sour mood from before, with all the recent increase of casualties around Mondstadt, it sure has taken a toll on the poor man's mood and then seeing Kaeya making his s/o laugh angered him only further. Making it his last straw.

"Y/n." He calls out, your ears perk up and you feel a little uneasy, Diluc from the start since you have been dating him has been nothing but a gentleman. Extremely respectful and not to mention, gentle with you surprisingly, as if you were delicate. It wasn't an often occurrence where any of you would call each other by given names. So this definitely caught your attention. Looking back at Kaeya one more time as he gives you a knowing smile as you walk over the counter, Diluc stood there still on the opposite side, cleaning the last glass rather with much more force. "Hey honey." You say, smiling, "what's up-" "Charles, watch over for the night, me and miss y/n are leaving." He sternly says as he walks out and grips on your forearm tight, dragging you along with his fast footsteps which you were struggling to keep up with and you both make way towards the small closet where we are now.

"D-Diluc slow down" you yelp, feeling him much deeper as his hand leaves your throat and rather used it to bring you closer by your thigh while the other never stopped rubbing slow but hard circles on your clit. "Why- just fucking why do you even give him time huh?" His teeth sinks in the skin on your shoulder, leaving a crescent mark along with all the other hickeys and bite marks on your skin from your neck to your shoulders and chest that he has placed from moments ago. Thrusting in more harder than before, it was as if he was in your tummy. "Kaeya this, ugh fuck- kaeya that huh?- Archons fuck- you're tight." His hot ragged breath hitting the back of your neck, causing goosebumps to form everywhere on your body. By now, you were on your tiptoes, trying to keep up with Diluc's harsh thrusts inside you. "You're forgetting your place, my love. You- you belong to me." he groans, feeling the gummy walls inside of you tightening inside around his dick at his words. He chuckles darkly at that, "Seems like you agree with me doll."

Your trembling hands covered your mouth, trying your level best to not fucking scream at this point from both the pleasure and pain, starting to feel the build up in the pit of your stomach, "B-baby please, I'm close I'm close-"

Quickly his hand moves faster on your clit, while the other leaves your hip as it soon finds home in your hair, pulling back your half-lidded eyes make contact with his crimson ones, his eyes betrayed his actions as his loving gaze was still there. The slight drool on your chin, puffy red swollen kissed lips, you eyes almost shutting close from the intense amount of pleasure, just everything about you had the man in love with you all over again. "Yeah?" He coos, "you're gonna cum for me, got it?" His lips curving upto those rare smirks you were only one who could see, though it's mostly mischievous. Closing in, he whispers in your ear, "you're gonna cum on me, you're gonna make a fucking mess angel" his voice faltering, thrust getting sloppier as now he continues to nipple on the tip of your ear. "Fuck- damnit cum. Come on now, cum, cum for me y/n. Fucking scream my name and everyone- every fucking one outside better know you're my fucking pretty whore-" you legs shook as his dirty talk gets to you, making the coil in the pit of your stomach snap as you came and it was intense. Keeping his promise, you just couldn't take it anymore and scream out loud. "D-Diluc- fuck diluc too much. augh~" he thrusts inside fast for few more seconds as he then holds you more tighter close to his body as he buried his dick deeper inside, filling you up to the brim as he let's out the sweetest little moan.

He helps you come down from your high by pressing on softer circles on your clitoris until you had to pry his hands off from how sensitive you were. Leaning back, he catches his breath while you take the chance and look back him. And fuck, the sight only made you want more. His once fluffy red locks on a tight ponytail was now all messy and disheveled. The sweat on his forehead making his hair stick on his skin and red dusted all over his handsome face. "Master Diluc" you begin, smirking to yourself though your voice was still shaky but you were not about to miss an opportunity to tease him. "I didn't know jealousy looked so.. attractive on you baby." Diluc could only roll his eyes playfully, "I'm not jealous." He lies. Feeling embarrassed already from losing his composure like this. You chuckle, cocking your eyebrows, your hand mindlessly buries itself into his hair and proceed to brush them as you continue, "Didn't know you had it in you, if I'm being honest.."

Diluc ignores what you said as he pulls you close to him, caressing your face lovingly, "I didn't hurt or was too rough with you, was I..?" He asks, concerned, you shake your head. "Oh no" smiling, he doesn't fail to notice the lust in your eyes. "I liked it, I liked you rough 'Luc."

"Oh?" He questions, you too don't fail how his hand travels down to grip on your ass roughly before hitting it hard enough to leave a mark behind. "Good. Cause I'm not done with you just yet, love."

xxx

© 𝚗𝚎𝚔𝚘-𝚗𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚜 2021

[genshin-obsessed]

You Get Injured!

Yo! I’m back and this time with a little bit of angst. One thing about me: I ADORE ANGST!!! LEMME BREAK SOMEONE’S HEART!!! I love, love, love writing angst so much! Anyway, enjoy!

Summary:  You get injured on the job, what’s his reaction?

Includes: Aether, Kaeya, Diluc, Venti, Razor, Xiao, Xingqiu, Zhongli, and Childe! (YES I ADDED AETHER >:0)

Come one, come all! See what happens when you come home injured!

Warnings: Mentions of blood, no details though.

You were supposed to be with Aether, but he had his own commissions, but he swore he’d come help you right after. You weren’t patient and ended up getting into a fight with too many hilichurls and it didn’t end well.

He immediately remembered the time he lost Lumine, but for some reason, he was even more scared than that incident. He felt as if the wind had been knocked out of him and he’d completely frozen up. When he saw your bloodied form fall to the floor, it brought him back to reality.

He ran to you and pulled you into his arms, desperately searching for life. He needed to see that you were ok. In fact, he’d taken your hand and squeezed your wrist to feel your pulse. It was weak, but it was there. He pressed his lips to yours, ignoring the taste of iron that followed.

As the doctor was stitching up the larger gashes, he was cleaning up the blood around your face and whispering words of encouragement to you. He gave you water and held your hand throughout the entire process.

PERSONAL NURSE AETHER REPORTING FOR DUTY! Beck and call, whenever you need him, he’s there for you. He put his adventuring on hold until you were 100% better.

Did you need an adventuring partner? Cuz Aether needs one! And you’re the perfect candidate. He’s going on adventures will you- well ok, he’s going EVERYWHERE with you but for a while. Once his nerves and anxiety dies down, he backs off quite a bit.

You had been fighting hilichurs for a commission and the last thing you had expected was multiple Mitachurls to be around. Well, there were more than you could handle and they floored you.

His heart almost stopped when he saw your bloodied form walking towards him, reaching out ever so weakly. He sprinted towards you, hating that he wasn’t there for you. Why was he so slow?! Why were so you far away, dammit?

He takes you into his arms and holds you close before quickly rushing you to the doctor. He knew he might’ve been a bit rough, but he could barely think. All that was going through his mind was him wishing that it was all just a nightmare.

He’s there 24/7, whenever you need him. He’s got meals, blankets, cuddles, kisses, whatever you need. He helps you with EVERYTHING. He knew it was hard to shower with all those wounds and he didn’t want your stitches to open up, so he was a bit strict.

After your full recovery, he’s a little bit hesitant to let you go on your own. He might just join you on a mission or two. Don’t mind him, but once his worries are eased a little, he backs off. Besides, the cavalry captain can’t exactly run around with you, even though he so desperately wants to.

You were on your way to Mondstat from Liyue where you ended up on a beach with more ruin guards than you could handle (may the lord protect you if you wander there on accident).

Full fledged panic. It almost feels like someone was actively tearing his heart out. He couldn’t even breathe in that moment. He desperately wished he could heal you (I don’t think he can…), make you all better so you wouldn’t have to hurt so much. Were… were you crying?

He ran to you but the second he reached out to touch you, he pulled back a little. He was almost scared to touch you, like something as gentle as his touch might shatter what remained. He didn’t want to hurt you anymore, but it was clear you couldn’t walk so he had to carry you.

He does hold you close when you get help, whispering words of encouragement and love to you; anything to help. He immediately helped clean the blood off of you, trying to be as gentle as possible.

Through your healing process, he’s beside you constantly. He helps you with everything. Anything you need, he’s there. Thirsty? He’s got some water. Hungry? He’s got a plate of food. Need cuddles? Scoot over.

He’s actually terrified to let you go, but he knows you. This is your job and he’d seen you in action. So, he does let you go… as long as he can stick to you like glue (Cries in no Venti).

You had been hunting some abyss mages down and everything was going great… until it wasn’t. A rookie mistake almost caused your death. You’d never been so scared and the only thing you could think of was Diluc in that moment. You wanted to be in his arms.

He thought he’d been caught in a nightmare. He genuinely believed it wasn’t you. But when you called out to him, he was yanked back to reality. Everything felt so weird, it felt like a weird out of body experience for him. He was so scared he was shaking as he reached out to touch your bloodied face.

The first thing he does is check you to see how bad your injuries are before he brings you home to his personal doctor. Your blood burned him, it stung as tears welled up in his eyes. How could he let this happen to you? How could he fail you like this?

As the doctor patches you up, he sits beside you, holding your hand and giving you kisses every now and then, telling you you’re doing great and that you’ll be ok. He was still shaking, but he didn’t want you to worry, so he did his best to hide it. 

He’s extremely busy, so he can’t be beside you 24/7, but he tries to be with you every single night. In fact, he lets the knights handle everything while you heal, not wanting to leave you alone for too long

You best believe he’s hunting down every single abyss mage in existence. One hurt you? They all suffer. You try to keep him in check by keeping him at your side.

You had decided to challenge Electro Hypostases on your own... You should’ve been more careful. You didn’t realize how powerful it was and you got extremely lucky. 

Oh he can smell your blood from a distance. So he didn’t even need to see you to know you were injured. He was terrified. His heart was beating so fast and he couldn’t catch his breath. He felt himself going insane when he couldn’t find you.

Well wolves lick their wounds, but he couldn’t lick yours. One, it wouldn’t work, your wounds were too deep, two, he was a human, not a wolf. He knew your friends could help you so he rushed you back to Mondstat (I’m sure this is probably wrong, feel free to roast me).

Although he knew the doctors were just trying to help, he couldn’t stop himself from being aggressive. He even growled at a doctor when you whimpered as you received the stitches. Kaeya and Jean had to hold him back.

No one is allowed near you until you’re fully healed, Razor doesn’t let anyone get close. It’s not just him being super possessive, he was deeply terrified that in case someone attacked you while he wasn’t there…

Your new adventure partner is Razor. Even if he has to live in Mondstat with the other humans, he’ll do it. As long as you’re with him. Don’t bother trying to argue, it won’t work.

You had a teeny weeny competition with Xiangling that you two could find the best ingredients first. You got careless, wandered into a hilichurl camp, only to get floored by 4 mitachurls.

Who hurt you?! Who hurt you and where are they? Xiao just wants to talk. 

Thankfully, the boss of the inn was able to find some help for you and helped patch you up, while Xiao waited patiently. On the outside he looked calm, on the inside- well it was chaos. Nothing could calm his anger and anxiety.

He reassured you that you did a great job, letting you know that he was proud of you. Not to mention, he kept thanking you for coming back alive so that he could save you. He didn’t even want to think about what could’ve happened if you weren’t able to come back… 

He kept you close. As you healed, he was almost like a personal nurse. He brought you whatever you wanted and lots of almond tofu. If you don’t like it… well more for him.

He was very reluctant to let you go. He couldn’t go with you and it was his biggest regret. But he knew holding you back would do nothing, therefore he poured all his faith and trust in you. So please... come back to him.

You had gone to visit Chang the Ninth and on the way back had seen a village get attacked by some abyss mages. You jumped into action without thinking… at all.

Xingqiu actually hadn’t looked up from his book because he was so invested. You called after him, collapsing nearby but he wasn’t even paying attention. Finally, he heard you scream and jumped, his heart leaping out of his chest. He still won’t forgive himself… or pick up a book.

He immediately takes you back home, carefully carrying you so that he wouldn’t agitate your injuries anymore than they already were.

He stayed by your side and even helped patch you up, wanting to do as much as he could to help. He even kissed your injuries to help them heal faster.

He stays by your side as much as possible. You suggest he read you some books, but it seems like he’s too scared to touch any. Something that might need time to recover from.

Xingqiu’s still too busy to join you, but whenever he can, he definitely does. He is a little too protective in the beginning but as time goes on, he finds himself being able to hold back.

You just needed some chaos devices, just a few. YOU DIDN’T EXPECT TO GET YOUR ASS HANDED TO YOU SO BADLY!

He couldn’t believe it. His heart had almost stopped when he saw you walking towards him. You were covered in blood and you weakly reached out before you fell. He dashed forward and caught you before you hit the ground.

He takes you to his place, getting a doctor to immediately patch you up. As they were cleaning your wounds, he tried to stay calm, yet had this overwhelming urge to destroy whatever hurt you into a million pieces.

He stayed with you, nursing you back to health. Of course, constantly forgetting mora was a thing when buying you literally anything. This will never change.

He wasn’t able to understand why he couldn’t physically let you go in the beginning. Slowly, it made sense that he was scared. Scared he might lose you and that you might never come back. Scared you might disappear like you almost did. But you were… well you. So he had to trust you. Come back home to him safely.

You had just finished up your commissions and were head home when you stumbled upon an Oceanid. You needed a cleansing heart… or four. You weren’t prepared and you were a little tired, but you went anyway. You were lucky you came back alive.

Childe had set up a cute little date for you two, but you were running a little bit late. He was starting to get worried and when he asked Katheryne, he was surprised to learn that you hadn’t returned home from your commissions. Then he saw you. Leaving a trail of blood and limping towards him. He felt as if someone had done all that to him instead.

He immediately runs to you, with Katheryne following. The two of them quickly get you some medical attention, but Childe refuses to let go the entire time. No matter what anyone says, they can’t take you away, so he goes with you everywhere.

You explain what had happened afterwards and he was angry that you’d put yourself in danger for a stupid item. But at the same time, he was proud of you for beating the Oceanid and coming back to him, regardless of what shape you were in. You still got an earful though.

He wanted to be around you 24/7, but he’s really busy. He tries to get away from work as much as he can to spend time with you. Throughout your healing process, he does a lot to help. Simple things like making you meals, the ones that melt your heart. 

He was reluctant, constantly checking up on you and even wanting to go on adventures with you. But he couldn’t spend every minute with you, so he needed to learn how to ease his own anxieties. Of course, you would never say no to going on a few adventures with him.

[yandere-sins]

One More

Genshin makes my imagination vibrate pleasantly. I just want to give Kaeya a reason to make me go “Oh?” cause he’s not even my one of my favs. But the sheer sex appeal coming from that man is dangerous.

Characters: Kaeya Alberich (Genshin Impact) x Reader Warnings: Yandere, Groping, Innuendos, Alcohol, Aphrodisiacs, Insults

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“Hey there, Sweetheart. What’s bringing you to the tavern so late at night?”

You had barely entered Angel’s Share and sat down at the bar before hearing the ever-so chipper voice of the cavalry captain drawing closer. There was nothing strange about meeting Kaeya here after a long day of work, but you and Charles exchanged a glance, the bartender sighing deeply. “I’ve only served him two drinks so far,” he explained, and you couldn’t help but think that was already one too many. 

But who were you to say no to the Kaeya?

Perhaps better than anyone, Kaeya knew about the little game you two were playing. The always so icy shoulder you gave him as he continued to pressure you with his flirts was only making him want you so much more. You couldn’t count the number of times he had stopped you in the headquarters, pinned you between him and the wall - in broad daylight nonetheless - asking how you’re doing and if you need help with anything. You. Were. Sick of it! If he wanted a child to play father for, he could ask Klee to hang out with him! You, on the other hand, were a remarkable knight, trusted enough with complicated orders that - luckily! - kept you out of the city for a prolonged time so you could avoid him. 

It only was hard when you weren’t on duty. Or in the city. Or close to him. 

That’s when he became frisky, rather needy too.

Kaeya brushed his face from the left side of your head to the right, taking a deep breath. If it wasn’t known that you two reached back all the way to your training days, anyone would have raised an eyebrow. But most of the other guards were able to brush off his weirdness for affectionate friendship. It was almost like only you could see behind the farce, and perhaps his estranged brother. Not like Diluc had been any help to you, though, aside from breaking Kaeya off you once or twice when he was around and noticing your discomfort.

Taking up the stool beside you, there was no prior question if the seat was taken. A rather empty keg arrived with Kaeya at the bar, and he briefly tapped the rim until Charles fished for another bottle of alcohol to fill it up with. One could say Kaeya and a drink were a good mix, but to you, they were a terrible combination. Drinking made him bold. Unrestrained even. 

Even though he offered his keg to you, you merely looked away, sipping at your own glass, one you much rather preferred to the brew he drank his night away with. Grinning, he instead took a hearty sip, leaning against the counter leisurely as he watched the bards perform near the entrance, but you didn’t miss even a single glance he sent your way every few seconds. 

It was very unfortunate that you liked Angel’s Share for its drinks best; otherwise, you’d have had a good reason to avoid the establishment. But at the same time, you couldn’t let Kaeya direct all of your life. It was no state that you shouldn’t do what you enjoyed just because he could be there, and yet, you considered it. 

“So, how was your mission? I’ve been missing your skills at training.”

“It was fine,” you answered curtly, uninterested in the conversation he initiated. There weren’t many people you talked to when you came back to Mondstadt. Somehow… it had always been hard for you to make friends with the other knights. Part of you suspected Kaeya being a reason why no one seemed to want to hang around, forcing you to spend most of your training with him since no one was willing to spar with you. Then again, you never had any evidence to confirm your suspicion, just like with many other phenomena you experienced over the years.

More than once had there been instances where your orders had been withdrawn just when you came close to solving the problems, often with the excuses that you were still too inexperienced or needed somewhere else. It had been so hard to raise in the ranks while Kaeya seemed to make leaps forward without a worry, but at least, you managed to secure your place now--one far away from the cavalry captain.

Sighing, Kaeya turned around to face the counter again, plopping his arm around your shoulders. Uncomfortably, you rolled your joints, but he instead pulled you closer to him, the smell of alcohol drafting off his lips as he spoke. “No need to play coy. You know you can tell me the truth. Didn’t you miss being home? I’m sure cleaning up those camps must have been exhausting!”

Missed being with me? seemed to be the words he wanted to say, but he packaged them in a way he knew they’d actually affect you. Kaeya had always been clever enough to poke the places that hurt. Of course, you missed home. You’d miss it more if not for him, but you had your family here, your siblings and parents that you’d like to see more often. But there was no chance with how much Kaeya liked to interfere in it. As if he was already part of your family, inviting himself and always showing up unannounced to hang out.

“‘Twas okay,” you replied after a moment of thought. 

“Well, I missed you,” he chuckled before taking another sip of his keg. “I missed you sooo much!”

That was enough for you, brushing his arm off roughly before turning on your stool to leave. You knew even finding another space to sit wouldn’t spare you from him, and if you ended up in a less crowded area, you didn’t want to imagine what he’d do. “Aw, come on,” you heard behind you as he gripped your arm, making you stop. “I get it, I get it, you’re tired. But you can’t be tired enough not to drink one more with your old pal, right?”

With his voice rising in volume, you two finally gained some attention, and you instantly felt a rush of embarrassment as you stared into quite a few pairs of perplex eyes. Kaeya might have been eccentric, but he was well-liked nonetheless. Causing a scene had never worked well for you, and since you were already deemed an outsider, you’d only catapult yourself more into the shadows if any rumors spread after you left. 

Clicking your tongue, you tore yourself out of his grip before sitting back on your chair again, holding up your finger. “One more. Only one more.”

“Of course,” Kaeya grinned, getting his will once again. “Only one.”

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Hot lips brushing against each other, you had no better way to describe your state of being other than burning. For someone so cool and with an icy skill, Kaeya was not even close to being cold and reserved when it came to touching you. With a smile displayed on his mouth whenever he wasn’t using it to tease you, you could barely remember how you two ended up making out in one of the backstreets of Mondstadt. His hands were seemingly everywhere, and at the same time, lingered at the spots that created an audible cue from you when he squeezed them. 

“You’re so sensitive,” he noted as you hung in his arms, hands currently squeezing your ass from your thighs upwards. “That’s good, I like that.”

“Fucker,” you merely cursed back. “You only said one more drink! I feel like shit! What the hell was that?”

“On the contrary, you feel amazing,” he ignored your questions, pushing his leg between yours as he pressed you closer to the cold stone wall behind you. A welcome sensation, giving you back some of your senses as the chill helped to calm your heated body. “I fucking hate you, Kaeya,” you confessed drunkenly, but the time was as good as any to say it.

“Ouch,” he brushed it off with a chuckle. “Are you sure? Your body grinding against mine is giving me very different vibes, Darling.”

Next thing, he was back in your mouth, his tongue roaming and keeping yours busy as you slung your arms around him. “You’re so stupid and mean, always testing everyone. You’re probably the reason everyone is avoiding me too, and you don’t let off no matter how much I tell you to leave me alone!”

“Mhm,” he hummed as his lips wandered down your neck, making you stretch it out for him so he could reach better. “And now... I don’t even know! You drugged me?!” 

A soft laugh escaped him before you felt a suck at your collarbone, followed by the wet sensation of a tongue tasting your skin. “Bingo, Baby. Lisa really wanted to know what would happen if someone drank this potion and you were all too eager to get it down your throat-”

“To get away from you!” you interrupted him.

“Whatever.”

Finally, Kaeya came up on eye level again, the two of you staring at each other for a moment in silence. 

“Whatever?” you questioned, confused by his reaction. 

“Yeah, whatever. I think kissing you made me swallow at least, hm... half of it too. Even if we wanted to, we wouldn’t be able to stop now, don’t you think?” 

One of the most disgusting grins you had ever seen on the face of a person played around his lips as he pressed up to you, uniting you two in another kiss. Of course, you could stop it! You could, and you would right now. After all, you had allowed it to go on for far too long now! Pressing your hands into his shoulders, Kaeya let out a soft sigh against your lips, his uncovered eye closed as he enjoyed the affection. “One more,” he mumbled as he kissed you again and again, feverishly and impatiently. “I’ve been waiting forever to do this.”

With the excitement of a teenage boy, his hands roamed your body, pulling out the shirt from your trousers to lodge themselves beneath it. Skillful fingertips drew patterns over your skin, up your spine, and down your sides until you were gasping and shivering in his grasp. “Good,” he sighed against your lips, unbothered by you still trying to push him away, only ever flinching as he groped you. “Don’t you already know it? How much you drive me crazy? It’s only fair I drive you crazy too.”

“What the fuck are you even talking about--” you tried to contradict him. But Kaeya was quick to muffle your voice with another deep kiss. Intentionally or not, he met one of your sensitive spots as he explored you, causing a hitched moan to escape you, followed by a satisfied grunt from him. “I’ve been waiting for so long, I can’t have you take it from me now,” he breathed out huskily. 

“I’ll scream!” you threatened him. “Let me go now, Kaeya!”

“Ah-ah,” he rebuked you, one of his hands being freed of groping-duty to cover your mouth. “No one’s going to take you away from me now either. Come one, be good, okay?”

Waiting for the right moment, Kaeya couldn’t endure your angry stare for very long before falling into soft laughter. “All right, all right,” he chuckled before leaning forward brushing his lips against his hand. “One more kiss, okay? I will leave you alone after that.”

Furrowing your brows even more, he interpreted you shaking your head as a ‘no’, letting out a long, “Aww…” 

“Only one more, pretty please?” 

You had to give it to him: persistency was something he didn’t lack. It felt like shooting into your own foot, but part of you just wanted it to be over. You two had kissed so much up till now; how much worse would one more be? And if he let you go afterwards, you could definitely endure it. Lifting up your hand to yank his from your mouth, Kaeya didn’t expect you to take the initiative, looking at you perplexed as you leaned forward to kiss him. No one ever taught you how to kiss, and without his directions, you weren’t actually sure on how any of it worked, but he didn’t seem to mind, humming a pleased tune before returning your awkward smooches.

When was a kiss one kiss? When the lips parted? After the first initial touch? Kaeya’s definition was two minutes of continuous connection between you two, only briefly drawing back for air but never without upholding the contact by biting and pulling on your lip or having your tongue following his out of your mouth into the cold night. He gripped your head tightly in his palms, not allowing you to get away. Only when he let go did you fall back hard against the wall as you two finally broke apart, and you hadn’t noticed how much he had held you up. 

The rich flavor of alcohol on your tongue and his scent in your nose didn’t help with getting a clear mind, but nothing about you made sense anymore. Now that he had let you fall back and away from him, you felt even hotter than before, your body clearly bothered by the lack of stimulation. What part of ‘I wanted none of this’ did you not understand yourself? At least by the throbbing in your abdomen, you could tell that whatever kind of potion he had given to you definitely wasn’t a fun experience, but all the more potent. 

“Hurts, huh?” he laughed across from you. “Oh, fuck off,” you mustered to say, but the pain was obvious by your expression. You were barely able to keep yourself up properly.

“I’d offer my help, but you made it clear you didn’t want it.” The situation must have been really funny to him, only agitating you more. If it at least hadn’t been Kaeya, you might have accepted help, but you knew you’d have to get yourself home now all by yourself in a state of constant heat with no way to resolve it. 

“You caused all of this! You should at least take responsibility without taking advantage of the situation!”

Pushing yourself away from the wall, you decided it was time to step away. There was no use in talking with Kaeya, but the moment your support dwindled, you noticed how wobbly your legs felt, barely capable of holding you up. What had you trained all these years for if a mere potion could make you so incredibly weak? Before you could get back to the wall, one knee gave away, making you sink to the ground where you could barely catch yourself with your hands. 

“It’s really working you hard, isn’t it?” you heard him speak down from above. Squatting to your level, you felt his hand slide through your hair before gripping and lifting your head to face him. “Tell you what: If you ask nicely, I’ll help you. Can’t promise you’ll wake up in your bed tomorrow morning, but a bed nonetheless, wouldn’t that be nice?”

“Fuck you,” you hissed back, and he shook his head, disappointed. 

“Try again.”

What choices did you have? Risk the little bit of reputation you still had by being found in the morning, disheveled and drunk from the night before? The knights absolutely hated anything that would ruin their pristine prestige, so much even you knew. You had worked so hard to get where you were, could you really risk all of it? “... please,” escaped you before you could think it through further. 

“What was that?” he teased you, and you wondered why he could still be so clear even after drinking much more than you did and having had a taste of the potion from your lips. “Please help me get home.”

This time, he laughed out loud, obviously amused by how pitiful you had to behave to please him. “One more time. Say it one more time, and say it nice.”

Frustrated, you wished you could have punched him in the face, but you only bit your lip, taking a deep breath before complying. “Please, Kaeya. I need your help to get home. Please help me home!”

Embarrassment was all you could think about as he conditioned you to do as he wanted, but finally, after you did what Kaeya demanded, he petted your head, leaning forward to kiss your forehead before reaching under your arms to pull you up. “Look at you, all cute and begging me for help.”

Quickly being lifted from the ground, you found your new halt by gripping into his shoulders tightly and wrapping your legs around his waist as he held you in front of him. “You’re so adorable!” he chuckled as you clung to him much more in fear of him letting you fall than because you wanted it. He seemed to have similar thoughts, giving you a bit of a scare as he let go of you, having you hang from him by only your own strength, which you didn’t trust anymore. But just as quickly, your horrified expression made him laugh, and he gave your rear a teasing slap. Lucky for you, Kaeya didn’t make you fear any longer, embracing you back and allowing you to sink against him more as he started to make his way through the streets of Mondstadt. From an onlooker’s point of view, it might have seemed like you jumped him out of joy, but really, you clung on as if your life depended on it while Kaeya seemingly enjoyed the hug.

“Just get me home, you Asshole,” you grumbled, but your insults didn’t do any damage to his good mood. “Sure, I’ll get you home,” he replied chipper, but you already had bad thoughts as you heard that.

“At least, the place I call ‘home’,” he confirmed your suspicion, and inwardly, you already admitted defeat even as you punched your fist into his shoulder. 

“You know how it is,” he brushed it off lightly, patting your backside while he climbed the stairs towards the headquarters with seemingly no effort. 

“I can never refuse you or leave you be. I adore you way too much.”

[baxndaid]

#THATNIGHT

character ; KAEYA

prompt ; though it isn't obvious, kaeya is feeling a little isolated.

warnings/notes ; gn!reader, angst bc yeah xoxo, mild language, sad kaeya sad kaeya , mentions of his backstory but i don't go into it, can be seen as platonic or romantic girl idk

(!) spoiler for jean's hangout quest

i'm 7 away from 100 followers which is so awesome! tysm for the support, REQESTS ARE OPEN AND WELCOME so feel free to hmu with something you'd like to see in the future !!

YOU never really understood kaeya. his life felt so melancholy, so boring, so broken, and yet all he did was smile, he never got angry, and continue to get drunk off his ass every night at his brother's tavern, who, hated his guts. actually, a lot of people hated his guts. kaeya was somebody who you didn't really trust and would take everything he said with a bucket of salt, you could never understand whether he was joking or being genuine.

you worked at the angel's share, along side master diluc. the first time you came, he warned you that the drunkards could get a little vulgar, especially when a "young, innocent person such as yourself" served them. naturally, you got the hang of your job, enjoying the company of those who come in and talk, and laughing under your breath when a drunk man falls on his way out. though, there was always this man who came in, he dressed differently to the others and always ordered the same drink, "death after noon." master diluc had told you stories and warned you about this man, his own brother. to say that you were surprised was an understatement, how could a man, the cavalry captain to be exact, be that much of a dick? you asked those who came in about the man named kaeya and they all had similar, negative answers. a nun who carried a spear, a bard with two braids, the acting grand master, even the local librarian had something bad to share about kaeya. you saw him around sometimes, it was rather strange seeing him chuckle and joke around with those who, only moments prior, had bad-mouthed him. you almost felt bad for him.

TODAY was a quiet day, you were finishing up your shift at the tavern, sweeping the floors and cleaning up some tables. you swiped the sweat forming on your brow as you wiped down the main counter, before hearing the ringing of the front door bell, indicating that somebody had arrived.

"welcome to angel's share, what can i get-"

"evening, y/n! funny seeing you here," he chuckled, leaning on the counter. "i work here, kaeya." you were far too tired to deal with his antics and just wanted to give him his drink, and get on with your day.

he laughed and sat down on one of the wooden stools, "ah yes, how could i forget. well! in that case, i'd like to request something from you, a little help, if you will." though it did pique your interests, you weren't interested. "no."

"you haven't even heard my request yet!" he exclaimed, a smirk appearing on his tanned face. "come here," he beckoned you to come closer and whispered in your ear.

"you want to throw a party for the acting grand master?"

"shh! keep it down, i wouldn't want to ruin the surprise, now would i?" he put a finger up to his lips.

you sighed, you did like the idea of throwing the busy knight a party, after all, she did work hard 24/7, protecting monstat and still making time to talk to you like normal.

"fine, but i'll have to ask master diluc first." you groaned

his singular, visible eye lit up as he grabbed your shoulders and gave you a hug from across the alcohol-stained counter. your cheeks flushed as you awkwardly pat his back, not knowing what to do in the situation. he let go and said his thank you's, and waved you goodbye. you stood their for a minute more, completely still and cheeks still red. "what the fuck was that?"

THAT night, you, klee and kaeya set up the tavern to make it more "fun looking", as klee put it. diluc, venti, lisa, and amber were finishing up doing jean's odd jobs while aether and paimon were busy distracting jean until everything was ready. as klee threw decorations around the tavern, you and the eye-patch wearing man were in charge of sorting out the drinks and food. it was a strange, awkward silence, which you felt was out of character for the cavalry captain, so, you decided to break the silence, "what made you want to do this anyway?"

he chucked, and looked down, "well, if she gets a break, that means we get a break too," he joked. you playfully rolled your eyes at his words. "this was a really sweet idea, y'know,"

he looked up at you, placing down the drinks in his hand. "oh?" he gave you one of his famous chuckles and locked his gaze with yours, "thank you, really, but-"

"alright! everything is set" the burst of the door quickly caught your attention, a quiet, yet audible groan coming from kaeya as you looked away. amber, lisa, and diluc stepped in, admiring the work the 3 of you did. amber and venti went straight to the food and alcohol, mouths watering, diluc went behind the counter, getting ready for jean's arrival, lisa went to greet you and klee, also getting ready for the grand master's arrival. kaeya stood near you, crossing his arms.

"surprise!"

everybody shouted when the door opened, revealing aether, paimon, and the woman of the hour. she looked perplexed, but after kaeya and amber explained, she seemed ecstatic, and even a little emotional. "well, come on now, let's have fun!" she announced joyfully.

AS everyone mingled around, you served drinks and talked to the attendees, having a nice time socialising with others. looking around, you spotted kaeya sitting alone in the back of the room, back facing everybody, a drink in one hand, his head in the other. he was hunched over, twirling his drink, staring at the marks on the table. you went over to him, feeling bad for the man, and placed a hand on his broad shoulder.

"hey, enjoying the party?" he asked, swiftly sitting up, rubbing his eyes with his sleeve and facing you. you rubbed his shoulder, looking down at him, "are you okay?"

he stared at you for a second, before looking down again. "yes, i'm fine," his voice was breathy and you could barely hear him from the loud chatter and clank of plates and cups in the back.

"your the one who arranged his party, why aren't you with the others?" it was a stupid question. you knew that his co-workers weren't very fond of him and you began to think that kaeya was starting to catch onto it. his shoulders began to slightly shake, your hand quickly moved away from him. "kaeya?"

you looked around before taking his arm and guiding him up, outside the tavern. his arm was still covering his upper face, from embarrassment, perhaps? you took him behind the tavern and sat him down on one of the tables, making sure that there was nobody around to see the two of you. sitting next to him, you leaned on your crossed arms and looked at him, his face still covered.

you embraced him, his arms quickly wrapping around you, body still softly shaking. you could feel your uniform getting damp from his tears as you whispered sweet nothings into his ears and laced your hands through his smooth, navy hair. you sighed,

this was going to be a long night.

NAVIGATION ♡

[pj-was-here]

Expanding more on my Mystic Elements au

Raphael

Jean took one look at Raph and went "yep your coming home with me"

Raph picks Jean up like a sack of potatoes and drags her off to bed via suggestion from Lisa (also after learning of the Dandelion Knight's tendency to overwork courtesy of said librarian)

Barbara and the other kids and teens perch on Raph's shoulders like a free ride

Raph is also Klee's big brother among many of them

Basically Barbara's body gaurd (may or may not have yeeted Albert)

Also drags sucrose and albedo to bed, food and hydration because of his experience with Donnie

Literally all the kids and teens big brother

Vibes with Jean's tortoise, Sir Dandy

Patches up Benny's boo boos whenever they go out on an adventure also tries his best to make sure said adventurer doesn't get hurt

Has no clue wtf Fischl is saying but he listens

Razor and him hunt together

Somehow managed to patch up Kaeya and Diluc's relationship (advice was taken from things he learned from Dr. feelings) Diluc and Kaeya should be grateful Mikey didn't end up in Mondstadt

Teaches Noelle the importance of saying no and also said care in turn Noelle teaches him about how to effectively use geo

Noelle can pick him up with ease

Jean can too cause of how freaking heavy sir dandy is

Michaelangelo

Is stuffed full of random ass trivia from listening to Zhongli rambling

Pulls pranks with hu tao and also teaches how to cook well, tries to

Visits ganyu everyday to give her a proper lunch

Took awhile but now Ganyu looks much better, has a proper sleep schedule, eats the proper amount of food and has some self confidence (still a work on progress on that

Cloud Retainer has once again adopted a random child that child being Mikey

Mikey and Xiangling bond over cooking, Mikey is learning alot from ingredient experimentation despite his prior reluctance

Helped cool Chongyun down and has since been helping him on ghost hunts

Dr. Delicate Touch and Xingqiu beat up bad guys together whenever they run into eachother

Has learned to properly play a guitar now courtesy of Xinyan, they have lessons on the weekends

Helped Yelan out in an investigation once, Yelan now brings in the services of Dr. Delicate Touch whenever she has a rather... Uncooperative suspect

Lives with Zhongli in his surprisingly majestic house

Beidou brought Mikey to Ningguang's office and begged her wife if they could keep him

Ningguang eventually gave in and allows it cause of the puppy eyes

Xiangling and Xinyan teach him how to use pyro through unconventional means (read: accidental arson, cooking and SFX concerts)

Leonardo

Gives Sara the headache of a life time

Became a part of Itto's gang for a bit when he first came to Inazuma

Eventually joins the resistance after seeing how awful the decree is

Is terrified of Shinobu

Has adopted Sayu as a little sis and gave surprisingly good ninjaing advice

Is very thankful for the Japanese lessons Splinter gave him and his bros

Kids love him, adults hate him

Became besties with Ayaka, somehow

Will not hesitate to kill Takayuki on the spot after finding more about Sara

Gorou and him make a surprisingly good team despite their constant arguing

Leo gets wierd vibes from Kokomi first time around but he eventually puts that gut feeling aside and becomes friends with Kokomi

Yae and Him are menaces to society

Loves the inazuman cuisine and also eats the bean stuff for itto so the big guy won't get an allergic reaction

Him and ayato spar so Leo can get a hand with his hydro

Donatello

An absolute menace to the entirety of the akademiya

Keeps getting chased by the Corps of Thirty even after beating each of their asses

Stole research from a corrupt scholar and has been stealing from other corrupt scholars ever since

There hands with Cyno and somehow survived

Basically Collei's strange but caring in his own way big bro

Made a crossbow for her to make being a forest ranger easeir

Tighnari and him get along like a house on fire, both hate cyno's jokes

Basically adopted Nahida emotionally after she enters his dream

Nahida visits his dreams first ever since she accidentally entered them

Nahida has taught Donnie on how to feel and also ✨emotions✨

Apart of the Nahida rescue group

Argues with Alhaitham every. Waking. Moment. But understands eachothers reasoning and makes the plan even more successful

Candace has taught him the importance of sleep schedules by scaring the crap out of him. She reminds him of raph only less of a teddy bear and more scary

Made Dehya's claymore more destructive by adding Flaming Stamen powder and now it's a flaming claymore

as their going through the waiting period of Operation: Archon Rescue Cyno teaches him on how to use electro

[gold-rhine]

For the bodypart canons askgame can we get Neuvillette? If you don't have much about him yet then I wanna be the first one to ask for Kaeya

I already did for Neuvi! In fact its easier for him bc he just came out, so i have a lot of things to extrapolate from, but I was writing long ass essays for kaeya for more than a year, so its harder to come up with anything new to say asdfghj. like i don't to repeat same headcanons i already wrote, like that he's related to candace

Headcanon: I can muster a cogent argument for why it would make more sense or make for a better story if this were the case

i've gotta say, i'm a bit peeved when i see ppl portraying child kaeya as like. a dickensian beggar boy who was let to the fireplace and cried bc he tried a cube of sugar for the first time in his life. like, alberichs are nobility and we know khaenriah took their nobility *very* seriously. and if they knew they are sending their scion to mond's nobility, they'd make damn sure he can keep up their dignity. kaeya canonically could read and write before he got to mond and game makes sure to highlight that his handwriting is beautiful.

i think kaeya was very well educated, very well schooled and mannered and prepared for like high society politics, and it was kind of a cultural shock for him how uncivilized ragnyvdirs are in comparison to his own upbringing. like he's a bit confused when he doesn't see 10 different forks at the dinner table, but he's keeping a brave face, but then he sees diluc wipe his mouth with a sleeve and like snatch a piece of meat from the dish and is just completely stunned. and diluc is like oh don't be shy, you can have more too if you want!, but kaeya is in fact seeing a heart attack his own father would have at this scene. this is why he comes off as very quiet and polite to all adults at the estate

Heartcanon: I don’t have a particular rationale for why this ought to be the case, I just like to imagine it’s true because it gives me the warm fuzzies

my conspiracy theory headcanon is that he does still have his horse, but doesn't use her for work. like when he just became a knight as a teen, he saw a horse that no one wanted or ever chose bc she had horrible temper, and slowly gained her trust with treats and attention until they've became friends like a true horsegirl would. that horse was left in mond bc she doesn't let anyone else ride her, so the expedition just left her to kaeya, but he just treats her like a luxury pet and spoils her to death

Gutcanon: it’s not that I actively want this to be the case – it just unaccountably feels like it should be

the first ability from his vision that ever activated was his C4 shield when diluc cleaved him on the head and this is what saved his life. this shield is v useful, but kaeya hates it as a reminder. he also has pretty big burnscar on his eye, bc like. he took a flaming claymore to the eye, no way he has a dainty little white line from a hit like that

Junkcanon: I like to imagine it’s true because it gives me the other kind of warm fuzzies

has a collection of corsets and elaborate lingerie sets. like, you open the corset on his default outfit and there is another, even sexier corset underneath

Spleencanon: I insist that this is the case specifically to spite the author, because, like, fuck you, sir or madam

every time hoyo tries to gaslight us into pretending diluc was right and in fact normal about kaeya and the knights the whole time, i'm sending psychic spiders to them on the astral plane

[sakurabl0ss0m]

okayokay imagine taking diluc out on a date and you take him to a secret spot where you can both breath out in public but also in private. but, here’s the catch;

kaeya took you here once. he’s the reason why you even remember that place at all. and when diluc find ouutttt, he immediately feels the need to:

a) whisk you out of there

and

b) fuck you senseless

now, see, he does that. but in reverse.

now diluc, as you said, heavily dislikes having to feel superior or above someone else because he could really couldn’t gaf less. esspecially when it involves kaeya. and having sex outside, even if it’s a private space, is incredibly risky. but see the thing here is it’s you.

the fact you mentioned kaeya at all means that you meant to rile diluc one way or the other, and judging by the way his grip on your body becomes clawing, you definitely achieved your unspoken wish.

Come off anon I need to give you a kiss to ur face 😘

“I don’t like him,” Diluc said, referring to the cavalry captain when you asked about him. “-For obvious reasons,” Ah he was such a sweetheart, sidestepping any boundaries. “I don’t quite like any of the favonius knights really.”

You had given him some hard puppy eyes. “-except you, obviously.”

So you both agreed to rarely speak of him. After you eventually get over him, you feel more lax using him as the butt of the jokes you cracked in private. But Diluc doesn’t. He doesn’t want to hear you speak a single syllable of his name. Seeing you give a smile while saying kaeyas name made the barista quite irritated. He hated feeling jealous, it really was the worst feeling in the world. You already told him many moons ago that there was nothing to even be jealous of, ut still.

It’s not that he was afraid of you leaving him, the two of you tied that knot up long ago, it’s just… He really hated the sight of you grinning with the thought of Kaeya in mind. In all honesty, he would have preferred if you were still a bit downtrodden and hesitant to even think about him. But no, because then you’d still have a frown on your face and archons did Diluc hate it when you frowned.

So , one night in bed, your beloved came to you upfront about it. How he disliked hearing his half-brothers name roll off the same tongue you kissed him with. You had almost laughed in his face if it weren’t for the way he looked so serious about it. Thus, you instead let out a sensual chuckle and slithered your way up his body. “You are too cute.” And it took Diluc his all to not break out into an uncontrollable blush. “Tell you this, every time I speak Kaeyas name, you can feel free to do whatever you want with me. “ That was a challenge he’d accept.

Thus, the wheels were set in motion. Whenever you made a slip up and mentioned the knight, you’d find Diluc gripping some part of your body like it was some precious item. You’d only pull these stunts in the privacy of the Dawn Winery, where you’re sure you’d get all the privacy needed to commit such adulterous acts. It was painfully noticeable how Diluc was getting increasingly more irritated to the point you’d be on your knees in the same breath.

He really didn’t want you saying that name.

And one day, it hit you. Diluc seemed like he was reaching his limit with the amount of times you’ve uttered the forbidden into the air in his vicinity. Slowly yet surely losing sense of self-control and submit to a mixture of jealousy and carnal desire, both completely out of character for the reserved gentleman.

A plan hatched into your brain, one that’d give the results you wanted.

“This is where Kaeya took me, on our first date.”

You had worn a pitiful smile, making it seem like you were truly reminiscing old times. But Diluc knew better, he knew you. “I only know it even exists because of him, in fact.” Every word you spoke, you could tell you were tipping him over the edge with. The look in his eyes told you that he was contemplating whether to take you here, in public although secret, or run you home first.

“He even stole my first kiss here, too.”

Fuck you into the ground it was.

Not like anyone would ever visit this place anyways.

It didn’t take long before you were violently pressed against a tree, the same tree Kaeya corned you up against and kissed you at, all sense of gentlemanliness from Diluc having been thrown to the wind. Your legwear was pulled down to reveal your bare plump ass. No underwear, of course. You’d plan this just for him to drill into you out in the (not so) open. At this point, he didn’t even care. he just felt the need to give into his selfish desire and thoroughly wreck you. “Haa- I thought you, hng, h-hated the idea public sex?” You questioned in between your own moans as he rubbed his rock hard erection against your ass, a throbbing already growing. He was really going through with this, you sincerely thought he wouldn’t. Alas, you should've known better than to challenge a mans sensual urges.

“Th-the risk of getting caught is-” He snatched whatever you were going to say left in a passionate kiss, feeling your lips vibrate with a submissive wail. “I don’t give a damn about that right now.” And you felt your knees buckle at the dominance in his voice.

Being Diluc, he’d find one way to make it so that you won’t scream too loud, but you’ll be screaming nonetheless so be prepared.

[meili-sheep]

Diluc's Mondstadt Relationships in detail 1/4

So here is the low key follow up post to my Diluc Mondstadt relationship chart I think I'm gonna part it for length and readability

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Albedo and Diluc

Introverts United. They are 2 of the people who can best handle Dragonspine, and they just hang out there in total silence. And that's OK. They totally respect each other's personal space and boundaries. Diluc often gathers materials for Albedo or helps him conduct experiments. Especially ones that require his strength. Diluc doesn't expect anything in return, but when Albedo comes up with anything useful. Diluc is one of the first to know.

People are incredibly surprised when they learn Diluc and Albedo have interacted at all.

Now. I don't really see these guys getting too romantic as I both see them as incredible asexual, and neither is very romantic. But I feel it's a very compatible and cute ship. Totally a secret a though... Not on purpose. Neither just speaks about their relationship to anyone else.

Amber and Diluc

Amber is an outrider. She scouts and escorts the essential goods of Mondstadt. Meaning she ends up helping Diluc out a lot regardless of whether he wants it or not. I feel Diluc, especially during the Stormterror events, bought the city many emergency supplies, and Amber was in charge of seeing the supplies get to where they needed to go. And this really kind of got them close. Not to mention I think Eula and Amber's friendship has really got Amber able to translate Diluc's behavior.

Have we all seen the video by now? You know this one? I think it hit Amber one day. DILUC HAS A LONG-ASS WALK HOME. (And let's be real Diluc probably has a horse or uses the waypoints or something but either way) Amber also realizes. Diluc himself is essential to Mondstadt. Even if she doesn't realize that he is the Darknight hero. He's still a willing and substantial financial support to the city. And takes care of a lot of the Knights might not think of (homelessness, food banks, soup kitchen) So! As an Outrider and a knight! It's her job to make sure he gets home safely! And you know it helps she feels he needs some friends! So that's how Amber started taking the off-the-clock duty of walking Diluc home at night. And honestly, Diluc really enjoys the company even if now he has to work his darknight activities around her.

Barbara and Diluc

So I don't think these 2 interact a whole lot. But Barbara is a regular performer at Angel's Share. She's incredibly nervous around Diluc partly because of what she knows of him from Jean, partly because she might low key think his hate of the knights extends to her maternal family and by proxy her, and partly because he just has RBF.

Diluc, on his end, has no ill-feeling towards Barbara at all. Since he personally knows the Anemo god, He doesn't really agree with the church. It provides invaluable services to the community, so he's pretty for it. Doesn't help if we are talking Chromic pain Diluc, so he's often at the church to get medication. And Barbara's music might not be to his taste. He does enjoy her performances and how they bring such a nice happy atmosphere to his tavern.

I think well Barbara does try to avoid Diluc. She does thank him for letting her perform at his tavern, and eventually, Diluc kinda get tired of how stressed she looked while thanking him, so he just gives her a head pat and is just like

"It's nothing. Your performances are good." And He's gone leaving a confused Barbara and a Venti who witness the even pouting in the corner cause why he never gets Master Diluc head pats.

(Small unrelated Headcanon Diluc's head pats are 10-star item like the Mondstadt Equavialnt of a Paul Hollywood handshake )

Bennett and Diluc

Now I've already touched on this. But Bennett is Diluc's student and a little son. Doesn't matter they are only like 6 years apart. That's Diluc boy, and you better not fuck say anything or touch him.

And I think that when Bennett grows up, he's gonna be a beast. And Diluc will be so proud.

But because I'm the Diluc pain train. I'd like the idea that Bennett just hangs around more he ends up seeing little weaker moments off Diluc. Particularly Diluc when he is tired and running on empty, and Diluc maybe in pain (Migraine/ Chronic pain Diluc). And Bennett does his best to help out where he can. Will run out and do chores for Bennett, though Diluc isn't a fan of this cause well often Bennett comes back looking worst than Diluc feels and so it turns into Diluc trying to mother hen the poor kid who just brushes it off as his bad luck.

[caelestis-composition]

killshot anon! YEAH i totally agree w/ your view on kaeya. it's so weird to me that people will blame him for his role in a situation he was forced into as a child through no choice of his own. that itself had to be traumatic, not to mention everything that happened later. i hate when people say he's untrustworthy - like yeah, he's lied, so has everyone? it's clear he does it mostly to protect himself. not to mention that (& sadism) can be symptoms of trauma. kaeya deserves nothing but happiness

take a seat folks it’s time for a “brynn should’ve been an english major” lesson! today we’re gonna learn some literary theory; specifically, we’re gonna apply psychoanalytical trauma theory to kaeya’s backstory and current character. killshot anon i bet you never thought this would result in a whole ass essay.

disclaimer one! you are allowed to dislike kaeya! i am not saying you need to like him or his character, you’re entitled to your opinion and i’m not here to change your mind.

disclaimer two! i am in no way an expert and this is all for fun! this is just my silly little analysis of one of my favorite characters as someone who’s studied literary theory and rhetoric and can also apply personal experience. seriously analysis is like a hobby to me and this is just an excuse for me to ramble about kaeya.

disclaimer three! this contains lots of spoilers! basically for everything we know in-game, general knowledge as well as stuff from his voicelines and character story. don’t read this if you don’t want spoilers.

since this is going to be filled with spoilers and is about to get really long, everything will be under a cut. for those who wanna read my dumb super informal essay: enjoy!

final note: yeah this is over 2000 words long can you tell i like analysis

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let’s start by getting a quick rundown of trauma theory out of the way. to begin, what is “trauma?” in this case, trauma is going to refer to an experience that greatly affects and changes one’s life; attitudes, memories, behaviors, mental state, etc. while not all changes may be bad, per se, the overall effect of trauma is generally a negative one, which is why it’s so significant. literary trauma theory, then, explores these changes and the impact of trauma in literature. it analyzes the psychological and social effects of trauma, explaining what those effects are and why they happen. in the context of a specific character, trauma theory breaks down said character’s behaviors, feelings, and general mentality in relation to their past experiences; trauma theory hopes to explain to others the reasons for why a character may act or feel the way they do, all based upon the character’s experiences, particularly traumatic ones. our character today is the lovely kaeya alberich, with the “literature” being genshin impact. i’ll be referencing kaeya’s wiki page to ensure i get all details correct for his character story and voicelines.

it would be good to review kaeya’s backstory before delving into the actual analysis. though we don’t know much about his life before living in mondstadt, we’re told he was sent as an agent of khaenri’ah. and by “sent,” i mean his biological father abandoned him in a completely unfamiliar land to serve khaenri’ah’s interests and fullfil his mission—what this entirely entails hasn’t been revealed. mondstadt, however, welcomed kaeya “with open arms when they found him.” crepus ragnvindr took him in as his adopted son, with diluc as his adopted brother. kaeya and diluc were “almost like twins,” so close they “[knew] each other’s thoughts and intentions without a word.” he’d began a new life in mondstadt, one surrounded by friends and family that loved him; one that was completely shattered by crepus’s death. kaeya arrived at the scene of the disaster, and was led to believe diluc was the one who killed their father to “set his father free” from the effects of his delusion. there’d always been one big question in kaeya’s life: if it came down to it, who would he support? the nation that abandoned him, but he still felt loyal to, or the nation and family that took him in and really loved him? overrun with guilt, kaeya confessed his purpose to diluc, sparking a fight between the two brothers. in this fight, kaeya receives his cryo vision. though both brothers stepped away alive, they’ve never been able to make peace with one another. now, kaeya is the eccentric and charming cavalry captain of the knights of favonius; a man who gets his way by using any means necessary, regardless of whether or not it seems right.

kaeya’s not evil; he’s morally ambiguous, and that stems from what appears to be a general distrust of others. his life is one shrouded in secrecy. from the moment he stepped foot into mondstadt, he was surrounded by secrets. even now, he doesn’t talk about a lot of things, namely his past, vision, and feelings. though he’s always willing to get information out of others, kaeya never reveals anything about himself. he repeatedly tells the player they can confide in him, but whenever you try and pry into his life, he deflects your questions with some sort of witty comment or flirty remark. anything he does reveal is vague, or spoken in some sort of “code.” for example, his “interesting things” voiceline. he tells us about the owl of dragonspine, how it “seems to look right through you, while letting go of none of its own secrets,” and then tacks on a “quite fascinating, don’t you think?” it seems like an awfully accurate parallel to himself; kaeya does all he can to get information from others, but never gives anything about himself. now, this whole thing—his relationship with diluc falling apart and his need for secrecy—could have probably been avoided if he had just come clean about his mission years ago. so why didn’t he? to start, kaeya was a literal child. not only are children unable to properly tell the difference between right and wrong, but they’ll also typically follow their parents’ orders blindly. kaeya had just been abandoned, and he wouldn’t want to risk being cast out by mondstadt as well if he came clean right away. you see, there’s this thing about trauma, something that trauma theory states. traumatized people feel a sort of shame or guilt regarding their traumatic experience; they’ll keep quiet because they don’t want to cause problems or bother others with their issues. of course kaeya wouldn’t tell the truth about his past, he doesn’t want to destroy the genuinely loving relationships he’d built in mondstadt. his fight with diluc only proves what he was afraid of: if he’s honest, he’ll be abandoned again. and if kaeya’s used to all the lies, why should he bother changing?

another thing, if he’s not going to tell the truth, then why would he have initially gone along with his father’s plans? again, he was a child. he really had no choice, and was forced into a very wrong and cruel situation. there’s a good explanation for this, too, which is also stated in trauma theory; traumatized people will still do their best to please their abusers. especially if said abuser is a parent, that will drive traumatized people to work even harder to please them. although his father hurt him by ruthlessly abandoning him, kaeya still sought to make him and his homeland proud. he was willing to be used as a tool for their gain; that is, until he found people who actually cared about him. he was an impressionable child, of course he’s going to obey orders. but as he gets older, he feels torn. does he serve those who abandoned him, or those that took him in? his father—and arguably, khaenri’ah as a whole—hurt him, sure, but he still feels some loyalty and connection to his former home. instead of revealing anything, he lets the situation play out. that way, he can’t be blamed when things fall apart.

the thing about claiming he’s untrustworthy is that hardly anyone in-game believes that. he’s adored by the older folks in mondstadt, and foes and allies alike find him easy to talk to. despite seeming lazy and uninterested in work, kaeya takes his job very seriously. in fact, his story states that crepus’s death was the “first and only time kaeya failed in his duty.” the “only time” is especially important, because it signifies kaeya still fulfills his duties successfully. he’s had a total of one slip-up, and hasn’t failed since. no, kaeya is not untrustworthy. rather, kaeya finds everyone else untrustworthy. it’s not unlikely that this is a direct consequence of being abandoned as a child. although it’s been established that kaeya and diluc were very close as children, when crepus dies, kaeya assumes diluc is the one that killed him. in order to jump to such an extreme conclusion against someone he was so close to, there had to be some underlying sense of distrust. furthermore, kaeya expresses feeling as though he doesn’t belong anywhere. he was abandoned by khaenri’ah, and then worried he wouldn’t be accepted by mondstadt. he is, but there’s still that worry. if you place him in your teapot as a companion, he tells you that your home feels like someplace he belongs, following it up with a “heh, who’d have thought…” kaeya still feels as though he doesn’t belong in mondstadt; despite the fact that he’s a high-ranking knight of favonius and rather popular, he still feels like an outsider. he doesn’t trust that anyone actually wants him around, and he finds joy in testing peoples’ trustworthiness. it’s noted in his story and through his voicelines that the beloved cavalry captain has a rather sadistic nature. he likes putting people into difficult situations, to see what decisions they will make. he does this to both opponents and allies, testing to see who’s going to back out and who’ll keep fighting; in the sake of allies, who can he trust? or who will turn tail and abandon their teammates at the slightest hint of danger? i mentioned it previously, but kaeya doesn’t care what measures he has to take so long as his job gets done and he gets the answers he wants. it’s a sort of self-preserving mindset, putting himself above the safety of others. kaeya’s trying to protect himself, which makes sense with all he’s been through. he doesn’t want to be hurt, and instead finds pleasure in threatening harm upon others. it’s twisted, sure, but it’s because he can only trust himself in a world that he believes is out to get him. he’s got as many enemies—if not more—as he does allies; of course kaeya focuses on protecting himself first, whether physically or through keeping his secrets, well, secret.

his most obvious traumatic effect is definitely his alcoholism. but he uses it as a distraction, not just to wallow in self-pity. this is seen again in his story, particularly in story 3. it’s found that when his favorite drink, death after noon, is out of season, mondstadt’s crime rate is decreased drastically. at face value, this just means kaeya spends more time working when death after noon is low in supply. but kaeya doesn’t skip work to go to taverns; it’s already been established he takes his job very seriously, so this means he actually patrols and tracks down threats while off work when he can’t indulge in his favorite alcoholic drink. he doesn’t get drunk simply because he’s depressed. if he did, there wouldn’t be a drop in incidents when death after noon is out of season. no, kaeya uses both the alcohol and fighting to distract himself. after all, it’s a little hard to think about feeling sad when you’re either drunk out of your mind or fighting for your life.

despite being so secretive, kaeya gives us glimpses of his true emotions from time to time. as previously mentioned, his flirty attitude is nothing more than a mask to hide how he really feels; and kaeya is terribly, terribly lonely. that may be why he seems so extroverted. constantly being around people should, logically, drive away that feeling, but it doesn’t work like that. when he talks with the player, he frequently expresses disappointment when you have to leave. each time, though, he dampens the weight of his words with playful or flirty language. he’s lonely, but doesn’t want you to know that, like he’s afraid of asking you to stay. he takes the seriousness of his feelings, and basically bends it into some sort of lighthearted joke. kaeya hides his true feelings—negative feelings, to be exact—so that he doesn’t bother anyone. which is, again, something that happens with traumatized people. he displays that hesitance to reveal his true feelings, because there’s a shame or guilt that comes with his past. he doesn’t want to bother others or hold them back, so he puts on a smile and amps up the charisma. one other very important thing—but very small detail—i would like to note is his feelings toward family. his fell apart not even once, but twice, and kaeya still holds familial relationships in high regard. we know he doesn’t exactly care how he goes about getting his work done. he doesn’t pay attention to what’s “right” or “wrong,” so long as he gets what he needs. but one of his informants, vile, notes that the cavalry captain has one exception: he won’t work with those who threaten others’ families. in fact, kaeya claims those who do should be hunted down and destroyed. even though his own families have caused him so much pain—and he ended up estranged from both—he still understands the importance of having people who love you in your life. because he didn’t get that.

kaeya’s not evil. ultimately, as a knight of favonius, his goal is to protect others, because no one was there to protect him. and because no one was there to protect him, because he’s been hurt time and time again by people who were supposed to love him, kaeya has taken to protecting himself. he hides any and all negative feelings with a charismatic, friendly façade, because he thinks it’ll drive away his persistent loneliness. any “bad” actions of his were hardly his fault; he was forced into a life of secrecy and lies, and then abandoned by the first people who truly loved him. kaeya’s a multi-faceted, tragic character, one that toes the line between good and evil, and that’s what makes him so interesting.