#eugh. im fucking crying again lmao

[cryptic-science]

last night i was trying to remember what year we moved into this house but i got distracted and started looking through old photos. i ended up finding these photos of me and my papa. i immediately started crying lmao

this was on my birthday, i think it was either my 3rd or my 4th.

i miss him so fucking much.

[cascadiiing]

So I watched up to season 3 of aot and picked up from there on the manga and read it all yesterday and

What

I'm so lost

Why did it turn into that

I love pretty much everything up to the time skip. Or maybe everything up to when they find out theres other people. I have elected to ignore that anything past season 3 is canon

[mrjarviss]

Watching Onision’s weird videos so you don’t have to [as of 13.12.2019]

so this is totally not the content i post on my blog normally, but like, the situation is really entertaining in a certain way. it’s just the biggest, most obnoxious cringefest ever, most videos have the same premise, and why even give him the views. so like, lets summarize the videos oops

shaky cam™

complains about his videos being disliked

cries about people “harassing” him [yes, apparently disliking a video equals harassment]

rips down his green screen while screaming and shirtless

starts crying and pretends to gag [that’s a reoccurring theme]

Quote: *destroys his entire setup* “YOU LOOK AT THIS, YOU LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID!”

ok ok

man’s sitting in that chair like your mom when she found out you failed a class

tries to be arthur fleck way too much

“haha guys my last video was just a joke lmao im totally mentally stable”

anyways, ppl comment “okay groomer” and he is triggered

[ain’t sure if he’s being sarcastic since i’m bad at detecting that, but] he interprets ‘groomer’ as someone who is clean

smears shit in his face

screams

cries

almost pukes

cries more

Quote: “please stop calling me a groomer” *nasty sobs and face covered in shit* “EUGH THEY WONT GIVE ME MY PATREON BACK” *literally has a little seizure*

plees

talked to his therapist

wants to ask ppl nicely to delete all the videos made about him

wants a fresh start

“pity me” basically

screaming and laughing again

wants ppl to tolerate his temper tantrums

TL;DR remove your videos about onision and give him a second chance

pretends to cough up blood

Quote: [after literally screaming about how little ppl tolerate him] “I’m supposed to do this calmly though.”

now

"hey guys my therapist told me to say sorry”

begging on his knees to get his patreon back

crying

takes off his shirt for no reason

loses it, runs to another room and pours soda on himself

screaming

Quote: “When you deleted my patreon my soul died! My soul DIED INSIDE MY BODY! I FELT IT LIKE A LITTLE INFANT BABY GROWING INSIDE MY BELLY, IT DIED!!”

bye

nobody understands him

no therapist for onion boi this time

another apology

wants to work at McDonalds

got the wrong application

jump cut: he takes his shirt off again

cringy employee practice round

screams suddenly and his clothing rack falls on him

Quote: “Just let me live in peace and let me have my McDonalds job.”

left

presumably kai kicked him out

packs his shit, cries and gags

“shut up, stop laughing”

cries in car, drool all over his chin

Quote: “I’ll see you in court.”

help

lives in the woods now

protests against patreon by being homeless (???)

literally doesn’t understand what he did wrong

doesn’t want to be called the “joker of youtube” anymore

y’all he’s the victim, this is so sad :’((

pours kombucha on his body while doing caveman noises and (?)laughing(?)

screams bc he wasted 7 dollar kombucha

Quote: “people will say you did something wrong, even though you didn’t. like, you literally didn’t do anything intentionally wrong ever.”

dissoultion

kai wants a dissolution

he took the fucking kids, yo

the thing he’s prob most mad about is that they misgendered his not-so-significant other

little seizure N° 2 + pterodactyl screeching

more gagging and crying

Quote: “i’m fine :). this is fine, this will work out. you know, we-we uh, we had 7 years together” [...] *screaming*

im done

some person let him sleep in a box outside their house

brought a whole huge af container with apple juice so he can drink it whenever he gags

apple juice gets in his eyes

crying

joker laughing

the guy who let him sleep outside his house must be regretting it rn

Quote: “sorry i brought some apple juice... to drink... whenever i start - gagging. i got this from one of the *swallows* uhhhhh free food shelters trump’s trying to shut down.”

i want custody

upgrade from box to shitty hotel

still salty about his patreon

also still salty about kai kicking him out

also also still salty about being called ‘the joker’

boutta sue his ex

wants his dog back

screaming and gagging

crying in the shower

Quote: (passive-aggressive) “To the person who said my videos are bad, how about you unsubscribe?” *proceeds to joker laugh*

oh no

local man pretends to shit himself and cries about it

in the first few seconds his crying sounds like a race car

literally looks like he just poured coffee on his white shirt

shows random scratches on his leg and whines in pain while not even touching them

begs patreon to give him his account back

Quote: (referring to the shit on his shirt) “my lover used to clean this :(”

baby carrot

ppl saying he has a small dick

“guys my dick isn’t small”

screaming about his dick while showering in the hotel room

crying in the shower

threatens to post a pick of his dick

return of the caveman sounds

Quote: “this is not okay, the way you guys are bullying me and i don’t care if most of you are still in - fricking school. you can’t treat a human being like this.”

broke

begged for money on the street

another apology, like the third or fourth so far

-SIKE, it’s not an apology

calls himself the sirius black of youtube

gagging is apparently a condition

realizes that youtube isn’t working out

screams at camera

spits

he’s the victim, he gets bullied so much :(((

he watched the joker one too many times

Quote: (r/im14andthisisdeep) “they say the world is cold and cruel, as if it’s a complaint - yeah the people saying that are the people making it cold and cruel.” *fake laughing*

that is all the videos uploaded so far, let’s see how much onion boi can push it with those edgy vlogs of his

[red-sterling]

thanks for answering!! i hope you don't mind if i send more charas...how about green and/or lillie?

fhgjkfdg aw yea thank u!! hopefully this doesn’t publish before i’m done typing lol

also this definitely needs a readmore bc i got emotional abt Green oops

Green

favorite thing about them

first of all: the fact that Green canonically has a rivals to best friends arc with Red fills me with so much joy and YES they are on their alolan honeymoon you cannot convince me otherwise

okay like. gen 1 Green just perfectly encompasses what it’s like to be a ten year old in a way? like ofc he’s written like a kid bc he is a kid, but i feel like the writing on him just feels so genuine as compared to some of the other 10 yr old rivals you get in other regions. even though he’s kinda a brat at the start, he kinda eases up a bit as you go along your journey and starts giving you progressively nicer/more praise-y end lines when you beat him (going from “i picked the wrong pokémon!” to “so, you are ready for boss rocket!”) but still retains this childlike rivalry and competitiveness and i love that about him

and like. fucking beating him at the Indigo League still completely breaks my heart because even after he did become the champion at age 10 the first thing that happens is you beat him and Prof Oak just yells at him for being bad at things and like. ow. 

this is why i headcanon that Red actually took awhile longer to get to Green like please. please give my boy a chance to be happy and proud

also Red was caught up with Team Rocket anyway so i imagine he must’ve fallen a little behind at some point? anyway

the development on him across regions is so choice!!! he’s so much more mellow and even kinda melancholic when you find him in gsc/hgss, like he’s calmed down over a few years and he obviously misses Red so much but like, it’s clear that Red is kinda the reason Green does settle down and he seems to have worked on his character and become a nicer person - and he still has that sassy flair to him! he’s just got that gradual slope from asshole rival to kinda aloof gym leader to friendly/sassy battle legend and aaaaa i love my boy so MUCH

also huge point: he’s so fucking driven??? he’s got the most drive and the most passion for battles/pokémon in general out of all the rivals i feel. he’s only closely matched by Silver, but Silver seems to be more aggressive than passionate, and somewhat out of necessity too (like, Giovanni abandoned him what was he to do), whereas Green just really like. he genuinely just cares so much about battles and about pokémon in general! he literally calls you in hgss and just rants about how many different kinds of pokémon there are in the world!!!

also in Alola he’s like???? just so sweet?????? he congratulates you and is like hey you’re really strong lets battle like!!!!!!!!! supportive boy!!!!! he has come so far over so many generations and i cry

also on Four Island when you play frlg he legitimately says “Be smelling ya!” when he leaves and how do you not love this idiot

least favorite thing about them

i mean. while i get that you beat Green right after he becomes the champion in the kanto games i feel like there should’ve been more pomp and circumstance for him and i’ll never forgive gamefreak for giving this boy his dream, then making you rip it away from him, and then watching his own gramps yell at him for fucking up like. again it’s that drive, i get why Red keeps such good pace w Green but i just feel like he worked so hard and he deserved so much better than that

also while i’m very biased towards him bc Big Emotions, i feel like if i knew this boy irl who was constantly i’m so great and you’re a loser i would probably punch him eventually lmao. in theory it’s kinda endearing but as a real person that’d be grating 

favorite line

on one hand, “smell ya later” is so fucking iconic, but on the other - 

“I’m Blue. Man, this guy called Red brought me down in a heartbeat. I haven’t seen him in a long time…I wonder where he is and what he’s up to… Come to think of it, you look a little bit like Red. Yeah, you do. Just…Just a little bit. Whatever…”

my namelessshipping heart

ALSO NOT CANON BUT GREEN RANTING TO YOU ABOUT RED AND GETTING SO DISTRACTED THAT HE FORGETS TO GIVE YOU THE POKÉDEX????? BIG GAY

brOTP

for long elaborate headcanon reasons, i see him as being a good brotp with Kris - i headcanon her as also being really driven the way Green is, but more quiet about it, she’s kinda a good balance to him and they probably do pokemon research together. i also feel like she kept him sane while Red was still missing/before they found him on a fuckin mountain

OTP

do i really need to tell you that i’m 100% namelessshipping

like they perfectly balance each other. Green has all this energy and all this spunk and Red is just like… so opposite of him y'know? he’s quiet and he’s more measured in his behavior i feel, he doesn’t really rush into things as much, and yet they both really just took Kanto by storm when they were kids, and i like how they have this foil dynamic and are both still so successful? they’re so different and they complement each other in that way, and they both find success in their own ways

like one of the reasons i hate that Green’s championship gets undersold so much is that he did beat you to the punch, and he has been one step ahead of you, and there’s so much passion there and it’s so loud - and yet you as Red are just as driven, you take down Team Rocket, you’re always right on his tail, so close but not quite there, you’re the only one who can keep up with him and you’re the only one he cares enough about to slow down for

so like. idk with even all my headcanons about namelessshipping aside (and i can infodump those another day lol), i feel like the in-game representation of them just works. they just work so well together, they balance each other without ever holding each other back, and there’s something really beautiful about that in a relationship y'know

…..i feel bad abt not putting as much infodump about isshushipping now but oh well

nOTP

i don’t really have a notp with him? i kinda like. i basically just do namelessshipping, but i don’t get a visceral eugh when i see other ships with him, just kinda a well it’s not nameless so i’ll be on my way. idek what other ships w him are popular?? i’ve been in nameless hell since 2012 so 

random headcanon

while Red is still living on Mount Silver, Green is not coping well with having him so far away, and so Green massively overworks himself to the point that he keeps just not being in his gym sometimes bc he’s bouncing between the gym, training multiple teams, pokémon research, and ofc going to visit Red whenever he can. this leads him to be kinda temperamental after he’s been working on 2 hours of sleep a day for like a week until he just has an emotional meltdown and crashes, and then he gets right back into it because he has no self preservation

…….. nicer headcanon; Red can only cook two (2) foods, so Green cooks all the food for them when they move in together. he has attempted to teach Red how to cook, but Red pretends not to understand so Green will keep making him food. Green knows Red is faking it and doesn’t call him out bc he thinks it’s cute

unpopular opinion

look i’ve played through classic red version a few times and when i say he wasn’t that much of a jerk, i do genuinely mean he was not that much of a jerk. he’s like ten. ten year olds are just Like That. i guess this isn’t too unpopular anymore but it was Back In The Day and in some parts of the fandom he’s still seen as a jerk and like Bro He Is Ten In RGB/FRLG cut him some slack

also genuinely unpopular - Green is taller than Red. i know namelessshipping has fallen into the bara Red and twink Green trope but i refuse to let go of tall Green/short Red fuckin fight me why dont you

song i associate with them

a lot of the Pray For The Wicked album by Panic! at the Disco gives me Green vibes, more for the sound than for lyrics necessarily, but for some reason Roaring 20s just like. has the sound of Green to me. it’s somewhere between flamboyant pride and underlying insecurity that i think really encapsulates Green (or at least his subtext)

favorite picture of them

i genuinely love his let’s go concept art he’s such a sweet good boy?? 

and for the life of me i cannot find the op source on this but this is my fave pic of Green/namelessshipping in general that i’ve had saved since like 2012 maybe???

yeah if anyone can help me source that i’d appreciate it bc reverse image search only brings me to pinterest and random wattpad links :/

update: source seems to be the artist くる (pixiv id=982894) on pixiv, even though the original post got taken down (ty anon!)

Lillie

favorite thing about them

by now i guess you know im a sucker for character development, but i think they did a really good job with her!! i feel like her turn is a bit more in moments than it is with Green, who gradually evolves (lol) over the course of Kanto/all the gens overall. you see more discrete moments where Lillie starts to shift and gain confidence in herself and i am so proud of her ???? like the way she gets excited when she sees Olivia doin’ her z-move stuff, she starts buying her own clothes and getting ahead of you, etc etc

and like, she still has moments where she’s scared, there’s still some fundamental Lillie in there yknow? you don’t lose any of that softness that characterizes Lillie, she just like… she gets better, she develops without losing her Lillie vibe and i love that abt her. she overcomes a lot of the shit she had to deal with when she was stuck with Lusamine, she stands up to Lusamine eventually, and ghfdkjsg gah she’s a sweet gorl i love and appreciate her

also like. the writing on her backstory is so subtle in-universe. like yeah she literally looks like Lusamine’s daughter and you see her in the opening cutscene leaving Aether, but as the protagonist - like as Selene lets say, there’s little hints about where Lillie came from, and if you suspend your disbelief and put yourself in the pc’s shoes, there’s subtly to her character arc that i like 

also like. when she changes her outfit and starts being more protagonist-y, like more confident and kinda bubbly instead of shy??? love that shit it’s so cute can i have custody of this child pls

least favorite thing about them

i like. sometimes feel like she’s too soft of a character for me to really get into? like i love her and Hau, they’re sweet good friends, but i tend to personally gravitate towards characters that create a little more tension (ie Green and N)

(though on that note, Hau can be kinda savage. he just calls Faba out and sarcastically calls Gladion “a ray of sunshine” at some point i think?? Lillie is just very tender and i will support her forever, but i think that also makes her almost too soft to keep me fixated on her yknow. it’s not even a flaw in her character but just not something i fawn over as much)

favorite line

“I’m so glad I got to meet everyone. I’m so glad I got to meet you.”

like that ending kills me but that line almost feels like. I Feel That So Much like i feel so happy to have met all these new characters and to have played these games, and i feel like some of the player’s energy and enjoyment of the game is channeled into this last line of hers 

also GET IN THE BAG

brOTP

probably her and Hau?? idk, i don’t have a specific brotp for her but i like her just hangin around w the other Alola kids, so like her, Hau, Gladion, and the protag kids. they’d raise hell together and Lillie continues to be the only one with some impulse control

(Gladion also has some impulse control but keeps getting annoyed by Hau and so he gets dragged into their nonsense anyway)

OTP

Selene and Lillie is. Good. idk what the ship name is but it’s canon

nOTP

i dont even know if people ship her with Gladion but incest is a big no-no in my house

random headcanon

when she goes to Kanto, i bet she’d pick Bulbasaur as a starter if she was given the opportunity - and if not, she’d probably catch a wild Vulpix 

unpopular opinion

idk if have any unpopular opinions for her?? 

song i associate with them

i have no reason to associate this with her but the Rainy Day theme from acgc just. has a vibe about it. i think a lot of ac music feels like it suits her

favorite picture of them

i found this art of her through a lofi remix of her theme awhile back and it’s so pleasing to look at? her hair is nice and the colors are so warm n happy gjhkfdgf

if you read this far, congratulations!!! and i’m sorry

[booabug]

Catalyst liveblog

Preface:

^ - ω - ^ ^・ω・^ ^ • ω • ^  ^ • ω • ^ ฅ ⌐■-■ ⌐^■ ω■^ YEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!

haha here we go im terrified lets go omg she smooch her forehead :3c a FAMILY of heroes lmao plagg telling it like it is again JFC HOW MANY EFFIGIES OF HIS WIFE DOES THIS MAN HAVE MANOR DESIGNED SO YOU CAN STARE AT EMILIE WITHIN ANY 10S WALK Nathalie no oh Lila went international damn you know you're going too far when ALYA calls you out on muckraking LMAO MARI BANGING HER HEAD IN THE BG Lila :( HOO HOO I love Damoc- I MEAN OWL BRO DUDDE MAN so much omg their shy smiles [sobbing] Nino's so sOFT [intensified sobbing] ALYA HOLY SHIT? FUCKING ACCESSIBILITY CRUSADER DAMN Marinette m a r i n e t t e . . . ilu sabine ; u; ilu marinette ; u; ilu gorilla ; u; I fuckING HATE YOU GABE FUCKING ISOLATING AND MAKING A KID LIVE IN FEAR WITHOUT EVEN BEING IN HER LIFE THAT'S NEXT LEVEL ABUSE NEXT DIMENSION ABUSE NATHALIE YOU'RE AN ACCOMPLICE TO THIS SHIT!!! WTF how r u even attracted to that smile jfc every time eugh YO WE BETTER GET RENA fox vs fox SHOWDOWN HOLY SHIT THAT'S DARK D A M N GOOD SHIT, SHOW ashes to ashes dust to dust yo hoLY SHITIT WASN'T EVEN HIS FINAL FORM ... they are doing their best uh u h haha tikki I have bad news for you UHHHHH ADRIEN I GOT BAD NEWS omg jagged and clara crying together OHHHHH IT'S HAPPENING omg gotta paudsse OMGGGHhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnnnnnnghn the adrinette save I GOTTA REPLAY THAT SHIT GOOD SHIT JULEKA GRABBING ROSE TOO :OK_HAND: r-r-r-rewind GOOD SHIT REWIND FUCK I HAVE TO MAKE THIS JOKE SORRY: Adrien confirmed service top. fhsdjhgjlkjkk im never going to get past this scene now im laughing too hard at my own joike ILU CALINE ILU HOO HOO JULE-ALY NINO SISTERS I LOV OH GOD OH NO GORILLA BE OK PLS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO omg janitor confirmed for mylene's dad i always assumed they reused the model or smth..... marginally less horrible than you could b-oh holy shit OH FUCK PLAGG YEAH HE PET!!! pat the kitty yes he good boy a sewer level mission? idek what video game to reference rn damn NICE LB lol I hope Sabrina's eyes aren't too bad cause her glasses... [protip from someone p much blind w/o glasses: use your phone cam until you can be reunited] OH? OH IT'S HAPENING?oh I thoug- NO TIKKI'S RIGHT ALL ALL OF THEM OH HELL YEAHHHHHH she's entrusting CN w it [kermitcrying.jpg] (lol wonder if fu knows) omg djwifi this is nerd culture romance OH OT3? LMAO #ALYAKNOWS2k18 CONFIRMED she didn't even bat an eye omg he's so cute omg she's so cute YO! YOOOOOOOOOOO FUCK YEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HELLAHELLA HELL A lmao adrien so sassy w ur friend AMAZNG the SASS of this boy oh my gOD I am lOIVEING living AND loving hm? HMM? mr moustac-? OH MR WHISKERS omfg cararogue youre so cute and gross and adorable and disgusting THE TRUE RACCOONS ALL ALONG ILUAM LIVINGGGGGGGGGGGG

[fullmetal-the-last-alchemist]

mtmte issue #40: lj is already crying (from happiness?) so it must be good

THE COVER.....ratchet smiling... swerve giving tailgate a piggy-back ride.... im so :’)

and the OTHER COVER!!!! I LOVE TAILGATE AHHH

magnus: what do u have??

tailgate: A HOVERBOARD!!!

magnus: NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eugh. pharma.

(sees tailgate) BABEY BOOOOOYYYY

oh geez rip swerve’s business lmao

ur daily reminder: i love rodimus

chromedome: don’t throw my husband under the bus i swear to god

aww nautica :(

“oh a TIME machine” djghskJHSDG RIPTIDE I’D DIE FOR YOU

im more sympathetic to brainstorm now but at the same time he’s SO obnoxious

“ultar mgsuna” dhgjskh rodimus i love u

perceptor is rock fucking hard rn

im so sad abt everyone :( like..nautica....brainstorm......

tailgate’s curly straw i LOVE him

ok so i hate getaway! fuck this guy! fuck him!

im so sad :( STOP HURTING TAILGATE’S FEELINGS U FUCK

ratchet?? old man ratchet?? borrowing tailgate’s hoverboard????

oh - OH ratchet’s talking about drift....im.....so emo guys

oh geez. i think rung needs a hug

the tiny minimus djghsKJHSD IM CRYING...

wow ratchet really did all that just to check up on his friends and make sure they’re All Good huh. love this emoionally stunted lonely old gay man

o h y M GOD THE HOVERBOARD TEN MADE FOR TAILGATE.... THATS the CUTEST THING I’VE EVER SEEN

ooh ten made that minimus didn’t he

TEN’S ROOM......I JUST...I STARTED CRYING. OK. WOW

THE TINY LOST LIGHTERS....MY fuvking HEART CAN’T TAKE THIS

ok jro arrested for making me cry again

RATCHET TALKING ABT DRIFT IM

FUCK U JRO

GOD

my heart hurts and i am so sad. dratchet reunion #when

im getting stabbed right in the fuckin kokoro

MINIMUS AND TEN IM.....

ahh rung and skids hanging out too!!!

and BRAINSTORM AND NAUTICA :’) im crying the new wrench is perfect

hhhhh ravage got megatron a briefcase....Oh Dear

RATCHET’S LEAVING TO GO FIND DRIFT :’) IM SO TENDER AND GAY.........

i don’t even have the words my heart is just. filled with emotions. love for ratchet meter currently clocking in at 1000%

“first successful attempt at saying goodbye properly” FAM :’) im gonna cry i love this so much

[bluebuckstallion]

hey not 2 be moody or anyth but im gnna vent a lil bit

so uh. the last few days i was @ my dads i was rlly delusional n erratic nd i saw way more shit than i usually do (along w auditory bs) and i literally didnt sleep at all most nights,, 3 hrs or less which is weird for me during summer,, esp @ my dads. but anyways, on the way to meet my mom he got rlly pissed ovr smth trivial and i jus,, couldnt stop flinching bc god its not like he was gnna hurt me but literally any man raisng his voice makes me cry almost instantly when its tht close to my fuckn ears especially when it was literally unexpected n long story short he said i was rlly goddamn lazy or whatever n we didnt talk for an hour n a half lol it was a shitty carride

and on top of tht. i found out tht half my house burnt down while i was gone! the ac caught on fire. so we were (are) living in a fuckn hotel again, jus like in december-march, lol. my mom couldnt take the rats anywhre so we assumed they died from smoke inhalation (my cats n one of my dogs already got fuckd up over tht) but. yea. we had to keep all 4 of the cats outside during the scorching heat n we managed to take the dogs w us but damn. n on top of tht my uncle is back on heroin n he was presumed dead for 6 days, after stealing my grandmas only mode of transportation n fleeing for the va border. th only contact we had from him was him cussing my mom out (good on him tbh) and on top of THT my grandmas fucked bc she put out a report on her truck being missing n then revoked it so shes in trouble for harboring/helping a fugitive lmao,,, n at this point we can only assume tht my uncle might be dead so yeet

also th person im engaged to is prolly gonna break up w me but im too scared to even talk to them bc ive been tryng so hard to ignore the fact they traumatized me physically but wtver! its cool i guess. they keep talking abt killing themselves

anyways thts jus the small stuff. on top of tht, ive been blacking out way more thn usual when i drink nd apparently ive been fighting my mom every time i drink aswell so??? yah thts had a shit ton of bad consequences

n my favorite thing in the entire world, my cat peach, literally got her torso n below mauled, and its so bad tht shes on morphine n we cant afford her bills even w the red cross helping us. she dislocated her hip or smth and its rlly fucking bad bc jesus tht cat is my baby shes the only thing i care abt ive genuinely never loved smth so much and ik its dumb but idk what im gonna do if we have to put her down bc thats still smth tht might happen and honestly i jus dont fucking know what im gonna do if we put her down. shes my baby

before she got attacked tho, the same dog almost ripped off my other cats ear n rlly fucked up his head but hes healed a bit so its cool. th same dog attacked my other cat too but hes recovered already. n we dont know who owns the dog bc we havent seen it (our neighbor has been keeping us up to date n shes been trying to feed n water th animals)

my Other cat got stolen for a couple of days n the police might get involved over it lol,, they took him for awhile n hes back now but he was missing for ages. ppl have tried to take one of my other cats too bc hes an f4 bengal,, they sell for a lot,, but hes managed to evade it. th other one probably got taken bc hes a kitten n rlly naive. but hey the good news is my animals havnt died yet

also! i start school on monday! lol! everythngs going rlly great

idk more shit happened but im still trying to process a lot of stuff bc eugh

long story short: was rlly delusional n erratic+audio/visual hallucinations n getting no sleep, so i was practically on suicide watch again, stunted my already horrible relationship w my dad, found out half my house burnt down, assumed most of my animals tht got left behind were dead, living in a hotel again w my 6yo brother+mom+3 animals n relapsing a lot, i black out most nights but when i wake up i usually find out ive fought someone n self harmed a lot n face the consequences, person im engaged to might break up w me but i cant msg them to find out bc i get anxious bc i relive trauma they caused tht rlly fucked me up sexually, uhhhh my uncle is a fugitive and might be dead, hes using heroin again, my grandma is in trouble for harboring+helping a fugitive bc she put out a report on the truck he stole from her n then revoked it, found out my favorite living thing in the world (my cat peach) might have to be put down n im rlly unstable over it, she got attacked by a dog rlly brutally along w two of my other cats n the fourth one got stolen, im gnna have to deal w one of my friends havng feelings for me but i rlly dont want to confront it and i start my frst year of high school in 3 days! hooray

edit: ALSO i might have to confront th fact a girl i havent talkd to in abt 3 mnths tht i had a thing going on w is rlly unstable and i dont know if shes alive lol!

[rnaryjune]

alright let’s get a little more in-depth here and sort out who to root for. working backwards this time.

Raven: likes frankie grande. PASS. like the idea that she’s not afraid to make big moves, but lbh that doesn’t mean squat unless and until she actually goes through with it. the all female ghost hunting team thing is cool though it better come up in the show i demand to know about this.

Ramses: superfan, loves dan (which...okay i never actually saw dan’s season i really only know him from the coaches twist and even then i didn’t really pay attention to him? but anyway i know from the fandom that this is a good sign), he wants to do that SUPER SMART DANIELLE THING of having a person on the other side of the house and keeping track of it that way. that being said, his strategy is a little...TOO thought-out. with a game like big brother you have to be ready to make adjustments and think on your feet, and i’m not sure he’ll be able to do that if necessary. HEY HE IS the obligatory gay man...and a gay man of color at that. which....okay let’s be honest, big brother does not have the best track record when it comes to games of gmoc (Marcellas, Lawon, JOZEA, among others). buuuuuuuut....i’m willing to stick my neck out once more. KEEP.

Megan: eugh she likes frank victor and paul which like...okay tbf i kinda understand from a game perspective because they did pull some interesting moves (and ngl paul’s gameplay was always a bit like how i imagine i would play). but i think she likes them as ppl too which...no. also she says she doesn’t wanna be like vanessa???? THE SIRENS GOING OFF AT THAT STATEMENT. she ain’t gonna last. PASS. oh my god and then later in her bio “ At the same time, there is always that whiny, crying girl that just can't handle the pressures of the house. I would make her my friend and my secret ally. This is the only person in the house I will be loyal to. I'll take her to Final 2 and, since she didn't do anything the whole time, I'll win.” like girl....that’s gonna be you lmao. also she wants to buddy up with a gym-partner guy? can we say obvious showmancer? look if she can back it up with some comp wins then maybe she could pull a rachel but i just don’t see that happening. she literally says she’s gonna play scared which like...yea you’re never for sure safe in the bb house but she is literally gonna go down the vanessa path.

Matthew: HE LIKES DONNY. HE IS IN MY GOOD GRACES. he wants to align with the women too??? tentative KEEP because the fact that he says donny is a good person makes me want to trust that he, too, is a good person. but i’ve been burned before, and besides, as great as it would be to see a mainly female alliance with one guy, so far the girls aren’t impressing me much, so i don’t have high hopes for that.

Mark: you know it makes sense he likes brendon. so yea, definite showmance material. possibly with megan too actually. honestly not impressed. PASS.

Kevin: he doesn’t even have a favorite player he just “met derrick once” lol man u are DEFINITELY not gonna win. unless he can adapt quickly which...is unlikely. “I was Mr. Massachusetts and also won a hunk contest” okay buddy. also he’s all like “being myself will probably work everytime” dude if u don’t win that first hoh u are easy target number one. PASS. probably nice but will not win. no chance in hell. unless something MAJOR happens.

Josh: like evel dick so....look, i’ll be honest, i was very young when season 8 was on so like...idr all the stuff that dick pulled, i mostly know from posts in the fandom. but at the time, i was a huge fan of him, and was thrilled he won. and i mean, he did at least have some gameplay, unlike other despicable ppl in later seasons (*cough* andy). so i mean from a gameplay standpoint, i can see why someone would want to emulate dick’s game. however, i think it would require stealthier manipulation than josh thinks. and the fact that he didn’t need to be on anybody’s good side? nice thought and all, but if he didn’t have danielle and her alliances, he would have never made it as far as he did. you HAVE to have someone in your corner, even just one person. josh underestimates the power of alliance and is probably gonna end up being like a paulie. eugh. PASS. sidenote: dude wants to bring his mom in the house not because he would miss her but so she would cook and clean for him???? LOL FUCK THIS GUY i hate him already. his fun facts aren’t even fun facts they’re just personality traits lmao

Jillian: worried about saying the wrong thing? could be a bad sign or just innocent. i am intrigued by her answers though, so a tentative KEEP.

Jessica: janelle/natalie hybrid? could be interesting and if she says she sees herself in janelle that’s VERY promising. less promising is that she wants to align with a guy. could very easily get sidetracked by showmance. hopeful though, so tentative KEEP.

Jason: oh god almost forgot anbout hfajlfhghfskh RODEO CLWON JfHASFJFlshAL. ahem. he likes James which...tbh i liked him too. look if he’s good enough for natalie then he’s decent enough for me. anyway, i fricking love jason’s answer about his strategy: “yes” that’s it that’s all he says I LOVE IT. also he has a bull??? WE BETTER SEE IT IN THE SHOW. i don’t expect him to win but he seems an interesting person so....KEEP. for now.

Elena: likes james and thinks the strategy is situational aKA THE TRUTH. seems like she might actually be able to play the game???? which seems unheard of nowadays. can’t get a real idea of her character but for gameplay i’ll go with a KEEP for now.

Dominique: “nor do i shy away from controversy” is again something that could go either way and instantly makes me cautious. but let’s look at gameplay. she says she’ll take mental notes of everyone and be observant, and she can read ppl really well, so i want to think she’ll do well. but her indecision over a fave past houseguest is something that makes me take pause as well. screw it, KEEP for now. i’m curious to see what she can do.

Cody: seems smart and obviously physically capable....BUT something in his answers rubs me the wrong way. his reasoning for picking evel dick is something i can agree with, but his strategy is, once again, too airtight. where is the wiggle room? look it’s true the basic building blocks of big brother are generally the same every season but you never know what could get changed. also he’s all like “i’ve never taken a selfie” you’ve never taken a picture of yourself? ever? that seems unlikely but it’s whatever aside from assumed pretentiousness. HOWEVER the real big flag is “i have never been offended not once” buddy that is a DAMNED lie and i caNNOT WAIT until he gets pissy about something in the house and the fandom calls him out on it lmao oh anyway PASS.

Christmas: oh  my god she chose HELEN. HELEN OF ALL PEOPLE. THIS IS A GOOD SIGN. idk man i’m very hopeful about this one the fave houseguest is a good sign and i want to like christmas for it....also because her picture is gorgeous but like. she chose HELEN. like im sorry but i feel like most ppl wouldn’t even think of helen. maybe christmas can align with that guy who likes donny??? YES I LIKE THIS. anyway KEEP.

Cameron: well of COURSE his fave is ian like how damn predictable can u be. also he just reminded me of ginamarie and the fact that she won an hoh at some point (how???). that being said, the fact that he’d just tell people that someone is going after them?? bad plan. unless there’s ANY truth to it, but if he pulls it out of his ass he’s going to end up imploding his own game. PASS, not just for meh gameplay but also because he bores me. (seriously i’m so tired of ian clones none of them have been anywhere near as good or interesting why are we still doing this)

Alex: “i can manipulate anyone, including boys” aka she will probably start a showmance. idk with who and tbh idc. her fun facts are actual, legitimate fun facts, and she seems nice, but i don’t get good gameplay vibes. PASS, but i hope she surprises me.

[fullmetal-the-last-alchemist]

lost light issue #22 the old man is BACK AGAIN BABEY

chromedome and still-a-mystery stick on the cover...hmmm

‘unicron is here’ ah! well! okay then!

ok so that WAS a duplicate lost light, i was wondering...

ah so it IS my father!! thank fuck, that would’ve sucked if it was like some weird alternate still-evil megs

mags...rodimus,,, cmon y’all :( this miscommunication is killing me

‘last light’ hhhhhhhh fam ;___;

WOW OK THATS A WHOLE ASS HAND HUH. OK.

me: ok so thats unicron

lj: ahh...no

me: ?????????

ok so completely different giant robot! cool! awesome!

eugh shut up froid

wrow ok so thats functionist cybertron, as lj says, “in dude form”

‘im waving’ hdksgjh RODIMUS i love you

good lord i missed rod and megs’s banter

welp! there goes meridi! hmm!

god, pharma, you’re so fucking stupid and shitty

oh - hold on, it’s not actually pharma?? he got body-snatched???? huh

first hand-snatched, then body-snatched...get rekkt smh

lj: and now, he’s about to get WIG SNATCHED

#notmyprimus

oh fuck, it’s the - one eye council dudes, the minion lookin fuckers

godddd these guys are SO ANNOYING LIKE SHUT UPPPP

wh - they killed orion and terminus??? what the fuck>?????

leaving dramatically hfhjdfkshfd

oh noo NO NO NOT DRIFT, NOT MY BOY

eugh. pharma

god dammit they got some of em

wow ok whats going on!

into his,,, mind????? uhhhhhhhhhhh

adaptus??? wow! that. doesn’t mean much to me. he’s a god i guess! like ok! but also whatever, shut up, ur dumb

yeah nice rescue megs that was. pretty bad lmao

hhhh someone help drift i Swear to Fuck

hhhhhhHHHH MINIMEGS IM...SO FUCKING SAD...............

all the scavengers in unison: DAD?

HE KNOWS THEIR NAMES IM...THATS SO GODDAMN ADORABLE......

hhh he’s what or what??? i don’t care just HELP DRIFT

ooh - OOOH THE GUN IS A KIT?? THATS SO COOL

hhHHHH DRIFT AND MEGS..IM REALLY GONNA CRY FAM

ok so the council are uhh fucking crazy, and also evil! good to know

aw megs...taking a lot of Ls huh? :\

CENTURIES??? holy FUCK y’all

goddd swerve and misfire are just MEANT to be best friends and i love it

grimlock hdgkhdsgk thats. a good plan, honestly

‘destined to’ djksghd thanks magic eyeball siri, glad ur back to be cryptic

why does it need tailgate, ratchet, rung, and rodimus...? babey boy, doctor, leader man, and mystery stick? hmmmmmm

‘well not with that attitude’ dhgjkJDHGGHDJKGHS

hghhgjh flame and tyrest really have NO fucking clue whats going on

wow nobody has any faces huh. hmm.

not remember who they used to be??? so some of these assholes might be GODS and not know it??????

uuuhhh the necrobot was MORTILUS??? damn that fits well, in like such a cool way

tyrest: IM SOLOMUS???? WH????

and siri is uhh the knowledge one. the nerd one.

but then one remains: who’s primus?

mystery stick. MYSTERY STICK...IS PRIMUS

BRUH