#especially applicable atm

[dipplinduo]

I had to find this and reblog this again because it's still true and I can't stop laughing

DipplinDuo like 3 weeks ago: Omg hi guys!! Welcome to my blog, I love and appreciate all of you so much!! Here's my fanfiction I'm working on - I hope you enjoy it!! Please don't be sad I'm here for you!! DipplinDuo now: I will actively plot how to emotionally devastate you all in a 1000 ways right in front of your face and I will laugh maniacally about it. Get gaslit, girlbossed, and gatekept.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL I mean...it ain't a lie.

[simp-for-long-hair]

Ngl I'm really trying to use this new brush in every way I can 💀💙✨️

@swayamev

[astrxealis]

the way i'm so unproductive regarding school on weekends but so productive on monday immediately ..... i should learn to adhere to this more

[errorid-mt7lt7k7unfr9ttfua5]

me when companies try to force you to use their proprietary software

anyway

Layperson resources:

firefox is an open source browser by Mozilla that makes privacy and software independence much easier. it is very easy to transfer all your chrome data to Firefox

ublock origin is The highest quality adblock atm. it is a free browser extension, and though last i checked it is available on Chrome google is trying very hard to crack down on its use

Thunderbird mail is an open source email client also by mozilla and shares many of the same advantages as firefox (it has some other cool features as well)

libreOffice is an open source office suite similar to microsoft office or Google Suite, simple enough

Risky:

VPNs (virtual private networks) essentially do a number of things, but most commonly they are used to prevent people from tracking your IP address. i would suggest doing more research. i use proton vpn, as it has a decent free version, and the paid version is powerful

note: some applications, websites, and other entities do not tolerate the use of VPNs. you may not be able to access certain secure sites while using a VPN, and logging into your personal account with some services while using a vpn *may* get you PERMANENTLY BLACKLISTED from the service on that account, ymmv

IF YOU HAVE A DECENT VPN, ANTIVIRUS, AND ADBLOCK, you can start learning about piracy, though i will not be providing any resources, as Loose Lips Sink Ships. if you want to be very safe, start with streaming sites and never download any files, though you Can learn how to discern between safe, unsafe, and risky content.

note: DO NOT SHARE LINKS TO OR NAMES OF PIRACY SITES IN PUBLIC PLACES, ESPECIALLY SOCAL MEDIA

the only time you should share these things are either in person or in (preferably peer-to-peer encrypted) PRIVATE messages

when pirated media becomes well-known and circulated on the wider, public internet, it gets taken down, because it is illegal to distribute pirated media and software

if you need an antivirus i like bitdefender. it has a free version, and is very good, though if youre using windows, windows defender is also very good and it comes with the OS

Advanced:

linux is great if you REALLY know what you're doing. you have to know a decent amount of computer science and be comfortable using the Terminal/Command Prompt to get/use linux. "Linux" refers to a large array of related open source Operating Systems. do research and pick one that suits your needs. im still experimenting with various dispos, but im leaning towards either Ubuntu Cinnamon or Debian.

[dustofthedailylife]

Hello my loves! 🍁

It's been a while (once again... sowwy). Sorry for being MIA for so long.

This year has been so stressful and busy for me but I'm happy to announce that I finally graduated and have my degree! 🥹

It still hasn't quite sunken in that I'm done with uni and it will probably take a little while longer.

I already applied for a legal clerkship and will have to do that for the next two years should I get the position that opens in September and if I don't have to wait longer. It will be a new chapter of my life that I'm both anxious about (especially financially since it's gonna be expensive af and my pay is gonna be absolutely ass) but also look forward to since I'm going to learn new things.

I could go on an extended rant about how my oral exams and everything was so late and how I had to basically do backflips blindfolded while running at high speed to get my application out in time, but that's a story for another time or if it interests you, shoot me an ask 🫶🏻

Either way, I hope you all have been well!

I miss you lot and I hope so much that I'll finally get some time to write something again soon because, gosh, I miss writing too 😭

The shiba is a representation of my current mood. I feel really happy atm.

[juice-carton-blues]

Does anyone have suggestions for literature on Allonormativity and Amatonormativity? My undergrad thesis is about the ways they've evolved in our cultural conceptions of love and sex over time, and especially how they're used as tools of oppression. Unsurprisingly, there's not actually much in terms of foundational texts on most of this so i figured I'd shout out to see if anyone had anything.

So far I've scoured the Asexual and Aromanticism Bibliography, which led to some academic work, but several pieces are inaccessible to me rn (i imagine they're student papers which would make sense). I plan to see if there's anything applicable in Angela Chen's book Ace, and I'll be looking into Elizabeth Brake's work, as the originator of the term 'amatonormativity.'

In terms of history, the plan atm is to re-read John D'Emilio's book on the history of sexuality, look at Foucault's histories of sexuality, and look at historical and contemporary legislation/media, idk. It sounds like a lot but i think I'm in denial about it.

Feel so free to dm me or reblog or whatever, i just feel like tumblr has a pretty high concentration of people in the know about Queer theory and asexuality/aromanticism.

[mxtxfanatic]

That was a pretty fair tangent, actually! English isn't my first language, and I figured that the word "dehumanization" would fit since, according to google, it is "depriving a person or group of positive human qualities". I am aware that it has been used mostly to justify terrible things, but I figured that just using this broad definition would make sense. Dehumanization as in taking bad people and demonizing them so much, ignoring the fact that there even is one thing about them that's not cartoonishly evil, they're not even seen as human anymore, you know what I mean?

However, you are right that how I used it may appear to be insensitive. Especially considering that the group of people actually being dehumanized in mdzs is the Wens, all of them, including the victims of the cultivation world that feels justified in their hunting down of them. It was just the most obvious word to explain how I felt about this trend.

And you are right, It's not like we're all a trigger away to mass murder, I guess that, in my frustration, I used too much exaggerations. What I mean is that this mindset of taking for granted that the people that do bad things are inherently bad and evil, and that because you know you're not, you won't ever do bad things is not only naive, but actively harmful to the concept of self reflection and growth, you know what I mean?

It fosters a sense of stagnation that I despise more than anything.

I know what you mean, and tbf it wasn’t your response that annoyed me, or really even anything I’m seeing in fandom atm, it was just a good opportunity to talk about it and how I feel about that usage. Really feeling the “not my first language” bit though cause I’m going through the same thing with Spanish now and dictionaries are really not your friend when it comes to nuances and applications of words 😭

I see what you’re saying about how people who view themselves as “inherently good” demonize “bad behavior” to dissociate themself from the possibility that they, too, can do bad things, but this is exactly the material issue of dehumanization I was talking about. A person who thinks they are inherently good is not dehumanizing someone else because they think the person’s “evil actions” make them bad but because they have already decided that that “type” of person is inherently evil by birth and/or status and their actions prove they are inherently evil. Still using mdzs as an example, the cultivation world think they are inherently good because of their birth (clan-focused sects), therefore doing things like mass murdering refugees and turning the other way on a known serial rapist is acceptable, even though those actions based on their own stated morality are wrong. On the other hand, Wei Wuxian is inherently evil, inherently in the wrong not because his actions are bad or his morals skewed but because the cultivation world has decided that Wei Wuxian as a “servant’s son” (status), he is not allowed to question or overshadow them. Thus, the dehumanization that Wei Wuxian faces is not an accident or a product of ignorance, it is an intentional wielding of power specifically being used to oppress him, justifying their eventual murder of him and his charges. The cultivation world, itself, is never in danger of this same dehumanization because even as they fully display their corruption and depravity, they hold all the power.

So the real issue becomes: do people who think they are incapable of harm actually believe that, or are they building a case to mask their material harm against someone else they’ve predetermined as undeserving of humanity?

[idsfantasy]

Have you seen this yet? I haven't seen anyone talk about it, but it's a small detail that got me thinking quite a bit about where Cassie's dad is right now. I don't think he's dead, like some have assumed (talking about the lunchboxes and Bonnie collectibles in past tense feels like it's referring to the non-current state of the objects, not the person mentioned alongside them) but it's a bit odd that Cassie doesn't bring her dad with her to save her closest friend, especially with him being a former employee who would know the place fairly well.

But with this sticky note in mind - most likely left behind for Cassie by her dad, seeing as it's found in the Glamrock Salon area which is a big location for Cassie backstory lore bits - maybe Cassie going to the Pizzaplex alone isn't that hard to believe. If Dad is off doing something else for long enough that he's leaving food money and emergency contact information, of course Cassie wouldn't go to him for help. She couldn't.

I'm actually of the mind that he could be who we play as in Help Wanted 2. There's a Fazwrench input on the elevator wall in the teaser (which we know he has), based on the note in Ruin he plans to be "gone for a while" which would be the case for whoever takes on the Help Wanted 2 job, and with Cassie's dad being pointed out so specifically in Ruin, I can only imagine Steel Wool has plans for him to appear in a future installment at some point.

(Though there's also the fact that there was only one applicant for the HW2 position, which points at that person being significant...which would either mean the player character in HW2 is someone else closer tied to the story, or Cassie's dad is a more significant character and we just don't know who that is yet.)

I hadn't seen it but I was told about it! And yeah, I find it very interesting. Atm my guess is Cassie's dad is going to be the Help Wanted 2 player. Either way he seems very important with how much Cassie references him, and the FNAF 3 number code being on the back of Cassie's Faz Wrench also catches my attention

[canideformed]

Canis -

21 • any pronouns

⬶ traumatised & nd deformed cane user

⬶ intertrans fag

⬶ wolfdog nonhuman

⬶ white, EN/ES

⬶ socialist

Original posts are tagged #I’m barking

Reblogs with my additions are tagged #I’m woofing

Always open to good faith questions!

Sometimes my ability to type is reduced and I use other methods to write. Please be understanding of errors

BYF -

⬶ This is my blog for politics (and related) so expect that kind of stuff here

⬶ I will likely post the most about my experiences being disabled, intersex, transfem (and transmasc but atm being transfem is often more relevant to me), and about transandrophobia

⬶ I am psych critical. I have a degree in psychology (among other things) and am not completely against the field—but I’m particularly critical of it in its clinical application and the way we treat it on a social level

⬶ I will not engage in inane discourse (i.e. shipcourse, flag discourse, etc.). I will engage in debates about theory I think actually matters to real people

⬶ Spanking is child abuse and can be CSA, period

⬶ I stand strongly against intersexism, especially from other trans people who should know better

⬶ I’m a socialist and I am anti state, border, and capitalism. I believe in landback

⬶ I generally believe in intracommunity unity; trans unity, unity between physically and mentally disabled people, etc.

Important Posts

the US criminal justice system is fucked

More About Me -

⬶ I am intertrans, transfem, transmasc, and cistrans. If you deny me my transfemininity or my transmasculinity you are being intersexist, transphobic, and a cop. Gender-wise I’m a boygirl gay man

⬶ I am autistic, have ADHD, and am traumatised. I may experience symptoms such as not getting social cues or forgetting certain things

⬶ I am plural (OSDD-1b). My other part will not post here but my experiences as my own part might be brought up

⬶ My feet and spine are deformed and I have a hard time standing. I have chronic and recurrent wrist tendinitis and sometimes cannot type. I’m trying to avoid surgery for it…

⬶ I use various aids, primarily a cane and/or portable seat, custom-fit orthotics, and earplugs. I also sometimes use braces/compression gloves and/or AAC

⬶ I received my diagnoses later in life. This does not mean I’m low support, high masking, etc. I was medically neglected and displayed obvious support needs; I was abused for being “difficult” and my needs were neglected. I am MSN and low masking

⬶ I’m a wolfdog (samoyed/wolf)

[blackstarchanx3new]

FSR rambles PT 2

FSR rambles PT 2

More stuff I like about my own comic (Head cannons about why stuff is the way it is too)

So like, yeah Vio had a panic attack. He’s relatable to me. UwU (I write shit I can relate too. Lmao. Deal with it. X’D)

Also Vaati’s curse: Dark Link, I won’t say too much about his “Powerset” or what he does since most of yall can deduce so far what he “Can” do atm.

Smth about Vio/the four swords gang that has always struck me is:

HOW EXACTLY ARE THEY SPLIT UP? (Not physically, I think they’re magical bodies and Link’s body is somewhere in the spiritual realm but that’s a head cannon)

Like, it’s not just “They reflect emotions” that breaks down after Blue and Red. Anger and “sad/emotional” respectively. Green’s like a weird husk of the original Link. (Like…Idk he basically acts like any other Link in any other manga but bland. X’D which is why I gave him depression in FSR. He's infamously the most under- memed character in FS. He’s effectively bootleg/dollar store Link. Worse without the other 4 and bare bones Link by himself. Flavorless Link if you would. Watered down fountain soda because you added too much ice Link.)

Vio, at least, is really hard to pin down what part of the link he IS. (At least imo)

Let’s break down Vio’s traits:

At the start of the manga, he’s selfish, lowkey, rude/blunt, the ‘Smart” one (All of them are smart in their own ways tho so that’s not ALL.) He’s cunning, manipulative, rather cold, and generally “Negative” traits.

I think he’d be insecure about that. Identity crisis. Because well, he IS mostly “negative” traits. Or at least ones that are SEEN as negative and it’s obvious to ME at least, he feels alienated from the other 3. He comes off as lacking empathy too.

Basically: Vio’s own moral ambiguity makes him very uncomfortable. Because there’s no outrunning it.

This frame is fun, because Vio was reaching for his sword which, because he’s in the “Headspace” , wasn't there. But as Shadow Link mentions later, Vio was reaching for it in reality too.

I’ve gone on my rant, but imo this was a bold faced LIE. X’D

WHY DID YA DROP THE SWORD THEN FUCKER???

Lol so this is a headcanon: 

But basically: Why the hell would Vio formulate a plan with Shadow Link (One that even guarantees Zelda's safety as if he was REALLY trying to make it work…), just to drop it in favor of a “Quicker” solution?

He was uncomfortable as hell by Shadow Link’s confession, so decided “Yup, mirror shattering time.” Emotions make him uncomfortable. Especially Shadow Link’s because the very act of manipulating Shadow Link is very Un-heroic of him.

He couldn’t play the long game because it made him realize his own “Failings” as a hero, but that was the OG plan after gathering his thoughts in the woods. (At least to me.)

Infiltrate/get friendly with Shadow Link, find out who or what is behind Vaati after learning of “Gannon”, destroy Vaati, save Zelda and defeat Gannon.

He went with Mirror shattering because: 1. It makes the most logical sense. Cut off Gannon’s power supply AND destroy Vaati. Shadow link is an unfortunate victim but “It’s worth it”

I find it funny BLUE is said to be the one who’s “Willing to do anything to win” When I feel that is WAY more applicable to Vio. X’D Bitch was willing to do a LOT to save Zelda and defeat Vaati. And...similar to how he states at the beginning of the manga "Team schmeam I don't need any help". He goes off to invade the enemies ranks ALONE.

Art wise the Vaati wings on Dark link block out and make fire lol. Which I imagine makes Vio uncomfortable after that whole “Almost getting burned alive from lava” thing.

This is smth brought up in the twilight princess manga, which is fun because Vio’s outfit is very similar to that Link’s. X’D

The weight of being a hero and it's title being a heavy burden for whoever is "Link" at the time.

Now that Vio isn’t “The hero” doing something towards a hero goal, “Who the fuck is he?” FSR is kinda a thing where it's like "Okay sure Vaati's here...but he's like...a non issue lmao" they're kinda aimless. Who are they if not THE HERO. LINK.

Hahahaha

Okay these frames are so pretentious but here we go:

Dark Link is literally his insecurities being suffocating. X’D

Specifically: Considering Shadow’s words and his status as a hero.

Also all the eyeball imagery, so many people watching him fail/judging him.

Fun things art wise: Human teeth are scary as fuck.

I like the panel where Dark Link hugs him. Because an embrace can either be VERY UNCOMFORTABLE or very comforting depending on the context. Here it is very much NOT a comforting hug.

Also side note: Dark Link might come off as “Confusing” as a character…He’s very INTERESTING as the series goes on.

Vio snapped out of it but he’s still ain’t okay lol. Shadow Link didn’t hear Dark Link’s part of the “conversation” so he really just heard Vio mumbling utter nonsense. That would be scary as hell. Especially when he’s reaching for his weapon like dayum I’d cry too Shadow.

~Shadow Link blames himself~

He still feels like he’s on eggshells around Vio, he's aware their relationship atm isn't very stable. 

Lol so this is some of that sexy “Character development” i keep joking about with Shadow Link.

He’s still  a creature of darkness but he cares very deeply about Vio. 

Lol so smth you may notice is how: I fucking love how SINCERE Shadow Link is as a character. Like bro puts on a spooky act, but he’s just a sweet little guy that wants friends and he’s super open with his feelings. (I think he was just talkin’ his feelings in the woods too but that’s a head cannon. X’D He’s so weirdly soft with Vio out in the woods like…Bro)

It was a trait that bit him in the ass as a villain but I think that it shows that he is a good boy on the inside.

Lol so we all know how much Shadow Link hates pity, he doesn’t pity Vio, he emphasizes. And i think bro just really wanted to be hugs (HE’S SO TOUCH STARVED LMAO)

Even lines like “They’re all a big happy family in the dark world” (Paraphrased) show to me Shadow just REALLY wants a support system/family/SOMEONE he can rely on. X’D

So he says shit he wishes someone had said to him.

Also he hasn’t been able to physically HOLD someone in 7 years, Shadow Link misses physical touch like crazy.

Hug didn’t work lol.

Vio’s still frazzled.

I fucking love Shadow Link’s face “CURSE WHA-” like Vio’s really talking utter nonsense and it’s kinda funny ngl.

Vio didn't mention Dark Link so, to Shadow Link: Vio brought this up just because he's spiraling atm.

*cough cough* “You’re guy’s house” *cough cough* he doesn’t consider it HIS house too…

Continues to apologize for…nothing. Ouch.

Still blames himself for setting Vio off- oof.

Lol. Everything Vio says in the library is very telling of how he feels the pressure to be the one to come up with a plan to fix things. Because “He’s the smart one”. Even when LITERALLY NO ONE has put said pressure on him to fix things as Blue and Green outright don’t wish to be Link again, and Red complained back in the headspace

*Dies* Shadow Link is best boy. He tries to hard. TTuTT

Also Vio continuously gripping Shadow Link because he wants Shadow Link close to him. 

You can tell he isn’t trying to hug Vio anymore because that didn’t work lmao. He touches Vio a lot less and only in comforting ways (Patting his arm, his head, rubbing his arm ex), Vio’s actually the one who keeps pulling him closer.

Vio is correct here: He’s TECHNICALLY in no physical danger.

Dark link choking him in the headspace didn't do squat to him. It’s Vio’s own thoughts that are fucking with him.

Lol that statement is very bloated. Vio realized “Holy shit, he’s still here after EVERYTHING.”

The manipulation in the past, the panicking. 

Shadow Link’s just, still there for him. He isn’t leaving, and shows no sign of wanting too.

100% accurate. Shadow has no obligation to be helping Vio rn in any way. At all. Especially after how Vio’s treated him. Shadow's even looking for books to help with the curse that MAY OR MAY NOT even be affecting Vio for all Shadow Link knows.

Cause Shadow link: Is cool.

Lol so he DOES wanna be touched.

Okay funny story about pages 63-65 : These look so sketchy because I literally was like “doing line art for these expressions would ruin them” So they’re sketches. X’D

About the panels themselves: Shadow Link’s response to getting thanked in the manga makes me think he REALLY wants to do good things and get complimented for them. So when Vio thanks him (Smth he didn’t expect) he gets embarrassed.

Vio is FINALLY HONEST WITH SOMEONE ABOUT HOW HE FEELS.

He can’t run from it anymore lmao. So he has no choice but to tell him.

Lmao funny story: OG draft Shadow Link laughed at the "I'm a bad person" line. X’D

I’m glad I cut it but it also would have been very funny because like…Objectively no. Vio you’re not a “typical” bad person. And from Shadow’s perspective Vio is anything BUT a “Bad” person. He’s the “Hero”.

While not directly apologizing, Vio does admit to feeling like utter shit for what he did. Which is, SOMETHING. “Sorry ma i goofed up” vibes. XD

Lol. Of course you don’t. Simp- I say as a joke. But fr, from Shadow's perspective, this is kinda a weird admission. Vio's "Naughty" if you'd word it that way- X'DDDDD

*Implodes*

Okay fr out of ANYONE he could have shape shifted into during the vaati fight…Shadow Link chose VIO.

We know he can look like Green, so…The choice to look like Vio was very…deliberate. X’D

Almost like he looks up to him or smth...

Vio being utterly bamboozled by this information. X'D "YOU WHAT!?"

Fun thing about this being a fan comic: I can make them explicitly gay. X’DDD SO THEY ARE.

And that's all for now. I might do more later with more pages. X'D

It's fun to just, go off about my own crap. Cause I only get to do that with my friends usually.

[sampersandman]

This is just to get it off my chest, and it isn't meant as an "You're stupid and I hate you" because I know you uh... probably have way too many of those already.

I'm just trying to state this for my sake, and maybe I hope that you consider this for a moment, but you don't have to, of course. Go forth and live you life however you wish. I'm probably gonna block you after sending this because I think it's just for the best.

I think you're wrong about Metalocalypse. Like on a lot sometimes, in regards to certain characters. Mainly Pickles, his family, and sometimes Abigail (this is mostly in reference to your opinions on what she represents/how she was handled). Which sucks because I really do think you provide a lot of resources for the fandom (+I really do enjoy your art)

In general you seem to just kinda not like it when people have headcannons (no this isn't about Pickles being trans/cis.) I think you can come off as super pompous and closed off in your own little world, kinda in a bad way. You seem to believe you're the "only one who actually appreciates the show for what it is" , which isn't true by a long shot dude. The other members in the fadom may prioritize things I assume you find to be small scale, but they still matter to them. A whole lot. I just think you need to try and consider the fact that sometimes people just wanna draw and talk silly stuff about a silly show! MTL is stupid and absurd, this is said with love, of course!

Long story short, I think you need to maybe take a little step back and be a little more considerate of the fact that what people are posting online is usually for fun! Maybe if you wanna get down and hash the shit with someone about the show, it's themes and whatever, join a discord server if you haven't already! I'm in one and they talk pretty much every day about the things that seem to appeal to you!

I wish you no harm or ill will, I just think that the way you're going about this could be making this the frustrating experience it is for you. Have a good day! ♡♡♡

? dunno what triggered this, I haven’t been posting much. Certainly not enough to be alarming lol

If it’s anything to do with what’s in my recent recollection atm, my explanation is that I just talk at people. I would think that if you’re posting in the main tags (and if what you’re saying is about how something is misinterpreted/unexplored by fans) then you would enjoy that sort of engagement. Especially if it’s not even combative and only really adding to the topic you had enough interest to post about in the first place

Though, now, when you talk to somebody on here or on Twitter about opinions on a show, there’s a knee-jerk reaction (some) people will have to any disagreement, oftentimes. One where they suddenly switch from talking about the show, to talking about themselves, and recontextualize the entire conversation to having been about them personally, making any observation that they disagree with out to be an attack. To me that’s very bizarre. It’s like an immediate emotional escalation just to hurt your own feelings lol. It’s also counterintuitive for another reason beyond just being messy, since I believe we should want to see things from other people’s perspective and understand them better, that that’s what we should be using media for, instead of wanting to experience something immediately relatable and applicable to ourselves exclusively. With this approach, I feel like I can relate and sympathize with a person who isn’t like me in almost every way.

for me, it’s fun to reverse engineer your way into understanding how different people operate. The logic informing their worldview and behavior. You would hope to encourage more people to be like that, so that instead of putting walls up and shutting down anything that makes you feel invalidated, you could invite a sort of mindset where you actually stand a chance at being truly understood, and feel less afraid of understanding others.

P.s. it’s fine to disagree with me or anyone else for that matter, and still use anything I post as a resource. cuz it’s not my stuff lolz

[jiiamp]

HELLO I REALLY LIKE YOUR APPLIC TERMS THANK YOU THANK YOU I LOVE. I LOVE THE APPLE S TY

ty!! that’s so nice to hear :D

I really wanna make some more but in order to do that I need motivation, and I’m kinda lacking in that department atm

will hopefully continue soon tho, especially if I discover some really wonky apples

and perhaps… (assuming I get really ambitious) other foods with multiple species could be made as well…

[sab-teraa]

Tye Talks: A Diary Entry

(22/02/24 || 22:58 pm)

Good evening friends, I hope you are all well and having a lovely Thursday! Just one more day till the weekend! Yay <3

Inspired by the lovely @the-winds-of-destiny-xxx , I've decided to start blogging about my day. Hopefully, I will be able to stay up to date lol.

Work

Ugh, I've been up since 5am prepping myself to deliver my second lecture of the semester. It went well, kinda. The students were super interactive which is great. Application + practicality > regurgitating information. They did super well. Also, we have a new HoD, and while I really liked our previous heads, the new HoD is a breath of fresh air and I really enjoy their approach towards education.

My full-time job is actually soooo … atm. My colleague has resigned which is all cool and I wish her the best.

But, there’s a trend I’ve noticed recently within our organization … and I hope it does not present any problems in the future. Tbh, I think it has presented a problem before … but idk. Anyway, constructive criticism goes a long long way … only if you’re keen and willing to learn …. which this person defo is NOT.

Enough about my colleagues, the CEO presented me with an opportunity but I'm lowkey nervous .. bc I prefer being a private + somewhat anonymous person lol, but I obviously said yes. Let's see how it goes, anything can happen and this whole project might fall through. Especially in this economy.

All in all, I really love my job and the career path I’ve taken. I hope it does not backfire on me later on in life.

Uni

Gosh. Uni is the bane of my existence atm. Tho, i did make a bit of progress on my thesis today. I know exactly what I need to do, but I just don't have the motivation to it. But, I think I've finally got myself together .. so let's see what happens.

Also, I'm so grateful for my thesis supervisor <3 she is so understanding and supportive.

Health

Is this tmi? Maybe? Apologies if so?

But, my nose and throat have been KILLING me recently? Idk if it’s bc of the fan or what … but yup. Thank god for cloves! They’ve helped wayyyy more than anything else I’ve tried lol. Also, my pms is really starting to hit 😭😭 I’ve been in soooo much pain since I got back home.

My mentally, I’m doing okay … there’s obvs moments in the day where I’m like shit?? I’m an adult adult?? Yet my life feels so stagnant 😂 but then I try to keep it moving and not think so much about what I want … and I try to focus on what I do have…. bc I’ve done my best.

Fun and mundane

I finally got to go to my first gym class of the week - I really needed that! The housewives from my class invited me for smoothies afterwards … and they are so fun! Are they my mums age mates? Yes 😂😂 but I loved hanging out with them .. they truly live in their own bubble .. I wanna be exactly like them when I’m older lol.

Oh Oh! And I finally finished the second season of Al Rawabi School for Girls ... flip, it truly broke my heart. What an amazing show.

I really wanted to start the new season of Real Housewives of Durban … but the new Showmax app is truly YUCK! I have the ick 🫠🫠 but, I love the show waaaaay too much, so I’d probs get over it soon lol.

Other than gym and catching up on tv, I made a delicious lasagna for dinner. I'm convinced that my homemade meat sauce and cheese sauce remains undefeated, or maybe that's just me being cocky lol. If I had more space, I would have defo attempted to make the pasta too.

I'm super excited for this weekend bc my friends and I are going to this art and music event and getting food afterwards. I also really wanna buy that duvet set I saw online ... since I'm no longer purchasing an apartment (recession boo boo boo 🍅🍅🍅), I may as well just re-do my current apartment lol. It already looks great, but I've been putting off getting a new duvet set bc I presumed I was gonna buy a bigger bed lol... so I've just been rotating between the two sets I have ... and damn they've seen better days lol.

Relationships

After all he has been through, my brother finally has some great things happening. I am so proud of him. I know he will achieve everything he aspires to <3 This has also done wonders for his self-confidence, he truly needed this, and I hope ... I really hope that it stays on this positive track.

Positive family news aside, idk if anyone saw the post about my uncle? But god damn I'm annoyed af. (Side note: He is my mums cousin btw; but my entire family is close). Anyway, my uncle called my mum to rant … and according to my mum he was sooooo proud of what he said to his wife??? I’m just disgusted. Idk how. His wife could forgive him for this. I’m so glad my mum put him in his place ✋🏽✋🏽✋🏽

I know its not about me and I have no right to speak on other people's relationships, but I hate seeing people put their all into a relationship and even go against their own family to be with someone ... only for their partner to treat them like this. His wife deserves soooooo much better and its sooo heartbreaking that she has to go through. My heart truly breaks for her. I pray everything works out for her.

Conclusion

Anywho … if you made it this far! Thank you for reading my ramblings <3 wishing you a lovely day! Stay safe babes 😘

[ishouldreallybeelsewhere]

okay so time currently in the doctor who universe is very… bendy atm

easily influenced, as seen by the mavity joke, especially because the word gravity, in the context that donna was using it, already existed in 1666, and had been in use since the early 1500s. also i this is a silly little theory i do not think rtd knows the etymology of ‘gravity’

(examples below the cut)

anyway, i know that it was just a joke, but it potentially implies that time as a whole is being warped incredibly easily, and with that, space and the universe, since within the whoniverse, space and time are deeply connected (they probably are in real life too idk). the fragility of spacetime could also potentially be a result of the loosening borders between universes/realities, which ties in with the toymaker, as he exists outside of the known universe, and since the timewar effectively closed off the universe (apart from in the doctor’s wife i guess and season 2) it could be a sign of something deeper. i also think that tampering with superstition may reappear in the next episode, perhaps, because jt seemed like a very specific thing to include.

i’ve seen a few theories about how the music used in certain scenes is similar or the same to rose’s theme and themes used when the universe’s walls were weakening, but i don’t know enough about music to comment on that

another important thing is that the doctor does remember the word gravity, which aligns with them in past stories being aware of changes in time, such as in the waters of mars

i don’t have a super clear point here but i might rewrite this later (not at 2:21 am) to sort out my points a bit

Origin:

late 15th century (in gravity (sense 2)): from Old French, or from Latin gravitas ‘weight, seriousness’, from gravis ‘heavy’. gravity (sense 1) dates from the 17th century.

^Oxford Languages

I.3.1509–Weighty dignity; reverend seriousness; serious or solemn conduct or demeanour befitting a ceremony, an office, etc.; staidness. In later use with wider application: seriousness or sobriety (of conduct, bearing, speech, temperament, etc.); opposed to levity and gaiety.

1509: Let these folys auoyde this mad mysuse And folowe the right way of vertuous grauyte.

A. Barclay, Brant's Shyp of Folys (Pynson) f. ccxlvi

[magmacannon]

9, 14, 17, 20, 29, 34 🫵 Roman

yipee!!!!

9. favorite food? least favorite? are they a picky eater? do they have any dietary restrictions?

Roman grew up Really Far North and his food preferences were shaped as such - though he loves a well-cooked or roasted green veggie, his favorite food is a red meat roast cooked in a stock+beer or ale for tenderness/flavor with alliums and tubers/carrots that are served with the meat and maybe a side of bread+butter (hearty stuff). Least favorite food that he's tried was a spiced tomato-heavy salad thing, least favorite food based on concept alone is the fermented bulette meat that his party member tried to make for them ala fermented shark meat.

Roman doesn't consider himself a picky eater - he'll try most things once or twice! - but he also is cursed with Weak Spice Tolerance that bars him from a good amount of food. Rolling a dice here for this last one but he's not allergic to anything BUT.... despite his love for milk, he's sitting as just above having lactose intolerance apparently.

14. are they any good with numbers?

Roman's solid at guessing distances and geometry through practice - you don't want to be a spellcaster, especially an evocation wizard, to have bad aim - and is pretty decent at keeping track of number patterns and budgeting income vs expenses. Higher level or theoretical math is hard for him to grasp but he tries his best!

17. how did they spend their summers/free time as a child?

As a YOUNG child Roman spent his free time either playing at an uncle's lumberyard/hobby farm outside of the walls of Tzeraz or would spend it traveling with his parents within the Northern Kingdom (mostly) while they performed. He has a few friends he'd invite to his house to play (super dramatic war games) besides that.

As he got older and began going to school for magic, his summers were taken up by classes while winter was the big break time where he'd be able to go home for a few months. When with his family and now less-close friends he'd show off what he was learning to anyone who would listen and watch him cast cantrips at snowmen (this annoyed his brother because he'd do it so often). He spent a lot more time daydreaming in his early teens than continuing running around.

20. if applicable, can they drive? if they have their own, what color is their vehicle? is the inside neat and tidy, or a mess?

IN Dorna, Roman's never seen a 'car' in person but he can decently manage to steer a carriage on a well-paved road if needed. He prefers to ride in the back and read/sleep though!

In a world where cars are common he has a minivan that's a little busted up but runs well. He's considering trying to get a Cool Wizard painted on the side. The inside smells decently clean if a little dusty and while the floor's clean, the dashboard compartment and the back have mild piles of stuff (papers/blankets and bags respectively). He travels with ice removal tools Constantly and maybe a portable air pump just in case.

29. are they associated with any particular element (air, earth, fire, water)?

This is ALWAYS a fun one to think of for Roman bc it's changed over time... he's been associated with light/fire for forever if I think about it, but initially I would have def said he was more of a Water Guy. His oldest 'custom' spell was earth-aligned and he casts spells in a very grounded way - I think he wants to be more 'earth' aligned than he actually is in-setting. I think he's probably most associated with fire through how he acts and the magic he casts out of those four options though he wants to be Anything Else atm.

34. how would your character describe themselves? it doesn’t have to line up with how they really are.

Roman would describe himself as a friendly, optimistic guy with a good bit of determination and practice seeing things through (sort of true, he's stubborn). He'd probably say he's 'pretty good' at his job, which is true in that he has a lot of technical skill BUT he lacks focus historically, meaning that he's just Okay at it in truth. He'd say he has a big heart with a lot of love in it, and that's entirely true <3 (he just also has a lot of opinions and some unforseen pettiness, too)

[anastrophethis]

AT's Public Anxiety Journal #1

Hey Tumblr. I just need a place to transplant some anxiety thoughts from my brain ATM, so if reading the very wordy, likely depressing stress journal of random internet people doesn't interest you, that's fine. This is mostly for me, for reasons I'll explain as we go. I admit I've never used Tumblr before, so for all I know this is wildly inappropriate: Forgive me if that's the case, I'm just trying to take advantage of the provided anonymity to exorcise some anxious thoughts from my brain meat.

I'm a 30-something guy with a ridiculous case of avoidant personality disorder. For the uninitiated: Have you ever had trouble sleeping or focusing because of an intensely stressful thought or life situation, especially a social worry? Did you wish you could just tune it out and occupy your brain with anything else? I have made the Faustian bargain that allows me to do just that! Are you jealous?

The downside is that the more you do it, the more it becomes a regular coping mechanism, then a habit, then a compulsive behavior, and finally - if unchecked for a decade and you reach your final form as I have - a completely automatic process.

For example: My car needs a bit of work done. It has needed this for years now - I'm pretty confident it's the alternator. Occasionally I go to turn it on and the battery is dead, and I have to Uber to AutoZone, pick up a $300 battery and some tools, replace the battery, and then I have a few months to get it to the shop before the battery will die again.

But you know, auto repairs are pricey, and that's stressful. Being without a car for a period of time is stressful. Checking your account balance to see if you can afford the work is stressful. So I replace my battery, I decide 'I can deal with this tomorrow' - and I put it out of mind.

For the next couple of months, occasionally I'll have the thought: "Oh right, I need to get that work done on my car!" and the immediate and intense wave of shame that follows from not having done this very simple task for years now is so overbearing that my brain just... pushes it back and away. If you were to catch me at this moment and ask, "Hey, have you thought about your car recently?" I would absolutely say yes - I would remember the internal monologue I'd just been through... But if no outside force acts upon me, it's like I can no longer call it to memory. It gets repressed before I even have a chance to assess whether I have time and funds to do it.

This is a bit of an odd example, because most people know AVPD as being related to social anxiety - and it is - but it reaches out to every stressor in my life - avoidance is one of the most common coping mechanisms for stress of all kinds.

But heck, for social situations: I've gone literal years without checking my text messages or voicemail. My phone rings, I see it's a relative who's tried to call me three times this week and instantly I'm infused with shame for never answering when they call - it's been so long, and they just want to hear from me... And the shame is so intense that I reflexively silence the phone, toss it away, and withdraw into a daydream or a youtube video or a mindless video game. Anything that pulls my attention away from the source of stress.

The obvious problem is that stressors and sources of shame don't tend to go away when you ignore them - they tend to get worse. And as they get worse, so does the shame of not having completed these simple tasks, which makes the automatic reflex to suppress them that much stronger.

On the one hand, I have trained my brain to deal with any and all stressors in a way that eliminates the stress.

On the other hand, I have trained my brain to do nothing about the sources of stress in my life.

So here I sit: I'm about to have to move on the 23rd. I've filled out an application for a new apartment, but my credit score is super low because I ignored a bunch of calls from my creditors when my debit card changed and my autopay failed - I ignored them for so long that they went into collections, despite having the money to pay them, because it was stressful to deal with. So hopefully that doesn't make it impossible to find a place.

My car's battery has officially died again, and now in addition to other moving expenses I really need to replace one of its tires and get the alternator fixed, but I'm on a really tight timeline - I need to get my things to storage or to a new apartment pronto.

I'm out of medication, but once again I've missed pharmacy hours because taking an uber and being in a car with a stranger makes me want to die.

My family are concerned, but I don't want to burden them with my depressive and anxious worries when they have their own thing going on.

On Monday I call the apartment place and talk to the lady who handles my application and try to show her that I have bad credit, but I'm always on time with rent and I have the money to cover my debts, I just can't handle making all the phone calls needed to track down who I now owe money to (since collection agencies have shuffled it around).

Before then, I need to get a new battery and take my dog to the vet to make sure his shots are up to date so the new apartment can give him the okay stamp.

Before then, I need to get my stuff to storage and get my medication.

And all of these are going to take a lot of phone calls - the bane of my existence. I admit it feels so self-absorbed to say "I can't handle making phone calls", as if the person on the other end of the line is judging me rather than just... doing their job, talking to tens or hundreds of random people a day that they don't remember... And yet it's true.

With all that said, lists help. As does forcing myself to focus on what's stressing me rather than pushing it down - hence this post.

Wish me luck, Tumblr.