#esp w the events of 3 and remind

[starocean]

drifting by on an on is a soriku song

[caustinen]

Loving your Hollywood Clegan AU so much!

Curious though...how do they transition when their relationship becomes public? Are there any issues with fan backlash? Or being an openly gay actor? What about the increased paparazzi attention or stalkerish fans? :O

Hello lovely person!! As usual this got a bit long but I hope it answers the question a bit at least 😂💘

To start off with, I usually reimagine my fics in worlds that don’t have homophobia because I personally don’t enjoy writing it/making it a plot point, there’s so much amazing art in all forms dealing with it that it doesn’t feel like trying to erase a very real problem/ignore it because obviously it unfortunately is a big part of queer experience for a lot of people, it’s just that I like to imagine worlds where that isn’t a factor just so there’s also places to escape that, esp in silly fanfiction that I write – that’s what I also enjoy to read as a queer person myself! So while it would definitely give this au a lot of depth, I’m at least not right now including that in these replies <3

As for the other stuff, I have not thought about it a lot even though these should be kinda the main questions for this au… So let’s think about it!

Paparazzi – John dislikes paparazzi as much as anyone but Gale despises them. He finds it a bit invasive but kind of a “part of the job” con for John and later their relationship in the public when it happens when arriving to/leaving events, but when he first catches someone taking his picture while leaving the gym or his office he gets very antsy. This creates some tensions for a bit as John understands his stress but also feels like they talked about it beforehand and now he can’t really do anything about it. When they’re out together and they spot paparazzi John always tries to block Gale from the sight, pull him behind himself or guide them some other way. They love to travel and it’s also easier to avoid being spotted when they’re away from LA/New York. It’s bad for the first few months but eventually the attention on them eases up a bit and they can go back to the new normal with only occasional encounters with the paparazzi; Gale also grows more accustomed to it and knows how to dress to and act to hide & make it a bit less intense.

Fan backlash – I think this would be an interesting thing to explore. Even though a lot of the fans are just happy for John, there are also some who have become too parasocial/illusioned about him after being fans for years (and he is a heartthrob and charming and widely accepted as “boyfriend material”) that they get upset when the relationship is revealed, starting to talk shit on social media about John never having been genuine and has only been lying to his fans meaning he never actually cared about them, and through that getting to insult his work and that they only went to see it because he’s hot but now it’s ruined. John was also shipped with a lot of his previous castmates and some shippers are also upset and saying he “setteled” for Gale who’s “just an ordinary office worker” when he could’ve had a flashy Hollywood Romance – while many see his fiancés shyness and soft-spokeness in public as adorable, some say he doesn’t match John’s vibe at all, and the fact that John also seems different with him is not a good thing and they start to psychoanalyze their relationship. John couldn’t care less for some angry comments on his insta but some of the hate is directed towards Gale, and he’s a bit taken aback when he starts to receive DM’s telling him to leave John immediately and accusing him of manipulating him into a relationship with “someone like him”. John is obviously very upset by all of this but Gale reminds him that he’s seen it all at work and can handle himself.

Stalkers – The other extreme of Gale haters would then be the people who get like way into him real fast, he’s beloved by the masses, sure, but these people are more like a cult (probably of the similar style of fan as the one’s who turn against John in the previous point, like highkey parasocial behavior but when John starts to date publicly it’s like “no, he’s OUR boyfriend” but not in a funny way you know). The line is blurred to some people what it means that John revealed he has a partner, it’s not a ”new part of him” but a real person of his own that happens to be dating their favorite actor, and this gets lost on some people who start to treat him almost like he was Bucky’s pet (idk if this makes any sense but like as if he was just a cute little thing he can post pics about and doesn’t really have an agency of their own AND the fans feel like they ”know him” when they actually know nothing about him except that he’s dating their idol). Gale’s not expecting to get any “fans” of his own, so he’s a bit weary when he’s asked to take pics with people without John or given stuff on red carpets etc, and especially when people really cross boundaries and try to gift him/them like condoma or sex toys or lingerie (I’m thinking of that one interview where they showed Austin his fan merch and there was the thong with his face on it and I’m thinking someone gifting a similar one of Bucky to him and him being absolutely horrified) or something else kinda projecting their own fantasies into them, or playing it off as a joke while it’s actually really distrurbing — just because they’re out doesn’t mean the relationship opened for other people to comment on. Then of course there’s just the usual internet hellhole-stuff, people start sending him really inappropriate messages about his body/looks/what they’d want to do to him given the chance that he maybe didn’t expect because he doesn’t believe John when he tells him that’s like notably attractive. I could also imagine for example a moment where someone approaches them when they’re leaving an event or something and Gale is being professional and polite but the other person is really overstaying their welcome/not following social cues but talking to him like a friend would and when John tries to politely lead them onwards the “fan” grabs Gale’s arm or something and it causes a small scene. Gale is stressed in these situations mostly because he fears how they’ll reflect on John’s image if he’s presented as being rude to fans but luckily these are rare occasions.

Despite all of this, they both are happy that the relationship is public, there are more pros than cons for being able to build their future together without having to be each others dirty little secrets (idk why but it came to my mind now that Gale is so the type that since he couldn’t always tell people he had a partner, everyone would either hit on him or try to match him with someone because “how is someone that pretty single?!” and this would annoy the hell out of Bucky despite him being the one with millions of options at any given moment, i like some jealous bucky :D)

Hope this was satisfactory!! Any more ideas to these scenarios? I’m so used to doing just fluff/smut so this was a fun challenge, thank you! <3

[subskz]

Now...

Is it super curly? No. But will I take it as my Piscean Psychic Ability worked? YES... also his bubble messages abt no longer wearing hats and looking into caring for his hair more... AND ASKING IF HE SHOULD GROW IT OUT LIKE I'M NOT A LONG HAIR SKZ ENTHUSIAST

As someone with wavy hair, I have done curls with curly-friendly shampoo and conditioner plus leave-in treatment: (picture 1 was with a curler and picture 2 is with the shampoo+conditioner+leave-in treatment)

I naturally have that 70s wave to it

~~~

Anyways, curly haired Chan Enthusiasts, we are back in business

A WIN FOR CURLY CHAN NATION 😭🙏‼️ i used to pray for times like these…he looks so unbelievably handsome n soft n mash potato…i will cherish the styling for this event for the rest of my life. thank u for manifesting it w ur piscean third eye my dearest pink now all we need is for the hair at his nape to swoop out into that adorable duck tail we love so much…im counting on u to bring that to life too!!

and his bbl messages ㅠ literally the best possible news i dont know what sparked his sudden interest in letting his curls free for the world to adore but im eternally grateful…it’s really cute how he seems to be more interested in fashion + styling himself in general lately and asking stays for advice <3

your hair is so pretty in those pics!! the second one esp reminds me of natural waves after a long day out on the beach 🥰 and i always knew u were secretly a floating mass of pink behind that innie pfp hehe

[junkdyke]

hey 🌷🌷 i just wanna say i hope you’re doing well! seeing you on my dash makes me wanna be me best black lesbian self fr fr <3 i’m struggling w being in/out of the closet and finding my style, esp with a lot of queer rep being very white and american-y, if that makes sense? so thank you for just Being You and sharing it w ppl.

Ahhh thank you so much, it makes me happy to know my dumbass helps a lil bit!! Totallyyyyyy get you on style when so much lesbian rep, esp femininity is so white! My feminine style heavily relied on eurocentric beauty, straight hair + colored contacts, and it's been hard shifting away from that and suddenly feeling less attractive. It helps immensely to keep looking at people who look like you, you see the beauty in them and it helps to see it in yourself! Lesbian attraction and style is also just so far from mainstream beauty anyway, and most media does a piss poor job of representing the community whatsoever lmao. Going out to lesbian events has also been great at reminding me what this community actually looks like, and how varied the styles are! Just have fun with it, think about what would be interesting to try, what would look cool, and style is a constant evolution! I have plans for my hair and other things that are probably going to make me look even more weird, but it's the confidence that makes it sexy! Sorry this got so rambly lmao but thank you for sending me this, I hope you're doing well too!! 💖

[potato-an0n]

Istg why is every rwby song so percy jackson coded? (Rhetorical question ik the answer, they have a pretty similar story structure (??) and rwby uses their ost to give context to their characters/ story and foreshadow events):

- Time to say good bye (heavy on this one, i even made a post abt it)

- I burn (this could be abt any character having their character development moment)

- This Will be The day (this is for wen i get to the Battle of Manhatten or the climax of the great prophecy).

- Die (the aftermath of the wars coming ahead tht i havent gotten to yet)

- Gold (percabeth and solangelo coded but also will coded too)

- Dreams Come True (another percabeth and solangelo coded song)

- Caffeine (as im typing this, im currently on ch 6 of battle of the labyrinth so, I’ll come back this after i meet more of the characters)

- Lets Just Live (the demigod kids in their healing era, but honestly, I’ll have this song do the talking).

- Like morning follows the night (this could either be abt percy and nico, but heavily leaning towards percy)

- Home (idk, i think of bianca and zoë wen i hear this song, specifically bianca bc it’s giving big sister vibes)

- Armed and Ready (percabeth and solangelo coded pt. 3)

- Bmblb (ifyyk 😏 but for context: the ship name for 2 main characters black and yang is bumblebee and I FUCKING LOVE THESE TWO and lets just say, solangelo and bmblb are VERY similar both as individual characters and their relationship (literally the sunshine x “grumpy”trope). Also, yang and will are so similar to e/o in terms of personality like, they’re laid back sunshine ppl but it’s also their coping mechanism 😀 (and traumas are severely overlooked bc they are the laid back sunshine characters) and are loser bf/gf 💀)

- Red like roses pt 1. and 2 (these songs are made for nico. Esp red like roses pt.2 like omg- the lyrics accuracy to nico’s situation 😭 im gonna have to make a separate post abt this. also now thinking abt it, him and ruby are more alike than i thought)

I made a playlist for songs tht remind of pjo or relate heavily to pjo and it’s filled w/ mostly songs from RWBY bc of how similar they are (yet dif world building and lore ofc) and i haven’t watched rwby in YEARS. But i do have old rwby posts here on here tho if yall wanna check it out 😅

[kazbiter]

need to hear some of ur ronsey thoughts pls 🤲

my beloved fellow ronsey enthusiast I would do anything 1) for you and 2) to talk abt them some more so here I go!!!!

pynch is my personal favorite romantic/endgame pairing for ronan like they will always be what I come back to for many reasons, at the end of the day I love love love ronan and adam BUT!!! but! that does NOT keep me from doing thorough and frequent explorations of ronsey in my mind bc I am, to put it simply, also obsessed with them. it's also rlly easy for me to do bc the ronsey dynamic is just so different, from both pynch and from genuinely anything else I have ever seen like there is something abt the connection and relationship that belongs solely to them and cannot be influenced by any other event or relationship in either of their respective lives bc they are each so much a part of who the other is. there r romantic elements to it but it's also something beyond romance to me even though I do also like ronsey in a romantic context (anyone who has any good fics send them my WAYYYY)!!! but beyond that there is just something sooooo compelling to me abt the way the connection is neither completely romantic or completely platonic but rather being the result of this kind of love and devotion that is so intense it cannot be contained within or defined by any traditional parameters.

i think the ronan devotion post I made a few weeks ago best sums up what really gets to me on his side of things (tldr being that the most important thing to ronan is being dependable to gansey, earning his place as the one he looks to first and keeping it by being able to provide exactly what it is that he wants as soon as he asks for it) but im also so taken with the way that gansey understands he has been given the very rare oppurtunity of being shown ronan's heart, knowing the soft and loving and passionate thing that it is no matter how much ronan tries to hide it from others by wrapping himself in barbed wire and sharp words, and committing himself to holding it safe and never letting himself or ronan forget what it truly is. ronan (esp in the earlier books) hates himself so much, can hardly live with who he is and tries to deal with it by making it difficult for anyone else to do so, and gansey simply says no. i remember who you are. i remember how you love. and I'm not forgetting it and I won't let you either. you can't scare me off- i'm afraid for you but I will never be afraid of you. you marvelous creature. just carrying this part of ronan with him that ronan thought had died along with his father, keeping it safe so that when he's ready he can have it back again. loving him in a way that keeps him from losing himself. i just simply will never be over it or able to put it into enough words, I'm always marvelling at what they share w each other and the ways they remind me how love can save you.

ps. this was a lot less thought out than most of the posts I make on them I kinda just started rambling abt whatever came to mind bc I'm thinking abt them in different ways every day LMAO so I hope that these r the kind of ronsey thoughts u wanted to hear and were at least partially coherent bc the hangover is kicking my ass a bit hahah xoxox <3

[castle-dominion]

castle 7x1 driven

the finding castle episode liveblog

previously yeah yeah I watched the last ep a week ago it's fine

Oh no he dead

Bros hold her back

yeah hot af.

(surprised alexis & martha aren't doing the same)

Noooo they are muddying Yet Another wedding dress!!!!

Dun dun dun he ain't there!

Esposito helping becks up the hill <3

(wow ryan hair)

I wonder if they filmed parts of this the previous season before hiatus

He's right, change, but it would be Cool to see becks doing Cop Stuff in her wedding dress. Just like. Tie it up lol.

what was that little skip there in ryan's run?

uh Tell Him why

mum noticed the red tail light stuff.

Oh no pieces.

Dragged him away

Love rysposito half fancy. Reminds me of 4x1 look

See? turned on remotely! Things u can do! But castle's never could be, after that debacle w/ bracken & beckett? no way.

Fruit stands my beloved.

See? how WOULD you remember that? unless it went TWICE!

Love how they have those windbreakers.

"Not far the way I’m going to drive."

Why is my man running away if he's a normal guy?

good frame rate

*checking the gps on his phone* love it

oh NO it's getting CRUSHED lmao I loVE it!

early title card

Ooh car maze!!! I love it!

she just TACKLES him!

Love rysposito holding her off.

love the chains.

becks uh beckett my dude chill CHILL

AFTER THAT THERE'S NINE MORE!?!?

Looks like it is the same day still. Beckett changed at the wedding but she is wearing the same clothes now at the precinct & rysposito have changed too now

esposito looks so Happy!

(nice pic they are using for castle lol)

JE: So you can do what to him? (off her look) I was watching. Getting booted of the force is not going to help anything.

It's just like s4 finale/s5 premier

conveiniently lousy

Gates my beloved <3 (but she should be booted off the case) Oh wait nvm. unless you give me cause to.

sus fbi moments

friends & family & also just regular employees

In the event hhh

connors is right that IS sus.

it MIGHT have smth to do w her.

It's like that sammy keyes final book!

communication!!!

Alexis looks so unwell jhfsjksdlfj

MR: Your father will be home before you know it.

Me: How long is the show's hiatus?

Who's bringing the coffee? Becks it's obv not going to be castle

Esposito. He really loves her.

(someone had to bring her coffee. idk if I'll liveblog the audio commentary)

*knowing bracken himself is not behind this, esp not this early on*

3xk, mickey barbozza was the most recent one,,,

Esposito's scar is so Something

*knowing it isn't exactly castle's dad*

Vinny the scar!

Yeah he accused him of murder!

"What can I do to help?"

I love vinny

"this I did not know"

love the grey area love vinny love this stuff. Wait is it vinny or vinnie?

Already in the morning?

Panini <3

"that does not happen" I love the scar

*is castle* (that's not how it works)

JE: getting mad

Love ryan & esposito taking two different angles

Ryan give her a hug

that's true! we already have this stuff w 3xk!

girl he took voice lessons to sound like esposito he could surely take body movement lessons

(btw love the outfits & ig lighting too & all this stuff & the acting is good too.)

Martha sus.

Makes sense to me. Run off the road by an suv of COURSE I'd pay to have it crushed! it made me mad!

Exceot he asked for it to be crushed before!! it ran him off.

Martha sounds happy he's alive while becks sounds mad he's lying

it's authentic. & terrific?

{Why was CASTLE the one to pay for the car to get crushed tho?}

yeah why WASN'T castle under duress?

walking away from bekett would also mean walking away from alexis, that would NOT happen?

Vinnie turned over the money to help his friend Castle!

Mum guessed it was her wedding gift, like for castle's bday the 100th episode.

Call castle's dad

Love the handwriting & the montage scene.

WHERE HER MOM'S MURDER BOARD WAS HHH

Shawn Wash. Love how it's the same two paragraphs repeated over & over lol. Good set design. Well idk but fun set design.

SHE'S CALLING ALL THE WAY TO FRANCE! does she speak french fluently? or just some?

the chair!

noooo closing the shutters!

*little boat*

reminds me of that book where the mom was mentally ill so they couldn't ask for help when they were trapped in the boat.

"this is the USA coast guard, please move."

'this is the canadian lighthouse, that's not gonna happen'

What if you are knocked out & CAN'T ANSWER that u need help?

it wasn't the MIDDLE of the atlantic ocean babes!

THREE BULLET HOLES???

Like peter at the tomb

worst part is SHE didn't do anything to get him back, it just took time & a bullet shot boat

alexis <3

my man has a sunburn

going to be in a coma or smth. Girl chill it's ok. Don't expect him to wake up..

not treat him but... LOOK at him... soOOOO GOOD

yucky coffee.

esposito asking the hard questions. We need a devil's advocate!

ryan's pants look odd with that jackett or at least in this lighting

*beckett right behind them*

take a drink every time u hear the word dinghiy

Yay coast guard captain

my man is so smart.

Was she on the screen call with him at the hospital?

"henry jenkins" or so he's called

a month ago?

lmao look at those rods.

blue blue blue eyes omG

stole his clothes lol

key SEWN into his pants?

so he WAS shot!

a few WEEKS ago???

the other guy said nobody was home.

love the use of the word negative instead of just no.

*thinks the garbage bags contain castle's body parts before remembering he's in the hospital*

two person tent. Looking at the interior it looks more like a five folk tent. (well five if they sleep in mummy bags & head to toe)

"or some kids hanging around taking it for a joyride"

why wouldn't "they" clean up the tent?

late 30s (early 40s)

*takes esposito with her*

the tux would not be put away that way but I'll take it. Esposito is so mad at castle.

his wedding shoes!

his watch!

he was tracking the news to see if they had been able to find/rescue him yet

martha is so happy!

first thing he did was ask for you!

RC: Just so you know, the doctor said that kissing will speed my recovery.

I could clip

yeah it IS supposed to be a joke. I deal with being in a car collision with humour! We keep having crap to deal with when we are trying to get married, it's just so silly silly!

he's a writer he needs to start at the beginning

I think u can tell he is not faking it

he looks so exaasperated when he says "I was unconscious!"

Right yes. why?

I might ask "has it been a year?" or smth bc I'm Dramatic ( if i was castle)

I'd ask if it was supposed to be a joke. I'd ask for proof.

except if he planned this & called vinnie in the morning, he would have had to plan it & he'd remember things before the wedding accident! (techinically not an accident)

bc I want to go there!

Remember Jeremy?

esposito outfit nice, lighting too hard for me to pic. grey or black or navy with a v dark red tie. some pattern (caused by the weave I think, not actual dye)

ryan taking explanations & facts.

lmao tiny little crime scene box!

she's going to cry skdjflskdjfl I love i hate I love this

did he write it in his coma dream? is it an AU

except castle DID set it up! he was the one who set this up!

RC: Yeah, on the INLAND side!!! Not on the ocean side.

he did camp here tho!

some old guy

Not the same guy bwa bwa BWAAAAA

walk & talk

(ryan outfit <3)

Why the setup to be there? what about the evidence?

JE: Mm hmm castle. THEY faked it sure

Fenkins

Remember Jeremy? I want to see more of him I want to see the updates!

alexis is old enough to drink

I love how he moves his hand counter clockwise for tangled & then clockwise for untangled when he talks with his hands there

you DO lose hope & then you get it back!

staring at it was so sweet!

everyone has chairs by their desks!

Almost shot him? srs becks? ew lol

RC: Well, it’s not the same. I can’t remember. Though I do know I missed you terribly. Because there’s no way I wouldn’t.

(could clip)

this is soooo sweet

[dj-dondondonki]

girly rave in chengdu

went to a rave last weekend in chengdu.

it was fun!

i think it really hit home for me there how closed off from the outside (Western) world China has really become. in Taipei, techno events are usually at least half white Western expats (mostly European guys and rly young exchange students). this chengdu rave was like...almost all Chinese (mostly Szechuanese judging from dialect). except one German girl (why is there always a German?? any rave anywhere in the world???).

it was refreshing, actually, to be at a techno event where the vibe was not mid European guys holding drinks and their overdressed Taiwanese gfs vaping. it reminded me of my first rave, in nyc - a queer rave with a lot of open gay-ness, lesbians, trans people clearly there for the celebration of queerness as much as for the music. at this chengdu event there were a ton of lesbians. a lot of women in general actually -- more women than men, and both the DJs playing that night were women.

(reminded me of something my cousin said: apparently Szechuan is the province in China where women have the highest societal status and comparative equality to men, a factor that influenced Luis Vuitton's decision to open their China flagship in Chengdu??)

the vibe was very house party-esque -- felt like a close-knit community who knew each other well. a lot of ppl were there just to hang out rather than to dance/get wasted. little clusters of friend groups posted up outside the venue all night, gossiping n smoking n hugging n talking each other through gay heartbreak </3 .

i danced a lot and then wanted to chat w people but nobody really approached me :( i even did the thing where i bummed cigarettes as a way to enter a conversation but it did not work, people just gave me a cigarette silently lol. that's something i'm still not used to - the general standoffishness of Asian people at nightclubs. not that i find Americans at raves especially friendly, but i do think American raves (esp very gay ones) have more of a loose, chummy intimate feel -- you can randomly start dancing w strangers, vibing, hugging, whatever -- whereas Asians definitely respect each others' personal space on the dancefloor. it's something i miss a lot about nyc tbh.

the space was super small - two rooms, the smaller room was like the size of my living room in taipei. they had a brazilian DJ playing there and a cute cooler w juice boxes and chrysanthemum tea, etc. the bigger room had a local Chengdu DJ, an older lady, chainsmoking n getting rly drunk and the crowd was going HARD for her. like screaming for their favorite tracks and they were rly rly dancing. apparently they dance till sunrise at these things. there's no official end time it's just when ppl get too tired, usually 6 or 7am.

the one thing i disliked was how much ppl were smoking. they smoke A LOT here, like ppl were chainsmoking like crazy while dancing inside this tiny closed room, it was SOUPY w secondhand smoke. i was coughing the day after and i feel like it's still in my lungs now :'((( why do chinese ppl have to smoke so much???

i've been thinking about raving in general lately n my relationship to it -- there was a time like two years ago when i first started clubbing, when i really thought dancing n clubbing could be like...my meaning in life LOL. my salvation. i was inspired by david mancuso in the 70s, the infamous utopian loft parties, the subversive gay/black subculture that gave rise to techno, and i was hosting these cute!! DIY!! basement parties w my friends thinking that possibly RAVE COULD SAVE THE WORLD. or at least save...people like me? lesbian misfits seeking art n community??

these days i feel like so much older. like idk. maybe dancing n loud techno n drugs is just...dancing n techno n drugs?? you go out enough and everything starts to feel the same, the crowd around you gets younger and younger, you recognize the same characters on the dancefloor no matter where in the world it is.

i think i'm getting to a stage where i either need more out of clubbing (like, i'm craving a clubbing/dancing experience that's more overtly community-based and warm and intentionally uplifting) or maybe, clubbing is no longer satisfying my need for... whatever, a creative/energetic outlet, a sense of vibing and celebration with others.

(also: see this masterpiece of music journalism that describes the clubbing scene in chengdu)

[astrxealis]

HOME SWEET MOON RERUN GBF ???? oh my god LET'S FUCKING GO i love the society members sm like please just look at them, (no spoilers? under the cut btw ^^)

rambling a bit abt eustace bcs i am Never and will Never be over his lines !!! like yes sir i would definitely like you to pet my head. and i want to pet your ears too. also he has great taste he loves DOGS ALSO HIS STORY !! it reminds me of another fave of mine but in ffxivjfheidhekdhaos i love em both so much

rambling a bit abt eustace bcs i am Never and will Never be over his lines !!! like yes sir i would definitely like you to pet my head. and i want to pet your ears too. also he has great taste he loves DOGS ALSO HIS STORY !! it reminds me of another fave of mine but in ffxivjfheidhekdhaos i love em both so much

VASERAGA IS AMAZING !!! i rlly love his development and story esp w his relationship w zeta sobsobsobso

BEA IS SUCH AN AMAZING CHARACTER AND SHES SO PRETTY TOO ... i probably kinda kin her ngl ... IDHEIWHEIWN ANYWAYS I LOVE HER

but yeah zeta rlly is one of my fave girls fr i really really like her :(( she gives me like. she can be my big sis bestie but also at the same time that girl u have a huge crush on ???????? friend to lovers w her PLEASE also she sso prefyy please and cute pela

PLEASEEEEE ILsa shld step on me ... literally Maam ......... i love her a lot fr tho and def she shld get her dream and get married sometime she deserves it

CASSIUS OH GOOD LORD CASSISYSUEHSIJD MY TWIN LIKES YOU MORE BUT I ALSO LIKE YOU A LOT I THINK ???? not as mucha s zeta and eustace but holy shit CASSIUS he is so cute and his char dvweopemnt is so MHMMMMM YES KING i hc him as nonbinary though

AND ISAAC !!!!!!! OH HELL YEAH ISAAC HE IS SO GREAT help i have no more words to say but rlly i love his story and hes such a great guy

tbh though the story gets p disturbing at times ,,, like ifykyk ,,, reminds me of that one greek myth? tantalus if im not mistaken ... !! nto as bad but. still distubring AND THEN THE BRAIN ... holy ahit

Anyways the society series is great !! a lot more mechy feeling and technological seeming but still good i think? personally i enjoyed home sweet moon :] so heartwarming esp after what ahppened b4 hand TvT

personally i didnt really find this event to be super Wow and Epic but it was enjoyable!! i think. its been more than a yearduehfjsbd i cant rmbr super well anymore but i love them <3

AND I ALMOST FORGOT HOLY SHIT BUT GWYNNE !!! <333333 yes gwynne yes lets go girl

[waybrights]

Crashes the Ceiling

Sasha and The Sharps at the met gala headcanons?

okay i actually had to do research on this because i didn't know what it was minus celebrities dressing up so ahskdhkdad

but here is a short list of my hcs and maybe outfit ideas (?) for my girls!!

- they've been invited every year since they turned 15, but never really wanted to go (plus they all thought it would be a bit overwhelming esp for marcy) so they turned it down

- ended up going when they were 20!! technically they were forced into it, but sasha was going to ask to go anyway so they weren't too mad abt having to go

- (we'll say the theme was the most recent one for my poor brain) so their theme was In America: A Lexicon of Fashion and i think they did p well w it!!

- marcy would probably do smth like lili reinhart (the dress w each states flower on it) but a bit shorter so she doesn't trip and green!!

- sasha would bring a sword, because why not <3

- anne would wear a blue dress that lights up when she moves because she thinks it's pretty (and vaguely reminds her of vegas so it 'fits' the theme)

- one of them wanted to wear a dress made out of fast food packaging but they weren't allowed

- they perform too, so they get two outfits (their performance was like a mashup of their favourite songs, it slaps <3)

- they take a lot of pictures

- since they were so 'elusive' they were the center of attention for a bit because wow they Actually showed up to an event.. crazy

- sasha spills food over her outfit but claims it was part of the style and everyone rolls w it

- they dont arrive together, because sasha wanted to be extra

- anne shows up first because she was actually ready on time, sasha shows up second and almost knocks over anne ('i missed you!' ... ' you saw me an hour ago sash...'), marcy shows up last and the other two are very happy to see them

- they don't rlly leave each other's sides after a while, so there are only like 2 solo pics of each of them jskahddh

[magireco]

Would love to hear more thoughts on how these girls have understandable teenage motivations (A+ tag analysis by the way)

1. Thank you!!!!!!

2. ALRIGHT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS (shuffles my papers). i’ve gone off about homura’s motivations in depth before but i think it was only in dms/groupchats? anyways i’ll go in order with All the girls bc i think about this all the time as a teenager who grew up mentally ill and had their perceptions skewed because of it, and also i don’t think it’s talked about nearly enough for the others, at least on my blog... so, buckle up!!! this is REALLY LONG!!!! 

3. i tried writing like, an individual thing for every member of the quintet all together in this one ask, but i ended up talking a little too much about homura and now i’m going to split up all the different analysis stuff for each character into the reblogs and work on it every so often! you’re free to kinda skim of course because i really did write a whole novel but here we go!! read under the cut. :3 this is literally essay length btw. i did NOT expect it to get this long but if you want to read it all i’d recommend it but i don’t expect most people to

First: Homura Akemi

okay so i’m going to kind of summarize everything but from the perspective of empathizing with her so if you don’t want to reread a whole recap you can skip to the ending few paragraphs

Summary

first of all, in episode 10, homura’s past is explained for the viewer. she was a shy, unsure girl who had been bedridden for a long time. she was clearly unsocialized, not to mention she went to a catholic school and those can be brutal, esp in japan... that’s all we know about her in that episode, but it’s revealed in one of the drama cds that she was bullied as a child(& further at mitakihara middle), her parents never were mentioned ever (i assume them to either be dead or neglectful, considering she lives alone and unchecked), and in magia record, homura says to natsuki that she’s never had friends before, she hasn’t been on vacation before until the beachside bonds event, hasn’t ever celebrated valentine’s day, has never celebrated new years, etc... 

clearly, she’s missed out on a lot not only because of her sickness and hospitalization, but because of her isolation as a child at school. judging by her demeanor and the way she reacts when madoka comes up to her without being asked to, something like that had never happened to her before. it’s clear to me that madoka was many of homura’s “first’s”, her first friend, the first person who reached out to her, the first person to compliment her name honestly(validating her, disproving her dislike of her name), the first person to regard her so kindly rather than judging her based off of her appearance and demeanor (like other students had apparently done, this is also shown when the other students at mitakihara middle make fun of her for being tired after only being able to run one lap). AND, madoka (and mami, but homura knew madoka better at that time) saved her life, even though homura was so willing to die, just in that moment... i’d assume it made homura feel like someone believed in her even when she was at her worst. it’s really clear by the glimmer in her eyes that these are nice people that made her feel happy and welcome... and then walpurgisnacht came. she didn’t know much about magical girls and just believed in madoka and mami to be able to defeat the witch because she saw them as strong and saw the witch as defeatable, despite its size. and then mami died, right in front of her and madoka... 

this kinda seems headcanon-y when i phrase it this way but it’s practically proven in her actions but i really think homura is scared to be abandoned, especially by someone who was as overtly kind and nonjudgemental to her as madoka... it’s in the way she cries her name and says “don’t go” before madoka runs away to fight walpurgisnacht. OH ALSO, i need to address this one thing really quick because people like to assume that homura didn’t care about mami from the beginning and only liked madoka. it’s not that she wasn’t sad when mami died, she was clearly terrified and didn’t want the same to happen to madoka, also mami LITERALLY WASN’T IN HER CLASS OR HER GRADE so i assume she spent most of her time with madoka considering they were in the same grade and class and probably shared most of their periods with each other... but also, once again, mami is older than both of them and homura probably saw her as more of a mentor/teacher that she needed to impress rather than madoka who was more on her level, i guess?

anyways, moving on... homura had to see madoka die (& experience the crushing guilt she felt for “letting madoka go” even though there was nothing she could’ve done) and literally says “i’d rather you had lived than saved someone like me” ... her self worth is below zero. she makes her wish to be strong enough to protect madoka(because she sees madoka, her first friend, who saved her life which she felt had no worth, as so strong and noble) which causes her to go back in time, etc. etc., you know the deal. okay before i move on to talk a little more abt the timelines and the personality change i’m going to address why it’s reasonable that she’d be attached to madoka.

i mentioned before that homura said herself that she had never had a friend before. just like, put yourself into her shoes for a second. this girl has no idea how to make friends; it was never taught to her. it’s literally rational that she’d get attached to her first ever friendship. it’s not “normal” the way she views madoka, but how could it be? this is her first time having a friend, she’s afraid of being abandoned by her, but she’s had to see her die over and over again anyway. she doesn’t want to lose madoka. even if she doesn’t go about it in the right way, there’s no way she would’ve actually known how to Do relationships. no one taught her. i think that needs to be empathized with more...

i kinda feel like i need to summarize all this just bc if i word it right it kinda reminds you & puts into perspective just how terrible and scary all of this was.

anyway Again, i would skip straight to the end of timeline 3 (where a New Flavor of trauma is given to homura) but i need to first address timeline 2 for a second. it was homura’s first time repeating the timeline, she trained with madoka and mami again, she was still hopeful despite what happened, etc. kinda just bonding further with madoka Again... and then it’s at the end of this timeline that she watches madoka turn into a witch, just in front of her very eyes... and realizes the true fate of magical girls. when she resets the timeline again, it’s up to her to start anew and break the truth to the group when she sees them again. when she tries telling the truth, sayaka immediately shoves this aside, claiming homura was just trying to split everyone up. it’s clear that that hurts homura. (also the little shinies in her eyes were wavering which is anime-code for sad) her feelings were immediately disregarded by sayaka and she couldn’t defend herself, but madoka did for her, and mami tried to diffuse the situation. 

after they all find out homura was right when sayaka turns into a witch, mami kills kyoko and ties up homura in her ribbons and aims a gun at her, and this, rightfully, ignited a fear within homura... madoka is forced to kill mami in order to save homura, leaving only the two of them to fight together. then, when walpurgisnacht comes that time, The Promise is made... madoka tells homura to go back in time and save her from becoming a witch (because she doesn’t want to curse the world that way, she still sees beauty in it) and homura agrees, saying she’ll never stop until she saves madoka, and then... homura has to mercy kill madoka before she becomes a witch. she cries loudly and shoots madoka’s soul gem... it’s literally so heartwrenching and (usually) brings the viewer to tears, or puts something into perspective for them...

then we assume the personality change happens in the timeline right after. this personality change causes a lot of discourse because sometimes it’s seen as kind of irrational, but personally, i think even moemura had at least SOME resent for the world around her considering what she’d been through. it’s madoka’s repeated deaths that finally push her over that edge. i could get further into the coolmura arc but that’d take a WHILE, so i’ll just kind of explain something briefly though -- why homura ended up becoming even MORE focused on madoka. and i’m also going to debunk the claim that homura doesn’t care about her other friends as fast as i can before moving on.

also, ONE LAST side tangent, for those that think homura really did do a 360 degree personality turn are wrong. it’s shown explicitly in homulilly’s labyrinth that there’s this... “core” homura, a shadowy purple silhouette with braids. every time the series depicts homura’s internal self, it’s always glasses+braids, symbolizing her “child” self, who she truly is. she never stopped being that person. she doesn’t want to kill. ...but i can get into that in a rebellion analysis later! this is also shown in wraith arc bc the person inside her soul gem has glasses+braids. anyway let’s get to the next part i’m going to rant about

Homura’s Love for Madoka, but Otherwise Apathy

homura has seen many different, yet all similar, versions of her friends. the first claim i’m going to talk about which i saw brought up quite a few times before is in regards to homura and mami. first of all, homura absolutely still cares for mami, and not just in the “i only care about your life if it affects madoka’s” way. one part that always gets me is when mami ties her up in the series timeline after homura frantically warns her that this witch isn’t normal, to which mami IMMEDIATELY brushes this off, without even giving homura a chance. then, when mami’s ribbons fade away, homura looks horrified and just goes “oh no...” and it’s kind of obvious to me that it was in response to mami’s death rather than madoka’s reaction. this is arguably up for debate i guess because i’ve seen different takes on that reaction and it’s ambiguous, i guess? but i’m about to get into something extremely similar and that’s the sayaka situation, where madoka throws sayaka’s soul gem onto a moving car. homura gasps and immediately pauses time and disappears, running in literal open traffic and climbing on top of a moving car to retrieve sayaka’s soul gem. one could argue that this is ALSO only just because homura wants to save madoka (and kyoko) the fear, but don’t you think her expression would be different? if homura truly didn’t care for sayaka’s wellbeing, wouldn’t she be making an expression more similar to like, “oh, this shit again...” instead of the frantic one she was making in the scene? this kind of thing Also happens when kyoko asks homura to leave while kyoko’s about to sacrifice herself in oktavia’s labyrinth, and homura looks up sadly at kyoko and then back down at madoka, and once she knew kyoko was dead, she just quietly said “kyoko...” to herself. she usually refers to them as [last name, first name], but she dropped that during that moment... it otherwise sounds like a bare minimum thing to do, but keep in mind the timeline we’re shown in the series is implied to be like, the 110th timeline, i think? like, this is the last timeline, she’s worn down, but she still does have empathy -- or at least sympathy -- for the others. she still loves them. 

homura promised to be madoka’s protector, she dedicated her life to her, and also she doesn’t have a choice not to dedicate her life to her anymore, even though that’s not fair to her... homura is in a really hopeless situation and madoka is her hope, and madoka is the one that judges her the least out of the quintet (like saying “i’m sure homura is good” to herself) upon first impression. also okay i mentioned this already in my last post (which you saw) but i’m going to bring it up one more time, homura is not mentally 26!!!!!! she is still 14 mentally!! in order to be 26, you have to have experienced 26 years of new life experience. maybe you acquire that through school, maybe you aquire that through friends, whatever it takes. but homura just repeated the same month over and over, and it’s not like her body (canonically) ages ever. she just kind of gets transported back into her body in the hospital again considering she’s back wearing her braids and pajamas... so, yeah. no mental development there. i also mentioned this here but i’m gonna say it again, that just makes it even harder for her to actually age correctly... it stunts her to 14. imagine being 14 for 10-11 years...

In Defense Of My Own Claims

btw before you think i’m just going full-on radical homura apologist, i’m not explaining all of this to be like “homura made ALL THE RIGHT DECISIONS because her trauma gave her an excuse!!” because like, Obviously, she did a lot of bad things, she killed people, did a lot of callous things, a lot of thoughtless things, a lot of things that make her seem emotionless, etc. but i just have trouble blaming her considering how things ended up, and it’s not like she enjoys killing people. she’s not sadistic... she ends up becoming short with all the others not only because of her (extremely) weakened trust in them, but also because the amount of times she repeated the timeline. i’d imagine it makes her feel like the others can’t truly die because she can just go back and see them again. (this is also why wraith arc/post-tv series must’ve been hard for her because she can no longer turn back time, things are permanent now, deaths are forever) she’s become so worn down that she’ll do anything to escape the loops... also considering she has no choice but to continue? although it shouldn’t be, it’s technically her job as a magical girl to defeat all witches and walpurgisnacht counts. it kills magical girls and tears up the whole city and she’s usually the only magical girl left... her choices, when defeated, are either to give up and die or to go back and try again, and she made a promise to her first ever friend to do just the latter... i just don’t understand how this isn’t easier for people to comprehend, that all of this trauma and stress and responsibility on top of an already traumatized 14 year old does not mix well. ever. she had to figure out all of this by herself.

TL;DR:

homura was a previously traumatized, unsocialized 14 year old with (very)low self esteem & self worth whose first friend (and first love, really, let’s be honest) died in front of her in horrific ways and she watched as she (and the other friends she came to make) drifted slowly apart from her in her endless and futile attempt in saving her from what proved to be an inescapable fate. also she’s 14 and also she’s (canonically) mentally ill and a lesbian. not a monster, not evil, not “psycho”. and that’s that!

[amethystsoda]

Tell Me About Your Self Ship

I was tagged by @eru-lloyd 🤭😘💖 ty bb!!!

Your anime self ship person: Rohan Kishibe from Jojo's Bizarre Adventure!

Your ship name: AriHan

What do you call each other: baby, sweetheart, darling --Rohan specifically calls me Sakura because my pink cheeks remind him of a cherry blossom -- I'm still working on a cute nickname for him >:C

Who confessed first: We both had been hanging out for a bit in Morioh, but it was after I saved Rohan with my stand that he finally felt ready to confess. I asked him what we were and he finally admitted his feelings ;w;

( the confession is in this fic! )

How long you have been together: Since September 2019!

(My selftober fics are set in the summer, but I finally watched Jojo in Aug-Sep 2019, read Rohan at the Louvre and the TSKR stuff, and finally admitted to myself I liked him on September 17, 2019)

Are you affectionate: less so in public because we're both private people, but at home he gets really soft. When he doesn't have to be the mangaka persona, he's a bit attention starved and loves cuddles. He's really sweet and gentle when it's us at home.

Living together/married: yeah! I started staying at his place mid-summer when we took the trip to Tokyo together (bc the Morioh Grand would have been expensive to waste a week).

He proposed at the end of the summer and we got married January 30, 2020 ;w; <3

Kids: Just one!!! Eliana Reimi Kishibe (we usually call her Ellie). She was born May 7, 2021 and we love her to pieces. Her personality is starting to come out and we can tell she'll be just like her mom and dad <3

What your friend group looks like:

How you each get along with your friends:

(I'm putting both these together)

Josuke and Oku and Koichi visit sometimes!! I mostly hang out with Shinobu and Tomoko, but we're also friends with Tonio and his wife Virginia!

I'm pretty good friends with Okuyasu because he works at the Morioh SPW Foundation restaurant/cafe, so when I'm there I always grab coffee from him and get updates on how his dad is doing.

Tomoko, Shinobu and I have a little knitting group at the local coffee shop, but we had to pause it when covid happened (and Ellie). We'll likely get back to it soon <3

Rohan's editor Izumi is also in our friend group! I got to meet her a few months ago and she's the sweetest!!

Rohan is friends with some of the other recent mangakas (like Fujimoto sensei and Akutami sensei), but we tend to only see them at Shueisha events.

There's also a lot of people who work at the Foundation, but things have been so busy that I haven't gotten to meet everyone yet.

Night in or night out: In the past it might have been night out (esp bc Rohan loves eating at Tonio's), but with bb Ellie here we love staying in. Reading books to Ellie and letting her play before bed is important, so we make sure she has a good schedule (plus once she's asleep Rohan and I can have fun too ;)

Your favorite date day/night: museum + cafe/manga + anime exhibit dates!!! Rohan and I are both art nerds and big art book and merch collectors, so we love going to see art and head to the gift shop and cafe after.

Tagging @dongiovannaswife @giogio-gucci-gangstar @abbacchios-sunflower @sunshine-shitposts @lovebards-lovebugs @dwellers-hollow @lunamusings @funnyvalentineswife @j0succ @hazgojo @pensivespecter @lostinthe-jojos and anyone who has a self ship they want to talk about!!

[hiraya-rawr]

hello, i really love your "i love you in every universe" fic w/ diluc hehe it was so nice <33 i esp love the part where it mentioned how diluc has a soft spot for children, it reminded me of this streamer i was watching that was playing the hiddenstrife event point out that diluc is nicer to paimon since he views her as a child + then going back to alice's letter about him and klee. saw that you wrote the fic on june omg you were ahead of the time aaa i adore it <3 have a nice day hehe

IM SORRY IM LATE TO REPLY BUT THIS IS SO?? CUTE??? SO SOFT. MAKES ME ALL FLUTTERY!!

and im so glad you like my playable au fic! it's not exactly popular but i adore the concept a lot! and aaah uikdshfuuk my character studies worked out ig? hahahahh i always viewed diluc and a softie for kids. klee could burn the winery and he wouldnt have the heart to scold her, just mutter a quiet "be careful next time" and "at least no one got hurt".

i mean, he bought thousands of bottles of barbatos' breath just so the fatui wont get the real one 🤨 this man prioritizes people over money and im jsut so soft for him dkfjguvkcrehdo

[nako-doodles]

I’m very curious about your opinion here: pick a song (may be more than one ofc) for each member that you associate with them - be it because of their singing/rapping part in it or maybe characteristic choreography or just general vibe? I’m just curious if other people link some songs with particular members like I do (like Autumn Leaves is totally Jin’s song for me 🤷‍♀️) IF you want I would love to know your reasons too

this is really interesting ask ill try my best to limit it to 3 aisojfiaga:

Seokjin

epiphany (this song is everything i love about him tbh)

go go (esp that heart stage like bts really said lets all make armys a heart event for this stage)

autumn leaves (one of the very few songs that jin opens and it makes all of the difference PLUS yoongi's unique compositional style really shows here)

so far away (jinkook vers.) (i fall asleep to this song purely to hear jin sing so far away)

Yoongi

the last (this song is what rearranged all of my atoms)

intro: never mind (this is the song that made me a die hard army and kept me afloat for most of my college career)

people (just something about the lyrics just reminds me about what it means to be human. and also his mm mm mm)

seesaw (esp the demo vers. god. what a fucking song. what a fucking king. also him looping jins lines for his i need u x seesaw remix)

Hoseok

mic drop (just the way hobi wrote this song in no time flat knowing its a gem and embodied it every single stage!!! also yes this applies to airplane too)

just dance (this song these vibes those outfits just embodies everything that makes hobi a fucking beast of a performer)

dis-ease (nothing but his lil easter egg noises on my mind!!!!!)

Namjoon

ddaeng (a giant smooch for his stutter verse and wordplay)

dimple (bc joon wrote it so his members would sing him a serenade)

moonchild (and really just the entire mono. mixtape)

honestly most bts music reminds me of him bc he literally wrote or contributed to all of them like this band was LITERALLY built around him w him as the center piece!!!! listening to him talk about the album every comeback is SUCH a treat but ill say Fake Love purely for his demo version.

Jimin

serendipity (i fall asleep to this song too like???? like.....)

lie (this song ngl was what elevated wings from a good album to a fucking legend album. this and awake and mama)

tony montana (pspsps yoongi write the boy a song man!!!)

Taehyung

blue and grey (tae has an excellent way to make me feel seen and loved)

sweet night (sthing about we're just ships in the night that just guts me)

spring day (i will keep asking for tae's demo chorus remix until i d*e)

4 o clock (i also fall asleep to this song and i just love it so much)

(honorary mention goes to tae's verse in jump and woh)

Jungkook

euphoria (specifically the dj swivel forever mix mv where the hyungs surprised jk w the softest content)

a typical trainee's christmas (honestly this cover makes my heart so soft for these 7 boys so far from home and a dream so far away but this cover is jk's bc of his line 'my name is jeon jungkook also known as maknae...if i cant play i will kneel in front of the company' almost as iconic as 'my name is jeon jungkook im 18....yes im a bad boy so i like bad girls')

tbh i consider all the jb songs he covered to be his now. whos jb? i only know jk!!! oh and while we're at it, if you is now jk's too. bb whomst?? i only know bts.

[twinvictim]

your opinions on each of the post team silent games and a rating out of 10. hand 'em over

YEAHHHHHH FINALLY CATERING TO ME!!!

Uh really long post oops. for reference, my rating for the first 4 sh's are as follows

Sh1: 9/10 Sh2: 7/10 Sh3: 9/10 Sh4: 9.5/10

Silent Hill 0/Origins

overall score: 7/10

Alot of the games issues can of course be attributed to it being a psp game, and while i won't excuse everything bc of that, j have to be honest and say I think it had so much potential as a (very) late ps2 game. Not to mention, the game ON THE PSP functions as it should. (The ps2 port does fucking not tho..oops) ans you'll see that this is...a rarity post team silent.

The story has alot of potential, Travis as a character is interesting and sympathetic and j think his dynamic with alessa js super fascinating to dig into, both of them being abused children and there was alot of intrigue regarding his powers, the game feels like a smaller more watered down she, and for that I can't fault it too much. The weapons system isn't my favorite but the combat itself is reminiscent of 1 and 2 and I really like a good chunk of the monster design, there was clearly thought and care put into it, nurses and strughtjackets/lying figures be dammed. The unlockables are pretty cool though and alot of the environments look pretty cool for a psp game, hell i LOVE the theater level its super unique, I would love to see it in (actually functional) better graphics. I also think the puzzles are pretty solid, not hair pulling like sh1 even if they're not quite as clever as say sh3.

My biggest criticisms come from the reuse of sh1 characters (just alessa and Travis would've been fine, maybe dahlia and some more org characters would've been better) the bad ending being straight up bad writing. Not to mention they did the sh3 thing of "kill too many monsters and get the bad ending" which is...stupid. The foreshadowing of the butcher being? He's just kinda there, I like the lead up but it would be more interesting if the butcher represented something from those years between Travis' father dying and him being an adult. And while there's more replayability imo than sh2, it doesn't have difficulty sliders and that makes it kinda hard to come back to quite as often. Not to mention unlike sh1, 3or sh4 there's not as much horror focus and random events.

Overall, solid game its fun to play, very silent Hill and if you're willing to look past a few continuity errors and accept its a little different and slightly derrivitive at the same time, I like to say I had alot of fun with it and still do. (Maybe I just like Travis alot...idk)

Silent Hill: Homecoming

Overall score: 6/10

Once again most of the issues here are gonna be corporate fuck ups, but I'm also not gonna beat around the bush, this game isn't like...good. its bad actually. "But you gave it a 6/10?" Yeah bc its not NEARLY as bad as some other games I've.. experienced.

The negatives here are, many and vast, so let's run them down. Firstly the games performance is janky on console (ps3 at least) and abysmal/unplayable on PC, what with framerate issues that are detrimental to game play on pc and make the third boss impossible. That said on console it is completable and not even too terrible...usually. Scarletts boss fight however is terribly unbalanced and broken on all skews so :/. The combat is...functional but not anyone's favorite, it's difficult to use any actually strong weapon and you can pretty much strong arm ur ways through shit with just the knife (except scarletts first form..don't try it, it won't work) for some people this will be borening (not my opinion but w/e). Most of The puzzles...leave alot to be desired. I hate sliding block puzzles. Also no run button? At all?? No easy mode? Ok... also what is this.. wheel design for the inventory...im accidentally using my serum..what is serum also? And why is the item pickup noise like...bass boosted.

The character models look awful most of the time, and comically unfinished other times, some human models are just grotesque, (judge halloway, Adam shepherd, mayor Bartlett. .you get it) and yes...there are sexy nurses. Bc of course there are. (Whole ass out???) They did straight up have some terrible endings for this game (ph ending for one, the way you get the ufo? Hell the ufo ending is kinda boring. I like the in water ending here too but. Yeah.) the story has some, problems. To say the least.

However, while the performance is bad its not the worst I've played (on the ps3 once again..unplayable on pc) and I hardly noticed the framerate when I was just running around, I personally found the combat kinda fun, between trying to dodge accurately and still attack and not use all my health items (bc those and ammo are actually rare! Unlike some games...) it is kind of a challenge and reminds me of a much worse sh4. And hey, the health items both heal an understandable amount of health that i can easily read with a bar (unlike 1-3) and they're not a complete joke (unlike sh4...) i find the exploration really fun and sure the characters look shit but the environments are Fucking great. The church is one of my fav sections, short as jt might be and yes it stole the confessional scene but its pretty well written and acted I think. The monster design is pretty fucking rad too honestly, I like the schism, siam, I like the DESIGN of the needlers even if they make me so mad to fight, and hey the nurses and ph don't show up that much to be too aggregious. The boss monsters are also fantastic design wise, very unsettling and the boss rooms are interesting as well.

The story has problems but it also has alot of potential, the concept of people sacrificing ther children for silent Hill and being overcome by their own pain and guilt is pretty fucking cool, and alex is a good character they did a good job of giving him personality, ppl bitch about him being a soldier but a) he's not and b) soldiers are people too, and a sh game that could tackle toxic masculinity, be critical of the military, and also tackle abusive religeious parents is pretty intriguing, not to mentions themes of brotherly love that's complicated bc of how they clearly favored Josh . Sure, it misses the mark, but I like taking the potential and thinking about it bc its compelling to me. And like I said, i like alex alot.

Overall, bad game yes, but not the worst as it has enough good for me to honestly really enjoy it, besides it is pretty funny when it is bad. Don't play the pc port tho

Silent Hill Shattered Memories

Overall Score: 8/10

Unpopular opinion im sure but honestly? I find this game ALMOST on par with the team silent games. Its really that good, yes its a wii game, so this is my score taking into account the motion controls BTW.

For the good, man where do i start. Its BEAUTIFUL for a wii game and esp for a post team silent game, the graphics are nice and Constsitent, the environments are pretty and it has a pretty nice cold color pallet to contrast the warmer tones the series tends to skew towards. The acting and intrgrige are all on point and the WRITING is fantastic, its one of those games you play the first time not knowing the twist and play the second time picking up more and more clues and things that strengthen that twist so much more. Like sh2 its a simple story told in such a clever and interesting way that you'll probably be too invested to put it down, I beat it in one sitting in 6 hours bc i was so engrossed in the narrative. And the Puzzles man! The puzzles are phenomenal and fun to accomplish and there's even a little bit of variety in a few places on repeat playthroughs. The level of detail in this game is insane really, the things that change with the different psychology answers are pretty cool too and tho it all plays out relatively the same its still fun to see the different things you can get to happen. The gimmicks like the phone as an object, taking pictures, sneaking and zooming in, they're not too intrusive as to take away from the exploration or other game play but not completely useless and have some pretty fun Easter eggs too. The game plays sort of like a worse outlast with good puzzles and for that I do have to commend it. Oh and the fucking MUSIC is INCREDIBLE idk something ab this soundtrack has alot of heart put into it clearly.

Now, it's not perfect. The thing is, it is a WORSE outlast type game, in the running and hiding sense but well, the hiding is completely useless, its a run away game, which is ok, but I understand that people aren't gonna be a big fan of that when silent Hill has always balanced combat ad puzzles and exploration. The running segments are..aggravating, mostly bc its hard to figure out where to go, not to mention using motion controls that don't like to work half the time to fight the monsters off of you. Also, the monsters are not scarey in the slightest and the raw shock scream is actually enragaging if you've died one to many times, there's also...not really any penalty for dying. And once you're out for these running segments,there's no danger, no monsters, nothing to hide from despite having a hiding mechanic. Its not really a horror game more of a psycological thriller and I understand that the fact that its not horror can be disappointing. The psychology things might be a bit overhyped And yeah fine, the wii foreplay scene...well yeah its weird but it IS also funny as fuck.

That said, there's still alot thats good and alot thas unfair criticism lobbed at this game. Harry didn't have much of a personality in sh1 bc he's a ps1 character and sm really fleshed him out well, not to mention giving cybil some nice characterization, and they did some interesting things with dahlia and kaufmann. And Lisa.. well I'm gonna be honest I never found Lisa all that interesting in sh1..so it doesn't bother me that she's the way she is in this game. I know people hate the "horny" aspect of it but to be completely fair, YOU choose to make the game that way, don't answer in a sexual manner or look at boobs or anything else and you won't have an overly sexual game, its...literally that easy. Its given as an option for the play id they want to go for what is arguably another joke ending. (You cannot tell me sleeze and sirens is meant to be a real serious ending to the game. Cmon) and you can complain about the innacuuracies if you want but its a spin off, a retelling of the original game. Its not canon, and it didn't change the original game. It just took the ideas presented there and made them more human and lest fantastical, there's some supernatural elements but it takes a backseat to the human moments. And its honestly really cool.

Overall, great game, i reccomend it if you don't mind some slight jank with the motion controls and honestly? Look up directions on where to go for the running segments and you'll have a pretty good time overall.

Silent Hill Downpour

Overall score (so far): 7.5/10 *to be noted i haven't finished actually playing it yet but I know the basic plot and some of the details so I doubt it'll change

And so for the final silent Hill Game, I have to say, i don't think it deserves NEARLY the hatred it gets, there's alot about it that i find really cool and even fun and I think its a solid entry, a little better than origins in some parts and its downsides are both unfortunate and once again, mostly Konami's fault . That said, I'm also not gonna kid and say its a good game, just that I like it alot and we should be nicer to the last silent Hill game were probably ever gonna get.

Downpour has a pretty good, original story overall, there's alot to it, alot of intricacies and intrigue to it that honestly make it a pretty sold silent Hill game. Its different enough from the others to stand out but not super far removed from its themes and messages. I like that it doesn't try and lean into the cult aspect and tries to do something else with it, it doesn't try to explain silent Hill, but just use it to torment the characters, as it should be. There's tragedy ad human feelings here and some of them aren't the most...sensitive but they are pretty reasonable reactions id say. Playing as someone who's odds are stacked against him from the beginning as he's a prisoner is a cool way to open the game, someone convicted and you must discover if he is a good person or not. Themes of revenge explored more than in sh3 which is pretty cool. The environments look pretty nice, and i like the look of the otherworld, once again being unique with its cooler color pallet, but without the ice so it really feels like its own thing. The EXPLORATION is awesome with an actual open world which I think works well, there's alot to do in town (unlike sh1 and 0 on limiting hardware and 2 which just pretends you can explore to town but you cant) there's alot for cool little stories and sidequests to do, my favorite so far being the cinema (which has a section of ACTUAL fixed cameras like old Resident evils which is smth SH has never done and its super fucking cool!) And all the sidequess help strengthen murphy as a cheacter and argue for his innocence or complexites. The weapons system is pretty cool, picking up items and attacking with whatever you might find, finding cool Easter eggs with exploration and having fun noticing things. And it does honestly have the strongest side characters outside of SM. The puzzles are pretty solid and fun to figure out with some cool mechanics and the seperate difficulties is a great thing to bring back (actually done well like sh3) I also kind of like the method of triggering the night world/rain/monsters, and silent Hill really feels likes its constantly punishing Murphy, as it should. The music might not be Akira but its still pretty damn good, and fuck yall I like the Korn song, and you CAN press start and skip it yknow. (Thx tomm hewlit)

The negtitives tho, well they are there. For one it has the worst performance of any sh game outside of pc homecoming and like...the hd collection, the framerate like to shit itself alot lmao, its not usually detrimental bc I've played re2r with similar framerates but, yeah its not great. Not to mention while the models look better than hc they don't animate well or often at all, and the game has trouble loading in the models as fast as they should. The sound mixing could use...some work too, poor murph sounds like he's eating the mic. While I find the games exploration really fun, murphy also has the issue of not running very fast so it can be a little annoying to get back to a place you want to be when you can't run that fast, not to mention the loading times. The monster design is def the worst in the series, maybe on par w SM. Which is disappointing bc there's some pretty good moments here and there, but not nearly enough to make it scary and there's so much you can do with monsters with this premise. Also, the running sections in the otherworld are better than SM ad even more engaging than the brief ones in 2 and 3, but still, I'd prefer to do puzzles or fight a boss or smth. I will also say, the endings are, iffy while the main 2 endings are really good and Anne's bad ending as well as the joke ending are great, murphys bad endings are weird and ooc for the muphy you come to know in the game (even more so than Origins) plus, idk that the writers knew all that much about prison andbprison culture, nobody in a real prison would be mad ab Murphy killing a pedo (there's some racist implications here and there too which is. Unfortunate and disappointing. I like Howard and Robbie but they are a bit tropey, esp Howard) that said Anne is a compelling albeit unlikable character and thas pretty cool to see pulled off.

Overall, while it has downsides, I don't think Downpour is worthy of all the scorn it gets, this can have problems and you can point them out without disregarding the good parts and while it is unfortunate it doesn't run better and have some extras and didn't handle some things great, I still think its worth a playthrough, esp if you go out of your way to do the sidequests.

Bonus round

Book of memories is not a game I intend to play bc I don't wanna get a vita and can't imagine I'm missing much. It doesn't look bad pwr say but I'm not interested tbh

Fuck PT. :)

[ktheist]

Loved your recent work!!! I was so fond of how oc and tae's relationship grew at such a quick pace yet felt nothing close to overwhelming, the trust, love and effort they're willing to put into their relationship was so lovely to read and unfold 🥺 oc is definitely my favorite character and worthy of so many hugs even though side eyed her for treating yoojung like that! Which reminds me, could you give a little extra details on jk and yoojung's relationship? You don't have to I'm so sorry if this came off as demanding I was just interested in finding out how they'd make it work or how yoojung would grow confidence within herself and her relationship with koo. Thank you for releasing such a lovely work!!!! Have a great day ❤️

First off thank you!!! I'm really happy you liked and event sent this wonderful ask to know more about the character(s) 🥺

 true, oc needs to get her act together and make up to yoojung, esp since yoojung is her best friend's girlfriend now so they'd be seeing each other a lot and the guilt is gonna catch up to her soon. but oc being oc would tell jk to invite yoojung to their get togethers bc she knows it would make jk happy that she and yoojung are getting along. then when she's alone w yoojung (taehyung's probably in on getting jk away for a bit like dragging jk to his study to geek about a new art he got and jk would follow bc he's supportive and welcomes his best friend's geeking) - anyways oc would apologize to yoojung and say that if get togethers like this make her uncomfy, oc would back off and make excuses about being busy next time but they would probably have to meet for special occasions and oc apologizes bc she probably won't be able to avoid that.

"the least I could do is leave you two alone after cockblocking for years." is something along the lines oc would say.

but yoojung being yoojung would forgive oc though the new person she is would give oc a piece of her mind first.

something like, “it’s cool i forgot about it but since you mentioned it, you do know you were an ass back then right?”

in college, yoojung thought oc was cool bc jk always talked about her before yoojung fr met oc. so when oc wasn't the person she thought she'd be, yoojung was surprised but she still joined hang outs where oc was around bc like jk said ‘maybe oc was having a bad day‘ but she was hesitant to talk to oc first bc oc was hostile at the party. later, after oc started dating taehyung, oc started not giving any mind to yoojung and yoojung was ‘oh ): i guess we’re not meant to be friends’. but given oc’s personality, the two of them would’ve been great friends if oc were’t biased against yoojung (she sees yoojung as a fickle and would dump jk when the going gets tough - but since jk and yoojung didn’t date in college we’ll never know if college!yoojung would cut and run) and if yoojung didn’t know/like jk first.

so in college, after the waterslides, her relationship or like whatever she had with jk faded away bc yoojung started distancing herself from him even though she knew he was asking her out like "oh I haven't seen that movie yet, wanna go watch together?"

but yoojung would always say no bc she was pretty traumatized to get close to rich kids even if jk is one of the decent ones. the person she was in college still sought validation from her friends or friendships but she knew when to back off when she felt like she wasn't welcomed by a certain group. so she found her own not so rich friends aka normal friends who she could relate to. actually, before she started hanging out w seonghwa who’s jk’s friend, she was a little floating cloud with lots of friends w no particular friends who she’d hang out with. so the normal friends were more like friends she was close with but never really hung out with them to get to know them until she dissociate herself from jk & co.

then, looking back, she realized that she wasn't the problem at all. it was those rich kids who were like super bratty and probably didn't like her bc she can't afford high end brands (i say probably bc she’ll never know and she defo didnt know yoojin was mean to her bc their names sounded similar lol) so she learned from that and started going "omg yes they're so cheap!!!" whenever a rich brat tried to point out that whatever she's wearing is a ripoff. she wasn't ashamed for wearing what she wore before but yoojin picking on her clothes or shoes like that kinda made her notice something wrong about what she’s wearing. but no more of those!! yoojung finds these cheap ripoffs or no name brands very practical and they last long enough that once she gets tired of them, they would be worn out and ready to go in the bin so she can change her wardrobe occasionally which is fun!

either way once she met jk again, she's like "oh he's the cute dude I had a crush on before" but that's about it. then jk being jk was very giddy to meet yoojung again. after meeting 2 times at a meeting he finally asked her out and yoojung said no unless it's for work bc she's practical and if they're gonna eat a meal together, might as well also discuss about the project they're supposed to work on. they keep meeting up several times and she accepts jk's kindness like driving her home after the supposed 'dinner-work meetin.' it was pretty confusing for jk bc no girl has ever look like she's interested in him but also be disinterested. it's like... like he's not enough for yoojung to want a relationship with but she appreciates his handsome face, treats him like a decent human being and is quite happy with working with him but that's it!! usually for jk, when a girl is nice to him, he thinks they're into him (another slap of reality to his face lmao). he kinda knows he’s oblivious when it comes to girls but don’t know how to fix that. so it takes him a lot of advice seeking from jimin the tru womanizer/personizer (since jimin would screw just about anyone) and from taehyung who’s in an established relationship. so like both friends know how to treat a possible love interest but with different approaches and jk needs all the advice he can get.

over time, after lots of lots effort put into giving flowers, chocolates etc by jk, yoojung admits she likes likes jk but she doesn't wanna be a 2nd choice and he can't be choosing oc and taehyung over her like celebrating holidays w the three of them and including her in it as an addition ; a third wheeler. jk had a lot of thinking to do after that esp about his priorities. they make it work bc yoojung explains to him why she gets upset since he's pretty oblivious to things. his previous gfs just dumped him whenever they're upset bc they get even more frustrated that he couldn't figure things out himself.

anyway, yoojung isn't as fixed on achievements being a yardstick for your self worth. unlike oc who keeps making money and expanding her business so she can be a worthy partner for taehyung. neither definition of worthiness is bad; just different. and taehyung loves oc even if she’s not building an empire as we speak.

And yoojung is content with herself as she is. she'll welcome jk in her life but two strikes and he's out; but jk keeps showing that he's willing to listen and learn and yoojung isn't the kind to fault someone for being ignorant esp since they're eager to improve. and yeah, that's how yoojung grew into herself and how she and jk's relationship is going!

this answer turned out to be a little long. either way, may you have the wonderfullest of day <3