#esp w the events of 3 and remind

[caustinen]

Loving your Hollywood Clegan AU so much!

Curious though...how do they transition when their relationship becomes public? Are there any issues with fan backlash? Or being an openly gay actor? What about the increased paparazzi attention or stalkerish fans? :O

Hello lovely person!! As usual this got a bit long but I hope it answers the question a bit at least 😂💘

To start off with, I usually reimagine my fics in worlds that don’t have homophobia because I personally don’t enjoy writing it/making it a plot point, there’s so much amazing art in all forms dealing with it that it doesn’t feel like trying to erase a very real problem/ignore it because obviously it unfortunately is a big part of queer experience for a lot of people, it’s just that I like to imagine worlds where that isn’t a factor just so there’s also places to escape that, esp in silly fanfiction that I write – that’s what I also enjoy to read as a queer person myself! So while it would definitely give this au a lot of depth, I’m at least not right now including that in these replies <3

As for the other stuff, I have not thought about it a lot even though these should be kinda the main questions for this au… So let’s think about it!

Paparazzi – John dislikes paparazzi as much as anyone but Gale despises them. He finds it a bit invasive but kind of a “part of the job” con for John and later their relationship in the public when it happens when arriving to/leaving events, but when he first catches someone taking his picture while leaving the gym or his office he gets very antsy. This creates some tensions for a bit as John understands his stress but also feels like they talked about it beforehand and now he can’t really do anything about it. When they’re out together and they spot paparazzi John always tries to block Gale from the sight, pull him behind himself or guide them some other way. They love to travel and it’s also easier to avoid being spotted when they’re away from LA/New York. It’s bad for the first few months but eventually the attention on them eases up a bit and they can go back to the new normal with only occasional encounters with the paparazzi; Gale also grows more accustomed to it and knows how to dress to and act to hide & make it a bit less intense.

Fan backlash – I think this would be an interesting thing to explore. Even though a lot of the fans are just happy for John, there are also some who have become too parasocial/illusioned about him after being fans for years (and he is a heartthrob and charming and widely accepted as “boyfriend material”) that they get upset when the relationship is revealed, starting to talk shit on social media about John never having been genuine and has only been lying to his fans meaning he never actually cared about them, and through that getting to insult his work and that they only went to see it because he’s hot but now it’s ruined. John was also shipped with a lot of his previous castmates and some shippers are also upset and saying he “setteled” for Gale who’s “just an ordinary office worker” when he could’ve had a flashy Hollywood Romance – while many see his fiancés shyness and soft-spokeness in public as adorable, some say he doesn’t match John’s vibe at all, and the fact that John also seems different with him is not a good thing and they start to psychoanalyze their relationship. John couldn’t care less for some angry comments on his insta but some of the hate is directed towards Gale, and he’s a bit taken aback when he starts to receive DM’s telling him to leave John immediately and accusing him of manipulating him into a relationship with “someone like him”. John is obviously very upset by all of this but Gale reminds him that he’s seen it all at work and can handle himself.

Stalkers – The other extreme of Gale haters would then be the people who get like way into him real fast, he’s beloved by the masses, sure, but these people are more like a cult (probably of the similar style of fan as the one’s who turn against John in the previous point, like highkey parasocial behavior but when John starts to date publicly it’s like “no, he’s OUR boyfriend” but not in a funny way you know). The line is blurred to some people what it means that John revealed he has a partner, it’s not a ”new part of him” but a real person of his own that happens to be dating their favorite actor, and this gets lost on some people who start to treat him almost like he was Bucky’s pet (idk if this makes any sense but like as if he was just a cute little thing he can post pics about and doesn’t really have an agency of their own AND the fans feel like they ”know him” when they actually know nothing about him except that he’s dating their idol). Gale’s not expecting to get any “fans” of his own, so he’s a bit weary when he’s asked to take pics with people without John or given stuff on red carpets etc, and especially when people really cross boundaries and try to gift him/them like condoma or sex toys or lingerie (I’m thinking of that one interview where they showed Austin his fan merch and there was the thong with his face on it and I’m thinking someone gifting a similar one of Bucky to him and him being absolutely horrified) or something else kinda projecting their own fantasies into them, or playing it off as a joke while it’s actually really distrurbing — just because they’re out doesn’t mean the relationship opened for other people to comment on. Then of course there’s just the usual internet hellhole-stuff, people start sending him really inappropriate messages about his body/looks/what they’d want to do to him given the chance that he maybe didn’t expect because he doesn’t believe John when he tells him that’s like notably attractive. I could also imagine for example a moment where someone approaches them when they’re leaving an event or something and Gale is being professional and polite but the other person is really overstaying their welcome/not following social cues but talking to him like a friend would and when John tries to politely lead them onwards the “fan” grabs Gale’s arm or something and it causes a small scene. Gale is stressed in these situations mostly because he fears how they’ll reflect on John’s image if he’s presented as being rude to fans but luckily these are rare occasions.

Despite all of this, they both are happy that the relationship is public, there are more pros than cons for being able to build their future together without having to be each others dirty little secrets (idk why but it came to my mind now that Gale is so the type that since he couldn’t always tell people he had a partner, everyone would either hit on him or try to match him with someone because “how is someone that pretty single?!” and this would annoy the hell out of Bucky despite him being the one with millions of options at any given moment, i like some jealous bucky :D)

Hope this was satisfactory!! Any more ideas to these scenarios? I’m so used to doing just fluff/smut so this was a fun challenge, thank you! <3

[queenpalms]

Are you single?

ok so idk why this question is prompting this release below, but, it is…and depending on who’s asking this question I think either way I’m gonna lean into it lol

TLDR; FULL AFFAIR BETRAYAL MULTI-LEVEL BREAKUP TO HAPPY LOVE STORY ENDING

soo last year I went through a long drawn out and horrendous breakup w my bf of five years , it was like a fucking movie full of lies , relapses, and a full on affair with one of my best friends of ten years who also has mania that she self induces with abusing adderall and drugs. and then once I found out abt their affair she obsessively fixated on me, and persued to literally ‘single white female’ stalk me in ways that are so fcking weird and disturbing like - gossip girl style slandering me in a LENGTHY article that she published on this weird online blog where she lists everything she’s doing to me as if I’m doing it to her lmao; claims I stole her aesthetic when she has built her whole identity on mine since she approached me one night at a party asking “are you lushsuburb?”; shows up uninvited at the events I throw to try and sabotage I guess no idea; recently enrolled as a student at the college I work for and called HR and my director multiple times to say she was threatened by me and couldn’t attend class lmao, called the historical society I volunteer for and talked to the President (who loves me n he was like … who tf is this bitch) to say that she’s worried about me / I’m suicidal; messages our mutual friends to falsely claim I’m suicidal as well; called multiple fake welfare checks on my house sending cops to my front door banging which is so fcked up let alone triggering in so many ways due to my abusive childhood; constantly goes to every single one of my fav bars in Miami just to territorially piss and talk shit abt me to whoever will listen; posts stories to Instagram with music that my ex wld show me too/ we shared together; etc etc

oh yea and they also secretly lived together for months while I didn’t know where the fuck he was lmao she literally harbored him in her her moms house in KENDALL😭 and I was close to her mom too since I had helped her thru so many manic episodes before I was 10000% ride or die for her , felt protective over her etc. annnnd I didn’t know where my ex was because after he signed a ONE YEAR LEASE w me he ghosted me the next day after a fight, and didn’t respond to me for WEEKS while I desperately blue wall texted him every day to no response . I had never been absolutely abandoned like that before, and it was extremely hard esp after laying my head down next to him every night for YEARS. We were even freaking engaged !!!! (I didn’t wear / have the rings tho cuz we had been rocky for a while, which i was cutely reminded of when his MOM asked for the rings back on Facebook messenger after I was messaging her asking where her son was lol how gaudy)

Anyway so I had to move by myself and I unfortunately let it get to the point of two days before I had to leave nothing was packed cuz I had just been laying there depressed (he also left ALL of his shit pretty much abandoned me w everything, and our 3 cats) and people I barely knew threw my shit into boxes. I had to have an estate sale and I posted it to Instagram to sell most my shit bc I cldnt afford to move by myself . Which btw the ex bff stalker girl came to 😭and I kicked her out so fcking fast even BEFORE I knew my ex was sleeping and living with her lmao cuz I intuitively ALREADY KNEW WHAT WAS UP. I even found out later she also tried to set it up so I wld run into them together at my FRIENDS FUNERAL which she only went to for clout she doesn’t even know him, and i cldnt go because i was at home crying depressed and confused with my life crumbling around me. anyway . My new place is still a mess and just it’s all fcked still but it’s getting better . If u know me you know that I love my environment to be pristine and I have a collection of decor etc and all of this has severely affected my mental health. I didn’t expect to be paying double the rent either. Pretty much the worst breakup I’ve ever had since 2018 Jordan (hey Jordan FUCK YOU TOO!!!)

So in conclusion I just thought that whoever is asking this question may have an agenda or is curious cuz of my vague depressive posts over the last six months and I’m tired of protecting people (which i still am tbh) cuz what happened to me was severely FUCKED UP n trust me that’s not even most of it , I mean to have. This zombie shit play out before my very eyes is actually unreal

but whatevr the motive of this anon is … im gonna smack this question with pure honesty and transparency which is true to myself in every way. N ima let the people know b/c thats what i do and tbh i know its entertaining . which is fine. Im happy to be of service bc my life has never been normal lol

oh yea and I met my ex on tumblr too 🙄

With all that said , I am NOT SINGLE !!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 n I am very happy with someone now who is communicative and mature n creative🙏🏼 we have wonderful chemistry n I’m happy to share I’m rebuilding now :))) n ima be rich soon amen

[zoieru]

zoie !!!!! hellloo, congrats on your milestone!!! :D for your event, can i ask C & Y (sfw) and W (nsfw) for akutagawa c: , please??

hi hi lotus my resident ryuu aku kisser ~ (when i tell you i was mentally pspspsssing to get you to put akutagawa in my inbox for this game ~ heheeeee ) this is very long : D enjoy <3

ask game ~

SFW C - CUDDLES (what is their favourite way to cuddle? what would it be like? positions? how cuddly?)

In my head, this guy sleeps like a baby. Not the depth of his sleep, I mean the position like curleedddd up in the covers like a cutie. It's sort of a protective position, a subconscious thing :c. I don't think that changes with you sleeping beside him, but as he grows more comfy with physical affection the covers are slowly replaced by you and he sort of curls around you.

I hesitate to call it spooning, because spooning feels quite specific to the side position, I think he genuinely just finds a body part and curls around it in his sleep, an arm, a leg, your waist, you betcha. Limbs tangled. Its subconscious !!

Consciously I think he likes that too. Limb touching and tangling is a relatively passive way to show affection without being too committal and uncomfy, so perhaps its a go to !! I do think he'd probably enjoy resting into you, though, like a head on shoulder/chest/tummy, or thighs, eventually. Esp if its been a tough day. But its not too often, at least for a while <3 he's still a strong boy and wants to feel like one.

( daily honourable rashomon mention - he definitely. uses. rashomon. to. cuddle. you. i dont take comments or notes or others opinions at this time !! idc !! he just does look at him hjdhjdjhd and maybe it comes out in his sleep subconsciously from his sleep shirt or boxers like i mentioned before and just curls around you a little in small tenderils. to keep you safe !! to cuddle you !! oki im don thankyou for listening )

SFW Y - "YELLO?" (how do they use their phone with you? Calls + texts habits?)

The idea of akutagawa on the phone makes me giggle a little im ngl. I just think he'd be one of those like o.0 idc what even is this for if i want to see you i turn up n no one wants to see me anyway lmao

BUT when he gets with you I think it shifts because he starts to see the use of it more, for him to ensure your safety foremost. But over time perhaps he starts to pull it out more, feel his fingers itching to just call or text you for no reason other than to hear you, to remind himself you're still there.

He'll def, for a big while, be like 'yes' 'hello' 'no...' 'okay bye', and give rather short answers i think. Perhaps its because he feels just a bit weirdly embarrassed to be needing to use this fkin brick to talk to his partner like he's a kid (his perception) lol. But ultimately his affection for you trumps that and he does it anyway.

'Just wanted to hear you'

NSFW W - WEAR (what do they like to wear before/during, and what do they like you to wear before/during?)

so, lemme cook (〜￣▽￣)〜

For him...I just think something comfortable right? A tshirt, boxers, maybe just the latter. Though now we've had that conversation earlierrrrr... Perhaps coming home to you relatively undressed or in one of the things below that I mention might get him a little twitchy and hot under his coat. Maybe you suggest he keeps it on... Maybe you tell him just to sit and he obliges because he's a bit flustered and one thing leads to another and suddenly the fabric between you is like gorgeous torture??? anyway i digress~

NOW YOU

for ONE ~ seeing you in anything makes him feel like his nose might bleed, mhmhm, he told me. He respectssss your body, is so reverent of it. I think he's just happy to be there, for his eyes to rest on you.

That isn't to say he doesn't have preferences though ( ¬ᴗ¬) ohhh no, he just doesn't know them yet. He'll learn ;) be patient with him.

I think he's obviously aware that he finds some things more attractive than others, in terms of looks or clothes. But it's nothing more than a sort of brief mental acknowledgement before he moves on for lack of time or want or supposed need. Man's got places to be, to be broody there !! heheh

So I think it ultimately falls on you to just...wear things and he reacts to them, like a lot of the intimate aspects of relationships is with him.

The day you show off that you've bought something new, maybe ask his opinion on it, I think he just gets soo... >//< tongue tied, lol. Especially if you mention or its suggested you did it half for him, ohhh brother like this dude has hardly seen love in his life, people doing things for him, someone he cares about wearing something they think he might like ? one hit KO mhm.

But ofc he'll be subtle about it, outwardly, but inside I think some butterflies may have taken up residence in his tummy, multiplying since he's known you, with your name across their wings <3

After a while of things, here are what I think he'd like the most

I think he'd honestly prefer things that are less explicitly open/revealing. The shorts esp on the left, where its like cute and sexy but just...sweet. You dont have to be completely revealed for him to be attracted to you, there is soooo much hotness in strategic covering >:3 I think he finds those type of shorts just so unbearably hot and distracting. Also they have this innocent vibe? I think it gets him huffy and blushy teehee ( plus theyre comfy for you , he likes that )

The middle one I added because of the top, the corset-esque type thing, idk, its pure vibes. Its mafia coded. Could be projection, i like them a lot, but im allowed to do that because i'm the one writing mwahahaa. Again, its gorgeous amounts of coverage and it adds to your beauty like mhm

Third because he likes you in his clothes. He sees you in one of his shirts hes ded. all sleepy or fresh from a shower? mhmmmmm suddenly rashomon is tugging you to the opposite side of the room without warning.

[tojiscrack]

WIFEYYYYY IMY

i legit have been so proud of myself lately bc i havent been talking to shitbag almost at all. i even waited in my car until he walked up to school bc we both pulled into the lot at the same time and i didnt want him to talk to me!

'i HAD to implement dadjo in the series bc as much as his relationship with the characters in canon was more like a fun older brother looking out for his students, he’s so father coded, specifically during the exchange event in s1 of jjk'

I AM SO HAPPY FOR THIS!!! I LOVE DADJO HCS

'HELP HE’S JUST A GUY WITH A CRUSH 😭'

so was shit bag 💔

but i have decided that if y/n and kamo get tgth and then y/n realizes her true feelings for megumi and breaks up w kamo, i will forgive you. barely.

'girl any more of the y/n criticism from you and i’m gonna start to think you hate our poor mc 🫵🏽😟🫷🏽'

listen. i dont haaaaaate her... yet.

she just gives me SO MUCH SECOND HAND EMBARASSMENT. LIKE HOLY MOLY THIS IS BAD.

'now with that threat, i humbly remind you of the ‘angst’ tag 🌝 no comment on anything after that'

"MERCUPINE IS CANON!" i thrash against my strait jacket as they throw me into the room with the padded walls.

'but unfortunately, at some point from here and up until june, there are gonna be super slow updates :( i’ll address that another time tho! <3'

AWWW DAMNNNN. i hope everything is okay pookie bear 🙏

yk i havent been this in love with a fic since like 2022 when i found a 500k word bakugo fanfic that was literally written like a novel. AND URS IS EXACTLY LIKE IT BRO.

like writer to writer- your exposition is INSANE. being able to develop their friendship when they're only like 5 or so is so cool to me because the initial friendship development is something i struggle with lowk....

BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PLS DONT DIE

'i am (unfortunately) a very picky eater. and i hate peanut butter ☹️'

STAY WITH ME. STAY WITH ME.

this is why we use unsweetened peanut butter protein powder. because, you can make it whatever texture u want and the peanut taste is toned down. and it adds protein to ur meal so u can be buff. (i am a gym bro)

'ik you mention that you guys have mutual friends and are in several gc’s tgth, so maybe blocking him is just not possible here, but giving him clipped responses when he texted and declining face-times is very much possible, i believe'

YEAHHH THATS WHAT IVE BEEN DOING THE PAST FEW DAYS LOL

he doesn't ft me tho which is great. he just sends me tiktoks that i respond to 23 hrs later so he doesn't bitch ab me losing our streak LMAO

'but make sure they’re very simple responses, nothing he can use as an opportunity to build on.'

yeah thats my move rn

'hmmm, this tells me a lot about him already 💀 i’m sorry kay, i do NOT like this imposter who-entered-earth-without-a-visa 😐'

YEAH BRO IDK HOW I EVEN LIKED HIM

like the past few days, the rose tined glasses have been lifted. esp bc one of our mutual friends gave him a kanye west american flag and he keeps posing with it everywhere.

liking kanye is embarassing enough idk why he's doing this too.

it reminds me of the time he trapped me in his car and made me listen to his explanation on why kanye west wasn't a bad guy.

'HAHAHA 😭 i’m dead serious. i don’t like that guy. i even feel like ‘shitbag’ as a name for him is a compliment, if anything.'

lowk ur so right

'do not compare our respectful-nonchalant-dreadhead-kamo to that bin-juice-of-a-human-being-SHITBAG. EVER 🤢'

I MEANT THE WAY WE REACT TO THEM LMAOAOAOAOAO

'did i forget to mention that i DETEST shitbag with my whole entire being?'

no i dont think u mentioned it 🤔🤔🤔

'CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT 🥳 WE LOVE TO SEE IT'

YES MAAAAM

'ok good, you’re not longer texting that unique-breed-of-human-kind, got my first point out of the way real quick. don’t ever text him unless he texts you'

YEPPP

'secondly, niceguy’s available. probably the only thing i agree with shitbag with. you should get with niceguy :)'

okay yeah but like even if im not that close friends w his ex-gf, we're still friends...

and our grade literally has 80 ppl in it so i would rather not do her dirty like that bc she WILL know

and we used to be rlly good friends in middle school

i snap him tho bc we are in fact still friends even if he dated my friend- i mean we have literally known each other for 10 yrs LMAO

'marry fictional men and die in love with them'

i think this is a very good plan. i am currently writing iwaizumi fanfiction bc iwaizumi haijime (27) athletic trainer is all i need rn!

lowk this fic was inspired by liar liar in the sense that i took inspo from how u have it start when they're younger / preshow. i had it start in their first yr so i can develop their friendship before they go straight into love. (i'm ur biggest fan btw)

'i’m not aware of it. even when i looked it up, i was a little confused haha.'

oh my god it's literally like the dumbest cringest game ever but i love it so much. it's an otome dating sim game and it's so nostalgic to me bc i used to play it when i was like 13.

but it's fucked up my sleep schedule bc part of the game is that u have to play the chatrooms before the next one unlocks or the previous one will lock and u have to pay (in game cash) to play it afterwards.

so i have a schedule.

i stay up til 1:52 to play the 1:48 chatroom and then i sleep, wake up at 6:50 for school, play the 3ish AM chatroom before the 8AM chatroom unlocks, and then go to school, play the 8AM chatroom, and continue playing the chatrooms throughout the day.

now let me show u the cringey ass messages these characters send and the cringey ass messages im forced to send (i have to pick through a few options).

LIKE THIS IS SO CRINGE.... BUT I AM FREE.

'but i am super glad you are starting to find enjoyable things to look back on that take you away from the negative doom-cloud that is shitbag! 😙 idek you irl but that genuinely makes me so happy for youuuu <3'

AWWWWWW ILYSM

'i’m living vicariously through you, honestly 😭'

AWWWWW

'THEY CAN STILL BE LONG, I LOVE HEARING ABOUT UR DAY AND STUFF AND GETTING TO KNOW YOU, but i’m glad shitbag will no longer be the centre of our conversations'

okay so lets kiss pls and ty

also have u heard the epic the musical concept album at all? like that one tiktok audio that's like 'i would fall in love with you over and over again'.

bc it's taken over my fyp w emo ass edits and my friends are SICK OF ME

too many satosugu edits w this audio and i'm gonna kms pls and ty

OKAYYYY THAT IS IT FOR TODAY'S UPDATE! I HOPE UR DAY IS AMAZING POOKIE BEAR <3

HELLO AGAIN!! <333

‘i legit have been so proud of myself lately bc i havent been talking to shitbag almost at all’ — I’M SO PROUD OF YOU TOO WHATTT 😭😫 i’m now at ease, we haven’t lost another one of our gorgeous girlies to the m*le species, thank the lord 😤

‘(…) and i didnt want him to talk to me!’ — YEEEESSSS, we’ve made it to that point! 🥳 today is a good day 😌

‘I LOVE DADJO HCS’ — me too 😋 it’s a shame gege didn’t implement this more in canon-jjk, but it is what it is, ig

‘so was shit bag 💔’ — NUH UH 🤨 shitbag is not just a guy with a crush he’s not even a guy at all, that’s an undiscovered breed right there , he’s someone who treats both the girls he likes AND dislikes like dog shit, and i’m not having it 😐

‘if y/n and kamo get tgth and then y/n realises her true feelings for megumi and breaks up w kamo, i will forgive you. barely’ — 🫣 we shall see… 👀

‘listen. i dont haaaaaate her... yet’ — free my poor mc from the shackles of ur scepticism 🤛🏽😔🤜🏽

‘she just gives me SO MUCH SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT’ — you think SHE gives you second hand embarrassment? 😧 girlypops, try reading my levi fic (don’t, actually, i’m just using this as an example haha) , y/n over there is unhinged to the point where second hand embarrassment is literally her middle name 😭

‘"MERCUPINE IS CANON!" i thrash against my strait jacket as they throw me into the room with the padded walls’ — LMAOOOO 😭 DKMMM 💀 technically they are canon (the story is centred around them), and even as the author who could potentially go for the bittersweet type of ending where they don’t end up together, i can easily say (with confidence) that they have a shit ton more chemistry than mermaid and kamotionless 😊

but we'll see how everything goes!

‘AWWW DAMNNNN. i hope everything is okay pookie bear 🙏' — well... i revealed why i had concerns about my (already ass) updating schedule now 👀 ik this ask was sent in a few days before my announcement last night, so ofc you couldn't have known when you sent this in. but now you do! and i appreciate ur support SOOO much. i swear, you have no idea <3

i also responded quite late to this ask 'cause it's quite long, and i like to address every single thing in longer asks so im not purposely missing anything out and then come across as dry haha 🥴

'yk i havent been this in love with a fic since like 2022 when i found a 500k word bakugo fanfic that was literally written like a novel. AND URS IS EXACTLY LIKE IT BRO' — 🥹🥹🥹

ik a lot of ppl complain about long fics, but i can’t help but love them (especially when i’m in the comfort of my own room just reading as i go with all the lights off, no school the next day, no alarm set, etc).

and this… coming my story to a novel? 😩

i’m so unbelievably flattered rn, like i want to grab you through the screen and i can’t ☹️

‘like writer to writer- your exposition is INSANE. being able to develop their friendship when they're only like 5 or so is so cool to me because the initial friendship development is something i struggle with lowk...’ — UGH, STOP IT, MY HEART CAN’T TAKE ANY MORE OF THIS 😫🩵🩵🩵

MY BPM IS HIGHER THAN NORMAL RN AND I HAVEN’T EVEN EXERCISED TODAY ❤️‍🔥

wishing i was shakespeare rn so i can give you the most poetic response that isn’t just ‘i’m so flattered’, ‘stoppp’, ‘ilysm moreee’, etc. the problem is that i’m always at a loss for words ‘cause of the range of compliments you offer 😭💕

‘STAY WITH ME. STAY WITH ME’ — 🙁 … ☹️ … 🌬️🏃🏽‍♀️‍➡️…🚪

‘this is why we use unsweetened peanut butter protein powder. because, you can make it whatever texture u want and the peanut taste is toned down. and it adds protein to ur meal so u can be buff’ — maybe i’ll try it 😳 i’ve yet to find a protein powder brand that doesn’t make me shit myself + give me acne, but we’ll see! i don’t have really high hopes tho (i’m a picky eater 😔)

‘like the past few days, the rose tined glasses have been lifted’ — the more i read this ask, the more i smile 😋

‘it reminds me of the time he trapped me in his car and made me listen to his explanation on why kanye west wasn't a bad guy’ — UMM?? THAT’S ASSAULT?? HELLO? 😭

ARE YOU OK? NEED A LAWYER? I’M STUDYING LAW, I GOT YOU 😟

‘I MEANT THE WAY WE REACT TO THEM LMAOAOAOAOAO’ — THANK GOD 😔

‘and our grade literally has 80 ppl in it so i would rather not do her dirty like that bc she WILL know. and we used to be rily good friends in middle school’ — mmm, yeah, so maybe not niceguy either. back to the fictional men plan then! (until someone new comes along and meets our high standards for you!) 😋

‘i think this is a very good plan. i am currently writing iwaizumi fanfiction bc iwaizumi haijime (27) athletic trainer is all i need rn!’ — WAIT WAIT WAIT, iwaizumi hajime from haikyuu? LMAO WAIT, I THOUGHT YOU’D BE INTO KAGEYAMA OR SMTH? 😭

HAHAHA I’M DYING, HOW DID I NOT SEE THIS COMING?

‘lowk this fic was inspired by liar liar in the sense that i took inspo from how u have it start when they're younger / preshow. i had it start in their first yr so i can develop their friendship before they go straight into love’ — 😳

a lot of my ao3 readers would tell me that i inspired them to write fics and stuff, but they never tell me what it is about my story that inspired them, yk? so as nice as it is to hear such a thing from them, i never know what exactly about LL got them writing 🙁

BUT THIS? 🥹

i’m so flattered honoured, genuinely. maybe one day, when i can stop scaring myself about reading other people’s works (it’s a genuine irrational fear of mine), i can pick up one of yours and give you the queen!treatment you give me every other day 🥹🩵

‘im ur biggest fan btw)’ — excuse me, DON’T call urself that. we’re friends 👊🏽🤨 (i’m spudding you btw)

‘oh my god it's literally like the dumbest cringest game ever but i love it so much’ — me talking about episode 2015 😀

‘but it's fucked up my sleep schedule bc part of the game is that u have to play the chatrooms before the next one unlocks or the previous one will lock and u have to pay (in game cash) to play it afterwards. so i have a schedule. i stay up til 1:52 to play the 1:48 chatroom and then i sleep, wake up at 6:50 for school, play the 3ish AM chatroom before the 8AM chatroom unlocks, and then go to school, play the 8AM chatroom, and continue playing the chatrooms throughout the day’ — HAHAHAHHAHAA 😭 IDK WHY THIS MADE ME LAUGH LMAOOO, you literally ended up making a whole plan around ur sleeping schedule for this game? 😭 DAMN, how good must it be???

I’M CRYINGGGG THE MESSAGES 😭😭😭

WHEN YOU SAID IT WAS CRINGE, I DIDN’T THINK IT WAS ‘i’d like to tell kay how i feel and make her mine but—’ , ‘you can have me right now!’ TYPE OF CRINGE? HELLO? 😭

I’M CRYINGGGG STOPPP

AND THIS YOOSUNG GUY COMING IN TO PUT IN HIS 2 CENTS IS KILLING MEEEEE 😭

‘omg’ after the zen guy literally declared that you’re his omega LMFAOOO

yoosung’s just a chill guy 😀

‘don’t let the beast inside of me awaken’ — HUH???? 😭

KAY I’M ACTIALLY DYING MY STOMACH HURTS SO BAD WTH IS THIS 😭😭😭

THAT’S SUCH A MALAKAI THING OF HIM TO SAY, wait—

👀

your type is literally malakai?

LMFAOOOO KAY X MALAKAI NO WAYYYY 😭😭😭

‘no one dare to touch her 🐺’ — BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAGAHAYAGAHSHSHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

PLS HOW DOES Y/N GIVE YOU SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT WHEN ZEN IS RIGHT THERE

kay pls tell me you’re joking. there’s absolutely no way 😭 and you told me all this in CONFIDENCE 💀

‘LIKE THIS IS SO CRINGE.... BUT I AM FREE’ — KAY 😭

self aware queen? 🥴💜

‘also have u heard the epic the musical concept album at all? like that one tiktok audio that's like 'i would fall in love with you over and over again.’ bc it's taken over my typ w emo ass edits and my friends are SICK OF ME’ — HAHAHAHA, no i actually haven’t 😭 so i looked it up just now and i’ve genuinely never heard of it in my life, ever’

‘too many satosugu edits w this audio and i'm gonna kms pls and ty’ — wait that makes sense as to why i haven’t seen it 💀

i don’t ship satosugu 👀 i can hear the shippers coming to bury me alive so my tiktok fyp is obviously gonna be catered towards videos i’ll end up liking and saving, and since i don’t actively search for satosugu edits and like and save them, my fyp is most definitely completely different to yours

hence why i’ve never heard of that audio 😭

but i should be glad! even tho i don’t ship them, i see tragedy in their friendship every time i see scenes of them together, so maybe it’s a good thing i hadn’t seen or heard of the audio before this ☹️

stop now i’m imagining you and zen with this audio HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH 😭

he’d fall in love with you over and over again… and you’d have to make sure the beast inside him doesn’t awaken over and over again 💀

ok i’ll stop 😭

[tigerbears]

THANK YOU SM FOR THE TRANS UTDR VIDEO ESP THE SEAM MENTION BC IM SEAMS NUMBER ONE FIGHTER FOR MISGENDERING THEYRE MY FAVE DR CHARACTER I always feel like that one meme of the knight shielding the princess whenever I correct ppl on their pronouns and get to show off the clip of Mr Fox himself saying it lol, also speaking of tysm for pointing out the issue of him not addressing things— bc man I love the guy but sir Please start actually saying stuff bc this fanbase is too illiterate for you to just smile and wave when it comes to the characters identities,,, esp due to it being such a huge topic of discourse, buuuuut I also don’t blame him for the being overwhelmed part, like I said I agree with like every point you made you were so eloquent through out the whole video thank you sm just aaaaugh punches wall and jumps up and down <3

Completely off topic but I wanna rant abt something for a moment (hence why I’m now sending this w anon and not my blog) but the video reminded me of something that happened to my friend in which she made a post on her UTDR related ask blog which was really simple just a “hey don’t misgender Kris/frisk/chara on my blog” and that was basically it. That was the post. BUT. She had vaguely mentioned the glitchtale and Xtale aus in the tags just bc those came to mind first as big fandom things that misgendered the kids, and SPECIFICALLY she wrote she didn’t know as much abt xtale though and that it was just as I said from the top of her head. And wouldn’t you know! The creator of xtale saw the post and took it to fucking HEART. Like made this whole personal long ass rant in a rb over this simple “hey don’t be transphobic on my own personal blog” post. And then, and I’m not joking, EVERY SINGLE comment, tag, RB, you name it, was ALL harassing her or siding w Xtales creator, the only people defending her were her mutuals, and this was a small blog to boot— this wasn’t some big huge blog going after xtale specifically— it was a small blog making a post aimed at the follower circle just offhandedly mentioning it IN THE TAGS. so this explosion just took a massive toll on her and us. Thus any time I see that au or the creator i just get the most sour feeling like Man I Hate They’re Still So Popular Despite That Shit :(((( so the fact a similar situation happened (at least based on what you described in the vid) just made me remember that was all, just like a feeling of “wow we really haven’t changed at all in like two years have we. :/“

sorry I rambled for so long lol I just got reminded of that situation and wanted an excuse to get it off my chest, again as I said I absolutely loved the video and all the points made and I love the inclusion of swatch as someone who was there for the whole they/them to he/him event :3 and again as I said as a huge seam fan ty for including them bc they’re always overlooked in the NB conversation and I just love any mention of them lol,, my favorite elderly wizard kitty plush <33333

Glad people are enjoying the pronouns essay! I worked really hard with it and I'm glad to see it's at least correcting the narrative.

Though with the X-Tale thing, that's something I'll have to look in to and fact check because I prefer not to spread rumors without evidence. (Not saying it didn't happen; just with the whole "Legends of Localization" misinformation fiasco this fandom has a habit of making s--t up, and thus I want evidence, and while I appropriate your support a little annoyed that it has some X-Tale drama attached that I'm probably to tired to factcheck. Sucks if it's true though; Apologies for any snappiness I just woke up to the success of the pronouns essay and I'm about to go look at all the YT comments.)

I don't like drama and there's a reason the pronouns essay avoided throwing any stones directly at those "guilty."

[junkdyke]

hey 🌷🌷 i just wanna say i hope you’re doing well! seeing you on my dash makes me wanna be me best black lesbian self fr fr <3 i’m struggling w being in/out of the closet and finding my style, esp with a lot of queer rep being very white and american-y, if that makes sense? so thank you for just Being You and sharing it w ppl.

Ahhh thank you so much, it makes me happy to know my dumbass helps a lil bit!! Totallyyyyyy get you on style when so much lesbian rep, esp femininity is so white! My feminine style heavily relied on eurocentric beauty, straight hair + colored contacts, and it's been hard shifting away from that and suddenly feeling less attractive. It helps immensely to keep looking at people who look like you, you see the beauty in them and it helps to see it in yourself! Lesbian attraction and style is also just so far from mainstream beauty anyway, and most media does a piss poor job of representing the community whatsoever lmao. Going out to lesbian events has also been great at reminding me what this community actually looks like, and how varied the styles are! Just have fun with it, think about what would be interesting to try, what would look cool, and style is a constant evolution! I have plans for my hair and other things that are probably going to make me look even more weird, but it's the confidence that makes it sexy! Sorry this got so rambly lmao but thank you for sending me this, I hope you're doing well too!! 💖

[potato-an0n]

Istg why is every rwby song so percy jackson coded? (Rhetorical question ik the answer, they have a pretty similar story structure (??) and rwby uses their ost to give context to their characters/ story and foreshadow events):

- Time to say good bye (heavy on this one, i even made a post abt it)

- I burn (this could be abt any character having their character development moment)

- This Will be The day (this is for wen i get to the Battle of Manhatten or the climax of the great prophecy).

- Die (the aftermath of the wars coming ahead tht i havent gotten to yet)

- Gold (percabeth and solangelo coded but also will coded too)

- Dreams Come True (another percabeth and solangelo coded song)

- Caffeine (as im typing this, im currently on ch 6 of battle of the labyrinth so, I’ll come back this after i meet more of the characters)

- Lets Just Live (the demigod kids in their healing era, but honestly, I’ll have this song do the talking).

- Like morning follows the night (this could either be abt percy and nico, but heavily leaning towards percy)

- Home (idk, i think of bianca and zoë wen i hear this song, specifically bianca bc it’s giving big sister vibes)

- Armed and Ready (percabeth and solangelo coded pt. 3)

- Bmblb (ifyyk 😏 but for context: the ship name for 2 main characters black and yang is bumblebee and I FUCKING LOVE THESE TWO and lets just say, solangelo and bmblb are VERY similar both as individual characters and their relationship (literally the sunshine x “grumpy”trope). Also, yang and will are so similar to e/o in terms of personality like, they’re laid back sunshine ppl but it’s also their coping mechanism 😀 (and traumas are severely overlooked bc they are the laid back sunshine characters) and are loser bf/gf 💀)

- Red like roses pt 1. and 2 (these songs are made for nico. Esp red like roses pt.2 like omg- the lyrics accuracy to nico’s situation 😭 im gonna have to make a separate post abt this. also now thinking abt it, him and ruby are more alike than i thought)

I made a playlist for songs tht remind of pjo or relate heavily to pjo and it’s filled w/ mostly songs from RWBY bc of how similar they are (yet dif world building and lore ofc) and i haven’t watched rwby in YEARS. But i do have old rwby posts here on here tho if yall wanna check it out 😅

[kazbiter]

need to hear some of ur ronsey thoughts pls 🤲

my beloved fellow ronsey enthusiast I would do anything 1) for you and 2) to talk abt them some more so here I go!!!!

pynch is my personal favorite romantic/endgame pairing for ronan like they will always be what I come back to for many reasons, at the end of the day I love love love ronan and adam BUT!!! but! that does NOT keep me from doing thorough and frequent explorations of ronsey in my mind bc I am, to put it simply, also obsessed with them. it's also rlly easy for me to do bc the ronsey dynamic is just so different, from both pynch and from genuinely anything else I have ever seen like there is something abt the connection and relationship that belongs solely to them and cannot be influenced by any other event or relationship in either of their respective lives bc they are each so much a part of who the other is. there r romantic elements to it but it's also something beyond romance to me even though I do also like ronsey in a romantic context (anyone who has any good fics send them my WAYYYY)!!! but beyond that there is just something sooooo compelling to me abt the way the connection is neither completely romantic or completely platonic but rather being the result of this kind of love and devotion that is so intense it cannot be contained within or defined by any traditional parameters.

i think the ronan devotion post I made a few weeks ago best sums up what really gets to me on his side of things (tldr being that the most important thing to ronan is being dependable to gansey, earning his place as the one he looks to first and keeping it by being able to provide exactly what it is that he wants as soon as he asks for it) but im also so taken with the way that gansey understands he has been given the very rare oppurtunity of being shown ronan's heart, knowing the soft and loving and passionate thing that it is no matter how much ronan tries to hide it from others by wrapping himself in barbed wire and sharp words, and committing himself to holding it safe and never letting himself or ronan forget what it truly is. ronan (esp in the earlier books) hates himself so much, can hardly live with who he is and tries to deal with it by making it difficult for anyone else to do so, and gansey simply says no. i remember who you are. i remember how you love. and I'm not forgetting it and I won't let you either. you can't scare me off- i'm afraid for you but I will never be afraid of you. you marvelous creature. just carrying this part of ronan with him that ronan thought had died along with his father, keeping it safe so that when he's ready he can have it back again. loving him in a way that keeps him from losing himself. i just simply will never be over it or able to put it into enough words, I'm always marvelling at what they share w each other and the ways they remind me how love can save you.

ps. this was a lot less thought out than most of the posts I make on them I kinda just started rambling abt whatever came to mind bc I'm thinking abt them in different ways every day LMAO so I hope that these r the kind of ronsey thoughts u wanted to hear and were at least partially coherent bc the hangover is kicking my ass a bit hahah xoxox <3

[violetsareblue-selfships]

👕🌿🏠 for the ask game!!!

(@cellienmaycry)

Hi Snowy!! Thanks for the questions! I think we all know who I'm answering these for ^-^

👕: Who borrows the others hoodies/clothing?

Me!! It's already written into the lore hehe (like one fic I pictured my s/i wearing Cait's shirt and she wears the red jacket Vi wears for like an entire season of the show so...), then I think it's Vi, then Cait.

Vi (and Jinx) seem to tie memory/closeness to scent so I just know she'd love wearing our clothes if possible & honestly, Cait would like it too, just more at home (unless it's like a sweater that looks presentable enough to go out in ^^)

🌿: Is there a smell you associate with your f/o? Why?

Cait: lavender/violets, tea, vanilla, probably also gunpowder & ink. honestly she probably also has a specific perfume she wears to fancy events too. reasons: calming flowers (also she'd switch over to violet scented things during season 2 during our separation like out of missing vi), tea bc she drinks a lot of it, vanilla just bc it's sweet, and the last two bc of her job (being a sniper + detective - thinking like late night her doing paperwork that's why for ink) // also i have a white tea + sage hand sanitizer i got bc of her (someone assigned it to her in a reblog game ^^)

Vi: again violets (esp. post season 2), alcohol, & i think the scent she'd wear is like spicy maybe w/ some musk or amber. reasons: her name haha, how much she drinks esp. in season 2 (probably might switch to coffee scent or something after) and the others are just on vibes. i also have a perfume that reminds me of her that's apples, amberwood and sugared musk so :3 (same as the reason for cait's - reblog game ^^)

🏠: How would you and your f/o decorate the inside of your house?

There'd be a lot more purple, that's for sure. Like the Kiramman estate is already pretty well decorated, but as the years go by, more of my paintings go up on the walls (not just in Cait's room). With Vi and me around, it'd start looking a little more lived in than just something to be admired. One of the rooms would be repurposed into like a gym for Vi (like how I have a painting room). There'd be plenty of scented candles & stuffed animals around. Also I think we'd have more eclectic dishware (I see the Kirammans having fancy stuff but Vi/I would see a mug at a stall in the market and just want it even if it doesn't fit in ^^)

[wonustars]

hihi! it’s me again, I probably should claim an emoji since im gonna be sending more asks soon and the 🍊 emoji speaks to me (seungkwan biased lol.) I just finished reading do you remember the time and boy did that one hit close to home. the reader’s relationship with her parents and the way she expressed her emotions (crying super hard and pushing away jeonghan) literally reminded me of an incident that happened to me recently! pretty crazy lol. but I loved the way that jeonghan took his time with the reader, as well as confiding her with his own traumas and emotions. i loveeee a good scene where to people who seem to hate each other actually really relate to each other once they finally sit down and talk properly. also seungkwan is my king.. the distaste for jeonghan even after they started dating, speak your truth seungkwan! I definitely have more to say about this fic but im not sure what yet.. might make a follow-up ask once I get my thoughts together! I feel very biased in saying this because of how relatable it was to me but it’s definitely my favorite fic by you by far! once again, keep writing what you love. I hope you’re having an amazing day! (or night.) 💕

hello anon!! and yayy a tangerine emoji is so cute, i love seungkwan and boosadans sm hehe 😼💕 and also sorry again for the late replies i can get quite inconsistent :") esp because of finals :(.

DYRTT is one of my fav fics that i've written so it's nice to know that you enjoyed it as well!! and im sorry to hear about what happened, i can't do much but i can at least offer an internet hug 🫂💞!

i actually took inspiration from lorelai gilmore when i was writing reader's character. not a lot but it's there if u squint a lil hehe.

i think the most important part of this story for me was the fact that both reader and jeonghan had a support system outside of each other. i know what it's like to go through this blurred line of not a relationship but definitely something more, and having someone be there for you while you try to map your feelings is very important! luckily for those two they had people like josh and bss to help them along the way.

there is an underlying theme to this story and it's the importance in side characters, although they aren't the "main event" it shows how impactful they can be for the two mc's. esp because they add so much more life to the story and at times, comedic relief.

im glad you really liked this one, anon. it was my fav for the longest time as well :") seungkwan is always such a fun character to write and i hope one day i can do him justice by giving him a fic of his own hehe. i have many plans but i tend to only write one story at a time :3 which explains why i only post a fic every 5-6 months hehe.

thank you for always coming in here to chat w/ me 🥹💕 i hope you're doing well and make sure to drink lots of water!

[castle-dominion]

castle 7x1 driven

the finding castle episode liveblog

previously yeah yeah I watched the last ep a week ago it's fine

Oh no he dead

Bros hold her back

yeah hot af.

(surprised alexis & martha aren't doing the same)

Noooo they are muddying Yet Another wedding dress!!!!

Dun dun dun he ain't there!

Esposito helping becks up the hill <3

(wow ryan hair)

I wonder if they filmed parts of this the previous season before hiatus

He's right, change, but it would be Cool to see becks doing Cop Stuff in her wedding dress. Just like. Tie it up lol.

what was that little skip there in ryan's run?

uh Tell Him why

mum noticed the red tail light stuff.

Oh no pieces.

Dragged him away

Love rysposito half fancy. Reminds me of 4x1 look

See? turned on remotely! Things u can do! But castle's never could be, after that debacle w/ bracken & beckett? no way.

Fruit stands my beloved.

See? how WOULD you remember that? unless it went TWICE!

Love how they have those windbreakers.

"Not far the way I’m going to drive."

Why is my man running away if he's a normal guy?

good frame rate

*checking the gps on his phone* love it

oh NO it's getting CRUSHED lmao I loVE it!

early title card

Ooh car maze!!! I love it!

she just TACKLES him!

Love rysposito holding her off.

love the chains.

becks uh beckett my dude chill CHILL

AFTER THAT THERE'S NINE MORE!?!?

Looks like it is the same day still. Beckett changed at the wedding but she is wearing the same clothes now at the precinct & rysposito have changed too now

esposito looks so Happy!

(nice pic they are using for castle lol)

JE: So you can do what to him? (off her look) I was watching. Getting booted of the force is not going to help anything.

It's just like s4 finale/s5 premier

conveiniently lousy

Gates my beloved <3 (but she should be booted off the case) Oh wait nvm. unless you give me cause to.

sus fbi moments

friends & family & also just regular employees

In the event hhh

connors is right that IS sus.

it MIGHT have smth to do w her.

It's like that sammy keyes final book!

communication!!!

Alexis looks so unwell jhfsjksdlfj

MR: Your father will be home before you know it.

Me: How long is the show's hiatus?

Who's bringing the coffee? Becks it's obv not going to be castle

Esposito. He really loves her.

(someone had to bring her coffee. idk if I'll liveblog the audio commentary)

*knowing bracken himself is not behind this, esp not this early on*

3xk, mickey barbozza was the most recent one,,,

Esposito's scar is so Something

*knowing it isn't exactly castle's dad*

Vinny the scar!

Yeah he accused him of murder!

"What can I do to help?"

I love vinny

"this I did not know"

love the grey area love vinny love this stuff. Wait is it vinny or vinnie?

Already in the morning?

Panini <3

"that does not happen" I love the scar

*is castle* (that's not how it works)

JE: getting mad

Love ryan & esposito taking two different angles

Ryan give her a hug

that's true! we already have this stuff w 3xk!

girl he took voice lessons to sound like esposito he could surely take body movement lessons

(btw love the outfits & ig lighting too & all this stuff & the acting is good too.)

Martha sus.

Makes sense to me. Run off the road by an suv of COURSE I'd pay to have it crushed! it made me mad!

Exceot he asked for it to be crushed before!! it ran him off.

Martha sounds happy he's alive while becks sounds mad he's lying

it's authentic. & terrific?

{Why was CASTLE the one to pay for the car to get crushed tho?}

yeah why WASN'T castle under duress?

walking away from bekett would also mean walking away from alexis, that would NOT happen?

Vinnie turned over the money to help his friend Castle!

Mum guessed it was her wedding gift, like for castle's bday the 100th episode.

Call castle's dad

Love the handwriting & the montage scene.

WHERE HER MOM'S MURDER BOARD WAS HHH

Shawn Wash. Love how it's the same two paragraphs repeated over & over lol. Good set design. Well idk but fun set design.

SHE'S CALLING ALL THE WAY TO FRANCE! does she speak french fluently? or just some?

the chair!

noooo closing the shutters!

*little boat*

reminds me of that book where the mom was mentally ill so they couldn't ask for help when they were trapped in the boat.

"this is the USA coast guard, please move."

'this is the canadian lighthouse, that's not gonna happen'

What if you are knocked out & CAN'T ANSWER that u need help?

it wasn't the MIDDLE of the atlantic ocean babes!

THREE BULLET HOLES???

Like peter at the tomb

worst part is SHE didn't do anything to get him back, it just took time & a bullet shot boat

alexis <3

my man has a sunburn

going to be in a coma or smth. Girl chill it's ok. Don't expect him to wake up..

not treat him but... LOOK at him... soOOOO GOOD

yucky coffee.

esposito asking the hard questions. We need a devil's advocate!

ryan's pants look odd with that jackett or at least in this lighting

*beckett right behind them*

take a drink every time u hear the word dinghiy

Yay coast guard captain

my man is so smart.

Was she on the screen call with him at the hospital?

"henry jenkins" or so he's called

a month ago?

lmao look at those rods.

blue blue blue eyes omG

stole his clothes lol

key SEWN into his pants?

so he WAS shot!

a few WEEKS ago???

the other guy said nobody was home.

love the use of the word negative instead of just no.

*thinks the garbage bags contain castle's body parts before remembering he's in the hospital*

two person tent. Looking at the interior it looks more like a five folk tent. (well five if they sleep in mummy bags & head to toe)

"or some kids hanging around taking it for a joyride"

why wouldn't "they" clean up the tent?

late 30s (early 40s)

*takes esposito with her*

the tux would not be put away that way but I'll take it. Esposito is so mad at castle.

his wedding shoes!

his watch!

he was tracking the news to see if they had been able to find/rescue him yet

martha is so happy!

first thing he did was ask for you!

RC: Just so you know, the doctor said that kissing will speed my recovery.

I could clip

yeah it IS supposed to be a joke. I deal with being in a car collision with humour! We keep having crap to deal with when we are trying to get married, it's just so silly silly!

he's a writer he needs to start at the beginning

I think u can tell he is not faking it

he looks so exaasperated when he says "I was unconscious!"

Right yes. why?

I might ask "has it been a year?" or smth bc I'm Dramatic ( if i was castle)

I'd ask if it was supposed to be a joke. I'd ask for proof.

except if he planned this & called vinnie in the morning, he would have had to plan it & he'd remember things before the wedding accident! (techinically not an accident)

bc I want to go there!

Remember Jeremy?

esposito outfit nice, lighting too hard for me to pic. grey or black or navy with a v dark red tie. some pattern (caused by the weave I think, not actual dye)

ryan taking explanations & facts.

lmao tiny little crime scene box!

she's going to cry skdjflskdjfl I love i hate I love this

did he write it in his coma dream? is it an AU

except castle DID set it up! he was the one who set this up!

RC: Yeah, on the INLAND side!!! Not on the ocean side.

he did camp here tho!

some old guy

Not the same guy bwa bwa BWAAAAA

walk & talk

(ryan outfit <3)

Why the setup to be there? what about the evidence?

JE: Mm hmm castle. THEY faked it sure

Fenkins

Remember Jeremy? I want to see more of him I want to see the updates!

alexis is old enough to drink

I love how he moves his hand counter clockwise for tangled & then clockwise for untangled when he talks with his hands there

you DO lose hope & then you get it back!

staring at it was so sweet!

everyone has chairs by their desks!

Almost shot him? srs becks? ew lol

RC: Well, it’s not the same. I can’t remember. Though I do know I missed you terribly. Because there’s no way I wouldn’t.

(could clip)

this is soooo sweet

[starocean]

drifting by on an on is a soriku song

[hiraya-rawr]

hello, i really love your "i love you in every universe" fic w/ diluc hehe it was so nice <33 i esp love the part where it mentioned how diluc has a soft spot for children, it reminded me of this streamer i was watching that was playing the hiddenstrife event point out that diluc is nicer to paimon since he views her as a child + then going back to alice's letter about him and klee. saw that you wrote the fic on june omg you were ahead of the time aaa i adore it <3 have a nice day hehe

IM SORRY IM LATE TO REPLY BUT THIS IS SO?? CUTE??? SO SOFT. MAKES ME ALL FLUTTERY!!

and im so glad you like my playable au fic! it's not exactly popular but i adore the concept a lot! and aaah uikdshfuuk my character studies worked out ig? hahahahh i always viewed diluc and a softie for kids. klee could burn the winery and he wouldnt have the heart to scold her, just mutter a quiet "be careful next time" and "at least no one got hurt".

i mean, he bought thousands of bottles of barbatos' breath just so the fatui wont get the real one 🤨 this man prioritizes people over money and im jsut so soft for him dkfjguvkcrehdo

[astrxealis]

HOME SWEET MOON RERUN GBF ???? oh my god LET'S FUCKING GO i love the society members sm like please just look at them, (no spoilers? under the cut btw ^^)

rambling a bit abt eustace bcs i am Never and will Never be over his lines !!! like yes sir i would definitely like you to pet my head. and i want to pet your ears too. also he has great taste he loves DOGS ALSO HIS STORY !! it reminds me of another fave of mine but in ffxivjfheidhekdhaos i love em both so much

rambling a bit abt eustace bcs i am Never and will Never be over his lines !!! like yes sir i would definitely like you to pet my head. and i want to pet your ears too. also he has great taste he loves DOGS ALSO HIS STORY !! it reminds me of another fave of mine but in ffxivjfheidhekdhaos i love em both so much

VASERAGA IS AMAZING !!! i rlly love his development and story esp w his relationship w zeta sobsobsobso

BEA IS SUCH AN AMAZING CHARACTER AND SHES SO PRETTY TOO ... i probably kinda kin her ngl ... IDHEIWHEIWN ANYWAYS I LOVE HER

but yeah zeta rlly is one of my fave girls fr i really really like her :(( she gives me like. she can be my big sis bestie but also at the same time that girl u have a huge crush on ???????? friend to lovers w her PLEASE also she sso prefyy please and cute pela

PLEASEEEEE ILsa shld step on me ... literally Maam ......... i love her a lot fr tho and def she shld get her dream and get married sometime she deserves it

CASSIUS OH GOOD LORD CASSISYSUEHSIJD MY TWIN LIKES YOU MORE BUT I ALSO LIKE YOU A LOT I THINK ???? not as mucha s zeta and eustace but holy shit CASSIUS he is so cute and his char dvweopemnt is so MHMMMMM YES KING i hc him as nonbinary though

AND ISAAC !!!!!!! OH HELL YEAH ISAAC HE IS SO GREAT help i have no more words to say but rlly i love his story and hes such a great guy

tbh though the story gets p disturbing at times ,,, like ifykyk ,,, reminds me of that one greek myth? tantalus if im not mistaken ... !! nto as bad but. still distubring AND THEN THE BRAIN ... holy ahit

Anyways the society series is great !! a lot more mechy feeling and technological seeming but still good i think? personally i enjoyed home sweet moon :] so heartwarming esp after what ahppened b4 hand TvT

personally i didnt really find this event to be super Wow and Epic but it was enjoyable!! i think. its been more than a yearduehfjsbd i cant rmbr super well anymore but i love them <3

AND I ALMOST FORGOT HOLY SHIT BUT GWYNNE !!! <333333 yes gwynne yes lets go girl

[waybrights]

Crashes the Ceiling

Sasha and The Sharps at the met gala headcanons?

okay i actually had to do research on this because i didn't know what it was minus celebrities dressing up so ahskdhkdad

but here is a short list of my hcs and maybe outfit ideas (?) for my girls!!

- they've been invited every year since they turned 15, but never really wanted to go (plus they all thought it would be a bit overwhelming esp for marcy) so they turned it down

- ended up going when they were 20!! technically they were forced into it, but sasha was going to ask to go anyway so they weren't too mad abt having to go

- (we'll say the theme was the most recent one for my poor brain) so their theme was In America: A Lexicon of Fashion and i think they did p well w it!!

- marcy would probably do smth like lili reinhart (the dress w each states flower on it) but a bit shorter so she doesn't trip and green!!

- sasha would bring a sword, because why not <3

- anne would wear a blue dress that lights up when she moves because she thinks it's pretty (and vaguely reminds her of vegas so it 'fits' the theme)

- one of them wanted to wear a dress made out of fast food packaging but they weren't allowed

- they perform too, so they get two outfits (their performance was like a mashup of their favourite songs, it slaps <3)

- they take a lot of pictures

- since they were so 'elusive' they were the center of attention for a bit because wow they Actually showed up to an event.. crazy

- sasha spills food over her outfit but claims it was part of the style and everyone rolls w it

- they dont arrive together, because sasha wanted to be extra

- anne shows up first because she was actually ready on time, sasha shows up second and almost knocks over anne ('i missed you!' ... ' you saw me an hour ago sash...'), marcy shows up last and the other two are very happy to see them

- they don't rlly leave each other's sides after a while, so there are only like 2 solo pics of each of them jskahddh

[magireco]

Would love to hear more thoughts on how these girls have understandable teenage motivations (A+ tag analysis by the way)

1. Thank you!!!!!!

2. ALRIGHT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS (shuffles my papers). i’ve gone off about homura’s motivations in depth before but i think it was only in dms/groupchats? anyways i’ll go in order with All the girls bc i think about this all the time as a teenager who grew up mentally ill and had their perceptions skewed because of it, and also i don’t think it’s talked about nearly enough for the others, at least on my blog... so, buckle up!!! this is REALLY LONG!!!! 

3. i tried writing like, an individual thing for every member of the quintet all together in this one ask, but i ended up talking a little too much about homura and now i’m going to split up all the different analysis stuff for each character into the reblogs and work on it every so often! you’re free to kinda skim of course because i really did write a whole novel but here we go!! read under the cut. :3 this is literally essay length btw. i did NOT expect it to get this long but if you want to read it all i’d recommend it but i don’t expect most people to

First: Homura Akemi

okay so i’m going to kind of summarize everything but from the perspective of empathizing with her so if you don’t want to reread a whole recap you can skip to the ending few paragraphs

Summary

first of all, in episode 10, homura’s past is explained for the viewer. she was a shy, unsure girl who had been bedridden for a long time. she was clearly unsocialized, not to mention she went to a catholic school and those can be brutal, esp in japan... that’s all we know about her in that episode, but it’s revealed in one of the drama cds that she was bullied as a child(& further at mitakihara middle), her parents never were mentioned ever (i assume them to either be dead or neglectful, considering she lives alone and unchecked), and in magia record, homura says to natsuki that she’s never had friends before, she hasn’t been on vacation before until the beachside bonds event, hasn’t ever celebrated valentine’s day, has never celebrated new years, etc... 

clearly, she’s missed out on a lot not only because of her sickness and hospitalization, but because of her isolation as a child at school. judging by her demeanor and the way she reacts when madoka comes up to her without being asked to, something like that had never happened to her before. it’s clear to me that madoka was many of homura’s “first’s”, her first friend, the first person who reached out to her, the first person to compliment her name honestly(validating her, disproving her dislike of her name), the first person to regard her so kindly rather than judging her based off of her appearance and demeanor (like other students had apparently done, this is also shown when the other students at mitakihara middle make fun of her for being tired after only being able to run one lap). AND, madoka (and mami, but homura knew madoka better at that time) saved her life, even though homura was so willing to die, just in that moment... i’d assume it made homura feel like someone believed in her even when she was at her worst. it’s really clear by the glimmer in her eyes that these are nice people that made her feel happy and welcome... and then walpurgisnacht came. she didn’t know much about magical girls and just believed in madoka and mami to be able to defeat the witch because she saw them as strong and saw the witch as defeatable, despite its size. and then mami died, right in front of her and madoka... 

this kinda seems headcanon-y when i phrase it this way but it’s practically proven in her actions but i really think homura is scared to be abandoned, especially by someone who was as overtly kind and nonjudgemental to her as madoka... it’s in the way she cries her name and says “don’t go” before madoka runs away to fight walpurgisnacht. OH ALSO, i need to address this one thing really quick because people like to assume that homura didn’t care about mami from the beginning and only liked madoka. it’s not that she wasn’t sad when mami died, she was clearly terrified and didn’t want the same to happen to madoka, also mami LITERALLY WASN’T IN HER CLASS OR HER GRADE so i assume she spent most of her time with madoka considering they were in the same grade and class and probably shared most of their periods with each other... but also, once again, mami is older than both of them and homura probably saw her as more of a mentor/teacher that she needed to impress rather than madoka who was more on her level, i guess?

anyways, moving on... homura had to see madoka die (& experience the crushing guilt she felt for “letting madoka go” even though there was nothing she could’ve done) and literally says “i’d rather you had lived than saved someone like me” ... her self worth is below zero. she makes her wish to be strong enough to protect madoka(because she sees madoka, her first friend, who saved her life which she felt had no worth, as so strong and noble) which causes her to go back in time, etc. etc., you know the deal. okay before i move on to talk a little more abt the timelines and the personality change i’m going to address why it’s reasonable that she’d be attached to madoka.

i mentioned before that homura said herself that she had never had a friend before. just like, put yourself into her shoes for a second. this girl has no idea how to make friends; it was never taught to her. it’s literally rational that she’d get attached to her first ever friendship. it’s not “normal” the way she views madoka, but how could it be? this is her first time having a friend, she’s afraid of being abandoned by her, but she’s had to see her die over and over again anyway. she doesn’t want to lose madoka. even if she doesn’t go about it in the right way, there’s no way she would’ve actually known how to Do relationships. no one taught her. i think that needs to be empathized with more...

i kinda feel like i need to summarize all this just bc if i word it right it kinda reminds you & puts into perspective just how terrible and scary all of this was.

anyway Again, i would skip straight to the end of timeline 3 (where a New Flavor of trauma is given to homura) but i need to first address timeline 2 for a second. it was homura’s first time repeating the timeline, she trained with madoka and mami again, she was still hopeful despite what happened, etc. kinda just bonding further with madoka Again... and then it’s at the end of this timeline that she watches madoka turn into a witch, just in front of her very eyes... and realizes the true fate of magical girls. when she resets the timeline again, it’s up to her to start anew and break the truth to the group when she sees them again. when she tries telling the truth, sayaka immediately shoves this aside, claiming homura was just trying to split everyone up. it’s clear that that hurts homura. (also the little shinies in her eyes were wavering which is anime-code for sad) her feelings were immediately disregarded by sayaka and she couldn’t defend herself, but madoka did for her, and mami tried to diffuse the situation. 

after they all find out homura was right when sayaka turns into a witch, mami kills kyoko and ties up homura in her ribbons and aims a gun at her, and this, rightfully, ignited a fear within homura... madoka is forced to kill mami in order to save homura, leaving only the two of them to fight together. then, when walpurgisnacht comes that time, The Promise is made... madoka tells homura to go back in time and save her from becoming a witch (because she doesn’t want to curse the world that way, she still sees beauty in it) and homura agrees, saying she’ll never stop until she saves madoka, and then... homura has to mercy kill madoka before she becomes a witch. she cries loudly and shoots madoka’s soul gem... it’s literally so heartwrenching and (usually) brings the viewer to tears, or puts something into perspective for them...

then we assume the personality change happens in the timeline right after. this personality change causes a lot of discourse because sometimes it’s seen as kind of irrational, but personally, i think even moemura had at least SOME resent for the world around her considering what she’d been through. it’s madoka’s repeated deaths that finally push her over that edge. i could get further into the coolmura arc but that’d take a WHILE, so i’ll just kind of explain something briefly though -- why homura ended up becoming even MORE focused on madoka. and i’m also going to debunk the claim that homura doesn’t care about her other friends as fast as i can before moving on.

also, ONE LAST side tangent, for those that think homura really did do a 360 degree personality turn are wrong. it’s shown explicitly in homulilly’s labyrinth that there’s this... “core” homura, a shadowy purple silhouette with braids. every time the series depicts homura’s internal self, it’s always glasses+braids, symbolizing her “child” self, who she truly is. she never stopped being that person. she doesn’t want to kill. ...but i can get into that in a rebellion analysis later! this is also shown in wraith arc bc the person inside her soul gem has glasses+braids. anyway let’s get to the next part i’m going to rant about

Homura’s Love for Madoka, but Otherwise Apathy

homura has seen many different, yet all similar, versions of her friends. the first claim i’m going to talk about which i saw brought up quite a few times before is in regards to homura and mami. first of all, homura absolutely still cares for mami, and not just in the “i only care about your life if it affects madoka’s” way. one part that always gets me is when mami ties her up in the series timeline after homura frantically warns her that this witch isn’t normal, to which mami IMMEDIATELY brushes this off, without even giving homura a chance. then, when mami’s ribbons fade away, homura looks horrified and just goes “oh no...” and it’s kind of obvious to me that it was in response to mami’s death rather than madoka’s reaction. this is arguably up for debate i guess because i’ve seen different takes on that reaction and it’s ambiguous, i guess? but i’m about to get into something extremely similar and that’s the sayaka situation, where madoka throws sayaka’s soul gem onto a moving car. homura gasps and immediately pauses time and disappears, running in literal open traffic and climbing on top of a moving car to retrieve sayaka’s soul gem. one could argue that this is ALSO only just because homura wants to save madoka (and kyoko) the fear, but don’t you think her expression would be different? if homura truly didn’t care for sayaka’s wellbeing, wouldn’t she be making an expression more similar to like, “oh, this shit again...” instead of the frantic one she was making in the scene? this kind of thing Also happens when kyoko asks homura to leave while kyoko’s about to sacrifice herself in oktavia’s labyrinth, and homura looks up sadly at kyoko and then back down at madoka, and once she knew kyoko was dead, she just quietly said “kyoko...” to herself. she usually refers to them as [last name, first name], but she dropped that during that moment... it otherwise sounds like a bare minimum thing to do, but keep in mind the timeline we’re shown in the series is implied to be like, the 110th timeline, i think? like, this is the last timeline, she’s worn down, but she still does have empathy -- or at least sympathy -- for the others. she still loves them. 

homura promised to be madoka’s protector, she dedicated her life to her, and also she doesn’t have a choice not to dedicate her life to her anymore, even though that’s not fair to her... homura is in a really hopeless situation and madoka is her hope, and madoka is the one that judges her the least out of the quintet (like saying “i’m sure homura is good” to herself) upon first impression. also okay i mentioned this already in my last post (which you saw) but i’m going to bring it up one more time, homura is not mentally 26!!!!!! she is still 14 mentally!! in order to be 26, you have to have experienced 26 years of new life experience. maybe you acquire that through school, maybe you aquire that through friends, whatever it takes. but homura just repeated the same month over and over, and it’s not like her body (canonically) ages ever. she just kind of gets transported back into her body in the hospital again considering she’s back wearing her braids and pajamas... so, yeah. no mental development there. i also mentioned this here but i’m gonna say it again, that just makes it even harder for her to actually age correctly... it stunts her to 14. imagine being 14 for 10-11 years...

In Defense Of My Own Claims

btw before you think i’m just going full-on radical homura apologist, i’m not explaining all of this to be like “homura made ALL THE RIGHT DECISIONS because her trauma gave her an excuse!!” because like, Obviously, she did a lot of bad things, she killed people, did a lot of callous things, a lot of thoughtless things, a lot of things that make her seem emotionless, etc. but i just have trouble blaming her considering how things ended up, and it’s not like she enjoys killing people. she’s not sadistic... she ends up becoming short with all the others not only because of her (extremely) weakened trust in them, but also because the amount of times she repeated the timeline. i’d imagine it makes her feel like the others can’t truly die because she can just go back and see them again. (this is also why wraith arc/post-tv series must’ve been hard for her because she can no longer turn back time, things are permanent now, deaths are forever) she’s become so worn down that she’ll do anything to escape the loops... also considering she has no choice but to continue? although it shouldn’t be, it’s technically her job as a magical girl to defeat all witches and walpurgisnacht counts. it kills magical girls and tears up the whole city and she’s usually the only magical girl left... her choices, when defeated, are either to give up and die or to go back and try again, and she made a promise to her first ever friend to do just the latter... i just don’t understand how this isn’t easier for people to comprehend, that all of this trauma and stress and responsibility on top of an already traumatized 14 year old does not mix well. ever. she had to figure out all of this by herself.

TL;DR:

homura was a previously traumatized, unsocialized 14 year old with (very)low self esteem & self worth whose first friend (and first love, really, let’s be honest) died in front of her in horrific ways and she watched as she (and the other friends she came to make) drifted slowly apart from her in her endless and futile attempt in saving her from what proved to be an inescapable fate. also she’s 14 and also she’s (canonically) mentally ill and a lesbian. not a monster, not evil, not “psycho”. and that’s that!