#eryka being an idiot

[c28hunter]

Today I remembered that, back in June, I was slightly embarrassed by all the unhinged comments people were making and way to ashamed to add my own. I reay thought that suggesting nipple piercings for Käärijä was my peak of hornines

Well, today I feel zero shame and just allow thoughts to leave my brain in form of tags or mildly specific asks. This shows two things:

1. This community is amazing (aka crazy), doesn't shame people for being unhinged and supports wild statements

2. I lost the remaining blockers and became worse, thank you very much

[c28hunter]

I am so into the Käärijä EU tour that i forgot that I'm seeing Fall Out Boy tonight LMAO

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Thank you Kris Guštin for whoring yourself out yesterday, it made me go to the store and buy slutty leather-like pants so I can be a whore as well ☺️☺️☺️

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My mother told me that she was listening to Joker Out at work because she needed to lift up her mood

My propaganda is working I guess

[c28hunter]

Guys I have a confession

Hugging Nace, actually just seeing him in real life, might have made me get over a dude I was in a weird situationship with

[c28hunter]

I think I envy people who can just vent to others

My first reaction is to shut down and isolate myself and it is usually making things worse

[c28hunter]

If you're wondering why am I having a Käärijä obsession moment, let me explain

If not, take this pic, its fun

So, I not only like his music (which surprisingly fits into my music taste) but also the way he is, gives me... coruage.

Like with other artists I love, he helps me with... well myself

Like, The Score give me strengh to get up every time I fall down, they give me the power to be the greatest version of myself and to keep fighting for my well being

Lilith Czar gives me proudness and the belief that I can be a powerful woman in a man dominated field ("if it's the men's world, I wanna be king")

And Käärijä? Käärijä gives me the coruage I need to be myself. My silly goofy true self that I've been hiding for years. His appearance, approach, encourage me to actually BE MYSELF, not a "skinny jeans, crop top, cold as bich" that I felt like I should be to fit in. He makes me believe that I don't actually have to believe and self confidence is the key to being your own happy self. And his appearance also helps me with my body dysmorphia, I mean, I don't hate myself that much thanks to him, lol?

So yeah, he's important to me, he's my role model, I love this dude

[c28hunter]

Today I went through a heart attack in English class, because I was writing the draft of my fanfiction and the teacher stood right above me and stared into my notebook

The only good thing was that it was upside down for her, but still 💀💀💀

[c28hunter]

Me, when my brain created an idea for a gift for JO and I know that I will NOT have time to make it and I really should stop myself:

Me knowing that I will not listen to my voice of reason and try to make it anyways:

[c28hunter]

Yesterday I had a CCC solo on a party in my sports club (bless my firend who got the control over the music ♡♡♡)

There were three types of reactions:

- people who saw me for the first time: mortified

- people who knew me before, but never seen me on a party: pure shock

- people who knew how I am at parties: AYOOO LET'S GOO!!! YOU'RE ROCKING IT COME ON!

There was one friend of mine (guess I can call him that) who was purely shocked by the amount of energy I had LMAO, he just ended up saying "nice choreography"

My other friend said that he was sorry that he didn't join me, because he knew the song but he just chickened out. Weak

[c28hunter]

On Saturday I'm going on a party organised by my sports club and there are two wolves in me when it comes to my costume:

The thing is that in that "coach cosplay" I REALLY LOOK LIKE HIM, I AM EVEN HIS HEIGHT. And I don't know if I want to embrace the meme, or just slay

I mean both will slay, but ya get it

[c28hunter]

So, I wanted to continue writing a fanfic but my computer crashed and umm if the draft is lost I will fucking cry

[c28hunter]

I think it is hilarious that as I was writing a tag about wanting to bite Jere's tits a guy, who is the exact opposite of Jere in every shape and form (and who was hitting on me a while ago) randomly texted me

And it's not the first time, when get messages from him as I'm simping for Käärijä and it always makes me laugh

[c28hunter]

I had a dream today, that was kind of a horror, and there was a guy who bit off the nose of some nurse, another nurse who slashed a guy with big ass scissors, Shlerkock Holmes, and Taylor Swift, who kidnapped me and said that she's gonna torture me

Brain wtf?

[c28hunter]

It is hella confusing and weird to be demiromantic asexual and trying to figure out if you are in love, or if you are just trying to convince yourself that you are

SOMEONE TELL ME HOW DO I KNOW I AM IN LOVE I DON'T GET THIS SHIT

[c28hunter]

Been to a club, slapped a guy (he said to kiss or slap him, I did what I had to do), played UNO, called it a day