#ermmm thats it bye | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

thefishbowlcollective · 2 months

Note

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

YAY ok ok lets see whos gonna answer

hero (⭐)

mark (📍)

marie (🟠)

bush (🌿)

okok ANSWERING TIME !!!!

📺 do we get gifts for other alters?

as of right now, no. the most we give each other is art. though we could compile something of a wishlist for each of us. maybe. 📍

maybe we can get rings :3 teehee ⭐

💦 what is switching like?

my turn

uhh so like basically it kinda varies? for some of us its pretty easy to get us to front (me. cough cough...) but for some others it takes like. actual effort. for example, we can't get mark to front by like.. pulling anything up. he fronts on his own accord :3 🌿

🌱 headspace? ermmm

COMPLICATED... :( ⭐

ill answer this one. we haven't really accessed our headspace. we already have it mapped out, and we can kinda sense the layout or whatever, but we cant physically go in and walk around or whatever. not sure if that's a thing people can do anyway... whatever. anyway, yes and no. 📍

i said i was gonna take care of trying to access it but i havent gotten to it OOPS 🌿

🍪 whats the deal with collective system identities? and airline food too ig

umm. i don't think so :| there isnt really a name we all go by collectively ... we'd all have to like. come together and have a discussion ⭐

and that sounds difficult considering how headspace is fucking locked or some shit. 📍

🍬 funniest thing someone said

'HOLY OBJECUM, I WANT THAT PC!' - bush, about edgar electric dreams ⭐

hey not cool i thought that was staying between us 🌿

Blehhh :3 ⭐

🧁 anyone who doesnt get along?

boo! you thought i just forgot to talk, huh? i got you!! x) anyway, from what i know everyone gets along pretty well! though, vriska and aradia are a little bit tense... their source memories are Rough! but other than that, everyone is okay with each other!!! :) 🟠

OK COOL ! i think thats all we all wanted to say :3 say bye everyooonneee ⭐

bye bye!!! kisses!!!!!! mwa mwa !!!!! 🟠

goodbye. 📍

bye 🌿

thank hyou for the ask TEEHEE ⭐

#fish answers #hero post #mark post #bush post #marie post #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #system stuff

1 note · View note

deadcatjesse · 6 months

Text

intro! hi! hello!!!

if you hadnt guessed my name is Jesse :3 i go by any pronouns and im an agender lesbian ^_^ all of my other socials are deadcatjesse!

things i might post here:

warrior cats fanart/OCs/fanclans... my all time favorite cat is Hollyleaf so expect a lot of hollyleaf content lmao

art in general!! i like to draw (mostly cats) but on occasion i do draw other things (mainly ponies)

horrible essays on my favorite medias and characters

ermmm ya thats it :3 bye bye

1 note · View note

spamtons · 2 years

Text

tag 10 people you want to get to know better... tagged by @decamarks!

relationship status: i have 2 lovely s/os :3 their names are nin and tabi and ermmm ermmmmm they are awesome and i love them a lot .

favorite color: i like all colors personally but i guess. red? or blue? idfk.

favorite foods: i cant resist a good taco bell meal sorry. or zaxbys. i love eating out so much sorry .

song stuck in head: this ytpmv (LOUD/FLASHING): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tc-11bcrEzE

last thing i googled: actually i dont know uhh uh let me go check ok it was “gendah flooid”

current time: 12:40 PM

dream trip: take me to every taco bell in the world or some thing. idk. or japan i guess. pretty mundane thing to say honestly its like everybody wants to go there but it would be interesting i guess. or maybe vietnam since thats where my mom is from

something i want: baja blast zero. or maybe some good chicken tenders rn. mmmm buffalo chicken tenders. i am quite hungry actually im gonna ask my grandma to make something maybe

uhhh idk who to tag...erm. just pretend i tagged you. if you see this. ok bye <3

#tag game

6 notes · View notes

amazingphanisnotonfire-imagines · 5 years

Text

Jordan Connor//Extra

Request: Can i request a Jordan Connor/reader where you're one of the like "extra/background serpents" on set and you have a crush on him and the rest of the cast catch on and have you two do like a "confession scene" or like make up something to get you two together?

“So then we went to the beach and we stayed there like overnight. It was great. Oddly romantic though.” Jordan finished his story and the two of you laughed loudly.

“I don’t expect anything less from you and Drew.” You replied and he laughed even louder. What you wouldn’t do to hear that sound everyday.

You’d been an extra on Riverdale since halfway through season two, and you were loving it. Usually extras would only be part of it for a few episodes, if that. But apparently people had liked you enough to keep you on, and a part of you was hoping that you’d get given a bigger part someday. However that day was yet to come, so for now you’d settle for being a regular extra.

What made it better was the friends you’d made. Some of the main cast would talk to you, but the cast that weren’t part of big storylines, or that had little parts talked to you quite a lot. Two of them being Drew and Jordan. They were the people you’d had your first scene with and even though you’d only been in the background you’d been nervous as hell. But they’d made you feel better, calming you down before and after takes, and you ended up hanging out with them a few times.

You talked to Jordan more than Drew, but that was probably because you had a small (massive) crush on him. From the moment you saw him you were smitten. He was tall, cute, funny, he made you feel calm. And he was hot as hell, plus how could you not like him? Like have you seen him? The only problem with him is that every time he talked to you (or even looked in your general direction) he made you blush.

“So how was your weekend?” He asked.

“Oh, you know. Nothing interesting. I mainly just watched Netflix.” You replied. “That sounded a lot cooler in my head.” You admitted and he giggled. Okay, you didn’t think it was possible but you liked him even more and that was your new favourite sound. Even more than his laugh.

“Thats still cool.” He reassured you. “Was it just you?” He asked casually and you could feel yourself starting to blush.

“Is it cooler if I say yes?”

“Sure.” He nodded sarcastically. “So you watched Netflix by yourself?”

“...yeahhhhh.” You sighed.

“Sounds fun.”

“Thrilling.” You replied and looked at the floor. Well, this is embarrassing. You’re supposed to sound cool and exciting, not sad and alone.

“If you ever want someone to watch Netflix with, you have my number.” He said and you looked at him confused. Okay, maybe he was into sad and alone.

“Yeah.” You nodded quickly. “We could chill.” You tried to play off how happy his comment made you.

“You want to watch Netflix and chill?” He asked.

“Yeah.” You replied. “Wait.” Your eyes widened and a bright smile appeared on his face. “I didn’t mean like that.” You rambled, your cheeks getting hotter.

“I’m joking.” He laughed. “But I mean, if your offering.” He winked at you and you grabbed the table beside you, your knees going weak.

“I’ll keep that in mind.” You tried to play it off, but inside you were screaming.

“Jordan!! You’re needed on set!” A crew member shouted and the two of you stopped your conversation. A part of you was thankful that he was needed, it would give you a chance to pull yourself together before filming. However the other half of you wanted to stay and talk to him forever.

“I’ll see you later.” He smiled sweetly at you, causing your cheeks to heat up even more.

“See you.” You nodded. His hand lingered on your arm for a few seconds before he turned around and walked to set.

“Sooooooo.” Vanessa said in a teasing voice.

“Spill.” Madelaine added, standing on the other side of you.

“What?” You looked between them confused.

“You know what.” They sent you a look and you looked at the floor.

“I really don’t know what you’re talking about.” You repeated yourself and started to walk. Deciding to spend some time with the other extras before you were due on set. Plus if you talked to them, hopefully Vanessa and Madelaine wouldn’t join you.

“Yes you do.” They continued to walk beside you. God, why do they have to be so nice and considerate towards the extras.

“I really don’t.”

“Oh come on Y/n.” Madelaine stopped in front of you and you almost walked into her.

“Everybody knows you like Jordan.” Vanessa added and your eyes widened.

“I don’t like Jordan!” You whisper shouted.

“Yes you do.” They said together.

“Okay fine.” You nodded. “Maybe I do.” You mumbled.

“I knew it!” Lili said happily from behind you and the three of you turned around. Lili, Cole, KJ and Casey were all stood behind you, a bright smile on each other their faces.

“Great.” You muttered. Since when did they start to talk to extras?

“Its cute!” Lili squealed.

“Another on set romance.” KJ teased.

“Its not gonna happen guys.” You rolled your eyes.

“Why not?” They asked together.

“Because it just isn’t. He doesn’t like m-”

“Y/n!” A crew member shouted.

“Thank god for that.” You mumbled. “Bye guyssss.” You waved at them before hurrying away.

“Are you thinking what I’m thinking?” Vanessa asked.

“Definitely.” Madelaine replied.

--------

“What do you think of Y/n?” Cole asked Jordan. The two of them were on set together, taking a break between takes. Him and the others had devised a plan on how to get you two together and this was step one. Figure out if Jordan liked you too. They had an incline that he did, but they wanted to make sure.

“She’s cool.” He replied.

“Do you think she’s pretty?” Vanessa asked.

“Yeah?” He replied.

“And does she make you laugh?” Cole added.

“Yes?”

“Okay.” They both said and sent each other a look. Now they wait.

“Oh, the other day Y/n said the funniest thing.” Jordan broke the silence. Vanessa and Cole smiled to themselves.

“Which was?”

“Well she was hanging out with a few friends and one of them sai-oh actually Drew, what was the TV show you were talking about?”

“Th-”

“Yeah that one!” He interrupted him, and they looked at him confused. “Y/n’s being telling me about it and she said I should watch it. Also the next time I see her remind me to tell her about that restaurant you were talking about the other day. She’ll really like it. Also, Cole will you ask the others if we can invite her to that thing next weekend?”

“Of course.” Cole nodded.

“Cool.” He sent him a smile before going on his phone.

“He’s definitely into her.” Vanessa mumbled.

“Definitely.” Cole agreed.

“I’ll text the others about the next part of the plan.”

“Ha!” Jordan laughed out loud. “Y/n has just sent me the funniest thing.”

“Shouldn’t she be on set?” Drew asked.

“She is.” He replied. “For the scene they’re on their phones so she’s texting me.” He explained.

“Oh.” They replied.

“This is gonna be easy.” Vanessa mumbled and the other two snickered.

-------

“Y/n!” Vanessa shouted as you walked past her.

“Yeah?” You stopped just outside the room she was in. Glancing around the room you noticed the majority of the main cast inside.

“Jordan’s been looking for you.” Casey told you.

“Oh, why?” You asked confused.

“He needs your help with some lines.” Madelaine said quickly.

“He’s in that room.” Lili pointed to the door behind you.

“Okay.” You nodded. “Thanks.”

“No problem.” Vanessa said happily and they all smiled at you.

“Weirdos.” You mumbled as you walked through the door. “Hey Jordan.” You acknowledged his presence.

“Y/n?” He asked confused and you looked up at him.

“Yeah? I think.” You replied. “I mean, I was the last time I checked.” You rambled. What the fuck?

“What are you doing here?” He asked.

“The others told me you needed help with some lines.” You explained.

“Oh.”

“I can go if you want?”

“No its fine. Its just Drew said that he’d help but its fine.” He said quickly and you nodded.

“Okay.” You nodded. “Give me your script.” You said and he handed the bit of paper over. You looked at it confused before looking at him.

“Yeah, I know. I thought it was odd too but apparently its a last minute change so its just on these bits of papers.” He explained.

“Oh.” You said and looked over the script. “Where do you want me to stand?” You asked and he pointed in front of him.

“Listen, Josie. I like you, I’ve liked you since I met you.” He started and you looked confused. Sweet Pea and Josie hated each other. Every Northsider and Southsider did. “You make me so happy, you’re literally on my mind every single second of every single day. You’re cute, you’re funny, you’re pretty. You’re just amazing. Every little thing I do, I catch myself thinking about how you would like it, or how I should tell you when I see you. You’ve taken over my life in the best possible way and I never ever want to let that go.”

“Wait.” You stopped him.

“What? Did I do something wrong?” He asked and peered over your shoulder at the script.

“No. Its not you.” You shook your head. “This doesn’t make sense. Sweet Pea and Josie broke up last season. You already had your big speech and I can’t imagine Sweet Pea would go back to her. Plus, I’ve seen the storylines for your character, I’m in the background of the majority of them. This doesn’t make any sense for them.” You explained and he shrugged. “Who exactly gave you these.” You asked.

“Vanessa gave me them.” He shrugged.

“Ahhh. I get it now.”

“Get what?”

“They’re trying to set us up.” You rolled your eyes.

“Set what up?” He asked confused.

“Us.” You repeated.

“Oh.” He said, still confused. “Ohhhhhhh.” He added a few seconds later. “Set us up, up.”

“Yep.” You nodded.

“But how do they know I like you.” He asked himself and your eyes widened.

“What?” You said.

“How did they know I liked yo-wait.”

“You like me?” You asked in disbelief.

“Ermmm.” He said, unsure of what to say. “Yes.” He nodded and looked at you anxiously.

“I like you too.” You said quickly and he moved towards you. It all happened in a blur, his hands were on your hips, pulling you towards him. You dropped the papers and wrapped your arms around his neck, your hands going to his hair. His kissed you fiercely, like he’d been holding back for a while, but you definitely weren’t complaining. Instead you kissed back just as fiercely and pulled on his hair a little.

He pulled apart first and you followed him a little, not wanting to end it so fast.

“Maybe it was a good job I didn’t practice this with Drew.” He said, a smirk playing on his lips.

“Maybe.” You nodded breathlessly.

“I think that kissing scene could do with more practice though.”

“What kissing sce-.” You were interrupted by him kissing you again. “Oh.” You mumbled against his lips and he giggled. “I think it could too.” You agreed and kissed him again.

@lover2448

#jordan connor #jordan connor imagine #jordan connor x reader #jordan connor x you #riverdale #riverdale imagine #sweet pea #sweet pea imagine #sweet pea x reader #sweet pea x you

99 notes · View notes

identitycris1s · 6 years

Text

so this is the new year

im finally taking time to sit down and reflect on the past few months. the new year came and went and its been a bit of a whirlwind. i suppose i’ll just go by chronological order cos i dont really know how to start...also i dont think im an abstract thinker so really my life isnt ordered by “themes” or “lessons” or whatever but i sort of think of it in terms of events and the epiphanies or lessons that flow therefrom. this is probably just gonna be a stream of consciousness exposition cos im lazy to organise my thoughts and this is basically my journal so WHATEVER!

November

X told me he liked me and asked me out. i was shocked. but sort of saw it coming (what else could “r u free after lunch, i have some stuff to say” mean...LOL). i reacted awkwardly - distinctly remember saying “huh..what does that MEAN!!!” (LOL) i told him i would think about it but could probably only give him an answer after part b was over.

tbh this was probably just me stalling for time. i think instinctively i knew that i didnt see him in that way, but he seemed to tick so many boxes in terms of who i was “supposed” to be with - that sounds dumb, but what i mean is he’s a steadfast christian, a good boy, similar values, similar tastes in music / movies / books, same bloody industry LOL...

also he seemed really serious about it - ermmm he brought up marriage on that first day :0 ok i suppose thats unfair and it sounds insane without context - he said it with reference to how dating is always with a view to marriage which i do agree with but yes it was a lot to absorb in one conversation. and then he cracked out this book about dating and marriage and i was like woah. so, given how much thought he seemed to have put into this (he also said he chatted with his CG leader about me yikes) i felt obliged to at least think it through properly and give myself some time to consider rather than immediately rejecting him.

and so i mulled it over whilst studying for part b. he was overseas for a while towards the end of my studying period (ie when i was freaking out the most and generally being a headless chicken) and this probably contributed to me feeling like i liked him more than i really did hmm wonder what this says about me. i like to feel like someone’s out of my reach i suppose. so fucked up lol! and so during this period we were texting everyday and i would look forward to his replies and he was a real source of comfort during that stressful period and i never told him this and i probably never will.

December

exams were over and i had to face D DAY!! so i went to meet him to give him my answer and honestly even on that day i didnt know what my answer was. we met at BTM and he literally had written down a list of things to talk about and i think in that moment i knew this probably wouldnt work out. hes so damn thoughtful about every little thing and he thinks everything through and even though he seems to think he “doesnt take things too seriously” I THINK HE DOES...and i really dont...so i felt that showed how incompatible we were. its not a bad thing to be thoughtful. its just that i felt so pressured by how seriously he was taking things...i thought “trying this out” would be casual and chill and we would just hang out as if we were friends but with this overarching agenda of potentially being together but no his conception of “trying things out” is much more intense and serious and thought out and in his words “intentional”. which i realised is some christian dating jargon haha.

dinner was normal until he cracked out that list i was talking about. then he started talking about what he wanted out of a relationship and asked me what i wanted out of a relationship. like it was a damn interview. you know what, im saying this in a really condescending tone and i wouldnt ever be this hurtful if i knew he was gonna read this - in fact i really do think this kind of approach would suit many people and perhaps a more emotionally well adjusted person would think this was normal but i felt so bombarded and i really didnt know what to say in response. so i blurted out some nonsense about wanting to be with someone who was God fearing and “kind and compassionate” and “ambitious” LMAO...what bullshit (that last one i mean). and he had clearly thought out his answers a lot more and he went on a whole spiel about wanting to be with someone who could stand on their own as a christian and who he didnt have to “drag along” on their walk with God and i was like ok cool but i think im not that...im not what youre looking for...but of course i didnt say this. idk why. maybe i enjoy being wanted and sought after and i didnt want to shatter his illusion that i was what he was looking for, even though i was kinda seeing that he wasnt what i was looking for.

anyway, being the shitty person i am, i told him it wasnt a no but it wasnt a straight out yes either i.e. i would be willing to try with a view to potentially saying yes. and we left it at that. but even as i said bye to him that night i kinda knew this wasnt gonna work...but i wanted it to! i wanted to like him! i want to be the kind of person who can accept love from a well adjusted person who’s not afraid to be real and to take things seriously...but i suppose i have some emotional growth to work on...or is it perfectly valid for me to not want to be with him? tbh i never found him attractive (physically or even personality wise oops) - he doesnt make me laugh, hes kinda too uptight, he doesnt get my jokes (i have to be like “JUST KIDDING” a lot of the time..ded) but somehow we worked as friends. but to be with someone requires something more than just working as friends doesnt it?? ack

so we met a few times in dec (i think we went on four or five “dates” in total...im so reluctant to call them dates cos throughout i just couldnt see him in that light, but thats what they were i think) and through the course of our interactions i started picking up on things that i didnt like about him / about our interactions. this sounds awfully petty and i dont wanna be mean about this cos im sure i have MANY MANY MANY flaws that one could nit pick but these were just some signs that we would not work (quite apart from my lack of physical attraction to him)

1. our conversations always end up argumentative. i think this probably stems from both of us being law students and so whenever we disagree on something we both cant seem to fucking let it go. i distinctly remember one stupid conversation, i shall put it here (not verbatim but this is the gist of it)

X: what are your new years resolutions?

S: i dont like making new years resolutions because they always end up in disappointment because i never stick to them.

X: but disappointment isnt always a bad thing because you can learn from it and improve from there

S: yes but that doesnt mean disappointment isnt a bad thing - cos disappointment in itself is bad (like duh the feeling of disappointment is bad) but what comes after disappointment can be good or bad i.e. you can choose to work on yourself and improve or you can wallow in the disappointment.

-some more argument and confusion about what we are even talking about-

S: ok lets not argue on this its a semantic point.

X: is it semantic? its not semantic.

S: it is semantic. we are disagreeing on what the word disappointment means. i think it is necessarily negative but you are saying that disappointment isnt always negative because of what can come after but i think thats sidestepping the point of disappointment being negative in itself.

do you see what i mean. what kind of petty argument is this? whats the damn point? of course im definitely not blameless in this at all. i perpetuate it. but what im saying is i feel like talking to him brings out this argumentative side of me that im not a fan of. also its fucking exhausting haha.

2. he is so. fucking. serious. every conversation involves some heavy thing like spirituality or self evaluation or Godliness etc. which i suppose is good but i just found it tiring...why cant things be light? why cant things be fun? why do we always have to talk about *important* or *weighty* things? tbh i think he sorta compartmentalises me as a friend whom he can talk about these *weighty* things with cos im also a christian and i get what hes saying when he talks about God but i dont want to only talk about that...

3. we dont have similar senses of humour. i dont think he thinks im funny...but i think im bloody funny ok haha also i dont think im deluded on this? my friends think im funny too? yeah i think its a major problem that we cant really laugh together...hes not someone that makes me laugh at all :(

ok enough bashing X haha i really do think hes a great person we are just NOT compatible romantically.

ANYWAYS! sometime in dec i also met up w SM for the first time in aaaages. but things were like normal again. sounds stupid but i think ill always think of him as the one who got away LOL....emotionally unavailable and not interested in me?? IM DOWN! haha. ok hes not emotionally unavailable tbh i probably was more emotionally unavailable in the course of our friendship but he defo never really expressed any interest in me other than always hanging out one on one but that doesnt really count for anything does it. anyways! he told me about his BTO plans and im honestly v happy for him :) friends r growing up and moving on in life mang..

sad part was i dropped avo toast on my new everlane pants and that honestly ruined my day lol

January

NYE was spent w S and some of her friends plus R and A (who went home after dinner cos of family drama lmao angie is siao) - we went to AL’s fam friends party at fullerton for countdown and the fireworks were amaaaazing, lasted about an hour (which made us question the budget allocation on this tbh isnt it a bit of a waste?? fireworks are insanely expensive??) and we promptly went home after the clock struck 12 which was perfect haha i have no stamina to stay out late anymore.

work started on 2 jan! its been fun tbh - back with the trainees and meeting some new people and using my brain again. i like feeling useful and being stuck in a routine...at least for now haha. check in on me in about 3 months and we’ll see.

and....i finally mustered up the courage to tell X the truth ie i didnt see this going anywhere and we should just be friends. we had kind of an awkward dinner (i could feel myself being rude to him and being dismissive etc but i think it could partially be attributed to me being tired from work..but mostly cos i didnt wanna be with him!! as a romantic partner!! it felt wrong!) and so i told him after dinner otw to the mrt (funny, we always have these convos otw to the mrt haha). he said he understood and he sort of felt it coming. and i felt bad - he mustve picked up on my coldness and rudeness over text and in our meetings also...why am i like this. i shouldve been up front with him on the first day. but i didnt know!!! i didnt know for sure this is how i felt. ahhh well u live and u learn right. next time ill be better at this. hope theres a next time LOL God pls send me someone whos right for me

ok bye for now! this was a lengthy post haha

0 notes