#ep 23 im on the ground.

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

brb taking the entire soundbite of arthur euphorically sobbing John's name over and over because he's so overwhelmed that he's okay/alive/back that he's unable to say literally anything else and simultaneously John seeing him hurt and caring and desperately trying to figure out who did it and tucking it into my heart. thanks goodnight

[7amonathursdayinoctober]

Oh!!! Oh!!!! Cas- cas is dead!!! :D alright!!!! Ok!! This is fine. Everything is fine.

Alright, can we get Chuck on the line, please? Yea, mhm- yes- no- I know he's off doing "family bonding time" or whatever with his sister, but I need you to call him. No- no- just- ok- listen we all know- ok, we all know he's the villain or whatever, yea? And for his story to work, we need Cas. No- no- ok I don't know exactly when that's happening, but it's soon, ok? Just- yea- mhm yep get him on the line. All right, thank you.

*ring ring*

"Hello?"

CHUCK, CASTIEL IS FUCKING DEAD. FIX IT

[simply-whump]

Lovely Runner (선재 업고 튀어) - Whump List

Whumpee : Ryu Seon Jae played by Byeon Woo Seok

Synopsis : Ryu Seon Jae shines as a top-tier celebrity, captivating the spotlight since his debut. Im Sol, an unwavering fan of his, reeling from the breaking news of Ryu Seon Jae's tragic demise is transported back 15 years into the past, she confronts him in his 19-year-old high school self. She grapples with the formidable challenge of altering the trajectory of his future, driven by an unyielding determination to avert the impending tragedy.

Genres : Comedy, Romance, Fantasy, Time travel

Warning! Possible spoilers below!

Ryu Seon Jae

Ep 1 : (26:45) Grabbed by the collar — (36:35) Falls into a pool from high up, unconscious, given CPR, wheeled to the hospital on a stretcher, ambu bag, shocked, flatlines, dies (Gif Set)

Ep 2 : (32:16) Shoulder pain, wincing

Ep 3 : (22:07) Shoulder in pain while swimming, old injury relapsing, groaning in pain, concern for him — (24:35) Told he has to get a second operation on his shoulder, has to give up his swimming career — (30:45) Slapped — (Flashback) (31:50) Doing rehabilitation for his shoulder — (Present) (32:10) Angry, frustrated, crying — (44:15) Crying — (46:28) In the hospital with a sling after his shoulder operation — (51:20) Arm in a sing, depressed

Ep 4 : (0:33) Face bruised — (01:00:45) Jumps into water to save someone, worried

Ep 5 : None

Ep 6 : (11:00) Hit in the face, falls on the ground, drunk, passed out (comedic)

Ep 7 : (07:20) Worried, jumps into water to save someone, hit in the head, fighting, strangled — (09:21) Crying 

Ep 8 : (01:03:50) Told on the news that he was attacked, showed unconscious on a stretcher, in surgery 

Ep 9 : (01:18) In surgery — (Flashback) (06:25) Worried, fighting, thrown through some glass, strangled — (Present) (08:05) Unconscious in a hospital bed, on ventilator — (43:37) Tased, passes out (comedic)

Ep 10 : None

Ep 11 : (32:15) Manhandled (comedic) — (48:00) Drunk (comedic)

Ep 12 : (01:02:45) Crying

Ep 13 : (29:00) Stabbed, bleeding, falls from a high cliff into water, concern for him, dies

Ep 14 : (16:24) Crying — (28:17) Waking up from a nightmare, sudden headache

Ep 15 : (01:02:04) Gets a headache, teary-eyed, groaning in pain, gets his memories back, runs onto the road, strong headache, almost gets run over, falls to the ground, passes out (Gif Set)

Ep 16 : (00:20) Repeat of previous scene, unconscious on the ground, concern for him — (03:23) Wakes up in a hospital bed, teary-eyed, IV — (07:00) Teary-eyed, crying — (45:50) Drunk

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[casually-slips-into-coma]

spoilers for iwtv s2e5!!!

initial thoughts throughout:

dubai armand in this ep specifically seems a lot happier than normal. very smiley and kind of excited? like more energy than usual. mans was ready to eat

this fucking turtleneck

loumand library dates

hypnotized security as one does

i like that armand likes to hunt his kills. thought it was a cool detail

made me think of when armand tells daniel to run in the book

daniel was there for gay sex the drugs were just a bonus

he barely registered the coffin. he was like ok ig

the zodiac killer lol

daniel struggling to get the tape out of the plastic lmao

some coke for the gums just in case

you were lonely louis (gagged him)

the extreme change in vibe from daniel shitting himself about louis being a vampire to him laughing along while louis complains about his ex

book quotes!!

daniel validating louis complaining about lestat. theyre just gossiping at this point

BIG time asshole

daniel making A Point and then going sorry and louis saying no,,,,,that🫵was astute🗣🗣

“can u do the fang thing again? i love that, man” hes just like me fr

dangerously unstable psyche ((clocked))

im kinda with her get off that bench brother😭 [about claudia leaving]

jacob the actor you are

ok this whole argument between louis and armand was insane and i replayed it like a million times

kinda love louis coked tf out

being called boring fucking hurts thats a wild argument

he called you a soft beige pillow suffocating him girl u gotta stand up

armand really locked on to the word fascinating

louis said lick my boots😝

gremlin sighting👀

“chop my hands off”👀👀👀👀

picking LINT❓❓off the sofa⁉️ ⁉️

armand mocking him “oh its so hard to be me, its so hard to kill humans, i can feel her feelings as i drain her, louis de point du lac, everyone i know wronged me!”

imitating each others accents

my vampire daddy groomed me into a little bitch holy fuck when they go low i go lower

THE NAME!! the name!! unuttered in our home for 23 years said over and over again until it was pounding in my brain like a hammer!!!!

assad deserves every award my man was actiiiinnggg

she didnt love you/i know

louis :(((

“can u hear her? shes calling me…” ok what if i kms

and then louis runs into the sunlight🙃

hello loml: practical effects

sidestep the big picture get the story straight first daniel said lets lock the fuck in rn we gotta focus

“you said the worst things youve ever said to me” hes just a sopping wet cat

hes fine youre fine this is fine youre all fine

finally seeing unhinged armand ive prayed for times like these

i stand by my cancelled wife btw

small detail of different memories: in louis’ version he apologizes to armand and armand says “meaningless word” and then moves on to talk about the slanted floor. in daniel’s version he remembers the dead guy and the same scene plays out except armand explains he killed the neighbor in between “meaningless word” and how the floor is slanted

vibrating eyes

LOVING how this episode is shot. all the different angles and the camerawork and the fucking MUSIC

canon that louis fucks guys and then kills them fic writers get to it

“128 boys hes brought here—“ “he said it was 5🥺”

daniel basically saying look man ill suck ur dick if u let me go

and then armand making him kneel

armand so unnerving <3

i know its kinda dumb to point out but i love small details of vamp power. specifically how armand picked up that table like it weighed nothing and when he picked up louis

love the idea of louis being like ok just put your feet in the rocks itll help

sopping wet cat armand!!!

but also he really let louis suffer for days instead of just giving him blood to ease the pain😬

lestats voice caught me off guard genuinely

interesting that armand knows where lestat is. i wonder how the show is gonna go about it. is he in the ground??

and refusing to pass along the i love you message……….theres layers here

u left me for death :((

have i atoned for my part of paris👀👀

the armand daniel bite was very do u know what it means to be loved by death

itty bitty armand fangs

need him alive as a testament to our companionship wtf are we even talking about anymore

arun/maitre😵‍💫

the fucking sunglasses im pissing😭😭

he got that shit on tho

welcome back trinity from the matrix

also just the fact that armand came back like yum i had so much fun on that hunt😁 anyway what are you two up to😇���️

and louis and daniel just had a harrowing 2 hours trying to recover lost memories and coming to the realization that theyve been mega gaslit for decades

armand saying exactly what louis told daniel word for word

a hunch🫢

i love this show

im so excited for next weeks episode this story is unfolding so beautifully. im even more curious now about why and how this second interview is happening. ((also am very confused/curious about what looks like a protest in the promo??))

[satoruhour]

went to a classical concert last night and i saw this guy who’s the section leader for the cellos. he had his hair up in a bun and i was like “geto playing the cello fits so well actually” or rather the features of the cello fits him so perfectly and it does !!!! the lower timbre of the cello is such a testament to his raspy and calm voice, but when triggered by external forces (elgar cello concerto im looking @ u — the piece makes such a beautiful use of the instrument), the outburst is so intense and hard-hitting, something i’d expect from a collected man like geto who, when he gets angry and furious, really burns everything in his way with his spite lol.

the lower register of the cello is often a grounding instrument for the piece when it’s not played in a concerto, sort of like a bass guitar in songs, and i think at geto’s core that’s what he was for gojo — someone not as strong as gojo in terms of a flawless technique but always being the voice of reason, that laidback, chill friend who sometimes surprises you with an insane idea that usually differs from the voice of reason (when the cello is put on centre stage for a concerto, that is).

and also the fact that in ep 23’s juju sanpo there’s the (joking) implication of gojo being a violin teacher despite it all being a ploy for megumi’s supposed situation of getting hit on, it also DOES fit gojo so much because the violin in general is a really attention-seeking instrument (don’t kill me!! i play violin and i mean... i sorta agree). there’s not one but two sections of the violins in the orchestra and it’s shrill, high-pitched, a little bit of the buzz in the ear when played not so well, but when manipulated well i think it’s truly one of the most beautiful instruments constructed. and that exactly feels like what gojo is — not to reduce his character to an instrument, but rather just pointing out similar features of the violin’s sound to parts of gojo’s character — a little insufferable and annoying at first but he has a lot of depth with every year that he ages, maybe not at first when he was younger but there is that fact that older violins harmonise and sound better from the constant use and practice of the player.

the gojo now is like an aged violin like an old stradivarius or guarneri, technique honed perfectly from years and years of practice after the whole debacle of riko. the luthier process is also important — the act of satoru’s parents essentially making love and producing gojo who shifted the trajectory of the jujutsu world — where it shows that luthiers who construct the instrument from scratch will not know if their instrument will sound well years later, but it differs in his case. it just so happens that his parents were lucky luthiers who already knew the value of their instrument from the beginning.

[jakowskis]

Day 23 - Discuss Tosh. Opinions? Favorite moment? Least favorite moment? Any unpopular opinions? Any fun headcanons?

tosh my babygirl my princess light of my life angel darling… shes so good. shes so good 🥺 i love her dearly. she’s so damn underutilized i hate how the show regulates her to a supporting role + only uses her for romantic plots. WACK shes so much more than that. i want a plotline about her cyberterrorism like hello??? i want a plotline about her warped little mind.. i want a plotline about her finally learning spanish ;-; that show did not do her justice and it did not deserve her. i often say torchwood’s characters are too good for the show; tosh is probs the best example of that. no other character gets screwed over as badly as she does by the narrative (not even ianto!) she’s so tragic and lonely i just wanna give her the biggest hug ever. 

fav moment… every time she smiles. (or smirks. hrgh. tosh call me.) also every time she geeks out about smth. im tryna think of a specific moment but idk if i have one?? i just love her overall i smile every time she’s on screen she’s my girlie. when i rewatch i might rmr one though

least favorite moment, the absolute only thing i can think of (hell, my only complaint with her as a character other than i wish she’d get over owen cuz bad taste queen pls u deserve sm better) - it’s always bothered me how she goes over to owen’s flat in aditd and just starts babbling about her own problems. she even says something like “you think everything’s about you”, and in that ep it’s like ??? why are they all acting like he’s unjustified being miserable and angry when he's fucking dead?? like they're all so unsympathetic and mean, even tosh, and out of her it's especially weird?? tbh it just strikes me as ooc (+ kind of misogynistic highkey) writing. i mean, by all means, let tosh bitch, she deserves to blow off some steam + esp deserves to be rude to owen tbh fhsdkjfsd, but the way it’s done in that particular moment feels ooc and, like, how men write women as talking too much and never listening lmao u kno what i mean (owen’s tuned out in the actual episode but you can see her full ramble in the original script, on page 23). tosh has never troubled anyone with her issues before, why would she choose now to, and when she knows owen’s struggling? yeah, on second thought, i don’t hold that against her actually, that’s ooc to me fhdkf. thts just the writer being a wiener.

my only unpopular opinions (slash hot takes) are that 1) towen fucking SUCKS get her away from him, and 2) most people like tosh but she’s highkey underappreciated, esp in fanfic, because of fandom racism + misogyny. she’s not bashed like gwen is but she’s ignored completely which is nearly as bad, and a lot of it’s cuz she happens to be in a show with two white men in a gay relationship who are overwhelmingly prioritized 💀 i will never not be petty about the way that ship dwarfs everything else in comparison. also throwing towen into the background of janto is so gross n cheap. if ppl cared abt her they'd do smth more interesting. and it's never well-done either. ugh.

i have a few hcs that are gonna end up in my owento verse (gwen and tosh are prominent characters in it bc i love them, and their relationships w owen and ianto and each other also have value lawl). tbh a lot of em are just things i think they should introduce into their lives to be happier. i want them happy ;-;

she starts coding video games recreationally!! nothing fancy but she rlly enjoys it + also gets into the swing of making little storylines n getting to express herself that way which is good for her. owen playtests shit for her

her and gwen go on spa dates sometimes. they put it on the torchwood credit card

she gets into fish tanks and fish tank care!!! esp like aquarium plants. shrimp and moss balls, that sort of thing. maybe plecos or loaches. she loves it + it’s grounding, which is good for her bc shes otherwise always got her head in her computers yanno. she’ll sit by her tank while she codes her games and the water sounds are calming. 

she also sits by it while she studies her spanish books which she does finally do. she doesn’t get around to the piano, though; doesn’t prioritize buying a keyboard. maybe one day (this is a nobody dies au btw so she will in fact eventually get around to it ;-;)

oh she’s autistic have i said that. the fish tanks absolutely become a spin. she has a few we know of from canon - math and computers, obviously, but also history (gbg) and the uk’s rivers (from gooseberry; i think it was just the uk maybe it was europe’s rivers. or the world’s! i don’t remember). she also loves trivia like she knows a fair amount about quite a lot of things + loves accumulating random info

lowkey also. giving her a kitty. i think tosh should have a lil fuzzy kitty to keep her company 

well this is smth from my owandy verse but i think it should happen anyway. so it kind of kicks off bc gwen mixes up a blind date (it was gonna be tosh & andy and then owen & a friend of hers, but shes an adhd icon n bungles the invites <3)... tosh ends up with gwen’s friend, who’s straight, but they hit it off and she invites tosh to have drinks or maybe come to a bookclub meet or something with some friends of hers?? point is, tosh makes some casual friends. maybe meets a pretty girl there or smth 👁️ but mainly i want tosh to have girl friends like i think she grew up very lonely i want her to have some normalcy

also sometimes i like tosh x andy maybe they have a little meet cute at a torchwood crime scene or smth fshdkfd. i think they’d be cute and he’d treat her well. she'd babble abt tech stuff and he wouldnt understand a damn word but he'd listen very intently

i also like tosh x ianto for similar reasons. i think it’d be a kind of friends to lovers sitch... they should just be close in general tbh, platonically or not yanno, and in my owandy verse i like the idea of smth kicking off between them i just think theyd be so sweet

she’s a very sleepy drunk and also a lightweight. if the team goes out to drink she’ll get two glasses of smth moderately fruity and then fall asleep against someone’s shoulder it’s very cute (this is just cuz i like the idea of a sleepy tosh 🥺 my baby my baby shes so precious to meee)

[arthur-lesters-balls]

[id: a queued post from 1 hour ago, estimated to be posted in 16:23 of today. it says "listening to wywhs3 part 2 now because im a fucking coward and didnt found the strength to listen to it in the last 2 weeks. yay 🫶" /.end id]

this is pissing me off i pressed play one hour ago and then warren woke up to gordon's memoir and sAID HE WAS ACTUALLY TRYING TO LISTEN TO THAT and then i paused the ep and fell to the ground and broke both knees with the impact and the shards of my bones stabbed my guts and the hot weather dried out my blood through the wounds made from my bones and now im kinda of stuck i cant really move without everything cracking really loud and small pieces of hardened blood falling out to the hot ground where they melt and make me slip and fall back down again and i hit my head so badly i lose my memories from the last 2 minutes and just forget about the slipping and get up again and fall again

all in all i just dont think this episode will do any good to me

[skrunklyfungi]

*Punts one piece oc onto the ground like a wet towel*

She is my pride and Joy!!! 5’9 and 23 years old , If anyone would like to hear more im happy to info dump more though ill keep it short and sweet for now !! who knows i may toss her on some crocy ask blogz…

Her devil fruit is a transform one ( Dont make me name the devil fruit kinds im almost 500 eps in and i STILL cant remeber them, all i know is sir crocy tits big and make brain go brrr)

She essentially turns into a crocodile the size shown of the banan crocs in the alabasta arc, she can swim and breathe well underwater and is used to being imbetween forms , A short stack and strong buildt lady who dose melee attacks and punishing tail slamns sure to knock teeth out, Eats lots ofraw and cooked meat

the juicy back story bits and how i fling her at crocodile

Her parents were pirates and gave her the deivl fruit and helped her train so she could be strong alongside the crew and be safe , their small and meager crew were decimated by a marine ship on the grand line and her parents pushed her off deck to save her life , washing up alongside sir crocodiles ship and him with his sofr spot for reptiles…

She is scooped up and nursed to health in her crocodile form she washed up in!!! He saved her life so now she owes him hers!! Shes never actually revealed what her human form is , though she is so freindly like a puppy almosy to him and has the worlds biggest fattest crush on him,

She is rather easily flustered at romance or flirting and will follow sir to the ends of the earth , feircly loyal to him who saved her and showed her kindness, loves head scratches and meat with the bone in 💞toss her a chicken and she’ll be happy, even in impel down she was put in the cold level were she would bang repeatedly against the bars untill she was frozen into a forced hibernation, the side of her head pressed to the bars and sea prism cuffs on her wrists , though after she gets a sick under cut

who knows!!! will her feelings be returned! will he even know shes a person! stay tuned !

[anosci]

(16-30 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3])

album names and personal thoughts below cut.

16/ Pan Electric & Ishq - About Time (2008) ough, this is prime chillout. feel like ive been pickier about the style recently but this hits the spot.

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17/ Ovuca - Wasted Sunday (2001) mis-parsed this thinking it was an Oval album. it's not. :| but it still has some cool turn of the century glitchy fun, just grounded with some more traditional synthy beats. i love the sound design overall

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18/ Team Doyobi - Cryptoburners (2001) feels like cheap plastic and warm electronics. lots of empty space, but as a stylistic choice. sometimes a little too noisy for my taste. sometimes cozy in its fuzzy minimalism.

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19/ VA - Tigerbeat6 Inc. (2001) an absolute grab bag of ideas and quality. weirdly, i feel kinship with the silliness contained within. some of these are RLY COOL. "Wooper", "Jujik_olop", "Klardiscopic Remedy #1"

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20/ Electric Company - 62-56 (2001) future buzzes and clicks :) I'm not as much of the fan of the sort of… freeform ambiance. but I do really enjoy those clicky beats.

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21/ MuToPiA LABEL — ISOMORPHISM (1999) man im fascinated by this double-retro stuff. "let's arrange this 5 year old game!" -some guy 24 years ago. sadly, it's just a little too rough for me. I'm spoiled by modern arrangements. but yet... track 3 sounds so early OCR. beloved.

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22/ DJ Assault - Belle Isle Tech (2000) listened as a joke, but yet… there's some sweet little jams here. "Jungle Love" is a striking standout. i... used alternative cover art for this just in case. hi tumblr tos lol

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23/ Cex - Oops, I Did It Again! (2001) some cool stuff and some annoying stuff, to my taste anyway. :| more of the former than the latter, overall, luckily.

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24/ Lesser - Mensa Dance Squad (2001) kinda…. jungle tossed in a glitchy blender? sometimes more physical than aural, somehow.

after pondering for a while, a few more thoughts on 2001 tigerbeat6 in general: usually, i vibe with music as music. but with this freeform glitch stuff, i vibe as if it were a painting. it has the feature space of music but, as a whole, each song becomes an acrylic canvas.

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25/ Apocalyptica - Cult (2000) i guess i wanted to check this out because symphonic metal? (old list item) my biggest complaint is the lack of percussion. igorrr has me spoiled. what is metal without breaks? and cores? still, a few good cuts here imo

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26/ Lackluster - Rikos 7" (2000) just as i began to feel it was kinda "meh", the vibe enveloped me. EXCEPT for the one track with a title.

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27/ VA - SMAK (2001) date is technically 2002 in compilation form but each EP came out in 01. the first comps REALLY did not vibe with me, but i feel like they got better as the number incremented. Massimo - Nemylik? oh man. let's drift away.

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28/ Kid606 - GQ On The EQ++ (2000) i listened to this years ago and only liked one track. listening again... wtf this is good. why did i do that. it is *crispy* but i admire that now. i cannot BELIEVE how good this is. 23 years old? what!!

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29/ YET11 - TIMECAPSULE (2000) retro newage chiptune? an interesting thing. I find that im not too drawn it, though... maybe "After Rain" as a highlight?

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30/ Geeez 'N' Gosh – My Life With Jesus (2000) this took a while to get going. I can't say im a fan of the glitched ironic gospel stuff. i love atoms clicks and glitches but man i wish i didnt have to actively ignore the blemishes here

[wurmeon]

I just caught up to ep 23

god just...john coming back....just put me in the fucking ground im dead god damn my heart omfg the piano playing

omg the change from john to yellow was just so upsetting to me after everything theyve been throuvhajkfaejkfbnFWFUCK and now hes back im mfgjbfngiwa

[sadhaa]

another THOUGHT

Cause istg i am on a role rn. If anyone has the time and writing ability to write these ideas GO DO IT. I enable you. 

OK THOUGHT: The Dark Tower - The Hollow Queen and With All My Heart storylines but change it up a bit. The Dark Tower, The Hollow Queen The Hollow Warlock and With All My Heart

Like what if instead of Gwen, Merlin got kidnapped?

Note: I do realize after my last post that I am making some eps more Merlin-centric and that’s bc i feel like if this happened we would get more character development. just a thought. 

Note again: you can interpret this as platonic or romantic i dont really care but bc im a big rom merthur shipper, im taking this in the romantic interpretation

Note again again: can people comment like if they like ideas like this cause im down to have more thoughts. like this is fun. i feel great. 

Ok as always background:

1. Gwen is Queen, Camelot needs a queen so she is queen, but she is not married to Arthur, she is married to Lance (they did him so dirty in the show)

2. Arthur has feelings but he doesn’t really know that he has feelings. like he gets a fluttery feeling whenever Merlin smiles but just chalks it up to heart burn. 

3. Morgana knows who Emrys is. Cause if she is the High Priestess, im gonna assume she knows about the crystal cave and asked it “crytal crystal in the ground, who the hell is emrys?” and it just showed a pic of merlin and she was like “aww hell nah”

ok on to thought-->

So Morgana finds out about Merlin and his magic and is pissed. She plots to torture him for the pain he has caused her. she also remembered what Agravaine (ew) told her when he was helping her, that Arthur had the knights comb the forests in search of Merlin, ultimately going himself to save Merlin. also if she can get Emrys to her side, then maybe all of the magic population would side with her and help takeover Camelot. So she plans to kidnap him and take him to the dark tower.

so cue that scene with all the knights and Gwen but this time with Merlin too bc Gwen misses him and wants to chat like old times. 

BAM MORGANA 

now some of the knights get bitten and gwen gets knocked unconcious but Merlin tries to stand up to her, but she subdues him quick bc we need that for plot. 

the remaining knights go back to Arthur, commence angst bc oh no Merlin. 

Arthur remembers the fear he felt the last time Merlin was kidnapped by the men but doesn’t know that Merlin was kidnapped by Morgana then too. Either way, he needs to get his bff/love back.

Merlin faces the same hallucinations but its everyone reacting badly when they find out about his magic

Leon - “YOU BETRAYED YOUR FRIENDS AND ARTHUR, HOW COULD YOU”

Gwaine - “YOU LIED TO ME WHEN I TOLD YOU ABOUT MYSELF, I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS” (not super strong ik, if someone has a better one...)

Elyan and Gwen - “MAGIC KILLED OUR FATHER AND NOW WE WILL GET OUR REVENGE”

Percival - “MAGIC (CENRED) KILLED MY FAMILY NOW I WILL KILL YOU”

Lancelot - “YOU LIED AND GOT ME BANISHED, YOU SAID YOU WOULD HELP ME MERLIN” 

and then Arthur’s would hurt the most “YOU LIED TO ME ALL THESE YEARS I TRUSTED YOU YOU KILLED MY FATHER YOU COULD HAVE SAVED MORGANA YOU ALMOST GOT GAIUS KILLED YOU MONSTER...”

the “monster” part would kill him inside and is thus the breaking point for him where he falls into Morgana’s curse.

Now commence the rest of the episode Dark Tower, the same way except that the weird fairy actually helps the rescue party bc she believes that Merlin is good and that they all need him and Elyan doesn’t die bc my boi deserves better than that too. 

They get him back and he seems fine. But he really isnt

I dont have any real ideas for the Hollow Warlock its just a cool title I thought. The main pivotal part should be Merlin meeting with Morgana and monologuing about living in Camelot scared and saving Arthur and not being seen which makes the viewers see a side of Merlin that is not seen often. almost like a Dark!Merlin AU. 

Ok, now to With All My Heart. All the knights, Arthur and Gwen notice Merlin acting odd. So they follow him and notice him consorting with Morgana. Arthur is crushed bc the one person, his other half, who he knew would never betray him has now gone and done this. When they speak with Gaius and he tells them that Merlin has fallen to Morgana’s will, then they all are relieved bc that means that Merlin doesn’t actually want to betray Arthur. Arthur is now more determined than ever to get him back. So cue funny scene with a dinner with knights, arthur, gwen and gaius. even mordred.

BAM merlin unconscious and ready to be saved!

Now adventure! Quest! Drama! Angst! 

On a night where they have to stop to rest and merlin is still conked out, they swap stories of M’s heroic deeds and funny moments. they plan to tell him all of this when he wakes up cause that boy doesn’t get enough praise.

Now they are at the fancy lake (im a little lazy to figure out the name) the only downside to my idea is that there can’t be a Dolma. or maybe there is a Dolma! that isnt merlin in disguise. 

Merlin wakes up and like how Gwen went on a mad tirade for a sec, he goes on for a whole 10 mins and inadvertently reveals his magic. He vents it all out in an anger infused rant and talks about how he wants to be loved and seen and is crying as well as shouting. Everyone is horrified and Arthur feels guilty and betrayed. Percival knocks him out so that they can talk about this. They spend the night there and decide to wait til the morning to decide to help M or not (basically they all would save M they jus dont know if A would save him or not [even though they all know he would]).

Arthur sleeps and ,through Kilgarrah’s (is that how you spell it?) creepy ass voodoo magic, sees a life without Merlin in it. He wakes up with a shout and realizes. That. was. a Nightmare. a life without Merlin was literally a nightmare. He thinks back to the rant and knows that even though Merlin was scared and did things selflessly, he meant no harm to camelot and did it all out of Love. Bc he loved Arthur. Arthur then has an epiphany and realizes his “heart burn” is emotions. yike. And with that Arthur decides to help M. 

They get him to the lake and its basically a repeat of the day before with the screaming and shouting. But this time, Morgana’s men have arrived. With Morgana. cause drama.

Now the knights and gwen grab their swords and make a wall while M and A stay behind. Arthur tries to get through to Merlin and says “I am sorry with all my heart” and Merlin hesitates. 

Then a few of the evil dudes get through the wall and advance towards Arthur and Merlin. Arthur steps forward to fight and Merlin watches and realizes that Arthur would fight for him, would die for him just as Merlin had vowed to do. this man was worth it and that he knew that with all his heart. 

Merlin walks into the lake, glows a little and walks out normal. he like slow walks past the wall and uses his magic in a super badass way and just scares Morgana bc of how powerful she is. she yeets herself out of there and everyone hugs merlin and they tell him how much they all love him. Arthur in particular just kisses him right there and then, all adrenaline and happiness.  

On the way home, he tells the stories of all the times he used magic. they realize that even though he was under Morgana’s will, this is still what he felt, the fear, the anxiety, the pain. Arthur goes back and repeals the ban and makes Merlin his consort. prob some nice angst with requited love. 

the end.

someone write this pls. i have these thoughts at 11:23 pm and dont have the motivation to actually write something like this. 

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Im kinda obsessed with I-Land right now. I love 23 boys and if possible i would like them all to debut but the elimination is in 30 minutes so im going to post my top 12 picks before it airs (kind of in order, kind of not, im biased, this is based on an unsure mixture of skill and personality, could change but most likely not):

1. Sunoo- BITCH!!! WTH!!! I JUST LOOK AT HIM AND MY SEROTONIN LEVELS BURST THROUGH THE ROOF!! He is a puppy!! He is amazing. If you didnt know anyone yet and you put all 23 boys in a line up. He will draw your attention with his sunshine smile :)))) he is so heartwarming. Most people be like "i have no filter" but they just be mean, but this guy is different, he literally has no ability to hide what he thinks but it never comes off as anything negative. He says "Me! I can do it!" but it's just endearing and never comes across as trying to show off. He says "there was a little bit of friction" and when the members look at himshocked, he looks at them shocked too.... theres no dull moment when he's in frame. It's so amazing how pure a person can be. But know that i am not just rooting for personality but for talent. his voice... His Voice!!! Vocally geonu and heeseung really slayed the butterfly performance but if you ask me, "save me" had a more emotional attack. His facial expression is just brimming of feelings. His voice is so raw. Also You know that part in save me where he transitions from head voice into chest voice really smooth??? You'll know what im saying if you see it. thats so fucking satisfying that i had to replay it so much. I definitely replayed the save me performance more times honeslty. And the way he dances!!! It might not be That refined yet but that's the charm... it's so raw and full of emotions... so like him. I can see myself stanning this group long term if he debuts with them.

2. Jungwon- tf i love this boy so much. his visuals already stood out to me when they were entering i-land, then his voice stood out to me in the first challenge... he did that hard ass choreography without any audible changes to his voice that i had to rewind that multiple times (more than the editor already did) then the moment i saw him dance the center in episode 4??? BOY???? BOY!!!! that was my breaking point... i can't believe im saying this about men but i already knew i would die for him... plus he is so sweet :((( his eyes are just so naturally cute but i was so shocked in the last challenge when he was able to pull off that fierce ass look.... i am devastated... im about the same age but my parental instincts are at work here. plus SPOILER ALERT to those who plan to watch he won first place in both the first and last challenge can everybody say jungwon ace

3. Geonu- my feelings for him are much like jungwon :((( except theres more parental instincts... and i say this despite being younger than him but whatever age is just a vibe... HE IS SO LIDDOL :((( i want to be his mom :(( at first, personality wise, it's hard to notice him bc he's a little calm and laidback... but its the little things that draw you to him :((( his glasses and hoodies just seem a little bit big on him and that just makes me smile for some reason... he cries silently when people are sent to the ground and he gets along well with the people... i noticed him first together with jungwon in the first i land challenge because they had the most stable performance. but i've never been more attached to him than when he sang butterfly (favorite bts song anyone??)... i honestly thought they could debut then and there and i wouldnt bat an eye... also it's so funny that the one thing i identified him with during the early episodes was the fact that whenever the camera pans to him, he just has the dead eye stare and parted lips (think: pokerface but confused) especially with the huge ass glasses but in the end the poker face thing that stuck to me became the thing that worked against him i cri

4. Jay- hold on folks this is going to be a long one. Jay has such a powerful personality that at first made me hesitant about liking him... idk he just seemed like the guy i would not vibe with in real life, but the longer time passed, the more he became one of my favorites and i root for him now like crazy. at first it was funny when they kept rejecting him for the vocal parts, but the more it went on, i was so sure that if it was me, i would have cried and dropped then and there, but it was so amazing watching him push through that and he didnt even lie about how he felt. his unique determination is such a breath of fresh air, a little heartwarming and oh so inspiring. i honestly learned a lot from just watching him. the time he went to the ground was so crucial to his development as a person, leader and performer. it was so mindblowing when he became the leader at the ground and even adapted heeseung's teaching methods. you know that meme "improvise, adapt, overcome?" he is the exact personification of that. what i loved about him the most is that even with his steely determination, he didnt enforce or project that on the other grounders, he just shared it with them. he understands when they need rest, encouragement or massages. he was such a caring leader. Skill wise- i can't say anything. He already proved himself so many times. Great dancer and potential vocalist. The mnet specials also show how much sweeter he is than the show shows him to be. He takes care of everyone, and has more of mother duck than street gang vibes (and he knows how to cook!!). And at the end, while he seems to be mostly self- oriented about debuting, he ends up spending most of his time teaching others and helping them improve. I just love him. Debut Jay 2k20!!!

5. Sunghoon- tf this guy is so cool and laidback that i didnt even pay much attention to him during the early parts but he just keeps crawling into my heart because so many members love him so damn much??? and he just goes along with them?? they want me to do triple axel while average people can't even do a single axel on a trampoline?? ok imma give them a double axel tho. jake is challenging me to arm flexing? yeah why not? k wants me to dance?? yeah lemme just spin 50 times. jay wants to shower together?? weird but im not strongly against the idea. ej wants to scare people? count me in. someone needs a hand to hold?? ok here's my warm hand to the rescue... everyone just wants to be his friend that he birthed my favorite sunoo scene "im cuter than him [jake]" and he was just like "yeah ok i guess so" sksjsk sunoo is that how you ask someone to be your friend jshdk??? and can i just say? as a figure skating fan, he has automatic +52536 points... and when the judges said he's the most natural performer out of them??? i vibed with that hard.. he dances well so naturally and he takes your attention without even seeming like he's trying to. that dance performance with k and jungwon?? i thought at first that his energy wouldnt catch up but damn boy my eyes were just trackingnhim the entire time unintentionallu that i had to rewind and he was just as great as all of them... with the additional benefit of being a stunt boy!! and though it might seem effortless, we saw that he practiced so hard for it. overall a 100/100 boy with a naturally charismatic personality that bleeds into his performance... as a fellow 02 liner i would also like to apply as his bestfriend thank you

6. Heesung- what can i say except he's a perfect boy ok thats it why are you still reading... jk... ok lets talk about him... skill wise?? I cried during the butterfly performance. i marvel at his vocal stability. his voice is so crystal clear. his dancing is so clean. his skills are superb but most of all, theyre already so refined. there's nothing more i could ask for. personaloty wise... i also have a lot to say... despite his celebrity status, it's awesome how he can make the other trainees comfortable with him. he's kind and soft and lovely.

but because i am me, i have to overanalyze people so idk skip this if you dont like that. for someone who's experienced being an academic achiever... i sure do vibe with his personality a lot... you know when there's a group activity and you're so sure you can lead it well but you don't want to? half because you dont want to come off as a show off and half bc you genuinely still have self-doubts, and you're scared of falling short of expectations. Also, you feel that if it all fails, you'll be responsible so you have to feel that everyone approves you before you can take leadership and show your entire thing. And the moment you feel validated and take the reins, you start unconsciously projecting your perfectionist attitude on people??? yeah... i love that despite being an almost perfect person he still has issues most people can find relatable and that, in addition to the talent makes me want to root from him. (im also going to take a stab and guess that his mbti is probs ixxp) i'll be honest tho, because its like 100 percent sure now that he'll debut, im not super attached to him??? i love him tho but he's just not in any danger so i can just let my support for him chill. i think amidst this, bc most of the trainees depend a lot on him, i mostly hope for him to take care of his mental health

7. Daniel- awww danielll... i went into i-land not knowing anyone's ages so i had a brief whiplash feeling when someone said daniel is 15... it's because he's so emotionally mature?? like he's such a supportive and caring person that it barely struck me the that he might be the youngest?? he already caught my attention when they performed "any song" bc they just seemed like they were having fun and doing their best without the pressure of whether they would win ir not, and for me that attitude is something you'd see from more experienced performers. and during the second ep when he just felt the need to comfort everyone bc he's got such a high score?? i loved that an i was so bummed out when they eliminated him. the save me performance was definitely a cherry on top that i just had to love him more than i already do... he may be young but he's as ready to debut as everyone else.

8. Jake- jake is just one of the people who showcased so much growth between ep 1 and ep 2. he already had the right attitude when they performed crown and he just had to improve skills and stage presence, and improved he did. despite being one of the trainees with the shortest training time, he was the one teaching the others by the end it just supports my theory that he might have been an ace as well if he just had the same amount of training as everyone else. im also truly in love with his mischievous antics. he seemed like an introvert to me at first but he came out of his shell and i love that. also i just crave more moments of him and sunghoon's friendship (they both seemed like introverts who found someone they could be extroverts with in each other) i am 👌this close to storming i land and demand that they let me join their merry little band of 2002 children

9. Niki- dance skills= 100 he's just so good it's unreal... it's insane... everytime he's on screen i hear boss musicand i cant even imagine him being younger than anyone, let alone taki. i get why some people dislike him but honestly i think it's just because they don't see him as a child... but he is. i was honestly a bit mad for him when they kept guilt tripping him into leading all of them, and i understood his tjought process when he thought he just kept failing everyone and when he thought things just kept backfiring on him. he is held on such a high pedestal and i dont think he deserves that kind of burden. as for me, it would just be a waste of talent to let him go. his attitude could still improve, as we'd seen when he eventually volunteered to help everyone. i also felt bad when he said that he's scared he might not be voted bc some people dont base on skills and i love him and i just want him to kmow that he's loved

10. Taki- what the hell can i even say?? he's the kindest softest boy ever. he tries to see the good in people and is very hardworking... he listens to people well and actually follow them, so he improves a lot... he knows people think he's cute and he tries and tries and tries to look fierce if the song calls for it... he is amazing

11. K- i really can't say anything, he really stands out during performances. also very pro at dancing. his choreography??? *chef's kiss* and i think the younger trainees depend a lot on him, besides heesung and so he's good at keeping the team together.

12. EJ- im really hesitant about the last person to be the twelfth i lander because it could almost be anyone and i wouldnt be too bummed out bc theyre almost all equally talented... the thing with ej tho is he already gets along well with the i landers and has harmony with other members. (plus see above: im a sucker for the 2002 line) i think its a tiny bit unfair to base it on this bc the others didnt even get a chance to show what they can bring to the group so im torn.

bonus: i wouldnt feel too bad if it were jaebeom (he has great voice, the producers think he's not too stand out bc he's weak at dance, but the i land is already so full of people whose expertise is dancing, so i think there should be someone who's specialty is singing), kyungmin (i really appreciated how hard he worked during the last test and it actually paid off, i honestly noticed him there even if he was always at the back. i also loved his determination and i was so touched when he and jaebeom were talking and he said "there's really nothing to do but believe in the impossible right?" it's just that the i landers were already ahead of him in terms of skills so he failed the votings) and hanbin (i've watched his cover videos and he's really good at dancing and stage projection. like i was honestly wondering why it wasnt showing in the performances :((( and he hadnt even had too much screentime to actually See what he's capable of.

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Higher Ground Blogging 6

- a.k.a. Canadian Boarding School AU

HBG 1 (eps 1-3), 2 (4), 3 (5-7), 4 (8-9), 5 (10)

Last time on HGB: In the world of Star Wars, redemption has something to do with helmets, whispered monologues, and/or last-minute electrocutions. In the world of Higher Ground, redemption has more to do with homework, talking about your feelings, and outdoorsy derring-do. But they’ve got one thing in common, and that’s my #1 celebrity crush.

ep 11: - “did i ever tell you what they paid for me? i looked at my dad’s files once. $21,000. Worked out to about $3000 a pound at the time, not bad.” -- we stan ezra - ok the quote for this ep is “false face must hide what false heart doth know,” and that stumped me for literally 10 minutes, i had to put down the dirty dishes and think and google the quote and.... im still not sure what it means. i was once on shakespeare’s level but i have fallen far since high school - “and now i think it would be a good time for both of you to participate in Group with ezra and the other kids” -- the best thing about peter-bi-wan is imagining obi-wan grimacing at literally everything he says - “i once taught a course on medieval occultism--” omg i found the sith😱 - 8:42 in and scott finally shows up!!!!! - still not as bad as downton abbey where i’d have to sit through up to 15 minutes sometimes until thomas barrow showed up😔 - omg the voice he does for scott. omg i love him so much. - “every moment of my life’s embarrassing” -- juliette making me so glad i’m not a teenager anymore. you’ve got shakespeare comprehension but at what cost?

low-res crying Hayden for the soul

ep 12: detective: my gut tells me they’re still here peter-bi-wan: is your gut ever wrong? detective: i’m human, man peter-bi-wan: for future reference, i like it better when you’re not

^ now that IS in character for obi-wan

he has the high ground (there i made the joke) - theme of this ep: if you’re a white woman, be cool about it - oh shelby are you about to fuck everything up on purpose.... i don’t know what i expected

^ my sister walked in and said “aw he’s cute!” yeah we’re both awake at 4 am - “protecting the little princess again?” well yeah he’s a jedi

that feeling when Shelby

best forehead in the business

Shelby: Needing always sort of required somebody to care. Th-that wasn’t big in my world. Scott: It is now. * plinky lil electric guitar byoo doo doo *

- ezra!!!!!👏👏👏👏👏👏 - omgggggg there is a forbidden love but it’s NOT with anakin, it’s auggie and juliette!!!! aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

ep 13: - the quote led me to a beautiful poem, and someone put it on tumblr 8 years ago so i rb it - this is the weirdest fucking background music YET - omgggg scott is aggressively knocking down chess pieces one by one. HIRE THIS KID TO BE VADER, HE’S PERFECT

scott x shelby forever!!!!!!! - hnrhg you guys need to hear hayden say “this is a CLASSroom,” it’s 7:23 in episode 13, it’s really funny. Tourguide Vader - you can also see them doing that morticia-addams-style beam-of-light-across-the-eyes thing, they do this to him a lot in Revenge of the Sith too - “you can’t mess with a mess, man! it’s, like, redundant!” - “sorry, you’re not my species” -- ❤️shelby❤️

her species - holy shit you guys i love this squad of kids so MUCH!!! - but this episode is too manly ughh - grizzly bear trying to kill peter-bi-wan❤️ yes queen, do it

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Life´s too short for weird music - 2019 - „A ghosteen dances in my hand, slowly twirling twirling all around“ (Nick cave and the Bad Seeds / Ghosteen)

Wie schrieb ich kürzlich im Dekade 2010-2019 Rückblick? „Erfreulich an 2019 ist, dass sich die positive Entwicklung der letzten Jahre – abgesehen von der kurzen Delle in 2018 fortzusetzen scheint.“ Und in der Tat: 2019 hat eine Vielzahl an guten Songs zu bieten, es verstärkt sich allerdings der Eindruck, dass sich die Verhältnisse zur Veröffentlichung einzelner Songs und weg von Alben bzw. EPs fortsetzt. Und so ist es nicht ganz einfach, zehn Longplayer aus 2019 zusammenzutragen, die das Prädikat „outstanding“ verdienen.

Da sich aber doch einiges an guter Musik ergeben hat im letzten Jahr der 10er Jahre weite ich auch für 2019 das Format meiner Festive Charts gerne auf eine Festive Top 100 aus. So kann ich dem musikalischen Output des Jahres 2019 halbwegs gerecht werden.

Die Bands des Jahrzehnts – Hot Chip und Metronomy allen voran – konnten sich auch in 2019 mit neuen Alben und vielen guten Einzelstücken in Szene setzen. Etwas überrascht hat mich die starke Präsenz von Fujiya and Myagie – vier Notierungen in den Top 100 – wenngleich tendentiell eher in den hinteren Regionen sprechen da schon eine deutliche Sprache. Und das bei einer Band, die ich immer mal wieder gerne höre, deren Sound mir in zurückliegenden Jahren hier und da doch etwas zu zweidimensional erschien.

Unbedingt zu erwähnen ist an dieser Stelle auch das 2019er Album „No geography“ der Chemical Brothers: die ersten 17 Minuten des Albums, welche die Stücke „Eve of destruction“, „Bango“, „No geography“ und „Got to keep on“ in One Go umfasst, stellen die beste zusammenhängende tanzbare Schlaufe dar, die Electronic Music seit Menschengedenken – genauer seit dem ersten Orbital Album in 1991 (Sie erinnern sich? - „Chime“, „Midnight“ und „Belfast“) hervorgebracht hat.

Erfreulich auch, dass sich Popmusik made in Germany auch in 2019 in den Top 100 niederschlagen konnte. Allen voran die Goldenen Zitronen, die mit „More than a feeling“ sicherlich nicht eines der besten, aber bestimmt eines der relevantesten Alben zum aktuellen Status der BRD der letzten Jahre veröffentlicht haben. Und mit „Das war unsere BRD“ gewissermaßen einen – extrem ironischen - „Hit“ über Westdeutschland der 70er Jahre beinhaltet. Daneben konnten fas schon Dauerbrenner Roosevelt, Newcomer „Sparkling“ und Andreas Dorau (mit und ohne Station 17) zur guten Bilanz beitragen.

Kevin Parker hat seinem Tame Impalla- Kosmos Ego hat mit „Borderline“ und „Patience“ weitere wunderschöne Fixsterne beigefügt. Sehr erfreulich war auch das langersehnte Comeback von Friendly Fires - „Offline“ entschädigt vielfach für die fünf Jahre andauernde Wartezeit.

Sehr spannend auch das audiovisuelle Jahresprojekt von Underworld „Drift-series“ welches wöchentlich neue Musik, Filme, Fotographien und andere Kunst hervorbrachte. 330 Minuten der nicht immer gelungenen aber zumeist spannenden Musikveröffentlichungen sind auf der längsten Playlist (von Album möchte ich da nicht sprechen) des Jahrzehnts vereint.

Außergewöhnliche konzeptionelle Longplayer von Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds („Ghosteen“) und Bon Iver („I, I“) runden das musikalische 2019 ab. Schön, dass es noch Künstler gibt, die eindrucksvoll belegen, dass ei Album mehr seien kann, als die Summe seiner Songs.

Der beste Song stammt 2019 sehr überraschend von Flume – was, aber nahezu ausschließlich der Zusammenarbeit mit London Grammar und der Voice der Dekade – Hannah Reid – geschuldet ist.

Und zum Abschluss des Jahres darf ich Ihnen dann noch meine stets subjektiv gefärbte Jahres Top 100 (die Kurzen) Songs 2019 und Top 20 (die Langen) Alben 2019.

Die Kurzen (Life´s too short for weird music Song Top 100 of 2019)

1. Flume / Let you know (feat London Grammar)

2. Tame Impala / Borderline

3. Metronomy / Wedding bells

4. Friendly Fires / Run the wild flowers

5. Bombay Bicycle Club / Eat, sleep, wake (Nothing but you)

6. Hot Chip / Hungry child

7. The Chemical Brothers / Got to keep on

8. Bon Iver / Hey Ma

9. Two door cinema club / Satellite

10. Stealing Sheep / Jokin´me

11. Tame Impala / Patience

12. Metronomy / Lately

13. The Soft Cavalary / Bullet Proof

14. Saint Etienne / You don´t own me

15. Ohtis / Runin

16. Crane like the bird / Wishing cap (feat. James Mercer)

17. Two door cinema club / Talk

18. Hot Chip / Positive

19. Sunbeam Soundmachine / Anyway anyway

20. Goldene Zitronen / Das war unsere BRD

21. Blossoms /Your girlfriend

22. Boy Pablo / Never cared (feat. Jimi Somewhere

23. The Soft Cavalary / Dive

24. Otherliine / Chime

25. Roosevelt / Failing back

26. Sparkling / I want to see everything

27. Stealing sheep / Why haven´t I?

28. Yoke Lore / Chin up

29. Zoot woman / Where is the man

30. The Orielles / Come down Jupiter

31. Tame Impala / It might be time

32. Booka Shade / I go I go (feat Kaktus Einarson)

33. Le SuperHomard / Domino (with Xavier Boyer)

34. Mercury Rev / Morning glory

35. Bonobo / Ibrick

36. Station 17 / Eine halbe Portion Glück (feat Andreas Dorau)

37. Teleman / Family of aliens (Ghost culture remix)

38. Sunbeam Soundmachine / Talking Distance

39. Swimming Tapes / Keep her closer

40. Hot Chip / Spell

41. Greene_Jacques / Do it without you

42. Cave_Nick and the Bad Seeds / Waiting for you

43. Ora the Molecule / When earth takes a breath

44. Belle and Sebastian / This letter

45. Hot Chip / Spells (Superorganism Remix)

46. Floating points / Les Alpx

47. Underworld / Listen o their no

48. Swimming tapes / Passing ships

49. Duncan_C. / Talk Talk Talk

50. Otherliine / Hates me

51. Death Cab for Cutie / To the ground

52. Ride / Repetitions

53. Roosevelt / Everywhere

54. Kiwanuka_Michael / You ain´t the problem

55. The Chemical Brothers / No geography

56. SebastiAn / Handcuffed to a parking meter (feat Sparks)

57. Beck / Chemical

58. Gus Gus / Come back to life (feat Sisely Treasure)

59. Sleaford Mods / Kebab Spider

60. Penelope Isles / Gnarbone

61. Thom Yorke / Twist

62. Fujiya and Miyagi / For promotional use only

63. Friendly Fires / Lack of love

64. Lali Puna / For only love

65. Lambchop / Crosswords or what this says about you

66. Fujiya and Miyagi / Flashback

67. Slowthai / Peace of mind

68. Apparat / Heroist

69. Yeahsayer / Fluttering in the floodlights

70. Dusky / Static

71. Bon Iver /Salem

72. Bat for lashes / Lost girl

73. Foster the People /Pick U Up

74. Kaiser Chiefs / Wait

75. Cave_Nick and the bad Seeds / Spinning song

76. Tourist / Kin

77. Isobel Campbell / Ant Life

78. Caribou / Home

79. KH / Only human (feat Four Tet)

80. Gemini Rising, Tensnake and Fiora / Just because

81. C. Duncan / Holiday home

82. The Chemical Brothers / The Eve of destruction

83. Pixx / Andean Condor

84. Squid / Houseplants

85. Shelter Boy / Half asleep

86. Cassius / Don´t let be

87. Fujiya and miyagi / Fear of missing out (Vince Clark Remix)

88. Haim / Summer Girl

89. Bombay Bicycle Club / Everything else has gone wrong

90. The Cinematic Orchestra / A caged bird / Immitations of Life (feat Roots Manuva)

91. Fujiya and Miyagi / Personal Space

92. Foals / The Runner

93. Ora the molecule / Here comes the hotstepper

94. Friendly fires / Sleeptalking

95. Andreas Dorau / Unsichtbarer Tänzer

96. Hopkins_Jon / Luminous beings

97. Ohtis / Rehab

98. Belle and Sebastian / Sister Buddha

99. International teachers of pop / Another brick in the wall

100. Sleaford Mods / Substraction

Die Langen (Life´s too short for weird music Album Top Twenty 2019)

1. Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds / Ghosteen

2. Bon Iver / i, i

3. The Chemical Brothers / No geography

4. Hot Chip / A bath full of ecstasy

5. Sunbeam Soundmachine / Goodness Gracious

6. Metronomy / Metronomy forever

7. Friendly Fires / Inflorescent

8. Ohtis / Curve of earth

9. Two door cinema club / False Alarm

10. Belle and Sebastien / Days of Bangnold Summer

11. Apparat / LP 5

12. Lambchop / This is what I wanted to tell you

13. The Specials /Encore

14. Underworld / Drift Series one

15. Thom Yorke / Anima

16. Stealing sheep / Big vows

17. Die Goldenen Zitronen / More than a feeling

18. Andreas Dorau / Das Wesentliche

19. Floating points / Crush

20. Sleaford Mods / Eton alive

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Love & Relationships in Lockdown with Dr. Chris Donaghue - Ep 125

Many of us are sheltered in place with partners, family members, or roommates. Some are thrilled about the quality time spent with loved ones, others not so much. We’re bickering, tense, and in some situations, the isolation is a breeding ground for abuse. On Ep. 125 of American Sex Podcast Dr. Chris Donaghue gives us coping and communication strategies we can use with people we’re quarantined with. Learn how this pandemic affects libido and how to deal with desire discrepancy, get tips for setting boundaries with difficult housemates, find out how to use sensory experiences to find solitude, plus learn to identify hidden signs of depression/anxiety and which mental health strategies can help. Dr. Chris also gives us the reassurance we need to address our guilt about not being productive in quarantine and reveals why it’s important to focus on self-care, relaxation, and restoration.

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The 100 Ask Game

i was tagged by @foreverandalwayscrysis even though i accidentally end up ignoring her for weeks bc i’ve migrated towards twitter. major dumb b*tch energy.

1. What Station on the Ark would you be from? probably argo station bc im from the south and im surrounded by farmers. theyre everywhere. get me out.

2. What would you get arrested for on the Ark? yelling at someone in command for being a basic bitch? fighting for equality? stealing meds for the poor?

3. Would you take off your wristband when you landed on the ground? if bellamy asked me to? y-yeah.

4. What would the necklace Finn would make for you look like? (Clarke: deer/Raven: a raven duh..) i’d love a turtle

5. If you could resurrect any MINOR character who would it be? ok if we dont count miles ezekiel shaw bc he was in more than two eps, definitely wells.

6. Create a squad of 5 characters to go on missions with. Who are they? bellamy, clarke, raven, shaw & harper. 

7. What Grounder Clan would you belong to? there is only one kru<3<3 anyway, floukru if it was my own decision.

8. What would your name be in Trigedasleng? sumn like maksim? or just maks? idk the whole language is confusing to me

9. Thoughts on Finn? Some people hate him, and others love him, so I’m curious. did everyone try the chicken? i thought the chicken was lovely. nah, all jokes aside -- what he did to raven was absolutely disgusting, but i kind of liked his storyline. how he went from being holier-than-thou to absolutely losing his damn mind over clarke to point he shoots up an entire village of innocent people? it was interesting. but he died when he shouldve.

10. Be honest. How willing would you have been to take the chip without knowing all the horrible things it does? im not gonna take shit. grass is always greener on the other side.

11. What character do you relate to most? definitely clarke. thats why i’m so hard on her.

12. What character do you like the least? echo. groan every time i see her face.

13. Describe your delinquent outfit. (Would you wear something like Murphy’s jacket with the spikey red shoulder patch or have a trademark like Jasper’s goggles? Be creative, yet practical) oh i love this one! uhm. probably like jeans, but ripped. black ankle boots. a shirt -- something with cleavage definitely, i think a regular tanktop. a dark jacket. idk. i would always have a gun/knife holster on my thigh i think. (ok i wanna look like lara croft). and i would enjoy if i could wear any shade of lipstick. i would want that to be my trademark. i find berries or sumn in the first ep.

14. Favorite type of mutant animal? that monster spying on lincoln and octavia in the woods. wonder what happened to that one.

15. What would your job be on the Ark? something medical for sure.

16. Would you have willingly pumped Ontari’s heart if Abby asked? yeah no biggie im (almost) a nurse. ive resucitated ppl before.

17. If Lexa wasn’t Heda, but she was still alive, then who would have made the best commander? dont kill me, but definitely luna. i know she didnt want it, but she wouldve been the best fit.

18. How would you act if you ate the hallucinogenic nuts like Jasper and Monty? probably cry all night or get super giggly. either or.

19. How would you have dealt with Charlotte’s crime? A more John Murphy approach or Bellamy Blake approach? i dont believe in the dead penalty in modern times, but like she was old enough to know killing people aint right. especially not for revenge on an innocent person. so i say the murphy method.

20. Who should have been the Chancellor, if anyone? they shouldnt have one person in charge, but if they have to, i’d say clarke. fuck them old ppl tbh.

21. Would you have been on Pike’s side like Bellamy or on Kane’s side? Or Clarke in Polis? i think bellamy went through some personal stuff that made him side with pike. if i were in the situation myself i think i would be digusted by pike’s xenophobia, but if they said there was an army outside waiting to kill us. maybe i would buy it? idk. depends on if i have all the info i guess.

22. Mount Weather had a lot of modern commodities. (example: Maya’s iPod) What is the one thing you would snatch while there? MUSIC PLAYER

23. What would your Grounder tattoos look like? Hairstyle? War paint? war paint on my lips!!! and i’d wing the shit out of my eyes too. as for a hairstyle probably like a lob, sides braided back. i dont like my hair up so mostly just keep it down. tattoos? idk if we’re all dying anyway, i’d say fuck it and do a whole sleeve of flowers.

24. Favorite quote? can i be a soft bellarke bitch for a sec and present clarke’s entire speech in 4x13 or ‘if i’m on that list, you’re on that list’. that or “who we are, and who we need to be to survive are very different things”

25. If all of the characters were in the Hunger Games, who would have the best shot at winning? clarke or murphy. team cockroach bitch. is this the time i plug my own thg fics? 

26. Least favorite ship? Favorite canon ship? Favorite non-canon ship? NOT INCLUDING CL OR BC OR BE

if i cant say bellarke its gonna be a short list. canon? zaven and memori. non-canon: sea mechanic, wellven, murphamy. 

27. A song that should be included in the next season? If there had to be another guest star like Shawn Mendes on the show, who would you want to make a cameo? BIG DREAM would be taylor swift but i dont think her current era fits with the show (plus its the cw....like they gonna give up half of their yearly budget for a three sec cameo?). i think aly & aj’s new music slaps and they’d fit in the whole new earth aesthetic. 

28. What would you do if you were stuck in the bunker with Murphy for all that time? write blarke fanfic with him probably. 

29. You’re an extra that gets killed off. How do you die? i’d wanna die protecting bellamy lmao. just a full on beheading or something.

30. A character you’d like to learn more about and get flashbacks of? literally no one. they’re a season too late. ok. maybe shaw. but thats over now i guess :/

31. A character you’d bang? bellamy, clarke, raven, shaw, emori, harper, monty, wells, diyoza. its a cw show. come on.

32. Would you stay in the Bunker? Go up to Space? Or live on your own in Eden?  if i was on the show i’d go up in space to prevent becho. if you have me the choice now, i’d stay in eden.

33. In the Bunker, would you follow Octavia? What would you do to pass the time underground?  i’d definitely not eat human meat. death it is i think.

34. What crime would you commit in the Bunker that lands you in the fighting pits? tryna murder blodreina for making me eat humans.

35. Up in Space, who would you bond with first? Who would be the most difficult for you to get along with? i’d bond with monty over biology i think. i would have a hard time getting a long with murphy or echo. i love the first as a character but irl i’d kick his ass. 

36. How long do you think you would last on Earth by yourself? if i have eden? as long as i have until the next apocalypse.

37. When the Eligius ship lands what do you do? try and blow them up while they sleep or sumn? or idk. if i was alone, maybe just better to make friends.

38. Favorite Eligius character? Least favorite? diyoza+, mccreary-.

39. Would you Spacewalk? i would probably? i’d be terrified but what a way to go?

40. Would you prefer to eat Windshield Bugs, Space Algae, or Bunker Meat? ive accidentally gotten bugs in my mouth before and like i said im not eating humans, so -- space algae.

41. Would you start a war for the last spot of green on earth? What would your solution be to avoid it? war didn’t help anyone. in the end, no one got to live on earth. i’d try and compromise i guess. or once they trust me, try and kill the eligius ppl in their sleep anyway.

42. Would you rather dig out flesh-eating worms or stick thumb drives into bullet holes? stick the thumb drives into bullet holes. i have fear of ‘alive’ things being in or on the human body. 

43. Are you willing to poison your sister for the Traitor Who You Love? What would you do to stop Octavia? for clarke? yeah. if she was as loco as octavia, definitely. or i’d kidnap her and say she killed me.

44. Would you go to sleep in cryo or stay awake like Marper? sleep, definitely.

45. Who are you waking up first to explore the new planet? bellamy, clarke, raven, emori, shaw, murphy, jordan and since somebody usually dies on these explorations, i’d allow echo to come.