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day 5: re-designed OC(s)

i think the siblings have had the biggest glow-up overall... top is the older version, below are their current designs!

there was also a version in which they were red and black... thankfully thats lost forever on my old computer 600 km away from me...

i think its pretty fun to see how some of their details have survived to this day! (juliet having a bow in her hair and a curtain dress, ange keeping his neck bow and short gloves...)

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day 1: fav OC

im afraid it has to be yuze... hes been with me for a very long time and has always been very dear to me<3 he was created in a period where i had very similar struggles to him, and i projected onto him quite a lot.

that has changed with time and now i can confidently say he's his own person, but hes been with me through a lot! there are characters i enjoy a bit more, however hes still my fav baby <3

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day 9: relationships (part 1)

Ange & Juliet - platonic, half-siblings

Ange & Yuze (angeyuze 🌿🌊) - romantic

Mischa & Orifiel (orimischa 🗝️🦢) - romantic; art credits: first, second

Juliet & Roselyn (roseliet 🌹🕯️) - complicated; art credits: first, second

AAAHAGHG MY FAV DAY!!!!! prepare for a crazy CRAZY EXTENSIVE infodump (under the cut) ...

edit: i feel like this is already a long ass post so tbh. i might just reblog with a description of the other two (🗝️🦢+🌹🕯️) at a later time :]

idk if i need to say this but i hate incest. please block me if you engage in any sort of incest media / fiction. my ocs siblings relationship are strictly platonic

💚🧸 ill start with the siblings because they make me a bit crazy i cant lie. they are half-siblings!! juliets dad died when she was very very young (a baby basically) so she grew up with her step-father (ange's father)... she didnt really gaf about him at all though because she was mommys girl . amen

when they were younger, ange and juliet got along really well!!!! juliet loved playing the role of an older sister and she liked dragging ange around ... they also played togetjer a lot :3 but like. gradually they started getting more into their studies and all .... their parents were getting more and more antagonistic towards each other so they began piting the kids against each other as well. #divorce

as a kid ange viewed juliet as some sort of a. higher figure... something beyond his reach... a kind and silly and funny angel and the only person who treated him right honestly. so when he assumed that juliet has betrayed yuze and had his parents killed . his world Lowkey literally crumbled. i think he realized at that time that shes just a human person and can Also make mistakes.

their relationship got a bit strained because ange started to isolate himself Hard. and juliet is a naturally pushy person when it comes to others so it did make her frustrated when he wouldnt tell her anything or talk to her... wah...... ange was also being ostracized by society because of his father :( juliet tried to throw parties and warm others up to him and she was like. just act nice okay. but it failed lowkey because hes a bit of an asshole sometimes

they had a big fight over that and stopped speaking like.. at all...... ange thought juliet was setting him up and exposing him to people that dont like him when all she did was try to fix his image and reputation... whatever okay.

i also want to say theyre very similar in a lot of aspect!!! both mask their emotions to a crazy degree, usually with a smile or with humor... both kind of try to appeal to people as much as they can, but in different ways? ange mostly wants people to see him as stupid and non-threatening (opposite of his father) and juliet wants people to see her as pitiful and hard-working. they are also both mildly suicidal BUT ange is like -> i have no purpose so i should kms vs. juliet being like -> kms is the only way to escape the purpose i have in life

🌿🌊 ohhh the doomed yaoi... they make me super super sickly.... i talked about their childhood like 93849 times so . well. idk if i should do it Again . However

theyre like. childhood friends to one-sided enemies to lovers . in their childhood years yuze and ange met when yuze was helping his parents with tailoring clothes and yuze helped him out a bit (ange was afraid to speak up and yuze noticed it...) and so it began. ange kind of even in his childhood clung to yuze a lot because it seemed like he was the only one who understood him and his troubles. like even to a bigger degree than juliet could. to yuze . well he didnt think too much about it . like childhood friend yay :)

then the whole FIASCO happened. yuze jumped through 9328 mental hoops and as a 10 year old the only logical thing that made sense was that ange had something to do with the death of his parents. poor ange lost his only friend, his dad was executed and his mama now hated him more than ever and forbid juliet from meeting with him. so they were both going through it .

and then when they meet again they are literally . two different people . its like meeting a fuckign stranger because of how much theyve changed and that drives me a bit crazy. ange is hurt by the resentment yuze seems to hold for him.... yuze is like damn i have to kill this guy (he doesnt Really hide it...) but he finds out how suicidal ange is and hes like. :/. i dont like you but dont do that actually jesus christ youve had it rough. and then he finds out that ange didnt have anything to do with his parents after all and the GUILT that kicks in is crazy. and then more stuff happens (Heh

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day 7: likes

rolled Orifiel for this one!!! Rubs my hands okay lets go

his likes include: - big buildings and halls - summers, vacations - being outside, trying new things - collecting earrings - observing people and conversing with them - gossip and chatting - trying new food - loose and flowy clothes

detailed explanation under the cut!!

some. if not most of those. have Something to do with his backstory. really sorry

he likes big buildings and halls, but specifically uncrowded ones! since he spent his early childhood in the very crowded and messy slums, he likes the space and "freedom" of those halls

summers and vacations are literally just a personal preference though. he prefers hot weather and loves how much sunny days there are

being outside, trying new things and food is mostly just. well. due to how much the Church has isolated him and forced him into being almost a living relic. he always likes to break free from those surroundings and have a chance to see new things that he hasnt seen... hes also naturally curious and always wants to know more about stuff!!!!

collecting earrings - once again just a personal quirk. he always thought they were really pretty, especially on the women in the pleasure district he grew up next to

observing people, chatting with them and gossiping - also mostly due to his curiosity and nosiness lol. however also in his teen years when he was controlled by the Church much more strictly it was the only way he got to know what goes on the outside. hes also good at using peoples public image / perception / rumors about them against them!! hes very observant when it comes to people and so talking to literally anyone is always fascinating to him

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i walked through a town that doesn't know you

CHILDHOOD ART...WAAUUGHHGH... i felt so sad drawing this because like. i kept thinking about the lyrics of sunflower in the snow

the pain of missing someone and grieving what you couldve had.... the knowledge that the person you once loved has probably became an entirely different person that you dont know anymore.. + the fact that for ange yuze was always a beacon of normalcy and light in his troubled family life. and then everything went to SHIT

"im in love with a long-dead sunflower" idk lets all just kill oursel

i also need to draw yuzemom properly sometime soon. shes sooooo. silly woman

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umm alien stage OC au... this was drawn before r6 btw . i love you yaoi

orimisha ivantill pararells: there are none im utterly delusional

okay however. 🤓 theyve both grown up Isolated and #Different for different reasons though.. liek orifiel is this gold child raised in the church being shown off like a god or a relic of some kind. literally taught that normal people are Below him . di you see the ivan singing prodigy pararells ok good . orifiel is Much more ivancoded than mischa is tillcoded but thats okay honestly. mischa my sillj little thing me and the repressed anger issues. chasing after a girl wjo DOES NOT WANT HIM 😭😭😭😭😭. i donf know where i was goifn with this hes not very tillcoded at all (other than #tsundere 🥺) but their dynamic YESSSSSSS.

orifiel chasing after mischa becuase this twink is the only person wjo ever treated him likw a #person (all he did was be mean to him Omg) and not a religious symbol of sorts . his ass has bpd AND has nevber had a close relationship before so hes like yess obsession and would probably kill himself for this random ass guy. honestly jm just still thinking abouf the kiss That was crazy Ermmmm . i cannot voice my thoughts orifiel is so ivan kinnie thougj rip you wouldve loved twitter and carrd.co

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your strong eyes penetrate me right through my icy mask

i keep adding of a scene i want to add where its basically a masquerade ball .... big deal in the plot because its here where yuze realizes "aw man i dont think i actually want to kill my boy best friend" like okaytewhrdiuqwhefdjn

very heavily inspired by cendrillons lyrics. and just the premise in general. heart emoji

realistically i dont think yuze could have his knife just in the Open like that but like. i like to imagine theyre somewhere alone and he can Swing that thang around!!!!!!!!!!!! (in a gay way)

i like the doodles a lot... oh the gay yearning....

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day 8: dislikes

i feel like Yuze's dislikes are the silliest so well. him again (sorry

dislikes:

technology

spicy food

hot beverages

touching things with his bare hands

parting with objects / throwing them out

pushy physical contact

detailed explanation under the cut!!

technology - no specific reason. he's just a bit of a pragmatic guy and has a hard time adjusting to change... he also hates switching to a different routine when he has already gotten used to something. type of person to go "why would i need this when i can do it the old reliable way..."

spicy food - comes with being a vampire im afraid. poor thang. he has a very hard time handling spicy food in general.. yes would go red and start coughing and crying and throwing up and snot from nose from even mildly spicy things

hot beverages - just not his thing. it annoys him that he has to wait for them to cool off. he prefers his drinks mildly warm / already cooled off

touching things with his bare hands - well..the brief time he spent as an assasin did kind of Mess him Up a Lot. esp since a lot of the times it included choking / body fluids

parting with objects / throwing them out - he has autism and also he gets very attached to stuff... he gets sad whenever he has to throw something out because he thinks its cruel to throw soemthing out even when its no longer useful.. (tbh i think its some kind of empathy / understanding because 1. he sees himself as a tool of the system 2. he also feels like he will get discarded once he's useless)

pushy physical contact - also just not really his thing. he does really like physical contact with loved ones though! will often show it pretty subtly (tapping on shoulder, holding hands, drawing circles on hands...)

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day 11: symbolism

doing this instead of studying. a long ass post because i love symbolism so mych

YUZE

columbine flower - "decisive victory" (yearning for revenge no matter what), foolishness and innocence (a nod towards his childs self personality)

snowdrop flower - new beginnings, hope and rebirth (all tying to him being able to forgive himself and live again)

moonstone - often linked to the tides, and used for sleeping problems (tied to the sea, which is very important to him - and also a silly reference to his sleeping habits!)

the hermit - treason (his parents) and prudence, but also unreasoned caution (holding everyone at hands length)

other than that, his general symbols/themes include the stars and the sea!

(rest of characters under the cut!!)

ANGE

tansy - "i declare against you," (him being antagonistic towards the society that rejects him; going against the wishes of his family) resistance, revenge (a nod to yuze and their bond!)

daffodil - new beginnings, forgiveness (mostly for himself, but also towards juliet) and rebirth; can also mean "beautiful eyes" (he hates his eyes, since theyre identical to his fathers, something his mother pointed out very often - just a silly ironic reference)

serpentine - associated with snakes and the lushness of nature

the magician - manipulation, illusion (manipulating others into believing his persona), being out of touch

other than that, his general themes include butterflies (rebirth and fragility), eyes, insects and nature in general

JULIET

ivy - fidelity and eternal life (ironically, its the way she knows her life wont be eternal, and how little she values it)

indian mallow - conjecture, love and protection (overprotective nature)

emerald - loyalty, peace and security (her sense of duty towards her family and their reputation, but also the wish for ange to live peacefully and to be safe)

the hanged man - sacrifice, rash decisions and letting go

other than that, her themes include candles (the impermanence of life) and birdcages (core negative beliefs, prison of own thoughts) <3

MISCHA

red camellia - deep desire (just in general - but with him mostly to fit in and be "normal"), humility

red spinel - great passion, devotion and courage (ironic since he thinks of himself as a coward)

birdfoot - revenge (backstory related!), claws (nod to him being a vampire), but also sincerity (also kind of ironic, since he struggles a lot with it)

the star - hopelessness and despair, theft, arrogance

he is also associated with the red moon (death, something bad is coming) and bees (hard work)

ROSELYN

rose - unrequited love, jealousy, respect (all feelings she has towards juliet!!)

"pacific rose" - prestige, abundance and nourishment (representation of her family life on the surface)

rhodolite - overcoming feelings of shame, guilt and inadequacy

temperance - imbalance, discord, and impatience (also relates to her relationship with juliet - but also general imbalances in her life)

her other themes include cards (uncertainty, game) and pearls (journey to perfection)

ORIFIEL

white lily - death, symbol of mortality (his fear of death and refusing to believe hes mortal as a coping mechanism of knowing death will meet him soon)

chrysoberyl - keenness of perception, great clarity (a nod to how perceptive and observant he is)

judgement - inner calling, absolution (the finality of everything), karma and causality (teehee heehee heehee)

his themes are kind of vague, but include the sun, gold chains, stained glass, and anything religious or death related!

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day 6: past

AHHH we got to my favorite part - backstories!!

i wish i could write about all of my 6 ocs, but i dont think uni will let me lol so i decided to spin a wheel for each of the days!!!!

...and then funnily enough it landed on Yuze who has the most developed backstory

(rambling about his past under the cut)

i dont want to get too much into the worldbuilding here... his parents were vampires and immigrants who got a job as tailors in the Lazarus estate (home to two young nobles, Juliet and Ange, around Yuze's age)

hes always had a pretty good relationship with his parents! i think funnily enough he was a bit spoiled by them, especially his mom, who he always clung to and admired. he has also always respected his parents greatly :'] esp. his father, sometimes even a bit too much (was often scared to approach him)

yea and then they were executed for treason when he was like 9 years old

um before that happened he also became friends with Ange. but that was like. almost entirely inconsequential to him UNTIL he convinced himself that Ange was responsible for his parents death (as people do) which is really funny to me because Ange wasnt very important to him UNTIL he started to center his life around getting his revenge lmao

well. he entered his parentless era and was sent to an orphanage. he met an older girl there who kind of took care of him and guided him :) her name was Csilla (he called her Lila) and well. she also died due to the negligence of the poorly funded orphanage. for years he thought she ran away without him Btw

then he entered his epic dissociation era where he was in.. like.. how do you even call it... this old dude (named Damien Eligioto) whos a retired vampire assistant of the late emperor "takes care" of young vampires who are poor / have no parents / etc. they get uniforms and rooms to sleep in and even education. but its not very fun its lowkey child labor factory and fulfilling his power fantasy most of the time.

yea anyways this Might be the most traumatic period for Yuze. he doesnt remember almost anything from that time. he only remembers learning thar Lila died and the day when Eligioto took interest in him (mostly the fact that he didnt talk to anyone and always did everything without a word) and offered him a way to make some extra money by killing / injuring people he didnt like. giving this job to a 16 year old is very stupid however it makes sense since he saw those teenagers as disposable pawns that u could make the fault fall on if they got caught

oh and the physical abuse also Yeah (the scars on his body Yeah

and so Yuze entered his very very brief era of being a teenage fuckigb assasin before he was like "wait... if i can do this to others then i can also do that to that guy i hate" and he straight up killed Eligioto and ran lol

and then he lived a few years in a little tiny village doing nothing <3 letting the mental illness consume him. until there came a proposition to work at the Lazarus estate... the dreams of revenge awaken again... and this is basically where the plot of the whole thing starts

Waow! He shouldve been at the fucking club

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day 15: music

I WAS WAITING FOR THIS DAY SO BADLY. GGRRGAUUUGH

each of my OCs has a playlist on youtube: Ange ✧ Yuze ✧ Juliet ✧ Roselyn ✧ Orifiel ✧ Mischa

since i think it would be way too long if i elaborated on all of them in one post (lol) i have decided to do ange and yuze :]

lyrics + ramblings about them under the cut!!! be prepared this is another embarassingly long post

YUZE

"With the salt that moves in the midsummer sea, will this face still be my own?"

boy why you so identity issue? anyways yeah since he has nothing to cling onto (his parents who were the only connection he had to his birth country are gone and he cant even remember their names) he kind of just. Yeah. boy. also i like the sea connection Yuze is just so seacoded to me

"I’m a monster who was born into this best, most beloved world An obedient puppet tossed out into an unpleasant era A spider who spins red thread, a hunter who was trapped as expected Give me a reason to live with indifference, doctor"

fits very well with him being a vampire (and everyone knowing about this fact) which certainly Does make him feel like a monster. "an obedient puppet" with how the adults around him used him esp. when he was at Eligioto's... i mean yeah.... im so sad my little guy

"A spider released outside, a batter who got a strike as expected It hurts so much to keep my expression composed; Give me some medicine, doctor"

just the "it hurts so much to keep my expression composed" im wahh WAHHH i hate him...yeah anyways the bottling everything up but in the apathetic and cold and composed calm way...........

"So, reciting a nonsense spell, chewing my fingernails, I was waiting I called out an incoherent name"

this one just makes me sad. "an incoherent name" hes calling out to all the people he already lost in his life. its not just one name. okay whatever honestly

"Without anyone holding any expectations for me, the raise of the curtain approaches The curtain has finally been raised on the theatre show of life, without a single audience member"

the way both him and Ange can relate to how people hold no expectations towards them? im a bit sickly i hope i die something is wrong with them. also the loneliness he feels again... not a single audience member...

"Painfully unpleasant, come and receive this punishment for loving me! I absolutely detest the “me” that you love Listen to this selfishness of mine!"

(slaps his head) this boy can fit so much self-hate in him. also he does feel like it would be very selfish to have any emotions for Ange... well and he also thinks that Ange absolutely hates that he has any feeling for him and Yuze is just a burden essentially (where did you get that from)

"I want to lose that “borrowed” expression of mine already It’s gradually reaching its limit, this world where you exist"

i want to lose that borrowed expression of mine already... his always calm and composed expression that hes forced to maintain..okay

"You'll only waste your tears on your palm Why did I even think of doing this?"

Ange "ill drink up all the tears you gave me" vs Yuze "youll only waste the tears on your palm" so basically Ange who loves Yuze no matter what happens and always clinging to him even if it hurts vs Yuze who thinks those feelings are a burden and a waste

"Ah, I wish you'd understand Forgetting you is no joke Ah, just stop, I don't want to bring back my past Don't look for me anymore"

forgetting you is no joke... dont look for me anymore... why are they LIKE THIS JUST TALK TO EACH OTHER however you can see yeah Yuze has a really hard time letting go of the past

"Lighting up the darkness, the stars are caressing my eyelids I hear some nostalgic voices, and I’m feeling really lonely From beyond the darkness, I hear someone calling me I’m collecting the left-behind stardust within my own palms"

wah... he knows the pain of losing someone he cares for WAY too well. so he wants to be left behind by everyone so they wont be hurt when hes gone. something is really wrong with him

"All alone, I remembered laughing with you For some reason, my emotions just kept on making noise"

childhood memories of when he still had friends and people close to him..okay.. "for some reason, my emotions kept on making noise" he is not used to feeling much at all becuase he represses so much idgaf

"If it was just a shallow nightmare, I could forgive everything Everything lightly and gently falls For some reason I’ve grown lonely"

hahaha when he was younger and his parents died and he was all alone he used to pray all the time it was just a nightmare and he would wake up soon. that did Not happen. haha. Okay

"Do the candles look forward to being used? Enjoy bidding adieu, adieu? Every word I have saved for you came out wrong afterwards So I spoke no more"

he also sees himself as only a tool to be used... also the way that he doesnt know his way with words and often comes off as too blunt or rude when he doesnt mean to #autism yesss king lets just give up on everything ever

"Must be great being you Power comes as second nature Must feel amazing to be longed for, longed for"

i dont have much to say here. i hope i die. why is he like this. power comes as second nature... he never felt like anything is in his control so he envies the siblings a lot... little does he know they dont have SHIT in control either. lol

ANGE

"I daringly wield that kitsch rubi on my own worn-out name I have become so terrifying down to my core that I could defeat nobility How do I look like now? Am I unsightly? Of course I am"

the "am i unsightly / of course i am" line makes me so ill. have i mentioned that his how hates him because he reminds her of his father and yes his looks do play into that. his green eyes especially "my worn out name" my poor little guy who thinks NOTHING about himself and hates the family he's been born into

"Neither sweet words nor a smile will work; if I start to run, I’ve become a beast"

this reminds me of his whole father situation (who ermm killed people) and how if Ange acts even a little out of the line or lets himself drop the harmless act he Will be ostracized by people and they will compare him to his father even more

“All I did was acknowledging my own whines Of course, I couldn’t even have a proper fight with you"

weeheehee he has never stood up to his mom abusing him.. heeh..haha... (collapses to the floor)

"What's wrong with loving you I'll tie you, not let anyone to touch you This must be fate, right?"

thanks god Yuze is a sore loser but the thought that he'd ever fall for someone else HAUNTS Ange. hes just mental like that. he 100% thinks they're soulmates and kills himself 5 times in his mind imagining him with anyone else

"I will drink up all the tears that you gave me You gave me a sweet lie that “it’s ok to be a coward”, have I been able to escape?"

THE WORST LINE EVER MADE. Ange thinks of himself as a huge coward in general so to have someone tell him that its okay to be afraid and its ok to protect yourself and its ok to run away sometimes... hes down Bad im afraid. "have i been able to escape" mostly relating to how he cannot let Yuze go

"Is this called 'I loved you'? Where I struggle to cling to you What's wrong with killing myself, me who you hate?"

can someone tell him suibaiting is not the key to making your boy best friend like you back "is this called i loved you" the past tense i am SO sick. the things they couldve had

"I’ve made it this far chasing your footsteps I’ll break free from this curse and spell"

see this is fun because it can be both about his family (always chasing after Juliet and her achievments, following her footsteps - the curse and spell are his family) or Yuze (hes been chasing after him for so long because he wants to reach him, the curse being their misunderstanding) weeewooo whhheeheehe

"What’s the purpose of this worthless, meaningless pride May seem unaware, but is aware of everything"

fits perfectly with how hes abandoned his pride and loves playing stupid/unaware around people to get to know more info...

"Whatever pains me, whatever saddens me, what was it that I wanted to say? I walked through a town that doesn't know you."

THIS IS SUCH AN ANGE SONG ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY... especially regarding his relationship towards Yuze.. the pain of missing someone and grieving what you couldve had.... the knowledge that the person you once loved has probably became an entirely different person that you dont know anymore.. dude whatever

"The wind blows, the sky's far away. Ah, with me having stopped somewhere, I'm scared to get to know you whom I don't know. I'm in love with a long-dead sunflower."

"im in love with a long-dead sunflower" AAJHJHBHB DUDE DUDE . DUDE. anyways yeah . once again wow Yuze has changed so much haha hasnt he (got severely traumatized) yes the long-dead sunflower is about him too i hope i die

"The shaky pleasantries and talks about nothing I've never asked for them I just wanted that gentle experience, so that I too could be kind It's all alright, all is well"

he hates high society but only really because of his father and the reputation he got.. hes jealous of Juliet whos very well liked by people and they do treat her with a gentleness that isnt extended to him

"Even today, it's another overwhelming day that makes me go crazy Even today, I'm once again laughing at my dreadful face After I have soaked myself in those sweet words, Will anyone come for me?"

"after i have soaked myself in those sweet words / will anyone come for me" referencing how much he focuses on pleasing people because he wants to appear a certain way in his eyes.. and he very secretly hopes to get some of that praise back...

""Mayday!" Even if you realize it's me, You don't need to hold me in your arms again Hey "Mayday!" If you realize it's me, Will you kindly laugh at me once more?"

im so SICKKK i sometimes forget that both ange and yuze were fucking. like. 10 when they last saw each other. like LMAOOO they have both changed so so much (for way worse) and have gone through so many things and have became basically. unrecognizable when it comes to their personalities...ok i really dgaf though . i think theyre both shocked at how much theyve changed. ange who remembers yuze as this shy but bright and kind kid whod always cheer him up suddenly meeting Whatever the fuck is this

"Wishing for what I lacked, I came face to face with a version of "me" that was nothing like myself And yet I kept going, Even through the dark night that made my head swim"

WISHING FOR WHAT I LACKED..god hes so. okay we GET IT!!! you HATE YOURSELF!! the inferiority complex goes crazy ..... he lies and tries to overcompensate so so much that he doesnt even recognize the person he is anymore

It’s trash, it’s rags The blood leaking from your heart held anger only from myself.

they both hate themselves so much. lol. lmao evem. they make me so sickly like just get normal...

‘What is it I lacked?’ After I asked God, the arrow of a fallen angel struck to silence me. I knew it from the start. I was putting on a show that I'd forgotten. I’m holding close the sword you gave me.

he feels like he just puts on a show ... also the "what is it i lacked" portion makes me a bit sick its so angecore. hes angry and feels like a lot of stuff happenign to him is unfair and like hes Right!!!!!

Why is that so? Clinging to my heart is a loneliness not unlike the silence of a winter night

angeyuze and the theme of winter...teehee..........also hes so lonely can someone save him Please

Surely, you were watching the stars alone in all your ignorance, still paying no heed to me, my eyes bloodshot.

also crazy angeyuze core. ange feeling like despite all yuze still doesnt make an effort to understand how he feels or to get closer...ouch. its a bit funny because like girl. YOU are the one constantly hiding behind a smiling mask and being like nooo hehe im fine :p

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OC textposts!!!!!

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hi! i saw on oc-center that you have mentally ill queer vampire ocs and those are some of my favorite! i briefly looked through their profile posts (GORGEOUS layout by the way. wow) and i'm really curious about them; do you have any story or world set up for them, or do they more exist like Conceptual Dolls in the mind? (/not judgemental, that's basically how mine are hsbdcahcs so i just figured I'd ask!!)

is there anything you particularly love about them or any dynamics between them you'd like to talk about?? open prompt to infodump a little!!

HI!!!!!1 THANK YOU SO MUCH.. i love make silly little aesthetic layouts... (not very tumblr proficient yet when it comes to that but. i will get there)

answer under the cut because i went crazy

they do have a whole world and story set up!!! :D with a pretty..extensive worldbuilding actually (jhbhads)!!!! i dont talk much about the story/plot because sadly i am a bit insecure and also. it changes all the time. but its There!!! id love to talk about it here in the near future!!!!!

i did just make a . google doc combining all of the worldbuilding i have so far :] it goes into detail about the history of the world and what vampires are in this universe!!! you can find it here

i didnt format it yet (i plan to make it a some sort of masterdoc with complete profiles as well) but. it does have the most recent info i think hehe

theres a lot of things i love about them.. kind of because they all carry a part of me / my experiences in a prettyi d abstract way :] so theyve became very special to me over time!!!!! ive poured a lot of love and own experiences into them ... which does have its cons too jjdshjsd

i honestly like all of the dynamics.. but. i feel like orifiel and mischa make me the Craziest overall for story reasons (which are only vague ideas for now) ..

mostly because theyre two lonely people that ironically are fundamentally very similar but also very different. they are really based on polar opposites and it makes me enjoy them a lot.. mischa who grew up alone and unwanted by his family obsessed over the religious unreachable figure that orifiel was to him and grew up with so many emotions regarding him - love, hate, obsession, admiration, rage, feeling of injustice and jealousy... all without having even met him JKSDKJD

and then theres orifiel, who despite growing up as an object of affection never really got a chance to pour his all into one person.. he grew up with a very warped view of love and affection (it being one-sided and obsessive) and. mischa feeds into it for selfish reasons. and. jesus i dint even know what to say here because my brain is FRIED

orifiel is a very selfish person too in some aspects so ultimately. theyre two lonely selfish nonbinary FREAKS who dont know how a healthy relationship looks like.

at one point in the plot (bad ending?) i have this. thing planned in mind. mischa almost dies since a certain plan goes wrong - and orifiel literally sees Red. like despite all his reason and rationality he resorts to a desperate speedrun of human experiments - the thing that is the core trauma of his childhood :] fellas is it gay to bring back your boy best friend to life but you dont even recognize him anymore . he doesnt even feel human anymore but you cannot bring yourself to lose him . at the same time you wont grant him the mercy of freeing him from the life of being a mindless beast like Omggg whats wrong with you

another bad timeline? ending? thing? VERY VAGUE THOUGH. i had in mind was mischa just. going Wrong at some point . where to guarantee his safety he decides that he must pretend to be the enemy (part of the Church)... hes a wholeass vampire mind you. the church fucking HATES vampires. well . his religious trauma goes bonkers at some point in this timeline and he ends up blackmailing orifiel into increasing the power of the church so that his position of power is guaranteed . hes a bit of a selfish asshole but i accept him anyways .

i feel like i talked a lot about mischa here. but orifiel. jesus Christ girlie. he doesnt even know it but hes self-destructive to an absolutely crazy degree. letting the church do whatever the fuck it wants to do with me ;;3 i have no identity and no name btw ;333 everything is okay and fine. at the same time he also thinks hes the greatest person and entity ever so like idk whats his deal i want to eat him alive

once again brain fried . i can talk so much about threm with a specific question or a prompt though i Promise .

the yap here is fucking crazy im so sorry damn

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