#envy's thoughts

[envy-the-green-bitch]

Vodka is the only good thing humans have ever invented in their pitiful lives.

Well, that and maybe social media. I mean.. An entire database, dedicated to making people feel inferior?! Practically made for me!

[otaku553]

Thoughts on being aroace

[dykedvonte]

Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.

We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.

Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.

He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?

I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?

[forzathunder]

"I have many fears, most of them about Lucrezia." — Cesare Borgia (The Borgias, 2011-2013) + hints of insecurity

that she adores someone that much / if she will reject his dark nature and act of love and violence as Ursula did / if he truly is not part of her desires / that she easily forgets him

[dilemma-danger]

vic fuentes is so gender

[sunlit-mess]

I can only take so much, but lately, they have replaced my reflection. And realize I'm just as bad as them.

[send-up-my-heart-to-you]

shannon messenger: sophie foster has blond hair and brown eyes and she's the prettiest character ever n she's got at least three people in canon who like her and she's super striking and everyone thinks so and-

also shannon messenger:

[buwheal]

do you think theyll notice

[fish-cakez]

i like to think they’re sisters in a way (click on the image for better quality)

[envy-the-green-bitch]

Referring to you mentioning parfaits in earlier asks, it’s ok Envy. No shame in liking chocolate and or sweet things in general, it’s nothing to be embarrassed about. I have somewhat of a sweet tooth myself :3

Screw you, I don't need your pity!!

But also uh, thanks.. Or whatever... Sweet things are cool sometimes, when I'm in the mood for them.

[jammyjazzberryjam]

Some Spoiler-Free Thoughts on Inside Out 2

Joy's still as amazing as ever.

Sadness gets to be important again, and I'm so proud.

Anger is bae. No, I will not accept critisism.

Embarassment and Disgust are KING and QUEEN.

Fear sounds way more sassy this time round. I like it.

I could listen to Ennui's voice for a lot of time.

Anxiety's kind of a twit, but she's the best twit.

Envy's tiny and cute. But that's a popular opinion.

I wish there was at least one more scene with Nostalgia.

Riley got a lot more focus than I remember from the first movie, and I don't mind one bit.

Listen, as much as we hate Mindy Kaling, I would've loved for her and Bill Hader to return. But Tony Hale and Liza Lapira are absolutely perfect for the roles of Fear and Disgust. Also, Kensington Tallman knocked it out of the park with Riley!

[mangoob]

Scott’s ex… the big one…

[rosesofenvy]

Hold on tight to this time, this place 'Cause everything you know will be erased You were born inside your head And that is where you'll be when you are dead You're just a boy, you are no man And nobody you know will understand You're just a boy, you are no man And nobody you know will understand

[definitely-a-cryptid]

Me: *blushing furiously at my phone*

My mom: oh that's a cute guy, you have a crush on him?

Me: *sweats in trans and asexual* yes certainly, I definitely find this man attractive. Absolutely nothing else is happening here. (It's a dude in an outfit I want and I'm probably jealous of his shoulders)

[mayhaps-a-blog]

I can't stop thinking about Hohenheim (2003). Man murders thousands of "witches and plague victims" to create the first philosopher's stone, nearly dies and has his soul bonded to another alchemist - effectively killing that guy, who was probably a colleague - by his assistant/girlfriend. Is apparently fine with this, and goes on to live for another 400 years with this woman, occasionally either killing thousands of people or inducing others to kill thousands of people to create more stones and keep body-hopping. He also has at least one child, who dies, which he then tries to bring back to life and creates a homunculus instead. Eventually decides/realizes that this can't last forever and, instead of trying to like, do something about it, promptly abandons his girlfriend and homunculus son, fucks off to the middle of nowhere, marries some random farmgirl, has 2 children, and promptly fucks off again before they can see his body start to literally decompose.

He then wanders around doing nothing for several years, apparently completely misses his wife's illness and death despite his sons sending letters to literally everyone he corresponded with, wanders back into town and starts flirting with the first cute girl he sees (Lieutenant Ross). Realizing his old girlfriend is up to their old tricks and is harassing his kids, he goes to tell her that he doesn't really care as long as she leaves his kids alone, gets distracted by the homunculus of his dead wife and immediately banished to another dimension, where he resumes just kind of wandering around until his son shows up and he has to help him find a way back.

None of this is ever addressed again. What are these man's morals? Does he care about the thousands of people he personally killed? Does he feel bad about abandoning not only his two biological kids but also his homunculus kid? When did he suddenly decide that murder is wrong, actually? Did he decide that murder is wrong, or is it only if his sons are threatened?

What is his deal?

[magdamateo]

I never thought I’d be able to feel envy so blazing hot and acidic.

Burning trails down my cheeks as I scream.

But internally, of course, because who would they think I was if the mask slipped.

They’d see me as the imposter after all.