#embarassingly affectionate

[ccaptain]

@daybreakrising: ♡ also, for funsies, vautrin- ( meme source. )

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[pomefioredove]

Hi, congrats on the 500 followers!

Thank you for the event - this is my first time joining such a thing so I apologize in advance for how long this is (if you wish to ignore this - that's fine, I understand, thank you for the chance to participate)

I.. don't really know how to describe my personality anymore but I will try to from both my perspective of myself as well as what I've learned from others' impressions of me (tbh to try and sum it up - I'm an ISFJ personality type, if that helps any)

I'm pretty quiet and reserved. I prefer to be by myself/avoid people mostly due to not being very sociable or not having the energy to engage with others (heavily introverted here lmao). Others have said I seem hard to approach and/or intimidating (which is super funny considering I'm not even 5 ft tall - I am super short so idk how I could be intimidating. Maybe it's the rbf 😂).

Because of this, I'm pretty awkward in social situations though I don't mean to be. I'd like to be a part of things too and have fun but because I never really learned how to/wasn't really socialized enough, I just don't seem to vibe with most. I understand I'm generally pretty different both in terms of looks and personality/mindset too (apparently I stick out like a sore thumb) but it's still discouraging and lonely.

I think people don't really know what to make of me and while they may be polite, it's only because I try to be approachable and friendly to show I'm not someone who should be avoided. Ofc that doesn't always work and if people don't vibe with me there's nothing I can do about it. I'm unfortunately really used to being misunderstood and being projected onto despite the lack of proof of the assumptions people make of me because of this.

I won't go into details (tho I feel like it might be important to mention to give some context) but I experienced a lot of neglect, emotional abuse, and interpersonal relationship trauma while growing up so it has really affected my ability to trust others. I am very wary and guarded so my walls don't come down easily. It'll take a lot of time to get to know me, especially the things that bring me joy. Most people have never seen me be my true authentic self or learned what my favorite things are because it was just too much work to get thru to finally get there (which I understand and don't deny and for the longest time have been trying to work on these issues of mine).

Anyway, for what it's worth - I'm known for being hard working, reliable, and honest. I'm unfortunately a perfectionist and have imposter syndrome too which also means I'm ridiculously humble. It's been brought to my attention that it's much to my detriment lmao (I've also been trying to work on that too)

Though I'm very distant and reserved to most, the very few people I've ever had in my life who were close to me have seen my more playful and affectionate side and that's only because I trusted them and felt safe with showing them this side of me. But again, that's only possible if I've developed a really close bond with someone

My interests include anime/manga, video games, reading/writing, art, nature, and food, to name some. I'm also (embarassingly enough) a hopeless romantic at heart and prefer to collaborate with others instead of compete unless it's friendly and no hard feelings are involved.

Please let me know if I've left anything out accidentally and I also apologize again for the length!

Thank you again for the event, I can't wait to read the matchups you've done for everyone who participated! Please have a great day/night!

I match you with 𝐌𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐮𝐬 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐚

I was really close to giving you trey but malmal won again

The First Impression:

Malleus isn't exactly a social butterfly, but he's heard your name once or twice. The other students speak of you as if you're some intimidating, unapproachable thing... which may or may not intrigue him, just a little.

...Of course, when he actually sees you, he's thoroughly unimpressed. This is the person everyone avoids? Why? You're like one of the cute woodland creatures that follows Silver around.

You're not even a powerful mage or feared warrior! You're just standing there awkwardly!

Why He Fell:

It's almost a "last two kids without a partner being forced to work together on the group project" situation. Being constantly left out and avoided has very few positives, but getting to spend time with Malleus is one of them.

There's no real pressure to be social or overly-friendly around him, he's truly just happy to have someone to sulk in the shadows with, though as time goes on and you become more comfortable around one another, conversation will start to blossom.

Hearing him go on and on about his special interests like a little nerd, you might share a similar sentiment: "this is the guy everyone's terrified of?"

There's something quite tender and gentle about two loners finding company within each other, and as your walls come down, you find yourself sharing your vulnerable self with him. Your fun, affectionate side, which Malleus cherishes and protects like a gift given especially to him.

The Relationship:

It's safe. Not boring, mind you, safe. You treat each other gently, which so starkly contrasts how others have treated you in the past, and there's something quite special about that.

Malleus is able to share sides of himself with you he hasn't with anyone else. He treasures your reliability and honesty, and sees you as a safe space in his life, as much as he hopes you see him. It's a very cozy relationship, full of comfortable silences and an unspoken trust shared just between the two of you. Despite his status, the relationship feels very private, if only because you only share these sides of yourself with each other.

[devintrinidad]

Oh my god that's delightful to know! RBC being the drive force for everyone in the last arc! I love her so much. I just know they got together after this (it's canon trust me)

but with 1146 she's experiencing it all over again, but this time, she's the one who will hold his hand and catch him if he falls. It probably makes her feel wanted in the best way possible

OOoh that's a *really* good point!!! And since it was probably before she started officially working, she must have been with another red blood cell under training, so most likely someone who has known her since she was little and therefore has a certain idea of her. I know this isn't a popular thing but I feel like she would enjoy having someone who *hasn't* known her since she was young but rather someone who judges her based on what she is now. It's very possible someone would easily consider her the "clumsy classmate" (even in an affectionate light) and I feel like she would appreciate being seen as *more* than that!

considering that there are trillions of cells, how are they going to meet again???

SOULMATES I TELL YOU. Try to convince me they don't get reincarnated together YOU CAN'T

Speaking of the WBC squad, you are right they would totally support seeing their leader happy. THEY ARE THE BEST HYPE BUDDIES AND WINGMEN (embarassingly) OKAY . I think they would support their bro at first after finding out he has a crush on ae-3803  despite not knowing anything about her. They just want their buddy to be happy. But when they get to know more about her (outside from the instances of seeing her screaming and running away for her dear life in the battle field bc that is NOT a great impression.) , they approve of them EVEN HARDER and they are very glad they won't have to make ridiculously bizarre plans to get 1146 to confess to her

Also you mentioned 2001 in the previous ask and I forgot to talk about it but OH GOD he is so hot 🫦 I genuinely love his design (there is just something about bald/buzz cut characters that scratches something in my brain). Also this is more of a personal hc but I feel like he'd use sign language a lot!

And Thank you so much too!! I had lots of fun rambling about CAW with you! Hope you have a great night/day as well <333

Oh my gosh, I would love some more 3803 lore, she would definitely be the type to have puppy crushes and date a few cells here and there. And you have a point! I bet she would like to date someone who hasn't known her since she was a young erythroblast so when 1146 ends up in her life, she's eager to show him that she's more than just the poor, confused little cell in the bone marrow!

1146 more than lives up to her expectations when it's clear that he respects her, not only because she serves a vital role in the body, but also because of her fortitude.

Hehehehe, soulmate au when??? (just kidding, someone else made a wonderful au years ago and it's on ao3!)

WBC squad are simultaneously the best bros and the worst wingmen ever. (If 3803 hasn't made it clear already that she plans on pursuing 1146, they definitely let it slip that 1146 likes her!)

YOU'RE THE FIRST PERSON EVER--I REALLY DO MEAN EVER--TO SHARE MY EXACT SAME THOUGHTS WITH HIM

MAH POOR BOI WHO DOESN'T GET ANY ATTENTION!

He doesn't get much characterization (if any), but I believe that he's the old man in the group (besides 1146) who looks straitlaced and aloof, but he's so mischievous and cunning when he wants to be. Oooooohhhh, and sign language? That's an amazing headcanon! He does look like to be a man of very few words, often preferring action, so I can see him using his hands and facial expressions to get his point across!

(He signs everything with a deadpan expression, hahaha)

Thanks for the headcanons and I hope that you have a wonderful day! :

[xx-psych0-rabbit-xx]

leave it to me to have characters be as embarassingly physically affectionate for comfort as possible

[bongosblorbos]

in the hypothetical supernatural revival there's only a few ways i would accept dean and cas reunion and consequences going. the main issue is that it would be tricky for cas and dean to reciprocate their feelings and REAL DESTIEL ROMANTIC REUNION/REALIZATION on screen in 202x because that would get such a huge tension resolved and then you would just really need to be invested in the plot and it's just jucier if you drag it out. ANYWAYS HERE WE GO:

hypothetical 1: the revival is all about rescuing cas from the empty

dean keeps hallucinating cas popping up a la purgatory a la sam and jess etc. or he's seeing him in dreams! or both! HE CANNOT TELL WHAT IS REALITY. what's a dream and what's being awake? what's a hallucination and what's cas trying to send a message from the empty? and because this is cw supernatural, it's gonna be super cheesy. so not only is dean continually seeing this real/notreal cas, cas's reaction to him is always tricky! maybe he is affectionate and loving and all that he never got to be with dean. maybe he is completely normal, status quo as it was before. maybe he is angry at dean for killing him (dean pov). maybe it changes with the occasion dean sees cas and maybe it changes DURING the occasion. you never know!

parallel this with cas seeing dean in a similar way in the empty. again, just the theme of WHAT IS REALITY. fun because of chuck reasons. is he really dead? where's jack? could vary based on how you want it to play out for the show. and maybe dean and cas DO have moments where they really see the other, and that's confusing it even more, because there's also fake moments. and dean is adament in finding cas and believing he's alive and the whole season is him trying to get cas and free him from the empty. drama filler etc etc and it works! and it ends on some better resolution about chuck (at some point) and a destiel reunion. no subtext or subtlety. coconuts colliding with tongue. and then leave the ending OPEN that's the WHOLE POINT! THE STORY IS OVER, WE DON'T GET TO SEE HOW IT ENDS BECAUSE THEY GET TO DECIDE!

hypothetical 2: they rescue cas early on and clear destiel reunion

again, no subtlety they are full on making out. tears snot probably blood. cas breaks dean's nose. you know the deal.

and then let's say the overall plot of the season is to deal with did they really beat chuck? or something tying up loose ends like that. not my main focus here.

anyways, we have destiel reunion and then they are trying to navigate a romantic relationship when they could barely navigate a friendship (just thinking of all their fights and miscommunication and each of them doing what they think is the right thing and devaluing themselves and it all making a WHOLE mess. divorce arc etc). so there's a lot of conflict there but it's funny and then somehow it all resolves peacefully and good.

hypothetical 3: SOMEBODY'S memory is messed up

if it's cas, say cas's memory of a lot of stuff is gone after the empty. so they're trying to get it back, or at least sam is. and dean is (sad) against that. sam thinks it's better to know than just start fresh like that (i think that's consistent with his character at that point but im not putting much thought into this all rn) and dean is of course thinking if cas loses his memory, he doesn't remember loving dean and everything horrible that happened. so dean is torn between pushing cas away (away from himself, who is obviously poisonous to cas in dean pov) while also obvoiusly really really wanting cas near and maybe dean doesn't have the heart to be mean to cas right now. and cas doesn't remember anything but he likes dean and he wants to figure out what happened. and yada yada yada this is getting really embarassingly cheesy but cas falls in love with dean AGAIN and maybe this is the key to getting his memories back? or it coincides somehow? and then cas still loves dean in the end and we get a lot of fun angst and also loving cas and complex emotions in there. idk. this might be more appropriate in fanfic form tbh

if it's dean, it's more like the purgatory arc where dean has altered his own memory of cas leaving, he doesn't hear cas say "i love you" and so when cas comes back he perceives dean's lack of response to the love confession as a kind of rejection. and of course happiness isn't in the being it's also in the having. so cas is sad about this and kind of it's causing conflict ebcause dean isnt' even ACKNOWLEDGING IT (because he doesn't remember it) and it builds and builds and then maybe dean is somehow even more explicitly on screen in love with cas and it's kind of back to the original dynamic but there's way more tension because cas is getting mixed signals and then it explodes into confession again and yay destiel.

this one is a lot more fanfic tropey i think and im also getting sleepier by the minute thinking of this but yeah. there's that!

[vullcanica]

@serpentxprince / @madeofstxrs : *pay no mind to the grumpy vampire affectionately biting at Dan's shoulder*

He doesn't. For a time. The first quizzical, somnolent noise of acknowledgement rumbles from somewhere deep within his chest, form groggy with exhaustion barely budging from its cosy nestle atop a bony bundle of vampire. Nothing to acknowledge, besides, about a commonplace pair of fangs worrying his skin this early. When else would Forsythe have such a straight shot to his bare shoulder than late at night when their sleeping schedules align. Dan begrudges him the nasty habit.

It's only when the chewing continues that he does start to pay it mind.

"Mm?" Eyes still closed, he drags his face down along the pillow to nose at Jones' hair curiously. His attention clearly garnered now. It's dark beyond his lids. Always is in this house, what with the curtains drawn nowadays, but he knows it must be ungodly early - can feel it marrow-deep in his bones, exhaustion dragging his body down, down, down. He considers resisting the urge to rub his groggy face into Forsythe's skin, embarassingly dog-like, but in the end decides he's owed the indulgence anyway. As revenge at least. His arms, already around the squirmy lasombra, tighten like a straightjacket, the teeth dislodge from his flesh at last, and he flattens his nose against Jones' cheek.

"Wretched mosquito." he mutters lovingly to the sharp edge of a pale jawline, giving it a good-natured nip for measure.

[moonebath]

I remember the first day we planned to meet each other. Anxiously we waited, we both slept like shit. I had to take a walk in the morning to collect myself. We agreed to meet at 8am due to lack of sleep. I was eating breakfast prior and suffering from the most sorrowing stomach pain I’ve ever had. I contemplated cancelling but didn’t.

We met at the mall, it was sunny and airy that morning. I embarassingly had to stop for tums at the mall’s drug mart. Meeting you in the lot, I downed a couple tums humbly.

We went into starbucks and the book store, where a 12 year old kid struck up continuous conversation with me. I was so in awe. Why did this kid want to talk to us about manga so bad? You with your book, slowly faded away and distanced. Me, not knowing you didn’t like kids kept yapping to the youngster. I set off with a smile, it made my day.

As someone who likes to plan things, you were more of a wing-it. We agreed to go on the walk I suggested before of the 3km loop because of the lack of fields you preferred to lay in that didn’t exist within my town. I wished they did.

We walked 23,000 steps together, 3km felt like nothing. We talked about whatever and laughed. The only soreness I had was on the way back in my legs, but was quickly dismissed due to tangling myself in conversation once again. The only picture I took was of some purple (pink?) orchids we found.

After our walk, we sat down and decided on where to eat. We chose sushi, which Japanese happens to be a commonplace for our dates now, which I love. We warmly kept conversation flowing, and exchanged eye glasses. We have similar prescription. My frames suited you so well.

I’ll never forget expressing my fears to you one by one, just wanting to lay them out completely on the table. One of them is space, and I explained, “I just feel like it’d feel so psychologically traumatizing to be there, it’s a whole ‘nother world”- and you said, “homie, I gotta tell you something. Did you know you’re in space right now?” Laughing my ass off, I realized the lack of forethought and my awareness of how I truly am in space and it still has not registered within me entirely.

We spent the afternoon laying in the park grass and chatting peacefully. The silence felt comfortable when it came by. I couldn’t stop looking at you, my brain was begging me to kiss you. I kept swallowing my thought and shunning it away into the corners of my mind, but it persisted. I respected you so much that I thought I’d have to live with this secret the rest of my life.

Then the rain came, it smelled so good. We decided to get boba as it was approaching 8pm. We made it with an hour to spare, cozying in the small booth across from each other. When they were close to closing, we transferred to our vehicles where we sat outside them and watched the sunset around us. We delved into the deeper topics of ourselves, after resisting the urge to trauma dump our last relationship until the last portion of our date. At this point you had no plutonic feelings for me, but it couldn’t have been more opposite for me. I asked you for advice on a recent situation and you gave me advice I needed to hear. Feeling seen and safe, I began to almost doze off standing up in your presence. I needed to go home before I started coming off affectionate with no filter.

The next occurrence was when I passively hinted about being invited to your cabin, so you did. I had told you I had a crush which was actually terrifying. You reassured me gently, and the night before you reciprocated your feelings to me. I hadn’t been so happy in so so long.

This song above is a perfect representation of the cabin. Only you and I will know what occurred then. The reason why I’m writing all of this is to remember details in the future because I never want to forget. I sat here listening to this song after almost a month of knowing you and I just started to cry. I have been having such a difficult time crying lately, but there is so many emotions I’ve been feeling since I’ve met you. I felt like an elderly version of myself looking back with satisfaction and sentiment as tears twinkled from my eyes down my cheeks. Silly, I know, but so true.

I love you so much.

[mokutone]

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[paeinovis]

I just realized that the deep fried turkey thing was remixed by melodysheep and suddenly everything makes total sense

[runawaymun]

Ok, but do you know what daddy!Elrond means? It means grandmother!Galadriel and grandfather!Celeborn and I just… IMAGINE! Galadriel would become the mother figure in your life after Celebrían sails to Valinor and would be all sweet and soft (and totally look into her mirror and tell you a thing or two, even though she probably shouldn't do it. But she can't help it, she just wants the best for you!). And Celeborn wouldn't be any better. He simply can't say no to any of his grandchildren. Whenever you had to leave again, he would have the most heartbroken smile on his face. He's really awful at saying goodbye and wants you you to stay forever. But of course, he lets you go again.

I just... I love dad!Elrond Imagines but I can't help but wonder what Galadriel and Celeborn would be like as grandparents. 🥺👉👈

🥺👉👈

asldgkhjkl no no no I am so late this has been in my inbox for such an embarassingly LONG time but!!!!

Galadriel is a very Warm grandmother, okay? She’s the kind of grandmother that’s casually adjusting/fixing your clothing and hair. Warm forehead kisses. Shoulder squeezes. Little spells and incantations woven into goodnight, sleep well, which will make sure that your dreams are pleasant. Very Safe. She already Knows Everything but is very content with empathy and secretive smiles. If you want to Tell Her then you can, anything. But She Knows, but like in the most comforting way possible.

Celeborn IS bad at saying goodbye!!! and he spoiled Cel and he’s even worse with grandkids. He will literally let you get away with murder. His goal in life is to be the Fun Grandpa and he absolutely is. He’s also the kind of grandpa that is nice to curl up against, rest your ear against his chest, and just chill while he tells you some story that happened 1000s of years before you were born. He has a very nice storytelling cadence that’s super calming. 

Also constantly wants to stuff you with sweets. He just Does. Galadriel finds it rather exasperating (affectionate) actually. 

[opalesense]

aaa could you do something similar to 'a funny secret' but with childe?? have a good day!

unfamiliar feeling

childe & gn!reader (NSFW)

1k words • ~6 min. read

summary: you decide to tell childe about an unfamiliar feeling you got while watching him seize some bandits.

warnings: bondage mention

notes: two requests in one day?? i’m on a roll!!

CHILDE DIDN’T MIND LETTING YOU TAG ALONG with him while he did his rounds of debt collection in liyue. after all, you had expressed interest in learning more about the fatui ever since you two first met and he was happy to show you his day to day obligations if it didn’t include confidential matters. besides, there was no harm in letting you watch him rough up a few bandits and scammers – in fact, he enjoyed being able to proudly show off his skills in front of you to boost his ego.

little did he know what was actually running through your mind as you watched him effortlessly use his pure strength in combat. you hated to admit it, but something inside of you would heat up as you stared at his movements, or listened to the way he would sternly command his fellow fatui underlings to clean up the messes he made after he was done with a fight. and when he dusted his shoulders off, looked up at you from the distance, and sent you a wink and a smile, you swore you could feel butterflies in your stomach. that was the best way you could describe the feeling, but it was definitely a new sensation that you couldn’t quite understand.

after the deed was done, he was happy to hold you in his arms afterwards and shower your head in kisses as you let him boast about the fight he had just finished. you always thought he had a cute childelike innocence whenever he boasted, despite the subject matter being quite grim... but regardless, he would take you to dinner, maybe stroll around the harbor, then take you home. and that was that.

but there was one particular day that got you riled up much more than usual. childe had described that he’d need to tie these bandits up this time and send them on a boat to snezhnaya, as per the tsaritsa’s request. you didn’t think much of it, and childe didn’t make it seem like a big deal either, but when you stood there and watched him rough up the men while they were helplessly bound together by ropes... your lips began to quiver in arousal, eyes widened as you entered a state of yearning, watching his every move.

the way he laughed mockingly as he crushed the leader’s chest with his boot...

the way he tied the knots tighter when they didn’t give him an answer he liked...

the way he kneeled over them and taunted them, gripping their chins and forcing them to talk...

your breath hitched as you looked away in embarassment. you wanted that, didn’t you?

you two ended up alone together in the field after his crew swiftly carried the men away. like usual, he pulled you into an affectionate hug, showering you with kisses as he did every day. but this time he noticed you seemed more distraught than usual, more nervous and quiet instead of celebratory and proud of him.

“is there something on your mind, dear?” he left some space between your bodies to get a better look at your face, “i hope i didn’t scare you, i know today might have seemed a little more intense than usual...”

“no, no at all!” you managed to work up a smile as best as you could, “it’s just... i want to tell you something... about what happened...”

he was immediately concerned, thinking he did something wrong. “you can tell me anything, [Y/N]. i’m listening,” he muttered gently.

“i-it’s not bad or anything,” you reassured him, slowly running your hands up his biceps. “i... i just don’t know how you’ll react...”

“i won’t judge you, i promise,” he tried his best to wash your reluctance away. to take it one step further, he guided one hand to your waist and caressed your side, sending your chest pounding with excitement at the touch.

well, it’s either now or never.

“i know it might be a little sudden but... i think i was getting... aroused... watching you tie up those bad guys,” you shyly muttered, your eyes darting away from his gaze. “b-but i’m not sure...!”

you glanced up to see his eyes widened with shock. “i-i know it’s sudden! i’m sorry, i shouldn’t have said–“

your ramblings were cut off by childe’s mischievous snickers as his face softened. he laughed and laughed, never looking away from your timid, red face. after the laughter subsided, he placed his other hand on your waist, both hands slowly trailing up and down your hips. “so you’re saying you got aroused by... bondage?”

all you could do was nod and bury your head in his chest out of pure embarassment. he cooed at this, “aww... so you’re saying you want me to tie you up? degrade you and have my way with you while you’re vulnerable?”

“childe...!” you whined and snuggled into his chest more to hide your blushing face. he thought you were the cutest thing in the world.

“aww, don’t be so embarassed, that’s what you were thinking about, right? well, that was unexpected,” he pulled you closer and sighed, “and i never thought you’d be into that...”

his firm grip on your waist caused you to gently press up against his hips where you could feel a bulge slowly growing. your eyes widened at the feeling of him so hard against you, a small whimper escaped from your throat inciting another teasing chuckle from childe. “i’m sure you can feel that...” he muttered into your ear, “so i should have you know that i’m into that as well.”

you both stood there for a moment, your bodies pressed up so close while the seaside wind circled around you. he was almost glad that you were snuggled in his chest so you couldn’t see how embarassingly wide his smile was at the moment.

“the general store by wanmin restaurant has some decently strong bundles of rope if you want to stop by on the way home after dinner tonight,” he cut the silence to tease you, which you playfully smacked his arm in response. but you didn’t fully oppose the idea, which left room for the both of you to individually fantasize about the night to come as you walked back towards the harbor together.

[stainedglassthreads]

I have a very complicated relationship with Asgoriel as a pairing. 

I will preface this by saying, if you enjoy Asgoriel because you like sweet, fluffy, happy pairings, I’m not trying to attack you. I do understand that these characters have been through a lot, and people want their favorites to be happy, and for a lot of people, ‘being happy’ means ‘in a loving relationship, as an escape from how life can be rough’. You can scroll past this if you so desire. But I'd be delighted if you ask yourself if the ONLY happy ending for these two characters is ‘in a loving relationship again, possibly with children’. 

On the one hand, I don’t like Post-Pacifist Asgoriel stories. I feel like the majority of them skip over the very real issues that Toriel and Asgore have, in an attempt to make Asgore happy, because the author believes the goat dad deserves happiness, and the only way he can acquire happiness is by giving him back the things he yearns to have back. Sometimes with a fankid for extra cuteness. 

But not only does this feel unfair to Toriel, who firmly establishes that she does not want to be friends with Asgore anymore... but it feels like it’d be horribly unhealthy for Asgore, too. 

In both Undertale and Deltarune, Asgore fixates on the past. To perhaps an unhealthy degree in Deltarune. In Undertale, when he’s forced to confront how recreating his perfect happy family and ignoring all the horrible things that happened is impossible, he kills himself. It feels to me that just shoving him back together with Toriel, and giving him Frisk, a newly revived Asriel, or a new baby fankid, to give him his desperately desired happy family, is not actually giving him a happy ending. it’s enabling his tendency for denial. He’s not actually dealing with his grief, or suicidal depression, he’s pretending that nothing bad ever happened, or something similar. Attempts to give him this ending exactly, or pretending that it’s Toriel’s responsibility to smile to make him happy, feels like it’s missing massive, gaping chunks of Asgore’s character and flaws. 

On the other hand... writing their relationship as though they never, ever loved each other also bothers me a lot? 

I’ve seen some takes, occasionally, that Asgore is abusive, or that Toriel never loved him. Admittedly, six years after the game’s creation I’ve stopped really seeing them, but they used to be based off Asgore’s reaction to his kids’ deaths, Asgore and Toriel’s behavior in the True Pacifist ending, and the fact that they had separate rooms. I feel like pretending that they never loved each other... misses the point of their whole tragedy, too. Just as much as claiming that Chara was evil and only ever wanted a boss monster’s soul from the Dreemurrs. 

Toriel and Asgore were so embarassingly sappy that they had cute nicknames for each other. Toriel, specifically, had at least two or three for Asgore. They were so physically affectionate that they beat the incredibly lovey-dovey Dogi in a nose-nuzzling competition. And they may have had different rooms, but Toriel was so excited about being a mother that she woke Asgore up in the middle of the night to tell him mom puns, and once he had woken up a bit, he laughs at them and tries making puns back. 

They loved each other. They were happy together. And then a horrible tragedy hit them, and they both made the wrong choice in dealing with it. And then they both kept making wrong choices. Asgore declared war, and through either his declaration or his own weapon, killed six children that Toriel had cared for. Toriel stayed in the Ruins, unwilling to decisively pick a side between her husband and her children, for fear it would end in watching one of them die. They let an indefinite period of time pass, without really dealing with their grief or their mistakes. 

The point of the tragedy isn’t that one was a victim and the other was a horrible person. It’s sad and painful and engaging and compelling because it’s complicated and there is no real ‘bad guy’. Flattening it into ‘well, it was just a little spat and they managed to work it out!’ feels reductive to me, but so does ‘they don’t love each at all anymore, perhaps they never did.’ I think they still did love each other, and they may have been why Toriel was so unwilling to decisively stop Frisk and Asgore’s fight. But also... love is not some magical force that saves people all by itself. It’s just another emotion. Like fear. Like anger. Like joy. 

I don’t think Toriel and Asgore will ever truly regain the relationship they once had. It’s a tragedy that impacted the entire Underground for generations. That’s not to say they can’t ever be friends, or even begin a new relationship. But Asgore needs to overcome his suicidal depression instead of relying on a romantic partner to save him, and Toriel needs to learn to take care of herself instead of other people. And I think they both need some time... apart, but not alone. They were both self-isolating for a long time, and I don’t think leaping into a romantic relationship where they rely on just each other for happiness and denial is the healthiest thing. I think they both need more friends than just Sans and Undyne, respectively. 

[glasyasbutch]

sorry I’m on mobile. interiors and contact for roona and whoever else is tasty

Interiors: Describe your OC(s) bedroom / home / a place they consider theirs. What’s in it? Do certain items have a significance to your character?

Roona: So like, any d&d character doesn’t have much of a bedroom bc they’re wandering around camping and killing shit, but roona especially doesn’t, because she’d be wandering even if she wasn’t an adventurer. 

That said, she definitely has some quirks and things she does in any inn room to feel more at home. She has a special layout of all her instruments + swords that she keeps at the foot of her bed when she’s not performing, she has a few stolen candlesticks that always go on the night table, and she’s got a blanket that a kind stranger gave her that she sleeps under most nights. I think its a grandma quilt cause why the fuck not. 

Ebbie: At the monastery, and even worse at home, Ebbie’s room was just. Stuffed to the brim with shit. Broken machines, scrap metal, half-finished projects, crumpled up paper of plans that he didn’t like but couldn’t bring himself to put away, tools that he was in the middle of using before he realized he was running late and left in the middle of working on something. Trip hazard to anyone involved. For better or for worse, that is now all packed as tightly as humanly possible into his jingly backpack.

Nissy: Before he left Rosohna, he had a stupid fucking rich kid room, with art on the walls that he didn’t appreciate and a bed more lavish than he’d ever need, an on suite bathroom with full amenities, a walk in closet, all oak furniture, you know. Rich Bitch Stuff. One cute thing I have is that he and Leth have rooms next door and have found a spot in the wall where the insulation’s run thin enough that they can hear each other if they talk into it, marked by some school certificates they both have hung there. 

Tov: Does have a room to himself, actually, because his party was gifted ownership of a tavern with living quarters above it early on in the campaign. His room is almost embarassingly bare, since he lived in the woods before this and didn’t have a lot of excess possessions. I’m including him purely because, at this exact moment in-game, everything he owns is shoved in the closet because he loaned his room to Savra for the night but didn’t want her to get weirded out by him asking her to stay in his room after the first date so he pretended it was a guest room and then slept on the floor in rowan and moos’s room, and I think that’s funny as hell. 

Stella: Including her mostly to be emo about stellis :3 

Now that she’s no longer a wanted assassin, she has like, a little apartment and everything where she lives when she’s not on hunting jobs. The place is more functional than personal at this point, cause she hasn’t been there long and doesn’t have a lot of spare cash. She keeps a lot of plants though, growing in various pots all over the place. She doesn’t have a pet of her own, since she leaves for long periods of time, but she puts out food for strays when she’s around and has a good rapport with several birds, a few cats, a dog, and a bitch of a squirrel. 

She also keeps in her bedroom, on her desk: her letter writing supplies, a gold ring that she definitely did not buy for herself, a nearly empty perfume bottle for a scent she doesn’t wear, and a dragonchess set which is all white pieces save one black one with a rose carved in the bottom. (Craving has the opposite, all black w/ one white and a star) (they use them to seal their coded letters).

Contact: How does your OC feel about physical contact? Are they affectionate? If so, how do they display affection towards others? Roona: VERY cuddly. As she did in session tonight, she likes leg hugs because that’s usually about where she can get to on other people. Sitting in laps, piggy back hugs, and of course her fanny pack rides are also all commonplace with her.  She kinda .... crawls all over you like weevils but in a loving way.

I’m gonna try and keep it short for the rest of them bc this is already super long but ... Craving: very touchy w/ her hands with anyone she thinks isn’t like. destestable, but it’s rare that she’ll let anyone get more than that. hugs are a rarity but she does like getting them from people she really trusts. Tov: not super cuddly, but he likes sharing space. sitting next to someone and your shoulders or legs bump and you don’t move away.

Stella: Aggressive hugger. If you’ll remember, post killing Mystra she bull-rushed craving the lobby of motherfuckers unlimited and picked her up despite being two feet shorter than her. She grew up in a very tactile environment and it’s stuck with her

Hed’ja: doesn’t mind touch but rarely initiates it

Gildy: hugs? good. patting/pinching cheeks? good. holding hands? good. carrying people? good. she like it

Ezra: If someone else needs a hug he won’t like. run away. but he’s not really a physically affectionate guy. even more so now that he’s wearing heavy armor pretty much any time he’s not asleep. he does like to carry people, but he will NOT be asking anyone anytime soon because that feels Way too intimate (even though pointy’s like. already falling asleep on nyxi after getting her hair braided but w/e)

Udoora: INCREDIBLY TOUCHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVES HER FRIENDS NEEDS THEM TO FEEL IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t think I ever got to lay on hands anyone in the oneshot I played with her, but if I had, it would have been cheek kisses every time.

Nissy: ew no

Ebbie: More often than not it makes him tense, but he’s not like. Appalled by it. He’s also had to get used to a fair amount of touch cause he’s like a monk, but that’s not really physical affection

[rorykillmore]

to steal one from you, who are your character's daemons closest to?

matthias kind of keeps to himself, like he’s very.... self-confined and solitary even around the daemons of people lucille is close to. i will say he’s probably more relaxed around baltus and maria’s daemon, and a little more emotive, but he’s just... not really the type to be cuddly or even to want to interact very much? but it says a lot when he’s willing to just curl up and chill near someone, so

ciaran is kind of a dick to most people’s daemons. not just in the “he can be aggressive if provoked” kind of way, but even insofar that he’ll go out of his way to instigate and tease them. the only exception to this i can think of currently on denny is hestia, ed’s daemon, who is so easy-going and patient that ciaran has a hard time messing with her without kind of feeling like an idiot. embarassingly enough, she also kind of mothers him -- and he lets her. he’s also pretty fond of raptor red, who doesn’t have a daemon of her own, so he occasionally just enjoys climbing all over her the way he does siobhan.

caitlin’s daemon, who doesn’t have a name, probably likes the cat gods a lot. i imagine that somehow... correlates, like daemons might be particularly drawn to purely spiritual creatures like that. i honestly haven’t really thought about caitlin’s daemon that much oooor how he would even work, given the killer frost situation, so i can’t be much more specific with this answer SORRY

ophelia is basically the team mom of the legends’ daemons. for all that she can be reserved, even intimidating, in standard interactions, she’s pretty much a softie with her team and lets them climb all over her. it does ruin her image a LITTLE when peregrine fusses over her, but i don’t know what she expects at this point, honestly.

speaking of times when ophelia is way less intimidating, she and artemis are probably insufferable together. you know how like. when you see videos of tame cougars, they pretty much just act like giant housecats, to the point where they purr and do those really squeaky meows? that’s ophelia around artemis. no one else is allowed to know,

she’s probably also a little friendlier with some of the daemons of sara’s other friends like shiro, but its the legends + nyssa’s daemon that she’s Particularly close to

finley, like heather, is a bit cliqueish with his affection. he definitely plays favorites, and right now his favorites are casimir and maverick.  he has a more complicated relationship with heather duke’s daemon (whose name is escaping me rn, goddamnit) but i would list him here too just because.... finley definitely loves him, he just doesn’t always like him, if that makes sense? they’re inevitably bonded by, well, chandler and duke’s bond, but they both have very strong personalities and finley clashes up against duke’s daemon’s tendency to stir the pot a lot.

even outside this au and on denny currently (since the heathers cast are among the few used to seeing their daemons semi-frequently), he... misses nut a lot. it’s weird because even when she was around, he was closer to casimir, which is a bit telling (in general, it’s a bit telling that finley and casimir are obnoxiously inseparable when they’re together) but... he got really used to having nut around and now she just. isn’t. 

madeline’s daemon, the as of now nameless chihuahua, is also probably buddies with casimir (aka casimir gains a Parent), but he’s probably notorious in general for kind of herding the daemons of kids in beacon heights. he will also, true to real chihuahuas, 500% get ready to throw down with anyone who threatens them, even daemons who take like, way bigger forms.

speaking of people who are way bigger than him, he is probably bold enough to try to hang out ON knock out, at some point. or just go for car rides, because you know how much dogs love those

trish’s daemon is actually another one i haven’t thought about much.... rip, but it’s probably safe to say that they had a very close but complicated relationship with jessica’s daemon, and that they’re pretty protective of eddie and bev’s. they would also probably 1v1 pennywise,

levi is a bit weird because in the setting i originally envisioned him in he is very much a pack animal daemon, very like, resilient and confident and inspiring of those traits in others, buuut on denny he would probably spend way more of his time being more distant and intimidating and making sure most people’s (or well, humans’) daemons know to to keep their distance. he’s pretty clear about not considering himself the same as them.

but that being said, in daemon au he and mist would have spent like, a ridiculous amount of time together by this point, and she’s a canine too, so they’ve probably developed a very easy and familiar camaraderie. and he’s very fond of peregrine, though he’s at the point where he’s still a little uncertain of how much he wants to show it, whereas i think dolores is more easily affectionate with laurel.

and of course he’d be much more easily open and expressive with maeve’s daemon and probably find it validating that they even... exist

(i also suddenly really want to see levi’s dynamic with bolt, holy shit. or like, what maive would think of him??)

and sophie’s daemon (?), who i still haven’t decided if they even exist, although i have thought about making them something REALLY extra like a tiger. i had an old headcanon when i played katherine from tvd that when people turn, their daemons often change and become large and more predatory, so i’ve been thinking about applying that here. anyways regardless, they’re probably as flighty as she is so i doubt they’re all that attached to other denny daemons as things stand now, although they’re probably friendly-ish with maria’s.

[ieyasu-tacogawa]

Ieyasu Spinning Thoughts JP Epilogue

I'm not translating their passionate cries, sorry lmao. There isn't that much smutty stuff anyway.

Summaries

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Finale

Epilogue (you are here)

I also wanted to clarify their castle situation for anyone who is confused (I was lol). The Tokugawa clan was originally residing in Hamamatsu Castle. Ieyasu was making plans to eventually move them to Sunpu. At the moment, Sunpu is still under construction. However, with the Hojo starting war and planning to attack Sunpu, Ieyasu makes plans for them to temporarily move to Sunpu early and finish the war, then move back to Hamamatsu until Sunpu is finished. THEN they'll all move to Sunpu for good.

Summary:

Ieyasu and MC are making out heavily. Ieyasu thinks damn, this is hot. He wants to both destroy her ass and treasure her. He kisses her neck then unties her obi cord. MC's body is fully exposed to him. She gives him a look of both embarrassment and "my body is ready Lord Ieyasu." Ieyasu thinks "I don't want to let her go." This brings up some memories of the past events. Seriously Ieyasu you are about to end your drought and you think of THIS?

Flashback to a few months ago. After Hanzo delivers the message that MC left, Ieyasu is incredibly angry. He's upset that MC didn't talk to him or explain anything. How could she think she knows what would be best for him? He's been mulling over the Hojo situation and the state of the Tokugawa clan this whole time, why would she leave for his sake?

What upsets him the most, more than her lack of communication, is himself. Ieyasu thinks that if he wasn't such a weak person, MC wouldn't have felt the need to go away for him. "If only I had more power." As Ieyasu stands there, the white flower bud glows under the moonlight.

Later, Hanzo reports that the Hojo are attacking as expected since Ieyasu refused to marry into Hojo. Since their goal is to attack Sunpu, Ieyasu says they will depart immediately then return to Hamamatsu after. Ieyasu chides himself for hoping during war preparations that Yukwon will return from Kyoto.

To clear his mind Ieyasu goes on a walk. His feet take him to their flower garden. He sees their flowers, still green and living. However, the white flower bud is gone. He wonders did it wither, or did it scatter away? Ieyasu is reminded of the time he and MC were tending the flowers. MC took his hand and told Ieyasu not to throw his heart away. Ieyasu says to no one

"You... What about you?"

Even though he knows he won't get an answer, he touches the green leaves of the flowers and stares at the sky, broken hearted

(Obligatory naked Ieyasu photo, I didn't feel like going through the epilogue again just for photos sorry)

Back to the present, they're getting hot and dirty. Ieyasu starts thinking about how closely he wants her (not a single gap between their bodies, not even those made by clothes). He thinks to himself that he doesn't want her to go anywhere. MC then cries that she doesn't want him to leave her. This makes Ieyasu realize he's not the only one who wants to be together.

Flashback again (sigh) to when MC tackled him, cried and told him what she wanted to stay by his side. She ended up falling asleep, leaning on him. Ieyasu embarassingly and affectionately brushes her hair from her eyes, noting their redness from her crying earlier as well as the tear stains on her cheeks. He picks her up to move her to a more comfortable area. However, just as he's about to set her down, sleeping MC clings to his coat more tightly. Ieyasu comments that it's impossible for him to not stay with her now, which of course makes him really happy.

The next morning, the sunlight wakes up Ieyasu. He feels a moment of anxiety until he sees MC. She tells him good morning. He grabs her arm and cuddles with her. Her body is cold because of the cool morning air, but Ieyasu doesn't care. He's so happy that he can feel himself blushing. He tightens his grip on MC so that she won't be able to look at his embarrassed face.

MC laughs. She tells him "let's go look at the garden later." Ieyasu comments that there won't be any flowers. Ieyasu had secretly checked on them earlier LOL but he doesn't tell MC that. MC says that is all the more reason to check on them. She continues on saying

"I want to see lots of flowers together with you, Ieyasu."

With this comment, Ieyasu sighs. MC asks him what's wrong. Ieyasu kisses her so that she stops talking. Ieyasu doesn't want to hide his heart anymore and he knows he resisting his feelings for her is meaningless.

[monstrously-yours]

Us borderlines are just raging cunts...

Raging cunts with on and off switches and eggshell hearts and thin ice everythings, but fuck if we can help it, fuck if any of us can help feeling the things we do, I mean obviously it isn't impossible but it will never cross anyone's minds just how Herculean it is to overcome such nasty thoughts and hallucinations about our most loved ones running away with someone marginally better or anyone else at all, and we throw tantrums and we are clingy and embarassingly dependent and at the flip of a coin icy and far away or warm and loving and obsessive and the best, most affectionate, tender people ever but if I know anything it's that everyone here is trying to be better even if they can't help themselves, even if the world sees us as irrational, fragile, paranoid, manipulative, and mean, even if we do end up breaking the camels back and losing it all. So honestly fuck it, you're doing your best and the world we live in won't accept our best but that just means we have to try harder to be kinder and better. It's the hardest thing I've had to do in my life. (And if you do lose it all, just remember that you have yourself before anyone else, and you are valuable. Don't underestimate it.)