#either way they're both having a good time regardless XD

[where-are-the-spooky-gays-2]

I think Virgil should randomly throw shit at remus

For the fun of it

Tbh remus would throw it right back

- Vee 💜

They can and will cause C H A O S together and Ree of course quite literally either eats whatever Vee throws at him or purposely misses just to see him jump XD

[kwillow]

Ambroys basking in his cache of gifts and sweet words from secret admirers. Gotta be careful, though. If his ego is inflated any more, he'll pop.

(I wanted to doodle something to accompany a post answering some messages regarding this candy-colored cad but got a bit carried away. :P Well regardless, asks under the cut!)

Why thank you! He would drunkenly insult people, though he tends to be more passive-aggressive and backhanded rather than outright insulting - well, most of the time, anyway. He thinks he's a lot more subtle in his derogatory comments than he actually is.

Aaaw, this is too sweet!

Older Ambroys is much more reserved about seeking and accepting physical affection than his younger self, for myriad reasons (that one day I will expound upon in more detail, fate willing). He still enjoys it, though.

He's still proud of the stars on his cheeks and the gold in his hair and all that, but the signs of age are something he is not at peace with. For some, like the wrinkles, they're a sign that his time on this earth is finite - and death terrifies him. For others, like his paunch, it's more just embarrassing to him in a more mundane and vain "I was voted Prom King in high school and I was on the Varsity track team now look at me I'm an old man boo hoo hoo" type of way (though he's actually more physically adept in his older age than he was when he was younger for Magical Heritage Bullshit reasons, the sentiment remains).

As for your question, it's totally fine with me for Ambroys to be portrayed as non-heterosexual in fanfic or fanart or one's secret imaginings. Even though all of his "canon" love interests are women, I wouldn't rule out of the possibility of him developing affections for someone who isn't a woman. Chase your bliss!

Haha well both furry and aasimar Ambroys would bask in the attention, though poor aasimar Ambroys' jealousy is not going to be helped!

No shame on being a furry though. I didn't consider myself one either but I feel like it's harder to make the argument that I'm not given the sheer number of ponies I've drawn by now...

He would accept this, so long as you don't mess up his hair.

He would say: "good!" I would say "don't waste your life on him!"

Oh he would be pleased to be so distracting, I'm sure.

And sometimes we can't help but to have a type... I know I seem to have a thing for rich effete douchebags with buck teeth and big pointy noses... not quite sure what's up with that.

Yessss... yesssssssss... or perhaps I should say "I'm sorry."

I didn't mean to make him this way... I guess I underestimated the power of a brushable mane.

Ambroys DOES like being worshipped (way too much and way too literally, as you might be able to tell) but he wants to have his imperfections hidden if he can!

He's just horribly, horribly vain and unwilling to let go of his youth... even though he got to enjoy being youthful for three times as long as a mortal would.

YES that song is on his playlist (which I have for all my main characters because I'm a dork). It's just too perfect. One of the many ideas on my miles-long to do list has to do with depicting a scene from that song. The trouble is that it has to do with dancing, and boy am I not very good at drawing dancing poses. xD Oh well, gotta try for the boy!

Heh well I think we could agree that a normal horse probably couldn't pull off the breeches he wears quite so well... I'm flattered that you think of him when you see horsies in the flesh! Huzzah, I've ruined one of the Earth's beautiful creatures for you! >:)

Oh wow, my guy is stepping out of my brain and into other people's subconsciouses... I need to put a leash on him. :P But this was a fun read!

It's very in character Ambroys to try to undercut a rival's self-esteem by framing it as something OTHER people say, but oh no, he'd NEVER say something like that, of course. Mean girl behavior. He does have friends that don't actually like him - and he doesn't like them either. But one needs to have friends for appearance's sake - just one more accessory, really!

OKAY, I think that's everything! Or at least enough for this post, ahah.

Thanks to everyone for your kind words on my not-so-kind character.

Unlike him, I'm really humbled and grateful by the positive reception he's received. I deeply appreciate your kind messages... even when it takes me eons to reply to them, gah.

[cttrajan1206]

hi!! im here to ask about your ocs!!

first of all i would like to say PLEASE read the shadows house manga if you werent planning on it already...! youll get so much more that wasnt offered in the anime since it cuts off at season 2 , its just so good.. SO GOOD ok. ok

about astral and anjem!

i know you said you dont have all the details worked out so its ok if you dont have an answer to any of this atm!

could you talk a bit more about their dynamic/relationship, if you have anything else you wanna say?

what are their goals in the house? are they pursuing roles within relief team, starbearers, etc? are they wanting to get invited?

how good is astral at controlling his soot power? do you think its likely any of his experimenting on anjem could go wrong + how would he react, would he be able to fix it?

love ur ocs :}

WAAA HELLO?? i never original post ever so i was really surprised and excited when you reblogged it saying you'd read it later - AND NOW IN MY INBOX TOO? WAAAA.... >O<

But waa ok ok so! Funny enough, @tsukiomoon was over at my house and convinced me to read Shadow House (having watched the anime) while we were at a bookstore. I'd already glanced at it a few times over the years so I was. Very easy to convince tbh djdhfjf So I actually began with reading the first two volumes!! Then after that, I was thoroughly hooked so we proceeded to binge the entirety of it together in two days. That said, I'd love to read the manga. I'm debating on it because the official translation -> scanlation currency exchange is not in my favour ToT but I think I like it enough to bear through it, the anime missed a few scenes from even just the first two volumes after all.

Onto the ocs!!

Dynamic/relationship: This is a fun one. I've mentioned they both very much love each other already, I think at first they're both very superficial about it and build up versions of each other in their head (Astral even moreso having known longer). It gets deeper as time goes on but Astral isn't obssessed with Anjem just as a person, but also for his quality of being human. Anjem is similar likewise but there's a mighty power imbalance there.

Astral is actually also a special shade! He remembers before morphing. He's probably the worst one to do so though because he doesn't really care about the Shadow House - not when it gives him license to not only have Anjem to himself, but also such close access to humans. To him, the memories just give him a clearer understanding if the Faces' limits. He gets very annoyed with seeing others treat their living dolls badly and will pick fights about it or ask Anjem to give them recompensary gifts to them.

Anjem I'm less clear on... He's bad at cleaning but Astral doesn't mind particularly (and also doesnt produce enough soot for it to be a problem). The rigid structure of his life gives him comfort in its reliability but he does often long for some of the luxuries Shades get. Like nice clothes and better food. He doesn't like coffee though haha. I don't think either of them ever realise the brainwashing thing bc Anjem's too picky and never fully swallows the coffee anyway, sometimes vomiting it out. He still gets the effects partially though

Goals: I think Astral does want to escape the House eventually - he doesn't care too much for getting everyone else out, he just wants to find more and more humans and learn everything he can about them. Anjem I haven't decided too much yet. He knows Astral's goal and wants to be there with him to see it too, to travel the world, but I think he'd be scared of taking that step.

I think he wants to see his siblings again, one last time

Roles: Oop... Astral's power is very good for healing wounds so technically the relief team would be good for him but I personally wouldn't put him in a room with so many humans in it XD He keeps his power very downlow but regardless, I think he'd have made his way into the relief team. He's their bigger advocate on training to treat dolls better.

Anjem wanted to be in the research team instead but, as a Face, he has to tag along and look pretty

Power: At first Astral was pretty bad at controlling his power. He doesn't have blood himself after all, it was very unknown territory. In fact, the only way he Did grow better at it was When his experiments on Anjem failed. They could be very dangerous failures too, in case his soot clogged a vein or he clotted uo the wrong part or forced it to produce too much blood. In his panic to fix it, he tended to reflexively reverse whatever he'd done and so far, though there have been catastrophes, Anjem hasn't died. There was a time when Astral stopped his heart but that's whatever, he's immensely better at controlling them now. He doesn't frequent the training room (especially since his powers require blood), but instead has perfected his powers through practice in his room. He does also keep a few vials of blood he requests from the relief team that uses to practice with at times.

He prefers it best when it's with Anjem though :)

There was once, when the brainwashing had worn off more, where Astral fucked up. In attempting to heal a wound on Anjem's wrist, he accidentally sped up the production of the blood and it poured everywhere, spilling out faster than healthy. Anjem, wide eyed and afraid that this time, he was going to die, scrambled away from him screaming. He tried to run away but the pain was blinding him so much he could barely concentrate. Nothing Astral said could convinve him to calm down, and the last thing he saw before passing out was Astral roughly grabbing at his arm.

Astral was able to stop the blood, working with this as an experiment to control his area of effect, and sealed the wound. He bandaged it up and treated it with care, pressing a careful kiss of regret on the bandage and on Anjem's hand, the black mark staining his skin.

Anjem woke later in his box. He was afraid and angry and upset. He didn't talk to Astral for a full week, only interacting with him as a Face. Astral was heartbroken by this and apologised many times. They made up finally, after Astral stopped him from cleaning and held his hands, about to apologise again, when suddenly Anjem lifted the shade's hands and pressed a kiss to each.

"I'm tired of this. I miss speaking with you. I forgive you, so stop apologising every time I enter a room."

That mended things but going forward, Astral started getting external vials until he was better at his control.

Tidbits!

Astral likes his name but also wants to be separate from it. In private, he asks Anjem to call him "Aster" as a similar compromise. Anjem means "star" in arabic - he named his Face to match the name he preferred :)

Anjem is mostly good at reading Astral's emotions but they have a system of handsignals and body language to indicate the faces they want to make.

I've been thinking on them and their age awhile. I hadn't noticed when I made them that adults get finer clothes than the chikdren but I refuse ti change my design, I'm attached </3 I think they're similar to Barbara and Maryrose - old but still in the children's wing by virtue of not being given an invitation

This is partly due to Anjem's scar but mostly due to Astral's refusal to be useful outside of the bare minimum (this is not a noble thing, he's lowkey just lazy)

Oh my god I wrote a lot sdjbhf

Yeah!! That's them! That's my boys. I'm thinking of making a couple more too - I want to explore the idea of someone using their Face to hide disguise their real emotions

Thank you so much for asking 😭 it means the world to me and got me to think about them more

As an extra, have a doodle of Anjem's second sight of Astral:

[katyspersonal]

18 for Gehrman and 22 & 25 for Laurence!

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

We only really have Laurence, Maria, Doll and Moon Presence because whereas Willem, Djura, Eileen and Ludwig are addressed there is so much to headcanon about them that it probably evades "in canon" category... :') I really love the depth and the sadness of both his bonds with Maria and Laurence, regardless of whether they're romantic or platonic. I am a little antsy that they've left some lines suggesting a much deeper bond with Laurence in cut content realm, but I am reusing everything I physically can, sooooo xD

There is also Paleblood Hunter which I love to think is sort of reincarnation of Laurence ( x ), but this one, again, either falls back into Laurence category or there isn't enough to develop during just one night.. 🤔 Final product suggests that Gehrman loves all hunters equally, including us, which is still sweet!

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don't like?

Hahaha, tough luck, I only read fanfics from either 1) people that are unreachable and would never interact with the fandom or 2) people I trust deeply as friends! Reading fanfics became way too important emotional experience for me to mentally manage feeling rejected by the writer as a person. But in the AU where I am a normal person without such deep insecurities, I say everything regarding his story is good! Byrgenwerth era where he only starts picking interest in holy blood? Good. Early Healing Church? Good. His last days where he can't save himself anymore? Good. Whatever time of his life you take will be interesting, because HE is interesting! I definitely adore how Laurence is included in your fanfic, both his personality and his actions!

I do not know the state of Bloodborne fanfics well enough to judge, so I think my general turn-off applies; romantic/sexual fanfics that have such little character-specific or lore-specific context that if you detach the characters from the source material no one will notice! Good ship fanfic is the one that specifically applies to these characters, not just a random fantasy with their names attached! Easiest cheat with this problem is having characters reminiscise or address some prior events in canon, especially if they led to... uhhhh, the """interaction""", but really, there are various ways to bind them to the setting 🤔

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

YEEEEES YES GOOD QUESTION!!!! My first exposure to Bloodborne cast was getting recommended a compillation of boss themes with images attached on Youtube, so I just saw a BW image of his beast form without any context paired with his theme. For some reason I thought he was some wise, serious, dignified monster found (fought?) somewhere in library-like place, and that he could talk too!

I was yet to discover how feral this form of him really was, or that he even used to be a human to begin with! I thought this videogame just had monsters x) Now I am also aware how dirty his hands are, when I thought he was a morally grey character until [player] would disturb him for some reason. He is very complex and deep. Love him for that, but the guy is so heavy that memeing about him is easier dfshfhds But I was right on the money with 'dignified librarian dad' impression, after all! *spoon-feeds you my "Laurence is a son of Cainhurst librarian and quite a bookworm in general" speculation for 700th time*

^^^ This is also the closest I can get to my first mental image of his human form after I've learned he had one and was a scholar in Byrgenwerth! You can see dark hair and buttchin were always there, but he used to have green eyes and less facial hair... Also his glasses were exclusively for reading. And he was tall and less "cute". I agree the "handsome" beta Laurence is a bit better than my final product <:3 He feels more... laurence-y xD If I am to ever create something 'serious' for Bloodborne, like maybe a large comics, I might roll back to this image more, but for now it is all little kitten Laurence for me.

Thank you for asking!

[starrose17]

ok i'll bite cos youve got me intrigued. i wont ever play hogwarts legacy but who are these people Sebastian and Ominus that you keep reblogging about?

AH HA!

Okay yes thank you I'm glad someone asked but there will be MANY spoilers ahead!!!

Both Slytherin boys, 15 years old, basically they're your characters best friends in Hogwarts Legacy regardless of the House you choose, and have a integral part to play on if you choose to go down the good or evil route.

Ominis Gaunt is a parseltongue, and blind, and his "sentient" wand pulls him around Hogwarts. Possible great uncle to Voldemort (according to the dates in the HP wiki), his family would torture the local muggles by using Crucio on them (his brother possibly Marvolo Gaunt it's never officially stated in the game).

As a child Ominis refused to participate, so his family used Crucio on him until he relented and used Crucio on the muggles too, something he's never been able to forgive himself for. Because of this he hates the ties to the dark arts that his family has and distances himself from them entirely, and anything to do with the dark arts in general.

Which is what makes the angst so great and the shipping so great when it comes to his best friend, Sebastian Sallow.

Sebastian is crucial to the story, he has a sister named Anne who was cursed and is in constant pain (it's a long story i won't go into but it's a big part of the plot of the game) and who had to leave Hogwarts to remain at home with her uncle as their parents died a few years back.

In a desperate attempt to try and cure her Sebastian delves into the dark arts and teaches himself all 3 unforgiveable curses across the game (he can teach your character too if you choose), which causes the dark arts hating best friend Ominis to constantly be berating him, yet constantly forgiving him, yet constantly hating him for choosing this path, yet constantly refusing to leave his side and AHHHH I LOVE IT!

Some parts of the game get REALLY dark, like there's one quest where you're finding this secret scriptorium that belonged to Salazar Slytherin, and your character is trapped with both of them in a small corridor with nothing but a dead body belonging to Ominis' aunt, a locked door with screaming faces on it, and the word CRUCIO scratched on the floor.

The only way forward is to cast Crucio on one of the others, which the aunt couldn't do because she was trapped there alone so she starved to death. Ominis refuses to do it despite the fact he's the only one that's done it before, so Sebastian either casts it on your character, or you can cast it on him. Either way, poor Ominis standing there only able to hear one of his best friends scream in agony while the other uses a dark curse must be torture for him! (excuse the heart eyes oh baby the angst).

I mean throughout the game Sebastian uses Imperio to make a goblin stab himself instead as he was about to kill Anne, he also murders his own Uncle using Avada Kedavra, and at the end you and Ominis can either turn him over to the authorities (which ends with you hearing he's been expelled and awaiting trial), or you can keep it all a secret. Either way there's Azkaban angst or forgiveness between the deeply damaged Ominis who just cannot turn away his best friend despite the darkness that surrounds him, he will stick with him always <3<3<3<3

Plus there's also a ton of flirting that goes on, between them and your character. My favourite is just before the crucio part where we're all exploring in pitch black corridors:

Sebastian: "Hmm, a dark ominous corridor......my favourite."

Ominis: "...no comment."

I literally guffawed at that, a literal guffaw, I mean what were the writers actually trying to say here because it's damn obvious and yet... XD LOL

Plus around the time you first meet Sebastian (depending on what House you chose), you meet him during the dueling lesson and he just looks at you and says, "Time to give you a proper Hogwarts welcome." in this like proper sultry cheeky voice there's no other way of describing it.

Ahem, so, yeah...I might love them just a bit.

Ah, feels good to be back in the HP fandom again.

[slashingdisneypasta]

Alright uh... This is another really self indulgent ask that I got to embarrassed to post on my own blog. You don't have to publicly post this or even respond to it! These just made me smile, and I hope they make you smile too ^^

Ok so. I've been thinking more about the fanchildren for the ships, and that led to me thinking about how Poppy would be like during pregnancy. And now I say that Poppy gets very clingy and affectionate during that time. Like the guys would need to send at least five minutes saying goodbye to her before leaving for work because she keeps asking them to stay longer xD You see where I'm going with this?

I've got that HC that Psycho gets fiercely protective of his S/O when they're pregnant, so this actually works very well for Pocho... A little too well actually. Poppy and Psycho are in cuddle mode 24/7, regardless of where they are. At home? Psycho's curled around her while they're on the couch. They're on a walk together? They are AT THE VERY LEAST holding hands. They unintentionally enable each other's clinginess, and Smartass might as well grant Psycho maternity leave as well at this rate. He ain't getting his employee back soon XD

For Smarty-Pop, this is probably going to be a difficult time for Smartass XD they live with each other, so it's both a good and a bad thing he has his work in the same building he has his married life. He has trouble with physical affection and Poppy does try to understand... But at the same time, she still misses him! Even if he is just at his desk doing paperwork and she's on the couch some feet away. Smarty can tell his wife needs affection again when he looks up and he sees her 🥺 face XD (and that's when he's working at home. Imagine how hard it'd get when he has to actually go out!)

I'm not entirely sure how it'd work for Greasypop, or where Greasy's stance is on cuddles, but I have a feeling he'd try at least once to turn this into something more~ Poppy is just hugging him, all happy and content because she has her man ^^ until she feels his hand start to wander, or she happens to see the wheels in his head turning... But at the same time, she is a hormonal mess right now... Maybe she responds in kind? 👀 (also, she'd want to wear his jacket if he can't stay with her. Like if he has to go to work or something XD)

Ok so Wheezy is trying to control his smoking and clean himself up because they have a baby on the way, but he's still smoking. So in Peezy, Poppy is in agony because she can't be with Wheezy like she wants to in fear of endangering the baby's health. But when she can snuggle up to him, she loves it ^^ he's the tallest of the boys, and he's got long sinewy limbs, so the hugs feel even more all encompassing I like to think Wheezy might find this a bit amusing and ultimately wouldn't mind Poppy's extra clinginess.

For Grychoppy, I actually have a scenario I keep thinking about and wanting to write; they all go to the store together. Poppy wants to go outside to stretch her legs even though it's the layer months and it's getting more difficult to walk around. Psycho is worried about her being out and about now that the due date is near, so he's being extra fretful over Poppy while they're out (and growling at passersby). And Greasy is the one who has to be the voice of reason and convince Psycho that Pops is fine while she and him discuss talk about what to get. Just a nice, wholesome day out for the throuple ^^

One more thing before I leave you alone xD One more scenario I have in my head is kind of a bit darker (not too much!) and works with any ship. Basically, after her husband(s) leave for the day with the gang, Poppy is left alone at the house. They're gone for a while- like it's gotten dark. And eventually, some robbers try to break in while Poppy is in the house alone. She's terrified, as anyone would be, especially since now she's practically defenseless. But she does try to either hide or use one of Smarty's guns to intimidate the guys for the baby's sake. Though the boys come back home in time before anything bad happens. Pops is scared and shaking, especially since she knows that her friends and lover(s) aren't just going to let the robbers go, but she's just happy that they're here now.

I'm sorry for bombarding you with this ask 😅 whether you delete it or not, I hope you had fun reading these ^^

These were so lovely to read!! Ahh, I just keep imagining each of the boys taking like half an hour-45 minutes to say bye to pregnant Poppy every day now!! 😂 Like they have to factor that in, that having to ease her into the idea of them leaving for the day with plenty of cuddles and kisses and I'll be back in no time's is gonna take up to an hour so I better get up earlier XD Except for Psycho *cough*, who will just stay XD

Psychos really got me!! Go ahead Smartass, just let him go 😂😂

Omg! Smartass having to carefully coordinate both his work life and his married life- that's so perfect XD Like, he makes schedules (7am, wake up and say bye to Poppy. Be patient, she's carrying your child. You read the books, you know the hell she's putting up with. 8am, abduct pick up Wile E Coyote- give him cease and desist on the dynamite at dawn. 9.30am, paperwork. Give Pops a kiss. 10.30am- ). And he sticks to it.

Oh my lordddd if Poppy was feeling just amorous as Greasy, then Smartass is gonna have to grant him maturnity leave too XDD

Nahhh, you're right Wheezy wouldn't mind <3<3 And Grychoppy for the soul, too!! <3 <3 <3 Its all so sweet and cute and warm!!

And that last one!!! Oh Poppy!!!

Imagine near the due date, the weasels all decide that every day- one of them would stay home with Poppy! They'll take it in turns XD

[hauntu4ever]

I think about this a lot, because it's also something I struggle with. Recently I had some experiences that are now coming to me as a breakthrough, so I'm going to share them here.

What I'm thinking is that in order to understand flirting you have to have past experience, so here's a first question to anybody reading this:

Have you ever known a person who you couldn't live without? Someone who you want to know as friends more than anyone else in your life, that you want to try and do everything with? I'm not talking about family either, or like a cool coworker. I'm talking about someone for whom you have absolutely no rational reason to want to talk to as much as you do. So maybe not the cool coworker but rather the one you keep wanting to share things with, or some similar.

(I haven't; see the bottom for another couple experiences that might help.)

I don't know if that's love, I'm no expert, but I know that having someone like that puts everything else into perspective. If you know what I'm talking about, then you know the difference between someone you want to spend time with and someone you don't. You know what it means to want to hang out with someone for more than just the game you play together. Fundamentally, you understand wanting to be around someone. And if you understand that, you can ask the next question:

How do you keep them?

You personally, I mean - everyone's different. But either way, remember the premise. We're talking about a person who has no obligation to you, and you none to them. You don't have to be together - it would be perfectly rational to ghost and never talk to them again. But you don't want to. So now you're playing a game with them. You need to determine whether they feel similarly to you, whether they also want to be around you for no good reason; and you need to do this whilst keeping it friendly and not pushing them away. You need to make it so they don't go "wow this person is crazy" and ghost you, because again, there's no reason for them not to. Except for who you are.

The way you go about this is called flirting.

That's it. It's acting in a way that both emphasizes yourself and who you are (especially the best sides of yourself!) to that single person, and also plays to your current relationship while simultaneously growing it, all via doing what others might call "acting normally" as far as your behavior goes.

So, OP got called out for flirting with a whole discord. I don't know who was right there, whether she was actually flirting or the call-outer(?) was just overreacting to something she said, but it does raise a question. If this is what flirting is, then why not do it with everyone? Or perhaps, what is different in this from your usual behavior?

To answer the latter question first, it's intent. Intent and effort. When you flirt, you're actively trying to keep that person around, engaged, and interested. With the average person, you are (or you SHOULD be) just riding the waves, keeping it casual and chill, etc. You could say flirting is "your usual l, but more intense". To put down an example, if you like to share tumblr posts with people, maybe your version of flirting includes every time you send a post to someone *also* sending it to the person you're flirting with, regardless of whether it caters to their interests, just because you want to share things with them no matter what they are. And that means the conversation might be harder somehow, but it might also be more rewarding, or also tell you something about whether they're a good fit for you. Another example might be that you go hang out in call with them even though you never do so with other people. Stuff like that.

To answer the former question, it's because it's fucking exhausting. Rewarding, but exhausting xD Like we're talking about effectively catering your behavior to getting to know a single person, but doing that individually for everyone you know. Even if those behaviors are not in direct conflict with each other, it's probably really hard to maintain them, and the resulting amalgamation of behaviors probably doesn't even look like you all that much anymore. Something people find it easier, of course, but like as not you just don't have the physical and emotional energy to flirt with everyone you know all the time. If you do so then you probably get *really* exhausted by conversation, more so than might come from just being an introvert (or maybe you're not an introvert and this is what's tricking you into thinking you are - I don't know!). Depending on who you are, it's also possible that flirting with everyone causes you not to be very self-aware when talking, or to cross social boundaries by acting in ways that you think of as being yourself when those behaviors are just not cool by group norms. It could lead to awkward situations, or perhaps even something like what OP ran into.

So in conclusion: Flirting is a matter of being yourself but more intentionally, of getting to know a single person while letting them know you, of turning a single mundane relationship into something you both believe to be special. It's where you apply all those flirting rules and "get to know someone" strategies. It is also *extremely* subjective and very much based on the relationship that already exists. To tell whether you're flirting you have to know yourself, what you want, and how you want to go about achieving that, all to a degree you don't usually need to for other relationships. And of course, the only ways to know those things are to talk about them and to practice them. So get to trying xD

And to OP: Again, I don't know what that situation looks like. If you read this whole thing and went "that's not what I was doing at all!", then maybe the person who called you out was overreacting to something you said. Again, I don't know what, but there's some pretty easy ways to get people to think you're flirting, especially in sexual topics (via the age-old confusion of love with lust, but on the flip side so to speak). If you read this whole thing and went "oh yeah, I *was* doing that", then maybe reconsider how you act in that group. Either way, remember there's always a chance you parse the situation wrong, and also remember that I'm just some lonely schmuck on the internet no pitchforks pls ;-;

*Addendum: What if Forever Alone*

As I said above, you don't *need* to have experienced this intense of a desire to understand it. I certainly haven't. There are actually a few paths to understanding; knowing someone you want to be with is the *best* one because it teaches you how to flirt directly, but it's not the *only* one. For me, it wasn't love, it was hate. (I don't like people, ok xD) I got in a fight with a friend, and in looking back on our relationship I realized that I just could not stand the way he acted, and I had several grudges *years* old that I couldn't imagine ever finding a solution or closure to, because the way he acted didn't let me do so and the way I acted didn't let our relationship just sit there. I'm still in the process of ending that friendship, but more importantly to this discussion it taught me something vital. It showed me that there are at least two levels of "want to be around" that I experience with people. In this case "fine with" and "not wanting to" were the levels, but looking back on other friendships I also see some "wanting to"s and a couple "not fine with"s as well. It was the experience of knowing that that difference exists that allowed me to understand that there might be other levels at all.

Love, hate, dislike, like, like for certain things but not others, etc. It's the understanding that you feel differently about different people, the annihilation of the voice inside you that's telling you you're "just fine" with anything, that is the key. You can adapt to anything, sure, humans are very adaptable, but you will never *feel the same way* about everything, and recognizing that is how you come to understand flirting and, in the end, even yourself.

I ... okay I know we've been over this ... but ... what IS flirting. I got called out for apparently flirting with a whole fucking discord server of like 230 plus people. I ... wasn't trying to flirt. I ... I don't think I understand what is or isn't flirting.

Can someone help?

[seyaryminamoto]

What gladiator antagonists do Sokka and Azula hold the most hatred for? They've come up against some really despicable enemies during their time together and they both probably have different picks for most hated thorn in their sides as well as some good picks for second most hated. I think Ozai will take first place for both of them.

Gee... that's a tricky one.

Thing is they both hate Shaofeng a lot. I would assume most readers do too xD he's probably the one character with virtually zero redeeming qualities in this story. I can't be bothered to say a single good thing about him because he's just the worst. So, yeah, they hate this asshole big time and so do I!

At this moment... Iroh is also a big choice for them both. He's someone you expect better from, is the way I see it... and someone who wasn't acting all that blindly when he made the crucial, terrible choice he made. He was impulsive, very foolish, and he fucked up majorly with what he's done. While he certainly can have more redeeming qualities than Shaofeng (honestly it's actually hard to have as few as Shaofeng does, considering the number in his case is zero x'D), their resentment towards him isn't likely to go away anytime soon, as he's pretty much the artificer of their downfall, regardless of whatever remorse he may feel now over what he's done.

But of course... Ozai. Oh, Ozai. This bastard even betrayed me X'D I have been relatively okay with him for years simply because his potential as a character is interesting. I've never and will never justify anything he does... but he's someone you can certainly create complex and interesting stories around. You can explore him however thoroughly as you care to! But then... then 236 happened and I saw red just as much as everyone else did, and I keep seeing red with him constantly ever since. He's a little less unbearable in flashbacks (such as one we'll see in chapter 253)... but I'm constantly thinking to myself that I hate him lately and that had never happened before the final arc of Part 2 xD safe to say he has made me mad in ways I never imagined he could make me mad. Of course, he has a horrible advantage over Azula in the fact that he's her father and, as horrible as he is to her, our poor girl can't fully sever her attachment to him... but Sokka utterly despises him and would absolutely wreck him to kingdom come if he has the chance. He objectively, empirically hates Iroh for what he's done... but I'd say he hates Ozai all the more because yes, Iroh is a bastard, but Ozai had virtually NO REASON to do what he's done. No one was forcing him to become the nightmare he has shaped himself into. It's all on Ozai to have reacted as he did, to have hurt his daughter as much as he has, and Sokka won't ever forgive him for that.

Jeong Jeong comes to mind next... ironically, Sokka almost died because of him, but he simply resents Jeong Jeong while Azula utterly HATES the guy. I won't say she hates him more than anyone else on this list, but she definitely would prefer living in a world without him xD she's perpetually uncomfortable regarding anything connected to this guy and wants nothing to do with him.

I don't think I'd say either of them hates Seethus? They're weirded out by him, and Azula is a little more weirded out due to the firebending connection, I suppose, but they don't exactly hate him, I think. So... he's not part of the list! xD Big congrats to Ol' Spooky for that achievement!

As for Rhone, weeeeell... dead as he may be, Sokka certainly hates him very very much still, kind of like how Azula hates Jeong Jeong. Azula certainly hates Rhone a little more than Sokka hates Jeong Jeong XD but she keeps her distance with him, so to speak, as he was someone who once mattered to Sokka and she wants to respect the bond that existed there. Sokka doesn't think she needs to respect it at all x'D but she still does.

Zhao... yeeeeeah, well. Sokka doesn't really hate Zhao, I think we all know that, though his opinion on the man is going to get a liiittle more complicated in due time and he will definitely have one very dark moment of absolutely despising Zhao. Azula, however... boy, she's not even back to square one with Zhao nowadays, she went even further than that. She definitely resents him more than she ever did before... and I guarantee that's not going to get much better in the future. Fact is, I have a VERY complicated scene with Azula and Zhao coming up in the next chapter I have to write, and I'm here answering asks instead of writing it because denial and procrastination are NICE! XD basically, Zhao's one of the people Azula grows to resent and despise the most in Part 3 due to... reasons :'D While at first it's completely plausible to say that Ozai is the bigger problem, Zhao goes on to become a problem of his own in several ways, and that makes Azula's opinion of him spiral downhill faster than gravity.

Now, moving on to less world-shattering antagonists x'D I'd definitely say they hate Hahn and Hina. They're basically the nightmare couple! They're not really that big a deal all in all, but if neither of them has to EVER deal with those two again, they'll be much happier about life for sure.

Huang Li! Cannot forget Huang Li, the wretched Amateur Arena handler. Azula very much hates him for everything he put Sokka through... Sokka very much hates him for the same reason + on behalf of all the gladiators he had to fight and all the gladiators who had to die because of this piece of shit. He's not really a significant villain and we definitely saw the last of him by now, but their resentment towards him is everlasting anyway.

Another less intimidating villain for sure is Kuan... the very incompetent and embarrassing Kuan. He does have his... fan? Fans, plural? Are there two of them? x'D but he's generally someone Sokka and Azula just can't stand because he's a nobleman with delusions of grandeur and an ego probably bigger than Ozai's (and that's saying something). While he's not among the people they hate most because he really hasn't been able to do anything utterly unforgivable to them, he's someone they would very much love to never deal with again, too.

Their hatred for the Prison Rig's warden is certainly more serious than for Kuan, probably on a similar level as their hatred for Huang Li tbh. He's not exactly important, but the awful things he's responsible for do make them hate him anyway... And I suppose we can just lump in all slave abusers as a general group of people they hate tbh xD if they could put a stop to them permanently and make them pay for everything they've done, they definitely would.

So... okay. After that... let's try to make a proper list with the individual characters I mentioned here XD

Sokka:

Ozai

Shaofeng

Iroh

Rhone

Huang Li

Prison Rig Warden

Zhao (he's as low as #7 because it's only at one specific point in time in the future...!)

Kuan

Hahn & Hina

Jeong Jeong

Azula:

Shaofeng

Zhao

Iroh

Ozai

Jeong Jeong

Rhone

Huang Li

Prison Rig Warden

Kuan

Hahn & Hina

Weeell this ended up being a strange top 10 hated enemies! x'D Hahn and Hina got lucky for not being frequent and prominent enough to warrant any higher spots in both lists, really, they're more annoyances than anything at this point. But I guess this works? XD

[lilolilyr]

TOG Soulmate AU

I have an idea for a femslash-centric story that I’ll never write, so if someone else wants to, feel free, just credit this post and let me know so I can read it!

Please do reblog! Maybe someone out there will actually write the fic xD

It’s a soulmate AU – either with soul-marks or just knowing or any other type of soulmate trope that would work… Either way, a soul-bond is this guarantee that your relationship can work out, but it doesn’t force you to go for it either if you’re happy without it or you are already in a fulfilling relationship with someone else. You can be with other people who aren't your soulmates, and people often have more than one soulmate and they don't get together with all or sometimes any of them. A soul-bond just points to a few people you can be happy with for certain, not to all of them.

Quỳnh and Andromache aren’t soulmates.

It never stops them from being together. They still fall in love, they are partners, and they consider the both of them being immortal far more important to any soul bond...

Maybe they have mortal soulmates from time to time, sometimes staying with them, sometimes not... When they do stay, the soul bond is always right, and the relationship works out perfectly fine, but they always return to each other afterwards.

Lykon finds a mortal soulmate to give his all to, and then, when his soulmate is gone, he dies. Quỳnh and Andromache bury him next to his soulmate and promise each other never to get so lost in someone else that they would forget what they have with each other.

Joe and Nicky are soulmates, and they want to hate each other at first regardless of that. Andromache and Quỳnh laugh at them. Not only are the soul bonds always right – but do they really plan to spend infinity hating each other? That would be a silly waste of energy and time, when there are so many better things that can be done and enjoyed together…

While Quỳnh is in the ocean, Andromache meets mortal soulmates three times. The first two, she doesn't seek out, in fact hides when one of them tries to go looking for her. She’s sure that they could have been good together, that perhaps they could have even helped her with her grief, but – she doesn’t want any help, she doesn’t want to forget Quỳnh, she wants her back and no-one else. The third one is Achilles, and maybe Andromache has just given up on her search, maybe she thinks Quỳnh must be dead by now, but for whatever reason, she stays with him. And it is nice, the soulbond never lies, but – he is mortal, and a few decades later, she has two lovers and an entire family to grieve.

Booker was soulmates with his wife, and he comes from a culture and time where people believe their soulmates are god's plan for them, where people without soulmate and those with several are shunned, and the ones who choose to live with someone else but their soulmate are considered even worse. He doesn't believe the immortals when they tell him he will meet other soulmates in time, and that he can be happy again regardless. Andy and Booker especially take some time to warm up to each other because he can't believe she's grieving so much for a woman she wasn't soul-bonded to.

And then Quỳnh is back, and Andy is scared, because Quỳnh is traumatised and angry and they're not soulmates and there's no guarantee that this thing between them will work out again, but she loves Quỳnh so much and she wants to be there for her and she wants to try-

But then Quỳnh is soulmates with Nile.

And Andy thinks fuck, now I've finally lost her entirely. Because while with mortal soulmates, it had always obviously been temporary, but now... she is certain that she doesn’t stand a chance.

Andy withdraws completely, and Quỳnh and Nile do get together after a while, knowing that their relationship will work out is a great incentive to get over any fear or unease… but Nile notices that Quỳnh isn't entirely happy with her, and she figures out that Quỳnh and Andy had been an item, soul-bond or not. And she likes Andy too, alright, and yes maybe she has always dreamt of finding a soulmate to have that kind of stability, and the current culture still favours soul-bonded couples over anyone else, but really, she knows she loves both Quỳnh and Andy equally, so if they all feel the same...

Maybe the soulmate thing is a guarantee, but a happy relationship can also exist without it.

~

Again, I won’t write this into a fic myself, so if someone else wants to write a longfic or just a oneshot in this ‘verse, feel free, just credit this post and let me know so I can read it! I also love getting gifts on ao3 *hint hint* xD

And if you don't want to write it yourself, please do reblog! Maybe someone or several someones out there will actually write the fic xD

[tsundereeevee]

So a little headcanon on my theory of how I think Cassidy and Domino feel about each other?

Domino and Cassidy are both very similar because they're both blonde, are elite Team Rocket members with matching uniforms and are both quite stuck up. But if they know each other, then how do they interact? (This is just fanfiction rather than a theory, but still read because it's fun to think about.)

I don't think that they get along very well, they might even be enemies. In Cassidy's case, she's her second archenemy after Jessie. Both Cassidy and Butch wanted to be Giovanni's favorites but Domino was the only rival within their rank and the fact that Domino was way younger than Cassidy and the fact that she pretty much met her match at that point, is what made Cassidy hate her especially when she acts like she's the favorite instead of her. And it's possible that many other agents and grunts were attracted to her and are quicker to look at her than with Cassidy.

Plus, Domino was assigned to look for Mew or Mewtwo and regardless of who she finds first, is good for Giovanni either way. That's another thing that makes Cassidy really hate Domino, as having someone younger than her taking arguably the most important mission of Team Rocket seemed wrong and insulting to her. Butch and Cassidy's failed missions are definitely part of the problem but they are still good at capturing Pokémon to sell to the black market (I mean just because we only see Team Rocket fail on screen doesn't mean that they always lose because if they did, wouldn't the organization go bankrupt and be disbanded? And wouldn't the boss fire them and possibly kill them? They couldn't just let them go, if we ignore Journeys as canon but that's a subject for another day.) but didn't succeed in the big projects and Domino slowly was about to replace her and Butch.

And vice versa; Domino hates Cassidy too but not as intensely as Cassidy does with her. Most of the time, she'll always come around her acting sassy, rude and condescending, especially after Cassidy thought that she was ahead of everyone else but the thing that she hates is that she has a handsome man like Butch for a partner which makes her feel insecure about herself and Cassidy knowing that, she'll always try to get on her case about it. She sometimes might try to split them up by starting conspiracies and frame them to break them up. But unsurprisingly, it doesn't last even if she succeeded and Cassidy gets the last laugh, causing Domino to grow bitter and take it out on anyone nearby.

In conclusion, I feel like they both see each other as a shady reflection of each other which is why I think that they'd hate each other. Because Cassidy could have other enemies besides Jessie and Domino doesn't seem like the type that anyone would make friends with because underneath that fake cheerful act, she seems like a pretty grumpy, rude and unpleasant person to be around even by Butch, Cassidy, Hun, Attila, etc but grunts would still hit on her which Domino would turn down very hard.

Thanks for reading! What do you guys think? Do you think that Cassidy and Domino would be friends, enemies or just not care about each other? Let me know. XD

[terubakudan]

My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness by Nagata Kabi - Book Review and Impressions

(light reflection) Perfect :D Hoping Tumblr doesn't flag me for this xD

Ok, I'm going to start this off with 'this is probably the first and only book review I'm going to do' xD Because I rarely do read books now, and just as rarely buy them. Also, I would have preferred to buy the English version but alas they only had the Chinese version in stock ^^"

Stumbling upon this on the Internet, I was immediately compelled to buy this, as if I knew I would love it and that Nagata's story would resonate with me.

【Short Version】 I can't recommend this book enough, it doesn't matter what sexuality you are or from what culture are you. Nagata makes sure to tell an honest and 'naked' (without embellishments) portrait of her own personal experiences. How she herself is a college drop-out (having only graduated from high school), pushed herself to live/work while struggling with depression and eating disorders, not being sure of what she wants and feeling that she doesn't 'deserve' things, realizing her own sexuality in that she likes girls, and just not feeling 'good enough'...all through her cutesy and unassuming art style.

I will say again though, cutesy art style aside, the book deals with some very heavy topics. Nagata is very honest and doesn't shy away from the gritty details, and I admire her all the more for doing so. Many yaoi and yuri comics often portray an unrealistic and fetishistic view of the LGBTQ+ community whereas Nagata's story is much more grounded and sincere. This is not an easy read, but it's not an overly depressive one either. Nagata literally struggled for years with her mental health, but ultimately found light on the other side. Not mainly through the help of others, but through her own choice to forgive and love herself.

5/5⭐ Definitely recommend and would read again. And if I could, I'd give Nagata a big hug and a heartfelt 'thank you' for sharing her story.

【Long Version】 While it's written primarily from an Asian (particularly Japanese) perspective, Nagata's experiences are ones that should resonate with anyone who has been through the same or similar things, regardless of one's personal background. And I myself, while being fortunate enough to not have gone through eating disorders or self harm, am no exception.

I grew up in an Asian (Taiwanese/Chinese Filipino) household, while my parents weren't Tiger Parents (no offense but fuck Amy Chua for thinking that's a proper way of raising your children), they still had certain expectations on their children: to find a good husband/wife, have a good education, have a 'stable' career, etc. And while I love my parents very much, I'd be lying if I said there weren't any times where I felt they were smothering me, there weren't any times where they kept on nagging and bugging me for very trivial details. My biggest pet peeve: guilt-tripping me just for wanting to spend time alone.

"For me, my parents' opinion of me is absolute." (NOTE: While I won't be providing exact translations of the excerpts I used here, I'll do my best to summarize the gist of them.)

At the same time, I cared very much about their opinion of me. I made it a point to do well in school, to do things according to their wishes, and just like Nagata, I didn't know what I wanted. This even extended to caring about others' opinion of me, more than my own. In my freshman year of college, I 'went along' with being friends with someone, who while was nice to me, turned out to be a manipulative bitch skilled in passive-aggressiveness xD Being half-Taiwanese/half-Filipino, it was hard to fit in since people always treated me differently, it didn't occur to me I could be choosy with friends, I thought as long as they were 'nice' to me, that would do.

Asian culture is largely a collective one, where we define ourselves by our relationships with others, compared with Western culture (primarily America, I'll be using America as a reference point) where individualism is absolute, where you define yourself as you like. In Asia, it's also normal for children to still live in the same house as their parents well into adulthood, compared with Americans who are expected to move out the house once they finish high school or start college, and they're quite literally 'on their own', having to pay their own tuition, rent, etc. Where I live (Taiwan), it's normal for adults to continue relying on their parents financially well until college. Nagata for instance, while saying her parents really make her feel so pressured, is grateful that she still had a home to stay in (and she's 28!).

If you ask me though, neither a collectivist culture or an individualist culture is absolutely good nor bad. Each have their own pros and cons, and both Asian culture and Western culture could learn a thing or two from each other.

After going through quite a few job applications, one of the interviewers tells her "Ganbatte!" (You can do it!) after Nagata tells her what she really wants is to be a manga artist.

And sometimes that's all we need really, a small gesture or kind remark can do wonders. Even if there's no base or reason for it, it's something worth believing in.

I often have doubts if I'm doing what I really want, if I chose the right major for college, if I'm doing the right thing, if I'm 'good enough'. I didn't grow up with much self-esteem as a kid, and often derived my value from others. But even at my lowest times, a 'you're doing ok' was very reassuring to me, be it from family, strangers, or people I care about. Sometimes that's exactly what we need, it may be small but it could be the difference between continuing to wallow in depression or re-evaluating and choosing to be better to oneself.

I find it's really important to know, that however alone you may feel sometimes, there are other people out there going through the exact same thing. It's something universal, and while a lot of things are really unfair in life, each person has their own lot or burden to deal with. I have a Taiwanese friend who, while being more financially well-off than me, has terrible parents. And I mean parents who are quite so literally toxic, unsupportive of her, and would outright say the worst things to their own daughter.

How depression and anxiety can feel sometimes, we can literally feel like it's impossible to breathe and be in a state of disconnection from the world.

"The sounds that invaded my ears occupied my empty brain, making me unable to think at all."

If you only did what your parents asked you to do, wouldn't days like those be very painful? In the end, only you can understand what you really want.

Nagata's art style is one I would describe as simple, cute, and effective. I personally think had her story been drawn in a more serious style, it would have been even harder to read, much less finish. It's also a choice that has artistic appeal to me, serious subject matter juxtaposed with a 'kawaii' art style.

Nagata also depicts very well her mental state and thoughts throughout her struggle and journey to self-actualization. Depression is a really tough thing to deal with, and sometimes we don't even realize that we have it or if we do, refuse to acknowledge it. In Asian cultures especially, mental health has always been something of a taboo subject and there is a very heavy social stigma associated with it. Nagata herself even said that her parents seemingly refused to acknowledge that their daughter's mental health was in a state of distress. In Japan, there is a concept called gaman (我慢), which is described as 'enduring the seemingly unbearable with patience and dignity', and while it is portrayed as an ideal virtue that inspires perseverance, it can be a source of heavy pressure for others. Gaman also means that you are expected to suppress whatever emotion or negative feelings you have, often for the sake of others and no matter how tough the situation becomes for you. And while I agree that through gaman you can become more selfless for others, it shouldn't have to come at the expense of your own well-being.

I was quite fortunate to have grown up in a more liberal Asian household, but even when it came to mental health, our family also adopted the same kind of attitude towards it, by carrying on as if nothing was wrong, or just not talking about it. And to be honest, there were numerous times I wished we had been more open about what was bothering ourselves at that time. Talking and being open about your feelings is not a 'weakness' but something incredibly brave to do, and it's my wish for that to slowly become more acceptable in Asian cultures, which I know is kind of a stretch, but it doesn't hurt to hope.

Nagata makes the decision to clean herself up, by taking a bath everyday, habitually exercising, and no longer wearing worn-out clothes.

Depression especially can be a bitch. It deprives you even of your physiological needs, like your need for food. Nagata had to struggle with that on top of eating disorders for a long ten years. She ate so little and even felt that she didn't 'deserve' to eat, and at one point, anorexia became hyperphagia, and she would feel so guilty for eating almost expired/expired food. Things that would otherwise be simple to do also end up becoming difficult/impossible to do, like taking care of your personal hygiene, getting up from bed, doing simple tasks etc.

Thankfully, after Nagata realizes that she never truly 'valued herself', she starts to turn over a new leaf. Even just starting with cleaning herself up, she takes this as a form of 'valuing oneself' and her mood starts to improve, which her family also points out. In the end, taking care of yourself is not a selfish thing to do, it can even make you a better person who is there for others.

Nagata meets up with the female escort she hired, as a means to experience human sexuality, which she had always repressed her curiosity for and treated as a taboo subject. (NOTE: And I'm glad that she met a really nice girl for her first time too!)

Sex and sexuality is also a subject that I feel is hard to talk about sometimes, which I think also owes itself to most Asian cultures being relatively conservative about it. I myself have only recently identified as bisexual, which I attribute to internalized homophobia, not wanting to admit I was into girls too. And to be honest, 'coming out' is something I'm still uncomfortable about, because I don't want to risk my relationship with my family and it's still something I would choose to be selective about with colleagues and friends. I'm grateful though that as crazy the Internet can be sometimes, it can be quite accepting and tolerant towards things that we wouldn't otherwise discuss with even the closest people in our circle. Nagata's memoir ended up capturing the hearts of many readers ever since she first published it on Pixiv.

Exploring your sexuality doesn't have to be scary, it should be something exciting and liberating. Nagata decided to take matters into her own hands, and while the days leading up to the encounter made her really nervous and she even considered not going through with it at all, she willed herself to continue, because she wanted to do this for herself, it would be pointless if she gave up after coming so far in her decision to value herself.

And it's these series of actions that she decided to do that ultimately led to her life turning out for the better, it gave her the courage to do what she always wanted: to be a manga artist, which lead to the publishing of this autobiographical memoir, something she wanted to create that would 'make people want to buy this book' and from her own preference for reading stories that 'speak of secrets people wouldn't want to tell others'.

Nagata mentions what she calls 'honey': something that varies from person to person. It could be your reason for living, that thing that drives/pushes you, or even your sense of belonging. It may not be something permanent, but you can always find yourself a new one. (she mentions the last time she had her 'honey' was during her high school days, and while she has grown apart from the friends she made, she has found her new 'honey' in the form of being a full-time manga artist.)

Nagata stumbles and trips a lot on her way to being a better version of herself, but who doesn't? She admits to things not necessarily being smooth, but at least she's doing better than before. And it's that decision to at least try that counts. We don't have to be perfect, we're all human after all.

TL;DR My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness is a honest, down-to-earth, and ultimately hopeful memoir about the struggles of mental health and learning about one's sexuality. It's an amazing book, and very much worth the buy.

A big thank you if you read through all of this too. I know it's a mess and writing isn't exactly my strong point, but hopefully I've convinced some people out there to give this book a read! Please feel free to share your thoughts and I'd appreciate it very much too if you reblog/like this post.

[dancing-coyote]

Ding ding ding I'm not done being obnoxious yet. 4, 7, 13, 21, 31, and 42...

HARD MODE: Thrust/Azrael/Jetstorm OT3.

OH HO LET'S SEE HERE...

4. who’s uncomfortable with PDA and who loves it?

Oh this one's easy :3

Thrust is the most reserved and the least comfortable with PDA.

Az falls somewhere in the middle and can sometimes veer into "very affectionate" territory when she's had enough high-grade.

Jetstorm, however, LOVES ATTENTION. He's flashy, he's flamboyant, he LOVES being at the center of attention and while he's SIGNIFICANTLY BETTER about not crossing boundaries than Blackarachnia is he usually will not hesitate to initiate affection regardless of who might see.

(See also: Why yes, these ARE HIS spouses, and aren't they lovely? Jealous? TOO BAD + KISS HIS BACKSTRUT, SUCKERS)

7. who made the 1st move?

Honestly it's still kind of in the air as to whether it was Az or Thrust XD They spend a hot minute more like a month lmao dancing around the subject while trying to pretend that they're not interested though.

13. who is better with kids?

Az swears up and down that she's not good with kids, but literally everyone around her will say she's a baldfaced liar, especially her friend Foxfire :B

She's patient, she's gentle, she knows when to speak softly, and kids just like her.

(I imagine Thrust is a pretty close second, and Jetstorm MIGHT be good with kids but he is also the type to teach them Felonies, so)

21. do they go on dates? what are they like?

Post-Megatron/Pre-reformat Cybertron doesn't have much in the way of Hot Date Spots, but that doesn't stop the three of them from finding time to crash at one of the safehouses and get completely and utterly wasted and/or enjoy each others' company for a while.

31. how did they meet?

Az is too compassionate for her own good.

Most people wouldn't look at a guy whose entire existence is based on eradicating you and everyone like you and see anything worth saving.

Most people, when confronted with that same guy in the aftermath of a pretty one-sided curbstomping, would either look the other way, or opt to finish him off.

But not Az.

She saw someone who was suffering and, knowing that it really probably went against her better judgment, said "I can fix that."

(And, against his better judgment, Thrust let her.)

It came back to bite her later, when she was called on to help Jetstorm ("The guy who actively tries to kill me every time we're both in the air and within ten kilometers of one another? THAT GUY?")

But of course she saved his skidplate, too. Because it was the right thing to do, even if it wasn't necessarily the safest or smartest thing.

It paid off handsomely in the end, at least.

42. when they can’t sleep what do they do?

Not to put too fine a point on it, but they bang XD

(Look it's a perfectly serviceable way to burn off restless energy and it doesn't involve leaving a nice, cozy nest.)

On the off chance that only Az can't sleep, she'll usually occupy herself by finding a spot where she can pace without disturbing Thrust and 'Storm and spend her energy doing that :')

[autumn-foxfire]

I've noticed that a serious problem in the fandom is that people refuse to look at an abuser and say that they're suffering while still thinking of them as an abuser. It's easier to either make them worst than they actually are and make them enjoy the suffering of others, or pretend that they aren't doing anything.

But people rarely hurt others just for the sake of it. More often than not, the way we treat others comes from our own pain:

We have Overhaul as an example, who wanted a world free of quirks, felt repulsed because of his own and wanted a world without quirks, and this manifested on him hurting Eri. Endeavor, who was suffering because of jealousy and wanted to be no. 1, and this manifested on him hurting his family. Bakugo, who wanted to be the best, and proceeded to hurt Deku when threathened. And then we have characters like Uraraka, who loves seeing people happy and who doesn't like to impose people, because of her parents. Aizawa, who is very strict as a teacher and it seems to me that it was because of his experience with Oboro. All Might, who decided to become the Symbol of Peace because of the chaos in the past...

The idea is that once you say that x character is an abuser or perpetrator, then you are crazy or people get offended, because it takes the whole suffering away for them. People mostly relate to the victims, and seeing abusers as the ones who get hurt is kind of controversial. If I say that Endeavor was suffering, the amount of people that will probably come after me is going to be terrifying. I don't even have to give my reasons because most aren't going to listen, and therefore my opinion will be useless. So, when you give the public this man, Dabi, who is attractive, charismatic (the video, I guess), related to this person who was an abuser (Endeavor), and then telling his lifestory, it feels anticlimactic to call him an a perpetrator. And then people start saying that you can be both a victim and an abuser, which I understand where do they come from, I mean, you can be a victim and then become a perpetrator, but oh my God, how much I disagree when others say that you can do it at the same time when it comes to these situations from the manga...

Looking at the LOV vs heroes battle and saying that the LOV are the victims, or saying that Dabi is both a victim and a perpetrator at the same time, takes the whole meaning, official meaning of being a victim and a perpetrator in a situation, that are terms that heavily depend of the context in my opinion. There's also people who say it in an abstract tone, and those are the only ones that I can actually understand. But maybe because I've became too logical, guided by the rules when it comes to these types of words that have such a big influence in the real world because the meaning changes depending of the person, that I disagree so much. I know nothing, but I prefer looking at it objectively because that's how I think we should act when it comes to something that could be, potentially, a crime. When thinking like that, I inmediately enter a zone where my first thoughts are "right now, your feelings do not matter", something that could make me look pretty cold, and... I guess that it's naturally hard for people to do that when you are so emotionally invested on someone. Some people are going to assume that I didn't experienced something related, even. And then they start projecting and... ah, it's a disaster. I really think that humans should stop thinking that just because you didn't experienced something, you can't talk about it. Knowledge isn't completely empirical. Like, have you ever heard of being rational--?

If you are the one hurting others or the one who's going to hurt others, then I think that by logic, you are the perpetrator. You include what happens on the outside, and it may change things.

But once you include what's happening inside of you, your reactions and emotions, it changes the whole meaning for others.

I guess that's why things get so simplified on Law--. When you add what makes us humans, it becomes a huge problem.

I think Twice battle is also a huge example of this... You could say that Hawks was the perpetrator, but once you add the reasons of doing it and the context (protecting the civilians), he becomes a victim and Twice is the perpetrator. But people saw the perpetrator suffering and that changes everything, because the general idea is that they don't suffer at all. Twice became more emotional than Hawks, and it translates into him being the victim and Hawks being the perpetrator, regardless of the context. Throw the fact that people sympathized with Twice and it becomes a disaster.

I don't believe that people are bad from birth and it heavily depends of your experiences as a kid. I think that we are all victims of something, and then, some people become abusers. That's just life...

... Maybe I should just write an analysis about it instead xD

Many people do tend to have a black and white view of victim and perpetrator from what I’ve seen in fandom.

As you said, many can’t seem to grasp that abusers much like Overhaul and Endeavor had genuine reasons why they did what they did and it wasn’t based on the need to cause their victims suffering, rather their suffering was an after-effect that they ignored in order to focus on their goals. What many people I think also fail to understand that having a reason for your actions doesn’t excuse what you’ve done and while many seem to grasp this with Endeavor and Overhaul, they don’t seem too when it comes to the League of Villains.

I’m not really sure why this is the case though my guess is because they are victims in the past unlike Endeavor, who’s past is unknown and irrelevant,  or Overhaul, who still had the family support behind him though he may not have had the most conventional of upbringings.

I would say I’m like you, to be honest. While I acknowledge the league and their past, I view it as mostly irrelevent when it comes down to stopping them unless it can be used as a way to speak them down. Knowing their situation certainly makes me understand why they’ve done what they’ve done but it’ll never excuse them in my eyes. I guess I would be considered cold too.

It’s certainly an interesting topic of debate to think about. Many people do act more with their hearts then their heads and that’s neither a good nor a bad thing (it depends on case by case situations), at least what I’ve seen in the fandom, and while I love the empathy most in fandom have, I feel like they sometimes take it way too far for the League. Especially when they don’t show the same empathy for the League’s victims.

...I think I’m just rambling at this point T-T

[wayward40k]

knowing your partner well can potentially make writing together a lot easier. ( repost do not reblog ! )

✿ name:  Kaz :D

✿ PRONOUNS:   They/them

✿ preference of communication:  I'm usually on Discord and Tumblr simultaneously 99% of the time. Regardless of which messaging system is used, there may occasionally be the ADHD error where I see your message, I plan to reply to your message, tab away from that window, aaaaaand promptly forget, thereby delaying a reply until I realize I'm an idiot.

✿ name of muse(s):   Alethea, Clementiya, Valrain, Raiq, Shyael, Mahvaris, Serge, Laelia.... Neeq? I'm still debating adding Neeq because sometimes, we need Dumbass Shenanigans on the dash.

✿ EXPERIENCE/HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?):  Uh. I've been RPing on tumblr since... 2013? on and off? And I' think even before that. And I've been RPing since even before that. I want to say 2002-4-ish? (Granted, it wasn't very GOOD RP...)

✿ PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED:  I've RPed on Tumblr (does anyone remember M!As? I loved the chaos of anons using magic to fuck up your character's universe), Discord, Skype, streamed RPGs (don't ask me about my TTRPG characters because then there are even more idiots for me to talk about and no one needs that xD), in MMORPGs (don't ask about those either), a couple different LARPs, uh.... to make me feel really old, I also RPed on forum boards, with Yahoo Messenger and AIM and in Yahoo Groups.

✿ best experience: Even if I narrow down to all my best experiences on Tumblr, there's a lot. I've met many awesome folks, had some amazing RP arcs and ships and everything.

✿ RP PET PEEVES/DEALBREAKERS:  Uuhhh... If I feel uncomfortable/unhappy/dissatisfied, I will say something (and please please PLEASE do the same with me). The dealbreaker is when that's ignored. I understand that we're only human and sometimes we slip up and forget, but efforts need to be made to avoid that. And I fuck this up, too, so please? Tell me if I do?

✿ fluff, angst or smut: Any selection or combination of the three? Absolutely. Yes. -Chef kiss.- Perfection.

✿ plots or memes: What are memes but embers by which to potentially spark the fires of passionate plotting? I enjoy both~

✿ long or short replies: Either, and I can vary quite a bit. Sometimes I prefer the shorter replies because they're easier for me to write, and they're usually more casual RP. Banter or general silliness. If there's a lot of information to react to, or if there's a significant reason for story development, my reply might get a bit... long.

✿ best time to write: I work third shift and try to keep that schedule on my days off, too. So I'll usually be active between 6 PM to 8 AM EST, and the level of activity will vary quite a bit depending on whether I'm at work or otherwise busy. I do queue up memes to post between 2 PM and 9 PM EST, because that's typically my 'sleeping/busy morning' phase of the day.

✿ are you like your muse(s):  I guess a little bit? In various ways. Some of them have a particular trait of mine that is fun to tap into.

TAGGED BY: @starbound-prince

TAGGING: U h h h ... @asklordcaptaincastronova, @chapter-master-darius, @akhenaten-imhotep, anyone else that sees this~

[golbrocklovely]

Finally home lol but girl that's not dark at all. I love when people are open and honest with their struggles. Mental illness is a serious thing that should be talked about more. I could tell you my whole story about my own struggles with suicidal thoughts and attempts but that would be too long for one ask haha

I myself am religious I guess lol. I go to church, not so much in the last year and a half. I guess I'm a born again Christian but I've always cringed at that phrasing seeing as I'm nowhere near as changed as others in my church circle lol. Got "saved" in 2017 and have been struggling to find my footing in this world since. What do I believe, what do I not believe? Can I not believe everything and still be a Christian?? (Holy shit I just blew my own mind with that question 🤣🤣)

I really want a pet Raccoon 😂 I don't know why but their little hands and the way they just paw at everything, melts my heart haha a more normal answer would be a ferret, mom won't let me get one cause she says they stink

Go to movie food is probably nachos or just good old popcorn. Not really a candy person anymore, hurts my teeth 😕

And worst food I've ever tried, damn that's tough haha I'm a very picky eater so I don't really go out of my usual foods but my mom made this weird casserole one time, it was both somehow wet and dry at the same time. Shit was just not it lol she hasn't made it since😂

And girl I ran out of questions to ask like 2 asks ago lmao I've enlisted the help of Google XD

What unusual thing do you find attractive in a person? What's your dream job? Would you ever start a YouTube channel?

sorry this took so long to respond to. have been busy cleaning up my house all day haha

i appreciate your kind words, and i feel the same. i'm happy when ppl can open up about their mental struggles bc it makes it loose the stigma. plus, it let's others know they're not alone.

i think when it comes to religion, there is no right or wrong way to do it for yourself (as long as you are not hurting you or others). so, i think you're doing just fine if you don't know what do as of right now. first and foremost, you got your whole life to figure things out, and also, regardless of if you believe in everything or not when it comes to christianity, god still loves you regardless. he made you for a reason bc he loves you, so you're not doing anything wrong by still figuring yourself and your religion out :)

omg a raccoon would be dope. i always wanted like a baby hippo. or an otter. they're just so fucking cute.

true, i've never been an eat candy at the movies person. i usually get both nachos and popcorn bc i like to dip the popcorn into the nacho cheese. it's really good, i highly recommend it.

see i'm the opposite, i haven't really found anything i full on disliked, just foods i either have been hesitant to try or food i like lol but i guess my answer would be sushi, but i haven't had any. i'm just gonna assume until i have it that i don't like it haha

true, might have to start doing that...

oooh, on guys i love when they have broad shoulders and a nice back lol i just think a good set of shoulders is so hot for some reason. like, colby has some nice shoulders, and good looking back as well. see... i feel weird saying all this now lmao

my dream job would be to be a singer. i love singing, and i hope one day i get to use my voice in that way, but who knows if that's gonna happen. genuinely, i would love to just do something in the art field, and that could mean singing, dancing, acting, writing, cooking, literally... anything. i love all things that have to do with art. but singing would be the dream scenario.

technically, i did start one back when i was a kid, like 13-14. i posted covers. i think i made three videos and then left the channel for dead. and i think recently i got a copyright strike or something like that on there bc i used music in the background while i sang. youtube is ridiculous in that way. but if i were to make a newer one (which like, i kinda want to do and kinda don't) i would want to be a movie commentary channel. i know, so original. but i think it would be fun. but i also think if i did make a channel, i would be doing all types of videos, not just commentary so... idk if anyone would actually watch me lol

questions: favorite music artists atm, worse movie you ever saw and why, describe the perfect day for you - what would you do, who would you see, ect

[senditothemoonn]

Oh my gosh!? I can't believe you wrote all this it's so completely heartbreaking 😭 I'm actually speechless like I'm just sitting here with tears in my eyes.

Alasdair living on Arthur's sofa because he can't bear to step foot inside the home he shared with Francis >>> It hurts just to walk past the outside of it, not to mention the places he used to go with Francis. Which is why he never leaves Arthur's house anymore. The outside world in general is just a reminder of what could have been... And low-key he starts feeling petty resentment towards all the happy couples that seem to crowd him anywhere he goes because they're just everywhere. And seeing other people happy just reminds him of the fact that he'll never be happy again :(

I’m so glad he has Arthur ❤️ (its so good to see him being torn up over it too ahhhh losing a friend is just as painful as losing a soulmate and gosh I can see him being absolutely distraught for a long time afterwards. I can see him cooking something and, after inevitably burning it, coming up with a comeback for one of Francis’ incoming jibes before realising he’ll never get to hear them again) and GOSH the part at the end about him going to build the cottage they wanted to live in together 🥺🥺🥺 you’re killing that’s so bittersweet. I can’t see him moving on either, like with another person. I can imagine his bros setting him up with people they think he’ll like and maybe he goes on a few dates just to humour them but none of them really make him feel the way he did about Francis. I can see him even making friends with a few of them but nothing romantic ever happening lol.

There's this usuk amnesia fic actually called a forgotten note? Or maybe that's the author... (I found it, it's called In Loving Memory if anyone's interested) but basically at the beginning Alasdair's wife and unborn child die and he spirals into a deep depression, using alcohol to cope and he just becomes upset and angry all the time and a husk of his former self. I think(?) the name of the wife in the fic is Marie(????) could be wrong but in my mind I was like 👀👀 Marianne 👀👀👀 Fran 👀👀 Francoise 👀👀👀 Regardless, when I read the fic of course I was imagining his dead wife as Francis 😂😭

(This might be spoilers I'm not sure I can't remember) but the amnesia part comes in when Arthur goes to pick Alasdair up from a bar one night after he's been drowning his sorrows. Arthur tells Alasdair he shouldn’t drive home but Alasdair gets a little violent and does it anyway, Arthur ends up in the passenger seat and, surprise, surprise, they get in a terrible accident. Arthur loses his memory and Alasdair loses his life. This is extreme angst I know XD but I love it!! It might be a little too sad but for me personally no angst is too extreme 💕✨ the more sad and pathetic a character ends up, the better.

The saddest part about this au in the fic is how different Alasdair was before he lost his wife. When they were children, he was such a fun, kind and loving older brother. He always looked after Arthur and his other little brothers but now he's just got nothing of what he used to be, nothing is left of what made him him. Which I think is particularly sad for Arthur because he's not only lost his best friend but now he's lost his big brother too and it seems less and less likely that he'll ever get him back. Alasdair was his rock throughout his whole childhood and to see him so completely broken and almost unhealable, he feels lost and even scared.

A scenario I like to think about sometimes after Francis' death (because I'm a sadist - or maybe it makes me a masochist because I'm the only one ACTUALLY suffering here 😭😂) but I like to think about the ways Alasdair would try to cope. Like deluding himself into thinking Francis is still alive.

He goes to a bar with Arthur and Ianto (Wales 🥺) after months of being unable to do anything and they're both like "you seem a lot better" and he's just oblivious to what they're talking about. And then he starts talking to Francis who obviously isn't there and that's when his brothers share a look and realise they can either let him spiral into a comforting yet horribly damaging coping mechanism or tear the plaster off then and there before it becomes irreversibly serious.

So they tell him that Francis isn't there and WHY he isn't there and of course he gets upset, calls it a "sick joke" but when he turns back around Francis isn't there and off he goes frantically looking for him to no avail. He ends up outside the bar crouched down on the pavement, face in his hands when he realises he's not going to find Francis in there. He cries so much and it's so loud and visceral and tears him open and you can feel the pain he feels, almost as if he's lost Francis for a second time. But Arthur and Ianto are there to be beside him. I think ianto would hug him first (walesis obviously is the only hugger and most likely to hug him in this situation) usually they'd all shrug him off but now Alasdair just doesn't move, he doesn't quite reciprocate the hug but he doesn't brush him off either. He just lets it happen and Arthur takes the opportunity to join the hug awkwardly, wrapping an arm around his brother's shoulder and they just let Alasdair cry. He often keeps things bottled up and this is no exception. He has cried over Francis' death obviously but mostly he's just been completely numb and so he lets it all out, he doesn't care about putting on a front for his brothers or even for himself.

Also since you mentioned Ghost, I can’t stop thinking of an au where Alasdair is the one to die and leave Francis behind…

Usually in a ship, I think it’s fun to kill of the ‘sunshine’ character and leave behind the emotionally closed off one to deal with their emotions in unhealthy ways because it just hurts so good! Like Alasdair: he’s already kinda closed off and beaten down by life, he meets Francis and everything starts to look up, maybe life isn’t so bad after all them boom Francis dies and he’s proven correct about how shitty life is and now he doesn’t have a reason to try anymore because everything always ends up shit anyway, doesn’t it?

BUT Alasdair leaving Francis behind? While Alasdair never leaves Arthur’s sofa and drinks whisky all day, Francis would stay in his bed and drink wine until he can fall asleep again. He can’t find joy in the things he used to love - cooking and fashion or simple things like reading books or watching movies because it’s all stuff he used to do with Alasdair. He can’t cook enjoy more or enjoy his favourite food if Alasdair isn’t there to interrupt his cooking to steal bites of food before it’s finished and how is he supposed to go shopping for new clothes if Alasdair isn’t there to give his opinion on them. Everything else is the same. How is he supposed to enjoy anything, without Alasdair to share the enjoyment with him. I think Francis is the type of person to go through life thriving on the experience he shares with others and for me the most important person he shares anything with is Alasdair (obviously asdfghjhgf) and so losing Alasdair means that experiencing life in general just isn’t worth it, it’s not the same anymore, he doesn’t get the same enjoyment out of anything like he used to.

I think Francis is a very lonely person in general, he feels very isolated which is why he reaches out desperately for human connection. He knows so many people and has so many friends but a lot of it is just surface level, he never truly lets anyone in because he doesn’t think, or rather is afraid that no one will understand him. Until Alasdair comes along. Which is why, when he dies, he feels more alone than he ever has in his entire life.

Of course he has Arthur, his best friend, who slowly shows him that life is worth living again.

But what if also just normal Ghost au where Alasdair’s ghost is actually trying to get into contact with Francis 🤔 NOW I WANNA DRAW THIS AHHH

Bad ending