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sage-nebula · 7 years ago

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Meta that, while driving to work this morning, it occurred to me that I should write:

Keith, from the very first episode of the first season of Voltron: Legendary Defender, shows behavioral traits and mannerisms associated with C-PTSD, which is a mental illness that sometimes comes across / is interpreted as a personality disorder due to how it affects how people grow, develop, and interact with the world. C-PTSD is very often (if not always) the result of long-time abuse, particularly in childhood / adolescence. Keith, as an orphan whose past is shrouded in mystery (even to himself; Steven Yeun once said that Keith “doesn’t have a full vision of his past” and that he’s “going through so much trauma in that way”), could very well be a survivor of abuse in his childhood or adolescence, which has resulted in many of the behavioral traits we see from him (e.g. the isolation, difficulties with emotional regulation, hyper-vigilance) we see in the present.

Shiro---the real Shiro---could very well be aware of this, and is also very likely the person who has helped Keith heal and recover since they met, offering him grounding techniques and guidance on how best to cope with his trauma and move forward. This has been hinted at by the crew (most recently, Lauren and Joaquim said that Shiro was like Keith’s pillar, the one who kept him centered), but has also been insinuated and even shown in the canon itself. Between Keith saying that “without [Shiro], [his] life would have been a lot different,” and Shiro teaching Keith “patience yields focus,” which is a mantra that we have seen Keith repeat to himself on multiple occasions to help himself calm down (from anxiety and panic, both things which are part of hyper-vigilance), it’s evident that Shiro has played a big part in helping Keith recover from whatever he went through before they met, and therefore highly possible---even probable---that he knows what that something is, at least in part.

Finally, while Shiro has helped Keith heal and has given him techniques to handle the symptoms of his trauma, Shireplica seems to be undoing all of that and is directly countering the tools and techniques that Shiro taught Keith. Between layering on emotional abuse in various forms and actively arguing against things such as “patience yields focus” (he never says that exactly, but it’s evident enough that’s what’s happening near the end of 3x06), Shireplica is dismantling what Shiro did to help Keith, and is thereby exacerbating old wounds and creating new ones in the process. We could very well (and maybe even likely) see a situation where it’s not just that Shireplica is tearing Keith down, but that he’s also tearing apart potential years of progress Keith had made---that Shiro had helped him make.

This is meta I think I’m going to write---meta I think I should write. Hopefully I get the time / energy for it soon.

#it just sort of . . . hit me when i was driving to work #bc tbh Shireplica is emotionally abusive to Keith in more than just the one scene i talked about #his unpredictability in regards to what he wants from Keith is emotional abuse as well #the way he yells at Keith to do one thing #and then changes his mind later #and when then Keith expresses shock and even mild indignation this is not acknowledged #he just yells at Keith some more #which is confusing and upsetting and can feed into hypervigilance (as the abuse victim tries their best not to upset the abuser #but finds this incredibly stressful and difficult because there's no way of telling what wil l upset the abuser and what won't)#and then i realized that we've already seen hypervigilance from Keith in various situations multiple times #e.g. he was out of bed before the first beat of the alarm started sounding in 1x02 #and how he was the one IMMEDIATELY ready to defend against the Arusian's ''strongest warrior'' in 1x03 #it was played for laughs and treated like aggression or paranoia on Keith's part but it was actually hypervigilance #hypervigilance often comes across as paranoia because an abuse victim / survivor can't help but see potential threats around every corner #considering none of the other Paladins* are this way despite also training at the Garrison we can rest assured this is not a result of #Keith's Garrison training - this is something else. something we don't know about and Keith himself might not even fully remember #(*Shiro is to an extent but that's a result of HIS PTSD as a result of being a prisoner of the Galra. And even then he's mostly like that #re: Galra; he's more chill around the average person whereas Keith isn't which makes me think that Keith's trauma stems from ordinary #people abusing him rather than a P.O.W. situation like Shiro)#and it's so much more than that too because like #Shireplica was shouting at Keith to make a decision in that battle - was yelling at him to hurry up because they didn't have time and that #directly contradicts ''patience yields focus'' - which incidentally Keith seems to silently USE in that scene to HELP him solve the #situation. Shireplica says ''your quick thinking . . .'' but it was really Keith taking a moment to center himself that did it #he took a moment to center himself the way SHIRO taught him #in direct contrast to how SHIREPLICA was shouting at him #like . . . i feel like there's really something here and i want to write this meta out in full #how Shiro helped Keith heal from whatever happened in his past #but how Shireplica is going against everything Shiro taught and did #and is tearing Keith down to potentially disastrous results depending on how far the writers want to take this #(and how long Shireplica is with the team)

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chrsitophwaltz · 5 years ago

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MICKEY MEETS FC BAYERN (PART 1/4)

for the entire houston clownery experience click here

psa: excuse my face and the pic qualities. up until this happened i haven’t really taken pictures of myself (less than 10 in the past two years for family and work purposes and NEVER selfies) and when you meet people you’ve only seen on TV in a very unexpected circumstance, then don’t expect your brain and motor functions to work 100%.

okay. i posted part 1 of this a few days ago but i’m gonna redo it again to flush out the details. before i start, know that i arrived in houston wednesday afternoon. my original flight back home was scheduled sunday after the game (i booked my flight and lodgings months before like a good binch) but since bayern clowned again and announced the full detailed schedule really late, and put ALL the major fan stuff on SUNDAY, i grudgingly rebooked and extended one more day. how much that one extra day cost me will haunt me for a while but hey, it was more than worth it! of course, i didn’t know it would work out like that at first...

the hotel reception was around 6:30-7 pm on friday so we went there a few hours earlier to get good spots. met up with The Niko Thirst Gang (big shoutout to @screamingoranges, @saquonbrkley, and @simplyirenic! it was great meeting y’all hope we could do it again sometime) and waited patiently in the houston heat and humidity outside the hotel. finally the team bus arrived and got my shirt signed by boa, fiete, benji, leon, and thomas! made a post about it here and i also have the full reception video if y’all wanna see!

but being the greedy thirsty binch that i am, i wasn’t satisfied at all. thiago and niko weren’t there. the coaching staff were the first to go down and hansi flick, dr. broich, and even Witch Doctor™ müller-wohlfahrt were there, but NOT niko. after the bus left and all the other entourage cars were off, i was about to rage outside the hotel bc i was really banking on seeing niko that day and taking a pic with him there (my blood pressure had been raging for 4 hours and then to be let down just like t h a t...). apparently he and thiago went straight to nrg stadium from the airport for a press conference. and guess what? NRG STADIUM WAS JUST DOWN THE ROAD FROM MY PLACE 💀💀💀

anyway, come saturday and it was game day! i was so pumped since my seat was five rows behind the bayern bench! y’all know what that means: unlimited firsthand access to peak drama!!! i also had this huge ass sign asking for niko’s bottle sdhfsdjfh. the game was great (bc we beat madridies and it was just really exciting all the way) and i saw stuff that we normally don’t get from TV (e.g. ALL the angry niko antics, leon changing into his kit on the bench, etc.) at one point niko finally looked at my direction while drinking from his bottle and i’m pretty sure he saw my sign but he just kept on drinking sultrily from that goddamn bottle sjadhksfksdfdk i hate him!!!!!!!

after the game i was feeling pretty let down and desperate bc i know sunday was the team’s last full day in houston and i didn’t want my extension to be for nothing. the practice session and paulaner bbq were invite-only events (ugh) and the mall meet-and-greets won’t have niko or everyone else in them. so i set my alarm, went to bed, and decided to try my luck by randomly going to the hotel again to see if i can get something. i had no idea if it was gonna work or not. it was a shot in the freaking dark.

sunday morning. 8:30 am. i went out armed with a sharpie, my cardboarded jersey, a pack of gum, and two bottles of water.

my uber drove me to the hotel entrance and i even got the whole five star welcome sjdhfsjdfbjkds

hotel staff: ”hi! welcome to the post oak hotel!”

me: “oh lmao i’m not actually a customer i’m just here to see if the team’s still here. have they left for practice yet?”

hotel staff: “oh no problem at all. they’re still here they just finished breakfast i think”

me: “oh cool i’ll just wait here then”

hotel staff and some guy in a bayern audi fcb tour polo shirt: “it’s so hot here, though. don’t you want to wait inside?”

me:

me: “............i can do that? am i allowed in?”

bayern guy: *shrugs* yeah sure. i’ve seen you around before anyway (nice guy talk for: i know ur stalking them lmao)

just like that.

i’m in. i made it.

u n s u p e r v i s e d. totally no barriers whatsoever. with full blast A/C too!

cue happy lil me, relieved to be out of the houston heat, entering the hotel and chilling in their nice plushy seats. (if y’all have cash to burn, it looks like a real good hotel too if you get to houston sometime). i kept on looking over my shoulder bc i still can’t believe they just let me in like t h a t. i tried to make myself look as harmless and innocent as possible and saw some of the training staff milling around and chatting in german (for a moment i thought i was back in munich it was so surreal). at some point, a very sleepy and very casual javi martinez in slides came up to the reception and i nearly passed out. he looked over at me and i waved and said hi and raised my shirt (signal if he wants to sign). he shook his head no and gestured to reception and i was like “oh sure no problem!” (i was trying not to freak out even if i was sad ok)

i’ve been trying to kill time by screaming here on tumblr until about 10-15 minutes later i heard the huge ass team bus pull up out front. a few moments after that, it all started.

i saw the kitmen carrying stuff to the bus and greeted them “guten morgen!” they were so cheery lmao (idk if it’s bc they just had breakfast or bc i greeted them in german). then i saw dr. broich and hansi flick come out in their training gear (both looking hella tanned sfnsjfjsdfn) and greeted them both again. dr. broich waved, said hi, and went straight to the bus but i was able to flag hansi down for an autograph. in my excitement (he was my first catch of the day!) i forgot to ask for a pic ugh but oh well

me: “thanks hansi! and welcome to bayern!”

hansi: *handing me back my shirt and trying (and failing) to put my sharpie back in its cap* “oh, thanks so much!”

after hansi went on his merry way, i saw dieter nickles (the press conference guy) and asked him for a picture and autograph too.

me: “hi dieter! can i please have a photo and an autograph?”

dieter: “are you sure? i’m not a player...”

me: “haha i know but if it’s all the same to you...”

he seemed pretty chuffed that i knew him and happily signed and took pictures (score #2!)

that was it for a while (they were the early birds) until giovane elber himself came out. i freaked (i love him) and tried to keep my voice from shaking when i asked him for the standard photo and autograph. in my haste, the first was pretty blurry and against the light but giovane, angel that he is, was like “oh no that’s bad. let’s try again” and maneuvered me to another angle. success! i luff u, giovane ;__;

then The Voice of the Allianz Arena himself came out. i semi-shouted “stephan!” and startled him that he nearly dropped his coffee snbfsdbfsdfsb. while he was signing my shirt, i asked him if he could give me a lil soundbite and HE DID! he sounds exactly the same as he does on TV during games omfg

the younglings started to come out too. i missed a few of them because they went out in a group so i was only able to flag down sarpreet and ron. oh well! they cute af! go bayern babies! grow up and save us from clownery!!!!!!

(ignore the pen in my mouth i was multitasking lmao)

after that, the ground started to shake (just kidding) bc Big Uncle Nik was there! after i got his autograph (a very simple N.S. lmaooo) , we tried to take a picture. i say “tried,” because i’m 5′3 (and 1/2....on a good day) and he’s built like a fuckin skyscraper. in the end, since he was so nice and realized it was hopeless, he bent down to my level so we could both fit in the frame sdhfbsdjfsbdfjd COME ON SÜLEEEEE

then Pure Angel Baby Fiete came out! i already got his autograph and had a pic with him in the hotel reception, but hey, one more can’t hurt! lemme tell y’all: he looks like an angel, and IS an angel. he’s always so game for photos and even said thank you after we took the pic and i’m like “um???? no, thank YOU!!!” he laughed and i cried lmaooo

also, javi finally showed up again. i raised my pen and phone and he was like “oh sure! yeah!” my brain was fried from Beautiful Athlete Overload that i forgot NOT to take a pic from that cursed angle. javi looked like he was in a hurry though so i didn’t even try to ask for a better pic. oh well, at least here he looks like he came down from heaven (he really looked like he did huehue)

(tumblr has this stupid 10 photo per post limit thing so stay tuned for more pics in part 2!)

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