#dw you're not alone c:

[iheartz4starzz]

NEVER THERE 𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ ִ𐙚

husband!chuuya x f.reader

SYNOPSIS: you only get to see your husband, chuuya, once a day, which is late at night when you're about to go to sleep. the next morning, you always wake up to him gone.

TW: slight angst, but dw, it'll be fluff at the end, might be a few grammar mistakes

NOTES: fun fact: a lot of these oneshots are based on my c.ai chats <3

Btw I never specified if the reader was taller or shorter than Chuuya, so you can just imagine it urself. ^^

You heard the door unlock, revealing a redhead mafioso, who peaked his head into the room. He let out a sigh and stepped through the door, running a hand through his hair as he set his hat onto his nightstand.

"Doll, did you wait f'me again?" Chuuya asked and crossed his arms.

There you were, sitting on your guys shared bed with your phone in hand. You were playing mobile games while waiting for your beloved to return home after a long days worth of work.

"Yeah. It doesn't feel the same when you're not here next to me when I sleep." You replied, averting your gaze with a slight pout.

Chuuya let out another sigh, but couldn't help but chuckle and smile warmly at how cute his wife was. He quickly showered and changed into his bedtime clothes before getting into the sheets next to you.

Resting your cheek on your husbands toned chest, you let out a breath of contentment before closing your eyes. The sound of his steady heartbeat and the warmth of his arms was soothing for you, which was perfect to help you sleep.

"How was work today?" You asked with a yawn, trying to keep yourself awake.

"Fine. I had to fix a smuggling deal that one of my stupid subordinates messed up." Chuuya sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose.

You laughed, then snuggling closer to the redhead. You let out another yawn, to which Chuuya noticed and ran his fingers through you (h/c) hair. "You're tired, doll. Go to sleep now."

You shook your head in protest, blinking your eyes. "Nuh-uh! I want to spend more time with you, so I need to stay awake."

Chuuya shook his head and pressed a gentle kiss against your forehead. "Sleep now."

"But I-"

"No buts."

You sighed, closing your eyes to let your sleepiness consume you. Before you could final succumb to your slumber, you looked up at Chuuya with tired eyes.

"Will you be here next to me when I wake up?"

Chuuya could only bite the inside of his cheek and shake his head. "No doll, I'm sorry. I have work tomorrow."

You nodded and closed your eyes. "I love you, Chuuya."

"I love you to, (Name)."

The next morning, you woke up per usual to Chuuya not next to you. You let out a sigh of disappointment and stretched, then moving your feet to over the edge of the bed. You unplugged your phone from your charger and noticed a note and a red rose sitting on your nighstand.

You took the letter and read it, smiling in the end. The letter said:

'Dear (Name),

I'm sorry I can't be there to greet you in the morning. I promise I'll make it up to you next time with a bunch of presents, love, and kisses.

I love you.

Your husband, Chuuya.'

Though the letter was sweet, you couldn't help but frown in disappointment. That's what he would always say when you brought up the fact that he was never there for you. Pushing the thoughts down, you got up from bed and headed to your office to start working.

Usually you stayed home, due to the fact you were a stay-at-home wife, and partially of the fact you also worked from home. It was only those one times you went outside if you wanted to go shopping.

One work was finished, you went to the kitchen to make dinner and clean up around the penthouse. Once again, you ate dinner alone and left leftovers for Chuuya to eat once he got home. You then got ready for bed and got under the covers, bringing out your phone and began to wait till Chuuya came home.

Another hour passed, and Chuuya was still not home. You let out a sigh and laid sprawled out on the bed, starfish style. Bringing your arm up into the air, you stared at the hand with a ring wrapped around your ring finger. You chewed the inside of your cheek and rested that hand on your chest. You yearned for Chuuya's love, and missed him dearly.

Just then, the door to the bedroom unlocked, revealing the redhead who walked inside with a tired expression.

"Hey, Doll. I'm back." He greeted you with a smile.

"Welcome home." You replied and sat up.

After Chuuya was done with getting ready for bed, he got under the covers with you. Chuuya let out a sigh and wrapped his arms around you, pressing a kiss against your forehead.

"I missed you." Chuuya told you.

You stayed quiet for a moment before responding. "I missed you to. But, you're not going to be here next to me when I wake up..."

Chuuya frowned. He felt a twinge of guilt in his heart and began to rub your back apologetically. "I know, I know. I'm sorry, (Name). You know how my boss is."

Suddenly, Chuuya heard sniffling. He watched you sit up from his arms and bury your face into your hands, beginning to cry. Chuuya felt his heart shatter to see you sobbing because of him. Chuuya sat up quickly and rubbed your back.

"(Name)?" He mumbled quietly, his soft voice laced with concern and worry. "Hey, what's wrong, baby?"

"I-I'm sorry. It's just that— I miss you so much, Chuuya. I only see you one time a day because you always come late from work." You sobbed and wiped your tears. "But every time I stare at my ring, I have to keep reminding myself that I have a husband! But it feels like I don't, because you're never here!"

Chuuya didn't know how to reply, and only felt his guilt increase from hearing your pain and yearn for his love. Chuuya cupped your cheek, turning you face towards him. "(Name), I—"

"Am I pushing you away? Am I to clingy? Is that why you're spending so much time at work instead of at home with me? Your wife?" You interrupted Chuuya, sniffling again. "Is your job really more important than your wife? Do you still love me?"

Chuuya's eyes widened when he heard that last question. He quickly brought you into a tight hug, burying his face into the crook of your neck. "No, I still love you! And you're not pushing me away, (Name)—"

Chuuya took a deep breath before continuing. "You're not pushing me away, love. I would never allow that to happen, because you're the most important woman in my life. I love you far to much to ever let you go. It's just... it's my job."

"But wouldn't Mori understand that you have a wife at home? You're not just some mindless pawn for his use! You're your own person, Chuuya!" You argued, tears streaming down your cheeks. "N-No, I'm sorry. I understand that you're doing this for the both of us. I understand that you're working really hard to have a roof over our heads..."

"(N-Name), don't just brush if off like that," Chuuya stammered, cupping both of your cheeks. He let out a sigh before pressing a kiss against your lips. "I'll see what I can do, alright? Just... please don't cry. I can't bare to see you like this."

You nodded and laid back down in bed with Chuuya, wrapped in his arms. You sniffled again and wiped the left tears on your cheeks, your eyes puffy and red. "I'm sorry, Chuuya. I just don't want you to overwork yourself."

"I know, Doll. I understand where your pain is coming from, I really want to do something about it." Chuuya replied and brought your closer to him, pressing a kiss against your forehead. "I love you, (Name). Don't think to much about it, okay?"

You nodded once more. "I love you to, Chuuya."

The next morning, you stirred from your sleep, blinking your eyes awake and looked to your side. Frowning to see that Chuuya wasn't there, you got up and ran a hand over your face.

'Don't be such a bad wife, (Name). Chuuya is doing this for both you and him. At least appreciate what he's doing.' You told yourself and got up from bed, making your way to the kitchen to make breakfast.

As soon as you left the bedroom, the smell of eggs and bacon wafted through the air, tingling your taste buds. You breathed in the smell, licking your lips as you approached the kitchen. You peaked around the corner, your eyes widening to see Chuuya standing at the stove with a apron that said 'Kiss The Cook.'

"Chuuya?"

Chuuya jolted and turned around, quickly turning off the stove and smiled at you warmly. "Morning, Doll."

You teared up, smiling as you ran towards Chuuya, crushing in a hug. "Agh! W-Why are you crying?" Chuuya frantically asked, wiping your tears away with his thumb.

"N-No, it's happy tears, Chuuya! Happy tears!" You repeated, laughing at his misconception.

Chuuya smiled and cupped your cheeks, giving you a morning kiss. "You're such a crybaby." He teased and flicked your forehead.

You whined and held your forehead, pouting as you looked up at Chuuya. The two of you laughed it off in the end. Chuuya wrapped his arms around your waist and you wrapped your arms around his neck. The two of you connected lips, the kiss strong, passionate, yet gentle at the same time.

After a few moments, the couple broke the kiss and smiled at each other. You rested your forehead against Chuuya's, eyes closed as the two of your soaked in the moment.

"I love you, Chuuya." You whispered.

"I love you to, (Name)." He replied, pressing a kiss against your forehead.

"Soo... Kiss the Cook, eh?"

"Shut up!"

ENDING NOTE: i didn't want to make readers wife role seem to clingy, or to unappreciative. i hope i didn't make anybody upset with reader, tho.

luv u all! <3

-mai

[rxsilabeth--er]

ok this feels mean to do but, remus and a slytherin male reader. post-prank. essentially, post-prank remus is angry with sirius, but suddenly he find himself close with his 'sleazy' seatmate in charms. turns out, he's not that mean and less of a jerk from how he holds himself and how most people percieved Slytherin men. he's also very good at his studies, he helps remus out when remus seems to need it, he has this nice voice, and an even nicer face—wait what?

(i'd love to walk in the great hall with my arm around remus lupin's shoulder, maroon and burgundy marks on my neck and a sleazy grin on my face as i leaned down to his ear, just to whisper to him that his ex's staring. let 👏🏻 me 👏🏻 make 👏🏻 that 👏🏻 man 👏🏻 blush 👏🏻)

:: hickeys and a Slytherin that's tricky...

Now calling....Author: "This was a lovely request!! Though I LOVE wolfstar, this did hurt my wolfstar heart, but I love it nonetheless!!"

Now calling....Synopsis: "...After the prank, Remus prefers sitting alone in case one of the marauders come and he bursts open at the seams, but luckily during potions, a certain Slytherin helps his wrong potion and even fixes his seams perfectly..."

Now calling....warnings: "smoking, drinking, fashion show, personal headcanons, tying Remus to his bed for his health (dw), reader is mentioned to piercings, hickeys, mentions of sexual activity, The prank, angst on Sirius's part, possibly wrong potion making, I couldn't fortunately get my hogwarts letter...I deserve to be there more than Draco Malfoy, that's for sure...male!reader. Ooc? Bellatrix and Narcissa? Bellatrix doesn't like Remus in the beginning, but settles to tolerate him cause his ma was a squib and his dad a wizard so he's a pureblood, right? Bella had sexual history with reader. Beware, this is quite long."

the clinking of his spoon on the walls of the bubbling cauldron did not help Remus's situation, he could still hear James, Sirius and Peter's murmurs along with Severus's glare at him. What potion were they making again? Does not matter especially if you just got your heart torn apart by those you trusted the most in your life...

He softly looked around, Severus's glare still trained on him as he lowered his eyes with guilt, continuing to cut whatever he had as the instruction in his books said, his eyes already blurring the view with tears,

"You're not supposed to put three lacewings...the book says wrong." a gruff voice softly perked up as Remus flinched and looked around to find a particular Slytherin whom he had seen around, mostly smoking, snoozing or being lazy and chaotic.

With messy hair, messy shirt, Slytherin tie, a few piercings around your ears and tattoos poking out from under your sleeves, you stood there pointing at his book.

Seeing him basically zoned out string at you, you snapped your fingers in his face to pull him out of trance, as he shook his head and looked at you, his eyebrow raising,

"And what makes you think you're right?" Remus asked as he glared his eyes up and down you, as you simply shrugged and said,

"I mean, if you add three lacewings which makes the potion acidic to daisy roots who's job is to acidify the potion already, it will become..I don't know? Too acidic for anything to survive in it? We need it just enough acidic so that when we add the base, it will be enough to neutralize...I thought you were smart, Lupin."

and your words left him appalled, but he couldn't speak as he did understand your logic behind it as he scoffed and asked, "And how many am I supposed to add, genius?! Professor didn't say anything." as you looked at your own book at the corrections you made, "...One and a half".

As you said, as if on cue, Snape's cauldron bubbled too much and spilled everywhere leaving blisters on contact with bare human skin of those around as people winced and softly whispered, a Remus looked in surprise, you didn't seem shocked as Snape did think he knew better and added three and a HALF lacewings, idiot.

You simply continued to mix your potion, Remus decided to take your advice and only add one and a half instead of three like everyone did...You finished yours and tested it in front of everyone as Slughorn awarded your with fifty points for Slytherin, he must ave been impressed because this particular potion was a hard one, Remus's also turned out to be good but he was awarded only fifteen points, possibly because he showed it at the last minute.

As you got your things and walked out, the classes were over so you had free time as you walked down the courtyard down the grassy fields near the tree where the Slytherin skittles often sat. Throwing your bag up, you quickly climbed up there, pulling out a cigarette and a lighter before lighting it and smoking out smoke from your nostrils as you hummed to yourself, opening a book to read.

Remus didn't know how, but he somehow walked up and climbed up to meet you, you simply looked his way, nodding as a greeting as you went back to reading while Remus was panting from the tiny climb,

"Uhm....hey, thanks for the tip today in class..." Remus began as you nodded, taking another drag and softly blowing it out, as Remus stood there, clinging to the tree in disbelief,

"..Okay...Uhm..." he nodded to himself as he took a step down, "...What happened to you and marauders?" you asked softly, crawling to lay on your stomach on the slightly somewhat large space the tree had to offer, looking down at him with your face in your propped up hand, noticing the way he froze,

"...None of your fucking business." Remus said in annoyance, as you nodded, "Okay." you said taking another drag and blowing the smoke in his face, making him more annoyed, as he swatted your hand, "Fucking stop." Remus snarled, as you grinned..

Out of nowhere, with unknown confidence, Remus took your wrist and made you place your cigarette between his lips as he blew the smoke in your face before climbing down and walking away as you stared back at him in surprised with flushing reaching up your cheeks to warm them, a soft smile spreading your cheeks as you looked at him walking away.

You quickly gathered the book, the bag and jumped down, following him from a few feets away, walking behind him yet no doing anything, of-course he noticed, you weren't hidden or invisible and yet he didn't do anything. Up until the portrait of the fat lady you followed him and would have followed him inside if he didn't just stop in front of the portrait till you stood beside him,

"What is it? Why are you following me, you fuck?" Remus asked as you simply blew out more smoke, "You looked like shit, so I followed. I need to make you a forest brown again." you said simply as his eyes soften ever-so slightly...sighing, he gave the password and pulled you in, sitting you down and removing your tie,

"Oooh, already so eager to fuck, Lupin?" you asked smirking, making him scoff, "As if me, or anybody in fact, would sleep with a sleaze like you. Only doing it so people don't know I'm hanging with a serpent.", "Okay.. :)"

And the next month flew without a care of world for Lupin and you, as you simply pulled out a cig after classes ended and were pulled by Zahara and if she pulled you, you pulled him, cause if Zahara was around, you needed the 'Casanova' around so people don't think that Zabini be sleeping with you...

Or maybe you'd help Pandora to collect rocks or snails or slugs around the Black lake, while she rambled on and on to you while Remus stood there smoking.

Or maybe you'd be sharing a cigarette with Barty and Evan cause you three were being stingy and lazy to buy some from Hogsmeade as you three glared at Remus in envy while he wasted cigarettes from his brand new packet while he only took two drags before putting it out and pulling out another one all while smirking in your direction cause he knew you three were too prideful to ask him for one.

Or maybe you'd be reading while cuddling with Regulus and helping him annotate while Remus sat beside you hearing both of your interpretation, he didn't think you'd be into literature almost as much as Regulus while you both acted out Shakespeare sometimes.

Or maybe styling clothes with Andromeda, Narcissa and Dorcas and putting on a show for the house in the common room while people hooted or laughed at the dramatic display all while Remus sat there in confusion at how weird the whole house of Slytherin is if you don't notice the idiotic pure-blood supremacists (Lucius, Lestranges, Bellatrix, Snape, Mulciber, etc.).

The month went by quickly, you stood outside the door of the Shrieking Shack, smoking as he transformed for the month...The month had sadly two full moons and it did not go well...

if not for you standing outside until the morning and tying him to his bed, while putting on healing spells and refusing to let him go to class and leaving him there in the Shrieking Shack until the classes ended and you came back with the gang and sat beside him on the floor, playing truth or dare, having a fashion show, smoking, singing songs and playing stupid instruments and more...

For Remus, well it was small, not for the Marauders especially Sirius...No, on the contrary it was hell for them, Sirius could not help but feel guilt as he refused to let himself or James or Peter believe that he purposefully sent someone to be murder and maimed...

He could not let James or Peter turn their back on him, cause he knew that in the two's eyes he was still a good person..and a good person doesn't send someone else to be mauled....

Sirius had begun to cry himself to sleep, putting silencing charms around his bed post and sticking his curtains around him with a few spells as he heard Remus walk in every night, giggling at something another voice spoke, before he heard the sounds of him falling into his bed and the sounds of Remus...possibly kissing the person..No he could not have that in his mind..

Remus had changed a lot, everyone in Gryffindor could tell. He still wore his grandpa sweaters, but he had eyeliner around his eyes, his eyes seemed more hooded and bored, with no concealer covering his scars anymore.

And despite his sweaters, he was more often seen with Blazer, sometimes blood dripping down his nose or knuckles and mostly walking around Barty, Evan, Regulus and you, all five laughing while Pandora clung to your arm and Dorcas fussed over Remus's hair and scars and body, asking him if anything hurt...

Mary, Lily, Marlene, Alice often saw themselves being replaced by Dorcas, Pandora, Zahara and sometimes Andromeda and Narcissa and well rarely, Bellatrix who asked him to tutor her after swallowing a lot of her pride...Sirius, James, Frank, Peter saw themselves being replaced by you, Barty, Evan and Regulus...

Remus wasn't ever seen in the Gryffindor tower now, always roaming around the Slytherin common room, sometimes seen beside the Black lake with Pandora and Dorcas talking with merfolk with sign language, or waltzing with Narcissa in the courtyard who always smiled and laughed as he mixed up his steps...

And seen in the library with Zahara and Bellatrix who wore a scowl which sometimes melted away after a while as the two listen intently to whatever he taught them...

Or walking around Hogsmeade with you, Barty and Evan, Barty and Evan whining and clinging to each other before going away somewhere to make out as you simply bought him his favourite chocolates at Honey dukes and sometimes putting the tiniest bit of melted chocolate on the tip of his nose before kissing it away...

Or talking with Regulus and you about the newest books they read, or three-wheeling Andromeda and Ted, teasing the two with a smirk as you leaned against him, smoking with a smirk, sometimes enjoying him with the teasing. Sirius or other marauders couldn't bear himself seeing it and often teared up at the slightest mention of Remus and his new-found friends..

Despite being everything Sirius hated the most; a pureblood, coming from a noble family, serious, smart, cunning, ambitious Slytherin, you were everything that deserved you got and showed not everything is not as simple as it seems.

you did not worry what people thought when you helped people. Helping Andromeda through hexing a few of Ted's bullies from Slytherin who tried to hurt him for being with Andromeda,

comforting Alice after a fight she had with Narcissa,

sharing some weed with Peter,

helping Lily chase away Snape who was being too persistent,

helping Marlene get the snitch just to spite Dorcas yet make Dorcas laugh the other second cause you didn't want her to feel bad about loosing the match,

taking the blame for whatever Barty, Andromeda, Bellatrix, Regulus, Narcissa did cause you didn't want a letter be sent to their house and make them get punished by their parents,

learning to braid Zahara's hair the way she likes it to help her,

taking Pandora anywhere she wanted,

helping Evan with his homework in library...

You couldn't be thrown into one category cause you weren't like that, you were the hardest thing to navigate, you were always being sleezy, smoking, yet you helped, cared, comforted people who needed it...

The next morning as he stood up and walked down to the Great Hall, Remus left WAY earlier possibly to be with his new found friends... He walked in, and sat down as he simply ate whatever was present before Marlene smacked his hand pointed back at the entrance to see Remus.

In his usual black blazer, hooded, bored eyes, a few piercings, a cig in his hand with his shirt's top two buttons open and showing his collar and neck covered in bite-marks, hickeys...

some were even decorated with stickers as he walked and sat right behind Sirius, yawning as Zahara whistled, as Bellatrix scoffed,

"What, couldn't even handle being with Y/N?" Bellatrix asked grinning with confidence,

"Well, still better at handling him than you, no Bella? He isn't able to walk, last time I remembered, it wasn't him who couldn't walk, it was you who couldn't walk!" Remus said back with a evident smugness in his voice as Bellatrix sat there, appalled and shocked as she simply humphed and looked away as the table softly snickered...

Sirius couldn't bear to think that something he wished he could have was now with someone completely different. Sirius longed to be in your place as he couldn't help the tears which pricked his eyes...How come a large mistake of his took away everything he wished was his...?

He looked back at the entrance to see you softly walk in, slightly limping with a cig in your hand which you dropped on the floor and stamped on to put it out as you walked and sat down beside Remus, leaning against him, trying to catch on sleep which you obviously couldn't complete from last night's activities...

Sirius felt filth inside him at seeing you and Remus be together, through classes as you helped him read and developed spells for him to read through his Dyslexia, helped him sleep with a potion Regulus created to heal his own insomnia which you even gave to James to help his insomnia.

You helped Peter sometimes with his charms when he needed help, told Lily which colour looked good on her, helped motivate Marlene to cause pranks, told Mary she looked pretty, gave advice to Alice about Narcissa and even gave Rita some gossips you heard to satisfy her.

You even helped Sirius himself with pranks to pull on Snape whom you started calling "Snevillous" as well...no matter how much Sirius tried, he couldn't hate you..or even be you...

He saw you everyday with Remus, making out with him in some corner of the library, sitting on his lap to tease him, quoting books he hated simply to annoy him, stroking his scars with your fingers, putting on liner on his eyes, using spells to make drawings that Evan did to turn them into permanent tattoos, wearing his grandpa sweaters and flaunting them in front of the girls all whom laughed or giggled...

You even tried your hardest to fix the marauder's friendship, in which you succeeded..but not because their apologies were sincere, it was because you tried to fix their friendship.

© This writing work belongs to me, rxsilabeth--er, Aurelia, Rosilabeth, Cerine. Reblogging is appreciated, but plagiarizing or copying my works is forbidden, thank you for reading this and if you like this check out my blog!

[sea-of-dust]

Hello c:

can I request Akira and Ryuji with a f!s/o who is going through her period

(I'm suffering the wrath of cramps 😭)

This is the worst....

Ryuji and Joker/Akira x Fem!Reader

Summary: you're on your period with them trying to help you

Notes: HI Hi annon!, dw I feel ya 💀 ALSO I GOT THE OTHER MESSAGE IM SORRY I MADE YOU WAIT SO LONG 🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️

Warnings: mentions of blood, the hell of period craps

He has futaba he already knows what it must be like for you maybe even worse, so he brings you stuff you like in hopes you don't turn into a fire breathing dragon and spit fire (futaba)

Offers to do your homework for you or help you with it. He wants you to rest, don't stress about it too much not like he memmorised your handwriting for this exact purpose. So what if they aren't causing you that much pain you rest watch him speed run homework.

He lays his head on your stomach sometimes, this could lead to teasing unless you were actually about to make futabas story real. "Hey leave my girlfriend alone stomach" "stop qouting that!" Getting you to laugh made it worth it

He will lay with you even if you don't ask you could take a nap and wake up with him on his phone next to you. "You're awake?" Scooing over with a chipper grin on his face he shows you his phone "take a peak at this" as he shows you the video you don't notice him sneaking his arm under your torso to pull you into his chest. "Felt that" "awe" you feel him lean over you to kiss your cheek "I woulda got you this time sure of it" smiling weakly you kiss him back "not a chance"

He does cook for you during these times. The godsend of his cooking always make you forget about the pain and misfortune of these unfortunate times. "I can spoon feed you if you want" "YES"

He looks like his brains about to explode when he learns your on your period. "Ohhh that time of the month. No biggie!" Until you didn't show up to school one day because of your cramps

He did come running to your house with pads and the plush you kept hugging when you stayed in his. "Miss l/n it's an emergency please let me stay with your daughter!" "Oh you must be Ryuji! She talks so much about you!" Her eyes water as she fondly tells him about the times you spoke about him. It was nice but what was great was sneaking away mid rant. "Y/n!" "Ryuji?!"

He takes oddly great care of you, offering you food and bringing a game with him. "You brought alot-" "well yea I didn't know what you were in the mood for so I brought everything I knew ya liked" "They're gonna last me years..." "perfect!"

Only lays next to you if you ask him to. Feels like if he moves the wrong way it'll make you uncomfortable. So when you eventually get him to lay next to you he's just a board, his mind comming up with all sorts of theories for what would happen if he even breathed wrong.

So the next day you came to school the guy was with you every step. "Ryuji your classrooms next door" "what if you pass out" "they aren't that bad worse case I end up vomiting" "what if there's no bag!" You sigh patting his shoulder "listen I'll be fine" it's gonna take the bell to ring for him to finally give in. Doesn't mean he isn't walking you home keeping an eye out for anything out of the ordinary.

[i-yap]

Hello here another request from Dick Grayson. I hope you are well and that you are not putting pressure on yourself with these requests, sleep well.

Could you write something about Dick's Girlfriend who is an artist 🎨 she went to university and graduated with a degree in Literature or something like that she is like an artistic soul she writes, plays the piano, paints maybe she knows a little about ballet [she is just as flexible than Dick] and speaks several languages. Maybe Dick convinced her not to "work" [on a schedule for someone else] so they could spend more time together and so she wouldn't fill her little head with things like forced labor or bills. He covers all expenses and more. He spoils us too much. ...it also makes it so that you focus only on your art out of passion, writing, painting, playing music, learning to play the guitar 🎸 just because you want to and have the time.

and on the nights when he has patrol you go out with your friends "Sex And The City" style.

You also learn to cook in the huge kitchen of their shared apartment and he tries everything you make, he also cooks for you (sometimes) you also do a Skincare routine for him and he loves to smell just like us.

Dick Grayson x artist!y/n

man has money, I can see bruce paying all his vigilante children and he got alfred's billion plus man is the best detective at the pd .

So how could you expect him to not feel sorry for his -pretty but stressed overworked surrounded by idiots who don't know art having to commercialize herself and loosing her sense of style and art because of the nonsense requests of her bosses -gf. Your pain is his pain after all.

You know you are very creative I mean- your ballet could give grayson a run for his money. You have always been talented, drawn to the creative arts. But here you are stuck being a designer for a corporate job. AND IT SUCKS BALLS.

The boss keeps asking you to design templates and after designing 3 boring asf template she's like yea that fine now just do content. But even the content cant be fun or innovative. It has to be corporate and easily consumable and its just so dumb like let ai do it and why even hire you if she wants you to do the labor that is just ctrl c ctrl v LIKE FUCKK

And your creativity is dyinggg. you cant remember the last time you picked up a paintbrush and you loved art. Now you're loosing a sense of self and you don't even know if any of this is worth it. WHY NOT BE A BARISTA?? AND DO ART ON THE SIDE...CUZ OF THIS FUCKING ECONOMY. ONLY THE RICH CAN BE ARTISTS ONLY THE RICH AHHHH

(sorry this turned into a little self vent ahem ahem)

anyways dick sees your talent and he sees your pain and...he wont take no for an answer.

So here you are, live in girlfriend , but he calls you an investment whenever you feel down because dick is paying for both of you.

So other than art, you make him food. And he makes you food too dw girlie but you do it out of passion of trying out new recipes .

You go out and teach students dance at underfunded public schools and perform without contracts...just for the love of performing or focus on writing a book.

You spend the day focusing on your passions and build up your skill, having a loving supportive boyfriend.

Dick is really busy with detective work then as Nightwing so you spend the alone time focusing on your work rather than being distracted by your pretty boyfriend...that too actually.

And with this amazing man by your side, you have plenty motivation.

SO when you do become a hit, No one is prouder than Mr grayson here who believed in his girl all along.

and If you don't? you can always start a small art school, language school or ballet school. There is no lack of talents

And with such a talented gf , dick has the perfect trophy wife who he loves very very much. You are the talk of every gala, you accompany him on business meets (language skills and art is universally needed) and honestly dick couldn't ask for more!

In modern society its now believed that the only way to get self respect is to be a working woman. Why cant we stop telling woman to be something? Staying at home, raising or not raising kids, focusing on your passion and loving your husband ( future husband too) is just as acceptable as going to work( if you can find a man like dick ofc). you do work hard, you did have a degree or not depending on your circumstances and you are genuinely working towards your goals. And dick comforts you in it. He sees your passion he sees your talent and more than that he loves you so no matter what, he's supporting you through this journey.

I am actually writing a batboys skincare thing which ill post over the weekend. Im sorry this turned into a personal rant. Im working two jobs and studying 3 courses while preparing to start university..so this hit a little close to home . What I would do to have a dick grayson just marry me and let me focus on my passion rather than juggling various stuff. This blog is maybe the only thing I do for myself..which is sad cuz I had a lot of hobbies. Anyways ...hope this didn't suck too much.

[coconox]

my 2 cents on the state of whb

i've been contemplating about my thoughts on this game since i never really sat down and processed it, and a month of not playing the game and just keeping up with fandom content/official game news i think i can properly format my words (hopefully idk lol)

if you're looking for a specific section dw i'll properly format everything under the cut so you can just scroll till you find whatever you're looking for (also head's up it's insanely long i'm sorry but kinda not sorry i wanted to just put all my thoughts into one post rather than multiple)

SMALL INTRO

for some context on my experience, i have been playing this game everyday since launch/day 1, i was f2p up until i got juno's card, which i'll talk about later, but just know in advanced that juno was the only case where i've spent money. i uninstalled around the time the announcement was made in regards to no posting full stories of paid content, so almost month ago, and only reinstalled recently to grab certain items to add to the spreadsheet that i've been maintaining since november (aka a month after launch)

i've said it privately to a couple of close friends but i'll say it publicly here: imho, i think they released the game way too early even with the fact that they delayed launch 3 times.

i understand a handleful of bugs are from the fact that the public servers are significantly larger than test servers, but playing this game after the servers kinda stabilized feels like we are the test players, like we're constantly given rough drafts rather than the final copy.

the localization is rough to say the least, but i think i've been so used to it from other gachas that i've played that it didn't really ruin the experience for me,,, except when the text would switch to an entirely different language HJGFDHJGK

from visual bugs to gameplay bugs to voiceline bugs, there's been a lack of communication in terms of what has been fixed and what is still a wip. instead the players just have to "fuck around and find out" in terms of whether something has been fixed or not.

as i continue to state the issues with this game and its direction i'd like to put a disclaimer that i am by no means an expert in any of this stuff lol. i'm just a guy who nerds out over math, spreadsheets, and video games and everything i'll be saying is my personal opinion based on what i've seen/experienced.

THE ISSUE(S)

SOLOMON SEALS AND GACHA

i think the first mistake was them adding solomon seals in the first place. based on what packs in the past looked like, it looked like red keys were originally designed to be for debut characters, but instead they throw a curve ball and add ANOTHER gacha currency that was essentially p2w only up till some point early this year. this ultimately led to there being 2 standard banners, both of which essentially do the same thing except one doesn't have A/B/C-ranks. the fact that now even with realm of seraphim, in order for f2ps to have enough to guarantee with seals, they need to save for a year and a half. that is WAY too long for ONE character. this is of course worst case scenario of needing to hit pity, i'm aware you can get characters early but you should never always expect you'll get early in gacha games, i learned that the hard way during my idk how many years i've been playing gachas lol

i personally think that there's no winning across any of the gacha banners. there's no pity for either of the standards, and debut L/S-ranks have imo too high of a pity for what we're actually receiving per week. we essentially get more or less 1 pull per week in terms of red keys, yellow keys, and seals through dailies/weeklies alone, though of course that can vary cause of the rng key boxes, monthly login rewards, etc.

PANCAKES

there seems to be a general pattern that i've noticed of rather than confronting an issue directly they try to create something new in hoping that fixes the issue instead. an example of that would be the pancake shop.

the old pancake shop was fine as is, we could get a multi for relatively cheap price and get pie boxes everyday (albeit they're rng but pies are pies). what they could've done was add the L-ranks and skip tickets or whatever new thing they wanted to add into that old shop, adjusting the currency wherever necessary. yet instead they just remove the old system entirely and replace it for a new one that no one really asked for? while having the L-ranks in shop are nice, an entirely new system wasn't necessary to make that one relatively small addition. having A+-ranks and lower give gold and books was also not necessary, we have resource stages containing those 2 things and it's very accessible to everyone. what resources we are lacking in however are tears and pies, which are arguably more important than gold and books since those 2 currencies are the core to ascending/lvling characters and their skills.

PIES

i've emailed pb in the past in regards to if there will be other permanent methods for obtaining pies, and their response was holy coin portal and events. those two are NOT stable enough for pie income considering the prices of skills. if there's instances in unholy board where we need to level a character's skills, i'd expect there to be some sort of resource stage that would allow us to get pies so that we can easily obtain that skill level requirement.

"META" GAMEPLAY

i'll explain the quotes in a bit but i do want to put a disclaimer that whb was the first time i've experienced a full on tower defense style gameplay for gachas. i was already familiar with how it works kinda because of neural cloud even though the game as a whole is more like an auto-chess game of sorts, but some story gameplay had tower defense mechanisms and i learned a fair bit from playing that. personally i also haven't played arknights since i'm trying to cut down on the amount of gachas i play but i am aware of its playstyle through friends who like to attempt to drag me into playing it cause of certain characters that i might simp over (*cough flamebringer cough insider cough chongyue cough*)

disclaimer aside, trying to piece together what characters work and what don't genuinely hurts my brain. i put "meta" in quotes because realistically there's only 1: all L-rank light types, ideally at least 1 tank, maybe 1 healer (though a tank can act as both), rest be whatever dps you'd like really (preferably satan considering the fact he can be extremely reliable without his ultimate unlike a few characters). of course, everyone will have a different opinion on what they deem as meta, but that's the general idea i'd personally follow based on what kind of battles have been given to us, what characters are available, etc. the rest tbh are just "cope and seethe" for lack of a better term.

there's a huge type advantage with light and dark types, and i really wish they could buff the other elements more just show they have some spotlight too. i also wish there were more non-light L-ranks. as of making this post, out of the 23 L-rank characters there is currently only 1 non-light L-rank, and it's juno, an L-rank fire marksman.

the part that really "hurts" me the most (don't really know what other word to put here LOL) is the fact that this game is going in a very specific direction of just dps'ing through everything and hope you clear the stage before the enemies kill you.

this game has a huge and imbalanced ratio between dps characters and support characters regardless of element. the fact that we only have 5 healers (NOT including lucifer (victory) considering he's technically a marksman and the healing is from his artifact and not in his skills) and 8 tanks, whereas marksman and close-rangers have twice or thrice the amount is absurd. what pains me more is the fact that for tanks, if you don't have mammon, you're screwed. arguably the best non-mammon option players have that's accessible is bimet. valefor and eligos share the same kit with the fact that their downfall is the possibility that they could be instakilled the second they pop their ult. healers on the other hand are somewhat more lenient. if you don't have lucifer, marbas is your next best, then gamigin (marbas and gamigin can technically be placed interchangeably since their healing differs by 0.1%, it just depends on who you have), then morax, then maybe buer but he only heals 1 unit at a time rather than multiple but i digress. healers still have multiple and very reliable non-L-rank alternatives whilst tanks really only have 1. i really, really hope there's more support units in the future cause man this sucks.

NIGHTMARE PASS

spending $50-$70, on paper, is significantly better than spending ~$400 for a character, and that's really the only "good" thing about it 💀

$50-$70 may feel like nothing to some players, but to a majority, that is a portion of a cost towards food, groceries, rent, etc. basically, i'd assume a majority of people would prioritize surviving than watching pixels on a screen.

i understand at the end of the day pb is running a business, but for kings to be fully locked behind a paywall knowing for a fact that a majority of the player base are 1. casuals/f2ps and 2. are here for the kings is absurd. plus with the fact that typically nightmare pass characters aren't added to standard and aren't always 100% guaranteed to rerun in the future just puts the nail in the coffin for me.

i think it makes more sense for non-kings like juno to be in nightmare pass because it's just additional fun and silly content that arguably won't be tied to the main lore and whatnot, maybe referenced as a silly bit here or there but it'd be more of an easter egg than something important that you absolutely need to know.

personally i bought juno's pass because i love his design, kit, and voice. story was kinda meh for me personally but i really just cared more about the va and gameplay. gameplay-wise, he certainly does not disappoint as a gehenna support unit. but do i regret purchasing him? yes and no. oddly enough this was probably the first i've ever felt guilty in terms of buying something i wanted in a gacha game. yes i regret it in terms of i'm no longer really playing this game anymore, which is unfortunate considering i barely made it through half a year of this game's release. yet at the same time, no i don't regret it because he is a really fun unit. for example, when it's gabriel's rotation in realm of seraphim, juno's, leraye (nostalgia)'s, and leraye's ultimates absolutely DESTROY gabriel in a matter of like <10 or so seconds and it's so satisfying to see. i also just really like his va, scratches a very particular itch in my brain.

anyways before i get sidetracked over appreciating juno, the fundamental flaws of nightmare pass are essentially

you shouldn't need to buy both tiers to get the character. you should realistically need to buy the highest tier and by default it unlocks all previous tiers below it

ui is a bit confusing. i still don't get why f2ps have to unlock parts of nightmare pass that they can't even access/obtain. there should be a clear separation between what f2ps get, what advanced tier gets, and what premium tier gets.

it's too expensive. most bp's i know are ~$10 at the highest tier, though that's considering the fact that bp's i'm familiar with only give cosmetics rather than actual units

from what i've heard through the grapevine, beel (bath) is basically in the same formatting as all the other currently existing bath cards, which are all currently obtainable through gacha. beel has no reason to be in nightmare pass. it genuinely makes no sense as to why pb put him there aside from getting money and that in-turn alienates a majority of the fan base since we can't even view the prologue of card stories if they're a nightmare pass character.

when nightmare pass was first released during christmas, everything was in chaos. the fact that a nightmare pass character needed the other two limited gacha characters gameplay-wise is absurd (mind you, this was before we were given the chance to earn seals through weeklies). everything was too expensive, and rather than an enjoyable christmas event it felt like a "merry christmas, now give us money" kind of situation. i think nightmare pass should not be happening as frequent as it is now. the gap between gabriel and juno was perfectly fine (4 month gap btw), but for a nightmare pass to happen back to back on top of gacha events is too much for both f2ps and p2ws.

the point of buying packs, bp, anything that costs real money in a gacha game is so it makes your gameplay experience easier, paying shouldn't be the main component of your game. personally based on what i've experienced through playing gacha games you should theoretically be able to pull for almost every character on debut just by playing dailies/weeklies/events, yet here we get a bit over a multi per patch (this includes playing realm of seraphim).

DICTATING FANDOM INTERACTIONS

i wholeheartedly believe a fandom is what keeps a game alive. a hindrance to the fan base is a hindrance to the game, which can be seen with the aftermath of pb announcing that legal action will be taken if full stories of paid content are shared publicly. while i understand from a business standpoint that pb would want to enforce the "no sharing full story" thing for paid content since they want players to yk, buy the card, like i mentioned in the previous section, the majority of the player base just cannot afford it.

the people who posted full stories wanted to share to those who cannot afford it, some people may not want only tidbits of the story but rather the whole context, especially those who enjoy dissecting character lore but don't have the irl funds to fully experience it themselves. some people may even want to archive it, cause honestly no one knows how long this game will stay up and we want to archive story so that it's something we can easily look back on. to essentially make players borderline terrified on trying to figure out whether or not it's ok to publicly post stuff in relation to any sort of story content is absurd.

there is also that loophole of what is defined as a paid story. when events end and get put behind a paywall, does that now count as paid story or is that still ok? what about debut L-ranks that are behind seals and there's a 3 month downtime till they're added to standard? or is it just referring to nightmare pass characters? paid stories in the context of the state of the game right now is insanely broad, it's practically at least 50% of this game (i'm exaggerating (or maybe not i wouldn't be surprised if that was actually the case)).

i understand no datamining, while it technically speaking isn't illegal, it's disrespectful to the devs, but a lot of these call to action methods they're announcing are rather extreme imo.

with the most recent cards either being put to standard 3 months after their banner ends or flat out paywalled and not 100% guaranteed to have a rerun, story content as of late has been very sparse. what people want most is a main story update, which we were originally promised to be updated every 3 months and it is now month 6 and we still have nothing.

EVENTS AND EVENT STORIES

event stories being locked behind a paywall after the event ends is probably the first time i've ever seen a gacha game do this. most of the gachas i've played either don't archive event story at all and just rerun it every year, don't rerun or archive the event at all (i.e. if you miss it, cope and seethe), or they archive it for FREE. it feels insanely greedy how EVERY event story needs payment if you ever want to backread an old event.

what also concerns me is the fact like instances like gamigin's event or beleth's event carry so much lore for their respective region and that may never show up in main story, which then screws new players over in not knowing the full context behind every region. events like minhyeok's or bimet's are fine in the sense that it doesn't carry that much lore in comparison to the more recent events. the first few events were like silly banter and getting to know a bit more about the cast.

also changing the event shop from daily pies to a set limit per account was an awful choice it just emphasizes my point earlier of how unstable obtaining pies are in this game.

FULFILLING PROMISES

i think while it was a smart move to list what's gonna be implemented throughout the year, they shouldn't have stated deadlines on when they're doing so.

the following are the things that still aren't implemented yet as of making this post:

new daily chats (expected within february)

friends system (expected within march)

birthday system (more specifically celebrating your bday) (expected within april)

new main story chapter (new chapter expected every 3 months)

if pb were to just say "here's what to expect in 2024" and NOT give specific months, that's fine, but giving these specific months sets an expectation that they would complete it within that timeframe. main story for example is probably the one people have been anticipating the most. by now as of july, if we were to follow the expectation pb gave us, we would currently be on chapter 7, or at the very least chapter 7 would've been released some time this month. we have not even gotten chapter 6 yet. chapter 5 was released in january. it has been 6 months since the last main story update. failing to meet these timeframes will make people upset, because it was mentioned in the announcement that it's 1. a promise (i hope i'm not the only one that takes promises seriously) and 2. in bold yellow text, "what we can realistically expect to see in 2024." the only promises that were fulfilled on-time were the ones in january, the rest have been delayed by at least a month. if you're giving a timeline of what's happening, announce if there's any changes to that timeline, because not doing so will make players believe you were lying to them even though you probably aren't and are instead just falling behind schedule.

i think what hurts more to me is the fact that they aren't publicly communicating these delays. it shouldn't be our responsibility to find out why or when something isn't happening within the timeframe they promised (e.g. by emailing them), it should be up to the devs to communicate that publicly to us. i'm not saying they should overshare what's going on behind the scenes, it can simply just be a simple announcement of "hey, we're very sorry but we're having some technical difficulties with this certain feature and we need more time. here is some compensation in the meantime, thank you for your patience and again, we're very sorry." it's that simple.

FINAL THOUGHTS

i mentioned back in my intro that i feel like this game was released too early purely because the fundamentals of making a bare minimum decent gacha game are just not there. if every patch update has people complaining on what's just recently been added/removed, you're not fully listening to what the audience wants. while i understand pb is a small business, a business is still a business regardless of size and criticism/feedback is necessary especially in a game dev setting.

i've followed this game's news ever since it was teased, which was december of 2022, i've lurked/participated in the fandom (on here at least) ever since september of 2023. i've felt a rollercoaster of thoughts and emotions of "omg this is so great" to "why is this even a feature," hoping that over time the game would get better, but the only thing that's improved was server stability (and even that's still a bit rocky 💀).

a huge part of my stay was just being a lurker in the fandom. i genuinely appreciate all the creatives who fulfill asked prompts of characters, make ocs, fanart, write theories, reactions + many more. i love seeing other people's works/opinions and having just a lively fandom made it all more fun.

but at this point this game is just not for me. i've really only stuck around to read mammon's lore but since main story hasn't been updated in 6 months i'll really only chime back in when there's finally an update. it still amazes me to this day that my patience lasted this long. i think i've covered everything i wanted to cover but my memory is swiss cheese so if i forgot something,,, woops 💀

as for the future of the spreadsheet for those who check back on it, it's still being managed by myself and windy, who has been a huge help since day 1 of creating the build lists and team comps and i honestly can't thank her enough for also enduring this pain of a game with me as we've worked on this spreadsheet together hgjdfgh (luv u bestie 🫶). though it's written in the narrative that both of us will eventually quit updating it entirely if this game persists on not having any signs of improvement. when that day comes i'll make sure to post an announcement about it.

as for myself i'm probably still gonna lurk in the fandom/keep an eye out on game news. i doubt i'll be making any fanart anymore unless if i really have the motivation/boredom for it, but currently i'm revamping the "aesthetics" of this account so nothing's really set in stone. maybe i'll make a few whb rambles here or there if some game news really irks me but for the most part i've already been in the process of moving on to other things.

if you've stuck around this long to read this mess of a post, thank you for sticking around and have a cookie, you deserve it 🫴🍪

[vagabond-umlaut]

ramé 3.0

love.

a word everyone spells as l-o-v-e, except one certain young sorcerer – to whom it appears h-a-p-p-y, to whom it appears h-a-v-o-c – to whom it appears the shape of the letters of your name.

you, on the other hand, forget how to spell when the same word is before you – a fact which, your admirer reckons, would have been a major problem were he not he – that is, were he not the one and only 'gojo satoru'.

and thus begins, the plan.

and thus begins, the six steps to catch one's crush's eye — by the six eyes.

|3| gather info on your crush.

[READ 1.0 HERE AND 2.0 HERE!]

▸ student!gojo satoru x student!reader; fem!reader; the reader's backstory & CT are revealed; angry protective satoru; reader is a mean protector [both of herself and of satoru]; she openly and unashamedly digs in this side of satoru too; warning alert of there being a terrible rumor-monger relative, horrible heartless higher-ups & a fight [your favourite wins, dw]. not-really-angst... not-really-fluff either... somewhere in the between... the ending's fluffy for sure! [this is my fave chapter so far too! :))]

▸ aniki = older brother in japanese

▸ find other parts of 'ramé' and other [stand-alone] fics set in the same universe as this work here! anyways, image, divider & characters ain't mine. pls don't plagiarize, translate or repost this. enjoy reading! ❤️

"oh, you wouldn't want to be friends with her."

the comment cuts through the air with a noisy chuckle and a raucous chorus of giggles - gojo's knuckles grow white with the painfully tight grip he has on the glass of mocktail.

suguru shoots him a contrite face from the other side of the crowd, mouthing an apology with a helpless shrug. the boy looks away from his best friend to throw a glance at the two girls a few seats away.

a beat passes wherein shoko and utahime share a brief look, and the former speaks up, an odd edge to her voice as she leans forwards, a smirk directed at the boy. "and why wouldn't geto? she seems like a pretty nice girl to be friends with."

your cousin scoffs. gojo seriously wishes there wasn't a strict rule set by his father for the clan members of not meddling in the other clans' matters, to maintain an image of neutrality and amiability.

(it's not like he prefers not to break rules or is afraid of his father, the boy thinks grimly as he gulps the last sip of his mocktail and returns the glass to the table with a thud. it's far from being either of those.

it's just that with a small response from him in this matter, you will be dragged under the elders' scrutiny; your friendship with him too will be - and that's something he would never wish upon you. so the boy stays quiet, opting to-)

"what the fuck did you just say?"

the chitter-chatter dies down to a deathly silence in an instant.

rising from his seat, gojo stalks towards the boy sitting on the couch. from the background, he can hear few voices urge him to stop, to get back, with repeated 'satoru, no' and 'satoru, relax' - but the boy finds not a cell in his body wanting to heed those voices. marching right up to your cousin, who shoots him a pathetically fake smirk now, the boy repeats himself, "what. did. you. just. say."

the target of the query huffs a chuckle, drunk and stinking - and your friend realizes now just how much of a diluted description of him you gave him the other day. the guy isn't just some petty irritating relative of yours, he is a fucking bastard.

a fucking bastard who's going to get beaten into a pulp, if he doesn't choose his next words wisely.

another chuckle leaves him, before he gets up from his seat, a slight sway to the action as he sneers at gojo. now, were the circumstances different, the white-haired boy is sure such a brazen person would've impressed him, who is the strongest sorcerer there is, but not today.

not when you're the one who is the innocent undeserving recipient of such a remark as the one he utters next.

"i just said, my cousin's a freak who can read someone's mind without them knowing - and she does that all the time for her sick enjoyment. no one can ever trust that bitch."

a fist connects with the side of your cousin's face and before anyone can realize what's happening, the two boys are rolling on the floor in a brawl, gojo obviously with the upper hand as he lands blow after blow and yell after yell on the other.

a quiet voice whispers to his conscience, chiding his response to the situation to be too harsh, too cruel - but no sooner does it appear than it is stomped down and shoved away by images from the past.

images of a little girl crying, yelling, screaming, eyes squeezed shut, how everything's so loud, how everyone's so noisy, how everyone just can't seem to stop talking of her - in the shocked silence of the party hall.

images of being informed over the phone, his friend won't be coming to play today either - for a class or a function or a cold, he cares the least for - before overhearing later at dinner, it's the fifth day the girl's been comatose since her last treatment.

images of brash celebrations revelling in the discovery and return of a technique, long thought lost - the new messiah, they exclaim - while the said person looks at the elders with face steeped in what, the boy doesn't need his six eyes to know, is terror.

images of a girl, saying in a surprisingly void tone, how horrible, how terrible, how despicable a weapon they've made her into - sneaking into people's minds to steal the meaning of their lives away - before giving a suggestion, too smart, too sharp for a girl of ten; although-

"satoru!"

the singular word snaps the sorcerer's thoughts into two, making him move his irate gaze away from the bloodied face of the bitch to the door-

oh.

it's you.

you, standing in the school uniform, a bag slung over your shoulders.

you, eyes round and lips parted as you stare at the scene before.

you, who takes only a second before you rush forwards, moving him away from your cousin, worried gaze raking over his features instead of the bruised wailing mess of a relative left behind.

"'toru," the word escapes you in a whisper as you maneuver him into sitting on the couch.

another voice wafts over to him, a lot like suguru's, but he pays it no mind, wanting to focus on you and you only, while your fingers travel over his face, brush his bangs away, tuck them behind the shell of his ear, then finally come to a rest on the apple of his cheeks, the grazing of the thumb soothing a minor cut.

though the way your eyebrows furrow at it, emotions darting across your face a million a second, from confusion to concern to anger - gojo reckons, were anyone to see you now, they would think it ain't a tiny nick but a gaping wound.

the white-haired boy grasps your wrist in his fingers.

"i'm okay, shortie," the second-year reassures you in a whisper. you peer at him closely in turn for a beat longer, before a long sigh leaves you though the frown on your lips stays the same. he would've called you cute if not for the murderous intent rolling off you in waves...

gojo decides to call you hot now.

a seething gaze with a soft "what happened, 'toru?" reaches him next.

oh yes, gojo swoons inwardly, you're being so fucking hot.

nuzzling into the palm cradling his cheek, the boy smiles. "nothing you need to worry about."

"it's your cousin," a female voice butts in before a known pair of heads walk into his vision, one smoking a cigarette while the other looks at him then you, mildly stunned.

shoko continues, as laidback as ever (as if she too wasn't glowering then), "suguru there asked him something about you to which the pig replied with some nonsense, because of which satoru here jumped in to defend your honour." your eyes travel from her to him. a whoosh of air leaves the girl and she takes a long drag from a cigarette. "nothing very serious, to be honest..."

"but nothing too unserious either," utahime adds, which earns a small nod from her girlfriend, "if the asshole dares to lie about you once-"

"what's to say he won't again," you finish the sentence for her, a dark shadow looming over your face, then throw the culprit a harsh look. "and what shit did you spout, mr. resident douchebag of the clan?"

a corner of gojo's lips quirk up at the nickname you gave, then part in a grin at the reaction your cousin gave to that. embarassed, for sure, yet never going farther than glaring at you from those swollen eyes.

if you weren't standing here, caressing his face, your friend's certain, he would have gone to tear him a new one - the latter still scowling at you whilst intermittently yelping at the pain of his wounds.

a long sigh escapes you, visibly tired and annoyed.

"i know you can hear me just fine by that stink eye you're giving me, so fess up now - what the fuck were you telling about me?"

an absolute silence answers your question, and just when gojo thinks he might have to leave your warm cocoon to go beat your cousin up, again, suguru's voice sounds from beside, "he was talking about your CT."

"oh?" a brow rises. "and what about it?"

"apparently - and i quote," the long-haired boy adds with palms raised and faced forwards, at the scowl he shoots him, "you can read others' minds without their knowledge, and you do that always. for fun, your cousin claims."

you blink, and turn to your relative; a mask, gojo observes with a hint of melancholy, slipping over your features - not that the boy blames you, though. you need a mask - now, most of all times.

"you said that, aniki?" you inquire, the caressing hand over gojo's skin stilling with a slight tremor. he envelopes your hand in his; an action you respond to with a squeeze, continuing, "but why did you? after all that happened, after all that everyone in the family knows, why?"

a stubborn scoff sounds from the other end of the room; one of the six eyes twitches in its socket.

"i don't think you should ask this question, shortie," the second-year hums, pulling a nonplussed face from you. he grins, "you can simply read his mind, no? your aniki won't be forced to give a reply; your ask too will be answered. besides, this isn't gonna be the first time you're breaking into someone's mind, and, your cousin's not even gonna feel his mind being read - a painless procedure - isn't that right, aniki?"

"fuck no!!!!"

and bingo!

gojo watches you cast a long look at him, then back at your cousin, before a slow smile spreads on your features, the glint so dear to him making a comeback in your eyes.

"not a bad idea, senpai," you say, lifting your free hand and directing it at the culprit. a few gasps sound around you, soon followed by a few murmurs - your senpai watches them slide off your skin like water off a duck's back. you announce in a sing-song fashion, "well, here goes nothing~"

then stop at the anguished cry, your smile widening into a grin.

sweet and smug, like the cat who got the canary.

gojo feels three pairs of eyes look at his smirk, all at the same time - the boy lets them look. the two of you share dynamics, the nature of which none, except you two, can ever dream of comprehending.

wailing, your cousin rises and stumbles over to you, hands folded in a pleading gesture.

"please, no, no, no," he sobs, very nearly falling at your feet before you take a step backwards, disgust overtaking your grin, sending the boy reeling back. "i beg you, no. please don't kill me. i was just kidding; it was just a joke. i'm sorry, don't kill me."

"kill you?" you let out a shocked gasp, placing a hand over your chest, "i would never. i was just trying to read your mind, aniki. why on earth would that kill you? you won't even feel anything-"

"it's the binding vow, you bitch!!" the boy spits, interrupting you, "the one you took years back, 'cause you didn't want the higher-ups to use you as a spy again; giving up the element of secrecy of your CT to-"

your cousin pauses, the realization and the ensuing horror and regret dawning over his face; gojo presses him, sharing a smile with you.

"to?"

the answer arrives as a shuddered whisper - a whisper audible to all, however, thanks to the heavy silence in the room.

"to make it lethal on its victim instead; an attack none can stop, not even a special-grade."

the crash of a glass, or five, impacting with the ground sounds; you give a satisfied nod, smirking.

gojo runs a palm over your dishevelled hair, undoubtedly from driving with the windows down to this stupid meet of the teenagers from the jujutsu clans. you give him a smile, mouth opening to say something, but he doesn't let you. "don't thank me, stupid."

"okay," you acquiesce, a slight huff to your tone before it grows softer, "but can i at least say you were being very cool then? i'm impressed."

"who's impressed with whom?" a crass voice interrupts the moment before gojo can even form it entirely between the two of you.

three - nope, five (even your classmates are here, tch!) teasing smiles float into his vision; the second-year opens his mouth to throw back a retort - except you snatch the opportunity away from him.

"i'm impressed with gojo senpai- any problems, anyone?" you say, tilting your head to one side with the cutest little furrow in the midst of your brows. all five shake their heads, smiles widening before one of them falls on your next words.

"but the next time i see you, geto senpai, asking others what sort of a person i am - don't you dare deny it, you asked two of my friends too the same thing, they told me; god knows why you need my character certificate, though, and for whom; you're acting as if you've a sibling i wish to date and you wanna know everything about me before giving the green signal, but whatever it is, senpai-"

you heave a breath, a break from your tirade - while the remainder of the room's breathing stays suspended.

gojo glances away from you to find the attention of all the attendees fixed on you. he wraps an arm around your midsection and rests his chin on your shoulder. you lean the side of your head onto his.

"i promise i'll create problems for you, more if i see gojo senpai being dragged into the aftermath of your curiosity - okay?"

gojo watches his best friend look at you, terrified, for a second before turning to throw him a glare. the white-haired boy bites back a grin.

placing hands on his hips, suguru exclaims, "you know what, i tried to help but no one here is worthy of my assistance."

"no one asked you for this help, suguru," shoko interjects smoothly, "you were the one who insisted, something about this method being the most effective or something if they want to catch her attention-"

"whoa, whoa, whoa. who wants to catch my attention?" you inquire, cutting them two off. gojo's classmates stop and the blood flowing in his veins drops to a subzero as he cranes his neck to look at you.

you twist to look back at him. "is there someone who wants to catch my attention? do you know them?"

"i-uh-um," the boy stutters, mind scrambling for a reply - something, anything - before nanami interrupts, a small smile on his face, "yeah, there is someone, actually, and we all know him. geto senpai was just gathering some data on you as his wingman."

"oh," you mutter, gaze dropping to the ground, then lifting to gojo. the boy simply blinks back, which draws a frown from you in turn.

retrieving a pair of shades from your bag, you hand it to him and turn back to suguru, a barely-there smile on your lips.

"next time he wants some info on me, ask him to ask me directly. i'll appreciate it."

"noted, boss," the words escape gojo before the addressed can even reply, utterly unmoved by the five exasperated glares [honestly, it's four: haibara can never really glare at anyone] - the next step of the plan already whirring to life in the shades-donning boy's brain.

so, so giddy at the fact of being told of the golden key to your heart.

▸ wrote an info-loaded chapter the first time in my life; please let me know your thoughts or any feedback! 😇

▸ series: we're the summer to our winter rain

▸ masterlist

[acewoo]

～ 𝘏𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘉𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘚𝘢𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘶

Satoru Gojo x Reader

nsfw, flirting, oral sex, fingering, praise, fem!reader

Word count: 1.2k

You and Satoru have been dating for some time and now, his birthday has finally come around. And boy were you planning to make it perfect. After all, it had to be after the absolute dream of a birthday Gojo had planned for you.

You were wrapping one of the presents you had gotten for him as a notification from your phone played.

Toru ♥️

Guess what day it is~

Of course, it was him who else would it be? You let out a small chuckle as you type a response

You

Thursday?

Toru ♥️

Don't tell me you've forgotten :c

You

Ofc I haven't, I'm just kidding Toru’

Happy birthday 🎁

You two continued to text back and forth for a bit before he said he had to go take a shower. At that time you had gone back to wrapping his presents along with writing a small birthday note. While the gifts you had gotten him weren't nearly as flashy or pricey as the ones he had gotten for you on your birthday, the note that you had thrown in and what would come after it would make up for it. Once the note was finished you lace it within an envelope, gather all his gifts and neatly display them front and center on your kitchen table. Your phone buzzes again.

Toru ♥️

Soooooo

When u coming over ;)

You

I'll come over soon toru dw

Js need to prep some stuff

Toru ♥️

Ok come soon tho

I don’t want to be all alone on my birthday

:<

Before driving to Gojo’s place you make sure you have everything ready. After confirming that everything was packed and ready you go into your room and change into the new mini-skirt Gojo had gotten you a week prior.

You

Coming over now

Toru ♥️

Was starting to think u wouldn't

You

I told you I had stuff to get ready

Toru ♥️

Not a good enough answer 👎

The text made you giggle as you unlocked your car to head over; Satoru really was a child trapped in a 27-year-old's body.

Upon arriving you're greeted by a very happy Gojo who opens his mouth before you can even get one foot in. “Took you long enough, I was getting so lonely.~” Rolling your eyes you step inside taking your shoes off. As you do Satoru takes notice of the large gift bag that had been attached to the side of your shoulder. “what's inside there?” he asks, already trying to peek inside it. Before he could though you quickly snatch the bag and respond.

“No peeking, you'll see soon enough” Satoru pouts as he shuts the door behind him. “I see you wearing the mini-skirt I got you,” he says in a much more flirty manner.

“Figured it'd be a good first time to wear it.” you hum as you bend over to place his gift bag on the table. Before you could turn back around, Satoru already had his hands firmly wrapped around your waist. “Keep doing stuff like that might also be the last time you wear it too.” his voice was low and was a clear warning. In which you challenge. “And why would that be Toru?~”

He leans deeper into your back, his lips lazing over your ear, with his breath going down your neck. “Oh so is that how we're playing?” his one hand starts tracing down your skirt as he teases the bottom of the trim. “Of course, I don't mind. In fact, I'd be more than happy to win against you…” his voice is dangerously quiet, and you can already feel the heat intensify between your legs.

“Satoru what abo-“ he cuts you off by pressing his finger from his other hand to your lips and hum “shhhhhh we’ll both enjoy this princess don’t worry.~” his hand then continues slipping further, till it rests under your skirt, his fingers teasing your panties. “I wonder, you're wearing the underwear I got you too?~” your cheeks flash red, giving him all he needed. “Wow I guess you really are eager to please me on my special day aren’t you?~” his fingers curl up in your underwear feeling your wet slick that had already been dripping out of your cunt.

As his fingers continue to explore he rests his lips on the side of your neck. “So fucking eager for me.” his fingers draw down your panties while his other hand reaches down to your waist. As his hand traces down you breathly speak. “T-toru.”

He hums “what is it?~” his thumb starts making circles on your cilt causing you to fold further into the table. “Come on, no need to be shy now.” His thumb presses a bit harder, just enough so the tips of his finger slip inside you. In response you let out a light whimper.

Satoru starts kissing your neck while breathlessly speaking. “So sensitive for me.” He removes his thumb and instead has two fingers slowly enter inside you. “You’ve been so quiet… it’s unlike you, yah know… I want to hear you dear.~” he’s pressed up against you more as his fingers begin to scissor inside you.

As his fingers continue to move inside your drenched walls, his other free hand removes itself from your waist and motions to lean you down against the table. And you comply. “So fucking good for me yah know that?” As he praises you his fingers reach a bit too far inside you when they curl cause you to moan in pleasure. Satoru had a slightly sadistic grin as he saw how much that affected you. So he did it again, and again, and again. Making you cum multiple times.

“T-Toru please- I can’t…. Take anymore..” you shakily let out. Satoru then takes out his fingers sucking your cum off them as if it was candy. “You taste so fucking good babe you know that?” He says completely ignoring your struggled comment moments ago. As he stops sucking on his fingers he then purrs in your ear. “You know…. Just that sample of you wasn’t enough…” Satoru wanted to eat you out right there. And hey, it’s his birthday so who are you to deny him of his wish… not that you could say much right now anyways.

Gojo then helps you get up only to slam you against the couch. He lifts you up to have better access to your pussy as your legs open for him. He wasted no time leaning in under your skirt to begin a cat licking your clit. The moans you were letting out was music to his ears. “So perfect for me…” he continues to eat you out and you could feel yourself getting close. “Toru- gonna c-cu” he cuts you off with a comment of his own. “Do it for me” and just like that your cum shit onto Gojos tongue which was still logged inside you.

Once your release is calmed down Gojo removes himself from your pussy looking down upon you. You were a panting mess and he loved it. He then gives you his signature childish grin as he speaks. “Soooo, can I open my gifts now��� , having somewhat of a composure now, you throw the closest pillow near you at him. “This was supposed to be after you opened your presents dummy!”

“Awe but, you know I can’t help myself around you!” You sigh laughing. “Yeah yeah, happy birthday satoru.”

[theyluvlyss]

𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐬, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐞𝐭, 𝐬𝐨...

anyways😃...

slight disclaimer of sorts, I'm not at all trying to play the "I'm better than you" comparison game, nor am I trying to come off as a bitch lmao I just have thoughts all of the time and this blog is damn near my only outlet. not to mention, this blog barely receives, like 5% of them anyways (so count yourselves lucky🤨🫵🏽).

do y'all ever just think about the fact that - in whatever fandoms you're in - you're probably one of a group of, maybe even in just a handful,, or possibly part of just a couple,,, maybe the one and only,,,, shifter in that fandom?

and if so, does it ever come to mind that because you are a shifter and because you're probably shifting for whatever "character" you're shifting for, that you love them infinitely more than the average person indulging in that fandom you're in?

'cause I think about that all of the time. like... all of the time.

like, what do you mean no one will ever never ever possibly love *insert one of my s/o's and/or best friends* more than me? it's a bittersweet feeling, too, because I feel all alone in my love for that significant other/best friend/comfort person. but at the same time, maybe that's for the best because idk if I'm the jealous type or not, and I'd hate to become a person who can't indulge in content of the comfort person I love bc my jealousy is holding me back.

but anyways, not the point, I just...

WHAT DO YOU MEAN I LOVE *insert my comfort people here* INFINITELY MORE THAN THE OTHERS THAT CLAIM TO LOVE THEM all because of the simple fact that I shift for that person and they don't? again, not saying it's a bad thing or that I'm sitting here trying to one-up somebody or play the comparison game, I'm just genuinely baffled because listen...

I bet there's someone right now going on tiktok or insta or even on here rn being all, "oh I love this "character" so much and I just wish I could be with them, but all I can do is post my edits and my fanfics and my hdcns, oh, woe is me, pouty-pout-pout🥺" and it's like biTCHYOUCAN, YOU LITERALLY C A N BUT THE CHANCES OF YOU BELIEVING ME ABOUT SHIFTING ARE SO SLIM SO WHAT'S EVEN THE POINT👹⁉️

I just gotta sit here like, "I know something you don't😗 ... I know something you will never knowww😙."

AND THEN (this is where the asshole in me jumps out a lil' bit) WHETHER OR NOT YOU DO TELL THEM DON'T EVEN MATTER, at least not to me, because I'ma still just sit there and be like, "I actually love them more than you, though, because I've been LITERALLY shifting my awareness/consciousness for them for like, five years now, so🙂." like I promise you, that's like ... the ultimate form of loving a "character". to not only see them past being a fictional thing, but to see them as a person, a REAL person, and just because they aren't real here doesn't mean shit bc I love them in EVERY reality I'm in and that they're in, real or not.

can you even say the same🤨?

you can post fanedits of them all day and change your user to "so-and-so's wife" all you want, but I'm the one that's hopping realities and putting a ring on that finger💀💅🏽.

😀 ... sorry, sorry, I literally said I wasn't gonna do that and act a fool lmfao I just get cocky sometimes, but Y'ALL KNOW WHAT I MEAN/AM TRYNA GET AT, like-

or shit, maybe you don't, but if not, then ig this post isn't for you lmao, because I totally understand that not everyone loves the same way as one another and/or as I do. like, my love has never once been a "casual" thing. if I love someone or something, it's intense, and ig to others, can come off as obsessive *not in a unhealthy way dw lol*, whereas others, they say "oh I really love this thing✨️." and that's it, no underlying feralness or passion to it, so...yah, idrk or rmbr where I was going with this, I just have a constant stream of thoughts and rambles so...

lol bye, more fics comin' soon♡.

[danieyells]

Re: Obscuary! Towa and Taiga AU

@tanpopo-towa

Obscuary is a house where one is manually assigned by Darkwick, not by the Weighing Of Souls. No Weighting of Souls means your desires have no bearing on your placement there.

Darkwick puts you there if you're a nonhuman ghoul, full stop. Hyde describes a player who values harmony and is "peace-loving and open-minded" as fitting into Obscuary(perhaps not because Obscuary themselves are that way--although they are--but because you'd be accepting of them and their inhumanity), but since there is no Weighing Of Souls for Obscuary the placement is entirely on Darkwick's end.

I imagine Towa still finds Ed unpleasant, and avoids him when possible. He smells like a corpse and he embraces their inhumanity more than Towa is comfortable with, although he's starting to get used to that. Ed, as usual, has no problems with Towa.

Haru canonically transferred into Jabberwock, although we don't know when or from what house, and it's possible that Towa wasn't always in Jabberwock anyway(especially given his historical treatment of anomalies and that he only changed his ways recently.) Haru still comes to the bar every night, so he would meet him regardless of the circumstances. Haru's in his house every day being weak and vulnerable. Towa wouldn't like this at first, but when love(whether from the Tree or eventually growing attached to Haru, whichever love he's talking about) makes him find weakness more valuable he'd find it endearing.

That depends on the circumstances. Jabberwock may have been closed to general students because of Towa(history of a dislike for weakness + suspicion of murder + little display of concern for the wellbeing of others + immense amount of power='we shouldn't let him be around humans too much he might harm them, but he doesn't get along with Edward so he can't go to Obscuary'), so it's possible Haru doesn't run the place alone at all(although he'd still find a reason to go to the bar.) Alternatively they'd leave a few capable general students there or have it managed partially by Institute staff(which puts a lot of pressure on Haru either way, so he will still drink.)

Taiga wasn't really calm to begin with? His whole thing is that he's very violent, enough so that they sent him on a mission because they were okay with him killing the anomaly target instead of capturing it because that's just what he does. And the fact that he'd have to leave Darkwick on missions(because he is not getting an R&R permit the way he kills anomalies instead of capturing them, DW won't approve of it even if Rui would) in order to do any gambling due to there not being a casino on campus would irritate him. Plus Darkwick would scold and punish him over eating and fighting and killing anomalies in Obscuary's forest because they haven't studied everything in there yet--it's like releasing a pack of housecats into a protected area. He's just gonna kill a bunch of endangered species. So he'd have to restrain himself to avoid getting in trouble, which would irritate him more. . . . And play-fighting isn't enough for him, he needs to fight to the death or at least be at risk of getting really hurt. If there's no risk, it's a lot less fun! I feel like he'd be bored a lot of the time, although he's well-fed and has some enrichment.

But it also depends on how Taiga was before he got here--given Romeo implies he used to attack humans and [from his perspective] he doesn't anymore, he probably wasn't any better before coming to Darkwick lmao. Taiga may even be more restrained in present canon, since Romeo doesn't know he still does go after humans now and then(based on Ritsu's recording.)

I can definitely see some kind of esthetician or spa business being what Romeo runs lol probably employs a lot of Mortkranken and Hotarubi students. A mall could also work. . .or at least some sort of luxury business(es). I feel like a mall may make less money though and he'd be wary of operating it at a loss. . . . Of course it's a front business, they do. . .other things in the rest of the ship, but nobody has to know that. . . . (Thinking about it, Kaito probably wouldn't owe him any money in this scenario. . .unless it was some sort of mall for luxury goods and they offered scammy payment plans lmao. . .then Kaito might be lured in by the nice things and how easy 12 payments of $19.95 sound and oh man didn't you read the fine print on the interest fees and such?)

And I don't mind the rambling at all! It makes me happy that it'd generate that much thought lolol

[nian-7]

To continue the ZENITSU SAGA (im sorry im about to give like some spoilers about the anime if you watched it :'3)

This still includes yanqing

While s/o was trying to find their way out of the forest, they encountered a spider-related monster, its minion spiders bite s/o. S/o was so afraid that they were just dodging but got hurt. And now they are laying on the ground literally, they can't move as all of their limbs stopped working and their breathing is getting slower. And then they passed out (they were alone at that time, yanqing found s/o after passing out)

And now they are in a hospital, since they were turning into a spider, they got shorter.

IF YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN YES TY, IDC HOW LONG IT TOOK ILL JUST WAIT !!!

C ANON!!!

YES, DW ABOUT SPOILING ANYTHING FOR ME, I'VE FINISHED THE WHOLE SERIES (i read it all) ENJOY!

Yanqing x gn!reader

✧s/o getting infected & almost turning into a spider

✧tw: spiders (not explicitly described), angsty-hurt comfort

-There's always a little thought in the back of Yanqing's mind whenever you get sent out somewhere solo that you'll come back injured. Him being him though, he shoves it away and focuses on what he's meant to be doing. You are strong enough to be sent out solo after all.

-Little does he know, the forest you're travelling through is infested with spiders. Although they don't usually attack people, it seemed today really wasn't your lucky day.

-A large spider had come down from the trees above. It made you uncomfortable just by simply looking at it. You would prefer to not hurt any of the spiders and just run away but, it seemed like it wouldn't let you.

-Escaping wasn't easy when you were busy looking everywhere to make sure a spider wasn't trying to latch onto you and inflict it's venom into you. Jumping and running around what felt like a million spiders was not very easy.

-As you reached what you had hoped to be the edge of the forest, your leg had started to violently throb. A spider had gotten you amidst your frantic escape and now the venom had started to kick in. And god was it painful.

-You couldn't go any farther as you lean against a tree, slumped over. All you could think about was if you were possibly going to die here. From a spider bite. What a heroic way to go down.

-It's as if you blinked and you were back safely in the infirmary. You had nearly screamed when you saw how much you had shrunk but one of the doctors had stopped you before you could.

-They simply explained what had happened, apparently some Cloud Knights had found you and rushed you over. Yanqing had also been sitting by your bed for a while like a kicked puppy, refusing to leave your side till the General had to lead him away so they could treat you.

-He absolutely will be helping as much as he can with your recovery. As much as he's allowed to at least. He knows he still has his own work but he really wants to help you! Yanqing is just glad you're alive at this point, he isn't sure what he'd do if you hadn't woken up or if you hadn't been found when you were.

please do not repost any of my work without my permission, thank you for reading.

[alexey-slay21]

bangchan x male reader

Y/n wants to get a job at Jyp ent. as a manager. He still in the "training period" and he's affiliated to Christopher bang chan, leader of stray kids (wow didn't expect at all). Who knows what will happen between this young man and our dadd- I mean Aussie gentleman :)

*Y/n POV*

I was sitting on a chair in the hall at jyp, I'm reading the schedule for the week my colleague just gave me and damn it's so full and I almost can't even go to the bathroom... everything is planned perfectly, even sleep hours...

I take my phone and I check the time, it's almost 8:00 am, I'll have to start soon. I get up from the chair and I take the papers I have to leave to bangchan.

I enter the elevator and I press the floor button, the doors close and it starts moving up. I arrive at the floor where there are most of te studios and i look forward to his studio. When I find it i knock on the door and i wait him to answer.

He didn't answered but instead he opened the door.

Y/n: "I got some papers for you"- I hand him the documents 

Chan: "you must be the new manager?"

Y/n: "Yeah" i answer nervously

He quickly reads te papers "ok, everything is here, thank you for the delivery... btw what's your name?" He asked

Y/n: "Y/n"

Chan: "that's a nice name, where are you from?"

Y/n: "Y/c (your country)"

Chan: "really!? I've always wanted to visit y/c. Are you going to be by my side now on?"

Y/n:"I think I still have to figure out what I'll do but I think I'll be with you for some time"

Chan:"ohh, got it! So you're still in your training time... don't worry we'll be fine" he said smiling 

I'm more nervous than before and he noticed 

Chan:"don't worry y/n, you'll do great, I'm sure of that"

Y/n: "I hope so"

Chan:"you're too nervous my boy! Relax haha, i think you'll be one of the best managers of the whole company, trust me" he's trying to cheer me up 

Chan:"so I have a meeting in half an hour? To decide next comeback stuff right?"

Y/n:"Yes you're right"

While waiting the time to pass we got to know each other better... the time passed quickly and the meeting was there.

I take Chan to the meeting and after an hour we finished.

Y/n:"Stray kids have to do a lot of of stuff this month"

Chan: Yeah... It's true that it's going to be a busy month with the comeback, photo shoot, interview, all... I know it will be long and sometimes tiring, but don't worry"

We walk down the hall, ready to leave the building 

Chan:"let's go back to the dorm, I'm gonna introduce you to the other members" he says smiling 

Y/n: "Sounds good" I reply 

Chan: "Don't be shy on the way boy, I will introduce you one by one to everyone!"

A few months passed and I became pretty close to Chan and the kids and now I'm officially his manager and one of his close friends.

I'm on the roof of the dorm with chan, he's been sitting there for a while looking at the sky...

Chan: "Ahh, y/n, this weather is amazing, right? I don't want to go back inside... I just want to watch the clouds moving slowly in the sky... it's so relaxing, I love this moment..." I decide to look up at the clouds too...

Y/n:"I think it's gonna rain soon..." he looks at me and then back to the dark clouds in the sky

Chan: "Yeah you're right... The weather is changing quite fast compared to a few minutes ago... But the calm before the storm is amazing, I like this" 

Y/n:"Yeah you're right... btw I really have to finish planning some stuff on the computer... do you mind stay here alone or you want to come in too?" He quickly looks at me 

Chan: "I think I'll stay here, I really enjoy looking at the weather, dw I'll go inside later"

Y/n:"Ok see ya then... and don't get the rain" I say joking 

Chan: "don't worry I won't" he smiles at me while I'm leaving the rooftop.

I go down the stairs and I reach my apartment's door, I open it and I get inside.

I turn on the lights and I sit at my desk while I take my portable.

My dog comes to greet me and then she lays next to my chair so i start working.

After an hour and half I'm done, I stretch myself and I decide to get up from the chair to check if Chan is still outside.

I reach again the roof and when I open the door I see chan still sitting on the same chair as earlier, his hair and clothes completely wet and he's humming a song.

I walk towards him and when he notice me he looks at me and he smiles.

Y/n: "I told you to don’t get wet... you're so stubborn man, you'll get sick" I fake a disappointed face 

Chan: "ohh, y/n, you're here... yk... I was too busy enjoying this moment, I love to watch the clouds and to listen to the sound of the rain" 

*Chan POV* 

he's so cute... he really came back to check on me... I look at him and i involuntarily smile, I feel like my cheeks burning... what the hell is happening g to me?! Why I'm feeling this way... I feel so dumb rn

*y/n POV*

Y/n: "I think you'll need some dry clothes"

Chan: "oh, yeah right, I'm kinda wet... I think I should definitely go inside now hahahaha"

Y/n: "let's go then" I offer him my hand so he can stand up from where he's sitting

We go inside and he opens the door of skz dorm, we enter and we took off our shoes and then we walk to the bathroom to look for some towels. We find some and he starts drying his hair.

Y/n: "I'm bringing you some dry clothes from your room, tell me what you need"

Chan: "oh, thank you were much y/n! I think i really need to change completely... you can bring me... lemme think... oh yeah, a shirt, sweatpants, socks etc..."

Y/n: "brb"

I close the bathroom door and I enter his room, it's always so cozy, I like it. I open his wardrobe and i take what he needs and the I come back to him and I nock on the door. After a while he answers and I enter. He was wrapped with a big towel, he kinda looks like a big burrito, I give him the clothes and then I leave him changing while i come back to his room.

After a while he exits the bathroom and joins me. When i look at him I notice that his natural curls are back end I giggle at this sight.

Chan: "what's so funny?"

Y/n: "I'm not used to see you with curly hair but it suits you. Btw what are we doing now? Any plans?"

Chan: "what about watching a movie? Sounds good to you?"

Y/n: "yeah, any movie on mind?

Chan: "well... actually naur (lol), I was hoping you to recommend some hehe"

Y/n: "lemme think... we can watch Deadpool or... Spider-Man across the spiderverse I always wanted to watch it"

Chan: "the 2nd one sounds good, I watched the first one but never watched this one"

I take his computer from the desk near the bed and I turn it on

Y/n: "password... always the same?" Chan nods, I digit the password and I open a streaming app and i search the movie and I start giggling and he looks at me confused 

Y/n: "I'm selling your music files" I type on the keyboard pretending I'm doing something bad with his computer 

Chan: "hahaha, not funny y/n, I would kill you if you do that, I've worked hard on those songs. Stop you're making me anxious"

*Chan POV*

 I look at him, ik he's joking, I'm feeling a kind of possessiveness towards him... why?! I don't understand... what's this feeling? Why am I feeling something towards him? I like girls, i want a girlfriend, why do i feel this way? I keep staring at y/n who's using my computer and idk why I suddenly grab his wrist stopping him and then I realise how stupid I'm. Why I did that?! Maybe he's gonna think I'm weird... so i take my computer back and i sit on the bed with the laptop on my legs and I put the movie ready to be watched.

Chan: "okay, fine I'm not mad at you , now let's watch the movie"

He's silent but as i look at him I feel something strange on my chest. I need to ask him something...

Chan: "so... umm, y/n,  need to ask you something... you're not in a relationship is tat correct? I don't look at his face while asking this

Y/n: "I have one"

Chan: "who... is it a girl? My voice is getting softer, I'm trying to hide the fact that I'm feeling somehow jealous 

Y/n: "Yeah, she looses a lot of fur all around the house, when it's hot she drools a lot and sometimes she bites me when she wants attention hahahaha"

I start laughing at the description 

Chan: "a dog hahah? You're living with a dog , don't you?

Y/n: "yeah the cutest good girl, she's the love of my life hahah"

I laugh again at what he just said, then I look at him, it's my turn to be serious

Chan: "Okay okay, I get it that you love your dog, I'm happy for you! But... What about girls? Do you have a *human* girlfriend?"

Y/n: "my dog is jealous"

I try not to laugh but I think about him having a girlfriend and my heart is burning right now

Okay, I'm getting impatient, I need to be direct and ask him if there's someone in his life

Chan: "I meant do you have a girlfriend that is... Not a dog?" My voice is getting more and more serious

Y/n: "who needs one?"

I look at him, wanting an honest answer.

Chan: "Wait what? Don't get me wrong but... Isn't it better to have a girlfriend that... You know... You can *kiss*, and *hug* her? I mean... You can't do this with your dog?

I can't keep a neutral expression anymore, it's obvious that I'm jealous of this dog right now or maybe it's just me thinking about him having a *imaginary* relationship with someone else who's not me?

Chan: "So... You'd rather be with... Your dog... Than with a person?" I say this slowly, I feel like he's hurting my heart

I feel like crying now, I regret asking these questions. I look at him, seeing how sweet he talks about this dog, I feel bad for being jealous.

Chan: "so you see yourself in the future alone? Like you and a dog only? I want a romantic partner, I want him, but he's telling me that he can always have a dog in his life? I feel betrayed. I take a breath and I finally say it

Chan: "What about a romantic partner? Like a girlfriend? Or... A wife?"

Y/n: "man, idk, I don't even know what I'll do tomorrow i cannot think about big things like future or if ill be with someone or not"

I don't like his answer... But I can't blame him, he's younger (or older) than me. But still, he's old enough to have a girlfriend... If he likes girls, he must be having one, right...? Idk... 

Y/n looks kinda annoyed about the conversation we're having but I can't help myself,  jealousy is the only thing I can feel rn

Y/n: "what about you? Ur 25 and you haven't been in a relationship yet"

Chan: "don't change the topic" I'm holding myself to don't show my emotions, i feel like he's hiding something from me, what if he has a girlfriend and h don't want me to know? Jealousy is kicking in harder 

Chan: "Are you having a girlfriend? I'm asking for the 100th time y.n, it's a simple question, is it so difficult to answer?"

Y/n: "does it really matter?"

Chan: "Yes it matters!" I can't hold my emotions anymore, I can't pretend to be fine right now, I'm getting pissed off

Chan: "I just want to know if you're dating a girl, that's all I need to know... Because if you're dating someone... Then I need to stop thinking about you that much, I need to move on... I need to stop feeling this painful jealousy... I can't do this anymore..."

tears start running down from my cheeks, I fucked up. I run to the bathroom and I lock the door behind me and I leave y/n alone in your room.

I sit on the floor with my hands in my face, I feel pain and I need a moment to try and calm down.

What have I done? Why did I ask him that... It's so stupid, I was able to control myself for 30 minutes, I can't believe I talked so much about this dog and his imaginary girlfriend. Did I want to hear the truth or am I really crazy? Why is he so nice and cute, I'm going to ruin everything if I don't act normal from now on...

Y/n: "CHRISTOPHER OPEN THIS DAMN DOOR"

I hear y/n's voice outside the bathroom, his tone is not aggressive but it sounds more worried than anything.

I take a deep breath, trying to calm down, and get my emotions under control before I open the door again and see him face to face... I regret not thinking twice about what I asked him.

Chan: "Okay okay, give me a second please..."

I take a deep breath and as soon as i open the door y/n hugs me tightly.

Y/n: "don't you dare to do something like this again" he tightened the hug

I start crying when he hugs me, I feel his arms and I can't believe he's hugging me. He's so kind... But he's making me feel worse, because he's hugging me like he's my boyfriend or... Maybe like a lover...

I try to avoid his hug and I push him away slightly but he keeps hugging me

Chan: "Just... Let me go... The fact that you're hugging me, makes me believe that you like me... I don't want to be delusional... You don't want anything more than friendship right?"

Y/n: "we cn talk about what happened but please don't get away or take distance from me" 

he cares about me or... he's  just trying to don't make me feel weird?

He keeps hugging me and it's making me feel horrible... I don't want to be the weirdo I was some minutes ago anymore, I don't want to be obsessed with a guy who's hugging me right now... But I can't fight those damn emotions, he's making me feel like I mean a lot to him... Why is he treating me like this? I can't do it anymore, I let myself fall on the floor and I sit there hugging my knees.

I stay on the floor as y/n was doing too, I'm trying not to cry anymore. It's awkward for me now, he's hugging me while I'm sitting as if he was my boyfriend, and after the way we've spoken with each other, we're probably not going back to speaking as best friends so fast...

I don't dare to look at him now, I just stay in this position, not knowing what to say or to do to fix this situation...

I take a deep breath while he rubs my back like if we're together.

So he's not dating, this means that he's single... But why did he have to hug me like this? Is he trying to give false hopes?

Chan: "can you please let me go now? I say this in a low tone, I'm trying not to sound rude, but I want to get up and stop feeling like this...

y/n: "yeah... sure... I-I'm sorry for making you feel this way, I have  even noticed you felt something"

Chan: "It's okay, I just need a moment to get up from the floor, can you please let me go now?" *I feel awkward as hell but I can't believe he was hugging me and I can't do anything because this hug was way too good and sweet, I need to control my emotions right now.

I slowly stand up, still avoiding y/n's eyes

Chan: "I-I'm fine now... I don't need your hug anymore... I feel normal..." Why am I lying so much? I want to feel like he feels something for me... I need to stop this stupid thoughts.

Chan: "I'm just... Need a minute to be alone, I'm fine really..." I try to walk away but I hesitate, I'm not sure if I should just keep talking to him and forget what just happened or leave for real this time...

Y/n: "Maybe it's better if I leave for now..."

He's leaving? I should feel happy about this but it's not what I want... I feel the urge to stop him from walking out the door... But I don't want to say anything, it's stupid if I ask him to stay after all that just happened. It's my fault I hate myself 

I stay still and I wait for his reaction, I don't know what to do to fix this situation... I really screwed up by acting like that.

Y/n: "If you need anything call me ok? The other members should come back to the dorm soon. See ya Chris"

After he leaves I lay down on my bed hoping that I just had a nightmare, but I know that this is real... I screwed up and I ruined our relationship... Why did I let myself have all these silly feelings for a guy that likes girls? He likes someone else, I need to get over him.

A few hours passed, its almost midnight and I receive a text from y/n

💬 Best brah: you ok? Have you eaten?

💬me: I'm fine... haven't eaten much today but I'll menage 

I reply to his text, I just hope it's not gonna b awkward between us after what I did.

💬Best brah: eat something!!

He's so caring...why is he ignoring the fact that i acted weird...

💬Me: I'll eat tomorrow... I wanna ask you something, can I?

💬Best brah: eating is important, take care. Btw what's the question?

💬Me: How do you feel about what happened this afternoon? I hope I didn't make it awkward between us because you're the most amazing guy I know... 

I click send and I wait for his response, I feel anxious not gonna lie

💬Best brah: I'm sure you didn't wanted to act that way. It happens... it can happen to everyone to loose control of their emotions and you're human too. I'm not mad at you.

He doesn't hate me... that's relieving 

💬Best brah: we can always talk about it sooner or later, but maybe for the moment it's better if you take some time by yourself to think about it. Can we make this week pass? Do you think we can do it?

My heart skips a beat when I read "can we make this week pass?", I start overthinking again... Wait, he wants to wait before talking to me... What does this mean? Does this mean he's not comfortable with me anymore because of what I am? I start worrying a lot now*

💬Me: Of course, if that's what you want. 

I feel a bit disappointed by the idea of not talking with him for a whole week but I want to respect his wish

💬Best brah: we can se each other this week as well but It'll be just for work purposes and then next Sunday we'll talk about it

Oh... This means that he doesn't want to see me that much this week, but for work reasons he can't totally avoid me... This is so weird to me because I was expecting a different answer, a more... Loving answer but I'm probably delusional...

💬Me: okay, I got it... If that's what you want... Let's do that.

💬Best brah: I won't ignore you ok?

💬Me: I know, I trust you. You don't need to ignore me, we'll just act as normal.

💬Best brah: Take care and eat during this week ok? Promise? 

💬Me: promise... I'll eat something this week. Gnight 

💬Best brah: tomorrow as usual we have to meet up in front the building to go to jyp. Good night Chris 

I turn off my phone too and I stay in my bed, trying to sleep, but I can't just close my eyes, I'm too nervous and anxious... He's okay with me, he doesn't hate me, but he's avoiding me a bit, he wants us to act normal, and that's good for me, I can try and behave like nothing happened and I don't feel anything for him... This is my only hope to be happy again...

Skip time

*Y/n's POV*

The week is almost over, it's Friday. After a long day at jyp i come back to my apartment and I take my phone.

💬Me: eaten?

💬Chris Bahhhng: yeah I ate some toast in the morning, it's fine

💬Me: it's 9:47pm... you only had breakfast...

💬Chris Bahhhng: yeah, I know I should probably eat more but... I've been stressed and tired, it's hard for me to eat. But don't worry, I'm gonna eat a normal dinner

💬Me: Be honest man... how much did you eat during past days?

💬Chris Bahhhng: well... I only ate one toast and coffee in the morning as well as some bread and water during the day... It's been a bit difficult to eat more than that...

💬Me: not good man

💬Chris Bahhhng: I know, I'm trying... But it's kind of hard to eat when I don't feel like doing anything.

💬Me: ik it's hard but pls take care of yourself ok? I have to go now maybe I'll text you later 

A few hours passed, he only viewed my text but didn't reply. He's worrying me a little but now he's with his members, they would tell me if anything is wrong... so I go to sleep

Skip time

*Chan's POV*

Saturday passed quickly... it's already Sunday, the day of the "talk"

I'm laying down in my bed, facing the ceiling... I'm taking deep breaths... why do I feel like this...

I decide to get up and get ready for work when I noticed a text from y/n on my Lock Screen

💬Best brah: hey... today there's a change of plans... there was a mistake on your schedule so you have a day off

💬Me: oh, okay, I get it now, thank you for the clarification. *I feel relieved now that I know the plan is still on... 

I just have to be extra careful to act normal in front of him today

💬Me: what time do you plan on coming to the dorm?

💬Best brah: mhhh... 1:00 pm, I'll bring something to eat 

I get excited when I read his message, at least he's still coming to the dorm, that means we're still gonna see each other... He's even bringing lunch for both of us, I guess I'm gonna have to eat something today then... God, he's so sweet... Oh damn... I think I'm doing it again, I'm gonna have to stop thinking this way as soon as possible

💬Me: I will make sure to be ready for when you come, thanks for bringing me lunch, I'm gonna eat something for once! See you later~

It's almost 1:00pm and I hear someone knocking at the door 

I feel a bit nervous... Ik It's y/m, I hope he doesn't notice that I'm not looking so good today... I open the door for him

Y/n enters the dorm, I feel the urge to hug him once more... I just can't help it, he's so sweet and I just love the way he smells... I must focus on the lunch now, I don't want to ruin my chances with him, the mood seems calm for now, I need to act normal.

He has a bag in his hand... he bought me my fav noodles...

The noodles smell so good! This guy is so sweet... I try to eat a bit of them but my stomach feels full and I can't eat that much...

I force myself to eat as much as I possibly can, it's hard because my stomach is hurting but I don't want y/n to be concerned about me anymore...

Chan: "these are really good noodles btw, thanks for bringing them..."

I look at y/n, I hope he doesn't notice that I feel really bad after eating... My body is not used to eating this much...

I finish my bowl and I feel my stomach is getting filled with a lot of pain again, it feels really hard to act normal at this point

Chan: "well, they were really good, I'm just a bit full at the moment, I'll let you enjoy yours now"

I try to smile but I'm not sure if it's a good enough smile to make him believe that I'm happy right now... What should I do?

Y/n: "not feeling good right?"

God, i can't lie to him, I'm not feeling like eating, I'm not feeling like doing anything, all I want is to sit next to him and hug him

Chan: "yeah... I kinda feel like throwing up... I should take a break so I'll just sit here on the couch for a bit..."

He finished his noodles and he sits with me on the couch, I want to put my head on his shoulder, I want to get closer to him, he's so warm... I feel really safe when I'm with him. My stomach is hurting again, it's like my body is telling me that I'm doing something wrong here... Did I eat too much?...

I'm staring down at my stomach, I'm  focusing on my pain and I feel him wrapping an arm around my waist and putting his hand on my stomach.

Chan: "it's not really easy to talk... but... I haven't eaten properly this whole week, that's why my stomach hurts... I feel sick and I don't know how long I can keep this up..."

Y/n: "wanna go to the bathroom? You don't look great rn..."

I can't talk, all I can do now is nod my head in response, I feel like throwing up more than before, I can barely move but I need to try... I need to go to the restroom now, it hurts so much...

I can feel it in my throat and in my stomach... He's not holding my shoulder anymore, now I'm holding his hand tightly as I get up from the couch and I run to the bathroom.

I get inside the bathroom and I start to feel nauseous. I have to hold the toilet lid because I can't stand up. I try to breathe and to calm myself down, I don't want to vomit, I don't want Y/n to see that or to hear it, I try to control it, but it's really hard for me

Chan: "please, don't come inside, it... it... it smells really bad here, I just... have... have..." 

I start to throw up inside the toilet... I feel so ashamed, I'm a mess.

I hear the door being opened and his steps behind me 

Oh god, it hurts so much, I'm losing everything I ate this afternoon, I can't look at him right now, I'm so embarrassed and my throat hurts so bad, I don't know what to... The last bit of food comes out of my stomach and my eyes tear up... I can't let him see me like this, I would probably feel so much worse. I try to go away from him so he can't see me feeling so shameful

Chan: stay away, please! Just... Just... 

I try to say something more but I throw up again... I feel like crying rn

I can feel his hand on my forehead keeping my hair from falling on my eyes, I try to push his hand away, I don't want him to touch me right now.

Chan: "please, just... Please..."

I feel sick again and I try to walk away from his hand... I throw up more and I'm crying right now. My stomach feels like I've been punched and my throat is burning. I don't want him to see me like this, feeling so sick, with so many tears and so much shame in my eyes now.

He slowly starts to rub my back, his touch feels good, I calm down a bit. I sit on the toilet and my throat and stomach are burning even more than before. I'm breathing heavily and it's hard for me to stay still... I can't say anything right now, I just want to feel less sick and to stop throwing up.

The cramps and the burning in my stomach are so bad that I feel like throwing up again, but this time it's just bile since there's nothing else that could come out of my stomach now.

Y/n: "hey... feeeling a lil better man?

My stomach feels a bit better now, I have to take deep breaths but the pain is a bit less intense now. My throat is so exhausted and burning, it's hard to talk, I only nod as my answer

Chan: "yeah, it's a bit better now... it wasn't good to eat everything at once after not eating for days..."

Y/n: "yeah Ik... have you tough about our talk?"

Oh god, I wasn't expecting to talk about that now, it's making me feel nervous, what should I say? I can't lie to him again but I still don't know what to say... Should I just tell him more about what I want and about my feelings for him?

Chan: "well... I was thinking a lot and..."

I take a deep breath and I can taste the acid coming from my stomach, that's not a good sign...

Y/n: "sorry sorry. I didn't want to put more pressure on you, when you'll  feel better and ready we can talk ok?"

Thank god he's not pushing me to talk, I can't handle so many emotions right now, it's making me feel sick again... If I try to talk about my feelings for him it's gonna make me feel even more sick, I don't know if it's good for me now... But I know I have to talk to him about it, he won't give up on me easily... What should I do? What should I say? What words will make him understand that I just want him to be happy?

He dried some sweat off my face with a towel

Y/n: "are you finished here? We can come back to the living room or to your room if you want"

Chan: "maybe my room"

Y/n: "ok let's go there then"

Y/n takes my hand and leads me to my room, as he opens the door we both enter. His hand feels so warm and soft, I feel like it's holding all my thoughts and worries, I can't focus on anything just now, not with him so close to me now...

I sit in my bed and I look at him waiting for him to sit down next to me, I want to be as close to him as possible, but I know this is not a good idea, I need to focus on talking to him and to telling him how I feel about everything.

I close my eyes for a bit, I try to breathe and to calm myself down, but I just can't stop thinking about him now... His voice, his smell, the way he looks at me... Why is he so perfect and caring?

He lays down on my bed too. I finally open my eyes, I see him laying next to me. He's so close to me and he's just staring at my face. I feel like he's analyzing everything about me right now and this thought is making me feel uncomfortable and awkward... I want y/n to just be himself while laying next to me, I don't want our first time together alone and without the rest of skz to be a bad one or a weird one... But, damn, I wish I could stop my thoughts from going in so many different directions, just focus on what's happening now.

After some minutes he boops my nose and I start to blush a bit and I feel a bit of embarrassment

Chan: "oh, well, I guess... Yeah, I tend to overthink a lot, and... how did you know I was overthinking?"

I stay silent now, I don't know what else to say, I was just starting to feel a bit more comfortable next to him...

Y/n: "your face tells me everything..."

Chan: "well... You're right, my face gives it away... I was still trying to prepare for telling you how I feel about everything, but now that you're here, laying next to me... I don't know... You're making me a bit nervous now..." I giggle a bit because I feel so awkward and embarrassed

Y/n: "you don't have to be nervous when you're with me Chris"

I look at him and I feel my heart beating so fast right now, I want to be myself but he's so close, his eyes are like the universe on his face. I feel so attracted to him and now that I'm thinking about this I can't keep myself calm, I start to feel even more nervous...

I try to talk but I can't, it feels like a hundred butterflies are buzzing in my stomach now.

Chan: "I'm... I'm-"

Y/n: " do you think we can start our talk?"

The way he says it makes me feel nervous, it's like he's expecting too much from me, but at the same time I can't wait to tell him everything that's been in my mind this whole month. I can't say a single word now, the words won't come out and my heart rate is getting faster every second... I just nod, my face is completely red, I feel like I'm gonna combust at any moment.

Y/n: "Well... maybe we can start from what you told me last week before what happened.

I close my eyes and I think about last week, what I said to him and what I said about my feelings for him. Now that he's asking me to talk about everything again, I want to keep my head straight and to make him understand how I feel without all the crying and stuff, without making him feel bad for me. The way he's looking at me while listening to what I'm gonna say right now is making it ten times harder than it already is... I just need to stop overthinking and to speak... I'm not gonna cry now, I can do this.

I try to focus on the feeling of the butterflies in my stomach and how y/n is looking at me right now, but the memory of what I said last week is coming back... The sentences, the voice I said them with, how I felt... I hate this...

Chan: "I guess I meant that I should stop thinking about you so much, that I should stop feeling so jealous of everything and also upset... Because... Because I can't stop thinking about you now, and I just..." 

I close my eyes, I can't be honest now. I hate that I'm lying to y/n again...

Y/n: "and?"

Chan: I think I meant that I should stop letting you ruin my life, that I need to stop thinking about you... That I need to move on and focus on myself, I can't keep thinking about someone who probably doesn't love me..."

 I feel so confused and uncomfortable when I try to say these words to him... This is just like last week, I was completely honest with him and it made everything so much worse...*

Y/n: "I think we both know that you don't really mean this..."

He's probably right. I open my eyes again, I look at him and I force myself to nod. 

Chan: "I wanted to tell you that I can't keep thinking of someone who... Who doesn't love me back..." 

The words feel so bitter in my mouth, the more I speak the more pain I feel inside my chest now.

Y/n: "well... that's not totally true... I do love you but maybe not yet as the same way as you love me... but I think that somehow it may work... I mean between us... we just need time"

I can't believe my ears, is he finally saying something about his feelings? I look at him again, his eyes look so beautiful and I want to be close to him so bad, but I have to be calm and reasonable, he's trying to be honest and to talk about his feelings so I have to do it too now... I take a deep breath and I try to control my emotions and to speak in a calm and clear way...I feel like I'm gonna cry now, my throat hurts again.

Some tears running down my cheeks while y/n tries to wipe them away with his sleeve.

He's staring at my wet chocolate eyes, he has a little smile on his face and i can feel butterflies back in my stomach. He's so perfect, i have a chance, maybe my only chance to be with him.

I do understand what he meant, I know that we're still just getting to know each other now and we need to go gradually, see where this goes... I want to start something with him but it might be too early now... His eyes look so peaceful and calming right now, just staring at the ceiling while I'm looking at him... He's so close to me, the urge to kiss him right now is becoming so overwhelming right now... I need to do something to change my own mind, otherwise I don't know what can happen...

He offers me his hand, i grab it and then he lays back down on the bed next to me. We're  laughing holding hands... Am I dreaming? It's too perfect to be real.

After some time I decide to come closer to him and to put my head on his shoulder. I need more physical contact rn, I'm really craving for some.

Y/n just looks at me and has he could read me as an open book, he slides his arms around me and he hugs me tightly. My head on his chest, I can smell his scent and I love it.

Y/n's hug makes me forget about everything in the moment, every thought in my mind disappears completely. The only thing I feel now is him, his body next to mine, it's perfect... I feel so safe and protected now...

Chan: "are you ok with this?"

I whisper quietly, afraid to ruin the moment we're sharing right now... I'm just so happy he hasn't let go of me yet, I don't want this moment to end now...

Y/n: "yk I'm not really used to physical contact but I think I can get used to this"

His words make me smile, I feel like I wanna kiss him right now, but I don't want to push it too much, he already seems so comfortable with me and with our physical proximity, I don't want him to feel like I'm forcing him to do something... If I could, I would kiss him right now but I'm not sure if he's ok with that. I just want us to be happy now, I'm just so happy that he let me be this close to him... I look up into his magnetic eyes, the whole galaxy is in there... he's so close now, the way he looks at me... I want to kiss his lips right now, I want to feel him even closer to me...I whisper, my voice is almost too low for him to hear...

Chan: "y/n, can I be honest with you about something?"

Y/n: "mh?"

Chan: "can I kiss you? Because right now I feel like I really, really need to..."

I see him thinking for some seconds, I can feel one of his hands caressing the back of my head and no he's looking back at me.

I feel like my whole body is trembling inside, my heart is beating so fast, it's like I'm on fire right now, I'm feeling so much right now without knowing why I'm feeling like this in this moment... All I feel is his touch...

I lean my head closer to his lips and I close my eyes, I really need to kiss him... he's not trying to push me away, he's gently pushing my head towards his. My heart rate just doubled the second he pushed my head towards his, now our faces are close to each other, my eyes are now fully closed, I feel like I'm on cloud nine right now, like I'm dreaming...

It's like an electric energy buzzing in the air between us... And then I go even closer to his lips to make another move...

Our lips touching and our first kiss was... Something I can't even describe with words right now... It felt like the whole world just stopped in this moment, not a thing mattered other than the feeling I was getting when our lips finally touched. Everything was perfect, perfect and warm and soft and I felt so safe. For a second I thought he was gonna pull away but then he kept our kiss for a few seconds more... His lips were so soft and our kiss was so gentle, I felt like I wanted to stay like that forever... He made me feel so alive...*

[gettinshiggywithit]

what is this nonnie doing in your inbox😟 pls go outside and leave jaya alone,, for someone who hides on anon you seem to like seeking attention sm..

hiii jaya, i joep you're okay🫶 you don't deserve those mean asks :((

Hi hart my beloved~

Dw its completely okie! Im just usin this b-i-t-c-h

As ans emotional punching bag atp~

But thank you so much for caring it really does mean a lot♥️♥️

How have you been♥️?

[erensfeed]

actor!au headcanons ft. love and deepspace

starring: love and deepspace boys x reader in other words: behind the scenes of you & your five boyfies in your hit show. a/n: slight spoilers & tw for the mention of that explosion scene w caleb/sylus gun scene. but dw its a prop gun duh cause again they’re actorrs. (please don’t send me to the psych wards just hear me out)

.˚𐚁 {part 1}

⤷ actor!rafayel:

rafayel stays carrying the gag reels on his back by staying in character while joking around. why else do people think he’s the golden boy of love and deepspace and its producers.

while getting ready to film the episode where rafayel’s true identity as a lemurian/merman was revealed, he flexed his tail at the camera, and playfully asked, ‘hey girl, yeah, whatcha think of my tail?’. till this day, that silly behind the scene outtake remains the intro to a lot of his edits.

now moving on to you and him. sneaking off to hang out alone with him was something common between you and everyone knows but you both don't know they do.

rafayel is the only guy who can actually say ‘i know a spot’ and make it worth it.

like one time, when you two were waiting to start filming in the nest livehouse bar for that one scene in chapter 8, he recalled the fact that he hadn’t gotten a chance to sneak off with you once at all through that week, so he caught your attention by whispering ‘hey’. your eyes met and your expression did the talking.

giving you sup nod, he continued, ‘are you free tonight?’. squinting your eyes with a small cynical smile at him, you replied ‘… why?’

before responding, he made sure to lean back on his chair and eyed you in this certain way you would never admit you liked. ‘let’s head out for a bit after the wrap-party. just you and me’.

and after wrapping up filming chapter 8, the crew celebrated with a lively party, but he had something special in mind for you to celebrate. while everyone was caught up in the festivities, he led you away to a spot on the same beach where you’d filmed his reveal earlier.

just when you thought it was a quiet moment, fireworks suddenly lit up the sky. surprising you and lightening up your eyes and mood.

coincidentally, it turns out that the nearby beach community had their own general celebration planned too. and rafayel had secretly known about it all along, intentionally not letting anyone else know.

he’d been trying to think of a way to have a special moment with you in that area and that was perfect. you on the other hand, couldn't help but smile at the thought of his nature.

admiring the scenery in front of you, you pointed to the fireworks and said, ‘i officially declare this the best moment of joy tonight.’ in response he softly laughed, his cheeks and ears growing rosy as he met your eyes with a smile. ‘try to do your best to remember it.’ (yes im talking about that free five star card called “sparkling traces”. bc if you noticed, his outfit in ch.8 and that card are the exact same. told you guys theyre only actors wink wink c;)

⤷ actor!sylus:

you two are actually kindred spirits. nobody is a better match for him than you, nor can anyone make him act childish except you.

your fans prefer your in-character, off-script moments so muchh.

one time, you asked him to choose between you and mephisto, and he acted like you caught him off guard with the hardest question in the world.

he simply said he couldn’t choose, making you pretend to get upset as you told him, 'i see where your loyalties lie.' in turn, he couldn’t hide the growing smile on his face as he watched you turn away from him, storming off.

‘you're still my favorite,’ he called after you, a teasing tone in his voice. ‘...mephisto’s just a distraction’

‘but don't tell him I said that.’ he pointed to the camera.

'he's not even real!' you retorted, your words muffled by the distance, making him chuckle.

you both have a habit of forgetting everyone else, always getting caught up in playful banters right before the main take of a scene. and my goodness, the blooper reels are packed with them.

one of your personal favorite playful memories with him in particular, was just moments prior to actually filming the scene where it involved sylus helping you shoot him.

you were still seated onto his lap, when he thought to slyly guide your hand to raise the prop gun up to his chest. and just as it touched him, he quietly went ‘pew’.

closing his eyes, he slumped back on the chair, pretending like he’d actually been hit. and almost immediately, his antics prompted a wide grin from you.

as soon as your other hand reached up to rest on his face, his crimson eyes and intense gaze met yours. (this was the official start of the ongoing staring competition)

another thing is, since you’re just like him, you love to push his buttons too.

you’re so used to playfully booping Sylus’ nose right before the cameras roll, and he usually lets you without retaliating back — whenever he feels like it, that is.

one day, you were un(lucky) enough to get a reaction out of him.

he waited for the perfect moment for you to let your guard down before he swiftly caught your wrist and gently bit your finger.

you softly gasped in surprise, and he teasingly mimicked your reaction before he chuckled as you feigned a tiiny pout.

'aw,' booping your nose with a small smirk, he added. 'don't be like that'

⤷ actor!zayne:

after him and sylus, you two are the next form of an unmarried married couple.

during kissing rehearsals, sometimes he'd gently bump his nose with yours, then look down at your lips before looking back up to meet your eyes.

till this day, it remains an unanswered debate on who gets weaker for the other whenever he does that.

he lets you touch his hair, smiling whenever you ruffle or run your hand through it.

he got flowers delivered to you once and you posted about it on your instagram story, making your fans confirm he likes you the most.

they remain confused on which boy likes you the most.

on set, you don’t often forget your lines with him but when you do, it never fails to be funny.

‘i have no idea what I’m supposed to say,’ you admitted while laughing as soon as you confidently walked into zayne’s character’s office, causing him and everyone in the production team to join in the laughter.

after that though, whenever you forget your lines right in front of him, he’d subtly mouth what to say next — his great memory coming to the rescue since he usually keeps your lines in mind for you — just in case.

and if both of you blank out, he’ll intentionally mess up his own line, giving you a chance to start over. or the chance to sneak a quick look at the script during rehearsals.

by the way, he has fast reflexes when it comes to protecting you.

a time this happened was during a fast-paced action scene. a prop flew so close to and was about to hit you.

thankfully, he instinctively pulled you close to him, saving you from getting hit on the head.

‘have you ever thought of being a superhero instead of acting??’ you once asked making him look at you with a coy smile, before shaking his head with soft chuckles.

‘i'd only be your superhero.’

⤷ actor!xavier:

kissing scenes between you and xavier look nice and all but the stress you put this man under beforehand is NOT funny.

you don’t obviously do anything. but he just gets butterflies before kissing you. even though he’s... always beside you (??)

he’d always ask if you were okay. meanwhile his own heart was raciingg.

he does that to mask his own need for reassurance.

contrary to his character on how he omits the truth? he cannot lie to you save his life. which means you aalwaays know when he’s nervous. obviously during a kiss scene too. so you make sure to try have him less nervy.

whatever you end up doing though, makes him so bold.

that’s why you see him so freaky in those scenes cause you'd end up making him become comfortable enough to get DOWN.

you’ve had playfights with your swords before and he almost always lets you win just to see your victorious cheers.

the one time he kinda didn't, he playfully pretended to get hit after he got you, then dramatically fell next to you. as if he just now felt the blow your sword gave him.

maybe it's because you're always together, but you two can be so in sync and in tune its eerie. and also funny.

like one time, before you filmed the scene for his birthday. you were both sat by the fountain, sharing mini bunny-shaped chocolates.

all of a sudden, you both sighed in perfect harmony like everything life and what it has to offer just dawned on you. all it took was one glance at one another before you both broke into laughter.

'you think that was an effect of the chocolate?' unwrapping a new one, you replied before putting it in your mouth '...naaah'. making you both chuckle as you continued eating them.

anyone passing by would have thought you two were on something.

moving onto our favorite part, even though you've seen xavier shirtless multiple times on set, you never fail to purposefully catcall him.

it's been your thing because of his reactions.

the last time you did, he timidly turned around with a beaming grin at the sight of you and your catcall that ended up growing into fits of giggles.

tilting his head upwards as he turned around, he kept softly chuckling as he let out an 'ohmygodd'. knowing very well it got him blushing. like always.

⤷ actor!caleb:

caleb was born to play caleb.

it honestly feels like you actually grew up together with him.

he very much still calls you ‘pip squeak’ off camera of course.

no literally. and this guy seriously has a whole stash of ironic teasing nicknames just for you.

like ‘troublemaker’ or ‘party animal’. i can’t make this up you guys (also you guys rn: "girl that’s exactly what you're doing")

and he of course knows you can be anything but those, yet he does it anyway because you both know you like when he does.

almost like sylus with his teasing, caleb’s favorite pastime is trolling you.

there is never a dull moment with him around.

saying this because when you guys were getting ready to film by the grocery store, the crew was still busy fully setting up everything. and that was when he decided was the perfect moment... to moonwalk around you.

a camera meant for the blooper reel had already started rolling, catching the whole moment.

‘guys,’ you began failing to hide your growing smile, and then pointing your thumb at him behind you as he kept dancing around you. ‘this one? i’m so done with.’

soon after, he came over and planted a small kiss on your cheek, making you close your eyes, a tiny defeated smile on your face.

‘don’t listen to her,” he added, pulling away with a subtle smirk at the camera. ‘she loves me.’

funny enough, the fandoms most adored blooper featured the two of you in the infamous explosion scene.

you were still deep in character, completely shattered over the fiery aftermath of your home including Grandma and Caleb.

now, just as you laid your head back down — waiting for the expected ‘cut!’, Caleb, feigning a worried look on his face, quietly crouched down beside you and whispered, ‘aw what are we crying about?’.

you jumped, yelping at the unexpected interruption of his voice but your surprise quickly gave way to airy giggles as he stood up, grinning. ‘oh you mother…’ you tried to continue, but your laughter grew infectious, taking over the whole set.

oh this was definitely rushed im sorry if u guys hate this heelp. esp sylus, zayne & xavier stans. actually, no all of you esp rafayel girlies and im literally one. ok look if i make a part 3, it’ll be wayyy better trusstt.

— besides, this isn't everything floating in my mind so there's def gonna be a part 3. also this was supposed to be pronoun neutral but aaa sry i was js going by the mc's.

extra for reading this far: they've all let you put butterfly clips in their hair that match their eye color aaand caleb has proposed to you with a ring pop before. in your favorite flavor.

side note: aaa i had to post this bc im gna be busy studying this week. but anyway, my next post is gonna be a req from my first star anon on how they react to ོ thirst tweets LMFAOOO. & ilysm anon if u see this ;c

©2024 ERENSFEED. all rights reserved.

[barbthebuilder]

Since I am the gender god I shall answer

What happens when you boil genderfluid?

It depends on moon phase but it usually explodes.

Is gender fluid more like milk or like water?

It is neither. It is something beyond your comprehension, mortal.

What does genderfluid taste like?

Cotton candy.

Can gender fluid be freezed into ice cubes?

Yes, but it will lose most of its properties.

Will gender fluid be avaliable on the dark market? When?

It already is I think. I'm pretty sure Robert is selling some.

Can gender fluid be used as a cleaning supply?

Lmao what. I guess? Never tried that.

What is the most efective for cleaning gender fluid?

YOUR SOUL

Jk, you need to use warm water and lemon cleaning supply (yes, specifically lemon) and scrub with vigor.

Can gender fluid be consumed as an alcoholic beverage?

If you add alcohol then yea.

Can gender fluid be used to clean wounds?

It works only on trans people. It bounces off cis folks.

What happens when genderfluid enters the bloodstream?

Again, it makes trans folks experience something similar to hallucinogenic effects but with more purple if that makes sense. Cis folks may feel a little dizzy. Transphobes on the other hand, will explode.

How much genderfluid does it take to overdose?

Depends on person's needs. You usually know when it is enough.

Howis gender fluid harvested?

It's a secret.

Can you construct a bomb using gendefluid?

Ye-... wait what?

What part would gender fluid take in the bomb?

Mate I'm not sure I'm supposed to tell you this.

Can you bath in gendefluid?

Yea. It will make a lot of foam tho.

Is gender fludi malleable?

Only in a very specific temperature (7 to 8°C).

Can you do dishes with gender fluid?

If you want your dishes to smell and taste like cotton candy? Sure.

What happens when you inhale gender fluid?

Only good things.

What happens when gender fluid expands?

Dunno, ask Robert

Can you smoke gender fluid?

Of course.

How visible is genderfluid?

Gender fluid is only visible to the chosen ones.

Hoe much gender fluid can human body absorb?

A lot.

What is the meaning o life?

There is no concrete meaning. The true meaning can be found within.

Why do we exist?

Bc it's funny.

Is there anyone out there in the vast of space?

Ohhhh boy if only you knew...

What happens if we are alone?

Dw we're definetly not.

What happens if I'm alone?

Then you're alone. Sometimes we are just alone. And that's okay.

What happens of I stay alone?

Nothing stays the same. Nature changes, humans change, everything moves.

What happens if I die alone?

Sometimes it is better to be alone in your final moments. Maybe then you will finally reach peace.

What happens if no one will miss me?

Why would you concern yourself with things that happen after you're gone? You're gone. It doesn't matter. Or maybe you wish to control what is out of your reach?

What happens if the world moves on after my death?

You should be happy if that happens. No matter what you made a difference there after all.

Is that the meaning of life?

Is it?

Why do I feel so alone?

Prehaps you are.

Why when people try to reach me I push away?

You're scared.

Am I wasting my time? If I'm happy does it even matter?

No. Yes. What do you think?

Do I matter?

I answered all of your questions. You matter to me. Do you matter to you?

questions for the gender gods

what happens when you boil gender fluid??????

is gender fluid similar to milk in a way that it counts more as a food than a drink?? (idk if its true correct me if im wrong pls)

what does gender fluid taste like

can gender fluid be frozen in an ice cube tray and put into unsuspecting peoples drinks

will gender fluid be available on the black market

when/

is gender fluid able to be used as a cleaning supply?

what is most affective for cleaning spilled gender fluid

can gender fluid be consumed as an alcoholic beverage?

can gender fluid be used to clean wounds?

what happens when gender fluid enters the bloodstream??

how much gender fluid would it take to overdose

how is gender fluid harvested??????????

can you construct a bomb using gender fluid??????????????????

what part would the gender fluid take

in the bomb

help

can you bathe in gender fluid

what happens when you bathe in gender fluid

is gender fluid malleable?

can you do dishes with gender fluid or will they evaporate

what happens when gender fluid takes the form of a gas and is inhaled

what happens when gender fluid expands?]\

CAN YOU SMOKE GENDER FLUID??????

WHAT WOULD BE THE WHITINF OUT OF GENDER FLUID?????????????

on a scale of one to ten {ten being high and one being low} what is the visibility of gender fluid

how much gender fluid can the human body absorb?

what is the meaning of life?

why do we exist?

is there anyone out there, in the vast expanse of space?

what happens if we are alone?

what happens if i am alone?

what happens if i stay alone?

what happens if i die alone?

what happens if no one will miss me?

what happens when the world moves on from my death?

is that the meaning of life? to make the impact of a footstep in sand? to die and be forgotten by time?

why do i feel so alone?

even when people are trying to reach me, why do i push them away?

am i wasting my time? even if i am happy, does it really matter?

do i matter?

..

do i matter?

[salami2]

Ch. 2 - Vecna’s Curse

Eddie Munson x fem!reader

Summary - When news of Chrissy Cunningham’s death, you and the gang find Eddie alone in an abounded drug dealers house. Now, you have to stay together and protect him, but somehow, the two of you learn things about each-other and grow closer…

w/c - 1.7k a:n - this chapter so far has my favourite scene i’ve ever written :) also, less Munson x reader but dw! we’ll get there

Warning(s) - spoilers for ep.2, guns, death, murder, bleeding, Eddie almsot killing Steve, blood.

Chapter List - Ch.1 , Ch.3 , Ch.4 , Ch.5 , Ch.6

You couldn’t believe it. Your eyes were deceiving you, you thought. There’s no way this could happen…

The grainy television inside your class were only distant voices compared to the headline.

‘Girl found Murdered at Hawkins trailer park’

You excused yourself from the class, making a quick getaway from the front doors of the school as fast as your skates could take you.

The wheels felt like they could be on fire from how fast you were going. Speeding like a racecar who’s about to lose the race. Your mind was set on going to one place: Family Rental. To see if Steve was okay.

Hawkins, Indiana is the smallest town you’ve ever known. Well, technically it’s the only town you’ve ever known. Been living here your whole life. But you know damn well no murderers live in Hawkins.

Any human ones, at least.

You swung open the doors of ‘Family Video’. Steve and Robin whipped his head around in confusion then worried.

“Y/N, what are you doing here? It’s dangerous, if you need to be picked up I-“

“Thank you, Steve- do you know whose trailer that was?“ “No, why?” He asked. You skated over to the computer, trying to start it and get it working.

“This isn't normal. Over the past 3 years, when have spontaneous murders ever happened at Hawkins? If it’s what I think it is, we need to find where the murder took place and start investigating.”

Everything was silent. Until the doors swung open, once again. There stood Max and Dustin. Their eyes laid on you, and a once confused Steve became confused once again.

“Nine! You got the same idea, too?”

You nodded, not entirely sure where to start. Dustin slid over the counter, furiating Steve and Robin. They both curse at Dustin as he heads to the computers.

“We need to find Eddie,” Dustin says, “He could be in serious trouble!”

“Wait, why are we trying to find Eddie?” You asked, curious as to why they brought up that boy's name.

“That trailer was his. Chrissy died in his trailer and now he’s a convicted murderer. We need to find him to see if he’s alright.”

Your heart started pounding a mile a minute. It felt like time was slowing down. Not only was someone you had just been with last night falsely accused, he’ll be hunted like a witch.

A cold sweat broke out on your forehead. Finding yourself praying he’s safe and sound.

“I need… I need a TV and some chords!”

The door of the abandoned house creaked open. Everyone's eyes looked around the messy surroundings, as Steve would put it.

“So… this is where Eddies been?”

Steve asked, carefully treading inside. Robin and Max pointed out empty cans and trash bags.

He grabbed an oar and started poking and prodding around. Sighing at your brothers idiotic antics once again. “Steve, what the hell are you doing? You could hurt Eddie if you're not careful.”

He scoffed. “Y/N, don’t worry. I’m sure your little friend would be fine.”

You drag the tv inside. Fixing it up with a special headset.

“Hey, don’t worry, guys. Steve will save us with his big, long oar! He’ll save us from any danger here!” Dustin jokes.

“Please Henderson, half of us here have had our lives in danger more than once. This kid can’t do anything to us that we haven’t been against-“

A tarp Steve was jabbing up flew up, revealing a hiding Eddie. He grabbed him by the collar, shoving him against the wall with a shattered bottle against his throat. Everyone went into high alert mode as you dug around in your backpack to grab something.

“EDDIE! STOP, PLEASE, CALM DOWN, WE’RE NOT HERE TO HURT YOU!”

Dustin exclaimed, trying to stop Eddie from cutting Steve’s throat. “We’re here to help you, right guys- NINE Y/N WHAT THE HELL!?”

You had your eyes on Eddie, who was currently looking scared out of his mind.

A loaded shotgun was in your hands, pointing directly at the boy's head. Everyone was completely stunned at what was happening. Eddie's mouth agape.

“Let go of my GODDAMN BROTHER!” You shouted, unwilling to move from your position. Eyes steady on that Munson boy.

“If you let go, I won’t shoot and put the gun away. But if you don’t… don’t expect me to hold back.”

Dustin spoke up. “Eddie, we’re on your side. This is Robin, from band! This is Max, the one who never wants to play D&D, that’s Steve- And the one about to kill you you already know, Y/N. Just… please. Let go and we can talk.”

He hesitated. Eddie let go of his grip on Steve and sat down. You tucked the gun in your backpack, still keeping an eye on Eddie.

Steve came up to you and gave you a pat on the back. As if to say ‘thanks’.

“Eddie… We’re just here to help. Tell us what happened that night. I promise, we’ll believe you…”

He scoffed, lips trembling. His body was crouched, like he became a ball. He wasn’t ready to fight. You felt sorry for him, looking like a shivering puppy.

“You wouldn’t believe me…” he mumbled, hiding his face.

“Try us.” Your voice called out.

Both your [E/C] eyes and his round, brown doe eyes didn’t stray away. As if communicating telepathically, you awkwardly looked away. As if to say a quiet ‘sorry’.

He spilled his guts out to you. The situation with Chrissy, drug deals, her body contorting as she died right in front of him. Your heart broke for Eddie. You knew that facing the demogorgon was traumatic for everyone who first experiences it, but for him, he was completely innocent in it. I mean, everyone is. But you thought how nobody else should have gotten involved.

“… You all think this is bullshit, huh?” He asked, looking away.

“No, we believe you.” Robin said. “Don’t bullshit me man!” he exclaimed back.

“We’re not.” You protested, inching closer towards him. He jerked back, a little afraid of what you’d do to him. In good faith, you put your hands up, coming in peace.

“Look,” Dustin said, “Y/N- no, Nine is going to need to do something to you so we can see what happened that night.”

“It’s not going to hurt,” you quickly reassured, “But I just… need you to keep quiet about what I’m about to do. If word got out, my life could be on the line. I’m not joking about it.”

His cute, confused expression was evident. You slid on a monitored net on his head, secured tightly and synced to the busted television. You took a seat, taking a deep breath.

It’s been so long since you’ve done this. Shaking, you decided to take his hands. Holding them out for him.

When he slid his cold, ringed hand you felt it again. The perfect fit, like last night.

Focusing, you start using your powers.

Static showed on the screen what he had seen that night. His eyes were wide, like a frightened deer. Though you couldn’t see. Since yours was firmly shut, trying to show everyone what you can see.

Eddie felt like his trauma was replaying once again. It couldn’t be… how is this happening?

How was Y/N doing this?

You got to the moment where Chrissy hit the floor when you gave out, exasperated. You let go of his hands and slumped in your chair.

A stream of blood trailing down from your left nostril.

Robin gave you a tissue as Dustin took noted on what happened.

“Holy shit-“ Eddie gasped. “What just happened? How did you do that? Is she like… a wizard??”

So much confusion circulated his brain. But one thing was for sure:

That was the coolest shit he’s ever seen!

“Yeah, she’s great.” Dustin chuckled, as you gave him the best sloppy high five you could muster.

“I can’t believe I actually stayed…”

You mumbled under your breath, leaning against the cold exterior of an unused boat. An arm over your shut eyes.

Currently, you were sitting in the house that Eddie was staying in while a certain red car swiftly got away. That car was Steves. And all of your friends had asked you to stay with Eddie while they try to solve the mystery. Asking for your help when everything was figured out.

Eddie gazed at you, starstruck, from across the room.

He walks up to you and sits next to you, in a childish manner.

“So, uh,” he speaks, prompting you to look at him, “I have, like, a shit ton of questions.” he states.

You giggle. “And what are they?” You ask.

“Ok, first off: YOU HAVE SUPER POWERS!?”

You burst out laughing. It had been a while since you got a reaction like that. A genuine smile forming on both of your faces.

“Well, yeah. Reading people's minds is just one. But, if I try hard enough…”

You look dead- locked on a toppled can of empty soda. Hand reaching out as if to have grabbed it. After a moment or trying, the can started to rattle in its place, slowly but surely lifting off the ground. Causing Eddie to stand up shocked. Spewing out a long line of curses in amazement.

“Holy SHIT- That’s fucking metal!” He shouts, jumping up and down a bit.

You laughed, cleaning up the bit of blood. “Ok, ok, next question: why does Henderson call you Nine?”

Pausing, you showed your wrist to him. A faded tattoo reading ‘009’ shown. He made an ‘o’ with his mouth. “A little weird to get a numbered tattoo. Like you're some sort of war prisoner.”

You decided now was not the time to tell him. You weren’t exactly sure how he would take you being a Hawkins Lab escapee that had to undergo traumatic tests every day from your birth.

“Last, and final one: Why the hell do you carry a shotgun around??”

“Self defense. If I’m ever in a situation where I can’t use my hands or powers. It’s just something I’ve always had, ever since 83’”

He nodded, licking his lips.

“Are you satisfied?” You smiled. He gave you one of his dorky ones.

“Somewhat. But, we should do this more often.” He said. You raised an eyebrow. “Do what?” You wondered.

“Talk. You have a nice voice.”

Sputtering on your words, you didn’t know what to say. Placing a hand on your cheek. Yep, you were blushing alright.

“Ever the charmer, Munson. Ever the charmer…”

@salami2 , pls like & reblog

[allisonlol]

Can you do jouno’s s/o cruing because of rlly bad period cramps?:(

a/n: felt this rn :') writing this partially in hopes that it will make me feel better too! added tecchou as well if that's alright >.<

warnings: mentions of periods and descriptions of pain, afab reader

(Jouno, Tecchou) When Their S/O is Crying from Period Cramps

Jouno

he knows the instant you start your period from his heightened senses or whatever 🙄

definitely can smell it / hear it or some shit SHDHGS

sighs internally every time bc he already knows how the week is gonna go

dw he still very much cares about you, he just has this reaction because...well...this is jouno we're talking about

the good thing about him being able to sense when you're starting ur cycle is that he'll already have you prepared for when it begins

buys you snacks, painkillers, and pads in advance <3

besides for all that, there's not much he can do to actually make the pain go away :(

on this day in particular, the pain was so bad that you’d had to take the day off from work while jouno went in alone instead

you tried taking painkillers but they didn’t help too much

by the end of the day you were just so tired of it & couldn’t help but start crying in response

it just so happens that this was around the time jouno was arriving home from work as well

you try to quiet your cries when you hear him entering but it’s no use; he hears them the second he’s through the door

curse his superhuman senses…

hurries over to you immediately to see what’s wrong

jouno doesn’t panic, but concern is written all over his face as he crouches next to the bed and asks why ur crying

“it just- hurts too bad.” your voice is shaky as you wrap your arms around your abdomen almost as if in an attempt to stifle the sharp, jabbing pains

felt that

there’s silence on jouno’s end, and you watch as his concerned expression fades to a relieved one

"oh...you had me worried that it was actually something serious" he smiles

"this is serious, you asshole!!" you know he's only kidding but in your current state, it rubs you the wrong way

your boyfriend ruffles your hair and insists he’s “only teasing you” 

jouno’s not the best at comforting, but he gets to work right away on trying to make you feel better

tucks you into bed and brings you water, your heating pad, and various snacks

luckily he’d stopped at the convenience store on his way home to buy you some chocolate already...this is the most considerate you’ll ever see him act tbh

no matter how much you complain or whine, he’ll put up with all of it 

gets in bed with you so he can hold you and rub soothing circles on your skin

(believe it or not, this man will do practically anything you ask of him bc he’s that down bad lmao)

Tecchou

he’s a bit clueless to this kind of stuff so he usually won’t notice that you’ve started your period unless you outright tell him

or until you can’t pretend that the pain isn’t practically killing you :’)

usually you can manage the pain with medicine, but today it was just too intense

this morning, the first thing you felt when you woke up was the sharp stabbing pains in your abdomen

sitting up, you take shaky breaths while squeezing your eyes shut and hoping it subsides

it doesn’t, and only gets worse

your day was already off to a horrible start, and that realization paired with your tiredness just caused you to break down crying

plus your hormones were all over the place

tecchou, who was already awake, walks back into the room so he can start getting ready for work 

the second he sees you upset, he’s running over to the side of the bed 

grabs one of your hands and worriedly asks what’s wrong

you inform him of the situation and it takes him a second to process what he should do to help lol

but after that point? he’s taking SUCH good care of you

one of the best boyfriends in the world to have right here, y’all. he’s taking the day off of work (fukuchi will be pissed but oh well) just so he can watch over you 

helps you up and insists on carrying you to the bathroom and down the stairs etc

makes you your favorite breakfast foods 🥺

^contrary to popular belief, tecchou is hella good at cooking when he’s not busy making his weird food combos

another one who will run to the store and buy you anything you might need

this man isn’t afraid of going in the feminine hygiene aisles...if people stare at him for it he’ll stare right back 😤

also offers to massage your abdomen/lower stomach to help ease the pain

you’d be a fool to turn this offer down 😳 his hands are always really cold which feels so nice against your heated skin